#he's everything i love and treasure

[wildsaltair]

nooo Rome is NOT worth one good man's life!!! not if it's my beloved whose life is taken!!!

[ilovemesomevincentprice]

[xxlady-lunaxx]

offers the weekly (or so) dose of sanegiyuu angst

sanemi caring for giyuu and slowly nursing him back, coaxing smiles and eliciting laughter from the pretty raven-haired man. but the surge of warmth it gives him from the trophy of a happy giyuu only lasts so long. so that sanemi feels like he can’t, in any way, be sad. he fears that the slightest frown might trigger a wave of discontent that ultimately will have them both crashing under the currents. he’s afraid that he’ll ruin every bit of progress they’ve managed, leaving them back at the starting point. he refuses to cry, he refuses to be weak, he refuses to do anything but carry on supporting giyuu and being the one who holds them both up. and he says nothing, even when the circles under his eyes nearly rival giyuu’s obsidian hair, even when he ends up silently spiraling down, down, down the rabbit hole he only just managed to pull giyuu from. and it isn’t until his resolve is hit for the final time, the hammer shattering him completely, that he finally says something. but, despite everything, he denies giyuu’s comfort. insists it’s only a matter of time. when it’s not. time is working against him. tugging the loosely woven threads of togetherness out, undoing the hasty patchwork. still, he draws away. curls up into himself and pricks his finger on the needle, trying to sew the remnants of his sanity back. he will not let giyuu parent him. he will not let giyuu see what a pathetic, idiotic, broken man he actually is. because everything he does is for giyuu’s benefit. everything he lives for is connected to this beautiful, wonderful man who somehow still tries and tries to help him. until it takes too much work for sanemi to pull away. he knows it’s futile. but he still lets himself sink into giyuu’s arms, finally—finally—trusting himself into his care. he won’t ever be alright. but if he lets giyuu do this—for… him—then maybe giyuu will be able to get through everything. knowing sanemi trusted him, knowing giyuu was so much more than words could possibly define, and manage to do everything sanemi could never. because giyuu was everything, and he deserved the world, and sanemi would throw away his life for him. for tomioka giyuu.

[ryllen]

[ But i wish, the '"interesting" him' I am talking to right now, Hold some part of truth of the 'true him'. ]

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( a bit of thought after seeing their 2 interactions on x & x )

[lilymagnemorningstar]

Lilith: *Watching Lucifer waddle up and down the hallways of the royal palace in a duck costume with little Charlie in tow, also in a little duck costume*

Lilith: “I would die for him, I would kill for him, I would raise all of Hell and fight all of Heaven for him”

Lilith: *Zips up her own duck costume and joins her two little dreamers*

[kaiser1ns]

TAKIISHI CHIKA IN CHAPTER 153

[weirdtinkerbellversion]

Dec 18. Prompt: Message. Word count: 365 @jegulus-microfic

Regulus’ beach house rental was a dream come true after the last few months he’s had. Between the added workload at his new job and the stress-fighting with his brother, he needed a few days of quiet by the beach. He’d always enjoyed walking on the beach and finding interesting seashells but today, he found a dirty green bottle. He disregarded it but, as he was walking away, the sun’s reflection revealed a paper roll inside. A message, just like in the movies when he was little.

He unfurled the roll and read:

Hello, my name is James. I am 10 years old. My family just moved here for the summer. We’re in the house with the red shutters at the end of the bay. Fishing with dad is fun and mom is teaching me how to cook the fish we catch, but I don’t have friends to play with here. So I’m sending a message in a bottle like in the movies, so if you find it, you can come find me and we can be friends.

From the looks of the paper, it had been in the water at least a couple decades, so Regulus thought nothing of it except that he understood the little boy’s loneliness. Yet he found his legs taking him towards the house at the end of the bay with the red shutters anyway. He knocks, and the most beautiful man he’s ever seen opens up, smiling brightly at him despite not knowing him. His voice is even dreamier, Regulus thinks, when the man says Hello and asks if he could help him.

“Um, yeah, hi. I’m sorry, this is weird, I don’t even know why I came here. I found a bottle with a letter inside it from a kid who used to live here and I guess I just got curious.”

“Wait, what’s the boy’s name?” and Regulus could see a little sparkle of hope in the man’s eyes. “James. He said he was looking for a friend.”

“So you want to be my friend?” and his smile has turned into a big grin. He holds his hand out to Regulus. “Hi, I’m James. And you are?”

[vaguely-concerned]

I think rye thinks it's incredibly adorable of davrin to be worried about him after the accidental hallucination tea experiment. that stoic option 'you know, I lived a whole life before you' contains a world of 'davrin, I'm a mourn watcher with a severely misspent youth behind me. I've been stratospherically high on things you couldn't and probably wouldn't want to imagine, this is barely a tickle'. to me.

[mrs-gauche]

...and also the only time that Solas of all people, is completely speechless, for once at a loss for words in response to an irrefutable argument.

Throughout the whole game (with a few exceptions in which he actually admits to having misjudged), whenever you get the chance to debate him on something you do not agree on, Solas, Mr “I’m a trillion years old, you know nothing, so listen carefully” will practically verbally jiu-jitsu you for every possible argument you might have, like, he’s an absolute master at playing Ace Attorney refuting any of your points, much like playing mind chess with Iron Bull, there is no chance to win an argument with Solas if he’s determined to have you recognize the flaw in your logic or at least understand his perspective, making you feel like this gif at the end of every debate.

But when Lavellan says “I would have had you trust me”, finally, there is no counter argument, no clever comeback, no objection... He has nothing. Because Lavellan is right and he knows. There’s just silence until he turns around and continues with the rest of the dialogue. And I think it’s interesting how this is kinda the culmination of all the little hints throughout the whole game at his ingrained distrust, leading up to this moment.

“An enemy can attack you, but only an ally can betray you. Betrayal is always worse.”

"The next time you have to mourn, you don't need to be alone." “It’s been so long since I could trust someone.”

“That’s when you should lean on your friends.” “Apologies, Inquisitor. I have learned not to do that.”

“I’ll rely on those I trust.” "You think to share your power, to avoid the temptation to misuse it. A noble sentiment... but, ultimately, a mistake." (...) "Because while one selfless man may walk away from the lure of power's corruption... no group has ever done so."

“You created a powerful organization, and now it suffers the inevitable fate of such. Betrayal and corruption.”

"I trust my friends." "I know that mistake well enough to carve the angles of her face from memory."

“She was betrayed as I was betrayed. As the world was betrayed!” - Flemeth about Mythal

You get the sense that him witnessing Mythal being betrayed and murdered by the Evanuris was probably the catalyst for his immense trust issues, so much so that it still has that big of an impact on him centuries later. And of course it has, when 1) it was this batrayal and power corruption that set everything in motion, it almost lead to the end of the entire world, which in turn lead to the creation of the Veil and finally the loss of his world and his people, 2) he has spent the last 1000 years walking the Fade, having to look at the ever present Black City in its center - their prison - as a constant reminder of what happened. (I know it’s not confirmed yet, but come on! 😂)

And then there is Lavellan (or any high approval Inquisitor for that matter) at the end of all this. Who proved him wrong with every action throughout DAI. Who has shown wisdom in their decisions and that the power they were given mustn’t corrupt them. That there is no reason for him not to trust them. And yet, he simply can’t, because the past still haunts him and centuries of history have taught him otherwise (and like a bunch of other reasons for him to not tell Lavellan the truth in that moment in Crestwood, but that’s beside the point here lol). 

And then at the end of Trespasser, Lavellan finally throws it straight to his face, and while he could pull any of the excuses listed above, he simply can’t refute them anymore. Look at his expression as he just looks at them in response, at first still frowning for a second, as if he’s still about to argue them again, but then suddenly shifting into sorrow, slightly shaking his head in defeat. “I got nothing.” Solas, who easily managed to own you in any debate prior to this, is all out of arguments. It’s the final argument and the Inquisitor won.

(Well, technically, it even happens twice in this final conversation, if we’re counting Solas’ internal debate with himself. lol)

"We aren't even people to you." "Not at first. You showed me that I was wrong."

But going back to his distrust, it surely can’t be a coincidence that this whole issue was also topic in a recent interview with DA4′s Creative Director, talking about what defines a hero.

I’ve talked about this numerous times now, like here, here or here, but what it all comes down to is basically just one more penny for the “Solas needs to learn how to trust again in order to be saved from himself” jar. lol

“We will save our friend from himself… if we can.”

Like. It’s literally his name. Pride. Saving Solas from himself does quite literally mean to strip him off his name and the belief that, to quote John Epler again, “only he has the answers, that he is the only one who can solve this” and to accept the help of others. Which is why he has to get a new name by the end of all this. I’m dying on that hill. 😂

[auphelia]

Hi! I cooked up a little something for you, couldn’t wait to send it ✉️ (zandicktober ep18 vibes because I thought it deserved some extra love?) Happy holidays 🎄🎄🎄

OH MY GOD?!!?!?! THIS IS AMAZING, WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY AND THANKFUL AND SURPRISED I AM 😭😭😭 (suffice to say, naked Zandik in my inbox wasn't what I expected when I saw an unaswered ask 🤣)

This is so lovely, if you ever put it in your shop, I will be there like a weasel to unguarded eggs xD

[pop-hxj]

Normal colors.

[wildsaltair]

just call me pain and sorrow because I belong to Maximus no matter what he does

[kimbapisnotsushi]

i'm just. thinking about how kuroo told kenma that the setter didn't have to move around much to get kenma to play setter. and i'm thinking about how that was such a blatant lie. how we already knew. how the narration TOLD us that. but kuroo built a team where kenma wouldn't have to move anyways. he built a team AROUND kenma. he built a team for kenma's sake and comfort because he wanted to keep playing with kenma. and i'm not saying that he was begging desperately for kenma to stay, or that he didn't care about the rest of the team beyond what they could do for kenma (because of course he did!!), but what i AM trying to say is that. kuroo really REALLY cherishes the people who are an essential part of his life. and he'll do EVERYTHING he can to get them to stay.

[naivety]

sorry but i hate that claudia's dress is hung up like it's in a museum. i know why it is, and it's sweet and tragic and i don't blame louis for trying to both honor and grieve her in this way, but i hate it <3 that her clothes fitted perfectly just for her by her immortal companion, just like her diaries, her own private thoughts penned down throughout her life, have been preserved and made perfect in bright open spotlight for gloved hands and watching eyes to feast on even in death. kinda hate it here

[ruuinxs]

saikechi “back to the old house” by the smiths the line “and you never knew how much i really liked you, because i never really told you”

[jigencaps]