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#ya know#hank green was talking about how#post op and on chemo#he was really fatigued and or depressed#and it's just kind of a difficult to parse blurb#and that's so relatable#like i'm lonely with nothing to think about except how i'm lonely#(and frankly how few people have talked to me at all since undergoing surgery lol)#but im also tired with nothing to think about except how tired i am#and i can't hardly sleep because of the pain#so i'm just#like am i depressed or do i just need to go to sleep#too bad cause i can't fix one and i can't complete the other#the pain is unique too like#im always in pain but this#this is fun new pain#i can't ignore by doing other things#it sucksssssss#and i have a lot of great people to talk to to be clear#friends i've been talking to daily#still it's like#man im out here with nothing to do and truly no one here wants to hear me complain#and i feel so guilty seeking out friends to complain to#and im borrred all the time#idk i just needed to scream this into the void i've been trying to sleep for hours
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It's interesting how Jonathan keeps equating himself with women, first with the gothic heroines of books, now "sitting at a little oak table where in old times possibly some fair lady sat to pen, with much thought and many blushes, her ill-spelt love-letter" and feeling the first bit of comfort in a while in what he identifies as a woman's room. I know tumblr keeps identifying Jonathan as the book's Damsel in Distress, but it's interesting that Jonathan is consciously identifying himself that way, rather than identifying with any number of the action heroes in books of the time.
I wonder what men in 1897 thought about it, and I wonder if it was a conscious decision on Bram Stoker's part
#I've also seen posts from women talk about how they relate to Jonathan cause they've been in similar situations#not with vampires (unless?? share with the class plz??)#but with creeps who's violations of your space and boundaries you have to tolerate#out of fear of something worse#it's just interesting through the lenses of gender and class from that time and from today's perspective#anyway#I'll defend my dear friend Jonathan Harker until I die#Sword speaks#Dracula Daily May 15#Dracula Daily#Jonathan Harker
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#(edit: it's been found thank you! original tags preserved below)#I cannot for the life of me find one specific reaction image and its source post#the one where the person is coming to in a hospital bed after a surgery#and they try to eat their own fist#and get stopped#and make big wibbly confused crying faces#it's smooth line images interspersed with text#does anyone have it?#cuz that '🥺???' was me most of the day and I wanted the image so I could convey it#but I Couldn't Find It#and neither my wife nor my best friend have any idea what image I'm talking about#so they can't help#(my partner isn't very online so there's no point asking them lol)#do any of y'all have it pls#I want the original post but I can't even find the standalone reaction image which should be enough to find the post#I've found one iteration of someone drawing their oc in the meme format and that's as far as I got even with as much as I remember about it#favorites
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09/08/2023
#daily bunny#221#fan bunny#kurama#yu yu hakusho#been watching yyh while I draw and Man#This Guy's stolen my heart asdfdgfhg#ALSO hi friends very sorry for not engaging much w/ people here n stuff#I try to answer replies n stuff when ppl talk to me but I've so many things to draw and no energy for anything else rn#but I Do read Everything and power up from it like a shounen protagonist
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First day back at the university and I still suck at this exactly as much as I did 4 years ago
#i wish doing something over and over actually made it easier from then on#how come i've done this so many times and i'm still as horrified by the prospect of group projects and exams and all as in the very start#can they invent a higher education that doesn't require you to prepare a group project for every damn subject that exists#can they also invent an intercating with people#in a way that doesn't leave me feeling like the only person on earth who somehow doesn't get it#how do people just start talking and becoming friends :( it's literally impossible for me#it's such a mystery. how the hell do they all do this. what's your fucking secret !!!!!!!!!#not that i expected to become friends with anyone in one day#but one day was already enough for me to start feeling as alienated and othered from everyone else as i've always felt#like god it's always the same damn thing. each year i hope it'll be different and it's still the fucking same#i try to appear nice and approachable and chime in to the conversation whenever i can (just like i've been doing for the past 4 years)#but i guess there must just be something deeply wrong with me that makes everyone avoid me in the end anyway#am i really that unfriendable. can anyone tell me what i'm doing wrong#and why no one is interested in holding a conversation with me for more than 5 minutes in total#it's literally back to the same thing that i've done over and over before and i truly don't see any point in any of this anymore#it's just so ridiculous 😭😭😭 why do i even keep trying at this point#back to school so back to crying alone in my room every evening i guess#how beautiful how poetic. i almost forgot this was the daily standard for the entire past year#never getting out of this ok i get it :))#friendship was meant to be for everyone but me i get it now!!!#worst year ever everything bad is happening. going to my first funeral on thursday i'm definitely going to take that well hahaha#it's been only a day and i'm already so done. ok.#i'm freaking out man what am i even supposed to be doing anymore. it's all pointless
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(cw vent, sorry it's just been A Couple Of Days)
Not really having many irl friends comes at the price of feeling so terribly lonely, I feel like I have no one to talk to because I'm not close to enough people, or maybe I am and I just haven't talked to them in a while and I don't want this to be our first conversation qwq
I'm honestly just. Tired, tbh qwq
#I mostly talk to my partner#But they've been more absent lately and like they have their own life#But the second they're gone I realize I don't talk to anyone that much#I used to have someone else I spoke to daily; it was an awful friendship though and it took a lot of struggle to end it#But god; just qwq; I'm so tired of everything qwq#Honestly I'm disappointed in how upset it makes me that my partner is more absent because I know it's bc they've found a game they're into#And have been playing non-stop#They'll come telling me that they've done this and that and I'll be struggling HARD and will try to mention it at some point but#But like I wanna leave them their space to be excited but I just#Look. Look the NPD is getting to me; and I know these are not kind or fair feelings but#But I hate it here; I don't care about their game; I don't care about what they've done;#All my brain focuses on is that I've had a shitty fucking day and everything's gone wrong and they weren't here#Because they were fucking playing#And I know that's not fair for MANY reasons and that voicing all that would make me a massive asshole#And that at its core; it's more of a matter of never going anywhere; not having people to hang out with;#Not leaving my house nor talking to that many people#I feel so lonely and so fucking hollow qwq#My bag got taken away and I feel like I've lost an intrinsic part of myself#And to top it all off; I had today's exam and the project I'm doing#And my dad screaming and my period coming and all the things I have to do and how much I yearn for friends#Yet when I'm with my friends I can't wait to be alone#Man; just#I didn't wanna go this far; and I only say it here because no one's really gonna read it;#But I genuinely just wanna kill myself at this point#There's no point nor reason#I'm trying hard to enjoy life but nothing goes my way#I have so many things I want to do and nothing fucking goes my way#I'm so tired; I just want to go to sleep and not wake up; it's gnawing and clawing and it's such an ugly feeling qwq#I feel like if I cut myself I'd be even more pathetic; I wouldn't even be met with sympathy; just. Disappointment#It's been a while since I last self-harmed in a way that was visible
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well. at least I can say I never turned into a joe alwyn hate blogger like half the fandom did a few weeks back :)
#tbh the daily mail article is not remotely surprising to me#I've been thinking since the taylor/matty thing started that if it were the other way rounda#and joe had immediately got with a friend he'd been hanging out with recently then every swiftie would be coming for his throat#i mean people went crazy with cheating allegations over him literally just being in a costar's photo???#so regardless of whether the dm article is true it's hardly surprising a tabloid decided to run with that angle#talking#ts discourse
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why do people keep putting oikawa as one of the worst villains next to literal characters that have murdered people the worst thing that he did was not wanting to teach some kid how to do a serve how thw fuck is he a walking red flag his best friend literally kicks his ass daily he's a loser!!!!! (affectionate that's my fucking loser)
#i know i've been talking a lot about anime lately but it be like that sometimes#does his personality suck? yeah iwa literally calls him trashy-kawa and it's deserved#but truly i have seen way too many posts that put him with the likes of fucking his.oka#and that dude from the titans anime that apparently commited genocide#like the only thing he has in common with his.oka is the voice actor#it's literally a sports anime there is no villain LMAO#you're all getting my random posts because i don't talk with the friend i used to talk about anime with anymore#and honestly i'm sad about it daily#b.txt
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Miss Bunnii circa 2017? (when orange was the color scheme) Also that guy to the right is literally some random who became my bestie!!
#he was just some guy and then BAM friend and love of my life#not even to mention the friends I've met on there that I actually got to meet IRL and now talk to on the daily#like they'll never make me hate this game!! Its brought me so much joy#this image has been sitting in my drafts for years finally it sees the light of day
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i need friends /gen (slight rant in tags)
#xelle.txt#i noticed i don't really have a permanent circle of friends. at least irl#i have one online but they're also busy and i just can't dedicate my time to one friend group#i don't know - it's just the people i thought who were nice turned out to be the exact opposite#and when i found out about that i just kinda. lost interest in making any more friends#my partner is the only person i interact with on a daily basis. the irl friend group i was referring to earlier i'm not exactly close with-#-them either#i feel like if i didn't only give my time in nurturing my romantic relationship i would have done the same for my platonics too#that's still a problem of mine. my time management between love life and friends. heck i even got myself into an unsolvable problem because-#-of my inability to stay consistent#also my brain is kinda fried from reading 20+ pages so pardon any grammatical errors but yeah anyway#honestly i've been craving for interaction here. but i know i won't be active and it'd just be pointless#to gain more friends or followers. i don't exactly make content as consistently as i did before#the other day i had to vent to an ai (would you believe me if it was cha.tgpt) about my troubles because i had no one else to talk to lol#there's just so much going on irl 😭 ya girl's almost starting college and they're throwing so much tasks at us!!#and i feel very very stressed about it because they're usually done in groups i am ALWAYS the assigned leader#which gets exhausting especially when there are lazy members present#anyway#hopefully this weekend i get some time to cool off. but next week i'm back to grinding and working#lol i don't even think i'm in the top ranks anymore. i'm so burnt out.#this is what being an academic achiever gives you oops ZZHSIAHAHAJAHHS#imma sleep now 😭#idk you can just interact with me or recommend someone you know who self ships in the same medias i do#goodnight everypony 🫶#vent tw#rant tw
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I need serious help good god
#the therapy office STILL hasn't contacted me and the disability office hasn't either for my psych evaluation#I'm honestly starting to think i have some form of psychosis or smth adjacent to it#and my depression is so severe im continuously having suicidal thoughts daily#I've been isolating myself heavily and cant get myself to talk to even my closest friends#i havent had a big hyperfocus or passion in years#Its why I haven't been on tumblr too much#or any form of social media#why cant i get over myself#suicide mention
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Advice from experience: Be VERY careful on spending money on games, especially if what you're spending money on is like, limited events and shit.
Once you're in, you're IN and it's very, very hard to get out of mostly because of guilt and not wanting to put down stuff you've spent hours grinding for.
#alt rambles#rants in tags#recently started putting down and breaking off of a game that i've been grinding on for two years#and realised how much more time i have on my hands#and how much less draining my daily life is#and that i have more energy and time to do stuff instead of spending 2-3 hours every day to grind on the game#yea i spent 2-3 sometimes 4 hours per day just playing this game on a daily basis for the last 2 years#because i spent money and a shit load of time and effort in it#so putting it down genuinely makes me feel a lot of guilt#cause i feel like its such a waste#but like idk#i got really frustrated the other day and so burned out i gave myself a few days break and hoenstly im doing so much better than before#and i actually have time to do other stuff and do more art that now im starting to like#not want to go back to playing the game anymore#lmao yea if you know me you know what game im talking about#i mean i still love the game but damn was it fucking predatory and its only gotten worse thanks to new updates imo#it was fun before and now its just endless grinding#anyways#its another reason why i dont wanna pick up playing genshit even though i really want to#cause i finally got scara (thanks friend who logs in sometimes)#cause like i know genshit will also do that to me smh#anyways idk its just been on my mind lately about how i have unhealthy relationships with a lot of video games#i think im just going to stick to games like sdv and sr that don't have event after event#so thta i can go for breaks without feeling bad or like im missing out
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wouldn't expect a lot of queenmaker until ~christmas time, which is not what i would like to say but my body is just telling me to ease up after november and i'm hitting that pre-holiday slump so we're just chillin. we're playing a game for the first time in six months. we're doing a puzzle. my eyes are really blurry rn so i think i'll go to bed.
#i did manage to sit down and do a lot of planning for queenmaker specifically though#had a good chat with zom mom about pacing and stuff#i say 'ease up' like i haven't added more projects/tasks to the list#i've just half started looking at planning and editing rather than writing like crazy#picked up daily korean practice again#added my novel back to my wip list#we're now working on the basis of 'every time i hate my job and i want a new career i write 1k of my novel'#whatever works#this is a lot of tags for someone with very blurry eyes#the game thing actually doesn't help with physical illness my tv is too small and it just makes my eyes strain really hard#one day someone is going to give me the gs i'm owed and i'll get to buy a new one#technically i saved for a new tv six months ago my savings are just tied up in an offshore account called Someone Else's Pockets#these tags have gotten way out of hand#i just wanted to talk about my life idk#been too busy to talk to my friends about life? post it in the tumblr tags#anyway i'm sure z m or keeps or someone is all the way down here#Roundup!#queenmaker has like 16 chapters plotted#none of chapter 5 written but i'm definitely. looking at starting it.#nevermore i wrote 500 words#haven't looked at it in a week#know exactly where it goes so if i'm not stuck i'm circling back within a month#pirates is ongoing most nights#however i don't know what the scene by scene play is so#very much Just Vibing i added what i will call the cake scene today because i was emotional about an uneaten piece of cake from a month ago#so that's where pirates and my mental health are at#damn this is a full life update huh#systems check#heart (the novel) is truly at 100k now#i figured out the holes in the first part of it so i can actually connect all these dots now
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when you think about how single and truly alone you are for more than a half second and you start experiencing the symptoms of a panic attack
#dia's daydreams#based on a true story#(that's still going)#(and will never. ever. end.)#this is a near daily ritual#and its not like i can TALK to anyone about it.#all of my friends think it's dumb and tired of hearing about it#and non-single people won't take it seriously#even single people are like#'that's dumb learn to be content on your own'#SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UP I'VE BEEN ALONE MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE I JUST WANT ONE PERSON.#ONE PERSON WHO I K N O W EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY WITH.#IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?
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gotta love the feature of depression that's like, can't tell if people in my life are actually being annoying or if I'm not handling things well and therefore overreacting to things that would normally not bother me!
#are my friends oversharing without asking and using me as an unpaid therapist#or am I just unable to handle any outside complaints/negativity at this moment no matter how valid#a question I ask myself daily#sometimes it's pretty obvious like I told one of my coworkers today that I was in a car accident this weekend#(it was a fender bender and I am fine)#and her next sentence was about how tired she was etc. until she circled back to asking me about the accident#(you'll notice she has been downgraded from friend to coworker bc she does this shit all. the. fucking. time.)#another friend texted me unprompted about her car issues#and when I responded to commiserate and also told her about the accident#she was surprised that I'd been going fast enough that I was in pain from it#(again I am fine. just sore.)#like in that case I probably shouldn't be pissed that she texted me about her car issues out of the blue#bc we had already talked about it and I do want to be kept up to date on my friends' lives?#this is the story of me at almost 29 realizing that I've let a bunch of my friendships devolve into#me being a receptacle for other people's problems and complaints at all times#and now I don't know how to set boundaries or get myself out of this situation#especially since this is the pattern I've developed with like...most of my friends#it's super cool I don't hate it at all#ask people if they have capacity before you bitch about your life#also if anyone has the lead on a cute cottage in the void where I could just exist and not have to speak to anyone#or have any responsibilities whatsoever#for like a week or two#PLEASE lmk#a bitch needs an actual break
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what do u think ab kurdistan
i literally don't have any particular thoughts about kurdistan
#[ ai—mail ]#ᓚᘏᗢ — meowtuals#like i don't want to come off as cold or rude or anything just genuinely don't know what im expected to say#i've never been to that territory nor do i follow political stuff#so just idek#i only know one person that's kurd and i met her a few yrs ago on discord and she is now literally my best friend#even tho we've never seen each other but we talk daily i literally adore her and she has to deal w me#for the rest of her life and that's that
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