#he HAD to believe that in order to not be having breakdowns about it earlier
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fans are always like why does goro’s plan re shido suck and have huge gaping flaws. man i do not know how to tell you he was ensnared in this bullshit at fifteen, was doomed to it from that moment onwards or else risk being killed and actively avoids introspection to bury the fact that he wanted other people and ESPECIALLY his father to want and love him despite every cruelty.
#tunes talks persona#like YEAH its plan w massive flaws but of COURSE it is#a) he engaged in it at FIFTEEN#b) the deep dark reason buried fifty fathoms below the boiling rage is that he wanted shido to want him#to love him even#and only THEN bring him low w regret for what he did to goro and his mother#not to mention goro has a huge HUGE breakdown when unable to avoid the fact that he didnt want akira dead#he HAD to believe that in order to not be having breakdowns about it earlier#to continue down that path#he wont even contemplate why he does stuff like spare morgana and the other thieves when shido asks#LET ALONE EXAMINE HIS OWN MOTIVES AND PLAN
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A breakdown of the Fangirlish interview: an exercise in media literacy
Given that the reaction to Buck and Tommy breaking up has been exacerbated by those interviews, I thought I would look into the one from Fangirlish in order to look at it with my media literacy hat on and see what was actually said. So, here’s a link to a version that doesn’t give the writer clicks because you should make up your own mind before providing revenue to the platform https://archive.ph/fqhlE
We start off with the headline: Lou Ferrigno Jr. on Saying Goodbye to 9-1-1, That Breakup and What’s Next
Right away, as the reader, we’re immediately told that LFJ is saying goodbye to 9-1-1, the implication being that this is the end of the road, no going back. This is, I will say, a choice that the writer made when they created the article: they decide on the headline, no one else. Going in, our mind has already been positioned to believe that this is an exit interview and to understand everything that comes next through that lens.
Supporting this path is this: “Lou Ferrigno Jr.’s time on 9-1-1 has come to an end[...]” but it’s important to note that no one has said this but the author of the article. At no point does she provide a statement from ABC, Tim Minnear, or LFJ to back this statement up.
Another unsubstantiated statement she makes is: “For Ferrigno Jr. it wasn’t exactly the way he envisioned the end of his time on the show [...]” Yet again, at no point in what she quotes from Lou does he say this at all. This is her take on the conversation and she has provided not a scintilla of evidence to support this statement. What she does provide is the following quote from LFJ:
“With the way things were going, and the connection that they had, I was under the impression that it was working, and they were connected,” he shared.
Putting this in the context of the interview, it does make it sound like Lou was blindsided by the break up, which is a very normal thing considering that we all know the actors barely know what’s happening even when they have the script. It’s not surprising that Lou didn’t know about the break-up since even Oliver Stark mentions that he didn’t know about it until they began filming, even though the possibility had been floated some episodes earlier.
So while this quote in the context the writer’s given does seem pretty final, if we remove the exit interview lens from it, it just reads as an actor expressing his surprise at the path his character is going.
Continuing on, the writer then writes the following: Ferrigno Jr. admits he had issues with this ending [...]
At the risk of sounding like a broken record, she doesn’t provide a quote to back this up. What she does right is frame the next quote as [...] but trying to get into the mindset of Tommy [...], which changes the context of the quote that Lou gives.
“If preserving his emotional health and saving himself is the only means to survive, then you can’t shame him for it.” He went on to add, “I honestly don’t believe that the relationship matured well enough that they should have made any type of long-term decision.”
So she makes a statement that says LFJ has issues with the ending and then immediately moves on to talk about the acting choices Lou had to go through in order to understand where Tommy was during the scene.
Perhaps the most direct quote from Lou about the relationship that sounds troubling with regards for the future of Buck and Tommy is this: “I just would have hoped that it would have lasted a little bit more,” he also told us, adding that in the hour we also have Buck “looking at those girls, and that sucks for Tommy, and it sucks for any person that’s looking at their partner looking at someone else.”
Taking this with the fact that this has been positioned as an exit interview, I agree that it does sound damning, but if you remove that filter from it then I believe it reads as an actor expressing mild regret that he didn’t get to play this stage of the character and this relationship more. However, I will admit, that this is open for interpretation given that we don’t know where this came in the interview since we don’t know what prompted this answer.
And for Ferrigno Jr., he admits he knew the two were done for good when he realized his character would call Buck “Buck.” I feel I’m a looping record but where in the interview does he say that? He doesn’t say that at all in the quote that she provides below.
She writes: Instead, Ferrigno Jr. told us that Tommy “only knows the man in front of him, Evan. And I knew it was going to come [the moment he called him Buck] because he’s always saying Evan all the time. I’m looking at a character that I’m playing, and he’s just like Evan, Evan, Evan, and in that line, I was just like… I knew this was going to happen.”
“And he doesn’t have to say that. He still can say Evan. But that is essentially signalling that this is all I know how to do, and it’s too much.”
Linked with what LFJ said earlier about Tommy protecting himself, this quote from him makes sense in the fact that Tommy called him Buck to protect himself from the hurt, to try and create some walls between them. But the writer has made this sweeping statement that he knew it was the end, implying that the relationship is at a permanent end when nothing LFJ has said supports that.
And then we move onto the bit that really highlights the bias that this article has been written around. The writer asks Lou: Could the show have been using Tommy as a roadblock to a possible Buck and Eddie relationship?
Getting into the professionalism of this question is for another time but I’ve added it here so you can see the fact that this is someone who is focused on the Buddie of it all. Evidence that supports this is in the author’s various tweets and the coverage of 9-1-1 on their website.
And I know we’re all worried about LFJ’s scheduling conflicts but I will posit that it was a standard answer from an actor who is just doing his job. In his words: “I would absolutely love to come back, but I do need to continue on my journey here. I have a number of things now that are going on that may or may not happen, and I hope that there’s no conflict if it were to be the case.”
Basically, this article is written from the point of view of it being an exit interview but at no point is evidence provided from official sources to support that statement. Throughout it all, Lou’s answers are framed within the narrative that the break-up is permanent and that he’s gone from the show for good.
I hope that this has been interesting and informative for those of you who have read it, and I hope it serves as a reminder that media literacy is for everyone, not just for an attack from those on social media against fans being publicly disappointed that a queer relationship has broken up, temporarily or otherwise.
#i think this is the longest post i've ever made on any social media platform#but it needed to be done because of the damage it's caused#reading the article without the panic of the previous week has been illuminating#and i honestly hope that ABC will stop providing screeners to this person#as well as stop encouraging or allowing their actors to interview with her because if she can't keep her Buddie bias out of the interview#then she shouldn't be allowed to do one#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#911 abc#911 discourse#fangirlish#media literacy
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So I make a loooot of shitposts and jokes (mainly because my actual career is writing dark and serious novels and therefore I come to Tumblr to get away from that) but I FINALLY wanted to write a post that sums up my thoughts regarding the Hickey/Tozer dynamic because it fascinates me so much.
I'm putting it under a read more because I know I'm going to ramble.
Okay so first of all, as much as I may like to make jokes about the sex being so good it drove a guy to mutiny, I don't actually believe there was any sexual intimacy between Hickey and Tozer at all. This is mostly because I think post Carnival NOBODY was getting laid, everyone was far too sick and weak and tired for that - do I think in different circumstances it could have happened between them? Possibly, yeah. I definitely see the dynamic as romantic, but in a weird, unspoken, 'whatever the hell they have going on is also way more complicated than that' way.
The main thoughts I have about how and why Tozer ends up locked into in the Worst Situationship Of All Time are mainly due to three factors:
Heather's death and the breakdown of command.
The obvious Oh Shit moment of watching the Tuunbaq devour Collins' soul.
Physical touch.
The first one is the primer, as it were. It sets Tozer up as angry, desperate, and willing to mutiny. It's already become clear by Carnival that command is breaking down, they don't know what to do, and what a soldier needs more than anything is a CLEAR, DECISIVE CHAIN OF COMMAND. Without that, Tozer - who already has some Opinions about the way the marines are being put at additional risk (unionise, king) - has no one to keep him on a leash, for want of a better word. He's a dog trained to kill that suddenly doesn't have a master. He cannot be in command himself. He needs someone above him; he's not a leader.
This builds and builds, but then Heather's death - the loss of any vestige of something that would keep him loyal, since evidently Heather's care would continue under ordinary command - at the hands, essentially, of the very command he's started to doubt...well, that's it. Gun primed.
The discovery of Fairholme's group shatters any remaining hope he may have had, Crozier's reluctance to tell the men only further compounding the 'command is failing' mentality Tozer already has in spades. And there you go - the trigger is pulled.
BANG. Mutiny.
The second major factor comes after he's thrown in his lot with Hickey in a way he can't go back on. He sees Collins' soul sucked from his body by Tuunbaq before his very eyes. Suddenly, everything he thought he knew has been tipped on its head and an existential crisis he definitely didn't expect or need is thrust upon him, but now any decision he might have made to stay with Crozier and co based on this revelation is no longer open to him. The gun is still smoking, there's no way of putting the musket ball back, and now Hickey is his only option.
But maybe that isn't so bad? Because Hickey is providing something command didn't. He seems in control. He seems to know what he's about, what he's doing, and what to do next. He gives clear concise orders. He's taken up the leash command dropped, and Tozer has a master again. He feels like a marine again, like some of his identity has returned to him in a weird, perverse way (and we know Tozer is incredibly proud of being a Royal Marine from his earlier conversations)(not to mention Crozier's remark to Fitzjames about not asking the men to leave bits of themselves behind straight away when leaving the ships; Tozer has already lost bits of himself, when Heather died, and he lost faith in command).
Tozer is NOT willing to do a second mutiny because that would put HIM in charge, stripping him of that identity all over again, and he cannot handle that.
And finally, physical touch - physical touch is one of the things that keeps him chained to Hickey (quite literally by the end). It's perhaps not nearly as much of a factor as the other two, or perhaps an enormous factor, but definitely there. Throughout the earlier episodes we see that Tozer is a pretty tactile guy. Playfully wrestling at the birthday party. Caring for Heather, squeezing his hand to try and get signs of life. This is a man who isn't afraid to touch other men. When Hickey holds his face in That scene, he doesn't appear surprised - a little spooked by the way he leans in suddenly, and Hickey's intensity, but not shocked. Not like it's the first time Hickey has ever touched him. I generally imagine there's a lot of physical intimacy Hickey offers him during the scenes we don't see, because Hickey IS good at recognising things in people most of the time, and I can see him honing in on that need for touch immediately.
I imagine him touching him a lot, sleeping unusually close to him, soothing him, everything to make Tozer feel safe and secure and remind him WHO is meeting those specific needs. He's providing certainty, command, and comfort, three things Tozer desperately needs.
If there WAS any sexual intimacy between the two, I believe it would build off this even further - confuse Tozer about his feelings, make him feel uniquely bonded to Hickey in a way he can't easily undo. Especially as a Royal Marine, essentially a symbol of the warlike 'noble' Empire, with all the corresponding Victorian hangups and ideals, which would no doubt feel incredibly threatened by any attraction to Hickey. Hickey, who, as we know, WANTS to erase this sense of Empire as identity, not because he understands the evils of Empire but because he wants to replace it with his own where he is at the top.
Hickey both offers Tozer his identity back while at the same time trying to reshape it to fit his own empire. And for Tozer that's confusing and conflicting - but it's better than what he had before. Because Tozer, too, cannot see the world through any lens but that of Empire and hierarchy and command - that's the fatal flaw of all these men.
By the end, it seems he's starting to see what a horrible mistake he made - but by then it's far, far too late.
And a dog NEEDS a master.
Tldr; I think Tozer's bond with Hickey stems from both very human needs such as touch and closeness and certainty, but also from a very thematic need to have a place and easily understood identity within the structure of Empire. And there's almost no real way for those two different sorts of needs to coexist without disaster.
(One day I'll go into how I think Hickey gets more from this relationship than a mere henchman, but this isn't the post for it! This is about Solomon)
#this is generally a simplified overview of my thoughts#there's other stuff too but this is just my take#hickeytozer#solomon tozer#cornelius hickey#the terror#amc the terror
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Jeans
pairing: spencer reid x f!reader
summary: you have a breakdown over finding new jeans
a/n: hello! my first fic on this acc I have a marvel acc that I have neglected so I'm starting fresh! This is for the girlies with killer thighs who I assume have had the same problem as me finding the jeans that fit properly!!!!
warnings: probably mistakes English isn't my first language and also I haven't written anything for months so I'm rusty
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"Fuck!"
Spencer pokes his head from the bathroom at your profanity, checking to see if everything is okay.
"Sweetheart, you okay?"
You look at your boyfriend and he can tell something is wrong, not because he's a profiler but because there's tears threatening to spill.
"These are the fourth jeans this month alone."
The jeans you've just now ripped were the last ones you've had, which only could mean one thing. Jean shopping was necessary.
"Baby, that's okay I'll take you to get new ones. It's okay."
Spencer knows he said something wrong when you give him the look - annoyance and frustration in your eyes.
"You just don't get it."
Maybe you sound dramatic, and yeah, you know he wants to help, but that wasn't what you wanted to hear so you dramatically flop on the bed and sigh.
"Okay, tell me what can I do for you?" You groan into your pillow.
"Nothing Spence, let's just go get new jeans."
Spencer texts Emily that there has been an emergency and he won't be able to come to work today, which you tried to stop him from doing because this could wait - apparently not.
"Let's go." Spencer grabs your hand and leads you out.
Spencer severely miscalculated the amount of time it would take you to find jeans - you did tell him this is a process, but he didn't expect that after 3 hours you've gotten 0 jeans.
"I give up. This is hopeless. " You walk out of the fitting room trying so hard not to cry, but this always happens.
"They don't fit properly everywhere. They are either too tight on thighs or they are too wide on my hips or both, or they're too long or short, they have no pockets and if they do they are too small. Oh and get this, when you go to the plus-size store, they get more expensive. Why?I can't even order anything online because the sizes are different everywhere and I-" Spencer pulls you into his chest and caresses your back, drawing circles trying to calm you down.
He never thought about this because he's never had that issue and now it makes sense you've been upset this morning. Now he was even upset at himself for not understanding earlier.
"I'm sorry, sweetheart. I'm sorry I didn't understand. Tell you what, let's take a break for ice cream or whatever you want."
Sometimes, you don't believe Spencer is real and even better he's yours.
"Okay sounds good."
While taking a break, Spencer has been thinking about you and how stressful this is for you both physically and mentally.
"What you thinking about so hard, Doc." Spencer chuckles at your pet name for him, you love Back to The Future and Spencer, well he has some issues with how time travel was done, but he likes the pet name anyways.
"I'm thinking how to fix this. Why are jeans so hard to find? That's not fair."
"Spence, you can't just fix the system. This is just how it is. Besides, this wasn't so bad you were there."
Spencer frowns. How many times have you gone on a hunt for jeans without him, if this was "not so bad" how does it look when he's not here.
"Baby, that doesn't help. Is there anything I can do for you?" Spencer asks, holding your hand.
"Uh, you're the fbi call every single company that makes jeans and tell them to make better jeans." you joke, but Spencer gets an idea.
"You know what you're right."
You look at him quizzically, trying to figure out what your genius is going to do.
"Don't worry about it let's go home we're done for today."
*some days later*
Spencer gets the notification that his package is almost home, and he's genuinely excited for you to get this gift. Unfortunately, he won't be there to open it with you, but he's sure you'll love it.
As if on cue his phone rings.
"Hey, Spence, something arrived in your name, I didn't know you ordered anything?" you look at the box in your hands trying to figure out what it is.
"Yeah, I forgot to tell you." you scoff, Spencer is literally unable to forget anything.
"Okay, I lied, that's a surprise for you, but promise not to open it before I'm able to face time you okay?" Spencer can feel your excitement and impatience from miles away, but after some sweet talking, you finally promise not to even take a peek.
"Loverboy, the surprise go well?" Derek asks, ruffling Spencers hair.
"I don't know yet. I am like 90% sure that she'll like my surprise but there's always a chance she doesn't so." Everyone rolls their eyes at his reply and continue talking about the case.
Finally, after getting to the hotel, Spencer showers and calls you, excited to have you see the surprise.
"Hi, honey." Spencer chuckles at seeing you with a box opener in your hand and box inches from you.
"I wasn't gonna open it."
"Sure you weren't. Go on, baby." You huff and open the box carefully, hoping there wasn't anything breakable. You might have shook it a couple of times but he didn't need to know that.
Your eyes open wide in surprise, you look at the box and then at Spencer and then again at the box.
You pull out the pair of jeans from the box and look at them.
"Try them on."
"Spence what is this?" you ask looking through the box counting 6 pairs of jeans with no tag or size on them.
"They're jeans for you! Remember how you said I'm the fbi and I should call everyone and tell them to make better jeans?" the disbelief on your face makes him smile.
"Well I didn't do exactly that. But... I did use some connections in the fbi. Anyways try them on"
Not knowing what else to do, you just do that.
"Spencer."
"These are perfect like they fit like they were made for me."
"It's because they were, and if some of them don't fit, let me know if I need to have a talk with the person to fix them."
You can't believe your boyfriend literally went out of his way and had someone make you a perfect pair of jeans.
"I... I don't know what to say. You're literally the best and no these are perfect. How?"
"Well, I had Garcia research some people and then I found them and then had Derek meet some of them to threaten them to do a good job and yeah."
He says that like it's the most normal thing to say, like he's listing groceries.
"I love you. Not because of the jeans just-"
"I know, I know, but try all of them on. Also, I personally wouldn't mind if you lost the shirt you know because it's gonna overshadow the jeans you know?"
"Spencer!"
[the end]
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hope you enjoyed.
likes comments and reblogs are appreciated <3
#spencer reid#cm#criminal minds#mgg#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fluff#spencer x reader#spencer reid fic
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dear stranger.
in which, itoshi rin is terrible at keeping promises.
contents. itoshi rin x reader, hurt no comfort (just not from rin himself), childhood friends, unrequited feelings (implied), reader is a year older than rin, a bit of isagi x reader at the end, all word vomit it's past 1 am cut me some slack
a/n. kinda short since my recent fics were so long and i need a break (i have more planned anyways)
For as long as you can remember, Itoshi Rin has always been there.
You were two peas in a pod; inseparable, possessing a bond that no one could ever replicate. You've known each other since birth, and your mothers had been best friends even before you were born.
All four seasons and all year long, you were together. Winter was composed of snow fights, snoozing inside of a kotatsu, with a cup of hot chocolate. Gasping while pointing at the gorgeous cherry blossoms blooming in the spring, eagerly trying to catch the petals dancing with the wind. Splashing and kicking up water at the beach with each other, enjoying refreshing watermelon as you both bask within the warmth of the sunlight. Admiring the crimsons, saffron and golds of Autumn, giggling at the satisfying crunch of leaves lying on the pavement.
Playdates or sleepovers, either way you were both over the moon. Screaming with joy and playing together all day, later scheming to stay up all night to whisper each other every secret (all while making sure Sae sleeps undisturbed), only to pass out an hour or two later.
He's the reason why your childhood was so warm, overflowing with happy memories, the mere thought of him engulfing with you warmth.
You didn't go to the same preschools and daycares, yet you were still each other's bestfriend, and it was going to stay that way forever, if you did start primary a bit earlier than him.
"Mama what do you mean Rin won't come to school?!" The weather perfectly suited your mood, rain hammering against the roof and windows. Five year old you pouted, refusing to believe what you and his mother just announced. In protest you slammed the table, standing up.
"y/n, calm down. Rin's still going to primary as well. Just not at your school." Your mum orders you to sit down, and you obey reluctantly, as she continues throwing ingredients into the hot pot.
"But why?" A disappointed whine leaves your lips. "I want to learn more with Rinnie."
"It's okay." Rin's mother pats your hair, moving it out of your face to prevent it getting into your food. "You'll still be best friends, your mother and I didn't go to the same one either. We even grew up in different towns."
"But I want Rin at my school." Your mum sighs at how stubborn you were being.
"y/n I'll still be your bestfriend, I always will no matter what."
"But what if you find someone else." Your voice begins breaking, and your mother panics as she senses a mental breakdown, noticing early tears beginning to accumulate on your lash line.
Rin holds out his pinky. "I promise! We'll be together until we grow-, no, for the rest of our lives."
You intertwine his pinky with yours, it's so warm and soft, and his dedication makes you grin. "Promise! You're not allowed to break it."
"I swear on my life! You're not allowed to either." Both of you break out into a giggle, which earns a proud 'awwww' from your mothers, with hints of relief subtlety thanking Rin for preventing a mental breakdown from you.
That lunch had to be one of your favourites, Rin and his puppy eyes were adorable, even if his 'promise' lacked honesty and truth.
"Rin." No answer.
"Riiiin." Still no answer.
"Itoshiiii?"
He finally responds. "What?"
"Get off your phone. Talk to me." You frown, wondering what was so interesting that he'd avoid talking to you entirely, despite coming over to your house. So far all he did was remain seated in your chair, eyes focused onto the screen.
"No. It's important. 't's for an upcoming game." He doesn't even look away from his phone.
"Is it stressful? Do you want to talk about i-?"
"Shush."
You don't bother pushing the conversation, if he'd choose it over you it must've been a significant match. You spend the rest of your time reading a book, occasionally glancing at Rin.
Nothing happened.
"So, how's Rin?" Your mother asks before you sleep, doing one last check before heading to her room.
"He's good, really busy with soccer."
"You've been saying that all year. Is soccer all you talk about? What about school? Are his grades alright? How's he adapting to middle school?"
You open your mouth to answer, only to come to a horrible conclusion. You don't know. Rin's the boy you've spent over a decade with, the one who knows everything about you and you know everything about him.
Yet you can't say anything about him, aside for his dedication to soccer, which is something anyone could tell about him.
"Oh yeah! He gets along really well with his teammates, he's doing well." Before your mum suspects anything, you hastily lie, something that's not unrealistic nor concerning enough for your mother to feel the need to check. You force a yawn, hoping your mum stops asking and goes to sleep soon.
Your strategies work, as she quickly wishes you good night, leaving your room. Now you're free to start worrying.
'You've been saying that all year' now that you're finally taking it into consideration, she's right.
Because there's quite literally nothing else to tell her.
You're trying to count, trying to count how many hangouts resulted in him being glued to his phone, only stopping when your parents announce dinner.
Suddenly your lip's quivering, and anxiety blurs your vision as you feel tears gathering in your eyes.
It's still unknown to you why it's taken you forever to notice, but it's like a truck driving into you; heavy and brutal. Now that you've thought about it, you haven't properly hung out in forever, all he does is do something soccer related.
You understand having a passion. Not his cold treatment towards you, the one that was supposed to be his bestfriend.
It's just temporary, a middle school team can't even compare or come close. Rin's current behaviour was merely an attempt to adjust to middle school life, give it a year or two then you'll go back to laughing all day and building sandcastles.
"Seriously? She did that?" Rin's mum almost yells, shocked at the events recounted by your mother.
"Shhhh. Rin's sleeping."
"Poor thing... must be tired from training all the time."
You walk into the conversation halfway, blanket in hand, making your way to Rin's resting figure on the bean bag.
Gosh, he looks stunning.
His defined jaw, long eyelashes adorning his face, his bangs which rested right above his eyes, everything about him looked perfect, even if he was sleep. Even his lips look kissable in this state. You ignore that thought and carry on with what you were doing.
You're gentle and careful, ensuring you don't move the bean bag and draping your blanket over him. There's concern clouding your heart, the other day only his mum came over, apparently he had stayed home to sleep all day. You prayed his sleep schedule was okay, as you went to join your mum.
"C'mon eat more." Rin's mum smiles, she completely contrasts Rin, warm and welcoming. "Thank you for always being so nice to him. You're only a year old yet you're so much more mature. He's really lucky to have you."
If only Rin thought that. If only this 'friendship' continued because of him, instead of the close friendship between your mothers.
Your attempts to figure out what happened were fruitless, almost instantly being dismissed.
If only soccer didn't take over his life, no, if only you had stuck together during your education.
You feel so foolish, the overwhelming guilt strangling you won't go away, not even both of your mothers believe you're still bestfriends, little do they know Rin doesn't see you that way anymore. You're now essentially just strangers now,
If only he kept that stupid pinky promise.
"So Rin was that kind of person." Yoichi hums, still staring at the picture that was hidden in your desk. It's the two of you during the peak of what was supposed to be an eternal friendship, where you had an arm tightly wrapped around him. Even over a decade later you see it as a way to rub salt into the wound.
"Yeah." It wasn't easy but you ended up explaining you and Rin to your boyfriend, Yoichi. Your teeth dig into your bottom lip, fighting the urge to cry. Merely talking about him replicates the pain of that night, when you realized how truly meaningless you are to him.
"Hey." He's quick to notice your discomfort, wrapping his arms around you, lovingly patting your back. "It's okay." He whispers in your ear.
"It's not your fault."
That's what made you lose it, a choked cry and tears now streaming down your cheeks.
All this time you've been questioning if you were ever worth loving, all because someone who claimed to stay by your side forever disappeared so easily.
"It's okay, everything's okay." He continues to repeat. "I'm right here, okay? Let it all out. I'm not going anywhere."
You cling onto him, like a child. It was almost embarrassing to behave this way, weeping over someone who's probably forgotten you by now.
"'m sorry- I shouldn't be upse-"
"No. Don't treat yourself like that." Yoichi refuses to listen to anything negative about you, and that includes anything self deprecating. He carries you to your bed, placing you down gently, and joining you. Yoichi peppers you with light kisses, warmth ghosting over your face.
And he's right. You had every right to be hurt to this day. He was your bestfriend, your other half, and Rin himself took that all away from you heartlessly. The least he could've done was at least express that he wanted nothing to do with you.
"I promise you, I'm going to destroy him during our next game. I don't care if we're on the same team, I'm scoring more goals than him no matter what. No one deserves to treat you like that." Yoichi goes for a deeper kiss this time, rough, calloused hands cupping your cheeks. "Don't even think about saying you weren't good enough for Rin. You're perfect." Even after pouring your heart out and bawling because of it, you can't help but smile.
You're finally coming to terms with it, that the Rin who you'd play tag with along the graceful shores of Kamakura, was now a mere stranger to you, one that you'll hold dear to your heart.
tagging. @kiyumiya
© kitorin : do not repost, plagiarize, change, or translate
#ok i go sleep now#bye bye#blue lock#bllk x reader#bllk#blue lock x reader#itoshi rin#itoshi rin x reader#rin itoshi x reader#blue lock rin itoshi#bllk itoshi rin#angst#hurt no comfort#isagi yoichi blue lock#isagi yoichi#isagi x y/n#isagi x you#bllk isagi#isagi yoichi x reader#isagi x reader#isagi imagines
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In a response to an earlier ask, you said that you believe some non-human entities try to disguise themselves as human in order to blend in. Yes, very much so. HC that if H.A.R.D.A.C. is a thing in this universe (Silken Emperor AU) there's still a couple of Duplicants just sort of...minding their own business and praying Batman doesn't catch wind of their existence.
Cause, hoo boy, their creator was insane, and it's actually kind of logical that a sudden uptick in Duplicants from "0" means H.A.R.D.A.C. is back, but they don't want to revive him, he was a douchebag. Heck, maybe some of the Duplicants don't figure it out until they get mugged in an alleyway and stabbed and instead of blood and flesh, they see sparks and wires.
What are Duplicants, you might ask? (SKIP THIS SECTION IF YOU WISH TO AVOID SPOILERS FOR A TV SHOW THAT RAN IN THE EARLY TO MID 90S, OR IF YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT) They were these pliant robotic clones from BTAS, sort of like Synths from "Fallout 4", that H.A.R.D.A.C. tried to replace key Gothamites with in the 2-part episode "Heart Of Steel", as a prelude to replacing all of mankind with them, thus "curing" mankind of all its ills. In the follow-up episode "His Silicon Soul", (SPOILER ALERT FOR THE FULL PLOT OF THE EPISODE) a Duplicant of Batman wakes up in a crate in some warehouse in Gotham (there's a lot of those) and stops a robbery, and eventually finds out he's mechanical.
Poor guy goes through all this angst, thinking he's the real Bruce Wayne and is stuck in a robot body somehow, and in his detective investigations he finds A. He's not the real Bruce Wayne (according to the man who built H.A.R.D.A.C. in the first place) and B. A chip containing the last backup of H.A.R.D.A.C.'s consciousness that his programming forces him to put it into his data drive. (Literally, his hand moves of its own accord and he's trying to stop it with the other.) He then gets brainwashed by the H.A.R.D.A.C. remnant, fights Batman in a greenhouse (I think?) and almost uploads H.A.R.D.A.C. to the Bat Computer before the real Batman returns, Batman manages to convince him they aren't that different after all and both care about human life (Robo-Bats saved a dude while the greenhouse was collapsing), then there's this brief bit where the fight resumes and Robo-Bats thinks he killed Real Bats, he has a full on sobbing breakdown, and smashes the Bat-Computer so H.A.R.D.A.C. wouldn't be able to upload to the Internet and eradicate mankind, presumably killing H.A.R.D.A.C. or at least corrupting the fuck out of his files. By so doing, his circuitry was fried by electrocution. Robo-Bats sacrificed himself so mankind could live, and the episode ends with Real-Batman saying to Robin that he (Robo Bats), had a soul. "A soul of silicon, but a soul nonetheless." Roll credits.
I appreciate the explanation and the coverage of what happens in the show (as well as the warnings for spoilers for those who are trying to watch it).
It is an interesting dimension to add to where some Duplicants are unaware of their non-human status. To add onto their issues with identity (because suddenly learning you're not human would fuck with your mind), they also have consider the legal aspect of whether they have rights. They have to consider the social aspect of whether humans consider them capable of emotions and thoughts. It's so incredibly fucked, but in a compelling way.
I saw someone mention how cool it would be for an AU where Bruce basically pulled an Astro Boy (created a robot replicate after Jason dies) and thus creates Tim. You can add that idea, but instead H.A.R.D.A.C. tried made a Duplicate of Robin before Dick became Nightwing or before Jason dies.
I don't know much about this canon material, but there's a few ways to play around with what memories Tim does have:
He could have memories closer to the Tim of JJ so his backstory is closer to Jason's
He could only have the memories of "Robin" and this is how Tim finds out he's not actually Robin. He runs away, gets adopted by the Drakes, and "grows up" that way
Tons to play around with.
Anyways, Tim, who was supposed to be Robin's duplicate, knocks on Bruce's door post Jason's death. This causes Angst, obviously, especially because Tim looks eerily similar to a younger Jason or Dick.
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wip wednesday except i lowkey forgot about it
heyyy so like im almost done planning this fic and that is fucking with me rn so this post is coming to you after a short sexy little mental breakdown. on a different note, below is part of what im writing for feveuary.
"Really! No, I'm fine, I promise!" Phoenix said.
The man in question was quite green and couldn't seem to keep himself upright. Miles supposed that spoke for itself.
"I don't believe you are, Wright,"
He had come all the way from Europe for this man?
"I promise, Mm-edgeworth," Phoenix slurred, his face flushed. "Is it hot in here or is it just me?"
"That's due to your horrendously high temperature. Come on, Wright, let's get you to the bedroom."
Phoenix grinned a drunken smile, "That sounds even better than I imagined."
"Nghk!" Miles spluttered, "Serious, Wright, you can't go around saying that!"
Miles continued to drag Phoenix through the cluttered apartment. Sighing, Miles pinched the bridge of his nose, Phoenix had ruined the wordbedroom for him forever.
Phoenix looked at him in a moment of uncharacteristic clarity, "You know I meant it, right?" before draping himself in Miles's arms. "Haha, Wright!"
Miles was startled by this. He had brushed off Phoenix's earlier statement due the horrendous fever the man was currently sporting. Miles could feel the heat radiating off of Phoenix. Or was that his own face? Either way, Miles wasn't certain he would survive this trip.
Could Phoenix have been genuine?
No, no. He shook the thought away before those feelings consumed him again.
As they approached the door of Phoenix's bedroom, Miles felt a shiver of anticipation run through him. How perfectly odd.
Over the next five minutes, after Phoenix had wormed his way into every sleeping position possible, he beckoned Miles closer.
"What do you want?" Miles asked, wary.
"Come over here. You're warm and I'm cold."
Miles didn't know why he followed Phoenix's mumbled orders. Surprisingly, he didn't mind the sick man huddled beside him. Miles would even describe himself as contented.
#ace attorney#miles edgeworth#phoenix wright#narumitsu#wrightworth#aa fanfic#sick fic#feveruary#wip wednesday#hopefully i'll reinstate my queue one day
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I’m reading John Ganz’s When the Clock Broke (which is outstanding btw) and there’s a passage he has about William H Parker (the chief of the LAPD during the Watts riots, and mentor to Daryl Gates, police chief during the Rodney King riots) that i think is fascinating and illustrative of why attempts to use ~facts and logic~ against reactionaries can be so ineffective:
In Parker’s opinion, any tool to maintain control and order was justified, including racial profiling. “At the present time, race, color, and creed are useful statistical and tactical devices…If persons of Mexican, Negro, or Anglo-Saxon ancestry, for some reason, contribute heavily to other forms of crime, police deployment must take that into account. From an ethnological point-of-view, Negro, Mexican, and Anglo-Saxon are unscientific breakdowns; they are a fiction. From a police point-of-view, they are useful fictions and should be used as long as they remain useful.”
although i cannot get an exact date on that quote (Ganz cites a recent book partly about Parker as his source and I do not have access to that book currently to cite their citation), it is worthwhile to note it had to have been said in 1966 or earlier, as Parker died in 1966. that would mean it was 20-ish years before that icon of “respectable conservative” thought, National Review, would uncritically publish a book review by Joe Sobran that called scientific arguments against the reality of race ridiculous, a view echoed by William F Buckley. Parker states in the 1960’s, significantly ahead of his political allies and even many of his enemies, the (obviously correct) view that race is an ethnological fiction– a social construct, if you will– but that had zero impact on his actions. These fictions are useful in maintaining hierarchies and the status quo, and thus will remain in place for as long as they serve those purposes.
The material reality of these things is less significant than their use and the worldview underpinning them; they need these things to be true, and so they must act upon them as if they are true regardless. Reminds me a great deal of Milton Friedman’s The Methodology of Positive Economics, or much of Leo Strauss. The maintenance or (re)introduction of hierarchy to social systems requires the maintenance or (re)introduction of structuring fictions and mythologies.
I don’t point out this right wing tendency toward a sort of solipsistic idealism to say that explications of material reality are useless; rather, it should not be a surprise that the reactionary will take and leave the world as it is whenever needed in order to maintain the world as they believe it should be, and any attempt to combat them that focuses primarily on debunking is often just punching smoke.
(The right are not the only ones who do this, of course, and ideology is necessary in one way or another to interpret anything politically, but I do find this specific prioritization of myth to be far more common and explicit in reactionary political theory)
all of you know that though so there’s no real point to this post. just talking out loud about a book i’m reading i guess
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𝐔𝐃𝐌𝐓𝐏 𝐀𝐔 𝐌𝐮𝐳𝐚𝐧 𝐅𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐀 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐚
ℛℰ𝒬𝒰ℰ𝒮𝒯ℰ𝒟
Muzan had recently left the Infinity Castle in order to search for the blue spider lily. He was the only one that could go out in public without being detected since he had a human disguise which meant that the UpperMoons were unable to join him. The UpperMoons were originally worried about his safety but when he was taking longer than he said he would, their heart rates began to skyrocket.
They were arguing and debating if they should go out and search for him or listen to his orders and wait for his return. They were all cut off when they heard someone enter the room and the room was filled with the metallic scent of blood. The all saw Muzan stumbling into the room with bloody gashes littering all over him and a horrified expression printed onto his face. They began to rush towards him when he then fell to the ground not moving.
𝐃𝐚𝐤𝐢
Daki had a mental breakdown, she began sobbing and lightly shaking Muzan to wake him up
Her heart was torn to pieces that he was hurt this bad and she was devastated that she couldn’t be there for him, she felt like a failure
While he was in a coma, she would visit him everyday and stay there as long as she was able to
She was extremely grateful that he survived but she couldn’t help but feel guilty
She would pretend that he was awake and listening to her while she told him all about her day, it was her way of coping
She was in the room when he woke up and she was filled with great amounts of joy and relief that he had woken up
She would hug him tightly and begin crying while apologizing over and over again
𝐆𝐲𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐨
He was in shock, yes he knew that Muzan was easily scared and sometimes even clumsy but he was also very powerful
He couldn’t help but wonder who or what did this, he was angry that someone dared to do this to his master
He saw how sad Daki was so he would sometimes accompany her when she would visit Muzan
He was both angry and sad about Muzan’s current condition, the being that did this to his master was still roaming out there
One day, he heard Daki yell which provoked him to go check on her and he saw her hugging Muzan who was now awake
He was filled with relief and when Muzan was back to full health, he was going to attempt to figure out who did this
𝐆𝐲𝐨𝐤𝐤𝐨
He was filled with despair and sorrow when he saw Muzan like this
He couldn’t believe that someone would do this to someone as kind hearted as Muzan
He would frequently visit Muzan, bringing him new pots that he made earlier that day
Whenever he began painting a new pot, guilt and sorrow would was over him and cause Gyokko to feel nothing but sadness
When he heard that Muzan finally woke up, he was thankful and greeted him with a smile
He hoped that this never occurred again because he couldn’t handle the thought of Muzan being in such pain
𝐇𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐮
He was terrified for Muzan’s well being and of what possibly could have done this to someone as powerful as Muzan
Every night, he was scared that he would wake up and hear that Muzan died or the being coming back and harming him or Muzan again
He would visit Muzan a couple times but sometimes, he was too busy crying to even get off the ground
He prayed that Muzan would wake up and live because he had no clue what he would do if Muzan ended up dying
He then heard loud yells which caused him to grow terrified and he went and hid
He hid for almost two hours before deciding to come out and when he did, he saw the others fawning over the now awake Muzan
𝐍𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐦𝐞
She remained silent as a single tear fell down her face, she couldn’t accept that Muzan had the possibility of dying
Like Daki, she would visit him everyday although she couldn’t stay for more than 10 minutes since it hurt her so much
She would play her biwa to Muzan’s sleeping form to let him know that she’s there
Everyday she wondered if this was the day that he will finally wake up
When he did wake up, she was extremely relieved and even let tears fall, she promised herself to be more careful and defend Muzan to the best of her abilities
𝐀𝐤𝐚𝐳𝐚
He was filled with rage and took his anger out on everyone around him
He felt like a failure and would downplay his own abilities while hot salty tears streamed down his face
He blamed no one but himself and knew he had to make it up to Muzan somehow
He couldn’t bring himself to visit Muzan because he felt that Muzan despised him for not being there to protect him
When he woke up, Akaza was incredibly thankful and wanted to visit him but he felt that Muzan wouldn’t want to see him so he just listened to the cries of joy from the others
𝐃𝐨𝐦𝐚
He was puzzled, yes he pranked Muzan multiple times with little to no sympathy but he still felt bad
It was pretty boring without Muzan around to prank and Douma was sad
Douma eventually became quiet and reserved since he had no source of entertainment, he was so bored and wished he woke up
When he heard Daki scream that Muzan was awake, his frown immediately turned upside down and his original personality was back
Even though he wasn’t allowed to enter Muzan’s room, he was still happy that his source of entertainment has returned
𝐊𝐨𝐤𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐛𝐨
He was the one who carefully carried Muzan to his room and tended to his wounds
He was the most worried one out of them all because Muzan was like his younger brother and if he died, Kokoshibo would believe that it was all his fault
He would go out and hunt down whoever or whatever harmed Muzan and if he found it, he would kill it the most brutal and painful way he could
But if he was unable to find the being that did this, he would ask Muzan when he woke up to see if her remembered anything
After this incident, he would become Muzan’s full time bodyguard 24/7 no matter where Muzan is
#kimetsu no yaiba#requests open#feel free to ask questions#request#kny daki#gyutaro#gyokko#hantengu#nakime#akaza#doma#kokoshibo#muzan kibutsuji
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She’s the Albatross… She is here to destroy you
This is part one of what I call the “Head Family Trifecta” of The Tortured Sohma Family Department. When put together, The Albatross, Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me, and The Prophecy tie together the stories of the head family, Akira, Ren, and Akito.
Since I would like to go in order, we’re starting with a lyrical analysis/essay about Ren’s song, “The Albatross.”
Full disclosure. I did have to do a bit of research on some parts of the symbolism from others’ perspectives, but ultimately, I will be laying out a lyrical breakdown of the song from Ren’s point of view. In other words, I will be getting into her head and how she sees things pre-canon. However, it doesn’t mean I justify anything Ren does in the canon story. I just think the parallels in the song and story are fascinating.
Wise men once said, “Wild winds are death to the candle. A rose by any other name is a scandal.” Cations issued, he stood Shooting the messengers They tried to warn him about her
These wise men she’s referring to are the staff and any family members who were against Akira and Ren’s relationship. The old faction. As revealed in chapter 115, they had a very specific set of traits they were looking for in any woman wishing to marry into the family. Traits that Ren didn’t meet in their eyes. Ren was the “wild wind,” and the “scandal,” someone not from an elite family (not even close) and certainly not trained to be a proper wife for the head of the family. She had been a servant. One who had, to the traditional family, overstepped her bounds.
But beyond that, she is also a woman who we see can’t be easily controlled. In her relationship with Akira, this is reinforced by her pushing past their words to go after what she wants. And despite the cautions issued, Akira chose to peruse his relationship with Ren.
Cross your thoughtless heart Only liquor anoints you She’s the Albatross She is here to destroy you
I take this to be Ren echoing things said by the opposers mentioned earlier. Often, when one says “cross my heart,” it means that they are being genuine, either in telling a truth or in their intent to fulfil a promise. But it’s also important to note “thoughtless,” which often means not showing consideration for others in a negative sense. However, I think her it’s more meant to be Akira’s naivety. From the little we know, he was sickly and sheltered and given the way the family was looking to approve a marriage partner, I’d wager that he didn’t have much agency in the way his life panned out, similar to Akito before her turnaround. She says in season 3 episode 7 that, “This is the life they gave me! No one ever offered me another one!” And I think the same may have been true for her father before her, minus being told he was special and being allowed to abuse people.
Being anointed is a spiritual process. Because we know that Akira was frail and sickly, I’m going to take it as “anointing the sick” with not a literal liquor, but a metaphorical one. In romances, love is sometimes described as “intoxicating” and we know Ren loves him to an obsessive degree (even after his passing), so it’s this love, this passion of hers that acts as the liquor anointing and corrupting the naïve Akira in the family’s eyes.
Combine this all together and it’s people thinking and saying that Akira needs to be saved from Ren. Back to chapter 115, the head maid warns him to not be tricked by a woman such as Ren, likely believing her to be someone who would bring down the family in some way. Though I don’t get the vibe that she was ever a gold digger or power seeker (since she never mentions going after power and her feud with Akito is over personal reasons), I wouldn’t be surprised if the maids and family elders did see her as a usurper, stealing and tricking and “destroying” Akira and by proxy – the Sohma clan.
“One bad seed kills the garden One less temptress One less dagger to sharpen” Locked me up in towers But I’d visit in your dreams And they tried to warn you about me
The wise men speak again in the second verse. The bad seed mentioned is obviously Ren, and the “garden” is the Sohma clan. It’s a repeat of them saying her presence is a risk to the family. As mentioned before, several marriage proposals had already been vetted and turned down because they saw themselves as looking out for the family and Akira falling for Ren challenges the plans they had. Additionally, one less temptress/dagger to sharpen may refer to how Ren was seen as the temptress who “ensnared” Akira and walked into the garden unwanted and without shame, and so, the metaphorical daggers came out, starting what would later be the divide between Ren’s side and Akito’s (AKA the “old faction” and the “newcomers”).
While we don’t directly see this, the idea that people tried to keep the couple apart is heavily implied given the way the old maid tells Akira not to be fooled by her. The “bad seed” who will spell trouble for the family and should remember her place. And that’s just what we’re given on screen, so to speak. Ren may not have been physically locked up or barred from seeing Akira, but they probablu did try and force her back into her box of being a “lowly servant.” Yet, despite this, they can’t control what happens in his dreams. And given how obsessive her love is shown to be, of course she would believe he was dreaming about her and that, even in those dreams, the voices tried to break them apart.
We’ve already gone over the chorus that repeats here, so I’m going to skip over it and go right to,
Devils that you know Raise worse hell than a stranger She’s the death you chose You’re in terrible danger
This part is rather simple. People that are close can be more dangerous than strangers. In the Sohma clan, this phrase rings very true. Even though they try and live in their own world, the truth is that those in the inner family are probably more dangerous, especially considering the ones surrounding Akira who are dictating his life and future. It’s them that are raising hell about the relationship. Not any of the other families they may be intertwined with. Not even people on the fringes of the inner circle. The staff and elders specifically connected to the main family.
Being a former attendant herself, I’m sure Ren knows this well and this is her being self-aware and acknowledging that by choosing her, it may stir up the ire of the family. Their inherent toxicity is that terrible danger.
And when that sky rains fire on you And you’re persona non grata I’ll tell you how I’ve been there too And how none of it matters
In Latin, “persona non grata” means “an unacceptable person.” In relation to Ren, what’s being said is that if the hate and criticism of the elders ever wears down on him, she’ll be there. After all, she says herself that no one notices his obvious loneliness and that she’ll carry his pain. It’s the same here. She’s saying that she’s been there. She understands. She’ll have his back just as he has hers.
Wise men once read fake news And they believed it Jackals raised their hackles You couldn’t conceive it You were sleeping soundly When they dragged you from your bed And I tried to warn you about them
The fake news here is rumours. We know the clan talks, as shown by what I believe are Kureno’s parents speaking between themselves about the relationship in chapter 115. In short, people talk.
To make the connection, for context, jackals (wild canines) “raise their hackles” when their hair bristles up in an aggressive position to fend off predators. So, the “wise” men are being compared to angry dogs who think that they’re doing the right thing and fending off the predator (Ren). And though she said in an earlier verse that none of their words matter, there’s also maybe a touch of guilt there for not being able to truly shield him from it all. Because as much as she says they were happy and she would take his pain, she also can’t fully protect him from feeling it.
So I… Crossed my thoughtless heart Spread my wings like a parachute I’m the albatross I swept in at the rescue
The devil that you know Looks more like an angel I’m the life you chose And all this terrible danger
In this last chorus, Ren flips the script. She’s now talking about herself and embracing being the albatross. In this case, “thoughtless” goes back to meaning “not showing consideration for others’ feelings.” Because she doesn’t care about what the family says/thinks/feels. This woman who was seen as the devil by so many has risen in her own kind of power (in her mind) by saving Akira from his loneliness and presumably whatever loveless marriage the family wanted to plan. To him, she’s an angel. Akira chose her.
However, despite their happiness, they still have the overall toxicity of the Sohma clan to contend with. It’s a bittersweet ending. They have each other. They’re happy. But also still part of this awful environment.
(This terrible danger) So cross your thoughtless heart She’s the albatross… She is here to destroy you
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Chapter 147 thoughts!
Ruby not recognizing Kamiki is weird and disappointing tbh. The man looks literally just like Aqua, Akane spotted it at a glance. She’s been acting against Aqua pretending to be this man for months, it feels so contrived that she doesn’t recognize him.
Speaking of contrived, this entire conversation feels so out of no where? No one’s been talking about any of their thoughts this entire arc, but once Ruby steps out with (from her perspective) some stranger, she unloads everything on her mind.
Some of his responses are a bit interesting, I’m curious to learn more about his perspective, and how he feels about his children (especially since the writing keeps baiting the idea of Ruby being a future target) but I can’t get over how forced and out of place this whole scene is.
This isn’t confirmation that he’s attempting on her life to me, solely because I REFUSE to think Kamiki is that dumb. In broad daylight, in public??? On a whim??? If Kamiki is the 5d chess player the story is trying to make him out to be he can’t be doing goofy shit like this.
Oh hey Akane, we thought you were dead.
Seriously I’m glad to see her again, and I’m even more glad that she was actually doing something while in off screen purgatory. I’d like to get more information next chapter on what she’s been up to and what (if fucking anything) she’s managed to learn from her backslide from Private Investigator into stalker.
Also Nino! She was just like… hiding away in the rain during the earlier scene ig, but I’m glad she’s here. If she, Kamiki, and Kaburagi have some evil alliance or whatever I’ll be so thrilled, that’s hilarious.
Confirmation of Aqua’s plan! If this had been said near the beginning of the movie I would’ve said that I called it, but honestly, this contradicts Aqua’s actions this entire arc in my eyes. Aqua goes out of his way in both the writing and acting to portray Kamiki as sympathetically as humanly possible, to the point where even the real world audience of Oshi no ko feels for him. He’s been humanized even more than Ai, who was the one this movie was SUPPOSED to humanize.
And wow, there goes the rest of filming I guess. We ended up not going in order after all, which makes that line about chronological filming only more confusing. There goes the big “forgive or not forgive” moment that had been built up since the beginning of the arc. Whatever.
With the filming arc over, I wanted to give me thoughts on it in specific, at least my current thoughts. Many in the server are planning a reread and I’ll probably do one as well.
First, the good. I think the artwork in this arc has been some of the best in the series, especially during the filming itself. Ruby’s breakdown as Ai and Frill’s performances as Airi are my biggest highlights.
I think there’s a lot of compelling setup in this arc, Nino is a fantastic character and im thrilled that her chapter we got before won’t be the end of her relevance. I also enjoyed meeting Ai’s mother, even if it was briefer than I would’ve liked.
I have two main problems with this arc that I think mostly come down to its structure. While a lot of it was strong setup for later arc things, despite being the longest arc in the series, it hardly had substance of its own. We set up the incest arc, set up Kana getting marketed differently, set up Akane’s big stalker adventure, set up for Aqua’s entire plan, set up for Kamiki’s entire plan.
What did we resolve this arc? Kana’s jealousy? Not really, she just lashed out about it and Ruby said “Nuh uh” and it was done. It feels like we spent all this time doing nothing, in an arc that had so much worthwhile material to cover that it chose to skip instead.
That said, I believe the FILMING is over, but we’ll probably have to do test screenings and marketing and so on. I’m hoping that we’ll be expanding on those skipped scenes and lack of character thoughts on them in the future, but this arc has just been a series of me going “oh they skipped that? That sucks, I hope they do it later” and while I suppose they can with some of those things, I doubt it’ll be getting closure on EVERYTHING I’ve said that about.
Either the next arc will be another really good one, paying off all the setup from this wet blanket of an arc, or it’s the beginning of the end and the conclusions won’t live up to the mysteries that have been dangling in front of us all series.
Regardless of which it is, I plan on sticking it out until the end. I may have to start lowering my expectations I think, I was expecting more from this series than an arc like this. I wouldn’t be so harsh on it if it didn’t have as much potential as it does.
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As much as people want to claim Edelgard is good because she implements meritocracy, marking progress away from feudalism, I think it's worth noting that meritocracy isn't presented in the best light in Romance of the Three Kingdoms, which served as a main inspiration for Houses. For starters, it's the villain Cao Cao whoCa uses it and while it is presented as an alternative to appointing someone based on their family, it's not a magical solution to everything as a major point of the novel is that any system will fall into decline. So, why is it a bad thing?
It comes down to a few points.
1) People serve others not based on their morality, but simply because they'd be rewarded for doing so. Cao Cao's system also works as a recruitment tool, but the novel begins because the morality of the Han dynasty has degraded and now every warlord seeks more and more power for themselves. Cao Cao offers a means to do so despite him being a tyrant, and Zhuge Liang eventually calls out the officials, ministers and generals of Wei for serving such a wicked lord in the name of their own ambitions.
Hell, at a point a servant betrays his lord to Cao Cao and when asked for what he wants by the man himself, he asks for the lord's concubine. Cao Cao has the man executed because he only supported Cao Cao for the reward, not because he wanted to support Cao Cao. Cao Cao fails to realize how many of his staff are doing the exact same thing.
2) Going off of that point, it's promoting ambition in such a manner that ultimately leads to the Cao family being ousted from power. IF you promote ambition, people are going to want to go to the top, replacing their own bosses rather than faithfully serving them. Cao Cao frames himself as merely serving the emperor, but is really turning the emperor into his puppet while amassing power and wealth for himself in Rot3K. In such an environment the leader sets themselves up to be usurped, rivals can sabotage or backstab each other, those with power will use it to keep down without, and without morality to guide them the people will simply emulate this behavior. The system itself promotes immorality which will lead to the breakdown of society, throwing it into chaos which is a bad thing.
The fact Edelgard rejects her duty to look after her people, instead having a belief that such an environment will make people stronger and blaming them if it fails to work, is something unique to her. In a sense, she's worse than Cao Cao.
3) The leader needs to be honest about rewarding merit. Cao Cao often asks his generals if they have a plan for what happens, and when they hit one he likes he claims that he was thinking the exact same thing. Cao Cao takes the credit, he even gets caught plagiarizing old texts, boosting his own image to the point people believe he is so very smart even when his mistakes would say otherwise. Cao Cao is forced to run away… a lot, due to being outsmarted but by halfway through the novel he's threatening to execute any generals who run away because it's bad for moral. This is actually a bit of negative character development on his part, as earlier he was praised for holding himself to the same standards he holds those under him. He doesn't fall to the same level as Dong Zhuo, but there are incidents like when Cao Cao failed to bring adequate rations on a march, sent for more while ordering his clerk to put the army on half-rations, blamed the clerk for the half-rations while framing him from hoarding food when his new order arrived and had him executed.
But, going back to point 2, Cao Cao is ambitious rather than moral.
4) Meritocracy is still a layered power structure where rank is handed out by those in charge, the recipients are expected to serve them. You can still use the titles of nobility in it, as feudalism IS a form of meritocracy. Hell, feudalism means that the superiors have duties and responsibilities to those who serve them, there's a social contract there much like how in Confucianism rulers are expected to treat their position akin to a caring parent looking after their children. This is the basis of Oudou. Instead, the power structure of meritocracy allows those in power to impose their will upon those deemed their subordinates, which goes against Confucianism and falls more into hadou.
In the novel, Cao Cao orders people killed whenever they upset him and needs to be talked out of it by his ministers. In real life, Cao Cao's habit of doing this, including massacres, is why history looked back on him as a villain despite official histories claiming he was the one with the legitimate successor to the Han. But Cao Cao has the power to do so and no one has the power to stop him outside of convincing him it's a bad idea.
5) Looking over these points, it becomes clear that Cao Cao may be at the top… but really isn't worthy of the position. He lacks merit, but convinces people he does have it. And this is in contrast to Liu Bei, who doesn't have as much power but people WANT him to be their leader due to his virtue. Liu Bei makes it known that the likes of Zhuge Liang is the one making up the strategies for his victories…
But his fall from grace starts when he begins abandoning morality because he lacks power while evil men like Cao Cao profit. The Will of Heaven turns on him as a result. In many ways, it's a reflection of the corrupt state of affairs the Han dynasty has fallen into, where men of virtue are ousted by those seeking wealth. Liu Bei even loses his first official position, obtained for his service during the Yellow Turban Rebellion, because he can not pay a bribe. In the end, people in such a world will resort to immoral means. In Liu Bei's case while he always had ambitions they were tempered by morality and his duty to the emperor. Once that was lost, everything he has built goes into decline itself much like the Han resulting in the Sima clan, who served under the Cao family before usurping them, winning.
The loss of virtue, the fact Liu Bei didn't win because he lost the support of Heaven, is meant to be a tragedy. The successor of Cao Cao's Wei, Jin, may have won but it's not meant to be a good thing as the Jin was considered a shitty dynasty. And part of that was Cao Cao's meritocracy, in addition to him going back on the Confucian beliefs the Han promoted to the point he's associated with legalism, which was implemented by the tyrannical Qin dynasty that lasted only 15 years before falling apart due to their tyranny. If anything, Cao Cao's methods resemble a regression of China, much like Edelgard's Japanese line about how she will put the world back to the way it was.
And if you're going to bring up the exams in order to be an official, those exams had a heavy focus on studying Confucian texts. So, they wanted officials to be moral.
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Spoiler for those who haven’t finished season 4 part 3/the last two episodes
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I just finished the last episode and my mind is a hot mess.
I’m probably going to miss some things but here are some of the stuff I have an opinion about:
1. Regarding armin/erwin my thoughts remain unchanged. Despite feeling strongly about it, I gave the series the benefit of the doubt when erwin got killed. I wanted to see if I was wrong. I would’ve been happy about it. In the end armin turned out to be as effective of a commander as a ten year old. The fact of the matter is that he couldn’t do much in the end. He had a number of breakdowns, he wasn’t able to control or utilize the colossal titan as well as bertholdt could in the past, he slipped up that time he was doing a little pep talk with yelena in the background, his biggest plan all along was always to “talk it out first” but that failed too, etc. Eren still did what he wanted and people still died. Except for blowing up the dock and when he tried to sacrifice himself so that falco wouldn’t get eaten by Connie’s mom, I don’t recall any other accomplishments that were of substance in season 4. It’s also possible that I’m just forgetting things because my mind is still racing right now and I’m still going through it emotionally, but for now my thoughts are unchanged. Can you imagine what it would have been like had erwin lived instead?
2. Connecting from the thought above, we can’t change that erwin died, but after finishing the series I can finally conclude that jean should’ve been the next commander. At the very least, he should have been made a vice commander. First of all it’s not impossible that floch survived all of that, but it’s pretty convenient that he did so he could shoot at the fuel tank in order to create a situation where the rumbling would catch up to them. In this situation it was also pretty convenient that Levi had been injured so badly he couldn’t be the one to fight, so as the commander hange decided she had to go, which was apparently a suicide mission because of the temperature around the colossals. I’m going to keep it 100% real here and say the circumstances leading up to this point of armin getting handed the commander’s seat were pretty convenient. Levi whose instincts were so great he managed to remain more or less unscathed for most of the series including when he had to fight kenny, he really didn’t see zeke using the lightning spear coming? And even then he couldn’t dodge it? Despite years of remaining unscathed under different circumstances that were just as if not more horrible? Levi who, along with mikasa, was the first to notice and to react to the replica of the beast titan throwing its shots at them? I just found it a bit hard to believe. And Hange said in the end, “The position calls for a certain quality― a mindset of continuously pursuing understanding”, and I admit armin did have this, but are we really going to ignore what hange also said earlier in the series just so it fits the current narrative? In season 3 when they were arguing about who to give the injection to, hange held mikasa back saying armin was indeed exceptional, but that he lacked the leadership and experience that erwin had. At least from my pov, armin didn’t really change much from the second half of season 1 to season 4. Jean on the other hand, has proven himself numerous times in this regard. He’s a quick thinker, reliable, practical, and passionate - all the qualities of a good leader. No doubt jean isn’t perfect, but imo he’s definitely more suitable. Let’s also not forget jean too has his moments of “pursuing understanding”. There are probably more than I can think of at the moment, but the ones that come to mind immediately are that scene at the end of season 1 which has really stuck with me ever since, when he asked armin if abandoning your humanity was the only way to win, and if eren did become that monster would that really be a victory for humanity, and then that other time when they were in the cell and jean asked mikasa and armin if eren hurting them had some sort of meaning behind it. I wouldn’t say jean is the smartest or the wisest character in the series, but he’s not brainless. Far from it. For some reason, and I’m guessing maybe because he can be short tempered at times, more often than not people don’t really talk about his quick thinking or about the important questions that he’s asked.
3. This is totally unrelated to the series and it’s about naruto so if you’re not into that or if you haven’t seen naruto just skip this part because spoilers.
Before eren’s intentions were made clear I already kind of guessed how it would play out because it’s reminiscent of how itachi wanted sasuke to be the one to kill him so that sasuke would be a hero of the leaf despite being an uchiha. Eren saw the crew as the people most important to him, and for itachi sasuke was even more precious than konoha itself. Eren committed genocide, itachi massacred his entire clan and more. Eren hurt the crew and especially mikasa and armin on purpose, itachi hurt sasuke on purpose. There was of course a huge difference between their executions, and imo itachi played his part much much more skillfully than eren did and for far longer, but it’s an interesting parallel.
4. I found the ending a bit weird. I can kind of roll with it but compared to the majority of the series and how it built itself up up until that point, it honestly feels off. I understand why people thought it was a bad ending, but I also don’t think the author deserved hate for it. And I mean like, there are some really angry people. In most situations, and I’m generalizing here, it’s alright to have opinions and it’s alright to feel a certain way but to direct those feelings towards the author himself is taking it a bit far. It’s his freedom to write whatever. Let’s be happy we even got anything from him. Without the author there would’ve been nothing at all. I know from personal experience it can be overwhelming at times, but it’s going to be ok.
5. I don’t have a particular attachment towards zeke but I felt sorry seeing everything that he had gone through. I’m mentioning this only because I’ve never really talked about it I think. I’ve talked about some of the other characters but not so much about zeke’s past from what I can remember. Grisha and Dina were terrible parents, and him calling Tom ksaver “father” was really sad. I know he’s not the only one and I really don’t even like him all that much but he really had it rough.
6. I felt that the love interests weren��t written very well. I get mikasa cause she’s been obsessed with eren from the start, but we really only started to see eren’s supposed “interest” in her in season 4, and only in glimpses. There really isn’t a lot of material to fall back on. I always felt he saw her as more of a sister? Of course he’s shouted at her before that he wasn’t her little brother or something along that line, but I always felt he just saw her as family. The only thing I can think of from earlier seasons to support this pair is that time when eren first wrapped the scarf around her and he was blushing. I always saw that as more of like, he was kind of embarrassed to do something like that because for him the act was a bit intimate and they weren’t too familiar with each other, but I guess you could also see it as him blushing because he had a small crush on her. On top of this they lived together in the same house and grisha has referred to mikasa as his daughter, so I just found it a bit weird. Obviously they’re not actually siblings but they were kind of raised as brother and sister for some time, so. A bit weird from my perspective. What’s more is the dynamic itself doesn’t seem to be very healthy. But I’m not mad at people who ship them. That kind of romance is definitely possible, and they’re technically not related, so it’s whatever I guess. They were also very young still so in an ideal world I imagine their dynamic might’ve been able to change for the better as they matured. On the other hand armin and Annie I found even weirder. It just felt too sudden. I get that armin ate bertholdt so that could’ve contributed, and I get that Annie literally only had armin and hitch as company most of the time for literal years, but it’s still weird for me. Like good for them but I wish it could’ve been a bit more fleshed out.
7. I’ve said this before but I didn’t appreciate the parallels drawn between Erwin and Armin. They are entirely separate characters with entirely different motives. Connecting to what I said at point 1 armin was never able to “replace” erwin. Of course the same can be said for erwin, he was never going to be another armin. I feel the same way about the parallels drawn between Sasha and gabi. Again two entirely separate characters with entirely different motives. I can appreciate parallels but only if they’re written well. These just felt like forced propaganda.
There’s more but for now I’ll stop here cause this is getting a bit long and I’m really tired
#shingeki no kyojin#armin arlert#Erwin Smith#yelena#eren jaeger#connie springer#jean kirschtein#floch forster#levi ackerman#hange zoe#zeke jaeger#mikasa ackerman#grisha jaeger#dina fritz#tom ksaver#annie leonhart#sasha braus#gabi braun#bertholdt hoover
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3 Years Too Late
Ao3: Link
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All four of the Spartio members stood in silence after hearing the shaman speak. They stared at her like deers in the headlights as the room buzzed with her electricity.
“Thunder honey-“ Kim tried to say before the shaman sharply cut her off
“Don’t honey me!” Thunder growled, “that man just now was Kilik wasn’t it?”
The group went silent once more. With Thunder so railed up they wanted to avoid her having a melt down. They all tried to formulate what they should say, that is except for Harver. Before any of the others could speak, the lightning spear stood up and walked over to Thunder, standing between her and the rest of the twins’ guardians. “Yes it was.” He said in a matter of fact tone.
One could almost hear the shock from the rest of the team after he said that. But none of them made a sound or any sudden movement, least they’d have to deal with Thunder losing the mother of all lightning bolts in their direction.
“Then why did you let him leave?” She growled, the buzzing getting louder, “why didn’t you tell me?”
“We were ordered to and to keep you two in the dark for now,” Harvar replied flatly, as if unafraid of the possibility of getting electrocuted, “he had actually been given orders to not make contact for now. Him meeting Fire, meeting us was an accident.”
“An accident?! He played dead for three fucking years and just popped back up out of nowhere on the anivarsary of his death was an accident?” She asked, growing more visibly aggravated. At this point you wouldn’t need any tools to feel the charge growing in the room. “The asshole sent Fire into a mental breakdown because of it and all he fucking does is run away?”
“It’s complicated,” Harver said.
“What’s there to be complicated?!” Thunder responded, “the prick obviously wants to comeback into our lives again as is he never fucking left. Like the deadbeat he is.”
“Thunder it’s no-“ Jackie tried to interject but got quickly silenced by a bolt of electricity hitting the ceiling having arched out of the girl's body.
“How long have you all known?” She asked her teeth clenched. She would never admit it but it was obvious to Harver that tears had started welling up in her eyes. From how Harver was standing the other guardians couldn’t see this.
Harver couldn’t blame her, this must’ve felt like a betrayal to her and her brother, keeping them in the dark about all this. Truth be told the only reason they didn’t fight to have them there was out of sheer shock of the situation.
“Just a few moments ago, when we saw him trying to bring Fire here. Fire had lashed out at him and overused his energy.” Harver continued to reply in his characteristically straightforward tone. “and Kidd only really confirmed it was him earlier today. This was a surprise to all of us.”
“A surprise to all of you? you expect me to believe that?” Thunder asked, almost laughing as she said that raising an arm up to Harver.
“I have no reason to lie?” Harver said, raising her arms, “go on, if it’ll make you feel better.”
The buzzing grew louder, sounding as if Thunder was actually thinking of losing a bolt at the older weapon.
“Thunder don’t do this!” Ox shouted only to be stopped by the lighting spear raising his hand.
Harver stood unmoving even as the other three started to grow worried his expression was as solid as a rock.
“Rrrrraaa!” The girl screamed as she whipped her arm down and instead sent the bolt down into the ground leaving a brand new black scorch mark on the concrete floor. She knew they weren’t to blame for all this, they were as shocked about Kilik’s return as she was.
“So what now? He’s just going to hide away from us?” Thunder asked, her tears starting to fall, “and we’re just supposed to pretend we don’t know? Pretend that he’s still dead?”
“We don’t really have a plan honestly.” Harver said, his tone growing slightly softer. He’d step closer to the lightning shaman and gently hugged her, holding her close to let her shed her tears in private. With his habit of putting on a cold front he knew better than the shamans’ other guardians what it’s like to try to bury one’s emotions. A habit he thought he had passed on to Thunder.
Be it out of tiredness from what has happened today or genuine emotion, it was an offer she did not refuse. The shaman would rest her forehead against Harver’s chest.
Why is all this happening now? The lightning shaman thought to herself. She was just so confused, unsure about what she’s actually feeling and what she should do now.
“Kidd is trying to figure out what actually happened to him,” Harver explained, “ And figure out a way to properly break the news to everyone. But if you wish to confront Kilik yourself, Kidd should know where he is currently being housed. You can ask Kidd and We can see him tomorrow.”
“Wait Harver you sure about that-“ Ox tried to interject.
“She deserves to know if she wants to,” the lightning spear responded in a kert tone, “She and her brother, among all of us deserves the chance to confront him and get answers for the last three years. Be it a good reason or know, they deserve to know why he abandoned them.”
The other three guardians just stood in silence. They couldn’t deny that Harver was right. Though they still think things would end badly, the twins did deserve to get an explanation out of their adoptive father.
The lightning spear would take a breath and turn back to the younger weapon. He’d gently pat her head. “Remember, we’re here for you Sparky,” he said, “and we aren’t going anywhere.”
Thunder would nod. Her mind raced too fast for her to formulate a proper response. She quickly rubbed the tears from her eyes.
“Either way, it’s late, we all should have a rest, including you,” Harver said, taking a step back from the shaman, “resonating with your brother could not have been easy. I’m proud you were able to do it.”
“You can sleep in Kim and my room for tonight,” Jackie said, “we’ll be taking turns in monitoring Fire’s condition. We’ll call Stein and Marie over tomorrow to give him a proper check up.”
“Thanks Aunt Jackie but if it’s all the same to you, I prefer the couch.” Thunder said her tone softer now, a hint of remorse in her tone but an unmissable fragility to it. She really didn’t know what to do now. It fells at if a stray breeze would set her off into another melt down. But she knew she couldn’t let herself do that she knew her outburst earlier put the four of her guardians on edge. Thankfully their apartment had been reinforced to handle their meltdowns. But still, it isn’t a fun experience having to either fight a wild fire or lightning storm in the confines of an apartment.
“If that’s what you want dear.” Kim nodded respecting the shaman’s wishes. The witch would go over to her and give her a gentle kiss on the forehead before heading back to the Twins’ room in an almost automatic movment. Thunder could tell somthing was on the witches mind, something was bothering her.
Jackie on the other hand went to get some blankets while Thunder went to get the couch ready for her to sleep on.
Everyone stayed rather quiet and to themselves. Much like Thunder none of them really knew what to do other than watching over the twins. After all that’s happened it would be a surprise if any of them continued to act like they’re usual selves. What does one do when finding out a long dead friend has miraculously come back to life?
Once everyone settled down Thunder flopped onto the couch, laid down and facing the ceiling. Taking a long slow breath as she felt herself sink into the cushion of the couch. Staring at the ceiling, she tried to figure out what she had to do next. Even if she did go after Kilik, what is she going to say to him? Was she gonna attack him? Punish him for making them suffer for the past 3 years. Take revenge on what he had caused to Fire.
She had only caught a glimpse of the man as he left, but she could tell something was different about him. To top that off there was something bothering Kim as well.
With a sigh she pulled the blanket over her head and closed her eyes. She wouldn’t admit it to her guardians but she had started getting dizzy. From resonating with her brother then her outburst earlier, the barely had energy to think of what she’d need to do tomorrow. But what she knew for certain was that she wasn’t gonna let Kilik get away again.
#kilik rung#kilikrungpotmeister#soul eater#3 years too late#soul eater fanfiction#souleater#my fic#three years too late#sorry this is late
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Do the Loop de Loop
For our next bit of madness we have a recipe for a dark comedy or whump with a happy ending, depending on one's individual tastes.
Our main ingredient is a time loop, specifically where Anakin Skywalker loops from the moment Padme dies in childbirth back to the moments before Order 66 goes out. Now one could assume that the way to break the loop would be to save Padme, but one would be wrong.
The way to break the loop is to get Cody and Obi Wan to admit their feelings for each other.
Now it starts pretty dark, a little bleak with hints of bitterness and a touch of char. Frankly I bet Anakin wouldn’t actually realize he is looping for a number of loops. He just thinks he is throwing himself back in time in the Force to Save Padme and it fails each time, never noticing that no matter when Padme dies he still is sent back from the exact same point (what would have been the moment that she died in childbirth the first time around). Then one loop, frustrated and angry at his failures, Anakin just full on decapitates Palpatine. This is the first time that Padme lives all the way to the end of the loop. It is also the first time that Anakin realizes that he might not be the one causing the time travel.
Now Anakin Skywalker has the delusion of subtlety (as in he believes he is subtle and a good actor. He is not), is easily manipulated by the people he cares about, and is stubborn as a bantha when he gets an idea into his head. He is not, actually stupid, or unobservant when it he is interested in something (and he is very interested in keeping Padme alive). Here are some patterns that Anakin learned during his first 500 time loops:
If both of his Masters (Obi Wan and Sidious) live, then Padme will die 92% of the time but she will almost always live until near the end of the loop.
If Sidious lives and Obi Wan dies, Padme will die 98% of the time. Often by Anakin’s hand in a fit of temper.
If both of his Masters (Obi Wan and Sidious) die, Padme will die 60% of the time and though he does not know the correlation, Obi Wan’s death has some effect on how Padme goes (the earlier Obi Wan dies, the earlier Padme does as well and if Anakin kills him, he almost always ends up killing Padme as well).
If Obi Wan lives and Sidious dies, Padme dies only 15% of the time and those times tend to be when Anakin falls to the dark or murders the younglings first.
Eventually, and it takes a very long time, Anakin realizes that his men are not acting right. Another dozen or so loops and he learns about Order 66 and the chips. As he keeps looping to moments before the order is activated, he cannot stop it from going live. It takes time, many time loops for him to learn how the chips work and the orders. He also learns that he can give the Orders. Once he does, he tries to stop Order 66.
For a number of loops he tries deactivating the Order as soon as he can. More often than not he succeeds but finds that a large portion of the troopers, realizing that they either shot or were about to kill their Jedi, take their own life. It takes multiple loops for Anakin to figure out the Order to get the troops to stand down, without releasing them from the chip's control. Towards the end of the loop he has it down to a science, and knows the timing so well that nearly no Jedi or troopers die.
The turning point for this set of loops (stand down instead of release) comes during a loop where Anakin kills Palpatine and immediately contacts Cody to free the troopers. It is too late to prevent them from shooting Obi Wan off a cliff, and as soon as Cody realized what he had done he shot himself in the head. The breakdown that Obi Wan had when he got back in contact, after returning to Coruscant, when he found out what had happened was the first inclink that Anakin had of how deep the connection between the two ran.
Now by the time he is making sure to save the Jedi, Anakin is no longer in danger of falling to the Dark. This is almost solely due to a set of loops (equaling literal years worth of time) where Anakin sought out the best therapist he could find, ignoring everything else. This set was preceded by no less than 6 straight loops where he lost his temper and killed his wife. At the end of those six loops he screamed at the top of his lungs that he just wanted to stop killing his wife, a random being looked at him funny and told him ‘it sounds like you need therapy’ and he latched onto that with a zeal. Early in this set of loops he asks the therapist, the receptionist, and the patient with the therapist each for something he could tell them so they wouldn’t argue with his declaration that he is trapped in a time loop, and that he needs help. While very strange from the point of view of the Therapist, the receptionist, and the patient, Anakin is actually able to explore his issues (Six months later the patient meets Anakin, Ahsoka, and Obi Wan by chance. The being blinks at them and says, apropo of nothing, that they feel as if they know way too much about the three of them but have no idea how or why. Anakin is a bit embarrassed, but takes the time to explain as he had grown relatively close to the patient, the therapist and the receptionist during his time getting stable).
After all these sets of loops he finally starts trying to figure out how to stop the loop. He starts asking for advice from some very confused and often very random people about things that could stop a time loop (Most would have said that a time loop was a work of fiction). At one point he even discusses it with Palpatine, but says that since Palpatine’s death greatly improves Padme’s survival it seems cruel to ask him for advice (After his therapy loops Anakin decides that he is not going to waste time on hating Palpatine). He talks to the still living Jedi Council members on Coruscant no less than 6 times to varying degrees of exasperation to all those involved. He starts just solving problems (like Palptine being alive and Order 66) and “Problems” (the two senators two floors downs from the Chancellor were not actually fighting, it was foreplay, so having the ‘Man with no Fear’ burst in and try to hold an intervention or a mediation was not helpful…or wanted) at random, hoping to stumble on the magic action that would stop the loops.
It should be noted that each loop after Anakin realized how, was started by killing Palpatine and stopping Order 66. Unless it was to test an action that required one or both of those events.
In one of the last few loops he speaks with Cody, who looks at him and asks in a voice so deadpan that it was practically an emotion on its own, “Have you tried consulting the Force?” before he went back to hovering protectively over Obi Wan.
Anakin never knew if Cody was trying to kriff with him or not. It is, however, an idea.
Anakin spends the next loop trying to commune with the force, two loops after that trying to remember enough of what Obi Wan taught him about meditating to commune with the Force. Then four loops after that, having Obi Wan teach him the basics about meditating again.
Finally he manages to commune with the Force, which is giggling. Though he had no way of knowing it had been getting steadily lighter with Anakin. He is treated to a series of impressions in which it becomes abundantly clear just how much pining both Obi Wan and Cody are leaking into the Force.
The first loop that he tries to get the two of them to admit their feelings (apparently telling them both that it was the will of the Force that they kriff was a very bad idea, poor phrasing all around) fails so badly that Anakin has to take the two subsequent loops off AND Cody continues to look askance at him for three loops after, in spite of not remembering. It does show Anakin that Obi Wan is capable of falling to the dark side, and that Evil Obi Wan is utterly terrifying. Also, it turns out that Obi Wan serves as the moral compass for all of the Clones, roughly a quarter of the Jedi, and what seems to be a tenth of the galaxy. It ends in a frankly terrifying role reversal where Anakin is shot by Cody, but only after Anakin removes Obi Wan’s head from his shoulders after tracking them to Mustafar.
Anakin would like it known that while killing Palpatine has been very therapeutic, killing Obi Wan was not, in spite of how the first loop so long ago ended.
It takes three more failure loops, thankfully none as catastrophic as the first, before Anakin hits on the idea to do some actual reconnaissance. By this point he knows exactly what to say to just about everyone he can reach during the loop to make them believe that he is in a time loop. He does not always let on but it does simplify things when he needs to explain quickly (Anakin was surprised to learn that something like 80% of the Jedi have a codeword for ‘the person stating this codeword is trapped in a time loop’. He is starting to think that his missions were not as unusual as he thought). He spends a number of loops with Obi Wan and Cody individually then a number of loops with the two of them together to figure out why they are so heavily in denial (Many reasons, both logical and not) and how to break them of that denial without sending Obi Wan into another breakdown.
He does try once and only once to replicate that first try, sending Obi Wan to the Dark to see if that is legitimately how they would admit to their feelings. Anakin makes it almost to the end of the loop before he kills Cody himself before Obi Wan can admit to anything and make this the end of the loops. The death toll was too high.
At last, after countless loops, Anakin finally finds the right sequence of events to get the Codywan confession. This includes, but is not limited to: Killing Palpatine, Stopping Order 66 by ordering a stand down (the timing is tight on this one but Anakin has gotten it down to an art form and no Jedi are lost to Order 66), using an Order he found where the clones will repeat a specified message (“We are currently being controlled by an inhibitor chip in our brains, an order was sent out to kill all the Jedi but was stopped by a stand down Order issued by Anakin Skywalker. I have no other information at this time.”), Confessing to his marriage and near future children (in a few of the loops Padme went into labor earlier, so he knows that it is twins) to the Jedi Council(the relationship is not a surprise, nor is the pregnancy, the legal marriage moreso), Confessing to the Tusken Massacre and agreeing to heavy duty therapy and reparations, getting a clone rights bill pushed through unnaturally fast (the two senators from earlier controlled a good chunk of the senate through bribery, did not want anyone to know about their midafternoon tryst, and were wanted Anakin to go away), talking to Cody and Obi Wan individually and the finally together about their concerns.
It ends with both Anakin and Obi Wan choosing to leave the Jedi Order eventually.
Anakin finds that the poison that Palpatine had been so careful to feed him regarding the Jedi Order as a whole is just a hair too pervasive for him to be comfortable there again. Even knowing that it is all false does not prevent him from automatically believing the worst of any rules that the Jedi Order has, no matter how reasonable. He finds that it is not healthy for him or the Jedi Order. He finishes his reparations for the Tusken Massacre and leaves the Order when the Twins are almost five.
For Obi Wan he is…so tired. To him it feels like he has gone nonstop since he was a kid. He also has a slightly skewed view of what it means to be Jedi, some of which came from Qui Gon Jinn, some came from being bonded to Anakin as he was being poisoned against the Order by Palpatine. He still believes in the Jedi way and the Code, but truly feels he is no longer capable of being a ‘good’ Jedi. Like with Anakin it is not an immediate process. Obi Wan is still driven by his responsibilities. He makes sure that the clones are situated, as safe and happy as they could be, he helps to find a replacement for himself and the counselors that died fighting Palpatine. He makes plans for after leaving, and he has a series of panic attacks when some of the Jedi counselors suggest reforming the Order and the Code to make him more comfortable in staying (There was something fundamentally wrong to Obi Wan about the Order changing to keep one being, no matter who it is. If the Order was to change it should do so for the betterment of the Order as a whole). Finally, three years after the war ends, Obi Wan formally leaves the Jedi Order. He has obtained permission for himself, Cody, and a dozen clones from what had been the 212th to visit and study old Force Sect ruins and temples, both of the light and the dark.
The sleep cycle after their departure from Coruscant, curled up with Cody, is the first time in over a decade that he has been able to completely relax.
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Analyst(hopeful) asked:
Hey a while back somewhere around chapter 20 you said you were a bit over halfway done. Where are you now by comparison? I also believe you said that you have more plot points to hit rather than a chapter count, so unfortunately you likely don’t have a chapter count for how much is left. Oh well for anticipation purposes. Don’t worry I’m pretty sure I am guilty of the same thing regarding chapter count.
Also I have a writing question. I ask this to most other writers because it makes me want to pull my hair out and I am always trying to improve especially if I want to actually publish something one day fan-fiction or otherwise. How do you prefer to plot?
I do have a question about your ideas about piglin fire tolerance in regards to Bloodboon. I’ve seen most writers chose the route of they still burn and some elaborate a bit more and chose the they still burn it just takes a bit longer than a human and their skin is a bit thicker. I prefer the second option because it makes sense.
I am currently less overwhelmed by questions right now. I am more overwhelmed by the amount of whump you are throwing Technoblade’s way. It hurts. Like all of his subconscious knowledge and conscious knowledge that he can’t make Philza happy and can’t keep the only friend he’s ever had because it is totally not a fair relationship coming to the front of his mind all the time and making him absolutely miserable. That water comparison of yours in the last chapter to tie strings so we could see his line and course of thinking was amazing. I hope it ends happily.
Also update on my au that I keep running into plot issues which I fixed but… Apparently after some research …I think like someone with more minecraft background than I actually have and I’m actually a little disappointed. Nothing new under the sun I guess or I’ve already read too much minecraft fan fiction, specifically emduo.
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The fic is at the end of the middle, I’d say. Techno and Philza still have one more Event until their friendship meter is maxed out. I suspect the whole fic will come to be just shy of 40 chapters.
Uhhh I don’t like, actively plot? It just sorta happens? When I have an idea, it usually kicks off as a premise, then Events come up, and then I think of connective tissue between the Events. And once it all has stewed in my brain for long enough, I put it down as a bullet point list, then move the bullets around so that Events with causality relations are in chronological order (eg. the scene at the flight range can’t happen before Philza’s feathers grow back), and then move the floater Events (eg. Philza interacting with a pigling child can happen whenever) so that the pacing becomes nice. I try to alter between chill and intense bits, to give the story the chance to breathe. Too much chill is dull and too much intense is exhausting, you gotta go back and forth. And also sometimes things Just Happen, Philza’s breakdown in Ch 11 was completely unplanned, it just Became. And then sometimes you need 500 more words to get acceptable posting length so whelp time for Techno to wax philosophical about bread or whatever.
Also I Can Not write non-chronologically. Scenes are written in the order in which they happen, unless there comes a realisation after the fact that Something needed to happen earlier. I’m pretty sure most people hop around instead of going strictly in order? But that does not agree with the shape of my brain.
I think piglins having higher fire tolerance than humans makes sense. If you live in a hellpit, you adapt or you die.
Yeah Techno’s not having a good time lately huh? Guess stealing a person does not have great long-term results! /j
Not sure what to say to your last point, but in any case, would be stoked to give your AU a read come time of posting!
-Anchestor
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