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AK!Jason doesnât really like anything.. but he really likes spending time with you.
There isnât much joy in his life, and when he does experience it, itâs pretty hard to tell. Very hard in fact. When Jason is his absolute happiest itâs truly rare that heâs fully conscious or not coming down from a state of extreme distress and panic.
More recent anecdotes of him happily existing involve him waking up or falling asleep alongside you, preventing a loved one from being fatally hurt, or brutalizing soneone that hurts you. Pretty scary, but these arenât things he wants to acknowledge in the slightest or ever make known to you. External validation is necessary for him to truly feel good at this point in his life, which is something youâre privy toâ just not the extent obviously.
When JT is hardly awake or really beginning to fall into whatâll be a comfortable dreamless sleep, he feels safe and secure enough to relax properly. Heâs being held, allowed to be perceivably weak in a way that he deems acceptable. He can bury himself deep into the warmth and softness of your body to be protected from the nipping cold of Gotham.
Itâs such a special time for him, a sacred moment that he cherishes.
You are his one precious piece of bliss.
Jason doesnât acknowledge your gentle scalp rubs and lip balm coated kisses outside of a slight tightening of his grasp on your t-shirt. Greedily and lazily claiming his lover and her kind gestures of affection.
This is the most common and most easily detectable example of happiness from Jason. Itâs somewhat complex without any explanation but still worth noting to an observant s/o of JT. I think that Jason himself though wouldnât identify this experience (or lack of) is actually happening beyond him being happy to snuggle every once in a while. Being able to be excited to be touched instead of anxious or irrationally annoyed, it doesnât occur to himself how often heâs in a nasty mood.
Preventing a loved one from being hurt only gives a small sense of joy thatâs usually overshadowed by guilt and anger. The fact that the situation happened in the first place is somehow his own fault in the mind of Jason. But there are times where youâre able to thank him immediately after the fact, those are the times he can feel ego. That pat on the back is always a major surprise to him! Any gratitude he receives in moments so stressful boost his confidence a lot. When you do that he doesnât have to much time to think about every specific way he fucked up, instead heâs concentrated on rationalizing why youâre complimenting something that in his head couldâve been somehow avoided.
You give him a quick hug and smile up at his faceless red helmet, telling him things couldâve ended terribly if he hadnât been there. There is a small ping of joy radiate from within his chest. The positive reinforcement of your small affirming touches and verbal encouragement give pause to the harsh self criticisms. While the ultimate core emotions attached to this moment would be some initial surprise and frustration, there will always be a lingering feeling of pride that he got to be your hero.
As for getting a lick-back for your sake, lol, heâs pretty fucked up about it. Whether it be a lowly henchman/gang member or a notorious villain, he doesnât know when to let upâ or if he wants to. Deep down Jason derives a sick sense of joy from maiming people. Itâs not his fault, but itâs his responsibility to face this dark and crooked part of himself. He knows it spooks you, it spooks all his loved ones, but he canât help it can he? He canât help being the twisted mangled thing Joker forced him to become.
Jason just wants you to feel safe.
He almost never feels safe so this is a favor from him to you of course..
For you to feel safe around a psycho like him.
#jason todd#jt <3#head empty#jason todd x reader#jason peter todd#arkham knight#red hood#ak!jason#jayborb#i didnât think while writing this#no brain#just feels#pls enjoy#end jtâs suffering and snuggle him#tell jt heâs a good person#ilysm jason#đŤśđž
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Barou starting a new relationship with a shy girl and how he would go about it
The literal personification of trying to mix oil with water
He was used to everyone looking at him in times of need on the field - he was the king after all - so he didnât even notice how you would take a step back whenever it came time to ordering food, or any sort of public speaking and interactions.
He naturally took the lead, and you followed suit. Thanking the lord.
He honestly didnât even notice how shy you were- he just kinda assumed you like hearing him talk. It wasnât until he passed by an aisle of cute keychains and decided that he wanted to get you one when he realized⌠he kinda didnât know anything about you.
I mean he did. He knew your name, your heightâŚ. The colour of your eyesâŚ. And hair⌠andâŚ
âSo what do you do?â He asked bluntly as the two of you walked down a park, ice creams in hand. The one he ordered. âWhat?â âHobbies? Sports? What do you do in your spare time?â He asked as he looked at you, determined to get an answer. âYou know⌠the usual stuff-â you awkwardly chuckle. âI donât know actually.â He was a little shit about it.
But after literally interrogating you for an entire hour, he managed to squeeze out an answer from you. You were completely cornered by him, and you shyly tell him your hobbies. He looks dumbfounded, because to him those are completely normal and healthy hobbies for someone to have. He was starting to think youâre a grave robber by the way you were acting.
Knitting? He will get you the yarn, and parade a scarf you made for him and show all his teammates. Collecting something? He will always be on the lookout for what you like, even going as far as asking his teammates to be on the lookout as well. Video games? He will learn to play your favourite game with you. Cute farming sim? Silent hill? Niche indie game that only 3 people know about? You best bet he will ask for a 4 hour lore deep dive.
Very supportive.
Lwokey will get annoyed at your shyness at one point.
At first he thinks itâs cute, but heâs not the type of person to fully baby anyone, and will force you to order your own meal. He wants the best for you :(
Will say his order and look at you to say yours, watching you stumble on your words as you try to order some fries and a sprite. And will say heâs proud of you after. But doesnât do it often because he can see the genuine terror in your eyes - only does it even itâs the two of you in line on a slow day.
Slowly learns to accept that youâre passionate in your own way. Heâs loud and proud, whereas you like to keep to yourself. In a way he likes that youâre so open with him, that you let him see the stuff you donât show other people. Thinks itâs adorable.
Will 100% try to make you more comfortable and less shy. You bought a new dress and donât want to wear it, he will bluntly tell you it looks good and it would be a waste of money not to wear it.
Encourages your fashion choices. Polly pocket platform heels? He loves them. Bold lipstick? He will buy you earring that match. He quietly realized he liked seeing you happy. And you were happiest being yourself.
Heâs not a big fan of grossly obvious PDA. Loves holding your hand or when you grab his bicep when you two walk together. You like it because it doesnât draw unnecessary attention and he likes it cuz youâre always attached next to him and he doesnât have to worry about actually loosing you. Plus he likes it when you grab his bicep.
Took forever to convince you to come to one of his games. You were too nervous to get into an arena with so many people - said you could come with a group of his teammates girlfriends - but you hated the idea of being with people you didnât know.
He got really good at spotting you in the crowd. Didnât matter where you were sitting, he just trained himself to see you. You were too shy to loudly cheer like everyone else, blending into the crowd due to that. But it didnât matter.
In a weird way. He likes that hes the only one who gets to see you this happy, because hes the same with you. Slowly learning to take his guard down, be more open.
Youâre learning to be confident while heâs learning to be trusting.
#ferg0s#blue lock barou#baro shoei#barou shoei x reader#blue lock oneshots#blue lock imagines#blue lock#blue lock x reader#barou fluff#barou x reader#barou shouei
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Till, IvĂĄn and sua x deaf reader please i am KNEELING
TILL, IVAN, SUA WITH A DEAF READER !
Includes: Till, Ivan, Sua / deaf reader / gn!reader / fluff / kisses
A/N: I tried to make this as respectful as possible,,, if you want me to change anything lmk !
Sua
You are deaf? that's fine with her. She knows sign language and communicates with you through it!
She wasn't the best at it, though. But through you, she managed to learn more of it.
Some people don't know you're deaf, but she explains it to them.
If they aren't respectful about it, she'll deal with them.
Sua smiled happily at you as she held you close to her chest. You could feel her chest rising up and down. It felt soothing to be this close to her.
Softly running her hands through your hair, she kissed your forehead and then placed her lips to the tip of your nose.
You were so dear to her. You were her love, and she would do anything to ensure your happiness and wellbeing.
Moving her hands towards your chin, she caressed your face with her fingertips.
There are many ways of saying 'I love you'.
Ivan
Unlike Sua, he didn't really know sign language, but he tried to understand you via body language and also writing.
After a while, he eventually learned a bit of sign language.
He's trying his best...
People don't dare to be disrespectful with you because they know Ivan would most definitely beat them up.
"I love you so much, dearest!" Ivan beamed out as he wrapped his arms around you. You could lipread, so you understood what he had said.
You gently separated from the hug, and there was an overjoyed expression in his face. Why was he so happy? Well, he had you, and that made him the happiest he had ever been.
You were the light in his darkness. He loved you, so so so much! He'd make sure you always know how loved you are.
Till
He's trying his best to communicate with you,, and sometimes his best is bad
He genuinely didn't know you could lipread
And he looked very stupid. Before you two started dating, he would say small things like "I love you" in front of you.
You can imagine how he got when he found out you could understand what he was saying.
"You â you idiot..." He paused before continuing speaking. "Does that mean you knew how much I loved you BEFORE we started dating?" He tried not to look so flustered.
Reading his lips, you nodded your head to signal a small 'yes'. How embarrassing was that? You had seen him express his love so openly, and he thought he was hiding it so carefully.
"Just... don't tell anyone. Y'know, they'd tease me about it so..." Till leaned in a bit closer before pressing his lips against your own. "... just stay quiet." a genuine, warm smile spread across his face.
#alien stage x reader#alnst x reader#alnst#fluff#alien stage#till x reader#ivan x reader#sua x reader#sua alnst#sua alien stage#sua alnst x reader#alnst sua x reader#alnst ivan#alnst ivan x reader#alnst till x reader#till alien stage x reader#ivan alien stage x reader#deaf!reader
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Okay, but how would crew react to reader accidentally killing Jimmy in self defense. Like, he wanted to assault them (sexual or physical, it can be anything), so, they took a screwdriver to stab him in the eye, or stomach, neck, whatever. But they were absolutely horrified and in so much shock, because they killed a person and starts to overthinking and on verge of crying on what they should do.
CREW MEMBERS REACTION TO READER ACCIDENTALLY K/LLING JIMMY;
Curly
- he is so horrifyingly conflicted,at one moment his heart is agonizingly paining at the loss of his best friend,but on the other end,as the captain of the ship,he can't even deny the harassment allegations, knowing that it isn't the first time.
- is gonna need lots of alone time to think,to reflect,to prepare himself for what he was going to tell his friends and jimmy's family.
- he will so be in his thoughts that he would forget to eat or sleep.
- from that point onwards,he will be strictly neutral towards you.
Swansea
- he was incredibly taken aback by this sudden turn of events on the ship.
- he doesn't really care that jimmy is dead,his only concerns are that his body is going to stink up the ship,and is only one more problem added.
- is slightly kind of relieved because he thought that jimmy was slightly off-putting.
- won't really comfort you on the matter,but wouldn't scold you either. he would simply not bring it up.
Daisuke
- oh. wow. okay. damn.
- gets really sad to see you so scared and upset,stays up all night to either comfort you,okay games with you(on the game boy or board games)
- "don't be sad y/n! I knew he was a bad guy! His vibes were so off! It's not your fault at all! Don't be upset,it doesn't suit you, im always here for you baby!".
- hugs you whenever he sees you feeling down,will not let anyone bring up the topic,if anyone does,he changes it.
Anya
- based. based. based. based. based. based.
- is the happiest person on the ship,smiles for the first time in forever.
- along with Daisuke,she doesn't let you feel bad about it,she herself gets so upset upon hearing what he tried to do to you.
- tries her best to cheer you up.
- "don't you beat yourself up about it y/n, it's one bad person removed from this world".
#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing jimmy#anya mouthwashing#captain curly#grant curly#curly mouthwashing#swansea#mechanic swansea#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing daisuke
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The ask about alpha Dream dicking alpha Hob so good he not only becomes an omega but gets pregnant has not left my brain. Like, at all.
Add to that my love for beefcake omegas and we get Dream suffering because Hob's already glorious chest is even more glorious now that he's in the late stage of pregnancy, but he cannot do anything about it because Hob keeps complaining about how sensitive his chest is :(
Hob meanwhile is googling how many hints can you drop about wanting your alpha to play with your tits until you just have to outright tell him without making it weird because your relationship is new and not exactly clear.
Or less googling and more like starting a reddit thread because this is a niche issue but he needs advice damn it.
- đ
Deeply obsessed with this actually!!!!
I can imagine that the reddit thread goes a little like this.
morpheusalpha: I (35M, alpha) accidentally bitched someone and now he (33M, omega) is pregnant. At first we weren't together, but we have decided to pursue a relationship and we are very happy together. However, he is now reaching the late stages of pregnancy and I have become unreasonably obsessed by his breasts. He is now very well endowed and generally very uncomfortable (due to soreness) and I do not want to make him feel worse. How should I approach this issue?
----------weirddreammer: bro how do you accidentally bitch someone wtf
----------yourfavouritelibrarian: hello! i would recommend asking your omega partner how best you can help him. he may be very glad to have your attention on this newly developing part of his body! good luck to you both!
-----------newomega1389: omg I'm in the exact opposite situation to you!! I recently became an omega via bitching (best thing that ever happened to me btw) and I'm currently pregnant!! Tbh I wish my alpha would be interested in my tits, I'm a little shy about them but I really want him to touch and I'm super horny but I don't want to scare him off haha. Hopefully we both find a resolution!!
It takes them an unreasonably long time to work out that they're talking to each other on the same damn reddit thread. At least Hob can blame pregnancy-brain, Dream has no excuse for being oblivious. Except maybe that he was distracted by Hobâs new boobs...
In any case they finally have a chat about the issue, and both of them are thoroughly satisfied with the outcome. Hob feels truly like the happiest omega in the world as Dream kneads his full, sore tits and covers the newly burgeoning flesh in kisses. This is the life he was meant for. He can't wait for his milk to come in, so that he can provide for his child... and maybe let Dream have a suckle now and then. As long as he gives Hob a good long knotting in return!
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⥠says heâs gonna teach me just what fast is, say itâs gonna be alright ââ ⢠ăťâ¸â¸
cyno x fem!reader
it's been days since the investigation started, and you were losing hope. will you get your deserved freedom, or will it be taken away?
a/n : please read part 1 before reading this! also i wrote this at like 1am last night so I apologise if the writing is bad!! >_<
word count : 1595
⥠One day had passed since Cyno returned to the Akademiya to search for evidence that could lead to the student being the one who really committed those crimes and not you.
As for yourself, you went back to Aaru Village since you couldnât possibly show up at the Akademiya after everything that has happened. Your parents happily greeted you and let you stay for the time being.
Of course, they had asked why you suddenly came back to Aaru Village but you just explained that you wished to see them again after so long, which wasnât necessarily a lie and it held some truth but not the full truth.
You had busied yourself with helping around the house, doing chores such as helping with cleaning and cooking, and even going out of your way to assist Candace if she needed anything. You just needed to keep your mind distracted and not let it wander to... well, you know what.
But one day soon turned into three days...
Three days since that fateful day.
When you were left alone with your thoughts, you always came to the conclusion that maybe the search is just taking a while... after all, evidence isnât something that can just be found easily, especially when youâre investigating a student from the Akademiya.
During the evening, just as the sun dipped low over the dunes, you found yourself at the village outskirts, taking a short walk with Candace. âYou know,â Candace started to speak, her hands behind her back. âI always thought youâd find your way back here someday. You left to chase your dreams and become something great, but thereâs a peace in Aaru Village that canât be found anywhere else, so you return to it.â
You managed a faint smile. âI never thought Iâd come back like this, unannounced too. Well, what can I say? I wanted to make my family and the fellow desert folk proud before I made my return.â
Candace let out a hum, nodding. âAnd you have made your family and the desert folk proud. Youâll be a clear inspiration to the children of the village too, and theyâll feel as if their dreams of becoming a scholar in the Akademiya isnât silly at all, but very manageable and achievable if they study well.â
Being seen as an inspiration right now with everything thatâs going on, isnât exactly how you wish to be seen... after all, you donât even know if you can return to the Akademiya after this. If you can continue being a scholar...
That was always there in the back of your mindâ the sights of the cold, judgmental faces of the council that replayed nonstop, you wondering if Cyno would find any proof... it kept gnawing at you, a constant ache you couldnât shake, no matter what you did. It was always there, haunting you.
The third day soon turned into the fifth day.
Five days since the investigation started.
You couldnât deny the hopelessness you started to feel, perhaps this was it, no evidence leading to the student being the one who did it and youâre forced to stand on trial and get locked away for a long, long time while he stays free.
The fifth night was colder than usual, the desert winds sharper, biting at your skin as you lay awake, staring up at the vast sky with the stars lighting it up. You couldnât help but head to the top of the hill where you and Cyno usually laid and stargazed as kids.
As you settled under the twinkling night sky, your thoughts began to spiral deeper.. wondering if this would be the last freedom you would ever experience, the last time youâd get to look up at the stars as a free person?
Shoving those thoughts asideâ you tried to find comfort in the memory of this place, this familiar hill where so many of your happiest moments had been spent with Cyno. It was here that you used to imagine a world filled with possibilities, a future full of promise.
But now, that future seemed farther away than ever. Completely stripped away from you and the hard work you had put in for it was useless. Utterly useless.
Had it not been for you being so naive and trusting of others, youâd still be at the Akademiya, going on with your research but it seems like you just so happened to be unfortunate that day and everything came crashing down.
Studying in advance for everything, making so many backup projects and theories for all the work you had to do as an average student... just what was all that for? The all-nighters you had to go through, the amount of times youâd be too tired to focus on what the professors were teaching, but fighting through that tirednessâ achieving the best grades that you possibly can.
All of that... for what?
You break out of your thoughts once you hear distant footsteps coming from behind youâ standing up and turning around... you recognized that individual very well, his silhouette outlined by the moonlight.
âCyno,â You whispered, barely able to believe he was really approaching. âYouâre here?â
âIâm here. The search took longer than I expected, but I found it,â Cyno started. âThe evidence. The student made an error while forging your signatureâ he left a trail. It was subtle, almost too well-hidden, but there was enough to prove he was the one behind everything.â
Hearing those words... your face lit up fully, those thoughts that were driving you mad just a few seconds agoâ completely disappearing. Feeling the wave of happiness and relief wash over you, you couldnât help but run up to Cyno and wrap your arms around him, pulling him in for a hug.
He was a bit surprised at the sudden affection at first, but quickly came to accept it, his arms wrapping around your waistâ keeping you close to him. The nightmare you were living in for so long... it was finally over.
âI knew youâd be able to do it,â You whispered against his shoulder, letting out a short laughter of relief afterward. âI was starting to lose hope, but... I shouldâve known better. I shouldâve known youâd find a way. Youâre not the General Mahamatra for no reason.â
Cyno pulled back slightly to meet your gaze. âI wasnât going to let you suffer for someone elseâs deceit. After all, itâs my duty to bring justice to everyone.â
His words were a reminder of just how deeply he cared for somebody close to him, even if he rarely allowed it to show. âI donât know how to thank you,â You pause, a grin that carried only joy appearing on your face. âFor not giving up on me, even when it seemed impossible.â
âYou donât have to thank me, [name]. You know I would never give up on you, not in a million years.â A warmth spread throughout you, making your heart race, and your stomach felt those butterfliesâ the same ones you had felt whenever you were around him as a youngin.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. Silence making itself very known, but it would occasionally be broken by the sounds of the soft rustle of the desert wind. Looking into his red eyes that so carefully looked back into yours... you knew it was the right time to do what youâve been wanting to for so, so long.
Your hands slither up to his neck, letting them rest there as you lean into his face, closing your eyes before you place your lips onto hisâ a fiery feeling coursing through the both of you.
The worries, the pain, the harshness of the past days all melted into the background, leaving only the warmth of his lips against yours and the steady beat of your hearts.
The kiss deepened, and a spark ignited between you. Here, in this quiet yet passionate embrace, you felt as if youâd come home at last, to a place you hadnât known youâd been searching for. A true home.
Cyno was your home, and he was the one that you would cherish for eternity.
You finally pull back, breathing in the desert air as you open your eyes. âDidnât expect that, did you?â You chuckle, a small smile playing on your lips as your eyes meet his once more. âI canât say I did, but itâs not unwelcome.â His hand reached up to brush a stray strand of hair from your face, fingers lingering against your cheek as if he wanted to memorize this moment.
âWanted to do that since we were in our teenage years... been waiting for this for so long.â You admit, feeling a hint of embarrassment but too happy to care. A faint smile curled his lips, and he leans closer, his forehead resting gently against yours. âYou donât have to wait anymore.â Cyno murmurs.
âHonestly... forget about the butterflies. When Iâm with you, I feel the whole zoo.â And of course... the romantic moment was ruined just like that, he really couldnât hold back a joke, could he?
âYou shouldâve stayed quiet...â You mumbled, a sigh escaping your lips.
For the first time, you felt certain that this was only the beginningâ the beginning of an actual happy future with the one you love most. No matter what may come, Cyno will always be there by your side,
loving you to the moon and back.
#cyno imagines#cyno oneshot#cyno angst#cyno fluff#genshin impact cyno#cyno x y/n#cyno x you#genshin cyno#cyno x reader#cyno#cyno fanfic#cyno fanfiction#cyno scenarios#genshin impact x reader#genshin impact x you#genshin x you#genshin imagines#genshin fanfic#genshin x reader#genshin impact#fluff#angst#genshin fluff#x reader
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Can I request a Carol Danvers x sister reader please where R lives a normal life on earth but is constantly worried and missing Carol? Carol comes back during the snap era of Earth and finds R, but r is a bit cold as she thinks Carol doesn't care about her. Angst at the start but then they slowly rebuild their sisterly bond?
Shooting Stars
Pairing:Â Carol Danvers x Sister! Reader
Summary:Â When the whole world is turned upside down, your sister was the last person you expected to see.
Angst & Comfort
Warnings: Fear of Abandonment, Mentions of family âdeathâ | 2K
AC:Â Iâm not 100% confident on the history of Carol and her family so please forgive me for any mistakes. Thank you for sending this & I hope you enjoy! x
The snap wasnât easy for anybody, especially those who had lost a friend or family member to Thanoâs actions. It had only been a week since you realized that your mother, father and older brother had fallen victims to the snap, leaving you on earth alone to continue life in a new form. You were the youngest of three, Steve was the eldest and then came your older sister, Carol and then came you.Â
Growing up you had a close bond with Carol, the two of you did almost everything together. Wherever Carol was, there you were right by her side. You adored your older sister; she was everything to you, you loved her drive to do whatever she wanted, you were there for her when she joined the air force but then she left.
Since then, things between you and Carol were never the same. She spent more and more time in space and communication between you both got quieter as the weeks turned to months and eventually you just accepted the fact that Carol had found a better place to be, a better family.Â
Steve was at work when the snap took him, your mother was out having coffee with her closet friend and your father was on his way to work. You reached out to Carol, leaving her a message to let her know that your parents and brother were victims of Thanos, you didnât expect a reply, it had been months since you last heard from her.Â
The afternoon sun kissed the living room of your family home, trying to watch a movie to pass the quietness of your home, you closed the blinds before you heard the sounds of an aircraft landing out the front. You knew who it was, you just didnât care to greet her. Instead, you returned to the sofa and did your best to bring your focus back to the movie you were halfway through.Â
Carol opened the front door, letting herself in like she normally would. Her footsteps could be heard making their way to the living room before you looked over your shoulder and laid eyes on her. One look at you and she knew it would take a bit for you to talk to her, after all, she knew you better than anybody else, so she thought.Â
âGirls Trip, thatâs a good movieâ her voice spoke over the movie.Â
âYeahâ you mumbled, not even thinking about pausing the movie to give her any more of your attention. From the corner of your eye, you watched as Carol took a seat in the armchair that your father claimed as his. You looked over to her, âIâd rather you not sit thereâ you said, âyou know he didnât like us sitting in his chairâ you added.
âWell, I guess he isnât here to tell me offâ Carol replied, jokingly in hopes it would break the ice.Â
âIâm glad you think the death of our father is funnyâ you shook your head before turning the tv off, âwhat do you want Carol?â You turned to her.Â
âI came here for youâ she admitted.Â
âIâm doing just fineâ you sighed.Â
Carolâs eyes dropped slightly, âyouâre mad at meâÂ
âOf course Iâm mad at you!â You snapped, âyou havenât been here! I know what you do is important, and this isnât your fault, but itâs been a week Carol, a damn week! And now you want to come here for me? You didnât even reply to my message to me know that you were okay so yeah, excuse me for not exactly being the happiest to see youâÂ
Carol watched as you wandered off to your bedroom, slamming the door behind you. With your little outburst, it gave Carol a bit of an idea on where your emotions were at. She knew she hadnât been the best sister to you or Steve in recent years, she knew she had to do better.
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Carol didnât leave that night, the next morning, you woke up to the smell of bacon sizzling on the stove. It reminded you of how your mother would make your father breakfast each morning before he would leave for work, you were a student studying from home to become an architect so your mother would always whip you up a quick breakfast for when you awoke.Â
âI hope youâre hungryâ Carol smiled softly, flipping a slice of bacon when she heard you enter the kitchen.Â
âIâm a vegetarianâ you replied, opening the fridge to grab the fresh strawberries you had brought yesterday.Â
âI knew thatâ Carol said more so to herself, âI suppose you wonât eat the eggs then?â She asked.Â
âNot since youâve cooked them in the same pan as the bacon and besides, I had eggs yesterdayâ you replied before wandering outside to the back patio. Carol sighed, the last time she saw you, you mentioned that you had decided to go vegetarian, but it slipped her mind. She finished cooking breakfast and turned the stove off.Â
That afternoon, a little after lunch, you had gotten yourself ready to go for a small jog around the neighborhood when Carol asked if she could join you.Â
âIf you want, but Iâm not slowly down if you canât keep upâ you replied, tying your shoelaces. Your cold bluntness towards her was starting to really bother her. âCan we talk first?â She asked, seeing you roll your eyes at her request.Â
âWhat do you want to talk about, Carol?â You asked, sitting back in the sofa, looking up at her.Â
Carol wasnât exactly expecting you to respond the way you did, putting her slightly off guard. She wasnât sure where to start or what to say that would make up for her absence. She took a seat next to you before breaking the silence, âIâm sorryâ she said softly but clearly.Â
âYouâre sorry? Okay, cool, are we done?â You asked, crossing your arms over your chest.
Carol shook her head, âno, I want to make sure youâre okayâÂ
âOkay? Carol, you donât understand. Iâm not just mad at you for waiting a week to come home, Iâm mad because you abandoned me. You left. You left us, your family and went off into space and found a better place to be. You donât talk to me anymore; it seems like you donât even want to know how we are doing or anything. You picked your new family and it fucking hurts. I looked up to you, I would stay up all night worrying about you! Every shooting star I saw, I wondered if you saw it too.Â
Steve moved out and is living is own life, but he comes home to visit, and I go to visit him. I canât just get up and fly into space to see you whenever I miss you or just want to bitch to my sister about life. I lost mom, dad and Steve but I lost you long before I lost themâ tears filled your eyes as you struggled to maintain eye contact with your older sister.Â
âSorry doesnât just fix this Carol. Sorry means nothing to me. I want my sister back; I want my sister who would make me laugh when I had a bad day, I want my sister who would tell me all about aircrafts and what you liked most about them, I miss when you would take me out for ice cream just because we were bored, I miss talk to you, I miss tell you all about my day and asking you for advice. I miss my sister. Youâre just Carol to me nowâ you added, tears now streaming down your face. You hated getting emotional, before Carol had a chance to say a word, you stood up and wiped your tears.Â
âJust give me some spaceâ you said softly before going for your jog, leaving Carol to drown in her thoughts and guilt for the way she had made you feel.Â
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Later that night, you were catching up on some study when you took a break to get yourself a drink. The house was quiet, but the lights were left on, Carol was nowhere to be seen. You sighed, assuming that she had taken the easy way and left back to her new home but just as you grabbed a cold bottle of water from the fridge, you heard the front door close.Â
âOh good, youâre out of your roomâ Carol smiled, placing a paper bag of goods on the counter, âyou need to put some air in your tires, theyâre getting flatâ she added.Â
âW-what, I mean, where did you go?â You asked, confused.Â
âI went out and got us some movies, old school on DVD of course. Did you know long I had to drive to find a store that rents out movies? I gave up and just brought theseâ she replied, pulling out a pile of 6 DVDâs and placing them beside the bag. From what you could see it was a mix of comedy and action movies, not surprisingly as the two of you loved watching those as children.Â
âThen I stopped at the store and got some ice cream, I know itâs not the same as going out to get it but figured thereâs no harm in having a tub each, right?â She added. You gave her little to know reaction, just a soft smile and nod as you watched her unload snacks and the ice cream from the brown paper bag.Â
She turned to you, âI know Iâve hurt you; I know words wonât do anything to fix what Iâve broken but I need you to know that I never abandoned you, I thought about you every single day, I donât have an excuse for what Iâve done but I canât learn from my mistakes if you donât let me tryâÂ
Your eyes dropped to the pile of DVDs on the counter, âwe are not watching pearl harbourâ you replied, âand Iâm taking the strawberry ice creamâ you smiled softly which caused Carol to also smile. You grabbed a spoon from the drawer, took the ice cream tub and waited in the living room for Carol to join you. It would take some time for things to be rebuilt again between you both but as much as you were upset with Carol, you knew deep down you canât stay mad at her forever.Â
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Carol stayed with you for months, only ever going back to space twice a week to make sure things were still in order but she made it clear that her top priority was being there for you. Sometimes you even went with her to space, where she showed you around her place. She had childhood photos of you and her hung up in her living room which made you smile softly to yourself, maybe you were a little too harsh on your sister after all, she was always trying to keep the world safe.Â
âWhat are you working on?â You asked Carol who was under her aircraft in her green overalls that your mother had left hanging up in Carolâs childhood wardrobe.Â
âJust making sure everything is okay with the oil and tighten bots, can you hand me the wrench?â She asked. You lent down and picked up the silver wrench and handed it to her. âCan I help with anything?â You offered, remembering when you were younger and Carol would teach you things about the engine and let you help her out whenever there was something mechanically wrong.Â
âActually, yeah! If you wanna come under here and hold this piece of metal in place for me, that would be really helpful!â Carol replied.Â
âLemme go get changed firstâ you said, seeing as you didnât want to ruin your clothes.
Carol, under the aircraft smiled to herself while she waited for you to return, she also missed having her sister around to do things with. One day at a time, the sisterly bond you and Carol once had returned, only stronger.
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Gonna have to reject your offer of He/ It cheif. Managment (Logan) would kill you for even inferring the idea.
Other people would come along and be like "What is that thing!??"
And you would just see Logan shift instantly from "Yeah ill give you a can of beans and a place to rest" to "Get the fuck off my property before you become his dinner" all while Wade is just... sitting there... behaving??
"He's not a THING! Thats my husband you asshole! And if you don't like it then fuck off!" Followed by Gabby going "Thats my papa you jerk!"
"It's just a zombie? You're married to a sombie!?"
"Again- HES my husband. I said till death do us part except death really isnt his thing so im stuck with him. You got a problem with that!?"
It makes Wade always very happy to be defended even though he surely could do it himself. For the most part things are pretty tame.
But he DOES clap a bit when logan mentions feeding him. 'Ooh yay, I get fed multiple times today' kind of way since Logan is very strict about resources, Wades is not allowed to just eat whatever because he'd probably just eat everything.
Sometimes if Logan forgets to feed him, He'll come to Logan and give him this specific whine, like a dog begging for bacon scraps only for Logan to feel terrible. "Oh my god Im sorry we were so busy today and- ... You're starving and you're not trying to bite me... you're trying so hard.. aw fuck wade.. im so sorry.. what am I going to do with you?"
"Mmm.... rawhrah?"
"Right. Feed you before you go insane. Got it."
Some days are like this. When he's clearly much more human. Being permitted cuddles and nuzzles, to play with gabby and to sleep in the bed. It's very rare that Logan lets him sleep in the bed. But it's the happiest day for wade when he is. And its not like they can even do anything (bro lost his dick miles ago and has no clue where the fuck it went but it just fell off somewhere and now hes a ken doll. This is great for those of you who like transfem wade COUGH COUGH)
But even if it didn't fall off its not like they could do anything anyway, They can't even kiss on the lips anymore. Logan has a theory that it's similar to rabies, where the infection has to be spread through saliva into an open cut or your mouth, etc.
So the nights he's allowed, they honestly just cuddle and stare at each other for a bit before sleeping. Usually, Wade is the little spoon because having Wade behind him is dangerous.
Wade heavily sees affection as a reward now, so getting to hug the girls is a massive thing for him, getting to sit there and watch gabby draw him is a big thing, hell Logan will sometimes even let Gabby play with wade out front because Wade has whole ass attacked other zombies whos tried to hurt gabby before.
One time Laura shot him in the head because gabby thought it would be a good idea to play "pretend zombie" and Wade didnt put two and two togerher that acting 'feral' as Logan calls it, outside with gabby would be a bad idea.
"What the fuck did you do that for!?"
"He was feral and going after gabs!!"
"Nu uh!! We were playing and you killed him for no reason! Youre so mean!"
Logan just sighs as gabby runs to her bed because it upsets her greatly when they have to 'keep wade in check' she fully understands that hes dangerous but deep down thats still her papa and watching your big sissy kill your papa is not something most 13 year olds would enjoy.
".. L.. you gotta stop wasting ammo. You know if it was really a code red that wouldn't do anything anyway. You have to decapitate him if you even want a flying chance. See?? Hes already up again... hi sweetie..."
Wade, whos sat up and now giving them a confused look of 'what did I do? đĽş'
"...arr Arawh"
"Im sorry, wade.." Laura squeaks out, still holding the shot gun. Shes just terrified of loosing gabby is all. To her, gabs is her responsibility.
"Rah awr rahrrr..."
"I know. She's sorry. She's just.. scared. No more playing that okay?"
"Mmh..đ"
There is infact some drift between laura and wade but neither of them mean it. Really they dont. If gabs is put of the picture Laura still smiles and talks to him but its like the moment gabby is near him Laura goes full protection mode and over reacts.
And FOR THE RECORD i have never seen the walking dead but its terrifying how accurate that picture is.
The longest Wade has been unconscious is probably 18 hours but this was before getting to the girls.
They have witnessed the exact thing you're saying, though. With Wade tied down in the shed, on his leash, and handcuffed, trying to talk to him, yelling at him to snap out of it because he's scaring the girls. Something different about feral wade from the other zombies though is it seems he's smarter, knawing on his handcuffs while most will just flail their arms helplessly. While his teeth dont do shit to the cuffs, its scary for Logan because it makes him think that one day he might actually have to find a way to kill him permanently.
He can undo locks, open cans, do many things that the others cant and he wants to believe its just Wades human part being stronger because in some weird way hes half mutant human and half zombie. A weird combo that makes him much different.
Laura, unlike gabby, too is terrified of one day wade going feral while their father is out collecting more supplies or hunting and she wont know what to do.
Wade isnt fast though. Thats the ONLY good thing. Hes smart, cant die, and is starving to death all the time. But hes slow. Infact he dosn't heal properly. His leg is half broken still from the last time it fell off and seems to barely be receptive to his brains nerves telling it to move so he lowkey drags it, only being able to use it to stand up right and take very small steps.
When he DOES finally come back hours later, He cries. Apologizes, begs for forgiveness, and most times is actually SCARED of Logan. While he hates it emotionally, he knows that logically it was a good thing for Wade to flinch away from him after being locked up.
A scared and fed zombie is a well-behaved zombie...
And before anyone comes here to say this is dehumanization of what ever else- HES LITERALLY NOT HUMAN ANYMORE.
Case closed. Besides I think wade would worry more about the fact of him trying to kill his kids then the fact hes leashed to a wall.
I dont CARE that it's November 9th and "Halloweens over" ITS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH ILL POST IF I WANT TOO
Anyway.
Thinking about apocolpse au.
Wade getting bitten by a zombie, Logan freaking out, Wade dying, and him coming back (Again)
"Didn't you just die?? I literally fucking burried you!!"
And wades like:
"Of course. Man, God REALLY hates you dosn't he?"
And he's bassically the same person except just saying, "Rahhah har ran re" (translation: I think the devil doesn't want me either)
"What?? Oh for fucks sake... tell me you're kidding.."
"Rah?" đ¤
"Great so now you stink more and you can't talk. Fucking lovely."
"Mmmmh..." 𼺠(would you still love me if I was a zombie?)
"*sighs, blushes and grumbles how insane this is and how much of a bad idea this is* Fine! Come on...."
"Raah!!" đ
And sometimes his limbs fall off because I think it would be funny if you just saw him stop, turn around, pick up his arm and shove it back into place like a dislocated shoulder. (Marvel Magic)
But its very obvious that Wade is still consious and so logan leads him around, puts a leash on him, ties him up when he goes to sleep the first few nights so wade dosn't eat him, sometimes luring him with a piece of his thigh or telling him he'll feed him soon to make him behave.
The only thing about this resource wise is that it seems Wade is a bottomless pit, not ever able to get enough. It's like all the nutrients just pass right through him, so he can't get fed meals daily, but Logan will share at least one bite of his food. It makes Wade so happy and way more "wade like" than zombie.
Logan has learned that the hungrier Wade gets the worse it would be, snapping at logan a few times.
"Grr-"
"Aye! That's enough outta ya"
"GggRah!"
"Hey!! I said no! Bad! Bad wade!"
"Mmmh??"
"Bad!!"
"Mmh....rahah.."
"I forgive you. But stop trying to bite me. I feed you, don't I? I hold your hand and tell you that I love you?"
Wade is actually extremely friendly for a zombie (duh) and still yaps at logan except its nonsense. Logan tries hard to understand him and talk back.
He holds his hand sometimes, even lays next to him only to scold him if he gets too bitey. This is hard because wade already had a biting issue and seeing as he practically ate anything or anybody now it was more difficult.
"...aahh-"
"Wade- No."
"Ggr.. raahh"
"Wade! No! Bad."
"Mmmh..."
"Ill feed you tomarrow. Don't bite me mkay? You wanna hurt me?"
He shakes his head like a dog shaking off from a bath, or that ate a bee.
"Then don't bite me."
"Mmh? Mrah?"
"No. No kisses right now. Im still not even sure if thats safe.."
"Mmmh...𼺠ahrrah?"
"No, not even a tiny one."
"Mm...đ"
Until Logan grunts and pecks his hand. "There. Happy?"
"đââď¸mh"
"Good."
Honestly Logan felt bad, pitited him. No matter what food he ate it wasnt enough substance to sustain him and sometimes Logan would wake up to find him eating a different zombie that made the mistake of trying to eat Logan.
You ever wake up in the morning, lose your zombie boyfriend, call for him only to walk outside and see him knawing on some poor chaps arm like a happy puppy who found a chicken leg? Logan has. Many times. And he wishes his phone would charge so he could take a picture of it but unfortunately theres no electricity in the post apocalypse world.
This being said Logan is like- THE perfect guy for apocalypse au because he can smell everything and hear anyone before they even get to you, he has better wilderness survival skills then anyone I know and he'll never NOT have a weapon on him because of his claws. The only downside is that he's tired easily, needs a lot of food, and would lowkey be withdrawing from his tabccao and alchool, therefore very moody.
"Stupid fucking apocalypse having to happen when im fucking alive!! Why can't I just NOT live through ONE major historical event! Is that too fucking much to ask? One damn decade where everything is fine and dandy and- WADE! Get your ass away from that!! It's radioactive!! For fucks sake!"
"Rahahrah?"
"NO!! You can not become Spiderman! That's not how that works!"
"Aawr..đ"
The whole thing is they're on a quest to find Laura and Gabby, because when everything went to shit, they were on a cabin trip and now Logans brain is itching because he dosn't know where his babies are and its driving him insane. Once he finds them, they're gonna shack up somewhere with food and animals to hunt, and hes gonna make a little shed outside for Wade to sleep because he'll kill him if he bites one of the girls.
He dosnt care that much about himself really and he hates himself deep down for not being able to trust wade anymore but even wade dosnt trust wade, sometimes wandering off on purpose, staying about 30 feet away from him at all times, growling and giving Logan that glazed over look of unconsiousness. The only good thing about this, though, is after he removes himself from the idea of hurting Logan (because if logaj were to become infected - HA! Your all fucked. Utterly fucked. The whole humanoid species would go extinct because he'd kill anything that moved) he feels more trusting of him and it's not uncommon for them to hug after either. Afterall Wade- Some how???- is still wade and is very affectionate and sensitive when its not returned.
This whole thing also makes him think worse about himself, kicking reflective objects or staring at himself in a shop window in utter shock and disgust with a face of 'thats me..?' While logans raiding the place for supplies.
Did you know zombies can cry? Well, Wade could. Not a lot, only able to get a bit of liquid from dehydration, but sometimes Logan will catch him just... sitting there.. crying. Upset with himself for being bit. Upset with himself for trying to bite logan all the time. Upset at how ugly he is. Upset that he's starving all the time. Upset that he can't even talk to anyone, and Logan just has to guess what he's saying 90% of the time. Bro is literally
When they DO find Laura and Gabby, the girls are doing great. Laura was going to blow wades head off until Gabby ran in the shot, hugging him instantly, only to be ripped away.
"Of course my dad is the weirdo married to a zombie." Laura grunts, but is secrelty happy that wade is still 'alive'
Gabby, being as young as she is, thinks it's so SICK that her dad is a zombie now, giggling when he talks to her and holding his hand. She's not allowed near him for long, and not at all by herself, but Gabby bassically becomes Wades number one supporter, defending him when he messes up and snaps at laura.
"He's just hungry!! He's not bad! It's not bad to be hungry!" She'll say. "You wouldn't kill me if I was hungry.." she tells her bigger, more survival oriented sister whos suggested putting wade out of his misery, for his own sake. "I tried that... he found me again 3 days later." Logan tells her with a pang in his chest. It had taken everything in him to kill him the first time, and sobbed himself to sleep the next 2 days. By the third when he noticed Wade following him from a distance he couldn't believe it.
Not even the apocalypse could keep them away from each other..
#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#deadpool#deadpool 3#deadclaws#wolverine#laura kinney#gabby kinney#zombie au
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some of u will not understand this and thatâs okay but in my mindâs eye suguru is a selfish lover in a sweet way and satoru is a selfless lover in a sad way
#trusting this post to cross the dashes of the right people#i know some of you will get meâŚâŚ#ITâS LIKE#suguru loves . very selfishly.#he chooses who to love and how to love them very selectively#he cares for you deeply and tends to you always but sometimes itâs almost more about him than you#because he NEEDS to see you happy. he needs to take care of you#itâs less of a want and more of a craving#itâs important that his selfishness is sweet but itâs still . selfishness#if that makes sense#i think gojo is more detached and sad in the sense that he wants to see you happy#he wants you to be the happiest you can be#and if he doesnât think he can give you that heâll keep his distance.#suguru would probably still cling to you even knowing heâs not enoughâŚ#idk :â) iâm thinking about them today#i love my boys#ari noises âŠ
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Cody surrounded by family and the people he loves, because that is what he deserves
#commander cody#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#ahsoka tano#clone trooper jesse#captain rex#clone trooper boil#clone trooper waxer#arc trooper fives#arc trooper echo#coday#cody day 2224#cody my beloved#codywan#cody deserves all the happiness he can get and I think he's the happiest when he's with his family#so here you have a nice time to chill by the beach after a joint mission with 501st#I will learn to design better clothes at some point I promise :'D#these are so stupid#but I didn't want to spend overly long with this one and the multiple characters already gave me a headache hahaha#I love them all so much#fives you'll regret whatever you're going to do#though Anakin's totally there for it#my arts
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marathons were often celebrated with a roaring applause and confetti exploding around them, the finish line rope torn for the finale fanfare. this marathon ends with ryusei staring lazily yet lovingly at his fiancĂŠ of one day. he still couldn't believe that he'd been able to do it, get on his knees in front of his lover and propose to him on his birthday. even though he still held his fears and reservations, the thought of rin not being in his life scared him even more. to ryusei, marriage was some unobtainable thing; that there was no way that rin would ever be happy once they tied themselves together like that. and yet, rin wants him like that, to be more than just boyfriends. a partner in life, in name, in symbolic matrimony.
this view in front of him is one he wants to wake up to every day, even if sleep wasn't a single thought until just now. ryusei wants his every day to start like this, with rin in his arms, his skin littered in his bites, and his heart so full it could burst. a lazy smile paints his lips as he reaches out to cup his face. âossu... ohayo, rin,â he murmurs bringing him in for a soft sweet kiss. he hums gently, stroking his cheek under his thumb tenderly, a start contrast to the wild romp they had all night long.
âi don't really think i can move anywhere anyways,â he says after pulling away from the kiss. âi'm thirsty too though. give me a sec.â shidou eases his hips away from rin, wincing at the foul noise they make as his over sensitive dick finally separates from his ass. he watches as his spend leaks out of him, knowing that there was so much still left inside of him from last night. unable to help himself, ryusei gently thumbs the glob and guides it back inside of him, attempting to bite back a smile. âahh, don't let it all go to waste. i recall you asking me if i was gunna knock you up after all,â he teases, leaning in to kiss any complaint or protest before it leaves rin's lips.
ryusei sits up after a moment, gently scooting to the edge of their bed where the mini fridge is, stock full of small snacks and mini water bottles as a complimentary thing by the hotel. ryusei grabs two for each of them, rolling rin's towards him so he can shuffle his way back to his spot beside his lover before gulping down his water. perhaps they should have taken breaks, but they were so caught up in each other no other thought existed. a bottle and a half later finds shidou beside rin again, one arm tucked under him, the other arm folded over his chest. he's exhausted but in love and sleep sounded so pleasant to him. âthanks for agreeing to marry me, rin. i swear i'll make you the happiest wife,â he murmurs drowsily.
sleep consumes shidou quickly, his body warm and his lover in his arms. he doesn't even realize he's too tired to do his usual bout of nightly crying; for the first time in years shidou doesn't go to sleep feeling like nothing. he doesn't dream, barely moves a muscle or anything save for whatever barely conscious movements to accommodate rin sleeping with him. the noises and unfamiliarity of staying in a different country doesn't bother him at all, not when everything feels so perfect in this morning, and he's too tired too asleep to let it even cross his mind.
it's getting late in the evening when shidou rouses from his sleep. he groans softly, feeling the need to relieve himself, the need to eat, then go right back to sleep. his body protests to a number of things, however it's ignored in favor of admiring the man in his arms again. he's so in love and smitten; ryusei can't help but instantly fold at the sight of rin every time. gentle kisses are pressed against him, his lips. âbaby... rin. wake up. c'mon... good morning, beautiful.â there's a number of things that needed attending to between them. âwe're all stinky and sweaty. are ya hungry? thirsty?â
rin is spoiled; spoiled in the way that ryusei's physical affections & intimacy kept him satisfied & full. when they were without each other for a month during his trip in spain, he didn't mind it until towards the end of it how much he really craved the blonde. that's why when he came back, rin only knew ryusei every touch, groan, thrust of his hips, or the way he talks dirty while he's inside of rin. rin enjoys the feeling of their post-coital bliss, he feels likes he floating on clouds, his body telling him that he could skate through anything right now. it's why he urges ryusei for another round & when he obliges he clings onto the other as he moves him.
it's rough & rin loves it just as much as their sweet, slow love making. he groans when he feels ryusei grip onto his hips & he's pushing deep into him. rin feels full to the brim taking ryusei's dick & his cum inside of him. rin takes the opportunity to grip onto his back, sure to have one too many scratch marks. ryusei doesn't need to tell him twice as his mouth attaches to his neck before kissing along it. he's a cobra ready to strike it's prey & leave it's mark as he takes his first of many bites along ryusei's neck. there's another groan since he's focused on the blonde's words. he was never surprised with his kink considering how loud ryusei & his hook-ups were when they were neighbors. the one thing they could both agree on is that they didn't want children but, â fuck, do you want that? love taking all of you, keep me so full...yeah. are you going to knock me up?â he's never one to indulge in ryusei's dirty talk but he was too into it, into being one with his fiance that he didn't care.
there's another switch of positions & rin finds himself on top of ryusei. he groans as he slides downwards until he takes him to the hilt. there's a growing blush that appears as ryusei call him princess & then he decides to start riding him without another word. rin is desperate to leave his mark so he takes the moment to lean down and bite his shoulder. a groan escapes as he hears his words & gives him nothing but a nod before sucking & biting. rin breaks away, a steady stormy gaze meeting pink hues. there's another roll of rin's eyes as he feels another hard thrust into him, but he's determined to ride ryusei like he's on a mechanical bull. rin's hips move like ocean waves at times they are calm but he wants to reach his peak with ryusei at the same time, so they become choppy & rough. all he could think about was the blonde knowing that this is their forever is something he's content with. there's a sudden grab for his hand & he smiles as he finds himself getting closer. â i love you too,â before he proceeds to make a mark on ryusei's chest.
he doesn't know how he got in front of the mirror, maybe by whatever strength ryusei has left. he groans at their new position, the both of them being flexible always gave them the option to try new things. rin is more than open to them with the way the position hits him from a different angle & his moans grow louder. he wants to kiss him again as he was before but ryusei brings to his attention how much of a mess he looks. aquamarine eyes quickly dart to see the mirror where his hair is matted with sweat, his body covered in all of ryusei's offerings, & the fact that he was still hard & felt that dopamine rush. he doesn't say anything after before moving his hips back into him as response before he continues to coast along the pleasure that ryusei provides for him. â yours...â
rin adds to the gallery of marks along the canvas of ryusei's skin once they make it away from the mirror. he was determined to catch up considering he didn't even get to suck ryusei's dick at all. he knows there's plenty of time for that, so he's not complaining but he wants to make his footprints along the sand of his skin. he is just as possessive as ryusei, but his actions normally tend to speak it. he's positive they are going again, he's lost count at this rate. he knows they are used to running a marathon when it comes to their sex life together. rin feels his head dip back as he feels ryusei's mouth along his neck. his body feels like a bundle of sensitive nerves & just one touch reminds him of everything they did tonight. rin doesn't care much that they are both a mess of their limbs & body fluids, he knows he feels content. he lets the pleasure continue to be drip fed to him as he lays comfortably.
his eyes feel heavy but he turns around to face the other. he wraps his arms around his neck. his mouth feels parched & there's an ache everywhere, but a good kind of soreness from his muscles. â...barely. i'm thirsty but i want sleep and to be in your arms.â he states nonchalantly. âcan we explore tomorrow instead?â he rests his forehead against his since thinks this is all he can muster unless ryusei finds some of his strength to grab water from one of the two mini fridges. there's a small chuckle as ryusei nuzzles against him & he closes his eyes for a second. rin loves being with him, neither of them are perfect, in fact they are jagged pieces that make each other whole. he wonders what their honeymoon would be like.
âbefore i forget, ohayo ryusei.â there's a soft smile that forms along his lips.
#maxstats#â˘Â°â¸shidou ryusei#â˘Â°â¸move your lips or i'll have to use them / au#theyre both so fucked up im.....#also u know when cleaning service gets to their room....#just burn the sheets LOL#dont use a black light in there or theyre getting scarred#ik they're going to be like 'wtf the mirror???????'#crying crying theyre so in love tho#he is being soft and attentive to him aww <3
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the day the earth stood still is the day i felt your presence leave it, and then every day after that.
#tw grief#sigh sigh sigh.#apologies in advance as this is not the happiest yap ! i would just like to write out some of my feelings on this day#the heaviest heart weighs under an insurmountable amount of grief â the ghost of love#days like today are a twisted reminder that has every emotion flooding through your soul#longing . guilt . anger . an indescribable melancholy that could only be consoled through the sands of time#a year ago i lost my best guy friend and itâs never really gotten easier . but ive heard it never does#all i can do is bundle up the love i have for him and search for him in the clouds that take up the sky#the circumstances around his passing will never not haunt me and rather than go into it all iâd like to say is this#if you have a loved one or a relationship or a friendship you cherish .. then never ever stop fighting for it - for them.#as time never really seems to be on our side#each day iâll live as he intended . to greet the world with kindness and a smile and passion for positivity#in his wisest words (or rather after every phone call weâd have hehe) iâll try my best to stay awesome & encourage you all to do so as well#if youâve read this then iâm taking your hand and thanking you#it didnât feel right not acknowledging him at all on this blog . heâs the one that introduced me to anime + more importantly : one piece#i wish i could talk to him about it all so he could see how far down this rabbit hole i fell just as he had done#will be spending the day enjoying his favorite episodes and being gentle with the world that surrounds us#this is not like my usual yaps & i feel vulnerable posting it but i wanted to carve out a space for him on this blog#forever missing the connie to my sasha . maybe in another universe weâll get it right#have a wonderful sunday my sweet friendz and if you can â hug your loved ones & blow a kiss up to the sky đ¤đŤ#thank you for being here & helping me make this a safe place .#âËâš á° xoxo aims
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on one hand, i can make olivine the biggest juiciest bottom where eiden has to top him with climbing gear attached
on the other hand, i could make olivine the equally powerful priestly short king who only reaches eiden's bellybutton but can twirl that boy around his finger like a weighty necklace
#i am ignoring the canon height chart that says eiden and oli are the same height#i never imagine oli as that height đ#either he's close to garu's height and twice as thick#or he's TOWERING over eiden but still wants to get topped into oblivion by that lil twink#there's a drastic discrepancy between how i draw him and how i imagine him#the canon-adherer in me is fighting back and i'm struggling every day#why would you make them the same height ! ! when you can.... PLAY GAMES LIKE A GOD#STRETCH THEM UP AND DOWN AND ALL AROUND LIKE A WET PIZZA DOUGH#i am torn between several variations of body types for him...#does he have stupid superhero cliche body with booba and no leg? like dante lololol#is he soft and fat and stronkkgk????#is he just as thick in his thighs as his boobs? i hope so.#ARE HIS BICEPS BIGGER THAN HIS CALVES?#OR THE REVERSE?#IS HE PROPORTIONALLY BALANCED IN ALL LIMBS LIKE SOME PERFECT LITTLE FREAK?#will i ever find the way to draw oli that makes me happiest? we continue the journey#for example i love making yaku the most pathetic limp noodle#but oli....oli has multiple critics in my brain weighing in.... debating at all times#WHAT DO I WANNA MAKE HIM LOOK LIKE *Shakes his in-game portrait* WHO ARE YOU OLI#nu carnival olivine
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Ask meme - 6 and 9 for the dragon men (zhongli and neuvillette) please!
This took so long I am so sorry, but here we go!
[Character Analysis Ask Meme]
What is Neuvillette's biggest insecurity?
Neuvilletteâs biggest insecurity is not something he's ever tried to hide. Anyone that has spent enough time with the Iudex has probably heard him mention it before. Simply put, Neuvillette doesn't understand the emotions of humans very well. He never has and sometimes he doubts if he ever will? How many times has this flaw of his costed him dearly in the past? How many mistakes has he made? And how many are there yet to come? How he dreads the thought.
What canât you trust [Neuvillette] with?
To chase after you - Iudex Neuvillette is many thingsâpolite, kind, intelligentâbut he is not a man without faults. Only a few know him well enough to realize he holds many regrets upon his shoulders, majority that were never his burden alone to bear. Should you ever become the source of one of these regrets, you can surely expect to know. With somber eyes and a weight upon his shoulders, he will apologize to you. But donât expect anymore than that. Not understanding human emotions is not only his weakness, but a prison. He will not attempt to make things up to you nor will he try to make things how they used to be. Youâre best off where he can hurt you no more, even if that means he will be left alone to the rain.
What is Zhongli's biggest insecurity?
Who knows lol.
What canât you trust Zhongli with?
With mora - As knowledgeable and talented Zhongli is with many things, it is a surprise to many to hear that businessmen donât exactly enjoy making deals with him. How can they when contract discussions always leave them with the [shorter end of the stick]? How many [unforeseen business expenses] do they end up incurring in such a short amount of time? In the end, they always lose more than they gained. What they donât know is this unfortunate occurrence happens with any Mora dealings with the man. But what can you expect for someone that, by contract, has the Traveler liable for all expenses during his outings with them? It's simply best to leave all matters of mora out of any relationships with him.
With your heart - If there's one thing true about Zhongli, it's that, while he may withhold the truth, he does not lie. So when he speaks of a person warmly, they can very well believe his words to be true. That being said, it is important that one does not mistaken his warmth with depth. One cannot simply entrust their heart to him and expect his in return. How could anyone hope to understand the weight of many a millennia, after all? So while the desire may be cute, it'll never be something he would even consider to reciprocate.
#genshin impact#genshin x reader#zhongli#neuvilllette#zhongli x reader#neuvillette x reader#character analysis ask meme#my writing#i am so sorry this took so long anon i have no excuses#not the happiest with these set of responses either#neuvilletteâs insecurity answer is severely lacking#itâs so obvious that it feels too easy but like#the reason why i feel that way is because the answer doesnât answer WHY tha5 is his biggest insecurity. WHY does it matter to him so much?#the obvious answer is that it is because he cares about humans but why??#the answer i came to is that deep down he wants to be accepted by humans which is why he seeks to understand them but i am not sure#granted thatâs just my gut answer. i need to do way more research but i already left you waiting too long#as for zhongli likeâŚ.. ugh#my first answer for what you can trust him with was a cop out but like!!!#thatâs because my second answer is like something i talk about alllll the time when i talk about zhongli OTL#i have a whole series surrounding it orz#i didnât think anyone would want me to talk about it again so i came up with the cop out answer#but the cop out answer was such a cop out i ended up typing my original idea haha#so you get two answers that are kind of mediocre. iâm sorry. ;v;#all of my other answers for him would be more humorous#you canât trust him with: common sense⌠bringing appropriate party cups⌠arriving to events on time#tho thereâs no proof for it you gotta admit that he gives off the vibes of someone tha5 is chronically late to everything#and as for his insecurity like⌠typically old and âspiritually actualizedâ people are of the hardest to analyze in terms of insecurities#he has no chinks in his armor#i will be working on your next ask though! hopefully it takes less time ;v;
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I love you. Iâm glad I exist.
#pandora hearts#oof my art i guess#xerxes break#reim lunettes#sharon rainsworth#A BIG BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XERXES BREAK#U MAKE ME SO SO SAD KING#really wanted to draw the happy ending that Could Have Been if pandora hearts didnât exist purely to fill me with sorrow and anguish#you can tell I reread 92 last night lmaooooo#something about break realizing how important his bonds with others are and wishing them happiness as his last thoughts really got to me idk#heâs just SUCH a fantastic character and he deserves the happiest of birthdays#was gonna give emily a party hat but decided it didnât fit the vibes :((#gonna dress her up in silly outfits eventually itâs ok
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being daigo in january 2017 was probably the happiest month of his life because he just got out of jail Again for a crime he didnt commit Again and he's probably thinking how he has to keep running the tojo clan if he wants to respect kiryu even though hes """""""'gone""""""""" or whatever and then some bitch with the newspaper in his ear like 'the governor's trying to evict us what should we do' and i can only imagine the LOUDEST sigh of relief this man had to internalize as he began to flesh out his two-year plan then and there
#snap chats#no one touch this post fuck you im drawing this at some point but im too tired but i still cant stop chortling about it#like i just know daigo was tired as balls so imagine getting THAT kind of out from it all .......#NO MORE GUILT ABOUT IT HE GOT AN EXCUSE NOW#Oh Noooo The Governments Telling Us To Fuck Off :(( I Dont Think Theres Anything We Can Reasonably Do But Dissolve#genuinely the nicest thing aoki ever did in his entire life was give daigo an out of this sisyphean existence and he didnt even know#he just wanted to be a big ol bitch boy and accidentally made daigo the happiest man on earth#ending this post now before i think of IW's plot and get annoyed again vjlkJLKAJVAL GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE#AND ALL THAT PLANNING WAS FOR FUCKING NOTHING /SORRY/ IM STILL BITTER#IM GOING NOW FR BYE STAN DAIGO
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