#fuckpain

[jamielynnheartfelt-blog]

It’s never too late for a good attitude - there is always room for improvement when you wake up like  rattle snake!

When you live with chronic pain, many days you open your eyes and think F%$#! The pain did not disappear in the last 30 min nap before the alarm goes off. You roll over in bed, stretching, groaning, often crying. The pain is too much and honestly, it is really depressing.

You start your morning routine in an all too familiar dark place with a bad attitude. It hurts, it’s always going to hurt. It will likely get worse. Quickly, you become your own victim of this universally cruel thing “chronic pain.”

The reality is though, it is up to me as to what attitude I face pain with. Most Chronic Pain sufferers become immobilized by the depression that comes with knowing that every god damn day is going to start the same way.

What if, this did not have to continue past the first moment in the morning?

What if I did not have a terrible grumpy morning? Is it possible to wake up and not hate so bad? Beginning each day this way can lead to anger, resentment and often loneliness.

I watched my parents both suffer from crazy spine injuries. I believe my unwillingness to yield to the helplessness of Chronic pain came from them. Both of my parents battled pain through the age I am now.

My mother broke her body sky diving at an early, vivacious age. My father suffered a terrible trucking accident that landed telephone poles being pushing into his back. My mother succumbed to her pain a decade ago and my father is still fighting to survive with more pain than the average person could imagine. Growing up and watching them survive is likely why I have lasted this long. Certainly, seeing them work through it gave me the “not going down without a fight” attitude that keeps me in smiles, motion and good spirits now.

I have been injured beyond repair for 15 years. In May, I will have had 15 years of waking up like this. Much of that time was spent learning how to cope. Surgery, sedation, painful injections, endless doctor’s appointments and at one point becoming a full time Physio Therapy patient. Never mind the prescriptions that either worked or fucked up your life. Not yet knowing how to cope with my pain created irreparable rifts between me and some of the people I loved the most.

Through the die-hard attitude that my parents displayed, I also could not bother to lay down and accept defeat. For me, giving into my pain has always meant that I would never ride a horse again, never teach again and that is something I have never been able to accept. However foolish, my parents instilled stubbornness and grit in me, by example and for that I am grateful.

Fast forward through a mountain of added injuries. Fast forward Immeasurable heartache, not just for me but those that loved me, and I finally have figured out how to cope in a way that is no longer destructive and wake up with a good attitude. …Most days anyhow!

One year ago, I was in the place of giving up. After all, the list of things that “my chronic pain” had “taken from me” was long. The value of that loss is still something I cannot speak openly about without sinking to depths of despair. I wish I had found the right attitude sooner. The right attitude often comes with accepting the right support.

Through a doctor who believes I am in fact the vivacious child my mother taught me to be and will help me to express my special brand of “normal.” To the physio and Bio team that help me find the inherent strength and fight that I could have only gained from dad. And from the students who drive me to be a better leader, I can tell you now, my mornings are a contrast from those I experienced 10-15 years ago.

Sure, I am as temperamental as a rattlesnake when I first wake up, but my partner Gareth, bravely and loyally brings me a good cupa and patiently waits for the daily realization of my painful situation to pass. I eventually find a way to have a good attitude, no matter what pain level and corresponding mood I wake up in.

I take my medications without guilt, something that was hard to do. I do my stretches like my life depends on it (because it does). I can hold my tongue until I have something nice to say and I keep true to my fitness because I am the only person who can change my situation. I am the only person who can control my pain and that began by searching for a reason to accept my pain and get on with my life.

It is through this extended support system that I can laugh rather than cry and stretch my way to riding horses and kicking ass every day. For this, I am most grateful and could never have found a good attitude without the incredible combination of people I have as a support crew. And that is how I find my good attitude!

[2by1977brokenme]

PJE#82 ~ 01.14.2022 ~ 01:02 Friday

Another night of migraine pain, Left shoulder pain, back pain from muscle spasms in areas that make it hard as fuck to breathe. Fucking nerve pain in my Dick … that’s not even fair. Made it sore tonight bc the tingle itch feeling just wouldn’t stop. Fucking just … FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I can’t say it enough. Screaming ain’t helping but making my dogs look at me funny; scared maybe. My wife is frustrated with or it feels like that. Thursday evening was fun with her. Fucking let her use a wooden spoon on my left nipple. First smack actually felt good. Second one stung a little. I like that kinda shit. Not super rough but, yeah, get kinky with a wooden spoon you make pasta with. We was laughing our fucking asses off. Damn it was fun. I let her do it 2 more times, hard as hell. Damn tit stung for a couple of hours. All red and shit. My nipple is still erect from it. Lmfao. Fuck yeah I like that shit. With the type of pain I have, making pain in other places isn’t a good sign for my psychy. It’s a warning sign. I’m running out of fucks to give again. I told the OCPT lady today that I was tired of the pain. And I am. I’m sick of it. I have a few good days and then 2-3 times as many painful days. The tears flow freely right now. I’ll cry or tear up in front of Kay but no one else sees me like that. I picked a good one. She’s my rock. Tough as they come. When I’m gone I know she’ll miss me. She’ll miss me for a long time. Won’t forget me, ever. I hope she never stops smiling. Tears are falling hard now. I’m 44 years old. I feel like I’m 90. Shit just ain’t fair. But that’s my life. Nothing is fair. Everything hurts. Weed is killing me. I can feel my lungs are tightening up again. I smoke 1-2g of high quality cannabis to help with the pain. Tonight I would have taken a Percoset 10/325 if I had one. Just to knock me out so I wouldn’t have to feel anything. So I can sleep. I’d be all fucked up but IDGAF. Anyway, I guess I’m going to try to sleep. Prob be up in a few hours. 01:23

[lbidler]

primi 4 (di tanti) cuori per Natale 🤶 la cervicale sta un pochino meglio e sono riuscita a portarmi avanti poco progresso ma comunque progresso 💪🏻 “Gioiosa atmosfera” di #renatoparolin #puntocroce #puntocruz #petitpoint #ricamo #ricamoamano #ricamando #ricamosulino #lino #dmc #dmcembroidery #leilabidler #fuckpain #painwontstopme #heart #herzchen https://www.instagram.com/p/CWwBTOAs8eC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[messyluvluck]

All of Last Night

Uhg. Too many triggers.

The whole, Shute storm urging me the to crush myself again.

I don’t want to rebuild again, I’ve got my concrete. And it’s legit and of course sur un le lit! Haha. ha...

But, we’re not many minds.

And they still wanted to kill last night.

Why? Should I take more? Should I... Uhg that point bothers me.

I’ve been fraking. Playing around, time to be at work, the demons are acting as snakes that bite me everywhere. And two infectious men, Ik the devil. Do check out my past. Me and the light are close... but Scarlett I miss her. She knew how it was...

This stupid pain. The headaches, I mean a game, a maze got me sick.

Get this shite overworth. Ha see what I did there. Must get a new zaffaira for Salt.... me a new crown and bury... well the curse is there...

Too much for even my girls to follow. I’m the original. You’ve already tried

[thepunisher187]

#IronParadise #NotDone #NoFuckGiven #FuckPain #DoTheWork #Xsport #BigBoysPlayGround💪🏼 (at XSport Fitness Bricktown)

[behardonyourself]

The lashes symbolize all I have gone through to get from where I have been to hear @ironmanvoice call me an Ironman. To be able to hug @ironman112419 as he crossed and put his medal on him. People see where I am at and think that it was easy. That it was a given. No. Fucking. Such. Luck. I am just better than most at hiding the pain. I built those calves big enough to carry this big ass heart and soul to carry them across the finish line in Arizona. Pain don’t hurt when you don’t let it. #ironman #triathlete #motivation #tattoos #training #workout #mybattles #addiction #mentalstrength #fuckpain #ironmantattoo (at Krugerville, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCHoVkGH7so/?igshid=10mto8nu33hes

[angel-wings-88-blog]

You all are incredible, beautiful and so strong. I want to thank every one of you for your continuous support, encouraging words, and your unconditional love😊 I love you guys!!💕💕💕💕 Together, we can beat these fucking shitty demons and RISE. 💪🏼#rise #recovery #mentalhealthrecovery #strength #courage #faith #hope #bravery #family #fightingdemons #fuckpain #fuckfear

[ferretjack-blog]

I have chronic pain, so my doctor is trying me on this cream. They didn't put the Ketoprofen in it due to me being allergic to a medication in its family. Now to see if this works for my joint aches. Though this was a free sample, it'll cost $50 for the next two. I wont get it if they don't work. But worth a shot. #ChronicPain #NeverGiveUp #FuckPain https://www.instagram.com/p/Byd7sSagp0J/?igshid=1u1318fw1jomd

[zanexxx777]

So I'm gonna set this right here and let the video speak for itself but the #aroma coming from this jar of #thccrystals lightly sauced is smelling like a bundle of sweet sugary berries. Quickly you see why the name #BlackberryDream came. The buzzzz on this sugar puts me right in my head space with that #kimboslice in its lineage it knocks a heavy blow to pain met on a daily basis. #fuckpain Thank you @goodmedsco and @bosm_labs for having such high standards(all puns intended) and having such delicious tasting medication. #THCThursdays all day #cannabiscommunity #stonernation #710 #goodmedsornomeds #bosmisawesome #thatgoodgood #medonly #dabstgram #positivemoments #milehigh #weed #livresin #sugarcrystals #milehigh #goodvibes #salute #hippyshit #staymedicated #legalizeitacrosstheglobe #dabs #thc ✌️#flowerpower

[lbidler]

poco progresso ma comunque progresso 💪🏻 “Gioiosa atmosfera” di #renatoparolin #puntocroce #puntocruz #petitpoint #ricamo #ricamoamano #ricamando #ricamosulino #lino #dmc #dmcembroidery #leilabidler #fuckpain #painwontstopme https://www.instagram.com/p/CWrHnhPsSK-/?utm_medium=tumblr

[clsmetal]

Almost two years after damaging my backbone I’m trying some running 😎🏃 . . . #running #fuckpain #workout (em Votorantim) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuOsW-hgSQ5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1fsjsxnj89nt1

[fatbrogetsfit-blog]

#fuckexcuses and #fuckpain wrap your ankle and get out there and #workforit #1stphorm #mytransphormationstartstoday #duespaid #hardestworkerintheroom #liftweights #fattofitjourney #2019goals #nodaysoff #ironparadise #isymfs #gym #gymmotivation #gymlife #fattofit #getfitordietrying #getfitwithme #sundayfunday #mychurch #irontherapy #nopainnogain #grind #hustle #gohardorgohome #workout #workoutmotivation https://www.instagram.com/p/BuAEyxklSrB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=65mo7138yns7

[uncledustcomedy]

Without the wife, weed , laughs , & some well balanced opiates I'd be a dead man walking #fuckpain #comedyismedicine 🙏can't forget that Jameson ! Wheres my sponsorship @jameson_us 😎📣😎peace to my people living in agony doing whatcha gotta do , no judgement over #teamfuckery way . https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOOaZplrAdeTor8oOEFaKYprQHuOAfVFfUndo0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=104oeo8y0gsak

[revrenstoyanddogpage]

So yesterday at work I did something dumb. I was prying a vent base off a copper vent when my metal probe slipped and stabbed into my hand. It went pretty deep and needed three stitches...and now today it aches. #anotherfuckupbyme #damninjury #probedeeperfool #ouch #3stitches #fuckpain https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm7HGz3Bff2/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1slyvliyz97yl

[resinseeds-blog]

Some of the 20+ terpenes found in our Cannatonic. Not our usual flower post but still worthy of merit. Only from Resin Seeds. Check our page resinseeds.net/distribution for worldwide shipping. #resinseeds #cannatonic #terpenes #thc #cbd #myrcene #cherry #love #weedculture #highlife #dank #vape #terpsfordays #terpprofile #joint #smellyourweed #stayloudandproud #fuckcancer #fuckpain #fuckepilepsy

[candacemcsillypants]

Fuck crohns disease

Having crohns disease sucks! Can't even do my normal tasks without it getting in the way. Just one day id like to wake up with no pains and not having to run to the washroom every five mins.