#genuinely thank you so much it means so god damn much that it connected with you and you told me >w<< /div>
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trans-leek-cookie · 2 months ago
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comes out of the "googling things about the disorder you have and then googling a vague medical term and not getting a clear answer and complaining about the vagueness of the term to your friend who probably has more familiarity with the term and it's implications in context" session covered in blood and wailing and writing on the floor
#Anyway I have not gotten more than 2 paragraphs in to a study talking about how thyroid disorders can potentially cause#Permanent Consequences To Brain Development if they aren't treated at important times. And I struggled because they used#The term ''adult onset'' and looking it up was vague and like it SAID ''post puberty'' but the same definition said#''later in life'' and that part was HIGHLIGHTED BY GOOGLE so I missed the puberty part but even beyond that#Hypothyroidism is most commonly diagnosed in ppl who are like 50+ I believe so does ''later in life'' mean ''not a child'' or#''genuinely middle aged'' in this context specifically because stuff talking about hypothyroidism mostly talks about it either#In terms of Congenital Hypothyroidism and Hypothyroidism (which they mention is most common in ppl assigned female at birth and like 60+)#So there's barely anything talking Abt ppl like Me who got diagnosed in their Mid Teens so probably Mid Puberty and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I'm going to drive into a lake. Thank you to my best friend ever for breaking down the term and how it's used in medical contexts for me#I owe you my life#Anyway part of the reason this was so fucking Much: thing I'm reading (like an actual medical study) mentions that the cognitive issues#Associated w ''adult onset hypothyroidism'' are largely reversible but before then untreated hypothyroidism can have significant effects on#Brain development and while I caught mine early and got medicated when I was ~18 I had a gap in treatment#Bc I aged out of my pediatrician and didn't have the motivation to actually Get A New Doctor As An Adult (yay mental illness)#Which like. Lead to a Months Long gap in medication. And like I could've BEEN medicated if I put in the work but I felt fine with skipping#My meds bc from what I knew about hypothyroidism it obviously had Symptoms but not ones that would have Significant Long Term Consequences#Like I thought ''oh I'll have depression and fatigue when I'm unmedicated'' NOT REALIZING THAT BEING UNMEDICATED COULD HAVE A SIGNIFICANT#LONG TERM IMPACT EBCAUSE OF HOW IMPORTANT THE THYROID IS TO FUCKING EVERYTHING IN YHE GOD DAMN BODY#THAT EVEN PROPER FUTURE MEDICATION COULD NOT NECESSARILY TAKE CARE OF#And like hey: maybe that's on me for not connecting the dots or something. Maybe I knew the thyroid controlled a lot of hormones but#I just didn't make the connection that that means it can have Permanent Irreversible effects when left untreated#But also HEY THIS IS THE KIND OF SHIT YOU SHOULD SPELL OUT TO PEOPLE ESPECIALLY PEOPLE WHO MIGHT HAVE COGNITIVE DIFFICULTIES AND THEREFORE#STRUGGLE WITH THINGS THAT SHOULD BE ''OBVIOUS''. Anyway I'm mad
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scaredgirlsilly · 2 months ago
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Hey :> I listened to the album you linked recently and it's really neat. I think part of it is like, relating to some of the pieces and just resonating together with them. It wasn't exactly my birthday, but I remember once sitting around a campfire in the morning before the sun rose, socks wet from pacing the dew filled grass on the path near the woods all night. I remember looking up at the stars and how it felt. I remember feeling so alone, then. I still feel alone a lot, but I wasn't then. I had people who cared for me, but. The crash of it all was too much for me and a lot of that ended that day. I know it's different, because everyone's experiences are a bit different, and it's hard to convey so much in a few minutes of music, let alone with scarce words as here, but I just wanted to thank you for that little bit of resonance it had for me. I also just, in general, love the vibes of it all. It feels very much like the soundtrack of a beloved little indie game, the heartbeat style sounds to calm down and, of course, the little celeste jingle in the end. I think especially "It Never Rains Too Much" is just, hits me very deeply. Now for the question part of the question: Will you/have you put this up on youtube anywhere? I know it's frustrating and a hassle but was curious because I like to make little playlists and such and don't use soundcloud all too often anymore. Also, sorry to hear about the account stupidity, I have had to warn people about that sort of stuff in the past vis a vis dm pictures lol, alas. PPS. What are void images? :o
whoever you are i love you so much with sll my heart
BUT WAHHHH >W< yeah that album was. at a rlly weird time. like it was after i realized i was trans for the first time but then i just. re repressed it again and tried to forget about it and. idk. but im rlly glad it resonated with you genuinely all i want to do in life is like. make art that connects with people the same way all my favorite art has connected with me so this made me rlly happy >w<
AND I TOTALLY CAN ::D ive never thought about it but yeah absolutely!!!!!!!! ill need to put my next album on youtube anyways jfkshdjd but yeah >w< idk when ill do it itll prob be like. A While jfkshdjd but yeah >w<
and void images are my own dumb meme images that i am way too proud of i have a tag for it on my blog its just #void images (idk how to link it im responding to this on mobile i can tag this with that tag so you can find it easier) but yeah thats all they are >w<
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hoshifighting · 2 months ago
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Hello! I love your work 🥹 I hope you are well
Just wanna ask your thoughts on how the seventeen members would react to see you driving speed / you being fast on connected apps like ‘Find My’ heheheeheh
Thank you ❤️
a/n: thank u sweetie, i loved it!! im doing well!! <33 i hope i understood well.. like a gearhead girlfriend?... made w/ luv ❤️
WARNINGS: mentions of breakig the speed limit
seungcheol: “yo yo yo, slow the fuck down, we ain’t tryna die today!!” he’s literally shouting through the app, and you could almost see him gripping the imaginary 'oh shit' handle in the backseat. he loves you, but he’s lowkey shitting bricks rn, “bruh, this ain't fast & furious... i swear if we crash, it’s on you.”
jeonghan: sigh “baby, why you gotta be like this?” he’s too cool to actually panic, but you can feel him judging the fuck outta you. he’ll make you feel like the most irresponsible person alive while also making it clear he’s kinda impressed. “next time, let me drive so we don’t both end up with speeding tickets… but like… you kinda look hot doing it though, not gonna lie.” he’s smirking on the other side of the screen.
joshua: “ok but like… are we trying to break a record or what?” he’s nervous but trying to stay calm, but you can tell he’s clutching his pearls behind that smooth tone. “maybe, uh, we could slow down just a tiny bit? just a suggestion...” definitely trying not to freak out completely, but he’s one bad swerve from straight-up praying.
jun’s all for it, honestly. he’s got his phone up to show the speedometer on his end, clearly thriving. “you wanna hit 120? bet, i’m down, let’s fucking go!” jun’s just living it, probably snapping selfies like it’s no big deal while the car’s shaking at 90 mph.
hoshi: “wait—WAIT! y/n, no no NO, what the hell?? slow down before i shit my pants.” he close his eyes, dramatic as fuck, genuinely convinced y’all are about to fly off the highway. nearly crying as he clutches his phone. “i got shit to do tomorrow!! i can’t die today, not like this!”
wonwoo’s just... chillin’. he doesn’t really say much at first. just sends a simple, “you good?” text. he’s the only one calm in this whole situation. when you don’t respond right away, he hits you with, “bet you won’t keep up with the guy in the ferrari tho...” and you’re like, oh shit. he’s egging you on. he's vibing with the chaos, but lowkey wants to see how far you'll take it.
woozi: “y/n, you better chill the fuck out.” straight-up scolding you. no fluff, just pure frustration. jihoon’s too rational for this speed demon shit, and he’s already calculating how much the damn fine’s gonna be if you get caught. “if you crash, you better hope i’m not in the car, ‘cause i ain’t helping your ass.” classic jihoon—pissed, but still kinda impressed at your audacity.
seokmin: “YO, SLOW THE FUCK DOWN!” pure panic in his voice,like he’s watching a horror movie. “do you wanna give me a heart attack? holy shit!!” he’s basically pleading with you at this point, full-on hands shaking, worried sick like a damn mother hen. “i’m way too pretty to die like this, please, for the love of god, just slow down.”
mingyu: WELL THIS MAN HAVE LICENSE FOR IT, no fear at all. “you drive like a fucking beast, lemme hop in the car next time.” he’s fully living for the thrill, no reservations whatsoever. he’s gassing you up like no one would. adrenaline junkie.
minghao’s already over it. deadpan as fuck. “why you gotta stress me like this? i’m way too zen for this shit.”
seungkwan: “OKAY STOP! STOP! i didn’t sign up for this kinda trauma. you tryna die young, huh?!” yelling in the app for you to pull over before he passes out from sheer anxiety. “i’m never getting in a car with you ever again, swear on my life.”
vernon: “i mean, if we crash, we crash. kinda sick though, right?” no panic, no complaints, just lowkey impressed. “but like… how fast can you actually go?”
chan: “y/n, this isn’t a fucking video game!” poor baby is stressed out, clenching his fists like his life’s on the line. “i can’t do this. my heart can’t handle this. you tryna give me a heart attack?!” genuinely scared shitless. “you really gotta slow down before i fucking pass out in the toilet bro”
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seabirdtxt · 2 years ago
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Deus Vocat
'Just how close to divinity does the god-machine get?' Pretty darn close, as it turns out. The rest is entirely up to you and Scaramouche. [p1] [p2 - you are here!] [p3]
Notes: Genshin SAGAU, cult au, mostly confusion and miscommunication in this one. mild swearing. still pre-3.2 plotwise!
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Three days and three nights. That’s how long Scaramouche waited to hear Your voice again. The more the hours drew out, his temper became increasingly volatile every time the nervous technicians would open the Shouki no Kami’s cockpit to check up on him.
Each time he would kick them out and slam the cockpit shut, even nearly taking off a mechanic’s arm with the face plates. His patience runs thinner with every passing moment.
Nearing dawn of the fourth day, finally he feels that strange buzzing connecting behind his ears. He stiffens and pulls himself upright, blinking weariness out of his eyes. 
“Your Grace?” he mumbles, the sudden drop in pressure in the cockpit makes him dizzy. “Is that you?”
Your voice crackles over the connection, sounding a little farther away. “Hey, yeah, it’s me again. How're you holding up?”
“What took you so long?” is what he replies, the words coming to him despite his head warning him that You are the Divine Creator. “Do you know how much work I could’ve gotten done in the time you took to get back to me?”
“What? It’s been, like, an hour at most.” You reply, sounding skeptical. “Don’t tell me you’re the impatient type.”
“An- an hour?!” Scaramouche runs the math in his head quickly, frowning. “Is there such a time dilation between your realm and mine?” 
“What do you mean?”
Scaramouche growls with frustration, rubbing his temples as he feels a headache coming on. “What are you not understanding here? I didn’t think the Creator would be so ignorant of their own creation.”
“... what?”
“Are you being deliberately obtuse? Are you even who you say you are? You wouldn’t be the first to have delusions of grandeur to bring some sort of momentary excitement into their pathetic, insignificant lives.”
“Woah, calm down, buddy,” you say, a warning in your voice. “Let’s just take it from the top, okay? Hello, my name is,” you repeat your name for him. “It’s nice to meet you.”
Scaramouche takes a breath and rolls his eyes, then reluctantly complies with the direction you’re taking.
“Hello, I’m Scaramouche, The Balladeer, Sixth of the Fatui Harbingers, and I’m currently dealing with an idiot problem.”
“I’m gonna let that one slide for now,” you respond curtly. “Now tell me, ‘Scaramouche’, why did you call me today?”
“You say it as if I somehow did it on purpose.”
“Didn’t you?” The raised eyebrow is audible in your tone. 
“Of course not!” Scaramouche snaps, patience waning. “Dottore’s stupid god-machine did something to my head, obviously, and now there’s some kind of connection to you that I have no idea how to control.”
“... god-machine?” you ask, sounding genuinely confused. “What are you talking about?”
“The god-machine that the sages commissioned,” Scaramouche explains slowly, smugly, as if he’s talking to a child. “If the gnosis’ connection to divinity is successful, I will be named the new deity of Sumeru and take over the position of that pathetic little god, Buer.”
“You’re going to what to who?” you question again. “Hang on, is this spoilers? I didn’t get that far in the story yet…”
“What do you mean, ‘story’?” It’s Scaramouche’s turn to be confused now.
“Y’know, ‘cause you’re RPing that guy from the game, right? I’m not at that point in the questline yet so, uh, thanks for spoiling the story for me, I guess.”
“This isn’t a game!” His temper flares and he pounds his fist against the face panel of the cockpit, the clang resounding in his ears. “Damn you, is that how you see us, then? As some kind of sick game for your personal amusement?” 
“Wow, you’re really taking this personally, huh? It’s not that serious, man, you need to calm down for a sec-” 
“I will not be calm!” Scaramouche thrashes about in the cockpit, kicking and punching the interior and creating a hellish metallic sound. Behind him, the tubes slap and rattle around, threatening to disconnect from his sockets if he continues his tantrum. “The Divine Creator just told me that they view our existence as a game!” 
Your voice takes on a tone of annoyance, though you appear to be trying to suppress it. “Listen, I looked it up on the wiki, and there's nothing there about this supposed ‘Creator’ character, so I know you’re full of shit. Just cut it out, okay?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about!” Scaramouche shouts into the empty cockpit. And that’s the root of the problem, isn’t it? Clearly he and the Creator aren’t seeing eye to eye on something, here, and it’s causing a terrible miscommunication.
With a great heaving sigh, he tries to reign in his temper. 
“What can I do to prove to you that I’m serious, right now?” He asks through gritted teeth. 
There's a sound like static that fills his head and he cries out in pain, clutching his ears as if that might stop the noise.
“Hypothetically, let’s say you’re Scaramouche from the game,” Your voice filters in through the static. “Like, the actual NPC or something. The only way I’d believe you is if you do something in-game that’s out of the ordinary. I’m logging in right now, so if there’s something weird happening I’m willing to give you the benefit of the doubt.”
Scaramouche’s thoughts race through his head, though he has no idea what half of the words you say mean, and he wracks his mind trying to think of something he could do to show his presence. 
“Where… where are you right now?”
“I’m doing the quest in Pardis Dhyai,” you answer, and sure enough Scaramouche feels a faint tug that he’s come to associate with the Traveler’s presence coming from the direction of the laboratory. “I’m fighting with some Eremites right now.”
Pardis Dhyai, where he knows Haypasia is being kept. The woman had connected with his consciousness briefly during one of the early god-machine tests Dottore had forced him to do. It very nearly put him out of commission for a week, but sharing his consciousness had been proof irrefutable that he could channel divinity, at the time. 
“Okay, stay there, I’m going to try something.” He says, and attempts to concentrate on the location. In his mind, he conjures the feeling of static and ozone and aims, internally cheering when he feels the power connect with bodies. “Did you see that? Did I get them?”
“Get what?”
“The thunderbolts!” He says, incredulous. Surely there was no way to miss that, right?
“That’s part of the quest, I saw the walk through of this part,” you huff. “You’re really not convincing me, here.” 
Frustration bubbles up and Scaramouche chews his thumb as he tries to think of something else, and that’s when he feels it.
The Traveler touches Haypasia.
A bolt of energy courses through his head, and in the distorted reflection of the metal cockpit he sees his eyes flash again. 
He follows an instinct, reaching out to Haypasia’s consciousness and, by extension, the Traveler. He grabs the tether in his mind and pulls, feeling himself travel across time and space, until he’s in Pardis Dhyai. 
He blinks and looks around, the faded scenery looking exactly as it had when Haypasia had contacted him. There, standing beside his follower’s unconscious body, is the Traveler.
“Where are you?” Scaramouche asks through the connection, trying to sense if you've left him once again. “There’s nobody else here.”
“... Huh.” Your voice comes through the connection in his head, but also through vibrations in the air. “That’s definitely not part of the cutscene.” 
“What the hell is a cutscene?” He demands, still looking around for the source of your voice. 
“Right, that’s creepy. Is this a glitch?” 
“If you tell me what your words mean, maybe I can tell you.” Scaramouche growls, then points at the Traveler. “You, where is the Creator? I know they’re around here somewhere, I can feel it.” 
“No way.” You say, incredulously. 
“Huh?”
“Scaramouche, jump up and down three times.”
He looks around again, before settling his gaze on the Traveler. “Why should I do that?”
“You’re trying to prove that you're in the game, right? I can see you right now, so if it’s really you I want you to jump up and down three times.”
Feeling supremely foolish, but willing to humor you on the off chance you aren’t lying to him, Scaramouche gives three halfhearted hops, and immediately crosses his arms. 
“Happy now?” he growls.
To his extreme surprise, and slight horror, the Traveler jumps three times as well.
“Oh my god, you’re actually in the game? Like, you’re the character in the game?” You ask, breathless, a tinge of hysteria creeping in. “No way. This doesn’t happen in real life. Games don’t just become self-aware like this. Am I dreaming?”
“Whatever you’re talking about, you better tell me really quick or else…” Scaramouche trails off for a moment, unsure of what he could really do to you, given the metaphorical distance. “Or else I’ll be really angry with you,” he finishes lamely. In front of him, the Traveler’s eyebrows furrow slightly.
“You’re not supposed to, like, know about me,” you continue, raising in octave slowly. “You’re not real! Is my life just a creepypasta right now?”
“Would you cut that out?!” Scaramouche half-shouts, in an attempt to be heard over your frantic voice. He can feel the connection between the two of you waver with each passing second. “Whatever you’re doing, stop panicking!”
“I think I’d like to panic, actually,” you say, and the connection goes dead. 
Empty air fills the space behind Scaramouche’s ears, and he snarls in frustration at having been left hanging once again. For a second, he almost forgets the presence of the third party in the room. He looks up and stops his muttering at the sight of the Traveler’s dumbfounded, and slightly scared expression.
“You can hear them?”
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alipeeps · 1 month ago
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Episode 24
Welp, he did what they suggested. He went to see for himself.
I've said it before but it bears repeating - this kid is SUCH a good actor!
Jesus fucking christ, Wen Zongyu is the worst.
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He took a grieving child and:
manipulated him into spying against his friends and poisoning one of them:
intended from the start to use his body as a vessel for a demon;
fucking poisoned him so that he would be able to control said demon once it was in his body!!
Oooh but your little demon trapping cage didn't work on our boy Li Lun?
So... could it actually end up now that Li Lun and the gang will band together against Wen Zongyu? The enemy of my enemy and all that?
Can't Zhao Yuanzhou use his healing ability on him?
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Oh SHIT, the sword being broken affects/damages the person connected to it?
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So they NEED that second sword!! Anybody else remember that it was explicitly mentioned that TWO cloud light swords were forged? Anyone?!!
And that confirms that the reason the sword cracked this time is because of the malicious qi - every other time Zhu Yan has been stabbed with the sword, he has been in control of his qi.
However... doesn't that mean that the plan/back up plan to kill Zhu Yan if he is out of control is doomed to failure, because the uncontrolled qi will crack the sword?
OUCH
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Ying Lei is so fucking under-rated... they play him for comedy so much of the time but he has genuinely been the one coming up with a lot of the solutions for things. He found how to purify the Yao Water. He worked out that Bai Jiu's blood could revive the Divine Wood. And he's thought to ask the other mountain gods about ways to save both Zhuo Yichen and Bai Jiu. He is best boy!!
Uhhhh... yeah... sliiiight problem there...
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Okay so we have a way to keep him going a bit longer... while you find the second sword, right? Right?!
Good on you Pei Sijing.
He is the best!!
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Oh damn, he survived.
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And Wen Zongyu has the gall to act pleased about it - as if he wasn't callously offering his position to Pei Sijing a matter of days ago.
"Thank you for your treatment"
"Better than I was before"
Did... did Wen Zongyu use his fucking experimental treatments on him? Is he a hybrid now?
"According to the spy" What spy? Just a generic spy keeping an eye on things... or is there another traitor in their midst?
Oh dang, that's fucked up your plans eh? Bummer. Sucks to be you.
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Oh wow, that is freaky. It's Bai Jiu... but he's dressed and hair-styled Li Lun-style.
Ohhh that doesn't sound good...
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Oh dang, his brother didn't have the right Bingyi blood to awaken the sword?!
But... but didn't we see it glowing in his (dead) hand when Zhu Yan wiped out the Demon Hunting Bureau? Or was that just the sword reacting to Zhu Yan's presence?
Ahhhh was it Zhu Yan they were going after? Probably... how many Great Demons are there after all?
Yup, it was, and the sword glowed in response to Zhu Yan's presence.
No wonder Zhuo Yichen didn't know how to use the cloud light sword properly... I'd thought it was because his dad and brother had died before they had chance to teach him... but they never could have taught him because they didn't have the power to awaken it and use it to its full potential...
Oh SHIT and he finds out about his brother's death by someone bringing him the damn sword?!! Wrapped in a blood-stained cloth. Like... harsh, dude?!!
And he dedicated his life to becoming strong enough to awaken the sword, to honor his brother...
I'm not crying, you're crying!!
His tears awakened it?
Goddamn the music in this show is just perfect...
Oh shit.
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OH SHIT!
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Wtf's going on with the fish pond?
Wtf is this, that's been hiding in the fish pond all this time?!
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Of course it is. And of course it's been at the bottom of the fish pond for fucking generations. Where else would you keep it?!
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Oh it can repair everything can it?
WHY do they just fucking stand there and let it happen?!!
Oh Zhu Yan did react! Hallelujah!
He sure did.
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Did what? You are in this situation because of your own actions! It was literally YOUR plan to break the baize token, get unsealed, and then take over Bai Jiu's body because you knew your own body would burn up!
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Okay wtf why did the stone suddenly break?
Can this show please stop giving us a teensy glimpse of hope and then ripping it away from us again?!!
Honestly the stone's a bit shit if all it takes to crumble it is the merest touch of demonic energy?
And what the fuck is this now? There was blood at the centre of the stone? Is it the famous Bingyi blood?
And it's gone zooming into Zhuo Yichen? Whose eyes have gone blue like in the flashbacks to his ancestor?
Oh damn... did I hear that right? The demon Ying Long agreed to die at Bingyi's hand... for the greater good?
OH WHAT?!!!
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Ying Lei be like:
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Ahhh my poor precious baby mountain god! He's too too good!
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Way to be a downer, Zhu Yan.
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So it wasn't Bingyi blood? It was demon blood? Unless...?
Because Ying Long sacrificed himself to save the world. Sound familiar, anyone?
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Ho hoooooo! Yes indeedy, Zhuo Yichen's ancestor was also a demon... and the famous Bingyi blood is - demon blood! (So I guess maybe it was Bingyi blood inside the stone after all?)
And members of Zhuo Yichen's family were only strong enough to activate the cloud light sword if they had enough demon Bingyi bloodline in them, I guess? And Zhuo Yichen does... which is probably also why he kept dreaming about turning into a demon, I am guessing?
Ohhhhh and we finally get an explanation of how come Zhuo Yichen let Ao Yin get away if he wasn't being controlled by Li Lun!!
He wasn't controlled... he was shocked (mind you, why on earth he would believe a demon's word on that, enough to be shocked to a standstill by it and let them escape?)
So the Great Demon Bingyi was turned human...
And he lived in seclusion... and his descendants...
SO... he wasn't all THAT secluded then eh? 😂
It allows them to choose? So he gets to choose if he remains human or becomes demon? But what do you want to bet he will end up in a situation where becoming demon is the only option to save everyone, so he'll do it?
Oh mind you, no, doesn't sound like there is any choice...
Oh holy shit, is there ANY good news for us, Zhu Yan?!!
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So now Zhuo Yichen is condemned to death on 2 fronts - the broken sword AND the Bingyi demon blood.
How the fuck are Chongwu spies able to so easily sneak right into the core of Demon Hunting Bureau to eavesdrop? Do you people have ANY fucking security at all?
You said it girl!
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Well DUH, of course he's bloody disappeared while you idiots were chitchatting!!
Oh dang...
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Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah 😭😭
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Aww bless her, she has understood the meaning behind his words...
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Oh shit!
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AAaaaahhhh! You end it THERE?!!
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legendary-69420 · 1 month ago
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MOMENTS-2 (Extras ✨)
(Racing Hearts : VOLUME ?)
A/N : Before you read! Please dont attack me that I Blurred your Idol's Faces I do have a reason and that is to set up my original character If you are a die-hard fan of #Charlos or #lesteppen please ignore the images or skip. The blurred face guy is my OC! Mark Spencer This Is part of my story RACING HEARTS Moments-1 UNSPOKEN CONNECTIONS :
Masterlist : Racing Hearts : VOLUME 1
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(Timeperiod : Chapter - 13/14 of VOLUME 1)
Fan Comments:
"I'll sure miss Mark when he leaves."
"Why tf he has to leave… I mean I love Charles' and Carlos' duo, but Mark and Charles were something else." 😢
"I miss his days in Ferrari… can't believe it was only for half a season."
"Dude came for half a season and stole everyone's heart. It's not fair." 💔
"Damn, it would be tough for Charles to let him go. I can already see him missing Mark like crazy." 😞
"I know Charles will miss Mark even though he acts like he hates him. Their connection was so obvious."
"Their friendship was so real. I’ll cry when Mark leaves. Like, they're the definition of what real teammates should be."
"Mark was the breath of fresh air Ferrari didn't know they needed."
"Mark and Charles had such natural chemistry… I can't believe it's already over."
"Mark being in Ferrari for that short time was the best decision. Charles was so much happier around him."
"Whoe thought Mark and Charles would have this kind of bond? I’m still not over them."
*"Can we talk about how soft Charles looks when Mark’s around? Like, he’s *smitten." 🥺
Masterlist : Racing Hearts : VOLUME 2 (Before Chapter 19)
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(Timeperiod- Before Chapter 19 of VOLUME 2)
Fan Comments:
"Thank god Mark stayed in F1. I can't imagine the grid without him."
"Hiring Mark in Red Bull was the best decision ever. He’s a game changer." 💥
"I thought they were only friends because they were teammates… turns out I was so wrong." 😭
*"The chemistry between these two is *crazy. Even though they’re on different teams, their bond is so obvious."
"They’ve been through so much together, and you can tell that no matter what team they’re on, they’re always supporting each other."
"I’m just here for their friendship. It’s so wholesome." ❤️
"I swear, every time Mark wins, I get so happy for him… especially when I see Charles supporting him like this."
*"Mark and Charles are the duo. Even when they’re not teammates, they make it work. Legends."* 🏆
"They really proved that being on different teams doesn’t change the bond they share. I love that."
"The way Charles helped Mark with his helmet 😩 so soft, they’re the definition of true friendship."
"Their respect for each other is unreal. I love how they can celebrate each other’s victories despite the rivalry."
"Their fist bump just says it all. No matter what, they’ll always have each other’s backs." ✊
*"Why do they have so much chemistry? Like, they’re literally *rivals* but still act like they’ve been best friends forever."*
(Timeperiod-After Chapter 19)
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"I can't get over how different Charles looks this season. He’s so much more relaxed and genuinely happy. Mark’s really done wonders for him." ❤️
"That look Charles is giving Mark is everything. You can tell he’s just so happy Mark’s back in Ferrari." 😍
*"Mark being back in Ferrari is everything. You can see how much it means to Charles, and I’m here for it."
"Look at Charles looking at Mark like that. I think the 'just friends' thing is getting harder to believe." 🤭
"I’ve missed seeing Charles this carefree. I’m so glad Mark’s back to help him smile again."
"You can see it in Charles’ eyes. He’s so in love with Mark, and I can’t blame him." 💖
"These two are truly the dream team. Just look at them celebrating together. They deserve all the happiness." 🏆
"The way Charles is just staring at Mark… he’s completely smitten. You can’t hide that kind of love, even with a glance." 😌
"Mark coming back to Ferrari was the best decision. Charles looks like a completely different person—so much happier." 🌟
"I’ve never seen Charles so genuinely happy and relaxed. Mark’s good for him, like really good." 🥰
"Mark and Charles' dynamic is just so different this season. They look so comfortable with each other."
"The way Charles is listening to Mark is so soft. He’s definitely hanging onto every word, and I can’t get enough of it."
"They’re not even trying to hide it anymore. The way Charles looks at Mark is the most obvious thing ever." 💘
"I can’t even imagine how happy these two are now. Mark’s back, and Charles has his smile back."
*"Their chemistry is unreal. I love that they’re not just teammates; they’re *best friends."
"Charles doesn’t even try to hide it. Every glance, every smile—he’s all about Mark."
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*"Those lingering touches are *everything. You can just feel the chemistry between them through a simple hand on the thigh." 😍
*"Mark's hand on Charles’ thigh… I’m not okay. They’ve got a whole unspoken language between them."*
*"Look at how Charles is staring at Mark's hand on his thigh… like he’s *memorizing* the feeling. Ugh, I’m obsessed."* 💖
"The way Mark rests his hand on Charles’ bum… just… wow. They don’t even try to hide it anymore." 😏
"That hug. You can tell these two are more than just friends. They’re home to each other." 🌙
*"The more I see these little moments, the more I’m convinced these two are *meant* to be."*
"I honestly can’t get over how much they touch each other. It’s like they can’t stop."
*"Can you *feel* the love through these pictures? I swear, these two are so in tune with each other."* 😍
"Look at Charles' face when Mark’s hand is on his thigh. He’s looking at it like it’s the most precious thing in the world."
*"It’s the way Mark holds Charles close, his arms around him like he never wants to let go. *That’s* the kind of love I want to see."*
"Their hands are constantly in contact. It’s like they don’t need to say anything, they just get each other."
*"Those photos are *too* soft. You can see they’re both falling for each other, one touch at a time."* 💓
"When did Mark become this touchy-feely? I’m not complaining, but wow, he really can't keep his hands off Charles, huh?"
"I honestly can't take how intimate these moments are. It's just the little things that show how deep their connection really is."
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darcyfangirlsfrequently · 5 months ago
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My reactions to episode 7 of season 2 of Criminal Minds Evolution
The only thing I know about this episode is that it's fucked up
Spoilers below the cut!
(TW: loss of a child under the cut)
oh, acid showers. lovely.
oh god the hair melting off the scalp. no WONDER i got warnings for this episode
drowning in acid. Lovely!!!
oh this IS fucked up.
Garvez in the same room! Yay! Crumbs!
Have I mentioned I love JJ and Luke's friendship?
Penelope with all the pretty flowers on her dress!! she looks so good in this scene
Penelope is just straight-up STARING at Luke
TARA WITH THE SLICKED BACK HAIR SHE'S SO GORGEOUS I LOVE HER
Emily reading Tyler to shit over his handwriting? Iconic.
Look I kinda love Tyler. AS HIS OWN SEPARATE CHARACTER AWAY FROM PENELOPE. When he's with literally ANYONE else, he's great.
Tara i see those heart eyes for Emily
"Mr. Sensitive" help i SNORTED
Why is Rossi so against contacting Jill? Forbidding her?
Okay so my theory was correct. The victim at the beginning sexually assaulted the unsub's wife, and this baby is a product of that.
Look Tyler is adorable, okay? When he's interacting with the rest of the team, I love him.
"Just what Garcia told me" I wasn't under the impression that they talked much???? Especially about this kind of stuff.
They're just turning Tyler into their puppy and i'm here for it
Voit's Lawyer! finally!
He's really offering to END his lawyer's ex wife???
ooh that shot through all the car windows is cool
"I just want you to be you" please god tell me she's not saying "clearly you have a way of winning over/seducing older blonde women and i need you to do that"
"I don't wanna be that guy." Yes Tyler!! Growth!!
"just fuckin drive" emily i love you. I also love this friendship dynamic.
JJ: Maybe Penelope can help us find [the connection.] Luke: Penelope! Yes! Let's go see Penelope! I love Penelope! (he loves her it's canon)
LUKE SITTING ON THE DESK LUKE SITTING ON THE DESK
LUKE THE SMIRK??? THE HEART EYES??? oh my GOD
"It's why you and I are finally friends" DAMN FATALITY
"finally" with the smirk I LOVE THEM SO MUCH HOLY FUCK
I just know JJ is sitting there like "are y'all gonna stop flirting for two seconds"
THEIR SMILES OH MY GOD THEY'RE JUST SO THRILLED TO BE AROUND EACH OTHER THEY'RE SO IN LOVE.
"thanks frieeend" I LOVE THEM BY THAT DELIVERY WAS SO FUNNY. Also he touched her arm/back
The way they're calling each other "friend" is literally so flirty.
PLEASE tell me someone has done a gifset comparing "we thrive as frenemies" to "it's why you and I are finally friends."
Also the way that means she literally just called him TREASURE????
I just know that as Luke was saying "thanks frieeeend" he was thinking "thanks, friend, i love youuu"
THIRD HOTCH MENTION OF THE SEASON GODDAMN
Hotch, Morgan, and Reid all in the SAME SCENE damn
I love Jill already
Ooh, fiancé not fiancée
"I loved Jason" "He loved you back" I'M IN SHAMBLES ACTUALLY
Emily did you just say that David Rossi ISN'T dramatic???
Tyler and i are JUST as fucking confused
"The next generation of the BAU" really reminds me of how much younger than all of them he is which just makes me feel icky about Greencia all over again
Luke leading the profile delivery! Getting his moment! We love to see it!
Oh shit the doctor is spilling ALL the tea
I wonder if the baby is dead, a delusion
This is dark.
Wait, are the baby AND the mother dead??? Oh that would make sense for why the guy puked when he saw her. It was a skeleton
this really is a luke heavy ep and i am here for it
oh god yeah that's... fucked.
They need to start putting some god damn trigger warnings on this show
Luke looks genuinely SAD for this man.
They can give Voit a corded phone? this feels like a risk of some sort
A kill kit??? we didn't leave that behind last season??
"Do not, for any reason, open it." and ofc he opens it right away
JILL AND PENELOPE HUG MY HEARTTTT
Tara and Tyler friendship!
Oh Jilllll. I wanna hug her.
That scene with Jill walking around touching everything... oh my heart. Aisha Tyler you ate with that.
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amourrs · 24 days ago
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hey girl, sorry if your not comfy with replying to this, but i was raised roman catholic too, but have grown away from my faith due to my sexuality as a lesbian. do you have any advice? 🤍
hi absolutely! i come from the strange position of being the most religious in my family and my mum, whilst believing in God, doesn’t particularly feel any affiliation to one denomination. i don’t have the issue of having parents who aren’t supportive so whilst i can give advice in that realm if it doesn’t ring true that’s why :’) also don’t worry, this isn’t SUPER long, i just added the readmore for easier scrolling 🫶🏽
for me my religion and my sexuality as a lesbian are very much linked and mutually reinforce one another-i don’t think i would be a lesbian if God didn’t make me that way so i genuinely do not care. i don’t believe God hates gay people whatsoever but if for some reason i’m going to be damned for something He made me that doesn’t sound like my problem. but i really do not think that is the case!!!!! i don’t believe it’s a sin but i also never fear it because it couldn’t possibly upset me if it was. why would i panic over things outside of my control? i think that if heaven truly isn’t fit to house real love then i’m okay with that and i did what i could, but there are some things that not even the fear of God’s judgment could or would take from me and i am at peace with that, but i know that’s easier said than done.
also for me religion is much more about nature and love and beauty than any amount of attending mass or confession and whilst i personally love to pray in churches and attend services i also don’t think it matters if you don’t! biblically a church is anywhere you praise God and so if it’s a congregation of particularly judgemental people that are offputting to you or anything like that then just know you don’t have to go to any of it and you can be connected to your faith without all of that.
my girlfriend is a catholic convert so that also really helps me to have a different perspective on religion and sexuality. i truly have never felt more connected to God than in my relationship and when actively loving a woman- to me, there’s something spiritual in it. i love her and it reminds me that God created us both and made our paths intersect so that we could experience every moment we have- that’s incredibly meaningful and powerful to me. i know i her you and that it feels beautiful enough that it cannot be a sin and that is enough to me.
overall i guess my advice is to never let the views of a few or of the wider church stop you from believing in and loving God if that is what you want to do. i truly think that He loves us all and created us in His image, meaning our sexuality is a gift from Him just like any other. it doesn’t make sense to me that the almighty and powerful being responsible for all creation would mess up and then go oops, my bad, fuck any girl who kisses a girl 😭😭😭 thank you for being brave enough to ask this question and i really hope things go well for you lovely 💞💞
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yakool-foolio · 4 months ago
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SUSATO TELL ME EVERYTHING ABOUT KAZUMA RIGHT NOW. Damn, even Mikotoba is shook up by that dog collar. He must've been in Britain when this 'Hound of the Baskervilles' story took place. The judge really is becoming a character to look out for it seems. Getting sprites outside of the courtroom means real shit is gonna happen with him for sure.
BRETT ISN'T A REAL PERSON AND IS ACTUALLY ONE OF THE PEOPLE MENTIONED IN THE MORSE CODE MESSAGE?! This quartet (now a solo, poor Gregson is the only survivor) really is a rag-tag group that seems to have no noticeable connections between each other. It's dramatic irony that Shinn and Kazuma met in the first trial without even possibly knowing each other's involvement, at least Kazuma didn't.
KAZUMA'S BODY VANISHED HMMMMMMMMMMMMM???
HE COULD STILL BE ALIVE HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM?????
THERE'SSOMUCHLOREHAPPENINGALLATONCEICAN'TTYPEFASTENOUGH
Harebrayne has gone as crazy as I have. Mood.
Me: HE DOESN'T KNOW WHERE THE WORKSHOP IS?! WAS HE BLINDFOLDED OR SOMETHING?! Harebrayne: I was blindfolded on the way there- Me:
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NEW LADY! She's gone :(
Ohhhh so Klint's spirit is rumored to be The Reaper! He's the Hyde to Barok's Jekyll! I hope this is only the tip of the iceberg, but I'm more than ready to dig down myself if I must!
Ough Sithe's theme is sooooo good, that harpsichord is bringing me to a higher plane of existence. WOAH WOAH HEY KID PUT THE KNIVES DOWN!
OH MY GOD A PUPPY! Gregson frets that Gina could die to The Reaper so he wants to keep her safe and take her far away from any danger... aw man now I have a new appreciation for him. I'm not too big on him, but he's a good guy and I do like him, just not as much as the other detectives in this series. Ema Skye supremacy I don't make the rules.
I spy with my little eye a Van Zieks! Perhaps there's a mystery man not to far from here...? I do like that Van Zieks barely ever wears his cloak outside, it makes it look like he only ever wears it in court to make a flamboyant entrance. I like his style.
"I turned as white as a-" "You turned as pale as a-" I GET IT YOU'RE ALL SHOCKED! Were the writers scraping the bottom of the barrel on similes for fear this case?
HE'S HERE! Susato's got the right idea to talk to mystery man! IT'S KAZUMA IT'S GOTTA BE HIM! DON'T LEAVE NOOOOOOOO! OH SHIT HE'S GONNA BE IN COURT WITH VAN ZIEKS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HYPEHYPEHYPE! This is the one thing I will genuinely thank Stronghart for, as I don't trust that man as far as I can throw him.
(To Whom It May Concern - @raymondshields)
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phoenixisobsessed · 3 months ago
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I think you may be my favorite tumblr blorbo, art is scrumptious, you're so friendly and active, and I love seeing you post. Every day I wake up and check to see if you've posted anything new, and then I look at your old posts again. You are just so cool. Your ocs are cool too, I love reading your rambles and lore dumps.
I hope you are aware of how cool you are too. You inspire me a lot, to draw and otherwise.
Oh my god I’m sobbing.
I ngl post my stuff with long as hell rambles expecting literally nobody to read them because I am just The YapperTM and this…AARGEHHAGD. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY?? I AM SO TOUCHED??? Thank you. Thank you very much. I am glad to inspire others, really. I almost want to say that’s the reason I do this :,D
I ngl wake up every day, just immediately checking Tumblr for any new asks because I love answering them, talking, and seeing what people want from me. Like today I woke up to that one ask about my persona being a triple changer and I literally giggled and kicked my feet, so I can say, same here. I too wake up excited to see you guys.
I often say “I’m so cool guys” or something stupid like that. I’m one of those. But, I do genuinely feel pretty awesome. I know I’m not the perfect person but I feel pretty cool. B)
I always hate negativity and such things on the internet. All of the drama and cancel culture. There’s a reason the only social media I use is Tumblr because it at least feels a bit more chill here. I always inspire to be a bit more positive, lighthearted, and honestly just have fun. We all have dark moments in our lives, and honestly, if I can just make one person’s day just a little bit better, that would mean the world to me.
Now I’m getting a bit off topic ish, but some of this wanting to inspire and bring positivity into people’s lives may connect to my dreams of becoming a teacher xD. I hope to one day inspire as many people as I can to be the best versions of themselves. Like yeah, I joke around a lot and have a difficult time handling specific stressful situations, but damn if I can just make sure somebody else has the support or just inspiration to keep working towards what they want, I will literally have my life completed.
So anyway, summed up, I’m so happy you feel that way about my blog, because that’s exactly what I want it to be :). No judgement zone where I can just be myself, none of that dumbass influencer shabam where I put myself on a pedestal. I like interacting with others who have the same interests as me, and drawing. That’s all I want. And I’m so happy it’s working out. On this blog, we’re just being real. No fear. We’re ourselves because damn it it’s sure as hell okay to be who you are. We all need a safe space and I hope to provide that for at least one of you.
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pars-ley · 2 years ago
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Number 28 (part one)
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Pairing: Taehyung x female reader
Summary: Moving into your new building, the last thing you expect is to be helped by your gorgeous new neighbour but will ignoring the connection the two of you have be that easy or will it backfire and blow up in your face.
Genre: Neighbour au / fluff / Angst / friends to lovers /strangers to lovers / series /
Rating: 15 (SFW) 
Warnings: slight embarrassment / flirting / Taehyung being dreamy
Word count: 3.2k
Beta: @baljinciaga​ and @kthpurplesyou​ thank you both so much for your kind words and advice.
Banner: @imakeamess​ you’re honestly amazing.
Notes: This is for @btsmosphere​ thank you for your ask, I really appreciate and sorry it’s taken me so damn long. I’m turning this into a series, future chapters might possibly be nsfw. Thank you for reading and if you could reblog, comment or send me an ask telling me what you think, i’d really love it.
You manage to catch one of the double fire exit doors at the back of your new building with your foot and manoeuvre your back against it, enabling you to slip inside without having to put your heavy box down.
Moving into a new apartment is hard enough but you chose to do it at night, with only one friend to help you. It seemed like a good idea at the time, it would be quiet with hardly anyone using the elevator but you’d forgotten just how much stuff you had packed and the idea of just the two of you lugging everything up filled you with dread for the very long night ahead.
You hear the ding of the elevator, snapping you out of your thoughts, and rush round the corner to catch the back of someone going inside.
“Hold the doors, please!” you call out, struggling to get there before the doors close. A hand comes out at the last minute sending them opening again. “Thank you.” you say strained, as you step in and place the box down with a bump. Hopefully there’s nothing fragile in this one. Leaning over you press the same button that’s already alit and straighten up, trying to stretch your already aching back.
“Are you moving in?” a deep, rich voice echoes in the confines of the metal walls.
Wiping the sweat off your brow with the back of your hand and glancing up, you freeze for a moment. Now you understand what tall, dark and handsome really means and there he was in a suit tailored to perfection. Black hair styled flawlessly with not a single strand out of place, not to mention a face the gods themselves would make a picture of out of stars.
Suddenly you were wishing you weren’t standing here in your lounge suit, had some makeup on and weren’t a flushed sweaty mess while in such a confined space.
“Uh, yea.” you reply, feeling like an absolute idiot. That was the best you could come up with?
“Number 27 by any chance?” he asks, running a hand through his shiny hair and sending it bouncing back into place. The movement of his arm circulated his scent around you. Musky, sweet but clean and absolutely drawing you in.
You raise an eyebrow at his question. “Yea, how do you know? Was there a newsletter or something?” 
Laughing with a boxy smile that has your insides melting, “I happen to know who your new neighbour is.”
God, you hope its him.“And…what are they like? Wild parties? Loud music? Never ending stream of guests?”
A sideways smile that makes your heart hurt, he looks so damn good. “More like; quiet nights in with a book, a few friends over on the odd occasion and excessive photography. So if you can hear the click of the camera lens through the walls then it sucks for you.”
You laugh. That was a relief to say the least. “Oh, well that sounds bearable.”
“Does that mean you’re the party animal?” A touch of humour glinting in his ebony eyes.
“More of a late night movie watcher, friends over for gaming sessions and unless a paintbrush on a canvas can be heard, I'm as quiet as a mouse.”
A genuine heart warming smile stretches across his face.How someone so devastatingly handsome could be so adorable at the same time had you dizzy.
“Then in that case, welcome to the building, neighbour.” he puts a hand out and you shake it.
“You’re the bookworm?” you ask, unsure whether to feel excited at having his apartment so close or disappointed that you know can't date him for the very same reason. Like you'd have a shot anyway.
He grimaces slightly at the nickname. “Taehyung, nice to meet you.” you give him your name and he looks down at the singular box you have with you, “is this all you have?”
“I wish, there's a whole truck full downstairs and I've only just started.” you rub your face, tiredness of the day finally catching up.
“Where are your movers?” he frowns, seeming genuinely concerned.
“Miss cheap skate here didn’t wanna pay out for any. My friends offered but everyone, bar one person bailed last minute, so it’s just two of us.” you shrug attempting to ease the crease of worry on his forehead. 
“We can’t have that. I’ll go down with you and help.”
The elevator stops and the doors open with a loud ding. Bending to pick up the box it is taken from your grasp and lifted swiftly away. 
“No, no, honestly, you’ll ruin your suit.” you’re practically chasing him down the hallway to your door.
“I'll change.”
“I really couldn’t ask you to do that.” you fumble with your keys but manage to open the door to let him place the box inside. 
“Well it’s a good job you didn’t and I offered.” he says heading back out the door, removing his blazer and unlocking his door just a few metres from yours. “I’m just going to change quickly.”
You hesitate. “Well, if you insist on helping, that would be great."
He nods. "What are neighbours for? I'm just going to change," he says as he unlocks the door to his department. "I'll meet you back downstairs."
"Sure thing." You reply, pushing the button for the elevator and resisting the urge to look inside his apartment. When you hear his door click shut behind you, the excitement of having him help blooms inside you, holding back the squeal you feel bubbling in your throat and opting for a silent laugh instead.
The opening doors of the elevator invite you in and all you are met with is your cheshire cat grin looking back at you in the reflection of the mirrors inside. You shake your head at yourself. Get a grip. See a cute guy and you're ready to lose your mind. Yea sure he seems nice, friendly, helpful, not to mention dreamy but you cannot date your neighbour.
You push the thoughts aside ready to return to your task at hand.
Once outside, the autumn night air has a bite to it, very different to the warmth you felt next to Taehyung and it sends a shiver through you. The lights from the building illuminate the darkness, your boxes glowing like a broadway sign saying ‘new to the building’. 
Footsteps echo as you stroll down the quiet alley at the back of the building, the hushed sounds of the cars on the road of the busy city whisper in the distance. Your friend, Mark’s grunts interrupt the peace, the noise bouncing off of the walls around you, as he moves furniture into a pile at the end of the van.
“Is there anything you want taken up first?” he asks from inside the van. 
“Probably the parts of the bed, they can be taken straight into the bedroom and I'll put it together tomorrow.”
He turns to you over his shoulder, looking at you through his dark fringe and says, “and what are you going to sleep on tonight genius?”
“It’s called the sofa, dummy.” you poke your tongue out at him as the sound of light footsteps echo behind you. When Taehyung appears at your side, the same scent from the elevator envelopes you, even outside it's intoxicating. Glancing up at him you’re even more devastated by his casual outfit than you were in the suit.
The grey hoodie unzipped, showing a white t-shirt tight enough to accentuate his defined chest, with the matching grey jogging bottoms and a black baseball cap he wore backwards. This look made you want to bite your lip and let your eyes wander down but you dare not.
Snapping yourself out of your trance, you make introductions. “Mark, this is my new neighbour, Taehyung, who has so graciously offered to help us out.”
They nod to each other, before Mark returns to halling out bed parts.
“So, I made a call and a couple of my friends are coming over to help.” Taehyung informs you with your head snapping up in his direction. “What?”
Mark sighs, the sound full of relief. “Taehyung, I don't even know you but I like you already.”
Taehyung’s answering chuckle was endearing and you had to stop your eyes from growing puppy dog wide whilst you tried not to make your admiration obvious.
“You didn’t have to do that.” You say quietly, not wanting to seem ungrateful but not knowing how to deal with this stranger's kindness, as Mark starts to unload the bed parts, passing them down to you and Taehyung.
“I know but they aren’t doing anything, they’re happy to help.” 
You both head back inside, placing the bed parts against the wall next to the elevator to try to lessen your trips.
“It’s Friday night, how can they not have plans?” You can’t seem to let it drop, as kind as it is, you don’t like feeling in debt to someone.
“Hey, I don’t have plans.” Taehyung protests with a slight pout.
“You sure looked like you had plans?” raising an eyebrow at him quizzically.
He sighs, defeated, “Ok, I had a date.”
Surprisingly, disappointment blooms in your stomach and something akin to jealousy threatens under the surface but you push that away in an instant. “Oh?” you respond as you turn away and head back to the van.
“It was a blind date, I don’t usually agree to them,” he says quickly, as if ashamed. “And tonight just proved the reason why.”
You can’t fathom the delight that blooms inside your chest at hearing this and you mentally scold yourself for it. “That bad huh?”
He nods and you watch his face drop as you finish lugging all the parts of your bed back into the building. “I text a friend to "fake call" me with an emergency just so I had an excuse to leave.” 
You watch his forehead wrinkle in anguish as if wrestling with that decision he made and clearly feeling bad about it.
“We’ve all been there. Sometimes it’s gotta be done.”
He mulls that over and gives you a small smile. “Safe to say it’s the last blind date I'll be going on.”
You both journey up in the elevator again, holding the parts against the walls to stop them falling over.
“I’m struggling to understand why someone like you even needs to be set up on a blind date.” There you go thinking out loud again before you can stop the words escaping your lips.
His eyes look up at yours, gaze curious but you see something flicker in them you can't quite place. “Someone like me?”
Instantly your cheeks heat, wishing you could take that sentence back. Not having any idea what to say in response to save yourself some more embarrassment, you scramble for an answer until the panic makes you cave and you just decide to be honest.
“Yea…I mean, look at you. I’m surprised there’s not a line of women following you around as we speak.”
Now, it was his turn to blush. You watch the pink spread across his cheekbones as he tries to hide his bashful smile. “Definitely not.” clearing his throat and flicking the hair out of his eyes he changes the subject, something you’re grateful for. “Anyway, what about you? Moving in alone?”
“Yep, just me.” You were feeling awkward and not sure why.
“No boyfriend?” his eyebrow twitches and you just shake your head in response. 
“Now that surprises me.”
It was your turn again for that persistent blush having only just got rid of it. “Why’s that?” and yet, a part of you wanted him to continue.
“Well, you’re beautiful, funny, friendly…that's just what I've got from our brief encounter so far. Not to mention, creative and a gamer, all high ranking points in what a lot of guys look for in someone…”
You shrug, managing to hide the grin that threatens to portray itself. “It’s finding a nice guy that's not going to waste my time, that’s the problem.”
He nods, understanding. Maybe it’s the same with women too. “Relationships are not the difficult part to navigate. For me, it’s finding someone that’s actually interesting enough to want to spend so much time with, do you get that?” The same worry in his eyes you’ve felt in yourself countless times when attempting to open up to someone. He really gets it.
“Completely. Lately, it feels as if so much is focused on how someone looks and how much money they spend on dates, as opposed to the actual connection you have with someone and how they make you feel. After all, when you’re old and wrinkled that’s what’s really going to matter.” There’s a long pause and when Taehyung doesn’t respond you glance up at his face to see him staring at you, smiling.
When a few more moments pass, you awkwardly shift your feet and that seems to snap him out of his trance. He clears his throat again and nods. “Couldn’t have said it better myself.”
On your return trip back downstairs, his friends have arrived in the lobby and he introduces you to Jungkook and Jimin, both extremely friendly and extremely handsome. What are these guys eating?  Having this many good looking, friendly and helpful guys in a friendship group should be against basic human rights.
After some casual chit chat, their sleeves are rolled up and they are lugging box after box to your apartment. Even Mark seems to get along with all of them and he is one of the least social people you know, he barely even tolerates you.
Everything moves fast with the extra hands and before long there are only a few more boxes to take up. It's when you get the sofa into the building that you realise it will not fit in the elevator and all of you will have to try to take it up seven flights of stairs. 
The comical aspect of this proves too much at first as all of you at some point end up in fits of laughter as you all try angling it in different ways to get it past the corners and the bannisters. This was a living 'friend's' sketch for sure, the urge to call out "pivot" was almost overwhelming but in case they were not fans of the show you decided to keep it to yourself, smirking in your own amusement.
By the time the sofa reaches your new living area, the guys had a sheen of sweat across their brows and their heavy panting chorused together.
“Ok, you guys have done enough! Me and Mark can take it from here,” you touch Taehyung's shoulder, “Thank you, all, you’ve been such a great help.”
Jungkook jumped on the spot a little, “Nah we’re good, there’s like three more boxes, we’ll go and grab the last ones.” He flexes his muscles and wiggles his eyebrows at you before him and Jimin jog out down the hallway.
“Whatever these guys are on, I want some of it.” Mark says dryly before leaving with them.
Now you and Taehyung are alone again, awkwardness starts to rise up and you’re unsure why but before it can escalate you interject, “Well then, I’m getting pizza for everyone as a thank you. Where’s a good pizza place ‘round here?” You pull out your phone already googling places in the area.
“You don’t have to do that.” Taehyung protests and you give him a disapproving look.
“And you all didn’t have to help me, so let me repay the gesture.”
He gives in and nods, telling you about a pizza place they order from all the time. As you complete the order, the others return with the last of your stuff. 
You surveyed your apartment, it didn’t look like much right now but it was yours and all your stuff was here.
Mark’s arm winds around your shoulders, encasing you in a warm hug. “You ok?” he watches your face as you nod and lean into him.
You felt an immense swell of pride in your chest, and you had every reason to be proud of yourself. You had bought this apartment on your own, with only a little help from Mark of a small loan for your deposit but you had done it. A huge milestone you'd dreamed of reaching, fair enough you'd always imagine this step with a partner or husband but the fact that you managed by yourself made you feel even more successful. It showed you, you could be successful on your own without a man propping you up.
After the last apartment you attempted to buy with your ex, you weren't sure you wanted to even try again. But dwelling on the past doesn't do anyone any good. Here you are, finally at a place in life you were happy in most aspects.
You take a deep breath and turn back to the guys. “Ok, pizza’s on the way.”
They cheer and you are quickly enveloped in a warm hug with Jungkook and Jimin, dancing you around the room until you are laughing so much your belly hurts.
“Alright, I vote we eat in my apartment, as I have the luxury of seating.” Taehyung’s amused voice sounds.
“Excuse me sir, but what do you call that?” You point at your sofa with feign shock popping your mouth open.
“Let me rephrase, I have the luxury of ample seating.” 
You couldn't help the laugh that escapes. “Fair point.”
Taehyung leaves with Jungkook and Jimin talking excitedly but you feel eyes on you and turn to the only one left in the room.
“What?” you ask after noticing Mark's questioning gaze.
“What is that?”
You frown as you look around the room, not understanding. “What is what?”
“Oh come on, there’s something between you two.” he says as if stating a well known fact.
Your brain hustle’s for some semblance of understanding. “Between who now?”
He laughs and shakes his head. “Don’t give me that. You and Taehyung, it’s so obvious it’s practically visible.”
Your mouth pops open and you feel annoyance rise up inside you, at him creating something over nothing. “I’ve only just met him.”
Shrugging, he replies. “Since when does a spark have a time constraint?”
Your mouth opens for a response but you hesitate. Do you have a spark? Just because two people get along doesn’t mean there’s something behind it. “It’s called being friendly, doofus.”
“Hmm-mm,” raising an eyebrow at you. “You’re friendly with me, with Jungkook and Jimin too but Taehyung…god, it’s practically suffocating, the energy between you, and you know i’m right otherwise you wouldn’t be getting so defensive.” He smirks and the sight irritates your soul. 
“There. Is. Nothing.” your foot stamps slightly making your point final as you fold your arms across your chest, something Mark finds very amusing.
“Alright, little miss brush-off, whatever you say. Let’s go eat.” He hooks your arm and drags you out the door and to Taehyung's apartment with questions rapidly filling your head and overthinking now beginning. 
Was he right? Did Taehyung like you or is Mark simply reading into a new friendship too hard? Either way, you have to be careful now, the last thing you need is to fall out with your next door neighbour. Whether that be heartbreak or misunderstanding, especially when you’ve only been in the building for four hours.
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fadeintocase · 10 months ago
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i know your music is really personal and there's stories behind songs that you give when asked, and a lot of them seem really heavy. have you ever seen other interpretations that actually made you upset or disappointed that you weren't being understood?
There's always a little bit of ambiguity in meaning and subsequent leeway in interpretation with any creative thing you do. I am generally cool with whatever people wanna pull from things, and get impressed when people connect the same dots i was when i'm writing something.
However two stories come to mind, one funny and one emblematically frustrating.
The funny one
way back when Smoke Damage blew up from some nightcore stuff, i got an influx of attention. I got an email sent, i can't remember through where, asking about the meaning of the line "looking at the present's fucking sad" in that song. They wanted to know, genuinely, if i meant "present" as in current, or "presents" as in gifts, like christmas presents. I guessed this person was very young. And explained plainly but lightly, "The song is about not being happy with the current situation you're in." To which i got an email back, "Ah, so it's about presents? is it like a christmas song?" To which i. had no idea how to respond to.
The frustrating one
There's an OC of mine i thought up when i was a dark and edgy teenager. I wrote several posts about them on here, their connection to my mythos broadly, the things that inspired them, i joked about how it was ultimately a bullshit dark and edgy character. God of pain and suffering, physical form covered in scars, bleeds black, destined to become the soul at the heart of every star and feel the eternal suffering of burning for eternity, to pull other damned souls into the stars for them to also suffer, and feel the weight of every black hole as a pit in their stomach. Evolved after several lifetimes of samsara until they become the most archetypical form of theirself. A friend of mine once told me they thought about what a higher god viewing a person on earth would have to look like, and it would involve a lot of spinning. having to sync up with so much spinning just to peer into the lives of this planet.
I ended up writing a song about this character, The Astrocartographer, about this god of suffering watching all the people destined to suffer for their destiny. (They are also introduced in chapter 3 of PAN, my story about dragon aliens from another universe and a bug robot that talks to them.) At some point recently, someone on here posted a comic of lyrics from the Astrocartographer, not crediting me by my artist name, and in the description just kind of, making up what they thought it was about.
And that did offend me a little bit. That something that was a deep expression of some shit i came up with when struggling with my childhood, that eventually evolved into part of my sprawling fictional universe that i'm proud of. Like i put the effort in this a character who's spoken through stories and ARGs and music of mine, the subject of my most recent album, got glossed over because they were more comfortable with the thought that it was written about a ship they like, because a few keywords lined up for their interpretation. I don't mind interpretations, but i do get frustrated when people make a point to drown out my stated intention, ignore it, and claim my intention was their interpretation. Especially when it represents my own work i have been trying to get out there. long answer, but thanks for the question!
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shadowqueenjude · 3 months ago
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The fandom is so lucky to have you! We appreciate having you here and all that you contribute to it ❤️❤️
1. What brought you into the fandom?
2. What character(s) do you feel the most connected to and why?
3. Out of all of SJM’s books, which one means the most to you and why?
4. Out of all of the SJM couples (fanon, canon, endgame, etc) which one means the most to you and why?
Keep doing you ❤️
This is so sweet! It made my day🥹
1. I finished the ACOTAR series late 2023 and I was devastated to find out that it wasn’t completed! It’s soooooo hard waiting for the next installment in a series. I went through this with The Land of Stories and The Trials of Apollo too 😭😭😭. So yeah I searched online for Elucien/pro Lucien/anti IC content and I couldn’t find shit ANYWHERE. The only place I even saw some decent content was on Tumblr, so I started posting my analyses and rants and writing about ACOTAR and it turned out many people agreed with me! It was such a relief to finally find Lucien stans who also saw holes in SJM’s writing!
2. I resonate with Nesta the most. She’s just so relatable and human to me. First with the parental trauma (real), second with feeling like they’ve disappointed everybody because they weren’t able to do things that no teen girl should have to do, pushing people away because she’s afraid they’ll leave, spitting facts and everybody getting mad at you for it. And Nesta’s modesty: damned if you do, damned if you don’t. I’ll never forgive SJM for robbing her of her modesty, but it’s honestly reflective of how women like her are treated irl. My own family wants me to be more modest (i’m already pretty damn modest) while the outside world wants me to be less modest, and it’s really frustrating being put in a box like that and not being able to be yourself. Nesta’s hard shell soft interior is me-core.
3. I think by far SJM’s best book is Tower of Dawn. The worldbuilding, the romance, the plot, the chemistry between Chaol and Yrene (and Nesryn and Sartaq) was perfection. And Chaol being a genuinely flawed and human character in a world full of Fae feeling useless and learning to grapple with himself and find his purpose and a man who had always prided himself on his body learning to see that he is so much more than that, that he is as much a man with his wheelchair as he is without it, and Yrene, a character who rules by peace and healing, not violence and destruction, showing everybody how strong she is…well, it’s unlike so many of SJM’s books and she didn’t write it to be popular and tropey (Chaol is wildly unpopular in the TOG fandom) which is why it’s so good.
4. My favorite SJM couple that is already confirmed endgame is Elide and Lorcan from Throne of Glass. God, I love them. Elide, the cunning little witch with a limp and innocent eyes, showing just how strong she can be, wielding Lorcan’s axe (😍) and saving him on the battlefield. Manipulating everybody with a few choice words and a flutter of her eyes. Lorcan being utterly mesmerized from the start. Being a menstruation king and taking such good care of her during her periods. Washing her clothes, bringing her dinner…i mean he is so malewife. Elide being a canon ace queen who only engaged in sexual activities after she trusted and loved Lorcan so deeply that she would allow herself to be vulnerable with him. Elide being sassy as hell and Lorcan being into it. Another human, very real character who is a survivor and quite unlike any other character in the SJM-verse.
Aside from that, Ruhnlidia is 🔥 and amongst those which aren’t technically canon endgame yet, Elucien. The political couple. The fashion-forward couple. The charming couple. The regency couple. The brown-eyed couple. The nonviolent couple. They’re the only two who know they’re mates from the start. Arranged marriage forced proximity trope. The tension, the yearning, Lucien as a fucking male lead…gahhhhhhhwodnwksnaklahiknj
Anyway thanks for the ask!
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macawritesupdates · 7 months ago
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OK let me start out by saying you are an excellent writer and I hope this doesn't come off as anon hate or bullying when I tell you I hated the last prompt chapter so so much. It hurt me so much my god I hated seeing Megumi so broken poor guy it was awful. Damn Yuuji's quiet rage is always a sight to see I appreciated that. Sukuna you fool you absolute idiot you made the wrong choice every single time you personally destroyed any chance of your own happiness huh bud. Your life is completely devoid of meaning or connection. I loved when Yuuji said it wasn't his problem if Sukuna wasn't happy like hell yeah he's right and even having lost everything he's still not fully broken and he can see just how empty your life is. Yuuji has lost but his soul is so strong he's no longer a sunshine boy but he's still got something inside him that lets him keep his dignity. It's a cold hard determination that grew from the ashes of the naive boy the cursed world killed. Ow ow man that hurts a lot. God I hate it how did you make them killing each other at the end feel hopeful. Sukuna I hope you correct your mistake in the next life let go of that hate that destroyed you even more than it did him. In the next life do better. Do better please. God Yuuji smiled again at the end that hurts so bad. Anyway brilliant chapter but ouchie. It was so well done but it hurts me to read it. Thank you for writing and sharing with us I'm going to go cry now.
*Squishes your cheeks* Darling reader, listen to Maca-senpai on this one: You are ALLOWED to dislike fics I write <3 Some flavors aren't for everyone and if you didn't like it I 100% and never offended nor see it as bullying or anon hate! It is clear you like the writing itself but the themes were harsh! You still gave a nice comment as there were parts that you clearly liked even if it was a bit ouchies chapter ; w ;
I always try to label the angst as I know people like to avoid it and I never take ANY offense if people prefer only the fluffy bits <3
You are appreciated no matter your opinion!
(And actual anon hate just goes into the trash because who got time for that? This was just a genuine comment that I appreciate and wish to pat you on the head and go write a fluffy one-shot to offer it to you as an apology mint!)
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flockrest · 1 year ago
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this one's to the lovely who dropped an entire essay back @ me in the inbox! i've decided to format the post such that i can answer some portions directly so none of us get confused, hope you don't mind! anything indented is what you sent in, the rest is part of my response :) it's another doozy but we love those, don't we? asflkdj here we go!
Hi, hope you're doing well! I'd been the anon giving you asks more on Revali's personality and his behavior around the Flock and the Flock's reaction (mostly Tulin's) towards him. Also, the 1.6k did not overwhelm me- if anything made me very happy and overall more curious ahahaha. If anything- thank you so much for accepting and taking the time to answer these asks. Can relate to the unhinged feelings over the lonely rito- I could be hours and hours thinking. That gif of the guy with a board behind full of clues and trying to connect the dots- that's currently me.
hello, welcome back! thank you, hope you're having a wonderful time too!! ♡ also gotta thank you again for sending these in, i genuinely get so excited to see things like this in my inbox!! your passion is so great to see! i'm glad you enjoy my answers, and that they make you all the more curious and open to sharing with me ♡ what a huge mood though afklsjdg this stupid bird just has So Much to him
I've re-read your post various times and even tried organizing my thoughts in paper. And there is so much I want to ask... What caught a lot my attention- was how you spoke a bit of Rito village during & after the Calamity; ofc we don't really get a clear picture of the before even with AoC's light but we do get the clearest view of the aftermath of it (ofc 100 years skipped). I do feel (Pre-Calamity) Rito Village had a larger flock(?) compared to the village we get exposed during BoTW/ToTK events. In a way feels the loss of their Champion & Calamity's wrath- made them all realize the importance of that sense of unity.
yes, exactly! you get it! it's a natural outcome from suffering any huge loss...and while it comes from a place of tragedy, i just. really appreciate how homely and cosy rito village feels in both botw and totk because of it — you get that sense of nobody is genuinely uncared for, even link! and this isn't to say that the other peoples of hyrule don't care for their own, it just! hits different with the rito. like you get the impression that everybody interacts with each other everyday! you literally can't go from the top of the village to the bottom without seeing almost every single resident; they're all practically neighbours! they're all, on some level, friends!
this significance on sticking together as a community is especially evident in totk. seriously, it makes me so emo seeing the kids step up to fill in spaces the adults did not mean to leave behind nor expect them to fill :') and their efforts don't go unrecognised, as they shouldn't be, but oh my god. on my hands and knees over how cherished the kids are in this damn flock!! nekk ( MY BELOVED ) puts it best: "they're the saviours of this village."
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and like! they're going through extremely hard times with supply scarcities but still find the capacity to be so generous?? there are more things than i expected lying about that you can just grab — that they'll consciously let you grab! i'm going to need these folks to stop having such a huge collective heart fr it's making me feel A Lot 😭
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( and in reviewing cutscenes from both botw and aoc in this context, i think we can safely say that their residential population was indeed bigger pre-calamity. there's more background npcs just chilling about in the memory "revali's flap" compared to most post-calamity cutscenes, and aoc literally shows that there are enough rito present for brigades! the reduced numbers we see post-calamity could simply be attributed to more rito travelling beyond their home and even hyrule, but then the calamity would probably be a big reason for that too )
Brings me back to ToTK, where I noticed most adults in a way spoke highly & relied (at least to me) a bit on Tulin's ability to use wind magic- after all it's been a long time since they ever witness it. But also appreciated how Harth's dialogues which he praises the boy's ability but is concerned of how Tulin is taking certain approach (how at first he goes alone) and his overworking state. Even Teba & Saki recognize their son's abilities but as parents are concerned- I am pretty sure while they acknowledge him as a rito warrior, they also want him to continue living his childhood. (Link does too btw- sorry I don't mention them often)
OH, FOR SURE. you are right on many points here; for sure, the adults have come to see tulin as a young rito warrior in his own right and do trust him to contribute in a way they wouldn't ask of the other fledglings; harth makes it clear that even before link had come, sending tulin to investigate the cloud surrounding the stormwind ark was an option they weren't as opposed to as our introduction to the kid made it seem ( and it's not just his wind-gust technique they're so in awe of either! god. he really has worked so hard!! and everybody can see it! 😭😭 ).
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with the worry, i believe the nature of it really depends! it's all completely warranted given how tulin's initial views on how "he doesn't need anyone else backing him up" has apparently "gotten him into trouble more times than [harth] can count" ( which is definitely concerning but also. it can't be anything worse than getting his bow stolen and being left with just his talons for defence in the face of a monster, right? because tulin. tulin. that could not have been your turnaround if you've been doing shit like flying straight into frost taluses solo or something sflkjd ) anyway, but it seems for teba and harth, it's more in a we're worried you're actively sabotaging yourself with your recklessness way.
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saki had hang-ups about tulin losing his innocence too early in botw ( "he is such a sweet boy," she says, and it never fails to make me collapse on my knees because he so is and the best thing is he never loses that aspect of himself!! ), but does appear to have come to accept that her son's growing up in totk? i unfortunately don't have a screenshot of the line that indicates this, nor do i remember it verbatim, but the vibes i'm getting from her are i'm worried because you have not learnt enough to be as grown up as you insist you are ( which leaves you ill-prepared for the situations you're trying to fly into ).
ofc it all connects to a primary worry for his safety and his tendency to do way more than anyone would ask of him, but i do think they understand, on some level, that trying to completely stop him is ultimately futile and will only make things worse — in that he'll start deliberately pushing them away when he's only leaving them behind for now.
he's a tween! still a child but only ever getting older, and with how important it is to their culture, i imagine being a warrior isn't as mutually exclusive from childhood as it'd be for us. like tulin's an outlier because he's a prodigy who excessively worked himself to that title, but i don't doubt that compulsory education for growing fledglings would involve, among other things, learning how to at least hunt and defend yourself in the wild! so i don't think it's that they're scared of him growing up too fast at that point in totk — because while he's definitely matured more than his peers in some parts, he is very much still experiencing being a child no matter what he argues in many others aflskdj — just more like...they want him to grow up well. properly, for a lack of better words. WHICH INCLUDES NOT OVERWORKING. oh my god with the overworking
( also oh boy. very glad you brought up link! no need to be sorry! i can't say much on him because i'm not a link writer, though i do ramble about his dynamic with tulin, including how he potentially sees himself reflected in him, over here if you're interested! )
But this also sends me off to another "path" makes me think- What if Revali didn't have this type of support? And it made me think how similar were Revali's and Tulin's in some aspects but how different the outcome were for both- it's a bit tragic at least for me.
YES. YES!! THIS IS IT, YOU HIT IT ON THE HEAD!! i've said it before and i'll say it again: tulin and revali are essentially one support system removed from being each other! they share notable parallels!
just. the fact that harth notices the injuries on tulin's wings from pushing himself to the limits. we don't get follow-up dialogue on that, but there's such a high chance that Words are exchanged between them when link leaves them be because we've seen their relationship. we know how harth cares for tulin, we know tulin is loved for more than what he can do and looked out for. now juxtapose that with revali, thrown out of his own tornado, alone in that moment where he picks himself up as well — but way less likely to have anyone say anything about his wing injuries or to even let someone think he has them. [spontaneously combusts]
i would say more on this and why the sages of totk in general act well as foils to the champions of botw, particularly regarding themes, but that really does feel like a post for another time sdflkjd and it is tragic! it is very tragic! revali was doomed by the narrative in more ways than one :')
I remember the diary where he speaks how the town began praising him for his achievements- that type of validation can be good but to an extreme and left unchecked, it can spiral someone into depending of it. And yet at the end of that diary... he still spoke how he need to continue perfecting himself. Something that AoC made me think in more depth was how almost everyone was "chosen" by destiny (or have a unique ability) and carried a title. But when I look at Revali he seems somehow an abstract to them. Even though in his diary such things were not something he cared for- he mostly valued folks by their responses and actions. (Note: Found cute how he appreciated the scarf and gave one to his bow... It really meant a lot to him// Also I do think Revali appreciated all the Champions including Zelda & Link).
YEAH. YEP. and the way he at first speaks about it, how he contradicts himself in tone despite trying to sound so self-assured — "as one would expect" VS the "i...could get used to this." that follows in the same entry — that's the attention and glory he's always wanted! now he's gonna affix it to the meaning of loving and being loved. which he's also going to attach to his abilities and what he can offer, which is deeply connected to his perceived self-worth. and he's going to make sure he'll never run out of ( tbf real and well-earned ) confidence in that self-worth by constantly pushing himself to greater, more impossible heights. i'm going to put this bird in a washing machine.
he's literally just a guy!! it's one of my favourite things about him, he's Just Some Guy in the group of people who were born into wealth; powers; blessings; respect. they all had their trials, but he earned his place among them from the comparative nothing he started out with and he's justifiably proud of this!
i do think he's also insecure about it at first, tbh ( which he reacts to by laying on the conceit even thicker ), even though his belief in hard work being a supreme indicator of one's "true strength" isn't actually shaken. he is genuinely like i more than deserve to be here but he's also like. and there's nothing you can do about it. don't you forget it. don't you forget it. don't you ever forget it. i wouldn't say it mellows out, but the more he gets to see the champions in action ( thus confirming that they are on his level — that he's fit to make a constellation amongst these that've already been mapped ), the less inclined he feels to explicitly remind them.
and oh my god. the things i could say about what the blue scarf likely means to him. it was handcrafted by zelda, hyrule's princess, for him specifically. it's part of a matching set with other big powers of hyrule. titles and uniform do nothing for him, he claims, but isn't this like being told you are one of us? that you have much to offer? it's "meaningless pomp", he says.
it's also still a gift.
the cloth he ties to his bow is the same shade of blue. i should really make another study post speaking about this more in depth, but i've always interpreted it to be a memento the same way teba and saki's feathers on tulin's quiver are! in tulin's time, this might mean, "these people are always with me." in revali's time, on the brink of a calamity, i imagine it might mean, "( if i fall, you who finds me, ) i belonged with these people."
And yet when Teba & Tulin show up- there is this subtle change on him(?) I wished the game had dwelled a bit more on Teba and Revali. Seeing their interactions was always interesting and in a way, Teba seemed to understand the rito champion. While I felt Teba was that friend or even family member(?) that Revali needed in a way or I could be just over reading, ahaha sorry. But sincerely, I always felt Teba & Tulin were that family or friends- that in a way Revali needed and it makes me think so hard on the "What ifs" and "What could have been"...
what i wouldn't have given for more content and interactions between these three as well!! it's especially fascinating to think about it from teba's side — there is so much recontextualising he has to do and does do about revali, because the one he's grown up idolising and hearing Songs about is uh. well, he's certainly there in the revali he meets, but i doubt he's really prepared for things like how painfully young he is.
he handles it very well honestly asfklsdjg i would not have taken to the realisation that my champion is a warrior hardened only by constant work and the battles he throws himself into, and kind of a fucking brat because he's like the 18yo who thinks being 18 is a decade away from being 17, and died distressingly young back in my timeline with the same grace he gives when he says — of the entire wild experience that is aoc — "this has been enlightening".
you are not over-reading, do not be sorry fr!! i do think revali found an opportunity for companionship in teba that he couldn't find anywhere else when he's built relationships and dynamics he can't change because he has an image to uphold! teba already comes with a dire respect for revali, the knowledge that his story does not end nicely, AND HE'S AN ACTUAL DAD. that sort of thing can bleed into your behaviour and the way you process things without meaning to asflkdjgs
THE BIGGEST MOOD!! wow i'm so glad writers ( it's me, i'm writers ) can create literally anything they want and so can explore these what ifs and what could have beens and give a resolution to a story cut short. this is what my the champions survive au is all about, i hope to have you stay long enough to see these things come out of it ♡
As for the Flight Range & Saki's dialogue; I've always been emo about the F.Range specially when you walk in and hear his theme playing in this music box style... it's like part of his soul is also there but that flame that burnt passionately has subdued and waits to pass to torch to the next generation. In ToTK it made me cry- specially when Kaneli comments (when you pick the bow,arrows) how they been collecting dust... But on the bright side, made me happy that even with the damages- they still hold dearly to the place and is currently being used as training grounds for flight. Which... is what Revali wanted for his people for them to reach the sky and break the limits (or that how I interpreted it).
AUGH EXACTLY, YOU GET IT!! 😭 he never gave it his name but it'll always be his! it's the most melancholic we ever get to hear his theme, full of the wistful yearning that was definitely present but more muted in its botw version! it's lost potential. an unsaid goodbye. revali's gone. but it's also grounds for hope, a tiptoeing hello: his legacy lives on still! i will always go fucking feral over the music in these games!!
YES!! YEAH!! [HOLDING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS] he calls his journal "the diary of revali, the rito legend" BUT HE DOES NOT. GIVE THE FLIGHT RANGE LITERALLY MADE FOR HIM HIS NAME. because it was never going to be something solely for him. he loves his people, he was never going to stymie their prospects! this loser is so good at making me infuriatingly sad AUGH
Re-reading Saki's dialogue with the context you given me- hit me like a ton of bricks. Because it was a new pov. When I first read her dialogue, I took it more of a "Remembering our Champion- one we couldn't help" rather than "commemoration of what he couldn't do". But I also remembered how contrasting are Teba and Saki; Teba being a warrior with pride, reckless at times - who admired greatly Revali's feats and aspired once to surpass him. Meanwhile Saki is more calm and is concerned with the concept of engaging battle- nervous about the training her son was exposed to. So, when re-reading her dialogue I take it more of a wife and mother concerned of losing her companion/husband and son to a similar fate to Revali's.
i swear we are on the same wavelength. yes, exactly!
another thing about revali's landing that makes me so, so deliriously emo — it's a physical permanency given without request: in the best way they can afford to grant it. the rito notably have very little tangible representations of themselves. they don't have statues or effigies like the zora or gorons ( and why would they, when they have Songs and the Windlines and are also probably restricted by their morphology ), and revali does not have any family to be likened to. link remembers him through seeing the landing, which was there, a part of rito village, before it was ever deemed revali's. it wasn't made for him. but they gave it to him! and i'm!! [BLUBBERING]
Revali's love for his people and Rito Village- it breaks me. I can understand that sentiment of loving someone or something from a far (?) - Even when challenging W.Blight and listening to his lines (both english and spanish for me), one can hear that hidden sadness. It's hearing someone who wants to go back home. "But even so, it will always be my home." - the entirety of those lines really hit me so hard the first time I've heard them.
I KNOW. I KNOW. [head in hands] a century has passed and he can't fathom it. "there's no one left who would even know me." he sounds so struck by it, in both the original jpn and english audio, i want to wrap him up in a blanket and toast him like a marshmallow! how much of that is grief? how much of that is longing? how much of that is some strange solace, in knowing he's alone but there's nothing he could've done about it this time?
Also, it makes me glad seeing a Tulin who can see the good in Revali- even if the champion can have a bit of a thorn like exterior. I've read some of the threads! They been wonderful and brought me a lot of joy. It makes me happy to see Tulin taking flight and moving forward. When you mention your student-disciple, are you referring to Kido? I know there were two names but I've lost the post with the cups. I would love to hear about them all!
thank you!! it heartens me to know that you've dipped into some of my ic writing too! i hope you'll continue to enjoy your stay here!! ♡♡
SLFKJKSDLG SO I'VE CHANGED IT IN THE POST NOW, but i meant master-disciple! apologies for the confusion!! kido is an original character of mine who would actually rather fall into totori lake than be revali's student alfjsdkg but that's how it be when you're a kid with a complex, turned-less-than-pleasant background with the concept of revali. if you're interested and up for it, please do give his dossier and study tag a peek! this is by no means a request that you do; it's totally fine if you leave him be!
There so many questions and facts, I would love to talk about... but as I scrolled up- I noticed this is becoming a long one. I am so sorry. I'd been trying to simplify and cut a bit ;-; Plus, I know this blog is a multiverse but focused on Tulin and I don't want to bother. So once again, thank you so much for taking your time in answering these asks. If anything if you ever do the academic-paper length study on lonely birb, I'll run over to read it X'D !!! But I'd been enjoying everything of the meta- the studies on rito's culture and behaviour. Also been curious on your views on Kass taking the role of a bard... Yeah, looking forward to keep reading. Thank you once again.
please, never be sorry for giving me your thoughts, no matter how long they end up being!! i mean it! i enjoyed reading through every line, it means a lot to me that you'd take the time and energy to send something of this scale to me ♡ you did not bother and will not bother, i promise! any of my muses are up for discussion, and so are their people in general! i have an itch to talk about these birds at all times, lurkers like you give me a great scratch ♡
one more time, thank you for your kind words!! i'm so happy to know that my thoughts are received this well!!
KASS MY BELOVED. i'm not sure if you've seen my study on what Songs, Songkeepers, and Scriptweavers are, but if you have, then here's some paraphrased disco ramblings on my Thoughts on him! with how important a role he played in keeping and invoking memories of the champions in botw's dlc, i'm of the belief that he's rito village's primary Songkeeper! ahaha, on this note ( and this is more of a fun roleplaying easter egg than anything ): my botw verse is named Song of the Reclamation — i keep the headcanon that kass, specifically, writes this Song after the game's events tucked away with other misc. details that inform how i run things here :)
this is already long enough, so i think i'll end it here asfljkd but feel free to bounce your thoughts off me anytime! this has been an absolute pleasure, looking forward to seeing you in the inbox again whenever you drop by! thank you!! ♡
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calekinnieplus · 1 year ago
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HEYYYYY hi. Didn't have time to read Anything yesterday, but I read like 3 ½ hours today, so YAY! Reached chapter 828.
What happened today, you ask? (No you don't lol)
Well! Gehrman Sparrow proceeded to terrify the Tarot Club members by consistently providing Sequence 5 Beyonder characteristics almost every meeting. Last meeting, he put THREE characteristics on sale. And where did he get them, you ask? (no you don't)
WELL! Alger and Gehrman actually went ahead and explored the primitive island with a lot of rare creatures. And in there, two things of note happened. One was that they discovered Another Card of Blasphemy, Tyrant. Which corresponds to the Lord of Storms. And thanks to that, Alger now knows the Sequence 4 potion formula and the ritual. They also had some good loot there, like Beyonder characteristics.
Second thing was the mural. An ancient mural depicting the ancient sun god, also known as the Creator. And he was supposedly being eaten by the God of Knowledge and Wisdom, the Eternal Blazing Sun and the Lord of Storms. Didn't expect the origin story to be This literal, ngl LMAO
Like, DAMN?? Poor Derrick, after finding out about it from the Tarot Gathering, he was going through an existential crisis or smth. Actually, most of them were in shock. Unsurprisingly. A valid reaction tbh.
Oh, and the way Klein connected the dots from the Twilight Hermit Order to that unique island?? I don't say often enough how SMART he is?? Badass, yes. I say it often, because he genuinely is. But, although I am aware of it and always love that about him, he's so Incredibly Smart!! My boy <33
On another note, Hazel somehow got involved with a demigod from the Marauder pathway? Is that what's going on with her and the sewers?
Another thing! Dwayne Dantès! Even though it's his role now, I haven't mentioned much about him. It's so funny how, even while visibly older, the Rizz Klein has is too good. He's out there charming all the ladies. Wouldn't be surprised if some men, too ;)
Will Auceptin is also closer to being born !! Hehe he's so fun, I like him. It's refreshing in a way. He's such a prankster, a silly, goofy kid. Absolutely adorable.
Oh yeah, Audrey made an off-hand mention- IT'S ONLY BEEN A YEAR? OR ACTUALLY, NOT EVEN A YEAR? I mean, it makes sense. There was just one New Years. But damn, so much happened in a year. Klein advanced from Sequence 9 to 5 in a Goddamn YEAR. Incredible. The other members, too! They're going STRONG!
Welp! I think that's all for today. Actually, I think I'm putting these daily updates on pause. College is starting tomorrow, so I doubt I'll be able to consistently read 4-5 hours per day.
Well, I'll definitely continue reading as I have done until now. I'll continue posting the quotes I want to share, ones that amused me, surprised me, made me think of something. If I Do have a day where I read a lot, I might do an update, to keep things straight. Otherwise, this little habit will stop.
But not the binging, of course. The show must go on >:))
Praise be the Fool!
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