#he wasnt a saint
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gotta love how the shadow and bone tv show was like hey let's combine these two stories set in the same world so that they're happening at the same time and the characters all meet and hang out and are friends :) and in doing so they absolutely butchered all of those incredible characters, bulldozed through the storylines, and left off in such a nonsensical position that there's simply nothing compelling left to be said lmao
#like the three most interesting things in Alina's trilogy are#morozova wasnt a fucking fabrikator: he was just Grisha#he wasnt beholden to the split of manipulating flesh/the elements/material#he just did it#and they ignored that entirely#second was the concept of sainthood#what does it mean to be venerated as a saint when youre still alive#saints are always martyrs! its not possible to be a living saint!#and when you finally get morozova's story#well#he wasnt a saint#he was a person who happened to have extraordinary abilities#but in every other sense was just an ordinary human being#and alina struggles herself with being worshipped when shes just a girl#how can you be a living martyr? how can you be a god when you still have a human heart beating in your chest?#meanwhile the show is like oh hey heres another saint lmao isnt it cool how powerful and Girlboss she is lmao#and alina acting like sankta is a title instead of an albatross#anyway the third thing is alina's entire relationship with the darkling which was wasted so thoroughly#truly an awful time#i wont even go into the crows because like#six of crows is a PERFECT story#exceptional characters#believable people with believable flaws who do incredible things anyway#a story that fucks so hard i still haven't stopped thinking about it years later#and they destroyed it!!! they ruindd it!!!!#agh im so mad about it#shadow and bone tv
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I was kindly invited by @pigeon-on-saint-orange and @moonolivia to make a little Robespierre art for an event they're running on Lofter for his birthday. So, I made a *very corny* comic. Happy Birthday Maximilien Robespierre! Many of your dreams and ideas live on in modern day~
#pls note how saint-just is so serious and stern until he looks at Robespierre lol#this genuinely wasnt supposed to be soppy and on paper it didnt look that way but somehow it ended up feeling like that#maximilien robespierre#louis antoine saint just#saint just#robespierre#saintspierre#frev#french revolution#frev art#webcomic#comic#webtoon#comic art
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"second coming of christ" + it's saint young men jesus
#writing dialogue is always my nightmaaaare i'm sorry i tried my best#good omens fanart#good omens#good omens 2#aziraphale#crowley#saint young men#saint oniisan#sym jesus#sym buddha#crowley nervous bc jesus remebers him but then he just invites him and aziraphale in for dinner 👍👍#the ending of s2 wasnt real btw they're still happy + just going on a trip to japan to find jesus...#i think dialogue is out of character im sorry#i tried and gave up#good omens spoilers
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im sorry but this is the stupidest thing i have seen all week.
hey guys maybe he's cringing at the very public murder and cannibalism of living human beings and not because he "hates theatre people". maybe the gruesome and unnecessary torture is the part he finds distasteful, seeing how entire ARCS in this story have revolved around his ethical dilemmas about vampirism. i do not see what cringing at a creepy play has to do with him supposedly liking lestat more than he likes armand.
to be clear, im not saying louis didn't love lestat but you people do not need to wade through the depths of hell to find new ways of twisting every tiny bit of the loumand tale into "Loustat are just soulmates!" "Lestat is just better than that sociopath, that gremlin freak!" "Lestat is just so much more talented and handsome and masculine" "see, see, he misses lestat! he needs a big strong white man to take care of him!"
#im tired#those two things had nothing to do with each other and yet. and yet.#“hatred for theatre people” huh??? HUH??????#MAYBE HE DOESN'T LIKE THOSE SPECIFIC THEATRE PEOPLE CAUSE THEY'RE NOT VERY NICE#THEIR PLAYS SUCK#THEY DONT HAVE ANY MORALS OR ETHICS (AND YES THAT MATTERS CAUSE LOUIS HAS ETHICS AND THIS POST IS ABOUT#HIM)#THEY STALKED HIM AND CLAUDIA FOR MONTHS AND THEN THREATENED TO KILL THEM IF THEY DIDN'T JOIN THEIR COVEN (they were declared rogues)#MAYBE THAT'S WHY THE DUDE NEVER MANAGES TO GET ALONG WITH THOSE CUNTS????#wasnt that fucking obvious are yall just that dumb idek#iwtv#loumand#anti loustat#<- please don't bother me#saint louis#narcis.io
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#sorry i almost forgot that tito is like an aisha stan#nonverbal but u know he blasts that album in the car that he can't drive#it wasnt even a dui thats just how he drives#boss: tito menendez#saints row#aisha sr
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#inuyashaedit#oldanimeedit#animangahive#dailyanime#anisource#inuyasha#kikyo#saint hakushin#naraku#hakushin#inuyasha requests#i really liked the conversation between kikyo and hakushin#this request is really good im actually gonna gif the whole convo that lasts over 3 minutes so expect a few sets#i mean naraku wasnt wrong here. poor guy hakushin was elevated to a saint and had his human rights stripped from him#but we are NOT team naraku this is just those moments where the bad guy is kinda right but he's choosing the toxic option#instead of being mature and understanding#anyway stay toxic
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obligatory childe post ft 4.2 archon quest spoilers and also my incomprehensible ramblings (read at your own discretion)
fontaine left me with a Lot of thoughts about childe even if his screen time was kinda pitiful
it's been opening up a lot of implications for childe's potentional importance to the greater, overall plot of the story though and its driving me up a WALL but more importantly it's made me pick apart his character
which brings me to Fontaine actually being PERFECT for him to have featured in, actually. because the whole damn nation is a theater, a stage for its archon. Hydro has never fit him better because the parallels of focalors/furina to ajax/tartaglia aren't exact but it's pretty damn close. a separation of the "other" (divine in case of focalors, whatever is wrong w childe in his case) and human.
I just think a lot about how Tartaglia is only ever Ajax with family. you really don't see his old name anywhere, he's pretty openly adopted Tartaglia (kinda childe too) as his name literally in every other circumstance. which you can chalk up to just like. well, he's usually on fatui business, of course he'd use his fatui name, but. even with traveler, it's childe.
so. you know. makes me wonder if as far as he's concerned, Ajax is dead. "Ajax" died when he fell down that crack in the ground and something else crawled back out.
which makes me wonder how he'd feel about the Creator calling him Ajax.
conflicted, probably. because you know him well enough to know his old name..but he's not Ajax anymore, is he? he's not the child with a sword in hand trying to play adventurer, he's a Harbinger. he's Childe, he's Tartaglia.
conflicted because he has doubts, even if he'd never voice them, that maybe you like "Ajax" more then Childe.
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#my thoughts on childe are jumbled but I think he is similar to furina/focalors in that he has many faces#he is ajax with his family– the confident sweet older brother who gets them nice gifts and doesnt visit often#but when he does he tries his best to be the older brother they need. ajax is dead and buried in the abyss and he crawled back out#but he tries.#he is also childe. tartaglia. a weapon finely honed by the Tsaritsa that goes where she leads him.#he is a murderer. plain and simple. he is no saint but a sinner just like the rest of the harbingers.#because that is simply who he has become. “Ajax” entered the abyss and Tartaglia came back out. even if it wasnt his name yet#squeezing him i wanna know what Happened Down There#they describe him as hesitant and frightened in one of his stories yet he returns and suddenly hes completely different#3 months in the abyss will do that i suppose#but im just obsessed w his themes of lsot identity (even if its just in my head) and a man being turned into a weapob#WEAPOn#also perfect opportunity for angst and conflict!!#being torn between his loyalty to the Tsaritsa vs reader would be soooo chef's kiss#honestly i think sagau/cult au with characters who arent 100% on board w the creator r so good i eat that shit up#esp if creator is tied to celestia....like ough the angst potential w so many characters like NEUVI UGH#this is getting off track but conflict also w the ajax vs childe situation..#i dont havr the words to sufficiently describe it but ough.............#just thinking abt childe being called ajax by the creator..a name hes mostly abandoned......#like if we go w my crackhead idea of him considering “ajax” dead i know he'd be so distraught but just bottle that shit up and smile#because if you wsnt ajax then he can be ajax!!!!! (please dont leave him hes senstive and has abandonment issues and separation anxiety)#desperate little puppy man (he is covered in blood and viscera bc he just killed a man and brought him to you expecting praise)#like a cat bringing you dead birds and mice.
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huge fan of how whenever someone accidentally steals a joke now we call upon hbomberguy in a joking way. hes been incorporated into the culture
#not that he wasnt already incorporated into the culture with the donkey kong stream but whatever you get my point#patron saint of smiting plagiarists (joking fashion)#hbomberguy#mine
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Do we know how long Osiris and Saint have been together? Like lore-wise? We're they together before or when Osiris was commander? Or is it fairly more ‘recent’ like Osiris’ exile?
Not sure, honestly! I have to admit to the fact that I'm somewhat of a D2 lore noob- I just recently got interested enough in Destiny to start looking into things past the Eliksni (who got me interested in the game in the first place), so while I have dug into the lore enough to know what's going on + have watched all the seasons of Destiny 2 (that I didn't play) up until the current state of the game, I can't remember exact lore entries off the top of my head just yet. That's something @thefirstknife is better at; rn I'm just here for character analysis and alien specbio
If I had to guess, though, then Saint and Osiris have at LEAST had something going on pre-exile, it's just hard to place exactly when they officially because a couple because the two of them were in the public eye for quite a bit pre-exile, and pair that with the fact that Osiris is an extremely private person (though he was terrible at obscuring the fact that he loved Saint non-platonically if you ask me), you end up with a relationship that had to be under the radar by necessity up until fairly recently. So it's really hard to say when exactly they became a pair, if it was ever even stated in the lore
#destiny 2#o14#not to mention their courtship probs took longer- osiris gives me the vibes of someone who'd be very difficult to get into a relationship#not bc he wasnt willing to court saint but more bc the logistics of the relationship + the fact that the universe was dying#+ the uncertainty of 'what if he doesn't like me the way i like him' woulda had him dithering#hidden-scarlet-whispers#reply
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ok dont wanna be mean to the maker of a silly video..but but.. KInda funny how most of NewMoon "abusive" moments is both gameplays with Davis and Reed mostly messing around as they do, or joke VR videos like a speed dating of Furry Moon.. I wanna bring bad that one clip were Sun list all the thing Moon (old moon) did two years ago.. then add up the new things he's done..
if we are gonna compare. lets do it right!
#tsams#sams#vison being petty? of course!!#but aa I dont like when the character is misunderstood this badly like OM wasnt a saint he didWORST#all NMoon did was be sassy and emotional but his apologies always felt waaay more real than OldMoon..juuuust sayinnn
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I see the Humboldt poll jumped several hundred votes last night.
Hello, gay Prussian plant scientist enthusiasts! We were wondering when you'd show up.
#napoleonic sexyman tournament#remember when i insisted he wasnt winning based on anti French bias#yeah about that#patron saint of botany#he has genuine fans and a lot of them
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6. “Not to be dramatic, but I’m back from the dead. Hope y’all missed me.” With Virgil and Remus?
Title: On a Stormy Sea of Emotion
Word-Count: 1.7k
Summary:
"Not to be dramatic, but I'm back from the dead. Surprise!" Remus shoots a pair of finger guns, droplets of blood spraying out from his finger tips, "Hope y'all missed me."
The cloaked figure, the target of his finger guns, does not move. Their facemask, elegantly carved to mimic a raven, stares Remus down apathetically.
Remus laughs, clasping his hands behind his neck as he leans against a building that makes up the alleyway of their standoff, "C'mon, old man. I clawed myself out of the grave and this is how you treat your 'beloved son, departed from the earth too soon?'"
OR: a Superhero AU featuring Jason Todd coded-Remus.
Pairing: parental dukexity
Warnings: Superhero AU, Death mentions, blood mention, vomit mention, implied self harm, pstd flashback, morally grey characters, angst with ambiguous ending
Thank you for the prompt! This infected my brain all last night and today, hope you enjoy <3
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Killing isn't that hard of an action, really. There is a million ways to kill someone. Guns, knives, poison or the way Remus liked it--using your bare hands. It wasn't always the most effective, but when your target knocks your knife out of your hands--well, then you gotta go for the jugular.
Remus hums as he picks up his knife, examining it. The blood dripping from its blade landed on his gloves, coating it with a metallic stench. One time as a kid, he received a paper cut and out of curiosity, he stuck his finger inside his mouth to taste his own blood.
It just had a copper tangy taste, not very appetizing. But well, he's never tried someone else's blood, what if it had a different taste? Would a greedy drug lord's blood taste too greasy? Tainted by their lack of remorse and regard for the suffering and lives destroyed in their avaricious pursuit of wealth?
He is almost halfway to enacting on such an impulse, when something shifts behind him. He turns around swiftly, his knife meeting nothing but air. But there is something there, or rather someone.
Remus cackles, his eyes darting around his surroundings. There, in the shadows of the nearby dumpster. He lowers his knife, putting it away for now.
His heart clangs loudly against his ribcage as his ears began to clamor with a loud ringing noise. This moment has always been inevitable since the second he decided to remain in this hellish city.
Remus is many things, but he is not a fool nor is he a coward. He is exhilarated this moment has come at last. Not terrified.
"Hello daddy dearest," He calls out, "it's been a while."
His words are enough to draw out the cloaked figure from out of the shadows.
"Not to be dramatic, but I'm back from the dead. Surprise!" Remus shoots a pair of finger guns, droplets of blood spraying out from his finger tips, "Hope y'all missed me."
The cloaked figure, the target of his finger guns, does not move. Their facemask, elegantly carved to mimic a raven, stares Remus down apathetically.
Remus laughs, clasping his hands behind his neck as he leans against a building that makes up the alleyway of their standoff, "C'mon, old man. I clawed myself out of the grave and this is how you treat your 'beloved son, departed from the earth too soon?'"
He already knows the truth; maybe there was a time this man had regarded him as a beloved son. Back when Remus had been a quiet, subdued child, perfectly manageable and obedient. But that time had long passed.
"I know I probably should've stayed dead but you know me! I'm not great at following rules."
Virgil Storm, or in this case, "The Raven" still doesn't do anything. It is a little unnerving, actually. Remus had expected there to be harsh words thrown his way, or perhaps even be pinned into a chokehold by this point in the interaction.
The Raven doesn't kill. During his first bout at the whole being alive thing, that been a contentious point between the two. Yet, would an abomination like Remus count as a living being?
"And," Remus says abruptly, shifting his weight against the wall, "you can't kill me. You can try, but like. It won't work. I jumped off like a twenty story building--went splat! Like a bug, it was really messy, but I didn't die. Um, you can take a DNA sample to prove it's me--"
"Remus?" The Raven speaks at last, his voice garbled and gravelly from the voice modifier of the mask.
"Yeah, it's me. I mean, we both know Prince Boring doesn't have the guts to pull off a prank like this," Remus smirks, "I'm sure he's happy that I haven't been around to play screamo when I have the aux or fill his backpack with severed Barbie doll heads."
The Raven's cloaked figure starts staggering towards him. Remus moves to stand upright once more, his body tensing. He can take the punch, it'll hurt but it won't leave any bruises. Remus has done enough experimenting to know he can't be physically harmed anymore. At least not permanently in any way that matters.
But rather a punch thrown his way, the Raven's arms seize hold of him. Not around his neck, but around his body, as the Raven leans around him, his cloak wrapping around Remus like a blanket. He is...hugging Remus? What the fuck?
A cold pricking sensation hits Remus, spreading out through every inch of his body. But he does not move to resist the Raven's embrace.
"I'm sorry," His adoptive father murmurs, "I made so many mistakes, I was afraid but I shouldn't have allowed my fear to control me in the way that I did--"
"Aren't you paranoid?" Remus whispers, "What if I'm not actually Remus? What if I'm just a shapeshifter pretending to be him? Or--or something else?"
"But I know you're you. Do you really think I wouldn't have investigated the assumed grave robbery of my son's corpse?" The Raven counters, "I already have a DNA sample I collected from your confrontation with the Dragon Witch analyzed."
Of course, of course Virgil already had a DNA sample. To any sane person, this might've been a horrifying realization. But for Remus, who spent ten years under the man's roof, this was perfectly normal behavior of a man obsessive enough to run around as a nonpowered cloaked vigilante.
"Remus, you have every reason to hate me or even Roman," The voice modifier pitched upwards in an odd high tone, "but would you'd be willing to come home for at least Janus's sake?"
Remus forgets how to breathe for a moment. There are many reasons why he hasn't sought out his family. He isn't sure if he is willing to accept Virgil's apology, much less risk seeing Roman's face again. But Janus is different. He has always understood Remus in the ways the others never did.
Despite Janus being Virgil's "man in the chair" as it were, he has never operated with the same morals. Remus will never forget the time some henchmen broke into their secret hideout while Virgil and Roman had been away on a mission. Janus had not hesitated to put lead directly into their foreheads.
"I'm afraid I don't indulge in the same mercy as your father," Janus had said, tidying up the mess they'd left behind, "It is my duty to preserve the safety of those I've been sworn to protect, even if comes at the lives of others."
The Raven is a vigilante that is shrouded in mystery. There are rumors that circulate the streets that the Raven is inhuman, a being that moves swiftly and strikes without warning. Some even dare to whisper about the unfortunate ends that some of the Raven's victims have met. What they don't know is that last bit is all of Janus's doing.
It's why Remus has never understood Virgil's hypocrisy. He'll turn a blind eye to Janus's actions but Remus, roughing up a thug a little too harshly? Oh no, no, no, that was the most heinous thing Remus could ever do.
(He wonders what his adoptive father thinks of his actions not only tonight, but the past few months. Isn't this everything his father feared and more? Putting aside the whole "not being dead" thing, isn't this enough to make him irredeemable in the Raven's eyes?)
"Janus?" Remus hesitates, "would he be willing to make his tea?"
"For you, I am sure he is willing to prepare a full spread of pastries along with a pot of tea. He has...missed you a lot, Remus."
Remus's stomach rumbles. He hasn't eaten in weeks--not since he realized his body technically doesn't need food to survive. But he does need Janus's pastries. Those pastries are never a want, but a necessity.
"Okay, I'll go." Remus says, craning his neck to meet the Raven's gaze, "but only because I'm hungry."
Somehow, this causes a snort from his adoptive father. The closest thing resembling a laugh that the Raven will ever do. When he is not the Raven, and is simply Virgil--sometimes the man will actually laugh. Even so, that snort is the closest thing to a laugh that Remus has heard from the man in close to a year before his death.
Remus's legs buckle beneath him, almost bringing the Raven down with him. But it's not from the shock of the old man laughing. No, it's more likely his body protesting his week long streak of not sleeping.
It seems even though he doesn't require as much sleep as before, he still requires a certain amount of it. Or at least, that is what makes the most sense in his hazy racing thoughts.
"I've got you," Virgil whispers, his words unfettered by the voice modifier, "you're safe now."
Arms gather underneath him, as a long Kevlar cloak is draped around his wiry figure. An unwanted memory drifts to the surface; a time where his kid self demanded to be carried home and the Raven obliged without complaint. Roman had trailed after them, begging to be carried as well.
Janus had taken one look at their return (Roman clinging to Virgil's back like a baby koala while Remus was cradled in his arms) and simply raised an eyebrow. But it was clear through his stifled breathing that he found the entire thing comical.
Remus doesn't want to fall unconscious. He'll deny it, protest it with a wide grin and a cackle, that death doesn't scare him. But he is terrified of pitch black darkness.
He fears a confined undetermined space that is meant to seal him away deep in the ground. He fears wood splinters underneath his fingernails as he chokes on dirt as he continues to dig upwards, driven by an urge to survive--to break out of the ground to blessed, fresh air. He fears staring at a gravestone and just laughing until he started vomiting clods of dirt.
What if Virgil is lying about Janus? What if he decides to bury Remus again, this time in a coffin made out of titanium or reinforced concrete--dooming him to a living death?
"No," He mumbles, attempting to grasp tightly to Virgil's cloak, "I don't--"
But his eyes flutter shut against his volition, and he can only hope that they truly did miss him enough; that the words carved on his gravestone were genuine and sincere.
Remus Seagrove
20XX-20XXX
Beloved Son, Brother, Friend
Dearly Missed and Departed from the Earth too Soon
#sander sides#virgil sanders#remus sanders#sasi fic#thomas sanders#kat writes#time to yell thoughts in the tags#firstly this fic is roughly inspired by batman comics but not a one for one AU obviously#Virgil is a very flawed individual who was trying his best parenting both Roman and Remus#Janus is acting in an Alfred role here but he is actually a former villain of Virgil's who has been 'reformed'#but he obviously still isnt above killing people lmao#he was badly wounded in a fight and isnt able to be active in the field thus the reason he operates behind the scenes for virgil#Roman and Remus take on Robin-esque roles in this AU#they are biological twins who Virgil adopted after their parents were murdered#Roman probably the most like Dick Grayson in this AU#Virgil didnt want literal children out on the streets fighting crime but eventually caved because they craved violence#Remus used to be very withdrawn as a child#it wasnt until he became a teenager he found his voice and became more vocal and resistant to blindly following authority#virgil to janus: 'stop encouraging him! you're a bad influence!'#janus sipping his tea: no <3#in comparison roman seemed like a saint and thus some tension erupted between the two#as to how he returned from the dead? similar to jason some cosmic reset occurred causing him to wake up in his coffin#unlike jason he didnt require a lazarus pit and has become some undead being that probably shouldnt exist but does#also virgil isnt old hes like in his forties lol#remus is just being annoying
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Just read Good girl, bad blood by Holly Jackson and im just-what a plot twist (I know books been here for four years but it just recently been translated to my language) never thought Charlie could be Layla
And Stanley Forbes, wow 😲, how, when
Didn't suspect on him
Listen me out, Stanley Forbes didnt deserve to die! He was a child when all of that happened, hes better now.
Stanley Forbes
7.6.1988. - 4.5.2018.
You were better
#aggtm#aggtm spoilers#ggbb#holly jackson#he was just a child#he didn't deserve this#he didnt need to die#he wasnt a saint but he tried to do better#so sad
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had fun playing co op with @shadowefigure @overstays @plutosoda
#rain world#slugcat#saint rw#rivulet rw#artificer rw#spearmaster rw#IM LAZY TO TAG THEM ANY DIFFERENTLY.#ok for context i was riv but slugpup .#the colors arent accurate but i didnt wanna get rid of the sheer cuteness of baby rivulet..#i was named purple guy but i looked like a dragonfruit#the lavender marriage bit comes from mimi saying that arti and saint are fakedating to not look gay#also mimi (they were baby spearmaster) was named BLUE BABY all caps yes all caps#GIRL boss#BLUNT dad#those are obvioys.#babby saint is unrelated i was just disappointed when atlas showed me slugpup saint and it wasnt as fluffy as i expected.#have you seen a fluffy kitten? those things are RIDICULOUSLY fluffy most ofhte time.#and also the rocks hting uh . i kept hitting debil (he was saint) with rocks bcz its funny and im the adhd having problem child#[rare art tag]#cs#cc
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Deaf Republic - Ilya Kaminsky
[TEXT ID: —observe this moment / how it convulses— / the body of the boy lies on the asphalt / like a paperclip. / the body of the boy lies on the asphalt / like the body of a boy.]
#jason todd#cryptcites#last one i swear#but just always thinking about how no. he wasnt some martyr or sent saint. he was just a child who wanted his mom.#he was a little boy that died feeling alone and scared and betrayed and hurt. who died while still trying to save another.#he was a kid that believed in batman and that the good guys would win because being robin gave him magic.#the magic died and he was just a child laying dead on the pavement. he was a kid. he was just a boy.#and then the fact that his death is such a big significance that the narrative (and family) is just#constantly grieving the child while the man that lives is being haunted. by himself by the others by the narrative.#the feeling of 'im better off dead' but actually seeing that you were.#dying knowing you were loved vs living and doubting it every day. dying a boy hero and not recognizing your reflection as a man.#anyways :)#gn my little cryptids <33
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My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.
#butch speaks#it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head#when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god#the words came naturally to me#but they meant nothing#i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away#i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred#i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake#i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex#fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic#i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun#the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun.#not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO#the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love.#he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like#he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever.#he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer#then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there.#he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did.#but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there.#that wasnt for us.#my family wasnt even THAT catholic#i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group#i was an altar servant and in the choir#i even used to speak/understand a little latin#imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao#grateful to have grown up poor in that regard#hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually.#fucking hell.#i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.
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