#fuck man like i say i crush on other actors but really i have never crushed like i crush on angel eyes

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there are two genres of actors i like to call gay. jensen ackles who has the kind of history and persona that makes me want to bully him & accuse him of being closeted in revenge for growing up being hate-crimed by him and also because it's funny and also because it's probably not true but definitely could be. and after a decade of hearing his distasteful gay jokes he just seems like kind of a dick so i don't really care about his feelings.

ryan guzman on the other hand has the history and persona that makes me understand every seemingly contradictory thing he says in interviews and want to get it through to his head that yes of course you're right that being in touch with your emotions does not make you gay and you never should've had to grow up in a homophobic environment that made you have to repress parts of yourself to survive and yes it is really important for guys to be able to see straight men be vulnerable with each other and with their queer male friends on tv without it calling their own sexuality into question. but crucially it is also okay if separate from and unrelated to all that you do just want to sleep with men. it's allowed, man. and it wouldn't make you a bad representation of positive and emotionally-intelligent masculinity. if anything seeing characters like eddie be gay helps to destigmatize homosexuality and show that it's not an insult, that it is normal. he just seems like he cares so much about representing the kind of role model he wishes he had for himself and those around him growing up and playing eddie gives him the avenue to portray vulnerability and emotionality for that kind of audience and he doesn't want to lose that.

he's never cruel or dismissive like jensen ackles, he just gets a little awkward with it and cares a lot about it being done right. the thing is he DOES have incredible zendaya-laughing chemistry with oliver and their characters HAVE been there for each other through it all, when it's good and when it's tough, and their partnership is so special. but, and y'know this may be an incredibly controversial opinion, but i'm a bisexual guy and my best friend is gay and we click and sure when i first met him i had a crush on him but we're not in love though i do love him a lot and would do anything for him, so i do see a lot of him and myself in eddie and buck. and i don't think it would make their relationship any less meaningful if it never went the romantic route, as much as i do see the love and devotion they share and think it would be really fucking awesome if they got to kiss sloppy live on 9-1-1onabc. but they are already each other's person, they're already family. NOT saying that that's never been done before—iconic bffl duo shawn and gus immediately come to mind lol—so it's not really so life-and-death important for the trajectory of the world to keep buddie platonic, just, i do get where ryan's coming from even though i don't think he's right about everything.

all of that being said. for the love of god eddieryan we're gonna get you out. also i hope u get to have your back blown out by oliver stark someday godbless 🙂‍↕️

[catherinnn]

Faking It, Feeling It

summary: fake dating with eddie! where jason and chrissy break up and they become a little too obssessed with Eddie and you. so much so that you start acting as if you two are already dating so they'd leave you alone. but you were never very good actors.

warnings: mature content (not actual smut but implies), jealously, swearing, just major fluff really.

6.8k words

The last few weeks at Hawking’s High have been hell, even more than normal.

Star couple, high school sweethearts, prom queen and king of the school: Chrissy and Jason had broken up.

They have been dating since their freshmen year, and now they’re currently in their senior year.

And while it was hell for everyone who thought they were the perfect couple, the ones that claim they no longer believe in love since they broke up; it was even more of a hellhole for you and for Eddie Munson.

A weird combo, I know. Why do you two randoms have anything to do with the break up? You may have had like two conversations with Hellfire’s Dungeon Master in total within all of your high school years.

All you knew of him was what the people here say about him, which you don’t really believe in. You don’t really care, you’ve learned the hard way to not care about the rumors they spread in this town.

But back to the original question, I’ll give you the answer: Eddie and you are involved in this whole situation because after the happy couple decided to break up and accept their new bachelorhood, they wanted to get back out there and be with other people, and guess who their first options were? You for Jason, and Eddie for Chrissy.

Not so random since Eddie and Chrissy have been friends for ages, plus, Chrissy knew he was the perfect guy to get back at Jason. That Eddie has had a little crush on Chrissy for ages was totally a coincidence. A happy one she would say.

And since you’ve been trying to ignore Jason’s longing stares at you while he was actually dating Chrissy, trying to forget about the time he had called ‘dibs’ on you if he was ever single again, so none of his other friends made a move on you— not that they really listened —it was not random either.  

Now the question may be: Why has it been hell for both of you?

The thing is, Jason and Chrissy have been flirting with you and Eddie at every given chance since they broke up.

For obvious reasons you didn’t want to go on a date with Jason. Not even if he was the last man on earth.

Eddie didn’t want to date Chrissy because, even if he has had a crush on her for so long, he realized that she would only use him as a rebound, a toy she plays with for a little while just to make her ex jealous. And even if his hellfire friends told him “fuck it, that’s the only chance you’ll get with a girl like her! Take it anyways” It didn’t feel right for him, so he decided not to do it.

As for right now, you were currently running away from the classroom you just had history at. It was one of the classes you shared with Jason, and even if you did have the luck to not be seated with him, it was in his plans to walk you out of the class to flirt a bit more and maybe you’ll finally agree to go on a date.

“Gorgeous! Wait up for me!” he yelled at you, but you were luckily faster than him and got out of the classroom before he could catch you. You did see him spot you in the hallway though, so you ran without even looking where you were going.

You turned to the left into another hall with a couple of doors. You tried to open the first one but it was locked, you tried the second one but quickly realized it was the boy’s bathroom— because a boy inside fixing his jeans looked at you with a horrifying look on his face and stared to yell at you to get out.

You heard Jason calling out your name, so you quickly entered the third door and closed it behind you.

You heard his footsteps slowing down.

“Hey, princess! Where did you go!” you heard him continue walking further into the hall and away from your hiding place.

You sighed.

“Caaann we help you?” a voice behind you asked.

You turned around and saw a full table of people staring at you weirdly.

“Oh- sorry, I didn’t know you guys were here”

“You didn’t see the sign on the door that said ‘do not enter’?” a younger boy asked you a little annoyed.

“Actually no, I was kind of in a hurry to… hide from somebody” you confessed.

“Who?”

“Jason Carver”

“Wait, I know you” The guy at the end on the table spoke, whom you did know too, Eddie. He said your name to confirm he did actually know who you were.

“The one and only”

“Why would you even run away from Jason Carver? Isn’t he like every girl in here’s dream boy?” The same annoyed boy asked you again, you recognized him as Nancy Wheeler’s brother… Mike was it?

“What, him? Disgusting, he’s been trying to make a move on me even before him and Chrissy broke up, so now he’s even more annoying” you told them.

“Alright, we’re kind of in the middle of something here-“ an older guy started but Eddie cut him off.

“He’s been annoying you too?”

“What? Did he try something on you too?” you joked.

“What- no! I mean that Chrissy has been flirting with me nonstop as well since they broke up, I already told her no, but she keeps trying to convince me”

“You rejected Chrissy Cunningham?”

“I ask myself that same question everyday” another guy commented, a curly-headed one.

“No! I don’t mean it in a mean way, it’s just- I thought every guy wanted to date Chrissy Cunningham”

“She’s only trying to use me to get back at Jason- you know what? Doesn’t matter. Just a funny coincidence that the same couple is annoying both of us” Eddie explained.

“Yeah, how funny” you said in a sarcastic tone. “Look, you can continue with your board game, I just need to hide for a few minutes until Jason finally leaves”

A few guys sigh in annoyance, but Eddie nods and signals a chair near him so you can sit.

“So… wait- you’re both trying to get out of Chrissy and Jason’s flirting with you?” the curly-headed guy speaks again.

Eddie and you nod.

“And you’ve both already rejected them?”

You two nod again.

“But they won’t listen?”

Again.

“Huh”

“What?” you ask.

“Nothing, I just… thought of something funny”

“What?” Eddie asks.

“Well, if this was one of those rom-coms my sister always watches, you could both start acting like you’re dating each other. That way both of them leave you two alone” he comments.

“Act like we’re dating?”

“Yeah, how would that even work?”

“Well, in those movies they usually act like an actual couple, like, maybe you could have lunch together in the cafeteria, or walk each other to your classes, come to school together, things like that” he explains.

“Umm- I don’t really see that working, they would see right through” you say.

“Yeah, how we even start dating in this fantasy? We’ve barely spoken before” Eddie comments.

“Yeah, it doesn’t make any sense”

“Okay, I don’t really care about this so, are we gonna continue the campaign? Because otherwise I could use the free time” Mike interrupts and Eddie is brought back to reality to continue with the game.

A few days after all of that, you were in the cafeteria trying to find your group of friends but you don't seem to find them anywhere in there, maybe they're still grabbing lunch.

"Hey you! I can finally talk to you again, you've been really busy lately, I barely see you anymore!" Jason corners you right when you're about to sit at a free table.

"Hi Jason... yeah, I've been -busy with school, you know?"

"Yeah I understand, you know I've been having a hard time with Spanish this semester, and I know you're very good at it" he starts and you fear where he's going with this.

"Yeah, I wouldn't say very good, you know Rachel Stinson? She's much better than me, the best in our class!"

"Yeah, but I don't really know her. Plus I think you'd be a better teacher than her, and a cuter one as well" he says giving you a smirk, very proud of his response.

"Eddie, look" Gareth tells Eddie and signals to where you stand with Jason, looking very uncomfortable.

"Fuck, yeah. He's definitely asking her out again" he comments.

"You could... help her"

"How? Is this about your little plan?"

"I'm just saying, you would totally save her and you'd like that if that was you and Chrissy instead of her and Jason" he points out. Eddie thinks about it for a few seconds. Gareth is right: he would be grateful if he didn't have to come up with another excuse to Chrissy.

Fuck it, he's already walking up to you two.

"Jason I don't..." you start but someone interrupts.

"Hi pretty girl, I haven't seen you all day"

You turn and see Eddie.

"What?" you ask confused but you see him blink at you and you remember what his friend told you about. "Oh! Hi Eddie, I didn't see you there"

"Have you been avoiding me, princess?" he asks with a smirk while putting his hands on your waist.

"I could never!" you say and put your hands on his shoulders.

"Um... hi?" Jason interrupts you two.

"Hi Jason?" Eddie greets him with a wondering tone, "Oh, we're you talking to him, baby?"

"Oh no, he was just telling me that he's having trouble with Spanish" you explain.

"Oh yeah, she's great at Spanish, good thing I have her as a personal teacher" Eddie comments quickly catching on.

"You're teaching him?" Jason asks you.

"Yeah, for like a month already I think"

"Thanks to this pretty little thing right here, I have a B in Spanish now"

"Wait, I- I'm confused, what are you two?" Jason asks with a frown on his face.

"Well, we haven't really put a title to it... but we've been seeing each other for a few weeks now" you explain.

"Seeing each other? As in... dating?" he asks again.

"Can you believe it? The prettiest girl in Hawkins gave me a chance" Eddie says and gives you a kiss on the cheek.

"I can't believe it" Jason murmurs.

You hear your name being called from behind you, you turn and finally see your friends with surprised and confused faces looking at this scene.

"Hey girls, finally," you greet them, "Eddie, I'll see you later, yeah?" you say to him getting a little too close to his face to emphasize the flirting.

"Mhm, please" he adds and lets you go.

"Bye Jason" you quickly say to him and then walk over to your friends to explain everything.

Later that day, you were quick to find Eddie before he got into his van to leave.

"Hey, Eddie!" He turned around and waited till you got closer. "I just wanted say thank you for helping me today with Jason, you really saved me there"

"No problem, really. I'm still surprised it actually worked" he comments.

"Yeah," you laugh, "either Jason's really stupid or we're really good actors"

"A bit of both maybe" he laughs.

"Anyways, thanks for today, I owe you one" you finally say, and start walking away.

"Wait" Eddie stops you after a few seconds, "Maybe we could actually do what Gareth said"

"Which one was Gareth again?" you ask.

"The one with all the curls, he told us to act like we're dating" he explained.

"Oh, yeah. Umm, I mean it really worked. Jason left me alone for the rest of the day"

"We can try it on Chrissy next time and see if she buys it"

"Yeah, sure" you say with a smile.

"Do you need a ride? We can maybe work out the details on the way" he offers and you accept.

--

"So the story would be that I started tutoring you in Spanish and then started dating" you confirm.

"Yeah, that seems believable. Do we need any rules for this?"

"Like what?"

"Like... boundaries, I don't know"

"Yeah umm, well obviously no real intimacy, we should communicate openly to avoid misunderstandings, umm what else?" you list.

"How long are we gonna do this for?" he asks.

"Maybe we should see how it goes, I don't want to say that we should do it for the rest of the year, so maybe until both of them are no longer interested in us" you propose.

"Yeah, that's good. What about physically?"

"Umm well, the hugging was fine, flirting obviously. I don't know, what couples do"

"Kissing?" he asks.

"I guess we would have to do it eventually to seem believable" you say.

"Yeah, totally"

The next day Eddie came to find you in your locker.

"Are you ready to start, girlfriend?" he jokes.

"Yeah, sure... boyfriend"

He walks you to class, you sit together in the classes you share, you start doing everything together that morning.

Eddie and you are walking to his locker and when he opens it, a note falls from it. He grabs it and reads:

Meet me in the woods at lunch. -C

He sighs.

"Guess we're having lunch together too" you say.

"Yup, seems like it" he confirms.

And you sit at the Hellfire table next to him. Eddie explains to the guys what you two are doing and Gareth has a big smile because he was right, his plan actually worked.

After like 20 minutes, Chrissy shows up in the cafeteria.

"Eddie! There you are!" she walks up to your table and you quickly sit closer to him. "Didn't you get my note?"

"Note? Oh, I totally forgot Chrissy. Guess this one here distracted me" he blames you with a sweet tone.

"I did not!" you say giggling a little.

"Oh, I didn't know you were in hellfire" Chrissy says to you.

"Oh, I'm not, I just wanted to have lunch with him" you explain to her while you play a little with Eddie's hair.

Chrissy frowns, clearly not understanding anything that's going on.

"Sorry Chrissy, what did you want though?" Eddie asks.

"Well, I wanted to ask you if you're doing something this weekend, maybe we could go see a movie?" she proposes.

"Oh, I'm sorry I already made plans with her," he puts his arm around your shoulders "right, sweetheart?"

"Yeah sorry, he's all mine this weekend" you joke and give him a sweet kiss on the cheek.

"Oh, I didn't know you two were..."

"Dating? Yeah" you finish her sentence.

"Huh, well... congrats!" she says with a fake smile on and walks away.

"That was quite a show" one of Eddie's friends says. You should really ask Eddie for their names, it seems like you're going to spend more time with them than before.

As the week continued, your acting did too. Jason wasn’t bothering you as much, and if he did you just gave him the excuse that Eddie was waiting for you and walked away.

But on the second week you started to notice Jason’s stares while you were with Eddie, either at lunch, or class, talking in some hall. Anywhere. It was like he was studying or analyzing, looking for something between you two.

When you told Eddie about this, he said you would have to be yet more believable. So far you’ve only been flirting or close to each other if Chrissy or Jason were around.

But now you’re acting for the whole school. If one of Jason’s friends sees you two a little distant, they would tell him right away.

Right now, you two were standing in front of the door of your next class, a class you share with Jason. You were just standing there, talking closely to each other.

“The short one with the curls is Dustin, and his friend, the tall one with black hair is Mike” he said to you sweetly. From the outside it looked way more romantic.

“Wheeler, right?” you confirm.

“Yeah, exactly!” he says with a smile.

“Yeah, I figured because he looks just like his sister, Nancy” you told him, looking up at him lovingly.

“Yeah, is true…”

“Oh, Jason is coming” you tell Eddie as soon as you see him.

“Ok, do you trust me on this?” he asks and you’re a bit confused but you still nod anyway.

When Eddie is able to hear footsteps behind him, figuring it was Jason, he grabs your face with the one hand that wasn’t on your waist, pulls you closer to him and gives you a sweet kiss on the lips.

It wasn’t very long or short, just the right time for you to feel his soft lips on yours, feel his soft touch on your cheek. Just the right time for you to hold your breath for a second because your mind became so occupied by him that you just forgot.

Who would have thought Eddie Munson could be so sweet? Not you.

For a second there you also forgot why he had kissed you in the first place. But thanks to Jason you fell back to reality, since he walked right next to you two to enter the classroom while clearing his throat a little too loud.

-

“Why is Jason looking at our table so angrily?” One of the kids asks while sitting down. Lucas, you learned his name was.

“I may have kissed the girl he likes in front of him and now it seems like he’s pretty angry” Eddie explains with a smirk.

“You’re kissing now?” Dusting asks.

“Yeah, I mean we had to, he was already suspecting something”

“Lucas is right though, why is he still looking at us like that?” you notice.

“Are you done eating?” Eddie asks you.

“Yeah”

“Come here” he pulls his chair back to have more space between him and the table and pats his thigh.

“Excuse me?”

“Sit here with me, let’s actually give him something to stare at”

“I am sitting here with you, you’re asking me to sit on you” you tell him.

“Sweetheart, please. I know it will work, it will make him even angrier” he convinces you somehow and you end up sitting on his lap.

“Well, if you’re gonna do it, you should be more convincing” Gareth corrects.

“How?” you ask annoyed.

“Loose the attitude, you want them to think you like Eddie so much that you need to be as close as possible to him at all times, and right now you look like you hate this and you want to run away from him” Gareth explains.

“Wait, do you?” Eddie asks concerned.

“No! No, it’s fine,” you comfort him and adjust yourself on him, sitting more casual, as if you do this all the time, “Better?”

“Yeah, I’d say that’s ok”

“Hey, I was meaning to ask you,” Eddie starts, everyone at the table went back to their own conversation so he’s only talking to you now. “you can totally say no, because it wouldn’t be at school, and I don’t know, we haven’t really discussed if we’re still doing this outside of school-“

“Eds, you’re rambling. Just tell me, what is it?” you cut him off.

“Well, you know I’m in a band with the boys and we’re playing this Thursday, so Chrissy came up to me today and told me that she was looking forward to Thursday because she was planning on coming to see us play, to see me” he explains.

“Oh” you cringe. “I’ll go too”

“Really? I don’t want to force you or anything, you’re already doing this here at school, wouldn’t want to bother you outside as well”

“Eds, I’m not just doing this, you’re helping me here too,” you tell him with a smile, he can be really cute sometimes. “It’s not trouble at all, I didn’t have any plans for Thursday night anyway”

“Thanks, really” he says.

“Besides, it would be weird if you’re playing with your band and your girlfriend wasn’t there to see you front row. Kind of suspicious, don’t you think?” you joke.

“Definitely suspicious, but your boyfriend will buy you a drink anyway for the trouble” he says and you feel like there’s a flirty tone in his voice, but… no, it couldn’t be. Nor Jason or Chrissy were around to listen.

Either way, you don’t know if it is because of how close his face is to yours right now, the possible flirty tone he’s using, calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend, or because of the stupid kiss he gave you before that you can’t seem to stop thinking about, but you’re feeling a strong desire to have his lips on yours again. 

And you’re kind of acting on autopilot right now, but your faces are already realllly close, your hand comes up to meet his cheek, he’s not pulling away or looking at you weirdly, so you do it. Your lips meet his in a short kiss, a sweet and delicate one.

But as soon as your lips separate and you look at him in the eyes, you panic.

“Uh I- I’m sorry, J –Jason was… looking at us again and –I kind of just-“ you start but he interrupts.

“It’s fine,” he laughs at your nervousness, “We’re dating, remember? So it’s normal that we kiss. Besides, I don’t really mind kissing you, sweetheart”

Thursday night came along and here you were with Corroded Coffin getting some drinks before it was their moment to play. You were a bit exited to see Eddie play, you weren’t going to lie.

“Eddie! Hii!” you hear Chrissy greeting— only him —behind you and so it was show time for you two. If this was a movie, it would be the director shouting ‘action.’

“Hey Chris” Eddie greets her back while pulling your chair closer to him subtly.

“Oh I’m so excited to see you play, have you seen him yet?” she asks you.

“No, it would be my first time. I’m really excited too!” you explain to her but you look at Eddie with a smile during that last sentence.

“Oh it’s like you’re dating a rockstar! I’m so jealous!” she jokes… I think? But you laugh anyway.

“Guys, you can start in five minutes” the bartender lets the guys know that they can go up stage already.

It’s just a few minutes of alone time with Chrissy once they guys go, but luckily they start pretty fast and all of your attention is on the stage, or on one of the people on stage anyway.

And you have to admit, you didn’t really know what to expect, metal music isn’t really your type of music and you didn’t know if the guys would be really good.

But they surprised you completely, even if it’s not the music you usually go for, the show was great. And they all played so good, you can tell they take this pretty seriously.

Eddie was completely mesmerizing on the guitar and after every guitar solo he played, you were there cheering for him so proudly. Along with a couple of other girls your age, you couldn’t help but notice.

Once they finish and come down the stage back to you, you were the first one to go give Eds a big hug.

And you’re going to excuse yourself because Chrissy was right next to you waiting to congratulate Eddie too, but as soon as you two separate a little from the hug you take the chance and give him a good kiss that has all of his friends cheering as well.

This time it wasn’t a shy or short kiss. You had one arm around his neck and the other you used to grab his face by his cheek. He was already with his arms around your waist, but when he felt your lips on his, he pulled you in even closer.

And when you cut the kiss you look at him with an audacious look. “You were completely amazing”

A big smile forms on his face after your words and that kiss. “Thank you, baby”

An hour passed, you’ve all been drinking a little more, but luckily no one was actually drunk yet.

Chrissy had gone outside since one of her friends joined her and both went out for a smoke. So you and Eddie didn’t have to act anymore, he had gone closer to the bar with Gareth and you stayed talking to Jeff.

After a while, you excused yourself to go grab another drink, that’s when you see him again. But he wasn’t with Gareth. No, he was talking to another girl, one of the girls you saw cheering for him.

She was wearing a Black Sabbath cropped shirt with a little black skirt and boots, black hair with some red strands. Which made you feel… uncomfortable, like a little squeeze in your chest. She looked just like Eddie’s type.

Every time she laughed she would lean closer to him, and take the chance to touch his arms or chest.

He didn’t seem uncomfortable though, he was laughing too, having a blast. And you felt yourself getting angrier.

“Eds” you interrupt them, “sorry, I’m gonna steal him for just a second”

“What’s up?” he asks once you’re a few steps further from this girl.

“I just saw Chrissy getting inside the bar again. I’m sorry, but it would be weir if she saw you flirting with another girl” You lie… but just a little white lie, I mean, Chrissy could actually walk in again at any minute and see him with this other girl. Imagine the mess.

“Oh, yeah that would be weir” luckily he agrees, “thanks”

“Do you wanna go over there? I was chatting with Jeff” you propose.

“Yeah, I’ll be you with in a second, just let me apologize to this other girl”

“Yeah sure, and can you get me another drink while you’re there?” you ask him with a smile.

“Of course”

After a few minutes he meets you and Jeff. “Here’s your drink, princess”

“Thank you, how much was it?”

“Don’t worry” he says.

“No, come on. You already bought a drink for me, let me pay for this one” you insist.

“Buut I wanted to buy you another one, so let me” he says with a smile.

“Alright, but we’ll share this one”

After a couple of minutes of talking with the boys, Chrissy still didn’t show up and you were a little nervous he would discover your lie.

But thankfully, after ten minutes, she and her friend came back inside, walking right over to you. Eddie sees them too, his arm was already around you, plus you were both sharing a drink so you didn’t worry.

“Guys, we were gonna head home already” she announces. For a second there you were cursing internally fearing that once she left, Eddie would go back to the girl from before.

“Oh yeah, maybe we could head off as well, right sweetheart?” he asks you.

“Yeah, sure” you agree with a smile. Luck was on your side today.

You greet everyone and Eddie drives you home.

“Thank you for coming today, really”

“It was really fun. You really were amazing up there, I didn’t just say that because Chrissy was there” you confess.

“Thank you, and I’m glad you had fun, maybe –um, you could come again next time, if –if you want” he proposes a little nervously.

“I’d like that, count me in”

“Great” a little smile forms on his face from your words.

“You know��� you’re not what I thought you’d be like” you confess, maybe you were tipsier than you thought.

“What? A freak?” he says and it breaks your heart a little that that is the first thing he thinks.

“No, just… a little scary maybe”

“Am I not scary?” he looks at you acting threatening.

“No, not at all” you laugh, “you’re really funny and really sweet actually, like a teddy bear—TEDDIE!”

“I’m not a teddy bear!” he defends.

“You are, a really cute one” you say without even thinking, and you don’t see this but Eddie blushes hard from your comment.

“Thank you, princess”

“You know Jason calls me princess all the time too?”

“Oh –sorry”

“No, I actually like when you call me that. When he does it is disgusting, but when you do it its actually nice… it’s weird” you ramble a little.

“Well, I’m glad you like it when I do it because I like calling you that, it suits you” he says, “We’re here sweetheart, do you need help getting to bed?”

“Eddie!” you laugh at his question, “you know it’s only acting, we can’t actually sleep together!”

“I didn’t mean it like that” he laughs a little at your reaction, but you see his cheeks also turn red, “I meant if you need help to walk, or go up the stairs?”

“Oh no, I’m fine, thanks” you give him a kiss on the cheek, “Bye, thank you for driving me”

“Bye princess” he greets you with a smile.

--

The next day it was hellfire Friday, you walked with Eddie to the drama room where the guys were waiting for him. You weren’t going to stay, you just walked him to say bye to the boys and then go home.

“Ok, I should get going now. Bye everyone!” you greeted them and they greeted back. “Bye Eddie” you turned around to see him and gave him a smile.

“Bye sweetheart, see you next week” he gave you a hug and off you went.

“Wow, she walked you all the way here just to say bye?” Dustin noticed. “Even without Chrissy or Jason in the room you still seem to be acting”

Before Eddie could answer, he noticed that Mike and Lucas are practically biting their tongue to hold their laughs.

“It was nothing, she just said goodbye, what was so romantic about that?” Eddie explains.

“Last night at the bar they were both extra sweet with each other, even when Chrissy wasn’t around” Jeff joins in the teasing as well.

“They were?” Dusting asks concerned which seems to only be worse for Mike and Lucas since their faces are now fully red and with tears forming in their eyes.

“What’s up with you two?” Eddie finally asks them.

“Guys, stop please” Dustin complains to them, but this only makes them start screaming in laughter.

“You don’t realize?” Mike manages to say between laughs.

“You’re making little Dusty here soooo jealous” Lucas explains.

“Stooop” Dustin complains again.

“What do you mean ‘jealous’?” Eddie asks confused.

“He’s had a big crush on your fake girlfriend since he first saw her” Mike explains.

“God, I hate you two” Dustin tells them.

“Oh… you have?” Eddie asks him.

“I’s not like I’m waiting to get a chance with her, I know it would never happen, but it’s just –weird to see you kissing her and all of that” he explains himself. Eddie feels a little bad for him, but at the same time it bothers him a bit that Dustin has a crush on you. It’s like… you’re his, Eddie’s. It’s obvious you would never look at Dustin in a romantic way, he’s way too young. And it’s not like you and Eddie are a thing, you’re just acting, but it’s weir for him to know one of his friends has a thing for you.

And since that day—Eddie would never actually confess he’s doing this—but every time, after Chrissy or Jason would walk out after seeing you two all romantic, and you would move over and go back to your conversation with Dustin, he would come up with something to get your attention back on him.

Again, he would never actually confess he does this, it makes him feel like a little kid. Jealous of a literal fifteen year old, when he’s 20.

The following week felt different. The dynamics between you and Eddie had shifted since your fake romance began. Every stolen glance, every scripted touch, all the playful banter—they'd unconsciously started to blur the lines between acting and genuine affection.

Late at night, you find yourself replaying those moments. Holding hands while walking, his arm around your shoulder at any given time, every kiss, how fucking soft his lips were all the time, making you want to kiss them every second you’re around him. And when you’re not around him? You’re thinking of them, of him. Finding yourself actually missing his company.

Would Eddie feel the same? Does he miss having you around? Does he want your lips on his all the time like you do?

You were considering just killing yourself if he didn’t actually felt any of these things. Imagine the embarrassment it would be to have fallen for someone you’re pretending to date, and him feeling completely indifferent towards you. You’d have to move out of the country.

Thanks to these thoughts you were feeling a little uncomfortable around Eddie, so you started to—you wouldn’t say avoiding him—but trying not to be so close to him all the time. Until he started to notice you were being different around him.

One day, he decided to ask you about this. If it was really happening or if it was all in his head.

Because, if he was honest, he did start to overthink things when it came to you. You made him so nervous lately, he just wants to do everything right with you.

He was looking for you everywhere, even started to ask random people if they saw you today. A guy told him he had seen you going to the library a few minutes ago. And when he went to check, bingo. Finally he found you.

"Hey, there you are" he greeted you.

"Oh Eddie, what are you doing here?" he noticed your sudden nervousness. Fuck, what if he had done something to upset you?

"I was looking for you, I wanted to talk for a second"

"Now is not a really good time, you should get going, I'll find you later"

"Why?" he asks a little offended

"I think I saw-"

"Princess!" Jason finds you as well.

"...Jason" you whisper to Eddie finishing your sentence a little too late now.

"Oh and her apparent... prince" Jason comments referring to Eddie.

"Apparent?" he asks him.

"Jason, what do you want?" you ask annoyed.

"Why so defensive? You look way better with a smile on that pretty face" Jason started. "Is he bothering you?"

"No, I'm not!" Eddie answers. "Am I, sweetheart?"

"No, of course you're not" you lie for the sake of your fake relationship. Even though right now, they're both bothering you.

"See Jason, she was fine until you came, so why don't you go?" Eddie tells him while wrapping you in his arms. Fuck, you can already feel the stupid butterflies.

"Princess, I can tell when you're lying. Tell me and I'll take him off of you... with pleasure" Jason tells you.

"Jason, I’m fine!”

“Come here baby” Eddie said taking you to one of the tables away from Jason.

“Thanks, he’s so annoying I swear… Eds?” you started complaining but he wasn’t playing attention, still looking over at where Jason stands.

“He’s still staring at us, giving me looks” he complains. He looks back at you and brings you closer to him, wrapping his arms around you again.

“Eds…”

“Let me just do this” he finally says before kissing you. He gives you a sweet kiss. One where your lips are dance together until you someone interrupts.

“Excuse me?” The lady of the library says a little offended. “You can’t come here and do that, I’m going to have to ask you to leave”

“What?” you ask confused, but before you can even comprehend what’s happening, Eddie grabs your hand and starts running deeper into the library.

“Excuse me?!” You hear the lady from far away now.

Eddie turns in a random aisle and runs with you until you reach the end of the hall.

“Shhh” he says to you and tries to listen if the lady has followed you two or not, “I think we’re clear”

“Why was it necessary to run from her? She’s like 60” you complain.

“What is your deal today?” he asks.

“What?” you act as if you don’t know what he means.

“Why are you so annoyed?”

“It’s just… Jason, he puts me in a bad mood”

“That’s not true, you wanted me to leave you alone even before he showed up”

“I don’t have a deal, I don’t know what you mean”

“I think you do, and not just today, you’ve been weird with me for days now”

“Weird how?” you ask.

“You’re more distant. And I get it if you don’t want to be hanging out all day, but… you weren’t like that before” he explains.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t think you would care so much” now you feel bad.

“You’re crazy if you think I wouldn’t care or wouldn’t notice. We’ve been hanging out nonstop for weeks now”

“A month and a half actually” you correct him.

“Has it been that much already?”

“Yeah” you laugh, “One would think they’d get over us by now and let it go” you joke referring to Jason and Chrissy.

“We’re too attractive and so interesting” he jokes but he says it with a straight face, as if it really was a struggle. And this makes you laugh harder.

“Shh” he laughs too. “She’s gonna find us”

“She’s another one who’s also jealous of us, that’s why she wanted us to stop kissing and kick us out” you joke.

“I bet she is, we have to be more careful. We’re too much of a power couple”

“Yeah”

“See, I missed this” he explains. “If I overstepped one time and didn’t realize, I’m sorry, or-“

“No, no, Eddie you didn’t do anything, it wasn’t your fault”

“Then what was it?” he asks.

"This whole pretending-to-be-dating thing… it's made me realize some stuff" you confess.

Your heart started racing, you were actually telling him.

"What stuff?" he could feel the gravity in her words.

"That maybe… maybe I'm not just pretending anymore" you finally say, looking at the ground, you fear if you look at him, it would make you even more nervous.

His gaze was fixed on you, his breath caught in his throat. The air suddenly felt charged, unspoken emotions crackling between you two. "Me too" Eddie admitted, barely above a whisper.

Your eyes are quick to look up at him, a mix of surprise and relief washing over you. "You feel the same?"

Eddie nods, a shy smile tugging at his lips. "I didn't think you would too. I thought you wanted to end all this agreement actually”

You shake your head with a smile.

“Come here” he says and you move closer to him, his hands on your cheeks, bringing your face slowly closer to his. Your hands set on his chest, just because you needed to touch him, to feel him.

His lips crash into yours. You have kissed before but this somehow felt like your first kiss, ever. It wasn’t like any other kiss he had given you before, this was more passionate and romantic all at once.

"I guess all that acting wasn't so pretend after all" Eddie chuckles softly, after you pull away.

"It seems we're not really good actors” you reply, a hint of playfulness in your voice.

Eddie took a deep breath, gathering his courage. "Would you… maybe want to go out for real? No more acting, just… us?"

A rush of emotions flooded you as you look into Eddie's eyes. "I'd love that" you reply, heart pounding with newfound excitement.

[talaok]

Since all the nominations for Emmys, I need one fic where reader is either video calling or with Pedro when nominations are announced. Somethig fluffy and full of emotions cuz Pedro deserves all of this 😊

a/n: this ask skipped the line just cause I felt that if I posted this next week it wouldn't have made as much sense, so yeah here it is (also, I’m so happy for him and Bella, like omg man)

Today was the day.

Pedro was never usually one to care about this stuff, yes he was grateful, and yes he was happy, but no other time had he felt this electricity in the air, this buzz telling him that something was about to happen... something good of course.

He had set up his tablet on the coffee table in front of the couch, waiting for the announcement to start, but he hadn't even managed to sit- he was too nervous, too excited.

A ringing sounded through the room all of a sudden, and after an initial scare, he smiled, glad you finally could call him.

You were on set. In Vancouver. A thousand miles from him.

"Is it on yet?"

Your eagerness spurt through the screen.

And he thought he was exited

"nope"

"what? How much longer?"

He glanced at the screen, feeling a tiny goosebump traveling up his back at the countdown.

"two minutes"

"Oh my god!" You squeaked, smiling so wide your cheeks almost hurt "how are you feeling?"

"nervous" he chuckled drily

"Oh c'mon, what about? We both know you're gonna crush it"

"I hope so" he sighed "God I don't know why I care so much" he laughed "The only important thing is that Bella and the show get nominated"

"And you, of course" you chirped in

He tried to fight a smile, but it still pulled at his lips "Well if there's room..."

"There you are" you nodded, your smile fading ever so little after a brief moment "god I wish I could be there"

"Me too" he agreed "but at least w-" a noise in the direction of the coffee table caught his attention

"Oh shit, it's starting"

"shit, go go go go" you mumbled, feeling all too powerless in your position.

He sat down in front of the screen as the announcers appeared on it.

"what are they saying?"

"uh- just their names and stuff"

"ok-"

A moment passed 

"what about now?"

He laughed, ever so thankful for your presence "Still that, sweetheart"

"fine, just- tell me when they start telling the categories"

"ok ok here we go" 

"what is it?"

"talk series"

"Bo-ring" you huffed, making him chuckle "I want the good stuff"

"they're doing reality programs now"

"oh my god! it's like they want to torture us"

...

"Oh shit" 

A pit created itself in Pedro's stomach

"what?"

"lead actor in a drama series"

"oh my god" you screeched, doing a poor job of trying not to freak out "C'mon baby I know believe in you"

"jeff bridges... Brian cox... Kieran Culkin... Bob Odenkirk..."

come on come on come on

His mouth widened as he let out an incredulous breath.

"baby?" you called, already knowing but wanting a confirmation "baby pl-"

"I got nominated"

"I told you!" You basically screamed, jumping out of your chair "I told you, baby! I'm so happy for you! You deserve all of it babe, all. of. it." 

"I can't believe this" he smiled, his eyes glimmering with that spark in his eyes he only got whenever he was truly happy "This is crazy"

"Well believe it baby, you're an Emmy nominee"

"I just-" he interrupted himself as the next category was announced "shit it's best actresses"

You nodded, trying to cool down while really just mindlessly pacing around your trailer 

"Bella Ramsey!" he laughed "Bella Ramsey! They did it! I knew they fucking would"

"oh my god!" you grinned "What a power couple"

"I know right?" he chuckled "I'll have to call them I-" and once again, the announcers interrupted his train of thought.

His gaze moved from you to the tablet again.

"best drama series?"

He only nodded, clearly all the anxiety coming back.

"Andor... Better call Saul... the crown... House of the Dragon..."

he fell silent as his eyes came back to you, and this time... this time they shined with tears of joy.

"yeah?" you asked, feeling your heart beating out of your chest.

"yeah," nodded.

You felt your heart and chest and body fill with pure joy as you let some tears fall from your eyes.

"you did it baby" you sniffled "I knew you would. You deserve it, all of it" you smiled, wishing with all your heart you were there to hug him and kiss him and whisper in his ear

"How are you feeling?"

He laughed "I don't even know, I just- I think I need time to process this" he smiled, his hands slightly shaking "A-Are you ready to go to the Emmys?"

"are you?" You laughed, quite literally quivering from the excitement

"As ready as I'll ever be"

[fleeglefazbeagle]

Andrew Peterson(The Wolf) headcanons/AU info

(DISCLAIMER: I refer to The Wolf as "Andrew" for the sake of the AU. The other thing I'd like to mention while he does have certain disorders in the AU, that is NOT why he's evil, he's evil simply because he's evil, it is NOT simply because he has certain disorders, I would NEVER demonize someone because they have a certain disorder and you shouldn't too as they're still people like you and I at the end of the day. Please remember that when reading this.)

Bio:

•Goes by he/it pronouns(usually he/him but doesn't mind it/its).

•It is maverique, thingix and gender apathetic.

°He's also heteroflexible, ace-spec and aroflux.

•He's about 6ft tall.

•Has BPD, PPD, autism, OCD and some anger issues.

•Born in October 25th 1940.

General info(TW for death, neglect and murder under cut):

•When Andrew was a kid, it wanted to have a museum about dark and morbid stuff when he grew up.

°He also wanted to become an actor and a singer/musician too.

•Gangly mf with bad posture.

°Despite this, it mocks Lorenzo for their bad posture(fucking hypocrite).

•He and Marvin were childhood friends but after Marvin found Andrew's manifesto, the friendship ended.

•Very capable of murder.

•Andrew's reason for killing the Watermans was because he thought they were "undesirable, sappy freaks".

•It initially fell in love with Rosa(his wife) because he thought she was ok and all that but then over the years, Andrew got rather bitter because of a simple disagreement.

°Basically, Rosa thought Andrew was too harsh on the Watermans and the fact that he barely spends time with Ralph.

•Andrew is all about theatrics(he was a theatre kid).✨

•The only time Andrew had a crush on a man was Marvin but he never really confessed because when it initially gained that crush, it was during the time when homosexuality was not allowed, it was only a year after it was made legal he implied it to Marvin but Marvin didn't really have a crush on him back.

°They both understood and continued on as simply friends even with Andrew being a little bummed out.

•He never really got to bond with his father as he barely interacted(makes the whole thing with it barely spending time with Ralph even worse).

°As for his mother, she died when it was 4 but please note that she was a sweet woman. :(

•Considering his OCD, he would repeatedly tap his pen while counting in its head or tapping his fingers against the table in a similar vein to the Other Mother from Coraline at various moments whenever bored, thinking, excited or annoyed.

°He'd also double check everything to make sure it's all in working order and going according to plan.

°The finger tapping also doubles as a stim considering his autism.

•On the topic of stims; Aside from the tapping, Andrew would randomly ramble to himself with no particular reason(although that's not to say that's always the case), repeat certain phrases or feel various textures very slowly and carefully, almost gentle.

•When watching horror films with his(now former) friends, he'd commentate over them whenever it's in a joking way or a critical way.

°The others do join in on the jokes when it comes to horror films.

•He started killing in 1977(36 years old, nearing 37).

That's all I can think of for now, hope you enjoyed them.

[rinrobofiles]

(๑╹ω╹๑) ｡˚ ๑ 🍰🥄 the awaited LM78 rant from a newbie to the lesmis fandom!! good morning!!

( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)  how do i even start this . i know ive ranted about how much i love anthony perkins but never actually took the time to watch lm78... okay it was fucking **INCREDIBLE** ALRIGHT?? ok lets start with like. every single detail bc i love just looking at ppl making gayass eye contact ueueueue ᯓ★ (¬`‸´¬) during the toulon era there was. SO MANY GAY TENSION SHIT GOING ON LIKE i swear 2/3 of the film was ab valvert, the french revolution was js. a side dish. which ykw ill take it id do anything to see them kill each other (with affection :3) (⌁° ‸ °⌁) anyways apjavert could NOT STOP LOOKING AT VALJEAN I SWEAR TO GOD. LIKE THE FIRST TIME HE TRIED TO ESCAPE and then was brough to javert's office to get his punishment like. can u just. look at the way javert so casually looks at him and say "foive more years faggot bahahahahaha" and valjean is like gruurughrgurhgrughrg. (btw valjean was ugly as shit during toulon /aff ) and THE SECOND TIME. THE SECOND FUCKING TIME WHEN VALJEAN LITERALLY SWORE HE **WILL** KILL JAVERT AND javert is just like yeah ok thats hot do it again. ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ) like what. WHAT. ok wait um

TAT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW PRETTY THIS MAN IS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE MOVIE. OR NO. BECAUSE IM GOING INSANE OVER APJAVERT(look at his hand, heeeloo?). the way his eyes. just. locks on valjean every time they see each other. ૮ ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა the way its just. the way he literally only asked for valjean's name (yk that one scene, like javert was observing the prisoners from above while they were working - spinning something and he said smth like "whos that 24601" LIKE YEAH HE SPECIFICALLY ASKED FOR VALJEAN. YEAH.) (˶°ㅁ°) !! if that isnt gay i dont know what else is. (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) another thing i find super funny is when valjean was staying at the church?? or wherever the bishop guy was and like when he (vj) was about to leave bro proceeded to kiss the bishop's hand and like i dont have a problem with that. problem is valjean you STINK. everyone stinks a bit back then but GIRL YOU STINK STINK. like even the actor for the bishop guy hesistated to put his hand on your hair lmao you really did look like a fucking beast (girl scared the sister off IT WAS SO FUCKING FUNNY. UGHH(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )) GO TAKE A SHOWER YOU STINK. (valjean did, now hes handsome and polished.) ᓚ₍ ^. .^₎ the entire movie is liek if you see valjean you WILL see javert observing him seconds later. if not then hes in his office jorking it to the thoughts of valjean. - valjeans working? javert will be there to observe!! (⸝⸝> ᴗ•⸝⸝) - valjeans walking? javert will be there to observe!! (⸝⸝> ᴗ•⸝⸝) - valjeans trying to run away? javert will be right behind!! (⸝⸝> ᴗ•⸝⸝) - valjeans at the revolutionaries' speech or whatever? javert as the cutest spy will be right.....behind....(⸝⸝> ᴗ•⸝⸝)... ૮ ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა ok to M sur M now.. there was a lot going on and um. of course we have dear inspector javert's interest in monsieur la maire "madeleine." HAAHAHAHAH ( ^ω^ ) sori im typing ts on my laptop so the use of emoji is ... nonexistent (Im lazy) BUT STILL!! OF course he was the one that got sent there ... of course he had to be there for his prince valjean ugh i love my princess so much HWAT. ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)  ૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა the cold sweat running down valjean's back when javert came in to introduce himself to the mayor... eueuee valjean was like "oh...its you again ueue..." but he tried to stay cool n stuff ugh it was so cute. i find everything cute. (ᵕ—ᴗ—) and um. javert's doubts too.. that was also cute.. like he swears he had seen that face somewhere before..but to doubt the mayor to be the convict he has been having a crush on!?!?! NO!!!! >:( !!! and so when he finally realizes hes "wrong" (when they found another guy that lowk looks like valjean and thought thats valjean still.....) javert comes to valjean's place to personally apologize... and ask for punishment!~ wawaaa...

( ≧ᗜ≦)𖹭 look at how cute my princess is in this scene...𖹭 his posture.. the way he stands like ughhh.... and valjean being confused but also relieved he isnt on javert's ass anymore its so cute 𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭𖹭 and javert actually felt bad for the ridiculously-handsome-and-fine mayor ... he didnt even shake valjean's hand..T-T i wish they did.. they would literally fuck after. (=^ ◡ ^=) js sayign!!!

(╥‸╥) to the point of wanting to resign... ouh my princess..

(ᵕ—ᴗ—) you ARE MAD!!! your obsession with him is so fucking adorable it makes me go mad too..... (i had to have the subs on bc i was simply too deaf. seriously.) my prince and princess was so cute in this scene... ueueeee also i didnt take any pictures of when someone brought fantine to javert and bro immedietaly took a step back bc eugh. dont bring woman here i like men. ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა (sorry) BUT FOR REALS THOUGH!!!!! and then vajlean had to intervene and he literally told my princess to shut up and go away (he didnt say that but thats what i got so) AND JAVERT DID. of course while sulking like hmph hmph hmhphhmphmh...... and then walks off.. that was adorable.. aaaa o( ˶^▾^˶ )o anyways thats it for NOW. I WILL COME BACK TO TALK ABOUT THE REST OF THIS SHIT LATER ૮˙Ⱉ˙ა ... good morning everyone.. i love my princess I LOVE MY PRINCESS SM!!!!!!

[bengiyo]

I Became the Main Role of a BL Drama Ep 3 (Finale) Stray Thoughts

Last time, Akafuji recognized that he has a crush on Aoyanagi for real, and Aoyanagi also recognized there may be something going on with him. The two lonely boys are trying to put on their best faces for the sake of the drama, but Akafuji is crushed by his own attraction, and Aoyanagi by his own doubts in himself as an actor. Aoyanagi rescued Kuromiya from an aggressive can, and we learned he's afraid of aggressive women. Kuromiya intervened, and Akafuji took Aoyanagi on a date. The two of them practiced kissing, but it was sad as fuck, and then the network cut the kiss from their show.

This curry looks pretty good.

Oh yes. Thank you voiceover for confirming they're both thinking about the kiss.

I'm glad Akafuji can still benefit from his stan knowledge, but now he's spiraling.

Welcome back, baby is a messy eater.

It definitely feels like they're having more fun separating themselves from the characters.

I will love Akafuji forever. He responded to being dumped for loving his hobby by loving it harder.

I would also stan Aoyanagi if he took me so seriously and then praised me for loving my stories.

I love when one confesses when they think the other is sleeping.

Aoyanagi has the best eyes of the year OMG.

I like the manager listening in to check on his charge.

Ope. Tendo-san called it falling in love.

I love the shot of the manager stepping over Hajime in the front as it's implied he's putting himself between Hajime and Akafuji.

Oh no. My boy is gonna be alone on his birthday again.

Oh, of course it was intended as a surprise party. I love Akafuji.

Aoyanagi is crying. I'm crying.

THE CARD IS EDIBLE.

Welcome back, The Heart Knows!

They cut a kiss from a friends to lovers BL with this much sexual tension?? Come on.

I'm glad the rest of the crew knows that Aoyanagi is a good actor who usually hits his marks.

They really had that boy spit on the 4th wall. Holy shit.

Fucking paparazzi holy shit.

Oh, I hate misunderstandings like this, but I get it.

Tendo-san, please fix this!

OH MY GOD. I'VE HAD TO GIVE FOR SO LONG AND I FINALLY GET TO RECEIVE. I had hoped the managers would be real and I was not expecting this!

Run, baby boy, RUN!!!

Holy shit, this indeed a stan's apartment.

He has the cutout!!

This is a completely acceptable stan reaction, and also a fantastic shot.

"I like you as myself" will never get old.

"I'm sorry for going on about myself. Anyway, what did you want to talk about?" Sorry to all other BL characters, but we have a new king.

I love this confession.

They planned to remove a kiss that was in the manga??? EVIL.

Aw, this was so close to perfect, but then they chickened out on a real kiss.

Final Verdict: 9.5, This Show Will Drown You in BL Goodness. If they had kissed properly, this would have a 10 and the new standard for all comedy BL follow. Instead, I will say that this show executes comedy with meta commentary about BL better than any other attempt before it (excepting A Man Who Defies the World of BL). Despite confirming the managers, the show chickened out on the mains and I will be docking it for that. Still, this show was excellently paced and will be my new default reaction image whenever someone insists that a Thai BL should be 12 episodes of meandering nonsense with no fucking idea where it's going or what story it's telling. This show executed a great arc in three movements. Everyone else, have several seats.

[momsforroadhead]

ok i forgot i wanted to post insane klaine opinions. so here goes.

let me first start by saying that i'm not that emotionally involved in their relationship. there is ONE fictional couple that is extremely important to me and i will never discuss them on here. i think i simply don't have the shippers mindset. so this is all from an entirely serious and scientific perspective i swearrrr like omg i prommy

ok so. i genuinely think the way these two were written, especially kurt's role in this relationship, is really fascinating, especially considering that kurt's character was based on chris colfer (the actor that portrays him). and since he's the show's main and first gay character, and hearing the way ryan murphy has talked about him, i wouldn't be surprised if he was somewhat based on murphy as well. what this results in is that kurt's character feels, imo, a lot more grounded than other characters in glee and, often, that groundedness translates into a kinda more downer arc than many other characters.

kurt, as a character, is defined by all the negative things in his life. the very first thing we learn about him is that he gets so relentlessly bullied he has learned to kinda passively accept it. his mother died when he was young, and his relationship with his single dad, basically right up until the beginning of the show, has been tense and uncomfortable. he gets a crush on finn (and later, in a minor way, sam) and gets told that he is being selfish, that a crush that he is never gonna act on is something he'd doing TO them. he wants to have solos in class, and cultivate his talent, but always takes the backseat to other people. the ONE TIME he wants to stand centerstage, with the defying gravity-off, he THROWS IT to benefit his dad. HIS DAD!!!!! and i could go on and on and in more detail, the boy truly cannot catch a break.

and then here comes blaine and he's a fucking disney prince. mega popular. rich, supposedly, since he goes to dalton and tells kurt that he understands "not everyone can afford it". sure, we eventually learn that he was a victim of homophobic bullyign at his old school, but this is a while after meeting him. for a long time, the only way we see blaine as is essentially perfect and struggle-less. chris colfer has talked about this, about how the klaine relationship was an idealized relationship, which he didn't really love as a plotpoint because it was unrealistic for gay teenagers to meet a perfect guy and stay with him forever.

because that's the thing!! kurt is a downer character! he's based on one (possible two) real life man for whom being gay as a teen was hard! as a fictional character, he has grown accustomed to and almost comfortable with never getting what he wants, with his dreams not coming true. that's at the core of the character. and now he's dating this guy who is entirely built on wish fulfillment! and supposed to stay with him forever! how do you write that!! genuinely how do you make a relationship with a character like blaine satisfying, writing-wise. you have to put conflict in there, to make it interesting, but with a character who's defined by being conflict-free and another who's the most (/only) grounded character on your show... what kind of conflict can you write??

obviously i'm not done but this is already a wall of text about klaine in 2025 which is kinda embarassing and this is more of a conversation anyway so. stopping for now. unless people want to talk about klaine with me which. you know.

[flamedraco]

c!Wilbur Redesign

This is my compromise to the current situation regarding Shubble and the speculation surrounding Wilbur. This is coming from a fanfiction writer who has always, and always will, see the CCs as nothing more than voice actors for their characters. Buckle in, this is going to be a long one. But please read all the way through. If you don't know, recently Shubble came forward with a video about how she was in an abusive relationship. And she dropped some hints because she wants people to speculate about who it is. Wants to make sure that a person with bad intentions can't get away with more bad things. A lot of people are speculating that, due to said hints and previously established crush that he had on her, Wilbur is the person who abused her. Now personally? I do not believe this. It's hard for me to believe that Wilbur would do something like that. I don't like the idea of hopping on the hate train or immediately jumping to cancel someone. So I will be waiting for real facts and confirmation before saying anything regarding the CC. A lot of the speculation doesn't make sense to me logically and I also never got the chance to see the video before it was deleted. This is not me calling Shubble a liar. I 100% believe her and my heart goes out to her completely. She doesn't deserve being treated horribly, nobody does. The situation I'm hearing she went through is a wretched thing and I will not TOLERATE people insulting her or saying that she should just say who it was. That shit is not okay and never will be okay. HOWEVER! I will NOT stop writing Wilbur's character. A little fact about me is that when I came into this fandom, it wasn't because I watched the CCs. It wasn't because I was interested in MCYT. The reason I came here was because a very close friend of mine asked me to cowrite a fic with them. At the time the only fandom we really shared even vaguely was DSMP. I knew very little about it but I knew some things. I let my friend choose the ship. They chose TNT Duo. And it's thanks to that friend that I wrote Arsonist's Waltz. That I started to adore Quackbur and wrote my most well known fic, You Were Never Meant to be a Hero. And thanks to YWNMTBAH I made so many cherished friends. It's all because of these two little characters that still have me in a chokehold even though I've been writing them for quite some time now. And that's why I can't simply let go of Wilbur's character. But regardless of my ability to separate the Cs from the CCs, for some people that distinction is harder. The CCs to me are just glorified voice actors. For other people it's harder. They can separate the characters from the content creators just fine, but this situation hits them close to home. And it hurts. So, this is my proposed solution, brought to my attention by a friend who was heavily affected by this situation, but loved the work she was doing and didn't want to have to let it go. C!Wilbur doesn't have an actual canon design. When you think about it, the only thing we have to go off of is his Minecraft skin. Something that, when you think about it, doesn't tell us much about the character at all. There is no canon design because most of what we see as "canon" is based on the CC, not the character himself. When you look at c!Wilbur, the skin, does he have an eye color? Do we know his height? What about his hair length? His build? What do we actually know about this character outside of the clothing on his back and the personality his actor gave him? And when you make an AU everything changes. From now on? My c!Wilbur design that I'll use as a baseline for most of my fics is a 6ft man with heterochromia. One eye blue, the other teal. He's going to have brown curly hair that dips just below his shoulders and a light scar over one of his eyes. Sometimes he'll have freckles because what the fuck can we tell from a Minecraft skin anyways? He wears black nail polish because why not? Slay.

I already treated him and c!Quackity like glorified OCs already. Why not further OC the glorified OCs? So what if they aren't a faithful adaptation? How can anyone say what is and isn't "faithful" when we're talking about BLOCK MEN. Make them eldritch. Make them supernatural. Make them whatever kind of hybrid you want them to be! I'll die on my Magpie!Wilbur and Shrike!Quackity hill! Give them different eye colors and let them dye their hair sometimes, I'm going to make the white streak PINK because TWINS DUO and CHERRY BLOSSOM TRIPLETS! Give your Phantom!Wilburs green eyes and glowing blood! Give your Shapeshifter!Wilburs more hair and eye colors! Do what you want because the character has no actual canon design. Go wild with your AUs and remember that you're doing this for fun. For your enjoyment. Don't conform to what someone else wants from you just because your adaption, your interpretation, "isn't the real Wilbur". The characters are what we make them. Because the reality of the situation? They are literally just blocks in a cube game. There is no canon design. Don't let the actions of some asshole ruin what you love.

[hiddleswiftt]

hi this is main for @jonah-hauer-kingofmyheart! I have a request for a best friends to lovers with Jonah where the two of you have been friends for a long time but then he starts catching feelings for you but you have a bf, and one day maybe at a party or smth, Jonah confesses to you and you realize you like him too but you also have to break up with ur bf?

sorry its so long aha 😅

of course! omg how have i never thought of this! thank you so so much for the request! <3

fuck it i love you. (inspired by the lana del rey song “fuck it i love you”!)

jonah hauer king x fem reader!

description - you and jonah have been friends since being casted in the same show together, and jonah starts catching feelings for you. you also realise that you do too. but you have a boyfriend… (thank you for the request by the way!)

you and jonah have been friends since.. forever? it’s been quite a while!

you are both actors, so you have to fit in the time to see him. that’s actually how you two met! you and jonah met on the set of a film that you were both casted in! the both of you were absolutely inseparable, your other co-stars would never see you two without each other. never.

it had been five years since that film had been released. you had other movies and tv shows that had been released over the five years since and so did jonah. but the two of you would meet when you could and would always keep in touch.

you always had a soft spot for jonah. he did too. you might have had a small crush on him whilst on set, but you would’ve thought he would’ve got a girlfriend by now.

seems you were wrong. you did though. you don’t know how you did and he didn’t, but that doesn’t matter.

you were invited to a party. not just any party. it was a reunion party for the five year anniversary of the film that you and jonah were in.

you decided to wear a red floral dress to the party, since it was summer, and you wanted to look nice for the occasion.

MINI TIME SKIP -

you walked in to the party venue, holding your clutch bag in your hand as you did so. you were offered a glass of champagne as you walked in, so you took it and continued to walk through the venue.

someone made a small tap on your shoulder, you turned around and it was your co-star anna, who also worked with you in the film. she embraced you in a large hug, you knew that hug. that was an anna hug.

as you were embraced in a hug from anna, you saw a familiar man standing, looking and beaming a smile at you.

it was jonah.

he saw you let go of anna’s hug, and started walking towards you. he met you half way of course.

you gave him a large hug, and you let him pick you up and spin you around, then placing you back down again.

you were so happy to see jonah. you have seen him since wrapping the film, but he was one of your closest friends! so you were always glad to see him!

“y/n!” jonah said, embracing you in another hug, “how are you? you look amazing!”

you smile at him, blushing a little. “thank you jonah! i have been great! what about you, mister?”

he looks at you, admiring you. “good. good! yeah, ive been great! you really do look amazing, y/n!” he tells you again, then you say, “stop it, stop it! don’t look at me! look at you!”, as you giggle along with him.

MINI TIME SKIP -

you, jonah and the rest of the cast sat in the venue just catching up and eating the buffet and the champagne or wine that was around.

“so? y/n! i heard you’re not single anymore?” your co-star anna asks you. you slightly flinch at this question, but you continue to be positive about it.

jonah glances at you as he was unaware of this, slightly shocked. “um.. yeah! ive been seeing this guy for a while.. he’s not an actor or anything but..” you mumble, “he’s sweet.. i guess!”

to be honest, you didn’t really feel that great in your relationship with your boyfriend anymore.. it didn’t feel as good as it was when you first got together.

your other co-stars didn’t really notice the difference in your voice about your relationship with your boyfriend. jonah did. he assumed that something was off about it.

MINI TIME SKIP -

you sat alone in the living room area of the party venue, sipping your glass of champagne. you had just sent a text message to your boyfriend.

that kind of text message.

you’ve ended things with him. he had started to not care for you as much as he used to almost a year and a half ago. but that didn’t matter to you anymore.

you had someone else on your mind. someone else you should’ve had on your mind years ago.

that guy was standing and gazing at you like a lost puppy at the doorframe near to where you were sitting, holding a bottle of beer in his hand.

you caught him in the corner of your eye. “jonah!” you say, placing your free hand over your chest and made a shocked expression on your face, “oh my god! you scared me!”

he laughed, and put his hands up to apologise. “sorry! sorry, y/n!” he told you, sitting on the couch next to you, aiming to start a conversation with you, “you okay? you seem a little down.”

you looked at him. you didn’t want to tell him about the whole breaking up with your ex-boyfriend situation yet, so you lied. “yeah! im great! just taking in this beautiful night, that’s all!” you tell him, sipping on your glass of champagne again.

he looks at you, slightly unsure of what to say next. “i didnt know you had a boyfriend, y/n..” he asked you, trying to make conversation again. you don’t say anything of course. “you know.. back when we were filming, i kinda had a crush on you.”

you look at him. “really?” you asked him, a little shocked.

he nods. then you look at him. “what about now? you still love me, right?” you ask, now realising that you could’ve asked him that five years ago. but you thought why not?

jonah looks at you, now moving a little closer to you. “i do.” he tells you, and that’s all he says, until you decide to blurt out something that’s been waiting to be said for a while now.

“i love you too.” you blurt out infront of him. he sits looking at you, smiling a little. “but. but. you have a boyfriend, right? you said earlier?” he mumbles, slightly losing his words while he looks at you.

you smile. “just before you walked in, i ended things with him.” you say, now moving over to jonah, and placing your hands on his cheeks, the two of you now realising the tension between and how much you feel towards each other.

“he was no good for me, and i have felt things change between us, even since and during filming!” you say, thanking yourself for finally revealing how you feel, “and i just think.. i um..”

you were about to say something, and jonah takes your hands off his cheeks and puts his own on yours, now embracing you in a passionate kiss.

the two of you moved away from the kiss to find your co-star anna standing at the same doorframe that jonah was standing at a few mins ago. she smirked at you.

“i knew it.” she said, while sipping her champagne, clearly drunk from the slight slur of her words. she walked back into the garden and left you two to talk.

you and jonah laughed as anna walked away. “she’s drunk.” jonah tells you, still holding your cheeks.

you laugh at his words, “clearly!” you laugh, now moving your head to his, looking into his eyes.

“i love you, y/n..” jonah tells you, looking in to your eyes, “god.. should’ve done that a while ago…”

you laugh again, continuing to look at him, admiring him completely. “i know.. me too..” you tell him, “i love you too, jonah.. so much.”

you both continue to sit on the couch again in the living room of the party venue, now with your head on jonah’s shoulder, while he has his hand around your waist.

it felt perfect. one you both should’ve done five years ago, but it was perfect.

please don’t copy my work! <3

(let me know what you think of this fic by giving this post a like, follow and a comment!)

— h4uerkings

[rise-my-angel]

Because I love salt, what do you find to be the most annoying lines of so-called evidence or foreshadowing for ships you hate? For me it’s hard to pick just one but Jon saying Sansa looked radiant is up there for me because the idea that Jon had a crush on Sansa in the first book or before is so much worse than the thought of them meeting again and then developing feelings (which I still hate, but it’s just not as bad). It’s super normal for people to think their siblings look nice. Arya’s POV chapters also remark that Sansa is beautiful. Ashford theory is annoying because it was originally about the hound and Sansa (also hate this ship but the fans are a million times more tolerable). I also roll my eyes when fans insist that the bride of fire line foreshadows Dany marrying Jon (and I even LIKE that ship but only in an AU in my head where Lyanna is Jon’s mom but Rhaegar is NOT the father)

"Because I love salt"

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Thats a good one I hate though, multiple siblings and family members in this series all compliment one another. Even characters with bad relationships compliment each other. In the books, Arya recalls that her father calls her pretty, which only Jon ever also called her. Does that mean Ned had romantic feelings for Arya? Or Lyanna for that matter? No of course not. Thinking someone in terms of beauty is zero indicator of attraction in any way.

Also its even funnier with Jonsas because Sansa herself notes that Arya looks just like Jon, and then on multiple occasions notes that she thinks Arya is ugly. So, its even less compelling.

In the show Tyrion compliments Cersei's beauty all the time and we know there is nothing to it. It's reading into something that isn't there beacuse if they ignore the way beauty is used in this series as a common compliment towards other highborns, then its a really simple box to check on really stock symptoms of attraction. (I also dont really enjoy Sansan but it is funny how they just stay in their circle and mind their business like they somehow are winning based on being not fucking annoying alone).

I'm gonna rapid fire for Jon here because pretty much every single ship he has is backed by the worst evidence known to man.

The idea that Jon never thinks about Sansa because he loves her the most is dumb and not how we know Jon works. He holds back what he says not what he thinks. He thinks of Sansa the least because despite being his sister, she treated him like shit because she looks down on him for being a bastard. Jon cares about her, but not anywhere near how he cares about his other siblings who have clearly shown him love and respect.

The worst of Jon and Arya is a very very old outline that grrm scrapped. Its an outline that wasnt used and most of it isnt canon so it is literally a piece of non evidence for a ship that is disgusting. (Both Jonsa and Jonrya make Jons good older brother behavior towards his sisters look predatory and the shippers are all literally too blind to realize it)

Jon and Dany have literally nothing to back that up, because they are staged as moral oppositions to one another, dont know the other exists, and the idea that the motif of ice and fire will be about the coming together of romance is antithetical to everything grrm has established about the themes of his story. They are so far from being a ship that literally the ONLY thing they have to support it is the show and thats an absolute joke (see my every post that got me blocked by jonerys stans for more detail)

Ygritte is a rapist, so I accept literally zero "evidence" on that ones validity.

I also hate the "the actors have chemistry" argument to support really bad ships, because some actors having chemistry doesnt equal good romance, it equals good on screen dynamics in its own unique way. Like Tywin and Arya in season 2 have GREAT chemistry, but I don't need to explain why shipping that is creepy. Catelyn and Jaime have great chemistry, but it doesn't mean anything was actually there which could've worked.

Like shipping is fine, but so many people just INSIST it is canon or meant to be instead of something fun to think about. I joke ship about Stannis and Davos because its fun but I'm not over here arguing that people who don't ship it are "ignoring the text in front of them deliberately".

Also honestly, its really funny to me that you had to specify you'd only like that ship if they weren't related. Big oof on that one. Jonerys stans hate the idea they couldn't be related because they somehow think Dany being his AUNT isn't at all creepy. Like, Dany is related to Jon the way Jon thinks hes related to his MOTHER. There is no capability of romance or attraction there, that's crazy.

People who are biologically related but don't know it, 99% of the time are in fact, still not accidentally attracted to each other because that's biological survival instinct. Anti inbreeding protocol. But they think because DANY was raised to think her families blood superiority driven incest is fine, that somehow means JON would think its fine. Jonsas have no argument for that they just have to pray desperately that Jon would want to fuck his little sister despite how much it makes him look like a predator.

I'm sorry, I hope you have water on hand to wash down all this goddamn salt I just threw at you all at once.

Really, it isn't individual lines that irk me, its the overall tendencies of these ships to put more emphasis on things that don't even exist to justify something they don't even realize WHY people think it's creepy. I don't hate a lot of ships, just...all pro incest ones, and ones that promote predatory/rapist behaviors. Which is why I don't ship much in this series.

We're probably not meant to ship many people in this series if I in any way understand even a modicum of why grrm writes the lack of romance the way he does.

[onebraincellfan]

Game ramblings about SOMA

Warning - this game is disturbing, as is the lore of it. I suppose any Outlander fan that may stumble upon this is used to some gory stuff lol. but still.

TLDR: I love Soma, Catherine Chun and Imogen Reed were totally a couple, AI sucks when not monitored.

Highly underrated horror game. I'm not exaggerating when I say the story stayed with me for weeks, gave me existential dread, but also many imagined plots and possibilities. I never play horror or tense games, because, well.. Jumping things that try to kill me don't make me go "oh, I better overcome this challenge", they make me go "ah. well, fuck this then, never wanted to play this anyway. back to stardew valley I go."

So, I watched others play this, and as I usually do, I'm as interested in their reaction to the story as well as the story itself. Recently I watched Jacksepticeye play this, who is a marvel by himself - funny, Irish and makes funny scottish accent everytime scots are involved somehow. chef's kiss. By the way, he mentioned that Catherine may have been autistic and I tend to agree.

Everything about this game is so well done - the lighting, the textures, the sounds, the voice actors. It's so immersive, I can just feel the dread of the endless ocean, the limited vision, the odd perception of the player..

And, in addition to all this, there is more lore to be found at Frictional youtube channel with the amazing "Transmissions" series - fucking scary and now I may have a crush on Imogen Reed. Also she and Catherine were totally together and you can't change my mind. There is the game website as well. Here is a quote from one of the short stories there that just freaked me the hell out:

“Get the tetra. Quick.”   Gavin didn’t understand what was happening. Carl leaped towards him and sank his arm into Gavin’s stomach.   Where was the blood?   “What are you doing?” asked Gavin in shock. “Who is that?” He pointed towards the other Gavin.   “Got it. Almost.” Carl pulled a cord from Gavin’s stomach. It looked weird. Gavin couldn’t move anymore. He was getting really scared. He looked to Meuron. She was avoiding him, trying to look away.   “Meuron! What’s happening to me?”   “It’s okay, man,” answered Carl and reached back into the stomach. “It’ll be over soon.”   Gavin couldn’t make this scene into anything believable. What the hell was happening? The people in the room looked uncomfortable, disgusted even. Meuron was in tears. The other Gavin looked rigid with stress. “Just kill it already!”   It? That can’t be right. I just helped out with the plan. We were getting out. I’m the real Gavin, right? I have to be. I am me. I am Gavin Finley, field service technician stationed at Upsilon, Pathos-II. I’m a real person. I am—

Yeah, so there's that. Also this game came out in 2014 or 2015 but with the rise of massive use of AI in EVERYTHING, I think it is relevant, as it deals with questions like is it wise to let AI decide what is human? what is life and when is it worth living? what is identity?

Also, it deals with identity that tied to a time and place. Are we the same people when we wake up, suddenly alone, in a unrecognisable world? That of course makes me think of Outlander and also about the countless modern AU fanfics. Are the characters that used this way, without their usual elements even worth existing? (yes they are, I love yall, ao3 be blessed)

Also, some really silly absurd fanfic thoughts from sleepless nights. Soma spoilers alert.

What if in the world of SOMA, some desperate researcher that survived on earth finds a way to scan brains using a portable device, then finds the Outlander stones, goes to the past to find unique brainscans of resilient and adaptable people from all the history of mankind. To then bring them back to the future, put them into machines and try and preserve humanity this way, or at least fight the WAU infected creatures.

Then Jamie goes to sleep as usual in his Ardsmuir prison cell and opens his eyes in a place that has nothing familiar to him. I must have died, he thinks.

And maybe, a few rooms apart, Claire opens her eyes, thinking she must have passed out reading her medical book..

[longingforsomethingdifferent]

I started rewatching The Originals (I only watched the first season when it aired) but decided to rewatch The Vampire Diaries instead once I finished Season One (god I love Marcel so much)... for nostalgia sake. I hadn't watched TVD since it aired (and stopped after S6). I'm currently up to S3E7 in my rewatch. I'll share my thoughts and then fave ships so far (aka, the whole reason I started the rewatch was because I wanted to read fanfic)

Thoughts:

S1:

- This show is super p*dophilic and very r*pey, wtf. How did I think this was okay back then?

- Not enough Bonnie (she was always my fave); can already see the mistreatment start

- Forgot about Damon's super powers that we never see again

- Jenna is such a fun aunt.

- I love Anna as a character and also, Pearl (her mum) is hot

- Stefan and Bonnie's relationship is so sweet... well, as it grows and Bonnie trusts him

- Elena isn't super annoying, only mildly... but also Nina is hot so I don't mind

- I actually love Caroline so much

- Jeremy reminds me of the awkward wanna-be emo guys I had a crush on in highschool... eww 😅

- Alaric kind gives me the ick but I like him and Jenna

- Casual homophobia anytime Caroline's dad is mentioned

- I LOVE SHEILA BENNETT

- I LOVE LEXI

- I used to love the romance part but now the whole pitting brothers against each other is super icky

S2:

- Fave season so far! Loved this storyline

- The music is a blast from the past

- WEREWOLF TYLER!!

- The decade dance!! I loved the chat/dance between Damon and Bonnie just made my heart happy. But then the writers go and fuck it up straight away by him being so vehemently into sacrificing her for Elena

- I really like this season's Elena and HATE this season's Damon

- Finally more Bonnie but oh my lawd the mistreatment of her... she's always used as a plot-device rather an character in and of herself. And tbh, I would have LOVED a series about the Bennett witch line

- I am not a Jeremy x Bonnie shipper but I'm glad she is finally getting attention

- I loved Elena and Stefan at the cabin

- THE ORIGINALS HAVE ARRIVED OMGGGG. I forgot we meet Elijah first. Jesus. He is handsome. I wanted more Elijah x Damon scenes. The way Damon looked after Elijah saved him from the torture

- KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS KLAUS

- Stefan is cool this season. Again, love his relationship with Bonnie and adore his mentorship of Caroline. It's definitely is long-game Steroline

- Katherine is SO MUCH FUN AND NEEDED MORE SCENES

- BADASS BONNIE. My goodness I love her.

- Oh man... why did *that* Rose scene make me cry. That really got to me

- Dalaric is also so much fun. They give me a little Sam and Dean vibe

- Greta is also hot. God I love the witches so much

- Mason and Jules were also hot

- Let's kill the one and only brown girl in the show and talk about her as a body/dehumanise her (but I love her in The Good Place so I'll have to rewatch that soon too)

- Hate the casual misogyny (e.g. Klaus's "symmetry" comment about three women sacrifices)

- The Salvatores 1000% owned slaves. We saw Damon as a Confederate Solider in a flashback, right?

- Using the "slave quaters" in the old Lockwood property for werewolf transitions. The casual mention of it.

- I do love that Elijah mentioned the history of slavery and experiences in a more positive light (that there is more to learn from their history); but let's not forget they in S1 of The Originals, they moved back onto their old plantation

S3:

- RIPPERRRRRR STEFAN! Gosh he is so much more interesting this season. I love the 1920s scenes

- Also Humanity Switch Off Stefan?! Absolutely fucking perfection.

- Oh this Elena is the really annoying one. She is so whiney and selfish.

- I love getting glimpses of Anna back!! I love the actor, Melise. Even if it's because of Bonnie

- Also, the timeline doesn't doesn't sense. She was 16 when she met Stefan (S1), turned 18 in S3E1, and then says it's her 1 year anniversary in S3E6?

- REBEKAHHHHHHHH. FUCK YEAH. Tbh... if they writers were brave enough.. we could have had Caroline x Rebekah because Barbie and Barbie would make my little queer heart happy.. add Tyler to the mix and my little poly heart is equally happy

- Damon gets increasingly more boring the closer he and Elena get. But I do love his scenes with Sherrif Forbes because they are besties-for-the-resties

- Omg heyyyyy Mason, you're back (and still hot)

- I like Alaric taking a parental role for the Gilbert kids.

- WELCOME BACK SHEILA AND LEXI OMG

- The one good thing Elena has done this season is yell at her bro for cheating on Bonnie

- BONNIE DESERVES BETTER

I probs had more thoughts about it but I've been slowly watching over a few weeks and have already forgotten.

Now for my ships (only with characters that have already appeared, not future)

Note: I don't really have a fave as they keep changing but all my faves are with Bonnie;

- Bonnie and almost everyone tbh (Klaus, Stefan, Damon, Caroline, Elijah, Katherine, Tyler... Bonnie deserves to be epically loved and loved on).

- Delijah

- Klefan

- Klamon

- Rebekah x Caroline (I don't know the ship name)

- Delaric

- Klaus/Tyler

Poly pairings:

- Bonnie/Caroline/Stefan

- Bonnie/Stefan/Klaus

- Bonnie/Damon/Katherine

- Bonnie/Damon/Klaus

- Bonnie/Caroline/Rebekah

- Bonnie/Damon/Enzo (yes I skipped ahead)

- Caroline/Matt/Tyler

- Bonnie/Caroline/Tyler

- Damon/Elijah/Alaric (I read one fic that really got me and I don't even like Alaric)

I can't wait for Enzo, Kai and Kol to join the cast because this will absolutely expand my ships

Anyway... I just needed to dump my thoughts somewhere.

[calciumcryptid]

Wandee Goodday Episode One Live Reactions:

Damn. Okay. Immediately fucking.

I want whatever crack they put in the intro song.

Asexual spotted! Kao, my beloved.

Oh I'm going to love CherYei.

Kao and Wandee's friendship is great.

Always need an ace friend to slap you with reality.

Love interest spotted!

Wait, I'm confused, did their hookup already happen because they are acting like they know each other or are the subtitles fucky-

Wandee is such a bitch I love him.

Thai character work never misses.

Wandee is such a BITCH, I love him.

Yeah I'm sold on these two becoming a couple.

Casually pee conversation.

Kao cleared that read.

Of course Kao, an asexual, is a psychiatrist.

Jesus Christ, Yak where did you come from?

Yak really pulled out HIPPA.

Oh he has a recording too!

Oh I have bad news for both of you.

What is it with doctor mentor characters and being a gardener/having plants?

I hate to say it because I know he is going to get fucky down the road, but I kind of like Ter at the moment. Can't wait for that opinion to change.

Yak, I get it. I too would have a crush on Taem.

Taem please be a good character for the rest of the series, you are too cool to lose.

"Being poor is scary." REAL!

Oh Wandee, this is not going to go well.

Kao and Wandee's friendship makes me so happy.

"In the brother zone" Oh Wandee, you're never escaping that.

Me watching Kao explain asexuality: Oh buddy. :(

Look, being rejected is never fun but I can't hate Ter for rejecting someone he isn't interested in. In fact, I am currently siding with him in this conversation.

Doctor Vanilla has clearly never seen Wandee bitch at someone.

Oh, nevermind, I want to hit Ter with a wrench. He rejected Wandee and then asked if Wandee would let him have the scholarship. Like, let the rejection simmer for a bit man.

Oh gods, I am only thirty minutes into the episode.

Wandee is going to drink his problems away. Real.

Yes Wandee! Go for that scholarship! Fuck that guy!

Wandee talking to Kao about being too vanilla. Don't say that to an asexual, Wandee. You won't like the trove that unleashes.

Kao and Wandee's friendship is so important to me.

Kao, don't leave your wasted friend on the side of the road-

"Boxer Guy!" "Doc!" And Calcium!

Wandee, why are you following Yak?

Grocery store shenanigans!!!

Yak and I are having a crisis.

Wandee needs to chill. Granted he is drunk.

Wandee really said I need to fuck the hot boxer.

I need to take screenshots of Yak's face. Who is his actor? *quick google search later* Great is working those facial muscles.

I can't even-

Yak, do us all a favor and give Wandee a couch to sleep off the alcohol. I am concerned about his well-being.

Wandee sleeping in the trash is a mood.

Finally, Yak remembered he has muscles to carry Wandee with.

Wandee having flashbacks to Yak's muscles is real.

I am concerned about Wandee's capability to consent to sex.

Oh! They're both losers. That makes sense.

They're both naked and he is checking his shoulder.

Love them, they're both losers.

This is the wildest hook-up circumstances I have ever witnessed.

DAMN THE WHOLE TABLE IS SHAKING-

Ter, I hope Wandee beats you with a wrench.

Seriously, what crack did they put in this song-

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here we go...

DCAS episode 3 thoughts

spoilers!!!

(no duh.)

first of all, somebody spoiled in chat that lake would be the vote, so i’m pissed off enough as it is

patrons... when i catch you patrons...

seriously fuck all of the leakers & patrons that spoil stuff. i hate you guys. hope your pillow is hot on both sides

anyways!!! genuine opinion time

tom, my baby, my love, the light of my life, you did a good job voting for lake. this might be controversial but i think that, out of everyone, she is definitely someone to get out early. maybe there will be some sort of comeback challenge that she’ll win, because i don’t feel like her story is fully over yet, but for now, i’m satisfied she was the one to go.

connor and riya make me more uncomfortable by the day, but thank you to riya for putting an end to their situationship. not looking forward to connor doing pathetic puppy eyes and sighing broken-heartedly throughout the challenges though. and just between you and me, i truly hope one of them is the next vote.

also why did she say "i’m not your daughter" when they’re supposed to be interpreted as a couple/situationship thing... isn’t that a weird writing choice... or is it just me skull emoji fire emoji

on the note of another weird couple, yul is showing his true colors. i told you it was only a matter of time before he showed his true colors... grett, baby, you deserve so much better. i hope when this ship inevitably crashes that grett kicks him in the nuts at one point. she deserves to crush his balls. as a treat :3

love to see a potential alec-fiore-miriam alliance, and miriam back on her gaslighting shit. i have the feeling she might make the merge, but ellie will have her revenge against her and get her out by exposing her somehow. but for this to work, we would need someone dumb enough to vote for her, and i really wonder who- nvm jake is still in the game!! (and tom could probably be manipulated ORRR he could change his priorities and realize that jake and miriam ain’t shit

DEREK AND TREVOR ARE SOOO FUNNY derek’s voice actor is the best of the bunch and i am dead serious. he is sooo funny his deliveries are always so good (compared to many of the others that i would be burnt at the stake for giving the names of lol) derek forgetting THEY are the interns made me laugh so hard i love them

ashley please stop fueling jake’s dumbass fantasies he’s bad and fucking stupid enough as he is

jake can you just accept some people can be friends or are you going to be arophobic this entire series /hj. only a joke because of the arophobia but has this man never heard of platonic male relationships? not to be mean but [CENSORED] [CENSORED EVEN MORE] [CENSORED AS IF IN THE COMMUNIST ERA] [MY LAWYER ADVISED ME TO DELETE THIS ENTIRE SEQUENCE]

fuck jake

fuck riya

fuck connor

fuck jake

fuck yul

fuck jake

fuck yul

oh and how could i forget?

FUCK JAKE

sorry i know he didn’t do much this episode i just hate his ass

tess was really smart with her vote tbh... love that for her. she gets it

aiden and tom alliance PLEASE I CAN FEEL IT BLOOMING I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP SO MUCH ARGHHH

fuck jake

fiore deserves better, she hasn’t even done anything this season, why will nobody give her a damn break lol? ashley and jake when i catch you...

hunter fuck you. you know what you did

ally-hunter-fiore alliance getting out jake WHEN WHEN WHENNNNNN!!!!!!!! not a want but a NEED!!!

fuck yul

fuck jake

FUCK JAKE!!!

also fuck riya and connor and their stupid ass drama

and fuck yul

but how could i forget? fuck jake

that’s all :3

(fuck jake btw)

placing my bets for the next episode...

ally-hunter-fiore alliance blooms but hunter is visibly hesitant about it. thank god he doesn’t have to vote, or he’d have probably already betrayed the alliance...

tom-aiden bonding, tom reluctantly accepts ellie as an ally, and gabby tries to get the two closer to each other, at least to work together if not to be friends

yellow team loses. riya goes home (more of a hope than anything though, realistically i think hunter and/or ally have good chances of leaving...)

alec-miriam-fiore alliance also blooms. throw connor in there too, but only as an ally of alec’s. alec is the one to convince connor to vote for riya.

jake explodes and fucking dies

yul explodes and fucking dies

riya explodes and fucking dies

[daisyjonesgf]

Okay I know like nobody cares but imma tell you anyways. Soooo… the recording for our song went badly (that guy and I) in fact, it didn’t even happen and I ended up walking out of the studio in a very Daisy Jones way. He ignored me the whole time and was texting my cousin the entire time… I don’t stand for that

I believe what I said was “Don’t waste my fucking time, I have better shit to do.” Before walking out.

The thing is is that him and I played leads in a short film where we had to kiss but after mess ups where the kiss was awkward they took it (per my request). Then at a party we went to he was clinging to me and I kind of was starting to recognize my feelings but then at a rave we went to he went off to smoke with this girl who has literally played at Giants Stadium. And my cousin is obsessed with him. I’m feeling very much Daisy Jones right now and my song writing has never been better

daisy jones vibes go hard with this one and I'm obsessed, I care so much, tell me all the tea

ugh men, so annoying, like I need them to give more consistency. but the song and the short film and the girl who's performed for the Giants game, like you're literally in a movie right now and I'm obsessed. I'm so glad it's helped your song writing, I love passion in writing, make yourself a main character and suddenly the inspo goes wild.

Since we're talking about guys let me fill you in on my drama. There's three different men in my life rn bc I'm just a (I forgot what I was saying them bc one of them started messaging me and I got distracted.

anyways one big problem is I'm really attracted to immature guys, not willingly at all. I want to be taken care of, I want a man, but when I get a crush it's always on a younger brother type, immature guy, probably because I'm the oldest daughter.

so number one we'll call, band boy, he's so so immature. I've kinda had a crush on him since we met but he had a girlfriend so I told myself not to get involved, but I had a feeling they wouldn't last long. I ended up hanging out with them in groups and at parties and really just have started to like him more, but she broke up with a few days ago. I just got cast in a show with him and like kind of want to shoot my shot and spend the summer flirting, seeing if it goes anywhere, but I also feel bad because I've liked him for so long and he just got broken up with. he's super immature though, but really so sweet at the core. but literally first night we ever really talked, we spent all night sending voice notes to each other so yeah (after the show we're in, he's in the other show I'm helping out in)

then there's the tall guy, also super immature, but he's in a show I'm helping out with, helped cast. and when I saw him, literal butterflies, and everyone was automatically saying he was my type, we were trying to find out how old he was. I just literally get butterflies thinking about him and we haven't really talked, but he's so talented and hot like idk, so that's another avenue this summer.

or we have actor guy, he's also cast in the show I'm helping out with. and idk the moment he started talking, making jokes, I just felt some sort of feelings/attraction. he seemed a lot more mature and we also didn't talk much but kept making eye contact and I'll be working a lot with him this summer too.

so many guys, all actors, that I'm into and idk what to do, or how to flirt, or if they're into me 😭😭😭😭

[bengiyo]

Gav and Cai Hira and Kiyoi Teh and Oh

aka my top 3 and TanBun or KornKnock for the grown and sexy

Absolutely zero chill. Four pairs?? I think you're just gonna get me firing from the hip.

Gavreel and Cairo

When it comes to BL, the Philippines won when it came to tackling how the pandemic affected connection and romance. I really like presentation of developing a crush on a streamer and just going for it with these two. I'm still waiting for my proper gamers BL, but this is a good first outing.

I think what I like so much about what we got from these two is how temporary so much of their lives feels. They want to be together. They want to commit. However, life won't let them. Gav can't stay here and be okay because he's running out of money and honestly isn't that well right now. Cairo is still grieving his dad, and he has a lot of growing up to do.

They're one of the rare pairs that I want to be together in the future who I am glad are forced to take a break when we see them part.

Hira and Kiyoi

I think the best thing about this show and this pairing was the reveal that Kiyoi was also obsessed with Hira from the moment their eyes first locked. I also really like that Kiyoi is a bottom who wants it.

We've been lucky with these two that we got to see them three times, and I like how much stronger Yagi has gotten as an actor each time, and how Hagiwara has grown as a creator and storyteller. These two seem to really understand that they have two characters who struggle to say what's necessary to each other in a way that reaches the other.

I loved in Season 2 when Kiyoi realized that Hira was still worshiping him as a god and freaked the fuck out about it, storming out of the house. That he was in the living room the next morning waiting for Hira to come and talk to him, only to get annoyed again was perfect. We get fairly decent payoff for Hira finally facing his own ego when it comes to Kiyoi in the movie, and these two remain among my favorites.

Also, Yagi Yusei really is that beautiful.

Teh and Oh

I just know if I was part of MoRaoYuLok I would have a side chat where we just bitched about these two.

Teh is such an asshole sometimes, and Oh is really so patient with his nonsense. I always lament that Teh is so unsociable that he struggles to maintain a lot of friendships, and it's why that snake Jai was able to get in there and fuck up his life. Still, Teh isn't off the hook for his own shit. He's always struggled with jealousy when it comes to Oh, and he's always worried about falling behind him.

Oh is just so naturally gifted and has an irresistible natural charm. He knows he's beautiful, and he knows how people see yet, and yet he's only ever looking at Teh. We should all be so lucky.

I think about that translation scene in episode 3 of ITSAY regularly, and how that is probably one of the best moments we've ever had in BL. These two really captured a love that feels bigger than their bodies can contain.

Tan and Bun

I'll talk about Tan and Bun since it's been too long since I watched Together With Me and cannot remember them that clearly anymore.

Tan was so ridiculous this entire show, and I'll never get over Bun being ACAB as fuck the whole time. Bun never forgot that he was trying to solve this case for his bestie who they murdered, but he knew she would want him to get some ass along the way.

Tan said absolutely insane shit to Bun literally every episode. He even shot that man off a cliff. Somehow he still won. Incredible.

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