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i always end up feeling stupid
#every single time i let him back in and let him get exactly what he wants#he gets his fun and leaves again#and then i feel like iāve erased all of my progress getting over him#he kept asking me to go see him#i explained i couldnāt because of how horrible saying goodbye and dealing with the effects would be#he said but heād have fun#thatās all itās ever about#him and his fun#i was clearing out my notes and itās been the same since 2022#we were arguing about going on holiday and spending two weeks together acting like a couple just for him to not feel any different#when i know i would just fall more in love with him#whatever he feels for me i know it isnāt love#he doesnāt care about how i feel or about how much this all hurts#he knows i love him and he knows he doesnāt feel the same#i donāt know why he doesnāt just leave me alone#why he fills my head with shit just to rip it all away#our whole relationship i have been chasing his love and it was never there#i canāt do it anymore#i canāt reply to his drunk texts anymore#i know the same cycle will just keep happening and i canāt do it#i want to move on and be in a relationship with someone who actually loves me and wants to be with me#iām tired of hoping that it would be him#iāve accepted that we want different things and that we canāt be together because of it#now i need to follow through and not reply again#every time he texts i get excited to talk to him but i know itāll just end up with me being sad again every single time#and i finally feel like i can do it so#iām improving#p
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Rudy sits really well for tattoos. He locks in, and he ain't moving at all. He won't twitch, no flinching or anything. He's so weirdly still that his artist tries to keep him talking because it freaks them out when he's so still and quiet.
Alejandro is weirdly attracted to it.
#rodolfo rudy parra#rodolfo parra#alejandro vargas#alerudy#purely based on that time i got a tattoo that took three hours and asked āam i being a bother?ā#and my tattoo artist went āno you actually sit so corpse like that its freakyā#the first time he gave me a tattoo he kept checking in to see if i wanted a break and i kept saying no#halfway through he goes āyeah you'll be getting more of these because you clearly like it and you take it wellā#he was right im going back to him in a week
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isat pokemon au, my liege?
my rambling in tags
#my art#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#pokemon#siffrin#mirabelle#isabeau#odile#bonnie#i am not individually tagging pokemon sorry. floragato eevee ursaring scorbunny meowstic <- for anyone who does not know them#im personally a big fan of when artists mold pokemon designs like clay to fit their characters so i tried to channel that#siffrin really does have the perfect mystery dungeon backstory. washes up on a beach with no memories of their past type of deal yknow#i imagine that he was still a sprigatito then? and evolves at some point during their journey? dont ask me for details i dont know them#veryy tempting to make him an absol but ive already seen that done very well!! so i kept most of these to floragato sif#mirabelle being an eevee is suuuch low hanging fruit sorry. i could not resist the evolving pokemon not wanting to evolve trope#i was concerned that sif was no longer shortest party member until i realized they just stand on their back legs all the time to feel talle#when quadruped like mira he is still shortest. sorry siffrin#isa gave me such a hard time. like i never thought i would turn a character into ursaring of all things but it really was the best choice#my other choices were bewear or pawmot if you care. heās so bear coded#if going purely based on looks i probably would have made odile a sneasler. but i wanted her to be psychic#ill be honest bonnie was purely vibes. they carry the treasure bag :)#never draw bonnie's hat in profile worst mistake of my life#loop is still cat shaped here but iāve seen the idea of them changing species thrown around. much to think about#i like the idea of the party seeing sif and loop side by side and immediately clocking their entire deal#the change god is mew btw. very important information to no one but myself#eurasie as hisuian zoroark?? lots of hair. and the king can be darkrai#donāt mind the inconsistencies. me and my 2781 ways of drawing the same character#wait what does an eevee look like again. googles it. oh i really crabbed this one up#uhh. looks around. been sitting on this one for a bit too long i think. maybe ill clean up some more sketches later
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Can we pretty please get a Grian and Xelqua meet-up?? I love how you draw Xelqua and Grian and I just need to see what they would do if they meet......for science of course
wait hold on.. goes crazy .. I donāt have a design for Xelqua, that was just Grian earlier, butā¦. I think itād go well
I think Xelqua is his patron, so heād be excited to meet him !
but I was also playing with the idea that Little Grian here is a reincarnated version of Xelqua, but still looks up to him, prays to him, would want to be picked up and hugged by him, the safety of it. (How can he be reincarnated and still have a form here ? Well the divine can be a bit finicky)
#something something abt the first thing little grian says to Xelqua is did you hear me ? When I thanked you for the food !#<- Aether showed him how to pray before meals#ask#my art#Xelqua#sketching#Late night doodle of them . Yawnssss#Also something something abt Grian being a reincarnated Xelqua and the two angels having to take care of him#he has no divine memory ! Maybe some vague feelings involving being scared of lightning and missing the ocean . But heās just a little kid#that needs to be fed and kept out the weather and his back scratched so heāll go to sleep#someone hold me back this is becoming a one shot au#Also Xelqua is 5ā0/152cm still. Aether and Flora canāt tell if heās another child when they see him ššš#Grian and Xelqua meet and itās like when Goten met Goku for the first time . Bursts into tears rn live#kidxelqua
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...I seriously cannot stress how much I hate tags like "Give us BAMF Aziraphale" because it seems to imply that he's not badass.
He IS. Tell me how well most people could endure 6000 years of consistent, persistent demoralization, harassment and shitty treatment without snapping?
Do you know how HARD it is to be kind when you've been put through a system that actively discourages kindness and softness, a system that tries to beat it out of you - not physically, but still. The fact that Aziraphale got through all of that and is not just still kind, but still has the capacity to be kind to the very people who hurt him, is fucking remarkable.
Aziraphale is badass. Period. Full Stop.
It's well past time that we stopped equating physical and fighting prowess as a measure of badassery. Just about anyone can exercise and get strong enough to fight someone. Just about anyone could possibly get weapons training. Neither of these things is half as brave as putting yourself in front of a crowd of people and holding off 70 demons with just conviction and a candleholder because it's the RIGHT THING TO DO.
EDIT: I had to add this while I was thinking of it.
I feel like people are buying into Heaven's version of badassery. Angels were made to FIGHT. To fight the last big battle against demons and Hell.
Aziraphale is a deviation because he DOES NOT WANT THAT. He doesn't want to fight a war that will hurt billions and destroy the world. His defining moment in Season 1 is when he stands in the face of the quartermaster and refuses to fight the way they want him to. Instead of a weapon, he chooses to find another way.
If anything, I would think it's leading to the idea that Aziraphale feels he must fight, that he has no choice, and then, when it comes right down to it, finding another way. A kinder way. A BETTER way.
By the standards of Heaven, Aziraphale picking up his sword and fighting would be Normal. Him refusing and finding another way is what makes him Unique. THAT'S what makes him badass.
#Aziraphale is already a BAMF#miss me with these takes about how Aziraphale needs to toughen up#aziraphale#good omens#good omens meta#bamf aziraphale#I hate that tag#I hate it because it's only ever used for āAziraphale beats people up with a swordā and never used for Aziraphale as he is#...also on a personal note#I hate bearded āmanlyā Aziraphale with a passion#why do people just want to make him more masculine?#Seriously wtf#Masculinity and badassery do not go hand in hand that's a very toxic masculinity rooted idea right there.#the one exception I would see is if they channeled Mrs Robinson a bit and kept the femme quality that makes him so delightful.#i mean obviously do what you want in fandom but people have literally been asking Neil to give Aziraphale a beard#Neil's response was that he wasn't going to do something because fandom asked for it but it's so rude to try and force it
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walter white from breaking bad
Walter Hartwell White (Breaking Bad) is an Anime Girl!
#my name is walter hartwell white. i live at 308 negra arroyo lane albuquerque new mexico 87104. this is my confession. if youre watching thi#s tape im probably dead. murdered by my brother in law hank schrader. hank has been building a meth empire for over a year and using me as#is chemist. shortly after my 50th birthday hank came to me with a rather shocking proposition. he asked that i use my chemistry knowledge t#cook methamphetamine which he would then sell using his connections in the drug world. connections that he made through his career with the#DEA. i was... astounded. i always thought that hank was a very moral man and i was thrown. confused. but i was also particularily vulner#able at the time. something he knew and took advantage of. i was reeling from a cancer diagnosis that was poised to bankrupt my family. han#took me on a ride along and showed me just how much money even a small meth operation could make. and i was weak. i didnt want my family to#go into financial ruin so i agreed. every day i think back at that moment with regret. i quickly realized that i was in way over my head an#hank had a partner. a man named gustavo fring. a business man. hank essentially sold me into servitude to this man and when i tried to quit#fring threatened my family. i didnt know where to turn. eventually hank and fring had a falling out. from what i can gather hank was always#pushing for a greater share of the business to which fring flatly refused to give him and things escalated. fring was able to arrange uh i#uess you could call it a hit. on my brother in law. and failed but hank was seriously injured. and i ended up paying his medical bills whic#amounted to a little over 177000. upon recovery hank was bent on revenge working with a man named hector salamanca. he plotted to kill frin#and did so. in fact the bomb that he used was built by me and he gave me no option in it. i have often contemplated suicide but i am a cowa#d. i wanted to go to the police but i was frightened. hank had risen in the ranks to become head of the DEA and about that time to keep me#n line he took my children. for 3 months he kept them.my wife who up until that point had no idea of my criminal activities was horrified t#learn what i had done. why hank had taken our children. we were scared. i was in hell i hated myself for what i had brought upon my family.#recently i tried once again to quit to end this nightmare and in response he gave me this. i cant take this anymore. i live in fear every#ay that hank will kill me or worse hurt my family. i... all i could think to do was make this video in hope that the world will finally see#this man for what he really is.#breaking bad#walter white#your fave is an anime girl#your fave is#hall of fame
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I have eyes and ears ok I SEE Davrin and I HEAR Lucanis
But mama I am a monster fucker
#rook x emmrich#emmrich volkarin#emmrook#datv#datv spoilers#and so down the emmrich brick road I GO girl BONE DADDY#I romanced Emmrich so hard he turned into a Lich#sorry Manfred I did love our games of bone paper scissors#but he sacrificed himself nobly and he talked and heās a wisp so I donāt think thatās how they die#I hc manny simply floated out of the skeleton because heās a smart baby to make myself feel better lol#manny is fine weāll name our lich baby after him#Emmrich follows his dreams in my story and overcomes his fear of death#also I read a fic where Emmrich sloppy smashes u whi#le whispering poetry in your ear and said yep I want that#also his flirting is great#ALSO ALSO heās the only one that went for it! thing 1 over there liking the hunt and the Chase alright letās see where that gets u homie#and thing 2 is blocking me left and right to go play dead in the crows Iām good he kept asking for more and more but pulling back#Emmrich the only one with the balls to actually ask you on a date I really appreciate that š¤£š¤£š¤£
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btw mapicc's everything today reminded me so violently of s4 ro and s4 dualities in general but if i think abt it too hard i will Actually Cry as i always do when it comes to dualities so im just gonna joke abt mawn and ignore it for my own sake ^-^
#lifesteal spoilers#like oh my god is this agonizing#dualities devotions team awesome#the callbacks just kept HAPPENING#please stay silly ro please#like login and die to a warden while zam streaming and spend the rest of the stream distracting him from his Lore by being . roshambo .#thinking abt s4 makes me so unbelievably sad bro#s5 too tbh but like its different#s4 devastates me bc of team awesome#s5 devastates me bc of spacewaffles#both make me sad thinking abt ro but he in general makes me sad bc hes a terribly lonely character#which is why i want him to play the damn server w jumper and rek#like please stop ruining your own life for once im begging u#just do like one thing w jumper and/or rek#just one#its all i ask#or fuck it idc just go back to mapicc like u always do just dont have another season w an underlying theme of loneliness#...more than his newest video already has him isolating himself š#like jumper cares for ro so very much it hurts my heart#i cant help but rly rly think that even if subconciously#she is seeing what she could never have w vi in ro#like what happened w vi Changed Her and like all she wants is whats best for rek and ro#and to be able to be w them as HER teammates
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I Feel TFOne Could've Handled This Better...
Hot take but I feel like folks have been really generous with the take that OP was unable to find ~the perfect words~ in the heat of the moment (and thus should be given some grace) when he told D to stand down and "not be like Sentinel"... namely cuz I don't feel that the narrative supports this?
Like-- after all is said and done, OP doesn't reflect on that part of their split. He doesn't have a moment where he seeks validation or voices his regrets over the choice of his words, it's actually cut-and-dry. The narrative (as it stands) supports that OP saw D-16 acting up, so he called him out and stood on business, down to the last scenes where he's basically like "yeah it's a shame but y'all knew I had to do it to 'em."
It didn't have to be much! I'm not saying to absolve Megs, just show OP looking at things from a different perspective/contemplating a bit on that tough choice and the morality of the moment. Some examples of what I wish we had:
B-127 straight up blurting the obvious by later chatting with Orion like, "Wait so you told your best friend that he was acting just as bad as the guy who enslaved us for our entire lives and was torturing him like an hour ago? Oof. Seems kinda harsh." Then have some of OP's regret show on his face.
OP asking Elita-1 after Megs is banished if he did the right thing. Have Elita back his choice up, saying, "You should have seen what he did after you were... gone. It was terrifying. I know it was tough, but you made the right call." OP is grateful for the support, but a conflicted look still flashes across his face before he steels himself to look out towards the horizon... and the future.
Have OP walk past other mechs/former miners who didn't go with the High Guard saying stuff like, "Wish I could've given Sentinel a piece of my mind!" "Yeah, but I'm glad he's gone for good." "Ugh I miss everything." "Oh, it was crazy! Megatron picked him up and then he rrrrriiipped-- oops, hey there, Mr. Optimus... Prime... sir?" And have OP wave hello, looking a bit sick when they leave.
Post-credits scene with Starscream going on and on, asking Megs when they'll be back to teach the upstart Prime a lesson. Megs grabs his face to shut him up. "Patience, Starscream. The Prime thinks I'm no better than Sentinel... but I'll show him. He wants Iacon? He can have it. In the meantime we'll take the rest of the planet! Then I'll come back, crush Prime under my heel, and we'll take Iacon too. Sentinel's reign will barely be a footnote, because I'm about to become Optimus Prime's worst nightmare." The vocal performance would really need to sell this-- like picture Megs saying something like that from a place of anger and hurt, not so much a place of genuine evil or malice.
Basically instead of Orion's assertion being backed up as black and white/good vs bad, I wish we had some different opinions/reactions from the characters sprinkled in there. Like you can't tell me out of allllll the miners who weren't strong enough/willing to go with the High Guard and ended up sticking around that NONE of them were like "eyyo honestly?? Kiiiiinda glad Sentinel is dead. Wish I could have helped, tbh." like come onnnnn...
And you can't even argue that he's not an active threat-- I don't think everyone would see things that way! It's not just about the threat he physically has, but the threat he represents and is very likely to act upon if given the opportunity! He has a proven track record of not only being sneaky and conniving, but also capable of dealing some serious damage/killing people bigger and stronger than him, plus he has the backing of the Quints. All he'd need to do is wriggle his way out of jail and run off to his sponsors, then he'd probably be back to hurt more people! (If the Quints didn't just kill him out of incompetence lmao). There's a lot of "ifs" here, but I think it's a valid argument that not everyone would agree on what is the right or wrong way to handle Sentinel once he was down long enough to, like, do something about him.
I feel the situation needed a bit of nuance. In some way I wish they had kicked the can and had D and Orion bicker while Sentinel escaped, then have D get frustrated enough by the loss of Sentinel to point fingers (and his fusion canon) at Orion, who then falls and becomes OP. (Megs could still show some of thar emotion/remorse right after he does it too.) Not only would this open the door for a sequel, but tbh the Quint might have just killed Sentinel anyways and sought to deal with the miners uprising themselves lol. (Maybe that could have been an after credits scenes too instead of the B-127 bit??)
Would love to see a moment in a sequel where they have a calmer moment after arguing for a bit. Have OP mention how Megs was out of line, that it hurt and even scared him to see him act that way, and Megs can quietly point out "you said I was as bad as Sentinel... is that really how you see me? After everything we went through?"
Then OP can fumble the bag again lmao like "D, I... I'm sorry, that didn't come out right... but you still took things way too far..."
"Why am I not surprised-- your opinion is what matters the most! Maybe that's why you became a Prime, since you're so good at acting like the world revolves around you--!"
*gets interrupted by someone else before another yelling match ensues*
#rambling#transformers one#tf one#tfo#i'll be honest a lot of this stems from how rushed i felt the last like... 3rd of the movie feels#i feel Optimus is so dismissive of Megs!! like basically the whole movie but ESPECIALLY after coming back to life as a Prime???#your best friend is Going Through It. clearing having an Emotional Breakdown.#He drops you. In the moment it mattered most he chose violence... but notice what he says right before that?#Megs says ''I'm done saving you''#Like??? y'all don't wanna delve into that a little more?????#i half expected Optimus to pop up and be like ''excuse me. i wasn't done talking. what Did You Mean By That??''#instead he comes up and IMMEDIATELY has already written off this entire relationship as well.#Megs dropped him. it was a aplit second decision. we see in the movie D leaning into these bad impulses.#Orion is supposed to mature gradually so he's more level-headed by the end. why does that equate to abandoning the friendship??#why does he suddenly wanna drop Megs too? wouldn't this be the time for ''please listen to me'' part 2?#''it doesn't matter who has the matrix. we can make a change for the better! please listen to me'' etc#also minor nitpick but lmao why was OP Talking Like That after becoming Prime?#like he goes from ''haha hey guys hows it goin'' to ''You have used your gifts for Evil and Betrayed the entire planet''#babes what. Cybertron?? we went on a 2 day road trip on foot the fuck you know about Cybertron.#like betrayed Iacon maybe but idk maybe the guys in Tarn would be cool with Megs you dont know! lmao!#if my friend and I had beef and they started talking to me like the queen of england i would literally ask where they got their soapbox.#ohhhh you think you're morally superior? stop speaking for the whole planet lmao!! already named prime and letting it go to his head!!#strange dieties lying in the core of the planet distributing magic baubles that bring you back to life#is no basis for picking a planetary leader#this has been Orion Was Right: The Movie#when i wish there was a bit more.#maybe another 20-30 min would have helped me idk hhhhh#but Megs turn felt sooooo fast... then things just kept escalating from there.#''some transformations are permanent'' sir it's been like 48 hours since y'all learned you lives were a lie.#you *really* don't think Megs could ever cool down and apologize/change his mind?? you too??? tf???
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Whatās your go to Luo Binghe character design? Curly hair, brown eyes, tall, horns, straight hair, red eyes, claws? Iām curious, just *how* demon is he?
generally i picture him like the english/russian edition designs (aka, the fanon binghe with curly/fluffy hair) but the other details i pick and choose depending on setting or AU, tbh.
i like the idea that his eyes are a warm brown that glints red in different lighting or when he's worked up or using his demon powers, and i'm a BIG fan of giving him large, curling ram's horns along with pointed ears and little fangs and claws - but they aren't details that i default to imagining him with.
mostly because i think that if binghe did possess more physically demonic features, it would be a whole Thing he'd have to work through (i.e. "my REAL appearance is so clearly demonic, maybe it would remind shizun why he threw me away, etc etc"). after all, his own plan to be re-accepted by sqq was to blend in to huan hua and "prove" that he was a righteous cultivator that could live among humans - so naturally more visible demonic features would be something that he'd also want to repress, perhaps even in extreme ways if illusions couldn't cover it.
that isn't something that i always want to make space for in my own AUs, though, so i tend to only indulge in more demonic looking bingys when either a) i know i'll already be in the same wheelhouse as binghe's insecurities around his heritage or b) it's an AU that's so divorced from canon that the insecurities may not exist at all.
i will admit to having a history of commissioning art that specifically calls out more demonic features, though - especially some big curving ram's horns š
#art is so cool bc you don't have to explain any of the context#why does he have ram's horns? wouldn't that affect xyz and mean abc and -#shhhhh it's just a single image don't think about it#ALSO while i'm on the topic tho can i just say. as someone who was in this fandom long before 7s ever even announced the eng ed of svsss#the absolute DIVINE MIRACLE it felt like to see that first english edition cover art#and go āoh my god they're giving us official art of curly haired bingheā#which until that point had been a fanon thing!#it had been my preference the whole time because i just naturally imagined binghe as being fluffy while reading#sqq kept calling him a little sheep - what else was i supposed to imagine !!!!#anyway it was a beautiful day for me seeing that official english cover even if it made others unhappy#nyoomerr ask
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so ... demons coming right after elegy, in the middle of the cancer arc is a crazy choice and i know it means something. please share all your big brain thoughts on mulder & demons?
well...it's kind of like...in elegy, they're being haunted by the future (omens of scully's impending death), in demons, they're haunted by the past (visions from before samantha disappeared). both are highly metaphorical, and both are intrusive, even though he sought out the second. the first is too much. the second isn't enough. and after elegy it's becoming clear that...nothing will be enough. she is so close to death that she can see it. she can't...hide it from him, anymore. she's been dying for a long time. and she doesn't make him face it. she never has that moment where she tells him to just get over it. she never has that moment where she tells him to just accept it, stop avoiding it. she goes to all of her appointments alone. she bleeds alone. even in elegy when they almost argue over it, she tells him that she is fine, and then she goes outside and cries in her car.
but she's not fine, she's so close to death that she can see it, and he knows that. he's so eternally aware. mulder's fatal flaw is that he can see the world, he understands every underlying system, he knows people and how they think. and when he says "i refuse to believe that," he knows that doesn't make it go away. in elegy, he tells her that he's afraid, and she tells him that she's fine. it is a system established long before this particular death sentence.
in the script notes for the last scene of never again, it is remarked that: āif it were ever going to happen, it would be now. as they maintain the silence.ā
the way i see it, never again is when they knew. they are not escaping each other. they are dying together. you are coming down with me. (hand in unlovable hand). and then, in the very next episode, comes a diagnosis. they are dying together. and they are dying now. silence is maintained.
so what does she do, after her diagnosis? she buys a journal, and she writes. she writes him letter after letter after letter. begging forgiveness. begging grace. begging courage.
the page that he found, that he read, this is what it said:
āmulder, i feel you close, though i know that you are now pursuing your own path. for that i am grateful- more than i could ever express. i need to know youāre out there if i am ever to see through this.ā
i need to know youāre out there. a few months later, in demons, a gun to his chin on the floor of his childhood home, does she feel that heāll be āout thereā? she finds out she doesnāt have much longer to live, maybe weeks, in the next episode, and she doesnāt tell him. she maintains silence.
thereās so much discourse over the choices that mulder makes in demonsā¦it was selfish, it was stupid, it was confusingā¦i see people ask all the time why he would willingly do something that causes everyone to kill themselves. the answer, of course, is that mulder wants to kill himself. thatās not new, we all watched pusher. (scully watched too). in redux itās revealed that the āgethsemaneā of the episode directly following demons is not scullyās inevitable and closely impending death, itās mulder alone in his apartment with a gun.
iām really uninterested in attempting to moralize these decisionsā¦whatās āselfishā at the end of the world? i think demons makes people uncomfortable. to watch a dying woman care for her reckless partner. i also think thatāsā¦the point.
demons is desperate. thereās an obvious desperation in mulder, of course, but also in scully.
throughout season four, weāre watching scully die. sheās getting smaller. sheās getting weaker. sheās getting sicker. but as it progresses, scully is realizing that mulder is dying too. and it all culminates in demons. and what can she do but be afraid? what can she do but get down on the ground and hold him? what can she do but write about what she fears will happen to him? she wonāt be there.
nothing will ever be enough after elegy. and thereās nothing that he can do thatās enough. he canāt save her (so he thinks). andā¦he canāt solve the quest before she dies. he canāt give her the answers that sheās dying for. demons to me is such a last ditch effort. such a hail mary. she deserved to know the capital t Truth, before sheās gone. and i think they both know that maybe, when she is gone, it will never be found.
#theyāre DYING.#he does this drastic stupid thing because maybe then theyāll know about samantha. and they can go in peace.#i also think about āclosureā and how thatās 3 years after this and scully is there doing EVERYTHING doing all of the work and it was still#so hard. nearly unsurvivable.#and i think about what if she had died. and what if somehow he kept going. and he ended up there alone.#and sheās thinking that too. he will be alone. he will have no one. he will not be āout thereā and if by some miracle he is#he will be facing it by himself. he will be facing the Truth and the loss and the grief alone.#that one shot of ādemonsā where he just falls to the floor and she slowly kneels beside him and drapes herself over him and holds him#thatās this entire era to me. thatās what it culminates at. because theyāre still not saying it but theyāre seeing it.#and what is there to do? sheās so sorry.#and sheās so scared#asks#demons#Lol I wrote this and the tags months ago before leaving tumblr āļø
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Wooooooooo. God. Just imagining Gep sitting there and having all those feelings flood right through him as he reads, knowing that Sampo's gone for good but still kinda hoping it's all a mistake.
Can't even begin to imagine how he'd feel gettin the next dream from him. Probably still thinking it false, that it's just his hopes influencing his subconscious. He's probs on duty when the day comes, somehow gravitating towards the shipyard not knowing what to think.
Then he sees him, on top of some wall he's not meant to be anywhere near - don't think Sampo's capable of making a normal entrance.
Dude would probably feel 10x lighter, not realising the weight of the new's burden until it was gone, soft smile on his face as he turns around - having seen nothing at all.
N in the next few chases, if he's a little slower than usual, takes safer patrols when he notices he'sbeing followed, then he's merely out of practice.
((The context: Lucid Dreamer ficlet part 1, part 2, and an ask))
AAAAAAA ANON YOU'RE SO SMART. I have thought the same thing about Gepard's reaction to the dream; I think he'd be wary. He would be worried it was just a regular dream and not a Dream-dream, and I don't think he would tell anyone about it, because he doesn't want to break anyone's heart all over again with false hopes.
The part of this that's really killing me though is GEPARD NOTICING SAMPO IS STALKING HIM and TAKING SAFER ROUTES TO PROTECT HIM, THAT'S SO FUCKING GOOD. Gepard feeling eyes on the back of his neck in a way he hasn't felt in so long, and instead of being alarmed like a normal person, he just feels at peace. Like ah, he missed this feeling, and he didn't realize how badly he did until just now...
Absolute freaks, the both of them. I adore them.
#gepo#sampard#hsr sampo#hsr gepard#gepard landau#sampo koski#hsr#honkai star rail#lucid dreamer#ask#anon#sorry if that wasn't where you meant go with it Anon I just have a huge 'gepo are weirdo freaks about each other' agenda zkjxkxksj#i once saw some twitter art somewhere of Sampo looking cute and being babygirl (as he should)#and under him it listed his favorite hobby as 'stalking the captain' and it had me wheezing HSKJXJXND#during his first few days back Sampo swings by Gepard's house and peeks in his bedroom window#and he sees that Gepard not only KEPT all the mismatched blankets from the safehouse#but he has been SLEEPING WITH THEM IN HIS BED#and Sampo nearly dies a second time right then and there on the second floor balcony BSJZJJXKDKD
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Thank you so much for ur work for this community š
thank you!! so, listen, I need to get some casey, jorge and valentino images out into the world
this is from the 2007 qatar post-qualifying press conference. obviously it's not just the three of them given colin edwards is like. right in the middle. (and *checks notes* gƔbor talmƔcsi is also there.) but still a photo of historical significance... casey's first ever race with the ducati (which he very much wins), plus valentino with his then-current teammate edwards and then-future teammate jorge... it's a bit unclear when jorge was actually signed - lin jarvis implies it was in 2006 but if that's the case, edwards seemed to be under the impression for a little too long that he wasn't going to lose that seat. anyways! look at wee nineteen year old jorge lorenzo, look at his utter absence of anything approaching a smile... look at him
misano 2007 post-qualifying press conference and a very powerful photo imo... some nicely contrasting vibes here, good composition... jorge had already been announced as valentino's teammate, and the title is already more or less in casey's pocket (even more so after casey won here and valentino had a mechanical dnf lol - they'd basically brought the race back to the calendar for valentino so this was. not ideal! incidentally still the last race with an entirely non-european podium.)
not much from 2008 tbh. casey and vale took turns to flop in the first bit of the season and then jorge started crashing his brains out. anyway these are from indianapolis, at a time when jorge was just about in the process of getting his act together while casey had crashed in his last three races (including laguna where he picks up the bike to finish p2). quite fond of this race actually, bit of a mess due to the weather and ends up getting red-flagged
first race of 2009.... casey's scheduled annual qatar win. decent shout for his most boring one of the lot, sorry king
pre-event presser before mugello, where valentino had won seven consecutive times headed into the 2009 race. if I'm valentino I low-key never show my face again after the le mans catastrophe but whatever it's fine
the le mans fiasco in question
anyway mugello is another wet-ish race that valentino ended up playing too conservatively because of the le mans horror show. so casey wins! also jorge beats valentino! old man's washed! just about scams his way onto the podium
italian press weren't particularly kind to valentino for having the audacity to lose mugello. they said it was over... he was finished... imagine only winning a race seven times in a row. was he even trying any more? loser
valentino bounced back at catalunya 2009 in highly dramatic fashion (y'know, it's the one with the last corner overtake). moment of deep historical significance in which jorge pulls valentino down from the podium to give him a hug
first race where casey was really struggling with his mystery illness... idk if I were valentino or jorge I'd maybe check if the third guy on the podium isn't about to drop dead but. well. professional athletes, never really been known for their empathy. they did clap along with the journalists in the post-race press conference when the moderator thanked casey for actually making it to the presser, so that's something?
we all have our struggles
the very next race. immaculate vibes imo. the 2009 title fight going into assen had all three of them tied on 106 points... #heritage
anyway the race itself is pretty boring (as unfortunately are many of the races that year), but it's valentino's 100th win so good on him ig. he got out a special banner with photos of all his wins, which would've been an absolute pain to lug around if he'd not immediately won the next race after his 99th
cute. unfortunately, this is now very much mystery illness period for casey... heroic effort to get himself to the podium but not much more was possible at the time
laguna 2009 post-quali presser. jorge is sitting for the photo, because even though he'd bagged pole, he had a massive highside right at the end of qualifying... hurt both his ankles and his shoulder. he'd also had a horrendous highside right at the start of laguna '08, did a good job to banish his gremlins in order to win at the circuit in 2010
qatar 2010... can't have been after the race because casey crashed :/ valentino grabbed the win, before immediately injuring his shoulder in a motocross accident. all went downhill from there, really. damn the eruption of eyjafjallajƶkull we were robbed
laguna 2010 podium, most memorable as 'that time when they accidentally played the italian anthem rather than the spanish one and valentino thinks it's extremely funny' (clip here). extremely poor quality photo shows casey found it funny too. very #them thing to happen to them. valentino buddy the cap's supposed to remain off for the duration of the anthem
this is very much post-leg break btw, still pretty cordial with each other given some of the stuff they'd been saying about each other to the press during that period lol (not casey/jorge, they were basically fine by this point)
presser right after jorge and valentino's little motegi misadventure... gifs from the presser. valentino's smirk vs casey's grin while jorge is being interrogated, I think about you often...
this was casey's fourth consecutive phillip island win (of six total)... isn't that just like. an incredibly cool circuit to be goated at. does mean the fight for the victory was generally quite boring - though the battles behind casey weren't always exactly thrilling either, so you can blame that on the era too. 2008 and 2010 has decent action behind casey, 2009 is the closest casey was pushed for the win and 2011 at least has a bit of weather-related jeopardy
valencia 2010, photos taken before unfortunate events
last shared podium!! le mans 2012, a fun wet race that featured the final proper casey/vale duel at the race after casey's retirement announcement so has real sentimental value... congrats to valentino for not collecting casey this time. presser clip where he shows he's also pretty glad about how he (just about) managed this
#so i have gotten. quite a few asks about jorge/vale. and obviously an important part of the process is including a bunch of images#and well it's a jorge/vale post so i'm keeping casey OUT of it. but this is important to me. so here you go. thanks again anon btw#i did actually include all the podiums the three of them shared lol. not that many idk they were always taking turns to *gestures*#the alien era is in some ways painfully unsatisfying... low-key deeply frustrating. a bunch of gems but also a lot of. not gems#casey stoner#brr brr#//#batsplat responds#comp tag#wall tag#heretic tag#deeply interesting three way situation... casey eventually warms towards jorge and kinda likes using him as a way to bash valentino#jorge is obsessed from the word go with valentino but takes a while to really care about casey... but he does end up quite fond of him#whereas for vale these are his two most Strictly Professional feuds but he always REALLY kept jorge at a distance. more so than casey#i luv casey... occasionally he has a lil sepang 2010 grin a lil 'marc/jorge at honda will be like watching a film with popcorn'#a lil 'motogp would be more fun if valentino were still at the front'#he enjoys some drama sometimes don't let him tell you otherwise... i see you casey
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For the requests, could we possibly get a cute lil Nighty (passive)?? :D
happy tears(?)
nightmare belongs to jokublog
(requests still open! )
#illustration#my art#utmv#nightmare sans#nightmare!sans#dreamtale#don't worry he's just grateful you asked to see him of all people<3333#no but fr i kept looking back and forth at your ask while drawing this to make sure i didn't go off prompt-#and i'm STILL not sure if it counts as a 'cute lil nighty' artwork HGJJUG#i mean he's always cute no matter what so it's probably good right?? hhh :')c#i had. so much fun with it up until sai crashed and made me loose everything :'D#so so glad i had the reflex to screenshot the piece before it self destructed on me cause i would've lost it a little otherwise >:')#hope ya like it!!! :D <333
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heyo spinny!! whats some of your favourite tlg ships? or just any you like in general
EHEHEHE rubbing my hands together. evilly. hehehe
well, kiburi is my pathetic wet cat blorbo and i happen to love all the crackships for him. kiburi x makuu? funny as fuck. kiburi x ushari? love them in nikki's pirate au they keep me up at night. kiburi x janja? the outlands brotp ever. my favourite character's stupid ships my beloved yknow?
in terms of other ships: reirei x goigoi obviously. baobabfruit ofc (thanks to you :] /pos). jasiri x kion because yeah. and as you could never tell (/sarc) i love poly ships so banzai x shenzi x ed, tano x nne x madoa, & kiara x tiifu x zuri are ones i really enjoy too. oh and i'll say timon x pumbaa too since they were my first tlk ship i suppose :]
#it's funny bc. sometimes i think about crackships more than my actual ships#like i got an ask about tamka x nduli and i kept thinking about it. in a /pos way#probably because im open minded to ships and i can see them in a queerplatonic light yknow#idk how to explain it. the best example might be through kiburi#in canon i see him as aroace. but i also enjoy various ships for him and all of those would be in aus#alternatively i could see him being in a qpr. but its kiburi so whoever he was with would have to be really right for him lmao#i like kiburi x ushari for that reason. if you put them in the right setting they just Work. for me#something something everyone has their own view of ships and how characters work with each other#therefore i will never be a ship hater. unless its fucking proship or whatever obviously#sail your ships! if i enjoy em i'll happily hop on board otherwise they can float on by it doesn't bother me#another ramble. i used to enjoy kion x ono a lot#it stemmed from way back when i first watched the show and ono was my favourite#i think i saw them both as demiromantic so they just. worked. to me#nowadays i favour ono x beshte x bunga so there we go#used to have a lot of janja ships back in the day too#idk man the world of shipping is interesting to me#and i ship a lot of stuff :] and im happy about it#endlessly rambles at u in tags hfgdjjdhdhd#thanks for askin :D#asks!!#the lion guard thoughts#the lion guard#tlg#mutuals
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Catch (Miami Beach) | 6.26.24 (x)
#niko mikkola#anton lundell#florida panthers#after so long i finally get to know what colour shirt mikksy wore#*w the air of the scientist holding a vial memeā Finally. Mikksys wearing a GREEN shirt#club was so dark i kept going is it green or is it black are my eyes failure to tell shades apart finally doing me in#forest green... he does own colour... hallelujah#istg his fingers have magnets in them that never allow him to get that tincan out of his grasp#good for her#pure elated joy what a man#the tags are all about mikksy rip i love you lundy BUT THAT IS MY WIFE#please dont ask me what colour i think mikksys eyes are im not prepared to answer that question#ādidnt you see him irl-ā and. okay i was too nervous to make eye contact i could not tell you even if you put a hammer to my head#he has the same magical eyecolour as my bestfriend which means im genuinely not qualified to answer this question at all
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