#god im so fucking happy rn im so. fucking happy
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it’s literally Christmas Eve but I’ve got a mega rant read it or don’t vv
why am I so different from my parents? like I’ve realized that some of my traits are a mix of theirs but we don’t share any hobbies or talents? my parents never read, they aren’t that good at English, yet literature is my thing? neither can they sing and dance, or are artistic at all, but i am? And for some reason, these differences give them an excuse to not pay attention to anything I do at all. They don’t ask what im doing, what im reading, what im dancing to in bharatanatyam, what I was painting back when I used to go to art class, what music im listening to. Even when THEY are the ones who enrolled me in those classes. All because they “don’t have time”. So they NEVER have time?? because that’s they’re excuse ALWAYS. and then my mom goes and talks about how much work she has to do, how she has to cook and clean for everyone in the house, if you want help, could you TEACH me how to do stuff instead of complaining?? (ok that was unrelated, now back on topic>)
just a few weeks ago, my mom figured out my favorite color was purple when asking me what decorations I wanted for my birthday. My dad probably knows nothing about me as well. They think I hate or im so distant to Indian culture, maybe if they asked what I was reading, they’d know that I read Aru Shah?
And the few times my parents DO try to invest in what im doing, omg, it sounds SO fake. Like yesterday when I came back from dance my mom subjected me to shopping, but does she care that I just worked my butt off physically for over an hour? And I tell her that and she’s like “if I could come to your class I would watch you for an hour” like NO THE FUCK YOU WOULDNT ?? When I tell her that she’s like “well I have nooo time do you expect me to actually do that” and laughed—then why are you FUCKING LYING TO ME. why do you think lying is the only solution to EVERYTHING and it’s the only thing that’ll make me happy? why do you LAUGH every time I want you to actually SEE me? Why can’t you TAKE ME SERIOUSLY?? Like I swear to fucking god im not a clown or a freak to laugh at all the time. Plus when I get mad at her for this shit she’s like “your just like your dad” like MF IF YOU KNEW MY DAD FOR MORE THAN ONE MONTH (she brags about it??) BECAUSE OF A FUCKING ARRANGED MARRIAGE AND DIDNT JUST MEET HIM ON A PHONE CALL SITUATED BY A MATCHMAKER YOU WOULD KNOW THAT HE HAS BIG FAT FUCKING ANGER ISSUES AND THAT THEY WOULD HAVE PASSED DOWN TO YOUR CHILDREN—that’s not my fucking fault??
And don’t even get me started on my dad because he’s lived in this country for over fifteen years yet he literally knows NOTHING about it? On Saturday it took me five whole minutes to explain to him how my friend didn’t know she was having a party (it was a surprise) so she didn’t invite anyone. And he kept interpreting it wrong like OMG it’s not hard 😭😭 and imagine this but about stuff I like, he can never and probably never will understand my hobbies.
Honestly I’m pretty sure my followers who check in on my blog every once in a WHILE know more about me than they do. other than yall, idk who else I’d talk to about this. I’m super proud of you if you read through all of that 💗💗 this entire thing was in one mega paragraph so be glad I broke it down. my mom is calling me down rn for some family shit so 👋
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auuuhghghhhhh there was this pop up for indigenous peoples day and i met up with my bf at it for a little bit before he had to go to rehearsal it was so fucking cool there was a drum circle and a bunch of people all dressed up and dancing and this one couple had their kid all dressed up and had him dancing with them and he was smiling the whole time and all these booths with people selling shit i just wish we had known about it sooner so we could’ve been there together longer + i could’ve been there when they weren’t starting to shut shit down it was so fucking cool man
#was on the phone with my mom for abt half of the walk home and i cried the whole time i was talking to her#the music and the kid dancing really got to me#it just like. really made me wish my father hadn’t been such a scumbag because i don’t have any connection to that part of me esp with him#being dead and his brother being a scumbag and MY brother being a scumbag so i just. don’t have much. yknow.#so like. even though i don’t really know if anyone there was the same tribe as me its still just like. holy shit. we exist. and we can be#loud and happy about it#he got a ton of shit from the booths selling mexican art/jewelry n shit like that and i got a bracelet :) we also got a new dab tool LOL#god im so fucking happy rn im so. fucking happy
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finally...
#garashir#we fucking win!!!#god im so happy for them lmao#they FINALLY got their kiss FUCK#literally thank god#words cant express how im feeling rn. but its great akdsndks#i wanna color this later!!! happy fucking garashir days boys im celebrating every fucking year#julian bashir#elim garak#star trek ds9#star trek fanart#ds9 fanart#star trek#star trek lower decks
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TSC 3 !!!!!! TSC 3 !!!!!!! TSC 3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#THE WAY I LITERALLY STARTED FUCKING CRYING FIRST THING IN THE MORNING OUT OF PURE JOY#ARE YOU KIDDINGGGGGGGGGGGG#IM SO FUCKING HAPPY RN I NEEDED THIS SO BAD I HAD SUCH A BAD DAY YESTERDAY#IM SO FUCKING GEEKED ARE YOU JOKINGGGGGGGGG#LET’S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#aftg#tsc#all for the game#the sunshine court#jean moreau#jeremy knox#oh my GOD WHAT ARE THREE BOOKS GOING TO ENTAIL?????#THE NATHANIEL WESNISKI TRIAL FOR SURE#BUT OMG ARE WE GONNA SEE THE FINALS#OMG WE’LL PROBABLY HAVE TO WAIT LONGER FOR JEREJEAN BC ANDREIL TOOK UNTIL BOOK THREE#BITCH IM GONNA BE ON THE FLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR FOR THIS SLOW HURN#THIS IS MY SUPERBOWL#the foxhole court#my post
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I GOT THE MUSEUM JOB OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
#rena.txt#I HAVE NOOOOOOOOOOO WORDS IM LOSING MY WHOLE FUCKING MIND#THANK YOUUUUUUY GOD FOR SENDING ME ONE GOOD THING FINALLY HOLY FUCKING SHIT WAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SORRY FOR ACTING INSANE FOR SMTH THIS SMALL BUT I COULD LITERALLY CRY RN IM SO HAPPY
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CAME OUT TO MY BESTIE AS SOMEONE WHO WRITES FUCKED UP SHIT AND HE WAS LIKE "whats ur point? im used to that" LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOO LIFE SAVED EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OKAY ACTUALLY
#proship#proshipper#proshippers please interact#anti anti#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#pilk rambles#god im so fucking happy rn
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[october] one year of togetherness.
@/dreamsecretclub: dteam Christmas won’t be happening unfortunately, thought I’d say before that way Christmas can still be great :) totally out of our control unfortunately, can’t wait for the future still :)) 2022 incoming ♥️♥️
Dream: I'm gonna expose George's feelings on his behalf ... He was just saying, he was like, 'I think I'm depressed', and we were like 'What do you mean?' and he was like, 'I don't know. I don't do anything, and no one's here, and I just wanna come to the US'. And Sapnap was like, 'Well, what if I came to the UK?' and George was like, 'You should'. And then Sapnap went and filed for his passport the next day.
Dream: Because George hasn't got his visa yet, Sapnap's going to the UK. Sapnap: Fine. I'll go. [Dream Team laughs] Dream: So, unfortunately, Sapnap's getting the first George hug. [George Laughs] Sapnap: I'm getting the first George hug.
Dream: I feel like if George isn't here by, like—I wanna be like, 'Well, next month'. I feel like if George isn't here by September, my like, mental health will take a dive. Massively. And that sounds like, fucked, but it's one-hundred percent true.
Dream: You will see the fact that George, um—George's reaction to seeing me ... We said when he got his visa he could FaceTime me, so, stuck to the plan. Not saying anymore because you have to wait for the meetup video.
Dream: You sure you don't want to wait to see me in person? George: I'm ready. I've got my camera set up—I'm all ready to go! Dream: I guess I just, I wasn't expecting this. I'm gonna go look in a mirror and make sure I don't look like trash. I'll be right back! George: [laughs] Okay ... Oh my god.
George: After years of waiting, I was finally going to America.
Sapnap: Dream? Dream: Yeah? Sapnap: Clay? Dream: Oh god. Sapnap: I brought him. He's here. You excited? Dream: I am ... very nervous. Sapnap: Nervous but excited. Dream: I'm nervous, but I'm excited! I'm doing excited hops. Sapnap: It's a big day—an exciting day! ... Take your time. This is big stuff. He's going to be living here forever.
@/GeorgeNotFound: Just met Dream!! :)
“This doesn’t even feel real,” George says in the video — a sentiment he reiterates to Variety when asked about how he felt in the moment. “The sun was directly behind him, and it was blinding me, and he had an aura about him.”
George: It's so bright, I can't even see you. You're like a—you're like a god with the sun behind you!
George: I guess I gotta go get my bags in, and time to live in the Dream House. Dream: The Dream Team House!
@/GeorgeNotFound: why didnt you post the one where you actually kissed me?
dream @/dreamwastaken: just felt better leaving things up for larger interpretation
George: Look it's Dream, and Sapnap. It's all of us!
Dream: [softly to George] Rise and shine. We're home.
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#WAAAAAAAH HAPPY ANNIVERSARY OF MEET UP AND FACE REVEAL GEORGE IN FLORIDA DREAM TURNS ONE YEAR OLD DAY !!!!!!!!!#ijust spent four hours on this holyfuckdbdhf my brain rn#I WANNA FINSIH A FIC FOR TOMROROW/TODAY TOO. it is 3:30am i thinki should Sleep thoand sdothat tomorrow#mygod#this iss o satisfying to look at now#the references are always so god damn long but i LOVE DOING THEM no matter how much of a pain they are bc its like hey. h ey look dnf real#dnf is R eal bc LOOK. LOOK LOOOOOK. (also we're gonna ignore the formatting of the referencing bc it fucked up Many times IM NOT FIXINGAGA#ok thanksfor ur attention enjoy goonight mwah <3333333#dnf#dreamnotfound#web weaving#compilations#my webs
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peachyville horror has done Something to my psyche and i dont know if i enjoy it only bcs its slow and painful ......... for the first time in my life im sitting here, 5 days before a new episode is coming out, and im getting excited about it being dndads tuesday soon
#like. in no other media#ever#no matter how much ive loved it#have i sat down and thought “oh god i wish it would be x day already so the next episode would come out”.#i tend to be fucking awful at consuming media#im a perfectionist at it#i overthink even fucking watching my favourite show (do i really want to rn should i save it for later am i awake enough etc)#but for tph im literally sitting here giddy thinking about tuesday#its so weird#it was sorta the same with s2 too but i got on board of s2 a bit later when things were already pretty dark#and i am SUUUUCH a sucker for happy go lucky funny media#like i fucking loved s2 (obviously) but listening to it was always also a bit more Serious than tph? idk how to explain#i just super like tph and it cheers me up a lot and at least now when theres no heady stuff going on its so relaxing and SO FUN#anyway#dndads#dungeons and daddies#the peachyville horror
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if I found out my husband or father not only fathered a whole ass child with someone else outside of marriage but also announced it to the whole world so fucking nonchalantly like that, I'd lose my goddamn MIND.
#man r u fucking kidding me rn#i know expecting celebs to be decent ppl is already asking for much but when they can't even respect their own FAMILIES#oh wow im so happy ur gonna raise ur baby daughter with so much love and support. now what about your other 3 teenage daughters??#what about your wife? the mother of your children? no love and support for them at all?#god ill never be in any relationship for as long as i live#dave grohl
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also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#this is true for like most of these guys [gestures vaguely to comicbook men] but frank is the one that makes me want to chew on rocks rn. s#like yeah i selfship with him for fun and i like to think about cutesy or funny stuff involving him but the reality is he makes me so sad#ig thats part of why i do it. you make me so sad old man. but youre not real so in some version of not real you can be a little better#not happy but yk better#but like. just. fuck man hes so deeply damaged and hurt it drives me up the wall. my hurt person hurting people#as always i struggle to string words together this isnt news if you know anything about him you know exactly what im getting at#he would have been a wonderful father and husband. the way hes so devoted to them still. always. its killing me#sometimes i see canon moments of him where how just fundamentally deeply broken as a person he is and augh#nothing can help you nothing can make things any better but my god you cannot be left alone in this state#eh maybe thats it. i cant help him i cant make him feel better. but i cant let him be alone like this#i dont think he should have to be alone like this#bleh sorry word vomit. im tired and sleepy. i wrote 4 essays this week. need to write 2 more. going a little bonkers#brain is fried.
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can’t stop thinking about all the possibilities for her in S2
Men DNI
#I wanna see her lead zaun even tho I feel it’s somewhat unlikely#I want her backstory#fuckkk they better not do her dirty :((#im emotional and im stressed and ive cried 3 times today thinkinf about her#uhh god im vrying again 😭#ugh#fuck im thinkign too much i cant even write down what else i want to see of her#I want to see her living a happy peacful life away from zaun with a smile on her face in 4k#I also wouldn’t mind seeing her naked#I wanna see her pretty scars#also please add renata to the show#Im not a fan of ‘renata is sevika!!!!’ theory because. it just doesn’t make sense to me.#and idk it feels like it takes away from sevika as a character#also#they dont even look the same. the only similarities i can see are the arms.#idk where people pulled that theory from#ALSO another reason i dont like it is because i think renata and sevika should bang#i dont want them to be the same singular person because I want both of them at once 🫶#sevika#arcane#<3#there’s def a lot more to list but i can’t think rn so im gonna go sleep:3
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maria in a wheelchair. canon image of maria in a wheelchair SHE CANONICALLY USED A WHEELCHAIR IM SO FUCKINGGGGRAAAAGRHRAAAAAAAAAA
#I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE THIS I WON SO HARD OH MY FUCKING GOD I ACTUALLY STARTED TEARING UP THIS IS INSANE#PPL HAVE DEPICTED MARIA AS A WHEELCHAIR USER FOR SO LONG I CANT BELIEVE ITS ACTUALLY CANON NOW#THEYRE ACTUALLY SHOWING HER ILLNESS AFFECTING HER AND REALISTICALLY SHOWING HOW THAT WOULD WORK#IM LITERALLY SO FUCKING HAPPY RN#serena.txt#sxsh spoilers#sonic x shadow generations spoilers#shadow generations spoilers#shadow gens spoilers
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me when the homosexual punk vampire freaks
#GOD i havent done some nice hatch shading in so long please dont mind the mess#also god damn hair details will be the death of me <33#but im happy w these designs#fuck drawing full bodies rn LOL#jrwi the suckening#jrwi soda#jrwi emizel#sketching shit#jrwi fanart#jrwi: suck
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NEW BTS PICS
Hm....an explosion... Where else did I see an explosion....
Ah, right.
MAYBE THATS WILL IN ST5.
We know Brenner basically copy pasted the other numbers with ones blood that's why they all have his powers, we know he needed more than him, how it's presented in the first shadow.
Not going deeper into this, but to sum up I believe Will has powers, and that he was most likely the cause of this explosion.
#no beta we die like my respect for noah schnapp#byler#stranger things#byler theory#st5#st5 bts#st5 filming#explore#IM SO FUCKING HAPPY RN OMG#HE HAS POWERS AND HE HAS POWERS AND LIKE OH MY GOD ST5 IS GONNA BE DEEP#plus WE GET JUICY ASS SCENES FOR PLOT OMG#SO FAR SO GOOD I FEEL SO POSITIVE ABT THIS SEASON OMG
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YALL OH MY GOD I GOT A 92 ON MY ORGANIC CHEM FINAL HOLY SHIT
#sorry this is a big deal for me but#I DID SO MUCH BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD OH MY GOD#im shaking rn oh my god i’m so happy#SEMESTER IS FINALLY FUCKING OVER!!!!!!!!#SENIOR YEAR LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOO#still have to take organic chem ii tho 😔#maddie’s nonsense
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MY MOM JUST BOUGHT ME THE PATREON WAR IS OVER
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#jrwi#LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#I CANNOT EXPLAIN THE EMOTIONS IM FEELING RN. IM WINNING IM LITERALLY WINNING WHAT THE FUCK#STIMMING SO HAR.D . I FEEL LIKE IM GONANA THROUGUH UP.#SLshs SES SJM AHFJAHGJAKJGJSHGKDJDKDKFHDHAHDJDKK#WORSS CANONNTOT DESCRIBER HOW HAPPY IN AMMMAM RN#UFKCKCJ#I LOGE HER I LOBE HER SO MUCH#INSANE. GOING ISNANE RIGHT JOA#OH MU GOD
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