#give heaven some hell

[jmagnabo92]

72 - Cemetery

@prongsfoot-microfic

AO3

When James dies in the attack on Godric’s Hollow, Sirius must deal with his loss and trudge on with their son.  To the tune of “Give Heaven Some Hell”.

***

He can’t do this, Sirius thinks, as he enters the church in a suit and tie, since it’s a muggle church.  It’d been difficult enough finding James’ body, finding their son – wounded, but alive – and now, he’s here at the church to say his goodbyes?  He can’t do it.

He wants to turn heel and leave – never look back, but Kingsley stops him.  Offers him a flask, and he takes a pull.  

Can't believe that you got me in a suit and tie I had to take a pull so I wouldn't cry

He feels better, at least enough that he could get through his final goodbyes without having a meltdown that would no doubt scare their son.

You got a line out the church door sayin' goodbye

He couldn’t believe the people that had shown up for him, but he deserves it.  James Potter always deserved all of the love in the world especially since he saved their son fearlessly.

He was the perfect father.  How were they going to go on without him?

Yeah, I believe 'em when they say you're in a better place You had a wild side but you had amazing grace

At least James was in a better place.  A safe place.  A place where he could go out adventuring again – out there, up there somewhere.  Sirius wanted him here, with him and their son, but he could admit that there was nothing he wanted more than for James to be happy in a better place.  

“Would you like to say something?” Kingsley prompts, but Sirius shakes his head.  

James would already know what he’s thinking, what Sirius would want for him.  James would be better at this than Sirius, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s here and James is there.

I know you're way off up in them clouds But if you could still hear me right now

I hope you hit those gold streets on two wheels I hope your mansion in the sky's got a ten acre field With some mud and some hubs you can lock in Make some thunder, make 'em wonder how you got in Hide your beer, hide your clear from the man upstairs Crank it loud, hold it down 'til I get there And when I do, I hope you got some new stories to tell 'Til then, give Heaven some hell

He hopes for nothing more than James to be happy up there.  For him not to ache the way that Sirius aches at his loss.

If it weren’t for Harry, he’d have fallen apart completely, but he knows their son needs him, so he pushes back the hurt, the pain, and devastation to say goodbye.  

***

As Sirius stands by the James’ grave in the cemetery by the church, holding their son in his arms, he can’t help thinking that James deserves better.  Better than dying just because some death eater pointed at their son as some sort of chosen one.

As grateful as he is that he’s got Harry and Harry’s safe with him, he can’t help thinking how he never thought he’d have to do this without him.  Never wanted to.  

How he had gotten through the ceremony and burial was beyond him because it’d been nearly an hour since they buried him and he couldn’t even bring himself to move.  

He kept wanting it to be a dream – a joke.  That James would come back to him and tell him that he wasn’t really gone, but he knows it isn’t true.  James is gone, now and forever.

“It’s going to be okay, Sirius,” Kingsley says, in his gruff voice from beside him.  He’d obviously stayed behind after the ceremony to be there for him.  

Sirius appreciates it, somewhat.  Although there was a part of him that wanted to be alone, he knows he shouldn’t be, not when he’s holding their son in his arms and should be thinking about him and not wishing that his father were here.

“I know, I just – it’s hard.  I wonder what he’s doing up there?”

Kingsley chuckles, “If I know James, he’s probably up there – making friends and causing chaos.”

I bet you're lookin' for a crew like we had Bunch of noise makin' boys that like to live fast Burnin' rubber in a parkin' lot

“You know, as not ready as we are for him to leave, I bet they’re even less ready for him to get there,” Sirius jokes.

Kingsley smiles.  “The other side won’t know what hit them.”

Man, I don't know if the other side's ready or not, but

I hope you hit those gold streets on two wheels I hope your mansion in the sky's got a ten acre field With some mud and some hubs you can lock in Make some thunder, make 'em wonder how you got in Hide your beer, hide your clear from the man upstairs Crank it loud, hold it down 'til I get there And when I do, I hope you got some new stories to tell 'Til then, give Heaven some hell

Sirius grins.  “I like that thought – you know.  James living his best life up there, gathering stories to tell me when I join him.”

“That’s the spirit,” Kingsley grins.  “Just remember that it may not be fair, but he’s going to cause all sorts of chaos and then he’s going to tell you all about it, someday.”

I was there when you raised your hand Heads bowed, singing just as I am Walkin' that aisle, prayin' that prayer Man, it ain't right but if you gotta be there

I hope you hit those gold streets on two wheels Hope your mansion in the sky's got a ten acre field With some mud and some hubs you can lock in Make some thunder, make 'em wonder how you got in Hide your beer, hide your clear from the man upstairs Crank it loud, hold it down 'til I get there And when I do, I hope you got some new stories to tell 'Til then, give Heaven some hell, yeah

“I like that,” Sirius admits.  He wants James to be happy, to do what makes him happy even if he’s without Sirius.  Even if it hurts to think of James up there without him, causing chaos with some one that is not him.  It hurts to think he’ll be giving Heaven some Hell without him, but it’s good, too.

“He’s going to give Heaven some Hell, and then you’re to join him some day far in the future, when your boy no longer needs you, and he’s going to spend ages filling you in.”

Normally, Sirius would make some joke about James ‘filling’ him in, but he’s not in the mood.  Still, the thought does help.  

“Thanks, Kings.”

I was there when you raised your hand (oh) Heads bowed, singing just as I am Man, it ain't right, man, it ain't fair I'll see you again But 'til then, give Heaven some hell

Sirius tightens his arms around Harry, and says, “I love you, James.  It’s not right, it’s not fair, just know someday, we’ll be reunited and in meantime, I’ll take care of our boy, and you give Heaven some Hell.”

There’s an answer wind that almost smells like James, and somehow, he feels like he heard him.  With that, Sirius feels better, and now, must trudge onto an unknown future as a single parent without the love of his life.  

At least, it won’t be forever, they’ll be reunited someday.

[country-n-sassy]

I can't believe it's been 2 years. There's so much I wish I could tell you and so many things you've missed

You should be here.

I miss you so much, until we meet again, know I love you and miss you every day ❤️

If I could trade you places, I would. My heart will never be the same. 💔

[chelseajackarmy]

Akira Toriyama

We lost a legend

He changed the manga game forever

Rest easy

[froschli96]

🗣️ Darlin', you give love a bad name

Found this in my old wip folder and it feels now more relevant than ever :)

Also these don't know why I never uploaded these they were just sitting there completely finished:

[happypeachsludgeflower]

I'm working on a scene where Feng Xin is having a meltdown and crying in a blanket pile on his bed, and I have realized that Ancient China did not use western bedding... do I re-work the entire scene and take out the modern sulk fest because it's not historically accurate to have a pile of blankets on a soft comfy bed? Or do I leave it because it's self-indulgent and adds to the ✨drama✨ of the scene..

[baffledapple]

I'd like to state my predictions for the season 1 ending

obviously episode 7 is gonna be about gathering their resources - convincing the other overlords to assist in the fight against the extermination (vaggi subplot perhaps?) episode eight is of course going to focus on the fight, and hell is going to win. or at the very least succeed in driving the exterminators off, this is the only thing that makes sense in the narrative but AFTER the battle (or perhaps during) the REAL conflict is going to just be building up. Adam (or Sera?) CANNOT admit that they are wrong (angles don't make mistakes) so they have to double down. And word has gotten out about the extermination to the average angel right?

So Adam needs PROOF that the extermination is not only necessary but ALSO righteous.

And for the first time EVER - demons are going to be fighting back against the exterminators. This isn't going to be the one-sided slaughter. this is going to be a battle, and demons that have been living in fear of exterminators are not going to be gentle or taking non-lethal shots. They are going to tear angels apart with extreme gusto!

And Adam is going to use that against them. He can show what's happening in hell LIVE. (or recorded via his little spaceship?) And it will be so easy to sway heaven to his way of thinking! Look at all those sinners, tearing a part our people, our siblings in the heavenly host? Look at how they kill our holy soldiers painfully, drawing it out! Dismembering them alive! Look at their faces, the sinners ENJOY it. We couldn't let them go unpunished, this is an attack on heaven! And we have to make sure it NEVER happens again.

Hell may win this battle, but heaven is going to go to war.

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

finished hazbin hotel and what the fuck it's actually kind of??? good???

[thepringlesofblood]

don't make me tap the sign

[image id: screenshot of the simpsons "don't make me tap the sign" meme, where the sign is edited to read "“Hastur was a Duke of Hell. Crowley wasn’t even a local councilor” - Good Omens (1990)" /end id]

update: re-read the book lately and realized they spell it "counsellor" bc they're british. this makes sense but it also means my american ass can't help but read "counsellor" as the american "counselor" which is like a therapist or mental health consultant (the way i spelled it originally is like. someone who sits on a council. which is what i'm sure they meant). just wanted to share the fun image of crowley as a therapist ("I see I see. have you tried yelling at plants?"), or even funnier, that "Duke" as a title is like. a level above therapist. grand therapist. high throne of therapy. tier 1 therapist hastur la vista.

[thisisaname-whatahappyname]

something something episode six something something about how so far the show seems to be saying that people can grow and change, that being a bad or good person isnt eternal at all which makes the concept of hell and heaven eternal punishment or eternal bliss is stupid and unfair

[jade-len]

do you guys think tianlang-jun would've enjoyed reading colleen hoover books or would even that be too much for him

[xxgotthedevilinsidexx-archived]

@therebetterbepie Asked:

❝ would you just stop treating me like something you’re trying to fix ? ❞ ( for drake )

【❖】   ――――    Drake   felt   mildly   insulted   by   the   remark.   ❝   I'm   not   trying   to   fix   you,   Dean.   I'm   just   trying   to   help,   ❞   Drake   replied   calmly.   When   it   came   to   self   blame   and   hatred   it   was   an   area   he   knew   a   thing   or   two   about.   He   turned   away   from   Dean,   his   jaw   clenched   in   frustration.   This   tension   between   them   had   been   building   for   weeks.   The   more   Dean   tried   to   insist   that   he   didn’t   need   help   and   could   handle   it   all   on   his   own   the   more   Drake   knew   he   was   in   denial.   Dean's   constant   skepticism   was   wearing   on   him.   ❝   You   think   you're   the   only   one   who's   ever   been   through   something   like   this   ?   ❞   Drake   finally   turned   back   to   face   Dean,   his   voice   tinged   with   emotion.   ❝   I've   been   where   you   are,   Dean.   I   know   what   it's   like   to   feel   broken,   to   feel   like   there's   no   way   out.   But   pushing   away   the   people   who   want   to   help   you   won't   make   it   any   easier.   ❞

Drake’s   jaw   clenched.   ❝   You   don't   have   to   face   it   alone.   ❞   Drake   sighed,   feeling   the   weight   of   Dean's   stubbornness   pressing   down   on   him.   He   knew   that   breaking   through   Dean's   walls   wouldn't   be   easy,   but   he   couldn't   stand   by   and   watch   his   friend   suffer   in   silence   any   longer.   ❝   I   get   that   you're   used   to   handling   things   on   your   own,   Dean.   But   sometimes   even   the   strongest   of   us   need   a   helping   hand.   ❞   Heaven   ,   Hell,   Angels,   Demons   and   God   himself   ?   No   one   could   handle   all   that   weight   and   just   be   okay   with   it   and   not   have   any   lingering   trauma.   He   would   know   better   than   anyone.   Dean,   for   all   his   bravado   and   tough   exterior,   was   carrying   a   heavy   burden   on   his   shoulders.   Drake   could   see   it   in   the   way   Dean's   eyes   flickered   with   a   mixture   of   fear   and   exhaustion.   ❝   I'm   not   asking   you   to   magically   be   okay   with   everything   that's   happened,   ❞   Drake   continued,   his   voice   softer   now.   ❝   But   you've   got   to   let   someone   in,   Dean.   You   can't   keep   shutting   everyone   out.   ❞   Drake   reached   out   a   hand,   placing   it   gently   on   Dean's   shoulder.   ❝   I'm   here   for   you,   man.   Just   let   me   help.   ❞

[dnalt-d2]

You know, we never got an explanation for what the little Eye Guys are

What if they're the previous inhabitants of Egg Island Purgatory?

Wouldn't it be weird if there were suddenly more of them running around tomorrow?

[silversiren1101]

I love them so much your honor

[tenok]

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[out-of-heaven-and-hell]

Honestly if Vaggies Zuko I have to wonder if that would make Adam Ozai

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

That's so weird because my reaction to S4 finale is it was the moment that convinced me Buddie was going to be endgame. Now two seasons later and we could be heading back to that same ending for the season depending on the events of the finale leaves me doubting things ngl. The only things I'm clinging on to are the couch theory, Eddie saying that relationships with people you meet at a rescue never works, and the fact that we're being introduced to these women so late in the season. It just seems like the writers even know they're giving this the most superficial things so that they can fix what they did in early S7.

To put it bluntly it just sucks that you know if this was gonna be the final 2 episodes that instead of going towards a story they've been telling since S2 they decide to put Buck and Eddie with women we don't even know their last name or anything about them. But they got renewed and will be moving to ABC so they can do the story they wanted to tell and I imagine these women will be kicked to the curb early in S7.

Okay, I'm gonna be real honest with you. I've seen that you've sent asks to a few of my friends, all generally saying the same thing. So to see you send me this ask makes me feel like you don't really want to have a discussion and aren't looking for actual support or positivity, you just want to keep being upset and tell people until someone agrees with you and tells you that your opinion that the writers made a shitty choice etc is valid.

So, to repeat a few things my friends have said:

They have not been doing Buddie since season two. I don't know why people persist on claiming this. Buddie was never the original plan. They did not decide to have Eddie get with Buck in season two. In fact in season two they seemed kinda unsure what to do with Eddie since he wouldn't be with Maddie any longer, but they still wanted the character, and Ryan, on the show. For my money, they started exploring the possibility of Buddie and discussing it seriously in season three, and season four was when they locked that in.

Now, I don't know about you, since you're a stranger on the internet, but to me, as a writer, it is a much, much better choice for them to have taken the risk rather than cram Buddie together, for a few reasons.

One: They cannot walk it back once Buddie is together. You're telling me you wanted them to sacrifice their story's integrity to give us a rushed unsatisfying get-together? Get out of my house. Watching television is, inherently, a gamble because it means you might get your stories unfulfilled. If you can't take that risk, then leave the casino. I am willing to risk it because I want a truly satisfying get-together, not something that was rushed and therefore isn't worthy of the delicious slow burn they're building.

Two: How many times do I have to scream at everyone to consider the behind the scenes issues before people start actually listening to me? Oh, forever? Because everyone is operating in bad faith and nobody wants to actually listen? Good to know. This will be the last I say on the matter.

We do not know what behind the scenes was going on in addition to the cancellation. What if certain Fox executives weren't supportive of Buddie? You're telling me that the writers and cast and crew should have, right when they'll need new jobs, guaranteed that their last employers will talk shit about them for disobeying orders and putting two characters together that they were told not to put together?

This is purely conjecture on my part, but I have seen time after time in fandom certain cast members and certain crew members and certain writers want a ship to become canon, and others not, and I have seen the way that back and forth played out, and guess fucking what? NOBODY WANTS TO LOSE THEIR FUCKING JOB. NOBODY WANTS TO BE PREVENTED FROM HAVING ANOTHER JOB.

Now, again, that's pure conjecture, but Fox really hasn't treated OG well for a while in terms of renewal, marketing, etc. And I have never, EVER, seen a show snapped up by another network so quickly. It's always "we got cancelled!" and then a few days or weeks later it's "we were saved by another network!" ABC was ON it. This gives me hope for a lot of things, like perhaps a 22 episode season. But given Fox's lack of promotion and appreciation for OG, it wouldn't surprise me if the cast and crew wanted Buddie and some people in the network didn't, and that is why we've been delayed on Buddie going canon. And while YOU may cry viva la revolution, it's much easier to have your principles when you've got a belly full, and while it may suck creatively there is no reason to piss off your bosses right when you need them to write you a recommendation for a new job because your show got cancelled - and while I'm sure they were hopeful, given the cast's social media I do not think anyone knew until it was publicly announced that they had, indeed, been saved and gotten another season.

My point is, this is just one theory I'm pulling out of a hat like a rabbit. We do not know what other BTS stuff is going on that made them choose to delay Buddie until season seven.

Three: To go back to point one, I do not think you've seen the reactions when a ship goes canon poorly. I was there, Gandalf. I was there the day that Booth and Bones got together. I was in the trenches. It soured SO many people, including me, on the show. To quote MBMBAM: YOU DIDN'T STICK THE LANDING! YOU JUST FLIPPED IN THE AIR FOR TWENTY MINUTES!!!

Sticking the landing when getting a ship together is possibly the most important moment in the couple's story. You cannot fuck up that landing. The writers chose to take the chance on it never happening in order to stick the landing the way they wanted. If that pisses you off, FINE. But stop coming into our inboxes to say the same thing over and over again about it, because we do not agree and we are never going to agree. We are at an impasse.

Now, to move onto some other points, WHY IS EVERYONE CONVINCED THAT EDDIE WILL STILL BE WITH SOMEONE WHEN THE SEASON ENDS!? WHEN DID WE DECIDE THIS!? He could be! But holy shit he could just go on one date with her that fizzles out! We have no clue! If someone in this fandom can see into the future and knows for sure this is going to happen then give me the winning lotto numbers right this second!!! Give them to me!!!! I need to fund my world domination campaign!!!

And finally, I feel like you've answered your own concerns, here. Given that you have sent similar asks to my friends, I don't think you're actually interested in allaying those concerns, because you keep answering your own questions and repeating yourself ad naseum. I could be wrong. Again, I don't know you. But this sure seems to be the case given that you're saying to me similar stuff you've said to my friends in asks they've already answered.

But to look at your own ask, you just said why we shouldn't be worried. "It seems like the writers even know..." YES. YES, THEY DO KNOW. I would love to know who the hell decided that television shows are made by the Television Fairy who creeps into the studio at night and waves her magic wand to create all the good stuff we see on our screens while the writers sit around with their thumbs up their asses.

Let's imagine you are a showrunner and you are going into the second half of your season, and you learn that it is extremely likely this season is actually your last. You guys start negotiating quietly with other networks to move the show, while hoping against hope this is not, indeed, the end. But this means you now have, what, nine episodes? To put all your characters in a place that is, if not ideal, at least somewhat positive for your audience?

You can't start any too-major arcs. You can't end on too bad of an emotional cliffhanger. This means some things will wrap up faster. Other things will get pushed forward. And some things have to be delayed, because they might never happen, and you can't give people a third or a half of an arc. Which means that you're going to be throwing in some filler for those characters instead, and doing things differently than how you might have wanted.

I do not know how many times I have to explain this, but television is not fanfiction. When I sit down to write a fic, there's not a damn person in the world who can tell me what to do. I write the story that I want, and if someone doesn't like it, they can hit the bricks.

Television is not like that. Television is one of the biggest group projects there is. Picture the worst group project you had to do in school and then times it by ten. Welcome to the television and film industry. The fact that any film or show, even the truly awful ones, gets made is nothing short of a miracle given all the people involved and all the ways the ball can be dropped. As a show runner, you are answering to multiple executives, to the creators, to the executive producers, to your own writers' room, and to the fans. You are trying to balance what everyone tells you to do, what the fans want you to do, and what you and your (hopefully trusted) writing team want and plan to do. I could never be a show runner and while there are quite a few with whom I've got bones to pick, I cannot deny that they all do a job I would never, ever be capable of pulling off. I'd quit on day three.

So, yeah, they gave Buck a temporary girlfriend as filler, to kinda cap off his current arc if this was the end, or to provide more layers to his full arc if they got another season. If you don't like that, then that's okay. Nobody is telling you to like it. When you come into someone's inbox like this, the assumption is that you're looking to be reassured, and so that's why you're getting the responses that you are. The previous people who've answered you have been trying to reassure you and allay the concerns you seem to have.

But it seems to me like you want a more full conversation, and possibly, that you just want to rant and vent. That's fine, but find a friend for that. Join a discord server. Because when you send the same stuff over and over again to different people, all of whom give you basically the same reply, it just makes you look like a very obstinate stick in the mud who wants everyone else to join them in being upset, and people don't much like having the same conversation multiple times, or being pushed into being upset when they're not.

You might just have to agree to disagree, and move on. Find other ways to get this out of your system, because my inbox, and the inboxes of others, is not the place for your venting in circles.

Now, in spite of my firm tone, I hope you will believe me when I say that I hope you're taking care of yourself, and that you are staying safe in this scary world, and that you have a good rest of your day.