#grief is love with nowhere to go

[elwinged]

to love what is mortal—

unknown / @theblob1958 - the longevity of life and love / @birthmarkmike - A SELECTION FROM THE PRIVATE WORKS OF THE SEAFARER. / Dove Cameron on Instagram / Ellen Bass - The Thing Is / @deheerkonijn & @roselightfairy - rebuild your seawall (brick by brick) / Herbert Mason - Gilgamesh / @hhimringsideblog - The House That Fingon Built / The Haunting of Hill House (2018) / @clothonono - The Diver / @judas-redeemed / Anne Michaels - I Dreamed Again / Julia Gorst / Louise Glück - The Triumph of Achilles / unknown / Fred Chappell - Narcissus and Echo

happiest of happy birthdays, darling xiaohai! i love you a lot❤️

[starwarsgrl77]

[slhsawf]

“Grief is a change we didn’t want.”

— David Kessler

[littledoughty]

Look, the trees are turning their own bodies into pillars

of light, are giving off the rich fragrance of cinnamon and fulfillment,

the long tapers of cattails are bursting and floating away over the blue shoulders

of the ponds, and every pond, no matter what its name is, is

nameless now. Every year everything I have ever learned

in my lifetime leads back to this: the fires and the black river of loss whose other side

is salvation, whose meaning none of us will ever know. To live in this world

you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it

against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go.

“In Blackwater Woods” by Mary Oliver

[happy-mokka]

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just l♥️ve. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent l♥️ve gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just l♥️ve with no place to go.”

Jamie Anderson

[insertsomthinawesome]

@priellan COME GET THE BOY!!! ✨

Some different ideas for how that could go down >:D And me picking something personally self indulgent again asdlfjsdLJSDGLDSJG I wanna see him with a Tangled rapunzel length hair braid... it would be so pretty...

[yea-baiyi]

someone just posted this quote and it just hit me that it wasn’t that nobody loved xie lian after knowing how far he’d fallen and everything he’d done. it was xie lian who was too terrified to lean on them and share what he was going through, or he tried and they didn’t have the full context to understand him, and it just made xie lian feel more alone which made him push them away even more. he had feng xin and mu qing the whole time and they never ever stopped loving him even when they saw him falter and fail. and it wasn’t that hua cheng was unique in loving him anyway but it was hua cheng that happened to be present for all of xie lian’s worst moments and none of it made him love xie lian any less, and hua cheng is not the exception to the rule but the proof that xie lian was always loveable and always deserving and always loved despite despite despite. and after finding hua cheng he opens his heart up to his friends once again and accepts their love back into his life when he had shut it all out for centuries. i am in TEARS rn when i said i can’t think about feng xin and mu qing this is one of the reasons why

[soracities]

"there's a place where you live in me forever, and the moving trucks never come" is one of the most fragile and raw lines I've read in a while. I cried. Thank you.

🤍🤍🤍🤍

[altschmerzes]

Fleabag 2x04 | The Bear 1x08 "Braciole"

[illuminatedquill]

The frost, it looks

Like we've been left in the attic

But you're not here to see

It's just witness-less me

- Mitski, The Frost

[starwarsgrl77]

You have the biggest heart

[bidokja]

i want to slap ye zimu's father but he absolutely fascinates me as a character.

here you have a man who's own upbringing was some of the strictest and most impersonal bullshit, and who views the years where he even slightly broke out of that mold as the brightest, most colorful, most joyous years of his life. and yet here is a man who subjects his own son to the same strict and impersonal upbringing, even after kneeling in front of his wife's grave and saying that he understood her wish. that he understood that she wanted their child to be whoever he wants to be.

why? was he lying? did he give up? did his bitterness overcome his determination? is that why he raised their son like that? is that why he was so strict? so hurtful and cold and neglectful? why did he do that, when he said he "understood"?

multiple reasons. complicated reasons. simple reasons. even if he can no longer bring himself to love his own son, even if ye zimu only reminds him of his wife's death...ye zimu will always be the son loved by the woman he loves. and he wants nothing more than to fulfill her wish for their child. so why? it boils down to this: raising ye zimu that way was the only way he knew how to make zimu into a person strong enough to do whatever he wants in life. raising him like that was the only method he knew of to grant her wish for their son.

if you understand that, then you can understand everything about ye zimu's father.

does that make him right, or justified, or good? no. it makes him human. and the fact of the matter is that his efforts alone weren't enough. the fact is that his efforts tied ye zimu down more than anything. and just like he needed his wife to help him realize he was strong enough to break his mold, ye zimu needed ling chen and their friends. in the end ye zimu did choose his own path. once his father saw him doing that, and finally standing up to him, that's when he felt ye zimu could be whoever he wanted to be. and that's when he cut ye zimu off. his wife's last wish was fulfilled. his job was done.

[gothamstreetcat]

you guys, it really fucks me up how after everyone discovers lilah, the entire time wesley is just sitting there so melancholy. he's literally staring at lilah almost the entire time and the only thing that pulls him out of it was the suggestion of destroying her body at the notion that she would turn. all he knows at that point is that he just witnessed watching the love of his life die and he is so fucked up about it.

[hellaephemeral]

no me seeing this and thinking of losing my f cat 😭😭😭

[unionizedwizard]

alright alright i will. i will find a therapist and ask them to teach me how to Experience Feelings. you remember feelings right (no i don't)

[crescenthistory]

Hi there darling. I don't know if you're comfortable/want to talk about this here, but I saw your posts mentioning loss and funerals and just wanted to offer my deepest condolences. Please know my heart is with you ❤️ I'm sure you have received many of these, but I just wanted to send you some love just in case. Someone advised me to ask if you wanted to talk about your loved ones? Or how you're feeling with the grief? If so, know that your page is not just a safe space for us but for YOU too. Please talk to us if you think it would help you ❤️❤️❤️ Sorry if this feels invasive, I hope you're doing alright.

oh baby, this was just the sweetest message. don't apologise, i understand your sentiment and wholly appreciate it -- thank you so much 🤍🫂

i have received quite a few beautiful messages of condolences and love, that i again want to thank everyone for<33 i am open about my grief as i am with most things, but i haven't responded to any of them publicly because i don't want to suddenly flood everyone's timeline with grief and death and terribleness lol. but since you're asking active questions, i want to give you a proper answer. i can explain a bit under the cut, because i don't want you to have to worry<3

11 days ago my best friend's little sister (who was also my friend) passed at 20 years old. 7 days ago my aunt passed at 47 years old. it is of course absolutely tragic, but we are a a very sick family, so i am unfortunately used to and well-adjusted to grief. i only have 22 remaining family members in total (which i am incredibly grateful for of course, but considering my wife has 37 cousins, i am aware it's quite little) and over the past three years, i have lost 14 friends and family. four of these have been within the last two months. this is not to say it's okay or anything, just to give you some perspective that i will be fine. same procedure, same strategies, i have tackled it before.

i am of course a poet at heart and have never been normal about anything, so i will talk to the moon and write in my journals and cry, as i always have. but i will be alright ❤️❤️❤️

one of the hardest things about this specific loss is seeing my best friend broken down over his sister. if there is one loss i could never recover from, one loss i have told everyone that i will have to be institutionalized after, it is my baby siblings. so i cannot imagine.

additionally, she passed from the same condition i have. it's a somewhat severe autoimmune disease and this poor girl unfortunately caught the flu and was dead within the week. while i know that i am at high risk and won't live past the age of 60, it has been rough for me (and especially my wife) to get such a harsh reality check. perhaps a bit of a selfish perspective, but it impacts my grieving process nonetheless. i'm not scared i will die tomorrow or anything -- it's just something to sit with and give space for 🤍

thank you so much for your love darling, i hope you know what a great person you are<3 sending hugs