#grad feelings ig
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oh apparently i won an award
#i thought i was just there for the honors program and music honors society#but apparently i got the award for ourstanding academic achievement in the dept of music theory history and composition#i feel weird. idk#not about the award just. in general.#grad feelings ig#i wanna talk about me
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#fe lukas#fe echoes lukas#fe 15 lukas#sov lukas#i miss my wife tails#i miss him a lot#i feel like i havent drawn lukas in forever so i decided to be extra about it#i need more lukas art in my life but I've been too busy and/or tired to search for some in the lukas tag#i almost didnt give him freckles again but#cmon#freckles#im mad that his expression is so mid tho it was supposed to be somewhat tired and sad i just cant draw ig#oh well i popped off on the lighting this time#anyway#someone go out and draw more lukas please i want to see him#i probably wont post until next year tbh#got 11 grad school applications to complete and when those are done it'll be time for finals#*disappears back into the void*
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feels so weird to think about how i’d be graduating w/ a masters rn if i hadn’t dropped out
#bella.txt#i didn’t keep in touch w/ anyone from my cohort except for like 3 ppl i follow on ig#and they’re posting grad pics rn#feels weird 😵💫
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suddenly thinking about this one time an old friend and i asked what instrument the other played and when i said piano he told me that he didn't bother learning it because it was too easy for anyone to learn. why the fuck did i put up with that LMAO
#like ok! this was important to me i was literally assessed for it as part of my high school final grad exams but that effort was a waste ig#DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU YOUR INSTRUMENT IS TOO EASY!! IT'S A LIE!!!#sadgeposting#<- new tag for negative rambles feel free to block bc this blog is my diary
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addkfjfkdldldkdjjfkdkd!!!!
#i might have a crush on the guy who confessed his feelings to me in april 😐#idk when it started but today was his grad and his family and friends were there and taking photos and i met his parents who are so sweet#and funny and omgoodness his younger brother is so adorable#ig bc i’ve been talking to my friends about it for some time and they always tease me esp when they see the two of us interact and play#around bUT IDK?!!!! IM SO CONFUZZLED#i feel like liz in pride and prejudice when she’s trying to figure out her feelings for mr. darcy#like do i like him or do i like the attention he gives me bc HE likes ME?#and here’s what’s getting me i can mess around and try and figure this out bc experimenting with someone else’s feelings just to figure out#my own isn’t only unethical it’s just mean and hurtful and i could never do that to anyone let alone a friend#soooo idk mehn i’ll see if my heart goes ba-dum the next time i see him#vk overshares in the tags
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woke up to a very nice AO3 comment this morning, which helped me get some energy and got me a bit out of my continuing depression fatigue™ funk. With today's minor level energy I managed to clean my bedroom, the bathrooms, my laundry and my linens. My desk is also 75% cleaned off. Plus I finally re-opened my application for grad school. Go me; major accomplishment day actually!
#margaret babbles#now to go through with the grad school app#and to put up my artwork which i haven't put back up since I refinished my room over the summer-fall whoops!#lots of other stuff I also have to do#maybe i need to make more lists tomorrow morning... hmmmmm#personal bs#remembered that i definitely need to respond to JB's work email#writing that down now so i don't forget again#also need to send my friend her thank you note in the mail tomorrow its all stamped addressed and ready to go#im feeling ready to do shit now#not wishing for a lobotomy anymore so that's nice ig
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i’ll admit i haven’t listened to taz since the end of ethersea s1 n im lowkey holding on for ethersea s2 until i go back. n i do feel bad sometimes for wondering if ppl listen to the newer campaigns bc i rarely see ppl talk abt them
#alli says shit#like ig it’d be different if i followed the tag but#it feels like ppl mostly listened to balance n amnesty#and maybe grad#like i loved grad but it feels like i never see ppl talk abt it#it could be the circles i’m in but i guess they’re less mainstream#idk. maybe i’m missing out on the tag vs d stan’s#i’ll admit i tried steeplechase but blades in the dark is so unfamiliar to me that i couldn’t really get into it#i am curious to know if it’s just the effect of tumblr being a lil insular in what u choose to engage with
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my silly little diary is not enough i need to broadcast my distress to the world (my mutuals 😘😘)
#i graduate on friday and i feel like i’m supposed be excited#or feel accomplished#or something#but all i can feel is utter dread and despair#and i fear it will not end after the ceremony#in which case…when will it end#whenever i get accepted into grad school ig lol#but the aimlessness is killing me the uncertainty is unbearable#i do not know how to exist unproductively#augh#auggh#meowing and yammering#jeez it’s been so long since i’ve used that tag it didn’t even pop up when i typed it in lol
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heard some of you liked furry opera characters
#art and soul#don giovanni#leporello#donna elvira#i finally settled on a fursona for her. iberian lynx#feels Right#anyway sorry the photos suck. lighting is probably appropriate for the level of cringe on display here#there were more sketches than this but they weren't successful enough for posting.#one of these was on the back of my fucking isorythmic motet notes. because that's a normal thing to do when you're in grad school ig
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its weird being in the partner/friend servers sometimes bc prd is 23 and i am 19 and i have friends irl who are older but it still seems almost like. weird? ig? bc shes talking abt drinking as smth shes been able to do for 2 years and i still have over a year before i can legally drink. so like
#idk like im def not as mature as some of his other partners#im literally a sophomore in college and i think pea is a grad student#and hes been dating all of them longer than hes even known me#so sometimes i just feel. out of place#ig thats the term id use#like im quite obviously on a lower rung here#and i dont think they all like me#which kinda sucks. bc i rlly do try#ive basically given up on sending any messages in there anymore#unless its like. to compliment someone else#if i can just make them see me as someone who is nice then i will survive#idk. i should go shower.
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Baldurs Gate 3 sure looks cool but jesus christ computers are expensive. Where do yall get the money to buy PC rigs im out here barely maintaining a laptop I bought 6 years ago
#like i could get a used ps5 in september ig#but like... what else am i gonna play#at least a pc could also help me at grad school running phylogenetics analyses#but do i LOOK like i have a thousand dolalrs just laying around?#everything is so expensive#not to mention i should be saving up for a car#i feel like im fragmenting my soul for money working at a fast food joint full time and the money isnt even enough#not enough for a fun little distraction id only get like 2 hours a day to play
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window shopping on linkedin
#all the internships i like mention needing to be familiar with tiktok whyyyyy#also they’re all based in the us omfg i dont wanna go there#remote but in the us would be okay ig bcs then i have an excuse to move to vancouver lmao#i wanna move so baddddddd i hate being stuck in the same country for years i wanna go places !!!!!#remote in the us from ams would be quite difficult lol and london is too expensive i fear#also i wanna leave europe so my mom cannot come visit me <3 i love her but i feel too coddled if she’s always here for. e#i like being in danger and taking risks 🤷🏻♀️#ill fix up my cv so i can start looking next year bcs i need to grad first#maybe i’ll eve
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mischief mode activated
#vent#actually borderline#i’m starting to feel grief start to creep in#and i hate it#it literally hurts#like in my gut#i just hate that mom didn’t make it to 2023#i wish she was here#ig it just sucks knowing she won’t know anything abt my life#she won’t be there when i graduate or when i go to grad school#she won’t be there for my first gig with my band#she won’t be there for when i get the big promotion at work#it’s just difficult to process the fact that she’s really gone
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you are in love - Masterlist
PAIRING: tfawts!bucky x grad student!reader
Summary: Moving to NYC to go to grad school, your friend's dad has a connection with the owner of a rental building in Brooklyn where you can live on your own, for cheaper than you could get anywhere else. On a student's budget, you strive to still make your place your own by thrifting as much decor as possible. Meeting your quiet and somewhat secretive neighbor, James, you gain some free labor to help you move the random stuff you buy, and with that he may be growing to love parts of the modern world he has been missing. With you in a big, new city feeling alone for the first time and Bucky wanting to make a connection with someone other than Sam and his therapist, maybe online marketplaces and a turntable will bring you both what you need most.
Warnings: beefy!bucky, injury, mild language, mentions of crime, a bit of angst, eventual smut (MINORS DNI) , kind of slow burn ig, overwhelming fluff tbh
a/n: this will be a multi-part series and I will try my very best to upload regularly, not sure how many parts that will be so there's only a few placeholders for now, but it will definitely be a bit of a longer fic! im currently in college AND working so this is a passion project <3 I'd love to hear your feedback, my asks are always open! the chapters are also all based on lyrics from Taylor Swift's You Are In Love, one of my favorite love songs of all time. hope you all enjoy!!!
one - one look, dark room
two - meant just for you
three - time moved too fast
four - you play it back
TBC
#bucky fic#Bucky Barnes fic#bucky barnes fanfiction#bucky x reader#bucky x you#james buchanan barnes#bucky barnes#winter soldier#the winter soldier#bucky barnes x reader#bucky x female reader#bucky barnes x reader series#bucky barnes x female reader#james bucky barnes
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do you have any advice for trying to build/find a community? i’m autistic with pretty severe social anxiety and haven’t had friends since grade 5 (i’m 29 now). i don’t work atm and didn’t go to college due to ‘mental illness’ or whatever. i’m really clueless about how to find a support system or even make a friend but it sure would be beneficial right now i think
sure! a great way to start is to get on some of your local facebook pages, or even nextdoor - it can be a shitty place for neighborhood karens, but at least my local page has people talking about free stuff they're leaving on the curb, someone whose grandma needs a ride, a bake sale at the school, and even meetups dependent on age/interest/etc.
some more ideas, starting w the obligatory: GO TO THE LIBRARY! they have so much centralized info there. there is probably a book club, there is probably some kind of volunteer sign-up sheet. there are probably bored librarians who can help you find other stuff. at least in my area, there are also fairly regular non-university-affiliated things (i live in a college town) at local bars, cafes, and art spaces/studios - check to see if there are any local IG pages posting about these events. that's how i found out about a bunch of mine. libraries have events, too, as do local bookstores, and they're almost always free.
the suggestions i'm throwing out all have basically the same goal: mix with people you haven't met before. building bonds takes time, and the process only starts when you and someone else say hello to one another. you don't have to be besties ever. you don't necessarily have to stay close. but knowing one person who maybe likes the same book as you, or shares some other interest, leads to more people, and soon you know someone who has a car, someone who has an extra ironing board, someone who can host a get-together in their yard because everyone else is a renter. support systems aren't found. they're not easy or inevitable. they're built through collective engagement and practice! and they start, generally, by happenstance, when people put themselves in each others' way.
when i moved here alone in 2020, i met some of my now-closest friends not primarily through grad school events (which didn't happen bc of lockdowns and such) but through going to the park and saying hi outdoors; stocking food in our local free fridges, and meeting tinder-friend dates masked, 6 ft apart in random public places. we kept doing that and our relationships strengthened, as they do. these days, i meet people through the friends i have - through shared classes back when i was in coursework, through organizing/union stuff and volunteering, through the occasional social event i just kinda show up at and hope for the best. there's a degree of inertia to this stuff - it gets smoother the more you do it!
you are *NOT* the only person around you who needs a friend. i promise. people are really lonely and often scared to admit it, and this is a great time to connect with people who also feel the urgency of community + anxiety around making it happen.
#hope this helps it's basically my cheat codes for the past 5 years (i.e. my time as an adult no longer at a residential undergraduate inst)#ask#anonymous#world healing#community
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Hi! I wanted to ask a question and I wasn’t sure if it was too personal or not so just ignore this is you’d rather not answer, but I was wondering if you went to art school or got a degree in it? I really want to start learning and maybe one day start a career in animation and wasn’t sure whether I should spend time and resources getting a degree. I know it’s going to be different for everybody and nothings a guarantee for this field but since I love your style and technical skill I was curious whether you had done that and what were your thoughts on it or if you are self-taught.
Hey anon! No worries it's all good!
Ig I should quickly go through my art journey so you can have an overall look of why I went to art school lol.
So I'm from Vietnam. I think back in 2013 I went to a small art school in Singapore (they were the only one that gave me a scholarship). My major was 3D modeling actually, but during my final year, I realized I only wanted to draw characters for animation. I could already draw decently, so I just read The Silver Way book and built a character design portfolio on my own during this time. I was lucky I got a job as a concept artist at a small animation studio there so I learned a lot from the job. I also did a lot of self-learning and took Woulter Tulp's Expressive Character class on Schoolism.
Then after 3-ish years of working, I got sick of the tiny and dying animation industry in Singapore. I wanna do sth more than just preschool shows and I was severely underpaid lmao. So I quit my job and took the MA VisDev program at AAU. It's a little more affordable cuz u can do 1 year online and the second year on-site. The reason I went to this school even tho i could just take a VisDev class online was cuz i need the visa so i can try to break into the industry in the US.
Now back to your question. Is art school a must? No. Should you still take it? Maybe, depends on your situation. If you can afford it then hell yeah by all means. Art school is great cuz you have professors and peers to help guide you along the way so you won't get lost while trying to figure out your shit. And to have a few years just experimenting and focusing on art is a great experience. Plus you can make a lot of meaningful connections in school and it will help you a long way after you grad. But if you have to go into debt to go to art school, then don't. There are places like Schoolism, CGMA, and Warrior Art Camp where you can pick what class and from whom you wanna learn. If you are not from the US and wanna break into the industry here like me however, then yeah getting a degree is a better bet cuz you can use the student visa and OPT to hopefully get a job here (it's still very very hard tho ngl im struggling rn as we speak lmao). Also, you need a BA to work overseas so there's that too. The hard truth is studios prefer to hire locally than some rando from somewhere else and have to wait for them to relocate and shit, (unless you are exceptionally good and they'd do anything to have you, but that is super rare lol).
Even though I did go to art school, I have to say most of my skills are from self-study. It requires a lot of self-discipline but I'm pretty much obsessed with drawing and I draw everyday so it's not a problem for me. But my friend is not good at that, so she found art school/classes helped her better cuz there are deadlines and instructors to help guide her to reach her goal. So it depends on your learning style tbh.
There is this chart that can help you consider your options. Im sorry it's a very long answer, cuz yes everyone's experience is different. Feel free to drop me another ask if you still have anymore questions tho ^^
Edit: I must also add, though there are online classes and ways to self-learn animation,I do think it only truly benefit you if you know exactly what you wanna do in this industry (for example I already knew i wanna become a character designer for 2d/3D animation specifically so any books/classes i took I tailored it to fit my goal). If you are unsure what you wanna do, then maybe even a cheap animation course will do better, and then you can take extra online classes on the side.
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