#for real though it's chill

[hyperbali]

Hopefully this is the same blog and person. Anyways, it's Kolyat. I know it's been a really long time, and I wanted to apologize. I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and while it doesn't excuse my behaviour, it explains (some) of it. I was really close to the person I hurt the most, and it felt like my world shattered when they cut contact due to my actions towards another person. I didn't know what to do besides self imploding. I wanted them to understand how much I was hurting. I was a dumb, naive teenager. I didn't know what to do with those world-ending feeling emotions. I hurt a lot of people, and whilst I can't remember if I did anything towards you, I still wanted to apologize. You were an awesome person to RP with and I have fond memories of that. I know you probably don't care and I'm the last person you want to hear from, but I wanted to bury the hatchet and offer the sincerest of apologies. I won't be reaching out again or anything like that, it's been years and I was reminiscing about the past and decided it best to apologize so I can move forward. Again, I'm deeply sorry.

Ahhh... yeah, I remember.

If it's any help, nothing that you did to me was super devastating or anything - and it was 14 years ago at this point. I've had much worse done to me by people I knew in person, loved and trusted since, lol.

I think at most I got a little bothered that it felt like you were getting hostile with me in a way that didn't feel entirely RP-related, but at the time I'd just assigned it to the notion that I was playing a polarizing character and left it at that. I have, ah, more troubling memories regarding other players from that group anyway.

(Since you stayed on anon and I can't reply privately, I'll give people more context: this was a Mass Effect based Tumblr role-playing group that coordinated on... damn, I think MSN Messenger? We'd migrated for the most part from the Dragon Age group that had spawned Jeanne when the "main organizers" changed interests. I was playing Miranda Lawson. We'd been exploring the idea of Miranda/Thane in a slowburn kind of way, and I remember several people both in and out of character getting weirdly petty and aggressive about it for some reason)

Anyway: I'm glad you're coming to terms with things and putting old regrets to rest. If you need to let me be out of a sake of not reliving any of it or just moving on, that's fine, but please don't feel like you need to do so for my sake. I was a grown ass adult then and I continue to be so now, lol

[moeblob]

I'm so scared posting on The Other Site but... had to draw this. And replied there with the art and that honestly took all my energy for the day for art bye !

[r-aindr0p]

Glam metal Idia ✨️

And actually the second time I draw him in a glam outfit heehee. That concludes the lil' drawings of my faves in outfits from different musical scenes

Well, almost..

Country Rook take me home jumpscare

I put way too much effort in this joke no way I'm rendering this

+lil bonus of all of the faves, rook is casually comitting country crimes and got banned from many states

[earthmixsclowderofcats]

Okay but imagine being in ZeeNuNew’s shoes - you’re queer, confirmed dating but haters still pair you with women you interact with or just meet (business or not), tell you that you’re not ‘queer enough’ and your relationship that you confirmed years ago must be fanservice and if you tell something like ‘NuNew likes cold showers, I prefer warm/hot ones and it’s torturous for me’ (Zee has said it recently by the way, like days ago) people still act surprised:/ but I hope it’ll be better for them

It's definitely an interesting situation. Because like, coming at it from an outside perspective as I was, I was confused for a while. Over the top fan service is a staple of the genre tbh. But I think maybe people get stuck on the black and white and forget the nuance.

Like yeah, it can be fan service and they can also actually care for each other. Which is where I ended up. Because they were definitely playing it up, especially at the beginning of the relationship, but you can also see the genuine affection and emotional honesty, and you can see how it shifts over time.

Again, so wild to me that it's like living your own fake dating au. Committing to the bit to the point where it's no longer a bit. It sounds like a bl plot. (I mean DMD is literally doing a bl with that plot right now lol) That's so meta.

I think people are naturally skeptical, and I think that's probably for a good reason, as it's always best to keep yourself self aware when it comes to celebrities. But what's weird is the intensity with which people are either "pro" or "anti."

As if it's a matter that affects them personally. Like, if they are "pro" and proven wrong true love doesn't exist and they were fools all along and if they are "anti" and they're wrong they were hateful homophobic crones. When like. We are not part of the equation. But people are dedicating themselves to their stance so fully. Which is why I think I was going back and forth for a while before just being like ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

They are or are not whatever they are. They're cute as hell and act like a couple so that's the assumption I'm gonna live under.

You know the whole "if it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, it's probably a duck" thing?

I don't shower with my bros.

But instead of being like "hey, I change my mind once I've encountered new information" people double down in weird and frankly, queer phobic ways.

I can understand the confusion about their label because I understand it's a bit different culturally. Like, in a western sense most people would not consider it a confirmation because it was more of a "make your own assumptions" kind of thing. Which was what tripped me up for a while.

Tbh that would be the best possible response if it were secretly all fan service all along somehow. Because then that would give people the feeling of confirmation they want while still having the deniability of "I never actually said that."

But also, given the untraditional nature of their relationship, labels like that, especially at the time, may have just not been something they were worrying about. Like, I don't think there's a guidebook for this whole situation.

Sidenote: I am so charmed by the epic saga that is them vs showers.

Especially how Nunew likes to tease about Zee's snoring vs Zee teasing Nunew about his bad habit of not showering before bed. (But it's ok if Nunew does it because Nunew is always the exception it seems. Something the besties have in common. Nat is always the exception for Max.)

The shower ghost, etc. it's peak old married couple bickering.

Kind of like for whatever reason what convinced me about earthmix (on top of everything else) was that Mix pops Earth's zits. Like. That's a level of intimacy that simple costars do not have lmao.

When it's not just the cute shit, but also the gross stuff and the every day bickering that makes it feel genuine.

[captainmaxatx]

I feel like we are all sleeping on the fan fiction potential given to us from Deadpool and Wolverine using their bodies to make a circuit with matter and anti-matter

Who knows what that could do to a person, you could write a fic where that caused anything your heart could think up.

[valkyurii]

sometimes the wiki can be funny

[itagakimizuki]

ITAGAKI MIZUKI as Tokage Kento SHOUJIKI FUDOUSAN 2 (2024) 2.03

[southernfriedsims-blog]

all these lovestruck singles out here and i ain't seen nobody that's got any love handles to hold on to.

this woman right here's gonna give you an instant "can we move in" dialogue prompt in your moodlet panel. you know she smells like vanilla and coconut and her hair is still wet. and that belly though.

[soath]

these are the only Bells Hells Live Reaction predictions I’m willing to stake my honor (nonexistent) on.

[plausible-possible-perhaps]

Catholic Selina can actually be so personal

[thesundanceghost]

Dear Sigmund is such an episode. We go through the mental disorders of every single character and dissect them all so carefully and then it gets to BJ and it's just like "yeah he's probably more fucked than everyone else, but we're not gonna get into it" and then the episode just ends

[elgaladwen]

Just like that, Dammon found himself in Avernus once again.

[charmac]

seeing all these ppl meet rcg looks so fun but i feel like if i met any of them i would die on the spot from nerves, are they chill??

Very chill... but also I am literally Dee when she does standup leading up to any interaction with them, icl

I've met Glenn enough times now that I think it's a little easier, but my stomach is still constantly doing flips up until the moment I lay eyes on him, lol. (It does help a little that almost all of their events are fulled by alcohol, though)

It's definitely worth pushing past the nerves if you get the opportunity to meet any of them, they are all incredibly down to earth and truly love talking about Sunny (when it's not just yelling their character's names or quotes at them) and meeting fans who appreciate the show :)

[care666bear]

screaming crying need this new medication to balance out. I stared at myself in my camera for 45 minutes at every angle many times because I didn’t feel real

[grape-jucie-dog]

Me laughing at @missdarhk in call rn:

[bmpmp3]

grabbing kanru hua by the collar. where is manual mode kanru. where is she.