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i want it to be wednesday already.. i wanna relax in the hot springs right now...
#havent had a break from life in almost a year#it's just been thing after thing after thing#so having like 20 hours of relaxation and good food will be so nice#getting an overnight stay at an onsen is probably the best present i couldve gotten#maybe u think that it wouldve been better to take the money for food and rent#but i disagree. if you have the chance to get away from all the stress even for just a few hours#i think thats worth it even if i have to buy less food#in my ideal world i wouldnt have to make that choice obviously#anyway im just babbling bc part of me feels guilt for not using the money ''correctly''#but a bigger part of me says i made the right choice#txt
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Recognizing Early Signs of Mental Illness
#fe3h#dimitri alexandre blaiddyd#thats all it gets tagged as. if you see it then you were meant to see it.#txt post#side note while im in the tags no one looks at#im not too big a fan of the way people call his untreated psychosis as him being feral#its not a ground breaking take with the last 5 years of the game existing but ive only beem into fe3h for a year and its my blog#so I get to talk about it#like yes I understand its because he's likened to a Feral Boar charging ahead with destruction in its path and no brains etc etc#whatever felix said#but the way fans take that and really focus on calling an unhoused man with unresolved childhood ptsd haunting him for life feral?#the way fans take that and call a guy whos psychotic breakdown went untreated for 5 years feral?#REALLY doesnt sit well with me#idk im not the sort to be like âhe didnt mean to murder this isnt him đĽşâ because he did do that. a lot of that.#But people do things they dont want to do all the time when given the right mental state for it#Do you see people on the streets talking to themselves and shouting at the air and call them feral?#the ones you can smell from 6 feet away? the ones who have a crust on their hands and hair stiff from not having access to a proper shower?#the ones that havent had access to help or medication? Do you call them feral? Do you extend a hand or even look in their direction?#I'm rambling by this point. tldr mental health awareness and be kind to one another#and also to be careful and use your best judgement when helping because I stopped for an older woman asking for help#and she almost stabbed me in an empty parking lot#not my brightest moment
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I really want that cat mug
#the ears would probably break easily tho if its not plastic#anyways#why is mother of the year so good?#i was not expecting these vibes from a choices story#its cute and i love my fictional daughter#it feels almost slice of life-ish#the music really helps with that aspect#THE MUSIC#do u know how happy i am to hear different music from this app#and on top of that they are utilizing silence in the book#this is so important#music doesnt always need to be playing#i think they should do this more#i havent been leaning to heavily on the romance options but#when thomas and the mc were goofing around with that towel#i felt like i had to pick the 'lean in' option#the setup was too good!#not choices making my heart actually flutter bye#playchoices#mother of the year
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Solar Return Observations #2đťđ
đźđJust an update so far, I have a 5th house stellium in my chart this year and life has felt so carefree. Life made me get rid of my old crush and made me focus on myself for a while(Pluto) until just friday I met someone new unexpectedly(Vertex). I havent felt this feeling in almost 3 years its really exhilarating feeling like this and I actually have a good feeling about it. It felt like I was meant to cross paths with him at this point in my life right now because im actually focused on my higher self. I feel that Vertex along with other major planets like the Sun, Mars, Mercury, Pluto, and POF made meeting him feel fated because for one ever since Ive met him ive consequently crossed paths with him multiple times in just the span of 3 days. Its not a deep connection however(5th house) but I hope to beat the odds and make something out of it. So overall, Ive had lots of fun, peace, and new interests in love.
đźđSo I recently just discovered this, but you can go and find your monthly/daily transit chart and overlap it to your natal or solar return chart to see how your school, career, family, or love life will be. I was wondering why was it that I never got the opportunity to meet someone in matters of romance but i did multiple times in friendships and then I saw that in my transit charts I never had Venus in the 7th house until last month. Venus had always been in like the 11th, the 10th, or the 3rd and school and friends was what was constant in my life. Sometimes even having Venus in the 8th can mean a change in your love life. I even looked all the way through 2022 and 2023 and all 12 months there was not one placement of Venus/Mars/Moon in the 5th or 7th until my transit chart of Febuary 29. Venus conjuncted Mars in the 8th and what happened? I saw the new guy who was exactly my type and I found interest in him. My next transit will be March 30 with Venus, Saturn, and Neptune in the 7th, and Mars conjunct the descendant. Im hoping that things will go well and I can get the courage to talk to him but we'll seeee.
đźđHaving Jupiter in the 1st just means your whole year will be filled with luck youll just have things fall right into your hands.
đźđUranus in the 9th house is lowkey feeling lost on what path you should take regarding school or just feeling disconnected from school in general. I have this right now and ive been having trouble locking in on my school work and i dont know how i want to plan my schedule for next year. Im just going with the flow atp.
đźđVenus in the 4th house means your family will spoil you and make you feel loved.
đźđOk so im not really liking the attention ive been getting from having Lilith exactly conjunct the Ascendant. It feels like every where i go theres been men staring at me creepily and theres this guy on the track team who keeps touching me and crossing my boundries and personal space and it makes me so uncomfortable. Its so grimy and I hate it.
đźđLook at the dominant planet and see what house it falls in. Last year i had a dominant planet of moon and it fell in the 12th house conjunct mars. All imma say is that last year was one of the worse but strengthening years for me mentally.
đźđVenus in the 9th house means youâll probably get a chance to travel. I had it in the 4th degree and i went to California from Texas because of a wedding on my moms side.
đźđIve noticed that Vertex in the 5th doesnt always necessarily mean youll meet someone, it just means that youll get a lot of opportunities to go out and have fun.
đźđSaturn in the 6th/10th means standing on business.
đźđChiron in the 5th may be a year where you feel burnt out. Make sure to take a break.
đźđMoon in libra will beautify a relationship depending on whatever house its in. Ex- first house: your appearance, 3rd: your relationship with siblings, 5th house: with your romantic partners or your inner self. It could also mean you feel romantic this year and could even have more opportunities given to you to express those feelings.
đźđ7th house Neptune means having dreamy fantasies about people you wanna date. Could have your head in the clouds or you can just have high hopes regarding this area. Could be spiritually calming regarding partnerships but you can be manipulated and gaslighted too if your not careful.
đźđVenus in the 10th means being called beautiful all the time during that year. So many strangers used to stop me in the hallways to tell me I was pretty that year.
đźđChiron and Neptune in the 1st means not being able to see your beauty.
đźđVenus or Jupiter in the 2nd means splurging on skincare, makeup, and clothes.
đźđHaving Chiron in the 4th is not fun lol. Could mean family problems, struggling to feel at home when youre at home, and having trouble having a safe space.
đźđLeo Ascendant years will make you feel popular.
đźđVenus in the 6th could make you follow health, beauty, and workout routines or it could oppositely make you feel lazy and not wanna do anything. It also means feeling comfortable at work or find a interest at work.
đźđIn 2020 when covid hit I had Saturn in the 5th house and it makes so much sense looking back. We were forced to be isolated and I couldnt go out because of the lockdown. Dont get me wrong though I still had alot of fun with my family but I feel like my middle school experience wouldve been alot different if that hadnt happened.
đźđHaving a Cancer Ascendant back in 2015 was when my older cousin got married and that was a big event for our family that girl spent almost a 100k on her wedding. She was the first to get married out of the kids in the family. Even having Cancer degrees in the chart will mean change or some significant event in your family life.
Thats all for today hope yall enjoyed:)
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purple haze // charles leclerc
summary: writing a novel is a long an arduous process. luckily for y/n, she has a very supportive partner in crime, and when it all works out, he's the only person she would want by her side.
pairing: charles leclerc x author reader
warnings: alcohol consumption, talk of deadlines, book referenced is a good girls guide to murder by holly jackson. gets a lil steamy towards the middle but nothing comes of it. still not sure how i feel about this one, but i havent written for charles in forever and i got an idea i really liked but i don't know if it worked out when i put it on paper.
by the time y/n closed her laptop, she felt like her fingers were going to fall off. she leaned back in her desk chair, gutted to find that the monaco cityscape outside her living room window was now pitch black, as might had fallen on the city.
her first book had been a red-wine and oasis fuelled fever dream, the last three chapters being written to âdonât look back in angerâ. and now, the final edits were done.
âIâm so proud of you, mon tresor.â charles gushed, bringing her another glass of wine.
âthe last three years are finally paying off. a good girls guide to murder is done, and the world is ready to meet pippa and ravi.â she grinned, clinking her glass against her boyfriends.
she had poured three years of her life into that book, and Charles had been by her side for all of it. through numerous rejections, edits and late night idea-vomit, nobody was prouder than charles was so see it work out for her.
and now he knew she needed a break.
taking her hand in his, he gently dragged her out of the desk chair and towards the couch, placing their wineglasses on the coffee table as he urged y/n to sit on the ground between his legs.
his hands were warm as he began to massage her shoulders, attempting to release the tension caused by the last round of edits, which she had worked on almost from sunup to sundown.
âthereâs still so much to do.â she whined, tilting her head back to look up at her lover. ânow thereâs arcs and extra promotions and finding advance reviewers and-â
charles cut her off with a kiss. ânone of that right now. right now, you and me are going to finish this bottle of wine and watch something pointless on tv.â
smiling to herself, y/n got up from the floor and moved to the leather couch, slipping seamlessly into charles' lap and nestling against his chest. his body was warm, and his sweater soft. even if his cologne was a little bit too strong, he made her feel safe. treasured.
"that sounds perfect." she hummed, gently turning his face so she could kiss him. "thank you for supporting me."
"always, my love." charles smiled before kissing her again.
SIX MONTHS LATER
it was half past five in the morning when the phone rang. charles could sleep through just about anything, but it was the vibrations of the phone against her side table that woke y/n.
she looked over at her sleeping lover, pressing a gentle kiss to the smooth skin on his shoulder blades before slipping out of bed and creeping into the hallway to answer a call from her agent, cecelia.
"cece, its five in the morning. couldn't this have waited?"
ceclia cleared her throat. "i've just heard from the american office. the preliminary numbers for the new york times list are in."
"fuck. how did we do?" she closed her eyes, holding up her crossed fingers and praying to every god she wasn't sure she believed in.
and when cecelia spoke again, she almost dropped her phone.
"okay. thank you for letting me know, cece."
she slipped back into the bedroom, bare, dry feet sinking into the plush carpet at the end of the bed before she sat down at the end of the bed, gripping the phone so tightly that her knuckles had gone white.
"mon amour." charles rasped, exhaustion in his voice as he rolled over onto his back. "what's wrong?"
"i just got a call from cecelia." she started, trying not to let her emotions show through. "she's just been on the phone with our american agent with the new york times numbers."
charles sat up, one of his warm hands going to rest on her thigh. "and?' he asked hesitantly, his piercing eyes meeting her uncertain ones in the dark.
"i made the top ten." she shouted, grin spreading all across her features.
making the new york times list had made everything worth it. all the sleepless nights when she had woken up with an idea she was scared to lose, all the rewrites, the weeks of writers block. the rejections, the aggravation, the insecurity.
this was it.
she had done it.
"i'm so proud of you." charles beamed, folding her into a hug. "i knew you could do it, my brilliant girl."
she dropped her phone on the bed, red-faced and giggly as she kissed him, allowing her hands to wander across his toned chest. "wanna show me just how much?"
THREE YEARS LATER
the theater was almost silent when the lights came up, the end credits of the final episode fading out on the screen. she held her breath, fingers gripping charles' hand so tightly that she thought she might break the fragile bones in her husband's fingers.
oh, yeah. they had gotten married about a year after her book had come out, while she was in the middle of writing as good as dead, the conclusion to the series.
since a good girls guide to murder had come out, her life had changed for the better. she felt more secure in herself and her talent, and the words had never come easier when she started writing the sequel, eager ton continue the story. she had since written two more books to complete the trilogy, as well as two standalone novels: five survive and the reappearance of rachel price. around the time that rachel price was announced, she had gotten another call from cecelia, asking if she and charles could come to london and meet with representatives from the bbc.
they wanted to turn her first book into a tv series.
she had been hands on from the beginning, throwing herself into her work and doing her best to make sure that the version of the story the readers saw on screen was the version that she had visualized when she'd first explained the storyboard to charles, the driver helping her connect everything on their living room wall with red yarn.
and now was the time. the time to see if it had all paid off. the theater was filled with minor celebrities, influencers, and the tiktokers who had made her book blow up in popularity.
it all came down this night.
"it's okay. whatever happens, you know you did your best." charles whispered in her ear, running one hand up and down her bare back. underneath the flimsy straps of her red dress.
she closed her eyes, taking a deep breath when the roar off applause began to drown her.
she rode the rush of emotions, allowing the tears of gratification and relief to ruin her mascara as she let her body go slack, resting against charles as she watched the room rise in a standing ovation for pippa and ravi.
"we did it. we made it, charles." she laughed, tilting her head up to kiss him.
"no, cherie. you did this. they're all here for you."
she watched as the event's host, a former spice girl that charles knew through his paddock connections, stepped out into the middle of the small stage set up at the front of the theater.
"and now, the moment i'm sure you've all been waiting for, a few words from y/n /y/l/n-leclerc!"
she wiped her eyes and fixed her hair, taking a deep breath before she walked across the stage, taking the microphone from geri halliwell, and turning to face the crowd.
in the front row, there was charles. her one true love. her biggest supporter.
and in that moment, she truly allowed herself to believe that she had made it.
#charles leclerc x reader#formula one x reader#f1 iagine#f1 x reader#f1 one shot#charles leclerc imagine#charles leclerc x you#Spotify
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youve probably answered this question before, but just how did you do it? im at about 120 now (but very short), i can only dream of reaching 200. Whats the secret (is there one?)
I don't think there is much of a secret, I can't tell you any new hack for gaining that you've never heard before. But I'll gladly share how I did it :)
I started at 120lbs too, which was a bit underweight on my 5'8" frame đ
I didnt only gain for the kink, but because I felt genuinely unhappy in my body and I wanted to change it. Here's a rough outline of the pace of my gains:
Sept 2022: 120lbs
Jan 2023: 155lbs
June 2023: 180lbs (plateau until October)
Jan 2024: 200lbs (starting this blog shortly after turning 18)
September 2024: 220lbs (I havent stepped on a scale this month, but I know I hit 220 lol. also yay, 2 years of gaining đĽł)
From Sept 2022 to Jan 2023 was probably the most work I've put into gaining, since i had to rewire the metabolism that had kept me skinny all my life. I don't believe in tricks and hacks in fattening up (not that I could get much for myself, I was 16 and couldn't drive) so I did it the old fashioned way. I altered my meal schedule in this sort of way:
7am Breakfast
NEW 10am Brunch snacks (often a Peanut Butter Smoothie)
12pm Lunch snacks
NEW 3pm actual Lunch (usually followed by a food coma)
6pm Dinner
NEW 9pm 2nd Dinner
I probably wasn't hitting all of these meal times every day, but adding more opportunities for me to get my hands on food throughout the day meant i was almost always thinking of my next meal đ
Besides just eating more often, another area I worked on was eating more at each meal. I would push myself to go back for seconds, or to pair more with whatever I ate at each meal. I adopted a "what could I add" mentality, where I would never eat one thing alone. My favorite example was for breakfast: before, I'd eat a breakfast sandwich, which is a respectable small meal at ~400 calories. When I was in my "gaining prime," I would add a second sandwich, and put tater tots in the air fryer, adding up to 1000+ calories for just a little more work.
While I know this won't be the glamorous answer many people hope for, it's good honest work with results hard to ignore. After you force yourself to overeat for long enough, it becomes impossible to go back to the small and infrequent meals of before â your own appetite is enough to keep up your gaining momentum đ¤
From Sept 2022 to Jan 2023 was when I was working my gut hard to adhere to the schedules, but I loosened up once I upsized my wardrobe a second time and could feel the softness creeping in. My gainer's appetite kept me cruizing until June, gaining an average of 6lbs a month (đĽľ) when I started work (at a Frozen Custard shop, no less) which kept me on my feet late at night and made me plateau.
It wasn't until October that I would start pushing myself again, on one Very Horny week where I had the house to myself. I binged every single day, including my first experience drinking melted ice cream (cut with Heavy Cream) đľâđŤ which led into a plateau break as I gained 20lbs in 3 months once again.
2024, despite me making this blog, has been predominantly a cruising year. I started at 200lbs, bigger than I had ever expected to get when I first started, so I mainly just eat a lot when I want to, and don't when I don't. Now that I'm in college, both stress eating and a very loving boyfriend join the mix, so we'll wait and see what these next few years have in store for my waistline đ
So, that's the long and short of it! If you're looking to gain, I think you have to push yourself, but make sure you're only doing so in ways you can enjoy. Routine is EVERYTHING, with the end goal that you shouldn't have to make conscious decisions to overeat; it should just be a fact of life đ I wouldn't personally recommend relying on drinks to fatten up from the very beginning, since those can be easy to get sick of, but they can be valuable tools for plateau breaking in combination with an otherwise gourmand mindset.
Thanks for the ask! And to anyone brave enough to make it through to the end, thank you for reading! I love telling my gainer story, because I like to put it into a more realistic framework than many of the hot and horny stories out there are able to do. As thanks, here's a belly pic just for you! Dont mind the bruises, we just had a little fun yesterday :3
#uhitsum#askuhitsum#asexual gainer#ace gainer#gaining fat#gaining weight on purpose#gay gainer#teen gainer#gaining kink#belly gainer#chubby boy#full belly#fat belly#fatty#getting bigger#gaining#cute belly#chub kink#chubby
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heading for the door pt2
pt1
summary: what happens after the breakup?
warnings: mentions of cheating, mentions of lack of eating, crying, swearing, fem!reader, ive never been in a club so mb if its poorly described, meantions of drinking and alcohol, help yall idk what else
sorry this took so longg
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y/n held her knees to her chest as she sat on her bed. she was only staring at the wall infront of her. the creamish popcorn wall. nothing special about it, nothing special going on.
the only special thing she could think about was matt, even though she knew she shouldnât. she was only tearing herself down more and more.
the thoughs of matt holding her, mumbling hush words to her with a sweet and caring tone of voice, the memories of them going on picnic dates together and laughing and giggling the entire time came flooding back to her, just as her tears did, overflowing from her eyes.
the realization of her actions and what had happened only sunk in after matt left, and that was almost a week ago.
sheâd been in bed all week, no motivation to get up, shower, get dressed, nothing. she couldnt bring herself to move herself to do important things, such as eating, the last sheâd eaten was almost two days ago.
but as of right now she couldnt focus on the gurgling and rumbling of her tummy, the way her body ached, the constant pounding in her head, the overwhelming thoughts, no. all she could think about was how sheâd never feel matts touch, hear his voice, see his clothes lying around, as much as she hated picking all of it up, now sheâd absolutely kill to be able to do it again.
but no. everything, absolutely everything was gone. and there was nothing she could do about it, except wait until something happened, just hope that maybe sheâd find the motivation to move her sore and aching body off the bed, take a nice and warm shower, brush her teeth and take care of herself, eat a delicious and big meal.
she hated how she felt, how she couldnât even look at a bracelet on her dresser, a bracelet her and matt had made to celebrate their two year anniversary. their two years of loving one another, two years of giving as much attention and affection as possible, spending two years of their lives together.
all of that was gone. she couldnt relive any of it, she couldnt bring it back somehow, she couldnt do anything except accept that she ruined everything, she ruined the love they had for eachother, the life they built together.
âam I not good enough for you?â the words rung through y/ns head, being all she could hear. the words she never wished to come out of her matt. the words she absolutely hated since he spoke them. she hated the way they made her feel. she hated how she felt sick to her stomach when the words processed through y/ns head.
knowing that he felt as if he wasnt enough and was basically worthless to y/n absolutely destroyed her. knowing matt was everything, everything. he was everything to her. without him she didnt feel like herself, and now that he was gone and gone for most likely forever sheâd always feel this way.
she couldnât feel complete, a part of her would be missing for forever and sheâd never feel comfortable with herself. never feel normal. never feel the same joy she felt when she was with matt.
god, she built her entire life around matt, relying on him for her everything, her happiness, her grounding, her safety and comfort. she was so used to being with him, that everything she saw or heard reminded her of him, and what did that do? nothing. it only made her feel worse.
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âcome on y/nnn, you havent left your bed in a weekk, just come out, and youâll feel better.â the text read, y/n stared for a moment, thinking all the thoughts of what would happen if she went out.
what if she saw matt? it wouldnt matter. theyâve broken up anyways.
what if another man reminds her of him and she breaks down and sobs? highly doubt that would happen, matts one in a million.
what if she gets black out drunk and calls matt? she hopes she does, maybe theyâll get back together.
y/ns thumbs moved across her keyboard quickly, pressing the letters and forming a sentence.
reading it over and over again, y/n made sure this is what she wanted and what she wanted only, not basing it off of anything to do with matt.
âyeah ill come out. pick me up at 9.â she pressed send and clicked her phone off.
she took in a breath, moving her legs to the side of the bed, pushing them to the edge and onto the floor.
the harsh cold wood on y/ns feet(sies) reminding her this was reality and not some stupid dream sheâd made up.
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y/n quickly thanked the uber before stepping foot out of the car, immediately being greeted with a very enthusiastic âhiii!!â by ryleigh, her voice high pitched as she wrapped her arms around y/n.
y/ns arms wrapped around ryleighs body, saying a quick âhiâ aswell, maybe a small smile at her lips. she still felt disgusted with herself, with what she did to matt. sheâd never be able to feel the way she did before sheâd done what she did to matt.
hell, she couldnt even utter the words of what sheâd done. the words brought her great pain, a nauseous feeling to her stomach and tears to her eyes.
âare you readyy?â ryleigh asked, her voice just as comforting and encouraging as y/n needed it to be.
ryleigh pulled away from the hug, her grin ultimately comforting y/n and reminding her she was in a safe space with ryleigh.
âyess! by the way, love the dress babe, you look beautiful!â y/n answered, her lips curving into a grin, matching ryleighs.
âthankss. lets go inside.â ryleigh pulled y/n by the hand, pulling her inside the club.
as soon as the door opened loud ass music, neon lights and chattering engulfed y/ns senses. the lights really getting to her, they were just.. so much brighter than inside her bedroom.
ryliegh, on the other hand was enjoying it all. the sweaty bodies she and y/n moving against others as they walked to the bar. everything going on was just what ryleigh needed.
âhello ladies, what can I get ya?â the bartender offered a warm smile towards the two. his voice sending shivers down rylieghs spine. it was a husk, and deep voice, ultimately pulling ryliegh in.
âuh- um.. I- ill take a majito.. um.. y/n? what do you want?â ryleighs shaky and flustered voice turned to y/ns direction.
âI dont want anything. thank you though, ryleigh.â y/n answered. as easy as it would be to consume alcohol and drown out all her thoughts with matt, she knew it wasnt right. she shouldnt because she needs to live the reality of what she did, and also, because drinking alcohol like that is not a good idea, whatsoever.
âalrighty, then. thats all.. mister..?â ryleigh trailed off as she turned back around to face the bar tender, leaning her forearms onto the counter.
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y/n left ryleigh and the bartender. they were just flirting and shit. she didnt want to be the third wheel. wheres the fun in that?
y/n was currently enjoying her night, atleast trying too. as much fun as someone who just ruined their relationship could.
she lightly swayed with the music, her hips moving side to side gently with the music.
she lightly hummed the words of the song, suddenly being so consumed by the beautiful sounds of the singers voice and the background music.
then, everything stopped. her body movements came to a halt. the music suddenly going quiet. her breathing stopping and her heart rate quickening, as her eyes laid on matt.
she immediately bit her lip and took in sharp breaths. her arms twisting together as she stared at him, her eyes darting down his face and body.
the way his silky and shiny brunette hair fell perfectly ontop of his head. the way his green shirt looked so, so good on him. the color perfecting his skin.
god, everything she wanted in a person, yet she couldnt have, but once did.
matt stared at the crowd of bodies infront of him, all moving under bright lights. his eyes trained on each and every individual, his eyes scanning the way each body curved and didnt curve, the features of their faces and their clothing. studying each person for no other reason than being bored.
his eyes were currently laid on one girl, his eyes trained on her hips moving, not even bothering to glance up at her face, nothing.
he could only think about how familiar the movements looked, how perfect she moved her hips.. but more importantly how it looked so familiar like heâd seen it plenty times before.
suddenly, her bodys movements stopped. his eyebrows raised in confusion, wandering why the girl had stopped. he moved his eyes from her hips to her face.
he didnt even have to look for another second to know that is his girl- that was his girl. once was, never (at least, what a part of him wants) again.
he quickly took in how she took in sharp and small breaths, her arms twisting together in the same way she always used to, when she was nervous, he quickly recognized.
fuck.
suddenly his eyes began filling with tears as his lungs slowly deflated with no air. he couldnt find it in himself to take in a breath, without atleast letting out a small sob.
as much as it pained him to look at the girl he only wished was still his, he couldnt bring himself to look away.
he missed the way her arms felt around him, the way her words always got to him, comforted, brought happiness, anything he wanted her words always seemed to do it. the way her beautiful eyes stared into his, the beautiful color of her irises bringing such comfort, warmth and nervousness over him at any given moment with no failure.
as much as what she did with koda absolutley kills him, he still loves her, he still hopes she was in his bed with him everymorning, he still wishes she was the one to always hold him as long as he needed it.
all he wanted was her, and he knew he could have her back, but he knew she didnt deserve him.
y/n stood in her spot, her feet planted to the ground as she took in her shaky breaths, so badly wanting to walk over to matt and talk to him, she just wasnt sure if she was ready or if he didnt want to talk to her. why would he? she basically cheated on him.
her eyes couldnt help but to stay on the boy, until he motioned for her to come to him.
she nodded, before looking away then untwisting her arms and flailing them to her sides, shaking her hands for a moment to get the nerves out and to prepare herself.
she brought one foot infront of the other, walking to matt in a quick motion.
âhi.â matt breathed, seeing y/n standing infront of him. seeing the girl he wanted so badly stand infront of him.
âhi.â she spoke, taking in a breath before quickly saying âalright, listen. I am so fucking sorry for what I did matt. I would absolutely do anything for you. Iâd- I would do anything matt. words cannot describe how drained ive been without you, I havent felt the same, I donât- nevermind. this isnt about me, this is about you and what I did.â she took in another breath, collecting herself before starting again.
âalright. what I did was absolutely unacceptable and absolutely disgusting of me. you were my boyfriend and I should not have done what I did with koda. its absolutely sickening and- and, wrong. no man could ever amount to you, youâre everything and all of everything ive ever wanted. koda is- is not the one to blame here. its me. but I need you to understand that I still love you and if I could I would treat you so so much better than what I did before. i am, truly, so sorry matt, and i do hope we could date again- or atleast be friends.â she finished. exhaling a large breath, feeling a huge amount of weight being lifted off her shoulders.
matts eyes stared down in awe at her. all of her words went straight to his heart. heâd completely forgiven her the moment she opened her mouth and admitted what she did was wrong.
his hands slowly came up to her face, his hand cupping her cheek and pulling her face into his, pressing their lips together in a passionate and sweet kiss. nothing sexual behind it.
y/n crumbled into the kiss and closed her eyes, until matt pulled away and pulled her into him. wrapping his arms around her body as he hugged her. he muttered words into her head, âI forgive you, I forgive you.â he repeated, his hand coming to the back of her head as he pulled her into even more of a warm hug.
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Various CRPs x Reader who knew then before their incidents
Prize request 3/5 for @coldsushisworld ! I hope you enjoy!
Characters in this post: Jeff, Puppeteer, Eyeless Jack, Masky and Ben Drowned
Notes: Reader is GN! Some of these may be shorter or vaguer than others but that's simply because my brains is a little foggy on the details of things!
CW: Mentions of suicide in Puppeteers part, mentions of death and murder in.. well almost all the characters..!
MASKY
JEFF
Similar to Ben's part, you find out what happened. Your parents didnt tell you all of the details that happened the night Jeff went missing, and you'd later find out why when you got older. From the man himself, actually. I enjoy the idea that between the actual canon event of the source and my take hes mellow out.. just a bit, at least hes not going to take you down the second he gets the chance. It's been.. years, you thought he had died at some point actually. Hes loud and arrogant, but for one reason or another he trusts you. You havent turned him yet, and that's saying something. Sometimes things are just like how they were before; the two of you are joking with each other and sharing stories. You don't see him often due to him just.. dropping off and doing who knows what.. but he always comes back to you eventually
BEN DROWNED
You were both childhood friends. The day Ben died, you were told he had moved away. You didnt find out what happened until years later, when you started asking around. When fate brings you both back together everything feels. Wrong. Hes a ghost, and primarily confined to technology- currently hes worked himself into your computer, proving himself to still be the mischievous guy he was in life by subtly messing with your files.. but you grew up, and he didnt. Despite still being friends, there just wasn't enough for the two of you to relate to anymore. In a way it reminds me of Anohana (need to rewatch it but I recommend it). If Ben notices the rift he doesnt say anything
The terrible thing is that you dont know what happened to him. One day he was here and the next? Gone. On top of that, are you even aware that he doesnt seem to.. remember all that much about you? It's almost as if hes an entirely different person. Out of all the characters, your relationship with Masky needs to be rebuilt from the ground, simply because it didnt exactly exist before. You were friends with Tim, of course. To you, you're trying to jog his memory and do things you two have done before. To him, you look.. desperate. Overtime you do both grow closer but the relationship will never be like how it was before, and you're going to have to readjust to this new situation- though is that not the case with the rest of these characters?
EYELESS JACK
You had heard on the news what happened at his college. It looked like there was a massacre, and your friend was no where in sight. Even before Jack became eyeless, he was still.. closed off and reserved. However reunited with him he seems to have sunk deeper into that, even trying to get you out of his life again because of.. what was happening to him and what was changing. Your insistence almost breaks the both of you, but despite everything you manage to safely reenter his life. His new eating habits.. are something.. and that's assuming he even tells you.. he probably would, out of guilt for keeping it from you and just guilt in general for needing to conform to his new diet. It's very strained and tense for a long time in the beginning, even if you're the most open minded person. Jack's not going to let it be easy
PUPPETEER
You were.. friendly with each other before everything. But you weren't exactly all that close. Of course when you found about how he took his life, you felt horrible. But life goes on. You move on, and go on with your life plans... and you were doing good at that, before a figure appears in your room one night. Its terrifying, actually, and if it didnt start talking to you like you were an old school friend you would have tried to make a run for it. Maybe it was the shock that kept you in place? Of course, the figure was.. him.. he doesn't seem to recognize the name you knew him as, in fact you cant tell how much he actually remembers. He basically just invites himself to live with you, not all that bothered with the idea that you might not want that. Hes.. kind of a dick, actually, but hes charming enough for you to keep him around. Having conversations with him is interesting, as well. Hes usually respectful enough but theres some level of... sass.. that keeps you invested. Hes so much like how he was before, but also not. Hes still there but it's like hes been flipped on his head
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Love & Ruin 2
Synopsis: After being hidden away for most of your life your mother decided to stop being protective. However, there is one rule you cannot break, DO NOT associate with your uncle Aegon. Of course, it's the first thing you do, and you both quickly realize you will be each other's inevitable downfalls.
Pairing: Aegon Targaryen x You (daughter of Rhaenyra) Warnings: cursing, smut, dubcon, more smut, manipulation, possible murder, obsessive tendencies, incest, SEVERE mental illness, helaemond is canon, failed plots, a disaster wedding, just targ things, too many warnings to count honestly Word count: 10k Note: I am a bad person. Im sorry it took me so long to finish but my life is a cluster fuck of bad and worse and it is a blessing I havent yeeted myself into hell. Pt three is alr in the works unlike this one. PS Helaena's and Aemond's plan did work. I just didn't directly mention what it was...yet. Anyway, I hope you enjoy (if you're still interested) Tags: @lovelykhaleesiii @caffein8me @llearlert @introverbatim @ladybug0095 @yazzzmints @heavenly1927 @rinirinse @aelora-a (srry it didn't let me tag some of you.)
âBe quiet,â Aegon growled into the ear of the whore he chose to warm his bed this morning. The squelching sounds of his thrusts slamming into her cunt echoed throughout the room. She stifled a moan and dug her teeth into the pillow below her head. Her voice did nothing, only reminded him he wasnât you. Aegon tried to get girls who resembled you but none pleased him the same.Â
Today was an especially bad day for Aegon and mayhaps he was taking it out on the whore too much. Her cheeks were stained red from his slaps and surely her cervix would be bruised by how hard he was pounding himself into her. He had good reason though; you were returning home.
It took five years, but he almost was able to move forward with his life. You still plagued him in his dreams and there was a constant tugging at his heart everytime your name was brought up. You simply existing reminded him of the only time he was ever happy, and he clung to the memory like a baby clings to their mother's tit.Â
His family was very determined to keep you away. It worked successfully, he hadnât heard nor seen from you at all. Every letter, every flight, every potential unsavory way of stalking your whereabouts was immediately dispelled. That was only within the first year, at some point he gave up. Aegon knew you would come back at some point; you were in love with him. But days, weeks, months, and years passed and still he received nothing.Â
The idea they had turned you against him murdered the last bit of hope he had. It was one of the many things that formed him into the âmonsterâ everyone believed him to be. The first was being born the first son yet being ignored for his elder sister his entire life. The night at Driftmark was the second trauma that seared a mark into his heart and brother's face forever. The third was the forceful marriage to his sister.
Aegon scarcely remembers that day or the night afterwards. He used milk of the poppy to ease his mind to the point he could hardly stand during the vows⌠he doesnât know if he actually attended the first dance. He does remember the bedding and it makes his skin crawl.Â
He was forced to walk into and perform his own rape. He didnât want it and would never want it. There was no daydream or drug strong enough to make him forget. It was awful in every sense of the word. Aegon cried during it and then he cried after it. No matter how much he scrubbed himself in the bathing chambers he could not free himself of the feeling of disgust. Then there was the overwhelming guilt that came after.Â
Aegon never touched her again, never really interacted with his own children. Why would he? He was an accomplice in her suffering as much as his own. She didnât want to marry him either, she didnât want to bear his children. He could never be a good husband, lover or anything of the sort to Helaena. She deserved it, he thought, to have someone who could care for her. Someone who could love her like a wife⌠not like a sibling.
But that would never be him and it ate him alive like the disease killing their father. She was too kind, too pure for him or any other man at court. She was stupid, yes, but with a larger heart than any of the women heâs met combined. Yet, he never brought himself to do his duty to stay loyal and cherish her like Alicent told him to. The only good thing he ever did for Hel was leaving her alone, it made her happy to be free of him. In truth, it would make everyone happier if the world was rid of him completely.Â
Maybe his life wasnât over yet, maybe there was still a shred of hope for him left in the world. The reason he used to be happy was returning to him. Even if it was to marry another man⌠He could sort that out easily enough. When Aegon first heard the news, he wasnât as calm. HeÂ
He could take back what was his and become the man everyone wants him to be⌠Or heâll drag you down into his depravity with him. It didnât matter, either option was a severe improvement from the existence he was currently suffering.Â
âAre you ready to be back?â Jacaerys inquired whilst trying to tame the loose curls on his head. The carriage ride from the doc to the keep had proved to be dreadfully long and boring. Luke was seeping anxiety that made the entire car tense. âAemond, Aemond, Aemond, heâs gonna take my eye! Heâs gonna kill me if I go back!â The chants of a scared kid really did threaten to send you over the edge. âJust apologize, Lucerys... Heâs not going to do anything while grandsire is alive. Nothing is going to happen, just say sorry before it does.âÂ
Everything you said fell on deaf ears. His fear was expected, he took his uncle's eye and received no punishment. Granted, after hearing both sides it seemed inevitable for someone to get gravely injured. You still genuinely believed or at least convinced yourself a simple apology might just keep Luke alive for a few more years. âNo brother, I would rather be at home,â you muttered in a near whisper.Â
Jace, always the obedient son, was oozing confidence completely unbothered by the situation. He learned that from Daemon, never let them see you falter, especially the Hightower cunts. âItâs because of him, isnât it?âÂ
Your heart clenched, a sorrowful reminder of your childhood beginning to boil to the surface. A whirlwind of memories threatening to break you.Â
You learned how truly codependent you were on your uncle. Without him you had become a shell of whatever it was you once were. Your insecurities reigned supreme as you had an insatiable need for approval from everyone. That meant doing everything you were asked and then some to become the greatest version of yourself you could be. You took care of people, especially your brothers whom you felt the full burden for. You were the eldest and you allowed them into a situation that got them hurt and another child maimed.Â
It wasnât just your insecurities; your moods would take a turn quicker than before. At the drop of a hat, you could be raging or hysterically crying. Sometimes you didnât even understand why. You became obsessive over little things that didnât matter in the grand scheme of things. For example: how your dresses were fitted, how your hair was styled, and what you ate and drank. It wasnât in the front of your mind at the time, but you did things in the way he always preferred.Â
Without him, deciding on things became hard. You never needed to think before because he did it for you. Not only that but you became a chronic liar. It wasnât on purpose, sometimes things would just slip out. You were great at denying any problems you had and chalking them up to your blood moon. You denied any relationship with Aegon and defended him more than he deserved. Especially since he so carelessly abandoned you. No letters, no visits, he left you with fucking nothing. You started to convince yourself you never loved him; it was just pity. You had a burning desire to rescue him and mistook it for genuine affections.Â
Four years ago, almost to this very day the invitation to the prince and princessâs wedding had just reached your doorstep. You learned that day just how much you did love him because when the letter was read you cried so much you vomited. You stopped eating, stopped sleeping, stopped doing all the things you love and rotted in your bed waiting for the pain to subside⌠Or for the stranger to take you.Â
The image of him touching her the same way he did you, the idea of him whispering the same things he did to you, the way she would cry out his name like you did⌠It made you want to rip your hair out and peel your skin off. She probably had an extremely elegant dress; the throne room was probably filled with music and guests, and they would ride their dragons together to show off their union⌠You tore all the clothes he liked to shreds and punched a hole in your mirrorâŚÂ
Originally, you never had any disdain for your exceedingly kind and misunderstood aunt but now it was pure untamed hatred. The jealousy was incredible, truly you would be confined to a prison cell if you acted on the things you thought up.Â
You could kill both of them and end the war before it even started. You prayed she would miscarry the twins, it didnât happen. You prayed he would get too drunk and die from alcohol poisoning, obviously it didnât happen. You prayed the entire keep would be set on fire and everyone within it would die burning in flames just as your father did⌠it did not.Â
You were never good enough for him. He abandoned you and left you to rot after taking something so important from you. You were a fool, a naive idiot. The fear of being abandoned personified ever more when your mother gave birth to two legitimate children. Everyone was going to abandon you and it was driving you insane. You had mastered the art of pretending, no one was able to tell what was underneath the surface.Â
Jacaerys was really the only person who noticed the change. He was the only one who saw through your lies and facade. And he was the only one who genuinely helped you overcome the complete insanity you had sunk into. He pulled you out from drowning in a sea of madness and kept you afloat ever since. In turn, you felt a little guilty for your wicked thoughts and desires, but you were atoning for them by good will and actions.Â
Still, sometimes late at night when you were alone, he would come back. The memories would come flooding in and sleep would evade you. He had burned a scar into your heart that never fully healed and probably never would. According to your mother who said the first heartbreak is always the worst and most memorable. You didnât want to come back. You didnât ever want to see Aegon Targaryen again.Â
âNo, itâs because- â You hit your head on the back of the car, knocking the air out of your lungs. The carriage came to a halt, catapulting Lucerys forward into the other seat. Jacaerys bursted into uncontrollable laughter as he rubbed his forehead from the impact.Â
It was a great start to a visit, a crash landing. Surely, not foreshadowing the rest of your adventure. As you unpiled from the carriage a welcome party stood there waiting for you. It was unexpected, seeing your grandsire there in decent health, you heard he was much worse.Â
Then there were the Hightowers, looking as if they wanted to be anywhere but here. Your eyes scanned over them one by one, Alicent wore her plastered fake smile as usual, Otto stood too stiffly and only looked at Daemon, Aemond looked ready to murder you all. He was far different from what you remembered, tall, slender, and handsome even with one eye.Â
Then there was Helaena⌠Completely disassociated from whatever was happening and mumbling under her breath. You smiled, the rage you felt before when you imagined her was gone. You had actually healed and successfully moved forward. This was good, so great you could even hug herâŚÂ
Until your eyes moved to her left. The sunken feeling in your chest blossomed into a new monster threatening to devour you. Your smile faded; your heart began erratically pumping blood to all parts of your body. Your knees locked in place trying to keep your balance.Â
Aegon⌠Aegon was only ten feet away and yet there seemed to be miles between you. It was a joke, a great joke, he looked more gorgeous than he ever had. His hair was cut to frame his face perfectly, his jaw was more defined, his dark circles brought out the beautiful sea blue that surrounded his pupils.Â
The smile that adorned his face was larger than any you had seen him wear prior. His eyes twinkled with childlike glee. The corset you wore became suffocatingly tight and the heat in Kingâs Landing began to make your head spin. Your breathing was rapid, a million emotions coursing their way through your head.Â
Aegon took a step down the stairs, your body wanted to flee but you were frozen in time. Another step, all the air in your body left you. A third step made all the bile in your stomach rise to your throat. His feet touched the ground, and he strode towards you, the world started to spin, your mind racing with the worst possible outcomes.Â
You blinked, for a mere second. You reminded yourself it had been five years; he had no hold on you anymore. He was a monster, a terrible man and a worse son. Aegon was not going to get under your skin, you were not going to falter in front of him. You were better now, you moved on, you were mentally healthyâŚÂ
You opened your eyes, inhaling a deep breath. He was one pace in front of you, âNiece.âÂ
Disappointment, Aegon was riddled with it every day and today was no expectation. He was so excited his soul wanted to jump out of its skin. But no, the second he approached you passed out and all the sudden he was the villain. What could he have possibly done a foot away to make you faint?Â
Unless you were too excited to see him, your heartbeat too fast and you fainted. It would make the most sense, reuniting with the person you truly love would send anyone over the edge. It almost made him faint when he first laid eyes upon you.Â
Gods you were so much more beautiful than he could have imagined. You had grown into a gorgeous woman, easily the prettiest one at court. Your eyes sparkled like diamonds, your hair flowed perfectly down your face, and your cheeks still flushed bright pink when you saw him. Â
Your dress hugged your figure in all the right places and the things he imagined laid beneath made him insatiably horny. Control, he had to remind himself itâd been years and he needed that. It was hard considering the two days youâd been here he had only seen one glimpse. One quick glimpse in the courtyard before you were stolen away again.Â
Your chambers were only a few hallways away and he could see you anytime he wanted. And yet, Aegon had to plot when to corner you. There was not only a hoard of guards following you around every step you took but Jacaerys clung to your skirts like a lost orphan.Â
So, he waited and waited⌠and fucking waited until he was practically ripping the hair from his skull. The lack of your presence was okay on the first day, the second it was tolerable but by the third day it became suspicious. Impatient and spoiled, his motherâs words rang true more and more each day.Â
It was increasingly clear that it wasnât just them keeping you from him, but you were putting extra care into avoiding him. What did he do wrong? The stalking? The letters? The gifts that were never opened. It was all obvious professions of love⌠Why would you be uncomfortable with that?
Aegon was nursing another goblet of wine as he sunk to the floor. His face felt wet as if he were crying⌠Was he crying? His body to the point of numbness he could not tell any longer. Sadly, it seemed the wine was not working to cure the ever-disheartening thoughts in his mind.Â
You were going to get married and forget all about him. They hadnât given him a single opportunity to attempt to carve his way back into your heart and most likely werenât going to. What was the reason for living at this point? The one thing he yearned to touch was so close yet so far.Â
He scoffed at himself. Aegon was no tragic poet, but he was beginning to sound like one. It was the alcohol, a new type probably causing his episode. He went to grasp the corner of the table to stand up, but his legs could no longer withstand his weight. The contents on the table along with his own body fell to the floor.Â
Not one of his proudest moments to date. Â
âYouâre pathetic,â an irritating voice laced with superiority drew him out of his head. âBrother, have you come to visit your- I mean my children? They arenât here.â Aemond clenched his jaw once, twice until he let out a deep breath. There was no point in arguing with Aegon, there was no winning against someone fueled by pure delusions.Â
He would never come to see his- Aegonâs children in his room. They would be with their sweet mother far away from the monstrosity they called dad. âWeâre all being forced to attend her wedding tourney.âÂ
âWhen?â Aegonâs eyes lit up and the sunken expression finally lifted. âAt dawn,â Aemond took a step back before the smell of wine, sweat and uncleanliness of three days seeped into his nose. âFor the love of the seven take a bath!âÂ
Hope, there was still hope left in the world! All of the sudden he had awakened, the whimpering pathetic mess he was a few moments ago was long forgotten. The gears in his brain began turningâŚÂ
As Aemond strode out of Aegonâs chambers a new plan formed into the mind of the monster himself⌠âLittle brother,â he sang with a cruelty only Aegon could possess. âWill our dear uncle Gwayne be participating?âÂ
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Aemond did not loathe his brother as much as everyone believed he did. Yes, he was jealous Aegon the wastrel was first born, and he was not. Yes, he was jealous Helaena was forced to marry the pig instead of him. No, he did not blame his brother for any of this. Solidarity was exceedingly important in times like these, future succession wars and all.Â
What he learned was, Aegon hated being married to Helaena as much as she did. Aegon didnât want to be king and would gladly give it to Aemond if the time came. Lastly, as sad as Aegon could be he was fiercely loyal to his family. If it came down to it Aemond knew his brother would die for them⌠or take an eye instead.Â
âHas he stopped wallowing in his sorrow?â Even when she insulted people Helaenaâs voice sounded like angels in his ear. âNo, though he has come up with another borderline war crime plan.â She let out a deep sigh as she fiddled with the needle she used to sew. âShould I ask?âÂ
âHeâs urging Gwayne to kill the Fiance before they have a chance to wed.â Helaena stifled a laugh; she should be offended he would dishonor her or even vengeful since her husband dare tried to intervene on another womanâs affairs. Instead, she bit her lip from smiling, âI should be glad she is not as deranged as him or I may not be here today.âÂ
Aemond rose from his seat and sat down next to her. His long fingers gently caressed the side of her face, pushing back the strands that obscured his view of her violet eyes. âI would kill her before she could ever lift a finger.âÂ
Helaena gently tugged Aemondâs hands away from her face, cupping them in her lap. âAems you are far too serious. Sheâs still as sweet as a rose I hearâŚâÂ
There was a sudden silence between them, not uncomfortable in the slightest but eerily still, nonetheless. If Helaena was being honest with herself, she felt terribly for you. She couldnât imagine what pain he had caused or what exactly he had done to cause you to faint at the mere sight of him.Â
She could imagine, Helaena simply wished not to burden herself with those thoughts. You were her savior in a weird sense of the word. Because of your existence her brother did not attempt to bed her or force heirs upon her, he did not touch her, he did not bother her unless requested of him. You kept his mind preoccupied, so she wasnât completely trapped in a horrid marriage such as her mothers. Aegon was a good brother and only a brother⌠Sometimes she worried what would happen if you ceased to exist.Â
Still, she was trapped in a marriage. Aemond and Helaena had two vastly different reasons for wanting you around. Helaena wanted to see Aegon content, happy even if they were lucky. And if things happened the way it did in her dreams⌠Their marriage would be annulled and you two could wed and she could continue to do as she pleased with the father of her children. A fairytale but she was known for being the dreamer.Â
Aemond simply wanted his brother to get off his fucking ass and do something with his life. He wanted him to stop whoring, to stop pushing away duties, and to start taking matters seriously. The only way he was going to do that was if his favorite toy was promptly returned to him. You also kept Aegon far away from his beloved Helaena, that was merely a bonus.Â
If he had to choose, obviously he would have not chosen his brother to become obsessed with one of the bastards, it couldnât be helped anymore. The seeds of whatever drug Aegon made you take to enjoy him had already been planted. The spell you used to seduce him had already begun working.Â
At the very least you defended them⌠somewhat. It was enough to make him wish you were dead even less. He had to remind himself, though you were a bastard and related to his sworn enemy, you were also just a woman. As his mother once said, âall women are created in the image of the mother and to be spoken of with reverence⌠And to be treated as such!âÂ
Aemond let out a breath he didnât realize he was holding. âWeâre going to find a convoluted way to help him, arenât we?â Helaena hummed to herself for a moment, was there any way they could really help you? âDo you believe she is distant because she believes he abandoned her?âÂ
They gazed at each other for a moment, a silent agreement. You were easy to read, at least to the dreamer herself⌠âYes Aems, I think we are.â
The dress you were forced into was unbearably tight, the summer sun had seeped through the red fabric and your blood felt as if it was boiling. The royal stand was too crowded, too many unwelcome faces and bodies suffocating you. The noise of horses and knights preparing to show off for your favor made your ears ache. Unbearable, that was the best way you could describe your current predicament.Â
The fainting spell was enough to have your mother confine you to chambers. She knew, your brothers knew, the Hightowers knew, everyone in the entire keep could see through you both. At every single turn you were specifically swayed far away from your uncle. Absolutely no contact, especially since you were to be married.Â
Thatâs what the entire day was for, to celebrate you being sold off to a son of Dorne. If the heat in Kingâs Landing doesnât kill you first, then surely the sun there will do the job. You hoped your death would come sooner rather than late.Â
If the day could not go any worse the sound of someone taking a seat next to you caused you to flinch. You could smell him, practically taste the wine emitting off of him. Then there was the seat to your left, the scent of flowers filled your nose. Your eyes stayed glued to your hands. You didnât dare move or breatheâŚÂ
A gentle hand that was as soft as a feather pillow touched yours. âDonât be nervous.â Helaena, of all the people in the world you did not expect her to say such. Especially now, since you were separating husband and wife or did, they purposely do this to torment you further? âIf Iâm sitting in your place I can move, princess.âÂ
You kept your head turned to her, trying your hardest to ignore the one sitting far too close to your right. Where was your mother? Your brothers? Where was your family to rescue you? âNonsense! I purposely asked Jacaerys to let me sit next to you.â To the right, you could feel two violet eyes burning holes into the back of your skull.Â
âHow lovely,â you muttered out trying to find your family from the corner of your eyes. How in the seven hells was he next to you? You turned your body towards the crowd, an invisible shield in your mind blocking you from turning the other way.Â
Behind you, your entire family was in the row above staring daggers into Aegon. Of course, he stole Lucerys seat before he had a chance to protest. The sound of trumpets blaring, and the weakened voice of your grandsire distracted you, momentarily from the hell you were living in.Â
A warm and soft hand was placed over your own. Dragging your nails from tarnishing the skin around them. âAfraid your husband to be is going to lose?â It felt as though a bolt of lightning shot down your back. You bit your lip, no you wanted him to lose and potentially be stabbed in a duel. You actually want to be stabbed too right now.
Milk of the poppy was your savior. Thatâs what had been prescribed to keep you grounded. Itâs why youâre not currently on the floor unconscious. It's why you decided to engage in conversation instead of keeping your mouth shut. It's why you let his hands caress your own and bask in the warmth they provided. It wasnât you; it was the medication.Â
âWhy arenât you participating in the tourney?â You could feel a smile curve onto his face, though you swore not to look. âWhy would I? Do you want me to compete for your favor?â You turned to look at him, shocked by the accusation you would want him of all people competing for you. That was a fantasy of children, a dead one at that.Â
A mistake was made when you glanced at him. Gods, he was beautiful in the most pathetic way possible. The dark circles, the smug smile, the unruly hair, the piercing eyes and the jaw with just a tad of baby fat encompassing it. You forgot his lady wife sitting next to you, you forgot your family watching you. For a moment, it was just you looking at the pretty monster who ruined you. A shimmer of hope, a memory of childhood championship bubbled to the surface.Â
âNo Aegon, I think you would lose,â you jested. His eyes sparkled; his subtle grin turned into a wide blinding smile. âI think I already have your favor.â Your mouth parted to speak, cheeks brimming red from the implication.
Down below the sounds of cracking shields and screams of pain stifled by armor were becoming the loudest noise. A Blackwood had just begun a duel with a Bracken and⌠his entrails were staining the tan colored sand a dark shade of crimson. You felt bile rising up in your throat as you unconsciously tightened your drip on Aegonâs hand. An act that didnât go unnoticed and was quickly returned.Â
âNot a fan of bloodshed?â His voice sounded softer, almost kind versus his usual unserious tone. He was staring at the side of your face and his eyes shone with mild concern combined with amusement. Aegon was always one for violence, not you. By no means were you against it, seeing the insides of someoneâs stomach simply didnât suit your fancy.Â
âAnd the day grows uglyâŚâ Helaena let out a deep sigh as she gazed at the scene below. Her voice made you quickly realize how disrespectful you were being towards their marriage. In a second, your hand was ripped out of his grasp and placed firmly on your lap. Avoid, you avoided both of their looks and your gaze moved strictly forward.Â
You could have sworn you saw a flash of Aemondâs eyepatch and his fingers patting at her knee. Oddly enough, you were very suspicious of brother and sister relationships considering the family you were born into. Thank heavens you were amongst the normal ones⌠almost.Â
âYouâre not wrong, Hel. Youâre not wrong.â Aegonâs voice had lost all its original sympathetic tone as his lips formed into a pout like a spoiled brat. âPrincess! Your favor would surely help me win this tournament if you could be so kind.âÂ
The sound of your fiancĂŠs voice made you want to sink into the abyss of your mind and let it swallow you. Maybe even feed yourself to Vhagar much like your late aunt Laena did. Aegon looked worse, enraged and annoyed to the utmost level.Â
His body moved slowly towards your fiancĂŠe, and you swore if looks could kill he would be dead. You didnât flinch or falter this time. You no longer frowned at the sight of the man you were supposed to marry. In fact, you were bubbling with joy.
The second Martell son held a huge smile while he waited for you to place your favor on his lance. You did your best to make a spectacle out of it, wishing him luck as loudly as you could. Your mother was smiling proudly, surely congratulating herself on a fine match she had made.Â
She didnât understand, you werenât happy because of him. You were happy to see Aegon leaking envy from his pores with the most miserable look on his face. Now he was feeling exactly what you did and it felt fucking fantastic. You gracefully sat back in place with a smile that went ear to ear.Â
âWould you like to place a bet on who will win, uncle?â He shifted in place, his eyes following the black mare your fiancĂŠe rode. âI donât intend on betting coins, niece.â An awfully smug look creeped onto his face. âWhat are we betting?âÂ
Aegon leaned into you, so his mouth nearly brushed over your ear. His breath was heavy and laced with confidence. His whispers sent a shiver up your spine that glued you in place. âIf Gwayne Hightowers knocks your beloved husband off his horse I get to claim you in front of everyone.âÂ
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Your breath hitched in your throat as the world paused. Heat rose from the tips of your toes to the very top of your head, radiating in all directions. The drugs were no longer keeping your very unstable emotions at bay. Your cheeks were not just flushed by the idea but from the crushing reminder he was not yours to claim. He was stolen from you and didnât mind until you showed back up. No letters, no secret rendezvous, no gifts on name days or holidays⌠To Aegon it was always just a game.Â
A game he was still fucking playing at your own expense. Could he not see he had done enough? He had ruined what sliver of self-respect you had years ago? What else was there for him to take besides your life. Your original despair turned into something hateful, âMy husband will win and when he does you have to stay away from me for as long as Iâm here.âÂ
His mouth hung agape as he was trying to debate this completely unfair bet. Aegon was going to make a jest, defend himself or anything really before the trumpets blared loud enough for the deaf to hear. âHmph,â you turned in your seat, stone faced, chin held high, completely ignoring his presence to watch the knights begin to mount their horses.
Ser Gwayne Hightower was wearing a suit of armor and a green cape. Gwayneâs helm was in the shape of a lantern⌠It looked completely ridiculous. His horse wasnât stupid, it was a powerful white charger, and his lance appeared to be held firmly in his grip. From all the stories youâve heard, he was an amazing knight. Heâd won many tourneys in the past and nearly knocked down Daemon once.Â
Your fiancĂŠe was on the other side, and he certainly did stand out⌠The golden decor on his armor was perhaps a bit much and he refused to wear a helm. His horse was beautiful albeit not as powerful as the charger. It wasnât looking very good.
You were too busy praying to the seven for mercy when the two horses took off. In a flash their lances connected, and poor Quentyn was nearly thrown off. You heard a snicker from the corner, and you whipped your head to stare at the smirk plastered all over Aegonâs face. âHeh look at that!â No fucking way, no way in the names of any god would he get to do anything with you. âFuck you, uncle,â the venom laced words seeped out of your mouth before you could contain them. Your perfect facade was beginning to break so quickly.Â
âThat can be arranged.â You gritted your teeth and your nostrils flared. Seeing him win in anyway made you want to snatch a sword and shove it right between his fuckingâŚÂ
âWe have a winner!âÂ
The crowd erupted into deafening cheers, and you forgot whatever your last thought was. You stood up from your seat to gaze at the ground and surely enoughâŚÂ
âQuentyn Martell has won the favor of the Princess!âÂ
Heh heh hehâŚ. You turned to look at him with a smirk only the divine could wear, âI win.âÂ
He miss stepped, Aegon had completely misread the situation at hand. Her mind had been completely poisoned by those⌠those cunts! And Gwayne completely fumbled the fucking tourney. This added more layers to the issues already at hand. Firstly, her husband needed to go and fast. Secondly, he had to untaint her mind. Thirdly, how the hell was he going to keep her here with him? Aegon only had a single day and night to do itâŚÂ
CRASH
Another empty goblet of wine was thrown into the wall. The small shards covered the floor like winter snow tainted by red droplets of wine. The prince was raging and drinking⌠ceaselessly. âFor the love of the seven will you sit down!â Aemond watched unamused, on the edge of storming out himself at this display. It was getting annoying how easily irritated his brother was becoming. Aegon stomped across, âWe have to kill him⌠Preferably sooner rather than late.âÂ
âWe could tell the truth about her virtue and have a Septon annul the marriage⌠avoid making any unnecessary enemies.â Aegon pivoted to stare at Aemond, face void of any signs of agreement. âYes, and besmirch her reputation in the process⌠Ha! That will surely make her crawl into my bed.âÂ
Aemond really fucking hated sarcasm above all forms of conversation. âOh, great manipulative tactician, what exactly were you thinking?â His steps paused as he toyed with the knife he kept on belt. He wasnât a genius nor was he overly capable of manipulation like his grandfatherâŚ
âIt can only work if she is obsessed with me again.â The younger brother let out a groan, rubbing his face with both his hands. âWhat exactly are you planning to do?âÂ
A wicked smirk curled its way onto his lips. His pupils momentarily turned dark, âNot I, dear brother, what are you going to do.â Aemond lowered his hands, so his eye picked through, raising an eyebrow.Â
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âThis wonât do,â Rhaenyra declared as she tossed another necklace laced with jewels onto the floor of your chambers. âMother!â you gaped as the expensive piece fell to the floor. She pursed her lips together, fingers grazing the delicate jewelry laid before you. âMy first born, my only daughter is getting married⌠Tacky crystals wonât do.â You sunk deeper into your chair, twirling your wet hair in between your fingers.Â
Rhaenyra closely examined a few more pieces, none of which suited her exquisite taste. She turned to you, her eyebrows creasing together. âYou look more pale than usual.â You looked up at her and her eyes were laced with concern. One thing about your mother is that you could never lie to her. She knew you more than you knew yourself. The slightest bit of discomfort she could snuff out and exile it from your mind.Â
âI havenât been sleeping well as of late.â Her gentle hands went to comb through your hair. âIf you changed your mind and donât wish to get married, I could always have Daemon, take care of it.â You choked up a laugh, âthreatening murder on my wedding day? How very festive.âÂ
A small smile made her lips curve upwards. She let out a breath, plucking a necklace off the counter and holding it to your neck. âIs it him?â The dragon necklace made of diamonds laced with gold details seemed to taunt you. âNo, he hasnât bothered me at all.â A bold-faced lie that your mother could see through instantaneously. Rhaenyra wrapped the necklace around your throat and clasped it in the back. âReally? He seemed to bother you at the tourney.âÂ
The necklace seemed to be choking you though it wasnât tight at all. It would have been something you wore if you were getting married to him instead. A golden dragon paying homage to Sunfyre⌠âJust playful banter. Honestly it went far better than expected.âÂ
She looked as if she was about to contest what you said but three knocks at the door caught both your attention. It slowly creaked open revealing a maid no older than fifteen. She stood meekly in the entrance shifting eyes between your mother and yourself.Â
âI didnât mean to disturb you; the king requested your presence.â Your mother raised her brow, questioning the situation at hand. You gave a nearly unnoticeable nod, reassuring her everything was all right. She clapped her hands together, âYouâre not disturbing anyone! My love Iâll return shortly.â
Rhaenyra strided out the door with the confidence only a queen could possess. You envied the way she carried herself no matter the situation. You slumped back down into your chair staring at yourself in the grandiose mirror. Maybe it wouldnât be so bad having Daemon rid you of your husband⌠If anything, he would probably take pride in having something to hold over your head.
But a war was brewing, it was an inevitable fact that no one could deny and soon it would be impossible to ignore. You needed the dornish alliance, and you were the perfect bargaining chip⌠Curse the seven for making you a woman.Â
âYou look like youâre in agony. Already getting the wedding blues?â Itâs no use asking how he snuck in, itâs no use asking why he was here, and itâs absolutely no fucking use to start panicking. âUncle, I thought we had an agreement.â His steps were light, almost frolicking to stand behind your seat in front of the vanity. Aegonâs face was the ideal image of serenity, you couldnât say the same for yourself.Â
âItâs your wedding day! Surely, I can offer my congratulations on this joyous day.â There wasnât an honest way you could describe the pain within your chest. It felt as if a blade had carved a hole within your heart that refused to heal. A dark abyss threatening to swallow you whole. He wasnât meant to be happy; you were supposed to be cheery. Aegon was meant to pin after you until he died⌠Not move on and get married, have children, and celebrate your own wedding.Â
You didnât feel the tears quietly falling from your eyes or the way your lip was quivering. His hand moved to graze your shoulder, but you jumped out of your seat, snapping your head back to face him. âDonât touch me!â He put his hands up in mock surrender, âW-woahâŚâ
âDid you come here to torment me some more? Do you revel watching me be so miserable?â He stumbled back, muttering some incoherent apology that fell on deaf ears. âYou abandoned me! You left me like a dog and went to go playhouse with your perfect fucking family, perfect fucking wife and two perfect children.âÂ
One of the many things you were shouting must have triggered something within him. Aegon grabbed your shoulders with such force you almost buckled under their grip. He shook you like a child would shake their pet if it stopped listening. âPerfect? Have you become fucking delusional? What part of a forced marriage to your sister sounds perfect to you?!âÂ
âLet me go! Donât- fucking touch me!â You shouted in between sobs. âNo! Youâre telling me youâve been ignoring me for years because youâre fucking jealous?â You swatted at his face, attempting to grab him by his hair to pull him down. Poor idea, Aegon always thought violence was exciting. Somewhere amidst the fight you ended up wrestling on the ground shouting curses at one another.Â
âI hate you! I would never be jealous of you!â Aegon shiftly straddled you and began fighting to grab your wrists again. To make it all the more unbearable the bastard was smiling. âBullshit! Itâs seeping off of you.â You bit down on his hand that came just a little too close to your mouth. He growled, slamming on wrists behind your head. âSeven hells will you calm down and listen!âÂ
You writhed underneath him, albeit with less screams of curses. This rather pathetic display went on for only another minute before he forced his lips onto yours. It was rough, mainly teeth clashing together and lips fighting against one another. Part of you wished it could continue, to relive your past one more time before you were sold off.Â
The other part of you bit his lip hard enough to draw blood. Aegon relented, a droplet of blood staining his swollen bottom lip. Whatever spell he had put on you had worked; you were quiet and unusually still. âLook at me.â You turned your head to face the wall, refusing to be trapped by those damned eyes. âLook at me!â Begrudgingly, after being shouted at, you looked at him. âMy marriage is not happy. I swear on my own life I only bedded her once. I was so drunk I canât even remember if it truly happenedâŚâÂ
âMore lies⌠You have two children.â He scoffed, looking around the room as if asking the seven for patience. âOh, for the love of- Do you really think those are mine? Just look at them!â Aegon appeared unbelievably desperate for you to believe him. His eyes frantically searching yours for any comfortâŚÂ
The twins did appear more similar to one brother than the other⌠Jaehaera herself was a spitting image of Helaena only. âI donât believe youâŚâ His face dropped as if you had taken an arrow to his heart. âBut it wouldnât matter if I did. Iâm getting married tonight.â A foolish course of action on your part because you gave him hope. A dangerous thing if given to the wrong people and he was by far the wrong person.Â
He pressed his mouth against you once more, this time his soft lips caressed your own gently. The taste of wine and iron coated your tastebuds, and it wasnât at all displeasing. It was comforting, like a hug from an old friend. He pulled his right hand away from your wrist, almost giving you time to escape. But the second your arm moved he grabbed it with his left. A gentle, almost comfortable, kiss was turning into a desperate one.Â
Aegonâs tongue slid into your mouth doing circles with your own. Your breaths quickened as he began to nibble on your bottom lip, pulling it between his teeth and then kissing it before letting go again. His hands slid down to your thighs, cupping them firmly in his warm palms and massaging their shape. You shivered when his fingers brushed against your most sensitive area, it had been so long since anyone had touched you.Â
The wedding you were supposed to be attending today became a distant memory as he kissed you senseless. His lips trailed across your jawline and down your neck, leaving a trail of fire in its wake. When his nose grazed yours again you found yourself trembling with need.Â
âYou have missed me,â he whispered breathlessly. You wanted to say no, that your body was betraying you but when his fingers grazed your unclothed cunt all you could mutter was âah, ah, ah~â
His tongue flicked out and traced up the side of your neck, then back down. He slipped his tongue inside of your ear, and then swallowed down all of your words. His fingers began gently teasing at your clit, sliding between your wet folds, rubbing it painstakingly slow. You whimpered into his mouth, begging him to do more.
Aegon wasnât supposed to give it all to you so easily but⌠Forcing in a few fingers was far from all he could do. He began thrusting his fingers in and out of your slick folds, making sure to tease your clit each time. His eye had a wicked gleam to them watching you come undone underneath him, âyou think youâll be happy with another man? You think heâll be able to please you like I do?âÂ
You opened your mouth but all that came out was a muffled cry. âNo one knows your body like I do. No one can ever please you like I do.â His fingers moved swifter curling up to hit the sweet spot inside of you. Your legs buckled around him as you began to moan ceaselessly. A wicked smile took over his features, âbe honest with yourself everytime you try to fuck another man youâll be imagining me, my lips, my tongue, my fingers and my cock inside of you.âÂ
Your arms fell limply by your sides, the world spinning in circles as a delicious haze descended upon you. Your hips moved of their own accord, grinding against his fingers as he continued to push them deeper inside of you. âIâve already ruined you, what other man could want you? Who do you belong to? Say it!âÂ
âY-You! Aegon! I belong to you.â You cried out in pleasure, your voice echoing through the room. He pressed his lips against you once more, swallowing all the noises you made as your cunt tightened around his thick fingers. âThatâs a good little girl,â He purred as your orgasm washed over you.
âAegonâŚâ You breathed, your head lolling to the side as he pulled his fingers out of your quivering pussy. He sat up, face returning to its usual expression of complete nonchalant. âIâll give you time to get all dressed up, recite vows you do not mean with a stranger, dance until your heart's content and then Iâm taking back whatâs rightfully mine.âÂ
He leaped off of you swiftly, lazily fixing his hair and wiping the blood from his mouth. You propped yourself up on your elbows, âWhat in the seven hells?â Aegon smiled at you, but it wasnât one of genuine joy. It was sick with cruel eyes behind it. âYouâll see.âÂ
The seeds of doubt had been planted into your mind and had already begun to sprout. The once joyous occasion was quickly turning into a fucking nightmare. To be Frank, you really wish you were dead instead of standing up here reciting vows you did not mean. It was awkward, unbelievably awkward. For five years your beloved had been pining for you and you were too blind to see it.Â
Or it was all a sick joke being played on you. Which one was worse you did not know. Your entire family stood there, smiling, your mother nearly on the verge of tears seeing her only daughter preparing to start a family of her own⌠Gods, is this how Aegon felt all these years knowing he was the disappointment? You had been completely soiled and yet here you stand with your new husband⌠Aegonâs scent and markings werenât even fully off of you!Â
The entire ceremony was eerily calm. No random bursts of violence or protests to your union. Which means your uncle may or may not intend to murder and or maim this man tonight. Any sound of mind woman would be sick at the thought and run for aid⌠Obviously you were not at all that type of girl. Currently you were jumping out of your skin waiting for him to finally arrive and rescue you.Â
The only issue was, he never did show up. Not for the first kiss, not for the first dance, not for the speech his father was barely able to make or the feast itself⌠Did he intend to ignore you until it was all over?Â
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Aegon was unbelievably late to the wedding celebration. It was on purpose; he had a few loose strings he needed to tie before he arrived. For once he was sober and painstakingly polite as he walked in. It is fair to mention he had the servants meticulously fix his normal disheveled appearance so he could make an impression on you.Â
When Aegon first entered the great hall, his eyes were immediately drawn to the center of the room, where a grand table adorned in the finest gold sits on a raised dais. The royal table is flanked on either side by rich red tapestries, ornately embroidered with the sigils of the houses respectively. If only he could burn all of the dornish banners with Sunfyre.
As he moved throughout the room, Aegon was struck by the attention to detail. Everywhere you looked, you saw the sign of the union between two powerful houses, a testament to the joyous occasion for which this room has been decked out. It was fucking disgusting and Aegon wanted to puke on it.
The throne room was filled to the brim with Lords and Ladies alike from all across the realm. In the center, just in front of the throne sat the royal table. On the opposing sides of the room were the packed tables for the highly esteemed guests. The middle of the room was cleared for dancing and eventually the marriage itselfâŚ
He wished he could throw himself into the spikes of the throne. Instead, he had to slither his way through the crowds to make way to the table. Aegon was tired of waiting, He was tired of hearing your family gawk at the well-made match and he was especially tired of doing nothing. Your husband would be dealt with in due time, but he hadnât the patience to pretend not to be itching to speak to you, to touch you, anything but sit here and fucking watch.Â
He finally pulled himself up onto the podium and marched his way in front of you. You seemed stunned, miserable, in awe of his beauty. All of which were better than you being happy to be wed. "I'm insulted you have yet to ask me to dance, uncle." His lips twisted into his usual overly confident smile. âdidnât want to disturb the happy couple so soon.âÂ
Your eyes rolled into the back of your skull as you stuck out your hand waiting for him to take it. There were stares from certain people of course, those who knew what happened at Driftmark and potentially before. You didnât really care anymore.Â
For a moment, he was the perfect gentleman. Placing his hands in only the proper places and spinning you around the floor with ease. If you were a normal family, this would be a sweet interaction between relatives⌠But you were twisted and Targaryens. âYou know, Iâm putting more effort into this dance than my own wedding.â You scoffed, âOh joy, surely no one will find this suspicious at all.âÂ
Aegonâs face mirrored disgust as he glanced around you. âIs something the matter?â He rolled his eyes, "Your dearly beloved is gawking." You stood on your tiptoes to glance over his shoulder. Surely enough, the pretty dornish prince was smiling ear to ear watching youâŚ"Do something about it."Â
The mischievous look Aegon always wore as a child made its reappearance. It was quick, his hands grasping onto your face and pulling you so close you could feel his breath on your skin. âYou would let me dishonor you in front of all these people, bad princess.â You whined trying to lean up into his face, but he pulled back, âtsk tsk, canât let your husband see you so needy for my affection now, can we?âÂ
You wished he would stop referring to him as your husband. You wished he would stop reminding you of what waited for you after the night ended. âSister⌠Prince Aegon.â Jacaerys appeared from behind like a thief in the night. Immediately souring any positive mood Aegon could have been in. He stepped back, letting his hands fall to his sides. âNephew.â He gritted through his teeth with a subtle bow.Â
âPrincess, would you dance with me?â You glanced between the two and felt the humiliation of the situation beginning to seep in. Your mother was on the high podium with a faux smile and a death grip on her fork observing you⌠âOf course! Letâs go little brother.â
The dance was alright⌠But you couldnât get your mind off of the Lannister girl who was practically drooling at the sight of Aegon. He had slept with her before you knew this much. A secret part of you kept track of the whores he buried his cock inside, at least the rich ones. What happened next was honestly a blur, you couldnât remember a thing. Except that you may or may not have called her a whore and threatened her life if she dared to touch him⌠She scurried away with her hands on her and tears in her eyes.Â
You werenât jealous at all, only defending Helaenaâs honor.Â
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âPrince Aegon, pleasure to finally meet you,â If the night couldn't get any better the man of the hour had just willingly approached the man plotting against him⌠âPrince Quentyn, nice of you to believe this is a pleasure.â He smirked, âYour wife looks very beautiful.â Aegon patted his shoulders, âas does yours.âÂ
Quentyn winced, a rather noticeable scowl growing on his face. âSheâll never be yours, my prince.â
âYouâll see later tonight whose name she calls out while your cock is inside her.â He smiled a crooked grin. Quentynâs fists balled up next to his sides, Aegon wasnât one to directly fight, he was more behind the scenes type of criminal. There was no denying that he was strong, strong enough to crack this manâs skull. But that wasnât part of the plan⌠His feet moved fast, swiftly connecting his fist to Aegonâs jaw.Â
The crowd erupted behind them, lords and ladies screaming trying to escape the violence. Suddenly, Aegon stopped trying to attack and let the dornish cunt take charge. He tackled him to the ground and landed hit after hit⌠Was this really worth it, he thought to himself as blood started to trickle down his face. âYou- fucking- wastrel-â Aegon was laughing hysterically whilst getting his face beat in⌠All according to plan, he told himself.Â
âGet off of him!â You screeched in horror pulling at the man assaulting your lover. It wasnât meant to take a turn like it did. Quentyn, not recognizing you, turned and landed a hit square to your cheek knocking you on your ass. âProtect the princess!â Some guard shouted from behind whilst dogpiling onto your husband. He stared in horror at what he had done, you were gripping your cheek mortified, and Aegon was laying there covered in blood laughing his ass off like a psychopath.Â
The maester was applying ice to your cheekbone as you nervously picked at the seams on your dress. âWeâll have the marriage annulled by tomorrow.â Rhaenyra paced inside the room. âOn what grounds? Aegon was obviously egging him on,â Jacaerys groaned from the corner. âI could kill him and fix this entirely,â Daemon muttered watching his wife rage on.Â
The rest of the argument was drowned out, the only noise you could hear was the sound of Aegonâs jaw cracking. You didnât feel despair that the wedding was ruined, you didnât feel depressed that your husband had hit you⌠No, you felt completely fucking enraged.Â
Seeing Aegon harmed had awoken something in you. It was hateful and could not be quelled by a simple apology. He fucking beat him to a pulp in the midst of your wedding then had the audacity to lay a hand on you⌠It may or may not have awoken something because seeing Aegon laughing whilst covered in his own blood made your core heat up.Â
âCould I be given some milk of the poppy for the pain, mother?â Rhaenyra looked at you with the most sorrowful expression she could muster, âoh my sweet girl.â She cupped your cheeks in her hands and rubbed at the bruise that was forming. âGo fetch some tea for my daughter, Maester⌠Now!âÂ
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You were returning to your chambers in a rather dumbed down state. The medicine made your mind hazy, and your body feel light as a feather. It was like wine but far better with less of a hangover. The corridors were dark, all the excitement from tonight was far over. You hummed to yourself lazily, dreading the return to where your husband lay. Until you felt a hand wrap around your mouth and yank you into a hole in the wall you never knew was there.Â
You tried to scream but were quickly shushed by a voice that could only belong to one man. âAegon? What are you doing?â He smiled at you, rubbing the bruise on your cheek. âWill you go out for a walk with me?â You raised your eyebrow in distrust, âTo where?â Aegon grinned, almost too enthusiastically to trust, âthe dragonpit.âÂ
The most unexpected event of tonight wasnât the wedding brawl nor the injury that befall you. It was the fact you were riding on Sunfyre again, with Aegon holding onto your waist as you soared through the stars. It was a wedding gift, he claimed. As far as you knew Aegon never let anyone touch his dragon let alone ride with him, except you.Â
It was indescribable, the feeling of the wind rushing past your cheeks. The view of the city and the moon shining above you reflecting off his scales. You were giggling uncontrollably the entire flight listening to Aegon tell jests you hadnât heard in years. Whatever injury he had gained was long forgotten the second you took off. Whatever drama or chaos in the keep didnât exist outside. In the sky, you both were completely free.Â
You couldnât say how long you spent outside. Mayhaps it was an hour or two before Sunfyre descended onto a nearby beach surrounded by the most beautiful rock formations you had seen. âIs this your version of bridenapping me?â You teased while he helped you climb down the saddle. âItâs only kidnapping if you fight back.âÂ
He grasped your hand leading you across the sandy beach, showcasing the stars he supposedly, desperately wanted to show you. âI have an actual gift for you too.â You raised your eyebrows in disbelief, âIs it a ride home on Sunfyre?â Aegon laughed, genuinely laughed for the first time since youâve returned. He dug in his pocket searching for something⌠âI had it made years ago but never had the chance to properly give it to you.â
In his hand was the most beautiful golden ring in the shape of a dragon. âA ring? A Sunfyre ring?â Aegon grabbed your hand and slipped it on with ease, âIâm not that creative, you know this. it was meant to be something to remember me by when you left.â Tears were prickling your eyes once more. The fool kept the damned ring all these years and never mentioned it. âAegon⌠Be honest for once with me please. Do you still love me?âÂ
He paused, searching tirelessly for the right words to say. âI⌠There hasnât been a day in five years where I havenât thought about you at least once. There hasnât been an hour that something has not reminded me of you. There hasnât been a single night Iâve slept without seeing you⌠It isnât normal, itâs twisted and sick and cruel just like I am. No matter what you do to others, to me, to yourself. No matter if the world ends in a freeze or we are in the midst of a war of the ages⌠I believe Iâll always feel this⌠And I donât think Iâll be able to stop until the seven hells take me.âÂ
You sniffled; he always had such a roundabout way of saying things. âIâll always love you too.â He smiled genuinely, pulling you into a kiss so gentle yet so firm it made you forget all the dangers of the world, the drama, the potential war, your husband, everything was irrelevant except for you two, right now under the stars.
âWe still havenât done the bedding ceremony.â You whispered against his lips. His eyes lit up, âHave you always been so needy for me?â You didnât have time to protest before he was passionately colliding his lips against yours once more. You threw your arms around his neck and pulled him closer into you, making sure no part of you would ever be apart from him again.
His arms slipped below your waist as he lowered you onto the ground as gently as he could. Your legs fell open instinctively and his hands began to explore your body. It was vastly different from every other time youâve been together. It was gentle and loving, passionate and pleasurable without the pain.Â
Your bodies started to move in sync with each other, stripping away the clothes that hid your most intimate parts. His hands held you close to his chest, keeping you warm while you were exposed to the elements. You moaned into his mouth, kissing him passionately with a hunger you had forgotten existed.
He broke the kiss, gasping for air. You opened your eyes to see the moonlight reflected off his face, sometimes Aegon Targaryen looked more God than man. He moved to suckle on your neck as he ran his length against your slit.Â
âYouâre so beautiful,â He murmured huskily against your ear. He slowly pushed inside, filling you with his thickness. You gasped from the sudden sensation. He was so deep within you, so far reaching you almost felt like you could reach out and touch the stars.
His kisses trailed down your neck, nibbling, sucking, biting. He took his time thrusting inside of you with slow movements, appreciating every moment your bodies were entertained. He stopped mid-thrust, holding himself deep within you.
âI love you, Princess.â He whispered, his voice so tender and soft. You blushed like a child; it was silly to think his cock being inside you didnât make you feel as embarrassed as him telling you, his feelings. âAlways.â You murmured back. He kissed you deeply, his tongue slipping past your teeth.
You clung tight to his neck, your nails digging into his skin. He moved faster, his breaths coming in shorter and quicker. You moaned, your thighs trembling from the feeling of fullness. His fingers traced circles on your inner thigh, and then he moved to your clit.Â
He worked you effortlessly, eliciting soft whimpers and moans and love confessions. The world was a blur of fluorescent colors and smells, nothing mattered but you and Aegon. His climax came swiftly, almost right after your own. You begged for him to cum inside you, to fill you with his seed and he always did as you asked.Â
He collapsed on top of you, his weight heavy on your shoulders. You wrapped your arms around his back, feeling him relax. âAegonâŚâ You spoke his name softly, your head resting on his shoulder. âMhmm?â He said in a daze. âAgain?â You whispered, your lips brushing against his neck. He smirked, his cock twitching inside of you.
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Praying for a Better New Year!!!
Im a Black disabled 2S and my girlfriend a reconnecting Indigenous trans woman have been struggling almost continuously throughout the pandemic. We have gone thru lots of physical, emotional and systematic state violence and We both are at our breaking points.
And before i get deeper into this im genuinely asking yall DO NOT TRIGGER TAG this post as it will basically get minimal traction, because this is a donation post!
Many things have increased my/our financial load and stress in the past 6 months, my (still abusive) mother had a series of mini strokes/1 heart attack which led to me taking care of her, more bills and all the house work. Due to her still being abusive Ive chosen to start helping her from a far, because my mental stability has been worn thin and constantly on the back burner.
My partner @grumblybutch this year has gone through a lot of family abuse, transmisogyny, housing and food insecurity, which has really broken their spirit. With all thats going on in our lives as well as personal, cultural and spirtual reasons my girlfriend really wants to get dual citizenship and be able to live/work on their land again.
We have been cfunding already to make this happen but recently we have a had 3 major set backs to getting my partner dual citizenship.
1. We have found mold INSIDE the walls which we cant fix until the pnw rain stops, we need to buy 2 HEPA air filters for the rooms until we can fix the whole walls, because my mother and I have breathing issues, approx $300-$350
2. My ex boss literally stole $455 from under me right before the holiday break, hasn't paid me for a very long time, so until I get that money we have had to dip into the flight/citizenship fund, but even then we havent been able to get much in the mean of groceries or necessities
3. A few days ago my partner attempted suicide due to all the stressors life has put them through this year, and while this isnt an initial monetary set back, we are going to prioritize our mental health as much as possible, esp my girlfriends after this. We are looking for treatment options for them atm but since theyre out of state we have to pay out of pocket for the treatment they need.
Our original goal to get the funds for tickets/citizenship was January 7th but Its clear that with 7 days left, and 3 major set backs we will not be meeting our goals by then
We are going to use what funds we have left to get some necessities and basics for the house. And hope to re raise the money for tickets and for the HEPA filters and mental healthcare my girlfriend really needs.
our new goal is $1,800, due to the various setbacks, but when I get paid Ill be saving some to go toward our goal as well.
I truly just want to be able to breath, eat and keep us safe before I leave with my lover back to her land, This is all very important to us, thank you for reading.
CA: $sleepyhen or $grumblybear
VN: wildwotko or XochiRose
DM @grumblybutch for PP
#twoc#land back#community care#two spirit#lgbt crowdfund#mutual aid#please dont dm me or my girlfriend abt shit rn#were both mentall fragile
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SECRETS 4 - PEDRI
last part đđ
lmk if you guys want more insta posts
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mikkykiemeney
rain and anna đ
tagged: annalewandowska
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yourinsta â¤ď¸
mikkykiemeney missing you at the games â¤ď¸
annalewadowska missing you lots!
frenkiedejong đ
mikkykiemeney â¤ď¸
user726 nah too sweet
user62 good game frenkie!!!
user1029 i love how we havent seen Y/n interact with anyone for about a year and then she comes back under mikkys post
user119 its too adorable
user910 maybe because theyre family
user8190 I'm just worried that her and pedri broke up
user5193 nah me too
user002 everything says that they broke up, move on dude
siramartinezc đâ¤ď¸
mikkykiemeney â¤ď¸
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annalewandowska
babysitting with mikky â
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tagged: pedri, mikkykiemeney
liked by yourinsta, mikkykiemeney and 537,819 others.
mikkykiemeney funniest babysitting of my life
annalewandowska i agree
user9710 you two are so prettyyyyy
user552 I love the fit â¤ď¸
madridxx Hala Madriddd
user91022 shut the fuck up
user113 no need to spread hate dude.
user019 I was there too!!!!
user227 tell pedri to come back from injury
user813 might have to tell that y/n
user0122 true
user006 who are you guys babysitting?
user8103 ?
user729 am I the only one who noticed that she tagged pedri
barcel19 maybe just an accident
ynamor919 maybe its his đ¤ˇđźââď¸
miamor6 yeah definitely
user772 FRR I NOTICED TOO
user729 i was like hold onnn.....
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doesn't matter the loss, we stay blau grana.
Visca Barça
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pedri te amo hermosa â¤ď¸
yourinsta Te amo por siempre
user628 awww
user910 thank god they're still together
user539 frrrrr
user819 comeback of the year
user667 FRR
user551 I'm so glad they didn't break up
joaofelix79 still see no blue hair y/n
yourinsta gah dahmn it's been a year
joaofelix79 i wont forget...
pedri me neither...
user445 you know after the clasico loss joao and pedri shouldn't be joking around but they are...
user601 you should rather focus on keeping pedri healthy
user0193 so rude for no reason..
user28 she isn't the one who got him injured dude
user729 shut the fuck up
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yourinsta
proof that I'm alive
tagged: pedri
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mikkykiemeney đ
yourinsta â¤ď¸
user7628 okay but didnt she post those pictures before????
user810 omg youre right
user992 yeah like ages ago
frenkiedejong â¤ď¸
yourinsta â¤ď¸
user920 SHES BACK?????
user810 FINALLYYYY
user662 missed you babes
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barcaupdates
Pedri and his girlfriend are reportedly still dating, after she dissapeared for almost a year and neither pedri nor pedris friends or family wanted to talk about her, it was clear that they broke up.
However today Y/n posted a picture of the stadium during the el clĂĄsico in which Barcelona suffered their first loss of the season against real madrid at home.
Fans immediately picked up on the idea of two of them still dating or rather dating again.
Two hours after she published the post Pedri left a comment, in which he said "te amo hermosa â¤ď¸"
It's confirmed that they're still dating!
liked by user6289 and 28,910 others.
user910 IM SO HAPPYYYY
marcel92 đđ
barcaa1899 Pedri gets the hoessss
user829 stfu
user1193 shes not a hoe
user001 why does everyone love Y/n so much suddenly
user17 I was thinking the same...
user991 She's iconic
user019 okay but Pedri on that pic đ
user911 girl youre too real
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missed my loves â¤ď¸
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pedri my two girls â¤ď¸
yourinsta â¤ď¸
user910 SORRY?
user719 DID I MISS A CHAPTER WHAT?
mikkykiemeney You ate with that fit
yourinsta HAHA thank youuu I had the best stylist @pedri
pedri what can I say
joaofelix79 why didn't you suggest blue hair
yourinsta please leave me alone
user917 HAHAHA
annalewandowska missed you during the games, I'm so glad youre back!! đâ¤ď¸
yourinsta I missed you too!!! â¤ď¸
pablogavi Great support I saw you cheering from the pitch
yourinsta I was cheering for pedri tho not for you
user729 Ate and left no crumbs.
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pedri
getting ready... đ
liked by joaofelix79, yourinsta and 1,621,187 others.
yourinsta muy guapo â¤ď¸
pedri gracias hermosa â¤ď¸
joaofelix79 ou ou ou...
pablogavi đđ¤
pedri gracias hermanito
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para siempre đ°ââď¸đ¤ľââď¸
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yourinsta para siempre â¤ď¸
pedri â¤ď¸
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yourinsta
post wedding...
now back to my old life đ
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pedri â¤ď¸ (pinned)
yourinsta â¤ď¸
pablogavi wish you all the best!!!
yourinsta thank you â¤ď¸
user820 nahh too sweet
user772 wait hold on what
ynamor AAAAA WHAT??
user627 ITS CONFIRMED
user192 I cant believe it
user628 IM SO GLAD Y/N HAS HER COMMENTS TURNED ON BECAUSE WHAT
user736 REAL
user991 NAH WHAT
user4155 MY JAW DROPPED
user662 wish you two all the best
user729 dont tell me she disappeared because she was pregnant...
user917 is everyone gonna ignore the thrid slide?????
user114 cuties
ynamor AAAA
user028 bro is still screaming
user916 dont tell me they have a kid.........
user1537 girl I'm in love with your dress
joaofelix79 wish you three all the best đ
yourinsta thank you Joao â¤ď¸
mikkykiemeney they grow up so fast... đâ¤ď¸
yourinsta aww come on â¤ď¸
frenkiedejong i swear you were just 5 yesterday
yourinsta crazy how time works đ¤Żđ¤Ż
fcbarcelona We wish you two all the best and much of luck! đâ¤ď¸
ferrantorres Good luck you two â¤ď¸
pedri thanks hermano đ¤đťâ¤ď¸
lamineyamal good luck đ¤đť
yourinsta thank youu
pedri thanks mate
user701 i love how pedri turned british
user6927 FRRR
frenkiedejong might have to beat pedri up if he fucks up đ
pedri i wont, promise
frenkiedejong hope so for you
user829 I've legit never seen frenkie mad
user227 fr he just seems so pure all the time
user881 WHAT A BABY??
user929 DONT TELL ME I'M THE ONLY ONE SO EXCITED
#barca#gavi#pablo gavi#fc barcelona#football#futbol#fanfic#mustread#espana#gavi x reader#pedri/gavi#pedri x reader#pedrito#pedri smut#pedri gonzalez#pedri#instagram#instapost#social media#barcelona spain#barca fc#barcelona#espaĂąa#futbĂłl#wedding#post#el clasico#el clĂĄsico
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â LET'S DANCE
slughorn decides to play matchmaker for the day, leading to your public humiliation (2.4k)
contains: idiots in love. very loosely based on the david bowie song. swearing. possibly ooc sirius. bit of an existential crisis ig. slughorn. sirius has jokes (bad ones). not proofread
kashafâs note: havent posted in ages hopefully u like this
YOU LONGED FOR summerâs embrace, and the warm reprieve from the demands of school, yet you are afraid of what it might bring. the longer you try to savor the last of your sixth year, and dream of the carefree hours under never-ending sunlight soon within your grasp, the harder it becomes to ignore the continuously grim headlines of the daily prophet presented at the breakfast table every morning. even amidst your friendsâ laughter, the looming shadow of anti-muggle-born propaganda pushed forward by unseen hands propels them to dissect and debate on almost molecular levels, each point characterized by a bite or a clang of a fork.Â
the end of your sixth year brings unshakeable exhaustion as constant vigilance weaves itself into everyday life within the ancient walls of the castle, adding to the suddenly rigorous course load attempting to prepare your year for their upcoming n.e.w.t.s. hogwarts, once a haven, now demanded a watchful eye on every staircase and dark corridor, as the hallways echoed with ghostly rumors and whispers found their homes on the staircases.Â
âmare, stop tryna murder slughorn with your eyes; he might catch on,â you hissed at mary under your breath, elbowing her discreetly, as you try to appear focused on slughornâs lesson.Â
âmaybe heâll learn his lesson and stop splitting us up,â mary responded resolutely, never once breaking eye contact with the balding pudgy man who, in a horribly clichĂŠd fit of inspiration, had begun assigning partners to brew amortentia in the double-potions period you had been blessed with today. Â
the somewhat impulsive decision of âjames potter and lily evansâ had you and mary turning to each other, eyebrows raised as you wondered quite how thick slughorn could be. in general, no one knew what was going on between james and lily. at this point, you surmised neither did they. they had had odd bouts of camaraderie, quickly replaced with civil hostility, resulting in a continuous loop of poorly disguised affection or hatred, like a roulette wheel deciding which lily and james to match up each day.Â
you prayed to merlin, hoping whatever disastrous infliction that had befallen slughorn for him to pair james with lily would not contagiously affect his decision for you, and that slughorn would come to his senses and let you spend the amortentia lesson with your sanity intact. alas, merlin had no such qualms about leaving you to fend for yourself as the anticipation you felt when slughorn called your name quickly soured to horror when he followed it up with none other than âsirius blackâ.
despite the number of mutual friends sharedâafter your friend groups warmed up to each other this yearâthe two of you had never gotten along. youâve since chalked it up to his propensity for being aggravating without rhyme or reason, seemingly driven by an inherent desire to extract reactions. his words, laced with a mirth hard to ignore, are like finely crafted spells designed to unravel your patience. the rest of the schoolâs population are able to dismiss him, but your inability to ignore him has become something of an enigma.
feeling siriusâs presence next to you, without turning to face him, you asked, crossing your arms over your chest, âam i gonna have to remain vigil over our cauldron in case it blows up the minute my back is turned?âÂ
âas flattering as it is to hear you admit that youâve been watching me over the yearsââ here, you let out a derisive snort, causing sirius to pause, and raise his eyebrows at you in challenge, âwhen have you seen me jinx my own cauldron?â he continued, a smirk tugging at his lips as he loosened his tie even further.Â
you groaned, finally making eye contact with him, unsurprised to see that all-too-familiar glint in his grey eyes, âcan we please just get this over with already?â
in your six shared years of schooling, you have always distantly conceded him to be handsome, his features falling into the realm of casual observance amidst the whirlwind of classes, and quidditch matches. yet, the way he stares down at you in this moment stirs something within you, the unfamiliar fluttering awakening a newfound awareness.Â
his locks of black hair fall delicately in his eyes, as if afraid to obstruct your view. the silver gleam of his piercings catch the glow of the potions bubbling around you, an intricate constellation along the curve of his earsâa bold declaration of his rebelliousness. the smile tugging at the corners of his lips is enigmatic, as if heâs aware that heâs just shifted something fundamental between you.Â
âarenât you moving a little too fast?â sirius continued when you turned to him confused, âtake me out to dinner first.âÂ
you glared at him as understanding dawned on you, âiâm literally going to murder you if you donât shut up, i swear to merlin.â
âarenât you kinky?âÂ
you spin around, pointing your wand at his jugular, watching his adamâs apple bob up then down as he threw his hands up in surrender, an easy-going grin gracing his features, âwoah there, guess i touched a nerve, huh?â
you know heâs baiting you, you know his talent for finding weaknesses and exploiting them all too well, but you canât help yourself when it comes to him, falling into the trap carefully set out for you, biting out a retort before youâre aware of it, âyou wonât have any nerves left when iâm done with you.â
sirius grins, noâbares his teeth at you, wolfishly, and suddenly you understand all of jamesâs dog-related jokes over the years.Â
the two of you remain uncharacteristically quiet for the remainder of the potion, youâre surprised by siriusâs begrudging help, and soon enough, youâre sliding the last ingredient in.Â
the potion looks right to you, with the mother-of-pearl sheen slughorn gushed about for all of the class period, but you canât tell because your senses were invaded by the distinct smell of cologne causing you to wrinkle your nose as you eyed sirius apprehensively.Â
he seemed to be having the same predicament as you currently, perfect brows furrowed in thought as his eyes glance over the potion.Â
âi canât tell if we did it right,â you venture.Â
âme neither,â he shrugs, âall i can smell is your perfumeâby the way, did you have to use the whole bottle?â
âi could say the same for youâthe room reeks of your cologne, asshole.â
âmore like your perfumeââ
âi literally ran out this morningââ
âbecause you dumped the whole bottle on yourself?â
âliterally pot calling the kettle blackââ
âi am a blackââ
âi literally hate you so muchââ
a sharp, disapproving cough splits the two of you apart, not only had your argument grown embarrassingly loud in its procession, but it had also orchestrated a gravitational pull between the two of you. the result had been proximity that bordered on the intimate, your personal space evaporating until you were mere inches apart. the ignominy of being publicly seen at sirius blackâs throat was nothing compared to the humiliation that followed after slughornâs unexpected interruption.
slughornâs rotund figure regards the two of you with a mixture of curiosity and mild exasperation, his mustache twitching slightly in rhythm with the exaggerated rise and fall of his breath, âmy dears,â he begins, his tone a blend of genuine concern and theatrical flair, âwhat seems to be the problem? your potion appears to be brewed successfully, i can see the characteristic smoke spirals, and the mother-of-sheen pearl.â
flushed with embarrassment that seems to spread through you like a fever, you mumble your response lowly, âsorry, professor, but we couldnât tell because of external factors.â
the air in the room seems to thicken as the collective gaze of your classmates turns toward the two of you, their eyes capturing the awkwardness with an unabashed curiosity that makes you wish you could use a time-turner to escape this particular moment of public humiliation.
slughornâs hearty laughter fills the room like a boisterous charm, âoho, i see the problem now, my dear,â he addresses you, his eyes crinkling with amusement, âtell me, what do you smell in the amortentia?â
his words hang in the air, and the room's atmosphere has shifted from tense to expectant.
confused, you play with the hem of your skirt as you wonder the relevancy of his question, your gaze flickering uncertainly, tracing patterns in the stone floor as you respond, âum, cologne, leather, and brownies, professor.â
the room, for a moment, becomes a canvas of uncomfortable silence, and you're resolutely avoiding making eye contact with anyone else in the room. Â
satisfied with your response, slughorn pivots his attention to sirius, a gleam of intrigue dancing in his eyes, "now you, my boy," he encourages, his voice a velvet stroke, "go on, tell us what you smell."
a twist of surprise clenches within you as you expect sirius to brush off the request, to summon a sarcastic remark as his defense. yet, to your astonishment, he complies, his fingers raking through his hair, âperfume, shampoo, and petrol, professor."
slughorn nods sagely, his lips curving into a satisfied grin that crinkles the corners of his eyes. he claps his hands together once, the sound a punctuation to his assessment. the atmosphere in the room has shifted from suspenseful to charged, every student suspended in the tension of his next words.
"my dears," he addresses the class with the air of a professor on the brink of a profound lesson, "you smell each other in the amortentia, that is your problem."
the previously stifling silence is breached as the dungeon is painted with a symphony of snickers. the air seems to vibrate with laughter, and there's even a bold wolf whistle, which you're almost certain is courtesy of james. yet, amidst this collective amusement, all you can feel is disconcertment, the weight of attention heavy upon you.
as if merlin himself takes pity on your predicament, slughorn's laughter ripples through the room, warm and infectious, as he claps his hands together again, âmy young scholars, it's time for practicality. bottle your amortentia, label it, and kindly leave it on my desk before making your exit."
with that, your hasty exit from the dungeon turns into a veritable escape, as you shoulder your bag against your side. every nerve in your body screams for invisibility, to become nothing more than a background figure. however, as you weave your way through the corridors, hoping to dissolve into the anonymity of the crowd, you're struck by sirius blackâs unwavering dedication in trailing behind you despite each step you take further into the deepening throng of students.Â
just before you can approach the fat ladyâs portrait, a hand closes on your elbow and a startled gasp escapes you as you are abruptly yanked into a hidden alcove, your heartbeat thundering in your ears. your eyes adjust to the sudden darkness, but before you can react, a large hand firmly pressed against your mouth, thick silver rings digging uncomfortably against your lips. glaring at your kidnapper, you folded your arms across your chest.Â
acutely aware of the proximity, of the scent of cologne now much fainter than in the dungeons, you wait with a mixture of frustation and curiosity. sirius leans as far back as the alcove will let him, which is not much, but at least heâs no longer lurking over you like a predator staring down its prey.Â
âthe fuck do you want?â you could care less if you smelled him or if he smelled you in the amortentia, because as far as youâre concerned, the two of you can continue to dance around each other in the way you have perfected over the years. in your delicate ballet, he is the master of light-hearted jests flickering like fireflies in the summer dusk, and you are the recipient of his playful pranks and ceaseless banter, carrying an unspoken agreement, holding onto the game you both secretly treasured.Â
its predictability is comforting, the way his remarks are as reliable as the rising sun, and your laughter feels like a shared secret between only the two of you. the amortentia's revelations feel like an unnecessary intrusion, an attempt to place confusing labels on your little game.
âgo out with me,â sirius levels a roguish grin at you, his grey eyes dance with the mischief you are so accustomed to seeing.Â
all you want is to say yes, to revel in stolen glances, the exhilaration of shared laughter, the brushing of your fingers together, and strolling carefree across the castle grounds, but your world isnât one satisfied by teen romances. itâs one where every word and connection is scrutinized under the weight of a society where love and friendship are tainted by its fixation on blood status.Â
you cannot bring yourself to look into his eyes, twinkling with genuine interest, feeling a pang of bitterness as you consider the reality of your world. to say yes would be to risk both your safety and that of your friends, and who knows if the ensuing conflict would leave either of you unscathed.Â
âi canât,â you still cannot bring yourself to look him in the eye as you deliver this unseen rejection with a bittersweet smile, torn between longing for normalcy and the harsh lessons youâve learned with every picture and name added to the growing list of victims.Â
âwhy not?â sirius asks, confusion coloring his features, as he searches your gaze, attempting to make eye contact.Â
you donât know how to explain without seeming as if youâre getting ahead of yourself, thinking of the distant future, but you try anyway, wringing your hands together, âwe donât know whatâll happen in a year or two, sirius. we donât even know if weâll be alive after we graduate.â
his hands cradle your chin, forcing you to look him in the eye, the cool press of his metal rings against your burning skin is soothing, âiâm asking for right now,â he continues, softly, gentler than you have ever known him, his gaze holding yours in quiet intensity, âfor you to live for yourselfââ
the uncertain future shapes into one of possibility, and so, without conscious thought, you surge forward to kiss him, clumsier than you would have liked, and messier than you have ever known, but it feels right.Â
âso, thatâs a yes for hogsmeade this weekend?â
Š sayoneee on tumblr. do not repost, translate, plagiarize or claim any of my works as your own.
#sirius black x reader#sirius black x y/n#sirius black x you#sirius black oneshot#sirius black imagine#hogwarts sirius#sirius x reader#sirius x y/n#sirius x you#sirius imagine#sirius black fluff#sirius oneshot#sirius fluff#sirius black one shot#marauders x reader#sirius black#sirius black x yn#sirius x yn#sirius black fanfiction#sirius black x fem!reader#marauders x y/n#marauders x yn#sirius black imagines#sirius black fic#sirius black fanfic#harry potter imagines#marauders imagines#marauders x you#marauders fluff#kashaf ki likhai
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That new TGS update made me physically ill holy shit! Spoilers under cut
I feel like we all knew that this would happen but I wasnât actually ready for it, Like god Lanyon you truly were screwed over
THIS MADE ME LIKE AGAHBAGWGAVEVS!!!
Also after this the âI wanted to be the person you needed me to beâ makes me just feel so agshabaggas JEKYLLLL!!! It broke my heart and im still not ok.
Even after jekyll admitted it was him Lanyon still wanted to find an excuse how it couldnât be at first and itâs just like, Lanyon! You canât be doing this to me man!
Also, just, Jekyll saying that Hyde was a mistake is a punch to the gut, because i get how he can think that but Hyde is still like a part of Jekyll he separated from himself! Does he think that part of himself was a mistake? Or does he think that ever separating Hyde from him was a mistake? Because these two things can have very different meanings.
If he thinks that part of himself was a mistake: he hates a part of himself that he cant control which is something a lot of people experience but its still not ideal, But its also Fucked up, Because Hyde has become his own person and Jekyll is acting like he Dosent exist, like Hyde canât hear all of this
But on the other hand if he thinks it was a mistake separating Hyde from himself might mean that he can see that maybe it would be better if he still had that part with him and this shows his growth from who he used to be. Finally realizing that it still makes him, him, again something some people need to overcome in real life.
Though it is most likely the first option but i can only hope its the second
I know that Lanyonâs reaction is probably the most important but I really want to see Jaspers and Rachels reactions too because we havent even gotten a glimpse of them in the background and itâs just heightening my curiosity, because Rachel was close to both of them so sheâs the one im most interested in after Lanyon.
ANYWAY! BACK TO THE PAIN!!!
Im going to be honest i think Lanyon is valid for this because yes it has been 2 years and He and Jekyll have been friends for long enough to where you would have this trust base relationship.
Also they just got together romantically which would fuck up Lanyons mind even more. Like way to go Jekyll breaking the foundation of trust in a relationship in your first day of being in one. I can see how he might feel like his feelings are being played with, Hyde would avoid him, and ive been mentioning this so often but like if someone you thought was your friend and they had an Alter ego that avoided you wouldnt you be hurt?
I feel like im shitting on Jekyll a lot, and I donât mean to because I like Jekyll!! Dont get me wrong!!! But you have to admit that it is his fault, heâs not always the victim, its the people around him whoâs being affected by his actions. It was Jekyllâs choice to continue to drink the potion, it was Jekyllâs choice not to tell Lanyon, there was no outside force making him do this.
And you canât say that Hyde was making him continue to drink the potion because for 1; i doubt that in the beginning Hyde would be able to bother him that much only starting out, im sure it was another thing that developed over time with the potions use and 2; as we saw Jekyll couldâve thrown away those potions on his own terms at any time, he didnât have to make more.
I just wanted to make this known because i feel like it needs to, do i like Jekyll? Yes. Do i feel bad for him? Yes. Do i think heâs the victim in the situation? No, because of the reasons above. But really, I donât hate Jekyll, and its not like its always his fault, no, but in this situation it was his actions that lead to this.
I got really sidetracked so heres some of the other images i saved because this is getting really long.
Them both crying Makes this so much worse like, these two almost never show their emotions around people, and now in front of everyone they are about to breakdown, it just makes my chest tight, God dammit Sage this Chapter was painful
#tgs#tgs mondays#the glass scientists#tgs update#tgs lanyon#tgs Jekyll#tgs hyde#ace rants#gonna go die in a hole now#đŤś#i put a lot of thought in thus one#its just in my mind
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â˘Sweat dreamsâ˘
Morpheus takes care of his sleepless lover⥠(morpheus x gn!reader)
Prompt: so many things got pilled up so you're unable to sleep properly for the last days, and morpheus decides it has been enough.
Tw: anxiety, trauma(?, fluff, comfort.
Its has been a hell of a month, maybe even a hell of years.
You'd haved never had a peacefull life, but lately life seems harder than ever, days feel longer and even more tiring, that not even the soft carress of my lover seems to erase the frown on my face.
Morpheus, dream, my love, he has always helped me feel normal, calm, wanted. So i cant help but feel guilty of being so distant from him lately, knowing full well he always tries to help me in any way he can.
But i cant really help it, can't i?
Work has been anything but gentle, with the amount of late doing work i have, im almost restless, not really taking breaks ethier.
Morpheus was anxious, scared even, he knew your work was tiring but this looks extreme.
Its been days since he saw you in your dreams before youd woken up a few hours later, and even in your own dreams you looked exhausted with dark eyebags and a marked scowl on your pretty face
So he had enough
Everyone has bad days so he though youll be okay in a few days, but it has been weeks, so he decided to visit you when he finally had time to. As this not only worried your fisical state but your mental state too.
He remebers years ago when youll end breaking down in his arms, telling him how you couldnt go on like this in tears.
He'd never wish to see you so sadly lonely again, it would personaly pain him too much.
So after he had remotily finished his work he was running to see you.
You where comsuded by another work fit at 3 am when you heard a knock to your aparment door, in confusion of who might be visiting, you shouted a wait to the door while stoping your work and rushing to the door*
"Who is it?" You move your hair to look more presentable trough your stress.
"Its me dear,-" at hearing his voice after so much time you open the door without second thougth, not letting him finish his phrase, seeing your certain tall, blue eyed lover.
"-morpheus." He chuckles at your eageress to see him, but quickly noticed your tired look, unsurpsingly.
"My dea-" "morpheus!, what are you doing here?, so late... is everything alright?" Your voice quickly changes to worry while you question the reason of his visit.
"No, no, dear, everything its okay i just..." he sighes before saying "missed you, we havent seen eachother in a few weeks and i have noticed you havent being coming to the dreaming a lot ethier" he finishes while coming inside as you opened the door more for him to come in.
"Yes i- i have been busy lately, im sorry love, i think i didnt realise we havent seen eachothee in that much..."
"Theres nothing to be sorry about my dear, i know you're stressed, i want to help you" he notices the amount of work in your desk "and its quite late too, you need rest, and love. come on to bed now" he holds your arm to the bedroom.
"B-but morpheus! Theres to much to fini-" "no, to bed now, tomorrow youll finish your chores, when you're well rested"
You sigh giving up, as you cant convice the dream lord of anything especially about your care, and because the offer didnt sound so bad.
Morpheus gides you into bed before turning of the lights in the office, going to laid with you and give you your well needed rest. He goes to hold you as you get more comfortable next to him, already feeling sleep taking over you while feeling dream kissing your forehead and rubbing your head as you cuddle with him.
Before you knew it you were magicly falling asleep in your lovers embrace, feeling some beat of calmness in a long time, before hearing some soft whispers of your lover, knowing youll get some enticing dreams tonight
"Sleep well my love, ill see you in a moment".
#x male reader#morpheus x male reader#morpheus x reader#morpheus sandman#the sandman#dream of the endless#dream x male reader#dream x reader#x male reader fluff#this was longer than expected#morpheus x reader comfort#sandman x male reader#gay#fem aligned dni
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Look after you
â After your life came crashing down on you, ending your career a little early, Jenson stayed with you to help. His gentleness still surprises you, every time. Even after all these years.
â Word count - 1147
â I have synesthesia! Here's 5 songs that I associate with this fic - "Brighter side of grey" - Five Finger Death Punch, "Look after you" - The Fray, "Yours again" - Red, "Wherever you will go" - The Calling, "18" - One Direction.
â Warnings - Mentions/descriptions of a crash, trauma, injuries. Post-TBI epileptic seizures. Age gap (around 10 years). Can definitely be a heavy emotional load in general.
â Separate warning - The way the seizures are written about in this fic... its based on my own personal experience, or what i was told by people who have witnessed the episodes. It can and will look different for everyone<3
â Jenson Button x driver!reader
He never thought that this would happen, but so did you.
One moment, he was talking with you right before the race - you were smiling, grinning even, laughing at something silly he said. He found it awfully cute how you would always slide your tongue out to lick your lips when you were trying to put a stop your laughter - to which he always resisted to just... Poke it. He was never that impulsive, but you were adorable enough to bring that side out of him.
The next, he was driving by a crumpled up car, covered by smoke. Which turned out to be, unfortunately, yours. People swore that they had never seen someone get out of their car at the speed Jenson did. He still remembers getting to hold your almost motionless body in his arms, your light threatening to fade away. But you fought throught it, with him right by your side - at first he swore that the break he's taking is only 'till you get better. But even when you did, he stayed. And, at the end of the season, he announced his early retirement. All these years later, he's still right by your side.
"Mmm, yes. I suppose you're right." He answers you in a voice that feels like a deep rumble, with a small, warm smile on his lips. He was sat with a laptop on his lap, and you cuddled up right into his side, reading a book, ranting away about all the different theories that appeared in your brain. You havent been feeling well for the past couple of days, at all. And you both knew what this meant - a seizure. Its just that neither of you knew when - so he let you cuddle up to him and be clingy. Not that he doesnt do that on a daily basis already.
"He gifted her the bee tights, Jenson. The damn tights. Tell me he's not in love with her, I dare you." your determined voice shoots back at him, earning a hearty chuckle out of Jenson. He found your rants adorable - he could listen to them anytime, anywhere. Your passion levels for the smallest things could get to insane heights, and he admired that.
He carries on with his work, and you - with reading the book. You loved the book, really. So much that you found yourself reading it for the third time.
Slowly, but surely, you felt your ability to focus slip away, the words on the page merging and melting away. You grew more and more confused, your anxiety spiking up as well. Your muscles stiffened - you were starting to feel like you couldnt move.
Jenson doesnt notice immediately, but still pretty quickly - he realises that you have stopped talking, like youre not even there anymore. He furrows his eyebrows ever so slighty, and peels his eyes away from the screen to glance at you - his heart sinks as he sees that familiar look in your eyes. The seizure finally caught up to you.
The laptop quickly gets abandoned as he puts it away on the coffee table by the couch, his hand immediately going up to your forehead to check your temperature. Your skin felt cold to the touch, but he knew better than that. You were about to burn up.
With a quiet sigh, he takes the book out of your hands (he knew how upset you got if you ever lost a page). He's careful not to hurt you or trigger anything else as he shifts you onto his lap, now letting your body lay on top of his fully, pulling your head to his chest. He knew that all he could do was wait it out, and he did - but he couldnt help but think that he could do something else to make this all better. Something more. He looks at you with the admiration in his eyes he has always had, rubbing your back gently. This felt comfortable, this felt familiar. What once was scary and uncomfortable became a huge part of his routine.
Eventually, you start coming back from it. You're not even fully present right now, but he can see the signs - your neck twitching ever so slightly, and you starting to blink again. You take a sudden breath in as you become even more present - for the last few moments of the seizure you even stopped breathing. Which wasnt new, so it was nothing to think about too much.
Jenson could tell that something was off about this one though - you looked way too pale. Too weak. Your movements didnt resume to normal immediately after. And, before he knew it, a tear ran down his cheek. Then another. A few must have dropped on your face - because you slowly turned your head to look at him. You find yourself leaning against his shoulder, your face right by his neck. You never grew tired of seeing his face out of nowhere - it almost felt like teleportation.
Youre still looking up at him, your gaze slipping to his eyes. As much as you hated to see him cry... God, was he such a pretty crier. This time, only his eyes had that slight glimmer from the moisture. But the other times... The ones that left his eyes a little red, soaked, and puffy, his hair messy, and the constant sniffing... it sounded too strange to voice out loud, but it looked so gorgeous.
You stare at him for a few more seconds, all those thoughts running through your brain. If you ever had a brilliant idea, it wasnt near as good as the one you pulled right now - youre now gently kissing his tears away. You kiss his face on each and every spot that you see a tear on. The wetness of them coats your dry lips, and the saltiness of them burns ever so slightly. But you cant bring yourself to care - if that meant that youll get to see him smile.
And he does - he feels your soft, warm lips all over his face, and the feeling brings a warm, wide smile out of him. The feeling to him felt like no other - you were usually pretty aggressive with the way you kiss, so this was a stark contrast. In the most positive way possible. He felt a little bad though - you were the one that needed the comfort and his support, but here you were - attacking him with the soft kisses.
You notice a tear you managed to miss earlier roll onto his lips - and you stare at them for a few seconds too long. He lets out a soft chuckle, and plants a tender kiss onto your own. It felt right.
You'll be alright.
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I googled the Belladonna of Sadness and: âTo take revenge, she makes a pact with the Devil himself who appears as an erotic sprite and transforms her into a black-robed vision of madness and desire.â (Femto, the blessed king of longing) âThe spirit visits Jeanne once again and rapes her in exchange for more richesâ (Gennon and Griffith) âthe baron offers to make Jeanne the second-highest noble in the land, but she refuses, saying she wishes to take over the entire world.â (Ok Miura HAD to have seen this, right? WtfâŚGriffithâŚ)
omg if you havent watched it check it out, check it out, check it out!!!!!
i think i read somewhere that Miura was inspired by it in writing Berserk? but i cant say that with full confidence...
but the parallels!!! the story goes even deeper than what you said! its been almost a year since ive watched it, so my memory of it is not 100%, but ill talk about what i can remember!
(spoilers ofc)
it contains incredible artwork and its set in pre-revolution France(remind you of another manga berserk was inspired by?) and it talks about a beautiful woman- The Most Beautiful Woman Alive!!!- who has just gotten married to the love of her life! but the marriage can only be made legal by the king/ the baron of the lands(an aristocrat of sorts i dont recall properly) who immediately as he sees her, takes her and rapes her. what should have been the happiest night of her life spent with her lover, is spent being defiled, helpless as she is to fight her fate; a poor powerless woman against the all powerful aristocrat. she becomes someone else; traumatised and desperate and her husband cannot look at her the same anymore. but amid all the grief regarding what was taken from her and how she was changed, arises a new emotion: rage. she wants power. she wants vengance. for every petal of hers that was wilted, she wants to birth a new thorn.
now if you're trying to draw parallels, ig this can be a perfect parallel with griffith getting tortured by the king. the helplessness and the toll of it all. the way how it affects his decision-making in the series.
but now as our beautiful woman is stuck in her bottomless desparate anguish, a new character appears before her: a small evil spectre! he looks her straight in the eyes and says. i am you. and you are me. give everything you have to me and i will grant you what you wish for: a chance to make things even. she is poor, she has nothing to give. so the spectre takes her body. defiles her the same way. and she is granted success. she is granted money. her husband and her reap the benefits of her new powers. now the aristocrat is feeling threatened by her status, tries to appease her-offers her lands and riches beyond a simple commoners imagination. but she, unbothered, responds:"money? lands? im not interested in something as small as that, beacuse im going to take over the world." appalled by her ambition, the aristocrat orders she be exiled as a witch, never to return. this whole time the spectre just grows bigger and bigger. stronger and stronger. the more she hates and gains and succeeds, the louder it roars. the more angry and resentful she becomes, the hungrier it grows. its goal: to break her strong spirit piece by piece, little by little. and when she is exiled and thoroughly broken, it reveals himself: he is actually the devil. he asks: what do you crave? he knows what she wants: power. she asks him to make her into a devil, into a wicked, ugly, wrathful woman who will strike fear into the hearts of anybody who crosses her. she doesnt want to be desirable anymore. her beauty was her cage, her curse. and thats what the specter does. transforms her into an all powerful demon.
but as she aweakens from the transformation, she notices that she has become lovlier, more desirable than she ever was before, an otherworldly, overwhelming type of beauty. she anguishes over this. asks for explanations. she wanted to be terrible, scary and full of rage and anger. to this, the devil responds: "who says that anger and rage cannot be beautiful?"
in berserk, this could be a parallel with the godhand offering griffith his option to sacrifice at his lowest point, and griffith's transformation into a devil -femto- and later into an otherworldly beauty - neo-griffith. there is nothing lovely or lovable left in him anymore, but he is the most lovely and beloved character by everyone in the show after his neo-griffith transformation. his power knows no equal and he strikes fear into the hearts of all who dare cross him. nothing will ever touch him again and nothing will ever be taken from him again, unless he wills it.
so she lives in exile, her otherworldly powers making her a diety of sorts, one people love and worship. one day, her husband, mad at himself and sick with love for her, goes to her to ask for her forgiveness. he couldn't save her when she needed him, and he couldn't protect her when she was taken from him, so all he does is ask for forgiveness. and amid her power-hungry, hatered spinning days of rage, she blooms with love for him, everything else thrown aside or forgotten. he was all she had ever wanted once after all. they fall into each other, one last time before tragedy strikes.
the aristocrat, terrified of her, her power, the support people gave her, orders for her to be burned at the stake. as the flames overwhelm her and she cries out one last time, the people witnessing the scene, cry out in uproar. they kill the king, avenge her and become a lingering flame in the calamitous fire of the french revolution. even though she is no longer there, she achieves exactly what she wanted- vengence against those who wronged her, and world domination, as the uproar from her tragedy, is what kickstarts the world to change.
now the whole parallels with griffith i made clear in italics, but there i dont think that thet is where the parallels with berserk end. there is another character, whose case could be argued, might have been inspired by this movie: casca. the unfortunate fate of the woman, the defilement and heartbreak she experiences because of conditions she cannot control, her story is drowning in them. i believe, if Miura was indeed inspired by this movie, that casca's story takes root in this unfortunate fate this character suffers through, but the only element present in casca's story is the heartbreak and pain, the rage and vengeance part is yet to be seen.
this movie seems to overlap both of these characters journeys, emotions and characterisations. if i have made a post about their alikeness before, this movie would be the main thesis for it. they switch roles and imagery within this "belladonna" character to the point where you cant make a case for one without mentioning the other. he becomes a demon, she becomes a witch. he falls in desperation, she falls into her lover's arms. he takes over the world, she gets burned at the stake. he gets the purpose, she gets the tragedy.
overall, berserk or not, belladonna of sadness is a beautiful story and 100% worth the watch. it contains some of my favourite lines of dialogue and scenes ive ever seen in animated media. its experimental and different, but man, isnt it captivating. WATCH IT!!!
#belladonna of sadness#is a story about the role of women in the french revolution. they were the first ones to rise to the occasion. this movie is an ode to that#kanashimi no belladonna#berserk#griffith#casca#sorry for the rant#if you dont want spoilers dont read after the (spoilers) part#my posts#berserk meta
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