#fucking why am i so embarrassing

[buildabettermeme]

So you know how when you're a new Tumblr user that defected from Reddit because that ship is going dooowwwnn baaybaayy, and you don't really know how everything works yet, and so somehow you end up on your own profile page but you dont realize thats its your own and you scroll like 5 posts and you think to yourself "wow I agree with everything Im seeing this is interesting" and then its like "wait I think Ive read all these before" and then you freeze and look at the top bar and see your own tag and realize "oh god fuck I have just reblogged all these posts another time over" and then you have to go through and make sure you dont have unintended duplicates and burn in shame in hopeful privacy because fuck Im making a gigantic fool of myself on this lovely platform that I did not download nearly quickly enough

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Once I was scrolling thru naruto fics and saw the tag "buisnessman!Kakashi" and all I could think about was Kakashi being a child businessman, owning all the konoha adults at doing business while wearing an oversized suit and tie. That idea is so fucking funny to me.

[aq2003]

please do yourself a favor and listen to david tennant malvolio reading the fake love letter to him (act 2 scene 5 of twelfth night). im going to actually start sobbing. oh my GOD

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 Italian Grand Prix - Vettonso

[just-null]

How do we feel about Beach wear Noritoshi....

Everyone thinks he'd go covered head to toe wearing those wet suits divers use, but no. Noritoshi isn't the type to want to attract attention to himself when it's not needed, so he'd try to blend in. Emphasis on try.

He's the guy wearing a covering or some shit. I think you'd have to fight him to wear a translucent one. (if you splash him with water, you'll acheive the same effect thoughahahaha) even though it's a beach, he's trying to find an appropriate way to cover up, hes just like that. yes to sunscreen ofc. I can see him in a sun hat, but it's not his.. maybe he took it from one of the girls

HIS HAIR WOULD BE UP BC ITD BE TOO HOT AND THE SUN HAT WOULD HELP HIM FROM GETTING OVERHEATED H.H....H IS FACE WOULD BE FLUSHED BC OF THE HEAT AND. AND. AND.. he's like the beach babe on the shore, soaking up the sun and reading a book or smth. if you splash him with water, i can see him trying to get you back. then boom bam, hes in the water with everyone else.

OH FUCK that's even IF he goes to the beach. it's like seeing God in the flesh, idk man I'd go blind........... hed probably come along when he realizes theres hot people at the beach. he cant have you looking at people in that state, hold on hes going. give him five minutes..!

EXTRA

[untied covering version under the cut. like his booefjehsaf are out aha.]

ahahahahahahahahaa *froths at the mouth*

mf dont even begin to look at me like that

[dreaming-of-barbi]

That's so fucked up that people are romantizing Franco, because even Red Barrels are showing him as a total creep and disgusting person. In Outlast Tag I have a feeling that some artists are making him completly different character, making him charming/safe/lovely. I even have seen some people who were drawing him with normal face (without big forehead) and you couldn't tell them that it's the right character design! I feel like Franco enjoyers are more agressive than fans of other Outlast character. Even with Coyle/Eddie simps they seem to understand that they are evil and they murder others, but with Franco I feel like they can take it when someone tell them that he's grown up, murder people in very brutal way and his voice lines are just disgusting... it really seems that people are getting agressive only because someone tell some shit about 🎀✨️Franco🎀✨️. I know his fans isn't the only one that have stick in their ass (cause I seen a lot of shit bout Coyle/Big Grunts/Easterman etc.) but yall need to understand that FRANCO IS A GROWN ASS MAN and you would run for your life if you'd meet someone in irl as 1% fucked up as he is. Saying that he's just a Baby and he made nothing wrong is just 🤮 and problem is in yall if you justificate him and things he made.

idk how to tell you this ,,,, but this game is fictional. The characters are fictional. You're free to feel however you want about them, just like I and anyone else is.

I partially agree with the part about changing his appearance to make him look more "normal" or whatever, but at the same time people are allowed to interpret their favs however they want to. They can draw / write for him however they want to. I don't like "fixing" his face, just because it (personally) feels like saying "he's too ugly", but again, that's just me. As an artist, I know that people are going to have different interpretations of a character I like. It's just part of other people existing in the world. Not everyone thinks like you do, and that's okay.

Do you know how many posts I saw (and STILL see) about Eddie Gluskin, doing essentially the same thing as what you said people do with Franco?? That man would cut you open to "make a baby in you" no hesitation and people still ""romanticize"" him (me fuckin included I LOVE YOU EDDIE). Its just part of liking fucked up characters, some people are going to want to make them more "normal".

Personally, I see the normalization as more like wanting to give him some normalcy in his life, because of his past / lore. I love the idea of letting Franco have a normal life, be a normal person. A life where he never had to deal with the stupid Mafia stuff, had a decent father and never ran into Murkoff, having a normal, happy life. But, I also seriously adore his original, fucked up character.

Honestly, who actually cares if people are "justifying" his actions??? None of them are real. He is not real. I have never understood the sentiment that you have to make sure people know you don't justify a fictional characters actions... they are not real. It's not a real person. None of the things he did happened.

Maybe it's just me, but I would not run from someone like him. That's not some edge lord "im so evil and dark" bs but because of my real life experiences. Been with and around people in my life / family who are quite like him and I didn't run.

I imagine some of us are using it as a sort of coping mechanism, because (at least for me) some of us dealt with people who treated us like he would. Though, that's getting into personal territory, and I won't try and speak for others.

All I can really say is either learn that not everybody's going to have the same ideas as you or block the tag. Sorry if that's too harsh a response, but life is too short to really give that much of a fuck about someone /something other people like.

And I've said this before but this is literally Outlast, all of the characters are this fucked up, it's not just him.

Like does no one remember Outlast 2??? Does no one remember the pile of dead burnt babies, or the hundreds of other fucked up things in that game?? I really feel like Franco does not compare.

So, can we please just be over with this now? I mean, drama is totally fun and I love it, but I can imagine others don't.

[lesbianphan]

WE WON THE SHIP FANDOMETRICS I THINK I NEED TO RUN A VICTORY LAP AROUND MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK IT WE WON! WE BALL!

[lilekrosc0]

Yuh

[krynutsreal]

haiii posting some old sky au doodles happy Valentine's day :]

OK. ALSO. THMEM. KISSING OR WBAGEVER .

holds head innhands . guys they'r so bad at it they're so bad . someone come push them off a cliff for me

[mysticalcats]

ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed

ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them

and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it

and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it

so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO

[shannonsketches]

He said "Fuck this shit, I'm out" I'm crying. Toriyama's Vegeta was so top shelf 🤌

(From Neko Majin Z Chapter 5!)

[quailxcrossing]

thinkingg..............i might want to post some AU content on here. bc my posts are just seen by my awesome friends n moots and most of them can't see my AU work...but they have no idea the beloved antics i put in my AUs.................i want yall to see the waffle fries human au SO bad

[cabbagewhites]

crying in public probably isn’t a good look for me but i don’t really give a fuck anymore.

[bueris]

sorry I acted like that when you spoke to me I'm not used to getting genuine positive attention so I get a bit weird

[evilrobot-bill]

I don't even know how to start this but oh my god.

Watching Blade Trinity with the fam, as one does, and in the opening scene (which you can watch here if you want. Little warning for screaming but it's vamp slaying goodness) I see for literally a second... A SECOND... or less before the guy gets garlic powdered, his jacket opens.

Anyway I'm not crazy right..? This is the boys n Star???

Ignore the subtitles ... and the horrible quality but I couldn't stop thinking about it so this is a late night escapade. Comparison pic for your viewing pleasure (just crop Mikey out... that's what I do)

[jjandthebees]

Now that my body has recovered from this weekend, I just need to vent about my experience..

I went to see Dan and Phil at the TIT show in Oakland on Friday and it didn't go as expected 😮‍💨

The show itself was fucking amazing of course!! Just the surrounding situation really boned me.

(For reference I use an electric wheelchair)

Doors open at 4pm for the m&g

I'm running late because:

-the motel requires a cash deposit. we have to walk to an ATM

-the motel wouldn't let us check in with the info on file and it took fucking forever to get checked in

(to a room I had to pay extra for to make sure I got on the ground floor and it wasn't even wheelchair accessible... 😒 there's a 2" lip to even get into the room. They didn't tell me this when I called on the phone asking about wheelchair accessibility)

-we couldn't find the entrance to the train station that had an elevator

-Once we found it and got through the maze of finding the accessible way to get to anything, we miss the train. (Once we're on the next one, I realize that since we were so rushed, I forgot the gift I spent all week working on for dnp and the letter I wrote them is still sitting on a side table in the motel room 😭)

-We get off the train, but we have to walk back to the entire other side of the damn station, three blocks back (because that's where the only elevator is) to get up to the street level...  So we have to walk those 3 blocks back above ground to get to the theater.

4:30

We arrive at Paramount theater. Fortunately that part goes fine, our tickets are scanned, we get our merch, and I go pick up my physical tickets for my new (wheelchair accessible) seats from will call, as expected.

4:50ish

Someone comes up to me and says something like

"Hi! The meet and greet is upstairs and we don't have elevators, so once the meet and greet is over, we'll have them come down and greet you."

(Terrifying. What I wanted to say was smth like .. please don't make them come all the way down here...' But also. I couldn't make it up those stairs. The line was so long and I couldn't stand in it for an hour on those stairs.)

Someone came by a few mins later and said they'll come get me and take me aside around 5:30 for a private m&g downstairs after everyone was done.

😳 (okie dokie, super not prepared for that, but I'm apparently rolling with the punches today.)

I do wish someone would have told me that when I emailed earlier in the week about wheelchair accomodations for the m&g, because now I'm here way early for no reason. But now I can't leave and come back.

5:50

I'm nervous because the q&a is supposed to start in ten minutes ..... But staff reassured me that they'll be down to say hello before the q&a, probably in 20 minutes.

At this point I'm MORE anxious bc I feel like this is making them later than they already are.

Then a staff member brings me into the corner door and we enter the back of the empty theater, where it seems like they're having a staff meeting or doing final checks before the show and talking about logistics?? And my partner and I are just awkwardly there like... Off to the side, but someone finally says, "Ok, I'm gonna go get Dan and Phil."

So I stand up (bc I want to be standing for my picture and I didn't want them to wait for me to get on my feet and get my stuff together) and I grab the mini poster from the my bag for them to sign the back of, and I have my phone in selfie mode already, and my Polaroid out.

(Me like, ok I need to take a picture of this situation because this is insane right?)

I don't know what to expect attttt all because... I didn't get to see any one else do their m&g, and there's no photo backdrop or anything so I'm internally panicking about doing the Wrong Thing but trying to remain calm and keep things brief and mellow.

All the staff leaves, so the theater is empty with just me and my partner weirdly in this corner where there's not a lot of space to stand.

All the lights turn off...... Cool.

And then we hear hundreds of fans screaming in the lobby, so we know they're about to come in, and a few moments later the doors open and almost hit us 💀 (bc again the staff told us to be here-- and really there's nowhere with more open space to stand... and no one can see bc all the lights are still off)

I saw their faces briefly as they came in the door, but when it closed we were all in a very very dark theater in the back corner where it's very cramped and my chair is just parked by the wall (because there was no space to turn it around btw) and I'm standing like

😳 um ...

"The lights all just turned off like.. a minute ago I, uh". 

I'm trying not to panic because I already feel embarrassed about this whole fucking thing.

Phil in the sweetest voice ever is just like "yes, can we get the lights back on please?"

The lights came on shortly after it was totally fine, the issue was mostly that everyone in the theater was hurrying them along because the Q&A was supposed to start 24 minutes ago.

And they were both so sweet of course!! Phil asked if we wanted hugs and we all exchanged hugs

I said it was really lovely to meet them and they were so nice. My partner thanked them for coming all the way down to meet us and they said it was no problem at all.

I mentioned writing a letter and making a gift but leaving it at the hotel and Dan was like "honestly that's more relatable"

They signed my poster, Dan asked if I wanted a Polaroid (since I had it out)  and said we should take another with the phone in case anyone's eyes were closed.

He said he'd use his selfie stick arm to take the picture, snapped that and said we had to get a selfie with our outfits cuz we looked really cool and I was just like... Wow thank you so much

They were like "great to meet you!"

I knew they were in a hurry, so I just said, "if it's not too much to ask could I ask you to doodle something for me that I can get tattooed to commemorate tonight?" and they were so sweet

Phil asked if I wanted anything in particular, I asked for a little creature or a little guy, just a little doodle, Dan said he'd draw a few things so I could choose.

I said thank y'all so much and it was so great to meet you and have a great show

And they were ushered away to go back stage to start the q&a.

Preface:

I am not trying to be ungrateful or complain when I still got to meet them and they were so fucking sweet about having to come all the way downstairs to meet me after they were already running late for the Q&A

But... I'm just so disappointed that I didn't get the same experience as everyone else. It really bummed me out to scroll through the m&g stories and see people get cool things signed, video messages for friends, multiple poses in pictures, or individual and group photos, cute stories of getting to talk to them...

And I was really rushed through and didn't have a 1 on 1 experience. (Or-- 1:2 experience, that is)

I had already left my gift/letter at the hotel, so I didn't get to give that to them..

I'm about to be thirty years old and I've been watching them since I was literally fourteen and I was looking forward to this so much and instead of getting to the m&g and fucking it up in my own special way because I'm anxious and knew I would be nervous, I feel like the universe punished me for being in a wheelchair. 😵‍💫

I was put into a small space where I couldn't have even met them in my wheelchair if I wanted to. And they were being rushed. The room wasn't very well lit so the Polaroid didn't even turn out, which seems like such a silly thing to care about... But I do.

I just didn't get to say anything meaningful to them and I felt humiliated for them to have to come meet me separately because I can't walk up the damn stairs 😮‍💨

I also didn't get a solo selfie which like. Idk. It feels embarrassing to be upset about that but I tried so hard to come up with a very short and simple goal for the meet and greet (selfie, full body Polaroid, cute doodle from them) and instead we got a very rushed meet and greet for my partner and myself squished into one 30 second interaction.

The thing I'd left at the hotel for them to sign had a short blurb written "I want a tattoo to commemorate this Good Night, could you each draw me a little creature please?"

And my partner wanted YWGTTN signed 😮‍💨

And again to reiterate-- zero hard feelings here AT Dan and Phil, they were SO fucking lovely, they were being rushed, they were already late, and they had no control over the venue-- or anything else that happened to me that day for that matter. The show was still brilliant and I had a really great night overall!

I'm just feeling really sad that on top of not getting to give them my gift or anything that the m&g was so rushed :(

Idk. Fuck the motel and fuck the venue for making this so hard. And for shoving two meet and greets into one 😮‍💨

On the brighter note, here is my cute selfie with my partner and Dan and Phil standing next to my wheelchair. And our outfits did turn out really cool 🥺🥺

That said. If anyone going to a show and meeting dnp in the US would be down for me to mail you the letter, stickers, and two buttons I made for them to just hand to them, I would be so fucking grateful. I just really want to give them the letter, I worked on it all week 😭

(Or if anyone is willing to get Dan to draw a little guy like Phil did so I can get it tattooed-- bc I don't think he heard me which is totally fair)

Anyway thanks for listening I'm just emotional and it's truly (outside of this) been a really bad month so I think I'm just. 😵‍💫😮‍💨 Extra emotionally vulnerable.