#had so much fun creating my dumb boy levi!

[havockingboo]

I couldn’t help but ask.

Regarding your OC Levi.

Is he the same species as Shrike? (Whatever he may be. Some sort of space squid)

I only ask because they’re both visibly squidlike.

Levi is based off the blanket octopus! Or more specifically, @sammysamps tremoctarian species that’s based off the blanket octopus lol

So no, he ain’t whatever the squid head is (points at Shrike)

But technically speaking they are both cephalopods pfft

[ruksahiroku]

A little about Ruksa, my OC for Obey Me!

I was looking for good charts to use for my Obey Me! MC Ruksa, in case anyone wanted to know about my MC. I found one during unrelated browsing on @lorkai 's page, and then followed their link to @fandom-scatteredthoughtsonpaper 's page. They created this amazing template, so to them, thank you soooo much! (Sorry for tagging you without permission, I'll remove it if you prefer.)

And to you reading this, Thanks for taking an interest!

Personal - Basics

[Name] Ruksa Hiroku

[Race/Species]

Demon [] Angel [] Human [X] Other: []

[Age] 23

[Birthday] April 5

[Height] 68 inches / 5'8” /173cm

[Fingernail Polish Color(s)] None. VERY occasionally brown or grey.

[Hair color/description] Magenta hair, darker than Mephistopheles'. Waist length, usually in a high ponytail.

[Identifying Features] Scar that runs through the right eye. A small explosion caused shrapnel to fly everywhere, and a piece of the tank got embedded in my eye. I am 90% blind in that eye, but I heard people dig scars... (;

Personal - In-depth

[Gender | Pronoun(s)] Female, she/her

[Sexual/Romantic Orientation] Bisexual, leans toward straight.

[Occupation Before Devildom Life] Mechanic.

[Favorite Color(s)] Brown, Red, Grey, and Black

[Personality]

MBTI: ESTJ-A (Calm and collected instead of emotional responses.)

Zodiac: Aries

Personal - Other

[Likes] Cooking, Drinking, Hiking, Travel, fixing things, delicate work (think painting miniatures or making circuit boards).

[Dislikes] Her human family, Bland food, Hangovers, Children and Fighting.

[Positive Traits] Will help someone out if they need it, comforting friends/family, Taking the lead in groups.

[Negative Traits] Taking the lead in groups (you know some people hate it), Stubborn independence, Turning into a rage tornado when someone pisses her off or messes with her work (So mad Satan is Proud. Hence why shes hates fighting. Not because she dislikes Satan, just that she gets so angry).

Relationships

• Fears | Dislikes | Acquaintances | Friends | Close Friends | Crush | Loves | Indifferent | Tolerates | Respects | Suspicious

[With Demons]

Lucifer – Friends / Respects.

Mammon – Close Friends / Tolerates.(Sometimes he can be a bit much).

Leviathan – Friends / Tolerates.(just because I pass out on you doesn't mean you have to SCREAM about it. My ears, Levi.).

Satan – Close Friends.

Asmodeus – Dislikes / Tolerates.[Sometimes I want to punch his pretty-boy face].

Beelzebub – Close Friends / Respects He always gives honest feedback on my food. It's improved a lot since I first came to the Devildom, but he still eats too much...

Belphegor – Acquaintances / Suspicious. He DID try to kill me... He does feel bad... But I'm not ready to forgive him yet. I'm still bitter.

Diavolo – Acquaintances / Respects. I suppose I wouldn't mind becoming friends, but his immature plans are almost worse than the brothers'. He's the future king, and he's getting on the right path by tying to make peace with the realms, even if that meant disappearing suddenly.

Barbatos – Loves / Respects / Secret Observer. Yeah, I watch him in class. I still pay attention and get good grades, so I'm allowed to indulge. I wouldn't want to make his life and his work harder though, so I'll just watch.

[With Angels]

Simeon – Acquaintances / Suspicious. He's hiding something. He is probably the evil angel of the Celestial Realm, or something. He hides things and is cunning and suave. He's good, but I'll be there when he slips up.

Luke – Dislikes/ Tolerates. I don't like kids. I put up with him because he is an angel, and occasionally does profound things... I don't like children.

Michael – Unknown. He's a shiny voice I think I heard once..

[With Humans]

Solomon – Dislikes / Respects / Suspicious. He's powerful and stuff, sure, and can be fun to hang around with in small doses, but he's also shady and hides things. If I had one guess as to how he nearly died and became immortal, it was that a reaper took pity on his dumb ass for the “food” he “cooked”, but cursed him to only like the food that killed him. Eventually his brain cells rotted and he forgotit killed him...

Favorite Things About the Devildom

[Favorite Job(s)] Ristorante Six & The Royal Library

[Favorite Place(s) to Hang at] Mammon's Car – I barely have anywhere to even LOOK at cars, let alone touch them! Demon Lord's Castle – There are just so many rooms to explore, and I do love coming for tea..

[Favorite Food(s)] Lava Fruit pie, and Pasta with Shadow Hog meat.

[Favorite Class Subject(s)] Potions & Poisons (Learned a food poisoning antidote, it's a life-saver!!), Devildom Food & Drink, and Math.

[Favorite Devildom Version of Something from the Human World] The Devildom Symphony Orchestra, those Blue Crystal flowers (Forget what they're called, sure I have the demonet [internet?], but, I don't wanna look it up).

Least Favorite Things About the Devildom

[Least Favorite Job(s)] The Fall & Akuzon Delivery Center

[Least Favorite Places to Go] None that I can think of off the top of my head. Maybe that snowy mountain? Reminds me too much of home, I suppose..

[Least Favorite Foods] Solomon's cooking, but I think that's a given..? Any of the three Realm's instant noodles... Oh, and Bufo Egg Milk Tea. I know it's just bubble tea, but when they throw that it's a creature's eggs into the mix.. No.

[Disliked Class Subject(s)] Human History. It's just history of what demons did to influence our history... Devildom Law (Yawn), and Drama.

[Stuff that Can be Considered a Negative About the Devildom] They don't accept my driver's license here! I have to start from scratch, and it's a two year program! I'm furious! ...Ugh, I'll just work on engines to cool off..

Personality Chart

Thanks again! I'll be adding some art I made myself, as well as some Picrew avatars I liked.

This might be for a fic that is totally self-serving if I ever get around to posting it.

[masterdisastre]

Okay so let me introduce you to my baby!

His name is Xavier Immanuel Superbi. Cis male, but he doesn’t really care about gender, to him it’s a dumb social construct and his friend Hanabi Sawada-Gokudera taught him that a summer dress can be very comfortable.

He’s son of Xanxus Vongola and Superbi Squalo, and he was born by an unbalancing of the Night Flames: Bermuda wasn’t able to contain them for a little while, and the Flames from the Sky Pacifier went looking for one of its designated bearer: Xanxus.

His pregnancy was not much fun for the other Varia, can you imagine that man with pregnancy hormones? Lussuria still hasn’t recovered from his craving of strawberry ice-cream with gravy.

Anyway, Xavier was born on December 31st 2022, so he’s barely a month and a half old right now! He doesn’t bear Xanxus’ surname because he didn’t bother to go to the register. Squalo had to go alone and only gave him his own surname, but now look closely at the initials… yep. He managed to put an XI in it.

He’s got a great mane of dark hair, much like his father, but also has an albino streak, like his dad. His eyes are dark grey, and someone might say that it’s like looking into the core of a mountain, but that’s love speaking. I still don’t have any art of him, but I swear I’m working on it!

His fathers, as I said, are Xanxus and Squalo, but the boy needed a mom and what better mom than Mama Luss? At school, no one would question anything, because that bulky guy with a mohawk and a Chanel tailleur looks like he could tear your intestines from your nose. He also has a ton of slightly insane uncles /cough cough Belphegor /cough cough/ and many friends that are bound to become his family. To say two names, Alessandro Bovino, son of Levi A Than, also known as Pulce.

If they had a superpower? A proper anger and anxiety management, not gonna lie he’s quick with his outburst and extremely anxious that this would lead him to lose his friends.

He’s got Rain, Sky and Storm Flames, inherited by his fathers. He can fight with swords, but don’t ask him to close combat because he’s terrible. He also has a Box Weapon, created by Verde on a very drunk night, whose name is Aleister. She’s a Liger Shark, very cuddly but also be careful to her teeth because they sharp.

Tsuna was the first Non-Varia to ever be allowed to hold Xavier in his arms. He was hypnotised by his dark grey eyes, and he instantly understood that Xavier was going to become a man of honour. Which is good, since Xavier’s going to marry the tiny bean that is currently growing inside of Tsuna’s belly (Verde is currently working on fixing the Night Flames issue, I swear. Too bad he can’t do anything for illusionists who were told that eating a watermelon seed will cause a watermelon to grow in your belly - but I’ll tell the story of Crownley Valois Orleans another time).

Xavier fears Reborn like he would fear God, but Reborn secretly values him. No way he would let him get near Tsuna’s son, otherwise (someone please tell this to Gokudera, so we can keep him busy for a couple of hours). Actually, Reborn actually appears out of wall holes suddenly, because Xavier’s high pitched screams are so funny to hear.

Kyoya doesn’t have much of a relationship with Xavier, but Dino adores him; he’s too scared of Gokudera to talk about cryptids, but I’ll keep that in mind for whenever he wants to make small talk at a family dinner. Family dinner with the Varia and the Vongola. Let us stop for a second and think about it. /a minute of silence/

He’s a huge fan of Yamamoto, but he doesn’t understand anything about baseball, he just cheers when everyone else is cheering. He does like Ryohei, though, he always makes him fly very high when he plays with him and Hanabi (Gokudera MUSTN’T KNOW THIS).

Skull… well, Skull doesn’t flirt anymore since he’s a married man, but Viola taught Squalo how to deal with belly pain when Xavier was little, and honestly that was one cute sight.

The unwritten rule of the Family is to never ever let Lambo, I-Pin and Fuuta have sugars with Xavier. Even though they’re all adults. Never. Ever. I cannot stress this enough.

His favourite food is risotto, but Nana once made some Omurice for him and he completely fell in love. Lussuria’s greatest failure still is not being able to make one as good as hers, but she’s always happy to make some when Xavier goes to Japan.

Fuuta would like to underline that, growing up, Xavier entered the top three of the Mafiosos with the biggest dicks, third after Xanxus and Dino.

Gokudera would like to underline that this information doesn’t meet his liking, since Xavier often plays doctor with his son. YES, even if they are really playing doctor, “I’ll now have to take a sample of your brain” and “Let’s get you to the emergency room” and stuff.

I desperately want to know more about people's khr OCs! Specifically yours @lilacdon20 and also yours @masterdisastre !!!!

But really anyone is very welcomed to reblog this with ramblings of their OCs!

Yes You! The person reading this! I want to know about your OCs specifically!!!!

Also you are all welcomed to tag other people who's khr OCs you like as well!! ANYONE IS WELOCME! /pos

Questions, if needed because flustered or confused, are under the Read more!

First up! General questions!

What is their name? Their pronouns? Ago? Gender identity? Sexuality? (if any of that matters lmao)

Are they somehow related to another khr character? In what way?

What does your oc look like? Do you have any art of them? Picrew also welcomed! Ai art... Not preferred >:/

What are their relationships to other khr characters? Pairings you like with your oc? Adopted siblings and parents maybe?

Actually what's the family situation of your oc? Do they have siblings that's a background character perhaps? (example: sometimes I give Kusakabe Tetsuya a brother)

Does your oc have a mental illness? Neurodivergencies? Other disabilities? At what age did they get these disabilities if they weren't born with them?

If they had a super power what would it be?

Free Space! [Anything else you want to talk about?]

Khr specific questions:

What's their flames? And how many flames do they have? One? More? None?

How do they use their flames? If they have one.

If they don't have a flame, how do they fight? Do they fight at all?

If they can't fight for any reason, what's their preferred method of self defense?

Free space! [insert any khr specific question you want!]

And last but not least and mostly for fun!!! Khr character questions:

How much does Tsuna want to protect your oc upon first meeting them? After knowing them a minute, is Tsuna now scared of them or worried about them?

Does Reborn think they're pathetic or does he have a slight respect for them? If he suddenly appeared out of a wall-hole, how would your oc react?

Would Hibari Kyoya be able to stand being in a room with them for five minutes? How long do they last in a fight against him?

Would your oc go off rambling about crytids with Gokudera? If yes, which is their fave cryptid?

Would Skull try to flirt with them? Would he score a date? Pity date or genuine interest?

How loud does your oc cheer when Yamamoto hits a home run? What if the ball hit them?

Would your oc be able to last an hour watching over Lambo, I-pin and Fuuta? What if they all had sugar beforehand?

What food would Sawada Nana cook for your oc? What's their favourite food? Drink?

Free space! [insert any other character questions you want!]

There is no pressure for anyone to answer of course. I just want to get to know more OCs and their creators. I'm talkative lately so I'll try to keep up with the reblogs as best I can :3

Multiple reblogs for multiple OCs are also very very welcomed!

[sammysreelreviews]

Counting Down My Top 10 Animated Films Of The Last Decade

Welcome to the beginning of the movie decade lists! Before I start if you wanna know the exact time the next list will be out follow my instagram here! Ok so there were some movies that I left out of this list but loved so I’m gonna let y’all know the runner ups cause I’m just so fucking generous. They are The Boss Baby, Kung Fu Panda 2, Klaus, and Rise of the Guardians. I could’ve easily thrown them on the list but these decade lists are stressing me the fuck out and they’re time consuming! Also, there will be some Pixar movies missing and I DON’T wanna hear any annoying criticisms! This is MY list! ANYWHO here’s my list and I hope you love it as much as I loved watching these films over the last ten years. Enjoy! ***SLIGHT SPOILERS?***

10. Trolls (2016)

Ok ok ok, hear me THE FUCK OUT. Trolls is fucking funny!!! Even I thought the movie was going to be dumb as all hell but by the end my eyes were watering? The music in Trolls makes the movie and there are so many jokes that continuously make me laugh. Ugh I fucking love Trolls cause it always makes me happy so don’t troll me for putting it on my list!

9. Toy Story 3 (2010)

Is it crazy that the third installment in this series is the best? This movie is not only hilarious but like fucking traumatic!? When they all almost died in that incinerator!? And when Andy (John Morris) gave up Woody (Tom Hanks)!?! WHAT THE FUCK! If you can get through Toy Story 3 without crying I’m just letting you know that you’re a fucking demon. 

8. The Lego Movie (2014)

Everything IS awesome in this animated film. Honestly people thought this was going to be dumb but I’m glad they were proven wrong cause I was very excited to see this movie. I saw this in college high (lol throwback to when I smoked weed) with my friend Genna (hi BFF) and it was our first friendship outing! Not only do I love this movie but I love the memories I have from it. Also it’s just hysterical and it’s something you can watch over and over again. Kind of pissed the Academy completely snubbed this.

7. Your Name (2016)

I watched this movie during the past two weeks and my god it truly deserves all the hype it gets. The tale of a boy and a girl body swapping is not only adorable but heartbreaking as hell. This is the first anime film not directed Hayao Miyazaki to earn more than $100 million in Japan! How insane is that?! What I love about Your Name is it really makes you think about all the missed connections you could’ve had. Now that I’m writing about it I really want to watch it again. Go watch it... like now!

6. Wreck it Ralph (2012)

To be honest I only got around to watching this movie a few weeks ago and I’m so happy I did! First of all the animation is just breathtaking you never wanna take your eyes off of it. The tale of Ralph (John C. Reilly) trying to be a good guy and befriending a glitch by the name Vanellope (Sarah Silverman) is not only funny but so heartwarming I was crying at the end. The sequel, Ralph Breaks the Internet, is not as good plot wise but is still tons of fun and left me wanting a third.

5. Coco (2017)

When I saw Coco I literally cried so hard it was embarrassing. At first I was skeptical because sometimes people hype up Pixar movies and then I don’t end up liking them (Frozen, Inside Out, Big Hero 6) so I decided to take the leap and watch Coco and I’m so glad I did. The colors in the movie are so vibrant and I love the atmosphere it creates even though they’re in the land of the dead. On top of that there’s an amazing familial story that would reduce the strongest of men to tears. Ugh, I genuinely love this movie so much and cry every damn time and it also gave us a great Pixar villain.

4. Into the Spider-Verse (2018)

I know it’s number four on my personal list but in reality it’s the best animated film made in the past decade. The animation alone just reels you in and I really wish I saw it in theaters. Miles Morales (Shameik Moore) has become my favorite Spider-Man and I can not wait for a sequel. Before I forget, did anyone else see that twist coming!? I didn’t!

3. The How to Train Your Dragon Franchise (2010-2019)

Ok there was no way in actual hell that I could just pick one of these 3 films like that would break me! The story of how Hiccup (Jay Bruchel) and Toothless became the best of friends and changed peoples minds about dragons is one near and dear to my sappy heart. I honestly think Toothless is the cutest animated animal that has ever been fucking created like how could you not fall in love with him!? When I saw Hidden World in theaters I was sobbing harder than the actual children that were there. I’m so glad that I gave these movies a chance and I’ll be so mad if they don’t get the Oscar they so rightfully deserve in 2020.

2. Tangled (2010)

Rapunzel (Mandy Moore) finally got the update she deserved when Disney debuted their new style of animation with Tangled. Tangled had a budget of $260 million dollars making it the highest budget of an animated film ever. You’re probably wondering why it cost so much money but it’s literally because they needed new technology to create Rapunzel’s hair! Rapunzel is a naive princess but she’s independent and always asking questions which makes her so great. She has the greatest animal companion of all the Disney princesses and Flynn Ryder (Zachary Levi) is not your ordinary Disney prince. Mother Gothel (Donna Murphy) is quite the underrated villain and Mother Knows Best is one of the best Disney villain songs. Tangled is just overall a fantastic film and I wish it got as much praise and buzz as Frozen did.

1. Zootopia (2016)

Zoo. Motherfucking. Topia. One of the best achievements in cinematic history. If you think I’m joking, I’m not. The minute I saw Zootopia I was absolutely obsessed which is funny cause I really don’t like animals. Disney found a way to not only show how systematic racism works but gave us laughs, tears, and a killer mystery to solve! The one scene that never fails to make me laugh is when they’re doing the talent show in the beginning and the cat dances with the jukebox like how can you not just holler!? Zootopia is an example of a perfect animated film and that’s why it’s number fucking one.

[superfreakerz]

Hot Cocoa Kisses

This was written for @mizzyplatinum​ because her birthday was the other day!! I’m a little late, but I hope you like it, Missy! Happy belated birthday! Hope you enjoyed your special day! :D

Summary: Winter was never one of Lucy’s favorite seasons, but she did have a strong love for hot chocolate. Especially when it was made by a certain pink-haired boy with a fanged grin.

Rated T for minimal cursing.

The smell of baked goods and coffee beans filled her nose as Lucy entered the café that day, her best friend, Levy, walking beside her. They had just finished their shifts at the school’s library and wanted to escape the frigid air that winter had to offer them. They found shelter in the café and decided to order something warm.

Lucy was no stranger to this café. She came here after work nearly every day as it was one of her favorite places in town. It was a quiet, cozy place to relax and do homework. Not to mention it was where a certain pink-haired boy worked.

Speak of the devil…

“Hey, Luce!” a familiar voice called out to her.

Levy turned to look at her friend, snickering when she found a blush spread across her cheeks. “Is that the boy you were telling me about?”

Lucy nodded. In a quiet voice, she answered, “Yeah, that’s Natsu.”

“No wonder why you’re always coming here. He’s cute!”

“Shh, Levy-chan! He’ll hear you!”

The petite girl giggled at her friend’s expense. “Alright, alright. How about you go order for us then? I’ll give you some time to talk to your crush.” With that, she walked away to situate herself at one of the tables by the window.

Lucy groaned in mild annoyance after having been teased. Alright, so she might have had a slight crush on Natsu. It wasn’t like she was in love with him or anything. He just always took her order and made her laugh by writing dumb jokes on her drinks. They didn’t talk much, but she knew he was kind.

With pink cheeks, Lucy approached the counter, where Natsu was waiting with a fanged grin. That toothy grin of his always managed to cause her heart to thump wildly within her chest, along with his cherry blossom pink hair and his dark, mesmerizing eyes. Though she would never say it aloud, there had been many days in which she came to the café simply to see him. Of course, she upheld her cover by buying a small drink.

“Hey, Luce!” Natsu repeated, his grin growing. “Want your usual?”

“Yes, please,” Lucy replied with a shy smile. “Oh, one for my friend, too.”

Natsu nodded, getting two paper cups. He poured some chocolate powder into them and added hot water, stirring it to create the perfect drink for the winter. He brought his eyes upwards to meet her gaze, giving her a crooked smile.

“I’ll give you extra whipped cream, like always,” he said. Just as promised, he sprayed a lot of whipped cream into the cup, she felt like it was going to overflow.

Lucy giggled. “Thanks, Natsu.”

As Natsu started to make Levy’s cup, he glanced at Lucy, noticing the straps of her pink backpack.

“Just get out from school?” he asked.

Lucy’s brows raised. This was the first time she was going to have an actual conversation with Natsu. “U-Umm, no. I work at the library on campus after class. I just came here from work with my friend.”

Natsu nodded, stirring Levy’s drink. This time, he only put the normal amount of whipped cream. Admittedly, it made Lucy feel special.

“Lucky. I’m here until close,” Natsu complained with a cute pout.

“You do work a lot,” Lucy mused. “You are here every time I come in, and I come here almost every day!”

Natsu’s cheeks turned pink and he ducked behind his scarf in a fruitless attempt to hide it. “I’ve been picking up everyone’s shifts lately.”

“Oh, really? Why?”

Natsu eyed Lucy with an expression she couldn’t read before shaking his head. “Just wanted some extra money.”

He grabbed a pen and with a childish grin, he scribbled onto her cup. Lucy was excited, as this was one of her favorite parts of coming to the shop. When he finished, he gave Lucy a grin that had her heart nearly catapulting out of her chest before handing her the two drinks and a blueberry muffin.

“The muffin is on the house!” he exclaimed.

Lucy’s eyes lit up and she replied, “Thanks, Natsu!” With a wave, she turned to meet up with Levy again, placing her drink in front of her.

“Thanks, Lu-chan,” the blue-haired girl said.

“Don’t mention it,” she replied in a monotone voice, too focused on turning her drink to find what joke Natsu had written on it today. As always, it made her giggle. It was a ridiculous joke, really. Still, they always managed to make her laugh. Plus, the fact that he always wrote Luce instead of her actual name warmed her heart.

“What’s so funny?” Levy asked with an arched brow. She grabbed Lucy’s drink and turned it to find a joke written in sharpie. “Huh? Wait, how come you get a joke and a cute nickname and I only get ‘Lucy’s friend’ written on mine!? That’s so unfair!”

“Sorry, Levy-chan,” Lucy replied with a smile, though she wasn’t apologetic in the slightest. She was glad Natsu only did these things for her. Besides, Levy had her own boyfriend to do cute things for her.

“You should really ask him on a date,” Levy said, causing Lucy to blush profusely.

“What? No way!”

“Why not? It’s obvious you like him and he likes you.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Oh c'mon, Lu-chan! He gave you a special nickname, writes jokes on your cups, and gives you free food. Plus, you’re easily one of the prettiest girls in Magnolia, and one of the smartest. Not to mention nicest. What’s not to like? I saw you two flirting it up.”

“We weren’t flirting!”

“Yes you were. Just ask him out! I asked Gajeel out and look where it got me!”

“That’s different! You and Gajeel have been friends for years! And it took you forever to get the courage to ask him out! Natsu and I don’t talk that much!”

“You come here every day to see him.”

“I-I come here for the hot cocoa too…”

Levy sighed, shaking her head. Oh well, if her friend didn’t want to ask the guy out, there was nothing she could do about it. So, she opted for changing the subject instead, leading them into discussing their homework for the weekend- which was a lot considering their Calculus professor was a major ass that purposely assigned stress-inducing amounts of homework over the weekends.

Hours passed by in the blink of an eye, the sun being replaced with the moon much earlier than it should have been considering it was winter. Levy rose from her seat, stretching her arms above her head before packing her things.

With rosy cheeks, she stated, “I should get going, I agreed to meet Gajeel tonight.”

Lucy nodded, having already known that they had a date planned. “Alright, have fun! See you tomorrow, Levy-chan!”

“Bye, Lu-chan!”

Levy gave one last glance towards the boy that captured her best friend’s heart, hoping that something would happen between the two before finally leaving the café.

Lucy heaved a sigh as she was now alone. Levy was one of her few friends, so when she was busy, her days got pretty lonely. Though being in the café, she didn’t feel so lonely considering she felt a pair of eyes drilling into her the entire time, causing her face to flush.

Lucy turned her head to steal a glance of Natsu. He was currently dealing with a customer, an older woman that was scolding him for having pink hair in the workplace. She admired the way he could just shrug off her words as if they didn’t affect him at all. Hell, they probably didn’t.

When the older woman finally took her food and left, Lucy took a deep breath before rising from her seat.

“I did finish my hot cocoa. I could use another one…”

Lucy could practically hear her heartbeat increasing in speed as if it was going to burst out of her chest. She tried to seem nonchalant over the matter, but each step closer towards her crush filled her stomach with warmth and a tingling sensation, which only increased once Natsu saw her approaching and gave her a wide grin.

“H-Hi, Natsu,” Lucy choked out, wanting to punch herself for stuttering. “I probably look so stupid!”

“Yo, Luce!” Natsu replied. He leaned over the counter closer to her, propping his elbow on the counter and resting his chin in the palm of his hand. “What’s up?”

The action caused the blonde’s blush to deepen. “U-Umm…” Truthfully, she was getting lost in his dark orbs and momentarily forgot why she came up to the counter. “Oh! Hot chocolate! I-I mean, can I get another hot cocoa, please?”

Natsu chuckled, picking himself up from the counter and grabbing a fresh cup. Lucy realized she should’ve brought her cup over so that he could’ve reused that one, but it was too late now.

“So, what are you majoring in?” Natsu asked as he began to make the warm drink.

Lucy smiled as she answered, “Creating Writing!” She used to be embarrassed about her personal hobby, but after having Levy read one of her stories and fall in love with it, she no longer harbored such feelings.

“Oh? You write stories?”

“Yep!”

“You should let me read one.”

Lucy’s original plan was to only allow Levy to read her stories until they were published, but something about Natsu had her nodding her head and replying, “Okay.” She looked the boy up and down, trying to find one thing that wasn’t perfect about him in hopes of calming her heart, but came up short. This boy was sheer perfection. There was no way she had a chance with him. “S-So, what are you majoring in?”

“Huh? Oh, I don’t go to school,” Natsu answered with a nonchalant shrug. “I do a lot of pyrography.”

“Pyrography? So, you work with fire?”

“Yep! I use fire to make a bunch of cool designs and stuff. Then I sell them. I don’t make too much from it yet since I’m still new to it, that’s why I’m working here.” Lucy saw his cheeks tint pink as he continued, “I could show you some of my work if you want.”

“I’d love that!” Lucy hastily replied. Her cheeks were set ablaze as she realized how desperate she must’ve sounded. And judging from the blush on Natsu’s face and his widened eyes, she definitely came out desperate.

Still, he replied with, “C-Cool.”

Natsu then sprayed a mountain’s worth of whipped cream into her cup and picked up the sharpie. Lucy saw his blush deepen to match his hair as he wrote onto the cup. As he handed her the drink, he refused to meet her gaze, giving her the idea that she scared him off.

With a frown, Lucy mumbled a thank you for the drink and headed back to her seat. Sitting down, she wanted to bang her head against the table for acting like such a fool. All this over a boy she barely knew. Yet somehow despite not knowing each other well, only he could invoke certain feelings from her.

With a heavy sigh, Lucy picked up the drink, bringing it to her lips when she remembered to look at what joke he put on this drink. Twirling the cup to find his handwriting, her brown eyes widened as she stared with a slacked jaw at what was written.

“He gave me his phone number?” Lucy wondered, her blush coming back full-force. She turned her head to glance at Natsu only to find that he was in the backroom. A wide grin graced her face as she typed the digits into her phone to add a new contact.

“Maybe I have more of a chance than I thought.”

As Lucy returned to her apartment that night, she eagerly pulled out her phone and brought up Natsu’s contact. With shaky fingers, she typed countless messages, erasing them all before she hit send, not knowing what to say. A guy had never given her their number before- at least, not one that she had saved besides her friends’.

Mustering up her courage, Lucy typed a simple, “Hello.”

In less than a minute, her phone was vibrating with a reply.

“Is this Lucy?” he asked.

Lucy’s heart nearly catapulted out of her chest having received the reply. “Yep! I got your number!” She bit her lower lip as she typed a new text. Straight to the point, she asked, “Why exactly did you give me your number anyways?” Realizing she might have come off as rude, she quickly added, “I was happy you gave me your number! I’m just curious, promise!”

Three minutes passed by without a reply. Lucy groaned and shoved her face into her pillow. She had just started texting Natsu and already it seemed like she had messed it up. Luckily for her, she then got a new text.

With a speed she didn’t know she possessed, Lucy picked up her phone and read the message. Warmth shot through her body and her eyes widened. Her jaw dropped on its hinges and she reread the message over and over again, making sure what she read was correct.

“I wanted to ask you out.”

Lucy squealed into her pillow. She would have to tell Levy about this later!

“Really?” she asked, hoping it was true.

“Duh! Why would I lie about that, you weirdo?” was his reply.

“Hey! I’m not weird! You’re the weird one leaving your number on my cup!”

“Well then you’re extra weird for actually texting me!”

Lucy glared at her phone but a small smile broke out on her face. She knew that Natsu had a teasing side to him, but she didn’t know it was like this. Their conversation was fun and light, she was having a blast bickering with him. Then she remembered the purpose of their conversation.

“So, are you going to ask me out then?” Lucy typed, her confidence growing after having found out that her crush reciprocated her feelings.

“I don’t know, you’re a lot weirder than I expected,” he replied. He quickly added, “But I like weird. So yeah. Wanna go on a date, Luce?”

Lucy smiled at her phone like an idiot and nodded, though he couldn’t see her.

“Yeah, that sounds great.”

Lucy fidgeted with the hem of her sweater as she approached the café. It was time for her date with Natsu and she was starting to feel insecure with how she dressed. Since it was winter, that limited her chances at looking cute since she prioritized warmth. Usually, she dressed in clothes that showed off her curves and usually a hefty amount of cleavage. Today, she was dressed in a thick pink sweater that was loose over her body and black leggings. She topped off the outfit with brown boots.

To make up for her plainer clothes, Lucy made sure to do her hair. She curled her long locks of golden hair and brushed through them to create gentle waves. She didn’t apply makeup other than a thin layer of strawberry lip gloss.

Lucy didn’t know the exact details of their date. All Natsu told her was to meet up at the café. Whatever he had planned, she was sure she would enjoy as long as he was there to keep her company.

Since Natsu gave her his phone number, they had been texting every moment they could. They learned a lot about each other in such a short time, even some more personal stuff that Lucy hadn’t even told most of her friends, save for Levy, Gajeel, and Loke. They became quick friends and even flirted a few times.

As Lucy entered the café, her eyes immediately landed on Natsu. He was dressed in a black hoodie with a logo of a band she hadn’t heard of and some white joggers. Once he saw her, his cheeks turned pink and he grinned, causing her heart to swell with warmth.

“Lucy!” he called out, getting up to meet her.

“Hi, Natsu,” Lucy replied with a shy smile. She could feel her face heating up but ignored it since he was blushing too.

“You ready to go?”

“Are we not staying here?”

“Nope! We’ll come back later though to get some drinks. C'mon, let’s go!”

Natsu grabbed her hand and laced his fingers with hers. Their hands instantly began to sweat but both ignored it as they wanted to keep holding each other’s hand. Since Natsu had a severe case of motion sickness- something Lucy had learned about their first night texting- they opted to walk to their destination.

It was the movie theater, which had a long line forming outside of it as a new movie came out that day.

“You like horror movies?” Natsu asked with a mischievous grin.

Lucy smirked. “I love them, actually.” In truth, she covered her eyes every time a scary scene popped up, but she really did love watching scary movies. It was just that her heart could only take so much.

“Good! Because I got us some tickets to watch the new one that came out! It looks good!”

“But there’s a long line, are you sure we’ll be able to get in?”

“Don’t worry, I’ve got a couple of friends that work here. They saved me some tickets and I’m sure they’ll hook us up with free popcorn, too!”

With that, he led the way to the ticket stand. There were two girls situated inside. One of them had long locks of wavy, brunette hair. Her cheeks were rosy and Lucy could smell the alcohol on her breath as she told everyone to move aside for her and Natsu.

The other girl had long, scarlet hair with bangs that swept to the side and covered one of her eyes. She stared at Lucy, who blushed from the attention.

“Yo, Erza! Cana! Can I get those tickets now?” Natsu asked with a toothy grin.

The girl with the red hair glared at him. “Keep it down, Natsu! I don’t want the other customers hearing this!”

“Oh lighten up, Erza!” the other girl, presumably Cana, replied. “Who cares if they hear it? Oi, Natsu. Here’s your tickets. You guys want some booze to go with your popcorn?”

Lucy was glad that Natsu turned down her offer. She probably would have ended their date early had he accepted. She didn’t want either of them to be drinking on their first date.

Erza handed Natsu two large buckets of popcorn before shooing them away so that she could deal with the long line of customers. Cana shouted for them to keep it clean, causing them both to blush.

The movie was much scarier than Lucy had anticipated, filled with jump scares and terrifying characters. To top it off, the music they played any time something was going to happen brought goosebumps to her arms.

Her fears calmed, however, as Natsu wrapped an arm around her shoulder. With that, she could no longer think about the movie, too focused on the warmth that traveled through her body at the touch. With confidence, she leaned towards him and rested her head on his shoulder, trying to focus on the movie again.

When the movie ended, the two followed everyone else out of the theater, waving goodbye to Erza and Cana as they left. As they walked back to the café, Natsu took it upon himself to lace their fingers together once again. Not that Lucy minded.

They reached the café in no time. It was pretty dead inside as there was only one other customer. Lucy thought it felt weird approaching the counter when Natsu wasn’t the one there to take her order. Instead, it was another boy their age with raven locks of hair and a shirt buttoned dangerously low that she could see his pecs.

“Isn’t that against the dress code?” Lucy wondered before shrugging it off.

“What do you want, Lava Breath?” the other boy asked, glaring at Natsu.

“Get us some hot cocoa, Ice Dick,” Natsu answered, returning the expression. “I want mine with dark chocolate. And make sure to give extra whipped cream on Lucy’s.”

Gray- she had found out his name through reading his nametag- turned to glance at her and arched a brow. “So, this is Lucy?”

“Y-Yep, that’s me,” the said girl replied, a blush coating her cheeks from the attention.

“And you went on a date with this loser? Did he pay you or something?”

“What? Of course not!”

Gray shrugged. “That’s the only logical explanation here.”

“Ignore him,” Natsu said, narrowing his eyes at his friend, though more like rival at the moment. In truth, they were best friends. Had been since they were kids.

As Gray made their drinks, he smirked. “Glad to finally meet the girl that this idiot’s been taking extra shifts for.”

Natsu’s face matched his hair as he shouted, “Shut up, Gray!”

“Wait, what?” Lucy asked.

The raven-haired boy ignored his friend’s shouts as he answered with a sly grin, “He used to force us to give him our shifts so that he would have a chance of seeing you.”

Lucy blushed from head to toe as she stood wordlessly by an equally quiet Natsu. Once they got their drinks, they were on their way out the door as Natsu said he didn’t want to stay at the café. Lucy assumed it was because Gray was going to tell her embarrassing things about him.

They walked side-by-side, their arms flushed against each other. They held hands and sipped away at their drinks. The stars twinkling brightly in the night sky paired with the quiet atmosphere made for a romantic setting.

The two walked to a park, sitting on one of the benches and gazing at the stars. Lucy took a sip of her drink and smiled, turning to face Natsu.

“Is what Gray said true?” she asked, her blush returning.

Natsu ducked his face into his scarf and muttered, “Sorta. I also needed the money, but mainly it was to see you. I didn’t know your schedule, so I took all the shifts I could so that I could see you.”

Lucy’s blush deepened, and she returned her gaze to the stars. With a giggle, she replied, “I kind of did something similar.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well let’s just say I didn’t start drinking hot chocolate every day until I saw you at the café.”

“Wait, so you came to see me too?”

“Yep,” Lucy answered with a warm smile. “You always managed to make me laugh and I kept wanting to see you. So, I would buy hot chocolate as an excuse to go to the café and see if you were working.”

Natsu chuckled. “Looks like we both wanted to see each other.”

“Looks like it.”

The two turned to face each other, the moonlight washing over their features and allowing them to see the rosy tints on each other’s faces. Lucy’s body flushed with heat as Natsu’s eyes darted towards her lips. Then, he began to lean in.

And she followed suit.

Their lips met with a gentleness she had never felt before, barely touching at first and unmoving. Still, it caused Lucy’s body to tremble as her body was overcome with joy. They tilted their heads and deepened the kiss, their lips now washing over each other like waves. Natsu brought his hand to the back of her head and pulled her in deeper.

Reluctantly, they pulled away in pants, staring into each other’s half-lidded eyes. Then, Natsu gave her a sloppy grin as he teased, “You had a whipped cream mustache, you weirdo.”

Lucy playfully slapped his arm. “You’re lying!”

“Maybe.”

The two grinned at each other before Natsu wrapped an arm around her, pulling her against him. She laid her head on his shoulder and gave a content smile as they resumed staring at the stars.

Winter may have been a cold, dreary season that robbed her of her favorite outfits and caused her to catch many colds, but nothing in the world could compare to the hot cocoa kisses it had to offer.

[rainsofcastawere]

THE WHITE PRINCESS: Review

I’ve been waiting forever to made this review about the first and maybe only season of The White Princess and it’s finally time, yaay. Nothing has been confirmed yet, but I don’t think they’ll make another one, guys. Otherwise they wouldn’t have skiped seven years and God forbid that they plan doing a series about The Constant Princess, I don’t wanna see my Henry being even more murdered by this wretched “modern historians”, argh. Anyway, let’s go!

I’m gonna start saying that Emma Frost doesn’t deserve the cast of TWP. I mean... Since the first moment I was stunned by the actors talent and quality the show has, if only fallen in the right hands it could’ve been a great and historic accurate sucess. Dawn you, EF! Although most people may disagree, I like this cast best than the other one from The White Queen, especially for EoY and MB (I will never forgive what was done to her, btw). Jacob Collins-Levy and Jodie Comer, God bless you both!

Moving on... I don't have all the issue great part of the historical fans had with clothes or location. It's really hard if not impossible to things look like they did back then and I kinda liked most of the wardrobe, especially Henry's. My only complain is in the continuous repetition of clothing for Lizzie and Henry. Dear Lord, it had me distressed in the whole season. Why couldn't they just change a little bit? Okay, it was middle age and all, but... Could they just variate a little more? They were King and Queen, after all. Sometimes I just had the impression they did everything in the same day. In episode two Lizze spend months while Henry was on progress with the very same dress, it gave me the chills. Other thing that bothered me was the throne, couldn't they just match when Lizzie's were beside? In this last episode there was a scene where it matched and it was so more pleasing. If they had both thrones why go with all the trouble?

When they announced The White Princess was really coming, I didn't have any expectations bc I've read the books and it was so trash, garbish really. I would only watch for fanmade and fanservice purposes since there's so little on screen things about Henry VII and with the quality of nowadays... Almost none. Happily, they changed a lot from that excuse of a book, but with EF having the power to change SO MUCH I don’t quite understand why she go though with the rape scene (it was a rape scene), it burdens me so much to know it could be so different if she hadn’t lied about the way they filmed. It troubles me to wonder if she does think that wasn’t rape. Instead of change that, she made MB murder Jasper Tudor. Say what you will of PG, but at least she never did that, right? Despite of it, I find myself enjoying the show even if it did made me frinkle and wanting to kill EF and PG sometimes. 

There were priceless moments and I will cherish and rewatch it everyday with all of my heart. Pretty much all the scenes with little Arthur and little Harry, I loved those boys and the fact they give them a little personality, it wasn’t like they were just there. And I have so much fun with the “hints” they give about Henry VIII, lmao. They could’ve shown a little more of Margaret and MARY too! I never forgave The Tudors for “exclude” her, I will do the same to TWP. Henry and Lizzie acting lovey-dovey was soooo *heart eyes emoji*, I really loved it. Essie Davis were also a blessing, so sassy and funny. I also adored that that EoY were a lot more active as a Queen then in the books and even a little more than in real life. The scene when she goes after the army and bring it back to Henry was AMAZING!

Only that in contrast of that they changed Henry too and not in a good way, unfortunately. It made me so angry to see Henry portrayed as a useless King who did pretty much nothing during the entire series politically speaking. It was all his mother and his wife, seriously. It pained my heart because Henry VII were a very smart, cautious, able business man and King. Also, what the hell they did to Cecily? She’s not that boring mean girl even in the books, she’s so friendly to Lizzie. I hated they changed that! And they sold it as a feminist show, lol.

Alright, what really bothered me during the whole show was the Yorkist af thing. It was painful to watch and disgraceful. Henry was paranoid, yes. As he should as the first King of a new dinasty who took place after another very beloved one, but he wasn’t SO HATRED BY EVERYONE nor ALONE IN EUROPE. Some self-pity moments were exagerated and beautifully played, it made me so sad to see it and at the same time so in awe to watch Jacob acting on it. The same is worth for Maggie, my heart ached for her and poor Teddy, so I will pretend she wasn’t in the season finale’s episode. I won’t say a word about Perkin!Richard tho, I don’t have the stomach for it, sorry.

I made a list of the highlights good and bad things on show as well just to make it shorter and don’t prolongue myself even more in the subject:

Aesthetically beautiful even if there were A LOT of dark scenes when it was day, but the lack of light can be ignored with time. The change of scenes was cool for me, but the coronation scenes... It should’ve been more long at least, it were just seconds and I was so disappointed.

The cast is AMAZING, REALLY. No bad things to say about anyone, it’s perfect and highly talented. IF ONLY THEY HAD BEEN IN THE RIGHT HANDS!

Some hypocritical moments and complete change of personality got me really annoyed in some moments. Like Margaret in the last episode and Lizzie with the whole “hidden and patient” thing, it didn’t go for very long and became a lost plot.

It’s a good distraction for period dramas fans, the inaccuracy can be laughable or disgusting, but if you chose to close your eyes and pretend you’re in a nightmare and create a fanfic in your head to change that, it will do.

The kids! They were so cute and I loved every scene with them, I only regret they skipped 7 years and didn’t show anything about Elizabeth or Mary. 

They left the Henry/Catty Gordon thing open to interpretation, they should’ve done that with Perkin and instead they confirmed he was really Richard.

Jasper Tudor was a delight, I loved his scenes on episode 3 when he goes to Burgundy, the development of his character there was very nice, the end of that scene and the waste of it afterwords... Not so much.

Portrayal of Henry VII by Jacob Collins-Levy. The mix and complexity presented was just the way I imagined, he didn’t had to say a word for you to understand what was going on, his eyes talked for him. But the lack of Kingly!Henry... No, they made him weak and violent (?) in it’s place, the writers fault, of course.

Elizabeth Woodville was really fun in her quarells with Margaret, but the fact that she defied Henry in open court and nothing really happened to her was so unrealistic and dumb for a clever woman like her.

The relationship between Lizzie and Henry did save the episodes, it was the best thing of the show and Jacob and Jodie have a lot of chemistry. But even book!Lizzie said “I love you” to Henry once, and this one didn’t.

Okay, guys. I will bid my farewell here or it will be too long and boring to read, sorry. I had a really great fun watching it, fulfill the ache I had for more Tudor stuff (even if it was a Yorkist show most of the time) and period dramas. I recommend it as a good pastime and i’ll give and 7,5 for the whole tv show in general. What are your thoughts? My inbox are always open to discuss about it as well, bye!

[pcareielle]

Goathead the God // Psycho Killer

I was so excited when I found this picture was it’s basically what I imagine Hal to look like. Love the wrapping. There could definitely be some kind of deadly magical hand shenanigans going on beneath them. Handsome, but his features are not that readily identifiable. I do, however, imagine his clothes to be much more understated--more a peasant’s Sunday Best at the most. His modus operandi is to be unmemorable, to blend into a crowd with his Mask of Many Faces and do as he pleases. Nobody seems to quite have the same idea of what Hal looks like or what he is. Cheerful, charming, a fantastic performer; or a cruel and calculating entity with sinister intentions. Everybody remembers Goathead the Great. Nobody remembers Hal.

Persephone was created with the intention of being a foil to Goathead. Certain differences are more overt than others. F/M, Pure Melee/Pure Magic, Quiet/Loud, “Mean”/”Nice.” Their true dichotomy lies in their distinct similarities and how they have actualized in disparate directions from them. 

Even longer post b/c I got high and went on tangents about Goathead because he’s apparently my little Satan baby. 

Intent

Zapp Branigan was the inspiration behind Goathead. Good people, long to be seen as the hero, but chaotic and selfishly clinging onto dear life. There was always that seed of selfishness in him, even when I intended for him to be the wholly good hero, but the more they explored the Abyss, the more he shifted from Chaotic Good to a purely self-serving Neutral Evil, and then to whatever he has been up to since he left.

Spartacus: Blood and Sand was the initial inspiration for her characterization, but if my only memories of the show is some vague recollection from ten years ago of cheering, then Spartacus fucking the hell out of someone. Which raises the question: what does a person like that do when they leave their Colosseum?

With that in mind and her being a foil to Goathead, I intend for Persephone’s story to be that of redemption. From a purely hedonistic Chaotic Evil to a Neutral Good that does what they must for the greater good. Just like Goathead’s, who know’s if what I intend will actually come to fruition.

Identity and Goals

If one were to ask Goathead how he got his name, he would feed them some bullshit about how as a precious babe, neither the elves nor the humans wanted him so he was left to perish in the wilds, but was saved by a gracious Tiefling woman who said that he clung onto her like a little goathead, and from then on he named himself Goathead to honor his new mother. 

On a meta-level, his name comes from me forgetting to pick a name for him until the very last second, panicking, looking out the window and thinking of the goatheads in the driveway, and deciding to roll with it because it sounded cool. I’m sure his first time going by Goathead was spurred by a similar incident. Not a lot of Wisdom, that one. Although, upon searching for any kind of symbolism for goatheads besides clinginess, I was reminded of the fact that goat heads have a significant symbolism behind them. A lot.

Baphomet is a symbol that is meant to represent the sum total of all things in the universe, acting both as parallel and paradox, showing the observer and student alike that concepts like “good” and “evil” exist only through perspective, and that all creatures, things, and ideas have a dark and light side within. Through Levi’s description we find that Baphomet is a symbolic representation of balance and necessity, in all things.

In reality, Goathead grew up with a loving family with a steady income, a nice home, a loving family, and no real problems in the city. On a whim, he decided to learn how to play the lute, found he was really talented at it, and started playing in local taverns. He was enraptured by the stories more well-traveled performers and patrons would tell him until he managed to persuade a bard to let him tag along with them and teach him their ways. 

Hal had so much fun roaming the countryside town-to-town. Although the city was vast, he never ventured too far from home because not all people took too kindly to half elves. And his teacher was also a hero! They would often save merchants from bandits or travelers from actual monsters. And sometimes these people would give them rewards for helping them! Delicious wines and cheeses that were heaven after begrudgingly getting used to hunting game and chalky rations, gold pieces, beautiful trinkets, and even promises. One grateful traveler even gave him a ring made out of platinum. He had never handled anything bigger than a sickle back home, and now he was just wearing platinum. Even better, that man didn’t seem to know that this plain band of incredibly expensive metal could let him look like whatever he wanted (Ring of Alter Self; how we retconned him going from a halfling to a half elf).

Getting the ring was the beginning of the end. If this ring could make him look even more handsome than he already was, and their songs could charm people, what else could magic do? Could it give him castles full of riches? Would everyone learn his name? Better yet--a different name. He was sick of the stupid nicknames, people calling him “Hunky Hal” and pinching his high cheekbones and thin arms. Even better: could he make them comply to his whims? What power could magic give him? 

Goathead was a sheltered city boy that left home to travel world, play his music with his pals, and save a princess or two. On her (maybe floating) mountain, Persephone also had everything she could possibly want. But it was torn from her, where Goathead willingly left it. The pleasures of the world sustain Goathead and leave him starving for more more more from wherever he can get it. Persephone lived in hell, ate from its fruit, is still trying to purge herself of it through her good deeds. 

Secrets

Both characters are incredibly secretive. Goathead is obvious: hiding his identity, creating the persona of a really genial and upstanding fellow when really he is malevolent and calculating. Goathead is defined by his shadiness and will take his many secrets to the grave. 

Persephone also has her secrets: her homeland, her angelic ancestry and relationship with Ilmater, her time with the monks, and the many missions she must fulfill. While she has mellowed out a great deal from dying all the time, she’s still an asshole. Just more aloof. She doesn’t see the point in getting close to people that will probably just die. If you open up, you get attached, then it hurts all the more when they don’t come back like you do. Despite this, she is just more guarded than straight up shady like Goathead. Her secrets are more of omission because no one asks too many questions of the dumb brute, and she knows this.

Suffering

I made Goathead’s playlist way before I made Persephone’s, but since they’re foils and I’m extra, I decided to have one song that’s in both of theirs. The song is supposed to be Wave of Mutilation, but I already wrote a bunch there and didn’t want to change the order of the playlist. It works because they’re both Psycho Killers, so whatever, but I don’t think it really works for him because there’s a hint of regret or remorse, but Goathead does not feel those emotions.

Both of them lost their minds at some point: Persephone in the monastery and Goathead when he lost his hand. Suffering drove Persephone to be stronger for her god and be better. Losing his hand and indelibly marring his person was the final breaking point for what remained of his good will. Nothing would tarnish his perfection. He would find a better hand and stronger magic and ensure nothing would ever hurt him again. From then on, the basis of his characterization became less Zapp Brannigan and more The Count of Monte Cristo Without a Cause. Persephone spends every moment of her life knowing she will suffer and that each moment may be her last. 

Freedom

Again, Goathead is a creature defined by his desire for the freedom to do whatever he wants. While not quite inherently malevolent in nature, he is to those that get in his way, or that he believes are beneath him... which is most people. Goathead had always been free, up until he made a pact with some unknown Great Old entity. Probably many unknown entities at this point. Now he owes some of his much-coveted power to something he cannot even comprehend.

In contrast, Persephone has lived most of her life in service to others; first her slavery with the monks, then enlisting with the Dragonborn Confederacy to escape from them. She doesn’t quite know what Ilmater and her Angelic Guide expect from her besides cryptic statements about suffering well and home, but she trusts that what happens is his bidding and it will all be worth it one day. I believe that they have a genuinely good relationship, but I may be wrong. 

[imbetterlive]

DJ! Levi x Raver! Eren

Inspired by a post by @eren-san and @slutttysurveycorps who said they wanted it and it sounded like something I could write. 

I’m sorry if this isn’t what you had in mind, its just what came to my mind, so I hope you enjoy! 

Levi didn’t hate his job. But sometimes it got a little repetitive. That was an easy thing to happen though, when standing in the same spot, every Thursday thru Monday night from ten o’clock p.m to 3 o’clock a.m. Even if every few days the songs would change, some random drama between staff and staff or staff and customer or customer or customer would happen. It definitely got boring. Just the other night he had let one of his presets run in order to step out for a smoke, and unbeknownst to (a very drunk) Hanji, he didn’t come back.

Tonight wasn’t one of those nights. On this warm, very warm up in his booth, Friday night, he could see himself standing on his very own stage for hours and hours, just staring at what seemed to be the center of the dance floor. Even if it wasn’t, he didn’t care, to enraptured by the smooth tan body he watched sing his music back to him. It felt like a sort of responsibility, to keep this song going just so he could watch the green and blue paint of the back of this young man rock back and forth. He wanted to slow it down and see what the jean clad legs would do then.

Levi took his hands off of one of the soundboard during a part he had already pre-set, to flicker with the light settings he barely messed with. Usually they were on auto, switching between colors, patterns and speeds. He smirked at the idea of seeing this magnificent human being work under the influence of his music with the addition of strobe lights, a magenta coloured light, and a new mix of very heavily sex themed songs.

When he turned back to the dance floor he was greatly rewarded in the sense of what he saw; it was exactly what he had hoped for. He felt a flash of mad for not being jealous, watching this gorgeous piece of hot tan ass grinding on somebody that wasn’t him, but the way he moved -Levi couldn’t force himself to care too much.

He should probably be paying attention to the dials he was turning, the buttons he was pressing or the songs he was selecting, but after two years of practice and another two of performing on this very stage, he trusted that was ever it was that he was thinking was being projected into the music blasting out of the speakers sporadically placed around the room. Levi couldn’t tear his thoughts away to think about the horrific amount of questioning he would get from Hanji if she noticed, to consumed with watching this younger boy turn around to face him.

A choking gasp, and a thankful thought on the fact that he decided not to wear a mic tonight and that the music surrounding him would cover up his fit. He pulled a hand away to cover his cough, and then turned his full attention back to the dancing piece of artwork on the glowing pattern of the dance floor.

Levi was angry then, that he was too far away to make out this boy’s eye color or whatever shape his lips were making, but quickly forgot in favour of watching the toned body gyrate seemingly at him. It was a mouthwatering sight, it would have been for anybody, but as a thirty year old single gay man, this was above and beyond his wildest hopes and dreams.

Suddenly he remembered with a start that he was staring, and jerked his head away from the boy long enough to line up a new set of songs he could weave together to create more motivation for this boy’s irresistible hips.

The pink and orange streaks of paint left a burning image in his mind while he looked down towards his favourite soundboard, but for some reason looking back up seemed like the worse thing he could have done. He would wait until he had two or three more songs lined up, and then go find the source of his very out of character clumsy pinning.

“Eren!” It was faint, incredibly so underneath the dome of music the club provided. He turned to try and find the sound, his name, who might have been saying it in the first place.

Jean, of course, no more than five, four, now three feet away, had called him.

The tall, not taller than the other, brunet didn’t move, didn’t stop dancing in the middle of a song to pay much attention to Jean.

“What?” Is all he offered back, in the form of a breathless yell.

The taller boy and his lack of a reply was behind him in two more strides, putting his hands where his jeans couldn’t reach and pulling him close. Once again, he refused to stop dancing, having too much fun and enjoying the pattern of this bass too much.

“Nothing.” The deep voice was whispered into his ear, and then he was slowing his hips just a tad to stack them on top of Jean’s. “I just needed to get your attention.”

With a chuckle he put his arms back, clenching where he knew his friend's hips would be, and pulling them closer. Jean was then close enough so he could tip his head back and whisper his reply back, one full of sarcasm and humor.

“Well you got it Daddy.” A laugh as a retort, and then the pair of them were lost in the music as separate people sharing a space.

The song changed and then they were changing, Eren turning and putting his arms around Jean’s neck so he could match the older man’s body movements.

He was a breath away from making a comment about the glow-paint on his back mixing with the glow-paint on Jean’s front, but it was stolen from him by the sight before his very eyes.

Well, it was a small sight before everyone's eyes, but Eren was a dramatic boy and to him, right now felt like one of those dumb “time stopped when I saw you moments”. But this one was more of a, “holy crap those are the hottest “i’m going to sex you eyes” I’ve ever seen, so hot in fact that it gave me a boner” moments.

Long story short the look the DJ gave him gave his whole body goosebumps, and suddenly the piss-stained, cigarette polluted bathroom sounded like a great place to be.

Eren took a few moments to gather himself, slow and stop his dancing, and pull himself close to Jean so he could let him know where he was going to be. He wasn’t able to walk away with at least a slap on the ass, and then he was trying to make himself out of the maze of sweaty, glowing bodies. Soon he was on the other side, next to the bar, after almost getting elbowed by the other end of a fist pump. It took him a handful of ‘excuse me’s’ and one apology to finally reach the bathroom, and when he did he was sorry to find that he wasn’t alone. Three stalls, and one of them was in use, the mirror blocked by a small group of guys who snickered when they noticed the small bump in his jeans where his problem was hiding behind.

“Perverted fuck!” Was yelled over a shoulder as they exited, leaving Eren alone in the bathroom with what may or may not have been a couple in the handicap stall.

He took the first and did not take a seat, standing and leaning his blue painted forearm on the door, almost at the stage of panting he was breathing so hard. Eren was known to fall hard and fast, the smeared trail of guys and girls he hadn’t been able to be caught by plenty proof of that, but for a DJ he had only made eye-contact with was a little much. He took a moment of his eyes being closed tight to recognize this, and try to rationalize with himself how drunk he was, on top of being on the high of the club atmosphere he craved like a drug, along with the beautiful pair of hypnotizing gray eyes that seemed to shot a beam of pleasure straight to his dick- No. No. No.

Those were not for you. He chanted that for a second in his head.

He did not seduce you with one glance.

He really was a perverted fuck.

The slam of a door brought him back hard and fast, the kind of pace he needed right about-

“You’re in here right?” He felt obligated to answer but was still confused, recognizing that he wasn’t alone and the deep male voice could be talking about the couple who had very loudly pulled themselves apart.

Eren stayed still and he stayed quiet, awkwardly waiting to not hear the pair of shoes rushing out of the men’s restroom.

When the door slammed shut the voice continued, only slightly muffled by music still blasting its way into every inch of the club.

“From the floor? I’m the DJ.” It sounded like he wanted to go on but stopped before he could let the rest of his thought out. So, Eren decided to meet him halfway and unlock the stall, stepping out into the bathroom for the strange voice to see.

A not-to-shorter than him man was waiting in front of the door, the DJ, to be exact. The black skinny jeans he couldn’t see before were snug on his muscled legs, which lead the way up to the very built torso, covered loosely by a black t-shirt that he guessed had his title on the back.

Eren didn’t know what to say, didn’t feel like words were appropriate. It felt like a regret waiting to happen, the thought to saying and not doing. So, to prevent just that, Erne surged forward and took the shorter man into his arms, lifting him up to press him against the nearest wall, or what happened to be the door.

Eren’s hands felt numb as they found a place to hold on the underside of this man’s thighs. In return, the bare skin of his back was being electrocuted by the cold touch of the pale hands attached to the other. He felt no shame in letting the shorter man know how much he had wanted this, pressing his hips into his three or four times.

Levi was in his own private heaven, lost in the taste and feel of this younger, hotter man. He had to share his focus with schooling his moans and mewls, not wanting to expose too much just yet. But then, when different hips were pressing hard onto his own, all previous plans were abandoned in favour of getting this boy alone.

They had been kissing furiously for all of a minute before the DJ broke them apart, breathing hard.

“Not here.” He repeated himself while trying to catch his breath, so Eren put him down. “There’s an office in the back we can use.”

Levi made sure the kid knew his intent, locking his arms around the sweaty tan neck to pull him down in favour of kissing along his collarbone. Only for a moment of course, and then he was grabbing a large than hand and dragging it from the bathroom.

Part two if you want one, which will consist of nothing but smut. 

Don’t be afraid to tell me what you think! 

-Emmax

[valisi-clark]

Hi there, I just want to thank you for writing Smack. It's such a powerful story and I was wondering what inspired you to tell it. Also, my heart jumps to my mouth every time I think about the latest chapter; poor Levi and Erwin.

Thank you so much, anon! I’m glad that you’re enjoying the story in a way even if it’s painful. 

A lot of things inspired me to tell it. Explanation under the cut with the same warnings as the fic plus a warning for mention of suicide. 

When I was a teenager, one of my cousins shot himself. I didn’t know him. It was one of those situations where I didn’t know half of the people at the funeral, but my mom went because she knew everyone there. I don’t know why she took me, except for convenience. Babysitting wasn’t something that happened in my rural town. You were either old enough to stay home by yourself, or you went with your parents wherever they needed to go.  

I was prepubescent at that time, and I asked why someone would commit suicide. And my mom said something that I’ll never forget. She said:  

You come from a long line of people who are looking for relief.  

My mom was acknowledging that my family has a very extensive past of mental illness, drug abuse, and severe alcoholism.

When my depression and anxiety began developing as a teenager, I started to understand what she meant almost immediately. At 13, I was diagnosed with clinical depression, anxiety, and PTSD. 

My teenage years were a wreck. Not only were the chemicals in my own brain completely fucked, and constantly being fucked with due to medication, but I started dating a boy in high school who was extremely unhealthy. He made me feel like complete shit. His pattern was for us to become exclusive, we were madly in love for six months, and then he would begin to lose interest. I wasn’t a challenge anymore. He would talk to me about how great another girl was, and within a month, he would end the relationship and pursue her. I was devastated every single time. I loved him so much. 

When it didn’t work out with whoever he had decided to pursue, he would come back to me. That worked about three times over a period of four years before I decided to stop being a fucking idiot and move on. But he was so fucking charming. You wouldn’t believe the lengths he went to for my attention. Gifts sent to my house, letters, cards, a ridiculous amount of work and effort. I had to ignore him completely which absolutely is the worst thing he could imagine. And he’s been trying to find a way to continue to be part of my life since then. He’s a narcissist. Possibly a dangerous narcissist now that he’s been arrested for gun violence. In January 2017, my grandfather died, and I had to go back to my hometown for the funeral. My ex showed up to the funeral. I thought maybe he just wanted to support my family, but then I found out that he called my sister yesterday and told her that he was in a crisis. All of it is to get back into my head again. If I attempt to support him at all, even with a brief message of: “I hope it gets better” on Facebook, then he’ll pull harder. I have to ignore him no matter what.

There were a few times in high school that I wasn’t with this guy, and when that happened I tried to date around. One time, I dated a guy who was really decent. He was kind, but we just weren’t compatible (mainly because I bit his lip when we kissed once, and I thought he was going to cry). But one night, we were driving through one of the towns near where I lived at the time, and we drove through one neighborhood that was known to be pretty rough. He told me: “The guy who lives there?” He pointed at a house. “That guy can get you any kind of drug you want. He’s great.” 

“Mushrooms?” I asked. 

“Yeah. Of course,” he said. 

“Heroin?” I asked. 

“Heroin. What the fuck? Don’t try that. Stick with mushrooms,” he said. I wanted to try heroin more than anything. But I wanted to do it with someone that I thought that I could trust because I knew that it would just knock me out. So I told myself that I would wait until I found someone who would take care of me while I was high before I tried it. 

Let me tell you the reason that I thought of heroin. In 2007, when I was a sophomore in high school, Sixx AM came out with an album that was written by Nikki Sixx called The Heroin Diaries Soundtrack. That album came out two years before I graduated, and I listened to it a lot with my on-and-off boyfriend. Nikki Sixx wrote The Heroin Diaries and the Soundtrack that accompanies it to explain why heroin had ruined his life. But I wanted to try it so badly. Thankfully, I never got the opportunity. 

Since then, I’ve tried spice, which is officially called synthetic cannabinoids. It’s a designer drug. You can put a lot of different stuff in it. The main danger of spice is that it fucks up the heart’s rhythm, and it definitely did that for me. I would’ve called 911 or my uncle (who is a first responder) if I hadn’t been completely paralyzed. I lived. That’s all that matters. I’ve tried pot too, but that wasn’t any fun. It just made me dumb and sleepy. 

But one time, I was able to try Percocet, which is a synthetic opioid that’s a mixture of Acetamenophen and Oxycodone. That was the best, most satisfying high, that I have ever experienced in my life. I felt warm all over, I felt comfortable and euphoric. I even felt tingly, and that was so good. Everything was wonderful. Nothing hurt. Eventually I fell into a very deep, absolutely dreamless, no nightmares, perfect sleep. The only reason that I didn’t begin a Percocet addiction was because it was in limited supply, and someone else was monitoring it for me. But I miss it. A lot. If anyone ever offered it to me again, I would take it without reservation.

That’s what inspired Smack. I’ve wanted to try heroin since I was a teenager because I thought it would give me relief. And one day last year, I realized that Levi would never look at syringes the same way again after the serum bowl. So I could write a Reincarnation Fic where he used heroin not only because he wants relief but because he’s going to think of Erwin every time he sees a syringe now. 

I thought: “Oh. This would be the perfect way for me to experience that heroin addiction that I never started. It would probably remove the desire completely.” 

It hasn’t. I’ve triggered myself more times than I can count with this piece of fiction. But it’s worth it. 

I’m too old and responsible to try heroin now. I have a job, and bills to pay, and people who care about me who deserve love and attention. I missed my chance to ruin my life while it was still shitty. I know that the phrase “It Gets Better” has been popular recently, and on some level that’s true. For me, things got better because I allowed them to get better. I taught myself how to be good to people and how to let people be good to me. I take responsibility for my mental illness and what it can do to me or the people I love. My relationship with my family has improved. My partner and I are in a very healthy and loving relationship. I have people who want to support me. All I have to do is ask for my needs to be fulfilled. Gaining relief from heroin would be too expensive.

Getting high is still really tempting. It’s especially tempting when I write about Levi using absolutely anything. But I have a job to do. If I decide to chase down drugs instead of finishing this fic, I know a few people who are going to track me down, show up on my doorstep, and probably kick my ass. Not just for dropping out of the marathon of chapter writing, but for being a dumbass. 

You find a reason to stay healthy, and if there isn’t a real reason to stay healthy, you create one. 

All of these things have helped inspire Smack. It’s a collection of little moments throughout my life. I’m so thankful to Isayama for creating a series with characters that I am capable of loving. And I’m so appreciative that I’ve been able to write for Erwin and Levi. I’m so fucking grateful for the people who have supported this piece. I cannot believe that this wonderful thing has happened to me, of all people. I don’t know if I deserve this joy, but I want it. I want to feel satisfied and appreciated this way more than I want relief from being inside of my own head for too long. 

Thank you all so much. This has been one of the best experiences of my life, and I love you all for it. 

Thank you, anon, for giving me the opportunity to discuss this.