#gd i miss that trip

[terezamylove]

this one's def my song of the year, I'm quite sure I've listened to it at least twice per day every single day of this year

[princeofuchiha]

Core childhood memory I just unlocked when thinking about Fucked Up Kids Stories:

When I was younger. And first started reading fanfic. I was REALLY obsessed with the eeveelutions, as most kids are at some point.

I dedicated hours of my day to running, moderating, and participating in an big group eeveelution roleplay. I bred them aimlessly trying to get a shiny eevee. I had so much eevee fanart downloaded. I listened to so many nightcore covers and animations with the eeveelutions. I was gd obsessed and took in so much eeveelution content. But even years later. One fanfic still vaguely sticks to the back of my mind.

It was. At least to my child brain. The darkest most tragic thing to ever exist. I fully remember reading it going "Oh God Oh Fuck They're Supposed To Be Cute This Can't Happen!"

It was a fanfic where. It started on an eevee breeding farm with the MC and its siblings just. Playing and having a grand time together. Slowly being adopted out one by one with very much "I'll miss you but you're off to a good life big brother :)" energy.

And like. The MC lived their life I thinkkkk on the farm...? But got lost somehow and had to try to make it home...? Something like that. But anyway.

The fic followed the MC running into its siblings as it traveled and seeing what had happen to them. Like. One was with an abusive trainer. One was I think a champion that refused to talk to the MC because they felt they were above them or something. One was in pretty much a dog fighting ring. One was so upsetting I can't even remember it but remember skipping the chapters with that sibling. I think they had a nephew or niece or something they ran into? And they find out that sibling died or something.

Idk I just. Remembered the fic suddenly and was like. Huh. Yeah. Geez. That was a trip.

Gorgeously written by like 11 year old me's standards tho 💀

[encyclopika]

I just got back from an amazing trip to Alaska - t'was a bucket list item and I'm so glad to have gone. We're already planning on going again sometime! It was definitely a great time for filling out our bird lifer lists - saw bald eagles, a murrelett, some new gulls, common mergansers, and Bewick's wren. One of the greatest experiences was hearing a raven call from deep in the forest - it was so haunting. Gotta love goth chicken.

Of course, went to see marine stuff, too - saw humpback whales galore and took time in the west coast tidepools twice. Saw an endangered sunflower sea star and my very first chiton! Even though the tide pools were amazing, I don't think I'd trade away my East Coast tidal areas. It was weird to tell myself not to expect anything large like a horseshoe crab, y'know?

Saw black bears and moose, too!

Now that I'm back, I was hoping to write and publish my next chapter of Escape Artists, BUT! I'm not allowed to have nice things. So by the end of my cruise, some asshole gave me COVID. I've gotten the vaccine and booster, but this is the very first time I'm dealing with the real thing, so I was sick af for my land excursion part of the trip to Denali. I wasn't missing that, so I went on the excursion and saw my gd mountains and the wildlife and I'm glad I didn't let this fucking disease stop me. But now it's been almost a week I've been sick. When I'm feeling better than road kill, I'll get back to writing.

In the meantime, if you wanna follow me on iNaturalist where my husband and I post our photos of wildlife, my user is ama_and_aj . https://www.inaturalist.org/people/ama_and_aj

[pseudofaux]

Pseu! How have you been? What have you been up to lately?

Running AROUND, it feels like! Thank you for asking! Last year I missed the window for the kind of gardening I like to do and it made a crummy season even crummier so this year a bitch MADE TIME and it is going better. I do have to maintain constant gd vigilance against yard bunnies and now a squirrel????? with a taste for seedlings?!?! But chickenwire and I are reacquainting with one another and (literally) setting up a defensive perimeter. This year’s sunflowers will be taken from me only by force. ���� And I finally got raspberries!!!! And @riftings was kind enough to give me ANOTHER healthy cane so I am very excited to harvest those later. Plum trees are going absolutely wild, so much fruit. I hope we get a crop big enough to easily be generous with.

Trying to read more widely, mostly recent stuff but also going back for classics I’ve never read, like Beloved (read in February and it’s still with me nearly every day).

Going to Japan for the CLAMP exhibition— and Sengoku and Bakumatsu stuff, lbr— later this year! It has been very gratifying for that trip to go from “wouldn’t it be nice” to something discussed, to booking flights and lodgings. Aaaaaaaaaa! Baby pseu, you’re doing it!

What’re you up to? I hope you are well! 😚😚

[clawbehavior]

Hello, I hope you are having a lovely day/night 💞🌷🏵️🍵

For the ao3 wrapped:

11,12,15,18

omg these asks led me on a trip down memory lane and made me so excited for my biggest WIP (which has also been a pain in my ass), so tysm for sending them anon ❤️❤️🙏

11. What work took you the longest to write?

hands down 'everything everywhere all at once', my modern au where gaon drops out of law school when his parents die and falls for their private money lender, kyh, against his better instincts. here's the funny thing: i intended to complete in one one week with 3 chapters published in 3 days!! i started it in January 2023, nearly a year ago. 

i love this story so much. i wanted to write a gentle kyh for gaon so badly, but that's difficult to do for canon unless i wrote them post-canon. so i made an angsty au. this story was also my first true foray into FF writing on a03 years and years after i had put content creation aside, and the story ended up becoming a gateway to a totally new side of TDJ fandom. people share so many beautiful ideas about the lawful family in their story comments that fic writing feels like a rich conversation. so many times i have written gahan one way to read somebody's thoughts in the comments and go ahhhh i didn't even think of that. hearing people's perspectives has been such a rewarding and crucial piece of writing bc i am a person who works best when sounding ideas off another. 

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

straight for the heart, lmao. i have three, all 95 per cent ready for publication, in that the story is fully written out and the dialogue is completely polished in some areas but i am missing a key part that's critical for bringing the story together. it's too clunky basically. 

for example, when i was writing 'i hope you are lonely' the sex tape fic, i had everything written except a single scene: i couldn't figure out how gaon publicly responded to the tape. this was a crucial part of the story because his emotion would set the tone for how comfortable he felt expressing sexual desire for yohan and thus the progression of their relationship. was he hurt and afraid? angry and sexually frustrated? wanting revenge or to move on? and how did all those emotions shape what he asked yohan for, a man who would give him whatever he wanted. so this nearly complete draft was sitting in my GD for weeks until a reader asked me when i was updating and while i was typing out everything above just how i wrote it for you some part of my brain suddenly woke up and came up with a solution. i published the fic the next day. 

all this to say that the 3 stories i have lined up for publication are experiencing the same thing. basically polished except for oooooone thing. i need to tease out what a character feels about a specific event to successfully build the tension until it ratchets up to unbearable levels and needs to be released right the fuck now, i.e. theyre going to talk about it or fuck it out or whatever. but until that piece comes to me....these fics remain in the drafts. who knows tho, maybe after this a03 wrapped my ADHD brain will pop back in and do it's darned job. 

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

all of them! i don't publish a multi chap unless i have the ending written. otherwise it stays a oneshot. rn i am excited for i hope you are lonely, elevator troubles, and everything everywhere all at once.

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

isaac! i actually didn't realize this until you asked me in concrete terms, so thanks for helping me articulate the writing block i am having. it's the kang isaac in my money lender au. he does something that has significant consequences but needs plausible deniability for the story to work. i can't nail down why he does it tho. he meddles, and he's foolish and he causes trouble but not vindictively or deliberately. his heart is in the right place, but how do i write him without overly abusing the trope of the good guy who bumbled his way into something wrong? now that i'm asking myself this specific question, i may come up with an answer. 

thinking through this was loads of fun and a perfect way to spend lunch break pfft. you have yourself a good weekend 🎉🎉🥳🎉🎊🎉🥳

[muse-stellium]

𝑻𝒂𝒈 𝟏𝟎 𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓

Favorite color : 🖤💜💙❤️

Song stuck in your head : The tune of "Shooting Stars" by Bag Raiders. All day. Everyday. Get it out lowkey lol.

Last song you listened to : ..If I said "Ballroom Blitz" off of my Halloween playlist already, would you judge me? Lol

3 favorite foods : Raspberries, cotton candy ice cream, cheesecake 💕

Dream trip : I have a fear of flying so too many places lol. Atm tho Duluth is at the top of the list bc I was just there and I didn't stay anywhere near long enough 😔💕

Anything i want rn : Affordable Tekken merch. This gorgeous figure of the Assassin Queen tbh, but the price just keeps going uup gd whyyyy.... ;n;

Tagged by: the lovely @edgymuses welcome back bb!! We missed you!! ;o;💜

Tagging: @ourladyoflight , @teslagravity , @utepliss , @blizzardrush / @unbrydledfury , @asteriskheart / @devilgene and anyone else who would like to do this~

[angelicalbones]

More venting about my ex

This is literally so petty but something that has never stopped bothering me since it happened is when I got the once in a life time chance to see the Sailor Moon stage play here in the US in New York.

I got pretty good tickets, was planning a whole trip to NYC bc I've never been, my ex and I were living in MD so the city was a gd train ride away.

It was happening the month of my birthday and our anniversary so I was so excited

And then February hit and suddenly my ex decided we had no choice but to move. I was going to quit my job and move back to the GD Midwest and had to cancel all of my plans and sell my tickets.

This opportunity has never presented itself again since then and this was almost 6 years ago.

Part of me can't help but feel like he did it on fucking purpose. He couldn't handle me doing something of my own fruition and had to once again take complete control over me financially. Bc I was also fucking broke.

He knew I barely had the money to afford a move. But he didn't care. And he held the money he spent on that move over my head till the end.

Why the fuck did he hate me so much I don't fucking get it.

I feel so fucking conflicted bc he did so many kind and loving things for me. Both emotionally and financially.

But then he held all of those good things against me as ammo. And went out of his way to keep me financially weak. I don't fucking know what the truth is anymore about if he actually loved me. I want to believe he did but I don't fucking know anymore. Did he just take advantage of my inexperience and devotion? Did he truly love me but lost himself to struggles he refused to face?

I don't fucking know and it fucking sucks I still fucking miss him I want to talk to him so god damn bad. I fucking hate this. Starting over at 28 after essentially a god damn divorce has ruined me. I don't know who I am or what I'm ever going to accomplish. I don't know if I can accomplish anything.

I want him and my old life back. I miss my barbie house. I miss his laugh. I miss when he said he loved me. Even if it was a lie he said it so sweetly. I want him to miss me too but I know he fucking doesn't. He's so good at completely severing people from his life if he chooses to do so.

[carmennivis]

Looking for threads!

Ewan 🔥 @optimismxmagicism

The Photo Booth - Just a fun lighthearted thread about Ewan and a friend taking silly pictures together! Preferably someone Ewan is already familiar with, but I’m down for him to make new friends too!

Club rush! - As the founder of the school’s new comedy club, Ewan’s looking for new members! He’ll happily explain (and show!) what they’re all about: making people smile, with the occasional harmless prank here and there…

BOOMS! - you think this little pyromaniac *wouldnt* jump at the chance to play with fireworks? This would be a total shenanigans thread where Ewan’s gonna try his darndest to blow some stuff up himself!

Nils 🪈 (here!)

(Note: He’s a GD so he can participate in other threads too!)

Heavy Armor - Nils loves the ocean, he’d love to take a trip on a boat! Catch him in a particularly good mood and he may just go draconic creature of the depths on any pirates attempting to ruin this wonderful trip~

Club Rush! - Nils is part of performing arts, but no other club has caught his eye quite yet. I’m interested in tackling this prompt with a member of a club looking to recruit him!!

Rat orchestra - Nils is uncomfortably familiar with kidnappings, so these rumors of disappearances definitely disturb him. He wants to find out where the missing students are and who captured them, to keep everyone safe!

Byleth 🕰️ @cendrivinite

Faith prompt (Needs GD!)- A serious thread, I’d like to explore Byleth’s growing interest in the teachings of Seiros, especially when human sacrifices seem to go squarely against everything the Goddess seems to preach. Ideally with a fellow Fodlan muse, or someone else with strong ties to faith, this thread would naturally have a lot of religious themes.

Rat Orchestra - Byleth is responsible for the students, of course he’s going to search for them. I think it would be fun if this thread had a focus on investigating and interrogating, similar to how things happen in game when Flayn goes missing!

[augment-techs]

Okay, here's the deal: this is a long, drawn out thing I had to go through, so the answers are going to be short--unless I want to capitalize on a joke or emotional hurt.

MMPR:

Alive: Kim, Trini, Billy, Aisha, and Adam. Because they're either being saved, or surviving out of spite.

Dead: Jason, Tommy, Zack, and Rocky. Because they're either doing the saving or something stupid happened.

Bonus: Both Bulk and Skull would survive after swimming the entire way to the shore, let's be real here.

Zeo:

Alive: Kat and Tanya because, because, because.

Dead: Trey. All of him :)

Turbo/In Space:

Alive: T.J., Cassie, Zhane, Karone, and all of the Psycho Rangers in the same life boat~

Dead: Andros, Ashley, Carlos.

Bonus: Justin juuuuuuust missed the boat by losing his ticket in a game of cards.

Lost Galaxy:

Alive: Damon, Leo, Maya

Dead: Kendrix, Kai, and Mike all died because they were loading people ONTO the life boats. Or getting locked below deck by assholes.

Lightspeed Rescue:

Alive: Chad and Kelsey and that's it.

Dead: Ryan, Joel, Dana, and Carter; in that exact order, through various unfortunate incidents rather than the whole freezing to death thing.

Time Force:

Alive: Eric, Wes, Trip, Katie, Jen.

Dead: Lucas died getting Nadira into a boat. Alex died because he got knocked unconscious by a panicked crew member below deck.

Wild Force:

Alive: Max and Danny survived on the raft together because Max is the size of a gd teacup and can lay on Danny's chest.

Dead: Cole, Taylor, Alyssa and died trying to save other people--even though the girls would have TOTALLY made it onto the life boats if they'd hauled ass.

Bonus: Shayla was asleep in bed and never woke up. Merrick died running around trying to find her and broke his neck when the ship broke in half and he fell through the air, hitting every piece of debris on the way down.

Ninja Storm:

Alive: Tori and Dustin. But it's not because of romance or what the fuck ever.

Dead: Shane, Hunter, Blake. They all made Tori and Dustin leave, promising they'd catch the next boat--right before the crew members on the life boats drew their guns.

Bonus: Cam and Kanoi were waiting at the harbor in New York, directing emergency services. Marah and Kapri were also on the dock, one circulating food and blankets and one in the nursing tents trying to revive the people that were in bad shape.

Dino Thunder:

Alive: Kira, Ethan, Conner, Trent. They banded together and tied TWO DOORS to each other. Conner basically had to be Mrs. Incredible to secure the doors, but it worked out.

Dead: There is NO way Tommy didn't give his seat on a boat to Hayley with a promise he'd meat her at the shore.

Bonus: Cassidy took a boat to New York a week earlier so she could report on the Titanic's arrival. Devin straight up left his ticket in the wrong jacket and when he heard the news EVERYONE was spooked. Elsa was the one that had to deal with Cassidy freaking out for three days until she got a telegram from Devin via Mr. Mercer's private line.

SPD:

Alive: Jack and Z absolutely survive by determination. Syd lives because she's small and rich and a woman that was lifted onto one of the boats, even if she felt bad about it.

Dead: Sky died standing at the top of the ballroom stairs. Bridge died in the kitchens after a last meal.

Bonus: Boom and Kat were both fucking pissed that Doggie went down with the ship, but Boom was more occupied with trying to keep the passengers on the life boat he was assigned from freaking out--though he was the one that picked up Jack and Z when he heard them blowing a whistle.

Mystic Force:

Alive: Maddie, Vida, Xander, and Chip had to fucking drag Nick into following them into a boat that had been abandoned due to the high probability of it falling apart when he wanted to go back and be a hero. And by drag, really, they had to knock him unconscious and haul his ass along on Xander's back.

Dead: Daggeron and Jenji. Because they kept being heroic and gave their seats to others.

Bonus: Udonna and Leanbow were left behind because they had given the tickets they'd been given as high officials to their son and his friends. Leelee was the one that had to get her mother to telegram them while she, Clare, and Phineas assisted the survivors.

Operation Overdrive:

Alive: Rose, Ronny, Dax, Will and Tyzonn. They're fast, they're clever, they're resourceful.

Dead: Mr. Hartford because he spent the entire time the ship was going down in a fugue state.

Bonus: Mack and Spencer weren't allowed to go with Mr. Hartford because, as he put it, "Someone needs to hold down the fort here when the ship docks and reporters swarm the place asking questions." Ha-ha-ha.

Jungle Fury:

Alive: Theo, Lily, Casey, R.J., Jarrod.

Dead: Dom.

Bonus: Fran and Camille were both waiting on the docks, ready with blankets and warm soup; unwilling to believe that they wouldn't make it.

RPM:

Alive: ALL OF THEM.

Samurai:

Alive: Lauren, Emily, Mia, Antonio.

Dead: Jayden died in the water, giving up his place on the raft for Antonio--because he needed to be put first for once in their relationship. Mike and Kevin tried swimming together for the shore, but ended up freezing together and were found the next day closest to the shore. Ji went down with the ship because it was traditional.

Bonus: Bulk was one of the stewards that got the women and children out, but also made sure some of the men that were young and poor got onto the boats. Spike basically body slammed him in a hug the second he stepped onto the docks.

Megaforce:

Alive: Emma and Jake found their way onto some debris. Noah was dragged onto one of the rescue boats when aid was sent for survivors.

Dead: Gia's boat was overtaken by desperate people that managed to converge on it when the ship went down. She ended up drowning because someone tossed her out and she hit her head. Troy just died because he ended up engrossed in watching the musicians send off each other.

Dino Charge:

Alive: Shelby, Kendall, Koda, Ivan, Tyler.

Dead: Chase and Riley died together in the water trying to keep each other warm. Prince Phillip gave up his seat on a boat to Taku so he could live if there was a chance Koda didn't survive.

Bonus: James was nowhere near anything happening and never heard about the ship until years later. Heckyl was the one that tried to warn about the iceberg on the S.S. Mesaba and was ignored.

Ninja Steel:

Alive: Preston, Hayley, and Calvin somehow made it to land by ending up on a bit of debris that might have been a table from the dining area.

Dead: Brody, Levi and Dane all went down in the captain's quarters so they didn't have to be separated. Mick was locked down below deck with the other "lesser" passengers.

Bonus: Sarah missed the boat because she overslept. Victor and Monty were members of the aids and medical staff at the docks.

Beast Morphers:

Alive: Devon, Blaze, and Roxy lived by pure happenstance of getting rescued by huddling together for warmth and Devon calling out when boats floated in for survivors.

Dead: Ravi wasn't going to leave his mother alone to blame herself as her ship sank; so he didn't. Nate and Zoey didn't make it to either the life boats, or off the ship; they just held hands and focused on each other before the ship broke in half and half they were on rose up, knocking them off into the water.

Bonus: Betty was the one that pulled the trio onto a rescue boat, Ben was the one that helped identify the dead.

Dino/Cosmic Fury:

Alive: Amelia and Aiyon were both forced onto their individuals table and door by Javi and Ollie respectively. Fern and Izzy were forced onto a life boat first thing, even while screaming for their friends to promise they'd be alright.

Dead: Zayto...because he ignored the message about the icebergs and stayed behind after hauling Izzy and Fern onto a life boat. Both Javi and Ollie froze to death, but neither of them sunk to the bottom of the sea because neither Amelia or Aiyon would let them go.

Bonus: Jane and J-Borg covered the tragedy, Jane being a total buzzard with the ship crew that survived, and J-Borg actually lending aid to the survivors.

Boom! Comics:

Alive: Billy, Matt, Jason, Zack, Trini, Adam, Aisha, and Rocky. Because it's fair and also they're my preferred survivors.

Dead: Tommy and Kim die together here, because I make the rules in this scenario and I say they deserve it.

Bonus: Skull tricked a crewman into giving Billy a seat in a life boat and gave his own uniform to Matt so he could be in charge of said boat; both of them being pissed and terrified, but unwilling to stop hugging him once he showed up hours later via a rescue boat, half frozen but unwilling to apologize. Bulk was one of the first at the docks when he heard about the catastrophe and hauled out to save as many people as he could from the black of night to the setting sun of the next day; he only stopped once Jason and Zack found him and made him sit down to drink something, "With us. You're the warmest thing here; much better than the coffee."

Tag game: Which power ranger is/is not surviving the Titanic?

@skyland2703 @lizzardwitch @azurezfiction @themundanemudperson @augment-techs

[pastafossa]

Stumbling and crashing and tripping with various crashes and a Wilhelm scream into your askbox to ask, YOU PLAY BG3????? ISN'T IT GREAT?!?!?!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH AKSHQKXBQ it's been my Focus since December!!! Who's your favorite so far?? How far are you in?? What kind of route are you doing?? Have you discovered any funny loopholes yet?? What race do you favor playing?? I LOVE to hear about other peoples playthroughs,

IT'S GODDAMN AMAZING AND I ALREADY HAVE MULTIPLE PLAYTHROUGHS PLANNED BECAUSE ONCE IS NOOOOT ENOUGH! I AM IN LOVE. Like I know these types of games (I've been a Bioware slut since KOTOR 2, so I looove this genre), and so I feel very confident saying holy shit, BG3 is one of the best! ALSO IT'S HUGE??? INSANELY HUGE??? AND FULL??? I LOVE IT SM.

Oh god favorites are hard, I'm gd attached to all of these little ducklings following my Tav. So far at least, storywise it's SCRATCH HE IS THE BESTEST BOY maaaybe Astarion. I LOVE his arc, his voicework is stunning, (I accidentally killed him with the big monastery laser and his reaction was hysterical) and his quest has been very moving. A close second is KARLACH, MY GIRL, MY FIREY BFF, like damn I HAD my little battle group (Gale + Astarion + Wyll) when I found her but I adore her so much I'm rotating Gale and Wyll to keep her permanently, SHE JUST WANTED A HUG. 😭

I'm in act 3, I just hit the city! I have no idea how but I am also STILL on my first PT after over a month of play. I love to sniff around under every nook and cranny granted, AND YET I STILL MISSED THINGS, IT'S SO BIG???

So far my route has been a chaotic good route! Outside, uh, occasional murdery hiccups goodbye creche but ya'll were assholes I've mostly managed to follow that alignment, and somehow still made friends with Lae? That was unexpected. I thought she hated my Tav's guts before she hit on her. 😂

Hilarious moments: setting off the giant laser at the monastery cause why wouldn't I grab the shiny weapon (sorry Astarion); being instakilled by Vlaakith at said monastery after basically mocking her with 'if you were really a god you'd be able to just kill someone yourself ha ha-splat'; friends telling me to talk to animals so I got excited when I saw a squirrel and ran to talk to it - it proceeded to bite me, then I failed a persuasion roll about being friends and it told me to fuck off; trying to get to that dwarf lady's husband in the Underdark and shooting an arrow at one of the mushrooms in the field he was in, thinking I could clear them one by one to get to him, only to set off a chain reaction that incinerated him and left the entire field a smoking crater (me as the explosions begin: oh, OH, oh no - wait, sir! Sir! Oh you're fine, you're - oh fuck, RUN SIR RU-shit he's dead); placing my druid in rothe/battle cow shape at the top of a ladder and charging whatever bad guy comes up so they fall back down (catchphrase: MOO, BITCH); and finally, I was having trouble with that one boss guy in the goblin camp, the one that sits on the throne. So when I saw I could get to the rafters, I painstakingly dragged every last explosive barrel and grenade I could find into the room and innocently placed them around the throne, then went up to the rafters and had Astarion shoot a fire arrow. I figured I'd at least bring the guy's health down but instead I set off the fourth of july, blasted that guy so hard he bounced around the room like a pinball before his body wound up glitch-stuck halfway through a wall, but hey, dead as a doornail sooo... it worked? Chaotic good alignment: MASTERED. 🤪

I'm playing a half-elf druid CAUSE I CAN BE AN OWLBEAR OR DINOSAUR TO FIGHT. I now have a chance to run around as a dinosaur druid with my 200 yo elf boyfriend, my BFFs, and find random bowls of poutine, this is the BEST GAME EVER. Also hilariously, I didn't check the stats closely and her intelligence wound up quite low, so she is very wise but also dumb as a bag of hammers, I love her, my first Tav is a good-hearted, unintentional bundle of chaos.

[ccliffjumperr]

i hate my internet so much die die die kill

[muirmarie]

i am Thinking (i am scheming)

recovery

strip poker (i mean this is what it says on the tin, tbh. mccoy is so emotional he's actually incredibly hard for kirk to read, meanwhile kirk can read spock like a gd book. spock is solely focused on at least beating mccoy. mccoy isn't playing to win, he's playing to make them lose. rampant cheating is involved.)

golden hour (mccoy gives spock an old camera. spock becomes obsessed w/ being able to capture emotions in the viewfinder that he won't allow himself to say. james t kirk in the golden light of the dawn. you could make a religion out of that.)

vulnerability (*eta - operation annihilate where vulcans don't have a second set of eyelids, and mccoy works himself half to death for three weeks to figure out a way to cure him anyway, and then they all have to deal with the fallout. (this'll probably be the next one)()

sandwich (mccoy is in the middle because i yam who i yam. *eta - this might be a 5+1 space forgetties stories actually tbh. aka 5 times spock and kirk thought they were dating mccoy, and 1 time where mccoy gives in to the inevitable - OR maybe i'll move that to something else and use this for frottage LMAO we'll see idk idk*)

why does janice keep bringing 3 meals to kirk's quarters (this is for NON-sexy reasons initially!! and then it turns out the entire ship is taking bets on when they're going to admit to being in a relationship. they extremely are not. but then they're hyper-aware of how everyone's perceiving them. and then they still aren't. and then they are.)

a fourth wheel (hmmm 4/5(chapel?)+1 one of the rest of the main crew feeling like a fourth wheel on various things. the 1 is when they're all hanging out together and just glad to see the triumvirate happy)

cave(s) (might use the story i'm actually writing right now tbh. alternatively the dubcon all my yesterdays that i've been thinking about. mccoy doesn't want spock like /this/. but he doesn't stop him. doesn't try to stop him. doesn't want to consider the idea that if he tried to stop him, he might not be able to. doesn't know how they could walk away from that. far better not to try.)

mccoy makes breakfast (eh probably self-explanatory - *eta - i know what i'm doing w/ this. bones can never tell jim no.*)

late night walk (i have been on too many late night walks to not have a sketch of an emotion for this.)

chained to the bed (...mccoy is going to be the one chained. but proooobably in a. hmm. in a less than friendly situation. and then rescued. i don't have a plot for this, i just know who i am.)

scotty doesn't know (i mean honestly the comedy of scotty just being like "love hanging out with the guys" while the guys keep smooching and he keeps missing it entirely? writes itself. [narrator: it did not write itself])

free space (is that gonna be the spock & mccoy can hear each other's thoughts story??? all signs point to yes. this one will be long.)

bdsm (mccoy does NOT want to hurt kirk, and it's spock who has to kind of sit him down and be like. remember how you're so big on releasing emotions? have you considered this is what jim needs help with? and mccoy genuinely turning out to to be the best, most loving dom? and GENERALLY spock is just. chillin. supportively. but then one time he. needs. it as well. i have never written anything like this before, but i think i can swing it.)

flexibility (*eta - ummm mccoy is mistaken for a courtesan (a highly respected profession on this planet) and due to translation hijinks this isn't discovered right away, so there's some shenanigans, meanwhile mccoy is living his best life getting makeup tips and teaching the planet's courtesans yoga (which is where the prompt comes in lmao))

create or destroy - obsessed w/ this, have no idea what i'm gonna do with it tho (*eta - another one that might be too ambitious for my skill, lmao, but (read the tags): the triumvirate teaches a planet what it means to be alive)

war (*eta - some thoughts here*)

justice (something something the justice tarot card. something something the balance of the scales. something probably sketching the outline but only in relief. something something group character study)

rager (lmao hell yeah. make that vulcan do a keg stand!!!! idk i'll figure this out)

time loop (mccoy dies and kirk breaks his hand on a wall. kirk dies to save mccoy and mccoy breaks his hand on spock's face for not stopping him. spock dies, and he doesn't have to see what happens next, because the day resets. the day keeps resetting. mccoy keeps dying.) (time loops my genuine beloveds)

planet vulcan (*eta - tentatively thinking a sequel to it ends or it doesn't, where they do take their trip to vulcan, both for shore leave AND to pick up ambassador sarek and amanda to bring them to [spoiler for the original fic] for talks - and fyi [spoiler] was RIGHT he IS gonna be [spoiler]*)

hayride (i bet there's a corn maze, too. i bet jim gets hay fever. i bet bones keeps teasing spock about bobbing for apples, and then to his surprise spock actually does it, and mccoy takes one look at spock's damp hair and stretched mouth and throat bobbing as he swallows, and just about dies. kirk is EXTREMELY handsy w/ both of them on the hayride (he's a little drugged up from the meds re: the hayfever). they somehow convince mccoy to get his face painted. there is some sort of game of skill/chance and spock wins them both a small stuffed toy.)

going to a banquet (*eta - actually this has to be tarsus iv related, doesn't it??? yeah.* - actually wait this could maybe be a sequel to 'do you love your neighbor' - i've said before i think a sequel where the crew of the avery gets to be big damn heroes could be fun, and having them at a banquet with mccoy is just......yeah - yeah you get me*)

sun dog (oooof two halos of reflected sunlight on either side of the sun?????? you give this to me???? you give me james t kirk as the sun and his two best friends on either side of him??? mythology, maybe. space mythology. the stories they tell of you when you're dead. the ways you survive. the ways you don't survive but your story does. your love does. the story of your love. it survives.)

caretaking (if i don't find a way to make this h/c with a hurt bones then truly what am i even doing here. taking care of the caretaker. that's the stuff. - *eta actually i might make this that (inherent consent issues, mccoy/everyone, mccoy/spock/kirk) mccoy gets a magical healing cock one tbh. maybe not tho since even tho it ends triumvirate it really is a love letter to bones/everyone. we'll see*)

Here's your updated Mcspirk Bingo Card! Please don't forget to tag the blog in any creations you post. :)

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Thank you again for doing this!

[loumauve]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

kay. different songs for you (thank fuck for more than one person sending me this ask bc I would have died narrowing it down to only five)

The One I Love - Greg Laswell

Clearest Blue - CHVRCHES

Challengers - The New Pornographers

How You Survived The War - The Weepies

Graceland Too - Phoebe Bridgers

Bonus: Humane - Lacuna Coil

[3minutehug]

mr marwan kenzari was in my dream y'aaaaall 🥰

[loosesodamarble]

Yaaaaay! Discordia content~!

In the times before she was Helheim... But very close to when she married.

Waaaaah! I still wish Discordia had gotten the chance to marry for love! But such freedom wasn't hers because her parents were apparently the worst. 😭

But at least Discordia gets a lot of sweet benefits from the deal (and eventually the cutest widdle Harmonia akdhfaiusrhtiahst! 💖 EVENTUALLY!).

KAHFIAEUh! Nacht being "disappointment" to Discordia! 🤣 And he fires back with "regret." Ladies, ladies! You're both beautiful! But Josele's right. While snarky remarks might not be normal for close, loving families, it is the normal for Nacht and Discordia. 😌

I can’t believe that Discordia was banned from the Magic Knights! 😭 Women in the MK isn’t new but Dia’s parents are just so controlling! She could’ve been a GD with Morgen and Josele! It would’ve been so much fun! Discordia could’ve teased Nacht about spending more time with Joey!

Fun and freedom was robbed from Discordia!

But at least she gets the sweetest cousin in the form of Morgen! 🥺💖 And she’s got a friend/sister figure in Josele (I’m so glad that Josele and Discordia can be friends 💖).

Daaaaaw! Josele is the first to show concern for Dia and her quietness. 🥺🥺🥺👏😭 Josele is the sweet and doting friend who wants to be there for everyone else. Thank you for getting that about her.

Dropping the bomb just like that! And the room falls silent. You know, before Nacht cuts the tension with a bad joke. 🙄 Most people would be the ones to pay to be with Discordia, you fool!

Josele just clocking the guy that Dia’s gonna marry. And when did she chance upon Moros and Discordia together? 🤔 Josele… Wanna share with the class how you know Dia was hanging with a dude? Spying on your fiance’s cousin or something? 🤨/lh+j

AKDBXIWYSIQJSBXUWKWBDH!

Gods of course Nacht, Morgen, and Josele would be bowled over by Discordia marrying a guy she’s only known for a month. It’s a marriage of convenience but it’s still happening so quickly! None of them know what to say!

Well actually Josele knows what to say. That being “Discordia! There has to be another way! 😭 We can help you!” Josele ain’t losing her closest gal pal to a foreign prince! Except she is. Because Dia leaves tomorrow. And there's nothing anyone can do about it.

But Josele ain't gonna let Discordia go away feeling sad! Oh no no no! Her last night in Clover will be one of celebration! Honestly, she'd probably even insist on paying for the shopping trip and dinner despite the Fausts being, you know nobility and thus having more money. Josele's silly like that. 😆 And probably the main reason Discordia, Nacht, and Morgen can't argue with Josele on this specific topic is because, well, Flimsy Fausts vs. Brawny Canty is gonna go in Josele's favor. 🤣

I love the image of Josele chivalrously offering her arm to Discordia as they walk together! Khfiausht! Lady knight Josele is just a vibe! I love it!

Ida mention! Of course Ida should get a gift to remember Discordia by. But I cannot believe Nacht is arguing with Discordia, a bride-to-be and future queen! Not a good look, man! 😬😂 Everybody should be glad that Morgen and Josele were there to break up the fight and prevent any bloodshed (aside from Discordia's magic of course).

Morgen seeing through Nacht this one time! 👀 He knows that Nacht's gonna miss Discordia! They may squabble but they're still family. And gosh Nacht really is concerned because Discordia had to make such a big leap to get away from her parents and House Faust! AAAAHHHHH! 😭

KJAHFAIUET! NACHT! Don't tell Morgen you hate him just because he's right! 🗞 This man I swear! 🙄 Just say you love your family already, stupid. (You know, before you lose more of them./lh)

GRRRAAAAAAUUUUUUGGGGHHHH! THAT LAST LINE, LYRA! HOW FREAKING DARE YOU! WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU INCLUDE THAT OMINOUS LINE! WAAAAAAHHHHH! 😭

Honestly just a fun and sweet read. Getting a little insight on the dynamic that Discordia has with her cousins and with Josele. 🥺 I love them all very much, your honor.

Three Fausts and a Canty

Hi guys! This is a little oneshot I wrote a few days ago, it’s mostly based around my OC Discordia Faust-Helheim and her cousins Nacht and Morgen, and Morgen’s fiancé Josele Canty (who belongs to the lovely @loosesodamarble ) there is also a brief mention of Ida Faust who belongs to @marune2 😁! I hope you all enjoy~!

Word Count: 2,192

Warnings: None

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Discordia quietly shut her suitcase as she finished packing her things. Today would be her final day in House Faust and in the Clover Kingdom. She was betrothed to the future king of Lumi, a small kingdom on the other side of Spade. She had never heard of it before, and from what she had gathered neither had anyone else.

So why exactly was she being betrothed to a man she had only met a handful of times and who belonged to a kingdom she had never heard of? The answer was simple:

He wanted a wife, she wanted power.

It was a win-win for both of them. He would have a beautiful, smart, and noble wife, and she would have the power of the throne, a handsome husband, and could go out to see the world.

So the two entered a contract marriage. One that was purely transactional and completely void of love.

Discordia heard the door to House Faust open and voices float in before the door closed. She at first thought it was her mother and father, but as she walked out of the room and towards the stairs she realized the voices weren’t that of her parents. Rather, they were voices of people she enjoyed spending time with way more than her parents. It was her cousins Morgen and Nacht, and Morgen’s Fiancé Josele.

Discordia walked down the stairs and rounded the corner to see Nacht sitting by the window, smoking a cigarette, and Morgen and Josele sitting on the couch together.

“ Hello Morgen, Joey, and disappointment.” Discordia said as she walked into the common room and walked over to a chair and sat down.

“ Hello regret, you’re looking extra bitter this afternoon.” Nacht said before he took a drag of his cigarette, Discordia made a ‘hmph’ sound as she turned to look at him.

“ And you look even more ineffectual than usual, dear cousin.” Discordia retorted with a small smirk as she crossed her arms.

“ Can you two at least try to be normal for once?” Morgen asked with an exasperated sigh, and the two quickly snapped their heads in his direction.

“ This isn’t normal?” They asked in unison, causing Morgen to sigh as Josele laughed.

“ Morgen, I think this is normal for those two.” Josele said softly as she leaned her head on his shoulder, Morgen shook his head as he wrapped an arm around her waist. Nacht rolled his eyes before turning to look out the window.

The group chatted for a little bit. Morgen and Josele talked about their day and how uneventful it was in the Grey Deer squad, while Nacht listened and occasionally gave his two-cents, but Discordia couldn't help but feel a little jealous as she listened to them all chattering away. The trio got to go all over the country and almost do whatever they wanted. Morgen and Josele because they were Magic Knights, and Nacht because, well, he just didn’t care what his family said and he did whatever he wanted. Unlike Discordia who was forbidden from joining the Magic Knights and was told to stay inside and study. She hated it, but couldn’t force herself to disobey her parents and incur their wrath.

She was the eldest of the children, so she was expected to lead House Faust and take over the Summoning of devils and the use of Forbidden magic. But after Nacht and Morgen were born, any power that she held was immediately stripped away from her. All because she was a girl.

But she couldn’t be angry at her cousins, well, at one of her cousins anyway. She was angry at Nacht since he was made the next head of House despite being 2 months younger than her, but Morgen…she couldn’t be angry at him. Maybe it was because his personality was the opposite of her and Nacht’s, or maybe it was because of how he always smiled and tried to make her see the positives in life.

And his fiancé Josele, well, she was amazing in her own right. Discordia was a little unsure when she first met the young woman, but she quickly changed her tune after she noticed how much Morgen smiled around Josele. How she made him light up and shine brightly, and how he couldn’t take his eyes off of her the entire evening. She made him happy, and that made Discordia happy.

Discordia had always wanted a sister, and she couldn’t imagine a more perfect one than Josele.

“ Dia…are you okay?” Discordia was immediately pulled out of her thoughts by Josele’s concerned voice.

“ Hm? Oh, I’m fine. I just got lost in thought.” Discordia mumbled as she turned to look at her concerned friend.

“ Too bad you couldn’t have just stayed lost.” Nacht mumbled, and before Discordia could respond Josele quickly asked another question.

“ What were you thinking about?” Discordia let out a soft sigh as she uncrossed her arms and propped her chin up in her hand.

“ Just…about how much we’ve all changed through the years, and how we’ll continue to change until we become completely different versions of ourselves.” Discordia muttered softly as she stared into the empty fireplace that was beside her chair. Morgen, Nacht, and Josele all looked at her in confusion.

“ I’m getting married.”

The room went silent. Josele, Morgen, and Nacht stared at her for a moment before looking at each other and looking back at her.

“ You’re…getting married?” Morgen asked in surprise and Discordia nodded.

“ That’s correct.”

“ And who’s the poor sucker? And how much did your parents pay to get him to take you off their hands?” Nacht asked as he put his cigarette out and walked over to the group.

“ My parents paid him as much as your parents paid your non-existent girlfriend to date you.” Discordia told him with a slight roll of her eyes.

“ Wait…are you marrying the guy I saw you with a couple of weeks ago? The one with ash-blonde hair and hazel eyes?” Josele asked curiously as she sat up and leaned in closer to Discordia, who only nodded.

“ ‘Guy’? What guy? Who is he?” Morgen asked as he looked between his fiancé and cousin.

“ He’s…the future King of Lumi. His name is Moros Helheim.��� Discordia said reluctantly as she crossed her arms again and leaned back in the chair.

“ ‘Lumi’? Where on earth is that?” Nacht asked with a frown as he tried to rack his brain.

“ It’s a kingdom on the other side of Spade. It’s small and mostly deals in fur and wood trade since it’s almost always surrounded by snow and ice.” Morgen said as he looked towards his twin. “ But how did you even meet this guy? And how long have you known him?” Morgen asked as he turned to look at Discordia again.

“ We met by chance in town. As far as how long I’ve known him it’s been about…a month?” Discordia said as she looked in thought for a moment. Nacht, Josele, and Morgen’s jaws dropped.

“ A month?!” The three shouted in disbelief, she had only known this man a month and was already marrying him? Was she insane?!

“ Don’t worry, it’s only a contract marriage. But that’s all I can tell you.” Discordia told them with a small smile, but that didn’t ease their worries at all.

Josele quickly stood up, walked over to where Discordia was sitting, and crouched down in front of her before taking her hands.

“ Dia…are you sure this is what you want? I mean, if you’re in trouble we can always figure out some other way to get you out of here? You don’t have to run off to another kingdom and get married to a man you don’t love to escape from this place!” Josele told her friend kindly as she squeezed her hands gently. She knew better than anyone what it was like to feel trapped in a life you didn’t want, how hard it was to break free from that and do what you love and be with someone you loved, and she knew how desperately Discordia wanted to escape House Faust.

The darker haired woman squeezed Josele’s hands back gently before giving her a gentle smile and patting her head.

“ I’m sure, Joey. Besides, I wouldn’t be allowed to marry a person I loved anyway unless they were beneficial in some way to House Faust so…this is the next best thing. Also at least Moros is handsome, and is someone I chose instead of one my parents chose.” Discordia said with a small laugh and Nacht scoffed.

“ Geez, is this really something to laugh about?” He muttered under his breath and Morgen smiled a bit.

“ See? You do care about Discordia, even if you two fight like a couple of children.” Morgen said under his breath so only his twin could hear, who scoffed again and rolled his eyes in response.

“ When do you leave?” Morgen asked and Discordia looked from Josele to Morgen.

“ Tomorrow morning. It’ll be a long trip from here to Lumi, so we’ll have to stop in Spade overnight beforehand though.” Discordia said and Josele jumped up causing the three Fausts to jump back in surprise.

“ Then tonight we’re gonna give you the best send-off that we can! We’re going to go shopping, and then we’re going to have dinner at Dia’s favorite restaurant!” Josele said with a firm nod and with no room for arguing, the Fausts looked at each other for a moment before they let out defeated sighs.

There was no room for arguing when Josele put her mind to something.

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The small group left House Faust and quickly flew into town on their brooms. As soon as they landed Discordia linked arms with Josele and the two walked a little in front of Morgen and Nacht. They looked at dresses, jewelry, and weapons while Nacht and Morgen stood back and watched. After a few minutes of shopping Morgen and Josele walked away for some alone time, thus leaving Nacht and Discordia alone.

That lasted all of five minutes.

When Morgen and Josele began looking for Nacht and Discordia they found them with a small group surrounding them. The two were shouting and arguing over what gifts to get Ida, Nacht and Morgen’s little sister, and after politely disagreeing with each other for a while they began to argue and shout. Going almost as far as using their Shadow and Blood magic. But luckily Morgen and Josele got there just in time to break it up.

As the sun began to set and the four of them began to walk towards their brooms to head home, Nacht and Morgen were once again slightly behind Discordia and Josele.

“ Y’know…I’m sad that Discordia is leaving.” Morgen said as he watched his fiancé and cousin laugh and talk amongst each other, Nacht scoffed.

“ Well I’m not. I’m glad she’s leaving. It’s one less pain in my ass.” Nacht said as he crossed his arms, Morgen cut him a look. “ What?”

“ You and I both know that isn’t true. Sure Discordia is a pain in your butt, but I also know you’re not actually happy that she’s leaving either. You’ll be sad and miss her once she leaves.” Morgen said and Nacht rolled his eyes and a tinge of pink appeared on his cheeks.

Sure he and Discordia fought and argued a lot. But that didn’t mean the two didn’t care about each other. They were family, and were as close as siblings despite only being cousins. Nacht let a soft sigh escape his lips. Morgen suddenly made a humming noise.

“ I’m also sad that she had to resort to this in order to be free from her parents, and free from the House. There…should have been a better way.” Morgen said softly, and Nacht laughed humorlessly.

“ ‘Free’? You call signing a contract and marrying a total stranger free? How in the hell is that any more free than just staying here and doing the same thing?” Nacht asked his twin, who only smiled in response.

“ Because she’s doing it on her terms. You see, Discordia was right, her parents wouldn’t let her marry just anyone. So instead of waiting and letting them choose her would-be husband, she took the bull by the horns and did it herself. And knowing her, she didn’t make this decision lightly. She most likely weighed the pro’s and con’s of the contract marriage and concluded that the benefits outweighed the disadvantages.” Morgen said as he looked at his twin.

Discordia was a very intelligent woman, so if she came to the conclusion that this contract marriage was of the utmost benefit to her then she wouldn’t hesitate to agree to it. So…the family would just have to trust her.

“ I hate you.” Nacht muttered knowing his twin was right, and Morgen only laughed.

“ Hey you two hurry up! Let’s go home!” Josele shouted as she and Discordia turned to look at the twins.

The brothers smiled before quickly catching up with the young women to head home.

This would be the last time the four of them were together.

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Thank you all so much for reading and I hope you all have a good day 🥰!

[rothjuje]

It’s snowing and I missed it so much I didn’t even mind shoveling the drive for an hour to get my car back up. It’s February break and I’ve been trapped inside with 3 sick and whiney kids and I felt like if I didn’t get out tonight I would go insane. And I needed groceries and a family sled from Target. In hindsight, yes, I should not have gone. But also I have like a week’s experience of driving in the snow and I didn’t realize how quickly snow can fall, it’s been so hit or miss if it even sticks on the road.

I also learned that plows don’t come by past 9 pm (everything here closes between 8 and 9). So, that was fun. The last 10 minutes of my drive were like driving in a snow globe, I don’t even understand how the Honda civic made it honestly. At one point I thought, ‘my Gd, they’re going to find me frozen to death on the side of the road with my car full of Target bags, what an embarrassing way to go.’

But I made it! And learned lots of lessons, most important being don’t be an idiot and drive during a snowstorm.

It was snowing so fast that in the 30 minutes it took to shovel the fresh drive the majority of it was completely covered again by the end. I tried to drive up and nope. I had to shovel 10 feet quickly, drive 10 feet, shovel 10 feet quickly, drive 10 feet etc. Definitely the most I’ve ever seen it snow in my entire life.

Yes yes I know, I need to figure out the damn snowblower. But shoveling is so fun and great exercise. I downloaded Spotify and finally opened my ear bud knockoffs and it was a party. I feel like I’ve joined the 21st century haha.

Anyway. I had chest pain for two months (squeezing and pressure) and was pretty sure I was going to die of a heart attack. I finally saw a doctor about it and got my labs back and I think it was just unrelated pericarditis (doctor thinks it was from the Pfizer bivalent I got in early December, I never had an issue with the J&J or Moderna though). My labs came back with slight anemia and high cholesterol. I need to get better about taking iron and making healthy choices. I am thinking about doing a complete household diet overhaul, I hate feeling like I’m feeding my kids junk.

I’ve started taking evening power walks with my neighbor and it’s the best, but I think I need more cardio. I still plan on getting the treadmill once we figure out the flooring situation in the basement (we have a credit with Home Depot we’re sorting out). I miss running. A lot. And treadmill running is my favorite kind of running. I was thinking about maybe doing another half marathon because then I would be forced to train, but I keep remembering mile 10 and my legs afterward.

I ask Alyssa what she wants to be when she grows up on a weekly basis. First it was a cat, and then for a year it was a firefighter, for 6 months a nurse, then she wanted to be a mommy, then she wanted to be JoJo Siwa. I asked her the other day and she said “I’ve been thinking about this mom. I want to be a chef. For real.” I believe it, she’s a picky eater for sure but she loves to try new things, and oddly she likes spices. And she loves to cook and bake. I want to encourage her interest because I think it will help her become a better eater and just because that’s such a perfect and unique passion. I will miss her JoJo Siwa days though, she is such a performer.

Justin leaves Saturday for an international trip. It feels like he just got back from his last work trip. He’s going to be gone a full seven days. Inconveniently, it’s supposed to snow several times next week. I need to unbox the snowblower before he leaves, I won’t be able to leave the kids to shovel. I want to park the car at the bottom of the driveway but Justin is worried that it will get hit by a snow plow (really?) or that it will roll down because of ice (the bottom of our driveway is still a hill). Hmmmm.