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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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anyway yeah relevant to that post abt being deaf/hoh and ppl excluding u from conversation bc of it (even unintentionally), that's smth that's been really deeply bothering me lately bc there are a few ppl I routinely have to deal with who do it a lot and it Pisses Me The Fuck Off I've lost all patience w them. giving up and calling it ableism and walking out idc anymore 🚶‍♂️

#theres a guy at work whos incredibly annoying for it but tbh hes bad at his job in general anyway n everyones annoyed at him all the time #so at least i get some solidarity from my other coworkers (who are generally rly accommodating of my deafness)#i dunno how he hasnt got the memo ive explained im deaf so he needs to face me n make sure he has my attention n enunciate multiple times #but nope still not getting thru to him! so half the time if he starts mumbling i just pointedly ignore him until he either speaks more #clearly or goes away lmao #and same with a friend of a friend im sure hes a nice guy and everyone else seems to like him n hes in our main discord server so i cant #avoid him as easily and ive been so tolerant of it but hes worn thru my patience entirely and idc abt trying to be nice anymore #if he comes on call and starts mumbling and sidelining me from the conversation i just put him on mute im not dealing with that anymore #i dont fucking care if its petty and rude to do that. im tired of trying to understand him and dealing with how left out he makes me feel #i hope he picks up on the hostility n feels unwanted so maybe then he'll understand what its like for me and fix his behaviour 👍#bc i have no other way of communicating that with him anymore. since I CANT FUCKING HEAR HIM!!!!!#he also has a lot of other annoying behaviour which is fine but this is my limit its so disrespectful and outside of my control #make space for my disability or go away forever #not sure if we could even be friends if he did change now bc hes soured my impression of him so much by this point.#sad! well theres other guys #im glad everyone ive met at climbing so far has been pretty good abt it. really not that hard to do!#anyway rant over lol. at least the guy at work is only on a temp contract so only have to deal w him for a few more months #unfortunately since the rest of that group is friends w this other guy he'll prolly be around longer. but oh well lmao #just crossing my fingers he'll drift away n never open discord again so ill never have to deal w his shitty crackly mic mumbling #or maybe he'll stop fucking calling from whatever wind tunnel hes in and properly join in on our movie nights instead!!!!!#it is sad bc i think he has similar music taste to me. there are def some things we have in common that could form a basis for friendship #but hes gone n ruined it innit #aaaanyway oops started complaining again... the bitch grind never ends #im gonna shower n go back to elden ringing it.... fare thee well #.diaries

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