#gods i miss her so much rn

[reckless-rider]

its missing nobara hours

[unluckyprime]

GOD YOU GUYS . WHAT AN EPISODE !!!!!

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Mks angst - existential crisis. his friends being hurt or taken from him. Being abandoned. Failing. Being seen by others the same way they see swk maybe???

Swk angst - just indescribable physical pain being inflicted on him. Loneliness. Losing Mk

Mei angst - familial. Losing mk. (with the samadhi fire it was having a power she couldn't control ig but that was short-lived:( so) not being strong enough maybe???

Pigsy angst - losing his kid. Losing his shop. Being a lazy good for nothing. Being Zhu Bajie

Tang angst - being useless. Being left behind. Being seen as useless by his friends

Sandy angst - becoming violent/blackout rage. Causing harm

[quietwingsinthesky]

i feel your pain about dot and bubble 😭😭😭 white people understand the worlds most obvious race allegory and racism challenge (impossible)

It Was Not Subtle. Jesus Christ.

ive typed out like four or five different paragraphs about it and deleted them because i just can’t put into words the experience of watching that episode After knowing how everyone reacted to it on airing. there was some part of me that was being overly generous in thinking that Maybe there really was something missable about this, but i’ve seen it now. it’s. you can’t. you can’t possibly miss it. it’s there from minute one and it’s so viscerally uncomfortable being Stuck with lindy while she constantly insults the doctor and ignores him and. god. god.

i think it was the right choice, for the episode, to stage it from lindy’s pov. but i’m also so so aware that it’s putting things from her perspective that’s got to be making some people just. able to be willfully ignorant about it. and i think the sudden wave of ricky september love is the most telling bit because. the thing about ricky. is that lindy likes him. is that he saves her. is that he’s kind and reassuring and sweet to her.

and the thing about ricky is that the one time we see him interact with the doctor. he can’t even look at him except for the one moment where he’s telling the doctor to stop being condescending to him. the same way lindy did earlier.

at the end, it’s very easy for people to turn on lindy. ‘yeah, of course, lindy’s a bitch, lindy’s racist, we all see that now! unlike ricky, who would have changed.’ it feels like. people very easily could cut themselves off from the nasty parts of lindy, proclaim Well, I Would Never Be Like Her, while refusing to acknowledge that they are still empathizing mainly with her and her pov. just pretending that that pov can be taken away from her racism. does that make sense? i’m not sure i’m wording it correctly.

because the episode i watched, i know that last scene wouldn’t have changed if it was lindy or ricky there. the only difference would be that ricky wouldn’t look at the doctor while he was telling him it was his duty to save them but that he was not one of them. lindy was bold enough in her ignorance and hatred to not care. so. idk. closing thoughts, tldr, what a good fucking episode. shame about the people who think the only thing you have to do to not be racist is to be ashamed and aware of it as you continue on acting the same way you would have before.

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[orcelito]

My nails r getting kind of long. Almost to claw mode. I kinda don't wanna cut them tho bc I kinda wanna paint them for my birthday weekend

Nonzero chance of seeing my mom on mother's day. By my own choice, I guess. And I'm still not sure how I'm feeling about that. But ykno what, it'll be my birthday weekend, and I'm going to make sure to live it to the fullest..!!!

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

[callixton]

oh i am on the Brink of a mental breakdown. and like a real one. i am going to feel so so fucking terrible and guilty if i don’t go to the first week of mac rehearsal bc i need to recover but i am also getting the sense that i Need to recover. i have never been this burnt out or genuinely terrified of starting a new semester in my life.

[mwagneto]

when i move to bristol then you will all see

[ncytiri]

playing around with the cyberpunk photo mode after getting phantom liberty <3 obsessed with v and president myers' dynamic and president myers has no right being as hot as she is bye.

i know valentina would NOT be immune to myers' milf-ness so she's made it her mission to try and fuck the president of the united states before she leaves night city :/ (OFC this would be set before she romances river in the timeline so she is not cheating because i couldnt do that to him 😭)

[iftitah]

talked to school bestie 2 hours on phone god im out of breath with my chest hurting but it so worth the talk

[ryuseitai]

so nervuos for tmrw bc im seeing my cousin

[chromoluminary]

I cannot stay at this job for a second longer than I have to this sucks so bad holy shit

[deadrlngers]

no but thinking of violante's manic state following her murder of ruven and that sick game of association-replacement played by gortash where he acts just like ruven did, picks up some of his behaviours and mannerisms and speech patterns he specifically used with violante and that he knows of well bc he observed and studied them interact, so that he can fill up the now empty spot left by ruven's death.

[izzy-b-hands]

I noped out of the family plans for today (originally to see a certain famous musician's restaurant out in NJ, tho somehow Mum and her bf didn't listen to us when we said it would be like. three hours both ways, but that also it sounded like a perfectly fine/fun vacation thing to do so the travel would be worth it)

\so I'm at home catching up on chores and resting the aching joints bc it's been lovely being outside so much and doing stuff, but also. So much walking. The joints have Opinions abt that lmaoooo

The only thing is that I've slightly underestimated all I had to catch up on here, so now the dishes are done, one of Housemate's things that needed cleaning is in an alcohol bath (in one of my old mugs bc I realised the genius of using an old one for this, so there's a handle to move it around lol), and I don't necessarily have anything else I need to do, which has me feeling guilty for not going out with Mum and the bf but...

At the same time, it's nice not feeling so on the go constantly. I've been having a lot of conflicted Big Feelings abt her being out here, her going back at the end of the week, how her bf has been acting/talking (that's a whole other fucking post itself tbh), how I've been responding to them/how well I've been doing or not re: using my old therapist's coping methods and boundary setting tricks and tips (number one being: actually fucking try to set them lmao)

And not being horribly Go Go Go is both helping me slow down and parse more of it/how I need to work on this going forward, but also I keep randomly falling to pieces and crying so. Maybe I'll go work on WIPs as distraction/metaphor for my adult relationship with my mother being a work in progress too

[roamingbogwoman]

Nevermind I'm mourning her still. When will the way I feel about her make sense or give some closure. She genuinely haunts me, I'm still so allured and achey after all this time and hurt. I guess I'm glad she decided to randomly cut things off because I thought I could swallow the feelings that were swelling, but now they're swollen and oozing. If things continued, I would've realized way too late that I can't feel a normal way about her because I will always love her. I'll forever want her because she will never let me have her.