#genuinely. I think I’m really fucked
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Fuck adhd. Sincerely, someone trying and failing to do her college courses
#I don’t care about the three (THREE) classes I have#I don’t know why I’m taking two programming classes#why do I need an audio class#the format is confusing#the one teacher who’s class format I understand is uncompromising on deadlines#I’m a dumbass#I don’t know how to code#opening canvas makes my head fog#thinking about school makes my stomach twist and turn#I’m fucking dying here Squirtle#unmedicated adhd#I don’t think I can do it gang#genuinely. I think I’m really fucked
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To be clear, I don’t hate the direction Caitlyn’s arc took — rather I hate how it was handled.
Her falling back on her privilege in a state of grief and anger makes sense, and creates a genuinely interesting route for her, which they could have addressed in multiple ways and stuck to the theme of oppression and how Piltover was so quick to switch up at the actions of one Zaunite. I think perhaps it would have worked better initially if Vi’s arc to becoming an enforcer was a season long conflict for her, but other than that, I have no qualms with how Cait’s arc started. The issues begin the further her arc goes along, and it becomes clear, at least to me, that they don’t actually know how to balance making Cait sympathetic/nuanced in her grief, while also still giving her genuine consequences for what she does to Zaun, and the contrast between years of death and hatred causing Zaun to start lashing out at Piltover, vs Caitlyn losing her mother and immediately lashing out against all of Zaun. This isn’t to say her grief is invalid, rather she is hurting and poisoning people over it, whether they be innocent in her eyes or not.
I’ve seen some people say it isn’t that bad because she only targeted gangs or Jinx — her main target — but the fact is gas cannot be controlled like that. It spreads. This is likely the same sort of gas that poisoned Viktor. We know what it does. And hell, the gangs are a product of the system and Piltover’s oppression and ignorance of Zaun, something Arcane acknowledged in season one, and then barely paid mind to in season two.
The fact is, Cait is a privileged cop who causes a rise in violence against Zaunites, and this is only briefly acknowledged in act 3 before we move onto other things. Vi’s confrontation towards her doesn’t feel like a consequence either, because it barely lasts, and Cait’s choices barely have an impact on the story, because even though she and the enforcers plagued Zaun for the first two acts, they still end up joining forces with Piltover, and it feels forced.
Cait simply doesn’t work in season 2, because for her to work, they would have to actively acknowledge the class divide and treatment of those in the Undercity, and season 2 refuses to properly do that, thereby painting Cait in a better light than she should be painted.
#arcane#arcane critical#arcane criticism#it’s frustrating especially because I enjoyed Cait’s character in s1#and I was excited for her arc in s2#I wish she was written better and with more nuance#also if you are genuinely defending Cait flooding parts of the Undercity with gas I’m gonna need you to really think on that for a sec#because what the fuck
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#me 💒#genuinely think I need to be able to lift heavy and look a bit chunky if I wanna be happy loool#I was about 170 here#y’all know how much muscle mass it was ?? force to be reckoned with#makes me sad because my natural body type became “trendy” pretty quick after I lost weight and I’m still angry over it lol#like I really got heavily bullied by family & peers for it to be a “gym girly” thing now fuck all those girls I hate that#joking I heavily advocate for taking care of yourself but yeah salty 4 personal reasons
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I get that everyone wants TikTok back but do we understand how bad it is that it’s happening the way it’s happening. Like we do understand how much of a horrifically choreographed process this is to boost and benefit Trump right. Can we all take a second to pause and go “hey wow something’s been getting fucked up and fishy for days now with Trump being turned into the hero about this even by the TikTok company themselves all of a sudden”?? (more chatter in the tags re tech companies and authoritarian autocrats)
#I feel like I’m insane#and the whole country is just happy to download random apps and lose hours of our lives to companies that don’t care#and who are now getting beholden to the most dictatorial and oligarchical authoritarian government our country has had yet#like does anyone else see the changes in wording and communication and talks that the company and Trump have been making or am I genuinely#just crazy#because this whole fucking society makes me feel like I’m the only one who cares to keep my brain filled with minimum manipulation and#propaganda#THIS IS NOT BEING DONE FOR YOU#THIS IS THEATRICS#DO WE NOT GET YHAT#Like. THIS SHOULD BE A MAJOR RED FLAG#look at the way Zuckerberg and Meta have changed the way they talk#and the things they’ve preemptively done to comply and pacify in advance#and then look at what ByteDance has suddenly started saying in certain days#I am Losing My Mind#GET OUT OF THE OLIGARCHS AND AUTOCRATS POCKETS#I AM BEGGING YOU#PAY ATTENTION TO THE WORDS AND DANCES HAPPENING IN FRONT OF YOUR FACES#maybe I really am crazy#I sound like a conspiracy theorist it’s just that all of this is happening so obviously#am I the only one uncomfortable with this? for real? like#2025#politics and current events#TRUMP AND THE TECH COMPANIES ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND#THEY HAVE NO GOOD IN STORE FOR YOU#AND YOU ARE THEIR CURRENCY AND PRODUCT AND GOAL#PLEASE I BEG YOU THINK ABOUT IT#TRUMP STARTED THE BANNING PROCESS HIMSELF FOR A REASON#Zuckerberg et all are turning into cowards with specific plans for a reason#I am begging you to get out of the manipulation and get out of the line of fire
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i know i watched mha specifically bc it looked like something homoerotic was happening but like oh my god??? something homoerotic is happening??? like how is this chapter real i’m
#bakudeku#bkdk#genuinely is it possible to enjoy mha right now without shipping bakudeku like what is that like what’s happening#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha leaks#like what’s it like in not bakudeku land how are they taking this are they seeing the vision#how can you NOT see the vision#hori is like literally skimming over everything and then zooming in on the vision#hori how bakudeku pilled are you for real hori look at me hori turn on your location#hori I’m too old to get queerbaited by a shonen is this real is this real life#hori look at me when I’m talking to you I need answers#I’m going…. to wait for Caleb’s translations#and then think#bc ruk really fucked us all over#but like oh my god are we being so for real right now#lik ruk couldnt fuck with their faces and their expressions are saying so much
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The Crane Wives (The Garden) and Malevolent are a great combo, I should have done this sooner…
I wanted to include more stuff from s4 and s5, hence starting with s5 Arthur, but I always overestimate how much I can fit in a minute. But know the intention was there. Maybe I’ll do another at some point, but not any time soon I’m burnt out for animation. But I love these guys so I’ll probably be back eventually. It’s just how it has to be.
#malevolent#malevolent fanart#malevolent podcast#my posts of madness#arthur lester#john doe malevolent#malevolent animation#malevolent animatic#arthur lester malevolent#arthur malevolent#john malevolent#I went waaay out of my comfort zone for a lot of this#so yay for learning new things?? not yay for my sanity#this was 10 days of work which honestly isn’t bad#I expected to be done three days ago but that’s okay#kayne malevolent#animation#John doe#I am genuinely sooo fucking happy with this#I’m winning#I do think the first half of the garden fits them better or like the whole song#but I really wanted that end part and my motivation DOES NOT last that long#I know what I’m like#artists on tumblr#I just love this podcast sooo much#excuse my inconsistency it’s been a while since I animated I had to get back in the groove#okay I’m done yapping now
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I think everyone’s subscribing to the “Helena Infiltration Theory” WAYY too quickly. I kinda feel like a lot of the oddities in the way she was acting could be chalked up to something else, and defaulting to “that’s not Helly” feels a lot like… I don’t know, like brushing off character flaws by saying, “No, [X] is possessed! That’s not actually them!”
I’d probably buy into it a bit more if she didn’t have that moment in the halls with Mark where she fervently said, “We’re not the same, actually. Us and the outies, we’re not.”
There are reasons why Helly would want to lie about her identity, and chief among them is the fact that she hates her outie—desperately wants to place distance between them, desperately wants to convince herself that the person she saw wasn’t her.
But there are compelling reasons for both angles, and I can’t say that I won’t be scanning future episodes for hints to either prove or disprove this, so… cheers, 🥂.
#my post#i’m mostly just worried people will use this as some sort of ‘‘gotcha!!!’’ and go the whole season believing it#and then being like. ‘‘what she’s really Not helena?’’ if it doesn’t turn out they’re right#but maybe they are! idk i kinda mostly feel uncomfortable with the idea that it’s Not the helly we know and love;#that the other innies are separated from her#ugh i hate that i can’t find the right way to word my thoughts on this; i feel like the ‘‘analysis’’ i wrote in the post is lacking#but whatever. on a different note: i think i’m not gonna look at theories online/on tumblr while this is happening#because if there is genuinely a theory that predicts something from the show. i’d still rather have seen it in the episode itself#and be surprised that way#WHICH IS GONNA BE DIFFICULT. IT’S GONNA BE HARD AS HELL TO STAY AWAY.#but i digress#severance#severance spoilers#severance season 2 spoilers#honestly the most odd moment for me with helly was when she was like ‘‘wait what?’’ at the news about ricken hale#because i just don’t think she’d give a fuck 💀 she didn’t even see the book initially; i don’t think she’d Know the importance of#what it meant to mark or dylan. least of all remember the name#but that might just be nitpicking#anyways that’s all i can coherently put into words rn. fare thee well
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just saw luther and diego getting shipped again and im once again begging the public to consider therapy
to quote a friend: what a disturbing glimpse into that thing you call a brain
#i’m so fucking serious#what is wrong with you#genuinely#don’t mean to be rude!!!! but also what is wrong with you#‘‘they’re not biological!!!’’ IT DOES NOT MATTER#THEYVE CALLED THE SAME PEOPLE MOM AND DAD AND BROTHER AND SISTER SINCE BIRTH#THAT IS A PROBLEM#i really don’t want to be rude but i genuinely don’t understand the inner mechanisms of some peoples brains bro#what about luther and diego’s BROTHERLY RELATIONSHIP makes you think ‘‘damnnn… what if they kissed though’’#smh i did not need another reason to be disappointed in humanity#HARCEST HATER !!!!!!!#laur says stuff#laur rambles#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#hargreeves siblings#tua s4#number five#tua season 4#tua five#tua diego#tua luther#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves
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Thinking about the KaeyaJeanDiluc friendship where they grew up together and they were CLOSE & sure maybe Jean felt like Diluc & Kaeya were closer since they were brothers & sure maybe Kaeya felt like he had to keep secrets from the two of them bc they would never understand but they were like. A trio! A team!
& then Diluc’s 18th birthday comes around and everything goes to shit and Diluc LEAVES so they’re no longer KaeyaJeanDiluc but just Kaeya & Jean & in some ways Kaeya and Jean get closer because of it but there’s also a pronounced DISTANCE where Jean doesn’t know how to reach Kaeya anymore & Kaeya is even more determined not to tell Jean anything & they both lose themselves in their duties to Mondstadt while also missing Diluc and ALSO, despite everything, offering each other unconditional support
& then Diluc comes BACK & in addition to Kaeya & Jean there’s the shaky reestablishment of Jean & Diluc and Diluc & Kaeya but it’s not THE SAME. they’re no longer KaeyaJeanDiluc; Jean & Kaeya are knights and Diluc will never be a knight again & they all changed while Diluc was away & none of them know how to talk to each other anymore AND YET there’s still an undercurrent of trust!! Not fully, especially between Kaeya & Diluc, but Diluc still calls on Jean during the archon quest, trusting that she will keep their secrets even though as the acting grandmaster she should probably not. Jean says in her about Diluc voiceline that she understands why Diluc hates the knights & is working hard to make them an organization he can trust again. Kaeya covers for Diluc’s darknight hero escapades & fondly reminisces about their childhood in front of him. Diluc invited Kaeya to dinner at the winery & (afaik) never told anyone about Kaeya’s origins. Kaeya tells the traveler that they need to give Jean their full support and planned a birthday party for her. Jean left Kaeya in charge of Mondstadt when she went to the golden apple archipelago! On some level they recognize that their goals still align!! There’s still trust and love there but there’s also this gap between them that none of them know how to cross and I just!!!
#kaeya#kaeya alberich#diluc#diluc ragnvindr#jean#jean gunnhildr#genshin impact#YOU CAN TRY TO REASSEMBLE THE PIECES BUT THEY WILL NEVER FIT THE SAME WAY. AND MAYBE THEY SHOULDNT.#I DONT KNOW IF THIS MAKES SENSE AT ALL I’M JUST GOING INSANE THINKING ABOUT THEM#GRIPPING THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE. HEY DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT KAEYA JEAN AND DILUC BC I SURE DO.#also not blaming diluc for the leaving btw I feel like it was necessary for him#it’s just emphasized bc of how it contributed to the change in their dynamic#I can’t always put it into words right but I have a lot of thoughts about these three.#my brain is going GSVDKDBCJHDEJDHSBDVDHWBDNHSJSBSJDGSHSBSHSB rn#also also in the ‘duties to Mond’ bit I’m also not downplaying kaeyas indecision abt choosing mondstadt/Khaenri’ah#I don’t think he’s chosen & I think he has genuine love for but also feels indebted to both places#I fully reject the ‘oh kaeyas chosen Mond fuck Khaenri’ah’ takes i hate them it’s so much more complicated than that!!#he can care about both places!!!#anyways just wanted to clear that up since I didn’t really elaborate & don’t want it to be taken like that
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BOKUTO IS SO SCARRYYYY WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK
yes, you want him, but he wants you more and he’s convinced himself that you already belong to him. the way he gets jealous when you’re not even dating him yet…. the glint he gets in his eye when his certainty of your infatuation with him is in doubt. CHILLS.
#RUN!!!#oh fuck i’m… i FEEL SOMETHING#he just really is so convinced that you belong to him#he’s deeply possessive#in a way that actually is a little scary or would be if he didn’t genuinely care about you so much#HES SO SCARY ABOUT IT IM SORRY#the expression he wears when you give him reason to believe you’re entertaining other options#HE HASNT EVEN ASKED YOU OUT YET#STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT!!!#tw.jealousy#tw.possessiveness#does this need a yandere tw? i’m gonna tag it that way JUST in case but i don’t think it goes that far#tw.yandere#ish
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I’m genuinely so fucking sick of the “you all would have loved it if it was Eddie who made that comment” take.
First of all, Eddie wouldn’t have made comment then, bc he knows how hard it is for Buck to talk about his emotions, & is REALLY good at giving him the space to talk about them, even if he does make jokes, they’re not out of pocket (the coming out scene, anyone? Breaking the tension with a joke & still being supportive without making a joke of his feelings.)
Secondly, even if Eddie DID make that comment, I’d probably still roll my eyes, but I’d be more willing to accept it. Do you wanna know why???
Who was the person that knew the details of what Buck was talking to his therapist about during their emergency session before the Buckley’s visit? Who is the first one they show at Buck’s side when he gets stuck in the warehouse trying to pull Saleh out after learning about Daniel?? Who is the one who was pacing downstairs in the station & making sure Buck was okay after the warehouse, and the one who warned him about his visitors??
Who was the one praying at Bobby’s bedside, right next to Buck in the hospital?
(I’ll give you a hint, it’s not the dude that’s had 10 minutes of fucking screen time that everyone forgot about post s1.)
It wouldn’t have been the same bc TOMMY AND EDDIE ARE NOT THE SAME. They are not on the same level of knowing Buck & understanding when to make jokes & what jokes to make. Your best friend, partner & co-parent of 6 years and the man that you haven’t even called your boyfriend yet are not on the same level of familiarity.
I get that you’re pissed that Tommy is being compared to Buck’s previous love interests (which would be the case, even if he wasn’t just as shitty & uninterested in Buck as a person as they all were) but if you genuinely think that he’s anywhere near Eddie’s level, EVEN PLATONICALLY, then I fear that you have been watching another show entirely, & I encourage you to watch more than just s7, bc that’s the only explanation I can come up with for why this fuck ass take exists.
#911 abc#buddie#this isn’t really about the buddie relationship but I think it’s still relevant#I’m so tempted to tag BT bc I think the ones saying this have lost the entire plot of the fucking show#but I’ve also only had like 8 hours of sleep in 2 days#& have almost had 3 panic attacks since Wednesday so I know I’d probably regret it#911 discourse#hating on a storyline/joke/character ≠ hating on a bunch of fans bc they don’t enjoy the same things that you do#eddie diaz#evan buckley#ryan guzman#oliver stark#this could have been a sweet moment to show Tommy taking care of Buck#but instead he made yet ANOTHER shitty & ill timed joke#Eddie has been right beside Buck through his entire journey with his parents#that gives him the right to joke about it#a man who Buck’s been on 3-4 dates with & hasn’t put any effort into their relationship since he planned the date#that he subsequently walked out in the middle of#does not have the same right#this is genuinely not a difficult concept??#like. think about your bff & then think about a new love interest. would you really be comfortable with those 2 people making the same joke#or would you laugh at your best friend’s & be a little off-put by your new potential love intrest???#anti T*van#I heard that tagging something as anti still shows up on that tag & Im just too tired to fucking fight
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WAIT FUCK DUDE I JUST REALIZED THAT ALL MY WIP PAGES OF THE “THAT UNIQUE PLACE” COMIC ARE INSIDE MY DEAD TABLET FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK—
AND MY ANIMATIONS TOO I’M—
#blah blah text post#i need to be real with y’all#…i am not continuing the comic if i can’t get those back to be honest#i barely had the energy to make the last pages#and this just makes it worse#great fucking way me!!#the one project you told yourself you would finish no matter what and look where that got you#i’m so tired#the animations just—#i really wanna lay down and let the earth just reclaim my body#i think the worse part is that i can’t voice out this terrible grief i have about my works to my family#because they simply don’t actually care#and would call me whiny#my household is very antipathetic#‘it’s just a tablet’#‘you’re 22 act like it’#how about i kill myself in front of you what then /hj#there’s been multiple times i’ve wanted to just tell them that face to face since i broke my tablet#i feel like i’m about to genuinely cry while typing this#i can’t#in general
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OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.
#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter.#he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point.#and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!!#hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do!#the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into-#one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT.#but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb.#I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time.#and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances.#and doesn’t want to hear any excuse.#but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment.#NOW. CHAPTER 17.#UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN#Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC.#IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!!#BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’#WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM.#(NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.)#and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through.#despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up.#like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him.#that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying.#just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner.#IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD.#and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore.#he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had.#and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT.#<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but.#eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind.#I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags
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it’s 3:37 AM where I’m at and I’m bawling my eyes out over an Arno fanfic. A month and a half ago I thought this man was mid. THIS IS TRULY HUMILIATING 😭
#assassin’s creed#arno dorian#arno victor dorian#ac unity#babblingbrook babbles#StuntzTheDude and thenyxfray. when I catch you fuckers. it’s OVER.#hi so it’s actually cruel and unusual punishment to say Arno held Elise’s dead body for four days before being coaxed to let her go#that’s actually really fucking mean#the Arno and Léon relationship was incredible#the devastation. The longing. the inability to cope.#I have not bawled over a fanfiction like this in I think years GOD#it’s called ‘To Move Forward’ it’s on AO3#very triggering tho read the tags#I’m so upset but it was genuinely one of the best fanfics I’ve ever read#the writing was so beautiful and eloquent#gang I gotta let yall know I fuck with it
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i agree so much he has zero sense of personal identity he only considers himself a vessel to continue decima so interesting HE RDIDNT CARE THEY WERE GOING TO LEAVE HIM TO DIE!!!!! all he cared about was that his work would be continued and they were probably definitely lying about that and he never got to find out
Dooont even get me started man (lighthearted) that shit makes me evil. Genuinely one of the nails in the coffin of Hilbert being the most interesting character to me was that he just didn’t fucking. Care if he died. So long as he knew his work was being continued. I wrote a whole post going insane about it actually. He doesn’t care!!! He doesn’t!!!!! What is wrong with him!!!!! And then you realize that his work wasn’t even going to do what he wanted it to do if it made it back to earth anyways because cutter was just going to use it to mega death bomb the entire earth as a threat to the aliens. Okay!!!!!!
#Asks :0]#alexander hilbert#wolf 359#yelling. screaming even. :0]#Editing to add these tags bc I posted this too early um. Kind of dogging on s4 in these tags skip if u don’t wanna see dat:#genuinely I think one of the biggest narrative fumbles in s4 was the fact that you realize Hilbert’s work meant nothing and there’s like#no one there to react to that.#if he didn’t live long enough to realize it himself and yeah that’s absolutely harrowing in its own right#I feel like the people who had to suffer at the hands of his work (Eiffel and lovelace namely) should have been able to have some sort of#proper ‘what the fuck? What the fuck? What?” kind of reaction.#someone. Someone Someone from the previous seasons to react.#Idk. Maybe it was done better than I’m remembering at least wrt Eiffel learning about the alien blood tm its been a second.#but I remember just being really disappointed in the lack of attention drawn to those realizations
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obviously the way they handled ricky’s disability in like every single version was so bad but i can’t stop thinking about the live performance that i saw where they straight up did not say a SINGLE THING ABOUT IT at least in other versions it’s acknowledged (kind of as a punchline but at least acknowledged) in the csulb show i saw mischa just takes his crutches away during uranium suite and ricky starts singing and dancing along…they literally acknowledged it 0% the people who hadn’t ever seen it before were probably so confused why this man had crutches for approximately 30 seconds then another character just grabs them and puts them backstage for them to never be mentioned ever again. like what. insanity.
#ride the cyclone#rtc musical#ricky potts#they really fucked that one up#it was really sad cause it was a really good production too#their noel was SO GOOD#i think about his performance every day i would pay $500 to see just him perform noel’s lament again cause genuinely it was so beautiful#their constance too😳😳😳#i think i’m in love with her she was so pretty ohmygod#and she played constance so well i loved it#but they FUCKED UP ricky’s character#like how do you fuck it up more than it’s already fucked up
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