#he may be more mature than some people give him credit for

[sleepyskeleton-0]

What if- what if Wind’s trauma doesn’t register with him until he’s older. What if as a teenager he thinks he’s super cool for going on adventures and fighting and stuff but then the trauma slams into him when he’s older. One day he’ll realise just how fucked up his life was and all the things he disregarded or made a joke about before come back to haunt him. What if…

[aviradasa]

The Lost boys main Hcs (old version)

Dwayne

Also i gave him an actual personality. Cause suprisingly, quiet people can have personality traits other that being a brooding,mature,book loving,parental, and having good dick.

Ok Well i kept these traits but added more to him cause i didn't see anyone else doing so.

Enjoy!!

(Ps this was hardly proof read. and written at 2 am so pardon how weird it may be)

Edit: THESE ARE OLD IM MAKING NEW ONES THAT ARE BETTER!!

Contrary to popular belief this man is just as crazy as the others. If not more.

Granted, yeah, he can be chill as hell but do not let that fool you cause just under that quiet persona is an actual sadistic asshole.

I mean damn.

To start off, this dude is brutal when it comes to feeding. I mean, he can give David a run for his money.

I mean did y'all see him during the bonfire scene??????

During that, he was honestly a bit rushed cause normally, he will keep his victims alive for a good long while before actually killing them, all while ripping them to pieces.

And cause he is smart as hell he knows the right places to tear into a person where it will take them longer to die from it.

What an asshole.

But when he's not being evil as fuck he is giving the others stupid ideas.

I mean honestly i think the whole taking Michael to the bridge thing was his idea.

He just snuck over to David and was like, "Hey, I have a wonderful idea." And David was like "hell yeah I like that"

Well, ok, that's not exactly how I went, but that's my dummed-down Disney villain version.

They had all hung off the bridge before, but Dwayne knew that that would probably freak Michael the fuck out more than anything, and he just wanted to watch that poor dude suffer.

On that topic he lowkey hated Michael at first.

So he just ignored him as much as possible. But at the same time, he also was just waiting for Michael to start some shit so he could fight him.

When Michael punched David, this man got so excited, only to have his dream crushed when he couldn't swing on him.

Poor dwayne.

The main reason we don't see much of dwaynes personality is cause Michael is around every time we see him and he does not fuck with him enough to grant him access to who he is as a person

Speaking of him and David, I, kinda see them as being evil scheming, besties not gonna lie. Like when Dwayne gets a fun little plan in his head to fuck with people, he's creeping up on David to tell him all about it. (And plant the seed in his mind)

Honestly, if you walk in when these two are talking you swear they both just look like this

Like honestly its just a back away slowly and forget you ever saw them situation 🤣

The best part for him is letting people believe it was David or one of the other boy's ideas so he doesn't get too much attention drawn to himself.

As much as this wannabe attention whore wants to, he will hardly take credit is his plans so as not to get Max on his ass. As much as he wants to be like, "Yeah, I made them do that, hahaha," he won't.

He's literally like a little puppet master.

But enough of him being a silent but deadly dickhead

This guy is amazing at so many things.

He's a bigggg car/ motorcycle guy. If you take him anywhere, like a car show or something, he's gonna be yapping with the owner of a fuckin 1942 Chevrolet Fleetline for 2 hours.

And he can and will spend HOURS, NIGHTS, even working on his bike. Does it need work? No. Does he just wanna work on it for fun? Yes.

Oh, and if the others mention even a slight tick coming from their bike, he's becoming the most insufferable know-it-all in the cave.

" oh well you know if the ticks coming from theirrrr you should already know it needs (blank)

They all hate when he does this but they still let him work on the bikes cause they know he enjoys it so much.

It's relaxing to work on stuff like that for him. He can just sit down, listen to his music, smoke a couple of cigarettes, and tune up the bikes all by himself.

And that's the way he likes to work.

He loves the other's company, but deep down, this man is introverted. He can go crazy and have fun but once his social battery is out, he is out, bye.

He will just disappear once he is done with people for the day. If he doesn't, he gets snappy and sassy, and it's just like "Damnnnnnn. Ok, sir ."

He will start clocking everybody's shit if forced to stick around.

But honestly, most of the time, he's cool. He's kinda like a cat, not gonna lie.

Shits gotta be on his terms or he don't wanna do it.

Ok ok I know I clowned on it but I do think he likes to read

And he does read ALOT.

He keeps a lil shelf of books in his area of the cave.

Aka, he took one of the big ass bookshelves from when the hotel collapsed, fixed it, and now stores all the books he loves on it.

He loves most genres, to he's not picky. From fantasy to westerns he readys whatever catches his interest.

While he reads he likes to listen to music that matches so once he was reading a sci-fi novel he had David Bowie BLASTING

They didn't even know he liked David Bowie. But hey, that's why we love Dwayne. He's full of surprises. And his music taste is the epitome of "I like whatever sounds good"

I could go on and on and on about this man but this might get long so if y'all want me to elaborate on any of these or make a part 2 let me know cause i WILL also if you want hcs of the other boys let me know! Night my little goblins 🖤🖤

[dissociativedollcherry]

YAYY REQUEST IS OPEN!!| May i ask for Blackhat x Reader? like, the reader is his assistant and he has a crush on the reader ( you can change your story to your liking :] )

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꩜.ᐟ BLACK HEART ｡𖦹°‧

ᛝྀི BLACK HAT X ASSISTANT READER

✧₊⁺ Notes: Sorry for the wait!! this flu really got me fucked up, but here it is! I did my best for this one lololol, reader can be read as any gender, Black hat is a tad toxic in this (i mean its Black hat), this bitch loves scaring you, probably ooc too (idk, that's up to your view) it gets a little touchy, HES HAWT GODAYUM. not proofread btw LMAO

ᯓ★ Type: Romantic, Fluff, Headcanons

⋆.˚ Song: Masochism Tango.

۶ৎ Black hat would be... a tad frustrated with the fact he has fallen for you, he wouldn't be in denial, no, far from it, he's not Flug for fuck's sake, he's a mature man, he knows his feelings. The man would just probably not be very pleased with the scenario of him having such 'trivial feelings' (in his words) especially for someone like you, his assistant.

۶ৎ Black Hat is kinda of a gentleman (in his own sadistic and twisted way of course), we could see that in the satellite secrets episode how Black hat treated the woman in the novel, so his treatment towards you is a mixture of courtesy and sadistic psychological torture.

۶ৎ Even if he also scares you from time to time, you can clearly point out the shameless favoritism Black hat has for you, he doesn't really insults you like he does with the other 3, he slightly gives you more approval than he gives the others everytime you do something right.

۶ৎ For example: if he ever sends you with the others to complete a mission, he would credit you more than the others, saying that you did a "decent" job different than the other 3 "mediocre slaves". (Flug is jealous btw)

۶ৎ Black hat would compare the others to you every time he gets the chance, saying that you actually put effort and time on your job, that you are way more efficient when doing your daily given tasks, that may or may not create some sort of rivalry between you guys... (it will.)

۶ৎ Wanting it or not Black hat would naturally try to hide his little crush on you, he can't stand the possibility of people seeing the 'terrifying and great Black hat' vulnerable, its expectable coming from him honestly.

۶ৎ He would probably grow impatient and he will eventually get too intimate with you at some point, it would start off slow, a simple touch on your shoulders would evolve into him straight up holding you close, caressing your arm and acts like that. (nawh blud is getting freaky).

۶ৎ Once he's like that, expect more "affection" coming on your way, pet names and praises are 2 things that will be more common in times like these, the favoritism will be way more evident and Black hat is shamelessly crediting only you at this point, completely forgetting the existence of the others.

۶ৎ Eventually, you will be able figure out he has something for you, now it's up to you to either try to confront him about it or just leave it like that.

۶ৎ If you decide to just leave it be, it will get more and more signs, to the point where it can get overwhelming and you just have to talk to him about it and hope for the best.

۶ৎ Now if you do muster the courage to go and talk to him about it, he would hesitate to admit it out loud, not because he's scared nor embarrassed, like i said, it's quite not the pleasant feeling for him and he has a hard time dealing with it.

۶ৎ However, if you keep asking him Black hat would at some point admit it.

۶ৎ But if you accept his love is totally up to you.

“You are quite the lucky individual my dear”

[juyeonszn]

JUST FOR ME

PAIRING ji changmin x f!reader

WORD COUNT 1.26k

GENRES kinda fluff ﹒smut

WARNINGS 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, mature language, apparently ji changmin has a secret, established relationship, a whisker away ref <3, dacryphilia lol, making out, oral (m!receiving), face fucking lol, cum eating lol, lmk if i missed anything!

SUMMARY ji changmin had a secret.

MORE hellaur hellaur!! i cannot believe i’ve written 8 of these in the past month like i’m actually sick in the head. but maybe u guys are even sicker for reading them idk… once fawntober is over i think i might spontaneously combust. ANYWAY i would like to dedicate this to the resident jichang lover <3 beam <3 consider this a late birthday gift <3 if u enjoyed pls rb!

PERM TAGLIST @winterchimez @maessseongs @itsbeeble @zzoguri

Ji Changmin had a secret.

A very big secret that he would never dare tell to anyone else. Not his friends. Not even you. Whether it was because he wanted to keep this to himself, take it to the grave type beat, or because he was embarrassed— the world may never know.

But as you cuddle into his side, sniffling over this stupid animated movie, he realizes that his big secret might be harder to keep to himself than he thought.

He’s seen A Whisker Away with you probably hundreds of times by now, and he’s seen you cry each and every time, but for some reason this is the one that gets to him. The sight of your pretty tears trickling down your cheeks, eyes slightly puffy and lips pouty, has his thinking clouded. Typical Y/N behavior, living in his mind rent free like it was your career.

He hopes the thick comforter of your bed hides just how turned on he is, licking his lips when a tear drips down your chin and onto your chest. Don’t even get him started on your pajama choice. Nothing but a thin camisole and flimsy linen shorts. Did you know that you were just one action away from sending him into cardiac arrest?

Changmin doesn’t even notice that the movie has ended and the credits are displayed, eyes still trained on the stray teardrops rolling down your sternum. It’s not until you’re reaching above your head to stretch, leg bumping into his hard on.

You turn to him with wide eyes and a gasp. “Changmin! No way you’re fucking horny right now.”

“I’m not?” His response comes out more like a question than a statement, so of course you don’t believe him in the slightest. You give him a pointed look.

“How could you possibly be hard after watching that?” Your eyebrows raise, judging him wholeheartedly without knowing the full story. Though, he’s almost certain you’d still judge him then, too. Who wouldn’t? Getting turned on by the sight of his girlfriend crying wasn’t exactly something that people would think is normal.

“That’s— uh— that’s not what— you know what, never mind. We can just go to sleep if you’re tired—” Changmin really wished you weren’t so persistent sometimes. Then again, your persistence was the reason you were together in the first place.

“No, I’m wide awake now,” you simper, a sly little smile that looks out of place paired with the tear streaks on your cheeks. “Lemme help you, Min.”

You peel back the covers, straddling his lap. Changmin groans, throwing his head back when your barely clothed warmth presses down on his erection. Your fingers card through his hair before you lean in to kiss him.

It’s slow at first, lips moving together gently as you work yourself up. One of the things Changmin loved about you was the fact that you were always so eager to please. He had a tendency of not asking for anything unless absolutely necessary, but with your keen sense of perception, you just knew when he needed a little extra care. Like right now, for example.

His hands find your hips, grinding them into his own as he nips your bottom lip. You sigh into the kiss, parting just enough to catch your breath. He slips his fingers under the waistband of your shorts but you shake your head.

“Mm-mm,” you start to pepper kisses all over his face and jaw, trailing down his neck. “Let me do the work. You just relax, okay?”

The service top he was, Changmin thought it would be a bit difficult to just let you have the reins. However, he pulls away his hands anyway, allowing you to exhibit your magic. You smile contentedly, shimmying down so your face was level with his crotch.

Changmin watches with bated breath as you haul his sweatpants and underwear down his legs in one go. He fists your hair in a makeshift ponytail, darting out his tongue to wet his lips when you leave a sweet kiss to the tip of his cock. He hisses as you wrap your hands around the base, pumping his length agonizingly slow.

His hips buck up into your hands, teeth gritted when your lips envelope the head. Your tongue drags over his slit, collecting the precum that’s begun to form. You moan when the taste of him settles, one hand sliding under his t-shirt to claw at his abdomen.

Finally, after what felt like eternity, you take him fully into the warm coziness of your mouth. Every time you gave Changmin head, you tried not to push yourself to swallow him wholly. You were afraid of embarrassing yourself by not being able to fit his impressive size down your throat. This time was different. You felt the need to provide him the best pleasure possible.

He thinks he might combust, focus zeroed in on your plush lips going further down his length and meeting your hand. Your eyes flutter open, making contact with his as you twist your wrist and start to bob your head. Changmin groans, using his free hand to fist at the sheets below you. You looked so fucking filthy like this, ass perked up in the air as you sucked him off like your life depended on it. But good God, you managed to still look absolutely gorgeous, even with the drool dribbling along your chin.

Instinctively, his grip on your hair tightens and he pushes your head down, forcing you to engulf his cock more than you already had. You gag, but steel yourself to power through. Changmin accepts his fate and lets himself loosen up, a conniving grin spreading across his lips.

“Gonna let me fuck your face, baby?” He coos, bending his knees and putting his feet flat on the bed.

You moan in approval, pulling off just to respond. “Mhm. Want you to feel good.”

“Fuck, you’re so sexy,” he bites his lip, bringing your face closer to kiss your swollen lips, your hand still jerking him off. “I’m gonna ruin you.”

He can taste himself on your mouth and it makes his release that much more exciting. You break apart, returning to what you were doing previously. This time, however, Changmin doesn’t hold himself back. He starts to fuck up into the wet heat of your mouth, cock sliding down your throat with a choked groan following each thrust.

Your eyes water, and before you know it, tears are tracking on your cheeks. He nearly whines, all sense of restraint lost completely as you continue to wrap around him, tongue swirling around the tip and running along each vein. Changmin feels insane, his orgasm building up higher and higher the more you take him— the more you cry for him.

It’s when one of your teardrops drips onto his stomach, your thumb swiping across his hip bone, that he cums into your mouth with a moan so out of character, you almost join him. You try to swallow everything he gives you, but it’s so much that you have to pull off of him, feeling it slip down the side of your mouth. Your hips roll into the bed to release some of the friction that formed.

Changmin wipes away the mixture of saliva and cum on your chin, stamping another slow kiss to your lips. You straddle him once again, whimpering when he presses up into your already sensitive cunt.

He smiles, fingers dipping into your shorts. “You did so well, baby. Let me return the favor.”

© juyeonszn. do not steal, claim, or repost.

[autistic-ben-tennyson]

After reading @rosaq’s post about Rose being a metaphor for a disabled adult instead of a child, I felt compelled to write my own essay about why she gets way more shit and way less credit than she deserves. While I’m not as big of a fan of SU as I used to be, it still has a place in my heart and was important to me. I relate to a few “problematic” characters in it such as Lapis and Pink Diamond and I think Rose deserved better than how Future or the fandom treated her.

The idea that Pink wanted a colony to prove her worth as an equal to the other diamonds and not just be seen as a joke hits hard for me. I’ve been there especially now where I feel like I have to move out and prove I can be a successful adult to my parents. The way the other diamonds treated Rose is very relatable to a lot of autistic people. They liked her when she acted goofy and made them laugh but when she struggled with social awareness, they yelled at, degraded and abused her by locking her away.

A lot of people, especially parents, only like autistic children when they’re the quirky kind that gushes about dinosaurs or astronauts, but flip the moment they inconvenience them. I’ve felt like my parent’s acceptance has often been conditional. They praised me when I was being goofy but dad would flip and make me feel like I was bad for having struggles with awareness or was hesitant to try new foods not to mention making me do Keto for almost a year because they felt it would “help” me. I’ve often felt babied whenever they lectured me over small things yet was also never given actual accommodation.

Some may disagree but I don’t blame her for leaving Spinel behind. It was wrong but because of her upbringing that taught her Diamonds were superior, she didn’t understand Spinel was an individual and not a toy. Rebecca was inspired by a toy rabbit she left behind when writing Spinel. To Rose, Spinel represents everything she hated about herself and how the other diamonds viewed her. To her, she was giving up a toy to prove she could be mature. I’ve been there before such as when I gave away toys or ditched certain hobbies such as paleontology, especially at a conservative school full of creationists I was forced to be friends with because my parents liked them, so people would take me more seriously. Let’s not forget that Spinel isn’t innocent and decided to wipe out all life on Earth and hurt Steven out of petty revenge yet never got as much hate as Rose did.

After reading some of @thewoollyviking’s posts, I’ve come to agree that Future felt very mean spirited towards Rose and that it seemed to just confirm the idea that she was a bad person incapable of change. I don’t hate Steven and relate to him at points too but he acted downright cruel by shoving her picture away and telling Greg who he learned had a similar upbringing that it wasn’t that bad despite being in Rose’s position and nearly dying because of how bad it was. That episode was poorly executed to be honest since most people don’t understand how curfew, chaperones and meatloaf can be abusive or stifling as I’ve seen some call Greg spoiled or “incredibly immature” for being angry about his childhood.

The way Steven acted in Future kind of reminds me of the Ultimate Kevin arc from Ben 10. A character who’s normally forgiving and willing to give second chances suddenly becomes very cruel and mean spirited. I’ve defended Ben from people who called him a narc or psychopath for deciding to execute Kevin but the writing in that arc was very mid. I don’t know if it’s due to the time constraints CN put on the show or was intentional but Steven never reconciled with or at least let go of his anger towards Rose and refused to emphasize with her despite being so similar. Rose never got a chance to redeem herself in life and thanks to Future will never be able to do so in death either. Everyone hates her and acts like they’re better off without her which is gross since it just confirms her self hatred that she was incapable of doing better.

Rose is a character that I relate to hard especially as someone with autism and is transfem. The way the diamonds treated her rings true to my own experiences with how people will act friendly to your face but then treat you as a joke and never give genuine respect or accommodation to. I’ve written more about how my dad treats me regarding my queerness here but I don’t blame Rose for acting the way she did. She needed help and was just treated as bad for her outbursts and was only appreciated when “cute”. I’ve thrown out things to prove I can be mature and don’t really hold her abandoning Spinel against her. The other characters are never given as much hate as Rose and I actually like Blue, mainly for her VA, but the other diamonds and Spinel did way worse yet got off far easier than Pink. People can dislike Rose if they want but it does say something about how the fandom views a victim of abuse who did a lot of wrong but did her best to change and struggled with loving herself.

[mysadcorner]

Jealousy 80's!James hetfield headcanons???

Jealous!80’s!James Hetfield Headcanons

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• James would have definitely been a bit sulky during this time in his life, so when he’s jealous of how people are interacting with you, or the attention you’re acting towards other expect him to be a bit childish about it. You’ll definitely notice his change in behaviour, snappiness and acting like he’s in a mood when you finally interact with him again.

• He may resort to giving you the silent treatment if he thought that your attention was something he deserved more than other people, so you may need to chase him after a while just to find out what’s going on with him or until he caves in an tells you about how he’s feeling. He won’t act very mature in this situation so it will end up being a longer process than necessary.

• During this time in his life he could also get pretty rowdy and destructive at times, so when you’re not around and he’s drinking with the rest of the band or some of his friends things will get destroyed. Maybe even to the point where he gets in trouble for it a lot worse than getting usually would.

• He’d complain to the rest of the band about how he’s feeling about you interacting with other people or not focussing your attention on him enough, to the point where they may even get sick of it. Once he starts complaining you should expect then to mention things about you and asking you to talk to him about it just to get him to shut up.

• If his jealously spikes just before a show then you’ll certainly be able to notice just before he goes on stage. He’s already pretty good at having energy on stage but he’s get’s much more aggressive in his performance while he’s jealous, even where there may be mishaps on stage or him getting agitated at any tiny mistake another band member may make during the show.

[izzyshandz]

I swear if i see one more mf say izzy has been 'redeemed' or needed a 'redemption arc' im literally going to scream into my pillow until i lose my voice.

redeem is such a black and white way of looking at his entire character and dismisses everything hes gone through and yall (izzy haters and others) are just so fucking snob nosed and ignorant to sit there and think hes a villain because of how he acted. theyre fucking pirates. theyre not perfect, none of them are. eds a villain, stedes a villain, if youre doing it like that. ed has killed so many people, stede literally left his wife and kids and also had a hand in killing people; it may be easier for them to change because of the perspective the show gives them and they had love but izzy did not. everyone hated him, ed, his own crew, stedes crew.

normalizing peoples reactions to things as something other than villainy and heroism is so god damn important in a show that's trying to accurately involve our perspectives in this day and age. its a tale as old as time, making someone 'completely in the wrong' because their perspective isnt the one you aligned with as much.

like the rest of the crew izzy had his own bad things hes done, he didnt need this 'redemption' everyones blabbering on about. he needed to be fucking heard, to be seen, and acknowledged-- not thrown aside and abandoned because of a whim. you all can ride up blackbeards ass because oh hes so hot, hes so pretty omg wow; but that wont ever change the fact his character is a fucked up person... youre allowed to love him anyways, why not izzy? we didnt see blackbeard before screen but how hes mentioned it shows he was a shit awful person, the only reason no one cares is because on hes fuckin gay for stede or whatever so the main characters get a free ride. ( i agree they all get a free ride, im just tired of this izzy isolation man )

why does he need to be redeemed in your eyes? just because youve seen what hes done? he was literally a product of his environment in season one he was a product of blackbeard's leadership. only with the loyalty and solidarity of the crew did he really begin to find himself, thats fucking hard to do that late in life. instead of calling it some bullshit black and white redemption arc, lets just celebrate izzy being himself and being fucking loved for once in his god damn life.

hes also way more fucking mature and put together than people give him credit for. love you izzy.

edit: thank you all for the reblogs and insights in every single one, i read them i promise i do. im just so mf heartbroken we have to tag things as discourse when its really just about people not being compassionate. (as a couple people have pointed out) i will said id reblog and comment on every single tag but this is my side </3 EVERYONE PLEASE READ THE REBLOGGED TAGS TOO / / theyre so real ! ive also opened up that ask box thingy i havent been on tumblr in yrs and have 0 clue how any of that works if anyone wants my perspective on anything izzy related. *or otherwise ofmd related

[wolfsbanesparks]

Looking at that last reblog, do you ever think about how Fawcett City could have really lenient child labor laws, or if Billy is more smart than he appears to be. Because it's been weighing on my mind for a good time now.

Billy, a homeless orphan, manages to survive on the streets and finds ways to work that doesn't include crime. He manages to find someone to rent an apartment to him either via charm or manufacturing a false identity to fool them. He's pretended to be his own seperate identity before to open a banking account (thanks to magic) and fir paperwork purposes to let him go to school. I know he's not Tim Drake levels of smart, but I think Billy is certainly hiding more intelligence than most think he has. It's really interesting to me!

I do think about this pretty often.

Like I tend to headcanon Fawcett City as a bit old fashioned/out of sync with the times so having less strict (or less strictly enforced) child labor laws is a possibility that tends to work in Billy's favor. Between that and creating a fake ID as Cap to discreetly work manual labor jobs, he gets by on being self sufficient. But I also think that Billy is much smarter than people give him credit for.

Part of this is that when we refer to characters (especially child characters) as being smart, they are either shown as super impressive hackers/inventors (like Tim or Barbara) or they speak a dozen languages and turn every interaction into a game of chess. And because of this, characters like Billy whose intelligence comes through in much more practical ways are largely not considered smart.

Billy may not be some precocious genius, but he knows how to work within and around the system. He knows what he can and can't get away with. For how little guidance he has, both because the Wizard died and because he doesn't have a stable home life (Not to mention he only has a spotty public school education), he routinely makes difficult decisions that adult heroes would struggle with. He also is wise beyond his years (not just because of Solomon) and gives good advice that speaks to his emotional maturity.

I think that he probably doesn't consider himself smart (thinking that he needs the Wisdom of Solomon for that) in part because he knows so many characters who are stereotypical geniuses (and aren't afraid to make it known).

[jamiesfootball]

I am only two episodes into Severance but who cares 

Ted Lasso Severance AU ideas in no particular order. Until they are. Special thanks and credit to @altschmerzes for playing pinball with me on this

First of all - all professional athletes have been severed. For their own safety, of course. A lot of entertainers too. It promotes better mental health, not having to deal with the stress of fame. Much easier to focus when you don't have all that pesky outside pressure weighing you down

Enter Ted and Beard, who don’t know that they know each other. Don't know that they've been working alongside each other for years, because while they've coached at the lower levels they've never had a posting that required severance 

Inside Ted and Beard know none of that. To keep things formal, out of respect, they refer to each other as ‘Coach’. It's important to maintain distance in these situations after all

Ted is a good coach. He's engaged, he's encouraging, he's got some funny turns of phrase.  

They may both have a similar accent, but Beard quickly dismisses the idea that their outside counterparts know each other. Beard wouldn't know what to say to him if they did talk.

It's probably a coincidence, but more than likely someone chose Beard to be assistant to Ted so that Ted wouldn't feel as alienated at his new job. Which was smart thinking, because Ted doesn't seem to know a lot about football (Beard doesn't either, but someone seems to have thought ahead there too. Their office is full of books that Beard himself would've picked out if he were trying to learn.)

But when Ted's not coaching, when there's some down time, he becomes... quiet. He watches things. people, from a distance. He gets a glassy, vacant look in his eyes, like he's trying to stare at something that's been ripped from his chest and placed thousands of miles away, and if he can just stare hard enough, it'll come home to him.

One day Beard finds out about Ted's panic attacks. He doesn't mean too, just walks in on one and

"Sorry, Coach," he says quickly before shutting the door, ignoring the way his own chest thrums in sympathy.

It feels like he should be doing something. What? Who the fuck knows. Ted may be congenial on the front, but he seems like a pretty private closed off person so Beard doesn’t want to interfere.

But the panic attacks keep happening.

Something happens to him when Ted hurts like that, though, and he doesn't know why but it aches like a phantom limb. Like someone's sawed him in half (which they did)

Rebecca and Keeley don’t work together but occasionally run into each other. Neither is quite sure they understand what the other does around here, and its against the rules to ask, but Rebecca looks like a goddess and well – look at her. Whatever she does for Richmond, she must be really high up! Very important 

"Think you could try sneaking out a note to your outer self asking her to give me a pay raise?" Keeley smiles cheekily.

"Don't even joke about that," says Rebecca, because it's true. They shouldn't. It's against the rules.

That doesn't stop her lips from curving upwards. From the way she has to make a concentrated effort to pull her smile back, adjust her skirt, and nod at Keeley as if it's just coincidence they passed each other in the hallway. Lot of coincidences, lately. Too many, they might find out too late.

That doesn't stop it from happening.

Sam. Sam is the sunshine at the inside of Nelson Road. Although he has not been there long, it's hard to imagine a better candidate for severance. Endlessly positive. Capable of deftly navigating the rules around interpersonal boundaries in such a way that it still leaves people feeling warm inside. He's a poster boy for the severance movement; one could only imagine the amount of stress and nerves that a young player might typically suffer through were they not severed from the outside world. Instead, since Sam's arrived at Richmond, he's been playing splendidly! So confident and mature. He might be new to the whole inside thing, but look at him - he's a natural! 

Sam tries so hard to stay positive, yet often he finds himself drowning, overwhelmed by a huge wave of sorrow. Something is missing; something huge is missing. 

Sam tugs his own ear and tries to swallow his sobs and wishes desperately he had someone, anyone, to talk to for guidance.

Inside Roy doesn’t believe he has anything waiting for him on the outside. He knows it. He fucking doesn't. 

Roy’s impending retirement? More like Roy’s impending death  

He doesn't know if he's looking forward to it or not. He's been living severed for what's going on about twenty years now. This is his life. And he’s convinced there’s nothing waiting on the other side  

He hates Jamie in part because he's sure the kid's got this fantastic life out there. What the fuck is he even here for?

Doesn't he get that he should be out there living somewhere ?

Here's the thing about inside Jamie.

One day he was at Manchester. Then he blinked, and he was at Richmond  

“What the fuck am I doing here? Did they sell me?”  

“You were loaned.”  

Jamie doesn’t know why it feels so terribly important that he be the one who scores. He doesn't know why he gets so upset and angry and the stupidest, dumbest things set him off. Why he hates Sam for having a good debut season despite being on a shitty team. Why he sometimes feel so scared, his heart thundering in his chest like he's being chased by an invisible monster. And the great thing about severance is he doesn't need to.  

He just needs to show up and kick the ball 

Occasionally he shows up to practice with mysterious injuries. Whenever he does, Inside Jamie receives a card explaining what happened: 

“You received a sprained ankle during training.”

“You reported a hairline fracture along your upper arm from a weight lifting accident.”

“This morning you reported a bump on the head from a kitchen cabinet.”

No matter what excuse the card says, it always has the same cheery note at the bottom: 

Please redeem this note at the cafeteria to enjoy an extra snack from the approved menu list.

God knows what outside Jamie gets up to, but it must be a hell of a life. That or he's a clumsier bastard than inside Jamie. Maybe it's something with the severance, some special skill that inside Jamie has honed that outside Jamie doesn't know about.

Jamie has never redeemed his free coupons. Instead, he keeps all the note cards in his gym bag. It's stupid, and probably against the rules somehow, but he doesn't care. Not like he gets to have anything else to himself here, does he? His kit is the same as everyone else's, so's his shampoo, his deodorant, his shoes. No, the not 

The note cards were generated for inside Jamie, they're the one thing that are uniquely his, and inside Jamie is going to keep them. 

(There’s a lot of them.)

Dani shows up and he just feels….lifeless. Fútbol is life. That's his mantra, or so he's been informed by his previous coaches. But whenever he's on the field he just feels so....lifeless. Disinterested. Not engaged. Ted was hoping for two aces but instead he has no aces 

But then when Jamie is sulking and kicking the ball after practice Dani slunks over like he’s being pulled by an invisible string 

“Are you playing a game?” he asks like he’s not sure. Like he's questioning the meaning of football itself. 

And Jamie, Jamie might feel like he’s choking on air half the time but … it’s football. He’s not all the way gone that he doesn’t know he loves football  

He is still in a bad mood though 

“Yeah, amigo,” he says sarcastically. “I’m playing. Kicked the ball of the post on purpose, didn’t I?” 

“…. I would like to try” 

So they have their little shooting match and Dani blooms into the fucking sun. It’s fun. This is fun 

And then he goes in for the high five and Jamie flinches back like a bomb has gone off, throwing up his fists in front of his face and bracing for the ghost of an impact that doesn't come. He doesn't know how to hide these things. He barely knows when to expect these things. All his trauma is on the surface, and he doesn't even know its there 

Here's the thing about Jamie being at Richmond. 

He stops getting cards. 

The weird, unexplained bruises have a chance to heal. New ones fail to appear. 

They stop. The bruises stop, but he doesn't know why it feels like he’s getting worse. He doesn’t know. He feels off balance... fragile. Things he used to be able to shrug off start sticking to him like tar. He doesn't feel in control of himself. 

He holds onto his stack of cards like a lifeline, like a prized possession. They're the one thing that hasn't changed. He grips onto this shoelaced stack of evidence that he's here, that he exists, and he feels the same feelings he felt back in Manchester – that same tidal wave of emotions that threatens to drown him. Makes him feel like he's bobbing, lost at sea, eyelevel with stinging waves while his feet kick for survival.

Even as it chokes him, it's the only feeling he's ever been sure about. It's the only tether he has to the outside world. To his real life. To himself.

The stack hasn't grown since he arrive at Richmond. He feels like he's losing his sense of identity without them. 

Jamie blinks, and he's back at City.

After Richmond gets relegated, and insistent Ted sends a wary Beard to track down Jamie before the bus leaves, next stop Manchester. 

Jamie, confused, takes the accepted envelope. On the bus, which is part of the inner world in that it holds the team, he carefully unfolds the note inside. Reads it. Spends who knows how long after reading it simply admiring it. The uncomplicated way the paper curves towards gravity. The neat, printed handwriting, just a bit fancier than he expected. The way that even the ink feels fragile compared to the heavy typeset he's used to seeing.

Jamie adds it to his stack of cards, but for some reason the thought of putting Ted's not in with the others makes him feel uncomfortable, so he….moves it. Keeps it separate. Keeps it special, tucked in a separate compartment in his bag.

(That’s not allowed) 

Roy retired. He went through with it. Because the people who loved him on the inside convinced him it would be okay – even though he barely got a chance to say goodbye to most of them. They all knew this day was approaching and fast 

Outside him doesn’t know that 

Outside Roy woke up from knee surgery at a hospital and doesn't know how he got there. Doesn't know he has months of rehab and surgeries and doctors appointments to look forward to

Outside doesn’t remember anyone he played with, and he certainly doesn't expect that any of those players loved him. Certainly doesn’t know that he was beloved by more than just the players. That there’s people like Ted and Keeley who miss him too 

But mostly he tries not to think about that. He has his sister and his niece, who are over the moon at the chance of getting to spend more time with him. Over the fact that he's not doing that to himself anymore.

No way inside Roy mattered to anyone at all. Not as a person. Not the way he does to his family on the outside.

It doesn't matter. He's not going back

Jamie knows Roy’s knee wasn’t his fault. He also knows Roy Kent walked off the pitch. He's pretty sure no one ever saw him again – that's what happens when athletes get career ending injuries, isn't it? 

Or at least inside thinks he knows that until, for reasons he can’t explain that have nothing to do with the fact that he feels like he murdered someone and nothing to do with those damn bruises coming back and the way his hands shake now when he adds a new card to the stack and the way he stares at the other card, the Ted card, sometimes and feels like he wants to cry-

Inside Jamie quits.  

Or that’s not the right word. Sports is entertainment, innit? 

Inside Jamie switches career, trading football Jamie for Lust Conquers All Jamie

(They assure him, don't they, that if he wishes, they can sever that part off too)

Meanwhile Roy, retired and still adjusting to it, continues meeting with the yoga mums. Like most people, they don't really know who he is. Players are just numbers to 99% of the people in their lives – athletes don't wear names on their kits. They get assigned a number when they get severed as part of the push for privacy. Sure, sometimes he gets someone who thinks they recognize him from somewhere, but part of the contract you sign when you get severed is a clause that says you won't speak about your experiences, inferred or not, from being severed. It would violate your contract to violate your own privacy – or the other way around, he can never remember how it's worded. 

Besides, getting recognized is nothing short of a fucking rarity. You'd have to be a fan for a long time and attend lots of matches in person to feel confident enough to identify one of the moving blobs on tv. You'd also have to be a bit of a prick to bring it up to a stranger you'd never met. But mostly you'd have to be either football mad or completely lucky to recognize a footballer when you saw one.

Not like they sell posters.

Recognizing famous people is hard, he reminds himself, as the yoga mums queue up one of their regular programs. Despite his own history with severance, it's a compelling show. Besides, everyone on that show – they basically do what he did, right? Their outside people signed contracts, didn’t they? It’s all fun

Except ever since they started this new season, he's got a sick feeling in his stomach he can’t explain. One of the contestants, a complete twat, a fucking muppet of a person – every time he's on screen, it feels like a predator is clawing inside his chest, trying to break free and drag his weeping entrails into the light. Every smug smile sets his teeth on edge. The prick brags about scoring, and Roy wants to wring his neck with an intensity that startles him so fiercely that he accidentally breaks his wineglass. Rosé spills over his knuckles, pooling over his crisscrossed feet and seeping into his socks as glittery shards twinkle across his lap.

It's all cleaned up in about five minutes, and it still leaves a stain deeper than any his career has left on his life.

He can admit to himself, if not his sister and definitely not his niece, that since he retired, things have been....fine. Not great. A bit awful, maybe.

Okay, so it was all shit.

Long empty nights; endless pain, the kind that grew worse every time he forgot himself and attempted to move the same way he'd done for going on forty years. His sister was worried. His niece he was pretty sure he was starting to scare. There'd been some talk, suggestions that he take up coaching Phoebe's team, but they were gentle laps against the shore of a bigger problem.

He'd even gotten offered a job as a talking head on one of those football programs, the ones that didn't require severance because you were just meant to be commenting about the match like any other normal wanker on the street.

As if.

Compared to the dim half-life of a life Roy finds himself living now, watching Lust Conquers All in hopes that the show's resident prick will say something infuriatingly stupid has quickly become an obsession. it's like breathing fucking air after being chained to the bottom of a sea.

Then, just like that, the price gets kicked off the show in a surprise upset.

It's slightly less rare to recognize TV celebrities out on the street, but you would still be an asshole if you pointed one out.

For the next few days, whenever he's out in London, he finds himself scanning faces in the crowd despite knowing better.

In his distraction, he accidentally bumps into a petite blond woman exiting a coffee shop. He apologizes, has half a second to admire her distracted but genuinely kind smile in return, and then she's gone.

Honestly, what the hell is he even doing with his life?

At Nelson Road, Ted makes one thing clear.

Whatever happens, however much the team is struggling, he's not going to ask Roy, player #6, to come back. They all miss him, but he won't – can't – let himself do that.

He has a whole life out there to live. Ted won't take that away from him. No way what's out there is any worse than what's in here.

Then he gets word about a different individual, and-

Well.

"What the hell are you doing here, eh?"

"Oh, I see. You must be the new coach. The one who's been teaching my son how to play like a total pussy."

"Dad–"

"No, you don't fucking interrupt when the adults are talking, junior. What the fuck would you know, anyways? Christ, I wish I could stick a knife in my brain and erase the last two hours. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't know what a shit player this man has turned you into, son."

"Nah, nah. See, I don't think you will say anything. Because this room is medical, and medical is out of bounds. Medical is all public, and you chippies, you're not allowed to interfere with the public. Go on, lad, tell him. You may not have a single braincell worth rubbing off these days, but I know you know that."

Afterwards, that day in the treatment room is mostly a blur to him. But a few things stick out later, glued stuck behind his eyes like floating afterimages in the dark.

The bench was cold.

The bolt of his shoe smacking against the wall just shy of his ear.

His dad's fingers, tacky with dried beer as he shoved Jamie's head to the side.

And when he looked to the side – the confused man with the mustache standing on the other side of the glass.

The way he didn't hesitate before turning the handle on the door, stepping inside and settling back on his heels with his hands in his pockets. The way he smiled around the room all pleasant-like, like they were all friends.

"Hello, gentleman. Sorry to interrupt, but I couldn't help but notice through the window that this room was starting to look a bit like a tropical storm weighing its chances on whether it might be able to turn into a nasty old cat-5 before it makes landfall. Which seems a bit odd to me, considering that unless I need to get my eyes checked, your team won. That, or your washer machines both lost this morning. One way or the other, my question's all the same:

"Do we have a problem here?"

It was more than enough words for Jamie to place the accent. To take one an one, and turn this man into the damn yankee coach his dad blames for ruining Jamie's career.

Maybe his dad has a point about him being dumber now than he was a year ago, because when Jamie thinks of adding one to anything, his brain tries to tell him that it's not one, it's eleven. It's not one of one, it's one of eleven.

He's so busy reeling with shock at meeting his coach – at meeting anyone from the other side – that he misses most of what his dad says next.

What he doesn't miss, what will be engraved into him long after he leaves Nelson Road, when the bus is quiet and dark and he's left clutching a hastily scrawled note like it's a precious photograph, is the way that his coach — his coach, other Jamie's coach –

The way his coach's smile grows strained under his dad's words, only for him to refocus on Jamie like they were the only two in the room. The way his face softened, and the open apology in his eyes, and the way that Jamie was sure later, dead certain down to his bones, that if he'd just opened his mouth right then and asked, this man would have stayed in the room with him, drawing his father's ire for as long as Jamie needed.

But Jamie didn't have any words; maybe other Jamie had used them all up for the both of them.

The man, his coach, took a deep breath and said:

"It was very nice to meet you, Jamie."

Outside Jamie doesn't have any options. He burned them. Or inside Jamie burned them.

Same difference, when no matter who you ask, you were the one holding the matches.

He arrives and leaves the news station in the blink of an eye. No one is outside waiting for him, because you don't get fans if you're severed.

No one outside anywhere is waiting for him, except his dad.

There's only one person left, and Jamie can't even talk to him without going through his agent. But he can try.

Hope. It's the thing that kills you.

Good thing outside Jamie might as well be dead, as far as anyone's concerned. (Including his agent.)

Inside Jamie gets kicked off of LCA…..and wakes back up at Richmond. And doesn’t know how.  

Oh, he knows why he left City. Vaguely remembers signing up for somewhere warmer than early snow in October. What he doesn't know is how he ended up back here, back at Richmond, with a relegated group of players who look like they want to murder him. Who look at him as if he did murder someone, which in a lot of ways is true.

He doesn't know why he would do this to himself.

But he also feels deep within him a pathetic sense of gratitude, because inside Jamie is selfish, and inside Jamie doesn't want to die.

What inside Jamie can’t possibly know s that when confronted with the possibility of going back to his real life…..his outer self couldn’t take it. He just couldn’t. Being severed has to be better than this. Anything has to be better than this. And he’s right. He doesn’t know it, inside Jamie doesn’t know it, but these are the people who will love him. The people who are going to love him are the ones on the lifeless inside, and fuck they’re the ones who are going to make his life worth it 

Roy didn't think he had anything on the outside, but he did. He thought outside Jamie must have everything, and he had nothing. Wrong on both counts. 

Now Roy, stuck on the outside, has to figure out why he feels like he needs to go home

[killervelveteenrabbit]

The problem with most adults is that they forget they used to be children. I believe this generalized amnesia, this cynicism, this loss of wonder, this loss of empathy for people who are struggling to make sense of the world, is the reason there is so much wrong with it. This concept is neatly illustrated in the person of Doctor(s) Stern in the “In the Heist” episode.

Anand outright asks Stern if he remembers what it was like to be a kid. For a moment, we see sepia-toned glances into Stern’s childhood, and we think he’s having a spiritual awakening. But he shrugs it off, saying, “I got over it.”

And that’s his whole problem. This man feels compelled to show off how “adult” he is by carrying wallet-sized replicas of his six doctorate diplomas in his suit jacket like anyone else would carry their IDs. Without that proof of his intellect and his authority, he’s nothing. Stern doesn’t appear to enjoy the art and artifacts surrounding him, and he seems determined not to let anyone else enjoy it either. He’s more interested in showing off his knowledge than building that of others, to the point he can’t accept being contradicted or told that he’s doing something dangerous.

Granted, any adult would question a child’s assertion that the crystal could cause a localized apocalypse. Yet a momentary peek outside the window at the gathering storm should have at least given Stern pause—the kids might be on to something.

Aside from that, Stern shrugs off Anand’s well-argued theories about the crystal’s geographic origins, as well as Jurnee’s legitimate question about “provenance” (cultural patrimony and repatriation being a hot-button topic in both art and archaeology). All Stern sees and hears are stupid little kids he’s momentarily babysitting. It’s this overconfidence that leads to him being so effectively bamboozled.

Stern is a caricature of every adult who has ever told a child “You’re just a kid, you don’t know anything” or “You’ll understand when you’re older and more mature” or “Children should be seen and not heard” or “Because I said so”, often while threatening them with the removal of rights and privileges, or even outright corporal punishment. And what’s even more aggravating is that the same kids who get hit with these whammies use them against the next generations of kids. These kids-turned-adults don’t want to explain or justify their actions to stupid little kids, even when those kids might have a genuine concern about the things they are told to do and the decisions made on their behalf.

We, as kids turning into adults or adults who used to be kids, owe it to ourselves and the generations coming up behind us to be better. We may be grownups with the rights and authority that status confers, but we owe it to the kids and ourselves to listen to them, explain our decisions, and give them some credit for figuring out some things for themselves. Maybe, just maybe, they can help us save the world.

[seasoned-siffrin]

Toby Rodgers hcs!!!! Jay merrick hcs!!!!!!! Tim Wright hcs!!!!!!!!!!! If u are feeling up for it!!!!!!!!!!

It’s taken me a million years to get to this but here we are. I have so many Toby headcanons that I’m going to dedicate this post to him solely, and I might do some Jay and Tim headcanons later— hopefully that’s okay!! <3

Toby Rogers Headcanons

• I headcanon him to be around 22-24 years old, this is usually the age where I write/portray him as

• He’s 5’9 if he fixed his back, but has a worst slouch known to man so he’s closer to 5’6-5’7

• Demiromantic bisexual

• He/him pronouns but doesn’t mind the others— he’s still cis, he’s just comfortable with his gender

• Hazel-green eyes! On the subject of his eyes, he’s partially blind in his left eye— the same side where he has the gash in his face.

• I’ve always imagined him to have wavy/curly hair! His curl pattern is kinda fucked because he can’t take care of his hair the way he should so it’s mostly just a mess.. it has the potential to be more curly

• It was his step-father, not his actual father, who abused him

• Rather than dying in car crash, Lyra was murdered by their step-dad after a failed attempt to run away together. She was run off the road and killed in a ditch, brought back, and buried in the cellar with the help of their mom. (I took some inspo from David Near’s Toby Adams for this one)

• He ended up killing both of his parents, not just his step-dad, because they both assisted in the death and cover up of said death of Lyra

• The gash in his cheek was initially caused by a broke beer bottle to the face, courtesy of his step father, and due to a lack of proper treatment and his terrible habit of chewing on himself, it is what it is now

• He has rosacea flare ups a lot, giving his normally pale skin a pinkish-red color in his face

• Wears feminine clothing sometimes cuz he’s a pretty boy

• Has some moderate burn scars on his legs, arms, and back from the fire. They would be worse if Slenderman didn’t heal him some to keep him alive

• The reason his hood is blue is because the original hood of his hoodie was ripped off during a quarrel with his bullies in high school, so Lyra cut off the hood off one of her own hoodies to replace his

• His clothing style is a weird mix between cottagecore, goblincore, and grunge— however, he considers himself goth!

• He writes poetry, but, he rarely shares it with anyone

• He eats Crustables RELIGOUSLY

• He refers to his parents by their first names, but slips up with “mom” occasionally

• He has a loooot of piercings. Bro can’t feel it— what’s stopping him?

• His guy has one FUCKED sense of humor. He credits it to his trauma

• He’s got some severe abandonment issues, causing him to cling onto people who have a more mature/guardian contrast to himself, he finds comfort in guidance— but he is still a stubborn little prick

• He doesn’t have a horrible relationship with Slenderman, methinks… he may even see the thing like a twisted father figure, and feels almost in-debt to it for revealing the truth about his sister’s death to him

• Due to his CIPA and the fact that Slenderman doesn’t let him stay dead, Toby does not fear death, and he often acts recklessly and senselessly because of this

• He definitely has AuDHD cuz I said so

• He either can’t get a god damn word out of his mouth, OR he can’t shut the fuck up. It depends on the day and the environment

I definitely have more but this is where I’m stopping for now… I love this freak

[tubbypeddle]

Hi, could I get a jjba male romantic matchup from you? Part 1~7 since I haven't finished 8 yet.

I am an ENTJ, Leo. I consider myself as intelligent and rational, so I'm a pretty serious person for most of the time, but around people who are very close to me I'm way more relaxed and fun. Even though I'm an extrovert, I do prefer spending time alone or partner and the few close friends I have rather than socializing with a big group of people. Though I am pretty confident and stylish so I won't be shy about presenting myself when meeting new people.

As for my partner, I tend to be attracted to people who are more similar to me. So I would love someone who is also levelheaded and mature, who I can have deep conversation with (yes I believe smart is the new sexy hahaha). I admit I could be a bit bossy and hot tempered at times, so I'd need someone who knows how to communicate and could bring my calmer side back. My love language is quality time, I would love to spend time with my partner either engaging in activities we both have passion for, having discussions over something we're both find interesting (maybe a book we're both reading), or it could just be us chilling watching shows or gaming together. It'd also be great if they're fun in private so we could have inside jokes and just relax within each others presence. When It comes to people I care about deeply, I would be a great listener and could give useful advice, and is willing to help them feel better in whichever way I can. I could definitely fall for someone who would do the same.

So, appearances:

-166 (5'5) at height

-Pretty average bodytype, leaning towards the skinnier side

-Long wavy black hair with curtain bangs, black eyes

-I usually dress in classic style while also playing around with colors

That'd be all! Thank you for taking this request!

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so. as I was finishing up the last bits of this. my laptop restarted AGAIN. I swear, Tumblr hates me

ANYWAY. ugh

(author's note: credits to gif owners, of course <3 also please, I know everyone is sending me in asks for matchups, but please DM me for more information on them. I have questions that I'd like to ask to make this easier for me to write for you 🥺)

It's a lovely day in Morioh when you meet him.

Koichi Hirose

Hear me out now.

Out of everyone in Morioh, Koichi's probably the one you'll find the most meaningful conversations with, other than one other person I can think of.

Out of everyone in Morioh, he's probably the most emotionally stable. Which is. Saying a lot. Because there are a lot of people in Morioh.

He's had the most stable childhood environment, so he's the most emotionally competent.

He enjoys talking about his feelings with you. Talking about something deep and meaningful, anything you want to talk about, Koichi is your best bet.

Not that I'm giving you someone you'd have to settle for. He's actually quite the amazing boyfriend.

He's attentive, and kind, and he takes the initiative to take you out on some wonderful dates.

He keeps his friend circle small, despite knowing half of Morioh. His closest friends consist of Josuke, Okuyasu, and you. Which tracks, with you liking to keep your friend circle small.

He personally doesn't mind that you have a tendency to get a little bossy.

See, he's a Pisces; a water sign. And you mentioned that you're a Leo. A fire sign. Now I know some people say they're not super compatible, but I don't care about that.

All I'm seeing here is that you're a fire that he's able to put out when he needs to.

He can calm you down when you might get a bit too bossy. He personally doesn't mind when you boss him around. (as i've said before) But he knows other people can be put off by it. So he's sure to stop you when he feels people might get too irritated.

He also enjoys when you two have time alone. He may not be as video game crazy like Okuyasu and Josuke, but he does like playing games like that. Especially with you.

Playing games alone like this leads to many inside jokes between the two of you. Jokes that not even I am privy to in this separate world, so enjoy those jokes between just the two of you.

He also loves the way you look, admittedly. Koichi isn't so shallow as to prefer the way you look over anything else about you, but he does appreciate that he has such a pretty girlfriend. And with him being so short, he's happy that you're not too much taller than him.

It would put an awkward distance between the two of you.

-_-_-_-

But Koichi isn't the only one you have the option of having in Morioh.

Okuyasu Nijimura

is also a very viable option.

He is a teenage boy, so admittedly, it's your looks that draw him in to you initially. He thinks you're real pretty. He doesn't think he has a chance with you at all, but he tries anyway. Just to get it out of the way.

If you say no, at least he tried. If you say yes, he has a girlfriend way out of his league.

He may not "seem the type" for mature conversations, but he really is. He thinks he's stupid, and he may not be the smartest in school, or impulsive, but he's not stupid.

He likes these deep conversations. He likes talking about mature topics, and he likes hearing your opinion on things.

And if you're looking for advice or insight on something from him, he offers some of the most eye opening words. He looks at problems in an angle that you could've never imagined.

He offers words of advice that are so simple that they're complex. It's amazing having these conversations with him.

He's a very kind boyfriend, too. Very observant.

He likes seeing you, in everything that you are. He stares way too often, and he's surprised he doesn't get caught staring at you, even before the two of you are dating.

So he notices. When you show interest in things, he gets you tiny trinkets or gifts related to them. He gets you sketchbooks, and writing journals, and pretty pens and pencils. Video game figurines, or new games you expressed interest in.

He also loves quality time with you. Any moment that he can spend alone with you is a moment well spent. He also just can't get enough of you. Similar to Koichi, he has to have his hands on you whenever he can.

He likes playing video games with you, he likes it when you read whatever you're reading aloud to him (he's not big on reading himself, but he loves listening to your voice). Anything you're doing, he wants to do it with you.

He loves your private jokes, shared only with him. He's the only one who will ever get to see you like this. I mean. Hopefully. He wants to be the only one you'll ever have these kinds of jokes with.

You two will meet eyes across the room after someone mentions your inside jokes privately, and he'll try not to laugh. Or he'll nudge you when someone says something related to your special jokes.

Special moments like these mean a lot to him.

Honorable mentions!

Hot Pants

She's oddly attached to you as soon as the race starts. She likes your rather calm nature and deems you hers. It's just a shame Diego also seems to like you.

Noriaki Kakyoin

He adores debating with you. He loves sharing opinions, or even not having the same opinion as you. He loves to hear what you have to say anyway. It's a nice break from Polnareff and Mr. Joestar, who are more immature than he would've thought for men their age. Or Jotaro and his one word sentences.

god, I am so sorry this took so long. I've had way too many problems with this one.

[befuddledcinnamonroll]

Before this week's GMMTV announcements, I thought it was a good time to review my bingo card from Part 1, and do some manifesting for what we haven't gotten yet.

What I got right on my bingo card from Part 1 (which in hindsight, I did better than I realized based on announcements):

- Enemies to lovers, Pond in a comedic role, and if you squint, sort of AouBoom as leads because it's an ensemble cast - all covered by We Are.

- BL series with new actors - a safe bet, yes, still counts, Only Boo (which is actually turning out quite cute).

- Workplace romance - The Trainee

- GemFourth in something cute & innocent - My Love Mix-Up

- Paranormal romance & Gawin in a new lead role with a new partner - My Golden Blood, now to be joined by The Vampire Project for the paranormal part

- I'm also pretty sure I picked ViewJune as a side couple before they were confirmed as one for 23.5, so I'm gonna take credit for that as well.

What seems likely in Part 2:

- Mark Pakin in a lead role. He kind of spilled the beans already, plus it would be fucking dumb to not give him a lead at this point.

- 2 GLs in 2024. Pluto takes one spot, and based on rumors of a particular author posting about the event, another seems likely. (Pluto might also technically qualify as my secret identity romance pick but it remains to be seen).

- FirstKhao romcom. We want it, they want it, it's basic math. Give it!

- Neo paired with someone new and in a non-comedic role. I haven't heard much rumorwise, but I got the impression that Mark may be partnered with someone else. Which I think is good! They worked in Only Friends, but I think it's good to have a roster of flexible BL actors. I know Neo will be in My Golden Blood, so that sorta already counts for a serious role, but I assume he'll get more as well. (Omg, what if he hooks up with Mond as villain boyfies).

Less likely but not impossible:

- Remake of a Korean series. But after mining Japan so successfully, they might want to attempt more (especially if Korea is more flexible with airing rights).

- BL series with actors over 30. Their actors and audience are all getting older, let's bring in some maturity (Yes, of course this is about Papang making out onscreen for my enjoyment, I apologize for nothing).

Not gonna happen and I will be salty about it:

- JoongDunk vampire series. The Vampire Project is right there. Joong as a serial killer is also acceptable. (But of course I will watch them in whatever they get. I would just love for them to not be in university once again.)

- Midnight Museum 2. You give me such beautiful weird chaos and a perfect BL setup for season 2. And we won't get it, because god forbid that Gun ever get to kiss a man who isn't Off. Let him make out with other people, goddammit!!

Not in my card but manifesting all the same:

- Something worthy of Perth. Look, I like Chimon. He is very talented. And I had fun with Dangerous Romance. But I can't deny there was a chemistry problem. I think they can get past it, I really do, but they need the right series, the right coaching - heck, hire Saint to come do a one-on-one class of "how to make out with Perth like you mean it".

- Keep breaking out of the predictable BL settings. They've started to, and they need to keep it up. I'd love a strong sci-fi.

- More trans characters. More gender diversity. More breaking stereotypes.

[svartalfhild]

A Case for Jezri

Listen, I know how the DS9 fandom feels about Jezri, but I just wanted to take a moment to explain why I like it. I'm not asking people to agree; I just want to give it some love because there are things to enjoy and to explore in that ship that haven't gotten any discussion.

(Also why is 99.9% of the Jezri tag just people tagging their hate? Who raised y'all? Please be respectful towards your fellow fans who may not feel the same as you.)

I'm no stranger to finding my gold nuggets in the trash heap when it comes to Star Trek ships. I'm the type to find the things to love about something that was executed poorly by the writers. Datasha is my TNG OTP. Need I say more.

So don't think I don't understand some of the main objections people have to Jezri. I get it. I do. So with that out of the way, let's get into the good stuff.

Julian's personal story, particularly in the later parts of the show, has a strong motif of loneliness, which comes from two or three different aspects of his life. The first one is of course the fact that he's an augment. He's socially isolated by his mental and physical superiority. No one can keep up with him, and he has to diminish himself to fit in, especially before the truth comes out. The second is the evolving lives of the people closest to him. There reaches a point where nearly all of his closest friends are either married or in committed relationships, and he's the free floater who has to hope he can still fit into their lives somewhere. The third aspect is his own shit luck with relationships. No one sticks with him for very long for whatever reason. And there was the everything with Jadzia on top of it all. Poor man couldn't catch a break.

And then along comes Ezri. Quark is quick to treat her as same old Dax with a new coat of paint, for whose affections he immediately tries to generate competition with Julian, because he is a sexist little toad. Julian, to his great credit, is like "what the fuck, Quark" and makes it clear that he sees Ezri as a different person, not Jadzia 2.0 who he now has a chance with. Ezri is his new friend, and he's not going to be pulled into Quark's bullshit.

The writing is unfortunately rather uneven when it comes to showing us the establishment and development of that friendship, so we have to piece together the vibes from several disparate moments, some big and meaningful and others more incidental, but that's not too difficult for me. Fandom has done more with less.

Anyway! Through all of that, we kind of get to see that Ezri sees Julian differently than Jadzia did in a way that allows them to click very quickly. Jadzia sort of saw Julian as an adorable puppy excitedly wagging his tail at her (and by the time he matured into someone who was more her type, he'd stopped pursuing her and then she was with Worf). Ezri sees him as the charming guy who knows how to have a good time. It seems natural to me that Julian would quickly latch onto someone who thought his holosuite adventures were demonstrative of a healthy sense of fun and not a sign of immaturity. Ezri is literally the bad bitch he pulled by being autistic.

And they are such adorable awkward nerds with each other! The big eyes! The soft touches! The fumbling! The trying to keep things platonic because they just like each other so much that they're afraid of messing things up! The breaking down and making out anyway because they can't escape the vibes! *chef's kiss*

The thing that completely sold me on Jezri, though, was their moment together at the end of the last episode where Julian is mourning Miles' departure and feeling lonely and then Ezri rolls up like "Hey~!" and expresses the desire to have dinner and do holosuite adventures with him. That was so beautiful to me. Everything is changing and so many of his friends have left and it's the ultimate pit of loneliness for him, but then there's Ezri. He has her now and he's not alone and the war is over and there's hope and the start of something new and soft. I cried, y'all. Like maybe it's because I'm at a place in my life where I feel left behind while I watch all my friends move on with their lives, but man, the way Ezri represents the light at the end of a dark tunnel for Julian just got me so good.

Here are some of the headcanons I have to supplement the sparse canon material and give further depth and enjoyment to my shipping experience:

They're both bisexual.

Since they're both healthcare professionals, they have a lot to talk about where their fields intersect. They make a great team when they're working, but this also results in them developing a shorthand with each other that is somewhat infuriating for others.

Ezri's closeness with Julian allows her to better develop her friendship with Garak, and there are several times when all three of them get up to shenanigans together.

They sometimes get each other new tea blends to try as a fun little surprise.

Ezri tries to teach Julian some of the gymnastics stuff she remembers at least once with mixed results.

Julian particularly loves hugging Ezri, and she particularly loves holding his hand.

Julian persuades Ezri to read Lord of the Rings, and she gets really into it, so they end up doing a holosuite adaptation as Legolas and Gimli. Ezri plays with her beard a lot.

Quark fucking hates how cute they are and Kira makes a point to tell him about every sweet moment she sees between them just to fuck with him.

Ezri very much gets in on the Fuck With Section 31 train and helps Julian do spy shit. The criminal psychology knowledge comes in handy.

Anyway, these are my feels. Please don't air your grievances here. I just want to sail on my dinghy and hope someone out there is sailing with me.

[ystk-archive]

Forgive me in advance for the weird question, but given that Nakata's career seems to be winding down, what, in the end, do you feel his legacy was/has been/will be? And perfume's legacy/impact, if any? Do you know anything about how/if perfume had a role "gakkyoku-ha" idol phenomenon (e.g. the rise of other genre-dols like bis, babymetal, maison book girl, sora tob sakana, etc.)?

Perfume definitely helped usher in the genre-dol trend of the 2010s -- down to being the template for Babymetal (also from Amuse). Though I want to emphasize that Perfume aren't underground idols, which usually have a lot of overlap with gakkyoku-ha...I think. I'm not a big J-idol otaku, lol.

Legacy/impact questions are very complicated to answer even though they're things I've thought about a lot over the past four years, and it gets more confusing when you're talking about Perfume and Nakata as separate entities because there's some overlap there... Like his legacy -- and Perfume's by proxy -- in Japanese pop culture is predominantly going to be a Valentine's Day song and sometimes Polyrhythm. I think it'd be disingenuous to claim he hasn't inspired any younger musicians in Japan (though I often think they didn't study him hard enough), but it's equally misleading to act like he was some sort of boon to the music industry; looking at the way things are now, I believe ultimately his impact on J-pop was quite weak. He was an early adopter of the "bedroom producer" format (though he never made music in his room that I'm aware of lol) and it's likely that amateur laptop-based producers in Japan are more aware of him for that, but his do-it-yourself approach and aesthetic hallmarks are definitely not followed through in mainstream acts. If anything, pop music in Japan has become more inward-facing over the last ten years; Nakata started out looking elsewhere.

On a global level -- because we still have to separate the self-imposed petri dish that Japan tends to be from the rest of the world (namely the monolithic west, though on the flipside they ignore practically everything that happens in Japan that doesn't fit into neat and tidy fictitious genres like "city pop" and "Shibuya-kei" or that isn't anime/videogaming; this is a separate rant lmao) -- I do get the impression that his music may have helped precipitate what became "hyperpop" and that his influence on the style Sophie developed is the biggest measurable impact he's had, because Sophie wound up becoming a much more known artist in the world of electronic music. In terms of Perfume I've wondered if they had a bigger effect on the maturation of K-pop than I give them credit for, as K-pop took its early cues from J-pop; K-pop fans tend to namedrop them as their token Japanese music at any rate, so I'm not hallucinating the similarities in appeal.

I could probably talk myself in circles about this all day so I'm curious what other people think on this topic. Definitely not weird questions, they're actually the most thoughtful ones I've gotten in a long time, thank you.

[strangedreamings]

S2E5 (spoilers abound)

The credits sequence hasn't changed, as far as I can tell.

Driftmark. Corlys limping to the Driftwood Throne. He's weeping over the death of his wife. As far as he knows, he's lost everyone now -- both of his children and his wife. (It's even money whether the writers even remember that Laenor is still alive.)

There's a fucking famine and all the Greens care about is parading Meleys' head through the streets. Guys, reminding the people that dragons CAN BE KILLED probably isn't the wisest thing to do right now. How many of them have lost livestock to feed the dragons' stomachs?

The Targaryen family literally spent YEARS convincing the people of Westeros that being dragonriders made them superior, now you're showing them that a dragon is really just a giant, flying horse. This is going to bite you in the ass so damn hard very soon.

"It's just meat." EXACTLY!

If Rhaenys' body is on that wagon, they need to have the Silent Sisters escort it to Driftmark, it's the only decent thing to do.

Aemond is still so damn pretty.

To be fucking honest, I don't know if that's Rhaenys' corpse or Aegon II's almost-corpse in that box. I wouldn't put it past Cole to have Aegon II transported in a way that no one can see how mangled he is.

So it was Aegon. He must be in a coma to have not made a sound this entire time. As fucked up as he is, he still didn't deserve this.

Alicent, you don't want to see this. And when did you suddenly decide you give a damn about Aegon anyway?

Ugh, they have to cut his armor off him and honestly, he looks like barbecued meat. Aemond's got a lot to answer for but the only person who can accuse him is currently comatose.

The burns make him look like he has greyscale, it's that bad.

I'm not crazy about this Grand Maester but he does seem to know what he's doing.

Oh, his broken legs. Poor guy, he'll never be able to walk properly again, if at all.

Aemond sniffing around, wanting someone, anyone, to name him Prince Regent. Sadly, he's the best option. God knows Alicent and Helaena aren't in the right frame of mind right now to rule.

But really, if the monarch can't rule, it's supposed to be the Hand who fills in. Criston, stop cleaning your sword (are you having a Lady MacBeth moment?) and do your job.

Wait, Sunfyre is dead? I thought Sunfyre is the one that eats Rhaenyra. *side-eyes the writers* What the fuck?

"He who has left us after some marital spat." I really want this guy dead. Can someone just shank him, please? Again, someone calls him Ser Alfred, but what's his surname? I can't look this asshole up without a surname.

Excusing your misogyny isn't going to get you out of this, dude.

"You've seen no more battles than I have." God, I love you, Rhaenyra.

Jace and Baela. Honestly, Baela is the more mature of the two. Jace going behind Rhaenyra's back? To be honest, the Battle of the Gullet can't come soon enough, I'm sick of him. He's too immature, too hotheaded, and he listens to no one. He may be half-Targaryen but he's no prince.

Daemon involving himself in the Blackwood-Bracken feud. This is pointless.

I like Willem but I don't think Daemon can trust him, not when it comes to the Brackens.

The Eyrie. So this is the famous Lady Jeyne Arryn. She's upset that the dragons Rhaenyra sent with Rhaena are hatchlings.

"Will you goad me, child?" Honey, you're barely old enough to be her mother, shush.

I don't like Jeyne. I can understand her rage but I don't know, she's aiming it at the wrong target. Please tell me her offering her sympathy was not how Rhaena found out Rhaenys is dead.

"There is more than one way to fight a war." Let's get the propaganda machine churning! Again, I like Mysaria, but I don't know if Rhaenyra (or anyone) can trust her.

Where are they sending Elinda? This woman needs hazard pay.

Rhaenyra and Baela sharing memories of Rhaenys, this is what this episode needed.

Daemon's dreaming again but is that Aemma, Viserys' first wife?! Did Daemon have an affair with his sister-in-law or is he just straight tripping right now? At this point, we've seen every woman in his life in these dreams except for Rhea, his first wife. Blood on his hands again.

"My favorite son"? Is she supposed to be his mom Alyssa now? Daemon, your head is a fascinating place, I swear. You need to get out of Harrenhal with whatever sanity you have left.

Daemon's chair is as broken as his psyche.

Lord God Almighty, Daemon, you're not the fucking monarch. Saying anything otherwise is treason.

Grand Maester reporting on Aegon's prognosis and Aemond is over there smirking. Boy, you need a better poker face if you want the world to believe you didn't do it.

Alicent is made to see exactly how valuable a woman's voice is in a world ruled by men. Honey, I hate to say it, but you deserve this. Like Larys said, if they're saying Rhaenyra can't rule, then they can't have a female Regent.

Prince Regent Aemond. God help the realm.

"We should make for Tumbleton." Absolutely fucking not! You're not going to a town that's going to see TWO battles.

Cheese's dog following the cart with his body, so sad.

The woman who fucked the man who was supposed to be guarding her grandson is talking about temperance? Fuck you, you hypocrite.

"I did not give you leave to speak my name." Honey, you gave him leave to eat you out, the two kinda go together. :P

Their child's skin is GRAY, this kid is either dead or almost there.

Why are the Freys using a door as a table?

"Dragons cannot be in two places at once." These Freys do realize the Blacks have multiple dragons, right?

Fuck yes, give the Freys Harrenhal, that'll end that House right there and they won't be a problem for future generations.

"Bent knees." Yeah, Jace just woke up the whole fandom.

Secret pacts with the Freys never end well.

Daemon and Alys. I thought she was supposed to be Aemond's lover, not his.

Daemon's plotting to take KL himself. Yeah, keep dreaming. You're never leaving the Riverlands.

"The Blackwoods will be feted in these halls." With what money, Daemon?

Corlys doesn't want to be Hand but he does want to make Baela his heir, but she turns him down. Honestly, Baela should be Hand.

So I found out this guy's name is Ser Alfred Broome, and he becomes a turncloak. Raise your hand if you're at all surprised.

"Not while I live, Your Grace." Liar.

Hour of the wolf, the "blackest part of the night." So, something like four in the morning.

Ser Simon has the thankless task of keeping Daemon on target, poor guy.

Laena's back to remind Daemon that he has two daughters.

I have to love that this thunderstorm is big enough to cover Harrenhal, KL, and Driftmark.

Helaena knows what Aemond did. Is it bad that I still ship them? (Don't @ me, they're Targaryens.)

Alicent, you know you can put Aegon out of his misery, right? I'm sure there are plenty of pillows around. Just saying.

"Mummy." Aww. Go back to sleep, Aegon.

For the uninitiated, Vermithor was the dragon of Jaehaerys I (Viserys I's predecessor) and Silverwing was the dragon of Alysanne, Jaehaerys' sister-wife and queen.

So, they're going with Targ cousins instead of the dragonseed bastards to ride the remaining dragons? Interesting.

They're ending the episode there? Boo. Still no Ser Harrold.

Watching the credits. I love that the two units are named "Fire" and "Blood."

Next week's episode is gonna be gory, calling it now.