#havent draw in what feels like forever
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Bit late cos I was busy but - Happy Horizon Zero Dawn Remaster
Excited to see those guys in grief with new animations and insane graphics.
#horizon zero dawn#horizon zero dawn remaster#hzd#erend#varl#aloy#fanart#meme#havent draw in what feels like forever#dont look at the anatomy
438 notes
·
View notes
Text
some misc Barn & Wally doodles from the past week or so <3 i heart them
#i read 'barnaby bites wally out of affection' exactly Once and it imprinted in my brain forever#its so damn cute... what the fuck... who authorized that....#one thing about me: yes i Will exaggerate size differences. no im Not sorry#listen one thing i love more than the big guy & their lil buddy dynamic#is big guy & their lil buddy 'rough-housing'#where it looks vicious but the big guy is actually being so so gentle and careful <3#it kills me every time!!!#AND THESE TWO ARE PERFECT FOR BOTH BABEYYYYYY#the bestiessssss themmmmm them them them#i have so many thoughts / feelings about them and many of them Directly Conflict <3#scribble salad#welcome home#wait when. when did i start drawing barnaby so damn much#every other scribble is Him#uh oh! looks like hes Blorbo!!!#anyhow sometimes i sit on doodles for Days and Days#until it occurs to me that hey. i can post these#i havent been scribbling much bc ive been chipping away at comms when i have the free time to do Art#the only non-comm stuff have been silly warmups riperoni#BUT! AHA! last week's me (early this week???) was in their Barnaby & Wally feels!!!#providing current me with Crumbs to post!
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
Too hot (hot damn)
#An art#Hajime hinata#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Sdr2#Super danganronpa 2#Danganronpa 2#Kuzuhina#I havent been able to draw them in what feels like forevER and this isnt even sth I wanted to draw but it was simple so.
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
A little promo with my little obsession on the side...........
Reminder all items are shipped from Poland - for details on shipping times check out FAQ or send me a private message!
mmezzy.bigcartel.com
#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
22 notes
·
View notes
Note
hello :3 may i request a spacewaffles… i miss them so much
yes ofc one spacedwaffle
#yuridemon askers#spacewaffles#zydoodles#i havent draw ls in what feels like forever#here are ur goobes
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
pathetic don't mix with apathetic ....
#wow insane how u listen to one song and get the urge to draw ocs u havent drawn in forever like....instantly...#I LOVE MOTHPOSSUM CHARLIE ....#band au#digital#ocs#doodles#skuggy#farrow#anyways i wuv this song and i wuv my silly guys#for anyone who joined ship during lobcorp era uhhh. these r my ocs. theyre in a band au. they had a band called mothpossum and they were um.#well they were in a really toxic relationship and when they broke up the band broke up too. and skuggy (keys) made a new band w his brother#while farrow (I FORGOT TO DRAW HIS GUITAR( went solo gor a while then made a new band out of randos he grabbed from an ad and spiraled .#the funny thing is he was the one being a dickhead p.o.s. just using this guy for clout and once he had enough of him then hes like WAIT....#WAIT.......NO........YOU ARENT SUPPOSED TO HAVE FEELINGS....WHAT ABOUT MY CLOUT....MY LIFE.?!?!?#i like yhem a lot. skuggy ended up picking music back up after a while and finding his style. just shit he likes. weird shit#he would hook up mushrooms to amps to make mushroom music
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Recent commission I did for @adony-eets-bugzz of their guinea pig, Chobonnie.
This is the first commission I've been able to do in almost a year or more, so it was really a delight to work on!! Especially as it was not only different from what I normally draw, but it felt good to work on a very sentimental piece for someone.
Always a great day when both you and the commissioner are real happy with a piece.
#guinea pig#scenery#nature#flowers#recall draws#commissions#i have no idea what to tag this as tbqh#on god. at first i was gonna be like omg this is the first scenic piece ive done in forever but i literally did art fight this year#but it still feels good to have done it and for it to have turned out well cause i havent done a fully shaded scenic piece#thats new for this last year or so#it was p technically challenging with the grass and flowers as well as figuring out how to draw a sunset without any airbrushing#but it all came together in the end!#extremely happy to have been able to do this for the commissioner and hope it serves em well
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
this is making me SICK IN THE HEAD I TELL YOU. ARE YOU KIDDING MEEEEE WHYS THIS SO CUTE. HELP ME. I THINK I HAUVE COUVID....
#im so silly for those two men. but honestly i am more smitten w Hiza.shi....#i saw this pose (sort of) in a photo and was like. uhm. okay i need to draw that w him. oh god oh fuck#AND HERE WE ARE. SOBBING. GOING CRAZY AND CLIMBING MY WALLS#why did it turn out so good fhfkdl i havent drawn this guy in forever. i think dhfjdl im p sure Dec 2022 was the last time i drew him...#and I've only drawn him like. maybe twice dbfjdl#what the fuck is happening to me man i cant deal w this im GIDDY. STOP ITTT#i am supposed to sleep but i cant stop feeling silly smitten now what the fuck 😭😭#sorry for being insane in the tags DBHDDKL this unlocked smth in me SBDJSKL#i cant even bring myself to work on this anymore or clean it up at all more than i have bc . i cant take it DBJDKDL#at least rn djfkdl good LOARD i am unwell for this guy what the fuck is going ONNN 😭#dandy.cmd#🧡hello radio land!#doodlebug.jpeg
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
the horrors persist but so do the cat doodlings
#yarrow draws#i havent rly drawn in what feels like forever#sometimes my brain just goes on autopilot and makes collections of the same type of cat 20 times
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
venting sorry... don't want to just delete it bc it helps to get it out just ignore this post pls 👍
haven't slept much at all and feeling so sick andstressed and in pain bc my period is due and so tired its making me dizzy but i cant sleep more or ill just feel more sick and I want a hug and to cry so hard into someones shoulder but no one cares or will even come near me it makes me feel diseased they think things about me that aren't true bc I struggle so much to communicate and thry all make assumptions insteqd and no one wants to give me space to talk to them about it so I cant undo that now and its all my fault and I'm so. exhausted :-(
#going to try and stay awake until lunch at least and yhen maybe ill take a nap. but i need to be able to sleep rpoperly tonight#at least i know im only feeling depressed bc my period is due which means my meds dont work how they should#like its kind of weird n psychologically interesting to feel so depressed again suddenly bc i havent been at all lately#well theres not much i can do abt feeling sick and in pain but ill take it easy. wasnt planning on leaving the house today anyway#and i do need to find a way to talk to ppl abt shit im struggling to communicate bc it really does bother me. and i dont want to do this#im tired of keeping everything in and wound so tightly i just want to feel seen and safe around someone please. please 🥹#its all well n good getting along with people better than i rver havebut if they still wont support me when im going through it#then it fades into shallowness like our friendship still has value. but im unable to feel close to them or safe around them#and right now im glad im doing so well im glad of so manynthings but its so scary to know that if i start doing bad again there is#noone and nothing there to catch me i dont have anything in the way of a safety net just myself. so better not fall 👍#and irs been makinf me feel so horrible lately bc my mum has been trying to emotionally drpend on me again and its making me feel like#when i was a teenager again and i was fighting for my fucking life against what i didnt know was mental illness and i had no outlet and#nowhere to go and i wanted to die so badly and meanwhile everyone around me was completely unaware and making me handle all of their#emotional issues and i was trapped there absorbing everyone elses damage and not being able to express mine and thankfully i didnt kill#myself and i got out and ive gotten so much bettee and worse and better sinxe and how i feel now is nothing like that really but im just#being reminded of it a lot and how hard expressing myself is and sometimes it feels like ive made so little progress#in thetorture labyrinth out here. but i dont want to do this forever i need to get better at expressing i just need people to support me#but i feel unsupported its like thin ice. but its alsonmy fault for not trusting. i dontnknowwwww.#maybe when i dont have to pay for private meds anymore and when i get this raise at the end of the year ill try therapy again#i dont think itll solve the issue bc its the ppl i care abt in my life that i need to be able to talk to. but maybe i can get some#better tools to help me be able to do that. i dontnknow i dont want to think about it anymore actually im going to go do smth else#sorry for venting its been a really nice weekend genuinely feeljng so good in general atm. and yeah i still struggle with the same things#but generally ive been handling their effect on my mental health so much better!!!! like im still feeling okay regardless of them#but they are still there and i will need to go from tolerating them to dissolvjng them at some point if i want to feel okay long term#it doesnt have to be like this. and i do actually truly believe that for once which rly is a sign of how much prpgress ive made!!!!#working on my shit is a fucking lifelong project....as im sure it is for everyone else too. all of our first time on planet earth#we will get through yhis. and anyway how i feel now is super temporary jsut triggered by a few thingsand ill keep reacting to them this#way until i managr to properly resolve them properly instead of folding them nicely and tucking them out of view#bleugh. okay yeah thats enough for now. meds softening the edges too ive stopped crying which is smth#chilling for a bit n then im going to watch some tv or a movie and iron and polish my boots and after lunch i might draw. or not we'll see
1 note
·
View note
Text
Big dumb heart
#jessdraws#i havent felt as relaxed as i was when i was drawing this in probably months#life is hard and its taking its toll#i feel like im being ripped open and laid bear for everyones judgement and am shown to be lacking#cause i suck at my job and at reaching my goals and at life in general#my confidence has been shredded by the people i am suppossed to be mentored by#just by the fact that they clearly dont care what happens in my future#they just want me to show up shut up and work for them#meanwhile i can barely afford to eat#and applications for residency well went terribly and im worried i may not even get a good internship#my world keeps being shaken and im just so tired#ive lost so many patients lately and its taking its toll#i feel like ive both worked myhardest and not at all#i know i can be better and do better be smarter practice better medicine teach better#but unstead im stuck feeling like im drowing#and i push myself to do better but then i also jsut let myself go to much#go to easy on myself while mentally berating myself for not doing enough#even my rest isnt rest its just filled eith guilt because im frozen in terror about the future and what it holds for me#forever feeling like ive fucked everything up#feeling like ive given so much of myself to this place and these people only to have it rejected. wanting to give more but knowing i have so#little of myself left#if you read this whole thing well kudos to you you now know what an utter mess i am
1 note
·
View note
Text
I HAVE TO LAUGH I HAVE TO LAAUGGGGFHFH
#when i dropped out of school and started working somehow everything started being easier#my social anxiety got soooo much better . my depression got so much better and i wasnt stressed at any giving time and i thought#that maybe all my mental health problems were just a direct consequence of me being undiagnosed nd in an environment that expected too much#from me without offering accommodations for me to reach those goal#like work is still tiring and overstimulating at times but theres no deadlines!!! i dont have to bend n break my back to get certain tasks#done!!!!! like i have a package of tasks i just loop through and i can plan in my own days and weeks and decide what i will be doing when#and how and theres no wrong or right system of doing things as long as the result is just what my boss wishes for and im AUGDHDGFH im so#lucky to be here#To get back to the point im trying to make tho.#as i left an environment that just wasnt good for me and entered another environment that somehow did wonders to my mental health i rlly#thought i would find peace from now on. Like id still get upset and sad or whatever like non mentally ill people do too#but it wouldnt be to an extent anymore where i wanna hurt myself or disappear forever#and for a bit more than a year everything was good!!!!! started to think i made up all my mental problems tbh#but lately things have been so tuff . i havent been this depressed in years#and like i can still physically do things . i can still go to work and clean my room and take showers and whatnot#but im so exhausted. and i keep crying all the time and i feel like everyone hates me for being so . depressed and i cannot physically do#the one thing i love doing (drawing) like nothing i try comes out good enough which just makes me cry again lol#and i dont . i dont understand it#bc i removed all (most?) of the factors that were making me this mentally nauseous and i was supposed to feel better . i was supposed to fee#good now. but i feel like im back at uni sitting on my bed crying over my notebooks trying to cram all the paragraphs into my head not#understanding why i cant remember anything for my classes . why its easy for everyone but me#everything always seems easy for everyone but me#i really dont understand#is this really a part of me . will i really always be this miserable and insecure? will i always hate myself and not feel enough?#im still the same person i was before i just wear different clothes#my body grows but i just dont grow up
1 note
·
View note
Text
yeah no of course i cant stop trying still ...
currently trying to get out of the mindset -draw what could be popular- by designing some rough ideas for the weapons shops in the new totk rewrite (fuse isnt a thing here)
to explain; during the first part (before villain rauru reveal and change to shiekah arm) the way to repair or craft weapons is with a new type of NPCs; they are smiths that can repair your weapons, craft them, and have some avaible to buy (mostly for arrows but also small selection of weapons), it costs material and some money, or if you dont have the material/all material, it costs more money but is still doable, price depending on how valuable or hard to get the material is you dont want to spend on it
then after the switch to the sheikah arm and zelda taking on the role of your permanent companion, she can both repair and craft as well (might be limited but expandable with quests, as in that zelda learns more skills- so theres new quests after the switch and you cant just do everything before that) with the difference that you need to have the required materials but it costs no money
this would mean that while no giant change before and after the halfway point of the game, it is definitely different feeling, plus its a convenience that is good to have in the second half but shouldnt be sorely missed in the first, the difference between NPC smith and zelda gives you the option to spend material or money- so you arent forced to grind anything if you need either for something else, plus new quest rewards for the second half and new points of interest in general, similar to a stable but not too close so theres still an element of exploration; they arent super frequent but around the map of the surface enough that you can reasonably reach one in each region (perhaps after aquiring the yiga as allies/or before that in disguise they can do the same for you but are only found in the underground)
it would also allow for more diverse gameplay, if your favorite weapon is about to break (it might not fully disappear but if you use it up it would go into a condition like the master sword when its lost its power, not usable or doing tiny amount of damage, but not gone forever if you accidentally use it too much-) you can decide to throw it away or keep it until you find the next smith, depending on if you already found one and see you are close or havent yet, or spend the material if you have it to instantly repair it
(i havent decided yet if rauru might be willing to repair your weapons, but not to craft them since he lacks the skill (would never admit to it) and he only wants to give you just enough support to enable you to do what he wants you to do- i think that might work better bc its still a difference to zelda, since she can craft too, but not too much so that you would feel like the games forcing you to use the smiths in the first half ... possibly its unlocked with one of the enigma stones, when rauru can claim he is able to do that now bc it lets him recover some of his strength)
what im wondering now, which is a bit important i think, is .. should the smiths be wandering around a set path or have a lil stationary shop? if they wander around it would make it a bit more depending on situation of you wanna use them, but bears the risk of making it annoying if you dont know here they are or happen to be too far away and a lil weird bc should have something to work on there, like an anvil, which would be a lil strange to carry around; a lil shop could potentially turn into a location you keep teleporting back and forth though im leaning towards the shop; you could make helping them build it a quest too, or saving them from monsters? overall i think this idea is a rather nice balance
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rewrites totk#the smiths are of different species too#one of them will be a hammerhead shark zora#bc i think thats funny
178 notes
·
View notes
Text
MOOT APPRECIATION POST
I love my moots(keep reading baout them) also these might repeat so if you all want another more specific post lmk!!!!!!!!!!!
@cheekyboybeth - you legitimately make me smile each time i see you on my dash because you have good comebacks, youre just generally funny, and just amazing to be around
@calypso10191 - tbh i have no words, you are amazing, awesome, cool, the best, every positive adjective ever, you light up my day, the sun to my moon, i love talking to you so much woeghweougmhew
@seekmemystar - we haven't talked a lot yet, but i WILL say that you seem rly cool ad from your interactions with other moots, you sound awesome and i hope we can talk more
@thestrawberryapologist - i can't believe you haven't got snow :(((( i rly liked our first convo, and you were so cool and awesome, and I RLY RLY RLY hope we can talk more in the future!!!
@planetjinko - just like with some of my other moots, i haven't chatted with you too much yet, but I rly like seeing ur blog on my dash and i hopewe yet tpo talk a lot !!
@a-t1r3d-b1s3xual - you are, to be genuine, a great person, and thats rly all i need to say, because youre just such a kind peson to chat with !!!
@moku-and-his-madness - we haven't been able to talk as mch, but i love talking with you all the time because you are RELATABLE AND AWESOME AND AN AWESOME ARTIST SAND HWEOUFMHEWOUFHW
@serialkilluh-1996 - i haven't been able to talk to you yet(hopefully soon tho) and i love seeing your posts, though, so i rly rly hope that we can chat a lot more !!
@arandombiped - youre just such a kind and generous person, and i love the little drawing you made of me, and honestly speaking, its so much fun interacting with you!
@sleeplessfluid - i love to see your edits, bvc theyre so much fun to see, and i honestly do admire you and hope that we get to hang out a lot more now!!!
@demigod-jack-hearth - i love chatting with you becuase you're just a good pereon who gives godd adcice, youre caring, youre kind, and so much more !!
@circe-but-better - you're so much fun to talk to(soryr ive veen repeating this a lot) and i love to chat with you because you're just gerneally interesting, and youre kind and just light up my day
@sstarmanbutitsregulusblack - we haven't talked a lot yet, but (not to sound like some random fan) but i rly like seeing your posts on my dash and seeing you in general !!
@blizzardtheartisticfox - you give such great adivcei, and i love to see you on my dash because you're just a kind person/gen, and i think its always good to see you
@eef-stars - this one is gonna be alittle short but i love you all the same i promsie: you are interesting/pos. ui love to see those little snippets of your life on my dash because each time i just think "waht is he up to now what are the shenanigans" and its always awesomesauxe
@choucon - your poetry is always so much fun to read, and although we havent gotten to talk as much as i wsih we could, i rly like to see your posts and i always stop for them each time
@xx-neuro-xx - i love to see your posts & talk with you, and though we mainly met just thrugh @formertokenstraight-deactivated (missed forever/srs) i genuinely love to see you and appreciate you
@kermit-spooky-season-edition - you because each time that i see you, i get a little bit happier because i can relate to you, and i can just freely chat with you & i feel like youve always made an effort to include me, so thank you <3333
@here-am-i-sitting-in-a-tin-can - yes just yes because youre kind, generous, nice in general, awesome, yesyesyesyesyes :)))))))))/gen/pos
@asters-tempo - you are always fun to chat with, and i rly love chatting with you (sorrry repeated that) and seeing you lights up my day :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
@cowboyhentai - when i accdentally misspelled your name as shanks somehow and you added it to your intro, i actualy felt a part of me grow and shine it was amazing bc you made me feel appreciated !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY YOU
@starkissed-mars - the shenanigans we have together are incomparable, and i love it wahtsoever because its just us i feel like searching for pics of two people and taggin gyou us core
@star-dust-shark - each time i see your posts, i get so happy because its YOU !!! and i wish you nothing but happiness and excitemess and the happy juice
@pearl-div3r - the things we do together are just so much fun and the way we met was unconventional and i just basolutely love anything and verything about us <3333 also if you see this the moment i post it go to bed >:(
@gardenoflilys - i always love to see you its like a trewat of candy on my dash and i mean like nerds gummy clusters because i love gummy clusters :DDD also i started to read the outsiders because of you because i wanyted to releate to u and talkto you about it because youre the bestest
@ashmoor - each time i see you i hope that youll be in more of my tag games because i always forget(im so sorry mi amiga) and each time i go on your b;olg i reblog the pinned post because youre just that great !!!
@fishcow99 - though we mainly met through brody im rly glad we did because lathough we dont talk mych, i love to see your posts even if i dont understand them(like a supportive dad whi doesnt quite understand but its ok <3333)
@crowofthestars - you are so swqeet & kind and thoughtful, and i hope wqe get to talk a lot more because you are just so cool and i cannot believe we are moots
@hershey-not-the-chocolate-maybe - i love seeing you on my dash because you are somehow alwasy relatable youre like a pinterest whisper/pos
@kunikisss - your art and vibe in general is so cool and awesome, and I PROMISE ONCE I UNDERSTAND WAHT THE FUCK IM DOING I WILL FINISH THTE THINGY IM SORRY EWHFOUEWMFHOEW SOB anyway ur the bestest
@kawaiibarty - i realize i fucked up because i accidentally made the post towards your side acc, but i dont care because you get two now youre just that cool and awesome <333333333333
@butch-marauders - i love to see your posts and i rlly hope we talk more because you seem like a very sweet person and awesome in gerenarly :)))
@definitionoffuckup - you legit made me so excited to join tumblr because you were so exciting and kind to me it just made me brave enough so thank you THANK YOU !!! you tbh changed my life <3(sorry is that a lot sorry)
@rins-batcave - i loive talking with you, and each time you keep liking and rb ing my posts i jusyt get so happy because it means someone as amazing as you actually thinks im awesome too :D
@mun-urufu - you light up my day when we talk, and the fact you made a playlist for the forest group thing just shows me how much you care and how kind you are !!!
@raeprise - i love talking to you and listening to you bc i just fills me w a warm fuzzy feeling, do thank you ❤️❤️❤️
@k-is-for-potassium - i have remembered so much in science bc if you soni greatly appreciate you for that, and your for our convos bc they're always sm fun
@yourlocalbadgerscales - i honestly kinda look up to you because you are just brave and kind, which I think is rly hard
@stqrgirl3 - your pfp reminds me of that one song that goes like girls just wanna have fun i just wanna have sx in a car and you're rly kind and i love chatting w u bc you match my energy and just yesyesyes
@daggerhobbit - though we dont talk as much anymore(ALSO IM OS OSRRY I DIDNT GET TO ADD YOU IN TIME NOOO HWEOFUWMHEO) you're a really wesome person and i love when we do chat !!
@you-will-never-be-satisfied - you are honestly so kind and a great friend, which i sincerely appreciate
@aesthetic-writer18 - you've listened to me vent and offered support, as well as just been there to chat and include me, so i am eternally grateful ❤️❤️❤️
@funz1es - I love watching you and i think ur art is just awesome, generally ur just a great friend and companion :DDDD
@themortalityofundyingstars - though we haven't gotten tot alk a lot yet, i rly like seeing your posts/gen !!
@lifegoalsofafish - u were one of the first ppl iet on this app, and i thought you were cool and you are end of sentence :)))
@garden-of-runar - you are one of the first ones i spotted on this app(we are in fact getting to the first's here lol) and altho we don't talk a lot, i do like seeinf ur posts!!!
@gasolinehornet - another on eor the first's here, iwlove seeing ur posts and your art(so talented wowzers) and just chatting with u/gen
@stars-on-my-bedroom-ceiling - THE FIRST MOOT I FOT ON HERE THAT SAYS SMTH YOU ARE JUST AN ALL AROUND GRETA PERSON SO ID LIKE TO THANN GOU :)))
70 notes
·
View notes
Text
Little Monster Q&A + author fun facts !!
hello new followers and fans of Little Monster. first of all, i just have to thank everyone for the crazy support ive been getting as of late. thank you everyone. every like, comment, and reblog just pushes me to keep writing, even when it feels like every word i write is garbage.
so i decided to make this little special! idk if anyone will be super interested, so ill put all the stuff under the cut, but i also wanted to add this little drawing i did of terzomega as like extra content. if you arent interested, thanks anyway and enjoy the art!
—
to everyone who stayed, i have no idea why you’re interested, but thanks lmfao. this shit will be long.
Questions
Is your most recent oneshot about the mirror related at all to Little Monster? (from @ofthemorningstars)
i'm glad you noticed that !! in The Mirror, i very purposefully left two hints at the end of the fic to indicate its connection to Little Monster, which was the taco ring reference and Terzo's use of "mostriciatto". to me, mostriciatto will always be the Little Monster version of terzomega. no matter when i finish that fic or if i write more fics after, i will never again use mostriciatto unless im purposefully writing these versions of terzomega. i havent seen anyone else use it (i hope they dont), so i like to imagine this can be forever my impact on terzomega fics lmao. anyway, the purpose of me leaving those references isnt necessarily to say, "this is a future scene of little monster" bc it isnt exactly that (while i have plans that line up with this oneshot, i cannot anticipate that everything will fit perfectly by the time we get there in the canon). the purpose of doing that was to show u cuties that yes, terzo and omega will eventually have a better relationship, and i will be extending this timeline into papa terzo era. just a fun little teaser for my more observant fans.
also, fun fact about how i came up with that pet name. i was writing the first part of Little Monster (that part is now titled Spilled Wine as featured on my Ao3) and i knew i wanted to give terzo an affinity for using pet names, but i didn't know quite which ones to use. i didn't want to be boring, so i googled some. i have no idea where, but i found mostriciatto, meaning, of course, "little monster." i had yet to even really start writing it, but i knew i wanted it to be DARK with a very unhinged omega, so i thought, perfect. ill talk a bit more about the writing of part one later on
2. How many parts do you currently anticipate writing? Do you have a set ending point, or will this perhaps be an ongoing project for the foreseeable future? (from @ofthemorningstars)
i have 12 major plot points (including the first five parts i have written) that loosely translate into parts. this could mean 12 parts, or it could be more depending on what i write. i kinda plan on expanding this to 18 (6 parts per “era” or “act” [you’ll see what i mean]) though i dont quite have a set ending yet, so really its up in the air. i am, however, planning on having a definitive ending, ergo not an endless project. from there there may be some oneshots in this universe, but they will have an ending.
3. In the first part of little monster you put a disclaimer with something along the lines of "if you're expecting comfort I'm sorry to disappoint". The angst is MWAH but do you like plan on giving Terzo like any sort of comfort or happiness?? (from anon)
before i begin rambling, here's your answer: there will be hope and good times as mentioned above, and you might have even picked up on that in part 5. i may have wrote a fucked up versions of terzomega but whats a good story without character growth?? i havent determined the direction of the ending, but rest assured, if it all burns down, they will hold each other close (for the minute it takes).
but also.... funny story about that disclaimer....
soo i wanted to write ghost fanfic to impress my friend who is a VERY avid member of this community. however, i failed to realize they DO NOT like angst without love and care and fluff, so after i showed it to them, buddy did not like it. i took that as a sign that maybe this shit was a little TOO dark.
but my god, i could not stop thinking about it, as the caption said, and i dont always feel that away about what i write. i had recently started to post semi often to tumblr, and i just thought. well, theres gotta be someone else as fucked up as me, and i posted that shit. that disclaimer was a result of taking my friends reaction seriously and realizing that i needed to make it VERY clear that this fic is NOT for everyone. there was a different og caption that was longer and more grave, but i cut it down for aesthetics bc little monster has already seen more success than i ever anticipated.
4. What is your favorite ghost album, and what song introduced you to ghost? (from anon) & Favorite ghost song (or songs) (from @ask-enso-ghoul)
my favorite album is Infestissumam!!! the vibes of the album are so fucking immaculate, even if terzo is my favorite papa.
of course, of course, the first song i ever heard from ghost was Mary on a Cross. it blew up when it did and i loved it. the second song that really made me start getting into ghsot was square hammer, which will secretly also be my favorite ghost song but ive heard it so many times i have to give it now to the future is a foreign land. some of my other fave songs are jigolo, respite, body and blood, faith, twenties, and year zero (there’s just so many)
i want to take a second to say my least favorite album though, which is opus eponymous, or as i call it, pope pussy. it’s ok. it’s just ok. mk. i’m not a fan of that sound. the best song on there is genesis. I FUCKING SAID IT—
5. how do you get into the zone of writing smut-? I’m trying to get into it but it sounds cheesy when I do, so do you do something specific? (from anon)
im gonna level with you. i have been writing for almost a decade, since i was 12, and the first thing i started writing was smut. sex has always been a HUGE creative force for my writing and art in general. as stupid as it sounds, writing smut to me is more than just that. its my art. its my greatest and most inspirational subject. i love being creative with it, bending it to the niches and intricacies of the duo im writing, just playing with it as a medium of expression, of storytelling, of how DEEP it can be.
that being said, one of the easiest ways to get into the zone of smut specifically is being horny ! you imagine your pairing doing some illicit bedroom activity and you pick them up liek dolls and smush their faces together ! let it be fun, and let it be yours. dont write it to please the kinks of your audience, write it to your own taste and enjoyment.
as far as it being cheesy, yeah, it will feel that way. the most important thing is to be confident with your language and don’t shy away from calling a dick a dick, a pussy a pussy, an ass an ass. it feels stupid, but it will read worse if you make up artsy names for them every other line. don’t be afraid to be descriptive either, because that’s what the people want to see, trust me.
apologies if that was unhelpful, ive just been writing smut so long i can hardly tell you how i do it. im jsut super passionate about it and it fuels me creatively….. can u tell lol
6. Favorite work you’ve ever done? (from anon)
so.... ive written many things and that depends. its definitely not anything ive posted on here.
i think my favorite "serious" work is a short story i wrote for a creative writing class, called Abel and Sally. it was an modern inversion of the bible story of abraham and sarah, with a really dark ending (i love to shit on catholicism)
the other work that comes to mind is the first story i wrote about my oc anson, called Anson's Prison. that is something i would potentially post on here, its pretty short but its a good one. its oc content, tho, so i doubt many ppl would be interested lel.
8. will you draw more drawing for your stories in the future? (from anon)
well. heres my thing with art.
ive been drawing as long as ive been writing. but im not an artist; i never learned ANYTHING beyond like drawing itself, i.e. i dont know how to shade, pick colors, do bgs, etc. (can u tell??? do u see that art up there???? can YOU TELL??) thus, i have a sort of love hate relationship with drawing, and i usually dont like my own stuff. i didnt pick up drawing as easy as i did writing and its not nearly as intuitive to me.
that being said, it is sometimes fun when the drawings turn out just right and i get super passionate about something i draw and i can create the image in my head. so if the mood strikes me, i probably will draw more terzomega stuff in the future.
but why do i need to?? feeds you all SO WELL with little monster stuff you dont need my shitty art lmfao
9. MILK OR CEREAL FIRST? (from anon)
cereal. bc the moment the milk hits that cereal u are on a speedy ass countdown to devour that shit before it gets soggy, and brother, u better eat quick.
Things I wanted to share
Little Monster was supposed to be a one shot
so, Little Monster started as one thing and turned to something else entirely. originally, i wrote the beginning of the first chapter (where they are flirting in the church) in about april of this year. in this version, they were supposed to already be in love, though hiding it, and terzo was not drunk at all, just teasing. i eventually scrapped it because i wasnt very passionate about it and got p bored. then, in july, i had the itch to write something dark, but none of my projects at the time had characters i could really write that with. i came back to that scrapped fic and i thought, damn, i could really fuck these guys up, and i did.
little monster immediately became more successful than i thought it would be, and that was only about 10 notes and a comment in. i was happy to leave it at that, but then, i just started writing part two on a whim. if you look at the og post in the comments, i mention that im writing a "follow up". thats bc even when writing part two, this was not going to be a series !! but then, as i kept writing, part two became so long i had to split it in half, meaning there were suddenly 3. by the time i posted part three, though, i was shocked at the sheer amount of attention i was getting. at the same time, part three ended in such a way that i knew this story needed to keep going, to give these two a resolution. now, little monster will be a full fledged story thanks to all the support ive received :3
2. im an english major
yeah, you got me, im a college student majoring in english creative writing. is it obvious? my penultimate goal is to one day be a published author. it’s crazy surreal to me how much people express to me how they enjoy my writing~~ i hope i can one day make my dream come true 🥰 the unfortunate part about this is i go back to college next week and im uncertain how that will affect my writing schedule :p i’ll stick to weekly uploads for little monster tho dw !!
3. this is the first time i’ve written fanfic in several years
when i first started writing it was frerard and peterick fanfics on wattpad in middle school (huge shoutout to the ones that know lmfao). i stopped writing those before hs and haven’t written fanfic since. i think it’s very funny that i have come full circle back to writing band fanfic, altho ghost ofc is way more intricate with its canon
4. I LOVE YOU GUYS
i know i’ve said it a dozen times already on this post, but god it’s crazy. it’s nuts !! i’ve already made a handful of super sweet mutuals who i appreciate with all my heart, and even if you’re just a lurker, I STILL APPRECIATE YOU. EVERY SINGLE NOTE MAKES ME SO HAPPY. EVERY COMMENT AND RB HAS ME BURSTING WITH JOY.
it is entirely thanks to you all that i write terzomega and ive become so passionate about it. if it weren’t for your support, i would probably still be writing my silly little stories that no one but me could possibly understand, rotting away and wondering if anyone would even like my writing. terzo and omega are such a unique pairing compared to what ive written before, and writing them is a really cool feeling. i truly love it, and i hope i can continue to feed this side of the fandom for a long time.
from the bottom of my heart and with all my writing soul, thank you. i want to keep writing for u guys, and i want to satiate ur dirty terzomega fantasies >:) this is such a sweet and inclusive fandom and im glad i’ve been welcomed in so quickly. i hope i can continue to grow my talent here :3
ok that’s it bye teehee
36 notes
·
View notes
Note
hello!!I know it’s been awhile since you posted about blind reader and serial killer ghoap (sorry if I spell it wrong,it’s weird to say it out loud) and I’ve been thinking that,as a blind person I have my wardrobe all figured out for me to be able to dress by myself as many of us folks do,but I feel like those two would just…mess it up or straight up put their clothes there
hi!!!! omg! i havent thought about this au in forever
i wrote about it like a year ago with dlmliyh, but i fully think johnny would loooove dressing you up like a doll, and i think that applies with the blind serial killer ghoap au too!
part of what draws them to you in that case is your vulnerability (or at least, as vulnerable as they both perceive you to be and want to force you to be, yk?). so i think that johnny especially would probably just assume he gets to dress you, and would get pissy the moment you tried to push back against that. he's putting you in outfits he thinks are cute (he's wrong), or in his/simon's clothes and absolutely nothing else whether you like it or not lmao
37 notes
·
View notes