#grandiose delusions

[psychotic-system-culture-is]

Psychotic System Culture is...

Being told you're likely a "symptom holder" for psychosis due to "delusions of grandeur"... whatever that means

[toweringclam]

Harrow Nova's mental illness

Harrowhark's mental illness is such a vital part of her character and I think any AU that doesn't address that is Doing It Wrong. However, under different circumstances, her issues would likely manifest in different ways. But how? As is, it's somewhat difficult (by design) to pin down what exactly her delusions are, since most of them have some material support in the story, and I think that's very important to Harrow Nova.

Basically, everything she sees and believes should have enough support in the story itself that it becomes difficult or even impossible to truly separate what is true from what isn't. Vibes only here. Like does Harrowhark have a truly special relationship with Alecto? Probably not, actually. Alecto loves everyone, and she loves with teeth. That sort of thing.

So what are Harrow Nova's delusions? Granted we're working with a very tiny sample here but I think the answer is clear:

Grandeur, manifesting as being chuuni as fuck.

Chuunibyo ("eighth grade syndrome" in Japanese) is often seen as a punchline. Kids who think they can throw fireballs or give themselves more heroic epithets than Achilles are funny, right? Well...what if they're serious? Most kids know it's fake and are just trying to be cool, but what if they actually believed it? Based their whole life around it? It happens, it's not good, and mocking them online is NOT HELPING. (It's not funny, stop it)

But think of the tone of Chapter 40 with that in mind. Read it with the knowledge there are two different layers of unreliable narrator. Try looking at it from another character's perspective. The weird little gremlin got out of her cage and is now swinging around a pelvis on a chain, calling it a holy relic. Worse, she's somehow got her hands on a sword. She declares herself with a bunch of titles and challenges the Cavalier to a duel. He draws to defend himself, and everyone scolds him.

This is normal for Harrow. It's probably an escalation, but no one acts like it's her fault. They react with pity, not scorn.

So while mainline Harrowhark developed religious and persecutory delusions due to her station, Harrow Nova developed grandiose delusions from hers. From talking to people who suffer from grandiose delusions, they can actually serve as a defense mechanism. The world is cruel, but if you're The Special, you WILL get through this.

Is that actually the Chain of Samael? It could be. Does it have any special powers? Probably not, but maybe. WE know the creche slaughter happened, and she thinks it did, but wouldn't it be in Priamhark and Pelleamena's best interest to try to gaslight her on that? Is she officially a cavalier secondary? Is she even that good a fighter or do people just not want her to hurt herself?

From her perspective, it's moot. This is her reality. Those are questions for Gideon's perspective.

[collie-horse]

Angel delusion coming back. Been awhile maybe since August? Can feel base of my wings. Now I'm a angel collie I guess.

[glaufxgarland]

Music dedicated to global prophets, saviors, organizations, corporations / corporatocracy and politicians around the globe. Grandiose delusions are a symptom of an underlying mental health disorder. People who experience these delusions are convinced of their own greatness and importance, and they will resist any attempts to persuade them they are mistaken.

[church-of-echoes]

Being psychotic and nonhuman does not make you any less valid.

You are so loved.

I have Bipolar I with Psychotic features. I experience psychosis alongside being nonhuman. And sometimes my thought patterns are irrational, the way I act can be strange.

BUT. That does not mean that I am any less nonhuman because I deal with a condition I cannot control necessarily. My brain processes things differently than other people.

I know I am not human. I never will be. My mental illness does not stop me from being nonhuman.

Those with psychotic features, psychosis or are clinically insane who are nonhuman. Those with Bipolar disorder of any kind, including cyclothymia who are nonhuman. Those who experience a different reality. Those who deal with delusions or hallucinations who are nonhuman.

I see you. I feel you.

You are just as therian, just as otherkin or just as nonhuman as the rest of the community. Your identity is valid.

[alienorchids]

BLAM HONEY - Grandiose Delusion

EXOC-0012

1998

[uncanny-tranny]

Something you start noticing is that people who hold delusional or "incoherent" beliefs have reasons for believing them that you might understand. There's this idea that delusional people or people who otherwise hold "out-there" views just... come up with them on a whim, but that isn't always the case. I find that when people start assuming that delusional beliefs come from nowhere, they think that they're really easy to just "snap out of," and it doesn't work like that.

You might not understand why somebody believes in something, but knowing that it is for a reason can remind you that they aren't being antagonistic. There is already a lot going on. The least you can do is understand where the person is coming from and offer compassion, not judgment.

[little-songbird-sings]

The Broadway version of hadestown makes it really feel like eurydice is like. bullying a mentally ill man who got left in the washer

[boyczar]

I am very sick of the notion that codependents are empathetic people. Codependents are extremely narcissistic in terms of their goals and behaviors. (Narcissistic, not saying they all have NPD, though some of them certainly do.) You are not an “empath”. You are not even in touch with your own feelings, you are simply hyper-vigilant, and often times your fight, flight, freeze, and especially fawn responses, are extremely off-putting and uncomfortable to even a slightly more well-adjusted person. I believe codependents and even Cluster B’s are capable of (total, not impaired) empathy, but only after reversing toxic patterns of relationship behavior. This, however, is in no way their FAULT. I would not say that being codependent or someone with any Cluster B personality disorder (who all have narcissistic traits) is in any way that person’s FAULT. But it unfortunately is their responsibility now. I do not view this relational style (of codependency or narcissistic) as unfixable or irreversible. I would argue that every single person who is codependent or has a Cluster B PD one hundred percent has C-PTSD. (There are people with C-PTSD who have done more healing work and do not fall into these categories but that’s not who I’m talking about.) If you are codependent or are in Cluster B, you have sustained significant trauma, most likely from your parents, and you now have a warped idea of healthy and acceptable communication. You most likely have sustained a thousand little cuts from them while growing up. Being belittled, shamed, degraded, devalued, discarded, threatened, ignored, neglected, silenced, and deemed completely unworthy of genuine love. That is unacceptable and even unforgivable in some cases. I would never condone that. I wish you healing forever.

But this trauma has created a shame core at the center of your self concept, causing you to set off on a lifelong journey to try to feel good about yourself, rather than actually give or receive love. I am sorry that this is harsh and blunt, I mean it with all compassion and understanding. I have been codependent myself and have struggled to be direct with people in the past out of fear and I became an enabler of some really terrible behavior. I was terrible myself. I was (unintentionally) manipulative, as are all codependents. I was selfish when I should have been brave enough to tell those around me what my intuition was warning me of (that we were all falling down a bad path.) I do not like who I was. It was not my fault but it is my responsibility to continue the forever journey of gathering self-awareness and growing. I am not done and I hope I never tire of learning how to be better. I hope you can take something away from this. I’m sorry I’m all over the place, I have a lot of thoughts and I’m over seeing codependent and narcissistic behavior continuing to be the norm. This is not from a self-righteous place, I most definitely have work to do, truly for the rest of my life, I just wanted to speak about the patterns I have noticed since starting to dismantle my own trauma and toxic patterning. I wish you all well.

[flock-of-cassowaries]

Something just clicked for me about Hannibal’s calculations attempting to reverse time.

I always kind of brushed it off as a nod to magical realism, which isn’t really my thing; but it just occurred to me that it can also be read as a very clear indication of Hannibal’s level of grandiosity, and his incomplete connection to reality.

It’s easy to overlook that aspect of him, because the narrative tends to very much let him be that good at almost everything; but that’s some not-entirely-normal* shit going on there.

*Maybe it’s normal if you’re twelve? Or maybe I was just a nightmarishly grandiose 12-year-old. 1997 was a very specific time in my life, is what I’m saying.

The idea of Hannibal’s emotional frailty and dysfunction fascinates me; not necessarily in a woobifying way (I hope), but in a “The things you think make you strong and indomitable are actually just kind of pathetic” way.

I’ve definitely know people whose ethos for going through life was “never show weakness and make sure everyone is afraid of you”, and that’s kind of one way to read Hannibal.

And it’s certainly easier to think about Hannibal in the abstract than it is to think about the real person (my dad), so… a blorbo is born.

[piratebay]

experienced delusion rationalization yesterday at [redacted]

my relationship with organized religion is Normal (lying)

[ken-katayanagi]

I wouldn’t say to diagnose urself with autism bc u related to some funny relatable autism text posts but if ur relating to a lot of npd memes and posts it might be worth it to checked out for the simple fact of:

Autism post: Me when I be stimming,,,,and by that I mean,,, striaght jorking it.

NPD post: I have thoughts of deep seated violence as fantasies and lack typical empathy responses KACOW!!!

[antisocialxconstruct]

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[jirainokei]

whwre r my psychotic jirais at!!!

[alienorchids]

BLAM HONEY, 1998

[teledyn]

Chibi Godzilla Raids Again // S2E1 - "Shin Chibi Godzilla"

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