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floorpancakes · 29 days ago
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ok but like we pretty much know the forms that doumeki's sort of protective possessiveness takes in great detail but you Know he would do that pleasantly surprised eyes wide open face when watanuki asserts himself like that for the first time....it would be so fucking cute because watanuki would say some random shit to the tune of 'thats MY man not yours' and not realise it until like five minutes later and his face would go up in flames and he would start being like. don't perceive me
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approximately7birds · 2 years ago
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the one and only eridan ampora ! what a freak <333 ft. some whiteboard erisols that i drew in april lol
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everythingwasnormalhere · 10 months ago
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TFBW x OOUIL x Cartman's DID
yay or nay?
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welcometogrouchland · 2 years ago
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*twirling my hair* do you like cassandra cain? if not, do u have a moment to hear about our lord and saviour cassandra cain?
CASSANDRA CAIN MY LOVE!!! She's definitely the batgirl I've read the most in terms of full issues, the first 30-ish issues of her solo by Kelly Puckett Scott Peterson and Damion Scott had me hooked and I binged them but fell off after Horrocks came on (nothing against him, he was just given an editorial mandate to make the book more romance focused and it turned me off because it felt so ooc for Cass to me lol. I do own some of the issues he wrote tho! I like the ones with art by Rick Leonardi). I'm not really caught up with modern comics (ish??) And I'm not reading anything dedicatedly but I hear she's in a new original book teaming up with a magic user? Neat! Good for her. I love her in the shadow of the batgirl graphic novel (IT'S SO GOOD)
#ramblings of a lunatic#asks#^ sorry had to be tistic about things for a minute#i loved damion scotts artwork for her solo series sm (especially the later moee stylized stuff even though i recognise how bonkers-#-the proportions are i can't help myself. i like women and i love stylised art like that)#his stuff was surprisingly influential on my own art. idk how much it shows these days but It's There#this hasn't mentioned anything about what i love about cass as a character but like. it's the same as most people who love her man#i love her self destructive dedication to redemption i love the guilt she's saddled with-#-and how it's juxtaposed with her committment to kindness and justice i love how she's the fucking best and she knows it#i love how the relationship between her and oracle was an intergenerational mentorship between two disabled women#and her gay ass bond with stephanie (who in all fairness may be my fav batgirl???-#-but I've also read wayyy less complete issues of her compared to cass due to the differences in how their respective series' are-#-formatted but like. what i have seen i tend to love. i love u stephanie)#but also dear god i do not wanna get reeled back in because nothing the industry ever does will please me the way the ideas in my head do#and I'm constantly at war with myself reading stuff#also it's just hard to get back in when you've been gone with a while it's all just very difficult#but i am rotating cass and stephanie in my brain like a microwave waiting for someone to explode#plenty of people smarter than me have already said this but cass should team up with jason and they should both seethe#he wants to kill. she keeps breaking his bones if he tries it. they're both brushing each others philosophies off bc of where they exist-#-on the batfamily ''kill/no kill'' binary even though they share similarities of wanting to be batman but Better#(jason via controlling crime and killing criminals and her with her ultimate dedication to the symbol and superior combat skills)#(also keep in mind i just watched utrh but haven't read a rhato comic in yonks. so if this is an outdated jason characterization+#-then whoopsie <3)#Jason's dedicated to pushing buttons and poking holes in batmans philosophy and cass is great at reading ppl-#-and sometimes in her series she then performs a limited psychoanalysis of them and tears them apart#(at least she did for shiva) I'd love to see her do that to jason. break him so i can tape his sad lil ass back together#this is getting away from me. anyway no need to proselytise. I'm a former alter boy round here
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shentheauthor · 7 months ago
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Fuck it, I’m bored. Nine sols gender/sexuality headcanons.
Kuafu: Gay cis man. I adore him. Look at him. He’s not subtle. He says jiequan, who literally walks around half naked, is “stylish.” I know what you are.
Goumang: She gives trans lesbian vibes. I also adore her. Free my girl, I could fix her
Yanlao: Homophobic /j. Nah fr tho, I think he’s a cis het man, but like, he isn’t gonna be homophobic or transphobic. I don’t think Penglai has that kind of thing. Grandpa is an ally, yay
Jiequan: That is a GAY MAN. Trans maybe? I haven’t decided, but what I do know is he is GAY. Look at how he talks to Yi. He’s gay and down horrendous and needs some therapy PRONTO. “Gay people who cannot be in a healthy relationship because they suck so bad” representation
Lady Ethereal: Bisexual demigirl, she/they! Also I hate that they didn’t let her keep her original name in the EN version. Fu Die is pretty!!! Dammit!!! But yea Lady E gives me strong bisexual vibes. She also had a thing for Yi. EDIT: SHE CANONICALLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN LETS GOOOOO THE BISEXUALS ARE WINNING
Fuxi: Listen. Listen. He and Nuwa are identical twins. ONE of them bitches is trans. To me, it’s Fuxi. Trans man Fuxi is real to me. No clue what’s going on with his sexuality, and frankly, I don’t wanna know
Nuwa: I think she’d fw neopronouns. Her gender is a mess, and she wouldn’t really care to define it. Rotating her around in my brain. As for sexuality, same as Fuxi
Ji: Agender, he/they, and bisexual. The devs wanted him to be agender/nonbinary and I am CLINGING to that. They’re real to me. Also I think they and Jietong had a thing. I won’t elaborate.
Eigong: cis lesbian with every mental illness, banned from all public spaces. She gives old, wise queer energy until you dig deeper into her personality and see oh, she needs to be on some kind of list. Kind of iconic, ngl.
Yi: arospec/aspec, probably agender, but he has a job so he doesn’t care about that shit rn. He/him because that’s generally what people default to. Would not touch jiequan with a ten foot pole. Could have potentially had a thing with Lady Ethereal had everything not gone to absolute shit.
Heng: same as Yi lmao. Genuinely. They’re the AAA siblings
Shennong: Pansexual. Considers himself cis, but there’s definitely something else going on there. He doesn’t want to unpack that. Frankly, he is valid.
Bonus:
Chien: Trans girl
Shanhai 9000: gender is a solarian concept it doesn’t give a flying fuck about (it/its pronouns). Same with sexuality.
Abacus: also doesn’t care about gender or sexuality, but he will accept whatever pronouns. It’s whatever to him.
Shuanshuan: Intersex! Might grow up to be queer, but honestly, he’s just a baby rn. I’m not about to go in depth there
Chiyou: finds the concept of gender fascinating, chose he/him pronouns because he liked how they sounded. So what I’m getting at is: trans Chiyou
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kaikeroseno · 2 months ago
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I have gay people (RookVil) rotating in my brain and I can't sleep, send help
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pingobeshifting · 6 months ago
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Hey :D You should tell us about your DC dr, because it sounds cool! Does it follow canon, or did you change anything? How are you surviving Gotham life?
(you're asking me about my batfam dr? I've waited years for someone to ask me about my batfam dr-)
Hello! thank you so much<3 (I worked hard on it lol-)
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I made this dr because I really loved batfam and their dynamics, though my interest in them slowly focused on two members, mostly Jason Todd. as I went forward I started to feel a deep connection with him, and somewhere down the line, that connection turned into kinship. so yeah I have an older brother now lolol.
In my dr I mostly live with Jason in his apartment but we visit the manor frequently. (I just know that dinner there would be so fun•○•)
I'm not a vigilante like the fam, and I don't have a team, but I help out whenever I can as a civilian because compared to the rest of them, my identity is unknown amd under the radar.
How I ended up in gotham is seriously too long to add here, but let's just say there were a lot of portals.
To answer your questions:
It more or less follows canon but I scripted that "all the awful writings of dc comics that I don't like won't happen". I won't get into detail but let's just say the batfamily hurt eachother a lot less and are on better terms.
And about gotham life, let's just say I changed some things so that I can survive😀 (for example the joker had a brain damage and is being taken care of in arkham so no breakouts and ruining people's lifes for him anymore. I also scripted the pollution out because who wants to live in a polluted city? air is fresh and water is as clear as my future there lmao)
tbh I think one of the highlights of my dr is my friend group, I love them very much djspekdksjs-
you didn't ask but I'll introduce them rq:
Zendaya(bestie, daya for short), kyouka(ex bestie, daya's bf, time traveler), Duke(🤭), Cullen(lil puppy), Izzy(but into CARS) and lastly, Aleks(gay golden retriever). don't ask how it all happened but let's just say I was rotating them blorbos around my head a lot...
I was thinking of doing an incorrect style post of my friend group, what do ya think?
also sorry for the super long delay. I wasn't feeling good and I also got the flu so I was busy>–< I hope you understand<3
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keikuri · 5 months ago
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ive never gotten why people like transformers until i watched One holy shit these gay robots are gonna rotate in my brain for a long fucking time
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yours-etc · 8 months ago
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wiggly worm wednesday 🪱
shout out to @someforeignband for encouraging this brain worm madness
(don’t know if i’ve posted anything from this yet so if i have pretend like it’s the first time you’re seeing it 🫶)
here’s a moment from my Twister / Storm Chaser AU
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Robin was full of questions when he got home. Steve debriefs the whole interview, conversation, whatever it was.
“Eddie sounds hot,” she says halfway through, “and that's coming from me, a capital L Lesbian, I don’t know how you survived.”
Neither does Steve, to be honest. He’s known he’s gay since Nancy broke up with his senior year. Being with girls in a more intimate way just seemed like a chore to him, Steve just thought that’s how everyone felt. That was until Nacy screamed in his face about how obvious it was he never enjoyed being with her like that, how he needed to get checked out medically because any guy would ruin his own pants just to feel her up behind the bleachers. And yeah, so maybe Steve never really understood why his friends were so obsessed with their girlfriends until he and Tommy drunkenly made out on graduation night and Steve saw stars when Tommy started making breathy sounds and grabbing Steve in ways that made him feel light as a feather and heavy as a brick at the same time. And, yeah, they never spoke about it again.
“Yeah well, I’m not trying to get into something right now Robs, especially not with my much older new boss.”
Robin lets out an exasperated sigh, “Steve you are no fun! Just because you don’t want to buy does not mean you cannot window shop. A daily dose of eye candy is good for the soul.”
So Steve has a small, tiny, minuscule crush that's not even a crush on Eddie. He’s attractive and he clearly knows it. Steve is sure everyone in this town has Eddie on their hall pass list.
What didn’t help this budding crush that's not a crush was Eddie showing up on his doorstep at one in the morning about a week later.
“Hiya Steve, time to go, A big storm forming a few hours away, If we speed we can make it in time before any rotation starts,” He says quickly, letting himself into the apartment.
He was in a cut-up Dio shirt that stopped just below his belly button and showed off his muscular arms. His worn jeans sat on his hips perfectly creating a perfect peek-a-boo for Eddie’s happy trail. And oh and Eddie now had thick and heavy rings on that made his hands look so much… more. Steve had to take a deep breath and force his eyes to stay up.
This is just embarrassing he thought to himself You’re not fucking thirteen Steve get it together.
Eddie’s eyes rake over him darkly. Steve looks down at himself suddenly very aware of only being in a pair of boxers and he turns around without a word and goes to his room to change. When he reappears he sees Eddie standing in the middle of the living room looking around like he’s afraid to break anything.
“So how’d you know which apartment was mine?” Steve asks.
The older man turns to look at Steve, now properly dressed “Steve, it’s not too many people moving in, just had to ask the night shift front desk what room ‘the new kids’ lived in,” he says with a sly smile, “and I happen to know Tracy personally so it wasn’t difficult to get her to give up the information that she definitely definitely should not just be handing out.”
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I want to see everyone’s worms!! YES EVEN YOURS! if you see this you’re tagged 🫵
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rollypoliesonarock · 2 years ago
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No one asked, but here's a vest tour! I've added a bunch since I last talked about it here, so here's the update!
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Here's the full front and back
Most of this I made myself. The patches were mostly made by hand embroidery (anything machine done was probably given to me as a gift), with the exception of a couple that were just markers on white fabric.
Under the decorative patches is also a layer of random fabric patches, mostly from leftover projects scrap fabric, or old clothes I didn't know what to do with.
There's also some random paint splashes in green and red, and a ton of pop tabs and safety pins thrown around in empty spaces.
The pins I made were made from painted bottle caps, and held on with a pop tab and safety pin combo, with the edges of the bottle cap bent to hold it in place
The vest itself I got from a family member's friend, and said family member didn't want it. So she gave it to me to put patches on. I used it as a formal jacket for a year, but I didn't like how the sleeves felt, so I cut them off and ended up putting patches on it anyway. I've been working on this vest since last January, but many of the patches and stuff were transferred from my old jacket that I have other plans for, but that's for a different post.
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Inside, plus the snack pouch
so much white embroidery floss, I'm surprised I'm still able to scrape up some in my embroidery floss drawer
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Front top left (from the perspective of someone looking at me)
Gay frog pin is the only pin I own I paid for, I found all the rest for free from various events and also the library likes giving people free pins
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Front top right
Got the Vulpix pin from some random lady at the empanada restaurant because she liked my nerdy jacket. A few months ago I reconnected with an old friend, who recognized the art style. So that's kinda neat
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Front bottom left
I used to have the heart/brain patch sewn on an older jacket (that is no longer with us). I am never attempting to stick a needle through that thing again. Easily my most painful patch I own. Also a little keychain ring so I can clip stuff to my vest
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Front bottom right
The worm's name is wormy, named by my friend who loves him. Wormy has been through a lot, and before finding a safe home on my vest, rotated between being a room decoration and a cat toy
The hotelier patch (the house on the pocket) is probably my favorite music based patch I've made. I spent way too much time on it, but I think it turned out nice in the end!
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Back top
the trans flag section in the center is my favorite part. The peace was never an option patch is usually peoples favorite, and I get compliments on it regularly. It's hard to see, but the patch at the bottom left of the flag is the chemical formula for testosterone
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Back bottom left
The QR code is a Rick roll, and also fully functional. When I made it, a picture of it was floating around between my friends between various group chats. I had one friend who tried to go to lengths to avoid getting tricked, until one of his friends sent him the picture, and he actually scanned it before realizing it's the QR code on my back. He was (jokingly) upset at me the next day. I want to make another qr code to a song I like more, but that one took longer than most my other patches do, so I'm not sure it's worth it.
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Back bottom right
The Kos-mos patch (blue haired girl on left) is my favorite non music patch on here. It just feels like one of my most well made patches. Not much to say here, I just like the patch a lot
So yeah, that's my vest. No clue how many patches are actually on this, or how many hours I've put into this thing already, but it's probably a high number whatever it is.
If this gets at least 0.5 notes Ill talk about my other patch stuff, of which I've got a lot of.
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thekeatoncadet · 2 months ago
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15 16 and 30 for OC ask meme. I ask ab Faye but please do two other OCs of your choice!!
Ohhh fun! I'm gonna do Elias and Aspen because they've been rotating in my brain a lot lately.
Elias:
15. Who is your OCs best friend?
- Faye and Wesley! The three of them were inseparable as kids. They are a SET do NOT separate! ...they are separated now, but Elias is still with Faye, and they both keep in touch with Wesley, who is also the only one who knows what actually happened to them. If they had to pick just one, they'd probably say Wesley since Faye has the girlfriend title.
16. How does your oc feel about their parents?
- :) Not Good. Elias' mom was never really in the picture, and to be totally honest I haven't really settled on why. But whatever the case, they don't remember her. It doesn't bother them these days, or even much as a kid. Life without her is all they've ever known, and Faye's mom did a good job filling the gaps.
Their dad was complicated. They actually were very close, and Orson (their dad) genuinely did love them. But he was always malcontent in his position in the town, and when he gets cursed he takes advantage of it to start killing off townsfolk, creating distrust in their current leadership. Elias catches him transform one night and Orson pretty much threatens them into silence. Frankly their relationship was probably already irreparable at that point, but when he killed Faye it was completely broken. Seeing as Elias makes a pact with a god solely to kill him, it's safe to say there's no love there anymore. They're still bitter and betrayed about it, tho they'll never openly say so.
30. Does your oc wish to be married someday?
- Elias is pretty neutral about marriage, they don't really care. They never like dreamed about it as a kid. If their partner wants to be then sure, absolutely. If not, that's fine with them too.
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15. Who is your OCs best friend?
- I picked Aspen before considering the questions and now I feel bad because I don't think she really has one right now?
Like. They only people she regularly sees are:
her boss/mother figure, who she DOES care about and enjoy being with but she's too terrified of disappointing her to be vulnerable and silly around her.
Her two coworkers who she finds annoying (Valentine) or outright repulsive (Latch)
Or her two reoccurring foes who, yes, she's a little 🤏 gay for, but certainly not enough to play nice with
Or like. The mailman. (Who everyone loves and appreciates but it's purely professional pleasantries).
Ironically, she and Elias actually met before they reunited with Faye, and they had a thing/got on quite well so at one point maybe I'd say them but needless to say that's No Longer The Case. Sorry girlie, I love you.
16. How does your oc feel about their parents?
- Her parents are gone, killed in a really cruel way over a crime they didn't commit. That said, she really loved them and they were a very healthy, happy family before then. I'm giving a bonus acknowledgement to Keres, who has basically been a second mother to her for all of her teen (and maybe preteen?) years. She loves and appreciates her very much, but she's oh so anxious about being a disappointment that it keeps her from fully embracing their mother/daughter relationship
30. Does your oc wish to be married someday?
- I think it's the sort of thing Aspen might wistfully think about from time to time, but not something she actually expects to happen, and it isn't a priority to her right now.
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mistylicious · 9 months ago
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fellow crusty enjoyer. how do u think they would interact pre-crash if they did.
oh my god.... I desire this reality. They deserved to have a best friend, not just in the wilderness but in school. In a perfect beautiful world, they were able to find each other through a theatre club or playing minesweeper on the library computers before school. I imagine them having constant sleepovers and doing weird girl activities together. Drawing characters that they make together, teaching each other monologues and songs, watching movies, drawing stupid doodles on people's yearbook photos.
Something tells me they would engage in stalking together. Like they'd both get a crush on the same person and instead of fighting they'd figure out the person's schedule and follow them around together, giggling and being weird. Then have the most diabolical gossip session afterwards, squealing about how bad they want to be romanced.
I think they kissed once or twice, but only for "practice" or for a game or to prove a point. They probably did it so they can both say they've had their first kiss. They both liked it WAYYYY too much but they're not going to say that!!!! Because they're just besties! Absolutely besties with nothing else gay going on!!!!
Ugh thank u for this ask I love rotating them in my brain. It makes me so happy to think about these weird girls finding solidarity within each other. Crusty forever <3333
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not-your-bro · 7 months ago
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do you have any ud hcs? It could be anything idc
ooh, free rein! sure sure. josh + chris are def the characters i most frequently rotate in my mind, so some stuff about them off the top of my head...
josh
film studies major. i must admit i don't adhere to the psych major he's given in canon, though director/producer roles aren't my first choice for him either. he goes all-in on tangible stuff for his prank, so i put him in the practical effects arena.
artist in his spare time, but big surprise he's cagey about it. like, chris sees josh's sketchbook in josh's room all the time, but he's never actually looked inside.
with both movie sfx + art, josh is practical > digital, and he only dips into digital effects or art when he absolutely needs to. i just think he's a tactile sort of guy who prefers to make things with his hands, so creating on a screen alone doesn't give him the same satisfaction.
on social media in that he has accounts, but they're sporadically active at best. he can be slow to respond to texts/dms and his responses can be short, which gives off the impression that he's disengaged or bored. he isn't, he just doesn't want to be on his phone.
this is a longstanding hc of mine that i've absolutely mentioned before, but: designed hannah's butterfly tattoo! didn't really understand why, he was like you know your tattoo artist can do one for you, right. but she insisted, and he obliged.
gay as fuck. realized young, came out young, very comfortable. as demonstrated by the fact that, much to everyone's annoyance, he wears shirts that say shit like 'employee of the month at the dick sucking factory' in public.
chris
ok, so i've reached the point where the chris in my mind looks different enough that i get a little jumpscared when i see him in-game LMAO. i hc him both taller and heavier. he's gotta be at least 6 ft. and a chris hartley who's thin is no chris hartley at all. not to me.
does not come from money, like lower middle class. i have two totally different hcs about his family that both feel real to me: one is that he's an only child, his parents divorced when he was a kid (old enough to understand, but not quite a teenager), and he lives with his mom. the other is that his parents are not divorced, and he has a big family - lots of siblings. i've been going with the former in my fic lately, but both work for me. the constant is that his family's economic situation is more precarious than most people in the friend group, and family trips with (and funded by) the washingtons were his primary vacations.
has adhd. i find 'always on his phone bc he just loooves technology' less interesting than 'always on his phone bc he has existing attention problems.' this went undiagnosed for a while, and his performance in school suffered for it.
speaking of, he is not all-around school smart. like, emily may have strengths and weaknesses (even if she'd never admit them), but she can swing As across the board. chris cannot. he's getting good grades in classes that interest him or cater to his solution-oriented brain, but he's terrible in any class where there's no right answer. english, art - he does not get it. love him to death but his media literacy is Bad
bi as fuck, but it was a journey. thought he was straight for a long time, dismissing any attraction to men as a 'who hasn't had gay thoughts' kind of thing. i think it took him a while to come to terms with it bc he had a lot of internalized shit to work through. if a friend came out as bi, he'd have been like cool 👍 but him? surely not! he got there eventually though.
wowee this is long. as a lil bonus hc for another character, i'll add that i don't think jess went to college - i think she went to a hair/beauty school. she loves what a social job it is, getting to chit chat with clients all day, and like josh, she does best when she's working with her hands.
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kanirou-crosshack · 2 months ago
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ten people I’d like to know better
tagged by: @pennyserenade
Last song: war - grandson
Last book: polar horrors: strange tales from the world’s ends - edited by john miller
Last movie: beggars of life (1928) / the great silence (1968) / flow (2024)
Last show: jonny quest
Last thing I googled: rock hudson telegram
Last activity: line dancing at a gay club
Favorite color: brown
Sweet/savory/spicy: savory
Looking forward to: one of my dnd campaigns coming off hiatus
Current obsessions: silent films, richard arlen, epic of gilgamesh, my cats
Tagging: @lambentwarg @dorothyoz39 @deceptioncoffee @1989nihil @lacroixgrimoire @autumngracy @letitrainathousandflames @rainbowlovedove @thesmilingfish @cadmusfly @whiteladyofithilien @thebreakfastgenie
And since this is a Get To Know You post and I’m insufferably talkative when activated, footnotes:
Not my usual fare but since the inauguration I’ve been listening to my aggro/nihilism/activism playlist a lot
It’s midwinter and been damn cold lately (by our standards) so this has been my nighttime balcony reading. Getting insight into how people in the 19th century perceived the last blank spots on the map and processed that by writing speculative/horror/weird fiction about it has been fascinating
Three because I can, first two were the past two nights at home and the third was the last I saw in theatre. I was talking about wings (1927) at work the other day and it activated another silent movie fixation. Beggars of life is now in my top ten. Deeply moving. It’s also been cold and snowy lately and the great silence was a snow western that’d been sitting on my list. Bleak as hell, I bounced between the Italian and English audios before settling on the surprisingly good English dub, but it’s a shame that audio track is compressed to shit. Flow I saw in theatre a couple weeks ago and it was incredible. Beautiful, compelling, I cried a lot.
A formative childhood favorite of mine and the recent comic revival had me feeling nostalgic. Problematic as shit sometimes, oddly not at others, but I’m deeply attached. Race and Benton were a queer awakening for young me
Was talking about actors becoming fucked up presidents for obvious reasons, which meandered to Reagan, the AIDS crisis, and Rock Hudson, and I wanted to get his final public statement that Lancaster read at the Commitment to Life fundraiser right
I am not the Going Out type, but committed to joining the queer country line dancing community near me a year and a half ago and it’s one of the best things I ever did for myself. Line dancing at the gay club scratches a magical itch and I do it at least once a week
I love brown. Lovely color, so many shades, can be bright and warm or dark and muted. Makes up the second most common color in my wardrobe after black (another favorite but not as interesting/insightful)
I don’t have much of a sweet tooth, but I will munch salty snacks, savory cheeses, or smoky meats all day long
DnD is a favorite hobby of mine, blorbos from my brain, and one campaign I’ve been missing is coming back from a long holiday break
I went with things rotating in my mind within the last week or the list would be a mile long lol. I mentioned what triggered the silent films already, but I’ve been particularly into Arlen lately. His eyes captivate me and his body language is so good. That so many of his early films are lost pains me. A coworker asked me about Gilgamesh last week and that is a dangerous trap card to activate. I discovered that a Norton Critical edition was published a few years ago and have been diving into that. I also adopted two cats last month and they are everything to me.
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zzcrypticcoyotezz · 9 months ago
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Read your Ian Malcom Nonbinary/genderfluid and now I can't get it out of my head. IT'S SUCH A COOL HEADCANNON THAT I SEE HAPPENING. Can you rant more about it, please? give more scenarios of what your take is LITERALLY ANYTHING GO FERAL. That is all thank you. Also Trans Alan?! yoooooooooo. Love the concept of Ian helping him come out more too. Just GRAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
aaaaaa thank you so much!!! AND YES i would be happy to! you're the first person to ever send me a question, i'm so excited my posts are starting to pick up and people like the dumb things i write haha. i've had this rotating in my brain like a microwave for a while so enjoy! doesn't make much sense with my headcanon being that malcolm messes with his gender after the events of JP, but i've been really wanting to reimagine the first scene of them together in the plane and make it extra fruity.
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"So... Are you a man, or a woman, then?" Alan asks, his eyes studying the mathematician carefully. He'd heard of Dr. Ian Malcolm and his work on chaos theory, sure. But he had no idea who the man himself (person?) was. He had absolutely no idea what to expect when he and Ellie boarded the plane, and he still doesn't know.
Ellie, gentle but still firmly elbowed Grant, giving him a glare. "Alan, you can't ask somebody you just met that question!" She whispered, sounding like a mother upset with her unruly son interrupting Sunday school.
Ian laughed, his sharp features curling into a smirk. He loved toying with the paleontologists, supposed men and women of science yet they couldn't wrap their head around someone defying societal gender norms. He leaned forward, his voice smooth, his long fingers gently pushing down the rim of his dark sunglasses revealing his big brown eyes, the windows to the soul some might say, and the makeup he had done that morning. Just something simple and easy to miss, just like his nails painted black or shoes secretly bought from the women's section, but undeniably himself, his style, his expression. He responded, his voice smooth with a hint of flirtation.
"I'm whatever you want me to be."
Alan sputtered. "I- uh, wh... What? What do you mean? That doesn't make any sense!" And Ellie couldn't help but laugh at his confusion. His voice grew quieter. "Pardon me if my wording isn't right, this isn't my expertise, but are you gay? One of those... Uh... Queers? I have no problem with any of it, I'm just looking for clarification."
Dr. Malcolm laughed. "Uhh... I, Well, uh, you could- you could say that, I suppose." The two still looked bewildered. "Here, uh, how about we look at it this way. Gender is.... Hmm... Something, uh, humans made up. A social construct. It doesn't truly matter what clothes we wear or what we put on our skin or how we style our hair. Life's too short to worry about that kind of thing. I'm just me. I'm not a man, or-or a woman, I'm a human being. And we're living things, we can't be put in- organized into a box. Life will always find a way to defy expectations."
Ellie's brows rose. "I actually think I understand. I've never really thought about any of this before, but it makes sense to me." She looked over at Alan. His face wrinkled in deep concentration, grappling with some kind of debate going on inside his head. After a moment, he finally responded.
"I'm sorry- but I'm still confused. How can you not be a man or a woman? The clothes thing, sure, okay, I get it." Before Dr. Malcolm had a chance to answer, Ellie spoke up.
"Just look at nature, Alan. There are definitely more than two genders or sexes. For fungi, there can be tens of thousands! And many animals can even change their gender or sex by themselves. Humans, we aren't separate from nature, we're a part of it. If Dr. Malcolm doesn't fit with either box then I don't see why they can't go past the binary."
Alan was starting to understand, but was still wrestling with a lot of concepts in his head. Things in his life he'd never told anyone before, things Ellie has no idea of. Alan Grant was not born as Alan Grant. Alan Grant wasn't born a man. He knew from the beginning that he wasn't a woman and he could never feel comfortable as one, and he was now dead to his family as they couldn't accept that. They'd rather have a "normal daughter" over a "transsexual for a son". He would lose his career if this came to light. He hasn't spoken to his parents since the day he left home at 18. They returned every letter he wrote.
Yet here now, in front of him, was someone who completely defied expectations. Someone who didn't care what others think. Someone who actively broke the rules. And this wasn't just anyone, but a world renowned mathematician! If a man, no, person of science can feel so comfortable with this part of themself... Then maybe he wasn't some freak of nature or mentally ill. That this is actually a normal human experience, that he wasn't alone or some kind of outlier. His expression softened.
"You're right, Ellie. I... I think I understand now. I apologize, Dr. Malcolm." His voice had a slight shake. Memories were flooding to his mind, memories he didn't want to remember, memories of his youth, and after he was kicked out of his parents' life. How much he'd fought to become the man he is today. How alone he felt, throughout so much of his life. He took in a deep breath, rubbed his temples and wiped his eyes, then cleared his throat, he held out his hand in a greeting. "I'd like to start over."
Ian smiled warmly, reciprocating the handshake. He felt like they have more in common than Grant would like to admit, and things were going to be alright.
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Ooooo you wanna talk about your ocs you wanna talk about them so bad ooooooo
Sorry for taking 381 days to answer ummmmm hi I want to talk about Ari
I don't think I've really posted about Ari on tumblr so I'll include basic info
Ari uses she/it/him pronoun and is a lesbian. She is a lion lava monster + is 6ft tall
Ari Sunfall is the oldest of the Sunfall siblings (Ari, Ziva, Leo, Daniel, Cherry*, Talya, Dasi)
When Ari was 13 her parents had to go be at war they weren't allowed to stay at home + raise their kids anymore so as the oldest Ari had to take care of her siblings
If you've ever heard Surface Pressure from Encanto that's the only song on my Ari playlist
Anyway um when Ari was 16 she got a girlfriend yaaaaaaay they were t4t :3
they dated for an amount of months before Ari's gf broke up w her bc taking care of 5 siblings was clearly stressful for Ari + gf was worried dealing w that and also a relationship was too much for Ari. Ummm she had good intentions but this made Ari put more effort into hiding when she's stressed
When Ari was 18 she had to be in the army </3 fuck Monstrox we all hate that guy
Ari got to see his parents for the first time in 5 years so that was nice
Ari also got a girlfriend while in the army! When Ari was 20 she dated Kirsten. They dated for an amount of months
:3
Kirsten broke up w Ari </3
:3
so um ye when the lava monsters got trapped in the Book of Monsters Ari was also trapped. Bc she's a lava monster
S1 nexo knight Ari is one of the background lava monsters
At some point in s1 the lava monsters attack a town called Kneadton + during the attack Ari gets distracted by the smell of freshly baked bread and goes into the bakery where Feather works
Feather is Rather Frightened and as a panic response. Acts friendly + normal as if Ari was a regular customer instead of part of the army attacking the town
Ari is thown off by Feather acting friendly + instead of stealing or destroying anything like she's supposed to he politely pays for a box of cookies
Feather + Ari are friends now. You can't escape being friends with Feather
At the end of s2! When Monstrox is trying to possess Clay or whatever + the knights save him + there's like an explosion or smth + they think Monstrox is dead fr fr. The explosion throws Ari into the rocky wall + she gets a bad injury
But um hey good news the lava monsters all want nothing to do with Monstrox + go build a town so they can chill + just live their lives
Ari takes a while to recover from his injury + has to get used to sometimes relying on others instead of always being the one people can rely on
Ari also has a back brace now. I haven't done enough research to say much about this
Once Ari is doing well enough to get a job she starts working at a bar in Burningham. He works a late shift + so she sleeps in late in the morning
This is around s3 btw + also Ari is 23
At some point Eva is adventuring around, as one does, and accidentally finds Burningham. She wanders around town perceiving + goes into the bar + this is how she meets Ari!! Yay!!
Eva is big gay for Ari. Eva + Ari become friends yay yay friendship
Ari starts getting feelings for Eva but she's in denial about it. They're just friends! Ari totally doesn't wanna kiss Eva or anything!
Teehee time for s5 (Ari is 24/25 now. I'm less sure on the ages here bc s5 + s6 were never made)
So um there's the apocalypse going on. Fun! (It's not fun)
I haven't brained much abt what exactly happens around Burningham during the apocalypse I'll be honest so some of this might change idk. I've mostly just rotated the angst in my mind
Burningham got swarmed by cyberbugs + people had to either try and fight them off or run away
The Sunfalls have safely escaped a bunch of cyberbugs + are in the woods. They're worried about Talya bc none of them have been able to contact it at all, but the rest of them are all safe and accounted for at least
Ari faintly hears something deeper in the woods + goes to investigate. A smart decision, surely. You should always go alone to investigate voices you hear in the woods
Ari finds Eva sitting by a tree calling for help. Eva says she was injured while running from cyberbugs + she needs help just come closer walk forward come just a bit closer please
Something seems off to Ari, and rightfully so bc this is a trap. Eva is infected
A bunch of cyberbugs were hiding around the nearby trees. Eva + the cyberbugs attack Ari and Eva tries to convince Ari to be evil being infected is great actually she's totally not being forced to say this
Ari doesn't want to fight Eva so she's trying to fight defensively. At one point in the fight Ari takes Eva's scythe from her hands and without thinking impales Eva, killing her
Ari stares at Eva's body for a moment, realizing what she just did, before running away (the cyberbugs are still there. They chase after her)
So you know how I mentioned Ari likes Eva but is in denial. Yeah so sometimes you realize things at very inconvenient times. Sometimes you're processing that you just killed the person you're in love with and wait a minute in love? Oh fuck
Ari doesn't really have time to focus on that or on grief bc she's gotta focus on making sure him + its family survive the apocalypse
Daniel gets separated from the rest of the family for a bit which has all of them worried but this isn't about him so don't worry about it
After the apocalypse ends the Sunfalls go back to Burningham + Ziva is sent to pick up Talya from school. Ari finally has time to process the everything + breaks down crying
*shoutout to anyone that remembered I put an asterisk next to Cherry's name! She was not part of the family before this point
Ziva returns w Talya + Cherry, Talya says Cherry is part of their family now. Everyone immediately assumes that means Cherry's parents are dead. Everyone also immediately accepts Cherry into the family. New sibling!
After idk a few days Ari goes back into the woods to get Eva + take her to a mechanic. Ari is worried sick that she did irreparable damage, but is hoping Eva will be fine
Ari is not very good w tech + things of the sort, she doesn't understand all this new tech that's been invented in the past 100 years. Squirebots weren't a thing back when he was growing up, so she doesn't know anything about squirebot anatomy. Ari has no clue if she killed Eva permanently or if Eva can be repaired
Eva is repaired yay yippee yay she doesn't have any permanent damage, her brain's all fine, etc etc
After checking approximately 1 million times that Eva is in fact alright + no longer injured, Ari apologies for killing her + Eva assures Ari it's ok she doesn't even remember it honestly so truely it's chill dw. Everything from when she was infected is kinda foggy, actually. She doesn't remember much of being infected
Anyway moving on Ari also confesses to being in love w Eva yay yippee yay they can kiss now I love when girlfriends
A few weeks after the apocalypse has ended!! Ok so remember Kirsten? There's something I didn't mention. Before she broke up w Ari she got pregnant, but neither of them knew
So as I said a few weeks after the apocalypse ended- Kirsten + her girlfriend (she has a girlfriend btw) go on a date at a bar. Which just so happens to be where Ari works. Wait I forgot to say Kirsten's girlfriend is Ari's first ex
Ye so Kirsten tells Ari she's got something important to tell her but like if it can wait til later that'd be nice bc she's on a date rn. So she gets Ari's phone number + address
Kirsten shows up to the Sunfall house the next day w her + Ari's daughter, Sunny
Ari didn't know what to expect when Kirsten said she had something important to tell her, but she certainly had not been expecting a kid
Sunny is 4 btw Ari was 21 when Sunny was born
Kirsten wants Ari to take full custody of Sunny she didn't want to be a mom she wanted Ari to take care of Sunny from the start, she just didn't know how to contact Ari. Phones were invented after they broke up
Umm I made up Sunny recently so I'm still working on this lore but at some point Eva calls Ari a milf
Misc info!! Yay!!
Ari is a nickname for Arson, the name Arson has been passed down in the family for generations Ari is Arson V (Arson the fifth) (Sunny is also a nickname for Arson, Sunny is Arson VI)
I mentioned this when Eva died but Ari isn't good w phones or tech or anything like that she's kinda a boomer L L L skill issue
Ari spent so much of his life focusing on taking care of her family and being personally responsible for everyone's safety that she never. Got any hobbies (on this topic Ari + Talya have parallels. Talya stole the bad mentality and the lack of hobbies + some other stuff)
At some point Eva gets Ari into hiking! This idea brought to you by the bestie Milkisvibin803
At some point when they're dating, Eva finds out Ari wants to be more feminine but doesn't know what exactly to do about that. So Eva takes her dress shopping to see if maybe that'll help (it does) :)
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