#for the void

[non-plutonian-druid]

So heres the thing about Dredge.

I think its a huge missed opportunity that the main character is the husband and not the wife.

the backstory doesnt come out fully until the end, but when it does, what you learn is this:

some amount of time ago, the player character was married. over the course of the game, you pick up notes from a woman, and at the end you learn that she was your wife.

*was*, because Cthulhu ate her.

you were a fisherman, and obsessed with the ocean, and she was not. you were superstitious, and she was not. And one day, she messed up and did something unlucky, and then she was lost at sea one night when she was on your boat.

it fucks you up so bad that you lose all your memory and end the world trying to save her.

so, obviously you're torn up about her, but also, it kinda didn't have anything to do with you. She fucked up and she got got. whoops! Oh well. It also didn't change very much about you: you're still a superstitious fisherman obsessed with the sea, except you're sad now.

But if you were the wife? If he died instead?

you were happily newlywed, but if you had one issue with your husband, it was that he was too married to the sea. He was too obsessed with fishing. He liked his boat too much, and he had all these sailor superstitions that you don't take seriously.

then one day, you ignore his superstitions. and a horrible eldritch force that you've never even dreamed of KILLS HIM.

your husband is DEAD and it is YOUR FAULT.

and it breaks you. So much that you take his boat, set sail, and spend your life at sea. Just like him. Embroiled in superstition and ocean magic. Just like him. Just like your least favorite parts about him. and you spend the rest of your life trying to undo the horrible thing you did, and only ever manage to end the world.

wouldn't that be so much fun?

[ruuinxs]

why homework when you can saiki k

[cyanbugremix]

"Murmur" is such a funny word. It's just "Mur" x2

[stainedglass-coelacanth]

scrolling through tumblr mobile, keep passing ads, and it keeps TURNING OFF MY MOUNTAIN GOATS

horrendous

[divinewound]

Just finished Flannery O’Connor’s soul-stirring masterwork, Blood Wise. I’m floored! Just some quick thoughts on some of the main and secondary characters:

•Hazel is beyond redemption, but I still internally weep for him

•Enoch scares me, I’m sorry

•Sabbath is such a tragic product of her environment and I ache for her

•Asa is a deadbeat and a fraud

•Mrs. Flood is just opportunistic and sad

•Onnie Jay Holy is an excellent send-up of hucksterism

•Poor Leora; I have very little to say, but I can’t forget about her

Finally, an underrated hero of the story is Maude, the waitress; she’s just deliciously witty and I love her.

With all that said, I’m also itching to finally start Blood Meridian, but I don’t want to get too ahead of myself. Apparently, Blood Wise was adapted to film in 1979 and I’ve heard great things about it so I’m super excited to watch that first.

[kittenkes]

I'm the most empathic but cold and unfeeling girl you'll ever meet.

[saltybeansandapplesauce]

sleep deprivation is starting to make me a terrible person

[ttyls]

online interview in like 10 mins! my stuffed monkey will be on my lap the whole time bc his presence and fur is comforting and no one can stop me!

[gremlinbs]

I installed a dating app on my phone again. I'm expecting this to go horribly, but i'm bored and horny. So.

[sun-marie]

I've been thinking a lot about my last reblog and I thought I'd make a separate post so I don't derail the other one by making it About Me, but like... yeah.

I never want to say that I, as a white person, suffer an equal amount as Native people from American Colonization (or black people, who under American slavery also had their original cultures stolen from them unfairly), because as the last post mentioned it did give me privilege that they don't have, and that shouldn't be ignored. But at the same time, I do feel that gaping hole inside me as a result of my ancestors' thoughtless desire for domination that left nothing in its wake, for the people they were subjugating, but also for their own people.

My great-grandfather is Swedish, as in his parents were from Sweden and immigrated to America before he was born. Yet they wanted him to "fit in" with the white American people in the rest of their new rural Texas town, and so they refused to teach him anything about his culture, didn't even teach him any Swedish words. So when he became an adult had kids of his own, there was nothing left to pass on, and by the time it got down to me, with my great-grandfather's parents having long since passed away, any link I might have had to my ancestors and their culture has been successfully and wholly severed. So when I met a girl last semester who was also generationally Swedish, I had nothing in common with her.

I don't want it to get confused that it's the same thing as what native people have and continue to go through, because it's not. But when I hear many of them speak about how they feel disconnected from the culture of their ancestors, it resonates with me. I have Swedish, British, Irish, Scottish, and German blood in my veins, and none of their traditions, or their food, or their cultural practices. When I learn information about these cultures, it's wholly unfamiliar to me.

I have no traditions, save for my "American" cultural holiday of Thanksgiving (which is tarnished by it's loaded history and it's relation to the cornerstone of White American "culture", colonialism) and my religious holidays of Christmas and Easter, which every year sinks deeper and deeper into the pit of American consumerism, the other cornerstone of American "culture".

Idk, it's just.... feels bad, man. I feel like I have no culture and due to that, no community. Thanks so much for that, ancestors mine. Really love your gift of "American Individualism", doesn't feel lonely or empty at all 👍🏻/sarcasm

[non-plutonian-druid]

[ID: A GIF of a stick figure dancing with an umbrella. End ID.]

another sneak preview of the thing im working on that definitely isnt an animatic for the unofficial tua musical

[ruuinxs]

you guys have no clue how much i love saiki k. its so perfect. its the perfect series. everything about it is perfect. there’s so much to say about it i don’t know where to begin. it’s perfect.

[cyanbugremix]

Guys i had pizza for the first time in ig three weeks. Im very happy

[stainedglass-coelacanth]

Ambivalent Landscape Z makes me feel like I’m breathing fresh air for the first time in weeks

[love-and-bubbles]

Loved, loooved Lewis Capaldi's new documentary 'How I'm feeling now'. But the entire time I was thinking about what Louis would think about it. To watch documentaries with the Mr Tomlinson.