#get a fuckin job dude get out of the house! do SOMETHING!!!! GET A HOBBY OTHER THAN DRINKING!!!!!!!!

[possum-tooth]

um. im ab to live w my parents again.......

[bluesockets]

HUGO WEIDERMANN ( HE/HIM ) is a CIS MALE, THIRTY-SEVEN year old THERAPIST & PSYCHIATRIST who has been living in Moorbrooke for TWO YEARS. They were born on MARCH 5 and right now, they are currently residing in REDGRAVE GROVE. It has been said that they look suspiciously like MATTHEW GRAY GUBLER and if they had to choose a song to describe themselves, they would choose HEAVY BALLOON by FIONA APPLE. ( ox, 21+, cst, he/him )

❮ it grows relentless like the teeth of a rat it's just got to keep on gnawing at me !! ❯ TW : ILLNESS, DRINKING MENT. !

full name : hugo weidermann. nicknames : he actually hates most derivatives of his name. calling him ‘huey’ is a one way ticket to getting your number blocked. pronouns : he/him. age : thirty-seven. date of birth : march 5, 1984. zodiac : pisces. gender : cis male. sexuality : gay. hometown : munich, germany. current residence : redgrave grove. languages spoken : german + english.

BIO !

—— hugo was born into a moderately wealthy family right in the middle of munich, germany. his parents pushed a lot of their #grindset on him and his baby sister. unfortunately for him, this meant a future of perfectionism and unrelenting gifted kid syndrome. he sacrificed a lot of his social needs for grades early in his life and after a while, it all became second nature. once in a blue moon he’d talk to his peers in scouting but he’d stutter, stumble over his words, and never quite found the right things to say. figuring himself a lost cause, he studied. he helped his mom with the garden. maybe occasionally played half life or duke nukem on the family computer. all of this dedication to perfection made him a shoe-in for harvard university, all the way over in the united states. his parents, father especially, encouraged the idea. that was all he needed to get himself on a plane to massachusetts. he was just glad his family could afford frequent flights back home, in case everything went to shit. —— when he first landed, hugo thought he’d only be in the states for school, but he ended up liking it a lot more than he thought he would. after finishing school and taking up a residency in downtown boston, he moved to new york. he made a good amount of money, was able to keep in touch with the few friends he met in college, and even secured a few long term relationships along the way. he hit his thirties and finally felt that he reached a point of contentment. this ... didn’t last long. —— right before he was able to buy his first house in the city he fell ill and, after seeing more doctors than he could count on both hands and feet, was diagnosed with lupus and rheumatoid arthritis. this wasn’t something he thought he was going to be able to handle by himself, so his sister came down from her home in germany to assist him with his daily needs. the two of them definitely couldn’t afford new york and medical bills on hugo’s salary alone, which led them to pack their bags and head to ( what his sister considered ) the next best option. moorbrooke, maine !! he wasn’t too stoked about this. he’d be leaving most of his support system behind and he knew absolutely nothing about the area, but his sister found a job there and it was a good place for him to start a private practice of his own. he’s still struggling over the loss of independence and the complete change from where he was in life before, but he’s coping ! after spending a lot of time inside and away from the people of moorbroke, he finally thinks he might be ready to actually make a life here. even if he wasn’t, his sister isn’t gonna move the two of them any time soon.

TIDBITS !

he’s a very nice dude and will totally engage with people, he just cannot bring himself to let his walls down. you really gotta know hugo well if you wanna have a conversation about anything serious without him deflecting the whole damn time.

his accent .... god rest his soul. he’s been living here for 20 years and sometimes people still need to take a second to understand him. especially when he drinks. two beers in and the man needs a translator.

speaking of drinking, he doesn’t do it often, and he can’t hold his liquor. i’d actually advise people to never give him alcohol. like, ever.

was on the rowing team in college. please don’t ask him about it. he’ll talk about it forever.

if it weren’t for his dog and his bees he’d be at rock bottom. outside of writing ( which i will get to in a jiffy ), beekeeping is his favorite hobby. ask him nicely and he might give you a jar of honey.

before coming down with lupus and RA he wrote two very boring books for psychiatrists and psychiatrists only. now that his focus has shifted away from his career a little bit, he’s in the middle of writing a poetry collection.

you will find this man at every bookstore in a 10 mile radius. he can’t be in the sun for too long so instead he likes to look at stuff he promises himself he won’t buy and then buys it anyway.

CONNECTIONS !

clients

he’s got fifteen clients on his caseload just to keep himself from losing his mind. he specializes in family, grief, trauma, and stress but doesn’t limit himself too much because of how small the town is. what i’m saying is : let hugo prescribe your characters drugs.

fellow beekeepers

he’s kept to himself a lot during his time in moorbrooke but his sister used to force him out at least some of the time. she drives him to beekeepers association events and conventions often enough, i would imagine it’d be a lot easier for him to talk to someone who shares the same niche hobby !! if your muse doesn’t keep bees, i’m always down for him to talk to some of the people who buy his honey at farmer’s markets.

former close friends

hugo met a lot of people ( particularly on harvard’s rowing team ) in college and during his stint in new york. i’m sure it’d be great for him to meet someone he knew up here because he’s honestly so tired of having to get used to new situations by himself.

flirtationship but hugo is oblivious the entire time

this guy is definitely the type to flirt with people on accident. i think it’d be really fuckin funny if he was flirting back and forth w someone he wasn’t consciously flirting with in the first place.

😏

listen the only thing i love playing out more slow burn self improvement and found family is romance. he’s been single since he was in new york and i think he deserves a little smooch. please dm me if your muse is also deserving of a little smooch.

etc, etc, etc !

there’s definitely more i want. i want everything you have to give me. however, if you’re in need of specifics, i would love to see : his doctors, people he can become friends with + let his walls down around, people he can teach german to, other authors, beta readers, and neighbors !

what am i missing. ah, yes.

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[onthevirgeofdestruction]

Dreaming While I Wake

Sanders Sides Foster Care AU - Roman-centric Angst & Hurt/Comfort & Abuse Recovery

Roman tries to be upbeat and hopeful despite all the shit that’s happened to him. And a lot of shit has. Luckily, his new foster home is with two literal rays of sunshine (and a sarcastic asshole).

Words: 3,798 Triggers: spoilers Characters: Roman, Thomas, Minor Characters Universe: Dreaming While I Wake Genre: Power Angst

Chapter 12 (Check end notes for trigger warnings)

chapter 1 for new readers - ffn mirror

   “I’m not Satan. If I turn off the lights would you open your eyes?” The guy with the nice voice offered. It was strangely charitable for a demon. The beeping rang through Roma’s whole jaw and he could hear it in his bones somehow. Roman’s whole body hurt and honestly less light would be amazing, just as one less thing to deal with alone. But he didn’t understand where this was coming from.

   “What?” Roman asked incredulously and the bright glowing light around his arm disappeared. Roman dropped his arm tiredly. That was weirdly nice for hell. Roman slowly opened his eyes. “God damn it, did I survive?” Roman groaned as he looked around the hospital room, a guy in jeans and a floral button-down standing near the door. “That’s not fair,” He moaned in frustration.

   A woman stepped in from the hall, and Roman recoiled from the light. That was basically how his life went. One nice thing chased by two shitty things. Ah, normalcy at least.

   “A migraine?” The lady in the white coat asked. “You were dehydrated, so that isn’t surprising. How did you end up so dehydrated, Roman?”

   “I only just found out I’m not dead, cut me some slack,” Roman frowned and turned his head away. She just hummed at him. Roman huffed through his nose with disdain.

   “His charts look fine, and he can probably head home soon, once we get a urine sample and get the clean results we’re expecting. The nurse said he thought he was two years younger? Would you mind telling me again what happened before you couldn’t wake him up?” She asked.

   “He had run away at night. The police said they found him at the high school stadium. He had passed out at the station just before we got there to pick him up, according to them,” The guy explained. Roman didn’t run away. What was he talking about? He must have been running for Jet, right? What did she mean, two years younger?

   “Did he say why he ran away?” She asked. Roman watched them in confusion.

   “No, he didn’t leave a note or take anything but his house key. We argued about his bedtime, but there was no reason I can think of that he would run. He hadn’t slept well the night before so I asked him to go to bed 30 minutes early. It was barely an argument. He seemed miffed but didn’t argue back much. He asked if he could stay up to read and then dropped it. I don’t really know,” The guy said.

   “Who the fuck are you?” Roman asked, struggling to follow this conversation. His brain felt like a wet marshmallow.

   “I’m your ER doctor, Dr. Veronica,” She said, looking to Roman.

   “No, the dude who is claiming to know me,” Roman weakly pointed to the guy in the floral shirt.

   “I’m Thomas Sanders, your foster father,” He claimed.

   “My foster father is James Hall,” Roman retorted. “I have no idea who this dude is,” Roman motioned again towards him.

   “Please calm down and try to rest, Mr. Reinhart,” The doctor lady said placatingly.

   “Was he stressed about something in particular?” The Veronica one asked.

   “Homework, maybe? Lack of sleep? He joked about wanting to kill himself, and that was concerning. We had asked before if he wanted to see a therapist and my spouse said he had an anxiety attack just bringing it up,” The Thomas guy shuffled and rubbed his arm awkwardly.

   “Would you mind answering a few questions for me, Mr. Sanders? About Roman’s moods?” She asked and started tapping around on a tablet in a giant protector.

   “I can try,” Thomas said, sounding unsure. Does he mean try to guess?

   “Does he often have memory problems?” She asked. Why is she asking this freaking stranger when he was sitting right here?

   “I don’t think so,” Thomas replied, still uncertain. Yeah, why would he know?

   “How is his self-image?” She asked, not looking up from the tablet now.

   “Not great, I think, we haven’t had a chance to talk about it yet,” Thomas rubbed his arm.

   “Does he seem interested in his hobbies?” Dr. Veronica continued on. Maybe she was working off on a list on the tablet? This was getting really annoying.

   “He looks just as happy doing homework as he does playing video games. But he still seems to want to play them,” Thomas shrugged.

   “I don’t appreciate you talking about me like I’m not here,” Roman interjected bitterly.

   “You can chime in if you want, Mr. Reinhart. Just try to stay calm,” She said, sounding surprisingly soft despite his outburst. “Does he always act on guard?” Dr. Veronica asked another question.

   “Yeah, all the time. He’s jumpy about loud noises and people touching him,” Thomas said, gesturing slightly.

   “Who isn’t?” Roman shot angrily.

   “So he’s also easily frightened, then?” Dr. Veronica added, clicking something else.

   “Rude,” Roman huffed. He was used to adults ignoring him, but this was kind of ridiculous.

   “Yes, I’d say so,” Thomas said thoughtfully.

   “Any trouble sleeping?” Dr. Veronica continued tapping on the tablet.

   “Yes, that one is obvious. He nearly passed out in his breakfast this morning. He’s hard to wake up, in general,” Thomas furrowed his eyebrows. Roman shifted uncomfortably. He wished they’d close the door to the hall to drop the light in here again.

   “I don’t know how he knows that,” Roman rubbed his forehead and tried to drop the painful tension.

   “How about difficulty concentrating?” Dr. Veronica asked.

   “I think he probably concentrates too hard, if anything,” Thomas shook his head. Roman couldn’t concentrate for shit, so he had no idea where that answer came from.

   “I disagree,” Roman scoffed.

   “Any irritability or angry outbursts?” She furrowed her eyebrows.

   “My spouse said he’s seen some,” Thomas said, sounding uncertain.

   “Expressed any feelings of guilt or shame?” She asked, continuing down her list. Yeah, but he couldn’t say it. Roman looked at them nervously, hoping they didn’t notice his weak spot. Thomas continued to look to the doctor, and she kept looking at the tablet and Roman was a little relieved.

   “He had a panic attack when we bought him a phone, so I’d say very much. He was really guilty about us spending money on him,” Thomas nodded. This was moving from upsetting to kind of creepy. And threatening. This Thomas guy knew too much.

   “Does he have any difficulty expressing emotions?” She nodded.

   “No, not that I’ve seen,” Thomas shook her head. Maybe sometimes he did.

   “Any trouble maintaining close relationships?” Dr. Veronica seemed a little confused.

   “We haven’t had him that long, I don’t think he has any right now, honestly. He’d never mentioned friends or anything,” Thomas said. It was probably just Jet, honestly. They didn’t need to know any more about him, though.

   “How about hopelessness?” Dr. Veronica nodded again. Roman felt like he was running on hope, but that’s another thing he couldn’t bring himself to say. Roman weakly gripped the light blanket draped over him.

   “I told you he joked about wanting to kill himself, right? He was very blase about the whole thing,” Thomas sounded frustrated.

   “Right, right,” She stared at the tablet and clicked around more.

   “Life’s hard, who wants to live it anyway?” Roman said flippantly and paused. Dr. Veronica asked nothing else, just kept tapping on her tablet. “Are we finally done with talk about Roman like he isn’t here time?” Roman asked defensively. He couldn’t let himself be confused and vulnerable any longer. “I’m not looking forward to going back to the Halls, don’t get me wrong, but I don’t think I’m legally supposed to be here without them knowing? Also, please tell me there’s financial aid, because I know I can’t afford a fucking ER visit,” Roman said angrily.

   “Did the Halls make you pay for everything, Roman?” Thomas asked, looking concerned.

   “Yeah, of course, they do. That’s how society works. That’s why I have a job,” Roman said dismissively.

   “What do you do for your job?” Thomas asked curiously.

   “Who cares?” Roman huffed, looking at the tube in his arm. “What’s in the bag?”

   “Just some water, you were dehydrated when Thomas brought you in,” Dr. Veronica said. “Does he often deflect questions like that?” She asked.

   “Patton said he changes the subject often when they talk,” Thomas provided and gestured with his hand.

   “Patton’s a liar, whoever they are,” Roman shot angrily.

   “Roman, what do you think you got arrested for?” Thomas asked, sounding annoyed.

   “I know my rights,” Roman hissed and shot a pissed look at Thomas.

   “Try not to upset him, Mr. Sanders,” Dr. Veronica scolded him. Finally. “I think he might be having a regressive episode from stress. I’m making up a referral for a psychiatrist for him,”

   “I thought it had something to do with this,” Thomas said, sounding very concerned and motioning to Roman.

   “I would have said nothing in the first place if I had any idea I wasn’t dead, I assure you!” Roman glowered at them, but moving his face like that hurt his head and he couldn’t hold it for very long. He tried to breathe through the pain like he always did and gave up with emoting completely.

   “Roman, how do you feel about the police?” Thomas asked Roman pointedly.

   “Police are bad, duh,” Roman huffed he would have crossed his arms if he had the energy, so he just rolled his head away from the light.

   “So it’s fair to say that they stress you out a significant amount?” Dr. Veronica asked, sounding interested.

   “I’ve had a gun to my face, and that was less ‘stressful’ than being in the police station, why do you think I thought I died? It felt like my heart fuckin’ exploded,” Roman grumbled, not moving much.

   “What in the world-” Thomas shot, but the doctor lady shook her head, and he stopped himself.

   “I think it’s best to let him calm down to see if he comes back. It would be advisable to avoid any media with imagery of law enforcement in it for now. I’m glad we could find his trigger. But I’m not a mental health specialist. You can pick up the referral for a psychiatrist at the front desk. We don’t perform mental health here, we’re just trying to make sure he’s doesn’t need any other urgent care. Do you have to use the restroom, Roman?” The doctor explained. He didn’t entirely follow until she mentioned using the restroom.

   “Uh, yeah,” Roman muttered. He really did, now that he was thinking about it.

   “I’ll need a urine sample. My nurse will be right back to help you,” Dr. Veronica said with a brief nod and turned to leave the room.

   “I don’t need help to use the restroom,” Roman grumbled.

   “Is there something you’d like to do after they release you?” Thomas asked, walking closer to the bed.

   “You’re not my freakin’ legal guardian, why would I go with you?” Roman asked. “Are you some kind of pervert or something?” Roman accused blithely. Thomas looked shocked.

   “No! The doctors are talking to me because I am currently your legal guardian. You’re not at the Halls anymore. And that sounds like that is a good thing,” Thomas explained, sounding concerned. The other lady came back in. So she was a nurse and not a she-demon. Roman felt pretty fucking stupid right now. Of course he wasn’t dead. That would be too easy. Just some fun new way to embarrass himself.

   “Do you need help to use the restroom, Mr. Reinhart? Do you feel safe walking? We’ve cleaned and bandaged the cuts on your feet, but some were deep it’s best to be careful walking on them for now,” The nurse lady asked.

   “Sorry for calling you a she-demon, ma’am,” Roman muttered apologetically.

   “It’s all right, I thought it was pretty funny, honestly. Let me help you out of bed and you can tell me how safe you feel about walking lightly,” She offered. Roman nodded, and the nurse reached over to disconnect the tube from the needle in his arm. She helped Roman reposition himself on the bed and carefully helped him up. He was very shaky on his feet and everything hurt like hell, but he felt okay enough.

   “I’ll be okay,” Roman said. The nurse led him to the bathroom doorway, anyway. She handed him a cup with a lid and his name on a label. Roman’s first step into the bathroom without her was wobbly, but he was all right after that. He handed over the filled cup, feeling pretty embarrassed about it, and she took it down the hall after helping him back into the room. Roman sat back down on the bed and eyeballed Thomas.

   “What time is it?” Roman asked.

   “It’s around 10 o’clock,” Thomas offered, glancing at his phone. Roman didn’t recognize the model, so it must be nice. Maybe the guy was rich. Roman briefly considered pinching his wallet, but still hated the idea. Wait, 10 am?

   “Shit, what about school?” Roman asked, starting to panic.

   “We’ve called you out sick already, don’t worry about it,” Thomas said, motioning with his hands to calm down. “We can’t leave until they get all your test results back, anyway,” Thomas added, sitting down on some chairs near the bed. “Are you hungry? We could go out for lunch,” Roman patted his pants to check the contents, feeling out of it.

   “I, uh, don’t have my wallet,” Roman said sheepishly. He looked down, realizing he wasn’t in all black like he would have been if he were running for Jet. Shit, were they not lying to him? Roman grabbed his chest and took a sharp breath, his eyes shooting around the room again.

   “Roman, hey, hey, calm down. You don’t have to pay for lunch. We don’t have to go out to eat at all,” Thomas said, getting up and getting closer to him. Roman shifted suddenly back into the bed, hitting the rails on the other side of the hospital bed and hissing slightly in pain. He clenched his fists tightly around the pajama pant material and tried to breathe.

   “Am… am I really not with the Hall’s anymore?” Roman whispered, looking desperately up at Thomas.

   “You’re really not at the Hall’s anymore,” Thomas nodded. “Um, did you want to see a video of our dog trying to attack her own shadow?” Thomas offered, holding up his phone with a video paused of a brown and white dog looking absolutely pissed at the floor. Roman nodded, interested in anything other than trying not to freak out any further. He was in a hospital and if he had a fit right now it would be bad. Thomas handed over the phone and tapped the screen, and the sounds of a dog barking and growling at its shadow on the floor started playing. When the video stopped, Thomas flipped to the next one. The dog was chasing its tail in the grass while Roman’s breathing settled down. Roman watched a few more videos of dog antics quietly.

   “Are you feeling any better?” Thomas asked after the 5th or so video. Roman nodded slightly and moved to lay back on the hospital bed. He was really, excessively exhausted. He yanked the blanket back up higher and Thomas moved to sit back down on the chairs again. Roman closed his eyes and exhaled. If he was lucky, he could just sleep instead of letting himself focus on any of this awfulness. He started to curl up on his side, but the pressure on his ribs really hurt, so he shifted to ball up some blanket to hold and tried to sleep like that instead.

—

   “Hey, Roman, we need to clear out of here,” Thomas said, surprisingly close to Roman’s face. Roman’s breath hitched as he opened his eyes suddenly from the close voice. “It’s okay, it’s just me, I’ll give you your space,” Thomas said, backing up slightly. “Your tests came back clear and they need the bed,” Roman rubbed his eyes and nodded. Why the fuck was he in the hospital? Ugh, the smell alone was enough for bad memories to come flooding back. Roman noticed the needle in his arm and tried to remember what happened, but his brain felt really fuzzy and he was just so tired. At least he was already getting out of here. He hated hospitals. The less time in them, the better.

   “Let me get that out of you,” The nurse smiled and took Roman’s arm. She undid the tape and carefully slid out the needle. It felt incredibly wrong. She pressed a cotton ball to the puncture and guided Roman’s hand to apply pressure to it. She wrapped it up and gave him a small smile. “Remember to keep the feet elevated, clean, and dry while they’re healing,” She gave a small wave before leaving the room.

   He tried to roll over to get off the bed since there were rails in the way on the other side, and he inhaled sharply when he landed on his other side. Everything hurt, but that one really took the cake. What the fuck was up with his ribs? Roman shifted to sit up carefully. He pulled up his shirt to check if he could see anything wrong, and there was a pale greenish mark on his side.

   “Jesus, where did this come from?” Roman exclaimed quietly, inspecting the bruise. Thomas turned to look, and then quickly leaned out into the hall.

   “Excuse me, Dr. Veronica?” He called, waving into the hall.

   “How can I help, Mr. Sanders?” She asked, walking back into the room.

   “Roman has a bad large bruise over his ribs he doesn’t remember getting, would you mind checking it? It looks really bad.” Thomas asked, pointing to Roman who still had his shirt up, trying to figure out what happened.

   “I’m sorry, but I’m going to have to touch it,” She said, hovering her hand over the spot. Roman nodded, and his breath hitched on contact. It really hurt like a bitch. “Would you take a deep breath for me, Roman?” Roman nodded and started inhaling. “Fill your lungs completely and hold it,” She instructed. It hurt too much and Roman flinched, having to stop.

   “Sorry,” He muttered.

   “Would you say it hurts to breathe?” She asked.

   “Kinda,” Roman said, his face scrunching up when she started touching around it again.

   “Nothing feels broken, and ‘kinda’ hurts means it’s likely not badly fractured. I’ll send you an ice pack for it, and if it continues to be concerning tomorrow, schedule an appointment for an x-ray. You can grab the ice pack the front desk,” She said, heading back out of the room. Roman sighed and dropped his shirt. He’s done some dumb shit in his day but he hadn’t gotten a bruise like this in a long time. At least not without getting his ass beat, anyway. It was actually pretty familiar looking. Thomas rolled a wheelchair up to the bed and motioned for him to get on.

   Roman got up, slightly unsteady, and sat in the wheelchair. He was in a hospital and didn’t feel like questioning why he needed a wheelchair. His feet did hurt like shit. Roman looked down at them. The hospital booties were weird. Thomas pushed him out of the hospital room and down the hall. He wasn’t completely sure how he got here, but he vaguely remembered small parts of it before he fell asleep. He was still extremely drowsy and struggling to concentrate. He must have done something amazingly dumb. It hurt his head to try to remember, so Roman just gave up. His head was already killing him. They passed a nurse in the hall who handed him an ice pack out of nowhere before exiting to the lobby, and Roman pressed it gently to his bruise. They were efficient here.

   Thomas stopped off at the front desk before pushing Roman outside. He stopped the wheelchair and waved before jogging off into the parking lot to go get his car, probably. Roman waited numbly. He didn’t know what was going on and wasn’t even sure he wanted to. Being in a hospital was awful enough without all the pain. If he wasn’t so numb he’d probably be relieved he couldn’t think straight or feel much since at least he wasn’t freaking out about being here that badly. Just awful flashes of memories to fight off. Thomas’s car pulled up, and he got out and jogged around to push Roman up and help him into the car before Roman could pull himself up. He sat in the idling car while Thomas pushed the wheelchair back inside, waiting for Thomas to return. He was so fucking tired. Thomas came back with a little smile and started driving away. They drove in silence for a while. Roman had no idea what to say. Or if he should say anything.

   “Are you doing okay, Roman?” Thomas asked after a bit while they waited at a red light.

   “I’m sorry,” Roman mumbled. “I don’t know what happened, but I must have f-messed up really, really bad to end up in a hospital,” Roman said, feeling just as empty. He laid motionless against the seat and watched the road.

   “I can’t say I’m entirely sure what happened, either, but you don’t have to be sorry. Do you remember me now?” Thomas asked, sounding concerned.

   “Huh?” Roman looked oddly at Thomas.

   “Do you remember me and Patton and Virgil?” Thomas asked again.

   “… Yeah?” Roman rolled his head to face Thomas. “Should I not?”

   “No, no, it’s good. Would you rather go out to eat or eat at home?” Thomas asked. Roman was too tired to cook, honestly. He couldn’t even imagine standing up for more than 2 minutes right now.

   “Which one lets me go back to bed faster?” Roman asked blankly. He was ready to pass out this instant.

   “I’ll get you some drive-through and you can go back to bed as soon as you get home if you like,” Thomas offered.

   “Whatever,” Roman closed his eyes.

   “Is there anything you want?” Thomas asked, not taking his eyes off the road.

   “I literally could not care less if I even ate,” Roman sighed. He was feeling a little dizzy instead of nothing now. He wanted the nothing back.

   “You asked for tacos before, does a burrito or something sound good?” Thomas suggested, sounding hopeful. Roman was too tired to think straight, much less eat.

   “Whatever floats your boat,” Roman said dismissively. He was getting even dizzier now. Ugh. Make it stop. 

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[crue-sixx]

The Game of Life

Title: The Game of Life

Author: tiddly-winx

Summary: A prequel to The FUNeral.  You're an outstanding character when you meet a charming blonde and his friends.

Warnings: swearing, death and sickness, drug use

It was Christmas and you were spending it alone at the Troubadour.  Your family didn't want you near them (save for your sister Kathy, 15 years old at the time).  You rolled the blood packet meant for Halloween in your mouth waiting for some douchebag to tell you those words you heard so often.  It didn't take too long for him to show up.  Of course he was hammered when he slurred "Heeeeeey baybeh" he stumbled over to you "Wha's a pretty thang like you doin' all alone at Christmas?"

You brushed him off with "Lookin' to get laid" you rolled eyes, you had no intention of sleeping with someone too drunk to know what he was doing.

"I can do that, sweetheart" he put his arm around you "but you'd look much prettier if you smiled!"

That was the moment you'd been waiting for, so you bit down on the blood packet and pushed the fake blood out of your mouth, your teeth stained red, dripping onto the best ugly Christmas sweater you had in your arsenal.  He recoiled and left you alone.  You were relieved and wiped your face with  your sleeve. and went along with your business.

At least you tried to go on with your business, but a voice behind you said "Hot damn girl! That was awesome!" you were annoyed at this but you turned to see four grown men dressed in glam rock costumes and more make-up than the prostitutes that worked the corners.

You glanced over and said "Thanks,  It's a little late for Halloween don't you think?"

"We're the band!" the blonde one laughed, taking the comment in stride. "We're Motley Crue!"

"Huh" you said, unimpressed.  You hadn't been paying attention to the music.  You had been busy tinkering with a music box you had been working on-your job was an apprenticeship at a clock maker's shop.  Music boxes were your hobby, and people were willing to pay you for them.  This one was almost finished-all you had to do was fix the music source and paint it to the buyer's specifications and it would be done.

"You don't seem too enthusiastic" said one with black hair, all of it covering his face.  All you could see was his nose, mouth and chin.  

"Sorry" you were sincere in your apology "I just have a deadline to get this thing done by" you backed off and showed them.

"So why the fuck did you come out if you had to get it done?" the tall one said, confused.

"I didn't want to stay cooped up in my apartment at Christmas" you said, which was true.

"Tell ya what" the blonde one said "Take it back to your place then come on over to our place and party with us!"  he put an arm around you "We'll give ya a Christmas you'll never forget" he winked.

"Sorry, not interested in that" you winked back.  You knew what he meant "but I'll come over and get bombed with  you!"

"That sounds cool!" the tall one said "I'm Tommy, this is Nikki" he patted the bassist's head, to which he growled "blondie over here's Vince and the old dude" he jutted his thumb to a man who couldn't be more than a few years older than they were "the man from Mars, Mick Motherfuckin' Mars!" the man in question gave a shy wave while nursing a bottle of vodka.

"I'm Y/N" you shook hand with them.  You're place wasn't that far from their apartment so you climbed through the window like you'd seen other people do.  Vince greeted you and helped you inside.

The whole apartment was popping with activity, people drinking, snorting, shooting up and fucking all around you.  You didn't mind and joined in even, slapping some people's naked asses.  "So why were you alone on Christmas?" Tommy asked "Don't you have a family?"

"Well yeah but they don't like me" you said, them telling you that you were the biggest mistake they'd ever made "guess they thought having me and getting married would save their relationship..."

Tommy looked away and said "Sorry..."

"Nah, I do have a little sister that likes me" you smiled, Kathy being the only one of your siblings that you actually liked.  "When she turns 18 she's leaving my parents and coming to live with me".

"So you were an oopsie baby?" Nikki asked, Tommy shooting him a glare.

"Yep. Pretty much" you laughed, not taking offense at all.

Nikki chuckled "Yeah, me too" he extended his hand for a fist bump and you obliged him.  He then offered you a line of coke, to which you happily snorted it up with one giant inhalation.

The next day, you woke up on their couch in the clothes you had on the night before.  You stretched out and saw that a few other bodies where strewn around the floor and beds.  Mick was the only one awake and trying to make breakfast with the filthiest equipment ever.  You stopped him and said "Let's go to Denny's.  My treat" you winked at him.

While you were eating, you asked "Why're you hanging around with those three wild animals?  You seem way calmer than they are?"

"They're my band" he smiled warmly.  "Though they may act like stupid rug monkeys most of the time, they're kinda like my family" you had to laugh at that, it was just too cute.

You decided to invite them over for dinner a few weeks after meeting them, on the condition they stay out of  your room where you kept the music boxes that you were working on.  They agreed and you had ordered Chinese, you couldn't cook to save your life and you wouldn't offend them by forcing them to eat your disgusting food.  You heard a knock at your door and thinking it was the delivery guy you opened it, only to see one of your buyers demanding an unfinished product.

"It's not finished yet" you told him "I will give you a call when it is and you can come get it then" you tried to shut the door but he pushed his way in your apartment "Get out asshole!"

"I ordered from you three days ago!  It should be done by now!"

"I told you it would be at least a month and you agreed to my terms!" you shouted at him.

"For three hundred bucks, I think you need to work harder!  You ain't cheap!  My daughter's birthday is tomorrow!"

"You should have thought about that and commissioned me a month ago then if you wanted it done by tomorrow!"

"I want you to do it for free, since you're so slow!"

You had heard this argument before from people who want your music boxes for free.  "The materials and parts needed alone cost about 50 bucks, plus the time it takes me to build these things covers the whole price!  What I do with one box in a month took me years to learn how to do.  That's why I only charge $150 up front and $150 upon completion. I will NOT spend all my time working on YOUR box alone.  I do have other customers, a job and a life outside of this. If you're unsatisfied I will give you the materials and you can make the damn box your own fuckin' self!" You did have a day job at the clock shop that paid your rent but this was something you enjoyed doing.

"I can just go to the toy store and buy one better!" he huffed "Since you don't want my business, I'll spread all shit about you and your boxes and tell people not to buy from you!"

"Whatever asshole!" you showed him out and into the arms of your dinner guests.

"This guy botherin' you Y/N?" Vince asked, taking a strong grip on the guys shoulder.

"Nah" you waved them off "Just another douche bag who wants my product for free" you had told them about people who refused to pay you for your boxes and how it happens more often that you'd like it to.  "Come on in, the food's on it's way!"

You had a great dinner and let them sleep over, Vince and Nikki sleeping in your bed with you, all of you too hammered to be fucking at all.  Tommy had taken up your couch while Mick was snoozing away in the chair.

A few years passed and the steady stream of people wanting your music boxes helped with the expenses.  The band had made it big, and they were some of your best customers.  They paid you much more than you asked for, you finding ways to slip their extra money back in their wallets.  Gifts for their wives, girlfriends or children you took extra care with these ones.

You eventually bought a house right by Vince's place, you secretly having a small crush on him.  The view was to die for, and you just loved the location.  You were fond of his wife Sharice and his little girl Skylar, you babysitting when they needed a date night.  Tonight you were working in the workshop when your doorbell rang.  "Who could it be at this hour?"

You were expecting one of your friends but were totally shocked to see four year old Skylar on your doorstep, the poor thing crying her eyes out.  "Skylar!  What's wrong sweetheart?" you took her in and gave her a cup of hot chocolate.

"Mommy and Daddy are fighting" she sniffled.  "It woke me up and scared me...so I went to a quiet place..."

You were livid at her parents, but you knew better than to take it out on the child.  You let her sleep in your bed and after you knew she was asleep you picked up the phone and called Vince's house.  Sharice answered the phone with "FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHAT?!" you pulled the phone away from your face until she was done screaming.

"Where's Skylar?" you asked, the other end of the line going silent.

"She's sleeping" Sharice snapped.

"I think you need to check" you advised "and put the phone in between you two.  I need you both to hear this" you waited until you heard Vince comment that she wasn't in her room. "You both here?"

"Yeah were here" Sharice was panicking "Do you know where Skylar is?!"

"She's over here" you said flatly "she showed up at my house about an hour ago in her night clothes crying.  She said your fighting woke her up and scared her" Vince and Sharice looked at each other, them not even seeing her leave the house.

"Can she stay over there for a few days while we try to sort things out?" Vince asked you, him on the verge of tears.

"Sure" you said, knowing all of Vince's vices and not daring to judge him on them.  You had your own problems, and couldn't nag at him.  It was like the pot calling the kettle black.

"I'll stop by later with some clothes and her toothbrush" Sharice added.  You knew they were headed for a divorce, but the kid being dragged into it was unfair.

You were playing tea party with her when all of a sudden, Skylar burst into tears.  "Hey now, honey" you hugged her to you "what's wrong?"

"Do Mommy and Daddy hate me?" she asked in her tears.

"What?!  Honey, no!" you brushed her tears away "What on earth gave you that idea?"

"Me staying with you" she blew her nose on your shirt. "Why don't they see me?"

You were contemplating on how to explain what was going on with Vince and Sharice to their four year old.  It wasn't your business to tell so you said "Mommy and Daddy are going through a rough patch and they're trying to work it out so you all can be happy..."  she wouldn't be able to understand that Vince had a problem with keeping his dick in his pants or drugs and alcohol out of his body.

"You sure?" she sniffled.

"I'm positive" you said and booped her nose, making her giggle.  A few days later, Vince came to your door with a sorrowful look in his eyes.

Skylar jumped on him, and gave him a big hug "Did you and Mommy work things out?"

He was trying to fake smile for the sake of his child "Not yet, baby.  We're trying..." he looked at you and tears were rolling down his face.  He quickly wiped them away when the little girl looked at him.  "Come on, Mommy's in the car" he gathered her things and before he went out the door he said quietly "I'll be over later...I need a place to stay a few days..."

"Sure Vinny" you said quietly.  You waited for him, and he came back a few hours later.  He was on his way to being wasted but you cut him off, locking your liquor cabinet.

"We're gettin' a divorce" he cried on your counter "I fucked up royally..."

"Hey" you rubbed his back "she's not trying to keep you from seeing Sky, right?"

"No, she's not" he answered,  "I'll have her every other weekend and she'll stay with Sharice the rest of the time.." he was shaking, Motley Crue about to go on tour and he wouldn't be able to see his daughter for a while.

You couldn't say anything, now was not the time for words.  You needed just to be there for him.  

A few months of uneventful bliss later was when you started to notice a change in yourself.  You were having headaches more often, and they were increasing in severity and duration.  Your sister Kathy had been living with you and she too noticed.  It was the day you had a seizure while working on a music box, that prompted Kathy to drag you to the doctor.

You hated doctors, but your life would change forever.  You had been given a diagnosis of brain cancer, and had the options of how you wanted to do your treatments.  You opted to go in and have them done through your arm.  You and Kathy kept everything under wraps as long as you could but the jig was up when Nikki rolled up your sleeve and saw your scars from the needles.  He glared at you, having been sober for a while "You been shooting up?!"

You pulled your arm away and said "It's not what you think, Nikki..."

"Then what is it?" he asked snarkily.

You and Kathy looked at each other and sighed "I have brain cancer.  These are from my chemo treatments..." his face fell and looked like he was about to cry.

"Why didn't you say anything?" he asked after he composed himself.

"Y'all have your own problems" you said, taking a swig of beer.  "You don't need me to add my baggage to the mix." 

"Does anyone else know?" he asked quietly.

"No" you answered "And don't you say anything to anyone."  He promised that he'd keep his mouth shut.

Later that night, you saw an ambulance drive past your house and to Sharice's.  You looked on in horror as you saw the little one being loaded into the vehicle.  You thought about calling Vince, but you knew Sharice would call him as soon as possible.

He called you the next day, through drunken sobs he said "She's got stomach cancer...my baby's got stomach cancer" your own heart sank at the news.  You went to go pick him up from the bar and take him back to your house.

You visited Skylar in the hospital as much as you could, your own sickness taking a backseat to comfort the family.  You eventually had to come clean and admit your own cancer to Vince, who just hugged to you him close.  The day that little girl died, you were getting a treatment and you went to the children's ward to visit.  You knew from the way the family was positioned around the bed and the crying, that she was gone.  You stayed out in the hallway and cried silently to yourself.

When they all filed out, they didn't even have to ask before you said "Y'all can stay with me" you knew it would be a tough road the next few months for them but you'd be there.  Your boxes took a back seat, you informing your buyers and refunding their money.  You needed to keep working on them to keep your mind busy.  The day that your hands wouldn't stop shaking you knew this cancer would kill you.

You were handling your tools when out of nowhere your hands began to shake.  Vince was in the other room and heard you throw your tools to the floor and curse. He just held your hands until they stopped shaking. You would live in your house for a few months, but you were deteriorating quickly.  The only person you allowed to see you was Kathy.

You were new bed bound, not able to do anything for yourself.  Kathy was right there, doing everything for you.  You felt you weren't long for this world, you asked her to call your lawyer.  You'd had to use him multiple times when people tried to sue you for not giving them the boxes when they refused to pay.  You won all those cases and kept him on.  "Hello Miss Y/N" he said as he looked at your skeleton frame.

"Hey Mr. Gibbs" you tried to smile, but even that hurt. "Have a seat."

"You called me here to draft your last will and testament?" he asked.

"Yeah" you sighed "What I want at my funeral..."

"Okay" he said and took out a note pad and pen "What would you like to have done?"

"Have them dress me up in a clown costume, with full make up and a big red nose that honks like a goose" he looked up at you in confusion. 

"E-excuse me?"

"You heard me" you mocked "Clown costume and make-up" you had to take a break to catch your breath.

"Right" he let you take as much time as you want "your casket?"

"Pumpkin Orange" you coughed "and Halloween decorations..."

He knew at this point that it was pointless to argue with you and wrote down what you wanted.  "No black..." you wheezed.

"What?" he looked up.

"Nobody wears black" you said "anyone wearing black at my funeral will be sent home to change, or wear the ugliest clothes Kathy can find..."

"And for the luncheon afterward?"

"Roast squid and duck.  Both with their eyes still on...plus some normal food.  I doubt that anyone would touch something that had it's eyes looking at them...."

"Who do you want to give the eulogy?"

"Kathy" you said, needing a break again "Tell people to bring a drink to open before she gives the eulogy..."

"Who do you want me to call first at the time of your death?"

"Vince Neil" you said with no question.  "Then Nikki Sixx, Mick Mars and Tommy Lee..."

"That concludes your funeral arrangements...how about your assets?"

"They all go to Kathy" you said "She's taken care of me like a baby, now it's my turn to take care of her..."

"I see, and your remains?"

"Cremation" you took a deep, ragged breath "turn my ashes into rings for my four best friends..."

With the business concluded, he bid you adieu and finalized the paperwork.  You turned your head to the side and you saw a face most welcome "Hey Sky"

"Hi Miss Y/N!" she was excited to see you after so long.  She was just as you remembered her when she was healthy.

"You here to take me to Heaven?" you said, the pain easing up.

"Yep!" she was kicking her legs in the seat, them not being able to touch the floor "So you wouldn't be scared when you went!"

"I see" you smiled at her "Thank you, you'll be wonderful guide" you closed your eyes and the last bit of life escaped your body.  Your spirit sat up, Skylar had extended her hand and you took it asking "What's Heaven like?"

"A beautiful dream" the little girl answered "You'll love it!" you and Skylar walked hand in had towards the light.

[too-weird-for-main]

Humanized Symbabies comic stuff:

-WEAPONS:

Carnage has a baseball bat wrapped in barbed wire with nails poking out of it

Riot has a big fucking hammer that just so happens to have “BIG FUCKING HAMMER”written on the handle

Phage has brass knuckles except they’re like... incredibly big spikes

Scream has a dagger strapped to her thigh and throwing knives

Lasher has a cool cyber goth themed whip I’m really proud of it actually

Agony... I really don’t know. A handgun, probably. Mostly she’s the snark of the family. She takes after her dad, kills people with words.

And Sleeper is LITERALLY A BABBY HE HAS NO WEAPON

DESIGNS/VIBES:

Cause I’m really indecisive and I tried WAY TOO HARD on Carnage and Riot and the rest look bad in comparison so I’m not putting the pictures up yet

Carnage is a sexy goth gf. She wears a crop top and high waisted pants cause that’s my favorite thing ever. And a cropped biker jacket. And REALLY BIG STOMPY BOOTS and she has a big ponytail and it’s dark brown with bright red highlights. They all have highlights of their theme colors.

Riot is SO GAY AND SO PUNK. I literally drew them wearing a sew-through plunging v neck top under a denim vest covered in pins and patches and those fuckin hot topic pants with all the random like hang-y straps and shit all over them. And big stompy boots. And the pants have more patches on them. And some fishnet is thrown in there too.and like five necklaces. And their hair is like black at the roots and it fades to silver and it’s wavy and shoulder length.

Phage is So scene emo. Blue hair with orange stripes. Emo bangs. Darkest skintone of the kiddos(with Vampire Bitch Carnage being lightest) cause I have a Big Thing for characters with brown skin and blue hair and PHAGE’S THEME COLOR SHPULD HAVE BEEN BLUE THE MAC N CHEESE BULLSHIT NEEDS TO G O. But anyway they wear an oversized hoodie and stupid too long flared jeans and converse and they look like they just rolled out of a dumpster.

Scream is... yellow. Looooong blonde hair and she wears stuff that’s like, pretty but comfortable and I drew her wearing like... a mustard yellow tank top dress with some leggings and riding boots. She’s the only prep in this family of goths.

Agony is the Goth Chick with the Bobbed Hair with Purple Highlights and Glasses. Does she needs glasses? Is it just for the drama???? Who knows.

Lasher is this horrific mix of a Gym Dude and cyber goth???? Like he wears a muscle tank...... but it has like green glitchy stuff on it, and he has on goth boots and those headphones with the ears??? And he has stupid hair. Like an ultra mullet. His ponytail goes to his thighs but you wouldn’t even notice he has it cause so much of his hair is just cut in random lengths. And there’s neon green stripes in it.

Sleeper is literally a baby astronaut. His hair is brown and curly with like 2 colors of green striped in it. I don’t know his eye color cause I haven’t drawn him with his eyes open. It’s probably gonna be green.

HOBBIES/JOBS/ENRICHMENT ACTIVITIES OTHER THAN MURDER:

Scream is a singer! She can’t perform live at large venues cause some of the Symbiote stuff still applies so big ol speakers are a no-no but with the use of holograms one day she might. But for now she just vents via music about how she keeps dating shitty women

Carnage mostly just follows Cletus around... her life is focused around being the actual problem child of the Brock family so it’s either being with her boyfriend or talking about him.

Lasher is a Gamer Bro. Probably does YouTube or something. Blood is 40% Mountain Dew at this point.

Phage is an emo artist, does some 3D modeling and stuff, is trying to help Scream set up hologram concerts

Agony is a writer and is trying to follow Eddie’s legacy but really her talents lie in poetry. Wait fuck. I made her that one Pokémon character. Fuck. She’s just Shauntal! Fuck! Oh well.

Riot... their daily activities include 1. Making a scene at breakfast. 2. Trying to start a fight 3. Running off to go tell their shitty boyfriend about how much they hate their family for not letting them goad them into fights. 4. Actually get into a fight with Eddie cause NO DATING RICH BOYS IN THIS HOUSE! YOU CANT BE PUNK AND DATE A RICH BOY THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS RIOT”but dad I love him!” FO YOU LOVE HIM OR DO YOU LOVE HOW HE’LL BRING YOU HOMELESS PEOPLE TO EAT???????

Sleeper is currently learning to count to ten and say his colors! His favorite words are “no” “food”, butchered versions of his siblings names: “Cah-age!” “Asha!” “Tage!” “Aggy!” “Sceem!” “I-iot!” (Is he saying Riot? Or Idiot? The world may never know) and of course... Mama (Eddie is Mama, unfortunately the others have picked up on it and have started calling him mom just to annoy him)

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #220

“as long as god in heaven dwell, your soul, your soul shall scream in hell.”

Would people consider you more immature or mature? It depends on the context. Emotionally, I think I'm considerably mature. As far as eligibility to be a proper adult goes, yeah. No. Would people consider you more funny or serious? I personally don't think I'm very funny, but I'm not super serious, either. Are you currently in love with someone? Who is this person? So... I'm quietly pondering over whether or not I'm just biromantic, not bisexual. I genuinely think I'm in love with my girlfriend, I do, but we have so, so little actually sexual experience that I don't know if "bisexual" fits me. I totally adore her romantically, I know that, but maybe sexually, I'm not into her? I don't know. It's hard for me to say because when I picture doing certain "things," I can't really tell what I feel. I don't take that as an "I'm not into it" though, considering I've wound up liking things with a guy I didn't think I would with anyone, something I only discovered by doing it. This whole situation was driving me insane a few days ago to the point I felt sick, but I've calmed myself out of it to where I've accepted I just have to wait and learn, being long-distance. I'm still entirely invested in us and am going to be honest learning about myself. I haven't actually talked to Sara about it and don't want to unless I come to learn this hunch has credibility. Which room in your house are you in? What color are the walls? My bedroom; light puke green, Why God. What is your absolute favorite hobby? Who got you interested in it? I don't really know about my "absolute favorite." It depends on my mood, really. I think maybe watching my favorite YouTubers tops the list, something Jason actually started with PewDiePie; or RPing, which I got into myself thanks to Meerkat Manor. Would the people you know say you have a nice singing voice? Barely anyone ever hears me sing, so idk. I personally feel my voice suits only few songs. Would you say most of your friends are older/younger than you? Ummm, good question. All but two are very close in age range, but most of my friends/closer acquaintances are kinda split around either side. Were you named after anyone famous or anyone on television? Nope. Are you listening to music right now? If so, who’s singing the song? Yeah, I'm listening to Khemmis' cover of "A Conversation With Death." It's the intro song to that new game Man of Medan and is so badass. All the comments are like "came here from so-and-so's LP because this is epic" and same. What is your dream career? What inspired you to pursue this career? Probably meerkat biologist if I could handle the heat and was okay with moving, or paleontologist if I wasn't opposed to heavy travel. I love meerkats and dinosaurs v v much. If you have a significant other, do you get jealous of people a lot? No. What would you say is your favorite holiday? Why did you choose this? Halloween bc spooks and costumes and candy. Does it feel odd being around your friend’s parents? Why or why not? If I'm alone with them and don't know them very well, sure? What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Is there one in your city? Sonic, probably. And no, but in our neighboring city. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Is there one in your city? Olive Garden. See above. Do you ever take pictures with family members around the holidays? Mom pretty much forces it, lol... Have you ever thought you were adopted because of opposing interests? Y'ALL not kidding I legit asked my fucking mom if I was adopted in elementary school bc I thought she hated me one day versus my little sister lmfao. I went through a phase of feeling like she couldn't be "this mean" to her legitimate child. Are you more interested in indoor activities or outdoor things? Hm, that depends on the activities available. Most outdoor things are more fun, though. When is the next time you’ll see someone you’re crushing on? We were just talking a couple days ago about our next visit, actually. If I can financially, I'm probably coming up to see her for her birthday again, as that's when I have a decent break from school. Speaking of which, how many people are you crushing on right now? Lol I mean it's been just shy of two years, a "crush" doesn't cut it. Have you ever played Super Mario Bros. for Nintendo DS? Was it fun? No, actually. I didn't grow up playing Mario games. What exactly is your favorite gaming system? Do you have this system? The PS2. It had a giant graphical leap, contains SOOOOO many goodies, and you can still play PS1 games on it. How often do you talk on the phone? Who do you talk with the most? Very very rarely, pretty much only ever with my mom or dad. I hate talking on the phone. Do you normally do what other people around you want you to do? Depends. What does your trick-or-treat bag or pail look like? I don't have one anymore, but it used to be an orange, plastic jack-o-lantern. How old will you turn on your next birthday? 24... wow. What are your plans to celebrate? Probably just go out to dinner with family. What floor do you live on? I only have one floor. Do you have a balcony? No. What is your favorite fall drink, if you had to pick just one? None. Which X Factor audition(s) was/were your favorite? I've never watched it. Were you a straight A student in spelling and grammar? I'm pretty sure I was in my entire school career... Damn dude, proud. Were you a straight A student in math? HA hell no. I could get a C sometimes. Were you abused or do you know anyone who was abused? I wasn't, but I know people. Are you a Democrat or Republican, or neither? Neither. Independent. Who would take care of you if you needed surgery? My mom and dad, as far as bills go. Do you think you have an accent? Not really. Sometimes you can hear it, though. Have you been told you have an accent? Only when I was younger. I had a SERIOUS one. My family in NY couldn't even understand me sometimes, lmao. Where do you live (country or state)? North Carolina. If you could start a church, what would it be like? I wouldn't. Are there any shades of blue that you don’t like? If so, which ones? Nah. What is something you want to accomplish before you turn 30? Get a goddamn stable job. Do you know what your purpose in life is? Spreading the love and respect of animals and conservation. If you live in an apartment, what is the maintenance man’s name? N/A What are some fall activities you would do with your kids? Hypothetically, if I had/wanted kids, I'd enjoy carving pumpkins with them, obviously taking them trick-or-treating, autumnal crafts would be fun together, and watching Halloween/scary films appropriate to their age would be a nice experience. I'd decorate the house with them. Oh, a hayride would be cool together, I love those. AND DON'T FORGET JUMPING INTO LEAF PILES! I have a lot of ideas for someone who doesn't want to be a mom. Have you ever seen a fox? Yeah. At least one alive, a handful as roadkill. What color are the squirrels where you live? Brown. What do the trees look like where you live? Pine trees. Pine trees. What was the best vacation you’ve been on so far? Disney World as a kid. What is the best class trip you’ve been on? I really enjoyed the trip to Beaufort to an island of wild horses. The water was rough that day, and goddamn... watching the ocean in its aggression was unbelievable. Did you like field trips when you were a kid? UM, DID ANY KID NOT????? Do you find museums boring or interesting? Very interesting! Gimme a science museum and I'm SOLD. What are three issues you are passionate about? GAY RIGHTS, wildlife and nature conservation, women's rights and the pro-choice argument. What are three countries you have no desire to visit? North Korea, Iraq, and... uh... idk. I guess the Middle East in general. That shit's rough. Do you like your country’s flag? Sure? Stars r dope? Would you ever wear a shirt with your country’s flag on it? NO. What’s a medicine that makes you sleepy? Oh. My. God. When I was on three Klonopin a day (I'm now on just one and don't even take it every day), I literally could not function. There was one day in particular (I was on three very briefly bc of this) where I just slept until evening. I physically could not stay awake. I remember I was in the middle of watching a Game Grumps' Mario playthrough, and I'd only last like, ten minutes before I HAD to lie back down, and I'd fall back asleep in like, a minute. That was one of the most awful days ever, I was miserable. Do you like bath bombs? Sure, they're pretty. Who is your favorite neighbor? I don't actually know any. Who are your favorite small YouTubers? He's not very small, I think he's at about a million and a half subs, but Timmy Timato is so fucking iconic. He is an Actual Mood. I have no interest in what he actually posts; I just watch for him. As well, Johnny Paranormal is cool; he's a fuckin awesome guy and is chill and relaxing to watch. I don't watch him religiously, though. Rarely, actually. Who are your favorite big YouTubers? HAVE U HEARD OF????? THE MARKIPLIER GUY??????? What was your favorite girl group when you were growing up? I think it was the Pussycat Dolls, fuck off, don't say shit 2 me "Buttons" is still dope. Do you like Disney movies? Blocked & reported if you don't. What’s your favorite superhero movie? Man idk, I enjoy a lot. I enjoyed The Avengers, and Logan REALLY tugged at my heart. Do you have any credit card debt? I don't have a credit card. Have you ever been really late for work because you slept past your alarm? No. What was your favorite way to spend a summer day as a kid? Swimming. What’s the longest you’ve worked without a day off? Probably like... two days, lmao. It's not like I have a lot of experience. Have you ever been scammed? I don't think so. Where were you the last time you kissed someone? The airport. How’s your mental health? Are you feeling well? It's fine. Do you struggle with acne? No, not anymore. Do you have any uncommon interests or hobbies? RP is definitely the "strangest." Have you ever fostered an animal? No. Are you the clubbing type? Definitely not. Never been, not interested. Bar goer? No. I don't trust strangers + alcohol, and I'd be really scared of being hit on. Song you can’t stand? I don't think there's a song I've heard that I hate more than "Welcome To The Machine" by Pink Floyd. Well, correction, "Friday" by Rebecca Black. That autotuned to all fuck voice is just... major ew. Is your ex sexually attractive to you still? Jason is. Well, if he looks the same as last time I saw him, which was in 2017. Juan doesn't look half bad. Aaron's cute. What is unattractive about them? Jason: fucking communication skills. Juan: his reckless streak. Aaron: nothing that I know of, he's a sweetie and on a great path. Your hottest ex’s name starts with the letter what? J. Pick two highlighter colors: Yellow, Pink, Blue, Purple, Orange. Pink and orange. Has anyone ever written on you? Who hasn't been written on by friends with markers as a kid? Have you ever dated a fat person? Yes. Have you ever dated someone with a fine ass body? I mean this with total respect and love towards her: Sara's body is genuinely sexy. Her figure is amazing. Have you ever had any article of clothing tailored? What for? Yeah, for prom, as well as my sister's wedding. Do you welcome people back when they say they have returned? Yes. What are two foods you think taste good with whipped cream? I fucking hate whipped cream. How long would it take you to walk to the nearest fire hydrant? I've never paid attention, actually... Do you own anything that has the words or picture of ‘mustache’? Well my Mark tribute tat has the Iconic pink mustache on it, and the texting screen background on my phone is also a pink mustache collage-y thing lmao. When you see a feather on the ground, do you ever pick it up? Yeah, sometimes. If you eat it, what is your favorite way to eat beef? On a burger. How would you feel marrying the man you love who has already a son? I don't love a man, and I wouldn't marry anyone with a kid. Have you ever played Roller Coaster Tycoon? What did you think of it? No, but I had SeaWorld Tycoon or whatever it was called. I loved that game. When you are chopping onions, does it really affect your eyes personally? I've never cut an onion myself, but when I'm in the proximity of someone doing it, I feel mild irritation. How long can you hold your breath for? Is there anyone who is better? Idk, I don't feel like testing it. When was the last time you had a pet goldfish? What was its name? I couldn't even try to guess. Are you insecure about your height? What made you think this way? No. Do you enjoy mayonnaise with French fries? Why or why not? Um that sounds disgusting. Did your last significant other have a huge temper? Actually, he warned me that he can and he was nervous about me ever seeing it. I, thank Christ, never witnessed it, though. I would've broken the fuck down, I can't handle angry men. What was the topic discussed in the last meeting you attended? I don't know the last time I went to a "meeting." Honestly, when’s the last time you genuinely liked someone? Now. Are you Team Jacob, Team Edward, or you just don’t care? I've never been into Twilight, but I find Jacob way more attractive. Do you like it when questions are long and make you think? Yes. Have you ever had love at first sight happen to you? No. Do you think Avatar is really all that great? I'm assuming you mean the movie and not TLA? I never saw the full thing, but I would love it. Love or trust? Trust, I think. You can't love someone in a healthy fashion if you don't trust them. What do you think about sexting? Not about that personally. That'd be so awkward. Have you ever done it? Those days where RP mating scenes on YouTube were over private message, timeskipping wasn't a thing... oh boy. It WAS uncomfortable. Would you ever swim with dolphins? Yeah! Have you ever believed a stereotype? Probably at some point. Have you ever tried marijuana? No, though tbh I probably would (but not through smoking it) for anxiety and panic attacks if it was legal in my state. Is there any reason you should be in jail right now? Can you go to jail for illegally downloading, or it is just a fine? Idk. Did the house you grew up in have a big yard? I mean, it was decent. What has been the most difficult class you’ve ever taken? Latin. That shit was so hard. Do you have any medication that you keep with you at all times? Yes, for panic attacks. What’s something that’s much more difficult than a lot of people realize? Heartbreak. Were you raised by both of your parents? If not, then who raised you? Yes, but Mom played a larger role. Did any of the classes you took in high school count towards uni credit? No. First thing you wash in the shower? My hair. Do you plan outfits? "Not unless it’s a special occasion." <<< Are your parents strict? No. Would you go sky diving? Probably not. I'm afraid of heights, and I'd be really scared the parachute wouldn't deploy. Who sits behind you in your math class? Quite honestly, a bitch. She always has shit to say under her breath. Do you have good vision? No, it's awful. When was the last time you watched a show for people younger than you? Last I was with Sara. We're watching Avatar: The Last Airbender together. Have you ever snuck someone into your house before? No. Is there something your significant other does that bothers you completely? She's competitive and admits to it. A lot, particularly in writing, is a "mine needs to be better" thing. When was the last time you kissed someone on the cheek? When I saw my niece and nephew at my nephew's birthday party. How many best friends do you have? One. Did you ever get bullied as a child or were you the bully? Neither. Would you rather eat grape or strawberry jelly or jam? GRAPE. I hate strawberry jam/jelly. Do your parents ever send you to do their grocery shopping for them? No. Do you know anyone who has a speech impediment? I don't think I do personally. If you have your ears pierced, when did you get them pierced? When I was like... 11-12 or so, maybe? Possibly younger? Have you ever had a significant other who hit you? Fuck no. Do you own any exercise machines? No. Do you still leave/receive voicemails? If I need to, sure. School leaves me voicemails sometimes if I miss a call. Do you live in your hometown? No. Are you a festive person? Do you enjoy holidays? Not very festive, but I mean, I enjoy 'em. Did you/Will you attend college? I'm back in college now!! You’re feeling down - do you listen to sad music or happy? Sad. Listening to music fitting my mood helps me feel related to and not alone. You’re looking for some new music - what’s your preferred way to discover? YouTube recommendations. Do you watch the news? No. What hooks you to a television show? The most important thing is A GOOD PLOT!!! It needs to be really interesting to me, bc I do NOT get into shows easily. As for funny shows, they need to be fuuuuunny. I don't think I could ever get "hooked" on a show again, though. I just don't watch TV. Have you ever received anesthesia or morphine? Yes. On the morphine occasion, it didn't do jackshit. I don't think they gave me nearly enough. Is there anyone that makes your skin crawl? The #1 thing that most fits the definition of "skin crawling" to me is seeing a fetus move from outside the stomach, especially the further the mother is along. It's fucking alien-esque and actually makes me scream and panic. Are people more likely to tell you to tone it down or to speak up? It can be either. Do you have a dining room in your house? No. Do you know the alphabet in any other languages? Very close to all of German's. I blank and aren't sure on a couple. How many people have you had sex with? One. Have you ever been surfing? No.

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Oh dear God

SO I WAS TAGGED BY @enismald THAAANKS I’m tagging these kids (idk who’s done this already but pfft take it) @sourpeachess @priismik @omg-puddingpie @sim-borg @humanitys-shortest

Rules: You have to make a simself and put whatever you wish like traits or anything about you. Then answer +100 freaking questions I feel like a star why are you interviewing me

So uhh yeah here

Traits: shy, gamr gril, book reader, loner, trash panda, horror lover(:

What is your full name? Maryssa

What is your nickname? Shyy

Birthday? May 27

What is your favorite book series? Goosebumps bitches

Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? I REALLY want to

Who is your favorite author? R.L. Stine or Stephen King

What is your favorite radio station? What is a radio

What is your favorite flavor of anything? Vanilla or green apple

What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? cool beans, lit (im sorry)

What is your current favorite song? UHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS ONE

What is your favorite word? Cunt (im not sorry)

What was the last song you listened to? That one up there

What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? Castle Rock BABY

What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? Sweeney Todd or Rocky Horror Picture Show

Do you play video games? Yiss

What is your biggest fear? HEIGHTS (i.e falling from said heights)

What is your best quality, in your opinion? ....PFFFTTT

What is your worst quality, in your opinion? Insecure af

Do you like cats or dogs better? .......CATS

What is your favorite season? Fall/Autumn

Are you in a relationship? What’s a relationship

What is something you miss from your childhood? Having friends lol

Who is your best friend? Uhhhno

What is your eye color? Dark brown

What is your hair color? A mess of dark brown and auburn

Who is someone you love? MY MOTHER

Who is someone you trust? MY MOTHER

Who is someone you think about often? A stupid boy(:

Are you currently excited about/for something? Probs GF tbhhh I want it

What is your biggest obsession? Owuwatch

What was your favorite TV show as a child? COURAGE THE COWARDLY DOG

Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? Like three of my online friends(’:

Are you superstitious? Nahh fam

Do you have any unusual phobias? A massive amount of ants (it’s gross)

Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? Behind

What is your favorite hobby? Used to be writing...now it’s vidya games(:

What was the last book you read? A Sherlock Holmes book

What was the last movie you watched? Hills Have Eyes 2 (don’t judge me ok)

What musical instruments do you play, if any? I tried to teach myself the piano...didn’t turn out too great

What is your favorite animal? BEARS they attac but they so cuddly lookin’

What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? UHHHHH theones I tagged hue 

What superpower do you wish you had? The power of self confidence (ooh edgy)

When and where do you feel most at peace? My room(:

What makes you smile? Sombra POTGs((:

What sports do you play, if any?  What is a sport

What is your favorite drink? Coffeeeee

When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? What is this sorcery you speak of

Are you afraid of heights? Uh heckin’ yes

What is your biggest pet peeve? Hypocrites(: (spoilers: I am one)

Have you ever been to a concert? Nahh

Are you vegan/vegetarian? Nahh

When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? An author

What fictional world would you like to live in? Tbh? A dystopian future. Preferably with death and destruction everywhere

What is something you worry about? Life

Are you scared of the dark? Not really

Do you like to sing? YES but the real question is CAN I sing? ‘Cause that’s a big FAT no 

Have you ever skipped school? Uhh yes

What is your favorite place on the planet? MY BED

Where would you like to live? Forests. Trees. 0 population.

Do you have any pets? Yes! A doggo and a spawn of satan

Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? Night owl fo sho (its currently 4:22 am what is sleep)

Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? Sunsets

Do you know how to drive? No :c

Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? Earbuds

Have you ever had braces? Nahh

What is your favorite genre of music? Uhh music

Who is your hero? My MoThEr

Do you read comic books? I’ve read a few..but I really want more

What makes you the most angry? Superficial cunts

Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? Real shit all day err day

What is your favorite subject in school? English!

Do you have any siblings? Four, three bros and a sis

What was the last thing you bought? Fekkin’ Cheetos Puffs

How tall are you? 5′8

Can you cook? I don’t wanna brag but I make a mean ass mac n cheese and I burn popcorn

What are three things that you love? Stories, my parents, FOOD

What are three things that you hate? Cunts, my lack of motivation, the color pink 

Do you have more female friends or more male friends? Dudes (girls hate me and idk why)

What is your sexual orientation? I like dick

Where do you currently live? 'Tucky

Who was the last person you texted? A stupid boy(:

When was the last time you cried? A few weeks ago

Who is your favorite YouTuber? CallMeKevin

Do you like to take selfies? Only when I make really stupid faces

What is your favorite app? ......Youtube?

What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? They’re cool beans, I love them, but sometimes I really wanna punch them in their throats

What is your favorite foreign accent? Aussie baby

What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? Literally anywhere but ‘Tucky (Besides Ohio, Indiana, Tennessee, and Texas)

What is your favorite number? Anything even

Can you juggle? UHHH I can juggle with two but not three

Are you religious? Lolno not really

Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? Outer space BOI

Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? Absolutely not

Are you allergic to anything? Nahh

Can you curl your tongue? Heckin’ yes

Can you wiggle your ears? Wtf no

How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? As soon as I realize I am (unless I’m arguing with my brother, fuck him)

Do you prefer the forest or the beach? FOREST

What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? Advice pfft what

Are you a good liar? Mehhhh

What is your Hogwarts House? You really gonna make me take a test and find out (I got Ravenclaw)

Do you talk to yourself? Lol you don’t?

Are you an introvert or an extrovert? Introvert def (though I’m trying to change)

Do you keep a journal/diary? Kinda, sorta (I only write bad things in it((: )

Do you believe in second chances? Yeah, sure

If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? Turn it in? Idk

Do you believe that people are capable of change? Yes and no

Are you ticklish? Fuck you

Have you ever been on a plane? Hell no

Do you have any piercings? Double ear piercings(:

What fictional character do you wish was real? Oh a lot

Do you have any tattoos? Not yet

What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? Quitting my retail job((:

Do you believe in karma? Heckin’ yes

Do you wear glasses or contacts? Glasses ‘cause I can’t see shit(: Contacts are weird don’t touch my eyeball

Do you want children? Some day maybe

Who is the smartest person you know? ME DUH (lol no im a fuckin’ idiot) MY MOTHER

What is your most embarrassing memory? Thinking the toaster ran on batteries because I was unaware of the crumb tray (My family brings it up every time we get together, fyi)

Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? All the TIME

What color are most of you clothes? Black (like my soul) ((im sorry))

Do you like adventures? Yess

Have you ever been on TV? Once

How old are you? 22 (i totally forgot lol)

What is your favorite quote? “Are you suggesting that coconuts migrate?”

Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? Food

if you read all of this you’re a real trooper and i love you <3

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House MD season 2

30 second episode recaps from someone whos just watched em for the first time and has bad recall

Ep1: they gotta cure the death row dude so he can go back to death row to b killed, cameron is Bad at telling ppl they're dying, house n Wilson had lunch with the coma guy, they cured death row man, also they changed the theme and I hate it Ep2: House has hayfever lmao, this cancer girl with hallucinations is honestly just the coolest she's so positive I love her, shes nine and got chase to kiss her hero,, house an Wilson have a shared balcony amazing, Wilson is so good and pure and is amazing at his job holy shit I love this man. House actually 'temporarily killed' the patient to cure her and made people run drills on a dead man. House is 400% going to buy a motorbike Ep3: i prayed for Cuddy's handyman to fall off her roof past the window and then god answered my prayers and he did, house broke into Cuddy's house mainly to look at her underwear lbr and then won the 'can we chop off his arm' argument, house secretly speaks spanish and waited for the most dramatic moment to reveal this, they gate crashed a cock fight (ayy) and saved the patient Ep4: the patient is a doctor with an ego ((according to house lmao pot, kettle)) who wanted to sit in on the diagnostic process and honestly is actually full of himself,, house puts him on a tippy table and cranks it up, foreman made a patient cry except he was pretending to be house lmao house got in shit,, Cameron needs to stop please, can the patient get his head out his arse please. house gatecrashes the press conference that the patient called and managed to put him into cardiac arrest on live television and eventually cured him of everything cept bein a knob Ep5: Wilson's handwriting is such doctor handwriting and house definitely bought a motorbike and made Wilson pay for it he's so pleased with himself. The kid keeps getting electrocuted but like,, by his own body. House is avoiding his parents but Cameron n Wilson aren't letting him get away with it. I love house n Wilson's friendship so much it's worth 5k apparently lmao. These patients are fukin serial liars jc why are ppl like this, it was rADIATION wow houses dad is a fucking DICK. There were so many good interactions and the house/wilson ship is sailing Ep6: there was a cyclist who took a LOT of drugs which turned out to be curing him of the thing he had, house is a douchebag but we all knew that - he may b a dick to mark but m sure mark deserves it n I love him anyway. Wilson remains a sweet boy even if he cheats idgaf he's adorable look at him ((wilson: i net someone who made me feel funny, me: was it hOUSE)),, he n house are balcony buddies and house shud stop stealing his food, and he should definitely stop digging thru stacys life but actually fuck it why not he's not gunna let go of this why is she so pissy i wanna know Ep7: I love houses new pet rat Steve McQueen,, Wilson is 4000% done with houses Stacy related antics which is fair tbh he should stop but I actually don't give much of a shit about Stacy I've taken against her....he did deserve what she said after reading her file tho. The patient may have given Cameron aids and Cameron got high and slept with Chase, who she may have given aids lmao these ppl r messes but not as much of a mess as that father/son relationship jc...i dont remember anything else about the patient whoops Ep8: chase is being suuuueeeeddd and he keeps lying about why lmao,, house fuckin reamed him one which was probably called for but maybe not like that, turns out chase screwed up cus his dad died and foreman is houses boss ((supervisor)) now how well do u think that's gunna work (((not very))) Stacy's still a bitch and has ~~feelings~~ Ep9: foreman is in charge and house is doing his utmost best to be the dick of the year and it's fucking hilarious honestly I love this man the shit he pulls jc,,, Wilson is super aware of houses antics as usual and had a mild gay panic when foreman started to question him about house,, the patient was a big ol Faker™ but surprise surprise she was actually sick this time ((house totally injected her with a load of stuff so she’d b readmitted after they’s released her)) Ep10: house solved a case thru the phone alone and spent most of the ep at the airport except for those five minutes when he almost slept with Stacy who once had a terrible experience with curry apparently and called house a vindaloo, nice restraint very well timed phone call thank fuck,,, they will sleep together tho and I am Not Happy about it....the power play amongst the fellows is a boiling pot of trouble - the patient was v interesting I enjoyed the word scramble game Ep12: WHAT A GOOD FUCKIN EP so the patient orgasmed in the white chamber while unconscious and covered in burns but more importantly house gatecrashed the lecture of his old archenemy that he had arranged just so he could disturb it and criticise the dude who got him thrown out of med school for snitchin on his cheating all whilst Wilson told him to get better hobbies (('a hooker anything please')),, to test this dudes migraine meds he gave deliberately himself a migraine and the meds didn't work (unsurprising) so the fellows turned out all the lights while he had a nap under the table,, wilson took a diff approach and deliberately made a Lot of noise because he is a Shit even if he hides it better than house,,,, then house dropped a tab of acid and took a bunch of antidepressants, and cured his migraine as well as the patient Ep13: houses leg was super duper sore but at least we got some fantastic house/wilson interaction when wilson pretended to be God during that MRI, even if house hit him with a cane.... The patient was a teen supermodel who seduced her own father to get whatever she wanted,, house was super sure she had cancer and it turns out she did but it was testicular because she had xy chromosomes and was immune to testosterone - which was really fucking interesting...... Also cuddy played house like a violin and gave him placebo saline instead of a morphine shot to prove to him that his leg pain was psychological Ep14: House is stealing organs now. Ok so technically he did get the husband's permission to steal his newly dead wife’s heart for the dying old dude with a strangely young daughter but only after he kneed house in the balls super hard. House spent the whole ep goin on at wilson about the affair he thought he was having and at the end wilson showed up on houses doorstep but sURPRIse !! It was his wife who was sleeping around!! poor baby Wilson I know what goes around comes around but he's such a kicked puppy cmon Ep15: Wilson and house living together is a recipe for disaster and I'm living for it so good so many good interactions I love that house is gunna keep him for his food ((I'll never b over house hearing the voicemail about Wilson's new place, looking over at him sleeping on the couch and then deleting it so he has to stay)). The patient had a super cool marriage and didn't have lupus except whoops actually not a happy marriage his wife is tryna kill him thru gold poisoning. House needs to stop accosting ppl in bathrooms and should also stop destroying marriages Ep16: oh man good shit so,, first of all house n Wilson are still living together and there are some Domestic Antics happening right here including but not limited to a prank war which house desperately tried to get Wilson to participate in, the peak of which had house making Wilson wet the couch and Wilson sabotaging houses cane. The patients mum was ridiculously overprotective and house essentially kidnapped the patient to find the tick noone else thought was there,, surprisingly Wilson helped set that up despite the fact house was the reason he woke up wet that morning Ep17: first things first house could absolutely clean everyone out at poker if he knows Cuddy's tells that well through just a phonecall,, also he needs to stop calling Wilson out on his toenail varnish habits lmao. The patient was a smol boy who presented the same symptoms as an unsolved and dead case that house had 12 yrs ago so he really wasn't gunna let this one go cus he's like a dog with a bone. They were in formal wear all ep which was a Good Look™ and Wilson's retelling of how he won the poker championship may have been one of the cutest things I have ever seen Ep18: Emma from Glee is here and she has the black plague,, her gf decided to donate her liver n Cameron was all het up cus house had worked out plague girl was gunna leave her and sending the gf in blind would be ~~unethical~~ but turns out she knew and deliberately did that so Emma would stay with her out of guilt lmao. In other news Cameron's pissy cus foreman 'stole' her article and house spent most of the episode napping cus wilson is fuckin up his sleep cycle ;) I'm upset there was no physical wilson Ep19: the most annoying patient so far appears in the form of a 15 yr old faith healer with herpes. I feel like the degree to which unrelenting niceness irritates me rly says something about me but eh oh well. Chase (ofc it was chase) kept a tally on who was winning God or house, faith healer managed to shrink a womans cancer tumour through giving her herpes (((a miracle praise be))) and during poker night house called wilson out on sleeping with said cancer patient and discovered wilson was actually living with her whoops bad Wilson ((he totally regrets his life choices ((he should)))) Ep20: HOLY SHIT ITS A TWOPARTER AND FOREMANS GUNNA DIE !! Ok so,,, there was this cop who couldn't stop laughing till he could but then it got a lot worse and then foreman caught whatever it was which they began to realise when he smirked as house shot a corpse to see what a bullet in a brain would do to an MRI ((spoilers it broke the machine)) anyway long story short it wasnt the pigeons and the cops dead and foreman is gunna die even after that shitdick move he pulled where he stabbed Cameron with a needle so she'd go to the apartment Ep21: HOO BOY OK SO a lot happened so much happened the most important thing is foreman by the end of the ep is mostly kind of ok - he's just a bit muddled on his lefts n rights. During the ep house was stressed the entire time cus even tho he denys it he does love n care for his ducklings,, he even cares enough to deliberately attempt to poison Steve McQueen which didn't work but can be added to the list of stressful events. Cameron grew a spine a lil bit I literally yelled when she berated cuddy and she forced the biopsy cus foreman had the foresight (ayyyyy) to make her his medical proxy even if house managed to find the problem anyway so it was ultimately unnecessary and has just resulted in some possible brain damage Ep22: house keeps trying to pick a fight with foreman and failing because Foreman's all happy go lucky now, the patient was mad because of a thing and killed her baby accidentally on purpose, the music that played during the baby autopsy was super unnecessary and bizzare, and in the end the woman had cancer but she's refusing treatment cus of the baby guilt. Cuddy didn't have cancer, which we know because Wilson ((WILSON NOT HOUSE)) stole her dna and ran secret tests in the middle of the night, but it still wasn't a date Wilson despite what house said about skin lessions she was actually just going to attempt to use u as a sperm donor - have fun at the L-word marathon with house you big sad loser (I love u) Ep23: we meet an old house friend which is Super fun he is ridiculously naive and I love that he calls house g-man holy shit. House is now giving cuddy injections as part of a fertility treatment which is nice of him especially seeing as his leg was in a Lot of pain this ep,, like a LOT...he's self-injecting morphine now which is probably bad :/ house's friend's daughter was the patient at one point she pooped out her mouth gRoSs and house ran a paternity test n told the girl she was actually the dudes daughter ((except he was lYINg in support of his friend)) he does care Ep24: HOUSE GOT SHOT WHAT IS IT WITH THIS TEAM SUFFERING RN JC this was a very fun episode of 'guess when house is hallucinating', spoilers the answer is all the time the whole ep takes place in his head. That aside I absolutely loved the hospital gown/trainer combo (no I won't apologize) and the fact that house did almost none of his physio - instead relegating it to others which is....not how it works. The hallucinatory clinic patient was freaky deaky his eye exploded and so did his dick but dw cus to escape the hallucination house killed him ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ what can u do. At the end house woke up n requested ketamine we'll see how that goes

Season 1

[cheatsheettobeingworthy]

The Only 3 Things I Need In A Partner My list is incredibly short. But it’s also incredibly non-negotiable. (by Kris Gage) Too many people — especially women my age — harbor ridiculous “check lists” of demands in a partner that don’t matter. Tall. High-income. Nice car. Nice apartment — and good decor. Attractive. Smart. Nice. Not crazy. Good family. Good hair. Good nose. Works out. Drinks what I drink. Likes the same music. Has the same hobbies. Travels. Does brunch on the weekend and trivia at night. Wants a golden retriever — and 2 kids… Shit goes on. Fam, I love you, but these lists are ridic. We’re just creating obscene demands to distract ourselves from the real work of discerning what’s important. I’m not going to tell you what you should want. But I will suggest that we define it better. When I think about what I want in a life partner, the questions I ask aren’t things like “what his earning potential?” but rather “what’s this guy gonna do when shit really hits the fan?” Because it will. And when it does, no amount of luxury vehicles or nice hair or good looks will do me much good. Don’t get me wrong — I definitely have a physical “type” that I go for, but looks don’t matter that much in the long run. I’ve dated tall, short, skinny, fat, older, younger, good hair, no hair, and various states of balding. (I’ve also dated high income, low income, same religion, different religion… dudes with luxury cars, beaters, and interests in all kinds of music and hobbies — I don’t care.) Because: There are only 3 things that I absolutely need I like the simplicity of “trifectas” — with “tall, dark and handsome” being the classic (albeit bad) example. I wanted to get my criteria down to three as well. And I didn’t really sit down and ponder over it as much as I simply realized and it emerged, quietly and clear: I need: “emotional stability, critical thought, and friendship.” “Looks” don’t even make the cut — and even if I was pushed to list more, “looks” wouldn’t even crest the top ten. Frankly, I’d just extrapolate my top three into specifics. Because all I care about are these. 1) Emotional Stability Self-sufficiency. Emotional health. Responsibility for our own emotions. Composure. And I should note: all healthy relationships require this of both partners. Without it, the relationship doesn’t have a chance in hell. At a bare minimum (non-negotiable): a partner who can make it through 99.9% of his days without having a meltdown. Someone who takes responsibility for his own emotions, first and foremost, and communicates his needs calmly and clearly. Someone who deals with everyday setbacks without flailing, follows through on what he says he’ll do, and, for the love of god, takes responsibility for his own mistakes. Someone who is both secure and emotionally self-sufficient; who doesn’t struggle with jealousy, clinginess, neediness, overreactions, toxicity, or crippling anxiety, and doesn’t whine, whimper, complain, cling, interrupt, get defensive, seek revenge, make excuses, or demand constant affirmation (and ideally, also doesn’t lie, cheat or steal.) Someone not governed by emotions, who makes decisions level-headed. Someone dependable, emotionally rugged, and solid AF. Ideally (not required, but nice to have): grit. Someone who not only endures everyday hardship, but prospers because of it; not just passively accepting setbacks, but excelling despite them. I compromised on this once (okay, twice) and I regretted it. The first time, I got a stage-five clinger. The second, a codependent. Both because I prioritized the other two things in my trifecta and let this slide. Never again. 2) Critical Thinking Too often people bastardize the idea of “smart” as “knowing a lot of facts,” “being good at trivia,” “having an advanced degree,” or “working a big job.” But real intelligence isn’t about what you know. It’s how you think. It’s problem solving — finding or figuring out the answer, not remembering it. At a bare minimum (non-negotiable): when he encounters a problem, he not only refrains from a meltdown (see above) — he solves it. Someone who’s got clean, accurate logic and knows what to do with it. Someone who loves a good challenge, never shies from a setback, and steps up to solve shit time and time again when the going gets tough. Someone who’s so intellectually rugged, I can’t not want him around. Ideally (not required, but nice to have): someone who’s successfully applied this (and his grit) in his work, and done or built something valuable. (Super extra bonus points: an engineer. Because, all this considered, I sure do fuckin love me an engineer.) These two are the only real requirements. But to round out the trifecta, here’s my third item: 3) Friendship — based on understanding I yearn deeply for friendship and intellectual understanding in love. It is deliciously nice to have, and a lack of it was a big part of the reason I left my longest relationship. At a bare minimum: I want someone who’s pickin up what I’m puttin down like 99.9% of the time — and making me laugh almost as often. Someone with whom I have an inside joke or two. Someone with whom there’s comfort and ease and play. Someone with whom I’m real and actual friends. Someone who “gets me” in my mentally “pajama’d” state, my thoughts sprawled out and talking abstract at the ceiling. Ideally (not required, but nice to have): someone who’s my best friend.I know people take sides on this, but having had it both ways I’m convinced there’s only one best option (and anyone who says otherwise just doesn’t have it.) I want a best friend. Having a great relationship is, of course, predominantly about putting in the effort and work. But first build your house on a solid foundation, and focus on just a few key things to get a good one. These are just a starting point — and everything that’s important comes afterwards, through commitment and attention and effort. But none of that work means anything (at least to me) without these three things first in place. ❤ And it’s totally prescriptive, but frankly I think more people could benefit from a highly-focused list of priorities, based on values — not just ignoring things, but filtering on higher quality things. Because it’s not about lowering standards — it’s about raising them. To focus solely on shit that actually matters and makes a good relationship. And then focus the rest of our attention on building it. Note: a few readers misinterpreted this piece to mean I was still looking for someone. I’m not. My current partner (arguably already the love of my life) has all three of these things in spades — and makes me ridic happy.

[n0ttinghamshad0w]

It's not like I'm falling in love, I just want you to do me no good And you look like you could

ROBIN OLIVER HUNT (Name at birth: Robin Huang; Alias: Robert Oliver Gardner)

Birthday: March 12 1990 (Pisces) Hogwarts House (Primary):  Gryffindor Hogwarts House (Secondary): Slytherin Myers-Briggs: ENFP Enneagram: Type 8 Height:  5’9

Overview:

Mother:

1.       Unknown—Linda Huang, still alive, forced to give up her child by her conservative parents who did not want her raising a child out of wedlock, has not tried to make contact with her son.

2.       Mother Florence—the head nun at Nottingham Orphanage, firm, but kind; strict, but genuinely wanted the best for the children; had a soft spot for Robin, since he’d been there for like all his life.

3.       Barbara Economides—Robin’s first foster mom, had six kids of her own, but room in her heart for a dozen more

Father:

1.       Unknown—Ernesto Rosetti

2.       George Economides—Robin’s first foster dad, loving and hard-working man, who unfortunately did not have a very hard-working cardiovascular system. Died of a heart attack when Robin was ~12

Mother’s Occupation: he doesn’t care about his birth mom, but Barbara owned a bakery

Father’s Occupation: he doesn’t care about his birth dad, but George owned a bakery

Family Finances: well, none of the homes he was in were great financially

Birth Order: only child as far as he’s concerned

Siblings: N/A--(Stefan, Petros, Elek, Idola, Eileen, Karena...the Economides kids)

Other Close Family: None

Best Friend: Joan Woode (28)

Other Friends: Tuck Frere (26), Martin Maddon (18), Fakhir Azhar (27)

Enemies: all those who neglect/abuse their children

Pets: none, would love a bird or a fox tho

Home Life During Childhood: He was in an orphanage till he was nine, and it was not a bad orphanage at all, just massively under-funded. At nine, he was placed in a foster home, a large Greek family, and he was very well-loved and well-taken care of, but the father dropped dead of a heart attack when Robin was 12 and the Economides family had to move and they couldn’t take care of Robin. He shuffled through like four other foster homes, at least one of which he was badly abused in, till at seventeen, he just didn’t come home one day and the family never reported it and that was that.

Town or City Name(s): Nottingham, England

What Did His Bedroom Look Like: Never had a steady room, or one of his own. Always shared with someone else, always a small bed.

Any Sports or Clubs: Nah, he was the type of kid who hung out under bridges and threw stuff.

Favorite Toy or Game: Had a toy archery kit back at the Economides house

Schooling: left school at seventeen

Favorite Subject: History and English, loved old stories of Robin Hood

Popular or Loner: loner---’cept he was real popular with the “troubled” kids, the freak in freaks and geeks

Important Experiences or Events: When George died, the abuse at the other foster homes

Health Problems: None

Culture: English?? He’s actually Italian and Chinese, but wouldn’t know at all. Considers himself Greek, if anything

Religion and beliefs: The only time in his life when he was religious was when he lived with the Economides family and went to church on the reg, since then, he’s convinced that if a God does exist, he’s a shitty God and only people can really help each other

Your Character’s Character:

Bad Habits: smoking, drinking, commitment issues, def has ghosted girls before...oh yeah, uh, stealing things??? He’s also a pickpocket

Good Habits: very good with children, when he wants to be he’s very kindhearted, very charismatic, very charming, good sweet-talker

Best Characteristic: intense--has his set of beliefs and morals and will stick by them

Worst Characteristic: intense--to the point where he isolates himself

Worst Memory: The moment the Economides family left him at the social services office (also George’s death lbr)

Best Memory: His first Christmas with the Economides family

Proud of: the money he’s been able to give back to the orphanage

Embarrassed by: his lack of formal education

Driving Style: erratically, I don’t think he has a license but he definitely knows how to drive--does not get into accidents, but is hella reckless

Strong Points: passionate, believes in a cause, dedicated friend, charming, charismatic, quick-learner, good with his hands

Temperament: sanguine

Attitude: passionate, intense

Weakness: has a very specific mission, keeps people at a distance unless you’ve proved yourself to him, you can know him but never really know him

Fears: man, uh, not being able to make a difference

Phobias: abandonment issues~~~

Secrets: the fact that he’s a master thief

Regrets: not finishing secondary, not being like a better person or whatever

Feels Vulnerable When: talking about his past

Pet Peeves: tourists (but they make good bait), people who hate on people who use subtitles, americans, mac copmputers

Conflicts: his very idealistic moral code vs reality, his very idealistic moral code and mission vs caring about his own life/needs

Motivation: justice for children

Short Term Goals and Hopes: find Tuck’s family, steal from Tuck’s family, find Martin, find enough money to get Fakhir a good lawyer

Long Term Goals and Hopes: well shit, making a difference in the lives of people somehow

Sexuality: heterosexual, but could be convinced to fuck a bloke

Exercise Routine: just generally active, runs a fair bit, likes to play sports with friends

Day or Night Person — Night

Introvert or Extrovert — Extrovert

Optimist or Pessimist — Optimist

Likes and Styles:

Music: alt-rock, classic rock, rock in general, also some punk

Books: he likes old stories and folktales (ie; Robin Hood whom he modeled himself after), but does have a soft spot for some high fantasy books (he’s a big fan of Lloyd Alexander’s work--wait, I guess that doesn’t exist since The Black Cauldron is disney but IM SURE HE HAD SOME SORTA EQUIVALENT...The Beige Cauldron) and adventure novels

Magazines: GQ probs let’s be real. Never bought one, always knicked ‘em out of newstands. ALso probably playboy……...Recently has been into tech mags.

Foods: Greek food---reminds him of his time with the Economides family. Loves him a good lamb gyro with a big side of chips.

Drinks: Whiskey--straight up. Not a huge tea drinker, but likes a strong Turkish coffee. Also Gin and Tonics

Animals: Foxes and birds of prey. Tbh, kinda hates that the name the orphanage gave him is ROBIN for crying out loud it sounds so fuckin’ wimpy

Sports: big football fan, also into rugby, probably out of all my characters the one who follows sports the most jeez

Social Issues: def def a huge proponent for children’s rights, especially within the foster system; that’s his biggest thing, but he’s also really for Magick-Rights and against the pressing xenophobia and nationalism that’s rising in a lot of Western European nations

Favorite Saying: Faint heart never won fair lady; As you wish

Color: Dark forest green

Clothing: enough to maintain his image as a #rebel, but def does not invest toooo much in fashion. Lots of cool jackets, mostly darker colors

Jewelry: nah, mate that’s excessive (has this pendent that Barbara gave him that used to be George’s but that’s it)

Games: loves dominoes a lot actually

Websites: uhh reddit probably

TV Shows: probs into Game of Thrones and #epic period dramas

Movies: his absolute favorite movie is The Princess Bride, he loves good action flicks with a dash of epic romance--something with a real hero. Also probs a Star Wars fan. V for Vendetta

Greatest Want: to make a difference in the world, to make sure no child is ever hurt

Greatest Need: to let people in

Where and How Does Your Character Live Now:

Home: small studio apartment in Benbow

Household furnishings: sparse, probs just sleeps on a mattress let’s be real, has a hot plate and a mini fridge, uses a crate for a coffee table

Favorite Possession: his trusty pocket knife, one of the first things he bought with his own money

Most Cherished Possession: necklace that Barbara Economides gave to him that used to belong to George, it is a Greek Cross

Married Before: Nope.

Significant Other Before: the only serious one was this rather posh girl when he was 21. She ended up getting pregnant, but got an abortion and the relationship sorta derailed after that.

Children: nah

Relationship with Family: lol

Car: n/a

Career: no “career”--has worked service jobs and manual labor, was a bartender for a bit but quit bc of the Fakhir thing

Dream Career: god, he doesn’t know--maybe a social worker, tbh, or owning some sort of afterschool program for kids

Dream Life: he wouldn’t tell you, but being married to a beautiful girl, having a buncha kids, adopting a bunch too

Love Life: a string of one-night stands and brief dramatic love affairs that ended like smoke in the night

Hobbies : knife-throwing, wood-carving

Guilty Pleasure : women?

Sports or Clubs: not at the moment

Talents or Skills : wood-carving, bartending, bit of an amateur hacker, decent dancer and football player, decent at like climbing things lol, lock-picking, stealth talents

Intelligence Level: Never did well in school, but is quite very streetsmart and can read people very well, knowledgable on random things, courtsey of Tuck 

Finances: not as bad as you’d think, but still def the poorest out of my characters. He’s the type of dude who gives everything he gets back--always drops in coins for street musicians, always

[punk-rock-pixie]

1-100

I need to be careful what I ask for lmao

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

Spotify

is your room messy or clean?

It’s messy rn just cuz I was looking for something

what color are your eyes?

Hazel

do you like your name? why?

Yeah. Picked it myself.

what is your relationship status?

single

describe your personality in 3 words or less

Really McFuckin Gay

what color hair do you have?

Black and blue

what kind of car do you drive? color?

Grey chevy cruz

where do you shop?

I’m a slut for Barns and Noble lately. Dropped $60 on classic ghost stories, Norse Mythology, and a Deathly Hallows journal. I’ve dropped over $100 literally in the last two months on books. I don’t work anymore though so that won’t be a thing anymore

how would you describe your style?

Sad college kid chic 

favorite social media account

Youtube

what size bed do you have?

Queen

any siblings?

One older sister.

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

The Nordic region. They’ve been doing so much right in terms of education and gender equality. 

favorite snapchat filter?

The anime one

favorite makeup brand(s)

NYX, E.L.F. and Bare Essentials

how many times a week do you shower?

I shower every other day, but I wash my hair like every 3-4 days to keep the color in.

favorite tv show?

Currently, really love trollhunters. 

shoe size?

Like a 7 in mens or something

how tall are you?

5′6.5″ The half is so important to me because I’ve hardly grown since 2012 

sandals or sneakers?

Trick question- no shoes at all. Our feet get hurt like men.

do you go to the gym?

Rarely, but yes.

describe your dream date

Dear god. Almost any date I’d be okay with. Coffee? Sign me the fuck up. Hang around a park/go on a walk? Lemme get my heckin sneakers. Cryptid hunting in the wee hours of the night? You just won my heckin heart buddy.  

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

Like $30-$40 I think????

what color socks are you wearing?

None sock

how many pillows do you sleep with?

Too many for my own good.

do you have a job? what do you do?

Not anymore :)))) There weren’t enough hours.

how many friends do you have?

How many friends? Many. How many close ones? Like 3-4

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

Something I’d rather not say.

whats your favorite candle scent?

Lavender always but peppercorn and pumpkin are the ones I’ve been using lately.

3 favorite boy names

Marshal

Ethan (NOT BECAUSE OF NESTOR)

Quinn

3 favorite girl names

Rose

Sadona

Rickie 

favorite actor?

Always and forever Chris Evans, but also Hugh Jackman found his way back to my heart recently. The Rock, Ramin Karimloo, Sean Gunn, Michael Rooker

favorite actress?

Zoe Saldana, Zendaya, Melissa McCarthy, Allison Janney, Julie Andrews, Maryl Streep.

who is your celebrity crush?

See above two questions, but mainly Hugh Jackman, Chris Evans, and Zendaya

favorite movie?

If you couldn’t tell, I’m hyperfixating on Greatest Showman, but also Book of Life, Monster in Paris, 1937 Phantom of the Opera

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

My favorite book is Dracula currently, but I also love Dodie Clark’s “secrets for the mad”, most of Shakespeare’s plays and Edgar Alan Poe’s works

money or brains?

Brains. 

do you have a nickname? what is it?

I have way to many dude.

how many times have you been to the hospital?

Like 7-8 I think???

top 10 favorite songs

In no order:

-I’m counting all of greatest showman as one

-Cat Stevens: Father and Son

-Raspberries: Go all the way

-Silver: Wham Bam Shang a Lang

-Babeo Baggins: Thunder Bird

-Dodie Clark: You

-Beatles: Wanna Hold Your Hand

-Vanessa Paradis and Sean Lennon: La Seine 

-Dear Evan Hansen: For Forever

-Karen O: Moon Song

do you take any medications daily?

No but I should probably get back on them.

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

Normal to oily

what is your biggest fear?

Abandonment :) Also I have claustrophobia

how many kids do you want?

I mean if we’re talking baby goats, as many as I can afford.

whats your go to hair style?

I kinda just brush my hair back and hope for the best

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

It’s not a mansion, but it’s pretty big

who is your role model?

@thatsthat24

what was the last compliment you received?

From @mild-soapog something about how I deserve a wholesome life and honestly I just love Elle???

what was the last text you sent?

“Hey, how are you feeling?” to a former coworker

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

I grew up Jewish so I never really thought it.

what is your dream car?

I don’t really care tbh. I’m pretty happy with the one I have.

opinion on smoking?

You do you just not around me cuz I will cough like a mad man.

do you go to college?

Soon

what is your dream job?

Professional film or stage actor or singer/guitarist in a band

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

Nope. I’m a good noodle.

do you have freckles?

Several

do you smile for pictures?

Yes, but only after make a bunch of stupid faces

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

659

have you ever peed in the woods?

Yes and uh 4/5 would not recommend 

do you still watch cartoons?

Yup

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Neither.

Favorite dipping sauce?

hek dude idk 

what do you wear to bed?

Usually like a tank top and underwear. if it’s super cold I’ll wear sweats too

have you ever won a spelling bee?

Have I ever even competed in one????

what are your hobbies?

Guitar, singing, ukulele, drawing, writing poetry

can you draw?

I’d say so

do you play an instrument?

Check hobbies with the addition of bass guitar

what was the last concert you saw?

I think it was a Beatles tribute band???

tea or coffee?

Both

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Starbucks

do you want to get married?

Honestly, first let me find someone local that will love me for more than 4 months

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

HJ, EJ, EN. 

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

You mean… IF I get married

what color looks best on you?

Blacks and purples

do you miss anyone right now?

Several people

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

usually closed

do you believe in ghosts?

Yes and no???

what is your biggest pet peeve?

chewing with your mouth open, snoring, pen clicking, leg jiggling (if it’s in my peripheral vision)

last person you called

My crush actually. He and I are friends and I asked if we wanted me to hang with him after school since he had to stay up until I had my callback scheduled

favorite ice cream flavor?

Chocolate chip cookie dough and cookies and cream

regular oreos or golden oreos?

What the shit are golden oreos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

Rainbow cuz I’m queer

what shirt are you wearing?

 A black tank top

what is your phone background?

a greatest showman wallpaper

are you outgoing or shy?

it depends on the situation

do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yes but ONLY IF THEY ASK BEFORE HAND.

do you like your neighbors?

I don’t even know my neighbors

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Both

have you ever been high?

nope

have you ever been 

Nope

last thing you ate?

Like half a pizza

favorite lyrics right now?

Idk my favorite currently, but these are the ones that keep circling my head

“When the world becomes a fantasyAnd you’re more than you could ever be‘Cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide openAnd you know you can’t go back againTo the world that you were living in'Cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide open

So Come alive”

summer or winter?

Winter

day or night?

Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

All????

favorite month?

October-November

what is your zodiac sign

Scorpio

who was the last person you cried in front of?

Honestly, I have no fuckin clue lmaooooo

[zaner210]

Supreme

The mystery enigma of this skateshop boutique/bodega turned brand. I admire that this genius was started from skateboarders. These dudes are innovative! Genius'! I wonder are they fucking with their fans/supporters. Even the definition and choice of this word Supreme... "Superior to all others." I do understand it became a lifestyle goods/lifestyle brand and if you're really into the obscure thing you're getting into you will for some reason collect and obtain these obscure pointless items. (Other brand examples Bape Condoms the bape caps, Baby Milo Toilet paper.). Many wear it, rep it, a logo/ symbol expression with some words. We're all drawn towards an aesthetic of fashion/style and wear and support the logo or mantra of a company (if you're into the vein fruitlessness of the sick twisted fashion style world and industry) a hobby, collecting things, accumulating pointless material wealth. It's a skateshop. They sell skateboards right!!! I don't follow stuff I'm not into or try to fit in to be cool? I am into this culture/lifestyle of fashion, I am aware of other brands, hear or read somewhere about something they're doing. What's cool? I already look color blind with what I put together. Side tracked it's not the price, brand or the exclusivity it's the expression of the outfit what you wear how you put it together. I'm not into Supreme but beyond tripped out of this skateshop mass cult following brand. I'm not into them, I'm aware of them, I respect them more so how warped it all is. I Know they do some heavy serious collabs. I grew up skateboarding, I recall Alien Workshop Photosynthesis Jason Dill wearing a Supreme hoody (watched this vid for the 1st time in 02!), believe it or not there was a time when you couldn't go online and just watch something (like skateboarding vids, someone had to have a VHS copy of it!) What's VHS haha? So I'm not into Supreme but am I? I was somewhat conscious of Supreme then maybe not at that exact moment and time but subconsciously subject to them. It's a sick contest battle, Scenario: how long ya been into supreme for *in a Blake Palmer voice*? Just got into it honestly... what is this obscure lifestyle I'm stepping into? don't know how I stumbled into it but I'm wearing it now. I'm very observant, was sleep deprived and bent and ran into a fashion savvy individual wearing the Redwing boot iron ranger at a bar. Exchanged a compliment of the boots. He was also wearing the plain subtle black t that said supreme in the subtless spot! It was a minimal thing that most would not notice but I commented, individual was also wearing Supreme boxers or briefs (I chuckled at this but understood he was a fan!). The subtly of these obscure items! whys a skateshop making boxers? How did a skateshop in NY globally spread across the world? I'm baffled by this brand. I went to Supreme LA once, the brick and mortar establishment. I purchased 2 Ts as souvenirs. Never wore them. Ended up giving one away for free to a skate homie. Sold the other to a boutique. It was a kind of an unwelcoming establishment and I was like wait... am I allowed to purchase this stuff here haha? Met another avid fan that had the most obscure of items.. a unique collector. I collect things myself and understand gaining an obscure piece, item, collectible, antique. This dude obtained a 1st edition business card of Supreme! Not into the brand but admire that aspect of being into something, gaining an obscure piece that would mean nothing to others that wear this thing they're into.

Supreme

A skateshop

Collaborating with artist, porn stars, other company's (company's I like, there's something to them if the brand I enjoy has willingly/mutually done a collab with this skateshop boutique/ bodega. The muppet Kermit, athletes, HR Giger (how this post became!) bands. Are these people willingly wanting to collaborate with this thing? Are they paid large sums of money? Does supreme do a great job of photoshopping a celeb falsely wearing their brand? Its warped..... I'm wearing a shirt of a picture of that person wearing the shirt! Am I even wearing the shirt? It's a fuckin mystery enigma to me now. A made up scenario that will never happen! (some of the band collab Ts are repackaged designs of basic band Ts... I understand the design of a quality garment. The tight woven stitching... subtle details. This made up scenario that will never ever happen only in my warped mind... Dude who's legit into the band wearing band T... dude that's wearing same logo band t but Supreme version... "your Supreme shirts fake dude!" Dude who's into band "What's Supreme this is the same shirt you're wearing."

Supreme is a skateshop right

I grew up skating. Been to many skateshops. My local skateshop (Rip goodtimes San Antonio TX!) never made it to the levels of collabing with rappers, boxers, porn stars and muppets! (Did have a limited D.C. Lynx sneaker with GSA on it! I thought it was sick but passed cause I didn't like or skate DC!).

I see people wearing an obscure piece not joking a Supreme Headsweat band. Whys a skateshop selling headsweat bands? When's the last time you've worn a headsweat band? I don't even think I've worn one in my life. But I would wear the one that says supreme. Cause it's supreme it's fuckin supreme.

Why in the hell is a skateshop collaborating with a high end luxury goods company like Louis Vuitton. Why is Louis accepting a collab with a skateshop!!?? I'm skater trash I need money for a nasty boy or a new piece of wood.

Supreme nunchucks....More likely scenario then above....Run into Mikey from the ninja turtles clan... a fellow chucker ayyyee? Ppfftt I can't use these things don't even know why I bought em but it's limited and it says supreme.

My skate shop never sold boxing gloves! My skateshop never sold bricks. (How many of those bricks did they sell? Did anyone build anything with a vast amount of those bricks!) I wanna build a house made entirely outta Supreme Bricks! Usher in a new era of house fancy! It's not a mansion but it's made entirely out of supreme bricks (front door also has guilded door knob). A few years ago on a forum I did a crude MS paint photo shop of a jock strap, a leather vest and some suspenders with the box logo! I'm still waiting for these to be made! I joke about a Supreme buttplug, supreme dildo supreme androgynous fleshlite. These dudes that started a skateshop/boutique are brilliant.

I don't understand why people blindly wear something and don't know what they're wearing. Drake in Supreme Independent hoody. Drake or kook that doesn't know what they're wearing: "Independent Trucks, a trucking company that transports things across our nation."

Thrasher supreme collab.

Or plain thrasher mag T from Shoobiez.

You know you can support the magazine, subscribe for a year and get a free T in your size. (They will give ya a random color). Learn about the magazine. Read it when you're on the pissoir.

People can wear what they want I don't care what you're wearing but why are people blindly following this stuff to fit in and impress others. Celebs have stylist. They can't dress themselves

NERD Rockstar "fuckin posers!"

Wasn't Pharrell a poser haha

The term poser

Kook

Shoobie

I dunno if they are but I feel like the dudes running Supreme are messing with all of us

[exo-orbiter-1983]

1-99

Dude what the f u c k

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? - Sound Cloud

is your room messy or clean? - MESSY LOL

what color are your eyes? - Golden brown

do you like your name? why? - Yes! Because I picked it and it’s something I’ve grown very comfortable with

what is your relationship status? - Single

describe your personality in 3 words or less - loyal, funny, hard-working

what color hair do you have? - brown

what kind of car do you drive? color? - a gray toyota sienna (I’m basically a soccer mom)

where do you shop? - amazon, maybe hot topic. I dont really shop

how would you describe your style? - clothing? Laid back. I wear basketball shorts, athletic shoes, a t-shirt, and sometimes a hat 

favorite social media account - instgram or tumblr

what size bed do you have? - full

any siblings? - yep, little sister

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? - tbh california, just not my current city. I like it here, it’s pretty liberal and open and the weather is slightly standable in the spring

favorite snapchat filter? - doggo

favorite makeup brand(s) - lmao I don’t wear makeup

how many times a week do you shower? - not enough

favorite tv show? - orange is the new black

shoe size? - LOL 3 IN KIDS

how tall are you? - 5′1″ FINALLY

sandals or sneakers? - sneakers all the way

do you go to the gym? - no, we have a workout room at home plus im in band so that works well enough

describe your dream date - oh boy. Honestly just doing something chill together and going for a walk and looking up at the stars together. Nice cuddling and some kisses thrown in there too lmao

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? - $0, I don’t use cash

what color socks are you wearing? - white

how many pillows do you sleep with? - 1, sometimes 2

do you have a job? what do you do? - I do not, menchies rejected me

how many friends do you have? - a big group of like 10 or 11 who I can really call friends and actually depend on

whats the worst thing you have ever done? - oh fuck okay, probably run a red light and almost tboned someone but luckily they stopped because my dumbass is a terrible driver

whats your favorite candle scent? - cinamon

3 favorite boy names - ALEX, Mikey (cuz he’s my bff and I love his name), and Andrew

3 favorite girl names - Taylor, Sarah, Kate

favorite actor? - idk man

favorite actress? - Amy pohler 

who is your celebrity crush? - Laura Prepon god she’s so fucking hot

favorite movie? - Power rangers

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? - not really, but my fav series is chaos walking

money or brains? - brains

do you have a nickname? what is it? - yes! a lot of people call me shimmy or Shim

how many times have you been to the hospital? - I got hurt a lot when I was younger to I went to the urgant care but that’s it

top 10 favorite songs - 1. You’re gonna go far kid 2. First by Cold War Kids 3. Forest by ToP 4. be Still by the killers 5. mr. brightside by the killers 6. The Violence by Rise Against 7. Cecilia and the satelite 8. Handclap 9. Believer by imagine dragons and 10. tear in my heart

do you take any medications daily? - nope

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) - dry

what is your biggest fear? - losing someone i care about

how many kids do you want? - 3

whats your go to hair style? - Parted on the side and just kinda swept over and pushed forward? Idk how to descibe it ill post a pic after this tho

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) - i guess it’s a little on the bigger side

who is your role model? - my friends mikey and lexi (@bridkid)

what was the last compliment you received? - “You’re tone sounded really good that rep”

what was the last text you sent? - “Are you shitting me” to Lexi after seeing that someone was making me answer 99 fuckin questions

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? - bruh idk maybe 9, 10?

what is your dream car? - idk just not my current van

opinion on smoking? - dont do it

do you go to college? - nope I’m a junior in high school

what is your dream job? - high school band director

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? - suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? - nah

do you have freckles? - not really

do you smile for pictures? - I try

how many pictures do you have on your phone? - 431

have you ever peed in the woods? - definitely

do you still watch cartoons? - of course

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? - wendys

Favorite dipping sauce? - BBQ

what do you wear to bed? - basketball shorts and a t shirt, sometimes I sleep shirtless if it’s too hot tho

have you ever won a spelling bee? - nope, never participated in one

what are your hobbies? - music and hanging out with friends

can you draw? - yeah I’m not terrible at it

do you play an instrument? - Yes! Trumpet, piano, saxophone, french horn, euphonium, bass drum, and pit percussion

what was the last concert you saw? - Does DCI count

tea or coffee? - coffee

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? - starbucks

do you want to get married? - maybe, probably

what is your crush’s first and last initial? - DR

are you going to change your last name when you get married? - probably, just because I don’t like my last name rn

what color looks best on you? - blue

do you miss anyone right now? - my friend lexi cuz bitch graduated

do you sleep with your door open or closed? - closed holy shit

do you believe in ghosts? - not sure

what is your biggest pet peeve? - my trumpet section

last person you called`- Nathan, one of the sophomores in my section because he was super late this morning

favorite ice cream flavor? - cookies n cream

regular oreos or golden oreos? - regular

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? - gay

what shirt are you wearing? - my SCSBOA 2015 Championships shirt

what is your phone background? - a picture of me, Mikey, and our friend Emma laying on top of each other

are you outgoing or shy? - more outgoing than shy

do you like it when people play with your hair? - YES I LOVE IT

do you like your neighbors? - no 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? - when I shower I wash it

have you ever been high? - nope

have you ever been drunk? - I’ve been buzzed

last thing you ate? - crab quiche 

favorite lyrics right now - literally the entirety of be still by the killers but i like this part “And may your limits be unknownAnd may your efforts be your ownIf you ever feel you can't take it anymoreDon't break characterYou've got a lot of heartIs this real or just a dream?Rise up like the sunLabor till the work is done“

summer or winter? - summer

day or night? - depends

dark, milk, or white chocolate? - milk

favorite month? - august or november

what is your zodiac sign - pisces

HAPPY I ANSWERED 99 QUESTIONS BUDDY also this proves I have nothing better to do with my life lmao

[maybesunny]

Do all the questions because I love u and love learning about u

You’re a fucker.

1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? - Spotify lmao is there any argument2. Is your room messy or clean? - Considering the standards? Pretty damn clean3. What color are your eyes? - Blue-green4. Do you like your name? why? - Yeah, I think it's unique and people seem to like it5. What is your relationship status? - Taken6. Describe your personality in 3 words or less - Uh... Funny, quirky, caring? That's so fucking generic7. What color hair do you have? - Brown (but my hairdresser says it's burnt blond ;) )8. What kind of car do you drive? color? - This is assuming I have ever driven a day in my life9. Where do you shop? - Wh... What? What does that even mean you need multiple shops to buy things10. How would you describe your style? - Hot as hell boy11. Favorite social media account - Some of these questions are god awful12. What size bed do you have? - Double I think13. Any siblings? - 1 Brother14. If you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? - I used to say the UK but fuck that now. I have no idea honestly.15. Favorite snapchat filter? - There was this circular glasses one that was around for ages that I loved16. Favorite makeup brand(s) - I wish I had some. I need someone to teach me eyeliner...17. How many times a week do you shower? - Every day wtf who doesn't do that gross18. Favorite tv show? - lmao19. Shoe size? - Fuck if I know dude20. How tall are you? - I should probably know this one but I don't. Tallish?21. Sandals or sneakers? - Sneakers wtf 22. Do you go to the gym? - No comment23. Describe your dream date - Literally just a warm little night at home with movies and shit fuck going anywhere24. How much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? - Like $525. What color socks are you wearing? - Black26. How many pillows do you sleep with? - Two big, two small27. Do you have a job? what do you do? - Ahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahha28. How many friends do you have? - I really don't know who I classify as a friend or not so a lot29. Whats the worst thing you have ever done? - No30. Whats your favorite candle scent? - Dude I wish I knew THAT too I need to buy more candles31. 3 favorite boy names - Anything soft sounding32. 3 favorite girl names - Honestly anything to do with gems or flowers is great33. Favorite actor? - I really can't pick I love a lot of people34. Favorite actress? - Ditto35. Who is your celebrity crush? - I literally had no idea people still had these36. Favorite movie? - Uuugggh fuck don't make me pick. Silence of the Lambs, Pulp Fiction, Life of Pi, there are so many I adore37. Do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? - I do not read a lot but I also have many favourite books that I HAVE read (That I can't remember right now)38. Money or brains? - Why not both39. Do you have a nickname? what is it? - Jet 40. How many times have you been to the hospital? - Like 341. Top 10 favorite songs - I TOLD YOU I CAN'T PICK JUST CHOOSE LIKE ALL OF GORILLAZ AND PANIC AT THE DISCO AND AAAAAA42. Do you take any medications daily? - I used to for athsma, but not anymore.43. What is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) - Soft boy44. What is your biggest fear? - Being hated by others45. How many kids do you want? - I don't really want kids but if I did have them I'd want two46. Whats your go to hair style? - Shoulder length hair let down?? I guess? That's what i've done since forever so47. What type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) - Normal sized I guess? It's nothing special48. Who is your role model? - I was also not aware people still had these49. What was the last compliment you received? - I honestly can't remember50. What was the last text you sent? - Actual text? "I'd listen to it". Any message? "(STOP THAT I SWEAR 2 GOD)"51. How old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? - Pretty young, I'd say about 552. What is your dream car? - This is implying I care53. Opinion on smoking? - Listen, if you smoke, I won't berrate you for it. But I've lost someone to smoking before and I seriously reccommend against it as much as I can. 54. Do you go to college? - I'm aiming to.55. What is your dream job? - Game design56. Would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? - Suburbs thanks57. Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? - What58. Do you have freckles? - Nope, wish I did.59. Do you smile for pictures? - Of course I do binch60. How many pictures do you have on your phone? - Not many cos my phone has tiny space61. Have you ever peed in the woods? - Yes???? Weird question please leave my household62. Do you still watch cartoons? - WE, ARE THE CRYSTAL GEMS63. Do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? - Do Wendy's even exist in Australia?64. Favorite dipping sauce? - Tomato binch65. What do you wear to bed? - Whatever jumper I was wearing that day and trackies66. Have you ever won a spelling bee? - I have never even heard of one being held here67. What are your hobbies? - Drawing, games, level design69. Do you play an instrument? - I used to play piano70. What was the last concert you saw? - PJ Harvey (Also the only concert I've ever seen)71. Tea or coffee? - I've never had much of either.72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? - I hate Starbucks and I'm allergic to donuts73. Do you want to get married? - Yeah, eventually74. What is your crush’s first and last initial? - I’m in a relationship pls guess75. Are you going to change your last name when you get married? - Maybe, actually.76. What color looks best on you? - Fuck if I know77. Do you miss anyone right now? - Yes.79. Do you believe in ghosts? - Not... Really?80. What is your biggest pet peeve? - Some of these fuckin questions81. Last person you called`- Mum, probably.82. Favorite ice cream flavor? - Chocolate, I'm basic and I love it.83. Regular oreos or golden oreos? - WHAT THE FUCK IS A GOLDEN OREO84. Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? - Rainbow lmao i'm gay85. What shirt are you wearing? - A black shirt that says some dumbass shit like "Question Everything"86. What is your phone background? - Gorillaz87. Are you outgoing or shy? - A little bit of both.88. Do you like it when people play with your hair? - YES PLEASE DO89. Do you like your neighbors? - FUCK NO DUDE MY NEIGHBOR SUED US OVER A FUCKING TINY PIECE OF LAND THAT SHE RUINED90. Do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? - At night when i shower WHICH IS EVERY NIGHT 91. Have you ever been high? - Fuck off lol92. Have you ever been drunk? - YES now that's something I can get behind93. Last thing you ate? - Mild salami sticks lmao94. Favorite lyrics right now - "She's My Collar" is stuck in my head right now and I adore the lines "I'm yellow he was blue, It's nothing that he could hide"95. Summer or winter? - Summer fuck off cold weather bullshit96. Day or night? - Day, I guess.97. Dark, milk, or white chocolate? - ALL OF THE ABOVE98. Favorite month? - If you have a favourite month then u are extra as fuk99. What is your zodiac sign - Leo (Was it obvious?)100. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - My history class lmaooooo

[fimblvtr]

50 - 100 >:) my boi

Boi if I gotta do all 50 you gotta do 1-50 fuckin fight me

what was the last text you sent? “If we ever get the chance to, I really wanna take pics with you someday too”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? Like 9 I think and then I turned around and ruined it for my best friend lmao

what is your dream car? Honestly I always thought Mclaren’s were pretty dope but probably an all black BMW i8

opinion on smoking? Weed is a-ok but keep your cigs away from me tbh

do you go to college? Not for a few years now but I plan to go back.... eventually

what is your dream job? Youtuber or content creator of some sort, or something in gaming

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Suburbs honestly. Townhouses are a lot less to manage than full sized houses

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Nah but I always forget to bring mine so I do use them

do you have freckles? used to??? Now I just have them big ol’ freckles randomly on my arms and jazz

do you smile for pictures? Mainly make meme faces

how many pictures do you have on your phone? Im too lazy to check exactly but a few hundred at least? Im pretty good at moving them off my phone and onto my computer

have you ever peed in the woods? Yeah lmao

do you still watch cartoons? I watched GF and Svtfoe but thats been it

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Wendy’s wtf kind of question is that?

Favorite dipping sauce? spicy barbaque sauces cause I like my mouth to burn

what do you wear to bed? Usually just underwear and a tanktop

have you ever won a spelling bee? never even participated in one

what are your hobbies? Guitar and music in general, cosplay, gaming. Also like reading but I havent sat down and read a book in AGES

can you draw? nah

do you play an instrument? Guitar, some self taught piano, vocals of multiple sorts

what was the last concert you saw? Suicide Silence, Whitechapel, Despised Icon, Carnifex, Oceano, and my friends that opened for the show

tea or coffee? Depends, but usually tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Starbucks cause Im basic

do you want to get married? For financial reasons sure but otherwise it doesnt appeal to me right now

what is your crush’s first and last initial? You cant call me out on this one haha its a sECRET

are you going to change your last name when you get married? I dont know. Ive thought about changing my last name back to my original one just in general though (long story)

what color looks best on you? Black (obv), and probably green or red I’d say 

do you miss anyone right now? Yeah all the time

do you sleep with your door open or closed? Closed

do you believe in ghosts? Yeah dude spooky shit

what is your biggest pet peeve? bad hygiene/chewing with mouth open

last person you called?`Work lmao

favorite ice cream flavor? cookie dough

regular oreos or golden oreos? regular wtf

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? chocolate

what shirt are you wearing?my Fallujah tank top

what is your phone background? Atlas Giorno

are you outgoing or shy? a terrible mix of both

do you like it when people play with your hair? yEEAAAAAS

do you like your neighbors? Dont know them

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? Night

have you ever been high? Yeah boi

have you ever been drunk? yEE BOI

last thing you ate? Ruffles.......

favorite lyrics right now “I can see the eyes bearing from the fire insideAll of my demons try to drag me down to hellI am the master of my own way out“

summer or winter? .....summer

day or night? NIGHT

dark, milk, or white chocolate? Dark or gtfo

favorite month? Probably either may or september cause its not too hot out but its getting cold again quite yet

what is your zodiac sign? Virgo

[pokepelagore]

uhh a lot of things have been going on lately and theres a few things i need to get off my chest so lets enter the #OversharingHours shall we?

im just a sophmore but im already under a ton of pressure about the future/university and whatnot and its really stressing me out like i have to start making huge decisions and its all because of $$$ which my family doesnt have so u know what that means? i gotta earn everything myself and like not only that like lemme make a list cus i hate being disorganized

ok as i said i need $$cash money$$ asap or i’ll mcfreaking die. my parents straight up told me they aren’t gonna pay for my university and are forcing me to work my way up to a scholarship, which is troublesome for many reasons bc: 

my moma is struggling with being able to pay my psychologist and that Really sucks cus then i wont be able to receive therapy and get better, so how tha hell r u supposed to expect me to get a scholarship if im not mentally chill yakno

the Highest average ive ever gotten was 94, and that was in fifth grade my dudes. if im gona get a scholarship, i have to get a 96 at the very least and my current average this year is in my 80s and altho my average is shit because of geometry and bullshit mitochondria class, i kno theres no one else 2 blame but myself...

ok, so if some fuckin miracle happens and i do manage to earn that sweet savory scholarship, what next?? like, theres only one university i actually wanna go to (unless i become a braniac and earn a scholarship in the united states or something) which is like 1-2 hours from my house. i kno its kinda dumb but ive always thought of myself studying there and nowhere else so my first instinct is to try and go there, but i feel like im not being realistic cus not only am i imagining actually obtaining my scholarship but also a scholarship into the university i wana go to like thats a pretty huge deal. of course, there are closer ones like theres one like 10 minutes from my house but spoiler alert i dont wana live with my mom after highschool id kms

alright, in some fantasyland where i get that scholarship in my preferred university, how am i gona manage going there? i sure as hell aint gonna live in this cramped apartment after my senior year thats for sure. like yea, i have an idea of living with my gf like she’ll be off to uni next year and while i wont go to uni myself until two years after, itd be nice if i lived with her like at that point im pretty sure she either has her own apartment or maybe i can be her roommate for a while in her childhood home until we buy an apartment ourselves - which means i need even more $$$

and not only that but i obviously need a car. i was thinking that if things do go well with this optimum scholarship stuff and if i started earning money right now, i’d be able to get a sweet ride early in my senior year. i mean, of course i’d be hoarding a lot of cash from my relatives they’d give me over the holidays and i’d have to do a lot of odd jobs, but with a quick search ive found that i could get a decent car like a honda civic for like $10,000 bucks, which is a lot when i think about it but i have many talents so i wouldnt kill myself trying to get a car ok

and finally, finally, with the faint glimmer of hope my heart holds that all of this ends up going right, i still dont know wtf im going to study. i mean, yeah there are a lot of cool stuff, but never once in my life have i focused on one thing i mean thats kind of impossible for me when theres so many things to do. so i have to decide this too and it makes me really :// because like all that stuff i just mentioned will go to waste if i end up studying something just because theres nothing else for me to do and thats really sad

but yea these are my main worries for my future, not to mention my hobbies n relationships with other people or this will really get long dhfhdfhds maybe i should just sell weed with my uncle that doesnt sound so bad lol