#have some feels on this monday
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Prompt 3 of YOTP! "What are you doing with that" (DA: Veilguard, Emmrook)
takes place post-game and spoilers for Emmrich's companion quest. <3
@anderfels
--
Zea Laidir hadn't meant to find it.
She'd been looking for a clean pair of gloves, something to hide her dirt stained fingers so they weren't obvious when she shook hands at the ball they'd been invited to. They were still in the process of getting enough furniture to accommodate all of their things, so until they received another dresser most items were combined.
It was easy to tell her clothing from Emmrich's; her bright and bold colors with enchanted thread that glittered in the light made of cheap-to-moderate fabric verses his green and purples made from the best fabric there was. But things like gloves were combined since they were easier to.
Digging through the drawer, her fingers brushed against something hard. Curious, Zea pulled it out and saw the small black square box. Stomach squeezing, she stared at it for a moment as her mind spun.
There was only one thing that could fit in a box that size and why Emmrich would hide it from her. But still wanting to confirm what it actually was, she tried to open it but her fingers wouldn't cooperate.
Clenching her right hand in a fist to stop the shaking, she set the box on the top of the dresser and closed her eyes- taking a deep breath to steady herself.
"You've gotten treasure out of worse places than this. And you had to disarm traps beforehand." she told herself, slowly letting a breath out while opening her eyes. "Easy peasy. It's just a box."
"What are you doing with that?"
Emmrich's voice cut through the silence like a knife and Zea startled, turning as she slightly jumped. "Emmrich, I-You're back early." Zea stammered, feeling her face heat up with embarrassment at being caught and that she, a Lord of Fortune, hadn't heard him enter their quarters. "Don't you have a class right now?"
"I let them out early. All they could talk about was the ball so it was pointless to try and get anything done. Besides, I thought to use the extra time to freshen up before getting dressed." Emmrich replied, fully moving into the room but not breaking eye contact with Zea. "Do you make it a habit to go through my things?"
"I was looking for some gloves. Worked in the garden today so I didn't want to embarrass you with my dirt stained hands." Zea lifted a hand to show him the grime covered fingers despite the good scrubbing she'd given them.
Emmrich softened slightly at the reply, "My dear, you could never embarrass me." He took the free hand in his and raised it to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to it. As he lowered it, he continued, "I take it that you know what's in there."
"I...have a guess. I couldn't bring myself to open it." Zea managed to get out, her heart in her throat. Swallowing in an effort to calm herself, she continued, "When did you get it?"
"When we took Manfred to see the Lich Lords and you convinced me to bring him back. I knew then that I didn't want to spend another day without you."
"Even though I convinced you to give up becoming a Lich?" Zea asked, knowing that he had resented the choice for awhile and they'd even gotten into a fight about it.
"Darling, it's because you convinced me to that I knew I wanted to get it. Only someone who loves life as much as you do could make me change my mind." Emmrich grabbed the box with his free hand and guided Zea out to the common area while continuing, "When Myna and Vorgoth were discussing locating that spirit in Hossburg with you, I used the distraction to go back to my old quarters and retrieve it."
He opened the box to reveal the gold band set with rubies and emeralds. "This was my mothers, passed down from her father and his mother and so on. I know that she would be thrilled for you to have it." He said in a soft tone, before taking a knee in front of Zea.
Zea's mind was screaming at what was happening, she knew that eventually it would; they'd discussed the possibility of maybe, eventually one day but she'd always assumed that it would be with the rest of their group in attendance. They'd go to the Dellamorte Estate where Lucanis would cook for them and regale them with a tale of a past contract, drinking too much wine with Neve. Bellara would be asking all sorts of questions for her serial while Davrin would be yelling at Assan to not get to close to the water.
They'd try to make Taash laugh at some joke, while feeling the all too empty space that Harding's absence was creating. Then, with the lights from the riverbank and gondola's as they sailed past- Emmrich would take her to the garden and ask the question underneath a trellis covered in flowers. There'd be more wine and shouted congratulations, Neve telling her that she knew the best dressmaker in Docktown who could make her a new dress for a reasonable price. Taash would say that Isabela wanted to be invited to the party but only if it was at the Lords's enclave.
Then they'd spend the night in one of the suites in the manor, making love until they were exhausted.
"-do me the honor?" Emmrich's voice brought Zea back to the present and she looked down at the man who saw her flaws and loved her for them. Someone who literally tore the Veil apart to get her back.
Blinking back the tears that were suddenly forming, Zea nodded. "Yes." she whispered, smiling as Emmrich took the ring out of the box and slid it onto her finger.
Emmrich knew that this wasn't how it was supposed to go, he'd wanted the rest of their rag-tag group to be present, but even so it was still perfect. "I love you." he said before capturing her lips in a passionate kiss.
"Me as well." Zea replied when they broke apart. "Now I guess we have to go to that ball, give everyone something to talk about."
Emmrich laughed, "Then we'd best start getting ready."
#yotp 25#da4#dragon age#emmrich x rook#bone daddy#rook#zea laidir#fanfic#my writing#have some feels on this monday
13 notes
·
View notes
Note
he's coming
I'M NOT READY
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OHMYGODOHMYGOD#armor of the dawn silver card...#(ahhhhhhh and the retrospect of sebek's card being the armor of eternal night AHHHHH)#show me the card twst. SHOW ME MY BOOOOOY#the schedule looks like it isn't even split up?! it's just going to be all of 13 at once?!#oh my god and lanterns goes til the 5th are we seriously#are we seriously maybe getting THE END OF EPISODE 7 NEXT WEEK#i know i said i wouldn't believe episode 7 was ending until we got diadorm reruns...but also. BUT ALSO#wishing lanterns you truly were the eye in the middle of the storm weren't you#god. if it really is the 5th then we gotta be getting the card reveal on monday or tuesday then right? right?!#welcome back to the best and worst part of twst announcements: the part where all our heads fall off as we shriek WHAT DOES IT MEAAAAAAN#(just me? whoops)#(i am feeling SO validated though between the card name and the timing so brb i'm gonna ascend to my final form of overthinking anime games#(i mean i was like 90% sure we were getting a silver card of some kind)#(but once wishing lanterns came out i was like 'oh maybe we're not getting it before the anniversary then')#anyway of course disclaimer that we don't know what it means yet and for all we know it could be something absolutely unexpected#(who could have anticipated half of these dreams honestly)#(STARING AT TREY)#buuuuuuut it sure does sound like we're gonna get some silver dream huh#perhaps some silver dream where meleanor never died huh#PERHAPS SOME SILVER DREAM THAT CAN ONLY BE SOLVED BY LILIA ACTUALLY SAYING THE WORDS 'MY SON' HUH#at this point if we get out of episode 7 without someone saying 'silver vanrouge' i'm going to be forced to do something drastic#(by which i mean rectify the situation with fanart)#(the best solution to anything)
359 notes
·
View notes
Text
one awesome thing abt post-canon fiddauthor is i can literally just make up shit abt them bc they live in a big ass rich people mansion
like. i can imagine they just own anything including weird rich people stuff that only rich people would/could afford. like yeah these guys have a fucking personal movie theater. these guys have a kiln & they can make pottery together. these guys have an industrial size kitchen and they can make all the foods they want together. they have a robot building room (this ones canon to me bc ofc mcgucket would have one of those in his house). they have a giant swimming pool + hot tub & they can have the most banger pool partys ever. they have a wine cellar full of the most expensive ass wine you could imagine. they got a big ass telescope they can look into. they got big ass beds & blankets and can be so cosy eepy together (& they can also make the most awesome pillow/blanket forts & have the most awesomest sleepovers with the rest of the family). they can do anything!!!!!!! theres infinite possibilities!!!!!!!! it genuinely rules!!!!!!
#most/all of these r art ideas i wanna draw someday#<- feel free to steal these and beat me to it if u want#draw 100000 fiddauthors in my name it would make me so happy#fiddauthor#sure ill tag this im feelin silly today#if it even shows up in tags lol#hey since this did show up in tags go check out my fiddauthor art from today & monday‼️‼️‼️if u want‼️‼️#i have to self promo it in the tags because tumblr refuses to add my actual art posts to tags for some reason!!!!!!
177 notes
·
View notes
Text
A "RETURN of the Number of PERSONS FLOGGED in the BRITISH NAVY, in each of the Years 1845 and 1846; specifying the Name of the Ship, the Offence, the Sentence and the Number of Lashes Infficted." Parlamentary Paper, Number 661 of Session 1847
So after reading the Post about Jopsons Flogging by @handfuloftime I went down a research rabbit hole because I wanted to see if their exist sufficient & specific enough Data to accuratly compare his punishment and put it in the historical context.
I found this Website, which features the two tables from the Parlamentary Papers and their Source.
(Note: The tables on the website are incomplete and inaccurate in certain places. I compared it from top to bottom to the original source and corrected/added the informations in my table.)
I used that as a basis for my own table, where I also added Averages and Sliders so people can search the Informations!
(Apparently Sliders don't work on Mobil, and I don't know enough about Google Sheets how to fix it :/
If anyone knows or if you find a some kind mistake please let me know.)
This week I visited the University Libary, which has access to the Parlamentary Papers Online, to see if such tables also exist for earlier years but sadly 1845 was the first year where they went into such Specifics.
(I hope to add some of the Years after 1846 to the table, when I can.)
Earlier years only had these Informations per Year:
Total Number of Punishments
Total Number of Lashes
Highest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
Lowest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
This Information for 1839 - 1846 under the Cut.
Also under the Read More are some Graphs, Medians & Averages about Flogging for Drunkenness Alone, seperated by Seamen, Marines, Boys and Everyone!
Hope that someone find this useful/interesting !
Corporal Punishment for Drunkenness Alone
Everyone:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 32,75 (1845: 36 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 31,07 (1845: 31,13 | 1846: 31,02)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,02 | 1846: 30,58)
Seamen:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 36 (1845: 36 | 1846: 36)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 34,37 (1845: 34,62 | 1846: 33,86)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 34,33 (1845: 34,41 | 1846: 33,86)
Marines:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 31,4 (1845: 32 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 31,09)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 30,69)
Boys:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 24 (1845: 24 | 1846: 33)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 26,22 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 28,5)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 25,33 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 26,5)
Years
1839:
Number of Punishments: 2,007
Number of Lashes: 59,341
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1840:
Number of Punishments: 2,026
Number of Lashes: 60,302
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 1
1841:
Number of Punishments: 2,066
Number of Lashes: 61,669
Highest: 50 | Lowest: 2
1842:
Number of Punishments: 2,472
Number of Lashes: 71,024
Highest: 100* | Lowest: 1
1843:
Number of Punishments: 2,170
Number of Lashes: 63,985
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1844:
Number of Punishments: 1,411
Number of Lashes: 42,352
Highest: 72+ | Lowest: 6
1845:
Number of Punishments: 1,070
Number of Lashes: 33,511
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 3
1846:
Number of Punishments: 1,077
Number of Lashes: 32,360
Highest: 50* | Lowest: 3
*By sentence of a Court Martial.
+By order of the Commander-in-Chief for theft, in a shop at Chusan, and violence to the natives.
Sources: A "RETURN of the CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the ROYAL NAVY, in each of the Years 1839 to 1843, both inclusive, stating the highest and lowest Number of Lashes at each Time, and the aggregate Number of Lashes in each Year [ ]" Parlamentary Paper, Number 308, of Session 1845 + ABSTRACT of Total Numbers of CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the NAVY, and the Total Number of LASHES Inflicted, in each Year up to the 31st December 1846 [ ]. Parlamentary Paper, Number 661, of Session 1847
#british navy#the terror#thomas jopson#cornelius hickey#tagging him also because maybe some fan find this interesting too#good I hope this post is formulated okay#i tend to overthink that#also it's late BUT I finally need to post this#before terror camp next week#okay this week for me#but I havent gone to bed so I dont feel like it's monday yet#i spend lots of hours searching until I found that website the day the post hit#and when the Keynote was Anounced I knew that I had to finally finish the table#I spend SO SO Many Hours on this#I hope at least one person will find this useful#also the Admiralitys Capitalising really didnt help reign my german brain in#also this isn't all the maths I have in my notes#I calculated more Averages but I thought I might overwhelm people so I streamlined this Post a bit#Still mad that I worked so much to get this Sliders to work#even after they Broke#and they not even work on Mobile#need to fix that somehow in the future#i always had the Vibe that Floggings in The Terror might have been tuned down/adjusted for modern audiences
170 notes
·
View notes
Text
There are posts for the boys, and posts for the girls, but there seems to be a certain type of post missing... so..
Shoutout to the Jewish folks with no gender or wiggly gender or all the gender
You are so loved and so important, I appreciate the fuck out of you, and this world is better for having you in it. Please don't forget that
#i realized i hadn't seen one like this and decided to correct that#have some positivity on this weird feeling monday night#maison speaks#myzposts
169 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’m trying to write tllr but i have no motivation can yall send me some encouragement pleasee. or anything really actually i just want asks.. talk to me..
#wyrms says stuff#uuurrgghhhh#srry i haven’t been super active here#i haven’t had a lot of motivation for much stuff lately#the next semester of college starts on monday and i feel like i wasted all winter break doing nothing#writing any of my series feels so intimidating#heck even posting on here feels intimidating for some reason#i’ve been active on my discord server a lot though#and i’ve been playing roblox#if any of yall wanna play roblox with me. i’m silliestbluejay on there i dont bite#but aaawhwwwgwghwhh#hate doing nothing all day#but drawing and writing just aren’t workign for some reason#brain is evil to me#i have also been scared about the future. politics. idk if that’s related#send me nice stuff#spspspspsp
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
tweedledee and tweedledum have fully exhausted me


#and with that !! tetzoro szn is simmering down#anywhosies good morning friendz and happy monday mwehehe#i’m so excited to pick up some of my other projects !!#i have something with tetsu planned BUT . it’s not a bday thing so it feels like less pressure lol#and i’m gonna finish his series actually#ok so tetsu gets the rest of the month ig LOL#but now i can yap about mihawk more mwehehehe#and i’ll prob go back to writing for my one piece insert + be insane about zoro#i guess not much is changing but like i said .. NO MORE PRESSURE YIPEEEE#have a wonderful day <3#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm so tired.
#guess who has some kind of nerve damage or deep tissue damage or SOMETHING from my fucking wisdom tooth extraction#THIS GAL#not only did I have to pay $1200 for a new crown that the oral surgeon knocked off because my insurance wouldn't cover it#that same area has been experiencing pain and other symptoms for weeks now#AND now I've started getting dry mouth too#I finally made an appointment with the surgeon on Monday because I'm so tired of this#I've been extremely physically and mentally fragile since that surgery 2 months ago#and it feels like nobody takes me seriously because it's such a routine surgery and most people have no complications#I just want someone to acknowledge the pain I've been going through and how much I've been struggling#btw if you're reading this please please PLEASE listen to your gut when it comes to medical stuff#I didn't like the place I went to after the consultation but felt like I didn't have a choice#because they're one of the few places that do extractions in a hospital setting and I needed that#I should have listened to my gut and tried to find somewhere else to go instead of just passively accepting it like I fucking always do#when am I finally going to grow a spine#anyway yeah take care of yourself because no one else will
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
decided to go back to uni

#ive been DELIBERATING. and its a good choice#look i really can't imagine going back to teaching#and what I really don't want is to scramble for a new career in a new field as a junior without education#besides i know what i want#it's just a bachelors. it'll be over in a jiffy#you get paid to study here and I'll have an easier time finding an apartment too -- its the reason im starting on monday already (not uni b#t I lucked out and got put in some electoral classes that I could take just to get student status until may#and then i start the curator bachelors in august so it just. works. i can scarcely believe it but ill have time to change my mind if i do#IM SCARED. IM PUMPED. I FEEL OLD. IT'LL BE FINE.#also lmao every meeting i had with a councelor past few weeks ended with me sobbing because im so terrified and relieved at the same time#(really can't imagine teaching again i think it would kill me)#(but holy shit starting an entirely new carreer at 32? she wildin')#but yeagh. job ops look great and i have always regretted not turning to history so. AUGH PIC RELATED ME ASF#for a split second did I deliberate studying theology to be ordained just to spit the catholic church in the face? i did. what a laughhhh
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
put my two weeks notice in at work today and no one tells u how hard it is to say goodbye to everyone…i was so blessed to love and be loved by so many of my coworkers and i’m gonna miss them so bad :(( i had to say goodbye to a lot of the ones i was close with today and it was so difficult i teared up multiple times….their reactions were so sweet and encouraging and some of them hugged me….i’m gonna miss them so so much bc they made that place bearable for the last year and a half and it’s gonna be hard not seeing them anymore….and idk i feel sad bc i don’t feel like i have enough time to say goodbye and thank everyone and tell them what a positive impact they had on me
#it might seem silly to some ppl but i’m a rlly sentimental person#i’ve been listening to scott street and bawling my eyes out#one of the older ladies i’m super close with works tomorrow and telling her is gonna tear my ass UP ngl…#everything is moving so fast i feel like i have whiplash….#i literally start training at my new job monday so yeah…last day is technically this saturday#u gotta understand some of these ppl helped me get acclimated after the crash#and i can’t thank them enough for that#i know i can go and visit them anytime but it’s not the same ??? yknow????#one of my work friends said that he was so excited for me and that he always wanted to be an auto tech at one of the dealerships#that are in the same street i’ll be in and told him to do it!!! he’s super sweet and skilled and deserves better than this place#he said he’d think abt it bc he rlly wants to leave too… so here’s hoping :’)#i’m just really touched at the amount of love i’ve received so far it means so much im so grateful#rinnie's rambles </3
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me, on my ADHD med: this can’t be working. I still have memory problems and ‘bad habits’.
Me off the meds because of storm and PA delays: oh. lol. Nvm.
#help meeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAUGH#adhd#adhd problems#adhd meds#tw: medication#I’m like#I’m#I’m unteathered my friends#It’s so bad#I feel Bad™️#thanks to bad memory a delayed PA and a fuckin storm and then Sunday and then closed for Monday holiday#I have to wait until Tuesday#I have two left#rationing them for when I need to work#which can’t be today with the high winds and potentional power outage#so I’m just sitting here shaking and loosing it a little bit#anyway#if you made it this far#I wish you a peaceful weekend#maybe some light reflection on allowing yourself to do things you enjoy without self sabatoge#it’s ok to not be ok#but it’s even better if sometimes#you are the person you need#and you are kind to yourself
119 notes
·
View notes
Text
goal: finish meet the piastris australia 24 fic by australia 25 FAILED
goal: start publishing dad lando before 25 season started FAILED
new goal. publish ch 1 dad lando on my birthday?
#like normally i hate my birthday as is a girl's prerogative#because if i go into it caring then it can never live up to the expectations i imagine for it#but if i go into it expecting nothing then it's just another day!!!!#but i think i could let myself have some ao3 interaction serotonin as a treat. this year.#since my only other gift is being kicked off my parents' health insurance#anyway it's on wednesday and i have work tomorrow monday AND tuesday#so i'd basically have to finish the last chapter in the next like four hours#which feels possible?#and then epilogue during the evenings this week OR after publishing chapter 1
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
WIP Folder Ask Game
Thank you to @roguemonsterfucker for the open tag <3
Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous and tag as many people as you have WIPs. People send an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then you post a snippet or tell them something about it!
No info, only doc names, if you want to unravel the mystery you gotta ask ;P
Here there be Pirates
idk anymore
Fests
Lost and Found
3363
RH ch 9
Racxam
5+1
Farm
Sci fi 528
These are WIPs I have snippets to share from. Others exist but are in states of disrepair. Also some of these docs house multiple WIPs (if you are familiar with some you probably know which one XD)
Now the hard part, tagging people
I am supposed to tag as many people as WIPs buuuut I don't want to be a bother. Sooooo gonna leave this as an open tag for anyone who wants to play, and tag a few people too <3
@foggieststars @oscarpiastriwdc @princesscharlesofmonaco @fueledbyremembering @lestappenreads @chandelier-s-notebook
#no pressure anyone and idk what anyone is actively writing atm#so feel free to ignore me <3#anyway hope everyone is having a good monday and working on fun stuff#or feel free to bully me over my doc naming#because yes I know some of these are CHOICES#ask game#I realize opening up the idk anymore doc to questioning may be a mistake#ah well
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
obsessed with what we're meant to read out of rook's expression when taash starts to walk away in this scene. it feels like such an emotionally dense response from them, especially since they've only known taash or anyone else involved in these scenes for all of five minutes
sorry about the abysmal gif quality one day I'll learn how to make gifs properly yet that day is not today. but hello. rook. rook hello. what is this about. what's up with that. what are you thinking about. (also taash seeing that reaction and turning around to clarify that it IS what they wanted before they leave because they're upset, not unkind. aww.)
also flashback to this set of expressions rook makes later on, after the fangscorcher fight, if rook tells taash they're actually a lot like them beneath it all. taash apparently just consistently brings out some very tender rueful rook faces I guess haha
#for rye specifically I think that's the gently amused helpless '...well. I... don't quite know what to do with that'#the '...aw fuck. I'M the adult in the situation now huh. what the fuck no one warned me this would happen' of it all#and pained melancholy tenderness that he feels for taash all the way through#(they are way too similar to his younger self in some ways for comfort and he does not necessarily find that easy to deal with lol)#but like. if your rook has a Mother TM or general feelings about their parents (or lack thereof)#or even feeling like they're falling short in their role as leader... such fertile ground here#taash and rye have one of my favourite dynamics in the whole game it's so loving and supportive and also so fraught and nuanced#I joke that rook has a thousand ways to worriedly yet defeatedly say 'taash....' but is it a joke tho fhsdj#shathann really said 'you will keep them safe' and rye internalized that so deep it's a little bit unhelpful to everyone involved#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#taash#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#I think taash' feelings about rye are also a lot about like... 'I can literally see (probably also smell idk) that you're sad#why are you pretending you aren't. I don't know what to do to help you feel less like that if you won't even ever say what's wrong'#the mutual 'I wish you well with all my heart but I can't quite figure out how to be good to you the way you need me to be'#the way that's also inherited stuff from both of their childhoods and relationships with their parental figures. as well as#extremely high-masking autistic and cannot-figure-out-how-to-mask-to-save-their-life autistic navigating around each other vibes lmao#augh. I love this game. I'd say sorry for the taash and rye thoughts spam this fine monday but I'm not I love them both lol
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
Think I just sprained my ankle standing almost completely still where is my healer wife I have 3 hours left to my shift damnit I need this fixed NEOW
#uhgggggg#i work until monday too 😔#big sadge#fucking L weak ankles tbh i sprained my right ankle bad like two yrs ago now and now my left goddamnit#my manager is amazing n he went to Albertsons and got me a bandage wrap tho so bow that theres compression it feels better#i have compression socks at home too so#i lost my brace in the move after some druggos burned my old apartment out so im sol there#AND MY MOMS CAR GOT FUCKING TOTALED TUESDAY BY SOME OLD BITCH THAT RAN A RED LIGHT SO SHE CANT DRIVE TO ME W A NEW BRACE#2025 hates me#why does so much happen to me and my loved ones how am i supposed to smile in the face of adversity when adversity wants me dead#cherry chatter#not fennwedh
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
What do you do when your psychiatrist hands you an scale for OCD to fill out, explains that there are different types, then says "at least you can go through it and go 'oh thank goodness I don't have that type"?
Cuz I'm thinking of telling her to go fuck herself, but that doesn't seem productive.
#ocd#and the shittiest part is I know exactly what types she's referring to and they're some of the most present and upsetting intrusive thoughts#I have#I don't even feel safe checking those boxes#gonna talk to my therapist on Monday about it but fucking hell#actually ocd
8 notes
·
View notes