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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months ago

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I know those eyes.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #wen qing #wen ning #Sibling similarity but you only see it when you realize they have the same soggy eyes.#These two always struck me as a bit of a play on Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli for 'siblings who contrast each other.#But after spending a lot more time marinating on Wen Ning I actually think they are way more similar that is initially apparent.#Sure their surface level personality traits are pretty contrastive. But they both are so willing to risk their lives for what's right #Who raised them? In a story so full of examples of how parents shape their children - why are these two lacking in parents?#I imagine that Wen Qing is the older sibling and so her morals of 'help those who need it no matter who they are' got passed a long.#But how did *she* arrive there? Was that instilled within her or was it a reaction against bearing witness to callousness and cruelty?#We'll never know..the only thing I can say for certain is Wen Qing is *so* soggy in the audio drama.#She's like the ant with the bindle. It's a hell of a way to bring a previously sharp tongued character back into the narritive.#Side note: Thank you all for being so patient and kind while I took my break!#It's been a very chaotic few weeks and I didn't realize how bad my burnout was getting. I'm back and ready to keep drawing again!

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cruelplatonic · 7 months ago

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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.

#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me #vees #it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives #they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty #because they never want to be those people again #narratives about people who make each other worse <3 #to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc #but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves #of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies #like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him #it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires #vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then #90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory #he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago #val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him #velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults #the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again #the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course

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umblrspectrum · 3 days ago

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still thinking about it so heres a bunch of stuff

#like everything's colors are placeholders i never learned color theory #like i know “use colors next to eachother or directly opposite on the color wheel” but like #the way everyone describes it makes me feel like theres more to it #and im just too stupid to comprehend it #still like lineless/whatever the rw artstyle is #gradient tool my beloved. i need to mess with it more often #alice n beau live in jcjs superstructure cause its filled with free food (his brain) and a bunch of things to experiment with (his organs)#ive attempted to redesign abs like twelve different times now #i wonder how long this attempt will last before i hate it again #always caught between wanting to stylize to hell and back and wanting to be accurate to the source material #abs is supposed to be like a Really Really Early iterator #so she doesnt have tone modulation or the ability to express much facially and barely looks humanoid under the cloak #which i didnt draw because i couldnt settle on a Look for it #and in her single minded focus to annihilate jcj shes been neglecting herself to explain the motor function errors and also her can explodi #g #oh right normal tags #art #murder drones #rain world #i should invent a tag for this but i dunno what to call it #id love to gossip about all the stuff ive thought up for this au thing but 1. nobody cares 2. i cant talk for that long and 3.#i havent written like half of it down #if i had the confidence to even attempt writing i'd totally do an ao3 fic about this #hi living shifting oil guy/girl/thing i know you're gonna be like the only person to read this far #oh uhh #body horror #tw body horror #i think thats how you do it #probably should've added those first. oops

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cecoeur · 8 days ago

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I should've taken more photos | Singapore 2024

#daniel ricciardo #dr3 #i'm sure someone on tiktok has already done this but i'm staying far the hell away from those #and this is where i put all my daniel ricciardo brain rot and sadness so it's just going to have to live here #obviously i've been thinking a lot about daniel and this song like all the dirlies #but i was in my car listening today and i thought about how he should've gotten to take more photos of his last race #that he didn't pull out his camera until the last minute just in case this was it just so he'd have *something*#and so he didn't get to take photos of all the moments he may have wanted to or of people he may have wanted to #didn't get to take photos with his family #doesn't get to have those memories. didn't get to document each and every moment.#but then thought about the photos that he did take (or blake took) and that he chose to share #that these small moments were important to him and he wanted to remember them #and celebrate the people and the time and the importance of them regardless of how average they seem #he didn't get to capture more memories of that last race in photos #but he got these moments and he knew appreciated them for what they were and what they meant in a 13 year career #it's almost fitting in a weird way that he didn't get a bunch of flashy happy professional photos of his last race #but instead got the kind of photos where you can viscerally feel the love these people had for him and that he had for them in return #these photos remain incredibly hurtful and beautiful in their simplicity

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blue-lollipops-and-ice-clouds · 4 months ago

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#sleep token #iv sleep token #nah dude you can't just do this nahhhhh #i have had the absolute worst week physically been fucked to the heavens and smeared across hell #and he just with the and the and ヽ(*´＾｀)ﾉ #he would taste of sprite jello #returned to us at last king #ii is once again in his peripheral #whoever does their paint is a god like #those are eyes staring at us through the void #wow #now live rendition sir mister the fourth

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constantvariations · 4 months ago

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I get why people say Wyll/Karlach is enemies-to-lovers but it's missing too many of its signatures for me to agree

By nature, E-t-L's are slow burn. A good chunk of the story waits for one party to discover they're on the wrong side/both parties to realize they have more in common with each other than their factions, then a whole other chunk is dedicated to them learning how to trust each other. The higher the stakes in the story, the slower the burn

Yet everything between Wyll and Karlach is revealed and resolved in a single conversation. There are no lasting consequences of that initial animosity. Both are too good to hold grudges and all the fault lies firmly in hands not their own. Karlach trusts Wyll instantly and he her. Their friendship is so immediate that it's easy to forget that we met Karlach with the intent to kill her

And then there's the source of their quarrel. Wyll was led to believe Karlach's a devil seeking destruction and Karlach was just trying to go home. The thing that sets them against each other isn't their own beliefs or loyalties or anything deep seated and personal, it's the chain of command, something they're both eager to be rid of by the time we meet them. While it gives them something in common, it leaves them with nothing to unpack or overcome together

Compare that to the king of E-t-L's, Zutara of Avatar the Last Airbender. Zuko spent most of the show's runtime trying to capture the Avatar to guarantee the Fire Nation's total conquest, something Katara wants to prevent at all costs. When the two are stuck together by happenstance, they lash out at each other only to bond over their lost mothers. Then Zuko betrays her, something Katara does not forget and does not forgive until he proves himself much, much later. Afterwards, they support each other, watch over the others together, and make a damn good team against Azula. Perfect, should have been canon, fuck Bryke

Honestly, I think Wyllach is just Faerûn's version of a meet-cute

#baldur's gate 3 #yodeling into the void #karlach cliffgate #wyll ravengard #ive always found it difficult to justify killing karlach once you learn abt her backstory #outside of being an apathetic murderhobo what reason is there to kill someone trying to flee a war they never wanted to join?#i think some elements could have been salvaged if karlach had genuinely been a fiend #perhaps another cambion to contrast mizora and raphael #or maybe an alu-fiend for variety?#hells even a straight up succubus to really make the player wonder if she's going to be a threat if allowed to live #adds to the whole monsters in the making bit going on #her backstory and abilities would have to be altered but i dont think her personality would need to change at all #itd be neat to see a devil that isnt a business major #and i really like that one rewrite post where Wyll's relationship w Mizora is less antagonistic bc she's yknow.#actually being manipulative in her affection rather than whatever the fuck she's doing in canon #and the reason wyll is so susceptible to it is bc he believes so strongly in the good in everyone. even devils #and karlach being a devil whilst also a genuinely good person would open his eye to the fact that Mizora is Not Good #especially not good for him #i like wyllach but it doesn't intrigue me quite like wyllstarion or wyllzel #those two ships have that zing of 'by all accounts i should kill you for being a threat to innocents yet i cant help but fall for you'#fiend!karlach would fit right into that particular lovely niche #ngl the more i think abt it the more i want fiend!karlach #toss in werewolf!shadowheart and you'll have an entire party consisting of nightmare fuel and gale #make him be like sole human freddie in the eldritch scooby gang lmaoooo

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screechingfromthevoid · 22 hours ago

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Something that I want to explore, probably in the trips go to the moon, is the fact that ludinus destroyed Orym's life. And Orym's family's life. This is the man who took the two (not including Alma) most important people in the world to Orym. Orym has thought about his husband and fathers killer every day for the past six/seven years.

And Ludinus didn't even know their names.

#maxsaystowrite #orym of the air ashari #everyone has someone who loves them #and “bells hells is a party full of npcs” is never truer than the monent orym kill ludinus #collateral damage turned into the sword that killed him #and the fact that is wasnt ever about keyleth somehow makes it all worse.#i screamed when vax got marbled. i screamed “she was just bait”#and it worked #but theres something about all those lives destroyed in zephrah. and it wasnt even about keyleth. if the champion didnt love her.#zephrah would have been safe. derrig would have been safe. orym would still have will.#idk. i think about it alot #anyway. im going to try to shove a line akin to #“we could obsesse over him. spend the rest of our days planning his downfall. and he still wouldnt know our names”#or just “we spend so much energy on him. hating him. he doesnt think about us”#ya know what i mean?#maybe nel will say it #i dont care about the man who ruined my life. And he doesnt care about me. i will not waste the time i have left with the people i have left #idk. been buzzin in my head for a while

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askfallenroyalty · 2 years ago

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Not that I needed a NEW project to work on but... Here's my Underfell take. Let's see where this goes.

#look I'm burnt out on Angel's and I need a small break from FR as I rear up for the side story game. i made the main assets for it and the #story is mostly planned out and ready to be written #i want to do some concept stuff and i only have one life to live and I'm going to do what makes me happy!!!!#underfell #undertale #also i'm being vauge to what kinda game this will be. might be just a visual novel like New Royals! Maybe its a playable game!#we'll find out someday. rn i'm just getting the core concepts down #i actually have been thinking about this for a while but something clicked in my head and now I'm determined to make this thing #so ike. backstory time. i worked on a big project with a friend but that project had history unrelated to me #that it was best for that project to be cancelled and I'm glad it did #BUT i did a lot of cool writing for that AU and I want to use those ideas #so i realized itd be cool as hell to make it a part of my underfell take

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beeduoo · 9 months ago

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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

#origins smp #i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo #otubbo #oranboo #beeduo fanart #i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY #DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM #IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h #ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its #been wayyyyyyy too long #BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise #bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop #yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really #wanted to share ok i love you bge #WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED #RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like #water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT #ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I #VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB #OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be #Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON #SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub #lic had to say.... ok Now bye

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edwinisms · 6 months ago

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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.

they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.

teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.