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your opinion on manifestation?
I have a manifesting journal, I follow a few subreddits and twitters, and I’ve watched and read some literature, but for me, the most important thing is having a plan. If I’m writing something in my manifestation journal, I’m making a plan. I don’t think I’ve ever just written about wanting something with no plans to get it; if I’m writing, I’m making the first steps down the path of success and charting my journey. I’m someone who knows what she wants, and if I know what I want, I’m going to make sure that I get it.
I have a boyfriend now; it wasn’t hard to meet him. I wrote in my journal that I wanted one before I started university, wrote down the qualities and traits he should have, met the right guy on the first day, and made it official after a few months. I know what I want —> I’m going to get it. It’s as simple as that. When I still wasn’t sure of him but knew I wanted a relationship, I made a list of 20 social events I’d go to in order to meet more people and find potential dates.
My dream sorority was ΚΚΓ; I’m a major Meghan Markle fan, and her sorority is very prestigious and would have given me access to parts of life I’d never experienced before. I literally googled “how to get into Kappa," wrote down all of the knowledge I’d acquired, reached out to the sisters on Insta, went on one COB date, and was offered a bid. I know I’m good at making friends, so why agonize when I could actively pursue what I wanted? Again, as soon as I know what I want, I feel able to chase after it and get it.
I wanted an internship; my goal was to be in Europe for the entirety of the summer. I got my manifestation journal out, made a list of programs to apply to, gathered my documents, and did just that. Fully funded and furnished accommodation, a job with decent pay, I won’t be working insane hours, my contract is perfect for me, and I’ll be in the right area of town. All it took was me deciding I wanted something, writing it in my journal, working to get it, and then signing my name on the dotted line.
In my eyes, manifestation without serious action is useless. You have to actively want to change your life, and you must work for what you want. Do I believe that some people are lucky? Absolutely, but the vast majority of us are not the luckiest girls in the world; we have to work hard and make things work for ourselves. If you want something, you need to be willing to put yourself out there to get it and document your journey there so that you know you’re capable of doing it again.
#richarlotte x#hypergamy#leveling up advice#leveling up tips#hypergamy advice#hypergamy tips#hypergamous heaux#hypergamous woman#black women in leisure#black women in luxury#spoiled black women#spoiled heaux#spoiled gf#spoiled girlfriend#hypergamous mindset#hypergamyblr#hypergamy journey#hypergamous#leveled up black woman#leveled up woman#leveling up journey#leveled up mindset#leveling up#high society advice#high society tips#social climbing#becoming an it girl#becoming her#becoming that girl#it girl journey
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Trust Me Okay?
Whew, whoever told Chantel Williams about Andre really blew up his life before he was ready. Hopefully, it doesn't ruin anything...hopefully
Transcript under the cut~
Sebastian: Can you please please PLEASE make chicken alfredo pasta tonight? I’m really really REALLY craving it
Andre: No.
Sebastian: Why!?!
Andre: You can make that yourself.
Sebastian: Okay, fine. I can’t make steaks can you make that then? With mashed potatoes and veggies on the side
Andre: You’re always so demanding. I cook at work then I gotta come home and cook for you too?
Sebastian: PLEASE!!! We have the weekend off and when I do cook it never taste the same!
Andre: Being your roommate is tedious
Sebastian: I’m taking that as a yes! Let’s go to the farmers market!
Andre: *tsk* You’re exhausting
Sebastian: Stop acting like you don’t enjoy my energy! If it weren’t for me you’d be cooped up inside all day!
Andre: Yea, yea, yea whatever you say
Sebastian: Oh! We should also stop by the flea market and see if anything cool is there
Andre: *deep negro sigh* Alright.
*Paparazzi's Comments Start*
ANDRE! ANDRE!
ANDRE! ANDRE!
WHAT ABOUT YOUR YOUNGER SIBLINGS
WHY WERE YOU DISOWNED?
DOES YOUR FATHER DO WHERE YOU LIVE
ARE YOU NO LONGER GOING TO RUN THE VILLAREAL EMPIRE?!?
*Paparazzi's Comments End*
Andre: No Comment!
Sebastian: Andre whats going on? What are they talking about?!?
Andre: Bash let's go back home
Sebastian: Im scared Andre...how did they know my name?! How do they know you?!
Andre: Lets go upstairs first. We’ll talk about it later
Sebastian: But...
Andre: Lets go!
Sebastian: Andre please tell me what's going on! Why the hell are there paparazzi outside our building? How do they even know my name?! Where we live! and what the fuck is a Villereal ?!
Andre: Its complicated Bash but I need you to calm down.
Sebastian: How can you say that!? This is terrifying! I'm scared!
Sebastian: I’m ju-
Andre: Sebastian. I need you to calm down and listen to me.
Andre: I told you its going to be okay. Get changed and we’ll talk
Sebastian: Okay...
Andre: You trust me?
Sebastian: Of course.
Andre: I won’t do anything to harm you. Just get changed and we’ll talk. Okay?
Sebastian: Okay.
Sebastian: “Villarreal”...that’s a really wealthy family back in Windenburg right?
Andre: How are you feeling now...
Andre: Yes...
Sebastian: They own almost all the major real estate in Windenburg...google said that they come from old money...
Andre: Not that old... but yea...
Sebastian: Jesus.
Andre: Bash listen I didn’t mean to lie. I swear, It’s complicated but my father isn’t the greatest person and I had siblings to protect...I just...Its complicated
Sebastian: We’ve been roommates for so long...You’ve been lying for so long...You...You...
Sebastian: That doesn’t tell me anything or explain why you lied to me for so long...
Sebastian: If the paparazzi didn’t show up at our door would you have even told me? Would I have come home one day to find all your stuff gone?
Andre: That would never happen Bash. I always planned on telling you...just after I sorted everything out
Sebastian: I don’t even know what to say...my mind is going crazy. People know where I live, my name, and what I look like! They’re calling me all sorts of things online...how can I even go to work like this?
Andre: I will handle it. Stay off the internet for now but believe me when I say it will be dealt with
Sebastian: Im scared Andre...this is scary for me
Andre: I know and I'm sorry.
Andre: It's going to be okay. Just trust me.
Sebastian:...Okay
#sims 4#sims 4 screenshots#sims#thereevesfamily#black simblr#ts4 screenshots#ts4 screenies#ts4 simblr#ts4 stories#black simmer#the sims 4#simblr
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how do I keep going through baldygate regions completely bassackwards
#in act one I got into the underdark the unconventional way and did like... All Of It before ever even going to the goblin camp#in act 2 I was doing what I THOUGHT was *an* important plot zone but not THE important plot zone#until I got to the end and the game was basically like 'hey this might. change stuff. make sure you're ready'#google: what should I do before I do this#internet: literally everything??? this is the END of the main plot#YELLS. OH OKAY. apparently someone in the area I THOUGHT would be The Endline is supposed to send you here agdhfldhsk WELL... I FOUND IT IDK#very halsin going 'well I suggest investigating the underdark. there are legends of [thing] there'#and me being like 😶 was I not supposed to have. already done all that. hm#about me#bg3
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edit: btw it is not safe to wear contacts in the shower! the option is included for accuracy, but please consider throwing on an old pair of glasses or just going blind into that wet box instead.
#this is NORMAL BEHAVIOR . its IMPORTANT to SEE in there. what if there are clowns or killers.#to be clear. all my soaps and liquids are very different shapes and identifying them is not a concern. its the terror of the unknown#edit: btw im not trying to convert anyone. but i am gonna shotgun more concerns:#facewashing: you hold the glasses in your hands (the arm between your fingers.) or you set them down for a little bit#the fog: this is a non issue /srs. i rinse them down before i do the rest so they don't fog up#the water: my lenses might be water repellent? idk. the drops that remain are small and unobtrusive#the hard water damage: again this is a non issue. the water where i live is not that hard. id be washing them in the water anyways#drying droplets: i wipe them with a glasses cloth after i get out of the shower#i do not care that you guys dont wear your glasses but i DO think you should google how to clean glasses before#telling everyone very confidently that getting them wet is?? bad for them??? clean your glasses dude
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@glowweek Day 5 FAMILY | FRIENDS
Peridot and specially Lapis do not trust the racoons.
Specifically chose this angle so I don't draw feet. _(:,3」∠)_
Mi own connverse kids Ebony and Rohini are there! And technically Sakura and Zachary. (Please until now I don't know what else to name them. 😭)
And sorry the older Maheswarans aren't there. I don't know where to put them and I already had character overload. 😞
Hibiscus print on Bismuth's shirt is from ManMadeOfGold!
Speaking of shirt, another thing I avoided was thinking of their outfit designs. 😅 It's somewhere a little over a decade of timeskip since SU:Future and I'm sure at least one or two would've reformed during the time. So I'm gonna say they wanted to keep the vibe of a casual outdoors picnic-type event so they wore the casual themes.
#Still ..Honestly got lost on what to do with Bismuth and Pearl's forms. First tried to give the button up shirt she had in Bismuth casual#but it didn't look casual enough.... So I made it into a Hawaiian shirt. 😅#I ACTUALLY ended up Googling 'Mom casual summer outfit' lol and grabbed the first I saw as base..... I still managed to kinda make it#look... eh. But I already spent so much time on her. Sorry Pearl. 😞#I mean. In contrast I gave Garnet the super simple white shirt and loose pants. But like... She already looked so darn good imo. So I#just left it at that before I ruined it.#connverse#connverse week#glowweek#Bismuth SU#Ebony OC#Lapis Lazuli SU#Peridot SU#Garnet SU#Connie Maheswaran#Pearl SU#Amethyst SU#Greg Universe#Steven Quartz Universe#Rohini OC#Lion SU#Yeah. I'm late and the last two will most likely be super late as in around past the GlowWeek week. 😅#..... Guys..... I just realized ... There should be the rest of Greg's body visible. RIPPppp sorry I'm not going back to fix anything. 😭😭#Possible backstory of Lapis and Peri and raccoon:#https://www.tumblr.com/screwpinecaprice/141991576032/i-just-thought-it-would-be-really-funny-because-i#connverse kid#Gold TL
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What if I straight up didn't explain myself? What if I just said trust me on this? Would you?
#fe warriors three hopes#mercedes von martritz#miklan anschutz gautier#we really only need to clarify this is STRICTLY warriors miklan and i think ive already condemned myself but i accept it#i am very sorry but the person i usually would talk to about rare pairs has been a bit busy so i couldnt go to them to get it out that way#so art is the only way i have you have to understand its not my fault (its my fault)#did you guys know i reset the azure gleam map three times before googling the chapter where he dies to try and save him#no i dont think he deserves to be pardoned for what hes done but i liked that w3h gave him a small chance to be better FOR HIMSELF#no i dont think he should simply be forgiven for everything he did but i do like that he was given humanity and how#he was still not a good guy but damn you guys i think about that npc sometimes#who says that they admired him becoming something despite being a criminal bc if miklan can do it whats stopping them from being better ?#like that npc stuck with me a while ok#just ......... there are a lot of thoughts here that i dont think many of you care to read even in tags so ill stop now#i will say the canvas is saved as speed run to cancellation lesgo
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Not me adding annotations to a book to make it more accessible for my mom when she will read it
#i am once again complaining about italian translators not adding enough context and explainations in queer non fiction books#90% of non queer people or people who do not speak english don't have enough fucking context to get certain things#i need tranlators to add the necessary context to make these books accessible for everyone#olay surely mainly queer people will read a book about going outside the binary but if we want more people to understand us#we need to add the necessary context to make these things comprehensible to everyone#both those who do not have a queer background and therefore have never see certain words and those who do not speak any english#why the fuck are we assuminng everyone reading this knows english and the linguistic and cultural context between certain words#most people i know do not know one word on english and since it's an italian translation you should make it completly accessible for anyone#i don't want people to read this with their phone in their hands to look for meaninga here and there#i have had this complaint before and i will keep complaining#it's frustrating because this book makes the concept of going outside the binary very easy and accessible and the translation is not as good#also the translation of this particular chapter did a terrible job language wise too so i can't expect much#the concept is there but oh boy do a few sentences look like they have been translated with google#so yep i resorted to making my own notes because i want my mom to read this and understand it without here needing to ask me for context#i mean i want conversations to start but not because of translation reasons if you know what i mean#and it would be very unmotivating to read a book that has too many words you don't know bc the translator took things for grated#cris speaks#i am done complaining for now#the og book is super good tho i am happy i am reading it again after so many years#the---hermit
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traditional style 💖
#akoya gero#gero akoya#cute high earth defense club love#binan koukou chikyuu bouei bu love!#boueibu#my art#my akoya wanted to join in the vintage dress-up party too!! \;;w;;/#ognvuhgh i wanted to have this done earlier bc other people were doing art so fast for the new outfits but it got dragged out#it was Mostly done a few days ago and i made final edits and was going to post it just before i rushed out to work#i put it up then i was like '??? wait there's a color blob in the wrong place i thought i fixed that???'#i was down to my last minute and didn't have time to do it so i was like auuuughhgh and took the whole thing down#on the Next day i opened the file again to see what was wrong and the color blob was NOT THERE#so im like ??? why did it suddenly appear again in the png. so i looked and i made an error in naming my files#i accidentally named one of the versions 30 instead of 03 so it sorted into the last place instead of the actual most recent version (07)#so that is the reason i ended up being 1 minute late to work. and the lesson to me is i should not try to post at the absolute last minute#(i say this but if i don't get smth done i can't stop thinking about it. it bothers me constantly to have something almost finished but not#(and then it's difficult for me to focus on other tasks so this is why i feel like i have to just get it done before i switch tasks)#anyway i wasn't totally sure what era the traditional outfits are supposed to be from. im not knowledgeable about fashion actually T.T#i googled 'when were suspenders popular' and ended up just looking at old photos and clothing patterns from the 30s-40s#photos from back then were black-and-white can you believe it.. you have to actually look at drawings and paintings to find color#everyone who left me messages elsewhere: THANK YOU SO MUCH!! \>/////</ i will reply soon!! \;;W;;/
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it’s all the rest of what i want with you
connor dewar/brandon duhaime :: 8k
Summary:
“Brandon,” Connor says with a sigh. “There’s no baby in there.”
“Not yet,” Brandon says. Connor feels his stomach twist, almost like what he would imagine a baby kicking to feel like.
in these trying times of dewvorce, may i offer you 8k of pwp inspired by @stillfertile’s wonderful art which i had. several breakdowns about 🫶 anyway please enjoy!!!
#OFFICIAL FIC ANNOUNCEMENT 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️ i wish i had pretty fic graphics but alas i have No Skill and also. so much work i should be doing bu#HI SHE’S HERE i would love to say this is a complete surprise drop except i have Anxiety & i needed to ask you guys about it beforehand#in my defense i started writing this in like. january far before any tragedy occurred#because square asked about my tags on their dewey2 art and she spawned like. a million more thoughts about it#including the part where i got absolutely kicked in the face with the lightning vision of those two lines.#like those two lines are the first actual lines of the fic i wrote ajdhkwdiowdjiw ANYWAY please be nice to me i know i am always like#‘this is not the first real fic i ever thought i’d post’ and if i had a nickel i’d have three but this is the first pwp i’ve ever posted#and it’s 8k and it’s not a fic for an exchange (although technically i did very much write this for the dewey^2 hivemind so.)#i have SO many things to say i have so many comments on this doc also i couldn’t pick a title for the LONGEST time and i finally decided on#this one but the full quote was too long:#all the rest of what i want with you that scares me shitless#so. i was angling SO hard to make a yung gravy lyric as a title bc i saw the video of him at a wild game but i couldn’t find a good one#and instead y’all got a very sentimental title l m a o.#liv in the replies#shout out to the extended universe this lives in and also my unhinged comments in the docs.#if you liked fun fuck a baby in him friday i’ll be here all week i promise i am the exact same in the comments as i am in the tags 🫡#the NUMBER of times i wrote something in this by pulling it out of my ass and then actually went back and did the research & was RIGHT is.#far too high. also the amount of coincidental things that dropped while i was writing this (yung gravy song about pregnancy AFTER i wheeze#laughed myself into a yung gravy title the athletic player poll confirming my restaurant & bar choices from googling ‘st. paul good bars’…)#also if anybody got advice on formatting for these little announcements. help. this is different from my miro/luka one &i’m still not happy
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Sliding into your ask box to confess that I also has a Fairy Tail phase when I was in middle school (The age equivalent at least since we don't actually have middle school here lmao). Wendy was my favourite character and the fight she has with Erza and against Erza's mom was one of my favourite sections of the final arc.
ERZA HAD A MOM???
#asks#i googled her#shes so hot what the hell#i think i stopped watching around like…#i had to google this as well but i think it was what this page is calling the ‘avatar arc’ whatever that is#but i truly dont remember much after the grand magic games#i dont even remember before that#every now and then i think ‘wow that was fun i should rewatch it’#but my level of anime bullshit tolerance is much lower than it used to be#i couldnt watch any episode with the fucking guys that just shake their ass everywhere they made me deeply uncomfortable#i dont think i could do it now either. like. like no. i just cant do it
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I can't do much productively during the heat wave/health issue flare up/etc. like work on my games or anything where I have to sit at the computer/type for long periods of time, BUT.. I did passively sculpt a few tiny foods lol. I wanted to do one of my bigger usual sculptures, but those take so much more time and concentration, I thought something small just to keep my hands busy would be better.. close up photos look kind of weird and blurry from my camera settings or something, but overall they came out okay, especially in person.. Nearly the only reason I ever wanted to buy dolls as a kid was to get my hands on the miniature foods and plates and stuff that came with them, I've always just been obsessed with small versions of things like that, so.. why not make some! lol
#sculpture#ooops.. i could have posted this on the art blog but I forgor and do not feel like reuploading everything#into a new drafted post on a whole other blog.. not in this heat.. i have no patience lol#items are: tomato. asparagus. a four leaf clover (not food lol). some sort of folded bun or dumpling with meat inside (not based on#anything specific. I just wanted to fold a flat sheet of clay into a shape). pomegranate. cheese wheel. lemon slice. some sort of mushroom.#fish (not a real one. just made up. if it looks like any specific fish that'd be interesting). and fig.#I haven't been able to get many avocaodo pits to carve again. so sculpting. then is good for a tiny craft#WISH I COULD DO COSTUMES OR SOMETHING.. i have some pikced out. bundles of clothes laying on the floor of the closet#but GODS even before the heat wave it's just been so warm.. I know.. it's the summer. of course it's warm#but WHYYYyy............. what if it just snowed all year around and was awesome and beautiful and i was so cold and could wear 25 blankets#at all times.. what about THAT hmm?? .. the ideal..#anyway.. my favorite is the pomegranate and the mushroom maybe#The fig is hard because in the pictures of figs I googled a lot of them have that sort of white powdery type of thing on the outside#that grapes and plums and stuff have sometimes and it's hard to convey that weird like.. sheen.. plus the purple with almost powdery blue#and little lighter specks plus streaks of light green and a little orangey on some of them.#It's okay in person I think but this doesnt show up as much in pictures. The cheese also looks betterin person than images. you can't tell#the slight shine in the pictures lol. but the pomegranates look cool and also photograph decent.. hmm#I should have made toast with an egg on it or something. that would be a nice addition#OH ALSO ASPARAGUS MY BELOVED.. though they look a little wonky. the cuticle pusher tool that I sculpt with in leiu of any actual sculpting#tools has a kind of triangle edge that was suite for the little leaf details of the asparagus so that was cool. its like..ALMOST right lol
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community college is so funny because half of the teachers are like "For this class you need to use lockdown browser for all quizzes and tests. You need to buy this 70 dollar textbook, and all papers turned in must be in APA format with a title page even if they're only 500 words long. I will not accept late assignments. Also you have a minimum of 4 assignments a week." and the other half are like "you don't need proctoring for the final exam I trust you. here's a download link to a pirated copy of the textbook. as long as your writing is coherent and demonstrates an understanding of the material I literally could not care less what format you use. I can't figure out how canvas works so I'm not giving you due dates, just make sure it's turned in before the grading period ends. your only weekly assignment is a forum post with a minimum of 100 words."
#my favorite teacher so far is still the film history professor I had in my first semester.#he was very old and didn't understand how canvas worked at all and sometimes had trouble opening a video file#but simultaneously he was tech literate enough to recommend we use firefox with an ad blocker#because whenever someone missed class and was like 'where do i go to find the movie' he'd be like 'use an ad blocker and google it'#he said the school made him stop emailing links to free movie sites because people would open them on chrome with no ad block#and there'd be borderline malware on them. like this guy gave me the impression he was like. a veteran movie pirate lol.#that class had barely any assignments. like there wasn't a final exam or anything.#he just wanted us to write a paragraph or so answering a few questions about the movies we watched. it was chill.#and i also learned a lot actually. like i didn't know what a nickelodeon was before then. or the Hays Code.#the movies were genuinely good. i never thought Id be that into old black and white movies or westerns for example but they actually slapped#some of them had really mature themes and i definitely started to understand the people on this website who are like#'if the only media you consume is children's media you should maybe branch out instead of calling steven universe problematic'#because a lot of the movies we watched depicted very 'problematic' things and were able to directly address them because they are for adults#(to clarify I didn't just like kids media before then. i just mean that it introduced me to some older stuff i didn't think I'd like)#(but i ended up liking a lot. it also made me realize that movies made today are kind of shit. which i also already knew)#(but it put it more into perspective because I have more to compare it to)#im rambling now. community college is pretty swag i enjoy it. and i do get along with the teachers who have crazy requirements too lol.
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this isn't gonna win me any friends but I won't pay a dime to see movies made by/starring people who signed the petition to free convicted child rapist roman polanski, and that includes guillermo del toro and wes anderson. you can love their movies all you want but paying to see them puts money in the pocket of people who publicly support rapists going free. 🤷🏾♀️
#idk it's cut and dry to me#and if you're PUBLIC in supporting rapists then like....what kinda shit you doing in private? 🤔#most of the arguments i see are ppl going “but it was so LONG ago he's done his time” no he literally hasn't#that's uh the problem#he was convicted n then FLED the country to avoid prison#mf literally never did his time. he never faced justice.#“hasn't he suffered enough” literally no he hasn't#that man drugged and raped a child and plead GUILTY to it and then never saw a day of prison#he should be dead but go off#and before you come at me with “yknow x and y actor signed it too what about them?” bitch what about em? none of them getting my money!#not a goddamn one!#natalie portman was one of the only ones to sign and then admit she fucked up and take her name off#if she can do it then so can anyone else. they just actively choose not to.#“they were probably misled” ok well its 2023 the knowledge is public and google is free#maybe its time to walk that support back huh
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i said i wasnt gonna do it but damnit i took the voluntary time off offering today with work because god ive been so fucking stressed these past few days that i need to just not be there. i still have work today but its just 3 hours and itll give me more time to sleep (even though i slept a bunch-) and maybe even take care of myself more.
plus i need to mail off this check later today and i just dont feel like getting up from bed.
body hurts, and im just so tired, but im glad pride month is tomorrow. i hope theres so much pride fanart on my dash then
#i hate being this way#in pain and stressed that is#its all because of this health insurance bill and genuinely being confused about this check#and then my data took a shit on me yesterday and i couldnt really use my phone when i got home#to google questions about the check bc it said i needed to put my state id on it and i didnt know if i could/should#and i also didnt know who tf is supposed to “endorse” the check either because its made out to the state so its all just so confusing#i think i figured it out but fuck i just feel so mentally exhausted from this. its not even like a big deal to normal adults??? but ive#never had to go through this before and im so indecisive and i need to know what to do with indepth instructions or else ill feel anxious#i just need a break from work and just the world
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my feet were hurting so much for so long and according to my googling it was due to lack of arch support so I got better shoes and it didn't help and now I'm on day two of wearing arch support braces and oh my god. the difference it's making. never going back.
#even just wearing them rn i'm standing to do dishes in just socks and the braces#and my feet don't hurt from standing at the sink#love it. walked my dog with no pain didn't realize how nice it is#they're nice and light so i can wear my converse again :) like they fit in my existing shoes#and i don't need to worry about the lack of support in converse because that#is what the braces are for. insoles were so uncomfortable#and yesterday the first day i was wearing these I was like well they aren't super comfy#but google also says it can take up to two weeks to get used to orthotics#so i should stick it out before deciding it's not for me#and now the literal next day i'm just marvelling at the lack of pain in my feet#wild lol
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Trying so hard to not have a mental breakdown on main over something stupid
#a while ago a very beloved mutual unfollowed me and i dont know why#and just realized a more recent mutual unfollowed#and i know it shouldn't bother me so much but it does. especially bc i feel like my recent content has been extremely high effort/quality#so why am i posting such banger content and LOSING followers#and ofc this is bringing back the dumb re fandom insecurities ive had before#i just feel like an outsider in the serrennedy/re fandom. ppl like my posts occasionally but wont follow me#or interact at all beyond liking my posts. despite the fact i see them Frequently interact w some mutuals#i know it's stupid. no one is obligated to follow me/interact.#but it still upsets me and makws me wonder whats wrong w me since others get interaction and I dont#like if i stopped posting abt re entirely i think maybe 2 ppl at most would even notice. why do i bother w high effort posts#no one will notice if i abandon my details series. no ones waiting for part 2 of sw lab. no ones waiting for the post w luis's island lab#i dont regret all the hours i spent taking screenshots bc i personally enjoyed it. even tho it was tedious i loved doing it#i love scrolling thru my unorganized google drive of screenshots. looking for specific ones. using em as references while daydreaming/writin#but i dont enjoy the process of sorting and selecting pics for tumblr posts. ive just done it hoping others would appreciate them#so like if im getting like 20 notes that are mostly likes/reblogs w no comments#why should i do the hard part
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