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thewulf · 11 months ago

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I Want To || Darrel "Darry" Curtis

Summary: Request - Can you do a Darry Curtis x Female Reader where she's pony's bestfriend bc they live in houses really close (greasers and all). She's always had eyes for Darry and he her but bc she was so much younger... Read Rest Here

A/N: For the sake of the story I made reader the same age as Soda (16 going on 17) BUT still Pony’s best friend because Soda is also Pony’s bestie. They’re all a buncha besties (including Johnny!!). Reader is v soft lol. Thank you for the request as always! Hope you like it :)

Pairing: Darrel "Darry" Curtis x Female Reader

Word Count: 3.7k +

TW: crying, shaking, panic attacks, angsty

Shivers racked down your spine as you realized the Soc boys were actually following you. You’d had a sneaking suspicion they were following you after your friends peeled away to their respective houses on their walks home. But you’d all but confirmed it when you purposefully took the wrong street to see if they were in fact following you. They were.

Peaking over your shoulder you shuddered seeing the Soc boys car creeping along behind you. They wouldn’t jump a girl would they? You didn’t think they would, but then again, ever since Pony up and disappeared not too long ago leaving one of them dead, Bob Sheldon, things had changed. They stopped playing by the unwritten rules between groups after Johnny apparently stabbed him, killing him.

Where was Dallas when you needed him to walk you home? It truly was the first time you had been alone since Ponyboy, and Johnny vanished four days ago. Soda made sure to walk you to school. Dally or Two-Bit picked you up. They weren’t taking an eye off you, no. Not after the comments Steve and Soda heard at the gas station from other random kids about the Soc’s revenge. Randy had a plan, and you were a part of it.

You continued walking trying your best to come up with a strategy. It was the damn blue mustang which meant you really had to figure this one out. Randy was following you. Bob was Randy’s best friend and if he was as crazy as you thought he was he might just try and kill you in retaliation for his own friends death. You wouldn’t put it past the man who thought he was above all else.

Without so much as a second thought you booked it across lawns, making sure to take every way but the road hoping to lose the creeping Soc’s. You didn’t have time for tears now, no. You had to get to the Curtis household. One of them would be home. If not one of them then surely Dally, Two-Bit or Steve was there. Somebody had to be there. It was home away from home, there was always a random boy there.

Fortunately for you, you knew the area a little bit better than Randy and whatever fool was in his passenger seat did. You full out sprinted towards the Curtis residence when you finally made it their street. You flew past your house knowing nobody was home to make sure they wouldn’t actually kill you.

You heard the tire screech of the blue mustang gun it as you made it towards the unassuming house just a few roads down from yours. You flew through the front door gasping for breaths before slamming the front door closed, locking everything you could in your field of vision.

“Darry! Soda!” You called out between heaving breaths and throwing your backpack on the ground in front of the door like it’d stop them if they came barging through. They wouldn’t though. They knew better than to fuck with the Curtis household. Darrel was a lot of things, but he’d never take getting attacked in his own home.

“Jesus Christ kid. You about knocked the damn door off it’s hinges!” Darry’s booming voice bellowed from the kitchen before he saw your shaking frame hiding away from the front door. He stepped closer before much more calmly asking, “Hey, what’s the matter Bubs?” It was rare for him to call you that let alone with that caring voice. It’s like he knew how frustratingly attractive you found him. But no, nothing could happen. You were his kid brothers best friend. Off limits or some stupid shit like that.

You just pointed towards the door shaking your head, “Randy.” He caught just how shaky you were. You must’ve been terrified he’d concluded. He wished Soda was home so he could comfort you. He prayed for Pony’s return, but he just knew it’d be a while before he saw that kid once again. But he knew. He knew Ponyboy would come home. He couldn’t leave his brothers. He couldn’t leave you.

He looked towards the front lawn through the windows before turning back to you and grumbling a quick, “Stay here.” He was out the front door faster than you could protest. You paced back and forth through the living room into the kitchen and back. You were nervous. Nervous for him. Nervous for Pony and Johnny. Nervous about it all.

He walked back through the door before shutting it, “They’re gone kid.”

You frowned at the nickname. It was like he was mocking you. You knew it was exactly right having a big old crush on your friends older brother. Your own friend. The man who grew up faster than he wanted too to help Soda, Ponyboy and you have somewhat of a normal childhood. The man you had admired for a long, long time. The woman he chose to marry would be one hell of a lucky lady you had concluded. The man loved harder than anybody you had known. He cared so deeply for those around him. He pushed people hard because he knew he could get the best out of them. He wanted more for you guys than he ever had a chance at. His life was decided for him fairly quickly once his parents had passed. He wouldn’t have changed it other than them staying alive.

You placed your hands behind your back to hide their shakiness, “Thanks for checking Darry.”

“You ‘lright?” He walked towards you giving you a once

“I’m fine.” You hummed looking at the ground instead of him.

“You’re shaking bubs.” He noticed. Because he always did. He noticed everything. There was nothing you could realistically hide from him.

You straightened under his gaze, “Adrenaline or whatever. I’m still trying to catch my breath. You know I don’t run by choice Darry.”

His eyes scoured over your body once more before smiling at you poking fun at yourself, “Alright. If you say so. Why were you walking home alone anyway? You heard Soda and Steve. It’s dangerous.” His tone tightened up after he knew you were okay. That was one of the things you had grown to adore about the man.

You smiled knowing that was much more like him, snapping at you for being so thoughtless, “I waited! Nobody showed up.” You tried defending yourself, but you should’ve known Darry wasn’t going to lose this argument.

“You could’ve called. I would’ve gotten you.” His eyes burned into yours as you had to look up to meet his stare. You certainly didn’t feel like his kid brothers best friend in that moment. You felt seen. So seen by the man you held so dearly in your heart. How were you supposed to go on dates with other greasers when they were such knuckleheads compared to the man you had grown to love and adore? It was pointless and a big waste of your time.

“I thought you were at work. Can you blame me? You’re always there.”

He rolled his eyes, “Soda would’ve came.”

“He’s working Darry!” You countered with amusement in your voice.

But he wasn’t amused. Not by your terrified glance towards the door. Not by the shaking that still had yet to subside. But he cooled it knowing the reason he lost Pony was because he blew up at him. He couldn’t do that to you too, “Look, kid. I promise I’m not yelling at you. I just need you to be careful. Randy’s out there looking for revenge. And I really can’t stand the thought of him putting a hand on you. So please, for our sake just be more careful. I can’t protect Pony right now, but I can you. Let me.”

You nodded up at him, “I can do that.”

His eyes looked from yours back down to your trembling frame, “You’re still shaking bubs.”

With the look that he was giving you it felt like you were going to confess all your feelings right then and there. Thank goodness you didn’t. Even though you had a sneaking suspicion he knew exactly how you felt about him.

“I can’t stop.” You admitted knowing a lie would be too obvious at this point.

He walked over and grabbed a blanket from the couch, “Come here

You shook your head, “You don’t have to Dar. This is enough.”

He ignored you, instead ducking into the kitchen, “I want to. Coffee or tea?” He asked you once more.

“Tea would be great.” You answered him knowing he was going to make one or the other if you didn’t answer. It was his style, his love language. He wanted to take care of those he loved and you fell right into it.

“A little milk and sugar. Just how you like it.” He smiled setting the mug down in front of you on the coffee table.

You looked at the tea, then to him and then back to the tea with a flush coating your cheeks. You sure weren’t doing a good job hiding those feelings, “Thanks Darry.”

He took a seat on the couch next to you, “You got it, bubs.”

You grinned looking over to him, “Haven’t heard you call me that in years.”

He huffed looking away from you, “It fits.”

“I’ll take it.” You grabbed for the tea letting it warm your hands before taking a sip, “It’s better than being called kid.”

He looked over to you, “You are just a kid.”

“I’m almost seventeen, Darry. Momma’s already talking about sending me off to college.” You laughed at the ridiculous thought, “Like we have the money for that. I’m sure I’ll end up at the grocery store or gas station.”

He shook his head so fast you would’ve missed it if you weren’t already looking at him, “You’re meant for so much more. I’ll tell you what, since you’re almost seventeen or whatever I’ll stop calling you kid if you let me call you bubs.”

You smiled at the sweet sentiment, “I don’t think so Darry. I think I’m right where I’m meant to be. You know, not everybody wants to run away from this life. I wish I could take this burden from you Darry. But I can’t. I’m also not going to pretend I hate this life because I don’t. And I’ll take it. Bubs it is.”

He looked down feeling it all hit him at once, “You ain’t a burden. None of you are. I just want you guys to have a choice. I didn’t.”

You took a long pause not sure if you wanted to say it. But there was a reason Ponyboy had run away with Johnny. Maybe he needed to know, “Sometimes it feels like it.”

You heard him suck in a breath surely not expecting this conversation to go on between the two of you tonight, “’m sorry bubs. So sorry.”

“It’s okay.” You wanted him to look at you. He was so freaking handsome and God all you wanted him to do was look right at you. You wanted to reassure him. He was a good older brother. He was doing the right things even if he couldn’t properly express them to his kid brothers. He loved and he cared even if they couldn’t see it. You knew he felt like he was failing but he wasn’t. Ponyboy was just learning and growing.

He shook his head, “I don’t think you ever get mad.”

You laughed this time, “I get mad at Pony and Soda all the time. I just don’t get mad at you.” You shrugged setting down the tea knowing you had opened the conversation wide open now.

He gave you a curious glance as he studied your still trembling hands. You were doing a good job at hiding it, but he noticed, “Is that so?”

You grinned, “I guess it’s your old wiseness. How could I get mad at that?”

“Hey smartass. You want dinner?”

You laughed feeling like the weight had finally been lifted off your shoulders, “There’s the Darry I know.”

He scooted closer to you sensing something was off with you. It wasn’t like him to press but something told him he needed to, “I’m going to ask you one more time. Are you alright?” It wasn’t lost on you that he was looking at your fidgety form under the oversized blanket that framed you. How could you lie to him?

“I’m scared Darry.” Your voice wavered as you tried your hardest to keep the welling tears unshed, “I’m scared for Ponyboy. For Johnny. I’m so scared they’ll never make it home.” And the thought of it made you spill those tears right in front of his oldest brother. You thanked whatever lucky stars you had that Sodapop wasn’t home. You could only take this humiliation in front of one brother.

Without so much of a second thought he pulled you right into his arms. Which meant you were sitting right in his lap. He pushed your head down into the crook oh his neck while he let his hands run up and down your back. He felt your cries before he heard you. You were fighting with all your might not to break down in front of him but his softness towards you was making it all the harder.

“Shh, It’ll be alright sweet girl.” You felt him give you a gentle squeeze, pulling you closer into his chest before he continued, “You really think Ponyboy won’t come home to us? To you? That kid is so lost without you. He’ll be back. I can’t promise you much, but I can promise you that.” He rocked you back and forth in his arms in complete silence. The only sound coming from you muffled cries. He held you longer than he needed. You’d stopped crying into his chest nearly five minutes ago, but he simply held you. One hand around your back and one hand cradling your head. It was exactly what you needed. Dally always knew.

“It’s okay. You’re okay. You’ll be okay.” He whispered as he held you. You fisted at the denim shirt he had on grounding yourself into him.

You pulled back looking over his concerned face. Why him? Why did you have to fall in love with the one person who would never love you like you loved him back? You took a shaky breath, “Thank you Darrel. I couldn’t do this without you.”

He brushed the stray tears away from your face, “Can I tell you something? Between me and you?”

You nodded quickly feeling the shivers run up and down your body from his hand running up and down your back as if was second nature. You were wear for Darry Curtis and everybody knew it. He had to know, had to, “You can tell me anything Darry.”

He leaned down to whisper in your ear, “I think you’re the prettiest girl I’ve ever met. Inside and out.”

Your eyes shot to his with a wide expression, “Say you’re serious Darry.” You couldn’t believe him. In all your years of pining. Of making it rather of how you felt about him. You never even caught a hint that he could feel the same for you. This was new and so wonderfully different than the Darry you knew. Was a major breakdown all you needed to break down his walls?

“’m so serious, bubs. When am I not?” He smirked knowing he had you beat there. He was the most serious guy you knew. Everyone knew it. Don’t mess with Darry Curtis.

“You got me there Mr. Curtis.” A laugh escaped you as you burrowed your head into his neck once more, “Can I tell you something Darry?”

He smiled looking down at you curled into his body. You were too cute clinging to him. He didn’t want to admit how many times he’d imagined something of the sort. How could he think of you like that? He knew you since you were six. You moved in down the street and were fast friends with Soda and toddler Pony. Pony was attached at your hip and the rest was history. You might’ve been two years older than him, but you treated him like your equal. He loved that about you.

“You can tell me anything pretty girl.” His smirk only grew as he felt you grinning into his chest. Darry had always adored the spit fire of a girl. You were a born greaser, through and through. You had a mouth, but you had hands to back it up. Darry or Soda had to step in on your behalf many times because the Soc’s refused to fight a girl. You’d been roughed up a few times to ‘put you back into your place’ but it never worked. Your mouth only got bigger. You’d become a staple in their life so seamlessly that Darry couldn’t imagine his without you in it. He didn’t know when he started to like you, nor did he know when he fell in love with you. But he knew it. By the way he wanted to comfort you. The way he craved to see you smile. How he wanted to rip Randy’s head right off when he saw your face of terror. He loved you. And he was tired of hiding it for his kid brothers sake. Like you said, you weren’t a kid anymore. They could handle it.

“You’re the most handsome man I’ve ever laid my eyes on.” It came out with less confidence than you would’ve liked but it was out, nonetheless.

He gave you a squeeze, “Can I tell you one more thing?”

“You can” You nodded your head on his chest. Your heart rate rising at what he could possibly tell you.

“I love you.” He let out a sigh, “Yeah, I love you a whole lot.”

You pulled away from him for a moment. Shock taking over, “You do?”

“I do.” He answered back quickly trying to hinder any doubts you might’ve had.

“That’s great.” You smiled up him. Your eyes ran over his features as you really looked at him up close without any interruption. He was so handsome, so freaking pretty. It was unreal. Your finger ran over a curl that had made its way over his eye. You brushed it away so you could look into his light blue ones.

“Is it?” He smiled as he too looked right back into your eyes, relishing in the small touches you had given him. He shivered slightly at your touch as goosebumps ran down his back. Oh, he was a sure sucker for you.

You hummed while continuing to brush your hands thought his hair. He’d just showered, fresh from any of the greasy gel he’d yet to put in it. Your hand glided seamlessly over the semi-damp curls that framed his face so beautifully, “It is. Wanna know why?”

“Tell me.” He played along with you. Darry rarely had patience, but you seemed to be the exception. You seemed to calm him instead of aggravating him. You pushed his buttons in the right way. He knew a girl like you would never come around again in his lifetime. If he didn’t go for you he’d have to settle for somebody and wonder what his life could have become if he didn’t take the leap with you. He wasn’t going to let that happen though. No, he was taking his chance.

“Because I love you too.”

The words were something Darry Curtis wish he could have recorded to play back. You had loved him too. He was sure those lingering glances and longing stares hadn’t meant nothing.

He smiled, more than elated by your admission, “Let me take you out on a proper date then. Friday for dinner. What do you say sweet girl?”

You grinned at the newest nickname. How you’d gone from kid to bubs to sweet girl within a day should’ve given you whiplash. But you were more than happy for the change. It might’ve seemed oh so sudden to everyone around you, but it had been years in the making between the two of you. Pony never noticed a thing. Soda noticed everything. Darry ignored it for a while, until he couldn’t ignore it any longer.

“Sounds like a plan.” You brushed your hand along his cheek just wanting to touch him. You couldn’t help the smile that overcame you after seeing the trail of goosebumps your fingers left, “I’m not telling Soda though. That’s up to you.” You stuck your tongue out knowing you left him with the worst part of the whole ordeal.

“If that’s what it takes then I’ll happily tell that little grease head. And Pony too when he makes his way back. Serves him right for cutting out on us like that.” His smile grew as he saw your face light up in joy at his words. He was all in. He was fine telling them. He wanted them to know. He wanted people to know you were his. Certain assholes named Randy would back off. He could properly protect you without it being too overbearing. His heart nearly burst out of his chest when he saw your terror-stricken face not only an hour prior. He nearly broke down as you were sobbing into him, clinging to his shirt with your life. He knew it was now or never with you and he wanted to commit. He wanted you. He always had and now was the time to take.

You laughed at him making light of a situation that was already so hard for him. He was so strong for everyone. Especially for you, “It’s a date then.”

A sigh of relief left his throat as he pulled you in for another long hug, “Finally. I’m going to take you out to the nicest dinner.”

You shook your head, “You don’t have to do that.”

He chucked loving that you hadn’t moved from his lap. He could seriously get used to this. It wasn’t often he got alone time around here, let alone with just you. He needed to cherish this time with you knowing it came around few and far in between.

“Like I said,” He brushed a stray hair away from your face as you looked his over, “I want to. For you, I want to do anything and everything.”

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hotmessmaxpress · 8 months ago

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I’m back on my a/b/o au shit because I’m awake and can’t fall back asleep, and instead I’m thinking about marc and vale after they finally fixed their broken bond and marc’s arm healed as much as it could.

They’re both good now, and the pack has adjusted to having him around, and bezz has warmed up to him finally and they’re becoming besties.

And then vale has to miss a few race weekends (maybe it’s a double header and he can’t come to either weekend) for whatever reason and marc is like ‘oh no big deal I’ll have a reason to hang around and bother alex now!” and he does!

But then his arm is hurting and he’s not sure why. His wrist is tight and stiff when he flexes it and if he raises it above his shoulder the muscles cramp and sting. Alex notices because he’s a good baby brother and offers to take a look and that’s when he sees the veins of his neck that are just a little bit black. And it’s clear to him that marc just isn’t ready to be away from vale for that long, and that the old infection is flaring up.

So alex tries to bully marc into reaching out to his pack— and he knows they’re his pack, and he’s mated to their alpha, but sometimes he still feels like an outsider so asking for their help is HARD.

So in typical stubborn marc fashion he just tries locking himself in his motorhome and putting on one of vale’s sweatshirts. He thinks maybe having the scent of his mate will fool his sad omega biology.

It ✨doesn’t✨ and soon the pain is bad enough that he can’t sleep and he’s worried about his ability to race so he finally knocks on the door to the pack trailer where he knows they nest on race weekends and waits patiently, twisting his fingers together and trying to ignore the pain stabbing at his shoulder. And bezz opens the door curiously, wondering who the fuck thinks they get to come into their pack space, and when he sees marc his face softens and he grins.

“Marc you don’t need to knock,” he admonishes. “You’re pack.”

And that’s enough to make marc burst into tears because his arm just hurts so much and he misses vale like he’s never missed anything and isn’t it just pathetic that he’s one of the most famous omegas in motorsport and yet he can’t spend two weeks away from his mate?

And bezz is like “um, please come nest with me because I’m worried about you.”

So marc joins bezz in his nest which is less pristine than marc likes to make his own, but is still so comfortable and warm that he can’t help but relax against the younger rider. He pretends not to notice bezz texting the others, and lets bezz pretend it’s coincidence that celestino comes racing into the pack room, out of breath, and fits himself carefully around marc’s body. And marc takes a shuddering breath, still a little afraid of trusting this pack and getting his heart broken. But cele and bezz are such a warm sandwich around him that marc falls asleep before he has time to be anxious.

When he wakes up cele his been replaced by luca, who is gently massaging his arm with careful but firm hands like a physiotherapist. And the pain is nearly gone.

He gets a little misty-eyed and thanks them for making him feel better and pecco coos a little patronizingly. Bezz is the one who affirms to marc that he’s part of their pack and they love him and want him to be happy.

#rosquez a/b/o au #marc marquez #mm93 #vr46 #mb72 #cv13 #lm10 #pb63

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phyrestartr · 7 months ago

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Hey bestie it’s me again back on my thot shit with some of that Toji brainrot🫠😵‍💫 Hope your day is/was good! -🎪

HEY BESTIE!! MY DAYS HAVE BEEN QUITE ALRIGHT, NOT TOO MUCH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT!! BUT UH PST PST PST C'MERE LEMME TOSS U A SNACK REAL QUICK--

You met him at a bar. At a strip club's bar. You, a bartender. Him, a patron.

You didn't think much on it; men came here to escape under the florescent lights every night. For whatever reason, the natural stare of the moon made them run and hide, like night creatures escaping their true forms. Society wouldn't accept the wolves that walked amongst men. They needed to come here to build up their facades once again.

So, why did you notice him amongst the other men peppering the establishment?

It was when a dark, little impish thing skittered across the bar top, groaning and moaning something too vulgar and grotesque for you to ever repeat. The thing had launched for your hand and you pulled away, trying to hide your panic from any prying eyes–you'd dealt with weird, greasy creatures like this before, but they hardly ever touched you. They normally just muttered obscenities and hovered around you like a handful of other, human freaks you'd grown accustomed to.

This one was persistent. It slugged across the counter after the first rejection, and it wailed. You took a step back as it got louder and louder–but no one else heard it. It was always just you. Why was it always–

Thwack.

A knife, an odd one with a cruel shape, speared through the jibbering thing's middle, and it melted into nothingness.

You stared at the weapon for a long, long moment, and wondered how the fuck this random guy had just stabbed into stone like it was wood.

“Oi, bartender,” a voice droned, lazy and unusual. “I need a drink.”

You blinked away your shock and cleared your throat. “I–yeah, sure. What do you–”

“Whatever you're willing to give me on the house,” he said with a smile. You weren't sure if it was meant to intimidate you, but it came off as just…amused, maybe. Teasing.

“On the house? Sir–”

“Huh? You think I did this for free?”

BFBWEOFHJAWEFJWAEOJFIWAIOJFIOHWAIHEFWHEFOI JUST A LITTLE WIP RAAAAH IT'S UNEDITED SO FORGIVE ME FOR ANY WEIRDGE SHITE!!! HAVE A GOOD REST OF YO' WEEK BESTIE

#ask #toji x reader

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ivoryratdoggerythethird · 8 months ago

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spoiler for bsd ch-114.5

so little predictions? i guess? for up coming chapters; really just random musings more than actual theories

so since nikolai is nowhere to be seen and skk have both taken their eyes off sigma for a while now, coupled with the fact that sigma Knows Too Much and is currently incapacitated and also fyodor is clearly somehow still acting within his plans here

what if nikolai is taking the chance to pull a sky casino part 2: electric boogaloo and steal sigma again so the besties can get the band back together (except my baby bram; fuck you pretty boy rat bastard)

fyodor gets bait over dazai for technically letting sigma fall into his hands again after sigma firmly took his side, and this leads to guilt and drama because of course. maybe dazai's gotta sacrifice himself fr this time without any safety net or plan

(and maybe sigma helping defeat fyodor from the inside (again, kinda) can qualify as his ADA entrance exam bc it doesn't get a ton more heroic than stopping a global terrorist, but what do i know)

i can't explain it and this isn't even super likely to happen but if this scenario does i get the feeling chuuya would have to be involved in saving sigma, or have some kind of conflict or parrallel with nikolai - or maybe it's my mersault gang bias showing lmao.

(but how cool would it be if sigma joined the ADA and nikolai joined the PM, unlikely as it is. i think he's probably gonna become a solo wandering figure who occasionally pops into the story like fitzgerald in the future, but i digress)

maybe sigma tries to appeal to nikolai's will to kill fyodor but that's really conflicting for him now because he just experienced losing him and Did Not Like That

would also love if bram somehow had a classic regaining of control moment if fyodor tried to hurt aya. would it make sense? not really? is it cliche? kinda. would it make me sob tears of blood? highly likely.

maybe he even stabs himself/fyodor and that ends the loop or like. screws with the ability somehow. i'm getting super carried away here but whatever it's within the realm of possibilities, this is bsd, asagiri doesn't know what sanity means, anything can happen. like chapter 114.5 happened what other proof do we need that this is a lawless world

#my post #the sigma show #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #fyodor dostoevsky #nikolai gogol #bsd sigma #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd manga #theories and predictions #bram stoker #aya koda #bsd 114.5

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koolkat9 · 5 months ago

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22. What fic of yours deserves more love?

43. What appeals to you about the ships you like?

✏️Hetalia Fanfics Writers Ask Game✏️

22. Hmmm...I really liked Two Worlds Collide. One of my EngUkr fics. Though not one of my strongest fic, this scene alone makes it deserve more love I think:

Whatever was going on, without thinking, Arthur leaped out of his hiding place. He gave a slight bow. “Pardon my intrusion, Miss. But I, God of the Aleron Forest, have heard your prayers and I shall help you avoid this troublesome–”

Kateryna drew her sword without a second thought, eyes dark, stabbing it clean through Arthur’s stomach.

“Ack…Quick draw,” Arthur noted, impressed. He stared down at the sword impaling him. Nothing more than a paper cut to a being as powerful as him. “Quite the skilled warrior, how surprising. I-I mean…I just…You always seemed so kind. What’s that human saying? Wouldn’t hurt a…a fly? You seem like you wouldn’t hurt a fly but…”

Kateryna’s face paled, eyes wide. She stumbled back, shrieking.

“Hey, easy now…Oh right.” Arthur pulled the sword out, his wound healing over almost immediately. “That’s not normal for humans right?”

“You’re…You’re…” She choked out.

“God of the Aleron Forest. Yes, yes I led with that. Now about your–”

“Have you been listening this entire time?”

43. Okay let's see how many I'm going to be able to put without being too long.

GerEng - Two lonely stubborn men finding comfort in each other. Falling in love through sharing music during I think it was the 60s? It at least started then. Anyway. Though their stubborness and tempers can cause conflict I think their stubborness is what makes them work in the end. Both hate being vulnerable, so they need someone stubborn to stay, push back and rip those barriers down. Plus, I think Arthur has a tendency to push people away especially if he loves the person, so having a stubborn lover provides a needed push back to snap him out of these self-sabotaging habits.

NedCan - The history is what really drives this ship for me. Canadians played a huge role in liberating the Netherlands during WW2. Canada also housed a lot of monarchies during WW2, the Dutch Royal family being one of them. Princess Juliana was expecting a baby and ended up having to give birth in Canada, the Canadian government declared the maternity ward "extraterritorial" so the baby would only have Dutch citzenship and thus be the next heir of the throne if they were born a boy. These two actions by Canada has led to a tradition of Netherlands sending tulips to Canada each year. In the Hetalia contexts what could be more gayer yet still accurate to irl?

CuCan - They just have such a cute Bromance in the manga. I really wish we'd get some new strips with them. Also this. I like them both as besties and boyfriends:

EngUkr - I just think Arthur deserves a tall girlfriend (I tend to headcanon Ukraine as just under 6ft if not at the 6ft mark). Also Arthur is my favourite male character and Ukraine is my favourite female one.

GerCan - Enemies to lovers relationship everyone is sleeping on. German troops were TERRIFIED of Canadian troops during the world wars (specifically WWI). Canadian troops were brutal to say the least. I think Matthew had a burning hatred for the German bros during this time because they were a threat to his loved ones (Scot, Eng, Fran). He killed them at least once if not multiple times leaving scars on them. This becomes important because I like to think Matt vowed he wouldn't be like the empires who raised him, he wouldn't fall into bloodlust. Yet he did. He didn't want to be like Francis and Arthur, at each other's throats one minute, kissing the next. Yet with Ludwig he did. And he derives a sick sense of pleasure and possessiveness when he sees those scars he left. Very angsty, but nowadays, despite their bloody beginning, quite wholesome. Also I just like the idea of them going camping together.

Canmano - Came to me in an rp. Just the "he asked for no pickles" meme. Angry small x calm tall.

#hetalia #ask game #hetalia ask game #hetalia asks #fanfiction ask game #fanfiction asks #gereng #geruk #nedcan #cucan #gercan #engukr #canmano

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aita-blorbos · 1 year ago

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AITA for avenging my brother?

hiiiii ^^ so im (30, let's say M for convenience's sake) am currently the leader of a very big sect, which was Not the plan WhatSoEVER (i'll get into it). i was born as the younger sibling to the sect heir, which meant i had free reign to basically do whatever i wanted while he got the responsibilities and stuff! great deal methinks. our father died when we were both still young due to heart issues that run in the family and also being killed. since my brother had a decade or so on me, he pretty much raised me from then on while also having the new role of official sect leader on his shoulders.

again, seems like a good deal! he was strict, and really really insisted i practiced my fighting skills (like that wasn't the literal cause of our family's heart issues) to the point that one time he like kind of burned my paper fan collection in front of me but that's like it's all besides the point okay he loved me and i loved him and we were both there for each other okay? okay

anyway he had this servant/best friend/pretty sure somethingsomething was going on there. he was kind of like a second big brother to me. our interests overlapped and he also preferred stuff like art and poetry over fighting. he understood me in a way that my brother couldn't, and he helped raise me just as much, even accompanying me to my third year of summer courses. which lol was supposed to be a one year course but i failed twice. lmao w/e

things got... bad. a war broke out, the servant betrayed us by letting a dangerous enemy out of his cell, and he and my brother had a horrible fight that ended in the former's expulsion from our sect. fast forward yadda yadda this isn't so much the part of the story it's just context but basically that turned out to be a plan to get close to the enemy sect leader so he could stab him in the back. which turned out to become a recurring theme.

the servant, now a prominent figure in his own sect, my brother, and one basically-a-celeb from another sect became this big trio (and totally a Thing) because of the role they played in ending the war. servant-now-big-boy (let's go with snbb for convenience) used that position to send my brother into a cardiac arrest by playing a melody that was supposed to soothe him differently.

so now i was alone, and with one of the current biggest sects to lead, while all i wanted to do is look cute, paint and be bisexual. you can probably imagine how i felt when i learned who did it, especially considering how not only no one else knew, but he got /rewarded/ for it by becoming a sect leader himself. soooo i got a little silly and here's where i mighttttt be tah :3

basically i started a 10+ years revenge plan. i didn't really plan a /lot/ of it, but i knew i'd have to resurrect one of my childhood friends for it to grab attention away from me etc and such and so on and so forth. but basically i also got a gay and socially rejected teenager killed for that, desecrated the corpse of snbb's mother, paid some people to spread rumours here and there, possibly killed a few cats to lure a group of people where i needed them to be, and adopted a public persona of a useless idiot who couldn't run a sect for the life of me to keep suspsicions off of me for the duration of this, which was Also a part to get back at him because that meant he, as someone responsible and sooo niceys and oh won't you please help your poor little meowmeow with the big scary emails plssss (he basically ran the sect for me lol).

to top it all off i had him killed by the one person that loved him the most (mister sir basically-a-celeb. god his jawline is stronger than my will to live) (he has gone into seclusion and is isolating himself indefinitely to mourn)

but also all this allowed my old bestie to get gay married with his longtime heartthrob

so. aita?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality #animal death

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highladyluck · 1 year ago

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Season 2, Episode 6 Liveblog

Elayne is getting a puzzle! :D this is such good enrichment for Elaynes

Rand’s secret little smile at ‘you can fight anyone’

“It needs to be healed” creepy but I kinda love it in a fucked up way

Not the pitcher :(

“That’s almost nice” WTF that’s so dehumanizing and so Seanchan

Well that’s almost entirely by the book

Compare/contrast these two chained up figures

Importance of chosen names

This is a much more effective mindfuck then whatever TGH Selene was attempting

Psssst Rand it’s bad when your new girlfriend separates you from your support network

Min you are harshing the vibe

“She broke the 3 oaths?” “Every single one” (Elayne took notes)

Names are a theme

I don’t think I want Lanfear doing me favors

��Many paths through the dark” I do appreciate leaning into the Lanbiguity

Suroth, if the Empress saw how you were toying with her Gardener she’d be very upset, those are Imperial property

Loial, have you considered: Stab them with the plant

We are about to have pitcher problems

The way the a’dam prevents a damane from using things they think of as weapons is a weird twisted echo of the 2nd oath. I’ve wondered if the Oaths would prevent Aes Sedai from making a’dam and I think it would depend on what the Aes Sedai termed a weapon that someone could kill another with.

Yeah this is pure book although the ‘you’re not a person’ line is an extra ouch

“Pour a glass of water” echoing horribly the water-cleaning from the tower

When you deal with the devil, that is actually how it works, I’m afraid

Temple of the Forsaken??? Y’all I need some fic set here. I need Dark Raves honoring Asmodean. I need therapy sessions that make you worse sponsored by the Acolytes of Graendal. I need Moghedonists whispering the sacred crypto wallet keys to each other.

Siuan is probs putting out diplomatic fires in Caemlyn now that they lost Elayne? Or attending Gawyn’s birthday party I guess

Oooh is it the trippy ~TGH dream sequence?

Lmao she calls him Ishy

“See the world as it really is in the World of Dreams” what a fascinating take

Do not ask about Egg!!! this is Lanfear she will make Egg into a flesh balloon for touching you

Smart Rand would be like ‘oh now I know you’re lying [about Egwene being Ishy’s]’ but Idk how smart he is

Oh this is heartbreaking she found the lost sister

Ooooooh are we going to see Bayle again so soon?

Nyneave like ‘I’ll allow it” but only because Elayne is saying what she would have

Elayne is getting a puzzle! :D this is such good enrichment for Elaynes

Awwww what a nice nosy boy who will repeat the contents of the letter

Watch she doesn’t stab you when you look away

Mommy issuessssss

I like the air knives

Because you want a legacy!

Ooooh lesson time. Everyone is barfing in this ep

Rand’s secret little smile at ‘you can fight anyone’

Oh god [MY BOYS!!!]

KISS!!! -ok moment’s gone

Mat and his lil grabby hand on Rand’s shoulder, my tactile boy

‘Some of the damane can sense people channeling’ guess we def changed the lore about how channelers sense each other, mildly annoyed about that, but it’s consistent within the show

That’s smart, trying to see the catch in the water like a mirror

Exercising power

Oooof that’s a new twist “I hope they told you at your White Tower how special you are”

Renna are you going to make her set it on fire??? The thing that comforts her? [post-ep I was thinking about the contrast in how the Seanchan command Loial and his tree powers- they are uncomfortable with it and have to ruin the moment. They don’t have the same power over him without tools.]

Well that was an uncomfortably sexually charged moment of excited panting [please tell me it wasn’t just me]

Proud of you, Egwene <3 Hah you made Renna mad good for you

Elayne: “I need a bestie real bad”

Mat gets it because Mat also has The Depression

RESCUE TIME

Min is like I am here to give you bad news, as is my fate

Mat’s good at bullshit detecting & does not handle betrayal well

This is very sweet but I feel like the subtext is “You will be eaten alive as king”

Pope hat

Oh my boys they are so sad

It’s time for… [Alanna and her posse corner Rand] OH SHIT IS IT HAPPENING?

I don’t think Nyneave does modulation

“It needs to be healed” creepy but I kinda love it in a fucked up way

Ooooof next time we see Ryma she’ll be with my Most Problematic Of Faves I guess 🫣😬☹️

This series loves to hang characters and if it can’t get Mat than anyone else will do

[Renna pours out the cup Egwene just filled] Oh fuuuuuuuck you Renna

You still won. You’re still alive

Our lost Blue Sitter coming in at the clutch

#wheel of time #wot book spoilers #wot on prime #wot on prime spoilers #wot on prime s2 #WoT on prime s2e6

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marvelmyriad · 1 year ago

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markiplier Resident Evil: Village quotes as ask memes - PART 2:

well that was a wasted bullet, sorry

that was probably a mistake, i don't care though, whatever

this is where my adhd is really going to come in handy

all right come here you bastards, i know how to block now

oh, get stabbed

you're gonna get a face full of stab if you keep that up

i'm gonna use that the shotgun

you think i can't kill you with a knife, i can. i'm probably going to have to

good thing he doesn't pull out his machete that would really be an advantage for him

unfortunately for him my arms are super sturdy

can i block with a gun? i can, okay. hey bud!

that's dope as hell, is there vodka in it?

i was in stealth mode, how dare you?

i want to save my gunpowder because i'm insane

maybe you should have locked it

you all right? you need a knife to plug up that wound?

if it's just the one of you i shall stab thee, if it's two i am going to run away

oh i didn't think there were so many of you

okay watch this, you want to see something sick? watch this watch this, watch this sickness

am i supposed to be able to shoot all these guys? because i'm about to run out of bullets

you're gonna pay for that one in dividends

well money has value depending on who you ask otherwise it might just be rocks

okay so i something tells me i'm probably not supposed to try to kill all these dudes

hold on i gotta get more bullets

well that's good for me and bad for you

oh well good thing i killed all those dudes because otherwise they would have absolutely murdered you both, but i'm a hero

why is there chem fluid in the bathroom?

seems like you actually know how to lock things

yeah, you get far in life like that

look, i'm doing all the work here, if you want to sit in the house

there's so much blood, oh god

oh, maybe step out of the way of the gun

okay cool, just wanted to type out my life story real quick

don't mind if i look at all your things do you? all right here i go, um ah, very interesting…

i wonder if this is all the places where there's like, secret stuff

who's talking to me?

you should put your faith in someone taller someone more uh, robust, powerful-powerful is really the word that we're all thinking of

whatever dude, you want to go outside?

uh okay sounds really convincing

that was a spell just to get the tea going

I have a gun, i ha- i have a gun, i have a gun, i got a gun

that voice sounded familiar

well uh you didn't do enough of the right thing

okay well that's fine this entire place is collapsing yeah, well, we'll be safe in here

no we're getting out of here together you and me, bestie, we're besties now, come on

yeah you know i gotta go, everything's on fire

but how about that cup of tea?

all right well i'm leaving and you can stay if you want i guess

what the hell do i do? am i stupid?

the answer is no, but also you guys probably got a wrong answer because you're stupid and said yes, so really who's this stupid one? might be you

let's move, come on bestie, we got this.

let's go and try not to breathe in the smoke

uh oh i shouldn't have said something like that because that guarantees death

yep here's the guaranteed death

well that seemed unnecessarily dramatic. if only you were nine feet tall, you could have reached me

i get that that one was very tragic but there was everything she could have done to prevent her doom

i feel like she would be screaming in agony from the fire burning

if only she knew about what a window was

good god i smacked my wound hand

i know i should feel like more remorseful but to be perfectly honest, that was a bit ridiculous

it's my fault for saying the magic words that gets people killed

oh hey, old bag of rats

all right man that was a toughie

nothing but blood and death

apparently i'm just i'm a badass

that wasn't cold at all, i'm fine

just taking a little soak, cleaning myself off, i want to be respectable and presentable

hey what's up? oh didn't think anyone was left, you must be pretty tough, huh?

you're not local, even better

oh i'm sorry, the metal spike in my chest is a little whine-inducing

i'm used to this, i run for my life like, a lot

oh wow this is just cruel

hey thanks for the money and the ammo

you didn't even take my gun, you amateur

do they not have cameras here? probably not, they only got an extremely intricate system of spinning blades why would they have cameras anyway?

extra baggage, okay, emotional or otherwise

shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up

all right, i got a dope ass gun

yeah, i'm sure that was nothing

oh, i'm just gonna let you do that apparently

how many horrific stab wounds have i sustained?

ow, that's my wound hand

this is not a sexual thing, it's about power right?

#rp memes #markiplier quotes #resident evil: village playthrough #rp meme quotes #markiplier quotes rp meme

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KAIRO KAIROKAIROOOOOOO!!!!!!!! WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT OUR OC'S PLEASEEE PLEASE TELL ME ABOUT YOURS!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA KNOW ALL ABT THEMM:333333333333 - @teddybeartoji

THIS IS MY FAVORITE ASK I HAVE EVER BEEN ASKED SO THANK YOU FOR MAKING HISTORY MICKEY <333 omfg okay i’m literally jumping w excitement let me tell you everything about my favorite bastards <333 i’ll say their names & jobs now and then i’ll go into detail :3

dmitri king (assassin), xavier rayne (assassin/home fatale, spy), icarus (thief), damien romanov (assassin/home fatale/spy + poison concocter), silas kane (hacker)

okay so they’re all in a group together and as you can see they’re all criminals, BUT, as atonement they somehow found themselves in a robin-hood esque group where they help those less fortunate/who’ve been hurt by other criminals/the rich and help them out w whatever they need! they’re a group of hilarious bastards i Love them :3

and then they all have dilfy dads and i WILL get into that as well <333 MORE INFO UNDER THE CUT :>

OKAY SO!!!!!

- dmitri is one of my first proper oc’s i ever created and she’s my utmost beloved <333 she has a scar on her left eye and her iris in that eye is a blood red color (because panache) and she also has a scar on her heart — i’ll explain these a little bit later! but she currently works as an assassin alongside her friends that she’s made in the business! she’s a bastard, witty, funny, & a bad bitch/chaotic dumbass and i Love her so much <3

she also owns a male strip club called “Eros” where her father used to work as a dancer — a beautiful man who’s a psychopathic evil dilf — he had her VERY young and he would use her almost in a kid-fighting ring & would take her along during hits where he’d seduce & kill his marks while she watched. he also tried killing her when she was a kid (stabbed her in the heart and kissed her, and then he left her in an open grave where she crawled out of) + years later she gains another “father figure” when she’s put into the system but he cuts her eye during a fight they have and she kills him and burns the house down while she laughs (insane breakdown but she’s a bit psychopathic so she doesn’t care anymore)

she grows up doing hit jobs and for lore i made her handler xavier’s father — he finds her all bloody and covered in soot because she’s crawling away from the burning home <333 and he gets her a job with an Assassin Guild where she ends up being the top assassin <3 she doesn’t care for the title, she just enjoys killing :3 as she grows older she becomes the owner of Eros and a protector of those who work there! (another assassin oversees the strip club when she’s not there, his name is adrian storm he’s very sexy & sexually sadistic :3 he’s tall & has tan skin + wavy purple hair in a half up-half down style and he carries a whip w him :3)

but omg yeah dmitri my bestie she’s very beloved to me :3 i love my badass assassin so much <333 there’s a lot of STORY behind her character but this is just a lil taste! she has a very Rough childhood but doesn’t pay it any mind honestly! except one day during a heist at a fancy party she ends up seeing her dad… chaos ensues…

- xavier rayne is so beautiful to me he was my first male oc :3 devastatingly beautiful, he has hair like geto’s where it’s in a bun & he has bangs! he’s tall and a bad bitch <3 he’s the mastermind/leader of this criminal group and as a child i think he had a backstory similar to black widow in which he was trained to be a spy/assassin and he’s an homme fatale — he uses his beauty to get what he needs.

(fun fact, when dmitri’s dad fucks off after he stabs her, he ends up in the place where they train young boys to become assassins/homme fatales as xavier & damien’s teacher!) in order to become a Proper Assassin he had to fight to the death against other aspiring assassins (he won which shows how strong & powerful he is — not as much as dmitri ofc ;) they originally met when he was sent to kill dmitri and he tried flirting w her but she was SOOOOOOO oblivious he was so done w her and when she realized he was flirting w her she was like “you can continue please continue” and then he bonked her on the head and said “no.” <333 beloved losers turned besties

- damien romanov grew up in a very strict household, i think his father wanted him to become a violinist and it was just a VERY cold home/relationship! certain events happen and he ends up at the same assassin guild and becomes a spy & he concocts poisons/is very well-versed with medicine as well! he has shoulder length black hair and stormy grey eyes <333 he’s very beautiful & lethal :3

- ICARUS!!!!! beautiful gorgeous fun baddie <333 he’s an art/jewelry thief! he loves the finer things in life so he became a thief <3 he grew up in the circus and left as a preteen! his father… is a bit insane but also very kind yet sociopathic… if that makes sense </3 icarus has hair like gojo’s just a lil tiny bit longer & tan skin <333

THE BADDEST BITCH EVER! actually icarus + dmitri + xavier + damien + silas (coming up) met at an art museum where they were each sent to retrieve something! (it was a set up from some evil organization methinks) ((idk if you’ve ever watched leverage but this entire group is based off that group and so is the art museums thingy!)) also icarus & xavier end up dating :3

- silas kane! he’s a hacker and he’s the sweetest one of the group and also one of the smartest! he lives with his grandma and everyone loves going to his house for a sense of normalcy :’) he ends up dating damien :3

there’s soooooooo much lore esp with each of their own individual backstories & how they all interconnect! (and TRUST… they interconnect.) i just loved the idea of criminals getting together robin-hood style <333 they’re all so feared but as a group they’re witty dorky goobers ;3 and then also… all their DADS are assassins in a group together too unbeknownst to the children… certain dads try to look out for their kids but others (dmitri’s dad) are praying on their downfall 😭 but also the dads don’t know that their kids are in a robin-hood esque group either until the party… omg let me open google docs rn [the kids and dads are also shocked when they realize they know the OTHER children of the other dads because like i said… all fates & meetings are interconnected 🤭]

BUT OMG TELL ME ALLLLLLLL ABOUT YOUR OC’S MICKEY <333 KNOWING YOU THEY’RE GONNA BE SO COOL AND SEXY

#asks #mickey tag <3 #my oc’s #<- new tag bc i take this shit so serious…#i have so much more to say but i’ll stop there bc i yapped a lot but this is just the mere TIP of the iceberg #one day i need to go into google docs and just write the proper storyline of my oc’s #if y’all see a published book or movie abt this 💯 buy it and make me RICH.#i need to properly learn art to draw them 😭#AHHHHHH I WANNA ADD MORE INFO ON HERE BUT IT WILL LITERALLY BE WAY TOO LONG SO JUST KNOW . I HAVE SM MORE UP MY SLEEVE 😭#they’re just so fun and beloved to me ;3 #TYSM FOR ASKING MICKEY I CAN’T WAIT TO HEAR ABOUT YOURS TOO

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comas-are-for-sleeping · 11 months ago

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alright part two 💀

13. jon is increasingly worried about martin's isolation and apparent alliance with peter lukas. martin is actually just trying to save everyone's life bc peter told him that there was another fear power trying to attempt its own ritual very soon (the extinction). jon reads a statement that tells him a way to leave the institute for good -- taking out your eyes!! cant see? cant work for the institute! he finds martin with his new Knowing powers and says, "we can run away together 🥺" to which martin basically says no i cant im sorry. jon also tells everyone else and melanie say bet lemme just do that real quick. (she does. and moves in w georgie theyre dating its great.) oh also at some point they get the bullet out of melanie's leg and jon gives up a rib to get another one so he can have an anchor when he goes in the coffin and rescues daisy (he tries cutting off his finger, but it keeps immediately healing itself). daisy admits to not wanting to be involved with the hunt anymore (which she was, cause like cop... yeah) and stays w jon most of the time. melanie also becomes besties w helen who was previously michael (not in a directly transgender way, it just decided to use a new body).

14. jon figures out what martin is doing and also knows that it's probably going to end badly and so decides to save him. elias is back somehow and reveals that he has the eyes of jonah magnus, founder of the institute. basically he is jonah in a similar way to michael/helen. his Knowing powers are much stronger than jon's (we knew of these powers before sorry i didnt mention them thats why they needed to distract him). jon follows martin into a fog (lonely powered fog bc peter lukas is a sailor guy and fog makes u lonely ig). martin is like "im better off alone" and jon goes "i can see you" and you cry. and they hug and martin is pulled out of the fog. the not-sasha is let loose because other hunters that jon met in america (he tricked them) show up wanting to kill him. daisy goes feral mode (basically ensuring she'll never go back to normal after) after the hunters and the not-sasha. jon and martin relocate to a secret cabin place to hide from the hunters (together they're together they're in love). i think basira went to look for daisy.

15. jon gets a box of statements and pulls one out that ends up being from elias/jonah and ends the world! it's not entirely his fault but like... maybe a little.

16. season five! jon and martin traverse the new Horror World trying to get back to the institute and... do something. maybe fix everything. jon kills all of the people who he encountered during his field research. they find basira and she kills daisy and then goes off on her own bc god damn she just killed her gf. jon and martin are seperated for a second when martin is like. taken to his own domain (the world is divided into little areas where someone is basically feeding off of a specific fear of others) and jon goes to helen's domain and kills her!

17. they end up in london, where they find melanie and georgie with a small band of people they've saved. (since melanie broke ties with the eye and georgie literally cant feel fear, they're kinda outside the new fear system.) martin goes off with this web lady named annabelle (she has been a character, v manipulative as is the way of the web) who tells him basically that all the tapes that have been appearing seemingly out of thin air have been her and that even though the eye thought it was controlling everything, it was really the web the whole time. their choices are to destroy the archives and push the fears into some new unsuspecting world (plus kill elias) or jon takes elias's place as One True Seer or whatever and *try* to make the world a *little bit* more bearable. they go with the former. but martin also has to stab jon and they kiss and the archives blows up and the world goes back to "normal." jon and martin's status of living or not was left ambiguous.

ok you have a special interest in tma (im pretty sure) and i do not want to relisten to the whole fucking series SO can you give me liek a summary (however detailed you want) of what i need to know beofre tmp please and thank you

what gave you that impression whaaat???

ok but i love this question bc i can procrastinate on my hw without catastrophizing yippee!!

i'll do like a timeline of main events without dates bc i cannot actually remember numbers for shit

Jonathon Sims becomes Head Archivist of the Magnus Institute (im going to stop with capitals bc it is too much work) because his predecessor, gertrude robinson, died. he's extremely skeptical of anything "paranormal" so it's kinda funny in the beginning bc his whole job is recording statements people have given of their encounters/experiences. Every episode at this point ends with a, "well, it could be dismissed except for this one spooky detail."

at some point a delivery made by breakon and hope (a delivery company that shows up in statements; two guys with suspicious cockney accents) to jon. it's a table with a hole in the center (also has shown up in statements multiple times). because of its association to, like, bad things, jon takes an axe to the thing and it is left in artifacts storage.

the events of season one are basically worm lady named jane prentiss is stalking the institute in order to take it over. she traps martin blackwood, the poor sweet boy, in his apartment for a week. now he cant stand the sight or taste of canned peaches! he moves into the archives temporarily because of this. jon finds him annoying/a nuisance but is very quick to offer the archives as a place for him to stay (spoilers they kiss). sasha james, another employee, meets an entity who calls itself Michael (an icon) who takes her to see a guy from a statement where his one night stand explodes into worms bc she had an encounter with jane prentiss. he is now a worm person. michael gets a worm from sasha's arm that tried to get into her arm w his finger which is Too Long and Too Sharp. The season ends with prentiss invading the archives and being burned to death! tim stoker (another employee, promise that's mostly all of them), martin, and jon are all Traumatized and end up covered in scars from getting worms out of each other with a corkscrew :) sasha and elias bouchard (everyone's boss) attempt to get out, but sasha is separated and ends up in artifacts storage. someone else is there and then the tape cuts out (everything is being recorded on tapes because something funky happens when certain statements come in contact with digital technology). the tape goes missing.

season two is jon's Paranoia Era. he's not sure who he can really trust anymore, since if jane was out there, there must be others and they could even be his own staff (how did she get in?? what are the underground tunnels beneath the archives??). at the end of each statement there is now a "supplemental" in which he describes his suspicions (which leads to him following some of his employees to their homes and they find out and... are not very pleased) and his findings in explorations of these strange tunnels that seem to move by themselves. there is someone down there, but who could it be?

oh btw another reoccurring thing are spooky books with the name "jurgen leitner" in them

the last two statements before Shit Goes Down are both about someone who's relative changes appearance, sound, and personality, except that no one thinks that this has happened and even pictures would suggest they had always looked like that (except polaroids and tapes). jon finds sasha's "missing" tape and listens to it. and... she sounds different in this recording. uh oh!! she isn't who she says she is!! she attacks him, he ends up running around in the archives (perhaps because of michael, who has a multidimensional door that enters into a spiral of confusing hallways) and meets the man himself, jurgen leitner (who, it turns out, has been the one living in the archives). they trap the Not-Sasha in the tunnels because leitner has a book that, if he reads certain sections, can move the walls/stairs/entryways/etc. jon Obviously has questions, so they go into his office and he keeps interrupting leitner (obviously). what he is able to tell jon is basically:

he found some spooky books and decided that he could collect them all. he built a library and put his name in all the books he owned, but one day it was too much and basically the whole thing burned down, all his assistants died, and the books were yet again scattered to the winds. he explains that he believes these books, entities, and items are all part of powerful beings. he also tells jon that elias killed gertrude. jon freaks out and decides to take up smoking again in that moment, so leitner is left alone. and elias goes in there and kills him with a lead pipe. jon comes back and is like wtf. he's pinned as the murderer bc all his coworkers were suspicious of his behaviors.

so now jon is on the run. he hides in his ex-girlfriend's apartment. he decides to do field research into something gertrude seemed to be interested called The Unknowing. we also learn that he encountered a leitner book as a child which led him to witness his school bully being taken by a spider behind a door (this is an animatic of said book teehee). also that georgie (the ex) also had an encounter separate from him which resulted in her losing all ability to feel fear. jon's field research leads him to find various entities from the statements and is kinda bullied by all of them tbh. hand burned by a woman who's basically made of wax (she likes destroying people's things and fire), simulated vertigo from a guy with a lightning scar down his back, and kidnapped by a clown manequine who wants his skin (as part of the Unknowing)! oh and also almost murdered by a bloodthirsty cop (daisy tonner my beloved plus her gf basira. idr if their relationship was ever established but). he tells daisy that he wasn't the one who killed leitner and that it was elias (i think he has proof?? bc she believes him). they corner him but hes like lol no u cant kill me if you kill me you all die rip teehee!!

oh! on his adventures, he ends up in america and learns that the powers are organized into types of fears. there are fourteen of them, jon works for the Eye. jane was the corruption (rot, bugs). the circus is the stranger (fear of the other, unknown, etc).

at this point i think also the clown + her circus have gathered all the materials for this "Unknowing," (a ritual of sorts). the crew (now including daisy and basira) devise a plan to end it while also distracting elias so that he can be arrested. jon makes martin and tim stay behind (as the distraction), but tim refuses bc his brother was killed by a clown (not the same one as the kidnapper) and hes Angry. I think at this point basira and melanie (she made a statement and then got fired from her job as a ghost hunter youtuber) work at the institute also.

they enter the circus Unknowing and martin burns statements to get elias's attention. all the circus people forget who they are so it's hard to blow everything up, but they figure it out enough for tim to detonate. daisy is thrown into a coffin (also a thing that shows up in multiple statements), tim dies in the explosion, and jon is catatonic.

season four! jon wakes up six months later in the hospital and is told that he was entirely dead except for brain activity. martin is distant, elias has been arrested and replaced by peter lukas, a name that has also shown up before. he is part of the lukas family, which is aligned with the lonely (they help fund the institute). jon pulls back up to his place of work and everyone's kinda annoyed and sad bc their friends are dead. melanie is increasingly violent, most likely due to a ghost bullet in her leg from right before she was hired (this is the slaughter, which is war and senseless violence/murder). she hates jon because she is stuck working for the institute forever (you cant leave or you'll like. get increasingly more sickly or something like that). basira spends a lot of time in the institute library. jon realizes that he can Know things randomly now. he also starts needing to read statements in the way that we need food and sometimes kinda is not so great to (random) people when he's especially lacking

oh my turns out there is a word limit to these things!! whoopsie doo there is more so get ready ig

#that's pretty much it #the moomin to my snufkin

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millenialfanfictionaddiction · 2 years ago

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Being Inarizaki's Manager:

Atsumu Rejects Miss Manager and Regrets It

Atsumu Miya featuring Inarizaki x Fem! Manager

Warnings: Angst to fluff, Swearing, the sting of rejection (sadness, crying, loss of appetite)

A/N: This is an Anon request! Now I'm in an angst mood and who better to fulfill all my angst dreams than my bestie Sumu 🥰

We are going to start this one a little differently 😏

Change is good people 👏🏻

You've been Inarizaki's Manager for almost 2 years now

You started your first year mainly because you were friends with the twins, Suna and Ginjima

They wanted a manager, you needed a club

It was literally a match made in heaven 😍

You've been friends with the twins for a while now, since you were kids

And you've always had a little crush on Atsumu

Honestly YN, Osamu is RIGHT THERE 🙄

But whatever 😒

Sumu was your chosen love

You had always admired him for his ability to dedicate so much time to his skills

He was a solid friend and always had your back

So when you went to high-school, it wasn't a surprise that you started to develop feelings for one of your best friends 🥰

We love a childhood friends to lovers here!

However, you vowed never to tell Atsumu of your crush for a few reasons

1) you were certain he was too good for you

Not true YN but go on

2) he was so popular and you were just the teams manager

3) he was one of your best friends and you didn't want to ruin that

Honestly I admire you YN, you sweet sweet baby 🥺

But just because you vowed never to tell Atsumu, doesn't mean a certain someone hasn't picked up on the clues

Our resident Nosy Nancy, Suna is on the case 🔍

He's known for at least 2 years that's you've liked Atsumu Yn

How you ask? Do you really need to ask YN?

He's a middle blocker and a fantastic one at that 👏🏻

Mans picks up on everything

So he takes it upon himself to be our chosen matchmaker

First, he confronts you

"If you like Atsumu say what," he says 👀

You 👉🏻👁👄👁 what-

Suna 👉🏻 got her 😏

"YN give it up I know you like idiot #1, just confess already!" Suna says as you just stare at him in shock

"Suna I can't do that! Atsumu is to popular, there is no way I'll be anything more than his friend," you say shutting your locker

"And you know this because???" Suna asks

"Because I'm not stupid Rin and I value my heart ok!" You spit as you walk away

However Suna isn't satisfied with that

Oh no no no, he's going to do more

So he casually decides to being it up with Atsumu in the club room 😃

Great, solid plan 👌🏻

"Hey what do you guys think about YN?" Suna asks 👀

"What about her?" Osamu questions

"I mean, she's super cute right? I'm surprised she doesn't have a boyfriend," Suna continues

"She gets confesses to alot but she's never gone out with any of the guys who've asked her," Ginjima chimes in

"What do you think Sumu?" Suna probes

Atsumu just laughs as Suna, Ginjima and Osamu all look at him, confused

"What's so funny?" Ginjima questions

"I mean, I guess she's cute if you like that type of girl," Atsumu responds

"What type of girl? YN is gorgeous Sumu," Osamu says, crossing his arms and defending you

"Oh don't get me wrong, YN is hot but shes just not my type plus she's one of my best friends," Atsumu says

Suna is now glaring at Atsumu because what an idiot istg 🙄

"So you're saying you'd never ask YN out?" Ginjima asks

Atsumu again laughs, "Yeah not in a million years!"

Well thank God you weren't just standing outside the club room at that exact moment to hear the ENTIRE exchange am I right 😃

Right 😃

Yn...

You rn 👉🏻😐🥺 right..

Crap 😐 you heard the whole thing didn't you?

You just so happened to be walking by when you heard Suna mention your name

So naturally you had to listen

Curiosity killed the cat you know 😫

That brings us to you, standing outside the club room as tears stream down your face

You always knew you weren't good enough for Atsumu

But hearing the words come from him just stabbed you right in the heart

You're heart that was currently breaking 💔

"Hey YN, what's wrong?" Aran says coming up behind you as you try desperately to blink away the tears

Suddenly the club room door opens and Suna, Ginjima, Osamu and Atsumu come out

Suna instantly knows why you are crying but he says nothing 😶

He's just like 👉🏻😳 crap-

"Yn what's wrong? Did someone mess with ya?" Atsumu asks as he approaches you

You back away, not wanting to be near him

Atsumu stops and looks at you confused 😕

Quick YN, think of something!

"Ummm, no- I uh I didn't do so good on a math quiz, I'll be ok. See you in the gym!" You quickly say trying to combat the tears as you turn and run to the gym

Everyone but Suna is so confused

"YN's best subject is math tho," Ginjima questions

Osamu looks to Suna who is looking a bit pale

He starts to wonder what's going on 🤨

"Let's leave her alone, she just maybe needs some time," he says, quickly walking to the gym

That day, at practice, you are incredibly distant and quiet

Literally everyone notices including Kita, Omimi and Michinari

Suna is just like 😗 🎶 trying to ignore everything

Very suspicious 🙃

"Hey YN, you ok?" Omimi finally asks as you snap from your haze

"Oh yeah! Sorry, I uh failed an English quiz so I'm a bit sad but I gotta run! It looks like you guys need water!" You say, way too enthusiastic about filling water bottles

"I thought you failed a math quiz?" Aran questioned as your eyes widened

"Oh uh, yeah I failed both. Just a bad day ha ha," you say quickly grabbing the bottles and running off 🏃‍♀️

Atsumu is watching you, concerned about why you are acting this way

You see, Atsumu may have lied a teeny tiny bit earlier 👀

He really does care about you and he likes you a lot but he's nervous to confess 😬

He tries to not think about it as he goes about his serving practice

After practice, Atsumu stays later to get some more serves in while the guys head to the club room

"Alright Rin spill!" Osamu says cornering Suna

"What?" Suna asks, trying to remain aloof 👀

"We all know you know why YN is acting the way she is! So spill!" Osamu says

Suna sighs as he looks at the team who is all watching him

"YN likes Atsumu and I'm pretty sure she heard what he said about her earlier," Suna says as Ginjima and Osamu's eyes widen

"Wait, what did Atsumu say?" Kita questions

"He said YN wasn't his type and that he wouldn't date her," Ginjima answers

"Well crap, poor YN," Michinari says, sitting down on the bench

"I mean, what can we do? He doesn't like her and we can't change that," Aran interjected

"I feel bad for bringing it up but I really didn't think she would hear it," Suna says

"I think we just need to let her process it and move on. We can't force him to like her," Kita says as the guys all look down

They want to help YN but they have no clue how to so it

So they just wait and see

Unfortunately, you don't cheer up ☹️

The sting of rejection really hurts and it's affecting everything

Soon you start to withdraw from the team, only showing up to practice right before you have to and leaving as quickly as you can

Even the coach notices 🥺

Atsumu is beginning to really wordy about you

He hasn't seen you for more than a few hours all week

You look pale and like you've lost weight

He hates seeing you like this

So he decides to ask to bring it up

At the team meeting 😃

Oh sweet baby Jesus

"Does anyone have anything else to add?" Coach asks as Atsumu raises his arm

"Yeah, I'm just wondering what's up with you YN? Are you ok?" Atsumu questions

Literally the entire team rn 👉🏻👀👂🏻

He's just staring at you

And you look at him like 👉🏻👁💧👄💧👁

"I'm fine Sumu, I just haven't been doing well in school," you finally say as Atsumu scoffs

"YN that's a lie! I know you got one of the best scores in English and Math! So what's really going on? Is someone picking on ya? Did someone reject ya?" Atsumu asks as you just sit there, trying hard not to cry

"Sumu lay off ok?" Osamu says as Atsumu looks at him

"No! She's being such a downer and she's acting ridiculous. She won't talk to any of us and she's barely present!" Atsumu says as the tears start to stream down your face

"Atsumu, enough!" Kita growls as you try your hardest to not cry

"What's wrong with ya? If some guy rejected ya then he doesn't deserve ya! Move on Yn!" Atsumu says

That does it, that breaks the dam of emotions that have been building up

You stand up, tears streaming down your face as you look at Atsumu

"I was rejected Sumu and you're right, I should just move on from it but it's hard to move on from being rejected by your best friend!" You scream as Atsumu's eyes widen in shock, "but you're right, he doesn't deserve me!"

You turn, running out of the gym as the tears flow

Aran, Omimi and Michinari all get up and run after you

Kita is just standing there, his arms crossed looking hella pissed off

"Way to go idiot," Osamu says, standing up and walking out of the door

"What- what's going on?" Atsumu questions as Suna and Ginjima stands up

"YN likes you dumbass. She's been sad because she overheard us talking about her the other day," Suna says

Atsumu 👉🏻😐😳 she- she heard that?

"You couldn't just let her be could ya?" Ginjima says, turning and walking out the door as Suna follows and shakes his head

Atsumu is left on the gym, stunned and trying to process his emotions

Meanwhile, you locked yourself in the girls bathroom, bawling your eyes out as you tried to calm down

Did he really have to bring that up? Did he have to reopen the wounds you were trying to heal?

You sat in the bathroom for a while until you finally emerged, looking around to make sure nobody was left to see your state

You walked out the door, turning the corner to see Atsumu sitting on the bench

You quickly turn, trying to avoid him but it's too late

"YN wait!" He shouted as you quickly walked away

"YN stop!" He said, catching up to you and pulling your arm to turn you around

"Sumu I'm sorry I can't-" you say as the tears run down your face

Atsumu says nothing, just pulling you in for a big hug

The hug is comforting but also hurtful as you continue to cry louder

"YN I'm so sorry I hurt ya," he said as he rubs your back and you hug him back

"It's ok Sumu, I should have known you wouldn't like me," you said as Atsumu pulls you away, looking down into your eyes

"But I do like you YN," he says

You rn 👉🏻🥲 huh?

He sighs, throwing his head back and looking back at you, "I do like you YN. I've liked you since middle school. I just- I just didn't want to ruin our friendship. You're my best friend YN and I love you."

You 👉🏻😲

YN is too stunned to speak

"Sumu-"

"I guess I didn't really think you'd like me since I'm so annoying and kind of an idiot," he said laughing

You just nod

Atsumu 👉🏻😐 really YN?

"Sumu, I'm sorry I let this impact our friendship. I'm happy just being friends with you," you say as Atsumu looks at you

"I can't be friends with you anymore YN," he says

You 👉🏻🥺😔 I understand

"No! God I'm awful at this! I want you to be my girlfriend YN!" Atsumu says, panicking

"You, you- what??" You shout as your eyes widen 😳

Atsumu just smiles, pulling you closer, his forehead meeting yours

Oh god I'm about to cry 😭

"Please say you'll be mine," he says as you smile and nod

"Yes Sumu!" you say as he kisses you and lifts you up, swinging you in the air as you scream with joy

"Oh thank GOD!" Osamu says as him and the team come walking down the hallway, tears streaming down Suna's eyes as he records what just happened

"I'm so happy right now," he says wiping a tear

"Alright alright! I'm glad it all worked out but now can we please get back to practice?" Kita says ad you and Atsumu nod

He grabs your hand, interlacing your fingers as he pulls you to the gym

You are one lucky girl YN 🥰

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beautifulblooms · 2 years ago

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I Bite My Tongue It's a Bad Habit - Steddie + Male!Reader

Male!Reader, he/him, trying angst for the first time, this is for a special friend @eddieverse because they helped give me such a lovely little idea for suffering, enjoy this bestie, btw I don't care if this is all time accurate or not cause this was just made to make people cry, and it seems I have succeeded

CIS Women and Female Aligned people, please DNI, this story and all of my others are for non-binary, masculine aligned and male readers!

You Are the Bane of My Existence, and the Object of All My Attractions (Happy Ending)

I Bite My Tongue, It's a Bad Habit (Sad Ending)

Tags: @qthetherapist, @eddieverse, @alexs-playground, @rlmt1

I picked up my guitar and slowly began to pluck the chords to a song I had grown familiar with, humming the lyrics at first before fully singing along.

“I wish I knew, I wish I knew you wanted me. I wish I knew, I wish I knew you wanted me. What you, oooh, uh, what you do?” Images of the two of them hugging and kissing flooded my mind, why did he have to get Eddie, why couldn’t it have been me that got him? What did I do wrong to push him away? We’ve been friends for years, I’ve stuck by his side since 4th grade, I did everything right, so why didn’t he choose me?

“Is it too late to pursue? I bite my tongue it’s a bad habit, kinda mad that I didn’t take a stab at it.” It was almost pitiful how sad I was over this, they’d been together for a couple weeks and having to see it every day was only making me feel worse. Why couldn’t I be the one that gets to kiss him, hold him, run my hands through his hair, comfort him when he’s sad, be his anything.

“Never gave me the time of day, my dear. It’s okay, things happen for reasons that I think are sure, yeah.” I tried to ask him out a few times, he always said thank you for having a friends day out, hearing him call us friends hurt more than I thought it would. Especially now when I ask him on one and he says he can’t, he’s got a date with him.

“I wish I knew, I wish I knew you wanted me.” I had committed so much time to him that I figured he would at least still care about me. In the last couple weeks he had slowly stopped hanging out with me bit by bit, stopped caring about if I showed up to school, stopped noticing me. I just wish he still cared about me even a little bit, or showed it at all.

“Say to me, please just say to me, if this could wind up. I wish you wouldn’t play with me, I wanna know, oh no.” God it hurt, tears were dripping onto my knees while I kept playing, voice beginning shake when I sang. I just wanted it to be me, I wanted so bad to be the one Eddie loved.

“Can I bite your tongue like my bad habit? Would you mind if I tried to make a pass at it?” I wanna be able to take a pass at him, kiss him, feel what it feels like to be Steve Fucking Harrington. The fuck boy of Hawkins high gets the Freak, why couldn’t the best friend of the freak get him?

“It’s okay, things happen for reasons that I can’t ignore, yeah.” I stopped strumming the guitar and just sang through sobs, my hands couldn’t stay still long enough to hold any notes. I just began to mumble the rest of the song to myself, sitting in my room, all lights but a nightstand lamp off, crying on the edge of my bed.

“You can’t surprise a Gemini, I’m everywhere, I’m cross-eyed, and now that you’re back, I can’t decide if I decide if you’re invited.” Fuck finishing the song, I just needed to leave, leave this fucking town, leave them to be who they want to be without me. I couldn’t even think of what I was doing anymore, barely saw what I grabbed, just throwing whatever clothes I could into a random bag. I snatched the car keys off my dresser, grabbing the bag and almost running down the stairs. The front door was already unlocked, guess I forgot to lock it when I got home earlier, it didn’t matter now. Rain poured down outside, I just sprinted through it to my car in the driveway, hopping in the drivers seat and tossing whatever bag I grabbed into the back seat. I’m sure I grabbed my wallet so I had at least 60 bucks to do whatever I wanted. Pulling out of the driveway I floored the gas pedal, getting out of this fucking town was the only thing I needed to do, and as I passed the leaving Hawkins sign I heard the familiar tune ringing in the back of my mind. I wish I knew, I wish I knew you wanted me…..

#steddie #steddie + male reader #male reader #x male reader #male reader fanfic #stranger things #steve stranger things #steve harrington stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson stranger things #eddie munson #eddie stranger things #eddie x male reader #eddie munson x male reader #Steve x male reader #steve harrington x male reader #angst #no happy endings here

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orangechickenpillow · 3 years ago

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Bestie don't spare us the angst please unpack Ed's bonking his head against the tub you're so sexy aha

(only if u have the time though)(but I love the way you put it into words)(thanks for everything you've already done for us)

(Omg thank you so much, and also you're very welcome, it is my deranged pleasure)

Okay a few people have asked me for my thoughts on this, so here we go. I'll warn you all now: this is probably going to be very incoherent and lots of me just being like "ahh emotion"

(oh, also, angst warning ig)

I'll start by saying that one thing I've noticed about Ed is that he paces a lot when he's nervous. For example, the Stede/Izzy swordfight, he paces across the ship. Same thing when Stede is about to be executed by the British navy.

Ed doesn't show emotion often, but when he does, it comes in quick, often physical bursts -- like pacing, or that time that he grabbed the rope when Stede got stabbed.

To me, it's like he's bottled up so much of his emotion that sometimes it comes out in little gestures that he can't really control. Or maybe he can, and he subconsciously funnels them into the physical things (pacing, fiddling, etc) so that they aren't so obviously identifiable to other people.

This is important because it's not just nerves that Ed does this with, but his own emotional pain, too. In 'The Art of Fuckery' when Izzy and the other two members of Ed's crew confront him about needing to kill Stede what does Ed do?

He doesn't react, doesn't say anything at all -- not even a "no I'm not doing that" or a "okay fine." No, he walks away. And then when Izzy follows him, you can see him growing fidgety. This is how he expresses his discomfort at the idea of killing Stede (also as a way to hide this discomfort from Izzy -- who I'm sure picks up on it because that man is in love obsessed).

Then later, right before Ed thinks he's going to have to kill Stede, we see him very tensely playing that knife game (where you stab between your fingers). This brings me to another aspect of Ed's personality, which is that he obviously doesn't put much value on his own safety/wellbeing.

He doesn't care if he gets hurt. In fact, I feel like he might even seek it out (i.e. that time he goaded Stede into literally stabbing him to... prove a point? Or something? Idk, homoerotic purposes or whatever).

From all this we can see that Ed not only uses physical means (like pacing and fidgeting) to vent those pesky, unwanted emotions, but he also cares little for his own safety.

Can you see where this is a problem?

So, when Ed is laying in that bathtub after having a flashback to the abuse he endured as a child, and telling himself that he is a monster (or a Kraken, if you will), I think it is safe to say that he is experiencing a lot of those unwanted emotions.

But then wonderful, gentle Stede comes along and tells him, "hey, it's okay, you're not a monster, you're my friend and I forgive you" .....and that's just too much for Ed. If he wasn't in that bathtub, literally backed into a corner by Stede (not that Stede was trying to do this, it's just kind of how it turned out) I firmly believe that Ed would have been pacing at this point. He even moves his legs in the bathtub, fidgeting (again) like he’s trying to get away.

I think he would have turned, done a little pacing loop, maybe even grabbed something (like how he grabbed the rope when Stede got stabbed). But he can't, because he's in a bathtub and Stede is right there. He can't escape, can't vent his emotions in the way we've seen him do before.

So be bonks his head off of the bathtub. Because that emotion has to go somewhere, and Ed sure as hell doesn't want it going to his heart because that hurts to much. Stede outright confirming that he sees Ed as a friend and forgiving him for being a "monster" (as Ed sees himself) hurts too much.

To him, physical pain would hurt less than that. So that’s exactly what he does: he puts himself in physical pain (however minor) in an attempt to distract himself from all the other shit he’s feeling.

And if you look at his expression during the gesture, he's just in so much pain. It's very much a "please don't say that, I don't deserve your kindness so don't give it to me, please don't tell me you're my friend because it's exactly what I need to hear, please don't."

He even says “no,” squeezing his eyes shut in a desperate attempt to block Stede and his dammed kind words out. But Stede is relentlessly loving, and is able to reassure Ed enough that he’s no longer in panic mode.

And then Stede physically reaches out to comfort him, and what does Edward ‘Blackbeard’ Teach do????? He bonks his head onto Stede’s hand. Stede is literally lessening the blows that Ed gives himself.

I just... oh my god I am suffering.

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