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Whomst is this yanny and also 🍀
OKAY so i had to wait until i got home from school to respond to this because hoo boy. hot dog.
so in order to properly explain who yanny is i need to go back a couple months when I started hyperfixating on a semi-popular video game... except i hated it. hated the concept, the creators, the fandom, everything (i won't say what game it is bc that would be swinging a bat at a hornet's nest). but my brain kept going back to it because one can't control the hyperfix. i ended up making a couple of characters in the universe of the game, one of whom was yanny (though the others got abandoned rip).
at first they just sort of existed and i didn't really do much with them besides doodle them on homework on occasion. they were sort of like a punching bag because the video game wasn't very well written and a lot of the effects of some in-universe events were either downplayed or ignored completely and i was like "well i could totally do better here's what would actually happen to a person going through this". and as it goes, i ended up liking their design more than i meant to (since they were sort of just made on a whim). however, by the time i realized the potential they had, the hyperfix was finally fading and i was more than ready to abandon all memory of that game existing. i was kind of sad to let yanny go but i really didn't want to continue interacting with the game or its fandom because it had an actual affect on my mental health.
then i realized "hey! i don't have to forget about them, i can just shove them into my oc universe!" and oh boy that's where it got out of hand.
removed from the context of the game, yanny lost a lot of their character and at first i was worried it wasn't worth keeping them if they were just going to be an entirely different person. but i tried reverse-engineering my way through a backstory and ended up making them more well-developed and interesting than they had been before. in turn, i also ended up fleshing out a huge chunk of my ocverse! there's a lot of world building there that would just not have existed if i wasn't so determined to put this poor guy through the Horrors.
that's the backstory out of the way. I'll tell you about who they actually are now (christ on a bike this post is long)
so yanny was originally a placeholder name, but it ended up sticking, and eventually evolved into their current full name, which is yanahel owens. they're a demon/fallen angel getting used to life outside of heaven (which is more like a hive mind in my ocverse and is currently referred to just as THE HIVE or THE SINGULARITY). they were roped into joining THE HIVE when they were very young and ended up spending seven or eight years as a drone (18 to roughly 25 or 26). once they break free, they're basically lost since they remember very little of their life before or during their time in THE HIVE. through sheer dumb luck, they meet up with someone they knew before, stella, and she offers to help them get back on their feet. she lets them move in with her and gets them a job at a café near her apartment. there, they make two more friends: tea and hanna, coworkers who are generally worried about their well-being but enjoy their company. they also meet up with more old friends there, vivienne and adam, who are currently in college.
their story overall is going to be about them making a place for themself in the world and recovering from the debilitating paranoia that comes with escaping a situation like that. THE HIVE is like a high-control group on steroids, so healing is going to be difficult and painful, but yanny perseveres because they want to find joy in life again and they want, above all, to live. it's more than a little bit of vent writing for me, but in a good way, because in the end, they're able to carve a place in the world for themself while making peace with what they went through and eventually finding joy in life again.
good lord this got long. can you tell they're my favorite oc right about now? have a drawing of them as a treat for reading this lengthy ass post. thanks so much for the ask!
#im so normal about them GRRR#oc: yanny#autism BLAST#yeah i love them and their story very much. i will post more drawings SOON but its almost my bedtime
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10 hours.......
I'm gona explode..... /silly
@thatsthat24
#sanders sides#thomas sanders#ts sides#tss#remus sanders#janus sanders#dukeceit#grrr#im gonna eat them#and beat them up#they're sharing a diabolical dance#and evil dance#cuz theyre so evil#and devious#and gay#i am so normal about them#GRRRARARARA#:3
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Lost note #1 made me cry for like 20 mins I had to put the game down
Cherry on top I made Leshy a damned follower first and I was so upset I had to restart the whole day I'm so sorry babygirl I didn't know there was a limit
Also Heket asked me to marry her let's fucking go
#cotl spoilers#legit i was so distraught after reading lost note 1 oh my god#i havent stopped thinking about it for days#also didnt know u could bring back damned followers#but now that i do im keeping against sacrifice & terrified of death in constant purgatory lol#since only one follower at a time normally can have that trait#if i could get a stinky with both thatd make things a lot easier#guess ill just cheese the game unless they cant be put on the same follower lol#alsoalso Heket gave me a string of normal follower quests before asking 2 marry me and i feel like thats related#to her asking i mean#but either way im happy lol#idk i just dont like initiating when they dont give the quest#otherwise i wouldve married them all by now LMAO#anyway just wanted to share my thoughts cya ✌️#cotl update so epic yall#grrr
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staring at you with my eyes. transfem percy jackson you say? i am. willing to hear more. <- guy who has started shaking at a normal and regular speed
SHAKING TOO I HAVE LIKE. ZERO COHERENT THOUGHTS ABOUT IT IT JUST MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. AND AND AND T4T PERCABETH !!!!!! HELLLLOOOOOOOoooo OH AND AND AND PERCY FUCKING FIGURE ALL THAT SHIT OUT FOR HIMSELF AND LEADING HIM TO FIND AN IDENTITY OUTSIDE OF BEING A HLAFBLOOD AND POSEDINS KID .
#god im just so unnormal about them in general .#AND PERCY AND GROVER TOO#grrr shaking violently im normal im normal#asks#beloveds <3#squiding time!
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I love being part of game fandoms and this is nothing against them. But I SWEAR TO GOD IT CARRIES PRESSURE. ESPECIALLY when there is a second game. And ESPECIALLY when I want to be just as insane as everyone else who is completely caught up and finished the game. I love playing games and I want to indulge in them so bad but I have very hard time doing things already. I sometimes just like to take breaks from games and play others or do other things but that adds more time and space between me and understanding/relevance in the fandom/community. And my main enemy is SPOILERS.
It's the equivalent of being told to frolick with a blindfold on. I ain't gonna do that, what if you told me to frolick in a field of sharp rocks(spoilers). I am gonna sit here and enjoy what I'm confident is grass.
#again NO HATE AT ALL to the games and their fandoms/communities#i love them so dearly and im so normal about them#its also rough having this problem but with multiple games like grrr#been dealing with this with little nightmares and rain world#mainly because rainworld is such a complicated game#I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH#spon rambles#games
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image: a screenshot from a th3pooka animation of evil xisuma sitting on their throne.
the incoherent essay in the tags is entirely on you op. for telling me to talk about ex when it's after my bedtime. i was going to say a whole lot more but i ran out of tags so im going to take that as a sign from god to shut the up.
Hey, do me a favor.
Share your opinions on this bugger. /threat
#well youd never guess but theyre autistic ^^#source: have you seen the first minute and 25 seconds of zedaph s5e22 'Freak Show!'#anyways. OOUUHHHHHHHHH HOW I MISS THE OLDEN DAYS OF EVIL XISUMA..#i was just talking to my cherished friend luigra about this &. season 8. i didnt Love It but i definitely got into it and it felt like#there was so much being set up! especially towards the end when the moon was getting closer and jeff the minions control over ex (and exs#control over xisuma by extension) was weakening and it was like ! holy shit this is all leading up to the big reveal‚ were gonna see how it#was this green eyed mf pulling the strings all along and idk maybe something about the fucking cycle of abuse going on but NO.#NOTHING. they just like fucked off into space with all the profits before the character development could set in#which... actually is pretty excore. but considering the content of that storyline (serious abuse and manipulation going on. wtf) it felt#soooo. idek it does not sit right.#the thing about ex is when you get down to it theyre an april fools joke character. and that was fine that was great#you had this community of like 12 people on the planet who were really invested in them with fuckin. red strings between their 5 or so#videos trying to put together lore. and we knew it was kinda silly and ridiculous and it was great! and then there was pooka adding another#layer to their story ofc which got deeper & darker and was fantastic ! but at the time not canon#but when those two attitudes around the character mesh. the joke character angle‚ and the . wanting to tell a deeper story angle#if its not done well it feels in very poor taste. yk?#exs canon story didnt really need to be that deep. it was kinda exciting to see it going there but only if theres an ending that is in some#way fulfilling and there wasn't at all :(#s8 has also ofc brought in a ton of new ex fans which is great but also. kind of sad to see this be peoples introduction to the character#a lot of people either miss all the hints at the carnevil/evils fault lore bc they just havent seen it so they think this is normal#ex behavior. which it ISNT AT ALL!! and its the contrast that made their behavior in s8 so. frightening honestly!#i just ughhhhh you took my sopping wet malicious yet ultimately harmless scrungle bunny and you made him actually abusive and then there#was no ending at all. none! yuo just did that to them!!!!! GRRR#i dont know.#anyways my other thoughts about ex is that they're off with renbob rn smoking weed together or something. idk. thats what i tell myself to#feel better.#i also think that slayers sons should be mandatory reading.[croaking from my deathbed] i remember#... when shlayers shons wash shtiwll comin ouht...#ALSO TIAASB X ^^ <3333 my babygirl i think about you every day of my life. not joking. his story genuinely haunts me /pos#im not even joking when i say tiaasb had a profound emotional impact on me and changed my life. its fucking. mcyters
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This boy has been in the drafts for like a month
I'm feeling like I want an Adam sandwich with two slices of Morningstar brothers so you guys are going to hear me out on my LucifurxAdamxMicheal au (and I mean it in a they both share Adam in the end :3 ) In general I'm calling the ship ✨️GuitarStars✨️ boooyaaa I feel like there might be a better name for it but idk
(Also I’ve noticed there is complaint for guitarhero in the adamsapple tag. I'm tagging this post as adamsapple this once of it but post related to this with both brothers will be counted as #guitarstars.
I also completely agree with the complaints. There is a problem with the tagging so this is a very quick reminder to please tag properly!!! Ik it's not meant to be harmful bcz most guitarhero shippers are also adamsapple as well. But i will admit there has been a lot of unecessary tagging (i am guilty of this im so sorry qwq) so please be mindful!!!! Ik this post might go agaisnt that but its just this post i swear sorrryyyy)
ANYWAYS The actual au:
For now I'm calling the au- Angels on My Shoulder (I can't think of a good title rn grrr)
quick sketchs so you get the idea
General prompt:
Adam respawns as a human with all his memories. He lives a normal happy life until he turns 21 when two angels (Micheal and Lucifer) appear on his shoulders with a mission: try convince him into making certain decisions so that he ensures a spot in heaven or hell.
That doesn’t work out very well because adam hates how theyre forcing their ideals onto him one way or another. He doesnt really want to think about heaven or hell anytime soon. Heaven or hell seems like complete torture to him. The fact that he didn't like either of them before he respawned doesn't help.
A revelation happens and both brothers realize it's not gonna work on their terms so they're gonna have to earn his favor first before trying anything. One of the ways is talking it out beacuse adam had expressed several times over that, while at first it was funny, their bickering needs to die because it's getting annoying.
They talk it out. They make up. It takes a whole but they become close again. They try to earn adams favor in the meantime and between time. Everything is at peace. As time goes on though, the wooing is no longer for just adams favor, its now romantic. Both develop feelings for Adam. And since now they made up both made up they are very willing to share him.
The og goal is completely lost. Gone with the dirt and dust. And now what was once a competition to get Adam into heaven or hell has spiraled into heaven and hell trying to get into Adam. If you catch my drift.
Do they get in there?
God bless they do
(Ps they start off as small little mascots but then later grow into their normal form and an added human form. Adam Prefers the small mascots though)
My in-depth of the au that is very subject to change I just wanted to rant is under the cut o3o
So when Adam had died, he respawned onto earth. Born into a normal family and all that jazz. He lives life as normal and has comes to terms with it. He actually loves his life. He doesn’t have to walk on eggshells anymore and lives as normal. He’s not insanely good or insanely bad, he’s just a guy.
A guy who is very happy with himself. After graduating he becomes a national park ranger.
Heaven and hell both know of adams soul, but contant cant be initiated till he turns 21 (It was recognized because I wanna say 21 would be the age Adam technically was in his creation during Eden, and thats when he can process divinity without his body tweaking as if he were any other mortal. Souls grow along with age and all that drama, adams soul in eden was strong enough to stand the sheer power of a seraphims presence) both sides made it their immediate duty to guide him to their path.
Sera wanted Adam in heaven to clear her mind- to have heaven back to perfection with the original perfection creation (also to have her son back, but she's not ready to unpack that for herself.)
Lucifur wanted adam as he could punish him directly for hurting Charlie and her friends. A little tiny part of him also really wants Adam all for himself grrryrvgrvsgrs
So both heaven and hell spawn a representative guide for Adam to follow once his soul is ready to guide. Lucifur nominated himself and Sera nominated Micheal who agreed.
For some reason (probably amix of earth and god or sumn), Adam's presence nulls the powers of both angels and devils. So the first time they appear, Micheal and lucifur appear as small tiny mascots on Adam’s shoulder.
(Adam has flicked both of them away several times and they can't really do anything about it other than fly back and try again)
Both sides had the same idea and Adam connects the dots very fast on why they are here without them telling him. And he's pissed.
His normal life is now ruined.
Adam actually really hates both Lucifur and Micheal. Lucifur for obvious reasons and Micheal because he's just so nitpickey. Micheal had trained Adam in the past and that guy was brutal. Adam understood part of it was with Lucifurs falling and their brother thing and whatever but god daymn bro needed to chill. If Sera was on him like a hawk Micheal had been on him like a spy camera from space monitored by the secret service. In a way, both devalued adams emotions to some capacity so Adam hated both of them equally. Nothing Adam could do about it though because he was human.
In the beginning, both micheal and lucifur kept it really formal between them. Its strained but neither brother imposes on what the other one advises. That doesn’t stay for too long. The formalities between Lucifur and Micheal die pretty quickly. Under 2 months tops. While both are very old and very much adults, they are, first and foremost, SIBLINGS.
Both begin talking over eachother, butting in, shoving eachother. It's like pre eden all over again between the two on who is better. Most of the time they argue about the most random topics forgetting their og purpose.
After one year of enduring both of their bs, Adam feels like he has a dog and a cat rather than two otherworldly gaurdians monitoring his every move.
He doesn't complain though. After a while he's learned to tune them out. He also finds it incredibly entertaining watching the literal devil fight with the a high angel while being incredibly small. And with no powers it resorts to petty slapping. He's gotten pretty used to it....
Except when it comes to them making him choose what actions he takes.
They're always on him about everything. It sucks so much ass. Everything Adam tries to do something good, Lucifur tells him that it's stupid, that he should be more selfish and blocks Adam. He keeps on telling him that deep down adam really isnt all that, and why should he try and do good when everyone knows that hes not really that. Micheal does the same thing in reverse. When Adam does something considered bad, Micheal raves on how he'll go to hell. That Adam was made in perfection and must reach that perfection. That heaven is waiting for him and is available only if he keeps on doing good.
It makes Adam so mad when they remember what they're trying to do.
Adam doesn’t listen to either angel because after living part of his life as just a normal person, he’s come to realize he doesn’t want to think about living life wondering if he’s going to heaven or hell. Adam does not want to face eternal punishment or be in hell. He still really hates sinners, and while the blood hungry killer part of him died with his second life, he still thinks that the majority of those sinners are disgusting to say the least. But he doesn’t want to walk eggshells to be virtuous enough to enter heaven. Heaven, for all its greatness got tiring after 1000s of years. He's grown tired- already hated hell and grew to hate heaven. He doesn’t want to think about either, he doesn’t want those ideas to deter him from choosing what he wants to do. He wants to make both good and bad decisions without an angel watching over him. He wants to be able to make both good and bad decisions. He makes this very clear after a breakdown.
It becomes less of a competition over making Adam choose and more of getting into Adam’s favor after that because their first tactic is clearly not working.
So both agree that they will have to earn adams favor before making him do anything.
But in order to get adams favor both have to learn to get along because it had become one of Adam's biggest gripes. Funny at first, but the bickering and arguments got tiring after the course of a few years.
So they do attempt to make up. Genuinely. It's hard and its tough. Theres a lot there to unpack. But both jnkw that if they don't do this Adam is not going to listen to either of them because getting along has go go both ways.
And they do make up.
By the time Adam is in his early 30s, the close proximity and a lot of Adam yelling to sort it out, allowed for some slow but needed time to talk it out. They would do it infront of Adam who was the mediator, but they mostly would talk when Adam falls asleep as both watch over his dreams (creepos imo). They begin talking about their decision and their lives. Both brothers do acknowledge that they miss each other and that they have committed several wrongs with each other. And soon the fighting turns to light banter and life is good. They still try to earn adams favor but it's a lot more calmer. Everything's more calm.
Atleast that's what adam thought at first.
While bonding and stuff, they both come to the mutual agreement that they could share Adam. So they both freak it and try to woo Adam together.
And then now it's a matter of Adam freaking out because while before, both his little shoulder angels used to argue, they their bickering distracted them enough that Adam could chill and leave.
Now they're both bothering him and helping eachother try to get in adams pants. They're tag teaming him now.
It doesn't take long for their combined forces to make Adam cave.
The og goal is kinda gone. They still put their input but adams become more open it because they're less demanding and he feels like their goals are more aligned to his wants than theirs. Lucifur and Micheal also come to kinda realize that where Adam ends is where Adam ends. They're going to have to just suck it up when the time comes but they'll enjoy sharing while it lasts.
It gets pretty domestic and slice of life here. So the years following is a mix of sibling bonding and having ✨️the rizz✨️ on Adam.
Lucifur talks about hell and Charlie. Micheal talks about heaven and lucifur and his siblings. (Both Micheal and Lucifur arent permannt shoulder angels, they can actually pop away if they wanted to) Adam talks about his life and stuff.
When Adam eventually dies, his soul is neither here or there (because getting absolutely boned by twin morningstars does not make you virtuous or sinful it just makes you a bad bitch) his soul spawns in limbo. He’s deprived from salvation but doesn’t endure the horrors of hell. It’s basically a decent sided garden with a basic house in the middle where the garden ends is white space. On opposite ends of the garden are two doors, one goes to hell and the other to heaven. Turns out, the doors are connected to Micheal and Lucifer’s homes, but only appeared in them once Adam died. He’s allowed outside limbo into heaven or hell of his choosing for a limited amount of time and visites Micheal and Lucifer when he can. On the flip side Micheal and Lucifer can freely walk in and out of the place. I don’t want Adam to be lonely once he enters limbo so Cain and Abel are there because they died before heaven was ready and when he’ll just started.
So that’s pretty much it :3 kinda
incomplete but doesn't have everything I wanna say
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I will reiterate what I said at the beginning. I love you my guitarhero ppl but they are right in the tagging. It comes from a place of love so just be mindful!! Also, this is from me, sometimes the adamsapple vs guitarhero thing gets repetitive. It's a very common post ive seen. And I mean in general not just leaking into the adamsapple tag. That might just be me, but I do see it pretty often. Love it but that with the tagging does get a bit old. Really, the problem is a mix of incorrect tagging and the same trope. There's a lot more to the ship, especially with Micheal being free reign rn, so there is a lot of opportunity to show their relationship besides comparing it to Adamsapple.
I feel like somone who ships guitarhero also had to say something so yeyeye
Again, no offense to anyone guitarhero isbmy love but just please be mindful guys o3o
If you read all that thank you lol
#hazbin hotel adam#hazbin hotel#guitarhero#adamsapple#michael x adam#adam x lucifer#hazbin hotel michael#adam hazbin hotel#lucifer hazbin hotel#my au#guitarstars#if i miss tag guys pls dont be afraid to tell me#even old posts
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need sam to crush me (in an sfw way) but i just want him to like flex his biceps while my face is between them (idk how to explain it but those tiktok’s where the girls get crushed between their bf’s arms is what i mean) or like i want his arms around my shoulders/neck (im 5’3 so thats where they’d go to i think) and i wanna lick his abs and feel his hands on me AHAHAHAAAAA HE MAKES ME FERAL IM GNAWING AT MY PILLOW like i need him fr
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BLERGH ME TOO BESTIE AKHFSKJDLA yeah ik what you mean that that with sam would literally cure me
hehe. short JK LOL SORRY compared to sam well. you are lol but so am i hehe (i'm only two inches taller than you lmao) but um yeah they would pretty much go right around there i believe LOL
we took a jump on the licking his abs part LMAOOO BUT SAMEEE GRRR i just need him so bad, all of him. wanna feel his big ass hands on my waist and wrists like. actually i'm pretty sure he could wrap his hand around my bicep LOL (i need to start doing arm workouts HELP) need him oh god. i can't be normal about him fr get me out please i- help save me lord (sam winchester)
also i just moved blogs!! i might miss asks on here in the near future, so send all your thoughts to my new main @sammyluvr !
#need his hands on me more than anything in the world#NEED A HUG FROM HIM EVEN MORE THAN THAT !!!!!#. >> asks !#. >> sammy ♥︎ !#. >> lovely anons !#. >> 💽anon ౨ৎ !#in an sfw way LMAO
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i feel like we got stollencream/strawberrybread content from the new update. if u dont know what im talking about im talking abt the tanghulu line from strawberry cream my baby. he says its tasty, like stollen cookie said. like?? are u srs?? theyre so cutie patooties grrr. my personal headcanon for this is that they shared one tanghulu and to eat, AND JUST HOW CUTE IS THAT ASJSJJSJDJS.
i love them so so much. devsis is not even trying to hide them at this point i swear. theyre defo canon bc im devsis computer. (im so normal about them)
#cutie patooties#guys i swear im normal about them#THEYRE DEF CANON DEVSIS SAID SO#stollencream#strawberry bread#stollen cookie#strawberry cream cookie#cookie run#cookie run ovenbreak#cookie run shipping#headcanon
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I cant believe this has as many notes as it does??? Yall like my blorbos or smth??? 😳😳😳
Anyone know of any good picrews? I want to make my ocs in them to distract myself from The Thoughts
#its a shame i cant properly talk abt them 😩#as much as i WANT TO#ARF ARF GRRR BARK ARF BARK BARK ARF RRRRR#im so normal about them
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GRRR I HATE FIVE PEBBLES (I LOVE ALL OF THEM SO MUCH I KINDA WANT FP BUT I KNOW I CANT)
I MIGHT BE GETTING INV !!!!! IM NORMAL ABOUT IT I SWEAR (LIE)
#scav is screaming#scavs silly misc#scav finally posts something#rain world#rainworld#rain world downpour#rw slugpup#rw inv#rw ???#rw enot#rw five pebbles#IM GOING TO SCREAM IF THEY EVER MAKE A SCAV PLUSHIE IM NOT KIDDING I WILL CRY
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*thinkin abt my favorite block people* grrr im so normal about them i promise
#mcyt#trafficblr#traffic smp#traffic series#secret life#secret life smp#grian#mumbo#ethoslab#bdubs#tangotek#this post is specifically abt etho but like#it applies to all of them#for me
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tw 3d rant:
im actually going to drop k1ck my head of year WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOURE EMAILING ALL MY TEACHERS TO GET THEM TO KEEP AN EYE ON ME? WHAT THE ACTUAL F-
basically, I have low BP, like it's a genetic condition I've had my whole entire life and im a very easy fainter. one of my teachers was concerned that I'm lately alot more dizzy lately than usual, and that I can't walk straight, etc (amazing teacher, love her). She tried to apply for me to get a medical class exit card, which basically means no teacher can deny me from leaving the classroom, it's kinda like a get out of jail free card.
anyways, 2 weeks after this, ive already accepted that im not getting my get out of jail free card, I get called in by my head of year and she is trying to find the 'root of my problem' because 'there must be a reason it's getting worse, because it doesn't make sense otherwise' YOU ARE A TEACHER, NOT A DOCTOR DUDE 😭. anyways, she started asking me if I 3at, my stomach DROPPED, but ofc I said yes because I do not plan of r3c0v3ry anytime soon (I'm pro r3c0v3ry don't get me wrong, but I genuinely just can't right now), and then she asked me wieiad and told me to give her a whole run down, and when I got to lunch she said to me 'I can check your canteen balance and I'll call your mum after this conversation' so I couldn't say I ate something from home, or say I got food from the canteen. LUCKILY, I managed to think something up, and said I was really preoccupied running a club (which I actually was) that I completely forgot about lunch, and I said I know it sounds bad but its not often that I do forget. and she said 'I just don't believe you' SORRY DUDE WHAT? and then she starts grilling me about my eating habits like please GIVE IT A REST.
long story short, she's emailing ALL of my teachers to keep an eye on me and report back to her if anything happens with me, which is really sad. oh and I have to do weekly wellbeing checkups.
I don't get what they're trying to achieve with this, I mean I guess it makes me feel slightly more valid in my d1s0rd3r that people are accusing me of it, but that's it.
main problem, I'm not a teachers pet by any means, but I am relatively close with some of my teachers and I JUST KNOW that they will bring it up or keep me after class (for context, I was m0l3sted by a teacher at my skl, but no one ever found out because he was the vice headteacher and if i were to report the situation, i would have to go to him, and that would not be successful whatsoever, and he would always make weird excuses to keep me after class and he'd t0uch my hair, grab the back of my neck, put his hands down the back of my shirt, etc, and so I have a crazy fear of staying after class 😭) and now I'm scared that im going to be kept for so many after class talks (and 3/5 of the teachers I'm close with are male) and I don't want them to figure out that I went through something.
SPECIFICALLY MY PSYCHOLOGY TEACHER BC I SWEAR HE IS SO ATTENTIVE TO DETAIL, he spent the first 6 months that he taught me just keeping me after class to ask me about my mental health, but then he'd just end up talking about how much he hated his ex gf and I found it super odd that he would only talk to me about her (keep in mind he was a new teacher at the time, and he did this from like the second week that id known him), but over time he became slightly more normal (on the very first lesson, he did come up to me and said that he could already make a really good judge of my character because of my pencil case 🤨 which was odd - so it's just at the beginning of his teaching, but he always sits me at the front so we are semi close, but GRRR I HATE MY HEAD OF HOUSE
Ps: sorry this 3d rant kinda became a 'my school is filled with strange teavhers talk 😭
#tw ana bløg#pro for me not thee#34t1ng dis0rder#anabllrr#anadiet#anor3c1a#e4t1ng d1s0rd3r#f4st1ng#light as a feather#ana omad
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I'm sitting everyone down rn so like SB is a mess but for some wack ass reason I got super attached to Gregory- or more like the gregory i remade in my head because I was annoyed at how the in game didn't sound like a kid. ANYWAY he's rotating in my brain now I saw some art an imjust out here like man my boy- and im digging up my little story once again. Gregory's not even his real name LMAO I've thought of a few reasons why one is he just flat out made up a name for himself for fun since he doesn't know his birth name, took it from someone else and is pretending to be them to feel somewhat normal (this kid may or may not be dead NO GREGORY DIDN'T KILL THEM HE WOULD NOT I DO NOT SUBSCRIBE TO THE KILLER GREGORY GRRR!!!!! In my brain if i went with this story line they where kids who lived on the street together but the real Gregory either ended up getting sick and dying with our "Gregory" not being able to help thus causing long lasting guilt or real Gregory got kidnapped in front of our Gregory (and was killed) so our Gregory takes his name an tries to find him either fails or does find him but then BANG BOOM BING finding ur bestie cut into little pieces and rotting would send anyone over the edge so he just <3 forgors <3 forgets it all to cope <3 or third it's his 'english' name that he goes with because people can't fuckin pronounce his hispanic name. He is hispanic in my eyes and you can NOT stop ME I REFUSE!!!!! Not sure about the details though but then again he wouldn't know much about his background anyway. Wasn't really in touch with it, an he's a kid what does any of that matter to him when he's just trying to live day by day?
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a birdie (winter. it's winter) said that you have Opinions about Konig, care to share with the class?
do i? DO I?! *cracks my knuckles and my neck*
my biggest issue with the character is the fandom interpretation of him(like in most characters i like the ppl just dont see dont hear grrr makes me feral). It all stems from the fact that König has social anxiety and as we all know all people who suffer from anxiety are all alike and they are shy people pleasers who pick flowers and blush constantly. These people do not know how anxiety affect people in different ways and that its not a fucking one-size fits all. Shyness is a personality trait and social anxiety is a disorder that affects people on day to day life. This might be a surprise for some people but people with social anxiety might love to interact with other people, but their anxiety prevents them from doing it. The fear of being in front of people and the possibility of being humiliated causes people to stay away and not engage in social situations no matter how much they actually would want to. Social anxiety is NOT a personalty trait stop making it one!!!
König's biography in the game stated: König suffered from severe social anxiety throughout his life, often being bullied during his childhood. At the age of 17, he volunteered for the military./ However, his sniper hood terrified the Urzik hostages who had to be convinced by the rest of his team to follow König to safety.
His bio has also stated: Bullied throughout childhood, König found acceptance only when fighting - an activity in which he excelled./ While the sniper hood concealing his face makes him a terrifying figure. It's rumored what's under that hood is even scarier.
His voicelines do not suggest he's shy at all either. He's exited to get into the action and doesn't hint into any kind of insecurity. He also says things very straight forwardly and doesn't hesitate (though that's most just for the player experience but you can convey a lot of personality from just voicelines and he's nowhere near to a shy or insecure person.)
He certainly does not fit into the normal life due to his enormous size which makes it hard for him to go unnoticed. Him being bullied too feeds into the anxiety and the fear of humiliation. But him joining the military gives a set in stone power structure and certain scripted social situations you follow. He thrives in that kind of environment. He's good at fighting and through that he can feel like he fits in.
The sniper hood may even enforces that experience. Not having to show other's his face helps with the anxiety. It is certainly much easier to face and confront things without a noticeable face. It also helps with the scare factor. Other people are scared of him which means people do not want to confront him.
He's a high ranking military specialist. He does not act like a fucking child like the fandom portrays him. He's violent. He's capable. He's scary and he revels in that.
so tldr: STOP making him be the owo >////< *sweats* im so shy uwu baby ill kill you and your whole fucking family
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hiyaaa i was looking through ur art and was wondering if u could elaborate on why u think prumano would be toxic and evil if they were dating anyone else. 😀 thank youuuu! i <3 ur hcs in case u couldnt tell
hello my loyal prumanohead. it has been literally 2 months since you asked this i am so sorry i did that to you. not even gunna get into what happened my lord anyways okie LETS ANSWER DIS BAD BOY!!!
ANYWAYS OMIGAWD I LOVE PRUMANO SO SO SO see i actually talked all about this with my bruder LMV (user lucianoirlmurdervictim) like an hour ago on minecraft but theyre made for eachother because prussia is too stupid to die from romanos aids and romano is too insane to die from prussias aids. prussia is a terrible boyfriend. hes loud hes direct he doesnt think before he does things and above all he cant fucking take a hint ever hes an idiot he never THINKS but hes always like yay!!! 360 noscope gamer time! hes loud and just constantly parties and has fun no matter what and thats what makes him able to survive romano, an even worse boyfriend. romano is fucking psychotic. that bitch is constnatly on PMS he is an idiot he is a tsundere but a violent and cruel at that. its always his way or the highway and he gets mad at literally everything at all times but see prussua is too fucking stupid to feel damage when romano hurls insults at him and tries to make him die because everyone already does that to prussia so he just goes "DAWWWEEE I LOVE YOU ROMANO CHAN!!! <3" romano to prussia is basically a "nobody can bully you but me" boyfriend except prussia doesnt even think hes being bullied at all so they end up matching perfectly bc prussia's ignorance in relationships acts as an antidote to romanos violence and romanos violence ends up just making him pay attention to prussia at all times and prussias like OMIGAWD HE DIDNT LEAVE ME ON READ OR GHOST ME!!!! 😍😍. i actually think that prumano is really funny because romano wants to be really toxic and evil but is just too stupid to be able to and prussia is too stupid to get trapped by it. like because i wrote a whole prumano bible post before that i assume youve read but to reiterate i think prumano is special together because romano is able to learn the joys of loving instead of only desiring to be loved. because prussia loves him and because he doesnt care abt romanos insanity it feels like an unconditional love and its able to make romano chill out on his desperate need to be a pillow princess (since he doesnt have to fight for it for once) and realize that he enjoys loving prussia too. he wants to be the one who makes prussia smile too. romano learns he desires prussia because he likes seeing him happy too not only because he likes when prussia makes ROMANO happy. i think in most relationships romano has at the core he usually mainly likes people because they like him, not because he really likes them. so because prussia unlocks this true love shit in romano by being a tone deaf idiot whos constantly selfish and clingy to romano even when hes furious, romano gets his possessiveness HARDCORE. since i believe that romano inherently has a possessiveness built in him because yknow hes the fail italy brother mf literally gets NOTHING for his entire life. he dont even get the name italy hes fucking romano rodf. i think romano is very possessive towards prussia even though he constantly tries to kill him and because of that and his general inexpereince in relationships and his tsundereism it mixes together to make him actually have pretty toxic intentions because he genuinely loves prussia. i think hes the type of fella to be like "grrr.... i dont like when prussia is spending so much time with other people... hell no im not gunna tell him i miss him thats some fucking gay shit... i think instead i will punish him everytime he talks to his friends so he'll do that less. yes thats a very normal thing to do." and obviously you can see how that could lead to a super duper toxic relationship all bc romano refuses to communicate and i think in relationships with other people it would end up becoming toxic bc the other person would obviously catch on and become isolated n shit and all the bad shit would happen. but not prussia he built stupid 😍 because prussia doesnt notice when romano is being exceptionally mean to him as a punishment bc he just cant pick things up since hes too wrapped up in his own world. he cant pick up subtle queues from his partner so hes like la de da with romano
and doesnt get manipulated at all to become isolated or anything. plus romanos way of manipulating is fucking stupid and terrible too because he only thinks of trying to pavlovs dog other people to get what he wants or make them think theyre cursed unless they do what he wants without telling them what he wants. so hell punish/curse prussia by like putting spiders in his drinks secretly and thinks to himself "heh. that should teach him. next time hell know he should be only smiling at ME" and prussia just thinks that maybe he should change his name to spider georg after accidentally swallowing the 15 spider in a row. so really. i guess because romanos so incapable at manipulation it wouldnt really be hed be a toxic boyfriend more like just make life insufferable (on top of the fact ur dating romanos personality). so anyways though. i hope this answered ur question idk i kinda rambled abt prumano bc rn its hard to explain the intricucies of how they are perfect for eachother because they are the antidote to eachothers aids. but i hope you get what im sayin here 😍 i think actually prumano is like the mirror evil version of itager, but thats a whole nother post and maybe ill write it if someone asks me or if i feel like it. they make me crazy asf okay i lovee prumano i should write a prumano fanfic romano chan is so crazy hes so #girl they love eachother FOREVER <3
heres a old doodle of italy i did to test a pen. sorry i need to answer this now or else ill never answer it ever so i cannot get up rn and draw prumano or else this ask will be answered probably never 💔
#i also think bc romano can expell his demons onto prussia he never builds up enough anger to actually say n do shit that will hurt him#like as in make prussia wanna kms or genuinely make him feel like he wants to die#he knows where the line is and he always goes right up to it but would never cross it#and prussia only reacts when people cross his line they can get as close and they like and he does nothing so it works out#romano be my possessive king fr#dont even get me STARTED on how he feels about prussias past love with friedrich#ask#hetalia#aph italy#hws italy#prumano#romapru#draws
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