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Sodapop Curtis if I know nothing else about u I know this: he would have cried to this single n forced Darry to put it on the player once a night
#soda n wistful cowboy dreaming songs ily#he heres it on the radio in 1965 when it comes out n he genuinely pulls the car over#steves like hey man u good#n sodas like HUSH SHHH SHUSH#he abandons where ever the hell they were driving to to go STRAIGHT to the nearest record store#n then 2 others when they dont have it#every so often he catches himself just humming it to himself#he cant like explain it properly#but it makes him nostalgic for a life as a cowboy he was never going to have#the outsiders#sodapop curtis#steve randle#Spotify
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in defense of kabumisu……..
addressing things I see people say about why kabru being shipped w mithrun is ‘bad’ or why their canon relationship ‘doesn’t mean anything’ while also clearing up misconceptions of the characters some fans have
listen it keeps popping up and I just gotta do this or my brain will melt (if you don’t see it around then god I wish that were me) there’s an age gap!- erm there’s also an age gap in farcille (ily), the most popular ship in the series...also chilchuck looks like a kid but a lot of fans recognize him as a dilf because of his relative age, so there should be no age gap discourse among adult characters because it feels so conditional tbh
kabru taking care of mithrun is racist!- marcille likes to take care of others as well. is that sexist, or just an aspect of her character?
kabru isn’t treated like a servant, waiting on mithrun hand and foot…I mean he gives mithrun a foot massage but no one told him to do all that lmfao
he's also not the only one to care for mithrun. pattadol is shown to worry for him and milsril was the one to start taking care mithrun in the first place after he…...y’know. speaking of which-
they probably met when kabru was a kid!- neither of them showed signs of recognizing each other the entire time mithrun was introduced nor when they were together. and im pretty sure KABRU of all people would show some kind of recognition if they'd met before. it's kabru!!! the people person!!! mr. "i-noted-down-50+-characters-in-this-dude's-backstory-for-fun-and-actually-enjoy-social-gatherings"
you would think some kind of memory would come back to him especially after hearing mithrun’s backstory if milsril had even told kabru about him as a kid. but nope. it’s just fan speculation unless there's a side comic suggesting otherwise that i haven't seen
mithrun doesn't care about kabru, his shapeshift double looked like shit!- it's obviously because of mithrun's (then) lack of desires that it looked like that, but they really grow on each other
i think it's safe to assume it'd look more like kabru after they spent so much time together (also laios can barely even remember kabru's name..also saw his face multiple times and didn’t recognize him when they talked for the first time)
mithrun is racist!- he’s actually the least likely character to be racist since he lost his desires and that includes a desire for superiority over others. he even calls his past self out on that part of himself. the other elves in that side comic were being just as racist to shorter lived races but just didn’t use ‘outdated slurs’
(unfortunately literally every main character in dunmeshi is at least a lil prejudiced, but I believe it’s worldbuilding and a sign of the times rather than a reason ryoko kui is giving to hate each character)
taking care of others is a pain in the ass!- saying this as a reason kabru and mithrun shouldn't be together is basically saying disabled people shouldn't be allowed to have romantic relationships because they're a "burden"...if someone is actually willing to put in the work, then let them be.
that's not even all of their relationship, mithrun is the fighter of their duo and kabru would've been killed by the shapeshifter or something if he'd fallen down the hole on his own since he sucks at fighting monsters. mithrun helps collect ingredients for cooking every time, too (barometz fruits and griffin egg). he pulls his weight and then some!! i feel like people forget that part of mithrun a lot somehow.
+senshi literally cooks for everyone all time. it's kind of an important aspect of the narrative.
+also, while it is a popular fan thing I see around that kabru handfeeds mithrun, he literally never does lol this is mithrun using his own hands to eat:
also here we have him washing his own body
just saying because people like to treat mithrun like a baby even though the narrative respects him as a capable adult who also has special needs because of an accident. he’s captain for a reason
kabru hates taking care of mithrun!- not exactly, he was initially surprised and put off but got used to it quickly. i’m sure he’s grateful for all the times mithrun saved him from a monster and teleported them out of danger as well
he even starts doing “unnecessary” things for mithrun’s comfort and safety like when mithrun pushes himself too hard fighting, even after his mission to take care of him was complete when the canaries came back
here is even kabru resting while mithrun keeps watch (mithrun let him sleep for 5 hours before waking him up from the nightmare earlier, too):
there's nothing more to their relationship!- they actually have had a very tight and consistent dynamic since they met and they incite the most change within each other by the end. kabru is the one who inspires mithrun to create new desires so he doesn't waste away, and mithrun is the first person we see kabru being genuine with and it leads him to be more honest with others by the end instead of tiptoeing around everyone all the time (that mask was also the reason some ppl initially disliked kabru…)
kabru’s relationship with mithrun is honestly so important for his character and vice versa, but it’s often disregarded because of one over exaggerated aspect of it (an aspect that isn’t even the first way they interact with each other) or because people want to just straight up ignore it for some reason 🥲🥲
kui dedicates many panels to them that don't particularly serve the narrative as a whole in order to demonstrate this and i think that's pretty significant
you're taking this too seriously!- as if i'm the first person in the world to be crazy about a ship or the characters 😭 i love analyzing text and it's upsetting to see them mischaracterized when kui lays out the characters so clearly and deliberately
also they end up touching each other like all the time and have the kind of canon validation most ppl can only dream of lol i feel so insane look at this:
and this is just when they're first getting to know each other cuz there's a fuckload more
kinda hard to explain how i don't actually need them to get married or whatever but i'd die on this hill for them and i enjoy their dynamic immensely
haha you thought you were reading ship discourse but it was actually a character analysis 🤪🤪🤪
also don’t somehow take this to mean I think anyone has to ship them, I just need everyone to understand these accusations kind of don’t make sense especially when they can also apply to other pairs or characters
bonus kabru just looking at mithrun:
#dungeon meshi#kabumisu#kabru of utaya#mithrun#dungeon meshi spoilers#i'd rather be able to enjoy their dynamic without feeling like i have to explain it but i keep seeing the same takes i cant do this anym-#i feel like i advocate for kabumisu so much because i see so many people mischaracterizing kabru to make l4bru work like how they want#by saying he’s obsessed w laios because he thinks he’s hot..but he was curious about his autistic behavior and eventually thought his lack#of malice would make laios the best candidate for becoming dungeon lord to prevent another utaya tragedy. tho eventually he doubts that#not that i care that he's shipped with laius. i just want ppl to see kabru for who he IS bc some still think hes nothing but a shady bicth#i think that's best shown through his dynamic with mithrun (other than his own words of course) so i want ppl to acknowledge it properly#like idk if I can trust popular fan interpretations of the characters or relationships anymore after the shit with toshiro bro 💀💀#not trying to attach kabru’s entire being to mithrun or anything either just..saying#hm i feel like the way i worded all of this will make some ppl mad. not my intention but whoops#anyways has anyone drawn ship art of senshi and mithrun yet? anyone?
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i got back from seeing ateez yesterday and i think my pre frontal cortex is developing as we speak cos tell me why i felt so disgusted abt writing yn fics like these men are real people rpf suddenly became so weird to me…..
#ujutxt#i think i get it now#it has completely turned me off from reading or even writing rpf as a whole#idk why and i cant explain it properly#but it’s this weird realization that#if i were famous and someone wrote abt me sucking dick i would probably be so weirded out#i acc felt so bad for mingi cos man never got the chance to speak#atinys were so disrespectful and kept barking at him like he looked so done#also fan culture has actually become so weird and disgusting#wdym ppl CAMPED til 6am to send the boys off that’s so creepy….#mind u some of the people that camped DID NOT get the vip tickets to gain access to the sendoffs#let them sleep wtf#idk man#i really just think i’m just closer to turning 25#and it’s slowly dawning on me#that this shit is so weird#idol culture is so weird#why r grownass men barking and meowing in fan calls#let them do their jobs wo having to be infantilized and dehumanized wtf#they were literal sasaengs who WAITED outside til 6am at the o2 to see them#they looked so tired in the photos
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hate drawing eric clapton because hes just got the most ??? face ever
#cant even explain it properly#he looks like a different person in every photo#but also he has no features i can focus on#like hes so bland looking#but also so distinct#so everything i draw of him looks nothing like him and exactly like him#thats what i get for being an unironic clapton fan i guess
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💭 hmmm venting in tags.
but im very curious what you guys think about the phrase/idea "you can't love someone else until you love yourself"???
#this guy i was in a vc with earlier tonight said he ended a “relationship” with someone bc it seemed like they didnt care abt themself#theres obviously a lot i dont know about the situation so i cant comment on it too much#but there was one thing he said that i have always hated#'you cant love someone else until you love yourself'#i ended up having a whole journal session abt this phrase lmao#it's strange bc i dont believe that idea at all#i have loved people with my whole being who have in turn made me love myself more/want to take care of myself#i also feel like it's like......... it furthers this idea that u are undeserving of love?#im not sure how to properly explain it LMAO#like. there are things about myself i dislike... but i see them in other people and i think oh#maybe i will like these things abt myself#and maybe the idea applies differently in terms of when wanting to enter a relationship w someone#but hes also studying to be a therapist so. idk#no further comments on that#ANYWAY!!#personal#if anyone reads all this im curious to know what you think abt the phrase
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ripping and tearing and killing and immolating and commiting unspeakable violence against my spanish teacher YOU CANT JUST INTRODUCE AN ESSAY 5 DAYS BEFORE ITS DUE BY BRIGHTSPACE ANNOUNCEMENT. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. not even a fuckin MENTION of it in class.
ALSO YOU NEED TO PUT THE ENTIRE SYLLABUS ONLINE IF YOURE GONNA DO THAT NOT JUST WEEK BY WEEK FOR ASSIGNMENTS
#its. i cant explain all the bullshit#hes uploading the syllabus assignment guide week by week making it impossible to plan for bigger assignments like this#im. oh my god i cant even properly explain this#im SO PISSED#YOU CANT JUST CONTINUALLY SAY THAT THIS IS A “BIG LEAGUES” CLASS#AND THEN KEEP GIVING US BUSYWORK ASSIGNMENTS THAT BARELY RELATE TO THE ACTUAL CLASS#''oh this isnt a grammar class :] this is a writing class about gender and race and the drugworld''#also write a narrative adaptation of a childrens story in spanish and make sure to use the grammar we've been reviewing in class and for hw#and use these ''sophisticated words'' im ''teaching'' you#AUHGHGHEOHOEHOGHOHRHRHRHRHHHGH#dragon's discussions#dragon goes to school (college edition)#im about to frustrated cry about this im going ISNANE#i love spanish so mmuch and i took this class for FUN not for a language requirement (cuz my credits transferred)#and i want to keep taking spanish classes cuz i love speaking spanish#but i REFUSE to deal with more bullshit like this next semester#this teacher is actively making me dislike spanish what teh FUCK
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Most of the i/p related posts ive reblogged are very much aimed at international audiences (which unfortunately means its mostly usa centered. Like half of the posts I see israel are talking about the us. For some reason) but despite being considered by some a Nich Internet Microcelebrity me just posting stuff on tumblr isnt doing much so I am starting to look into activist groups within here because after everything that have happened I can not imagine my future not at least somewhat involving taking part of activism
#After a conversation with an arab woman that works in the kindergarten I volenteered at over summer I already been messing around with the#idea of going like. working in a kindergarten in an arab area#we were talking about languages and she explained that she learned hebrew by going to work in a kindergarten in a jewish area#and Im in an arabic class in school and want to learn the language#and Ive always wanted to be involved in a humanitarian cause#so honestly. its not much of a change. its more of being more specific in what I am looking for#arabic class is kind of on a slight holt like the rest of my school because everyone from that area had to evacuate#but I might be temporerily going to school in here. where weve evacuated to#and the school were looking into is the one where my dad was in and where he learned arabic from. and he speaks very fluenetly#I really hope I get into it. Were missing so much school and the little we do over zoom is very hard for me cause I cant study over zoom#and most schools are working again so we wont be taken into acount and itll be like it was after covid lockdown. which still non of us have#properly recocered from#so I really want to be able to actually go to school. even if its with people i dont know in an enviroment im not familiar with
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#something something... i don't wanna date. i just wanna magically be in a relationship. or HOWEVER that post goes.. ya#i think it might happen IDK. its like....... god this sounds SO... CHEESY#avert your eyes. ....#i think that like. something is gonna happen between us for sure. idk what it is. ik what i Hope it is but JDJDJJDJDJDJDJDMXMXM#gosh its so scary im just. idk !!!@@@ i feel like whenever i start to mega doubt... hes like... right there.... IDK#and like idk !!!@@@ he sure feels like my person idk. JDJDJDDKDKD#i just like being around him. like even if we dont have any interests in common i literally dont care bc we have like really similar values#and temperaments#IDK IM JUST !!!!@@@@@!!!!!#i wanna see him JDKDDKKDKDKDKDKD#like messaging is fine. but i just !!!!!@@#ah well.... for sure in feb !!!! but i hope b4 then :))))#he's so cute and like.... avert your eyes once more...#hes like... as i know him today.... perfect for me. like i just !!!!!! idk how to explain. like personality thay i like AND hes cute ?????#i just. idk i think we'd balance each other so well...... IDK...... i just like him so much#i cant explain properly but ya !!!! just feel like...... !!!!!! the universe was listening to me JDJDJDJDJJD#like hes even taller than me but just by a few inches which is Perfect. i dont care that hes under 6 feet bc hes the perfect height for me#JDJDJJDJDJDJDJDJD N E WAY#personal
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anyway yeah relevant to that post abt being deaf/hoh and ppl excluding u from conversation bc of it (even unintentionally), that's smth that's been really deeply bothering me lately bc there are a few ppl I routinely have to deal with who do it a lot and it Pisses Me The Fuck Off I've lost all patience w them. giving up and calling it ableism and walking out idc anymore 🚶♂️
#theres a guy at work whos incredibly annoying for it but tbh hes bad at his job in general anyway n everyones annoyed at him all the time#so at least i get some solidarity from my other coworkers (who are generally rly accommodating of my deafness)#i dunno how he hasnt got the memo ive explained im deaf so he needs to face me n make sure he has my attention n enunciate multiple times#but nope still not getting thru to him! so half the time if he starts mumbling i just pointedly ignore him until he either speaks more#clearly or goes away lmao#and same with a friend of a friend im sure hes a nice guy and everyone else seems to like him n hes in our main discord server so i cant#avoid him as easily and ive been so tolerant of it but hes worn thru my patience entirely and idc abt trying to be nice anymore#if he comes on call and starts mumbling and sidelining me from the conversation i just put him on mute im not dealing with that anymore#i dont fucking care if its petty and rude to do that. im tired of trying to understand him and dealing with how left out he makes me feel#i hope he picks up on the hostility n feels unwanted so maybe then he'll understand what its like for me and fix his behaviour 👍#bc i have no other way of communicating that with him anymore. since I CANT FUCKING HEAR HIM!!!!!#he also has a lot of other annoying behaviour which is fine but this is my limit its so disrespectful and outside of my control#make space for my disability or go away forever#not sure if we could even be friends if he did change now bc hes soured my impression of him so much by this point.#sad! well theres other guys#im glad everyone ive met at climbing so far has been pretty good abt it. really not that hard to do!#anyway rant over lol. at least the guy at work is only on a temp contract so only have to deal w him for a few more months#unfortunately since the rest of that group is friends w this other guy he'll prolly be around longer. but oh well lmao#just crossing my fingers he'll drift away n never open discord again so ill never have to deal w his shitty crackly mic mumbling#or maybe he'll stop fucking calling from whatever wind tunnel hes in and properly join in on our movie nights instead!!!!!#it is sad bc i think he has similar music taste to me. there are def some things we have in common that could form a basis for friendship#but hes gone n ruined it innit#aaaanyway oops started complaining again... the bitch grind never ends#im gonna shower n go back to elden ringing it.... fare thee well#.diaries
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reading my diary entry from 8th grade when the boy i liked so much gave me a kiss on the cheek..
#i went crazy#i was like. 100% sure he was the love of my life#in the entry im like#i was out cold on the floor#and i literally said if we ever actually kissed i would have ended up in the hospital#i know that absolutely yes that would have happened#i would actually have passed out at the very leasr#least#i liked him so so so so so so so so so much#i was literally like#it’s not 20:49pm and i can still feel it on my cheek 5 hours later#IT IS**** 20:49 NOOO#crazy#it wasn’t a romantic kiss btw. we were saying goodbye#for a long school break#i never got to properly say goodbye to him. he never really spoke to me after he broke my heart#and after i wrote a letter to him telling him i appreciated our friendship and i wished him luck back home he embarrassed me#i still remember the pain it was so bad#we have spoken since though. and even seen each other in person 5 years later. but it’s ancient history now#i dont think he knew the real depth of my feelings#anyway about the kiss moment#but it caught me off guard and i literally explained the whole cultural aspect of hugs and kisses it was shsgsgsgahahaj#oh well#such a messy end to a nice friendship#i will never forget how much i cared for you *******#this is so sick#i cant stop crying#sorrt its so incoherent
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Was tryna say goodbye to my siblings before going back to uni but I couldn't find my littlest brother - who has a tendency to put himself in weird places then fall asleep - turns out this time he'd folded himself into the futon and fallen asleep
#Demon Spawn#hes always doing this it was so bizarre and stressful when he was little the gate to his room would be shut so logically theres nowhere#else he could be and yet he couldnt be seen anywhere and wouldnt respond like a fcked up magic trick and it would turn out that hed#crawled under his cot and fallen asleep but he cant get under his bed anymore and he wasnt on the floor so i was baffled#but they have this lil foam sofa that unfolds into a bed but can be partially unfolded to make a cube and thats where he was curled up#inside the futon that was chucked on too of their pile of toys so i was certain he couldnt be there but i underestimated the childs urge#to get into small spaces. my middle brother used to constantly wedge himself in small spaces to hide but hed never get to jump out and#scare people cus hed always realise he was stuck before anyone could find him and start screaming so much of him being lil was just tryna#find him after he got himself stuck somewhere youre tryna follow the shouting but hes hidden really well and really stupidly and he was#too lil to explain properly didnt stop him from wedging himself in places but at least he didnt fall asleep like that so he could actually#answer you unlike the littlest one
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my brother is obsessed with op and he's been trying to get me to watch opla and i really didn't wanna but then he literally made me sit with him and watch it and tbh . bit of a slay i'm a little bit attached to the silly little pirate babies
#first like 4 eps i was jist sitting there kinda on my phone not Really paying attention but i did watch the rest properly and ... <3#also i dont know WHY but zoro somehow looks like jiung sometimes i cant place why so im kinda like 🫶🏼#anyway ! i know like a lil bot of the story just bc i have to sit there and listen to my brother explain the plot for Hours#and also i see fanart on the dash sometimes and everyone is so....incredibly talented#but now i feel like i understand the characters way more !#opla sanji is so....like im vaguely aware of how he is in the manga and anime and i feel like they made him more cunty in the show idk idk#im a lil scared like i didNot expect to be attached but why was i getting emotional in ep 7 likeeeee baby nami ☹️#ANYWAY???? insane turn of events to me personally but itwas fun to watch <3#so many typos :/#h talks
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there's a certain threshold of illness where i start posting absolutely deranged shit claiming geoff rickly is in my house and so forth let's pray i don't get there
#Its not like i actually think he is its that i get strong weird emotions about him and my brain is fuzzy so i cant explain properly#so i say he is in my house eating soup witb me and stuff
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something something dream about shitty movie about some ugly ass rats that live like humans kinda and talk like mafia bosses
#yeah idk man my dreams are weird sometimes#and those rats were ugly#the main character was was like kinda fat tho and had a pet skunk who he trained to spray anyone he hated#its kinda funny ngl but i cant properly explain what it was about nor how the rats looked???#and the dream at some point semi-melded the bee movie plot in but better???#but like instead of getting rid of honey the bees would just sometimes run out of honey and ask fat rat guy to get them more from the shop#it was literally just sentient bees who needed store bought honey sometimes#also that fat rat had a rival or something but like the fat rat didnt give a fuck about said rival so it was like one-sided#also also some scientist rat came along the plot at some point and wanted his inventions to be better i think and he was pissing off fat rat#and fat rat even had to go to some kids school at some point?????
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I hit past like 2pm and Im just riding out the rest of the work day in an attempt to survive at this point
#9 to 5 hell#i got two hours of sleep and i think everyone can tell#but it doesnt help that i was given a bunch of responsibilities without being properly explained what they were or how to do them#and then with every single one it's turned out the previous guy not only taught me wrong but also was doing them wrong himsf#himself#so i have to learn how to do them at the same time that i am trying to fix them#and he also left during audit season. and apparently he did like all of the audit submissions. so now im supposed to.#except neither i nor the other guy in the accounting department know what im supposed to be submitting#so he's wanting to teach me but he literally cant because he's suddenly swamped with all of the responsibilities he gave to our old coworker#that i cant help him take on bc i dont know wtf im doing#and he's too busy to teach me#im so.#hhhhhhhhhhhhghgggggggghhh
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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers
1. my friends - i don't know where i'd be without any of the people i've met in life. they've all changed me in ways that better myself as a person. anytime i can make them laugh or smile especially makes me genuinely happy.
2. creating art and maps - i don't make a whole lot of either these days, but there's a general kind of happiness i get in creating something. i'd love to get back into creating maps in Source again at some point. truthfully, i got a little nostalgic the other night looking back on some SFM renders i helped work on back in 2020. seeing them reminded me of how much i genuinely love posing characters in 3D, and it makes me sad that i don't do much of it since.
3. my ocs - Boe, Ruce, and Gelato are all fun characters for me to think about and write up details for. had been reminded of that fact while writing up details for Gelato recently. Boe, i feel like im always kinda stuck trying to figure out more of his lore details, but that's kind of symbolic to me in how i definitely feel his life feels very... stand-still-ish given he lives in limbo. some day, i'd love to finally figure out more details regarding his life.
4. zarbon from dbz - i feel kinda silly, including him on this list, but whenever i do catch myself feeling really lonely, thinking about him helps. it's definitely the reason why Gelato wears arm warmers for emotional support, even if in canon i don't imagine he'd even know who Zarbon is... maybe.
5. my memory - i wouldn't say i have photographic memory, but i tend to fascinate myself with how much stuff i'm able to remember from my life, early on and such. finding things and seeing they were atleast 80% accurate to what i remember continues to surprise me. i always hear about how your memories growing up aren't as accurate later on in life, but i constantly find myself remembering stuff pretty well. i'll get some details wrong, like confusing morning for night in a memory or two, but what's important to me is that i took note of it being dark. it's not something that makes me happy in a boastful kind of way... it's something that makes me happy in more fascination than anything else... if that makes sense.
#ask#maryaustria#this took me a while to answer so im sorry it took me so long mary#i wrote down the first three... and got stumped trying to figure out a fourth and fifth#maybe that's telling of something but. idk i think there's things that make me happy that i dont necessarily think about#or like. alternatively. in ways i cant explain.#like my sense of humor for example. that makes me happy but it's not really in a way i can explain properly.#but yeah. thinking and writing stuff about Gelato has been breathing life into me in a way i cant define.#i adore him a lot. as somewhat of a reflection of myself in ways.#as much as i do Boe and how he's both a reflection of me and not#i feel bad not talking a whole lot about Ruce. id like to really flesh some stuff out for him besides just being a weird goopy mawed gator#i do have stuff written for him within the past year. and i did get to draw him a little for a post i did on here a while back#id like to do the same for Gelato at some point. i gotta try drawing him myself at some point. like with how i do with Boe#genuinely i do kinda get a laugh out of Gelato being deemed to wear arm warmers for emotional support. just because of the reasons behind it#like some higher power that created you gave you something to help you emotionally because they have a crush on some fictional being#but also it's kinda symbolic of me and how i am with Zarbon as a character.#but anyway. thank you for this ask Mary :)
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