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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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that shitty thing some people do where they compliment something about you, only to take it back and reveal that it was meant to be a joke at your expense when you sincerely thank them for it, used to bother me until i realised that you can just. keep it. refuse to hand that power back to them. they are never prepared to deal with this.
#🐉#i sometimes get hit with this 'you poor deluded naive little idiot. you actually thought someone could admire your pathetic ass' routine#usually for the slightly eccentric way i dress. sometimes for the earnest and honest way i act.#but nobody ever knows what to do when i just keep responding to their attempts at mocking me with complete sincerity#someone once asked me where i got my outfit so they could give it a try themselves in a very obvious 'i am making fun of you#by implying how ridiculous i would look if i dressed like you' way and i just started suggesting how he could#put an outfit like mine together completely straight faced. and he quickly realised hed tried the wrong door.
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Golden Boy (and Silver Girl) for the Kintsugi AU.
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#katara#atla fanart#atla art#prince zuko#zutara au#kintsugi au#kintsugi#fire lord zuko#katara x zuko#zuko x katara#katara fanart#katara art#katara of the southern water tribe#zutara fanart#zutara art#Lore update!#Despite adopting Kintsugi as their official practice to promote cultural superiority; Kintsugi is not inherently Fire Nation#The other nations practice Kintsugi as well. Though ever since the War started it's much more uncommon to see outside of the Fire Nation#The Earth Kingdom seal their scars in bronze. The high nobles consider it to be unbecoming so it's much more common in the middle classes.#Kintsugi is much more well received in the SWT than it is up North. The NWT believe it to be barbaric. A foreign practice adopted by the...#...less civilised South. You can imagine the outrage and scorn Katara received when arriving North with a quite noticeable silver scar.#It is the seal of a Southern Warrior. She got hers during the same raid that took Kya. Hakoda himself has quite a few...#While Sokka tried to give himself a Kintsugi scar (it did NOT go well)#The Air Nomads didn't practice Kintsugi! Theirs was a naturalist approach. Your body is yours to cherish and protect just as it naturally is#These ideas were shared with me by some amazing people! If you have any headcanon or idea regarding this (or any) of my AUs let me know!#It makes me so happy to inspire you! Even if it's just a little. I'd love to hear all your thoughts and rambles!!!
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The indescribable tension between an overworked and underpaid smut writer, and his biggest fan hater.
(for @frummpets)
#SVSSS#Shen yuan#shang qinghua#cumplane#Normally I don't tag with ship names but this one is a special case.#Confession time: When I first had SVSSS described to me I 100% thought the main pairing was between these two.#The dynamic is impeccable! Even if its 'just a fan ship' I stand by it.#Sorry to the people who like to think of them as handsome pretty boys. I don't.#These guys sit in their rooms and use the computer for 90% of waking hours. They are not looking after themselves well enough for good skin#They can be cute in their own way. People with acne and missed shaving spots deserve to have their romances too.#And sloppy hate makeouts <3#Hi Sol! I truly did whoop and holler when drawing your name for the raffle!#You've been so kind and generous towards me and I'd happy to finally have the opportunity to give back some of that joy!#Thank you so much for all your support and the incredible fanart <3 You've made my day so many times!#I hope this silly mini comic is to your liking!#Playing around with colours for this one was a blast!
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"how do you enjoy *insert fandom here* I hear they're the worst"
Find the ppl who enjoy the thing you like the way you do. Ignore, mute or block the ppl who don't.
Ta-Da~
#literally just unfollowed someone posting petty snark about choices ppl made in game#their good taste in fanart isn't worth their superiority complex that THEY made BETTER CHOICES or whatever#been doing this since I was in Sailor Moon way back when#It helps a ton for Dragon age as well#and a MILLION PERCENT what I do for CR lol#I just thought adding the veil here was funny#b/c you do lose some of the magic#but at least your life isn't MISERABLE#No fandom is better than being among bad fandom TRUST me#and much like me in my own fandom space this probably will give me and 5 other ppl a chuckle XD
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You believe me like a god I'll destroy you like I am
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#i wish to hear your interpretations hehe#this was a lot of fun to work on and really stretch my painting legs#is this a direct product of that mitski post from mythalism? yes. yes it is. (if you're seeing this thank you sm for planting the idea)#“i thought you wanted the pain” i love it give me more#something something about the parallels between the vallaslin scene and this i mean what i didnt say that#emrys lavellan#inquisitor lavellan#female inquisitor#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#dai#dragon age the veilguard#datv#da4#solavellan#solas#solas dragon age#dragon age fanart#da fanart#digital art#my art#bishiart
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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If even acknowledging antisemitism within your community spaces is going to "distract from the cause," maybe that's because the foundation of your beliefs comes down to antisemitism. What you're doing is telling on yourself.
#jumblr#jewish politics#personal thoughts tag#yes if you're in the group chat this is a vague post but seeing that (what i complained about) made me realize this#maybe it wasn't all that bad then???#this has the same energy as people who say that acknowledging transphobia in feminist spaces is wrong#because obviously you can only focus on One Thing At A Time like we're in a video game! (sarcasm)#i promise you can be against bigotry of all kind and it won't take away from anything about your causes#like i'm a Believer In Feminism and i also focus on fixing transphobia within these spaces i am in! it's EASY!!!#it's easy because i see trans people as intrinsic human beings i'll give you that but it's still easy#women are not Missing Out on my activism because i am focused on more than one thing at a time
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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sorry im really obsessed with this pair … 🧚 u guys must understand… i have a rare pair addiction …
#doodle#arcane#mel medarda#vi#vi arcane#viomel#the jacket doesnt match and its not her style but for some reason mel cant find it in herself to care………. delicious#they never interact so i can make their interactions fluffy and cute… this is my perfect victory#GAWDDDDD i love rarepairs im so sorru#my worst trait because there is always zero fanart and like One fanfic and nothing else#Please guys please take your viomel pills with me#also just wanted to draw silly & cute mel#shes too stressed out can we put her in a hallmark christmas romcom with vi please thanks#n dont bring fandom discourse here cuz i dont give a fuck#fuckkk i thought vis jacket had wolves on it. pretend theyre wolves. it completes the vision
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Just rewatched centaurworld with my sister, is this anything?
#i don't wanna hear any complaints about mistakes guys cause trust me i already know I don't need to be told 😔#ANYWAY this line from the general's battle song is literally SO good it gives me chills every single time 🙏#if you haven't watched centaurworld RUN to Netflix (or y'know.. your pirate ship)#savor that first watch through cause you won't get it back 🙏#cole's art#gravity falls#art#grunkle stan#stanley pines#grunkle ford#ford pines#stangst#right?#idk#guys ever since i started doing those comics I can't stop just coloring sketches with grayscale#this was going to be a fully line arted piece but then i thought about just taking it easy and.... it was greyscaled before my eyes 😔
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saw someone saying something like "do you really think veilguard story would be better if you could do evil choices?" and actually yeah. i think if they let us act more like the dreadwolf on the "you are a paralellism to the dreadwolf" game, it would be more significant when the story tells you "you are a bit like him/you are nothing like him" because , thats how you chosed to play it.
#like i think the game could be good without the evil choices. but i would like a choice at all tho.#it can be just pragmatical vs idealist it can be about how much would you be able to give or sacrifice#how the game is now when you lose people it feels more like you failed more than you sacrificed them#veilguard critical#also#i can see all his memories and judge him in veilguard#but the thing that really made me be on his shoes#was the inquisition mission In Hushed Whispers#where you wake up in a horrible world and you just want the old one back#da4 spoilers#da4#dragon age#stuff like the emmrich mission i thought it was gonna be a paralelism to solas#of “would you sacrifice your people in order for you to have more power to save others?”#“would you move on from the dead or try to get it back ?” like it worked both ways#there was a moment in game i thought all the companion missions were thematicly connected to the themes of the plot#but idk the themes are there but at the same time there are not idk how to explain it#when varric is like “you are not like solas!!!” doesnt really work for me when its impossible to be like him#it never worked for me when charas in videogame tells you “you are X” for things that you are forced to do in game#and its always a gut punch or very satisfying when you actually chosed to do them#anyways im rambling
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Just a sleepover
#trolls#trolls 3#trolls band together#brozone#trolls oc#trolls oc cory#clay trolls#bruce trolls#Floyd trolls#branch trolls#john dory#john dory trolls#trolls comic#its really giving “😏 im stuff”#oh well ..#this isnt really like canon within the au i just thought it would be funny and conflama if . this happened#they just had a sleepover idk ... but sleepover is like 3rd base if youre a troll JfjejcjkDJJCJEJD IF YOUR ADULTS#this is really turning into jd dating sim cause i want to follow every path#if this was a dating sim id probably do corys route first .....#BUT ANYWAY this just made me laugh at work all day so#i also have something that i wanna post but .... ..... ..... well ... we'll see#not my house man NOT IN MY HOUSE!!!#<- branch
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For curiosity's sake...
#marvel#deadpool and wolverine#x-men#venom#deadpool#poolverine#cherik#symbrock#poll#movies#reblog to reach more voters#poll is a result of me having thoughts while walking and realizing i legit don't know the answer#i am usually not a marvel person and i dun really go here but curiosity is what it is#and each of these have had their Gayness spotlights on Tumblr dot com#please vote based on gayness of movie#not just which movie u like better/which ship is more established etc#actually u know what after making this poll#i think personally it might be D&W for me#the reason is because all of them are pretty gay BUT#with regards to a ''gayness to other stuff like plot'' ratio#D&W tilts the furthest gay#the others are gay but also have a decent amount of other stuff happening that is unrelated to the gay#for D&W i feel like the whole thing was an excuse for D and W to be gay and there was very little other plot#or rather the plot's sole purpose was to give D and W reasons to have very gay scenes together? am i making sense#anyway that need not be your criteria for 'gayness' since that was not specified in the poll#not meant to bias the votes but this is my current thinking#i made the vote and voted all pretty gay
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for @reiiofsunn 🤎
#seulgi#kang seulgi#red velvet#mycreations#femaleidolsedit#femaleidol#femadolsedit#redvelvetinc#ggnet#userpcultures#dailywoc#rvedit#forvy#korimilook#mostlyfate#ninqztual#useranusia#userdahyun#i was about to attempt the dreamy look your gifs had and then... nevermind! i don't think i'll ever have the amount of talent you possess#her ig post reminded me of you so i thought i'd give you a little gift (hope you don't mind)
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Periodic reminder that unless a person specifically and clearly tells you it is okay to tell others they are trans or queer, you should err on the side of caution and assume they do not want you to tell people (especially random people!) about their transness or queerness.
You have no idea, generally, why somebody doesn't talk openly about their trans or queer status, and you have no idea, truly, how somebody might react to that information. The most progressive person out there is still capable of harbouring incredibly negative thoughts about somebody's queer status.
#lesbian#gay#bi#bisexual#trans#transgender#queer#lgbt#lgbtq#ally advice#inspired after somebody at work outed me (again ×3)#i don't care how 'safe' you assume they will be! you cannot TRULY guarantee their safety!#you are effectively gambling with somebody's safety by assuming you can out them#also even if their safety was somehow 100% guaranteed it is still not your place to dictate what others know about THEM#like it isn't your own information you are giving out. the other person is a real human being with real thoughts...#...and there are real ramifications to your actions! this is like... real life and like... real people#anyway. i'm still fucking horrified at how cool people are (at least wrt me) with outing others 🙃🫠#and it just... further reminds me that others see me as like... a thing to be talked about/over and i'm not seen as an autonomous human#maybe that's not their intentions 9/10 times but that still doesn't justify it nor does it change how i interpret that behaviour 👍#it's just dehumanizing imo to be reminded 'your comfort DOESN'T MATTER. i think you should be talked ABOUT not TO.'#clarification for the first tag: this is the THIRD time somebody has outed me. i NEVER talk about being trans to... pretty much ANYBODY irl#it's shit like this that i have to resist taking the 'doompill' over#because it's scary and dehumanizing every. single. time. i feel so fucking scared each time#because - AGAIN - i know my safety will NEVER be guaranteed because i am trans and queer
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