#he doesnt want me falling cause im an idiot

[xmushy-gushyx]

I don't ever tie my shoes, I don't have the energy to, but he promised he'd tie my shoes for me and I've never felt so cared about.

[fuckitupfelix]

maybe … u could write about tsukishima with an s/o that just DOESNT sleep at night and everyday they show up to school sleepy so it just causes them to fall asleep during class and miss important things so tsukishima’s just like “😐” and tired of their shit 😣 erm i hope that wasn’t too specific

i had fun w this LMAOO thank u for the req anon >_<!!

sleep tight >_< !

tsukishima kei x gn reader

oh my god he's so done with you im sorry . . .

he has to deal with idiots from volleyball AND his s/o is literally always asleep in class. . . he wants to die

he'll complain but then by the end of the day you'll have a copy of his notes on your desk. . . interesting. . . -> only some days though. when he's feeling nice.

ninety percent of the time he chides you for not sleeping more or just laughs at you.. -> "tsukkiiiiii, seriously, what happened in class?" "you'd know if you stayed awake an extra five minutes. the teacher explained it right after you fell asleep." "WHAT."

you have to go to yamaguchi for help 💔

tsukki wouldn't let you fail though. (he wouldn't date someone stupid..) -> at the very least he'll let you copy his notes at lunch or invite you over after school to study

imagine you miss a test review and he just cannot be bothered to help you . . . maybe you're a lost cause . . . -> you fail the test because he didn't share any of his notes 😭

THANK YOY ANON ARRGHH tsukkis actually kinda silly he's growin on me :p

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[leynaeithnea]

Wow your post is really so good and also really really perfect so I'll try to not really add much to it and just sit here in awe of you jaksjsnnsns

Eurylochus begging to be gaslighted aaah and being the voice of the crew and Ody not wanting to fight him and Ody always being smarter than all of their opponents and bargaining even with Gods to protect his men but not anymoree aaaakdkksnsnsnsnsn

Also I agree , the big ass sword does look awkward and out of place but it also looks really cool so I understand Jorge's choice a little bit lol

(btw you worded everything so well !!!! )

"Don't make me fight you"=I don't want your blood on my hands SOMEBODY SEDATE ME THE ANGST IS TOO MUCH

( I have nothing to say for a good while here bc I was just soaking up your pretty pretty words and got distracted and didn't take any notes lol)

Eury being suicidal "we're never gonna make it home alive " I AGREE SO MUCH bc he never says " nah man don't worry there will be no consequences these cows are chill" he says " meh, we're desperate with nowhere to go, might as well eat and get killed for it " like HE KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN BUT HE'S SO DEFEATED KAKSKSMNS

Ody's like "this is the home of the sun god DON'T FORGET HOW DANGEROUS THE GODS ARE" but EURY ISN'T LISTENING KAKSKS AAAAH

We need a therapy saga FR

RECONSIDER HURTS SO BAD

The pause before Ody says home being bc he is taking a breath 'cause his wounds hurt I LOVE YOUR BRAIN SO MUCH YOU'RE SO AKSKSKKSJSJNAN

"people die like this"= trusting you, EXCUSE ME MISS YOU DID NOT HAVE TO GO THAT HARD I was gonna interpret that as " we die from the constant dangers and the monsters and Gods while the hope of returning home gets fainter and fainter and I'm tired of it " BUT THEN YOU HAD TO GO AND MAKE IT "we are trusting YOU and still getting our ass handed to us by all these monsters while we were SO SURE YOU COULD PROTECT US CAPTAIN, WHERE'S YOUR GUILE NOW SIR??"

Never stopped to think about Ody saying"we pissed him off", oh gods they're still in this together no matter what mwksksksksk AAAH

The full speed ahead thing being so sad bc it's useless jsjskksjs my poor Greek idiots trying to outrun the literal sky kamsnsnsn

I really wanted to make this much much shorter I don't know what possessed me lol ( might have been your writing girl, I loved this one so much I might frame it just you wait )

( Uhm girl don't worry??? This was majestically written?? Also spelling and punctuation is temporary Epic the musical is forever )

I'll try to not really add much to it

Im glad you did not follow through with this ssisegijsegijesg 25. Thunder Bringer

Thunder, war cry like chanting, a storm is brewing

The ENTRANCE the entrance of a god, the one true divine, the king of the gods…..The thunder bringer

Zeus is so fucking SMUG its HOT

the pause before Zeus starts singing, he doesnt even directly address or acknowledge Ody or the crew

"Pride is a damsel in distress, hiding away where only I can undress her, try as she might not to confess, in the end its all the same once i apply all the pre-ssure" ZEUS ZEUS YOU MFUCKER ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT SEXUALLY HARRASSIng PRIDE??? PRIDE??? REALLY??? ….yes yes you do and fuck thats the best musical characterization of Zeus imaginable, Jorge is such a fucking GENIUS I LOVE IT AT THe SAME TIME THIS??? PRIDE??? this pride is talking about Odysseus pride, his hubris, its talking about him trying to hide his pride, where only Zeus, the king of the gods can reveal Odysseus true nature "once he applies all the pressure"

The music is so good

"Thunder, bring her through the wringer, show her Im the judgement call the one who her kingdom fall Lightning, wield her, use and yield her, show her what she cant conceal for true nature will be revealed" THESE LYRICS "Thunder bring her" "Thunderbringer" "Lighting wield her" "lighting wielder" AAAAHHSUEHGSEUGse also yes, we continue to sexually harass Odysseus pride, because this a greek epic and this is Zeus, also "her kingdom" is Odysseus prides "kingdom" his hopes of making it home to Ithica with his crew? or the crews believe into Odysseus? mhhh

"Tell me Odysseus" ah yes he finally acknowledges Odysseus existance, also HE ACKLOWLEDGES HIS eXISTANCE Odysseus, king of ithica, the myth, the walking legend, even the gods know his name, for his whole crew to see (lets ignore poseidon for a second)

"If i were to make you choose, the lifes of your men and crew or your own" (just hypotethically of course..) "why do I think theyd loose?" because he has heard from Hades that he had a whole solo song in the underworld singing how he was the monster rawr rawr rawr sigjseigjse ahem, and maybe also because he made that choice back in troy when he choose to kill the infant…..odysseus will do anything he has to to get home…..

"Elighen me, King of ithica" smug mfucker i love it, taunting, maybe recalling what he said to polyphemus…just mabye….

"Since hunger was far to great, i wonder whod take the weight of the damned and suffer a gruesome fate" well i KNOW it wasnt you who killed the cattle, but youre their captain its on you to take responsibility for their actions and be the one to get punished so they can get home, they were desperate, theyre innocent, you know that, but someone has to pay…

back to the aweseome chorus "Thunder bringer, here to ring your ears until youre deaf with fear and spear you while your death is near" you must learn to fear and respect the gods. you will learn to fear us, your pride has no chance against me, im the king of the gods "Lighting wielder here to yield your time for you have passed your prime, sublime you for your act of crime" youre good days are behind you, youre old?? time to vaporize you

"Choose"….maybe the question wasnt so hypothetical after all "Choose?" ody….my boy, sounds so scared as he asks that

"Someone's gotta die today and you have got the final say" How dare he sing such beautiful vocals here, damnit Luke

"You, or your crew" CRUEL SO CRUEL

"Please dont make me do this, dont make me do this" THE CALLBACK TO HORSE AND THE INFANT ARG OUCH; HES IN SO MUCH PAIN

"When does a comet become a meteor? when does a candle become a blaze?" THE JUST A MAN CALL BACK OF THE CREW JOINING IN

"I can take the suffering from you" PENELOPE? where is she coming from???? how does that make sense???? is that a hallucination? is that Zeus trying to torture Ody a bit more??? need answers "When does a man become a monster? When does a ripple become a tidal wave? when does the reason become the blame? (let me take the suffering-) when does a man become a monster?" Now. this is the moment where Odysseus becomes truly a monster he willingly chooses HIMSELF over the remaining crew members. His reason (penelope) becomes the blame.

theres silence, and we only hear the thunder and rain

"Captain?" he knows what Ody will do, he had hopes for all of one second, its useless, Odysseus will always be their captain and their captain will choose his own life over that of his crew

"I have to go see her" yeah….

"but we'll die" just…resignation

"I know" Ody breaks, he needs more than one therapy saga, this man is haunted af …he points at his crew, Zeus is SMUG AF AGAIN and elevates into the sky as he gathers the lighting around his hands as the crew stares at odysseus in disbelieve picking up their weapons and going on to attack him, ody closes his eyes in defeat

the delivery of "true nature will be revealed", the grip IS SO GOOD ALSO YES ODYSSEUS TRUE NATURE HAS BEEN REVEALED THERE IS NO DENYING IT

lighting and thunder hits the ship before the men reach odysseus, they die and sink into the ocean, ody is badly wounded and sinking into the ocean, he reaches a hand out to the surface, towards penelope and telemachus, telemachus lullaby plays, his consciousness fades, there is no way he will get home now...right?

[sukirichi]

I need to stop reading your updates when im in my shift pause cause damn... 🥲🥲🥲🥲

So obviously Rin lied about everything to hurt us and make us hate him.... What i honestly... I 'understand' but at the same time... Oof... And yes ill refuse believing all that shit when he immediately after admits he wanted to marry us, and while telling iris to abort (honestly thank fuck even iris doesnt want the kid) he said let out he didnt want that to ruin his marriage.

Rin is an idiot, a confused idiot who got ruined by all this royalty shit. He didnt have a normal childhood, he didnt know what feelings actually were, convincing himself he liked iris when it was never her and now hes doing what he can to push us away so we can be happy with another, while still wanting to keep the marriage, while still aching to be with us.

Hes an idiot who didny really have to end it just cause hes not the son of the king, we would still love him.. And honestly thinking about it... Maybe it was us telling him how he liked him better when he was himself than when he was in his 'princely' mode that made him tell iris 'dont ruin my marriage' cause hr might have realized 'she loves me regardless the title.. Unlike iris'

Anyways im still hoping for Rin endgame 😭😭🤡 gotta feel like all my tears were worth it 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Thanks for another incredible update, sorry if i didnt make much sense in this ask ahahahah

he’s so confusing isn’t he!! but also that scene when he told iris ‘i’m not letting you ruin my marriage’ AFTER he’d told us he wants a divorce, its his way of like saying that . . . his marriage is his own completely, and its something he wants to take responsibility of - including its downfall. if the marriage is gonna fall apart, he wants it to be on his own terms, and not bcos iris was ‘messing’ with it. idk if that makes sense but rin has a mindset like that (very possessive man, oof.) and yes so true! he never had a normal childhood and was introduced to society late so there’s a lot he truly doesn’t know about </3 the queen kept him that way too, made sure he’s be innocent and naive so he wouldn’t get very absurd ideas that would be misaligned with her goals

AND OMG yes i’m so happy you noticed that detail! in their flashbacks there has already been some foreshadowing hinting that dtd!yn wouldn’t care if he wasn’t really a royal! like when she said ‘i liked you better when you more yourself and dropped the prince charming act’ + that scene when rin was like, “so you wouldn’t give me your time if i wasn’t a prince?” and we replied very vaguely, alluding that we were more interested in the man himself instead of the crown prince everyone knows! so knowing all this, maybe a sunayn endgame isn’t so impossible after all 💫🌷 they really need to just communicate fr

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wait i love ilaw actuslly hes so little guycore. tell us more

EEEEE HIIII . im so glad u asked abt him cuz for the past week or so ive been frothing at the mouth thinking about him and his little gaggle of freaks . tho tbh he is Not really little guy and moreso shadow the hedgehog but in sky:cotl form. its hilarious and i hate him (affectionate)

however unfortunately im one of those people who if i dont know everything there is to know about the lore of a media im super into i just start making stuff up . and sky is one of those occasions . so bare with me

so starting off explaining some sky:cotl lore for those that know absolutely nothing about it . basically . in the lore, wayyy before you (the player) exist , the world of sky was prosperous and full of life and everything was running smoothly like silk butter

but eventually a corrupt fella came around and became a dictator and ruined everything for everyone, dark dragons began to show up and basically strip everyone of their light (which turns them to stone or just straight up kills you)

so (starting to make things up from here on out bcus im not sure if its true to canon or not), when the darkness started to fall, the wasteland elder was at the frontlines of the war that ended up happening, and got sealed away like all the other elders after the war was lost but not killed completely.

ilaw was a high ranking soldier under the wasteland elder and considered them one of his greatest friends (totally not in a gay way) , and it was hard to ever find them apart

ilaw tried to protect his elder (i use the name 'tsadi' for the wasteland elder even though thats confirmed not canon, i still like that its a thing thats in the wiki and its a nice name) tsadi, but ended up failing

tsadi gave light to ilaw so he could continue going on and fighting the war (well. moreso 'run away and save yourself',) but ilaw didint want to leave tsadi behind, and ended up falling right before tsadi did

fast forward to current day (like. hundreds or thousands of years in the future, im unsure how long of time had passed between the shattering and current day in sky), a colleague of ilaw that was revived finds him and offers him light so he isnt trapped anymore

cue ilaw having a massive identity crisis about the fact he fucked up and did not keep himself safe like tsadi wanted OR keep tsadi safe , and failed his duties to keep his people safe in general

so he ends up spending mostly ALL of his time in wasteland, brooding over the fact that pretty much everything is different now and everyone he used to know is either dead or missing

bcuz of this though , he ends up meeting a moth (what people call "new players") there, after saving them from a krill (dark dragon). this of course causes said moth to become attached at his heel and they never leave after that. accidental moth adoption

it helps him heal somewhat, because for awhile he was very closed off and secluded and would only really talk to his colleague, or others that he considered close friends (which. at the time after his revival, wasnt very many)

eventually, said moth heads back to wasteland after building up the courage and makes it through. though, when she returns, they tell ilaw that they saw tsadi there in the temple. it does make him go into shock for awhile and for a bit after that he doesnt head back into the wastelands due to immense terror. 💔 aand the healing process restarts

so. lots of war trauma and gay longing and tragedy . ive cried over these idiots a few times and i love them to death .

but i do have a couple more small facts about ilaw ! or other thoughts i had written down ect ..

he finds the skykids of current day a tad bit annoying right after he gets revived but eventually softens because the hustle and bustle is comforting . something something lots of background noise so he doesnt have to think about his own problems

i also often imagine him easily beating the shit out of the krill in wasteland . but he wouldnt attempt that in current day because i doubt he trusts himself not to get fucked up again plus hes too busy thinking about tsadi

just. sits utop the crumbled forts and grumbles to himself while imagining himself beating up krill . hes literally shadow the hedgehog but in sky form . if he knew what kinning was he would kin that guy

[soupdeewoop]

favorite lines from "THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT"

your wife waters flowers, i want to kill her

All my mornings are monday stuck in an endless february

but you're in self-sabotage mode, throwing spikes down the road

we're modern idiots

You smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate

i scratch your head, you fall asleep, like a tattooed golden retriever

sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me, but you told lucy you'd kill yourself if I ever leave

'cause it fit too right, puzzle pieces in the dead of night, I shouldve known it was a matter of time

'cause i knew too much, there was danger in the heat of my touch, he saw forever so he smashed it up

did you really beam me up?, in a cloud of sparkling dust, just to do experiments on, tell me I was the chosen one, showed me that this world is bigger than us, then sent me back where I came from

now im down bad crying at the gym, everything comes out teenage petulance, "fuck it if I cant have him", "I might just die, it would make no difference"

how dare you think its romantic, leaving me safe and stranded

my spine split from carrying us up to the hill, wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill

thinking how much sad did you think I had, did you think I had in me? oh the tragedy

i stopped cpr, after all its no use

two graves, one gun, ill find someone

you swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? i died on the alter waiting for the proof

i just learned these people try and save you 'cause they hate you

id rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitchin' and moanin', ill tell you something 'bout my good name, its mine along with all the disgrace, I don't cater to all these vipers dressed in empire's clothing

there's a lot of people in town that I bestow upon my fakest smiles

my friends tried, but i wouldn't hear it, watched me daily disappearing, for just one glimse of his smile

another summer, taking cover, rolling thunder, he doesnt understand me, splintered back in winter, silent dinners, bitter, he was with her in dreams

little did you know you home's really only a town youre just a guest in

florida, is one hell of a drug, florida, can I use you up?

little did you know your home's really only the town youll get arrested, so pack your life away just to wait out the shitstorm back in texas

i need to forget, so take me to florida, ive got some regrets, ill bury them in florida, tell me I'm despicable, say its unforgivable, at least the dolls are beautiful, fuck me up, florida

go on, fuck me up

this cage was once just fine, am i allowed to cry?

what if hes written "mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?

these fatal fantasie given way to laboured breath taking all of me, weve already done in my head

what if the way you hold me is actually whats holy?

they dont know how youve haunted me so stunningly, i choose you and me, religiously

if you wanted me dead you shouldve just said

crash the party like a record crash as i scream, "whos afraid of little old me?", you should be

i wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me, you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

you caged me and then you called me crazy, i am what i am 'cause you trained me, so whos afraid of me?

they shake their heads saying, "god, help her" when i tell 'em hes my man

ill show you heaven if youll be an angel, all mine

whoa, maybe i cant

i thought i was better safe than starry-eyed

if you know it in one glimpse, its legendary, you and i go from one kiss to getting married

you shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles, i wish i could unrecall, how we almost had it all

youre the loss of my life

the lights refract sequin stars off her silhouette every night, i can show you lies

'cause im a real tough kid, i can handle my shit, they said "babe, you gotta fake it till you make it" and i did

lights, camera, bitch, smile, even when you wanna die

im so depressed, i act like its my birthday everday

'cause im miserable (haha), and nobody even knows, try and come for my job

and i dont even want you back, i just want to know, if rusting my sparking summer was the goal

you didnt measure up in any measure of a man

in fifty years will all this be declassifed?, and ill say, "good riddance"

i wouldve died for youre sins, instead i just died inside

so when i touch down, call the amateurs and cut 'em from the team

'cause the sign on your heart said its still reserved for me, honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?

he jokes that "its heroin, but this time with an E"

you look like clara bow

this town is fake but youre the real thing, breath of fresh ait through smoke rings

the crowd goes wild at her fingertip, half moon shine, a full eclipse

youre the new god were worshipping, promise to be dazzling

beauty is a beast that roars down on all fours demanding more

you look like taylor swift, in this light, were loving it, youve got edge, she never did, the futures bright, dazzling

[lemonnnie]

// good omens s2 spoilers?

PISODE 6. IS SO FUCKING INSANE. IM. IM IM LITERALLY HAVING A BREAKDOWN OVER IT RIGHT NOW IM.TOO EMOTIONALLY ACTIVE AND BROKEN TO GO TO SLEEP.

ITS THAT BAD.

no cause i've seen the every spoiler unfortunately, and well, as much as i would like to think i forgot about it nope i couldn't and it just stayed gnawing in the back of my head which sucks.

so i was rather expecting the scene yk? after knowing what would happen (it's like me getting spoilered by ofmd edits and it made me stay up late finishing ofmd)

AND EPS 6.

OH GOD EPS 6.

IT WAS SOOO SWEET. well, in the start. and finally knowing and slowly seeing gabriel getting his memory back was rather scary but exciting. and in those memories, you could slowly tell how much he was falling in love with beelzebub AND ISNT THAT JUST SO SWEET. LIKE WHEN THEY HELD HANDS I WAS SCREECHINGGG IT WAS SO SO SO. it melted my heart, that the bigshots. literally the supreme leaders of both heaven and hell set aside their differences for the love of one another and its just so heartbreakingly sweet. I KEEP SAYING SWEET BUT THEY SO! ARE!!

AND yk what else is heartbreaking? but not sweet? THE INEFFABLE HUSBANDS THEMSELVES.

MY HEART WAS LITERALLY BEATING a few mins before the scene, i was like this is it this is it its finally the moment! omgomgogmgogm and with them finally ACTUALLY talking about their feelings for once HOW THEY ACTUALLY FELT (cough cough aziraphale cough) to one another I WAS SO SO SO READY TO BE ABSOLUTELT SOBBING IN JOY

well, i did sob. not in joy tho. in pure pain

when aziraphale got back with a smile on his face, when crowley's respond being the trigger, when aziraphale realized 'this isnt what crowley wants but theyre supposed to be in the same side if they want to be tgt', the CONFLICTING FEELING AZIRAPHALE STILL HAD EVEN AFTER WITNESSING GABRIEL AND BEELZEBUB BE AN ACTUAL THING??????

and the amount of pure raw emotions of betrayal in crowley's voice . IT JUST. IT JUST BROKE ME COMPLETELY.

i was on the ground malding, pulling my hair I COULD NOT.

and that final line, that final 'why can't you understand it?'

"You idiot. This could've been... us"

AND THEN THAT THAT KISS. THAT RUSHED KISS.

THAT THAT. IT JUST IT JUST COMPLETELY BROUGHT ME TO TEARS. COMPLETELY MADE ME SOBBED. its crowley's way of showing 'this couldve been us' it could've been passionate. but it was frustration, anger, betrayal, and a feeling of not wanting to let him go all in one kiss.

and what did aziraphale said, to utter shock of what just happened

"I forgive you."

THAT LINE FROM BACK THEN HAUNTED HIM STILL. CROWLEY DIDNT NEED HIS FORGIVENESS FOR HIS ACTIONS, FOR HIS FALLEN, FOR HIM BEING A DEMON. HE DOESNT NEED TO BE AN ANGEL AGAIN. HE NEEDS AZIRAPHALE, AS HE IS. TO BE WITH HIM.

but aziraphale still picked sides.

in the end he didnt pick 'us'.

and chose to let go of crowley, even if he was still deep down inside all he wanted was just to be with crowley (HECK HAVE YOU SEEN HOW HE LOOKS AT CROWLEY??AND THE THINGS HE SAY ABOUT HIM???)

gah. im so. so.. absolutely broken about these two i needa rest

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#i dont think its ever mentioned if the uchihas had their own traditional clan names but if they did this would mean sasuke doesnt have one

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

itachis narrative follows through at first, but falls apart if you inspect it. his story's actually quite inconsistent...

like only focusing on his treatment of sasuke, we are told he did it to make him stronger. but its all very vague and a flimsy excuse for the sheer agony and torture it caused to the brother he loved. his character or backstory didnt seem to be finalized when he was first introduced..

nevertheless i do love the 'actually he loved his brother' storyline. its very tragic. his canon actions offer a lot for interpretation...

i read a fic where itachi loved sasuke so much he killed the uchihas because he felt thy were trapping him and wanted to see sasuke fly. hmmmm*

possibilities...(the love can be twisted too)

i feel like all the anti itachi portay him as too...overly willing to kill his clan? (for the sake of konoha) wasnt danzos ultimatum (either every single uchiha dies at roots hands..or only sasuke will be spared if he does it himself) playing a major part in his decision??...

anyways kishimoto did end up creating one of the most iconic characters of anime/manga...

so im not complaining ...i dont think the uchiha storyline would be as memorable without the twist

*(i love pre reveal itachi and sasuke fics. the explanations they make for the massacre are always so interesting...)

21 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#4

lmao how itachi didnt even kill shisui, his best friend, but told sasuke to kill his to get the mangekyou sharingan.

what would he have done if sasuke had actually killed naruto (his best friend then) only to find out itachi lied about killing shisui for power

wow can you imagine how awkward that would be

37 notes - Posted February 13, 2022

#3

the sound era trio- orochimaru sasuke & kabuto are peak comedy potential

their dynamic is SO funny to me but theres barely any content around them??? hello??

like orochimaru with his weird fake politeness and sadistic amusement vs kabuto who cant stand sasuke (and vice versa) but he has to be nice bcs this angsty preteen is his masters next vessel vs sasuke whos just here power and really doesnt give a shit about the other two, except for when he wants to take out his teenage angst by bullying kabuto,

46 notes - Posted March 27, 2022

#2

47 notes - Posted May 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

it will forever baffle me, all those memes that paint sasuke as this dumb, idiotic character that knows nothing and is a selfish brat for wanting to kill his brother who loves him and power-obsessed for leaving to orochimaru, and then pretend itachi didnt have any part in that. that that was all sasuke, uninfluenced.

setting aside the question of (his intentions, if it made sense, what was a better alternative, was it morally justified etc.) its a fact that the one who made him that way was... itachi. he was the one who told him to hate him, to kill his best friend for the mangekyou sharingan, to grow stronger, to cling to hate and revenge, to come after him to kill him. 

he was the one who told him he lacks enough hate, called him weak, and repeatedly used tsukoyomi to make him relive the massacre and hate him, therefore want to grow stronger to kill him. he actively hid the truth and manipulated it to be that sasuke would never find out, even after death, he was the one who took the brush and painted himself a mindless villain, just to make him hate him. that was all itachi. that was what drove him to orochimaru, to leave konoha, to try and cut off naruto. 

sasuke wasnt somehow naturally that way, (on the contrary, he went after itachi right after seeing his parents bodies, stopped himself from killing naruto)- itachi had to constantly influence him to fester hate that way. it was literally all part of itachis plan! itachi’s!!! people just ignore that, fuck?

like i love itachis character too, i genuinely enjoy his and sasukes storyline. this is not an attack on his character. its just kind of irritating when people lift him up while putting sasuke down by like, exaggerating and making him out to be a pathetic spoilt brat of a character and pretend itachis the actual and only victim bcs how terrible to have a brother who you love but wants to kill you, somehow ignoring that itachi was the one who manipulated his brother? like yeah itachi was manipulated and under pressure too, but in terms of his and sasukes relationship he is the one who lied!!!

like i dont even care about his mistakes or whatever, i care abt sasuke being made out to be the "villain" in their dynamic

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I cant see shit when I take pictures facing the sun, its a miracle theyre often in focus

Had another late rise today. I hope I find the strength to wake up at 11am again soon. Today was good because I was not at jury duty. Thats all I can really ask for

I'm gonna start trying to learn one kanji a day on top of practicing my kana and numbers, and first one I picked is probably more complicated than I should have chosen, but I have a history with chinese characters so the complexity of the particular kanji isnt really a concern for me

Today I went with 願 (ねが ne ga), because I was going through my lessons again and like the first thing they teach you is introduce yourself! Say "onegaishimasu" and then I look up to read the kana and it says お願いします, and I'm like come on bro. So I learned that one. Maybe thats how I'll choose, I'll just go by whatever pops up next in my lessons lol. Its 19 strokes but I sat there and did it over and over for like 10 minutes and I think i got it. I actually like learning stroke order and stuff. I always preferred writing chinese over speaking it

I really need to get back to streaming, which i say all the time, but speedrunning and goofy challenge runs would be good for streams. Im trying to beat Onimusha without upgrading weapons or using healing items right now. The trick with that is if you kill enemies with an issen strike they always drop health souls, but issen are very hard to pull off. It forces you to really learn every enemies attack animations well, which is something I love doing

A big point of contention with me and my friends rn is they dont get how I can just sit and play Monster Hunter for multiple hours at a time. My brother has admitted many times now thay he is never paying attention when we play, he just auto pilots fights because he doesnt find enjoyment in fighting them once hes basically seen everything they can do. But like thats the fun, is learning how kill things faster and more efficiently. I can play for hours on end because its fun to react to something a monster did and cause it to fall out of the air mid jump because you knew your weapons hitboxes well enough to hit it backwards while it was above you. And then he points out thats the fun of fighting games and asks why i dont wanna play those anymore, and I'm like because I fucking hate other humans and the way their minds work lol. I want to abuse a poor helpless CPU player that cant even stand on two legs. The lizard men in Onimusha raise their little cleaver and I go haha idiot, and I instant kill their ass. Thats what sparks joy for me. Thats also why I've been playing games alone for two months I guess hehe

Anyways, thats not really me complaining exactly, I'm trying to be aware of my negativity you see, thats all to say that I love the slop Capcom puts in my trough. It's good slop. I'm also so fucking excited for Splatoon 3 Side Order (i guess) but more importantly HYDLIDE 3 COMES OUT TODAY YAHOOOO

Heres my kanji for today cuz the night sky hasnt been very photogenic around here. With and without guides

Live Long and Prosper

[solarwaters]

gay representation doesn't matter. First of all, I'm a homosexual, but I'm not a part of any community. You guys celebrate pride but what pride is there in liking the same gender. There is no pride in it and there is no point of celebrating something that isnt special. Yes, Im very sorry to tell you but you arent special for liking a girl when you are a girl. You're just being a human being. You cant change the norm and literature, the natural thing and the norm in literature, history and religion is heterosexuality. Obviously when you see shows and books they will usually only have straight people. You dont seriously expect homosexuality to be put into historical books? I respect transgender people that are truly trans. The ones that always felt somehting wrong with their gender, the ones that cried and felt dismorphic. I dont respect the "transgender" people who only became trans after they heard of LGBTQ community, they just decided they are trans because its "cool." Causes problems for your family. It means you have been taken over by the 2020 effect. Lesbians made a "lesbian apocalypse." okay, cool. and then bisexual people decided they wanted one too. Lesbians got mad at them for taking away "lesbian rep." what kind of bs is that? What do you need representation for? Liking a woman? There are queer youths who actually struggle. Their parents are homophobic and they wont accept their child. THEY need representation. More than half of you "lesbians" dont have that struggle. Your parents dont care, you tell everyone you're gay. You dont need any representation. I hate that REAL queers and trans people that have struggles are being over shadowed by people who just use homosexuality as a fun thing. People have called me slurs sometimes, people have been homophobic to me, but I'm not the one who truly struggles. People are mean to others all the time and this just falls into the category. Someone calling you the F-slur (dont want to get banned lmao) is the same thing as someone so sensitive person an idiot if they get offended by it. But it doesnt matter if you say asian, black, gay slurs no matter what race etc. you are If you only use it in a term that isnt specified to anyone who cares. like in the context of eminem saying f-slur in 'rap god.' He couldve said the n-slur since he wasnt targeting someone for being black. it doesnt matter then. Also it seems that yall have a little bias. like eminem can say the f-slur but your straight friend cant cause eminem "earned it." see how biased you are? you care about slurs and representation but you dont care about wars, gossip and back biting. freaks.

[beeindaclouds]

Hewwo there! Its me, again (:') anyways-!! Im here to request smth- CC!Wilbur and other CC's (you can choose.) With a reader who got pretty Bad scars (from Shark attack, plz i Just need.)

But- reader still loves sharks! :') she doesnt blame them- it's not their fault

They're getting made fun of becuz of the scars, Just that- i think-

LOVE YOUR WRITINGS!!!

Omg hiii! It's nice to see you again ^^

I had to think of who I wanted the other CC! to be and I'm gonna do Badboyhalo just cause he's not requested as much as I'd like him to be and I want to write more about him >:3

Hope you enjoy <3

Wilbur Soot and Badboyhalo reacting to you having a shark bite

Click here before requesting, please <3

❝ Wilbur Soot ❞

I feel like he'd find out because one day y'all decided to go to the beach

So you took your shirt off and BAM there it was, the bite mark on your stomach

Wilbur was caught off guard and quickly asked you what happened

You told him about your encounter with a shark, you were too careless and it ended up biting you

Wilbur found it pretty cool, the fact that even tho this happened to you, you still seemed to have an undying love towards the animal

As you continued the day at the beach you both started feeling the eyes on y'all

Whispers would start as you walked by anybody and Wilbur took a notice of that

He didn't intend to do anything about it because he couldn't really tell the whole beach to shut up, and you seemed to let the whispers fly over your head

But the last straw was when a group of girls approached Wilbur while you went to buy some snacks

"I don't know what a guy like you is doing with someone like them, but if you want to leave just do it lol" "Yeah, we can cover for you. If you stay longer you might actually end up having the same scar as them" "Maybe you can hang with us"

Wilbur took a deep breath before turning towards the group "I would be more embarrassed to hang around you girls than with them. Cause, y'know, in my opinion that scar is beautiful and shows that they're storng. If you all ended up being bitten by a shark y'all would probably be bitten in half. Now THATS a sight I'd love to see"

Shocked from the mans answer, they all groaned and ran away

You, who had come back a bit early, saw the whole scene and were very happy. Actually you were over the moon!

You leaned towards Wilbur's cheek and left a small kiss, causing the man to jump in surprise

"W-what was that for?!?" He exclaimed, his face was either red from blushing or from the sun

"I heard everything you said. That was very kind of you Will"

❝ Badboyhalo ❞

You and Bad happened to be talking about you guys' past, as a way of getting to know more about eachtoher

You brought up the time you were bitten by a shark, showing the bite marks that laid on your right leg

Bad went in a full "OMG THAT MUST'VE HURT-" mode

But you assured him that you were ok and that it was your fault for being careless

"Y'know... you're the first person I've told about this in a while. In the past a lot of people made fun of me for "being an idiot and throwing myslef at the shark"so I stopped talking about it...." you mumbled the last part

Bad looked at you sympathetically and pulled you into a hug "I think the bite is cool! And it's very brave of you to not be scared of sharks after what happened"

He caressed the marks softly, amazed by how deep the bite actually was

As he looked back at you he noticed just how close to your face he was and he went in another panic mode

Which made you giggle and fall more for the muffin man

[im-not-a-simp-i-swear]

heyyy, this has been living in my head rent free lately, so can i get headcannons of how the brothers ( + undateables if ur up to it) react to a mc who's dating a lower level demon, (they all have romantic feelings towards mc), and only find out they're dating a lower level demon when they confess their feelings

...WHAT?

Whatever you do dont present this mysterious individual to any of the brothers, they will not get along with them so easily, not after this...

💙LUCIFER

"Well WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE ALREADY DATING SOMEONE WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN!?!?!?"

The embarrasment behind this man is outstanding, love, such a delicate thing, confession, an even more fragile item, being rejected cause one's crush is already taken?? Dont even let me describe his pain right now

He will just stare in shock at you, heartbroken by this information, feeling like an idiot for not acting sooner, you'll watch as he walks away in silence, no goodbye or anything

He will avoid you by either hiding in his room and drinking his sorrows away with demonus or just not being anywhere he believes you'd be at, the avatar of pride could never look at your face after what went wrong

Pwrhaps you should keep your lover away from him... cause he will NOT be happy to see them

💛MAMMON

"WHAT!?"

The pain in his voice... he was your first man, your partner in crime, this moment, even after so much bullshit from him you could tell his confession was sincer, of course it hurts to him this reality

No, you must be lying, show him your partner, NOW. He needs to know why you would date a lower demon, why you wouldnt pick him, why you didnt fall for the great Mammon

Even if you agree to present your partner to him he'll still spoil you, his feelings arent fajed anyways so its only fair that he stays sincere to you... who knows... maybe he could make you fall for him and leave the other fool...

But one can always dream right MC?

🧡LEVIATHAN

"O-oh... of course you already have a lover... i mean why wouldnt such a lovely person like you already be dating someone?" "Even more its not like he could be any better than some lower demon... they qon your heart anyways..."

Acting aside, he is the avatar of envy for a reason, and boy oh boy can one tell

If you really love your partner maybe dont present them to ANY of the boys??? EVER???? specially dont do so with the levi, the envy is insane

When levi is alone however he wont call for you to hang out, he cant look at you without remembering the embarrasment and your partner who he wishes to be dead

💚SATAN

"........what?"

Have you seen that once scene in guardians in the galaxy 2 where starlord's dad is all like "it broke my heart to put that tumor in her head" and starlord is all like "what?" In this deep spookish voice? Yeah that id exactly how satan pronounced it.

Like father like son, he'll just walk away from you after he gets the answer, the last thing he wants you to see is his wrath

He has been planning for so long, he's read so many romance stories hopeing he could recreate the scenes with you... why must you pick someone else? This is fair... they must be putting up a facade right? R-right?

💖ASMODEUS

"...im sorry... WHAT?!"

he is in shock... when did you start dating someone? When did you meet a lower demon and fall in love with them? WHAT MAKES THEM BETTER THAN HIM????

He is the avatar of lust everyone should want him, but then why dont you want him?? He is supposed to be beautiful, charming, perfect, what does this stranger have that he doesnt??

We all know this guy has got some issues with his looks and himself, but this? This is what breaks him, there is no point in being him if you wont love him back

Idk what he'll do afterwards but just know it wont be any fun

❤BEELZEBUB

"Oh... my bad then.."

He sounds calm but in reality he is very upset about this, he got beaten by a lower demon, but as long as you are happy then he will be happy

This romance doesnt ruin your friendship with him right? You guys can still hang out and have fun together anyways right? This is fine, it really is just... fine

Beel isnt like his brothers, he wont get upset so easily for you being taken, sure the vines between eachother may be off but as long as you two stay friends then everything will be fine, some lower demon wont ruin your fun with him, nor will they ruin his fun with you

💜BELPHEGOR

"Oh..."

There are no questions, no comments, just silence, all the time he lost being in the attic could explain why he never knew about this demon lover of yours, but that doesnt make the pain and embarrasment go away

Perhaps avoiding you is best for the following days, the last thing he'd want to do is look at your face without feeling embarrassed or see you being all lovey dovey for your beloved

Never present him to them, he killed you, what makes you think he wont kill them, he just doesnt find it fair that some lowever demon gets your heart but not him, he'll be fine however, if he sleeps long enough and plays dumb for long enough maybe he'll grow out of it

[dr4cking]

hiyaaaa can I request a draco that hates everyone except y/n of course he’s so overprotective over her and so soft!?

The Only Exception.

masterlist

draco malfoy x reader | fluff | anon requested.

a/n : hii this is my first time ever writing a fluff because i was only good at writing dirty things lol but i tried so i hope this meets your expectations and thank you for requesting! <3

“get out of my sight, potter” draco shouted pointing at his best sworn enemy, harry potter himself. he walked past him not even glancing at him but bumped his shoulder on purpose making harry lose a little balance.

“oh get lost, malfoy!” harry clapped back after regaining his balance, hermione and ron already holding him by his shoulder preventing him from punching the blonded guy.

“what did you just say?! serpenso-“

“draco lucius malfoy!” draco throw his wand away as soon as he heard the familiar voice shouting at him from behind, his favorite voice.

“oh- hello y/n! h-how are you?” draco turns around to meet his lovely girl, his voice shaking nervously as he looks into her eyes but quickly laughed it off, harry potter scoffed at the scene in front of him before motioning his friends to follow him.

“dont think i didnt see what you were gonna do, draco. thats not a good idea, you know?” y/n pick up his wand from the floor and clinging onto his arm dragging him to their house.

“i know i know, im sorry y/n but he’s just so annoying and i cant stand him!” draco whines dramatically making y/n rolled her eyes at his usual obsession.

“i think you’re obsessed with him, draco. why dont you date him already, hmm?” y/n jokingly said, poking his cheek to tease him even more making draco scrunched his face in disgust.

“y/n please dont make me run to the bathroom and throw all of the food from my stomach into the toilet” y/n was laughing hard at his dramatic words holding her stomach, it secretly brings a smile and a blush onto his face but he quickly hides it.

as they making their way to their house, draco didnt stop rambling about potter and making fun of him giving the girl no chance to stop her laughter.

>>>>>

the next day comes and draco was sitting peacefully in the great hall with y/n sitting beside him, that was until blaise zabini, his best friend took a seat in front of them.

“hey mate, i was looking for this, can i have one?” blaise said as he snatches the chocolate frog from him and shoves it into his mouth, he hummed at the taste making draco gets angrier.

“piss off, zabini!” draco yelled out loud getting annoyed, his action enough to make all the slytherins turning at him. y/n beside him only can shake her head in embarrassment.

“draco be nice, look around,” y/n whispers to him, her fingers stroking his arms softly to calm him down.

“but it was my favorite y/n and this idiot just ate it!” draco protested at his best friend in anger who only give him a sly grin, y/n rolled her eyes and drag him out of the great hall, again.

“you can always have mine, draco. dont be so dramatic” y/n took out her chocolate frog from her pocket and open it feeding draco the chocolate who gladly eats it with a happy smile back on his face. she chuckles at his cuteness.

>>>>>

y/n walked downstairs with her best friend, pansy parkinson, she was looking for her man but he was nowhere to be seen.

“pans, you can go first to the class, i’m gonna look for draco before he’s gonna be late, i’ll meet you there” pansy nodded and leave but not before giving her best friend a kiss on the cheek making both of them giggles.

y/n look around to find a certain blonde, she hadn’t seen draco since the last class, she continues looking around to find him and thats where she found him, with the first year in front of him, she already knew where is this going.

“you better finish this by the end of the day, if not you know the consequences.” draco whispered to the first year giving him his homework, he threatened him while pulling out a few galleons to him, the little boy was shaking in fear and only nodded at his order.

what draco doesnt realize is y/n already stood behind him, tapping her foot and crossing her arms, draco froze at the tapping sounds knowing immediately who it was, he gulped before turning around.

“really draco? threatening the first year to doing your homework?” y/n turns around to leave him, disappointed with his way.

“wait- y/n im sorry, please!” draco grabbed her wrist, pleading at her not to leave him, she was still pouted at him.

“apologize.”

“what?!”

“apologize to this little boy over here and take back your offer, draco.” draco wanted to open his mouth in protest but quickly shutting it when he sees the seriousness in her face, he turns to the boy who was still looking at them in confusion.

“alright, im sorry little guy, my bad i guess?” y/n shot draco a disapproving look making him mutter a real genuine apology to the first year.

“okay, now give your galleons to him draco”

“but he didn-“

“draco you made this poor little guy traumatized” he sighed and placing his galleons on the boy’s hand making him smile at both of them.

“i’m sorry about him, okay? i promise i’ll make sure he wont get anywhere near you again” y/n smile at the first year and he nodded returning the smile and thanking her before he left.

y/n turned back to draco who is already frowning looking away from her, she chuckles and grabbed his jaw with her hand, pecking his lips trying to get his happy side back.

“dont do that again draco, in all seriousness.” draco could only nod at her.

“besides that, we could always have a reason to have study dates, right?” y/n winked at draco making him gives a cheeky smirk to her.

>>>>>

it was a nice day for draco, no potter no weaselbee, basically anyone hasnt step in on his way, yet. he was walking with a happy vibe through the corridor to find his favorite girl, excited to wrap the girl in his arms.

then he found her, her familiar hair color seems to be stand out in the middle of the crowd. but the only problem is, she isnt alone. what in the wizarding world is cormac mclaggen doing right now?!

draco hurriedly makes his way to the pair with jealousy bubbling up inside him and when he already stood behind cormac he pulls him hard by his collar causing him to fell to the ground making y/n screamed instantly at this but draco quickly get beside her and hug her by her waist.

“draco! why did you do that?! oh my god cormac, are you okay?” y/n asked the mclaggen boy worriedly, taking her hand out to help him up, he shots draco a death glare.

“oh please y/n he’s totally fine, he's just weak and dramatic to get your attention” y/n shakes her head at draco in disagreement, scolding him for his previous behavior.

“draco, are you mental? i was just asking y/n about this homework, c’mon man you seriously need to relax” cormac was totally annoyed by draco, anger radiates off of him.

“yeah i will relax once you disappear from our way, now shoo shoo” y/n cant help but stifled a laugh at draco, she gives cormac an apologetic smile and motioning him to leave.

“no need to be like that draco” draco’s hand never leave her waist as they made their way to draco’s prefect room.

“he was getting too comfortable with you” y/n disagrees and reassuring him that it wasnt his intention.

“you look so hot when you’re jealous draco” y/n chuckles putting her arm on his back returning the gesture, a blush tinted onto his cheeks.

“yeah? how about i show you what’s hot in my room, hm?” y/n smacks his head with her other hand, cant control her laughter anymore.

>>>>>

“y/n?” draco called out interrupting y/n who was reading him a book.

“hm?”

“i love you so much, thank you for putting up with me” a smile plastered at y/n’s face from ear to ear, her heart melting at his words, she put the book on the nightstand and turns back to draco cupping his cheeks in her hands, capturing his lips on her kissing him softly showing him her love that she cant even described, draco kissed her right back with the same passion, smiling into the kiss.

“you’re a prat, but you’re my prat.” and with that, draco knew he was falling so deep for her and he has no plan to stop it.

[thekingofwinterblog]

It’s all for his sake - Endeavor and the Sunk Cost Fallacy

My hero academia 301 is a pretty interesting chapter, but for me, the most notable piece of it was how Endeavour reacted to the realization that Touya couldnt surpass All Might.

upon realizing that his son might not be able to do it because of inborn physical limitations, he immediatly stopped his training, which frankly was the responsible and adult thing to do. 

This stint of real parenthood did not last long however.

After taking the matter to a doctor, he is flat out told that not only cant Touya achive what endeavor wants, but it is a direct result of his incredibly selfish and irresponsible attempt to play god, by trying to breed the “perfect” hero into being.

It is how you react when you lose however, that shows who you really are, and endeavor illustrates that very, very well.

Upon being told in no uncertain terms that his attempts at Breeding an heir failed magnificently, producing a child that was not capable of resisting his own immense power, but also admonished by his doctor for even attempting it, and adviced not to try again, Endeavor instead doubled down, while focusing on the child he screwed over from the start with his attempt at genetic manipulation.

It was all for him you see. Endeavor doesnt use those words, but that is how he spins it here. it was all for Touya, all for his sake. if i stop now, then Touya was all for nothing, a mistake, im doing this for my son.

if im doing this for my son, then im not responsible for any of this.

his wife however, calls him out on it, as she understands Touya much, much more than endeavor does. or rather, she sees him fully as a human being, instead of as a thing, a weapon, a failed attempt at an heir.

Unlike Endeavor, Rei is able to see the way this all is affecting her son. She is able to see, and understand that Touya has fully accepted what Endeavor wanted him to be. a stronger, and better version of himself. however, unlike Endeavor, she only cares about him as a person.

Endeavour by comparison isnt completely uncaring about Touya. like most abusive parents, he does possess love for his offspring, but it is forever tainted by the fact that however much he might care, or not care about Touya, any familial love he has for his son is tainted by the fact that to Endeavor, he is a failed experiment, a failed heir, not his child. 

He is the golden child that Endeavor was building up as his true and only heir, who he breed, trained, and molded to for that single purpose, and now that he’s reached a point where he cant continue that legacy.

so, its time to abandon him, and start over new, despite literarily having just learned how stupid this plan was, and that it can, in fact, go completely wrong, with a quirk that will fuck over the person he brings into the world.

Of course, Endeavor doesnt use those words to frame it. there is no way to pretend to be a hero, if you phrase it like that after all. Intead, this is the words he uses.

this is a very important series of panels for a great number of reasons, some that can be debated, argued, and we will probably never know the full truth to the questions because this is a series published in 2020′s shonen jump, and there are things that probably wasnt gonna fly with Hori’s editors, if it was the case.

but lets start with what can not be debated. Endeavor’s words here.

“If we want him to give it up, then we have no choice... Touya... Cant surpass him.”

These are very telling words, and however you believe The third and fourth children of the Todoroki family was concieved, there is not denying the meaning of what he’s saying here.

The only way that my son will stop being an idiot and fall into line, is if we have another baby. that is the only Right way to move forward. it is morally right, because if we dont do this, then he’s going to destroy himself.

there are two ways to interpret this scene.

The charitable way is to read it as the fact that he used Rei’s oldest son’s mental state as a justification of guilting his wife to have a third child, to give this attempt at a superpowered breeding project another shot, despite the fact that they now know that this can lead to a child who is essentially born crippled from his own powers, and despite the fact that Rei obviously understands the effect of them continuing this insanity will have on their oldest son.

the uncharitable way to look at it, is that he used this as justification for flat out raping her, and forcing a third, and then later a fourth child on her.

I personally believe the last one, given a number of factors shown in this chapter(the way this page is framed, the fact Rei obviously didnt want a third child, given she predicted exactly how touya would react, the way her eyes would latet turn when she looks at who is presumably touya which really brings to mind how she would later react to her youngest son’s face after her mental breakdown, etc.), but i’ll frankly admitt that withouth a direct quote from Hori, its impossible to know for sure one way or another. 

either way however, this is a very good example of Endeavor both being influenced by, and using Sunk Cost Fallacy to justify bringing another potentially crippled child into the world for his own, selfish goals.

sunk cost Fallacy, is a mental reaction to when you invest more time and resources into a project, that you becomes so emotionally invested into said project that you will continue to invest into it, even if it reaches a point that it becomes clear that the resources you put into it, far, far outweighs the potential gains you can achieve.

because if you give up after having invested years, and years of effort to breed, raise, and train a kid, and then all that effort was absolutely wasted. hence he choose to keep going, despite having learned what a terrible idea this is.

He doesnt care about the fact that his next child might be even more crippled than his firstborn, he doesnt care about his son’s actual wellbeing. he cares about the fact that if he doesnt continue this insanity, then not only will he not achieve his dreams, but everything he did to get to this point was for absolutely nothing.

and endeavor cannot accept that. and so long as he can justify breeding more children into the world, and there being any chance they might inherit both quirks perfectly, he doesnt care about anything else.

and the moment he realised that this kid wasnt gonna cut it either, he did it again. it is not a coincidence, that the age gap between Endeavor’s second, third, and fourth children were all 3-4 years apart. because thats the age where you can usually tell when a quirk will manifest or not, as established earlier in the series.

While she isnt brought up directly by Endeavor as a justification, it is very telling that Endeavor decided on having a third child, only after his second child was old enough that he could tell that that there was no chance she could take the place as his heir instead.

So, he had his third child, and as time passed and it became obvious that he wasn’t gonna be able to fulfill Endeavor’s goals either, he dumped him, and instead breed a fourth child into existence.

and finally, he struck gold. he did it. he produced Shoto.

everything was finally worth it, and now, everything would be absolutely fine. the cost fallacy had reached its end, and it was now all full sails ahead.

except of course it wasnt.

His oldest son, now in middle school, had been raised from birth to believe he would surpass his father, only to be thrown away, and getting to see his father try to replace him, not once, but twice.

frankly, this scene is probably my favorite in the chapter, because it goes to show Endeavor’s mindset. Natsuo made a point that their father completely ignored his older children. and he did... from Natsuo’s perspective. however, having a more thourough picture of things, we can clearly see that this wasnt the case with Touya.

Endeavor genuinly cared for Touya, enough that once he got that child he tried to breed into existence 4 times, he genuinly wanted him to just abandon trying to be a hero. he genuinly thinks of himself as a good dad here, wanting his son to abandon the mission he set out for him before he was born. of course, with context, this heartwarming scene is incredibly sad and insidious, because we understand why Endeavor got so attached to his oldest child. because he WAS the golden child. he was the child Endeavor genuinly cared about, and invested in, and trained personally with great warmth and enthusiasm.

And not only did he abandon him as a failed project the moment he realized he wasnt gonna live up to his ridiculous standards, but he literarily created 2 more kids to try and replace him, just as his oldest son was old enough to understand what exactly his dad was doing. over the course of this chapter, we get to see Touya’s start as a 5-8 year old, his deteriorating mental state over the years, until he finally seemed to reach the breaking point with Shoto’s birth sometime in his middle school years 12-15. 

Endeavor is in this scene, just not capable of understanding why Touya so desperately wants to become a hero, when obviously he isnt physically able to do so. he isnt able to understand that he is 100% to blame for the fact that his son is having a full emotional breakdown after literaly being replaced by his siblings. 

In other words, Endeavor genuinly think’s he’s a good person. a person who has made a few mistakes along the way sure, but a person who was always justified in the end, and now that he’s having to face the fact that as dabi would later say “The past never dies” and has to face the aftermath of his inane attempt to play god for the pettiest of reasons, things simply arent going to work out.

He isnt going to have a happy family, who can now put the awful early years behind them, he put way too much effort, caused too much suffering and sacrificed too many years of his life for this not to work out as he wants.

after all, if he walks away from this project now, and lets Shoto have a normal childhood, and decide for himself, with no pressure from him, wheter or not to become a hero, then the sunk cost fallacy will have reached a negative end. it will all have been for nothing.

and we know he did eventually double down on this mentality, literarily beating into Shoto that he WAS going to become a hero, and there was not but’s or no’s about it.

there was no way that Endeavor was EVER going to let things be for nothing. His treatment of his older children could not be for nothing. His treatment of his wife could not be for nothing. His treatment of Shoto, and the way he beat him black and blue to train him, could not be for nothing.

Because if it all was for nothing, if everything he feels guilty about was for absolutely nothing, then he was in fact, a bad, bad person, who had no justification for anything he ever did.

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when you scratch their back (enhypen hyung line)

tags: fluff, bf!enha, gn reader

member: hyung line only, I’ll do maknae like at some point if I requested !

word count: short drabble for each member (:

HEESEUNG

it was around 11PM when hee got home, and from the way his eyes were closing upon entering your bedroom after his shower, you could tell he was completley exhausted after practice

“how was your shower?” you asked quietly as heeseung got into bed next to you, sliding under the heavy covers. “relaxing?”

“mm.” he huffed, eyes barely open as he snuggled against you. ”it was so nice. i wanted to stay under the hot water forever.” your boyfriend mumbled, and you chuckled quietly at his words, combing your fingers through his freshly-washed hair.

“a hot shower always is good to make you feel relaxed.” you commented, sliding your hands towards his back and subconsciously scratching idly at his exposed skin.

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hearing heeseung heaving a small gasp, you look down in surprise. 

“nothing. sorry. it just feels good when you do that.” 

you laugh at your boyfriend who is usually so eloquent stumbling for words, and he snuggles his face deeper into the crrok of your neck, a small grin on his lips.

“it’s okay hee. anything to make you feel good.”

JAY

“i cant believe im doing this.” you huff, sending daggers to the back of jay’s head as you sit behind him, hands on his shoulders as you perform a massage on your best friend.

jay simply laughs at your complaining, obviously enjoying the rewards of winning your mario kart game. you watch his face from his reflection in his bedroom mirror in front of you both, and despite feeling bummed out about losing to your best friend and ultimatley having to give him a massage as a penalty, you cant help but to smile a little at how relaxed he seems to be, for once sitting quietly rather than being loud and blabbering his jay-nonsense around you.

“you should have tried harder at winning then.” he says quietly, hugging a pillow in his arms which you noticed he had picked up.

you both sit in a comfortable silence for a while as you continue your minsitartions on his shoulder blades and back. kneading your hands and initially trying to do a good job at massaging, had now turned into you sitting in your own thoughts and somehow coming to idly scratch at his back through the thin material of his cotton shirt.

eyeing his expression through the mirror, you watch silently at his peaceful expression, eyes closed and humming quietly at the feeling of your nails gently raking against his back.

“is this okay?” you ask after a while, unsure if he was liking this.

“yeah.” he says, opening his eyes and meeting your gaze through the mirror. your heart flutters, feeling the familiar swarm of butterflies in your tummy at how soft yoyr best friend seems to look, a side of him you rarely have seen.

Perhaps you should start losing more mario kart games.

JAKE

an afternoon of baking cookies and fighting each other with flour later, you and your boyfriend jake were now much calmer. 

you both decided to watch a film together on his sofa, eating the.. well, mostly burnt cookies that you both had spent the entire afternoon baking.

he had his head laying on your chest and with his body half-on you and half on your side, meaning that it made it perfectly comfotable for you to fiddle around with the material of the back of his hoodie.

you had been idly doing a mix of gently rubbing and scratching on his back for a few minutes, and after a while you decided to slowly slide your hand down and under the soft cotton material of his hoodie, watching him to see if he would say anything.

he doesnt, but instead keeps his eyes trained on the tv as you smooth your hand over his hot skin, scratching gently at his back.

turning his head to face you, jake huffs a breath as he buries his head into the crook of your neck, giggling quietly.

you frown, laughing in confusion as your boyfriend breaks into a fit of vigorous giggles against you. “jake? what’s funny?”

“nothing nothing.” he giggles, wrapping his arms around your waist and pressing small kisses against your collarbones. 

you gasp at the feeling, suddenly feeling flustered and stopping your ministartions on his back at your boyfriend’s sudden decision to pounce on you randomly in the middle of a film ( cause ?? 😭😭)

“is the film funny?” you ask laughing at the giddy puppy on your chest, unable to stop from giggling yourself.

“naurrr. i’m just ticklish - it tickles, it tickles.”

you frown, stuck in place for a moment as you process his words. ticklish? tickl- 

“oh.” you say after a moment. “i thought you-”

pausing your sentence, you suddenly squeal as your boyfriend begins to tickle your sides relentlessly, sitting up now so he’s leaning above you with his legs on either side of yours as he continues his ruthless attack at your sides.

“JAKE!”

SUNGHOON

you watch the sky and its grey clouds above, feeling a chill at the cold temperatures of autumn.

“are you cold?” 

turning to face your boyfriend sunghoon, you smile sheepishly. “a little.”

despite it being early september and with the temperatures of summer starting to fall sharply; blue skies being replaced by grey ones, you still wanted to go on a picnic with sunghoon in the park since you both had completley missed that off of your summer bucket list together. 

you feel him hesitate next to you for only a second, before he’s bringing you into his chest gently so you’re both turned on your sides facing each other.

Smiling gently into his shirt, you close your eyes and allow yourself to relax in your boyfriend’s hold, enjoying the rare skinship that sunghoon shares with you.

“This is much better.” You say contentedly after a while, reaching a hand over to behind his back and beginning to draw small patterns and shapes on his back.

“Hm. You’re lucky I found this private park where we know no one will disturb us.” Sunghoon mutters above you, and you giggle, continuing your ministrations on his back and gently starting to rake your nails over his shirt gently.

“Really, why?” You ask curiously.

“Because otherwise I wouldn’t be risking embarrassment by being seen laying on the grass in the middle of winter like an idiot.”

You roll your eyes, hitting sunghoon’s chest.

“Whatever. You love me.”

“Yeah yeah I do!” He says quickly. “Sorry, please continue scratching my back?”

“Fine. But only if you say sorry.”

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0/////0 do u have any spicy marius thoughts? the more luke or luke AND mc involved the better.... the thought of this threesome grabbed me by the balls and simply will not let go. do u see marius actually being interested in luke, or just bitter and in denial abt him being so likeable?

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hello anon!!! ive actually been thinking about marius/mc/luke ever since i wrote “instructions unclear...” but i have a...very convoluted and long winded vision of how it would actually happen

if u want the gist: marius in love with mc -> marius/luke FWB -> luke/mc -> marius heartbroken over BOTH OF THEM -> communication happens -> marius/mc/luke happy ending

if u want the Full Story and are willing to bear with me for a bit, i imagine it like this:

despite being the youngest of the NXX gang, marius has fucked before. he's fucked a bunch, actually. it's fun and he's good at it so for a while he treats sex like the rest of his hobbies, but the thing is that That's All Sex Is To Him. by the time he's 21, he's got a good number of casual one night stands in his pocket, but deep down, he....kinda wants more than a quick roll around in the sheets. he wants to not have to slip out of their bed before they wake up, he wants to make breakfast for them when they wake up, he wants something more than the song Temporary Bliss by The Cab.

and then he meets mc and for the first time in his life, he's in love.

he's never been in love before so he kinda sucks at expressing sincerity, resorting to making himself look like a massive tool most of the time, but mc, god bless her, still likes him in spite of that. in marius' heart, a deep and fragile yearning he has no idea how to show and, well. marius isnt used to not being good at things. marius doesnt like not being good at things.

enter luke pearce.

to answer your question, anon, i do think marius in this scenario would be interested in him, but for a period of time, that interest is muddled by bitter jealousy. because come on, luke pearce, who is made of fucking sunshine and rainbows and is a super spy and is mc's childhood best friend, like, how the hell is marius supposed to go against that? marius hates luke! he hates him! //insert entirety of "instructions unclear..." to express the point im getting here but moving on from that like

marius does eventually, begrudgingly, come to terms with the fact that he's attracted to luke, but that actually makes his feelings situation worse because he can (at least on a superficial level) see that luke has got even MORE GOING IN HIS FAVOR.

//distressed marius noises

but here comes the kicker. one day, luke approaches marius, and huh, he's nervous, he's fidgeting with his key, he's---

luke: can you have sex me?

marius: WHAT

---HE'S PROPOSITIONING HIM????

luke then goes to explain, quite embarrassed, that he has no sexual experience whatsoever---which comes as a shock to marius, what with how luke looks like how he Looks Like---and that he wants to learn how to do things. luke doesnt have many friends (vyn scares him, artem is a virgin too, and aaron, just, no, oh god, no) and marius asks "okayyyy, why not mc?" and luke blushes and goes "she's...kind of who i want to be good for..."

marius, at this point, is feeling a lot of emotions. on one hand, theres a very very hot man asking for a fuck. on the other, this man wants the said fuck to be better when he gets with the woman marius is in love with. the logical thing to do would be to reject luke, because duh, but marius...marius doesnt like not being good at things. for a while now, he's had to deal with being bad at love, but now, there's an opportunity to show his competition that he's got advantage in this arena?

needless to say, marius says yes. and thus begins marius/luke Friends With Benefits funtime.

marius is very smug, every time he and luke have sex. he cant help that rush of power he feels when he one ups luke, when he takes luke's cock down his throat, when he hears luke's punched out moans. he loves seeing luke out of his element, whining and flushed and destroyed. they have a LOT of sex, in this point of the story, all under the flimsy guise of "teaching luke". marius talks luke through how to kiss, how to touch, how to fuck.

"you need to up your stamina," marius says, getting down on his knees. "lesson for today is don't come for as long as you can, got it, super spy?"

"got i----oh my fucking god, Marius!"

the tables turn eventually though because luke pearce is a fast learner, and soon enough, marius isnt in control all of the time anymore. luke pushes back, luke uses his knowledge of marius' body against him, luke makes marius see fucking stars.

this would have been all well and good, marius is used to casual sex afterall, but luke pearce, as we've established earlier, is nice. he's nice. he doesn't let marius leave his bed in the middle of the night because he's cuddling marius like a squid the entire time. he always makes breakfast for marius before he leaves in the morning because over the course of the FWB thing luke learned marius' tendency to skip meals out of corporate induced stress. luke always holds marius, holds him as if he's something worth more than his dick and what it can do, and marius realizes, day by day, that he has made a terrible mistake.

marius is bad at love. and he just had to go and fall in love with luke pearce too.

//makes vague hand gestures because im starting to run out of steam so i'll speed this bit up. plot happens here where luke and marius stop doing the FWB thing because marius feels the need to distance himself. luke is hurt, but accepts, and then somehow luke gets with mc which causes an Angst Bonanza for marius because he's heartbroken as hell over the BOTH OF THEM. somehow somebody realizes theyve all been idiots and the three of them have a conversation where they actually communicate, and then they all get together and live happily ever after.

and have awesome threesomes, yes, but i didnt realize this answer got this long and now im too tired to describe the threesome kJBKSJBKFGSD

anon, i would like to apologize to you, because you asked some very simple questions and i gave you this trainwreck of an answer that's....holy fuck, 1000+ WORDS LONG?? IM SO SORRY

but also, anon, how dare you for this. now that ive written all of this out, i am possessed by a need to make it a full fic. how could you do this to me.