#for now its a place to just post shit & chill but im still so :( about cohost…

[ragingbullmode]

i know beggars cant be choosers but god. i dont think i really care all that much for pillowfort 😭

[starfruitsaturn]

Okay so, i haven’t posted about Underverse on this account despite being a fan of it for a while, but i just wanted to talk about it being canceled for a second

First of all, the show being canceled gives you no right to send any hate to Jakei, we were lucky enough to get the series in the first place, and any hate they get over wanting to stop the series only PROVES THEIR POINT ON WHY THEY WANTED TO STOP IT. Yes im disappointed to, I’ve been fixated on this for a really long time, and its sad to see it end, but you guys have got to have some sympathy.

Also jakei is definitely not wrong for this fandom being toxic as fuck, people are constantly just spreading hate to others, and overall, it just seems like in this fandom some people just enjoy being problematic. While i do not believe the majority of the fandom is like this, it still is enough to cause an impact to someone. This is just my opinion, but it shouldn’t matter if any of the AU’s are portrayed in a way that you don’t like or find “canon” these are all AU’s of a fucking indie game that came out years ago, why does it bother you that much? People are allowed to have fun and be creative with the AU’s (which in my opinion is the beauty of them, just getting to see everyone’s creativity) Also, to me Jakei didn’t even do a bad job writing the characters (but of course that’s just my view on it)

And for anyone complaining that “this will be the end of the Underverse and Undertale fandom as a whole” 1. Wtf? 2. No it won’t, while the series might be coming to an end, it dosen’t mean the fandom will, there are plenty of fan works and others series that have come out of Underverse or just the AU’s as a whole, wether thats fanart, fanfiction, comics, merch, and more. This isn’t the end of the fandom as long as people are still in it to keep it alive, there are plenty of other shows that ended that still have a fandom, why should this be an exception? Also claiming that this will bring down the Undertale fandom as a whole is just dumb. Even if the Undertale fandom isn’t as active as it was in the late 2010’s, doesn’t mean the fandom ever died. Sure i would agree that with Underverse being an ongoing series, it might’ve helped contribute to people staying in the fandom, but they’re plenty of people still in the Undertale fandom who don’t like Underverse or any of the AU’s.

Basically, Jakei, i hope you take a well needed break and step away from this fandom, you deserve it after some of the shit that had happened, I’m sorry and I hope your mental health improves.

Underverse fans, please chill out, you have no right to claim your fandoms dying or send any kind of hate or threats to the creator for wanting to step away from a problem that you caused.

Okay, I’m done talking now, sorry for yapping about this so much, i don’t actually expect anyone to read this-

(Also sorry for any bad grammar or anything, I’m kinda dumb and don’t feel like reading back through this)

Anyway, remember to take care of yourself 🫶

[godza]

im glad im taking more classes relevant to my major. baby class isnt actually that bad the teachers wonderful and discussion is part of it. cultural studies should be good not my fave since the teacher has a thick accent that i have to strain to hear i have some kind of audio processing disorder probably but its a good class. politics is way better than i thiught it would be the text is bullshit but i love classes with discussion its my favorite thing ever i love raising my hand. adolescent is great the professors a butch lesbian i saw that carabiner maam. psychopathology is fucking awesome despite being lecture based. i enjoy lecture actually and discussion she answers quwstions really detailedly and is super animated and puts in a lot of stories from her experience in the field. being a child psychologist sounds terrible lol. i might keep my psych minor honestly its enjoyable even if i dont be a lcsw. i wanted to do an international studies minor but i signed up for classes too late so it was all taken. not as bad as my roomie for signed up for classes the night before they started not her fault though i was stupid and missed my chance for prereg. taking five classes for 20 credits isnt that bad the workloads lame but actually going to the classes is fine. i gotta finish my degree asap im gonna have my masters in four years i will still be blogging i presume. only turning 24 or getting married can get me off tumblr im here balling daily. i will vague post about my clients in the nicest way possible. imagine your social worker vagues you on tumblr. thatd hurt. this loser came into my office :/ lol. i wont do that ill complain in a way only about me. like im getting pissed off at this client not this client is pissing me off. not much of a change but i see it. i will not vaguepost random people on tumblr im doing volunteer work again this semester and will be working with middle or high schoolers there is a chance i would get too mad on here and it would get back to them. theyre in range for my older sibling urges theyre not animals like children. watch out i will give you advice. ok thats so much. its 1:30 am i gotta sleep so i can be awake while my roomies at work and chill out by myself i love my roomie but even being in the same room silently with someone else drains my energy. i was with her all day and doing shit i went grocery shopping then the mall i only bought food at the mall wait i was gonna say a coffee place i like but its a chain way too contained to my state. good coffee thoigh i had a mocha frappe latte it tasted bad but i enjoyed it it made me shit. i ate terribly today i just eat bad on weekends i am lazy as fuck. not even in an eating junk food bad at eating way i consider a pack of little bites a meal. not enough and all of it is shit. i need to go home and eat lasagna i could fuck up some lasagna oh my god i could stick my metaphorical dick in a rotisserie chicken right now im craving so much. all i have at school is mac and cheese cups and little bites. i shouldve bought more of a variety at the store i bought fourty packs of little bites. i need to stop tyoing and go to bed this is like the longest post ever

[puddin-dear]

CW - Another rant abt my friends, this one being a lot more upset and angry than the others

kinda long too. i just needed to put my stress out somewhere so ykno

Hearing my friends who know nothing abt my past jump to conclusions pissed me tf off im gonna scream omg.

I move and get my life taken away from me, only to find people practically denying it was there in the first place!

“Oh i feel like ///// can’t fight at all!” you weren’t there to know how i had to fight to survive. You weren’t there to see how I had to DEFEND others to survive.

I know its stupid to get upset and cry over something like that but it pisses me off so bad

I didn’t get to grow up safe like these people. Im barely safe now! in a new place where i have to learn the new rules.

These people didnt see the way i had to prevent others from dealing with the same pain i hold every day.

They like my protectiveness without being willing to understand where it comes from. And I doubt theyll ever understand. Im glad they wont ever have to know personally why, but im still so fucking pissed about it. I dont think that makes sense but i could care less rn.

Is it wrong to want to scream at them for this? to scream about how wrong they are, to dump the weight on my shoulders that make me so aware of my surroundings. To share the chill that crawls up my spine when i notice something is off?

This feels like some edgy kids post abt them being so tough and cool and it makes me feel more like shit.

(///// is a stand in for my irl name)

[watsername]

omg it makes me so mad how EASY it is to find that content on tiktok. on other places those accs at least make it harder for their stuff to end up people's feeds but on tiktok? they just tag that shit with whatever and it gets shown to random people, a lot of whom i assume are kids and young teenagers. and its not just ed stuff either its a breeding ground for bigotry if your not careful, to some extent the code words people have to use so that their videos don't get taken down make it worse with harmful content being lumped in with normal videos.

like i’ll just be chilling watching a slideshow about being pretty and then it’ll randomly change to prom queen by be ah bunny whiz is about struggling with self image but they specifically use ‘shut up count your calories’ to say actually you’re not orettt the beginning of this post was a lie and you should be consuming nothing but ice water which is so fucking weird like . esp great while im struggling with the being post recovery i know my weight gain is healthy but i still have pictures from 2019-2020 when i had like a 23 inch waistline and im obv not healthy bc i cant bring myself to delete those photos and compare photos of me now to photos of me then and it just feels like . idk part of my brain is like gross these ppl need psychiatric help begging for attention on the t internet like that and the other part is like maybe that’s ur sign to kill ur eating habits again like its not a healthy thing to post for anyone involved

[yourwolfmuzzle]

I kinda in the "recovery mood" so im not that active rn on internet, but this fucking cut-part storyboard (and Yang buff arms...for getting a little bit meat on Yang's arms and ponytail back i need to also get her extra tits size and ugly outfit...i cant have shit in this house without sacrificing something or make something already bad even MORE bad) got into my recommendations on yt and make me feel soooo much emotions that i need to rant into a wall.

LONG POST WARNING?

Before to start it i will honestly trying to tell what i kinda like.

+ Outside of making R/WBY feels like a fucking savers of this world, i kinda dig how sad and kinda depress this all feel at the start. This kinda stuff i want to see after vol8 - how everyone who survive is trying to live they new live and how second characters trying to hold everything together, but having a hard time. A grimm reality with almost no hope.

+ I kinda like how Winter VA was able to pull up her action? Like...i can hear that she was "grieving" a lost of her sister and that she dont feel like everything will going to be better.

+ WE STAN THIS ONE WOMAN WHO WAS TRYING TO DRAG SCHNEE. GOOD FOR HER, LET HER SPEAK!

+At least Winter remember about Penny...

And now EVERYTHING ELSE.

There is a thing - im fine with Winter and Qrow talking about in positive ways about R/WBY that they was trying to to everything that they can to save people. That they was a good huntress or something like that. They in grieving processe, "dont talk about the dead one in negative way", all that jazz. But everything that they talking about sounds like they was a new gods in this world. Like they the new savers of this world when...its not exactly true. The idea is there and this whole "you send the message to the world" can maybe works, but everything sound like they perfect people who save a whole world.

Hey guys! Are we going to...just ignore the fact that Salem now have a staff? Winter mention this but thats it. I dont know how many days its was, how hardcore we timeskip, but you telling me that Salem was just chilling in situation, when her enemy in the most vulnerable position and one of the main problem is no where to be found? Like...okay sure.

Even if i like this one lady who was calling out Schnees (again good for her, she have all right to talk like this with Willow)...i wish there was much more people who was disappointed or angry about Schnee or even angry about R/WBY. Just in general showing that people not only angry about that fact how hard they lives now but also trying to find the one who done this. Not everyone will be buss with trying to fix in what situation they are, somebody will trying to find who guilty. Its cant be the only one woman.

Okay...im maybe have a hard time to remember about vol8 and maybe i didnt rewatch vol7-8 in general that much and maybe its just me remembering things not correctly, but...is there was a whole problem to tell people the true about Salem? This whole "panic will bring grimm" thing? This was also a problem in the end of vol8 if i remember this correctly? Well, right now people not only know about Salem, but they also in extream situation with no homes, living in tents. There is no coming back to home, this is they lifes now. But no grimm problem in this epilogue. I dont even remember if Winter or Qrow mention about grimm?

Also about ignoring stuff - there is still some dead people outside of "dead R/WBY". I maybe miss something or didnt saw some detail but i dont remember some memorials for people who got kill by Cinder or solders who die protecting Atlas. I know Atlas in big mean place and "fuck military", but...they still trying to help?

There is this one moment with gravestone with "Dont Come Back", that Winter write on it. I know there is already two side of this thing (i dont believe anyone and AGAIN this whole miscommunication problem in team + both points is really fucking bad in different ways), but i just want to say that before jump into reading comments or what theory people have about this - i was having no clue what is this and for what was that. I know its storyboard and storyboards not always look with a lot of details, but i was so confuse for what this was done. Anyway, both points is bad and if Ironwood one thing is the real one - my fucking god can you stop having a beef with your own characters and remember that before Ironwood start to be cartoon man-man Winter was working with him for pretty long time?

Do you remember me talking about "both Winter and Qrow in grieving process"? Yeah i fucking lied, its only Winter. For some reasons they decide that the most depress man in this world, the most "I Am Shadow The Hedgehog" guy in the team (according to vol8) after loosing both his only nieces and a guy who was his kinda friend who help him in vol7 and the guy that YES was a antagonist for vol8, but from what i remember was also his kinda friend - absolutely positive! And not in the way that he trying to hold himself together mentally after loosing so many people all in short time, but just positive. Listen, i hate this whole "i wish Qrow was back to drinking", but this is the last guy who have to be THIS positive about everything. My guy can maybe not go into drinking speedrun for good reasons (like he dont want to drink anymore at least for his nieces or he just know that he will feel even worst if he will go drinking again, when he already have a hard time to hold himself together?), but this all feel so wrong and feel like he dont care about losing such a important people. (MY BIRDMAN YOU DESERVE BETTER ONES AGAIN)

YOU DO NOT BRING UP FAIRGAME INTO THIS. THIS IS NOT REAL. "The controversity is good" shit, can you leave FairGame shippers alone?

RAVEN IS THERE. I already knew that they will trying to redem her ass because she is a female villain in R/WBY and that scene from vol9, but...i have other questions. How...Yang is chill that Raven just...transporting them? How Ruby, who only a couple hours ago find out that her mother go on her last mission and that Raven is the one who was the last with her, is absolutely dont trying to do with her anything? How anyone is soooo chill that a bandit and maiden is there? If this was done only so RW/BY can got right to Qrow so we can have this whole...reuniting scene then WOW. There is a chance that this scene was done before they start to cut out two episode and start to working on crossover movie, but im not sure how those two episodes can fix this whole situation.

You know i maybe really touch-hungry person who love hugging, but...why nobody was trying to hug JR/WBY team after they got there? Like...Qrow is just looking at them like its norman friday after mission and the only one who at least react in some way was Nora (With a little bit Ren, Oscar have a strange reaction?). Like...you all was thinking for some time that those people is dead. You didnt know where are they, why nobody hug them or hold they hands or just in general dont trying to have a contact with them, like nobody have a "ARE YOU A REAL?" moments?

Just in general JR/WBY getting there feel...wrong? Like they teleport there and just...walk to look how this whole situation looking. Again, no hugs to Qrow or ORN, no bright reaction toward them? (i know, for R/WBY team its was maybe a couple days, you all was not sure if you even will get back to them. Also Jaune was in EA for 10-20 years. He didnt saw his team for 10-20 YEARS. Listen, im not the most biggest fan of him, but like...let at least him hug his team?). I get it when they didnt react at first, from what i can tell they didnt saw Qrow at first. But after they look at him or when ORN saw them? No? You can still end up this scene with Ruby face, i just feel like after Winter and Qrow speech such a emotions reaction can work pretty well as a ending. Like..."there is a struggle and hurt, but we dont give up" with "hope" coming back to them?

Im worry about Oscar that we ones again skip his character development off screen, but its hard to tell in 6 min long epilogue storyboard.

Still no moments with Maria and Pietro. I mix up this one old man (this one from vol8 that is also a faunus) with him and was question "why he is not in his spider-wheelchair?" but after re watching - there is just no Maria and Pietro. They still cant remember about them. They remember about Ace-Ops, Happy Huntresses (ALSO MAY IS THERE OOPS-), but fuck Pietro and Maria.

This whole thing in general didnt anser the most biggest question - how long its been after JR/WBY+Neo fell? This whole thing is not helping at all and no matter what time is canon - its will not save this moment. Its been a week/s? Qrow got from this really fucking fast and even this whole situations with people looking really too good actually. Its been a months (around 6+) or even a year? This is really bad.

ALSO something i find out only right now - MOTHERFUCKERS IS THERE. This is not...a bad thing, but now i knew that if vol10 will be a thing - they remember about both "sea boys" team and "READ A BOOK" team. Happy to see that they remember about the first one, but after finding our how "in book" team was written - im not ready to see Coco team AT ALL.

In term of fanservise, if we going to look at this from perspective of how a fan will react on this if its was a really epilogue that they didnt cut out - oh boy its working pretty fucking good and probably if this was the ending for vol9 - i feel like people would talk about this season a lot more because after the ending of vol9 even some of hardcore fans was not talking about this whole vol that much.

But in term of writing - THANK GOD THIS WAS DELETED. Sure its kinda emotional epilogue, that hitting fans in right place, but giving us pretty much moments thats dont need to be there or working not that great. I heard that they will try to make this into volume 10, which is....knowing how they dont like "kill they darling" or deleting content that they think is really cool or prioritise moments that have to be cut over moments that needed to be on screen...i have zero hopes that they will re-write this scene. Maybe they will delete Raven because right now with episodes that we got in vol9 she just...out of place there.

But we will see. There is still no greenlight info...

[smallz-o]

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen? my dog :))

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? cheese, BUT ONLY GOOD CHEESE FUCK PROVOLONE

✨ Do you have any nicknames? Crampus, Whore, America, ect.

🎵 Last song you listened to? Lovers Rock - TV Girl

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? yes when I was like- 12 and only had it public for a week. besides that ill occasionally write little drabbles for myself. rarely do i post them publicly

😏 Are you on discord? i dabble

 💛 Do you have any piercings? i used to

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? their sense of humor

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? oatmeal almond cookies (i will see no oatmeal almond cookie slander btw i like them)

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? dog

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? earbuds, sorry ik, but i dont like the feeling of headphones on my ears. idk why but its sensory hell for me

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? "Im leaving now"

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? unfertilized queen ants will only hatch male ants instead of workers and then the colony died bc male ants cant do jack shittt

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? night owl

🧸 Favorite place to nap? outside on my trampoline but before that on the outdoor couch when we had it

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community? yuh

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. "huh, ok then."

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? SWEATPANTS

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? dont go to starbucks 💪💪

🧡 A color you can’t stand? neon salmon. yk the color im talking about. 2016 ass color i hate it.

💎 What’s your most prized possession? this little crank up music box my great gramps gave me, not a jewelly box just the little music box

☕ Coffee or tea? tea

🦖 Favorite extinct animal? dodos, they were so chill

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? about a year and a half now i think

🌴 Desert island item? first aid kit

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. don't necessarily have one. none of my shit matches ever

🔮 What’s your dream job? unsure im still figuring shit out

💙 Relationship status? happily single

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. these jeans i got w/ stars on um. this light purple graphic tee i got, my usual shoes and my assortment of jewelry i made

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? Pearl - Mitski used to cry to that in the shower 👍👍

🤎 What color is your hair? rn its all a plain dirty blonde/ light brown but before the underlayer of it was dyed red

💌 Do you talk to yourself? no

💄 Do you wear makeup? also no

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? none that i can think of off the top of my head sorry. but jusy know it was probably a fire compliment.

💞 your favorite blog. probably all of my mutuals blogs, i like their posts lots :D

tagging: @haloberry @sweetie-peaches @sadtrashking

completely optional & anyone else who wants to join can too!!

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

🍫 Cheese or chocolate?

✨ Do you have any nicknames?

🎵 Last song you listened to?

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?

😏 Are you on discord?

 💛 Do you have any piercings?

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

🎧 Headphones or earbuds?

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

🧸 Favorite place to nap?

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

👖 Jeans or sweatpants?

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?

🧡 A color you can’t stand?

💎 What’s your most prized possession?

☕ Coffee or tea?

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?

🌴 Desert island item?

🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

🔮 What’s your dream job?

💙 Relationship status?

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair?

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

💄 Do you wear makeup?

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

💞 @ your favorite blog.

Reblogs are appreciated!

[chemicalcarousel]

questions taken from this post

just answering all of these for myself because i can and i don't wanna wait for potential asks

Hi! Who are you right now?

I'm Levi ✌

How do know its you thats out? What are your usual cues?

Uhh good fucking question. i feel like a guy ig (dysphoria). and i have very strong feelings of justice and i get very pissed when ppl aren't treated right (im super vengeful). i also dissociate a lot when im confronted with my source and i think my voice is lower and im less "all over the place" than some of the other alters? i'm more "relaxed" ig, even if my emotions can get very strong and bordering black/white

Do you like it when people know its You and not the collective whole? Is it situational, or depends on the person?

It's complicated. i feel very exposed and i'm nervous what other people will think of me since i'm a fictional introject of a very popular anime character. i'm also worrying about which impression we as a collective have on the people around us, and if they know we are a DID system and which alters we got, then they might treat us in some weird fucking way (and let's be honest - that's the reality of it) but on the other hand, i feel so lonely and invisible when i'm talking to my friends and they don't know that i even exist, ya kno? i'd wish i could be myself around my friends and i'm still trying to find out if that is possible

What sort of aesthetics do you draw to?

i guess darker ones? like black and red. i like grunge and punk too. i also fuck with traumacore, again especially black/white and red shit. angry shit. im an edgy little man

What do you look like?

pretty much like my source, i just wear different clothes ig here's some pics xoxo

What sort of emotions do you feel mostly when you’re out?

anger, grief, vengefulness, idk man i'm ready to punch a bitch lol

What sort of situations are you out in most of the time?

I'm a host, but other than that i'm always the one going to sleep and i am the one that doesn't hate ourselves ig. i'm not gonna blame us for what other people did or do to us, ya kno. i'm a protector

Are there other parts like you in the same system?

we have another introject of the same character, but he's nothing like me or our source. so no, i think i'm the only alter like me in this body?

Are you part of a subsystem?

no, i don't think we have subsystems

What’s your relationship like to the parts nearest to you right now?

idk, kinda like roommates or "found family"? i'm not sure who's close rn tho, but i'm chill with all the alters i know

Do you have vague memories of before you came out, or do they feel blocked out?

i have no idea what this means. i think it means before i fronted and yeah we kinda have a "shared consciousness", but sometimes i realise i don't have all the pieces of what happened, but it's mostly greyouts and emotional amnesia

What’s your favorite way to ground?

nature, fidget toys, drinking something tasty

Do you have a favorite snack or drink?

idk i love coffee ig. i like food in general lol

Do you have a favorite item in the present world?

hmm... can't think of one item, but i have some clothing and other stuff that i like. i love flannel shirts and i love pretty teacups

Do you have an inner world? Do you have a place you like in there?

nah, not really. it's just a black void. we haven't been able to construct one and nothing has seemed to pop up yet

Whats a simple way other parts might describe you to like a therapist or something?(they’re the fierce one, the sad one, ect)

the angry/vengeful one/the fight response one

What’s the safest thing you can imagine right now?

so pathetic, but ig that's a part of why i was created. but the safest thing i can imagine is the guy i see as my soulmate (erwin), but he's a fucking anime character from my source and has never and will never be real. but he's such a comfort for me and thereby the entire system. i just wish he was actually real lol i definitely haven't cried myself to sleep because he's a drawing ahahaha :')

What’s something you wish the system would do more of?

stand up for ourselves. but i do understand why other parts don't do this and i don't blame them. i'd just wish they didn't feel this fear and shame

What’s your handwriting like?

idk ugly? i think all of us have an ugly handwriting lmfao

Free space! Tell me a random fact about you or something you’re thinking about

uhh rn im dissociating bc we are opening up to a friend about our DID and it's making all of us nervous, so that's what's in my thoughts. a random fact could be that i fucking love making fun of my source and i love making fans mad lmfao

[lostacelonnie]

Thats entirely fair i don't think anyone trusts tumblr to work correctly tbh. Ive just been feeling the seasonal blues a bit. Ah heck why do teachers always do that instead of letting up on the workload. I do have a bit of chill time coming up thankfully which will be great because i need rest & to holiday shop. Oh heck i cant imagine that like. Americans are a mixed bag of overly friendly & minders of their own business but a place where its all overly friendly would be a culture shock to me. That feels like the universal experience with talking to native spanish speakers just. Yeah we can guess kinda what's bein said through context & gesticulating. Finding a few recipes you can do & rolling from there is just how it goes i imagine. But ive been cooking for many years so i had to branch out to keep some variety otherwise meals would be boring. I have wireless earbuds but only because like. People talk to me often when im not expecting it & it bothers me a lil because the mental illnesses so its easier to listen to stuff & use that as my reason for not hearing them. Australia truly is the land of wild shit. Its got that category on lock. Wow thats like. Complete spectrum opposite teachers? Almost? Maybe? Though how does a math teacher not know counting was she just tired one day or is that common? Thats entirely fair i don't think anyone trusts tumblr to work correctly tbh. Ive just been feeling the seasonal blues a bit. Ah heck why do teachers always do that instead of letting up on the workload. I do have a bit of chill time coming up thankfully which will be great because i need rest & to holiday shop. Oh heck i cant imagine that like. Americans are a mixed bag of overly friendly & minders of their own business but a place where its all overly friendly would be a culture shock to me. That feels like the universal experience with talking to native spanish speakers just. Yeah we can guess kinda what's bein said through context & gesticulating. Finding a few recipes you can do & rolling from there is just how it goes i imagine. But ive been cooking for many years so i had to branch out to keep some variety otherwise meals would be boring. I have wireless earbuds but only because like. People talk to me often when im not expecting it & it bothers me a lil because the mental illnesses so its easier to listen to stuff & use that as my reason for not hearing them. Australia truly is the land of wild shit. Its got that category on lock. Wow thats like. Opposite spectrum of teachers maybe? Though how does she not know counting was she just tired one day? Noted for sure ill pay closer attention to the honkai meta. Yknow i hope what a herscherr is gets explained because i still dont know. Oh thats cool to know i will make a note of that polish phrase to try & remember linguistics can be fun. Ah yeah for sure they actually put effort into like. Making neuvillette have a story & be interesting & it shows. Only genshin male i care for probably. Oh hey stigmatism gang. Im farsighted with a stigmatism also so same hat. I always forget about talents & weapon leveling but it works out its all good. A 7 am as well jeesh are you good? This arc is very good & i cant wait to see where it goes wataoshi owns my attention now. Oh yeah i saw you mention noita how is it? Damn. Thats a lot of lore shoutout to himeko the mvp. Love her. What exactly is a honkai anyways are they like. The antimatter legion from star rail. Or well are the legion like the honkai beasts? Also do you have any seele lore? Also also glad you saw the polish post i had hope you would

this website will forever be scuffed JSJDSKDJF. and dont worry me too. its Getting Bad Again but soon its gonna be the winter solstice and i always start feeling better when the days get longer again. and god yeah fr...... we literally have so many grades already CAN THEY CHILL. luckily i got sick again so i didnt have to go to school today and im guessing im not gonna have many lessons to catch up on since its our last Proper day before the holidays and we have pretty easy subjects on wednesday so. we chillen. yeah same thank GOD for the holidays. tho im gonna have to deal with my family for like an entire week which. auuugh. dont wanna. but oh well ill get through it Somehow. AND GOD YEAH with being polish is much more noticable bc ppl here just really will avoid any unnecessary interaction with strangers [which is perfectly fine by me i like not being bothered]. but yeah the gesticulation Does help a lot in communicating. at the end of the day, as long as the message gets conveyed, it doesnt really matter How that was accomplished. i usually order takeout to my school since we have a program like that so i dont really have to cook that much, but yeah i should also probably branch out SJDKGK i dont know howw much longer i can survive on scrambled eggs every time i cant eat at school. yeah fair, i use my headphones to avoid conversations as well, tho luckily i have friends that are generally chill about the fact i will just. Not talk sometimes so i dont even have to do that a lot. and yeah we actually joke about how exactly opposite they are JSKFJG and its. a common occurence. but then again my school is just Not that great so nobody is surprised. good luck with the meta!!! its hellish at first but gets a bit easier with every built valkyrie so just trust the process. AH IM SORRY i unfortunately have a bad habit of using honkai specific terms as if theyre common knowledge. my bad. but essentially, the honkai itself is like. a force, i guess is the best word? that, despite being non-sentient, has one goal: destroying humanity. it grows along with human progress. the antimatter legion is not a bad comparison, actually! and a herrscher is a person thats been, in a way, possessed by the honkai to obtain incredible amounts of power to try and carry out the honkais objective of destruction. herrschers have different. specialties, you could say? some of them are more obvious [like the herrscher or wind, thunder, fire, ice etc] and some are more abstract [the herrscher of the void, origin, domination, for example]. in the current era, with enough willpower and self control, those powers can be used by a herrscher without them losing their humanity. it gets a bit more complicated than that but thats the basic rundown. ANYWAY COMING BACK linguistics will always be fascinating to me....... especially etymology. i love etymology. AND YEAH SAME i thought the day would never come in which i would care about a genshin guy and yet. also hey were matching......... i used to also always forget to level up talents but since traces are a bit more accentuated in the star rail tut it kinda carried over to genshin for me i guess. 7 am classes have caused me to go through all stages of grief but, just like those, i have reached Acceptance. at least theres less people on the bus so i can sit down. AND YEAH YEAH YEAH THE LOVE SCALE ARC HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAVORITE....... i love manaria. terrible wingwoman. very charming and handsome. and about noita yes ive been playing it. a Lot recently. roguelikes are fun theyre surprisingly making me More patient than i was instead of destroying my psyche like everyone said they would. and since noita is a finnish game im genuinely having a lot of fun learning the pronunciation of a lot of the enemy names. HIMEKO REALLY IS THE MVP FOREVER AND ALWAYS. I LOVE HER. i do in fact have seele lore and as previously i shall put it under the cut!! and im actually designed to sense and reblog all polish posts o7

as with himeko, i wouldnt consider myself an Expert on seele lore [if you have any further questions and/or want a more in-depth analysis of her, i would redirect you to tumblr user crowties] BUT i do know it. decently well. it goes without saying that this is also gonna contain massive spoilers.

so, seele's [as well as bronya's!] backstory is mainly showcased in the azure waters manga [although, do be warned that it features themes such as: physical and psychological abuse, child soldiers, pedophilia, and [minor on minor] attempted sa]. but moving on from all that.

seele grew up in cocolia's orphanage, in siberia, where she also met bronya after she was picked up by cocolia. she was also born with a certain condition, being a natural stigma [stigmata in the honkaiverse are manifestations of honkai energy which people are very rarely born with, but schicksal for example uses artificial ones to boost valkyries' combat capabilities]. that very stigma belonged to the herrscher of death in the previous era and is fully sentient! im gonna call her veliona so that its harder to mix them up but do know that theyre both referred to as seele in the game [and its actually a pretty important part of their identity that theyre both seele]. now the thing about seele and veliona is that you think theyre gonna be a terrible did stereotype and then theyre. Not. as in veli, at first, does act like "the evil alter" but shes actually just pretty mean but wants to protect seele. since seele is just. Very fragile due to being, you know, a timid 12 y/o.

in the orphanage, another one of the kids was sin mal! she exists solely to be a terrible person but i heard that wasnt the case in guns girl z so i defend her anyway. sin was jealous over the fact that bronya and seele became so close despite seele being weak, so she PUSHED BRONYA DOWN THE FUCKING STAIRS AND BROKE HER LEGS???? shes that kind of person i guess. seele actually saw it happen but she was too scared to do anything. which, understandable! sin is extremely volatile.

seele then gets Kidnapped by child sex traffickers but bronya singlehandedly finds her and murders everyone responsible. seele is pretty horrified because 1. bronya [also 12] just killed a bunch of people in front of her and 2. she saw a manifestation of veliona that made her feel Happy that this is happening. veli is not very good at communication and also genuinely considers herself a terrible person at that point in time so that doesnt help with the evil alter allegations but oh well.

then. cocolia, at the request of anti entropy [allegedly?] starts carrying out child experiments, meant to make people achieve 100% honkai resistance. the people selected are bronya and sin, but seele volunteers in bronyas place since theyre pretty dangerous. right before that, however, sin attempts to assault seele, which veliona does Not let slide, so she rips out sins tooth and then traps her consciousness in an illusion in which she pushes her down the stairs and then slices off her fingers. good riddance.

however, the x-10 experiment Fails and seele falls into the sea of quanta, going missing. tho right as its about to happen, veliona actually uses a lot of her power to let seele see the sea, because she made a promise with bronya that they would go together someday. right as shes about to reach bronya, her power runs out and they completely disappear into the sea.

when bronya finds out about about this, she wants to take the x-10 test herself to try and find seele. cocolia doesnt want to let her go so that SHE DOESNT LOSE MORE CHILDREN, but bronya shows that shes gonna kill herself if cocolia doesnt agree and so she goes. during her test, she. actually manages to reconnect with seele for a while! they kiss and make a promise that theyll see each other again. however, due to bronyas legs still not being fully healed, she actually gets pretty badly hurt [with her legs needing prosthetics, as well as damage to her emotive circuits] during the test and is forcefully disconnected. seele manages to manifest bronya a robot project bunny. somehow. it helps her move and is also a giant cannon.

after this, seele and veliona float in the sea of quanta for 4 years. they grow quite close to each other during this, tho still maintain some distance because veli is just. not very sociable. veliona also makes a deal with an entity called the serpent [which i believe was confirmed to be kevin? but dont quote me on that] because he promises that hell get them out of the sea if they help him escape as well. veli is fully aware hes taking advantage of her but she has to try everything. when bronya jumps into the soq during the herrscher of reason arc, she manages to find seele! at first, velis deal with the serpent forces her to fight bronya, but during cyberangel seele and bronya end up working together. seele is also the one who makes bronya survive contact with the core of reason. as theyre escaping from the sea, bronya almost gets left behind, so seele and veliona achieve full unity during dual ego [IM INSANE ABOUT THEM. I AM INSANE] and they leave the sea.

after that, seele is admittedly Not that present in the main story [tho she does appear a couple of times!] until the moon arc and later the salt snow holy city arc, which is also the best part of the game because i said so and i am always right. SERIOUSLY THO SALT SNOW ARC IS MY FAVORITE IT IS SO GOOD IT IS SO-

anyway. seele and veliona are the protagonists in this one! i would so happily tell you the story but im also unfortunately too tired to give a detailed description of THE ENTIRE ARC so ill keep things short. when dispatched for a mission in nagazora, seele [and susannah! susannah is in this arc. i love her] gets dragged into a bubble universe by misteln [who, due to some events in the moon arc, veliona has extreme beef with]. but its actually a pretty bad thing because, due to the unique structure of the universe [that being, its actually two universes overlapping, one acting as the normal world and the other as the afterlife], seele and veli get separated. this causes significant mental distress to both of them. however, eventually they manage to reconnect! which also accidentally makes them the sage of the universe [a special role, usually reserved for one person] since they fulfill the criteria of being able to traverse between life and death. the problem is, theres..... already a sage....... and the universe starts collapsing. after a fight, the previous sage gives up her powers and seele gets sealed in her tower to act her role. it turns out that her becoming the sage wasnt what actually triggered the collapse, and so the team [consisting of seele, veli, susannah, kira, niggurath, senti, misteln, prometheus, vita, and schrodinger] works together to try and prevent it in another way. a Bunch Of Shit happens which i love very deeply but would also take way too long to explain, and seele gets separated from veliona, eventually becoming the herrscher of death [but, vita decides that seele is a far too gentle person to be called that, and so she becomes the herrscher of rebirth]. they manage to save the universes, and also free vita from being a pawn to sa, the force destroying the universe. they get to return home after that :)

i am extremely normal about seele and veliona [they give me mental illness]

[angabby-zzz]

It feels like gabbys in like a constant cycle of having smth tragic happen 2 her and then after days of being upset over it she decides to change and try to deal w the problem by just making friends (as in thats just how she met angel and kathee)

Anyway thinking maybe after her kinda processing the fact that the gods r real and her dad is one of them angel is like idk man maybe we should start tryna talk to people here and shes like hm ok. And she finds out theres a volleyball court there and shes like this looks ok and tries 2 join in and thats when she meets kathee cuz its like. Obv ppl know theres a dionysus kid now for the first time in a bit and she hadnt come out to do anything until now and its also kathees first summer there so shes like yk what idk whats so special abt this girl but shes cool im gonna b her friend 👍 and so they become friends

Since shes a cabin counselor (shes literally the only one in her cabin she doesnt have a choice) i think the other counselors there would help out w her getting used 2 camp n what 2 do so shes like 👍 Ok i have new ppl who r nice 2 me here thats cool

💀Until the ares cabin does their toilet initiation thing and shes like dude wtf????? what is ur problem and they start fighting and like one of her counselor friends (i have yet 2 decide who) is like ok guys chill tf out leave her alone ummm and they go the showers for gabby 2 clean herself and shes like man ig i gotta watch out 4 some ppl here but at least i have nice guys w me so hopefully itll b cool

After that she gets more like used 2 how camp is n stuff but doesnt rlly start talking 2 dionysus properly til like near the end of the summer and then her 2nd summer she starts being more like in2 being w him n stuff. Abt her mom i think maybe she was iris messaged by like . Shit idk maybe even dionysus . or maybe angel once he found out that was a thing and decided to tell her abt it after he called his mom (side note i think itd be silly cute awesome if dionysus kinda pulled him aside and was like hey u gotta help her get like better n stuff i get it if she doesnt talk 2 me n stuff but i dont want her 2 b mega depressed every day now and angels like oh um ok sir [fearing 4 his life] so then after that angel kinda like helps her out w stuff how he can [like suggesting places / ppl to hang out w since hes like glued 2 serenitys side and shes also sporty cool like gabby is])

Thinking maybe she n angel have like a mini like conflict or wtva about him feeling left out n stuff cuz she spends a lot of her time doing sportsy training stuff or being w her other friends and he was used 2 them being each others like main guy they hang out w but its like. Not spoken about much cuz he doesnt wanna sound mega dependent on her n stuff and obv shes her own person she can do what she wants. Tbh this is still a point in the current story cuz i literally have a bit where he hangs out w milan for a bit in sadness cuz shes busy doing magic stuff w nishith and itzel? Also i dont mean that gabby got sick of him or wtva dont get the wrong idea she still has him as The #1 Guy ever shes just busy w other stuff a lot to keep her from thinking 2 much abt like . Life (girl cannot b alone w her thoughts)

I didnt proofread any of this i hope i didnt contradict myself much or anything. Btw this isnt all in order of what happened i didnt mean 4 this 2 become a long post i just started talking 💀

[babydinojojo]

Day One/Entry one

Hello everyone, my name is Jordan but y'all can call me Jordie. Usually im on discord but i need another place to post my thoughts about everything on here. Well Here I go

I just finished cleaning my bathroom finally after my mom kept rushing me to fucking finish it as usual breh ;-;, but its okay now cause i can just chill out. So let's start on todays topic because I only have two things on my mind. So lets start with my partner Krisy she's just amazing and the girl of my dreams, i'm really glad i met her and have her in my life, she has her ups and downs and moments when she gets really angry but that's okay because at the end of the day i value our time together and the fact that we spend everyday together really puts a smile on my face. She's everything i wanted in a girl, she's pretty, amazing, adorable, chill, and I would do ANYTHING for her even if it means beating the shit out of someone who dares crosses her or upsets her in anyway shape and/or form. She isn't perfect to be honest here yes, but she's perfect in my eyes and she will always be no matter what.

I just hate the fact that i can't tell her shit sometimes and i struggle to tell her things that go on, just like a few days ago... I couldn't tell her that Kasu was my ex and the fact that the day we started dating.. i was heading home from the emergency room because I had a major anxiety attack that day at school. She tells me things all the time, and yes she lies but still we all lie we ain't perfect, but too be honest it's not fair that she tells me everything and i sometimes forget to tell her things, i always stress on myself there are no secrets, but yet.. I fail even at that.. I really don't wanna hurt her or lose her because i can't tell her things.. and im actually started to keep things fresh cause she's been doing the heavy lifting with that and I haven't. Yesterday I suggested that we watch Maleficent or however the fuck you spell it and then i started picking some new games more and more instead of picking the same old shit everyday.

But with all that said, I love her so much more than anything and anyone in the entire world and i wanna keep her in my life.. Hell i even plan on Moving to Missouri with her soon hehe but first we gotta get there anything and everything is possible and i don't wanna jinx things you know??

The next topic i wanna discuss is trains and the upcoming Class 700 release for Train Sim World 3. I was operating an R32(2007-2010 Phase I) on the B Line in Openbve this morning it was actually a decent run and i only overran one station, im slowly getting the hang of it but I wanna explore other things, that where Train Sim World 3 comes in to play. That game made me discover something new about myself and made me more open to trying other countries and seeing how their train system works. My personal Favorite UK line is the Brighton Mainline and my favourite UK Trains are the Electrostars(Classes 375,377,387), and the Thameslink Class 700(Which is coming out for Train Sim World 3), at the end of the day tho i always stick to the NYC Subway especially the R32s and R42s since they were my childhood and those subway cars were always there for me even during my darkest days back in Middle School, now a days you don't really see them anymore just for fan trips, I like the R179s Yea.. but i just wanna see the 32s and 42s come back because I miss being a child, not 17 going on 18 and this bullshit. The last good year for Humanity imo was 2019 and the fact that everyone was to realize that nuclear war a seriously a bad idea, but look at the world now, we are on the verge of a devestating war. America is more divided than ever OVER sexual orientation,there is a good chance i might end up coming out as Demi(He/They) but Im still straight i mean I feel like i am guy and i do identify as one, but yet i feel like i don't fully identify as one I know my parents and Krisy will support me and so will Dexter but will Jayden Support is the question, eh its fine. Im getting off topic I know but yea America is more divided over LGBTQ and it's such a shame because at the end of the day nobody should have to feel ashamed of who they are and what they identify as, it's not fair to them because the community fought for these rights and its about to be all for nothing only for them to be taken away.

We really need to stand against this, and even as a straight person i always support the lgbtq community no matter what.

The Class 700 i am really looking forward to running it in Train Sim World 3 on Tuesday and Mainly on Brighton Main Line. I was gonna pick up the Glossop Line, but then i thought Nah. Alright that's all i got for now see y'all soon

[racmune]

ok actually gonna talk about this i was thinking 2 heavy had to log back in for this post specifically excuse the rant yall :(

like i dont care for miss pauling being super serious etc but in the time between my initial autism hatred and now im willing 2 chalk that up to me making shit up/ extrapolating or whatevs

BUT SCOUT HAD MATURED! HE DID ALREADY! AND THAT IS WHAT TRULY HAS ME FUCKED UP ABT THE SCOUTPAULING BLUNDER . SCOUT BEING ALL LIKE "OMG I CAN FREAK IT WITH PRETTY WEMEN?!!>" JUST MISUNDERSTANDS HIS CHARACTER AND RELATIONSHIP TO MISS PAULING SO BAD AND IM SUCH AN ERM ACTUALLYING SCOUTPAULINGCEL AT THIS POINT BUT WHO GAF THIS IS MY TRUTH THE COMIC HURT ME LIKE NOBODY EVEN UNDERSTANDS HOW GRAVELY THIS WILL AFFECT THE POSTING ECONOMY

MY BOY DID NOT LIKE HER BECAUSE SHES JUST HOT AND THAT FUCKING SCENE IS GONNA MAKE ME HAVE DENTAL PROBLEMS , LIKE

//ritalin wearing off so excuse the extra tangents but like. in a way i sorta could tell it was kinda already coming to this? im not sure where i can find screenshots but i was talking about the scene with god in the 6th comic where he wants scout 2 fuck insane styles all over the place and how it undermined a lot of what was important to his interest in miss pauling and that he was growing to chill tf out at her earlier in the comic when he met up with her and gave her that hug etc. i understand what theyre trying to do/say with their relationship in this story NOW but it just doesnt really work for me in the same way still. for obvious reasons .. well. who cares scoutpauling 4life what ru a COP get OUT OF MY HOUSE//

miss pauling in the mainline comics isnt into him but it doesnt change the fact that scout genuinely loved her regardless, EXP DATE WOULD NEVER DO THIS TO ME LIKE. exp date shows that hes been around , HE IS OUT HERE FUCKING MISS PAULING IS NOT THE ONLY WOMAN HES EVER MET IN HIS LIFE

//like i get in the mainline comics they treat him as a virgin or whatever but i think it just oversimplifies who he is and the comics often dumb him down worse than he really is but also i made up things in my mind so i should shut up. I wont.//

HE DOESNT STICK AROUND AND TRY TO DO NICE STUFF FOR HER JUST CUZ HE WANTS TO GET IN HER PANTS CUZ SHES HOT. HE COULD PICK UP HOT WOMEN VIA BUCKET OF CHICKEN VERY EASILY BUT WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IN A TUMOR RELATED DEATH SITUATION HE WANTS TO DO SOMETHING SPECIAL BECAUSE SHE IS IMPORTANT TO HIM SPECIFICALLY. MY MAN COULDVE DECIDED TO LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE WITH HIS ASSUMED TO BE DWINDLING TIME BUT DECIDED NOT TO.

HE LIKES HER FOR DEEPER REASONS . HE LIKES THAT SHES SMART AND PUT TOGETHER AND NICE LIKE HE SINCERELY WOULDNT SAY ALLAT SHIT TO SPY IF HE DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE HE IS THE WORLDS MOST REVOLTING AUTISTIC WARRIOR IF HE WAS JUST IN IT FOR COOCHIE HE WOULD MAKE IT ABUNDANTLY CLEAR LIKE COME ON. MATTER OF FACT - HE DOES! IN THEIR FIRST SCENE THEY ARE IN TOGETHER! AND YET! HE MATURES!

LIKE

HE GROWS TO NOT JUST WANNA HIT ON HER, HIS LAST WISH IS LEGIT TO ONLY GO ON A DATE WITH HER, NOTHING MORE THAN THAT. VOLUMES ARE STORED WITHIN THAT WEIRD GUY AND LIKE GUHHHHHHHHHHHH

IN MY MINDS EYE HIS PERSONA OF MASCULINITY IS HEAVILY TIED TO TIRED MISOGYNISTIC IDEAS OF WOMEN JUST BEING THERE FOR SEXUAL CONQUEST AND THAT IN TURN FEEDS HIS EGO

IT IS FACKING HUGE FOR HIS CHARACTER THAT HE CARES MORE ABOUT HER FEELINGS AND DOING THINGS RIGHT N TAKING SHIT SLOW THAN JUST GETTING LAID AND ITS BOTH BIG FOR HIM GROWING AS A PERSON WITHIN HIS MISOGYNY AND ALSO HIS TOXIC MASCULINITY ETC

HE HAS TO HAVE HAD A DEEPER REASONING TO DO ALL THE SHIT HE DID THAN "HOT",MAN.

I LIKE 2 BELIEVE THAT WORKING MORE WITH MISS PAULING AND TREATING HER AS AN EQUAL IN THE TEAM POST MEET THE DIRECTOR ALLOWS HIM TO SEE MORE OF HER AND SHE BECOMES A HUMAN BEING 2HIM INSTEAD OF JUST A OBJECT AND HE BEGINS TO GARNER DEEPER EMOTIONS..

//2me scout is if the american psycho was both just some dude and also if he had the capacity to just take a fuckin pill like. im way blowing shit out of proportion to what im supposed to read from but im just throwing every thought around who give a fuck like. i think in terms of the chicken girl and the assumed other women like her like the sex would be shit on account of. its not really about any feeling or want in particular so much as just a way to feel like hes portraying The Guy as well as possible. you know what i mean. him starting to want a deeper connection than superficial bullshit is mega humongous and it speaks volumes to the importance of his love for her to his character. you know. Do you understand. //

LIKE FUCK

THATS ALSO WHAT FUCKS ME UP SO BADLY ABOUT HOW HE TALKS ABOUT HIS LOVE FOR PAULING TOO

LIKE ITS NOT JUST HIM TRYING TO WEAR HER DOWN ,

HE GROWS OUT OF HIS SHIT.

THE WHOLE POINT WAS THAT HE SEES HER AS A PERSON AND DEVELOPS A DEEP RESPECT FOR HER AND HER OWN CHOICES . WAITING FOR HER TO LOVE HIM BECOMES SECONDHAND TO THE IMPORTANCE BECOMES THE CONNECTION HE HAS TO HER REGARDLESS OF WHAT IT IS. I CANT LIKE. COME ON YALL

its okay. im letting peace into my mind. scout is just a silly man and i never even care about fiction to much at all and. florence isnt a shit name for miss pauling i was just mad :,( .though she will always be faline to me because her cuteness :)

//i was right about scout being dilf material though so i take the w on that one//

I like to think Scout and Flo Pauling eventually get together in the future, it's just they weren't ready at the time since Scout was immature and Flo had too much going on mentally to pursue any relationship.

like the thing is tha y scouuts hole character axrc is abput growing 2 undetaymad this and underatnad her serspective and waiti but they dont ducki g rite that cuz who gaf idek man

they shoulve hirwd me as lead scoutpauling xonsultant i couldve saved tf2 comic 7

[jewllyfish]

Long post tw dream tw unreality tw child getting hurt tw assault(ish). Fucked up fucking dream.

Had such weird dreams last night…. So there’s this regular couple who comes into my work all the time on shrooms I love them but in the dream they would always come in with this annoying ass bird lol. they asked if I would watch or hold their like 6 million dollar paintings for them while they went on vacation for the weekend and they’d pay me a few hundred dollars??? and I was like sure ya but when they came by to drop them off they were like. Also you’re watching our bird. And I was like… uh.. okay? It was like a Mynah or crow or some clever corvid and so they leave and I’m chilling with friends and then the bird starts flying around the room and I’m like that’s probably not good lol and I’m trying to catch it and swearing at it and it’s just laughing at me and I’m like. Whatever, problem for later. So I’m chilling there w this girl and then it like dives into the bathtub which is full and I’m kinda panicking and screaming how stupid it is lol then it surfaces and changes into this like. Parrotfish looking thing?? Idek but I was just like ooooooh it’s one of THOSE goddAmn stupid thing. And it surfaces and looks at me and says “you’re not too bright yourself” and I’m like WHAT THE FUCK WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOU COULD TALK bc apparently birds changing into fish is nbd but talking fish is lmao. And it’s real lippy and is like you didn’t ask. And all I could say was fair point I guess and then we were all cool and chilling and the fish would sometimes change into a bird and fly around but I liked him now lol and we were all just shooting the shit and Then the birdfish was like wanna see something cool? And my friend grins at me and then the thing CHANGES INTO A BABY?? And I’m like yo WTF what else can u turn into?? And it’s like nuthin this is it lol wanna hold me? And I’m like fuck yeah! (VERY unrealistic I hate babies they scare me) and I’m like. Zooming it around like a toy airplane lol and my friend is telling me to be careful but I’m like no no I got this! Watch this! And I like balance it on my feet like an acrobat and it FUCKING FALLS HEADFIRST ONTO THE FLOOR and I’m like freaking out and I pick it up and half its skull is like. Mashed and dome shaped now 😭😭😭 and I try to cover the fucked up part with my hand so my friend can’t see and maybe like moosh it back into shape but it’s SO SQUISHY AND FAR TOO PLIABLE and I nearly vomit and give it back to the friend super fast who puts it in the tub and is like I TOLD U SO. And the baby just changes back into the fish and is like lol that was fucked up. And I’m like IM SO SORRY!! And it’s like nah I’m fine I was just messing with you but I was sitting there like 🫁👁👄👁 I have to go to bed lol.

So then it’s the day before I have to go give the paintings back and I’ve been keeping them in the basement and I go down there and there’s just a party happening?? In my basement?? And I’m like whatever sick lol I don’t know anyone here but I’m sure it’s fine so I start drinking like a fish and this old lady is like asking me about the paintings and the bird/fish/baby and I’m like… uh… idk if I should tell you all that and she’s like no no it’s okay! I’m friends with them! And I’m just like oh okay sure! And I chat a little but she’s giving me weird vibes so I go over to the corner where I stashed the paintings (they were just like stylistic gold faces with blue and purple and pink and orange clouds I’m gonna try and draw them later) and there’s this giant hulking man in traditional Russian dress who’s like. Leering at me and I’m trying to ignore him so I just reach past him to grab the box they’re in and he grabs my arm? And is like “what brings a pretty thing like you to a place like this” and I’m like. Uh the paintings… and he’s like “a little thief?? You know what we do to thieves around here??” And I’m panicking a little cause he’s still got my arm and I’m like bro I live here! And he’s like oh pardon, my name is Gustav (Gregor? Something beginning w a G) please, Drink with me! And I’m like uh okay cause I don’t really feel like I can say no so I skip off and grab a bottle of wine that for some reason I know is drugged?? Or maybe it was just absinthe idrk but he takes a huge swig and I’m like hehehe… yess… and then gives it to me and is like. Now you. Drink. All fucking scary like and I’m like uuuuuuuh okay so I DO? I ALSO swig the drugged wine and he’s leering at me again and I’m like well nothing for it. Gotta seduce him so I’m like asking him what a big strong man like him is doing here and rubbing all up on him and he’s eating it up meanwhile I’m also like pushing drink after drink into his hand and he’s tossing em back (to give a reference of this man’s size I’m giving him solo cups and they look like Dixie cups in his hand) and he like swings his arm around me and is telling me he’s getting sleepy and I’m like oh well perfect! You just rest right here and I’ll be right back to help you get comfortable ;) and he kinda slumps over and I squirm away and grab the paintings and fucking HIGHTAIL it out of the basement

But by now it’s 6 or 7am lmao and it’s time for the couple to pick up their paintings (also pretty sure there was a break in and armed robbers at some point but that part is fuzzy) and im still fucking wasted and trying to find my way thru the house and she’s waiting at the kitchen counter super impatiently and just tapping her foot and glaring at me, and I plop the box down on the counter and im like here they are safe and sound and she FLIPS she’s like “YOU WERE KEEPING THESE IN THE BASEMENT? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH THEYRE WORTH!?” And im like uh yeah? Don’t worry they’re safe and fine they’re in a box and cardboard sleeve and she just like stops dead and glares at me with the fire of a thousand suns and is like “you little rat…. You switched them out, didn’t you!!!” And I’m like. Still SO fucking drunk and I’m like lady what the hell are you talking about. Look at them. They’re the same. And I’m trying to argue with her about how could I have done that w a forgery in 2 fuck days but she doesn’t want to hear it and just grabs the box and storms out and I’m like chasing after her like BRO you gotta pay me do you know what I did to keep those safe!! And she’s like oooh I’m sure they’re safe in your little hidey hole somewhere and leaves and I’m just standing there like ????? And I hear a “yoo hoo!” And look over and the weird old lady from the party is there and holding the struggling bird baby fish while it’s changing rapidly between the 3 states and she grins evilly at me and disappears and I’m just. So tired and exhausted and drunk lol and then I wake up.

Anyway if u read this far amazing hope you enjoyed my fucked ur Covid dreams

[marunalu]

So 15 months ago @psychomurderz @lurking96 and me came up with our totally crack "afo clone theory".

And while the three of us were for the most part just joking, more and more my gut is telling me, we arent that wrong.

Not exactly like it is in our original post (because the guy in the shadow is the president of america), but something weird is going on with afo right now. After he rewinded himself back to his old glory, he talkes about how this quirk will rewind "this body" to nothing, but that its fine, because it served its purpose and all that is left for him to do, is to help afomura to win and even that sentence makes no sense, because when we are introduced to afo for the first time in the manga, he talkes with dr. Garaki and talks about how he wants to retire and tells him "then hurry and fix me up, doctor!"

So afo clearly planned for his body to be healed again, he just didnt had the right quirk at that time. But if he is so ready to discard "this body" like trash, WHY was he so determinded before for his body to be healed again in the first place? And now in chapter 376 he tells hawks all of a sudden "there is a reason why "this body" is still needed." So what is it now afo? Can you please make up your mind? First you say its fine if your body is rewinded to nothing and now all of a sudden you talk about that there is a reason why "this body" is still needed. And he always refers to it as "this body". As if there is more then one. I mean, of course the afo vestige is possesing tomuras body right now, but there would always be the danger for tomura gaining control over himself again. Its a pretty risky plan. More and more I feel the afo we are seeing right now is in fact a clone, while the real one chills his life on the bahamas and is watching the chaos around him all smug and happy.

Honestly, I dont know HOW afo could have a clone, but twice quirk is pretty sure not the only one able to create clones. I dont know, maybe Im completly in the wrong here, but afo starting to refer to himself with "this body" only recently, makes me think there will be somekind of a twist.

[wasyago]

if you do get shit for drawing hermits as being trans then im sorry, we really love your work and we admire you as an artist and you drawing hc as trans honestly makes our day. Representation is little and far between so seeing lgbt headcanons (and support) is sweet. honestly do what you want to do, you aren't hurting anyone by giving someone a specific headcanon and everyone sees hermits differently and you cant control that, its like shipping people do and don't do that. Just do what you want to do! This is your blog after all!

(also wanted to say that every time we see your name on dash we have to say it like that aot intro that goes sasageyo and its...something. I think its s2? who knows) but keep the amazing work, your stuff honestly inspires us so much <3

- Tango

thank you so much, this is very sweet!! it really made me smile and calm down a little, so, thank you uwu!!!!!! (also that sasageyo bit hsfsjgssjjsv, hilarious, my god, i will do that too now, even if i am... uh, me)

about the trans thing (im very sorry for using your nice ask to talk about it, but i feel like it should be said). yeah, i agree! representation is nice and it is kind of like shipping. in a way that it's okay if someone likes it and doesn't like it, if it's tagged properly, there shouldn't be any problem! and im fine with adding a single tag to a few posts, if it makes some people more comfortable on my blog!! i know that that other anon, who was really rude about the thing, wasn't that long ago and you guys probably still remember it, but this time it's... okay? they just calmly asked for a tag, it's fine! i know it's hard to respect the person who doesn't like something about you or doesn't agree with you, but if it's not something serious, i feel like we can just ignore each other? like... being on internet creates some weird interactions that we don't always know how to deal with, and it's perfectly fine!!

i don't really know what im saying, i just want to create a chill place where people can enjoy art, and finding way out of arguments is tough sometimes. like, i dont necessarily want to ignore them, but i don't want it to become something big either. i just love you guys, thank you for always being there for me and supporting me through tough times, it means a lot <3 qwq

[loomis-maxima]

''𝐅𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬''

Word Count: 1.5k+ Warnings; Haechan x fem!reader, 18+, big dick Haechan, explicit language, the usual shit <3 (I wrote this a longggg time ago and I haven't posted in a while so I'm posting this- pls I know it sucks ass but it's better than nothing)

. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ . ‘’Hyuck, open the fucking door’’ you said to your best friend on the other end of the phone. You heard him groan, along with the squeak of his bed as he stood up. ‘’Fine, fine, fine, I’m coming’’ he said with a tone of annoyance to his voice.

You loved him, but sometimes he was the biggest pain in the ass. You slipped your phone into the back pocket of your jeans as you heard him approach the door, opening it up to see him before he cracked a smile. ‘’Gee, thanks for actually letting me in.’’ you said, rolling your eyes.

The boys dorm was oddly quiet, you looked around for his two dorm mates. ‘’Where’s Jaemin and Mark?’’

Donghyuck raised his eyebrows at the question. ‘’Why? Are they the real reason you came?’’ he said with a fake pout, crossing his arms. You chuckled slightly at how cute he was, although you’d never admit it.

‘’You know movie night is my favourite, shut up’’ you replied, hitting his arm slightly as we walked to his room.

‘’So, what are we watching?’’ you asked, plopping down onto his bed, sitting up against the headboard after kicking your vans off. He shrugged and sat next to you, grabbing the controller and turning on Netflix. After about 5 minutes of him scrolling and you disappearing to make some popcorn you were both back on the bed, a large bowl of popcorn between you as you laid on my side, watching whatever shitty horror movie Haechan chose.

You couldn’t help but lose focus on the movie as he reached for another handful of popcorn, your gaze slowly following his hands, his long fingers adorned with silver rings, the veins in his hands prominent even in the dull red light of his room, thanks to the strip lights that encased the room.

Of course, Haechan being Haechan, wanted the room ‘’scary’’, for this terrible movie, but something in your mind switch looking at the sight before you. Unknowingly your eyes travelled up towards his face, the light casting a glow on his perfect-

‘’What?’’ he said with a chuckle snapping you out of your thoughts, chewing a mouthful of popcorn with the goofiest grin on his face. You shook your head. ‘’Just wondering why you chose a shitty movie again’’ you said fixing myself slightly on the bed to look at the tv once again.

Praying deep down that your lie was good enough to cover the thoughts that had intruded my mind, you were quickly distracted by your phone buzzing on the bedside locker causing you to lean over and pick it up.

You sat up a little bit straighter upon reading the name, but not enough to draw attention to myself.

Jeno.

You sighed internally to yourself, talk about bad timing you thought, swiping up on the homescreen to access the message.

Jeno : ‘’You free?’’ ‘’nah, at Haechan’s. It’s movie night.’’ Jeno : ‘’too bad. I could really do with your tight pussy right now.’’

His blunt words shocked you, not sure why. You should’ve been used to his ways by now. ‘’if it wasn’t movie night, sure, but im not ditching Hyuck for dick’’

Right on que, you felt the phone being snatched out of your hands, the sudden act wasn’t anything new for the pair of you, that’s just how you were, especially on movie night but something about his clenched jaw and the slight red tint to his ears let you know this wasn’t something usual.

‘’What the fuck is this?’’ he asked, his voice dripped with venom.

‘’What?’’ you asked, voice shaking.

‘’Why the fuck is Jeno texting you?’’ he bit back. ‘’You’re really fucking around with him? The biggest fucking asshole?’’ Hyuck’s sudden anger sent a chill down your spine, but deep down I knew it wasn’t just fear. The slight flare of his nostrils, the clenching of his jaw, his eyes narrowing as he typed a quick ‘’fuck yourself’’ and sent it to Jeno.

You didn’t even have the time to process anything, let alone say anything before the bowl had been moved, the phone had been thrown to the computer chair that had sat infront of the computer desk. All of a sudden the feeling of his lips almost knocked the air out of your lungs. His kiss was full of anger and hunger, his tight grip on your face sure to leave bruises. Haechan’s hands travelled down, pulling you onto his lap. With his lips moving down to your neck, you took the opportunity to take a breath.

‘’H-hyuck.. what are you doing?’’ you asked, your voice shaking as he sucked dark marks onto the sensitive skin.

‘’What? You’d rather be with Jeno doing this than me?’’ he said between kisses. Moving back up to your lips, he kissed you again, hands knotting in his hair.

‘’I asked you a question’’ he spat, grabbing your hips and pressing your down onto the growing bulge in his jeans. You gasped at the sudden action, ‘’No..’’ you mumbled, going back to kiss him but the feeling of his fingers gripping your hair, pulling your head back before resuming his attack on your neck.

‘’No what?.. You don’t want me?’’

You couldn’t help but whimper as he placed more marks on the skin.

‘’Don’t lie to me, or yourself. I know how you look at me, what goes through you’re head.. the same goes through mine.’’ He breathed into your ear, sending a shiver down my spine.

‘’so I’ll ask you again, me or Jeno?’’ he spat into your ear, biting down on the lobe.

‘’fuck… you Hyuck ..please’’

He released his grip on your hair, smirking. He had the darkest look in his eyes, making his already dark eyes look almost black.

Haechan quickly flipped the pair of you, letting himself be on top as he quickly pulled your shirt off, leaving wet kisses on your chest before tearing off his own.

You sat up to attach your lips back to his before you felt his hand wrap around your throat, pushing me back down, his own strength too much for you to fight against. Not that you wanted to. ‘’I didn’t ask you to sit up, did I?’’ his stern voice was a harsh contrast to the Haechan you were used to.

You only managed to shake your head, his hand never leaving your throat as he pressed his lips back on yours but this time more gentle.The sweet action didn’t last long as you felt his hand leave your neck travelling down to your jeans before pulling away and making short work of pulling them off. Haechan smirked while looking down at you, leaning back over as he dipped two fingers into your underwear slowly grazing your clit.

‘’You’re fucking dripping’’ Haechan said breathily before shoving one finger in slowly.

‘’Hyuck please.. fuck me’’ you whined, your mind blank except for that one thing

The statement triggered a low, deep groan from his throat.

‘’Usually I’d wait a bit longer but..’’ he said, standing up and undoing his belt, quickly discarding his jeans and boxers before climbing back onto the bed.

Anticipating his impressive length, your legs spread on their own accord only to be met with him grabbing you and quickly flipping you over onto your stomach.

Haechan’s hands grabbed your waist before slowly guiding his hard length into your dripping folds. He groaned as he wasted no time in fully pushing in before completely bottoming out.

The quick action making you drop your upper body onto his bed, moaning at the fullness. ‘’You’re so fucking tight’’ he muttered, slowly pulling back and thrusting back into you harder and faster than you expected. ‘’Jeno mustn’t have been doing too good of a job if you’re still this tight’’ Hyuck smirked while speeding up his thrusts, his hips slamming off your ass, filling the room with all sorts of sounds. You couldn’t bring yourself to form a sentence, the stretch and the speed causing too much pleasure for words in your head to have any meaning behind them.

‘’You’ve no idea how long I’ve waited to do this and to think you’ve been going to him’’

his thrusts only became sharper, hitting that spot inside you making almost scream.

Hyuck wrapped one hand in your hair, pulling you back before pulling your back up flush with his torso, his speed never letting up. The hand that was wrapped in you hair made its way to grip your throat, the other travelling down to rub circles on your clit.

‘’f-fuck.. hyuck.. don’t stop’’ you whined, eliciting a sinister chuckle from him.

‘’Fucked dumb already? You gonna cum for me?’’ he groaned into your ear, nodding and whining in response. You could tell by how uneven his thrusts became he was close too.

As if reading your thoughts his hand that was once wrapped around your throat pushed you headfirst into his covers, he kept it there, the other hand never letting up is abuse on your clit. Before you knew it you were seeing stars, clenching around his dick almost screaming in pleasure. You heard a soft ‘’oh fuck’’ from behind you, your own orgasm triggering his as he filled you up with his cum. Haechan quickly pulled out, collapsing beside you as both of you tried to catch our breath, pulling you into his arms.

‘’No more Jeno, yeah?’’ . ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .