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PROLOGUE
FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 1-9)
AND SO IT BEGINS!
[CONTINUE] [MASTERPOST]
#So excited for this thing to finally start!#The prologue is an introduction to what Flowey is thinking and what he might be planning#But since flowey has always been a representation of the player...this also works to set the story for the readers and make them curious#don't be sad that the science squad isn't in the prologue#they're gonna be here for all of chapter one so you're seeing them next week!#okay I need to actually add tags to this thing#I don't like how page 7 looks but ig there's nothing I can do about it now#undertale#forgettable-au#undertale au#papyrus#papyrus is gaster#undertale comic#flowey#undertale fancomic#forgettable-au-comic
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Do you sometimes think about your Rook dying a very violent and sudden death in battle, their LI running up to them and crying for help while Rook is just shaking and bleeding out, desperately clutching at their partner, eyes wide in fear, while their LI can do nothing but to tell them that it's going to be okay (it's not) and fighting back sobs and tears to put on a brave face for them in their last seconds, just to break down and cradle them in their arms after they took their last breath, or are you normal?
#before you ask: yes I made myself sad#no i'm not okay#rookanis#thinking about them specifically because they haven't suffered enough I guess#neverook#also very delicious with the angst#neve's fear of losing rook becomes reality#oooh my poor girl#emmrook#fearing death like nothing else and he has to witness his love dying in front of his eyes#and despite his healing magic being powerless because it's just too late and too bad#davrook#he was the one supposed to die#this is not possible it's supposed to be him not rook#what about their dream of a little house in the woods with their bird cat son?#don't know about the other romances yet but either way it's BAD#dragon age#datv
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i think my problem with this dw season arc accusing the audience of fanbrain for theorising about ruby is that it both feels deceitful and isn't actually that compelling from a character perspective. the season goes out of its way to build up supernatural mystery around ruby and even invokes susan more heavily than ever before in a way that is deliberately trying to get the audience to make those connections. and then it turns around and says you stupid idiot why would you ever try to connect these dots i have deliberately tried to get you to connect.
building up a mystery only for the character to be ordinary is an impossible girl arc redux only this time accusing the viewer of failing to see the humanity of the companion, whereas the impossible girl arc was turning that accusation on the doctor. 7b didn't really blame the audience for viewing clara as a puzzle and in fact several times spells out the fact that clara is perfectly ordinary before the big reveal to give the audience a chance to catch on. as 7b goes on, instead of laying the mystery on thicker, the audience just gets more and more affirmations that clara is a normal human being (rings of akhaten, journey to the centre of the tardis, hide). i found this approach compelling because it was rooted in character, focusing on the doctor's disconnection from humanity/the gendered dynamic of a man treating a woman as his manic pixie mystery to pull him out of grief. s14's meta approach of accusing the viewer feels both unfair, given it has deliberately led the viewer towards theorising, and personally less compelling to me because it wasn't tied into character in any way.
the thing about rey's parentage in tlj is that the reason rian johnson chose to go for that reveal was that it was the only answer that was interesting. none of the theories - rey is a skywalker, rey is a kenobi, and even the eventually canonical rey is a palpatine - were interesting or satisfying because they brought nothing compelling to the table for the story being told. the only satisfaction to be gained from those answers was a fanbrained "omg rey is important because she's related to that guy from the other movie." on top of that, rey desperately wants her parents to have been important, to give her life and her abandonment some kind of significance. so them being ordinary provided the most compelling trajectory for her character because it was the thing she least wanted to hear. it forced her to do the most introspection and growth, as well as tying into the film's themes about the capacity of ordinary people to be special. it wasn't just a choice made to "gotcha" the viewer, it was rooted in character.
i don't think ruby's mother being ordinary accomplishes the same thing. by invoking susan, s14 is engaging with the most egregious example of the doctor's streak of abandonment, which has potential to be very compelling in relation to ruby (and now also the doctor's) own abandonment issues. theories that ruby might be susan, or be somehow related to susan, or somehow related to the doctor, weren't just fanbrained "omg she's related to that guy i know from the classic series." they were theories genuinely rooted in character and the potential to explore both the doctor and ruby's issues with abandonment. and this is something the show willingly led fans towards by invoking susan so much in the first place. so for the show to turn around and act like they were shallow out of nowhere ideas when they were not shallow and were based on potential character conflicts the show itself deliberately invoked, feels misguided.
as well as that, ruby's mother being ordinary does not require that same growth from ruby as it did for rey because it is exactly what ruby wanted to hear. she never wanted her mother to be important, she just wanted to know who her mother was and have a connection with her. so finding out she was a normal woman who still loves her and wants to be a part of her life is everything she's ever wanted. it doesn't introduce interesting conflict for her the way rey's parents being ordinary did for her, because they were written as different characters with different hangups over their abandonment.
tl;dr i don't necessarily dislike ruby's mother being ordinary as an idea but compared to the things it was inspired by - 7b and star wars - it is not nearly as compelling in terms of how it relates to the characters or themes. and the meta angle, while conceptually interesting, doesn't quite work for me because it feels a little manipulative of the audience.
#blahs#dw#dw spoilers#like to be clear i'm not necessarily saying ruby's mother SHOULD have turned out to be susan#i'm saying that if it was always going to be an ordinary woman then rtd should've constructed a better arc around that#bc for the one he did write it's not that compelling of an answer. it doesn't really move anyone forward except maybe the doctor himself#bc the doctor is now sad that ruby has what he can never find#like yeah okay that's interesting... next season. and for the doctor. but not really for ruby!! and not for s14 as a whole!!#and like pulling the rug out of a mystery like this is something moffat also did a lot#like invoking the name of the doctor only to not reveal it or teasing the hybrid as a big alien villain only for it to be twelveclara#but the thing about those is that moffat never makes the answer that he rejects genuinely compelling#like he rejects learning the doctor's name bc there is nothing compelling about knowing it and he never tries to make you think there is#he rejects the hybrid as a warrior alien bc there's nothing compelling about that and he doesn't try to make you think there is#i feel subversive moffat mysteries are always leading you towards why the answer he gives you is the most compelling one#which i don't think s14 accomplishes. instead it's like haha! tricked you! your genuinely interesting theories are silly and dumb!#idk. i see the vision but i don't think it was handled with a deft hand so it ended up kind of a mess that didn't land imo
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ive officially entered the stage of OC brainrot where i start putting him in outfits for fun and (zero) profit
#giving urself a crisis over ripping your own heart out? simply dont feel sad!#go to a fancy ball with all the friends you definitely dont have!#bury all of your feelings forever!#distract yourself from the urge to curl up and cry into a pillow via putting on your best worst bat in a fancy outfit cosplay#specifically to impress another way older actual bat (that may or may not be an ex god)#that doesn't care about you and doesn't reciprocate your attraction in the slightest#simply stop thinking about it. stop thinking about everything. be a bat. be the bestest bat in the whole wide world.#this has been great and totally healthy life advice with the scoundrel <3#yin art#legally FL but if i put this in the main tag i might actually die <- is shy#anyway ponytail scoundrel is unfairly cute. must the gradient on their hair 'make sense' and 'follow logic'?#is it not enough to simply be a little bat with zero thoughts in its head and a winning little :3 smile?#he puts a little gold drapery in his hair bc he thinks it helps hide the fact that the horns arent a head adornment and are in fact#Very Much Real. and Growing.#it hides literally nothing. he thinks he's so subtle. everyone knows you're a furry buddy it's okay you can stop being smug about it#fallen london
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still sorting out how to feel about it but fuck ncuti was just insantly beyond all expectations. King
#i feel sad his first appearance was sort of playing second fiddle to tennant and he didnt get a proper regen or anything#but i am soooooo excited for him to get started in earnest#plot wise probably my favorite of the specials but that was pretty unhinged#my full conclusion is that rtd is the most self indulgent showrunner alive which works for him but is also very Apparent lmao#doc who#doctor who spoilers#like whys ncuti feeling like a companion/side character in his own show like????#as someone who isnt a tengirl it’s like. Okay.#also as someone who enjoyed the donna tragedy SORRY#like these specials were really not For Me which is fine. but lets get going cmon 💪#i’ll just never be a happy ending enjoyer i need it to be at least bittersweet which is why i like this show lol. too happy booooo#me and capaldi being like ITS SAD. ITS ABOUT DEATH. rtd putting his hands in his ears and playing with action figures#which he has the right to do i wish him nothing but happiness also 14 and 15 sjould have fucked
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Erin, to her crush: You're a dick
Mason, the crush: I won't argue! But to clarify -
#my characters#its so sad that all of erins character development and kindness is on paper and nothing digital to show her growth#she picks on mason for many reasons and she kinda narrows her eyes at him but its more to squint than to glare#because she watches him from a distance when hes off laughing with others#though they are united on peter being worse than mason at least they can agree no matter what peter is worse#but also masons right arm is metal and she thinks its fascinating bc theres so many high tech prosthetics#why is he using the equivalent of a trash can ? is it some weird flex to not needing advanced stuff?#and its just he was from a poor family and was born with one full arm and then a stump#and he lived a lot of his youth with just one arm so once he got a second arm (installed basically) he went cheap#since he only wanted the other arm to get better jobs cause not many people would hire him with one arm#and he never really cared much about her comments because her lil verbal pokes of#so rogers whod you piss off? the mafia? is actually nicer than stuff he heard as a kid without the fake arm#so he tells her the only reason he has a metal limb is because god knew hed be two strong if born with two arms#and shes like uh huh sure thing rogers#and yeeeeah eventually something happens where mason is injured and erin is panicking#and hes acting like its okay to die because hes a dick remember TRYING to make light of it and she gets so sad#and after hes recovering and better he feels guilty making her so sad and hes talking to her#and she says that she doesnt have a lot of friends and she didnt want to lose one of the few people she liked#and hes just oh.......................... ididntthinkthatwouldbeme#so he starts to be super friendly to her and enforcing the crush that she doesnt wanna own up to#and then she does eventually confess and mason is baffled as to since when and shes like day one? and he just#erin you have got to be kidding me you were glaring at me for months#and shes just i have bad eye sight and im shy what did you expect#he isnt super smart or super stupid hes just exceedingly average
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Ride 742: Sudden death match!!

Pag 1
1: Woah, Danchiku, oh-
And Sugimoto-san too!?
2: They passed us so quickly!! Such high pace!!
Huh!?
They're doing some sort of serious race!?
3: I get it
4: I can feel it
5: This guy....!!

Pag 2
1: He's not giving up at all!!

Pag 3
3: Earlier, at the line, I thought I had won this race
I thought he was far behind me and would cross the line with his head hanging down
4: And yet....

Pag 4
1: He caught up to me....!!
2: The preliminary of this race was already done on the “second day”!!
3: That time, the result
5: was a draw!!
6: So it would be better to have a more precise result, wouldn't it
We'll decide it with this lap!! The rules are simple: the starting point line is 4km from here, the one who crosses it first wins!!
7: And then the loser shouldn't “surpass” the winner anymore!! Sugimoto-san!!

Pag 5
1: Imaizumi-san too!!
2: …. yeah
It's better to make it clear with a proper race like this
3: So you have no regrets....!!
4: Let's go!!
5: Crush him, Danchiku!!

Pag 6
2: At the same time....!!
Ah.... “at the same time” again!?
3: Seriously!?
Are you being for real, Sadatoki!?

Pag 7
1: You're just seeing things as you wish they were,since he's your brother!!
Oon!! No that's not it, on!!
It's true, Kaburagi, I saw it too
2: They arrived at the same time, Sugimoto stretched at the last moment
3: Kawada!!
It's “san”!!
4: Are you an accomplice too!!
What are you talkin abut
5: A- amazing, Sugimoto-kun
6: Amazing!!

Pag 8
1: “Amazing”, huh, Onoda
2: Imaizumi-kun....
Pfui
3: You thought Sugimoto would win? ….This race
Huh
4: You didn't think he would, that's why when we heard the results you could say “amazing”
Ah!!
5: I'm- I'm sorry Sugimoto-kun!! I didn't believe in you, even though you worked so hard....!!
Who are you yelling at
6: Me too

Pag 9
2: During these past four days.... Sugimoto worked hard, but, after their race on the second day and after seeing how remarkably stronger Danchiku has gotten
3: When they decided to do another race, I thought Sugimoto would definitely lose
4: Then, when the time came
5: If you lose, you feel better if you gave it your all, so
6: “So you have no regrets”
7: I said that
But
8: He turned it around
Sugimoto really is amazing

Pag 10
1: Even with no one believing in him, with only his own strength, he snatched a “draw” against Danchiku!!

Pag 11
1: Keep going!! Let's keep going with the race, Danchiku!!
2: Even though he's having such an hard time, he's still following me!!
3: Since earlier I've increased the pace many times
4: Garuaaa
Even if I tear him off

Pag 12
1: Every time
2: While saying
3: “Kuaa kuaa”
“Kuaa kuaa”
5: Kuaaa-
6: Kuaaaaaaa
He catches up to me

Pag 13
2: You keep following me....
3: No....
4: You're the one who said “please follow me”, Danchiku

Pag 14
1: Garuaaa!!
2: Ahhhh
Don't make fun of me, there's no way!!
3: Aaaaaaaa
4: Hiigaruaaaa!!
There's no way I'll lose!!

Pag 15
1: To Sugimoto-san!!
4: I was careless – I was careless and that's why he caught up to me!! The second time too!!
I won't be careless this time!!

Pag 16
1: Ill take a plunge firmly, throw my handles, and cross the line
2: At full throttle!!
The last curve!!
3: He's not following me anymore!! He's....

Pag 17
1: He's here!!
Cough cough
2: Kuaaaa
We're entering the final sprint!!
3: Dammit, this guy is gonna stretch from here!!
4: Hiigaruaaaaa!!
Take a plunge!!
5: Take a plunge!!

Pag 18
1: Throw your handles!!

Pag 19
1: Wooooah!!
No... wait, even now....
2: It's a draw!!
Ya!!
On!!
Woah
3: Dammit, what happened, Danchiku what are you doin!!
You should be much stronger..... should....

Pag 20
1: Don't tell me.... that Sugimoto-san.... is strong too!?
2: You.... you mean it's a draw for the third time!!
How long will they keep going, at this pace it won't ever end!!
3: …. no
5: It's a shame, but there's no time left...
6: This lap is the last
#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 742#i know this chap isnt supposed to be funny but it's so funny to me asdsdfsdghdjfl#extremely good but very funny at the same time#im sorry but kaburagi being so shocked at the end like'dont tell me.... that sugimoto-san is strong too!?!?!?' like???#its ridiculous how they chose sugimoto bc they thought he was weak- like why would you chose a weak opponent and then act all high and migh#mighty???? it really says nothing good about you lmao#also onoda sdjmkdgsadhm he always believes in everyone but not sugimoto ;A; and the way imaizumi immediately pointed it out#'a-ha! so you didnt think sugimoto would win after all huh' 'yeah no dont worry me neither lol'#its sad and all but also so funny to me xD#sugimoto is the only one who 'won' without the power of friendship can you believe it#im so proud of him!!#but also at this point im very confused about whats gonna happen ????#imaizumi said okay lets stop this now we dont have all day lmao#but what now then
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okay so junhan said in the last fansign that he'll grow his hair out a bit longer but not as much as before. it's pretty much the length it was in early 2024 (but way thicker for some reason) so i don't think we need to fret much but it is a bit ??? for how long he wants it again considering it grows so fast 😭
#i was having a look through and it's basically the same as the photos he posted to 🫧 on 240215#kind of? hard to say with it being SO THICK NOW AND I WENT THROUGH SO MANY PHOTOS#it was already a lot longer by the time they finished the btb tour at the end of march#my best guess is that he'll grow it to the little things promotions length#i would KILL to get 240512 junhan back oh my god#she still has me in a fucking chokehold and it has absolutely nothing to do with using the same choker as 231103 i swear haha#okay maybe it has a little bit to do with it#oh the v6.1 concerts length was soooo pretty too like i was talking about 240601 the other day and 240602 was the guitarz head bonk#i'm not hard to please all things considered#i'm grateful he doesn't want to go shorter at least#just. please. don't keep it the way it is now. please#i've been through too many photos from last year now i've made myself sad ah gosh#xdinary heroes#junhan#chewy ramblings
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Do you ever think about how Amane's warnings were either seen as threats (by Mahiru and audience) or as just test of patience (by Shidou)? Do you ever think about how Amane likely was just trying to protect the ones she cares about? Do you think she didn't actually want to kill Shidou, but felt like she had to to save Mahiru? Do you think that's why she's mad at us for not stopping him?
First MV, shows her helping a (cartoon) cat, getting punished, then promising to be good. Gets voted guilty and punished, giving a message that practicing medicine is bad and deserves punishment.
Second MV, shows what the punishment was and that the cartoon cat was real cat.
Do you think after that first vote result, she started to think of Milgram as the same as her mom? That Milgram has the same rules against medicine? That if Shidou continues to practice it, Milgram will punish both him and kill Mahiru?
Do you think Amane killed Shidou immediately after knowing that he was voted Innocent? Do you think she felt like that was a huge risk and that she'd get punished again, this time for ending a life too early before it was supposed to, but that she thought it was worth it to protect Mahiru from same fate that the cat she took care of faced? Or do you think she waited until she was voted Innocent as well, to get confirmation that it's acceptable to punish someone for breaking the rules? Do you think even then it felt like a risk given how close she was to being voted Guilty again? Do you think she's currently scared of what we'll do now?
Do you think she regrets the decision? Do you think she too blames herself now for Mahiru's death, along with millions of voices that blame her for it?
#Amane thoughts randomly spawned while I was listening to MeMe (vocals only) vers. on loop#Started somewhere after “that moment at 02:33 mark sounds so angelic with how Natsuki Hanae's voice echoes” thought#somehow brain immediately connected “Mikoto's voice -> аngеliс -> аngеls -> Gоd -> rеligiоn -> Amane”#catch the subtle censoring so I stop getting those fuckass tumblr ads that keep showing up every time I mention those specific words#or go through Amane or Fuuta tags (scrolling through Amane and Fuuta tags and there's 99% chance I'll get jumpscared by rеligiоus ad)#Oh my gоd 99%... 99.. a 9.... Like... Like... 09... Mikoto reference... (fucking hell get him out of my head too. Why is here.)#Mikoto why are you fucking everywhere. I can't escape him either.#Mikoto thoughts would be at least bearable if they were actually easy to put into words in some way or another.#But they're such a fucking mess that I can't even do a “something something (insert vague ideas)” with him.#Don't mind the tags. Focus on Amane post above. I'm just losing my mind in the tags. As usual. :)#Okay. Uh. Completely losing it Because Of fucking Mess Of Mikoto Thoughts aside. Back to Amane.#I actually believe Amane doesn't and never has hated Shidou. She may have been frustrated by how he brushes her warnings aside and how he#he would treat her as a child and. If minigrams are to be taken into account. how he never took no for an answer no matter how many times#she told him she won't eat the pancakes. but being frustrated with someone's actions =/= hating them.#She did not hate him. She did not hate Mahiru. She had nothing against either of them. She was trying to save them from Milgram's punishment#And when both of them ignored her warnings. She had to take matters into her own hands to try saving at least one of them.#It's 02:10 AM and I'm over here getting sad over a fictional child that is constantly misunderstood and seen as evil by the fandom#meanwhile a fictional man from same media won't leave my mind either. Help. Sobbing Crying Breaking down Shattering into millions of pieces#that. that last one. may have been a poor choice of words. given what fictional man it's about. 😶#Anyways. Throwing this into the wild. Good luck to anyone who's about to read this wall of text (post).#Double (... 😶) the luck to whoever also reads through this nonsensical second wall of text in tags.
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HI TUMBLRR it’s me
#I ate ramen just now it was soooo god I think ramen is just it just is better after 10pm#im right#ughhh ok that actually reminded me earlier my classmate was making an Asian people eat dogs joke like he put on this awful accent and he wa#all like ‘dog tastes so good with rice’ and then he did other stuff too#but what really made me upset is that someone who I thought was my friend found it really humorous! wow okay!#I know it’s not really a big deal but im still kind of sad like I’ve lost all my respect for you now#anddd they were my only friend in the class so now I’m stuck there for the rest of the semester I guess . I mean I’ll still be nice to them#but I just don’t think I can bring myself to like them anymore sorryyy . not really . but kind of#idk if I’m overreacting . in elementary school though people would make jokes actually about me eating dog and it always made me really sad#but I never held it against them cause we were children#but now I feel like you’re old enough to know what you’re laughing at..#wow ok this really derived away from me being on tumblr and having just ate the worlds best ramen#well . not really I mean it was good but I’m allergic to normal noodles and I need to eat rice noodles and they’re not bad I just don’t lik#them as much Lol#I feel like my actual posts say nothing but if anyone ever reads the tags they probably know everything about me..#I use tumblr to complain half the time loll and I used to post my drawings more but I haven’t made any good drawings recently😭😭😭BUT WAIT!#i have a comic I’ll post in October we’ll see how far I am in it by then…#im like . halfway done with chapter oneeeee so maybe like I’ll post all of chapter one on hallowern.. how does that sound… cause actually#for those of you who don’t know my story has ghosts in it#im like trying to keep it a little silly right now but the tone might shifftttt idk!!!!! we’ll seeeeeeee cause actually I have NOT worked#out the entire plot.. just like. most of it.#but I keep having ideas like midway through ughhh it’s an endless cycle!!!!!#like Francis . she used to be a random character who shows up once but then I was like . wait no! anjali should have ghost friends! and tha#that’s how Francis came to be#and actually today I kind of finalized her design^_^ albeit in my math notebook lol
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ofmd s2 rly said yeah let's add more women to the cast but it's so important to immediately throw them into relationships with no proper buildup, storyline or conclusion that in order to make it happen we'll break up the secondary main couple of the first season with no explanation for that either
#like i don't think every show ever has to be great in every way#but as a bitch who mainly watched + enjoyed s1 for jim & olu... can't decide how to feel about this season#they did them so dirty in all ways--individually and their romantic+platonic relationship together#like i really really thought at least we'd get some more scenes between them about it and them sorting stuff out emotionally#also was hoping for even just more casually included acknowledgement of jim being nb this season#but i feel like if you only watched s2 you'd barely even know about it?#olu mostly felt like he had no personality or agency other than how others viewed him either#like ihni why he liked zheng other than that she liked him#or how he really felt about jim moving on because he fr seemed sad about it in the first episode. then Nothing#and if they rly are poly we have no idea abt that either since nothing was ever shown to indicate jim/olu are still romantic#oh well#lucius & pete were superstars though they're so strong for carrying the whole show. and i did love the last episode for everyone else#enough that i guess i'll settle on an overall okay feeling of enjoyment#but srsly i'll be sad about jimolu for the rest of forever#ofmd spoilers
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I'm tired of dreaming about my dad. I know it's part of processing, but I am just so tired.
#speculation nation#negative/#sometimes theyre nice dreams where i have him back. except i still wake up sad.#sometimes theyre dreams where im trying to prevent what i know is going to come. but without fail i wake up. and he's already dead.#and then there are dreams like the one i just woke up from. where i know he's dead and im feeling the full force of grief once again#bawling and bawling in-dream. with enough force that it wakes me up.#and of course. i wake up sad from these too.#it makes me think about that passage i wrote for ITNL. well over a year ago. before the Year Of Death even began.#where i wrote about vash dreaming of wolfwood. with a similar sort of vibe to this.#i wrote that inspired by the death of my grandma. who i was close with and greatly troubled by her death.#even that had nothing on my dad though. no loss has ever felt this severe before.#it's been 5 months and sometimes i feel okay. but then i feel the ache deep in my chest again#and i know im never going to be fully free from this pain.#i want to go back to the person i was before i lost my dad. to before i lost my uncle.#i want to go back to early may of last year. where life seemed hopeful and i was minimally touched by death.#only 2 deaths from people close to me. 3 deaths if you count my childhood cat.#now im up to 5 deaths of people who were close to me. and 7 if you count my sweet baby boys.#can you believe that? 4 deaths ive grieved in the past year (and a bit). 2 more deaths of ppl i knew but wasnt close to.#and 2 of them were so genuinely life-altering that they changed me as a person. my uncle and then my dad.#i still dont know who i am now. i feel so lost. i look out at the piles of boxes of my dad's stuff and i feel so overwhelmed.#im supposed to go through them. i havent touched them in months. i dont know how to even begin.#and so i try my best to keep up with my cleaning and my schoolwork. it's about all that i can manage
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gojover? i barely ever know her
#rip disabled gojo you will live on in my dreams#i'm so sad about that#why does he still have his arm and both of his eyes man 😢#anyways!!! let's admit this feels like the perfect time for something to go bat shit wrong#gojo is exhausted there's a sense of relief from winning the fight#is megumi okay? like. is that really the end of the king of curses? and if yes will kenny really not take advantage of this situation?#i just feel like this was a very underwhelming fight overall?! for the magnitude it has so idk#i don't think i would be mad if gege pulled something for shock factor next chapter#i don't know if i want sukuna to have a way to come back or not like he IS the king of curses but gege's usage of sukuna as a character#fell so flat so far (in my opinion) that it feels a bit eh if he's just defeated like this with no real consequences#ignoring the town destroyed because that means nothing emotionally ahsjsj#i don't know if this makes sense but whatever i'm glad gojo's alive this week thank you gege#gege is that one meme of 'i hate gojo' while making a gojo collage on his wall#jjk leaks
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a lot has been going on, love yall
#dsfghsdfgghd#so i hadnt yet come out to aaron fully. tried to frame it as quirky cis girl things but like#it went well. he doesnt like the name but im cool with that. my mom seems kinda sad about it otherwise i'd ask her if she wanted to help#me pick it#but so far actually getting on t has been a hassle.#got written a prescription on the 9th. Woo#doesnt actually go through just the needles etc#i wait a few days like a good little customer#call my pharmacy to check on it. mention that i heard it could be an insurance thing#they say that it wasnt. that my pharmacist cancelled it for some reason#they fix it. aaron had some feelings about this that caused me to hold off. he came home from alabama#and i feel so bad bc i told myself i could be cool and just. accept it if aaron didnt like it and carry on bc like#okay have wanted to go on t since 13-15. but i was also kinda just chilling??? like i barely live in my body anyway but#and he revealed some really personal stuff that has me deeply worried for him tbh#But i'm proceeding. he's given his okays and i do feel sad. i do kinda feel like im killing the woman he loved even tho 1. hes done#nothing to indicate feeling that way and 2. he can still call me his wife. frankly hes the sweetest funniest guy with biggest heart. makes#me nut. im in heaven with him. life goes on u know#anyways off topic. we have money again. aaron is being cool now i just dk how to bridge those topics with respect for him#but he offered to pick it up for me. walmart first told him that they didnt take good rx cupons for controlled substances and then when the#saw him pull up a cupon they said walmart was the only pharmacy that couldnt#then they came back and said they couldnt give it to him since insurance denied it so theyre sending another request#full goshdamn circle. it was nice hearing aaron get indignant and annoyed that its a controlled substance
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What the hell is Begins Youth doing how are there two episodes left. I'm assuming ep12 reveals the timeloop but I have SO many more questions. They cannot spend an HOUR working up to the reveal that Jeha and Cein are dead and that Jooan's dad is dead (isn't he already??) they just can't do that. WHAT is their plan
#episode 10 was CRAZY#hey remember when this show had fun scenes#i am being so serious. they needed one more episode because we needed to see them all being friends more#there needed to be more filler scenes. it was probably a budget issue but they needed to show the bond more#also what is the principals deal. if hwans dad doesnt remember because he forgot forgot then why was he infront of eunjoos house w a lighte#the thing is its hyyh so i cant even expect an answer for some of these questions#anyways i really do like this show i understand why they changed some things but i also really wish they didnt sometimes#it MATTERED that cein protected jeha and that got him expelled!!!! they also changed harus whole arc which i get but also :/#<- using the show names but thats not who i mean. god hyyh is so confusing#i am so sad that when i finish this show there will be nothing new left. except i saw the thumbnail for 00 o'clock or whatever so im okay#if i decide its hyyh related then it is. i make the rules. sorry#like just because it's not 'certified' doesn't mean it's not apart of it yk?#im just ranting now. anyways hyyh has taken over my brain and im not mad about it
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me: this chapter is going to be super fun and lighthearted! no sad thoughts today, no sir!
some demon inside me: this character is going to become so guilt ridden that they dissociate due to being reminded of their past
me: but... why.... you don't have to do this....
some demon inside me: vibes
#when authors say that they have no control WE MEAN IT OKAY#i did not PLAN for over a thousand words of angst it just happened okay?!#we'll see if it survives my beta reader but for now this is what is happening guess#I have noticed that for whatever reason when i don't know how to continue a scene i default to pov character dissociates/has a panic attack#i uh....i don't know what that says about me#probably nothing good#so far ive scrapped like four unplanned panic attack/dissociation scenes in the making of this fic#and theres still SEVERAL left that got published#so yeah i think this is a sign of a problem#dunno what to do about it tho#my beta reader is constantly commenting just Tired#“kat you're projecting your anger over mishima's treatment onto akira again”#“kat akira would not threaten mishima's parents with a knife where did he get the knife”#“kat why is akechi crying panicking over akira being sad hes known him for two days”#“kat. akechi is far too repressed to do that.”#“kat why is akechi admitting to caring about people this early on”#“kat mishima would not stand up for himself like this”#“kat akira would not become a stalker to protect mishima”#“kat the only person you've shown with stalker tendencies so far is akechi and he does not care enough about mishima to do that”#“kat. no.”#she's right tho#grass i know you read my posts and i love you for this <3#still laugh about that time i messaged you like “hey i think im projecting too much of my mishima feelings onto akira in this scene”#and you were like “if even YOU are noticing it then YEAH YOU PROBABLY ARE”#randum thots#some fic i wrote
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