#grrr normal about them

[blotb0x]

he let her infodump and he regrets it SO hard it’s been three hours

[sunnydayaoe]

AROUGHHH what having [redacted] is like.

I was very nice and sweet I did not say anything and removed myself from the situation before I got very mean <3

[phantom--brainz]

10 hours.......

I'm gona explode..... /silly

@thatsthat24

[v4mpyinred]

MORE Akijun angst time, but it's mostly Akihiko angst because i love projecting my awful attachment issues onto Akihiko and making him suffer in general <33

I love the idea of Akihiko being so scared of his feelings for Junpei once he realizes he has them. After all, Akihiko has lost everyone else close to him, so what's stopping Junpei from being a part of that same fate? Shoot, Akihiko already watched Junpei die (before Chidori saved him, of course). It could happen again, and the last thing Aki would want is to seal such a fate for Junpei, all because of his own stupid feelings...

It sucks because Junpei is pretty affectionate and clingy, so i can imagine Aki hurting as Junpei tries to get closer to him. But he lets Junpei in anyway, because Akihiko doesn't strike me as the avoidant type.

In fact, I think Akihiko would be fall into the anxious attachment type (projection), even if he tries to bury it and act like he's fine. I really like the idea of Aki having some kind of separation anxiety, and him being so damn worried about Junpei's wellbeing all the time. When Junpei doesn't answer his calls (cuz he's busy or...actually this is junpei his phone is prolly just dead LOL) or is late to something, it drives Akihiko crazy. Same for if Junpei is sick or hurt. Aki hurts too. Especially when he can't heal Junpei and can only just watch. It reminds Akihiko of all the times he couldn't help others in his life.

However, Aki tries soooo hard not to be as controlling and overprotective with Junpei like he was with Shinji. After all, he's done holding onto the pain of the past, and feeling all guilty or worried over things out of his control. He's had his character development, i won't erase that.

But Aki's only human..and it's so hard to feel fine when Akihiko couldn't live with himself if something happened to Junpei. Especially after he's lost pretty much everyone, and it seems that's the path destined for his loved ones. It's so hard to not have those "what if's...", even if Aki has no reason to suspect anything bad is going to happen. He promised he'd protect everyone and that includes Junpei.

In the end, though, Junpei is always there for Akihiko. All of Akihiko's crippling worries seem to wash away when he opens his eyes to Junpei sleeping peacefully next to him. Or when Akihiko comes back from a morning jog and notices the breakfast and lovely note written for him sitting on the table...I think I've mentioned Junpei comforting Akihiko when he has nightmares/flashbacks. Well, I think Junpei would do more too! Like reassuring Akihiko when his worries get the best of him, making sure to text Aki before he gets too busy to respond, and overall giving Aki all the love and hugs he deserves.

Akihiko is so used to feeling so lost and out of control, especially when it comes to those around him. But I think Junpei would truly heal the side of Akihiko that still hurts, and he'd show Aki that he's never alone🥲

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

ive been listening to pacific on loop for the past hour or so and exploring artists with lots of music is kinda intimidating so do u have any other chase petra song recs 👉👈

YAYYY !!! ofc :33 they are my fav ever (after tnc) and pacific is probably my favorite song ever and i cried in concert hearing it <33 anyways

from the liminal album i really like in an emergency such as the end of the world and quicksand or laws of physics

reliable narrator- i love this songg <333

lullabies for dogs (album) sorta just came out and i havent had enough time to choose favorite songs yet but !!

the needle- and subsequently the suture gah i love them <33

and yeah !!!! theres more but i didn't want to do too much i love their music so much :) <3

[raynastar03]

Silly sonic stuff to practice shading :333

Ft. @moo--milk Evan and Maxi!

[faunandfloraas]

fansites that blur the other members faces are so funny to me. like why. we know who he's standing next to.

[consumeroflemoans]

Ryū Shimizu and Karasu (the dragon and the raven)

“Come on Shimi, I told ya there’d be less people roamin’ at night. Look, you can see the stars from the beach!”

“In all these centuries…only you have made me turn my gaze to the skies.”

Something something gay ass dragon

Applaud me for finally making a character with both a family name and a given name

[rileys-basement]

The Ride the Cyclone hyperfixation is coming back and stronger than it ever has been and is going to eat away at my brain I fear

[beast-feast]

The add-ons to my f/o list would would go crazy if I included the complexities of some of these bitches!

[ragingtwilight]

Lost note #1 made me cry for like 20 mins I had to put the game down

Cherry on top I made Leshy a damned follower first and I was so upset I had to restart the whole day I'm so sorry babygirl I didn't know there was a limit

Also Heket asked me to marry her let's fucking go

[navysealt4t]

staring at you with my eyes. transfem percy jackson you say? i am. willing to hear more. <- guy who has started shaking at a normal and regular speed

SHAKING TOO I HAVE LIKE. ZERO COHERENT THOUGHTS ABOUT IT IT JUST MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. AND AND AND T4T PERCABETH !!!!!! HELLLLOOOOOOOoooo OH AND AND AND PERCY FUCKING FIGURE ALL THAT SHIT OUT FOR HIMSELF AND LEADING HIM TO FIND AN IDENTITY OUTSIDE OF BEING A HLAFBLOOD AND POSEDINS KID .

[visionkept]

Watched the rest of TGCF'S S1 with @geleum again ! Last time we got up to ep.7, today we finally watched the rest. Did I like it ? Heck yeah, to the point that those 20 minutes episodes felt barely around the 10 minutes mark. Berry's not immune to dumb couples that take forever to get together tho their friendship is indeed, the gayest thing ever.

[angy-grrr]

thank you for being an izch hater in these trying times 😔

these are trying times indeed, but I'll gladly remind dudebros that they have as much confirmation as us, and I put us on the same level exclusively because this is a shonen -and still, they have even less than what's usual.

Shame.

[falsementor]

thinking about blackquill again. dude,,,, peng and macaque would be SO bad for each other fr.

[browzerhistory]

Whomst is this yanny and also 🍀

OKAY so i had to wait until i got home from school to respond to this because hoo boy. hot dog.

so in order to properly explain who yanny is i need to go back a couple months when I started hyperfixating on a semi-popular video game... except i hated it. hated the concept, the creators, the fandom, everything (i won't say what game it is bc that would be swinging a bat at a hornet's nest). but my brain kept going back to it because one can't control the hyperfix. i ended up making a couple of characters in the universe of the game, one of whom was yanny (though the others got abandoned rip).

at first they just sort of existed and i didn't really do much with them besides doodle them on homework on occasion. they were sort of like a punching bag because the video game wasn't very well written and a lot of the effects of some in-universe events were either downplayed or ignored completely and i was like "well i could totally do better here's what would actually happen to a person going through this". and as it goes, i ended up liking their design more than i meant to (since they were sort of just made on a whim). however, by the time i realized the potential they had, the hyperfix was finally fading and i was more than ready to abandon all memory of that game existing. i was kind of sad to let yanny go but i really didn't want to continue interacting with the game or its fandom because it had an actual affect on my mental health.

then i realized "hey! i don't have to forget about them, i can just shove them into my oc universe!" and oh boy that's where it got out of hand.

removed from the context of the game, yanny lost a lot of their character and at first i was worried it wasn't worth keeping them if they were just going to be an entirely different person. but i tried reverse-engineering my way through a backstory and ended up making them more well-developed and interesting than they had been before. in turn, i also ended up fleshing out a huge chunk of my ocverse! there's a lot of world building there that would just not have existed if i wasn't so determined to put this poor guy through the Horrors.

that's the backstory out of the way. I'll tell you about who they actually are now (christ on a bike this post is long)

so yanny was originally a placeholder name, but it ended up sticking, and eventually evolved into their current full name, which is yanahel owens. they're a demon/fallen angel getting used to life outside of heaven (which is more like a hive mind in my ocverse and is currently referred to just as THE HIVE or THE SINGULARITY). they were roped into joining THE HIVE when they were very young and ended up spending seven or eight years as a drone (18 to roughly 25 or 26). once they break free, they're basically lost since they remember very little of their life before or during their time in THE HIVE. through sheer dumb luck, they meet up with someone they knew before, stella, and she offers to help them get back on their feet. she lets them move in with her and gets them a job at a café near her apartment. there, they make two more friends: tea and hanna, coworkers who are generally worried about their well-being but enjoy their company. they also meet up with more old friends there, vivienne and adam, who are currently in college.

their story overall is going to be about them making a place for themself in the world and recovering from the debilitating paranoia that comes with escaping a situation like that. THE HIVE is like a high-control group on steroids, so healing is going to be difficult and painful, but yanny perseveres because they want to find joy in life again and they want, above all, to live. it's more than a little bit of vent writing for me, but in a good way, because in the end, they're able to carve a place in the world for themself while making peace with what they went through and eventually finding joy in life again.

good lord this got long. can you tell they're my favorite oc right about now? have a drawing of them as a treat for reading this lengthy ass post. thanks so much for the ask!