#god the job market sucks rn

[saurons-optometrist]

Genuinely asking here, does anyone have any advice for me as a person trying desperately to break into the theatre industry, specifically in a stage management capacity (but at this point I'll take anything I'm physically capable of doing, which is pretty everything minus sound and costumes)? I'm trying my best to network and get my name out there but it's not working and I'm running out of savings. I have a degree from a good theater school, I have references that are regionally well-known and respected, I have a good resume, I have separate portfolios for the different areas I've worked in, I have tons of academic and student theater experience, I really don't know what the problem is. Is it that I'm not in NYC or LA but instead in a moderately sized city? Is it that I'm extremely clockable as trans? Is it just the lack of professional experience? I'm really banging my head against the wall trying to understand what's wrong with me

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I start a new job in a couple weeks that will require me to wake up at 6:30am. Am I preparing for that? Am I steadily going to sleep earlier and waking up earlier so that this transition is smooth?

It's 2:15am and I didn't sleep sooner because I was cross stitching and watching Dimension 20. I'll let you guess how well the preparing is going.

[atlasisreal]

I hate this stupid job

[hearteyespierce]

tl;dr — unemployment woes, job hunting and existing as a disabled person sucks. i am open for art commissions and a post is coming soon, but feel free to dm me if you are interested! + status of my latest queer pulp novel cover redraw wip at the end as tax

being unemployed in 2024/2025 sucks, the job market is the worst for workers it’s ever been. i’ve applied to hundreds of jobs the last several months and i even do what all the recruiters on linked in say you need to do of “make a custom tailored resume and cover letter for every job you apply for 😇”/threat.

i make sure i use as many keywords from the job descriptions as possible and even run my resumes/cover letters through ATS scanners and always get around a ~90%+ match to the job description (what is considered a “great” score is apparently 80-85%), and still nothing! My applications are better than they’ve ever been but never has even getting an interview been so difficult.

i applied to a job that i have ten years of experience for in that exact role and they didn’t even want to talk to me — I got a form rejection email. That one was devastating.

and yeah, literally the worst part of all of this is that i’ve been forced to actually use linkedin as an actual social media app instead of just slapping my resume up there and ignoring it as god intended. every day i go online and see the worst takes of all time. i have found some genuinely good people and good opportunities (really hoping the one i’m pursuing right now, it would be so amazing and feel like a gift tbh to be offered this job) but the whole unemployment grind is so soul crushing.

i’ve barely had time to talk to any one who isn’t my partner who lives with me bc i’m using all my battery to try to find a job and try to build a website + portfolio for my art bc unemployment runs out next month so if something doesn’t work out i’m going to need to figure out something. i already lost my health insurance and can’t afford marketplace so i’m just rawdogging it rn as a disabled/chronically ill person, so that’s fun 🙃

but yeah, if you read this far, i am open for commissions — i have a post ready to go, I just need to wait a few days to post it publicly bc one of the examples on it is a surprise gift I did for someone and it’s in the mail to them right now. but if you’re interested, dm me or email killerxqueer@gmail.com and I’ll send you the graphics/info!

and, as promised: remember this pulp cover that was making the rounds LAST january?? yeah i sketched this back then and then. never finished it 😅 but i started painting it a day or two ago and i’m so thrilled with how it’s coming out!

[toxooz]

The canvases aren’t even safe 😭 they used the Boroque era as reference for their search engines. Like I’m losing my shit constantly over ai art so bad. Like this is totally gonna be a rant so forgive me but it’s driving up the WALLS. Ai art being readily available is killing the incentive for people to be creative. I cannot tell you how many times I think I’ve found a really cool fellow artist on tiktok and then see #midjourney. I take psychic damage every time that happens to me. And I’m starting to see it infiltrating business too where they generate ai images instead of hire photographers. I also saw someone selling tshirts with ai art on it at my local farmers market. MOTHERFUCKER THE FARMERS MARKET??? HAVE YOU NO SHAME????

NAW PREACH IT cause its become a nagging issue for me for a while that i simply try to not think about and dwell on but dear FUCKING god is it everywhere and it's painfully obvious too! just about every ad takes me 3 seconds to find damning evidence that its ai and im 99% ready to just delete facebook bc #1 i dont give a fuck abt anyone on there anymore and #2 Literally every other post is the most deplorable ai shit ive ever seen that everyone is carelessly oblivious to i mean total abominations that don't make any sense as an image but ppl share bc its the most bottom of the barrel ''relatable'' shit and that's just the sad reality of it is most people don't even give a shit what they're looking at as long as it looks pretty to their eyes for 3 seconds they don't give a damn

and that's just on basic everyday world shit like u said there's so many mfs i think are decent artists where i legitimately cant tell its ai until i read their fuckshit bio or somethin, like that midjourney i didnt even know it was an ai program i would've just thought it was the name of a video game or some shit! like I feel like I'm kinda turning my back on the whole art community involuntarily bc i just dont trust any image i see most of the time and its fukkin sad i ESPECIALLY feel for the real artists prior to this shitshow who have art styles that now look so much like ai that they basically hijacked to feed the machine like I couldn't imagine spending thousands of dollars on an art college and hours of practice just for your art style to be The Blueprint for empty soulless photos cranked out at inhuman rates by any stupid fucking lazy ass clown like Fuck Man it all sucks so much and the worst part is I just feel like it's one of those things where it will not stop until Something caves and i honestly dont know which one it will be but i just know its only going to get worse idk i try to remember that i can pick up a paintbrush or even whatever the hell i want and make something beautiful while 98% of these ai sacks of shit are just limited to stealing other peoples art on the internet and they couldn't even paint a damn flower if their lives depended on it and if i was stuck on a deserted island I'd probably still find ways to make art with whatever tools and resources i have cause that's an artist baybay but as far as The Internet and its grasp it has on the world and trying to make it as a digital artist and trying to make money from your homemade artwork is very grim man and dont even get me started on art and artists in just about every job field rn my heart goes out to them

[shortcircuitthegreat]

Have my 72nd(?) job interview today. It needs to go well and I need to get hired for once because 1) if I have to spend one more day in my parents' house over this blessed winter break I am going to lose my mind and 2) my laptop, which I fixed 2-3 weeks ago with a brand new battery, has decided not to work anymore and needs to be replaced. Something that will run everything I need for school goes for $2000. I do not have $2000. I am going to make a human sacrifice to manifest a job at this rate. (For legal reasons that was not a serious proclamation.) Clearly I pissed off SOME force because my luck is atrocious. I should not be struggling this much to find a job when I have more work history than most other people at this point (ain't specifying), am pursuing two STEM degrees, and am heavily involved in pretty much everything I can be. I do soooo much stuff and I can't get a job anywhere and that's crazy. (But I've heard from others the job market sucks, so this isn't as targeted as it feels...and that does not make me feel better about looking for something post-grad.)

Good things HAVE happened but not the things I NEED (i.e. employment and money and functioning technology so I can do the freelance work that has made me next to nothing but remains the one thing tethering me to this realm).

invoking the power of the gods in the club rn

I also need Loki to stop fucking with me because this stopped being funny 69 rejections ago. I very much take a "whatever's meant to be will be" approach to life but come on.

It's also that I feel awful not working when the rest of my family is. Taking a break and doing nothing all day feels acceptable when you're 18-19 and home for the holidays or whatever, but at my age it does not. I feel like I'm leeching off my parents if I'm at home and not contributing anything.

[jay-catsby]

so time has flown by and somehow ive already been on T for six weeks! honestly i havent seen many changes yet but i want to take the time to appreciate the little ones that have started:

the hair on my thighs is a little darker! and im growing hair on my knees finally. i had bald knees no matter how long i went without shaving before 💀

also the patches where i thought i like permanently burned my calf hair off with nair when i was trying to be femme for the last time are starting to grow the faintest wisps of hair again. thank god

i have the tiniest little chest hairs..... please clap they need encouragement.......

my throat has felt super weird since about two weeks in 👀 ive had one goofy teenager voice crack but mostly it's just more comfortable to keep my voice in the lower register i was practicing before starting T. i think the big test is going to be going home for Thanksgiving bc i talk to coworkers every day but ive hardly had a chance to talk to my parents this month! so if theres been recent changes they'll def notice

i have not gotten hornier rip </3 everyone said that would be like the first thing i noticed but i think ive been so stressed abt work and money for the last six weeks that even the power of pure testosterone cant overcome it. esp bc pre-T i was one of the unhorniest people on earth AND constantly stressed out. target and grad school and college owe me big-time.

no major acne yet 🙏 i have eczema on my chin which is a first for me but that started before i even went on T so it's a separate mystery. the major hormone change probably isnt helping tho so it's going on the list

and uh. thats it! on god as soon as i get a new job im going to the fucking gym 💯 i want the easy first-8-weeks-of-lifting gains to line up with my 6-month T anniversary so that i can post progress pics and blow everyone's minds

i just realized that this reads as very vain bc it's all physical changes but thats bc my mental state is being entirely dominated by the job situation rn and honestly on a day-to-day basis i lowkey forget that im trans bc i have so much other shit on my mind. which really sucks!!!!! im being robbed of the chance to be present with myself during a process that ive waited a long time for!!!!! so once again fuck target and this whole slow hiring market 👍

[samwiselastname]

Samwise Lastname Life Update (Negative)

I moaned and groaned in that selfie a bit already but like. I have many people who have offered to help me with many things. Truly thankful.

At the same time I've always been The Person with the stable job and full time wage, like, pretty much since I finished DBT halfway through college that's been my defining character trait. Even before then, it was "person who is a prime target for financial exploitation."

My current situation is a shared living space where I am covering about 4/5s of our expenses, by virtue of being able to mask my disability well enough to work full time. We are still coming up $400 short a month. I've just gotten assurance that should change, a housemate is seeking work, but. It hasn't changed yet, and even once it does, I will not feel secure until we have an emergency fund for housing, and I won't feel safe keeping any personal savings until that's settled. Which is a couple years out at this rate - even farther with some necessary home repairs, which will push our deficit even higher.

We only get takeout once a month at most, our expenses have been essential housewares and home improvement items - pest control, plumbing maintenance tools, repair supplies. A few hundred of that deficit is just repeat homeowner shit. We planted a garden this year which was an expense but, not exorbitant. I don't know how to cut down more without like. Eating less? Historically that approach has turned into dangerous weight loss & migraines pretty quick. As it is we're only spending about $100 more a month than the FDA's recommended frugal grocery plan.

I can stop buying alcohol & weed and save... about $10 a month. I could cancel some of my subscriptions and save $20-50. Anything I can cut back on at this point is not financially worth the detriment to my well-being, especially when things like "watching youtube on the TV" and "playing FFXIV" are like. Some of my only safe and passive low-pressure recreational activities.

Don't really know what to do about this other than keep grinding. I'm making myself sick. Tacking on any extra work - hobby creative pursuits that might one day turn into commercial creative pursuits, any amount of job hunting, even a shot at adult content creation - feels unbearable.

I am trying to stop "working overtime" because even the 40 hours fucks with my ability to do anything else. I tried to work around this by job searching and side hustling. Now all my hobbies feel like jobs and every day I'm not working on income feels like self-sabotage. It's stupid - I can get better compensation at my current job picking extra hours. At least when I do that I don't go into a neurotic spiral and stop sleeping. As much. It's at least effective.

So I have this limbo - working over 40 hours physically destroys me, and it's the only way to tip the scales at all right now. I know one can often get a pay raise by finding a new job but - yall the market sucks. I'm trying. I need full time remote WFH and good god is it bad out there. Plus my current insurance rn is killer - I have a 3k out of pocket max. My medical costs would outweigh the raise at any job I've successfully applied for thus far, because my current employer affords me this bizarrely fantastic health insurance with HSA deposits.

Just feel hopeless. If I've gone dark on you that's why. We have four months to get this shit fixed before we're totally fucked and I'm doing everything I can to buy us time.

[caralara]

https://at.tumblr.com/caralara/here-is-my-oppinon-nobody-asked-for-about-what-is/6pkwifynq7n1

This post and your answer made me think. I don't have an opinion about their PR team when it comes to this. I liked what they did for the album reveal and no idea about the rest but I do think fandom usually uses 1D or Harry as a measuring bar and Louis going indie doesn't fit that criteria. And I do agree that bbg is the kind of mess no PR tram would want to tackle if they can avoid it nor do I think Louis wants/needs more people knowing about it. Yes there would be NDAs but still.

But talking about the documentary it does feel it's something not related to BMG, just a Louis thing. Is LTHQ staffed mainly by BMG? Because they wouldn't work on the films promo and that feels like the issue here. Like this should be mainly be promoted by Louis and his people (not BMG) and it's sort of falling through the cracks. As if everyone thought it was the others responsibility. *shrugs*.

In any case, we'll see how much and what promo they want to make. Presale tickets is something only fans will want to buy and I'm not even sure the casual fan will want to go to the cinemas for it. It feels like they'd wait for streaming services.

It kind of sucks all of this but in the end we should remember that it isn't our job to promote Louis. We're here to enjoy his music and the documentary. The rest should be done by the people paid for it.

Have a good Tuesday!

Ooms fan xx

OOMS anon, you didn’t lead with who you were and I read it and was like „my god I have some wonderfully well spoken anons don’t I? Another one? Wow“ hahaha glad to have you back!

I think LTHQ is managed by Louis‘ management, Seven 7 Management (Matt Vines), so they would be in charge of the promo for documentary.

BMG‘s marketing team would be in charge of Album promo (probably in collaboration with management‘s team (?)).

Simon Jones PR is exclusively handling his PR, meaning statements, organising interviews etc. In collaboration with management and BMG, so I don’t see them having a hand in AOTV promo besides creating the press releases and coordinating interviews and articles. They are responsible for suggesting the stunts depending on what they’re trying to achieve, and Management in collaboration with SJ PR is doing the actual handling, imo.

So I agree, I think that because LTHQ (Management) is on its own for AOTV and doesn’t get more people power from the label, they’re understaffed (LinkedIn says 23 people globally and 8 in UK - don’t forget they have other clients, too) and not capable of handling the whole promo for the doc, also bc it’s a different kind of promo what they’ve done before (music, streaming, gaming).

Or maybe it’s all an elaborate plan I can’t see the goal of rn to do shitty promo lol

[starjxsung]

Babe is such a universal thing, I think I’m going to start calling you honey! Honey is one of my personal favorites heheheh

I’m so sorry you went through so much star I hope you’re doing well and I can’t wait for you to be able to make that cake ahhh please send me pics! Also on the applying it’s best to stay in the job your in because it’s so true it’s hard to apply and see if you even get the job especially me as someone who’s still trying to apply and no luck ugh

What’s your love language??? Mine is words of affirmations I love telling people I care that i appreciate them so much

I don’t remember if someone had asked this before but has an anon actually tried to get with you like I know most of anons flirt with you a lot and you flirt with us and we made a mutual connection by even talking out of tumblr but like has an anon actually tried to take your flirting to the next level ie actually thought you were trying to get into a relationship????

A little life update on my end: anxiety really sucks, it’s making me lose sleep by waking up every hour and it’s messing with me a lot making me feel like my friendships are just one sided and that they rather be with other people than me. It’s not helping either that this anon on my tumblr has been saying mean things about me and criticizing the way I write ( it usually doesn’t affect me but rn with how I am mentally it kinda is) but it’s getting so bad that opening my phone and seeing notifications just makes me want to puke

🩶

NO BC HONEY IS SOOO CUUUUUUTE it feels like marriage vibes frfr I love it 🤞🥹

I WILLLL POST PICS OF JILIX CAKE TOMORROW PROBABLY I actually bought one of those mini birthday cakes and it’s been sitting in my fridge for like 3 days so it probably tastes like shit now but it’s SOOOO CUTE IM SO EXCITED 💓 Ughhhhh I know exactly what you mean the job market sucks ASSSSSS rn I just know it’s gonna be an ordeal but I’m definitely still looking at what’s out there and seeing if there’s anything I can transition into that might be a little easier bc my work load right now is the fucking worst :(

Love language HMMMM I think it’s words of affirmation for myself, and then for others I’m really partial to gift giving 💞 I loooove being the kind of person who just finds something cute online and sends it to someone or surprises them w it! I order my sister little desserts sometimes since she lives in another city or sometimes I get random shit for my parents or friends bc it reminds me of them I just love seeing people’s reactions to gifts 🥹

The anon question hahaha yesssss I was in a kinda long situationship type thing w an anon on here and it ended really badly. I truly wish her nothing but the best now and we’re no longer on talking terms, but I’m always grateful for the people I have the pleasure of being in romantic relationships/situationships with even if they end badly ! I hope she finds what she’s looking for eventually

Also I’m so sorry to hear about your anxiety :((( I’m kind of in the same boat rn (literally just picked up my antidepressants today slayyy) but holy fuck wym there’s an anon sending you hate?? Hello?????? That is so fucked up oh my god I’ve gotten my fair share of anon hate on here but please just delete any messages you get and don’t even give them the time of day. It’s so fucked up they’d stoop so low and hide behind an anonymous profile to send hate to random people. What have they even been saying to you? If you need to send me anything privately on discord pls feel free to do so :( I’m so sorry this is happening my love you don’t deserve this at all and it’s gross people would think to do that. I love you so so much please ignore those losers

[harryspouse]

Hii OMG where do i began so much has happened since last time we’ve talked and at the same time it feels like nothing has changed at all not like about anything specific but just life in general. I have been in a funk for no reason at all for the last month, spend a month of summer vacations at home but a few weeks ago started going out with my family after my mother forced me loll and I’ve been hanging out with my friends so I’m much better now!

I’m so glad you’re okay. Don’t worry about the future i mean its easier said than done but as a wise man once said have faith in the future i’m sure it’ll all worked out in the end. Job market is shit rn and it sucks constantly being taunted I’m sooo sorry :(. I’m graduating next year and I’m already dreading not being able to find a job and no longer going to uni to escape from home. Currently I’m slaving at a law firm for free ugh i hate unpaid internships 😭should be illegal.

I miss 2010s life was so much easier when we were teens.

Anddd how could i forget youu i’d never babe!!

you know in a weird sense i can also really relate with that first line. i feel like a whole new person and also not.

can't gauge what context supplies the meaning of you being in a funk but anyway glad you got to feeling better. good friends are almost as good as a chai on a rainy day if not better :)) at least in my opinion

thank youu 🥺 that's really reassuring to hear (read) amidst the current chaos of my head and heart and yesss that break after uni with no job will be really hard to not get restless within :<( but it's still good that you've got an internship going even if it's unpaid {law usually is just slavery} as you'll find the transition smoother then and have something to build from on your resume. god knows i had taken my uni days to escape from the real™ world and not gain experience™ instead and it really came to bite me in the ass in its due course aaaah the real world really does suck monica was right but I don't love it at all

oh the 2010s 😮‍💨 shah rukh khan movies and school drama and the greatest pressure being that of whatever semester exams were going on. what a time what a time what a time

well i'm most relieved to know that thank you very very much i couldn't ever forget you either just to be sure again <3!!

[reversewerewolf]

it's been a really long time since i've made one of these posts but i need to scream into the void because i am completely beyond my limit to deal rn and it needs out. cw for general negativity, hopelessness, brief mention of parent suicide (long time ago, i'm fine)

i seriously do not know what to do anymore. six months later i am STILL in the process of moving into my mother's house (it's slow going because we are both multiply disabled). we're both living well below the poverty line already, but apparently her credit is so bad and she's so in debt that she's also in danger of losing the home that i am ACTIVELY moving in to.

neither of us can afford to pay our bills already, and she's somehow convinced that everything is going to be ok and it will be easier when we're living together, even though i've been living off the very generous donations of friends and strangers for... close to a year at this point? probably more? and all of this is already after she used the entirety of my savings (tens of thousands of dollars, without my knowledge or permission, but i don't have the energy to be mad about it) to pay back taxes so neither of us ended up homeless. it's not even fully her fault, like, she doesn't have a retirement fund because my dad cashed it out and spent it all on teenage sex workers before he killed himself some years ago and then she spent three months in the hospital last year due to medical negligence and she was basically in an induced coma for a month of that, and it took months more to recover, and she STILL needs surgeries to fix what they fucked up, but like... it's kinda frustrating! lmao!

my brother is selling his house and lending her what she needs to get back to zero while i struggle to get my (and many of her) belongings out of here and into her house, but my god, i don't know how much longer i can live like this. i can't get a job, i'm too disabled to even START a disability application, my temp jobs suck the life out of me when they bother to actually set me up with the work they supposedly want to do, nearly every fucking day i have to decide between groceries or medication for me, or taking care of my pets, or trying to keep the electricity on so puppy and i don't get heatstroke.

like i straight up can't do this for god knows how many more years. i have never made enough money to live off, and i'm never going to, because i don't have a degree, i don't have any marketable skills, i don't have the ability to act "normal" enough to get a steady job, i don't have the ability to regulate my mental health and emotions enough to function in a society that already wants me dead. i can't live off of the generosity of other people for the rest of my life and i don't want to, it fucking sucks, it makes me feel guilty and nasty, but i just NEVER see this getting better. i'm so stressed out that i can't even just ENJOY things to distract myself from how fucked everything is anymore. therapy isn't helping. medication isn't helping. it's affecting me physically at this point, not just from the stress, but because i can't afford healthy food to manage my diabetes, and it's affecting my organs lmao. i just don't fucking know what to do anymore. i really don't. i can't imagine it ever getting better, only worse, and i'm so fucking tired.

[theshadowrealmitself]

Trying to be asleep rn because I have to be up hella early in the morning, but not only is my brain not shutting off, when I was at my sleepiest it decided to hit me with a wave of sadness

So I’m gonna type out non-sad thoughts here and see if that helps:

Personally, I don’t agree with the whole “work spouse” thing when one or everyone involved has an actual spouse, like if it’s just a “oh we’re just really good friends, it’s not cheating in the slightest” then why are you using specifically romantic terminology? Why not just use the term “work bestie”? It feels emotionally unfaithful and I think Vulcans would agree with me, tbh

I’m still upset that I have to produce my own niche content 😭 please, sometimes I don’t mind but it really sucks when I’m like “I want fun alien courtship rituals” and my brain is just like “ask again later”

I have a fucking time loop story that can easily work as a small manageable writing project (as I’d only need to do a few loops), but I keep not sitting down and writing it 😭

Still working on my dino plushie, my sis just visited for a week and I had to do mandatory school stuff so it’s been a bit on the back burner but I should hopefully have time tomorrow (I have to keep an ear out for a delivery so please hope for me that the delivery comes in the morning so I can spend the rest of the day knitting and listening to horror stories pls 🙏)

I wonder if I’ll be able to do any knitting when I’m taking the buses for school? On one hand there’d be time, but on the other hand, the bus is shaky so I might end up dropping stitches, and I’d be terrified of missing my stop the entire time, hmm if I do knit it’ll probably be the really simple projects

I really wanna get into the Godzilla fandom because I remember being really terrified of one of the movies when I saw it as a kid and who doesn’t love large lizards? but tbh I have no idea how to get into it 😭 gives me comic book vibes trying to find a place to start

Actually speaking of, does anyone know if there was a Godzilla movie where she was rampaging and there was like,, scientists holding her eggs hostage but they were starting to crack because the babies were emerging? That’s probably not what the actual plot was but that’s what little me thought was happening, it was definitely a Godzilla movie tho

I wish I was faster at knitting

Oh!! Btw!! Technically the university I go to now (not revealing the name for privacy reasons) gives us actual healthcare, and I think I’m finally able to set up appointments (trauma’s been preventing me, don’t ask pls), which means I can finally get my hands checked on to see if there’s anything they can do to help, and then maybe see what’s up with the heart stuff!!! (and maybe lungs, I feel like I’ve been losing breath over every little thing lately, kinda concerning)

Hair has been fading fast, thinking about doing purple this time

Normally I feel like I think up a good amount of platonic plus romantic scenarios, but lately I feel like it’s been way more romantic stuff, I wonder why? Tbh I actually feel the most consistently okay with being single than I have ever, like the thought of 0 relationships so I can focus on university and hopefully getting a job (god the job market sucks rn) doesn’t phase me in the slightest

I miss those candies that were like,, wax coke cans and you’d bite off the top and then get to drink the small amount of liquid in it? (and then I’d chew the wax bottle, not sure if that was common)

[boyapologist]

if I see one more person in their 20s buying a house I think I might just die

[tellywoodtrash]

Hi TT. I'm a mess. Forcing myself to study for an exam I dont want to give. I just want to get married and sit at home🙂🙃(terrible example for feminism ik). But middle class family se hu tho job ke bina koi shaadi nahi karega. I don't want to study, don't want to compromise either,my mind is a jumbled mess rn and I don't have a single clue on what I'm doing. I feel like I've failed my mom who's a single parent who's working so hard to give this life to me. Sorry for the trauma dump lol.

Hi friend,

God I wanna give you a huge hug. Coz I've been there. Trust me, a lot of us, even the most rabid of feminists have felt the "ughhhhh what's the point, I should just get married" thing. And it's not a wrong thought; it's just a symptom of the larger issue at hand. That you feel powerless currently, pressured into something you don't want, so why not just go for the most extreme nuclear option on that path. You're free to want to be a housewife (feminism is about choice), but don't think that it's some easy way out of what you're feeling now just because you don't have to do a "job". It's just as backbreaking work (more, I'd argue) as you'll do in a workplace, but with no pay/progress; and sadly, very undervalued in today's patriarchal capitalist society.

I think the biggest problem rn is that you aren't interested in the field you're being pushed into. Of course you won't feel like succeeding at something you don't care for. If you assess the success of a fish by how it flies, it obviously will fail. You need to figure out what your strengths and interests are, and move towards a career in those. And trust me, don't think it's "too late" now (you sound like you're in your early twenties perhaps?) I got two wholeass degrees specialising in marketing before I realised how much I hate capitalism and consumerism and tricking people into spending money by selling lies, and couldn't fucking do it without having a breakdown every single day. I quit my job and moved to a whole other country with no clue, only to take up a random poles-apart-from-my-field job that pays not even half of what I used to earn (but gives me sososososososoooo much more mental peace.) That too all this at the age of 30. It's never too late to try a different path, if you choose so.

If by chance you don't feel safe to do that, and that's perfectly understandable; there's considerable risk to be taken and you need proper financial and emotional support as you're figuring things out (which I was vvvv privileged to have), you'll have to stay in this field for the near foreseeable future. It's fine, you can just cultivate an attitude that yeah this field sucks, but it's just something you do to make money. In today's world, people are often defined by the job title they hold, and often make it their whole personality, but it's all bullshit. Not everyone has to be "passionate" about their career. A job is just a tiny tiny part of us; we provide a service for a set number of hours a day so that we can fund the rest of our life, the parts that we actually love. Like acquiring and taking care of animals, and buying art supplies or books or tickets to a concert/movie/country we wanna see, subscriptions to streaming services to watch all the obscure media you fancy etc. Just see it that way and turn off any emotional attachments to work. It's just something you do to make money and that's it. And when you figure what really makes you tick and how you can earn the money you need without being so goddamn miserable for 10 hours a day, start making your move to a job that's more aligned to your interests and values.

I know this is a lot and it feels very overwhelming right now, but please know that this whole mess is temporary. You will eventually figure something out. I would suggest you talk to your support group about how you're feeling and ask them suggestions on how to proceed. Please know I'm always rooting for you no matter what you choose, and hope you find your peace soon! 💗💗💗

[kakakakashi]

need hcs for jealous/angry sex with dom!jiraiya, shikaku and tobirama 👀🤡

So do I, fam! I’m always a slut for Shikaku. Jiraiya and Tobirama are also good. I just… Shikaku, man. I’m also really feeling Jiraya rn, but I think that’s because I’m on my period and majorly hormonal.  

*NSFW under the cut*

Tobirama

Madara looked at you for too long.

Let’s just leave it at that.

Like, he knows you’re extremely attractive. You’re his lover for a reason.

But if Madara just glances at you, he’ll be salty.

If Madara checks you out… oh, god. It’s over.

He basically drags you home while you’re pissed at him because “Tobirama, what the hell? We were in the middle of the market. We have errands to run. We can’t just go home already! Why do we even have to go home.”

He tells you to shut your mouth, but you don’t until he’s walking you inside, locks the door, and faces you with fire in his eyes.

Aaaaaand now you’re wet.

Aaaaaaaaaaaand now it clicks.

You would smirk at him, but the man is just towering over you, and about to explode.

You end up in the bedroom, and he’s got your arms pinned above your head while you’re on your bed, legs spread, and Tobirama is fucking you into the mattress.

He grabs you by the chin and asks you who you belong to.

“Tell me, do you think anyone else could make you feel like this? Could anyone make you scream like I do?”

Shikaku

I don’t see Shikaku as one to get jealous easily. If anything, it’s probably because you guys have a petty fight that gets really heated.

Like, it’s probably about the dishes or something.

Or even like… if Shikaku is wearing through his sandals, but he refuses to get a new pair because, “these are perfectly fine! I can still walk in them. They still do their job. When they break, I’ll get a new pair.”

Or he says you look ridiculous in a new blouse or something. Idk, just an argument over something small that ends up blowing up.

You probably say something smart.

“Fine, you want to be a brat. I’ll treat you like a brat.”

Grabs you, bends you over the nearest surface, and whispers in your ear, “Where’d that smart little mouth of yours go, huh?”

Ugh! I can just hear that in his voice, and uuuuuuuuugh!

You just whine out, and you can feel him wiggling you out of your pants and underwear.

He only slips an inch or so inside you until you’ve got tears in your eyes, and you’re begging him to fuck you.

He’ll pull you up against his chest by your hair and fuck you hard until you’re screaming nonsense for him.

Jiraiya

DADDYKINKDADDYKINKDADDYKINKDADDYKINKDADDYKINK

Sorry, what?

You know exactly what you’re doing when you shamelessly flirt with some guy you have no intention of pursuing while Jiraiya is busy getting you two drinks.

Grabs you, throws you over his shoulder, and carries you home like that the second he sees you.

Spanks you until your ass is cherry red and then some.

Makes you count, and if you forget your place, he’s starting again.

You’re gonna beg for him to fuck you by the time he’s done, and he’s gonna deny you.

“You want me to give you my cock? Ah, ah, ah. You should’ve thought about that before you were naughty.”

Makes you suck his fingers and then will fuck your throat.

Once he’s finished, and he’s sure you’ve swallowed everything, he’ll decide you’ve made up for your bad behavior.

Then he’s gonna press your face into the mattress and fuck you hard, reminding you who you belong to.

He’s not here for your bad behavior and will 100% tame you if you’re a brat.

He’ll tell you how you were so good for him after while holding you.