#gamzee/reader

[thesillyestwilly]

just like a silly little rant bc I feel gaslighted sometimes

I seriously hate how like there will be the most bbgist, jaw dropping, toe curling, making me scream without the s, making me giggle and kick my legs in bed as I watch the screen, making me think I'm having a fever because I get so excited to see them on screen character just to go on Tumblr and search up the character x reader to see like almost no posts and the two posts I don't even like because the reader is so y/n coded... Like it makes me so mad bro 😭

[mapledrawsarts]

It's the 4/13 time of year baybeee

[impishthing]

homestuck text post thursday baby

june sprite by @kittokattx

[oktoramaa]

things i keep forgetting to post here

[myhedcanonicfables]

Tavros, Gamzee, Karkat x injured! reader

Tavros :

«hHEY YOU'RE NOT OKAY, AREN'T YOU?» Tavros just looks down at you, examining your condition if, for example, you fell or something.

This guy is really worried about the situation. He tries his best to help, with his inept support or first aid.

Even if it is something very insignificant, he wants to show politeness, show his kindness. If he could make a good impression on you, he would be able to raise his self-esteem and your's friendship.

Tavros will probably chatter about how it's nothing and such injuries (in comparison) can dont sooo hurting or take soo long, in the way like comforting....

He will talk you about his experience with wounds and bruises

Gamzee :

«WhOa! MaMmA, iT's HuRt?» He takes you by the hand, lifts you up and helps you shake off or serves as a support if necessary.

He's more likely just to make sure everything is fine cuz there are still cases when a friend needs to help. So i mean he's just not exaggerating the tragedy.

But if it's really something scary, then he will certainly sympathetically help, although with his carelessness and ineptitude he may not do things perfectly.

In fact, he doesn't really care about it as a result, as long as you're okay.

Karkat :

« HEY! BE CAREFUL!» Like the Gamzee, he lifts you up and serves as a support.

Swears if it's something serious. «YOU'RE GOING TO DIE AT THIS RATE». But if it's nothing and you complain to him too often, he also swears that you're a crybaby

After that, Karkat can laugh at you or vice versa in risk place he hold your hand for safety, occasionally reminding you of your lack of care.

[celestialatlantis]

Sick Headcanons : would they be good at taking care of a sick, human s/o ?

Characters : Sollux, Gamzee Content warnings ? : This is a sickfic so there's that, but not much, no mentions of vomit either.

Beginning of the end (wow, dramatic)

Day one: you'd start feeling off, this headache with a weight coming and going, your throat would feel a bit dryer than it should. Half a day of ignoring the warnings, a coughing fit hits you like a truck and Instantly you'd be hit with dread as you realised, shit, it's a cold; you don't even know where the hell you're supposed to get medicine now. Deciding to leave early, you were thankful that no one pried or probed you for answers. Then you had locked yourself up in your room, trying to logic out whether any of your teammates could get you the meds you used to buy. Unsure of how to bring that up, you decide to call it quits for the night. Feeling sluggish by the time you went to sleep. Waking up, you felt like rock-bottom personified. Fuck.

Gamzee Makara

Some would expect him to not notice as fast as he would.

"Nah little mama, something was defo bothering your cute thinkpan and this motherfucker would have to be blind to miss it .Honk"

But no he has a vibe-based radar and depending on how far your relationship has progressed it only becomes more attuned, somehow.

(Of course it did, he's red for you. This isn't a joke for him. it's a startling shift of demeanor to the untrained eye whenever his attentiveness shows, but it really shouldn't be.)

Has no clue how humans work. Still he'll ask you first and if you don't know then fuck. He's gonna have to ask Karkat if his human buddies know anything.

Either way, he'll bring a blanket and make a pile so that he can sleep near you in-case you need anything. He doesn't wanna leave you alone when you're sick, it has to feel extra lonely.

..at least he thinks it would be. Thinks. That's all.

He'll keep you company and bring you food, water, if you need Meds he'll try to look it up and see what he can do.

He's surprised when he remembers a few tricks he taught himself, from the times when he got sick while goatdad was away.

Will set a cold wet cloth on your forehead and switches it out when you fall asleep.

If you feel gloomy when sick, or if you just want him to, he'll do whatever he can to make you laugh.

Ask him to jump-scare someone by crawling in the vents and you'll see he's already five steps ahead of you. You can't help almost heckling a laugh for the second time when he gets back through the vents and you see he brought a Jason mask with him to scare the poor soul for your entertainment.

if you chose peace this time, he still has some tricks! He will make you laugh until you feel better, and you trust that based on experience.

He's strangely smooth as he walks around, not stumbling as much, although he seems to be acting like usual on the day when you wake up feeling well.

...you never did see it, but he couldn't let himself stay high while you were sick, it didn't feel right.

It really didn't feel right. He doesn't think it'll be remotely okay ever again, now that he knows you can get sick like this, - but it's okay. Now he can look out for you, like how you do for him.

Sollux Captor

Well shit, there's a chance that he finds out a bit later than Gamzee simply because he makes himself busy.

He'd notice you not replying to his pestering though, so off his chair and out his roo-..respiteblock he goes.

God, he'd inwardly cringe a little when entering your human room because he can sense the sick in the air somehow.

Asks the humans upfront how to take care of a sick person, which is noted to be unusual by Rose but she promises not to pry.

Sollux also stays in your room, brings a husktop, makes a makeshift pile to sleep on and just monitors you until you're feeling better.

Occasionally he'll leave, but mostly to get food, water, so on so forth.

Lets be honest, locking himself in a room and not leaving is not something out of the norm for Sollux. it's not difficult for him to stay.

Lets you whine if you're an insufferable patient type of person, he can feel a bit irritable but he just can't let himself get angry at you while you're sick.

The thought of snapping at you while you're steaming like a stove-top makes him feel like a jerk, and he has a heart in his ribs somewhere even when he acts difficult about it.

This type of vulnerability is new from you, and he won't make you regret not pushing him away.

He'll bring you a controller to play games together if you feel well enough to play. Would let you backseat him while he plays if you can't but still want to do something together.

He'll pester others for your entertainment too, or if you have human friends who could send over something for you he'll ask them for it too. Comfort soup that you can't make here? Consider it done, your friend will bring it in a few hours.

(he doesn't wanna risk fucking up the recipe and give you food poisoning.)

You get to choose the background music when he's doing coding, still, ask for his attention and you will receive it.

He might honestly fix a few things wrong in your room that you didn't know about if he gets bored while you're asleep. Mild things.

Also replaces some of your old chargers with newer and less beat-up ones.

He might even purr (read: buzz) if you pull his heart strings (not that difficult) and say it'll help you sleep, especially if you have a difficulty falling asleep when sick.

All in all, he learns pretty fast. Not that you should tell him that right after you recover, it'd give him an industrial sized ego.

[mcbeetlebeeb]

I'm currently getting into a fandom that isn't homestuck, but I can't turn down a request :3

these will still be headcannons and- uhrm- yea

Gamzee Makara

He is, talking about some mystical shit dude

I think hed appreciate someone who just listens too him blabber

don't ask me why but he'd like to naw on you

not full fledged biting a chunk out of you

I think he's too aware of how sharp his teeth are to go biting down that hard, but yknow

nipping at you gently, but not before he was smothering you in sloppy clown kisses

this is real specific but I think hed have the type of eyes that you can't seem to keep eye contact with

he's just so much taller and just has this lopsided shiteating grin, that shows most of his sharp ass teeth

I'd like to think his eyes are always that half lidded gaze, especially when it's at you

but no intent behind the looks he gives, fuck- probably no thoughts either

lights on no one home

don't get me wrong, he's not dumb,

in the simplest sense hes a big ol airhead

yknow a dingbat, a bit of a scatterbrain

but he's not like- vegetable for a brain dumb as hell

and thats another thing, it's definitely really convincing to probably think that he's yknow, not all there

but it throws you off gaurd x2 when he'd get all close and murmur and mumble certain things too you

he looked like he had a maximum of 3 thoughts floating around in his brain

but here he is, mumbling in a low almost gravely tone, right by your ear

I love to think he's one of those tall people to rest his arm playfully on your head if your shorter, which you most likely are-

can't recall if I mentioned the last time sense I have a rubber ducky keeping track of my memory

but I think hed be cold all the time

not like, bothersomely fridged

but enough to make you shiver and squirm if he were to press his hand to your skin, noticeable enough for you to verbally go "Damn-"

also!! I think hed be a huge sucker for you just holding his face with your hands, letting him relax against you, eyes shut

still grinning a bit and letting that low rumbling purr come from him

and this also means playing with his hair,

pet him damn it he demands it

no, not really more like laying and being in your space, following you round until you pay attention properly too him

sense most trolls can't- yknow- go out in the middle of the day because of their intense asf sun, trolls are nocturnal

so like if you ever took a photo with him with flash his eyes would do that reflective thing that cats have

or for another example, yknow how in the dark the first thing you spot about your black cat is its eyes?

yeah that

like I said in the other headcannon thingy, he's just always lurking and looming, he likes knowing what your doing even if he's not involved

and this comes with him trailing around you like a dog that sees you have food and knows you'll give it too them at some point

wether it be from afar or close, don't assume he's not close by, him being a purple blood im sure he's well aware of how violent trolls can be,

but with you around! oh he can't let you wonder off too far- Alternia's atmosphere is dangerous and the fauna is even more dangerous-

so don't expect to go very far without him trailing behind you

but he'd understand if you explained too him you wanted time too yourself or with somebody else one on one

I dont think hed be a jealous person, maybe a lil possessive! but he's not overbearing with it

he just wants you safe and content, and he wants you too feel that way around him

have a song I think fits his uh? vibe towards? significant other? because 🎉

Dave Strider

mm have I said he's a genuinely a big goof?

but I think that'd be something someone gets right off the bat

maybe

if you can pick up on someone trailing off on tangents of meaningless words that can go on and on without someone actually ever responding

than it's pretty visable

I think itd be pretty adorable though (I know I'm gay, whatever)

like if he were to start talking about something, anything, and you gave a simple short response, he's gonna take that and run with it

especially if he likes you

I think hed definitely be one too stare

but how could you tell? he's always wearing those shades

probably a good reason why he wears them other than ironic purposes

so no one sees what or where or in this case who he's lookin at

constantly staring though, wether it's you having a conversation with you or, you doing something random he's just watching

no actual thoughts id like to say

just observing

watching you be you, do your own natural thing, picking up on the way you talk or gesture at stuff

I cannot urge this enough but I still firmly believe physical touch would be a very special thing too him

it's not impossible or looked down upon too be able to hold his hand or lean against him

but he'd be mentally noting each touch, each expression you make, listening intently too your tone, hoping your doing the same

but with these actions he'd be straight faced as always, but he can feel his hands tremble ever so slightly, he recognizes his heart beat picking up

unfamiliar with these feelings with how they're being presented yknow?

most times he ever feels this way he's in danger

but he knows he couldn't be safer right now, like he wants to believe that, it's not hard for him to believe it

but his body is just hardwired to tense up, clench his jaw and steady the shakey breathing

but being patient and respectful would melt those feelings away really easy I'd like too think

just sitting there and slowly showing affection, brushing thumbs against his knuckles, tracing over fingers

you focus on his hand, flipping it over and thumbing at his vaguely sweaty palm, hand still shaking faintly in your gentle grasp

he'd just stare at you, in disbelief and adoration, and realization that he doesnt need to be poker faced round you

that he doesnt need to put up a front to protect himself, the squishy parts of him he learned to shove away to get along with life

a big sigh of relief to say the least,

but once he realizes he doesn't need to be someone else for you, he can just be him, no expectations or demands, he can rely on someone else for once

you ain't ever gettin rid of him after that, he's not clingy but he's no longer keeping you at arms length, not now, not ever again

AND HE GETS MUSIC THING because he is my favorite right next too the crab man <3

author note: I feel this sucked a big booty buttload but I was already half way done with it when I dubbed it that, so have this anyway!!!

[boyinthevoide]

4/3/2/1

[abandonedafterimage]

I can feel my Homestuck interest coming back soooo

You guys should send me Strider requests, or just homestuck requests in general. the striders are my fave tho (yes, also Bro)

Its been a while so some of my homestuck knowledge has left my brain, so what some things are called have probably left my brain. but thats not gonna stop me.

[lamantramorii]

Wholesome ass Gamzee Makara Headcanons ♌️🎪

~​˖⁺. ༶꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦♡꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦~​˖⁺. ༶

He's tall. Like 6'5-6 slouched but close to 7 ft. standing straight (obviously referring to Pesterquest Gamz). Tall clown boy aaaa <3

This man purrs. Very kitty-like but deep and makes his chest/back vibrate a little. Either while he's sleeping or receiving headrubs.

His hair is like super messy. He has to constantly be reminded to brush it out but it's not particularly gross he's just a messy dude.

Suprisingly, he has a very sweet smell to him due to the copious amounts of sopor and Faygo he consumes on a daily basis. It's actually quite pleasant.

He's def a picky eater. You cannot get this man to consume ANYTHING that isn't sopor or Faygo. That's most likely why he's so thin.

He REALLY wants some type of facial piercing(s). He doesn't know how or where to aquire them he just thinks they're super cool.

If you're moirails/matesprits with him, he will. not. leave. you. alone. And he's very affectionate, so definitely expect random hugs (obviously if you're comfy with them). He'll also invite you to his hive as often as he can to hang out and do typical friend stuff.

[myhedcanonicfables]

Confessing Gamzee, Karkat and Eridan

please, i wait your requests!

Gamzee:

He worries less than many people. At least because his religion helps him.

«HeY i hAvE oNe IsSuE»

If you refuse him, Gamzee will be upset, of course, but he will not sad you for long.

Probably, it's just nice for him to admire the good features of a person and be his friend.

And if you agree, he will eventually take on subconscious responsibility. He may be a relaxed person, but he gives priority values to close people.

Karkat :

He is definitely heistates. «SURELY. IT WOULD BE A SHAME! IS IT WORTH IT?»

Karkat also definitely does not like himself and expects this from the reader, even if he has always been treated well.

But okay. In the end, for him will be easier to move on. Therefore, it is solved after not too long.

If you refuse him, then this is what he was preparing for. Therefore, with prepared sadness, he continues to strive for common friendship. But also, he can refuse future friendship too.

But how surprised and happily Karkat will become if you agree.

Now you are a couple, so it's time to experience his accumulated experience gained in movies.

Eridan:

If we are talking about a human, then he will need to step over his pride even more and for longer than with a lowblood troll.

He is unlikely to idealize his love in ordinary circumstances. But he understands his feelings quickly enough

Eridan hesitates a lot in front of whoever it is in this deal. He's afraid of shame.

And he'll get angry if you refuse. Of course, he will be very upset, and he will certainly be much more detached.

But maybe he won't show much joy if you agree, he still will treat you much better. Very.. protectively.

But whoever you are in the troll hierarchy, Eridan will be proud of his partner.

[lsdjackie]

BREAKING NEWS: annoying gamzee orange found shot dead in atlanta

[hellclipzzzzzzz]

hi! Could you pls make some Gamze Makara x Transmasc!human!reader? if you feel comfortable with it ofc. Have a nice day :33

OF COURSE ANYAN

🥧 - Let's be real here, Gamzee does NOT give a shit about gender. Bitch goes by all pronouns and if you ask what's in his pants he'll say something like 'fAyGo' or pull out a clown horn.

🥧 - Because of that, he doesn't really understand dysphoria, or what being trans feels like. It'll take a bit of coaching for him to figure out what it means, lol.

🥧 - he catches on quicker than you'd think, though. quite a bit quicker. while he doesn't understand it fully, he's 100% supportive of you.

🥧 - it's actually really easy for him to switch up pronouns if you're friends or dating pre-transition, since... he doesn't really use pronouns for people, moreso just 'motherfucker'.

🥧 - the best period pal. THE. BEST. he'll curl up with you and watch whatever movies you want, and somehow he knows what you want before you even say it. you'll wake up and he'll have everything stocked up for you.

🥧 - doesn't really care if you start medically transitioning or not. he's supportive regardless, and loves to bash in transphobe's skulls with his bowling pin 💜

[kawaiiwritingcomputer]

🍄: these are short but I didn’t know what else to add! i love my clown bf

Gamzee Makara Matesprit Headcanons:

This juggalo isn’t sure how to navigate through red feelings

You’d have to take lead with Gamzee

Gamzee is more likely to confess his feelings first but when it comes to the matespritship itself is when he struggles

He does figure some dating customs

Like cuddling in the slime

You always lightly smack his hand away when he puts the slime near his mouth

You can’t stop him fully but you can at least wean him off

Gamzee is definitely the type to try and do rap battles as date. You compromise with karaoke. it works!

Gamz doesn’t mind if you’re into his religion or not but does appreciate it you’re with him during his prayers and such

Motherfucker is tall and strong, dude picks you up whenever

He doesn’t rlly know personal space and it shows

Don’t let him anywhere with cook ware

He will burn the place down

Gamzee is best at cuddling and making out

Well he’s awkward and messy with making out

Cuddles tho?? Top tier. His arms cage you in, you’ll need a blanket though! (or sink into the slime like mentioned above if you’re a troll)

Gamzee does try his best to be a good matesprit

Gamzee is receptive to communication unfortunately though sometimes he’ll misunderstood

His people pleaser tendencies to be passive can sometimes miss the mark on what you’re saying

Just keep trying though. he’ll get the point and do the right thing

Gamzee is just a fun loving guy. Just stick around and this clown will whisk you away into his arms!

[celestialatlantis]

Scenario, what could push them to confess?

Characters : Tavros, Gamzee Content warnings : I don't think there's anything notable heavy to mention, Insecurities are a topic of discussion but it all ends well, Gamzee has his own warnings, murder, for one, but it all ends well. Potentially and likely not a perfect capture of character, but hey, it was fun.

Tavros Nitram

Some would say he could be peer pressured and i wouldn't deny it being unshocking to an extent, but not this much.

He's a pushover, but he becomes a brick wall when it comes to accepting good things. Unfortunately, you are the kindest thing- person- in his life.

He could be pressured into making steps into being open about his love for you in a handful of ways, if he believed these were things that'd make you happy, but he couldn't convince himself that a confession might be one of those things easily at all.

He might actually be as stubborn as a bull instead of a pushover in regards to this, which is statistically rare enough for it to be a notable thing.

He would be fully okay with loving you forever, and he would for as long as you had space for him in your life, he doesn't allow for himself to hope that he might be the same for you.

But enough of this frankly heartbreaking build-up, what could push him to confess?

Your feelings, and especially insecurities.

If he saw, for himself, that you loved him this way but didn't allow yourself to hope, he would improvise his confession on spot. it doesn't matter how he could have planned, it just has to be heard by you.

Insecurities are not at the wheel for once in his life, not if it in/directly lead to you doubting whether this type of love was requited or not.

Sure, he's freaking the fuck out, your guy isn't even remotely composed, he's just high off of an emotional adrenaline rush because your emotional turmoil affects him like witnessing a car crash with the best viewing experience.

If he found out you worried over whether you could "lose" everything you've built together because you're you, he might just fall apart and confess in a freight train of emotion so heavy it'd put hydrolic press' to shame.

Or, if the gods of love and matchmaking held hands and channeled their powers into your entire social circle, he could be pushed by an army of wingmen.

It gets easier to believe for Tavros if he witnesses the people who'd rather kill themselves than not be at each other's throat actually agree on something for once, seriously, if Aradia and Vriska can agree on something mundane for the first time since the incident, then maybe it's not the most unbelievable thing that could happen.

Vriska probably helps, if only because she doesn't wish the purgatory of pining upon anyone. If he gets rejected at least it's finally over, as far as she's concerned, and if he doesn't then the only change in results is Tarvos being happier.

Another thing is if you were sick and trusted him to take care of you, I don't imagine trolls let each other know when they're sick.

Regardless of what exactly you are, if you trusted him to do this then the chances are he'll feel more confident in ripping the bandaid of his feelings as well.

He probably blurts it out on accident while saying something like "(…) uh,, i don't think i'd like me,, if i didn't care for my partner,,,-"

Anyhow, if the push is from peerpressure, it'd be in a scenario where someone tries to convince you to confess but it goes terribly wrong so Tavros has to stop you from convincing yourself it's not mutual. He'd be yollo-ing the entire thing because he frankly wouldn't know how to soothe a fear he constantly feels which shape his most painful nightmares. it'd hurt less if he broke his legs again.

Gamzee Makara

So, this fucker. Where to begin.

Sly and smarter than he allows people to believe, yet, he too has a heart somewhere in there, unfortunately for him.

He frankly has put himself in a bit of a corner, because if he hasn't confessed to you before he went on a rampage, then he'll have a lot to answer to at the spot.

Let's begin with what could push him to confess before he got the blood of his friends on his hands.

You getting sick, especially if you allowed him to help you. That much trust and faith would push him to trust you with handling his feelings gently.

People picking on you, he'd pretend to be high as a kite while defending you because it's the only way he can hold himself back from turning the fucker that rained on your parade into paint-paste.

But, because he'd be focusing so much on why he loves you, he might have a slip of the tongue and say something along the lines of 'a motherfucker that can't see the miracle of (your) red blessings has gotta be blind' when the offender is gone and he's reassuring you that he meant every word, you can do what you will with that impromptu confession.

Ideally, you'd accept it, but it's not like I'm your boss. You wouldn't be getting paid for it.

A lot of the things that'd cause him to push would be moments where he would feel a need to defend or take your side of an argument. He always wants to be on the same side as you, damn all else involved, it could all be miracles but he puts yours above all else.

Because you chose him, and he will choose you.

Another thing, he wants to be the one you choose, so he might actually be pushed to confess if/when he feels insecure. He does not want to be replaced, he does not want someone else to matter more to you and get sidelined. He does not want you to get bored of him.

And that'd push him to maybe lie to the person who happens to be the cause of this insecurity and shoo them away for a day or two while he gets his head in the game and tells you everything he has been feeling, and how he has been so fucking scared to lose you.

Because he's terrified of mattering less to you.

Now, before we get to the point in the timeline where he looses it, he'd do his best to not lose it around you. But even if he did, it wouldn't be directed towards you, not that anything could make him feel better, if causes fear in you he will feel that guilt like it'll be permanent. Even if it gets better.

If he causes you to fear it could ever be directed at you, he'll put everything else aside and tell you why he could never, because he loves you too much to forgive himself if he ruined the miracle of you choosing to stick around.

This is similar to what happens if you ever happened to cross paths with him while he was on a rampage, which would be unlikely because he'd do his best to avoid you while hunting down the ones he's after.

He'd still have the mind to tell you he wouldn't hurt you, but he would pray in his mind to something that you won't try to fight him, or try to stop him in general, however that concern is second place. He fights with the intention to kill, and he doesn't wanna kill you.

He might fight and claw until he has ruined this joke everyone else has seen him as, this joke his entire life has been written to be viewed as until now, but he does not want to write a world where he has written you out of his life.

At worst, he'd run and beg you to forgive him later while he explains why he ran, which is because he didn't trust himself to fight you.

At best, he'd compromise and stop for now if you questioned why he has been avoiding you during his rampage, instead of trying to stop him.

Afterwards, when the blood is dry and a smear on the wall? Well, the thing that would push him is his fear of losing you. He's scared to reach, but far more terrified to lose something he could have kept had he just tried.

So, he does.

He'd text you to meet up with him, and ask you to stay. Not as much of a confession if you silently comply, but if you asked why, he'd confess it in a voice so silent it no longer sounds like him.

"BeCaUsE i'M fLuShEd AnD sElFiSh, LiL mAmA, I mOtHeRfUcKiNg KnOw I dOn'T dEsErVe ThIs. A MoThErFuCkEr LiKe Me ShOuLdN't EvEn TrY(..)" ..He can't even bring himself to finish the sentence, but he still has it in him to say one last thing.

"PlEaSe DoN't Go"

[vikkirosko]

could you do gamzee x rage player! reader? maybe reader is a bard too, like him, lol

♑️ Gamzee Makara x Reader headcanons Rage player 🎪

Your relationship with Gamzee was something that was unclear to some of your friends. For a long time, you didn't trust him, until you finally became convinced that he could be allowed into the circle of people you trusted. One of the conditions of your communication was that he would not lie to you. You were pathologically intolerant of lying, and Gamzee really wasn't lying to you. He might not have told you the whole truth, but he wasn't lying

Some of your thoughts were similar. You were drawn to the truth, you wanted to change what you considered unacceptable, and Gamzee respected your views, although they did not always coincide with his. You were constantly searching for the truth and several times he offered you to relax with one of his pies, but you refused, preferring to stay with a sober mind

Gamzee enjoyed watching how you, usually impulsive, kept yourself in check while talking to those who annoyed you. In a sense, you were a strategist, knowing at what moments it was necessary to remain silent. Gamzee often told you that these were the real miracles, to which you grinned and told him that if he liked to call it that, then you didn't mind

Despite the outward serenity, Gamzee saw perfectly well that you were holding back your anger. He understood that at some point your rage, like water released from a dam, would spill out with renewed vigor, and he was waiting for this moment. He wanted to see how it would happen and what the consequences would be, even if he suffered from it himself. He was willing to take the risk, especially if it had to do with you

Your friends knew that you needed to learn to trust others, but why you chose Gamzee was unclear. However, he didn't mind. He was glad that you appeared in his life. You were somewhat similar, and Gamzee felt comfortable around you. Perhaps together you can find the truth that you were both looking for