#forever alone v

[jkvjimin]

"your bias is your personality" my bias:

❝I hope people can take a break, self-reflect, and look back on their goals. I wish that everyone, including myself, would not neglect themselves because they are too focused on their work, when working or doing something. Rather, I hope they can think about their health and happiness, and other aspects of their mental well-being. Sometimes it's okay to take a break.❞

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIM TAEHYUNG! (dec. 30, 1995)

[stromuprisahat]

“You were meant to be like me. You were meant ... You’re nothing now.”

Ruin and Rising- Chapter 17

As long as she was the immortal Sun Summoner, he was still able to cling to the idea she's THE ONE, destined to whether the eternity at his side. Yes, he was quite disenchanted by her obstinacy and short-sightedness, but she still had forever to grow.

When that's taken away, what's left? A girl, who's refusing to both look and listen, throwing away any responsibility and her own health, so she can hide with the only person she seems to care about.

In other words- nothing.

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.

[seaweedstarshine]

—on the topic of psychotic Summers brothers, I only just caught up with six months of X-Men after stopping for six months the topic of Gabriel referring to the tags of my last X-Men post a month ago — but I was happy to see Scott's torture-induced psychosis didn't (definitively) turn out just to be that he'd calculated what others hadn't. Yes, the woman he'd accurately calculated would save him was Dr. Gregor, not Jean, but that doesn't change that he remained unsure if Jean was real (and thought she was alive) while the all-seeing Enigma knew on the contrary that Scott was delusional because Phoenix thus equally (an equivocation which casts further doubt of Scott's fiery visions ever being genuine, as Jean's dying mind had departed Scott well before Mother Righteous sacrificed Jean's dead fragmented self for Dominion, before Scott was tortured) Jean — were so utterly dead that Rachel and Hope had to cancel out death to reverse it. Yet Scott, hyper-vigilant traumatized autistic brain-damaged neurodivergent soldier that he is, seemingly accomplished all these strategic calculations while having a psychotic “break,” which is extremely in character for him—

[ccaptain]

Genshin Kaeya talking about his family (a broken relationship with his brother that risks taking a step forward and three back in the bad days) VS H:SR Kaeya talking about his family (his dad Gallagher who has trained him into becoming what he is today and that he loves very much, his ''non-mom'' Siobhan who had the patience to taught him social norms back even when he was simply ''it'' and Misha, literally the kindest soul alive)

[toastysol]

Absolutely mental about my v and how many people important to him with names that start with j his life has been filled with. When he was little he had an older brother named Jaxson (who he called Jack), then later on he had Jackie (who he called Jack), and finally Johnny. And how none of them could manage to stick around with him. Jaxson was killed by tyger claws trying to get food for v, Jackie was killed by arasaka during the heist, and v effectively had to shove Johnny out of his life to survive. My poor v.... I have to believe there will be some day when he is at least content

[roserefrain]

hi aster ! what would you say ur favorite thing about florian is ? (if u cant pick just one, id love to hear anything you have in mind !)

Aster: Ohhhh that’s a hard one… Hm, I think if I had to pick just one thing, I’d say it’s probably how dedicated he is! When something matters to him, it’s like nothing in the world can slow him down. I think that’s really admirable, ya know? It’s kinda… easy to want to give up on certain things, once you realize how unfair it is here. I just sort of accepted at a certain point that I’d never share my true self with anyone, that I’d never talk about my interests, that I’d never tell Florian how I felt… But, it’s like Florian doesn’t have that thing in his head telling him to stop and not bother. He became a knight when no one thought he could, he told me his feelings, and… he seems to really think that someday people’s minds could change, that… we won’t always have to hide. Ahaha, I guess a big part of it is he makes me feel more hopeful for the future! I can be a little bit of a pessimist, but, he makes that harder.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

the "well, perhaps so long as the aba is polite" approach where it's like hey it's not ableism if it's like oh the non normative interactive / socializing / communication elements are "unskilled" so like suddenly this framing of an intrinsic Inferiority is neutral :)

but it's like the non neutrality of going e.g. "ah, autistic people don't have the Social Skills :)" is always There when, i mean, right off the bat, difference is framed as deficiency & inferiority wherein the alleged "skills" of being allistic Must be learned. or else what? is never really addressed despite expecting the audience to know the stakes of "oh You Know what happens if you don't have the 'skills' :)"

and even if pretending that oh it's all simply neutral Misunderstanding these days, somehow it's all about what the nonconforming parties have to Do Differently to fix this. not making the posts telling allistic people how to appeal to autistic people or blend in with them and chiding them if they think they Don't Have To. while, again, it gets to be left unsaid why you Would have to Be Less Autistic. what happens to autistic people when they're around neurotypical(tm) people? versus what happens to nt people around autistic people? how neutral to obscure power difference there like ah the autistics are unskilled and must stop bringing it upon themselves and if they don't They Know What Happens vs the simply so totally skilled neurotypical people are just fine doing whatever and it just so happens to be that if they Misunderstand an autistic person they're just fine & if they don't have "skills" an autistic person does they're just fine & by that not just Unpunished but still In The Right(tm) really

also like gee what a familiar situation for "autistic people need to learn Social Skills, is why [ableism] happens: totally isn't justifying [ableism]" to have that dynamic where the vulnerable group is deemed Responsible for the feelings of the group backed by power structures (and thus, implicitly, their Actions stemming from whatever feelings). like oh the fact that for everyone in pretty much any groups in any contexts, school, work, home, wherever, it's "normal" to have people bullied & ostracized & isolated & scapegoated & pushed out & punished for being unpopular, disliked, weird, annoying, unappealing offputting; that's fine, that should get to happen, and it totally happens for neutral reasons that aren't key everyday instances of maintaining power structures. it's just Normal Socializing that young kids can be replicating norms of white supremacy, patriarchy, ableism; the immediate othering & ostracization & bullying that peers can encounter? sounds like someone Failed to be Normal while those who weren't negatively affected by this are just doing what they're gonna do! forces of nature! being Normal & Skilled as they reject & exclude & bully peers, i know that's right. happening years later in Jobs? sounds like someone's just Failing to be Professional now. not a Team Player, don't have the Skills we need, sorry. all very neutral here

anyways again like what a Familiar dynamic. one party Must be considered to be an unstoppable unmovable force who's just doing their thing; the other party is held as being responsible for how that first party feels in kneejerk reaction to them, and for all the negative consequences of that, which affect them more frequently & intensely as a pattern of unilaterality rather than true "haha just a misunderstanding!" theoretically more balanced, reciprocal mistakes & whoopsie daisies. like again that being locked in to an abusive home life i didn't see this "countered" when getting to leave for school & college & work & social hangouts when the extremely normal pervasive logics & practises of abuse were, you're not gonna believe it, found to also be normal & pervasive there too. wow once again being ignored / left alone is about the best, while there's an especial disinterest that gets interrupted to a) make use of you as entertainment or telling you what to do or etc or b) enact negative attention as punishment / power trip. wow once again you're responsible for this treatment & it's sure not gonna change thanks to the people doing it & btw it's not that bad & it's literally normal. kids these days like so whiny & angsty when they're miserable at school & home & promised umm hey at least you aren't miserable at work yet.

anyway seeming really so "skilled" when the Social Approach is that what matters is having an instant superficial affinity with someone, and what Really matters is whether your having that or not is something you can do your part in making their life worse. who cares if the people insufficiently backed up by the power to do anything about it dislike someone for any reasons. and yet more totally unfamiliar logic when like arguing against "conform & comply or die & it's your fault" is like ohh You're the Real problem. You don't want those affected to Succeed. you sickos. like yeah always sooo fucked up to be The Ruiner The Destroyer of family, of existing within 5 mi of nt people being a stealth mission to evade the detection & bullying (this is also the family dynamic, should the family feel like it), of america, of gender

[pandorashearts]

watched the kdrama celebrity over the last few days. was hooked from the first few seconds bc the EDITING in the show, & just the cinematography in general is on a whole nother fuckin level, man.

also, just. a really great show in general. v good at building suspense & throwing loops & very nice themes/takeaways. also just a rly interesting way to convey those themes/takeaways.

i think the only issue we had w it was the romance, but. eh. it wasn't so bad that it took away from the ample amount of good shit in the show.

def recommend it!! especially to anyone who really enjoyed the glory bc it has v similar themes.

[purplefeeler]

Remember every ARMY out there; Jimin has written so many letters for us round the years, so don’t ever think that you’re not loved or wanted.

I want you, Jimin wants us, BTS wants us.

💜💜

In case you’re feeling down;

Now you won’t. 🙃😊☺️

We love you❤️❤️💜💜

[heartsdefine]

↪ memes — accepting!

@unwaivering said: ❝ all of nature’s beauty pales in comparison to you. ❞ (Westley to Buttercup)

        “No, I will not forgive you. No matter how you flatter me,” Buttercup said, face turned away to hide the beginnings of a smile. Even as her heart ached at the thought of living without his company, he could still reach a warmth within her. “What am I to do while you are gone? Sit here on the farm and waste away?”

[noonemournthewicked]

(Sigh) yeah……..

[kaleuh]

my sister introducing me to a v delicious non-alcoholic champagne was very very nice of her, and now because i have the day off tomorrow i can sit around drinking it playing grown up like everyone else (bonus points for Being Sad)

[fxglove]

tag dump two <3

[allofuswantgwinam]

I just hung out with one of my bestest friends and the person who probably put up with me the most when i was in my past messy ass relationship. it was kinda surreal to catch him up on everything for so many reasons.

1. I am more of a bad ass than I give myself credit for lol even before I finally caught my ex in his bs officially, those last few months I was not mfing PLAYING. bravo to me, I needed to re read this shit I s2g

2. It’s still a punch in the face. It still feels insane that it’s over forever and that he was not who he portrayed to be at all. it is a fucking big ass knuckle sandwich to my goddamn heart. Unfortunately.

It’s really fucked up how you can give your heart to someone and they don’t have any real intent to keep it safe. to return the love they say they have for you. they say all these things. make all these promises. I mean they really just fucking play you so good and you don’t even see it. and then once you start to see it it’s like “nah it’s not that. I’m tripppin” bc they keep feeding you bs and you believe them but then at the end of it all it’s always the same end game. I used to think that bc I left him that I won. I don’t really feel that way anymore. I will say I did win myself back and i am so grateful that I was strong enough to want myself and not him anymore. but I didn’t win shit. This isn’t what I wanted but I accept things for what they are. I lost in so many more ways than I even want to accept. But I didn’t win this situation. this is the saddest and most painful thing I’ve ever had to get through in my life. It’s really irritating that I even stil care. It will have been a year in about a month or so. I’m still hurting and he’s probably out there still doing the same damn things. It is infuriating to know that I’m left here with all this pain, this self doubt, this fear of ever getting close to anyone again and he is fine. I didn’t win. but I’m glad to lose if that means I get myself back.

[odysseys-blood]

i always want to do these draw memes but i gotta learn to reel myself in bc i end up doing too much besides a little sketch and way beyond just a bust....anyways i gotta choose who