#had to process the orientalism 💀

[fallofthecelestial]

[mourningsbane]

regarding the newest comic post, a lot of ppl are saying honeyspring would never harm a kit and that her "gift" isn't meant to be malicious. but, i mean, if it IS mourningsbane, she might be giving it to sweetkit in hopes she will eat it, pass away, and thus be able to join her in her weird limbo afterlife so she doesn't have to be alone anymore. that's a recurring theme that seems to be honeyspring's biggest issue: she doesnt want to be alone.

yes sweetkit talks to her now, but there is still the disconnect that sweetkit is alive and honeyspring is not. honeyspring also cant communicate easily anymore; nowhere near the way that sweetkit and other living cats can. honeyspring is limited in terms of communication with most of it seeming to rely on symbolism or physically visible things.

sweetkit has other clanmates to interact with and a life she has to live filled with responsibilities, events, etc. as she grows up in the clan. she can't give honeyspring her undivided attention and whenever she is away living her own life, honeyspring is left alone, waiting and hoping that sweetkit will come back (which is never a 100% certain thing.)

on the topic of sweetkit growing up, that's the thing: she's going to grow up. while kits may be less judgmental and indifferent to honeyspring's appearance, as sweetkit gets older, she may get more perturbed by honeysprings appearance and/or discover honeyspring's story and make the connection that shes been talking to a dead cat all this time. that being said, she might not want to even be around honeyspring anymore and might even fear her. if she fears her or doesnt want to see her anymore, honeyspring will have lost their only friend, rendering them completely and utterly alone (which, again, seems to be her biggest source of distress.)

on top of this, honeyspring lost her kits (whether u take that to mean they died or they became... Not Kits) so if sweetkit joins them, they can finally be the mother/parent they were meant to be but was denied so cruely. in this case, sweetkit won't get older. she will remain a kit forever, so honeyspring can be a mother/parent to sweetkit and cherish the joys of mother/parenthood forever, making her miserable afterlife a lot more bearable.

dont get me wrong! i adore honeyspring and hold her very dear to my heart (is it weird to say shes a bit of a comfort character to me at this point...?) but they're in a very heartbreaking, complex, and unstable state of being right now and who knows how in control of her emotions, actions, and thought processes she is.

cats make mistakes (obviously 💀) and dont always think abt/realize the big picture or the consequences of their actions all the time. and honestly, it's understandable for honeyspring to be acting "selfish" abt sweetkit; honeyspring did nothing wrong in life (as far as i know) and had all of what was meant to be a love-filled, family-oriented future stripped away from them in a gruesome and downright horrific way caused by such a simple mistake no less. why cant they have this one semblance of control over their existence now that their future is gone.

it wouldnt be the first time a cat gave their clanmate mourningsbane after all.

(sorry if a lot of this doesn't make sense or is confusing! i have a lot of trouble putting my thoughts into words...)

-warriorwhiskers (warrior cat sideblog)

Oh, this is a VERY interesting theory! I like the way your brain works! <3

I cannot say for sure how accurate this theory is due to potential spoilers, BUT I think you have a very valid read on Honeyspring's personality!

If it helps, know that Honeyspring has always been resourceful! LutumClan has no official nursery? That's fine, Honeyspring will make one! Does the clan need more prey for the fresh-kill pile? Worry not, Honeyspring's on the case!

Can't enter paradise? That's okay, Honeyspring will make her own.

[southern-belle-outcasts]

Name: Nilza Maria Valdez

Nickname(s): Unless she knows you well, she's not going to answer to anything she didn't tell you to call her (sometimes gives an alias). Nillie WILL result in violence. Nil or Nils (her name is pronounced nil-suh) only acceptable from someone she likes. Pet names are a very case by case basis and rarely accepted.

Relationship Status: Most verses it's "cannot get any more single and unavailable". There's a few that have managed to get under her skin.

Gender: Woman.

Romantic Orientation: Bisexual and romantic but leans femme in her hookup choices, and would lean masc romantically if she tended to be romantically inclined.

Preferred Pet Names: She will often drop lindo/a if she finds you pretty. She is very headshy about love/amor- using it or receiving it. Papí is common with the dudes.

Opinion on True Love: Had it. She's the reason it's gone so clearly she doesn't deserve it. Would require a miracle to find again, and a second one to keep it.

Opinion on Love at First Sight: That's for movies. Lust at first sight? Sure.

How ‘Romantic’ Are They?: Could be romantic but very traumatized. It would fluctuate.

Ideal Physical Traits: Her usual choice of women close to her in build or more slender is more safety than anything. It's easier to kick the ass of someone who doesn't outweigh and look over you. Her trust is limited. Admittedly she is a fan of pretty hair and eyes, those being her go to in men or women. Fuller lips are a close third. Bonus points for features usually frowned upon by western beauty standards, she rarely has the hots for most people Hollywood would typically fawn over.

Ideal Personality Traits: Not scared of her or her snark. Unfortunately, she also finds being scared of her attractive. Having a sense of humor is big, she does actually like to be goofy with someone she trusts. Likes dogs.

Unattractive Physical Traits: She isn't often a fan of blond hair. She's made the exception once. Unfortunately she suffers from 'my body makes me my money and keeps me alive' which means she is very conscious of it and self critical, and of others. She might not voice it out loud but she's fatphobic and won't do much thicker than herself.

Unattractive Personality Traits: Cruelty to vulnerable people. Bootlickers (capitalism/cops/whatever- hard pass). Liars.

Ideal Date: One where the person doesn't abandon her or die.

Do They Have a Type?: Tall men, usually dark haired, that are either Up to No Good, or Too Good for This World. There are exceptions but that is the typical.

Average Relationship Length: what's the average of 5 minutes to 2 hours? Do we include the year with Soren? Someone else do the math 💀

Preferred Non-Sexual Intimacy: Parallel play. She's very content to just do her thing with her video games or her phone while someone does their own thing. Preferably on top of or under or touching her. Clothing optional.

Commitment Level: Usually won't even give her number for a second lay. Once she is in a situationship? Will kill or die for.

Opinion of Public Affection: So long as children aren't being terrorized in the process she has little shame.

Past Relationships?: Regardless of verse, her one and only real relationship was Soren. Which was an engagement until well...yeah.

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[hislittleraincloud]

so when are you posting the afterburn wednesday x uvc cairo enemies to lovers fic /j

I laughed for about ten minutes after I read this. It was a guilty laugh.

Don't think I haven't thought about a crossover, however that would be...somethin' else since they're the same fkn character, with few differentiating qualities. UVC Cairo is more talkative and casual, lugubriously loquacious like a typical Southern Gothic writer. AB Wednesday is...well, she's Wednesday. Sharper (in the head and on the edges, obvs), and doesn't tolerate who she perceives as imbeciles. But with UVCC practically being her twin, the competitiveness would be explosive. Wednesday is the better writer, too, and that would piss UVCC off to no end...and amuse Jon in the process.

...

...Damn you, anon. I have too much to write as it is. I mentioned it before, but I have multiple active 'Benson' files (UVC, though one of them isn't UVC universe, it's standalone one-shot "What If?" that centers around their confrontation/when Cairo is emasculating him). Look at this mess

Damn you, mid mfkr...damn you to Hell. 💀🥲😭🪦🥀

I don't even know how many active AB files I've got going atm.

It is very rare that I go out anywhere, but I needed a walk/break from everything so I took the senior dogs (and the baby dog strapped to my chest) out in their stroller. Been struggling mentally with the non-writing shit that's been happening in my life. Every day I take care of the needy dogs (the seniors are both 17 years old this year...as old as some of the teacher crushers that I see on my fyp 💀 and a year younger than Wednesday). One of them has trouble with his back legs and sometimes energy. Anyone remember that Family Guy cutaway where Peter is holding an elderly Brian who is blind/deaf/senile by his water bowl so he can drink? That's me, except my boy is able to drink on his own. He just needs me to hold him up on his bad days. The other senior I inherited from a nasty (racist) old lady who passed away, but this dog is behaving more and more like her every day (won't let me cut her nails...same as Mommie Dumbest, who lived with a gross, yellowed, grown out pinky nail she wouldn't let anyone cut). And because she's 17, she has CCD (canine cognitive dysfunction, it's doggie dementia) and sometimes gets lost or stares at the wall even though she's blind. Both dogs can still eat/drink, potty in the right place, and still come when called (though they love sleeping 💤 ). My boy is still sharp in the head somehow. I can talk to him and he still understands. I never trained my dogs to 'obey commands', I just treat them like the mental toddlers that they are. They listen to me, though the old girl here has a little trouble orienting herself/figuring out where the sound of my voice is coming from (which is ironic, since for her mother, she was a Hearing Dog). Taking them all out at once is a big feat since I'm also disabled/walk with a cane, but thankfully the stroller worked well for all of us. It was a nice day to walk around the lake.

Of course I got one fkn ass bish making a comment about how they're dogs and should be walking. Had to tell her that they're both 17 and the bigger one can't walk steadily all the time. And when I did let the little excited girl down to walk shortly after I took this photo, she couldn't get her bearings since she is blind. Yes, she looks like she's excitedly looking at something but she's not...she struggles finding treats I put down in front of her. BTW, the seniors are my babies, but my baby baby is the one everyone is enamored with, since she still looks like a puppy/has a baby face...hmm....

I played the AB soundtrack on the walk and it was a good motivator. I had forgotten what an eclectic collection that is, since I usually play the Gates Mansion Secrets soundtrack while we're out (blasting the Genitorturers while walking by an Easter Sunday church crowd was fun). I really want to get 8 done so I can move on to After the Burn/AtB, but there are small scenes that will be happening between her winter vacation and the start of the spring semester (which was/is January 2023). I'll have to decide whether they're going to be published in between 'the first season and the second season', or whether I'll keep them for flashbacks in AtB.

This is not to mention the other non-fandom stuff I've got in my notes/partially written. I'd love to improve one of my movie scripts, and I have ideas for a couple of others.

Anyway, TLDR; the 💩 that no one cares about: I know you were j/k, but exploring the F/F sexual dynamic beyond the Nighshades in AB isn't something I feel I need to do (...yet). With ABW and UVCC, I feel like it'd be a very slow burn. I can't slow burn anything besides what I have in the pipeline for AB.

[corruptedplaylist]

looking out for you: act ii behind the scenes

just pretending like im on a talk show i am both the interviewer and the host <3

motivation for writing the lance and keith solo chapters

i've been raring to write the solo winter break chapters (i just called them the winter break interlude in my head for a bit) since september/october actually. i viewed it as my reward for finishing act ii 💀 not just because i love angst but also i love a good character study/character development heavy chapter and i really got to dig into each character and their home lives.

the foundation of this fic is entirely based on my dissatisfaction with how the show progressed and ended and subsequent self-indulgence— i've just been addressing a lot of the issues i had with vld. one such issue for me was the lack of in-depth character development. i enjoy a good romance as much as the next person but i really wanted to understand keith and lance as individuals who functioned outside of each other and the context of the group, and the solo chapters were a great writing exercise for me in terms of characterization and character-driven storytelling. so let's get into it baby!

lance's section (chapter 11) first.

we never got to see lance's growth as a character beyond "the dumb one" or the guy who cracks jokes for the sake of the team. the smaller vulnerable moments lance had, where he broke down and felt like he was useless and tried to leave the team or when he admitted he missed his family and Earth— they never got properly resolved. i think lance's identity as a 1.5 generation immigrant (immigrating to the States as a little kid) as well as his status as the youngest in a large family impacted his thought process and self-perception and i wanted to showcase that.

for children especially, immigration can be traumatic. i know "trauma" is an oversaturated buzzword used in pop psychology these days but i refer its definition as something established in one of my classes: "an event or series of events that is perceived as frightening, distressing, or life-threatening and has long-lasting effects on the survivor's emotional, social, mental, and physical processes." i imagine that for a 5-year-old lance, who has always been family-oriented and prone to bouts of homesickness, he experienced his immigration as traumatic when he had to leave behind everything he knew in cuba (his house, his friends, his neighbors, most of his family members) and start his life over in america. like, that's a LOT for anyone, let alone a little kid, to have to deal with. and that's where i extrapolated the notion that lance is afraid of being left behind— he didn't really have a choice in whether or not he got to leave cuba and so he's carried this fear that everyone in cuba will move on without him.

on top of that, i think lance acted as a sponge for his family's negative emotions related to immigration (stress, anxiety, sadness). that's partially where he developed the conception that he had to perform, to always be on and distract them from their negative feelings. ofc, it also doesn't help that as the youngest, he really has to jockey with his siblings for a Thing (i.e. Luis is the family man, Marco is the athlete, Veronica and Rachel are the career-driven women).

i knew from the get-go i was gonna make this bitch have daddy issues lol. first and foremost, i do not want to dismiss the very real fact that there are tons of immigrant parents who hold homophobic notions and ideals because that is 100% real. however, the way that it's portrayed in media can sometimes flatten a lot of the potential for a nuanced relationship. i'm not excusing homophobia by any means but i am coming from a place of engaged empathy. our parents are a product of a society and culture that has ingrained in them homophobic ideals and fucked notions of gender expression. it's difficult to break a way of thinking and acting when you've had that logic shoved down your throat since birth. i think there's a lot to be said on the concept of masculinity and the "strong silent immigrant parent," which i haven't seen much in the voltron fanfiction i've consumed. i wanted to craft a relationship between lance and his dad where it can be boiled down to: "your love hurts." their conversation at the end of chapter 11 is by no means fixing everything, but it's a step in the right direction.

i also just really love lance's relationship with his siblings. i'm the oldest so it was a fun exercise to just see how lance interacts with his siblings as the youngest. also that's not the last you'll be seeing of the McClan in this fic......

let's talk about the keith section:

ok first, we've been able to view shiro from keith, lance, and adam's pov thus far. the thing is, though, is that lance still kind of views shiro as his idol/someone he's looked up to, and i wrote adam's pov primarily so the audience could view klance as a unit. shiro's character felt a little flat, and that was kind of on purpose thus far. keith and shiro are obviously incredibly close since they're brothers in this universe, but there's been an underlying tension so far because keith feels distant from shiro and i wanted to address that finally.

i think it's a natural thing for relationships to change once people hit college/move out. keith's mom left when he was a kid and his dad died and he bounced from foster home to foster home so ofc he's going to develop a huge complex about forming attachments to other people. i think it makes sense that one of keith's biggest fears is that shiro will leave him or grow tired of him, which obvi isn't true, but when you get in your head about something, after years of trauma and reinforcement of a spiral of bad thoughts, it's hard to get out of it. so keith's chapter was kind of confronting this idea that he deserves good, and that he might be good, and maybe he should stop running and learn to accept that he is loved.

i'm sure y'all have picked up on the whole thing i have for keith about showing the evolution of his willingness to be vulnerable and open up through cooking. at the end of keith's chapter, he is making kimchi fried rice with akemi which holds a lot of nuance.

1) keith is slowly but surely exploring his own heritage. (i know i haven't touched on keith's korean identity in a bit but dw that's coming in later chapters). fried rice isn't an entirely new concept to him bc he was raised in a japanese household (and also just exists in the world) but he's embracing positive change within himself and even initiating it himself by trying out a korean recipe, using kimchi, a korean food

2) not only is he trying out a korean recipe, he felt safe enough to attempt it for the first time at college, in a shared house with all his friends, and even served it to them, which is a HUGE step in his willingness to be perceived.

3) he is sharing this recipe with akemi, his japanese kind-of mom. it's the fact that cooking is kind of a love language for keith and akemi, and he wants to share something he's found for himself, away from the texas house, and integrated it into his old life, mixing what he knew with what he knows now.

akemi, who has shared her own recipes she learned from her family with keith and took on the role of teacher, is now the student. she's learning a recipe from keith and engaging in his explorations of his koreanness through cooking. and keith is sharing his culture with her because he tried it on his own with his own little found family, like "hey look at this thing i tried out for myself can i share it with you?"

tl;dr for chapters 11 and 12

i wanted to use the solo chapters as ways to show how lance and keith react to change— the ways they view it and the reasons they fear it. it can be boiled down to this:

lance: i am afraid of being left behind and i wish things would stay the same so i do not have to address the fear of being left behind because that implies i am not good enough for someone to stay for. keith: nothing has ever stayed the same for me and i am afraid of getting comfortable in the love that my community has for me because that could all be ripped away at a moment's notice. i will leave first as an act of self preservation.

allura 💖🧚🏿‍♀️🥰

i love you allura!!!! i got to have keith and lance each have a little moment with our fave princess because 1) keith and allura didn't interact a lot in this supposed found family in the canon other than when allura found out keith was galra and 2) i really liked the friendship between lance and allura in seasons 3-4 and i wish there were more moments like that. i think keith and allura could both connect more on grief and heritage since they both lost their parents, bridges to their respective cultures (keith korean, and allura jamaican). that little moment in ch 6 between both of them was very special for me as well— as an adoptee, i felt disconnected from a lot of traditions and holidays and foods that were a part of my birth culture but i didn't have anyone to celebrate it with. having keith and allura kind of discuss that together was not only a great character development moment but also was me projecting a lil 😗

side note: allura saying goodnight to keith in chapter 8 after halloweekend shenanigans parallels chapter 2, when they're outside the bathroom and she goes to touch his shoulder but he ducks away. i thought it'd be a nice little easter egg to show the progression of their friendship— in chapter 8, keith lets allura touch him and affirm their status as friends who have fun together.

i like lotor as a character but i had to nerf him a bit in this fic in regards to his relationship with allura. i think allura's relationship with lotor adds to her depth as a character— she's seen as the strong girlboss who doesn't take shit but hinting at her toxic relationship and portraying its affects was important to me. yes, allura is a badass but also she is not immune to shitty stuff, and even the most badass of people can get into bad situations. it doesn't make them weak, it just makes them human. i wanted lance, who def has this image of allura that's different from reality, to kind of find allura in this vulnerable moment and 1) realize that she's a person first and foremost, not an infallible goddess and 2) comfort her wholeheartedly because lance, to his core, is a very kind person and even when drunk, he's going to try and find the right words to say.

allura is a side character in all of this but i wanted to give her some complexity as well, since lance hangs out a lot with hunk and pidge and keith is closer with shiro and adam.

ch 9 klance development

ok look everything everywhere all at once left a fucking imprint on my brain when i saw it. "in another life i would have liked just doing laundry and taxes with you" ok stab me in the gut. that being said, i know i really wanted to give klance a moment to just be friends who run domestic errands together, to start nudging them in a direction where they're both like, "hey i kinda enjoy hanging out with this person one-on-one, and im comfortable enough to feel like i dont have to perform in front of them." klance just being domestic and folding laundry together at a laundromat and sharing airpods askgjakdjghlkadjfhgadf.

i also wanted to include the little adam and lance moment toward the end, because let's face it, adam would have absolutely adored lance (i say from the 2 minutes of screentime canon adam w got). lance has hunk and pidge and he's friends with allura but i wanted to give him someone to look up to and rely on the way keith has shiro. esp since lance is the youngest and away from home— adam probably reminds him more of his siblings initially, because lance has a more grounded perspective of adam than shiro, who's a microniche celebrity.

about the beach episode

i love beach filler episodes so fucking much. it's just a great time to get the ensemble out of the typical college setting and see how they function as a unit in a different environment. from the car rides, to stopping for food at some dingy ass fast food chain, to fucking around on the beach and chasing birds and sharing lunch ugh i love it so much it was lovely to write. mirroring adashi's relationship development with klance's was fun, i've had that idea in my head for awhile now so it was gratifying to see it come to fruition. i knew that i would have lance realize he liked keith first simply because keith takes a bit to process his emotions. dw this isn't gonna be some one-sided, drawn out pining for too long.

this beach chapter was a way for me to simultaneously reflect on how things have progressed with klance's relationships. not just with each other, but the rest of the group as well. i wanted them to have gotten a natural dynamic where they're all close enough to go on a beach trip and just fuck around and be normal college kids taking a break for finals. it also allowed me to plant the seeds for further klance development, as well as hint at the central conflict that would follow lance in chapter 11. chapter 10 was a great wrap up for the overall dynamic of the group and a way to end the fall semester.

what was it like to write in adam's pov?

that was so much fucking fun ahhhhh. for one reason, klance aren't together yet and i wanted. to write. domestic bliss. second, it's a great narrative tool to kind of zoom out a bit when viewing klance. we can see how the boys interact in a group setting from an outsider's perspective, without all the gay panic or inner monologues, as fun as they are to write. they just exist as they are, and adam takes note of it. third, i love adam and the potential of adashi and i am so so so sad that adam got killed off after less than 90 seconds of screentime. nothing against curtis, but i've just been more attached to adam since his character was revealed in the show (even if it wasn't for long). shiro deserves a loving partner and healthy relationship and i think adashi are so fucking cute. and yeah, i'm paralleling adashi's relationship development with klance, i just couldn't fucking resist.

when tf are lance and keith gonna get together?

LMAO yeah i knew this was gonna be a slowburn but damn i really am drawing it out. i do want to follow a somewhat logical progression and pacing, though. act i was building klance up as people who could find some common ground and humanize each other instead of just butting heads. act ii has been following the development of their friendship and planting the seeds for romantic attraction, as you might have seen from chapter 10. dw, there is a spike in the klance development in act iii as i focus on their navigation as a couple, and as y'all know, i already wrote the confession scene. it's coming!!!! soon!!!!!!!

multilingualism as a plot device

i've talked about it before but i love!!!! using language as a plot device to demonstrate a character's personality/development/interpersonal relationship!!!

i'm not a fluent speaker in any of the languages that have appeared or been mentioned in this fic (spanish, japanese, korean, jamaican creole, tagalog). i've studied most of them lackadaisically and i'm sort of fuzzy on grammar and cultural nuance. i've been consulting with actual native speakers of these languages to try and make it as authentic as possible but ofc, if you do speak those languages and something sticks out with the translations, please let me know!

i studied spanish in high school, but it was a mix of mexican and castillian spanish because i had different teachers between the years. diving into cuban spanish, which is an entirely different dialect because of its history in the caribbean, has been really fun (and also a lot of work my god i haven't had to bust out my spanish in years). learning all the different curses has been sooooo cool, i love profanity in other languages.

that being said, i think it's really interesting when writing from keith's pov and incorporating language. i have this idea that when keith first moved in with the shiroganes, akemi and shiro tried to encourage him to go to korean school but he probably got embarrassed because he was put with a bunch of little kids due to his speaking ability and stopped going.

the linguistic and cultural barrier was fun to craft between keith and akemi because when they first met each other, keith probably spoke 0 japanese and akemi was more comfortable in japanese and less in english. from the flashback in chapter 12, we see that keith has already been studying hard to work to a conversational level of japanese, and he can understand basic phrases (akemi tries to accommodate him as well). even so, keith still uses 丁寧語 or teneigo, the standard level of politeness for japanese, when he's speaking with akemi. it shows that even though he's progressed in his japanese, he still puts some distance between him and akemi, like he sees himself as a long-term houseguest. ofc there's layers of respect that are interlaced with teneigo, but close family units don't use teneigo when they speak to each other.

this has been a disorganized and rambling behind the scenes of looking out for you act ii. thanks for tuning in and see y'all next time <3

[pepprs]

ok. tomorrow working from 8:30-5 tabling outside (on the hottest day of the whole week lol) during first year move in. sunday gonna try to go this new student event 10-noon then finally getting new shoes (replacing the ones ive had since freshman yr of hs and have worn almost every day for a year 😍😍😍😍😍😍) and possibly some better work clothes and then maybe doing driving practice. monday last orientation session andim gonna be the most experienced facilitator there and have to do the hard part my colleague besties have been taking on all summer 🤪🤪🤪 tuesday staff team “retreat” / interns first day + convocation (aka me making up for my graduation ceremony by processing into the stadium w all the other faculty and staff wearing a cap and gown and tassel 🥹 (and probably being the only non masters / doctorate person LMAOOOO but whatever)). wednesday first day of teaching + i think our edits to the book chapter are due to the publisher 💀. thursday nothing except tabling for new students helping guide them to their classes i think. friday open house event. and then a 3 day weekend. and then the week after that i start going to my grad school class lollll

[apricot-tarot]

Hello sweet person,

First things first, I appreciate the kindness and wishes you expressed in my leaving, warm hugs and care for you 🤗. Also so happy you like the content yay.

Now the reading, man my ass is so paranoid rn. Because. I have been lately getting a lot of "Spouse wants to build a family with you", "Spouse wants family with you""spouse is Family oriented" and this just damn shiz what's happening 💀💀 Now although it was SO SWEET with building a home together where we can be open with emotions like COME ON , but my paranoid ass is just what¿ This is so good to be to true.

Ngl I did like the " as you started to notice me, I also started to realise how I wished for a stable home..". 🥰

Open with emotions is such a sweet and genuine act here in the reading like it's really that significant and I never got that but it's like so healthy and sweet. I mean it's all about me wanting to release and this matches my energy rn, like I am really having a lot of thoughts, anxiety, fears and chaos. SO THIS IS JUST WOW. And then saying "Release it all, after your soul is worn out I am here for you. Fall into my arms" *sobs *. Now you definitely got the independent and strategic mind right and them them asking me to let my guard down damn -vulnerability issues surfaces- lol.

The last line " let the world out and focus on us, just look at me and let yourself be.." *heart eyes * and we are each other happy endings, shiz this message was so sweet and like SO GOOD. I am having a hard time accepting goodness in this reading lmao.

Now the notebook scene you talked of, I am guessing it's again about them just wanting me to let myself be. (I am unsure why this is a strong a message in this reading )

Nonetheless, Thank you for this and please continue making amazing pacs. They are super fun -notanastrologer

First of all thank you for taking the time and writing me this detailed feedback. I loved reading all you had to say. I appreciate it a lot and it helps yk.

I did get the feeling that the 4 of Cups was coming from you. That is why there is the open with the emotions, like he is trying to get you out of that 4 of Cups energy and see the Ten of Cups. At least that is how I read it. It could also be that your rejection (4 of cups) of this 10 of cups (happy family and all that) possibility or idea will play a role and that is why the man is giving it his all in that letter to turn the tables😂😂

I think if the reading is about the FS, the talk about family and building something together will come up. You cannot escape certain keywords lol. Those types of readings are like wedding vows, some phrases or words will be there because they define marriage. That being said, here it was very direct, you got the Ten of Cups (literally the card of a happy family). Family can also be only you and him. Also, in this reading I did think he sees you as the Queen of Swords, that is where the intelligent, strategic and independent so I am happy you confirmed that.

The notebook scene it was up to you for interpretation. It just came to mind. I did think it was again him trying to kind of "convince" you. However, when you related it to "letting yourself be" it made sense. I am not sure either on why it was a prominent theme but I could not avoid it. To let yourself be might be associated with letting your guard down, like you mentioned. The fall into my arms part was the first thing that I felt the urge to write but I let it have a backseat and wrote it after the first few sentences.

I understand the paranoia though bcs same. But, this was a love letter. I specifically asked and did the reading this way. It was supposed to be a gushy love letter. Kind of how those from 2 centuries ago would write love letters to their betrothed lol. So ofc you would get the good things. They can happen. Trust the process and trust yourself. After all, according to my deck you are the Queen of Swords.

Thank you for participating. Sending lots of love 🧡

p.s I rambled a lot, but you reading was very memorable. I lost it two times when writing it down. Then just as I was about to be done the lights went out lol so I had to connect to my mobile data just to make sure I would not lose it for a 3rd time 😂 Just when I was about to change smth about the "fall into my arms" part, the lights came back on and I took it as a sign that I should send it off to you.

[nickwildexx]

✩‧₊˚ STATISTICS                                   ( last updated: 29/9/22 )\

                                 ADDITIONAL :  elwood gray ( nextgen mentee )                                                  the wilde bunch ( nextgen plot career thing )

inspired  by  :  NICK WILDE, of Zootopia

added inspo & random nick thingzs !

gina linetti and jake peralta, of brooklyn 99

“i was born for politics, i have great hair and i love lying” - gina

jason bateman’s deadpan

danny ocean & rusty, of ocean’s eleven

wearing sunglasses all the time as soon as he’s outside

always having food or a snack on him. when you least expect it: potato chips

( to be continued !! )

full name. nicholas piberius wilde faceclaim. jharrel jerome dob. 13 december 1998 zodiac. saggitarius occupation. none (casual conman)

physical description.

neatly-trimmed beard, short hair

5ft 7 ½ (171.5 cm)

wears trousers & hoodies & button ups over t-shirts & sneakers

birthplace. zootopia (central city) orientation. ??? 

song. got to give it up (p.1), by marvin gaye

i used to go out to parties and stand around 'cause I was too nervous, baby to really get down but my body yearned to be free i got up on the floor and thought somebody could choose me

album. charlie’s angels (2000) music from the motion picture education. high school diploma + currently studying bachelor of commerce/arts mbti. ENTP alignment. neutral good abilities. night vision, excellent sense of smell & business savvy hogwarts house. slytherin emoji.  ( 🤮🙄 💀👎🔥)

( nick is still a work in progress, so this is just a start! :3 )

what is zootopia and who are zootopians???

Translating Zootopia into the ‘real world’ was a really interesting thought process. For now I’ve assumed that Zootopians are kind of like this other humanoid species that are born with animal abilities, and these generations of families then took on the traits and aesthetic of the abilities they’re born with. 

So like the Wildes are the classic red fox (vulpes vulpes), and they have traits akin to red foxes. But I’ve headcanoned that Mrs Wilde comes from an arctic fox family, so she is probably better suited to colder weather (she’s gone to live in Tundratown with her sister while Nick’s in Elias), and Nick has inherited (??) that trait, so he’s gonna have a nifty resistance to cold. Just a little bit.

younger nick wilde:

Nick was the cutest kid on the block, that is a fact.

His father was the eldest of three children, and Nick is an only child. But he grew up amongst his cousins (four in total). The Wildes don’t have a typical hierarchy — currently, the ‘head’ of the Wilde is his aunt. Nick’s father was tapped to be the head after his grandfather passed, but Nick’s father (once the smartest and slickest) stepped down when Nick was five years old.

When Nick was five, his aunts and uncles used him to con people at the carnival, having him as a distraction while they pickpocketed people who were taking care of ‘lost little Nick’. They praised him as a natural in the conning game. Mr Danny Wilde saw that his son was being praised for something that Nick had no idea about, and he saw his entire son’s life flash before his eyes: being roped into something he had no say in, and after that incident, he stepped away from cons.

Nick’s mother thoroughly supported this, but felt constantly criticized by her in-laws. She was not a con artist; in fact, she was a regular artist, whose skill lay in pottery.

After Mr Wilde stepped back, he spent time with his son and wife, taking them on trips around the world, and showering them with gifts. But the best gift he gave to his son was determination, to never forget who he was, and that only he could decide who he was.

Mr Wilde always had a dream of being a stage actor. He collected vinyls and loved old musicals, and also tried to keep track of newer musicals as they came out. He even auditioned for a few things in his retirement, and Nick remembers practicing lines with him. He even got a part in a local stage play, but the night of the first show, Nick’s father died in a car crash. Nick was twelve years old.

Rumours went around that the crash was intentional, a revenge from a person Mr Wilde had wronged in the past.

When Mr Wilde died, the rest of the Wildes thought that this would be a good time to bring Nick into the world of conning. But the year Mr Wilde died was also the year Nick had been studying to join boy scouts. The last thing his father had given him was the scout scarf, while his mother collected the uniform. He was not about to give up on the boy scouts, and — despite not knowing exactly why his heart felt this way — he was not about to disappoint his father.

He got his scout scarf from his dad and it has become his most TREASURED ITEM :(((

But then, the scouts rejected him. And the rejection hurt even more than the bruises and gashes he received from their attack. Somehow, even the kids knew that Wildes were bad news. To this day, Nick still didn’t know how they knew to just attack him. Did everyone really hate foxes like him? Had his family hurt everyone?

After the failure with the scouts, Nick became resigned, closed off. Then after a few months of being little more than a ghost in his house, he finally agreed to join his cousins in a confidence scheme they had picked up. The con almost went south before Nick saved the day, coming up with a quick story and getaway before his cousins could even blink.

Everyone praised him, especially his aunts and uncles, and everyone asked how he did it. Had he secretly been like this all along? Pretending that he wasn’t interested just because of his father? That hurt. But by now Nick had learned that the best way to avoid even more hurt was just to go along with it. Be what people want. Nothing could hurt more than losing his father and an opportunity with scouts within a year.

coming to elias:

So Nick’s twenty-two years old when Judy Hopps comes along. That’s a solid ten years of being one of the best con artists in Zootopia, and he gets bested by a carrot pen, a heart full of gold, and someone a foot shorter than him? Jesus Christ on a popsicle stick.

All right, maybe it isn't’ too bad. Maybe he kind of likes that he now has to find a new Nick Wilde, the one that Judy sees. Maybe, in the process, he’s chipping away at all these layers and suits he’s put on throughout the years and finding the real Nick Wilde.

She told him he had a good brain and to put it to good use, and maybe he liked that.

Though, let’s be clear, he is also actively trying to not be imprisoned for felony tax evasion.

Maybe, he also wanted the opportunity to atone for the mistakes of his family. Maybe, he wanted to help the Hopps name rise, if it meant Judy got her bad guy, or cracked her case, or whatever hare-brained adventure she was currently on. From finding missing persons to figuring out what drug was making Zootopians crazy, if it meant Judy wasn’t going to officially arrest him, then he’d do it. If it got Chief Bogo’s nose out of his hair, he’d do it. If it meant getting to finally be someone else … he’d do it.

When he told his family he was moving to Elias, the Wildes were less than pleased. Still, he smooth-talked his way out of questions and offers to have Judy suddenly ‘disappear’. He explained that it was the best way to get his record cleaned, to have the police officially off his tail. He was the new ‘face’ of the Wildes, now did they really want to screw that up for him?

In addition, he convinced his mother to leave their old apartment for a while. Nick knew that without him there, they would only make life worse for her with their passive-aggresive ways, so she now lives in Tundratown with her sister. (I’m going to say that his mother has arctic fox heritage !!!!)

at elias:

But it’s not that easy. Nick thought he could be a new person just like that but being new wasn’t like peeling an onion layer off. People had questions. People tested him. And while he somehow thought he’d be spending his days with Judy, she was dealing with her own problems and dreams.

Honestly, he doesn’t really know what he’s doing in Elias — he’s studying now? In some fancy-schmancy university? Paid by the Zootopia Police Department? He’d be an idiot to complain. But it all seemed like too fast.

So what does he do? Every now and then, he dabbles in a confidence scheme. Just to keep training that muscle, in case Elias doesn’t work out, and in case the new person he’s trying to be … just doesn’t work out for him.

He doesn’t really have much hope. But he knew his father would want him to try. So until he knows for certain that life is hopeless and he’s nothing more than a sly fox  … he’ll keep trying.

quick nick facts:

He has just arrived at Elias woohoo (from the time of first rping, he would have been there for at least a week already)

He studies a Bachelor of Commerce/Arts because he thought well why not, it’s paid for and he might learn something useful

He lives at the university dorms

He is a coffeeholic

His education is paid for by the ZPD (or the government? Mayor Lionheart?)

He’s watching Snake Eyes casino very carefully, not entirely sure if he should dip his toes into that business or not. Snakes needed to be watched more than foxes, in his opinion.

He has no opinion on the ‘good or bad’ of villains like Maleficent, in fact he thinks it’s all really interesting and entertaining. Kind of like a very elaborate soap opera.

He thinks that the majority of people in Elias will likely be of the same mind as Judy Hopps (crime is bad boohoo) so he really tries to keep the cons low profile and never the same one twice.

He’s not stupid, he knows when he’s out of his depth so he tries to lay low in general.

He keeps a notebook of all the people he meets, with little notes on what he thinks of them. At least in Zootopia it was easy to assume things about people, but Elias was a whole new ballgame.

He can be incredibly patient and cool as a cucumber lmao but quickly gets uncool when he feels he’s in danger. He doesn’t really ‘um’ or ‘ah’ or get nervous except around people that really get under his skin. Like Judy Hopps.

Nicknames. All the time. He’s annoying.

There are opportunities in Elias, but he won’t go for any of them because he doesn’t know if he even wants to stay here forever. Zootopia is still his home. To him (for now) Elias is just a really expensive, immersive vacation.

taken connections

judy hopps. friendly annoyance.

wanted connections 

people involved in crime that he could make friends with or just talk to? he’s not looking to join anything, but it’d be nice to have similar-background connections. (......maybe he could join?? who knows !!)

people who go to uni

nick is a bit of a floater, so i could see him just being comfortable going anywhere at anytime. i’ll see how he goes, and i am always open to friends/frenemies/enemies/hookups etc. etc. !!

[sequoiareachesforthesky]

Bruh I had no idea this would get blown out of proportion like that. 💀 So here's my reaction to this reaction to my post :

Yeah I agree that Yuno's part is not in any way as bad, I just pointed out because originally, I just wanted to compile the insults thrown around in the French subs mainly for myself. (And I added the Yuno one because I find it funny that they chose the word "pute" specifically, instead of "salope" for example.) I'm not saying that it's really that much worse than in English, aside from the fact that I stand on the fact that the pronunciation of "pute" is so unnecessarily violent (/lh)

Onto Kazui. I tried to nuance what I meant in my og post in a rb but just to make it clear, "refoulé" doesn't necessarily relates to repressed queerness. Idk what languages you speak, and if you speak French we can discuss it because it's genuinely not that clear cut (aaah semantics... so cool yet so tiring at times...) From talking about it with my sister, we agreed that yeah. If you said "refoulé" to us, our mind would immediately think about "oh it's about being gay", even if it can technically be used with other meanings and in other contexts. I would give the translators the benefit of the doubt though. Since "refoulé" could simply mean "you're too much of a coward to live as your true self (whatever your true self might be, could have nothing to do with sexual orientation or even sexuality)" or "you're hiding from yourself", I actually think it fits Kazui's character well enough. And of course, calling people "gays refoulés" has homophobic baggage (especially when people use it to discredit homophobic people. Like you know, the argument that goes "the homophobes are actually secretly gay". Anyway), but it's more "you're disgusting/pathetic for hiding the fact that you're gay" than "you're disgusting for being gay". And anyway, it's not what the subs are saying. Sure, "refoulé" by itself is really insulting, but by itself, it can't be called homophobic specifically. It's just a very very slippery slope and you would still be an asshole to assume this person is cowardly hiding from their true selves. So imo, it actually kinda fits with the rest of the remarks Kotoko makes at the prisoners :/ It's just that yeah, they maybe could've found a word that doesn't have this kind of connotation (note: the "necessarily gay" connotation might be a generational thing)

SO PLEASE I BEG YOU PEOPLE, THIS DOESN'T CONFIRM THE GAY THEORY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE THIS IS NOT WHAT I MEANT 😭😭😭

But aside from the fact that the word would... kinda... fit the context... I guess... in my very humble opinion... Is it actually a good translation of the line meaning-wise? Idk, I'll let the people who speak Japanese tell me ._.

As for the use of the r-slur, I literally have no idea why they put that here and I have nothing to add onto what you already said. Aside from the fact that in French, it's not as much acknowledged as a slur as in the English language. Sadly. Even in "progressive" circles, I've seen people use it (last time it happened it was a neurodivergent guy too. man.) It's still very fucking bad though. Why would they choose this word to translate this line. I would love to meet with whoever made the translation to know their thought process. Cause like,,, I ain't gonna lie... The French subs just make Kotoko sound like an incel...

Just as reference: here's a compilation of the bad bad words said in the french subs of Deep Cover

(cw for homophobia, ableism, sexism)

Refoulé => repressed

Very derogatory when used to talk about a person. The homophobic insult "gay refoulé" or "homo refoulé" is common enough that WordReference pulled it up when I was looking up translations of "refoulé" in English.

So potential homophobic undertones here if you want to read it that way.

Attardé => retarded

...no comment

Pute => Whore

Very derogatory, very violent (no for real tho. even if it didn't mean what it means, this words' pronunciation sounds so violent for no reason, like have you tried saying it?? It sounds so aggressive)

So anyway, I made this just in case this could be of interest to someone 🤷‍♂️

[oopshisaygoodnight]

queerbaiting allegations

ok there are so many little things so i’m sorry if i contradict myself here but it’s a major cover story by a prominent writer, of course it’s not going to give larries any love! and that’s for the best- press about us never goes well. but that doesn’t mean anyone should feel weak or guilty. we are not a monolith and can’t account for individual behavior which of course includes the whole gamut of feelings and some young people making silly public mistakes 

twitter is a wonderful space for finding like-minded people. i’m so happy to be here, and i do not find any satisfaction in participating in hateful or mean girl behavior. there are many people who are still learning how to be held accountable for their public views but it’s not worth 

i don’t take any pleasure in participating in mean girl behavior but i stand behind everyone on the front lines calling out BS and ha

harry was loud loud loud! and contradicting even himself! the whole “never been publicly with anyone” and his “gf” being interviewed??? 

then this is a small thing but the whole “gay sex two dudes going at it” is like… what movies have you been watching my friend. maybe i’m a biased viewer because i watch a lot of arthouse but MOST queer love stories on film are either lacking in lovemaking representation at all or handled with tenderness. but what i’m actually hearing from that quote is that MP cut the more explicit stuff (i saw a rumor specifically saying the books BJ scene was cut from the film) 💀

honestly what gay sex on film is he watching. like no, gay sex on film is not two dudes going at it??? what i’m hearing is that they cut Tom’s bj scene 💔💀

when we talk about queerbaiting we forget the context of its cultural birth- in shows and movies that played up romantic and sexual undertones between characters of the same sex to INSINUATE queerness without ever seeing it through to ACTUAL representation

famous examples are all the 2010-era tumblr favorites, sherlock probably chief amongst them in terms of heavy, heavy implication of codependent romantic feelings between the two leads

supernatural also comes to mind- huge community of castiel & dean shippers, until, in season 15 and the year of our lord 2020, castiel confesses his love in one scene and phew, you know the show beat the queerbaiting allegations by asserting he was gay all along!

the other big example for me is the social network (2010), where jesse eisenberg and andrew garfield intentionally capitalized on romantic undertones to explain the characters motivations and boy oh boy did we notice.

andrew garfield has had queerbaiter allegations leveled for a long time, and thats where the breakdown of barriers between fiction and fanfiction began culturally, in my eyes. the rise of "queerbaiting" went hand-in-hand with the argument that queer people should play queer roles

regardless of andrew garfield's actual sexual orientation (as of latest, heterosexual), he is a talented actor who knew that accessing romantic motivations for scenework made them much more compelling. but is that not the exact definition of queerbaiting as i described above?

regardless, i have found reading this piece immensely insightful and reflective of the problems at the heart of insinuated and extratextual queer romance between real people (and the joys of observing such things and processing them in fiction)

[sungbeam]

oooh that’s only in a couple days !! good luck with your classes :> also that’s totally understandable :( at least we live in a day and age with facetime and stuff tho so you can def keep in touch with them and still talk to them every day if you want to :)) and aksjskdj i’ve been there so many times 💀 cuz i’m so introverted too like 💀 (well we are twins after all 😌✨) but yeah just go at your own pace and the time will come when you find your ppl :) i’m glad to hear you’ve already made a friend tho ^_^

ahh i’ve been good! yeah i don’t think i’ve actually told you but i’m actually not going to college/university (,,, at least not for now 👀) my plan is quite different from the traditional ways of going to college or university after high school. it’s a little bit hard to explain in just one short ask but basically i’m actually in the process of completing a short certificate program and from there i’m going hopefully straight into the workforce :’)) i’m lucky that my chinese parents actually approve of this plan 😭 ,, actually no that’s not completely true sksjsj my mom doesn’t l o v e the idea but my dad was actually the one who introduced it to me LOL but yeah :> and with this program i get to go at my own pace which has its pros and cons. the pros are quite obvious i think ,, but one of the cons is that bc i get to go at my own pace and there are no strict deadlines, it’s been a little bit difficult pulling myself out of summer mode sksjskdk 💀😭 but other than that tho it’s going well and i’m slowly making my way through it !!

thank uuu ah im gonna need a bit of luck for one class in particular but i'm sure i'll be alright (_ _;) that's true !! the very night my mom landed back home, we had called w my brother and we watched movies online together skcnskfn

i got her instagram acct and i call that a success :') for us introverts, even a name is a success 😃✨ there's a lot of orientation activities this past week that haven't been mandatory, but they're pretty much to meet new people, and there was an out of state mixer today lmao i was going to go but then i realized how absolutely miserably uncomfortable i would be there so i just went grocery shopping lol i got raspberries and apple juice tho so i call that a win

omg that sounds so cool tho!! i'm happy to see ur able to pursue such a path (even w partial chinese parental approval 😭🤧) wishing u much success and luck and love and good skills !! u got this, em (^_-)-☆ ah yeah, i def get that 😅 self discipline and coming out of summer mode is so, so difficult 🤧 i once took a math course over summer and i literally procrastinated until the first week of school 🤡 so i'm sure ur doing much better than i had been doing back then (^^ゞ

idk if ur comfy sharing but what field do u plan to go into :0

[rosesastrology]

Hi! The 🍀 anon here,

Sorry, I would like to know what's he like. If it's needed again Nov 21. Ny city 11:31 am. Thank you in advance🙇‍♀️

He's pretty family-oriented and may be close with his family, his family itself is good and he loves them. It's also the case that he feels the need to respect them and be polite, even they may do some things wrong. There is a lot of emphasis on his childhood and family, and he may have some bad experiences he has to process still. Particularly surrounding the way he was talked to, his intelligence, and logic. While his family had the best of intentions, I feel like particularly his dad may have been quite pushy towards him to do certain things. And it's true that he thought it was for his son's 'own good', but at times this was harmful. His dad isn't a bad person, but that's just what I'm seeing. He's probably quite driven, more introverted and a bit blunt (the dad). As for him, he may be different in public and in private, and probably has a preference for the latter even though I feel like he's a bit of an ambivert inclining towards introvert.

He has some friends he holds close, and has had/will have some toxic friendships in addition to some finance issues that will occur in the future (possibly when you're together). He's quite reserved, but at the same time really funny and a bit of a crackhead (humorous and random). He also has quite some luck on his side, despite the difficulties he faces he generally gets through them very well and without much damage. If he was an RPG character he'd have good armor, so to say💀. He's quite talkative around those he's close to, but his general personality is more quiet. He has some issues figuring out the 'bigger than life' things, they may be confusing to him, even though I get the sense he finds them interesting. He also may have issues with being taught things, and prefers teaching himself, more of a leader than a follower. Though, again, because he's more reserved hes not generally the type to jump into the spotlight. He may have issues understanding religion/his own or other's views on it, and can be a bit opinionated and stubborn.

He's a very deep lover, and the bond would go just as deep. He may be a bit prone to negative emotions, particularly guilt and/or shame. But he manages to pull himself out of it and show that compassionate and empathetic side he has. He's quite the dynamic person, and at his core he's good. I think through your relationship he'll learn to let go more, and become more spontaneous and adventurous and trust his natural intution more as well.

He's represented by the sun🌅. The sun rules Leo which is on the 7th house cusp, that's why :)

The sun is in 29°34 Scorpio, about to enter Sagittarius. It's in the 10th house (turned 4th) and near the axis. It's peregrine. It is conjunct peregrine Mercury (Lord 2 and 11 turned) and square Jupiter (Lord 5 and 8 turned) which has dignity by triplicity. It's opposite the north node, thus conjunct the south node. It's square the part of fortune, opposite Antares and Alcyone and square Regulus. The part of fortune is exactly conjunct Regulus in the 7th house.

He's pretty family-oriented and may be close with his family, his family itself is good and he loves them. It's also the case that he feels the need to respect them and be polite, even they may do some things wrong. There is a lot of emphasis on his childhood and family, and he may have some bad experiences he has to process still. Particularly surrounding the way he was talked to, his intelligence, and logic. While his family had the best of intentions, I feel like particularly his dad may have been quite pushy towards him to do certain things. And it's true that he thought it was for his son's 'own good', but at times this was harmful. His dad isn't a bad person, but that's just what I'm seeing. He's probably quite driven, more introverted and a bit blunt (the dad). As for him, he may be different in public and in private, and probably has a preference for the latter even though I feel like he's a bit of an ambivert inclining towards introvert. He has some friends he holds close, and has had/will have some toxic friendships in addition to some finance issues that will occur in the future (possibly when you're together). He's quite reserved, but at the same time really funny and a bit of a crackhead (humorous and random). He also has quite some luck on his side, despite the difficulties he faces he generally gets through them very well and without much damage. If he was an RPG character he'd have good armor, so to say💀. He's quite talkative around those he's close to, but his general personality is more quiet. He has some issues figuring out the 'bigger than life' things, they may be confusing to him, even though I get the sense he finds them interesting. He also may have issues with being taught things, and prefers teaching himself, more of a leader than a follower. Though, again, because he's more reserved hes not generally the type to jump into the spotlight. He may have issues understanding religion/his own or other's views on it, and can be a bit opinionated and stubborn. He's a very deep lover, and the bond would go just as deep. He may be a bit prone to negative emotions, particularly guilt and/or shame. But he manages to pull himself out of it and show that compassionate and empathetic side he has. He's quite the dynamic person, and at his core he's good. I think through your relationship he'll learn to let go more, and become more spontaneous and adventurous and trust his natural intution more as well.

[staysuki]

Omg your so right, what kind of detective am I for forgetting it was sumin 💀 My brain was pumping so hard, ended up going right off pure memory. Ps My memory is shit but it got some points to paper. If my brain was a person she would deserve a pat on the back with a scuff off the head afterwards. She disappoints sometimes truely 😪

Thank you for that breakdown, ugh I love seeing how writers work the dough of their stories. So tasty lmao. The metaphors, why did I not see the metaphors. I did a project on the art of metaphors and metamorphosis through visual communications when I was in my last year of schooling. Went right over my head. Your a smart cookie huh? Giving me a run for my money. I’ll keep my eye out for those next time. I’ll try not to down right say it but I’ll imply so others can try and find it out themselves. Could be like a secret lol 🤫 if I can actually get my brain to find them that is. Likely? Chances are low.

On that note I'm gonna end with saying you are very intelligent and oh so lovely to speak with. I hadn’t said it before so I’m saying it now before the man upstairs decides to forget and I never get to praise you as an individual. Praise praise praise. You deserve it all 💞

~ Lovegame anon

JSHWJSHS its alright, idk why she’s here either 💀 sometimes my fics are like that, i add characters for no reason at all thinking they’d be of use then they end up being useless, sumin probably won’t be of any importance at all (probably lmfao. i’m too lazy to think of any use for her that can’t be filled by someone else). also because ryujin was a last second addition, sumin was supposed to be the “other girl” but ryujin 😮‍💨♥️. and don’t worry, i forget lots of things too 😭 sometimes i often make unintentional plot hooks just because i forgot an important detail and end up having to go through with it because i am an 💫improv master😃

and thank u 😭 i like talking to people about my works, revisions, and ideas. like, yes, you get to see the finished product but i love sharing the behind the scenes process because it just makes the work much more beautiful and much better to appreciate. it’s like seeing the gears work behind a clock, very fascinating.

and don’t worry, i rarely ever put parallels in my fics mostly just subtle plot hook clues. i just tried it on that slc chapter for the first time because ryujin was wearing a “gym uniform” for the orientation, i didn’t specify that it was green but i was one hundred percent thinking of squid game and that show had a lot of visual narrative parallels and i wanted to try it 😭. maybe it doesn’t translate well in writing ig.

thank u sm lg anon ☹️♥️ it’s so nice speaking to ya’ll as well. always such an insightful time, even i’m learning a lot for my own fics 💕 you’re brilliant as well, you have such a great way with words, it wouldn’t surprise me if you have a writing blog as well ☺️