#for context - me and my best best friend haven't seen each other for a while and we also don't really have time to call:(

[stariekis]

ops ... just got caught !

pairing : idol!ni-ki + fem!reader . genre : fluff . cw : kisses and i think that's all <3 . wc : 2.3k

— synopsis : you must be very careful confessing your feelings, that said person might hear you ...

— notes : i love my silly lil awkward ni-ki 🤲🏻 i really hope you guys like it <3 as always reposts are very welcomed here ! ~

— 'Oh my god yes I do have the biggest crush on her can you guys like leave me alone'. the other six boys that were sitting on the table right in front of ni-ki were in complete shock.

For a bit hit of context ; Ni-ki and you are childhood best friend, both of you traveled together to Korea wanting to be idols. But some years later you found out that maybe the idol life wasn't for you and decided to stop training and started studying again. Both of you kept in contact, even though he have the busiest scheduel ever he always makes sure to save some time of his day to talk to you.

Because of your studies you've been living abroad for some time now so you and Ni-ki haven't seen each other after the day you move to your current city. This lead us to the current situation.

You were standing behind his tall figure, your mouth hanging open as you heard what the boy just said. Today was the last stop of their 'fate tour', which happens to be the city where you where currently living, and you decide to surprise him at the restaurant where they planned on eating after the concert ended.

When Ni-ki saw all of his friends looking behind him with such expressions he turned around slowly. That's when his eyes met yours.

He didn't know what to feel, he was happy obviously but when he realized that you might have heard what he just said he felt a wave of awkwardness taking over his whole body.

He turned around as fast as he could and tried to hide his face in his hands, wanting to avoid your gaze. — 'Well hello to you too big boy' you said giggling a bit, you came closer to him and gave him a back hug while he was still sitting on his chair.

While hugging him you took his hands out of his face and gave him a quick peck on his red tinted cheeks — 'You heard that didn't you?' Ni-ki asked, tilting his head to the side a bit to look at you, finally able to look at your eyes.

You nodded, your hands intertwined with his as you play with his rings — 'And if you want an answer, i also have the biggest crush on you' and right after you gave him your answer to his confession he turned to you and got up from his chair.

He stood in front of you, his hands holding your face. He looked at your eyes and mouthed a silent 'are you serious?', as soon as you nooded your head he closed the gap between the two of you, kissing you softly.

— 'You two, this might be a private area but we are still here, save it for later' said Sunghoon. Ni-ki pulled away and look at his older brother with the most terrifying gaze he has ever give them.

All eight of you spent the rest of the night together. They kept asking you about your life there and you gladly told them, all of this happening while Ni-ki looked at you with the biggest loving eyes ever while listening to you.

What a better way to end such a successful tour than this ?

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[bubaboos]

the separation continues😔✊🏻

dlaczego czuje się jakbym była w separacji wieloletniego małżeństwa👁👄👁

[starrieisdelusional]

How the Paopu Fruit Relates to Sora and Riku

a soriku endgame deep dive: part 1

This is part of my soriku endgame deep dive series, a series where i'll try to dissect everything and anything related to soriku, and what it means for future installments. In part 1, we will discuss about how the paopu fruit relates to sora and riku.

This started out as screaming at soriku twitter, and when i finally connected the dots, i can't help but make an analysis about it because i haven't really seen any blogs that discuss about the paopu fruit + soriku in depth.

I assumed you have somewhat a prior knowledge of soriku as I'll be taking a lot of arguments from theories and deep dives. I'll try to make this as brief as possible and try to make this easy to read for all of us who have ADHD (me).

But if you want the short version:

From the evidence given, the paopu fruit is a symbolism for riku-sora-kairi love triangle. However, this analysis argues that the context of the paopu fruit for sokai is platonic, while for soriku it is romantic.

Because of this, i believe that one day, soriku will share 1 paopu fruit with each other as sora's final answer to the love triangle.

With that being said, let's finally talk about the paopu fruit

Start of Theory

paopu in a platonic context

The paopu fruit, is a fruit that intertwines destiny if two person decides to share it. Kind of like a soulmate cheat.

" Selphie: Hey, Sora. Have you heard about the legendary power of the paopu fruit? They say if you share it with someone you really care for, it binds you together forever and ever, through eternity! (sighs) It's so romantic. I gotta try it sometime. "

The paopu fruit has somewhat been considered as the series staple for romance. However the paopu can be viewed as romantic or platonic depending on the situation. Kingdom Hearts never said that paopu is meant to be romantic-only.

An example of paopu being platonic, is when it was used by Aqua to metaphorically describe the wayfinder charm, that binds Terra-Ventus-Aqua together, just like how the paopu works.

Aqua: Somewhere out there, there's this tree with star-shaped fruit... and the fruit represents an unbreakable connection. So as long as you and your friends carry good luck charms shaped like it, nothing can ever drive you apart. You’ll always find your way back to each other. Technically, I think you’re supposed to make them with seashells, but I did the best I could with what I had.

important keywords

The paopu fruit is related to a few things which includes:

Desitny: a fruit that binds destiny (or fate)

Star: The paopu fruit is in the shape of a star, which can also symbolize destiny.

Promise: a reminder of the promise that you made with that person you share your destiny with

A good luck charm: to ensure that no matter what, you won’t ever be separated, because your destinies are intertwined

Sea: a fruit that is native to Destiny Islands, that can be replicated by thalassa shells to make a good luck charm

kairi's relation to paopu fruit

At face value, the fruit is obviously related to Kairi, given how Kairi’s character is related to destiny, the star symbol, a promise, a good luck charm, and her name that translates to sea (海). Further elaboration of kairi's relation to the fruit:

Kairi came to destiny island by a meteor shower (or shooting stars)

Sora and Kairi’s cave drawing (star crossed lovers)

Oathkeeper (the blade is the shape of a star) or 約束のお守り Yakusoku no Omamori Promise Charm

Destiny’s Embrace (the keychain is a paopu)

Thalassa Shell Charm (in the shape of a star)

Separation and the promise never forget

Wayfinder Trio (owns a charm inspired by the thalassa (star) and came from outside of Destiny Island)

And finally, does the act of sharing the paopu fruit with sora in kh3

sokai kh3 mistranslation scene

sora-kairi's relationship in the lens of a paopu fruit is considered to be platonic with the argument: The act of sharing the paopu between kairi and sora in kh3 if you take the scene in a japanese lense:

it is kairi who initiates the thing

if anything, Sora looks so taken aback when kairi shoved the fruit in front of his face (he was looking at riku), but calms down once Kairi assures him that this is just a good luck charm to ensure that they wont be separated in battle

TR What’s R*ku doing all by himself?; TR Here!

Serves as a wrap up to sora and kairi’s arc as the realization of sokai's cave drawing

There’s even a version where this doesn’t exist at all?! (based on an interview done with their VAs, nomura made them take two takes, one with paopu, one not with paopu)

speaking romantically, if this is considered as their tie the knot scene it feels like it came out of no where because why didn't they just follow it up after kh1? why wait about 20 years to do it when there's multiple instances to develop sokai's relationship over the years aside from good luck charm

Serves as a wrap up to sora and kairi’s arc as the realization of sokai's cave drawing

There’s even a version where this doesn’t exist at all?! (based on an interview done with their VAs, nomura made them take two takes, one with paopu, one not with paopu)

speaking romantically, if this is considered as their tie the knot scene it feels like it came out of no where because why didn't they just follow it up after kh1? why wait about 20 years to do it when there's multiple instances to develop sokai's relationship over the years aside from good luck charm

if you squint, the legend says when the person shares 1 paopu fruit, so why does sora and kairi shares 2 here?

the thalassa, the crown, and the paopu

Now, going back to kairi's strong relationship with the paopu. (Notice how i say kairi's strong relationship with the paopu? ) There are multiple instances of the paopu being related to just kairi, when sora is not present (see kairi's relation to paopu fruit above) Therefore, the paopu fruit is more of a representation of KAIRI ALONE, not sora and kairi.

If anything, SORA AND KAIRI is represented more by the variant of the paopu: the thalassa charm, that is unique to sora and kairi only, as the only time the thalassa shell appears is if a scene involves Sora, Kairi, Xion, and Roxas.

Which parallels SORA AND RIKU crown necklace 'good luck charm', that is exclusively unique to them (necklace theory). Which is why Oathkeeper has the thalassa charm, not a paopu fruit.

Unlike how the paopu fruit is treated (pluck, eat/throw), both the thalassa shell (that came from the sea) and the kingdom crown (that came from land, riku 陸 shore) has been carefully and uniquely modified to sora.

The paopu fruit also grows exclusively on destiny islands, on a beach, near the shores where water and land met. And unlike the thalassa shells and kingdom crown that can be made on their own area, paopu fruit cannot exist without water and land.

Both the thalassa shells and kingdom crown are either rarely appears or never mentioned (like at all...) outside of SORA AND KAIRI and SORA AND RIKU, the paopu fruit is used more frequently, appearing everywhere, anywhere, and is used by every person in the game... including riku.

See what I'm getting here? Paopu fruit is the embodiment of riku-sora-kairi love triangle. Not a symbol for Sora and Kairi. It is important to also note that the paopu's dynamic only reflects

riku->sora and kairi->sora.

Namine's fake charm also contributed to this (if we are going by the believe that she's trying to insert herself to kairi and riku's messy love triangle, pls necklace theory and aitsu). Namine turns sokai's thalassa charm into a fake paopu fruit. So this charm became a mutant variation of Kairi's thalassa and Riku's crown.

And now where I'll back up aitsu and necklace theory: Again the form that came up is a paopu fruit. if we were to delete those theories into our narrative (meaning that namine is only inserting herself as kairi), it does not make sense, because why would she conjured up a paopu that has a messy relation with sokai?? why not a variant of a thalassa shell?? why not a drawing? a painting? why the paopu specifically? where no one else can be involved other than riku->sora?

riku's relation to paopu fruit

Unlike kairi, the use of paopu fruit with riku is almost to none (which is probably the reason why no one had really talked in-depth about this) so here are a few instances that it appears:

Terra and Aqua just so happen to find SORA AND RIKU on Destiny Islands after interacting with paopu fruit back in BBS

Riku 'teasing' Sora about who gets to share the paopu with Kairi

Sora and Repliku's fake paopu charm

GaybladeTM COMBINED: Isn't it odd that the key chain turns to paopu fruit when sora and riku combine their hearts together?? even though Kairi had 0 thing to do with it?? Even though this is an exclusive SORA AND RIKU thing? Even though we agreed that the paopu rarely ever appeared alongside riku?

*presence of kingdom crown

Note that all of the instances that i've jotted down, always rarely occurred, and has only been present.... when SORA AND RIKU are around.

One reason alludes that paopu only appears whenever soriku are in sync, another is because of riku's forgotten VOW (chikai) (see necklace theory, chikai & don't think twice, to sum it up chikai or vow is riku's version of kairi's promise (yakusoku), chikai in another context is the kh3 music that came from riku POV to sora).

A third is because Riku is the opposite of paopu, his whole identity defies destiny. He is an oathbreaker (opposite of kairi's Oathkeeper). He litterally destroys destiny island, altering sora and kairi's fates. The opposite of sea...

So following that logic, the paopu should be viewed as romantic when viewing Riku->Sora

soriku and the paopu

we finally arrived to the final chapter of my lengthy analysis. so, how does this affect soriku in future installments?

i believe that one day, soriku will (either in KH5 or KH4) share 1 paopu fruit with each-other, and it will be Sora who offers the fruit to riku as his final say to the triangle. The reasons why are:

a nod to kairi who initiates the offer to sora in kh3, with sokai's case, sora is technically the first who propose the fruit via cave drawing that he done in secret at the beginning of KH1. It wasn't actually until the end of the game that kairi saw that drawing and realized: WOW! Sora wanted to share the fruit, with ME??? (because the drawing is hidden in a cave...?)

this parallels to how Riku 'jokingly', not so smoothly, try to rizz Sora at the beginning of KH1 (nearly identical timelines) and basically try to trap sora into sharing the paopu with him. Notice that in this period, soriku still aren't 100% in sync and are still dancing around / masking their feelings for the other(it isn't until kh2 that they started to re-bonded, being more affectionate and honest)

that scene is also an interpretation of how paopu should be viewed as romantic (following riku->sora = paopu romantic), notice how i always stressed riku->sora, kairi->sora, and never kairi<-sora, riku<-sora?

despite being the center of it all, sora's relationship with the paopu fruit is neutral to say, not really leaning torwards one or the other (maybe kairi but it slowly changes)

it's Sora's final answer to riku-sora-kairi love triangle war that had been going on for 20 years, sora had already rejected kairi's romantic advances, choosing to stay as friends, a slot for a gf is still available....

i have a theory this is soriku leaning because sora had been abusing the power of waking that he got to mess with reality, (check sleeping realm) so now he's leaning on the defier-of-destiny side

soriku sharing ONE NOT TWO fruit to finally do the legend as intended, because in sokai's beta-testing (the cave drawing), it's sora give kairi, kairi give sora.

Meanwhile in soriku's beta testing ('riku's pathetic attempt at rizzing')

riku: *yeets the fruit to sora*

sora: *throws fruit away*

(sokai 2 fruits soriku 1 fruit, sokai 2 fruits soriku 1 fruit, sokai 2 soriku 1, SOKAI 2 SORIKU 1)

THE END!!!!

Okay we have actually reach the end!!! great job sorikus!! tysm for listening to my ted-talk!! i hope you like it

other parts

part 2 (meteor shower; the necklace and the sword)

[ruiniel]

HIIIII! i've been reading a bit through your blog and i've liked it a lot, the way you write for alucard is very sweet and i haven't seen much of him x male reader so could i make a request?

in my mind reader helped alucard along with trevor and sypha, but reader is a magical creature that lives within the forest and takes care of alucard from afar after sypha and trevor left so it was only just the two of them even after the events with taka and sumi. this is just for little context.

so, reader is pretty much very in love with alucard and is always to his disposition, but when greta arrives and starts to notice how happy he looks with her, reader starts to question if he's even good enough for alucard so even if he's at alucard's disposition he starts to drift away thinking that alucard may be better off with greta. that until alucard finds him again and formalize ofc 🥰

thanks for reading allat and if you're not interested feel free to ignore it, bye bye!

Thank you for the prompt, here's a little scene. I took a pre-poly relationship approach here...

For each other

Fandom: Castlevania series (2017-2021) | Pairing: Alucard x male reader | Rating: T Count: 2K | Tags: self-deprecation, pining, angst, feels

A late, sunny afternoon. There is no one but the two of them in the large kitchen: Alucard has her pinned against a counter, his gaze dropping from her warm brown eyes to her lips, leaning close enough to taste—

They break apart at the sound of something thudding onto a hard surface. Alucard turns his head, eyes still glazed and heartbeat soaring from their kiss. He blinks owlishly at the sight of you unleashing a hoard of crab apples on the table.

You’d been gone for some time, and now meticulously catch the escaped apples and gather them back into the large wicker basket, all the while doing a great job of not looking at Greta or Alucard, staring at you. “Don’t stop on my account,” you murmur, leaning over to catch an apple about to roll off the table.

“...?” Greta untangles herself from Alucard’s arms, half-turning.

“Found plenty of these in a glade not far from here,” you say as you arrange the fruit. “Fallen from the trees, just there to rot if nobody uses them. Who would have thought?” You turn away, taking an apple and avoiding their eyes as you make to leave.

Greta calls your name. “Wait,” she tries again, taking a step forward, but Alucard’s hold is tight on her wrist.

As the door shuts behind you, Greta moves to go after you, anyway; Alucard holds her fast. “Perhaps…” he says, turning her gently to face him, “Let me speak to him, this time.”

Greta nods. There are many things to speak of indeed, things long overdue. Knowing what happened and all you’ve been through together until this point, it might be best for Alucard to reach you first. Her fingers graze the side of his face. “Bring him back.”

When the door is closed, you stare at the stone walls of the corridor, your gaze traveling up, up, up, to the high ceiling. Your ears are ringing. There comes a need to be anywhere but here. 

Your body takes initiative before your mind does and then you’re pacing through castle halls, away, away, through tall grass, through dust and dirt until you find yourself…

“I’ll never escape this, will I?” you speak, gazing up absently at the remains of the Belmont Manor. You’re not even sure how you got here but take a deep breath, head tipping up to the sky.

So what? This is a good thing, right? Alucard being less miserable is a good thing. Greta having him is a good thing, and they need more Good Things in their lives. You want their happiness, would kill to see either of them pleased and living out their best days, such as they are. It’s all win-win here.

Then why the moping?

They don’t owe you anything. She doesn’t, Alucard doesn’t. Could you be such a supremely conceited dumbass that you actually thought needing them and being there meant you deserved to be a part of…

They’re your friends, your companions, the only people who ever cared. They’re your only friends, comes that voice within. So what, you love them no less.

You open your eyes, frowning at the clouds as though seeing daylight for the first time in your life.

You... love them.

Both.

You walk the broken grounds, through what used to be antechambers, through what used to be a dining room.

Breathe. Breathe, you idiot.

Fact is, one doesn’t always get what one wants — in your case almost never, which is just the bare truth and not you feeling sorry for yourself.

Well, you are, but that doesn’t make it less true.

Again, so what? So what, so what—the two words churn in your mind, an endless storm stealing your breaths without remorse. You drag both hands over your face. You’ve been out of it for too long, until you’ve stumbled upon Alucard, never lingered on what it entails, but now you know, now you see.

So, then, this must be jealousy. Feels great. Not only does God hate you, God placed a price on your head and sent their rabid revenge hounds with devotion and tenderness and lust crushed between their teeth, smashing inadequacy and resentment together in merciless jaws before biting into your face.

Someone calls your name.

You start, the breaths freezing in your chest. Great. You sigh. “You really have to stop creeping up on people like that.” Can you do this now?

“I’m sorry,” Alucard says, then just. Stands there.

Oh, no. You can’t do this now. You kick the dirt. “What is it, Alucard?” If you felt miserable before, now guilt and shame joined in and are having a day of it.

“It’s Alucard, now?” he asks softly, and you shake your head, avoiding his eyes. You’d slipped into calling him ‘Adrian’ not long ago. “Either way, I was hoping you could tell me,” he continues.

“Look, I’m just out here... for some time to think...”

“... which was so urgent a need, you had to rush out without looking back, despite Greta calling your name.”

You discover: when you’re hurting after someone, it only hurts more if they ridicule you. “Your point?” you pinch your brows, trying very hard not to lash out, not to be an asshole, because Alucard... Adrian doesn’t deserve it.

Alucard tilts his head to one side, takes another few steps, then sits down on the ruins—and doesn’t catch fire, a childish part of you thinks. “I know things between us have always been,” he looks you in the eye, “complicated.”

“Understatement of the century,” you stare up at the broken clock tower. “We’re going back to me asking about your point.” Your heart beats faster, and you know he can sense it.

Alucard watches you closely, kindly. His lips part. “You were there for me when I needed you. When I didn’t even know… what I needed.”

“... we did that for each other,” you mutter. “Alucard, really, you can stop this. I’m not a total idiot. You two are together, that’s great. You’ve been through so much, you deserve some peace of mind,” you say, even as Alucard rises and nears you. “And hell knows Greta deserves it, now would you please, please, leave it?” If you didn’t know any better, you’d say you’re begging. You never begged in your life, not even when you were held down at knife point, helpless and with your powers snuffed by magic. But now you’re compelled to because, because…

“I only want to remind you,” Alucard follows, looking at you, “that you once told me I wasn’t alone.”

Your eyes widen for a moment. You look away, unable to keep the misery from your voice. “Why are you going back there?” 

“Why are you running away?” He is close enough that you’re unable to move. “I am also at fault. I’ve been absorbed by my loss that I failed to see you.”

“You still mourn your family, which is a grand pass in my book. Look,” you stare at Alucard’s genuinely curious expression. “I… you need the time. Take it.”

“You care so much about what I need?” His face is honest as he meets your eyes. 

“Does that surprise you?” you ask, crawling beneath your facade, which you get the feeling falls short before Alucard now, anyway.

“I need you.”

You’ve never been the violent sort, unless someone threatened what you cherished. But now you want to punch him, because this… the implication is a joke beyond your wildest dreams, the ones that wake you up in a sweat with your pulse in a rush, where golden eyes turn red, with hot breaths in your ear and you can still taste—“Don’t.”

“I do,” Alucard looks up at the broken tower, then back at you. “And I nearly waited too long.”

He comes closer, a hand on your shoulder. You stare at it, then at Alucard, and you absolutely loathe your body in this moment, for all it wants is closer. “You’re with Greta.”

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Alucard’s eyes narrow. “Yes, you remembered Greta, gods willing.” His face becomes colder, but his eyes are pleading something you can’t understand. “I love her.”

“I’m … glad for you,” you say, falling apart.

Alucard shakes his head. “I love her, and she worried herself sick over you, stood by you for days and nights, tending to you when you were wounded. She can’t bear the thought of you leaving here, wanted to run after you just now and ask what happened because she can’t stand to always see you unhappy. Do you see a pattern?”

“I just… I care about her very much, as you likely have guessed,” you mumble, “all I want is for her to be happy. For… for you to be… .”

“Then don’t run,” Alucard says. “Not from her, not from me.”

“I never run.”

“Then don’t.”

“I just said—nevermind,” you mutter with a smile, spent and needy and you would just…

“Come back inside,” Alucard urges softly, running those long, nervous fingers along your scalp, forehead pressed to yours.

You shudder, would purr like a shameless cat if scraps of your dignity weren’t in the way. “... fine,” you murmur, lips curving upward against your will, fears dispersing like shadows chased by the coming dawn. 

Alucard’s hand cups your head again, but now it’s different; there’s hunger in the touch. You lean forward, helpless. Defeated. Aching.

You’re caught in an embrace, like the Inevitable wrapping itself around you and heaven or hell help you. There’s no escape, for you lack the will to fight this, then wonder why you would—isn’t this what… what you wanted? Didn’t you gut yourself over precisely this, wasting nights away, mind on Alucard and what you share and what you feel, what it would be like, to be close to him… to them? 

“You make everything so difficult for me all the time, you know that?” you say with Alucard… Adrian’s breath on your lips.

“I believe I’m actually making it easy.” He’s smiling, pointedly.

You draw back a little and Alucard follows, eyes closed, lips slightly parted. “Are you sure—”

“Are you really going to question me kissing you now?” he admonishes fondly and noses at your cheek, upper lip curling like it does when he’s annoyed.

“Fair,” you admit defeat, and with that, tilt your head just enough; feel Alucard’s soft lips between your teeth, Alucard’s tongue curling around yours, his taste and you’re grabbing onto the collar of his coat with both hands—more to keep yourself upright, in all honesty—remembering everything: the tingling, slow, hard pressure of Alucard’s mouth, the weakness in your knees and the flare burning low in your body. It’s just as… no, it’s even better than you thought, not as desperate but closer, softer, deeper. You can only liken it to drowning on air, on want, on taste and the sweet-heady scent of skin.

When you tug with abandon at his lip, Alucard brings you to his chest, a foot wedged between yours, hands ordering your hips flush together. All you can think of is how you shouldn’t be enjoying the manhandling as much but you desperately do, and would like more but this is too good a dream to switch for gratification now, too eager to feel him and your unspoken needs weaved together like bonds.

You release the collar of Alucard’s coat, thumbs drifting along his jaw, the determined, hard lines and smooth skin, the way his nose bumps into your cheek as you kiss, the way your own body runs hot and melds with his rising heat.

“Am I dead?” you ask, breathless when you slowly break apart. You stare at Alucard with a self-deprecating smile, the longing bare on your face, panting once, twice, only for Alucard to kiss you again.

You give up and hug him tighter, hands roaming and clutching at him, drifting down to his waist as Alucard twists with you and presses forward until your back meets the nearest wall.

“Wait... weren’t we... going inside?” you pant, looking beyond his shoulder. People are still walking to and fro, though for now you’ve been reasonably sheltered from any curious eyes.

“Right... yes... of course,” Alucard answers in much the same way. He wastes not a moment in dragging you after him, his arm tight around your waist.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for calling out my long time best friend on her transphobic tiktok reposts?

💎, to find this when it gets posted

for context. i have this friend, whom i met when we were eleven but we got very close in high school. as we grew older, we started having very different perspectives, esp about politics - i am generally (still not using labels techincally, bc i don't think i am informed enough yet, but y'know. by extended lines.) an anarcho-communist, while she is more neoliberal leaning. still, we went through a lot together and were at each other's side when we both were at our very rock bottoms. and i mean that as in, for what regards me, she helped me through panic attacks and dissociative and psychotic episodes before i ever had even any medical (or adult, for that matter) support. it was horrible for me but it certainly has been tough on her as well, to handle my situation

now, we started going to uni in completely different cities, and of course we have sort of drifted apart, tho i still call her my best friend and i assume she does the same, since we never "officially" took distances (we haven't actually seen each other since, idk, last summer??). however, as i was lazily going through her reposts on tiktok, i found she reposted a heavily transphobic video; it was a trans woman talking about the good old "kids are too young to know they're trans and they should never be allowed to make a choice like that". y'know, that kind of rhetoric.

now, as i said before, we had been having different opinions on things for a long time, also things like marriage, assimilation vs liberation, but, due to our relationship, and also because i basically had no support system beside her + crazy emotional dependence and attachment, i always bit my tongue about it and let it go with the classic "we just have different opinions".

this time, though, esp given the context, it irks me a lot, and it very much makes me uncomfortable to keep sweeping this under the rug; also bc someone very close to me is a young trans person who has suffered his entire life due to the lack of access to self-determination in our social context and would've really been happier and healthier if he was given the chance to voice and receive support for his discomfort earlier.

however, bc of our history, i am also terrified that she will 1.think that i'm bringing this up specifically to start a fight 2.think of me as ungrateful (and it would also probably be?) after all the shit she took from me because of my horrible mental health.

[real-total-drama-takes]

This took a while because I dug up old emails and rang some people from my childhood for this, including my father who I haven't seen for three years. Here's how the Duncan, Courtney and Gwen saga caused my parents to divorce.

I was like 10 when World Tour came out and I used to watch it with one of my neighbours when each episode aired. We were at that sort of obsessed age where it was all we talked about, so we'd not shut the fuck up about it, I think I still have some Gwen fanart I drew. Anyway, when the greek episode aired, we got way too excited and replayed the the part we recorded a couple of times. By the time we were finished she missed curfew for about 30 minutes and I went to bed.

I woke up, with both parents gone from the home and my grandmother bringing me to her house. For about a week I stayed with her in total confusion not knowing anything, until my mother came and brought me home, my father not there. She said they split up, I was bummed but honestly more bummed that she, for some reason, banned me from ever watching Total Drama again.

It took me about 5 years until I found out what happened that night.

My friend ran home, and tried to get food from her kitchen without alerting her mom. But she was 10, so it didn't work. Her mom was pissed she came home late and without eating, started lecturing her while she made excuses. At one point she said something along the lines of "But mom! Courtney found out Duncan kissed Gwen." And that made her mom stop. Her mom asked again, she replied "Courtney found out he kissed her best friend, and she lost it"

Something happened, between the eating the food and the rushed speech, that her mother only heard "Courtney found out *gibberish* kissed gw*gibberish*"

A little bit of context I should add. My mothers name is Courtney. Well, Kourtney.

Another little bit of context.

My father was having an affair with my neighbours mother, my moms best friend.

Somewhere between the chewing, the speech impediment or just her mothers fear, she thought my mother had found out about the affair.

She sent my friend to her room and banned her from ever speaking to me again.

She called my father who was at work to tell him, so he freaked out and tried to get flowers and gifts to, I guess soften the blow?

So when he walked in to the house, flowers in hand, mistress following behind apologising, my mother didn't have a clue what he was talking about.

I don't know the specifics of what happened next, but I asked my father and he said that my mother attacked him & the mistress, and forced him out of the house. He, in turn, "reprimanded" (read, beat the shit out of) the other woman and got sent to jail. Overnight my mother decided to send me to her mother while she sorted things out around the house and asked my friends mother what the hell went on, and then filed for divorce from my father.

I didn't know this until I contacted my friend again, but there were three other consequences of the Duncan, Courtney Gwen saga (remember this is what was about). 1. My friends mother lost her position in the church due to the affair being revealed. 2. My father called in cps and alleged neglect in the home, sending my friend into foster care for a period of time. And 3. It came out about four years ago that the youngest sibling of my friend was biologically my fathers.

I didn't watch Total Drama again until I was 19. I started at the episode I never got to see, The Ex Files.

When Boyfriend Kisser came out it physically pained me so much I switched off the episode and didn't go back to it for another year.

TLDR- Not only did the Duncan, Courtney and Gwen saga cause my parents to divorce, it caused multiple physical assaults, a woman losing her job and a group of siblings going into foster care.

All for Boyfriend Kisser, the worst song I have ever heard

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[verdemoun]

Hiii I wanted to ask what you think happens to Micah in the timewarp au cause modern Micah is such an enigma and it's so funny to me. Do you think he's coping well with modern times? Or does he just respawn and immediately tries robbing a mc Donald's or smth. Could def see him doing Florida man throwing an alligator through a Wendy's window type shit or just being the Wendy's employee getting the alligator thrown at him.

Also speaking of Florida man do you have an idea of what state they live in currently in modern au? (I love hearing peoples takes on where in America they think rdr takes place, especially when they're talking about where they'd be in a modern au)

i am so conflicted because like. gang with memories and knowledge of what happens in the future.

arthur wants to kill micah. yes he's been thriving and has a happy life with hosea and bessie and the boys and being a part of isaac's modern life but imagine the guilt he would feel knowing he was dying anyway but if he'd killed micah in 1899 it would've literally saved lives and it might have meant the bureau never went after john in 1911. the absolute arthur 'blames himself for everything that ever happened' morgan would consider himself personally responsible for every life micah took/destroyed post 1899. and arthur has 8 years to plan. 8 years.

but i did let dutch live so why not micah. gotta give rat bastard man a of love

micah respawned in a denny's parking lot to the sight of arthur morgan with a baseball bat. no context. no understanding what's happening. it's late evening. there's street lights and neon signs and who fucking cares they immediately pick up where they left off in 1899 which is beating the living shit out of one another.

cut to them both bloody and bruised in holding cells at the local jail still hurling insults at each other while hosea is just standing there wondering what the actual hell he is meant to do.

said incident immediately landed micah on a list of people not allowed to be sold guns and it is like neutering a feral dog. the first time micah cries in his life is at a walmart being told he isn't able to buy a gun. even if the gang want nothing to do with him like they are getting a phone call sorry to interrupt your evening sir but there's an adult man throwing a tantrum on the floor

the gang are forced to admit it isn't morally correct to a) let micah loose unsupervised in modern era or b) leave him to fend for himself and die. micah ends up living in a trailer park. he embraces redneck culture. he eats so much fast food the servers will call for a welfare check if they haven't seen him in more than three days. he gets a job at a paintball center because damnit if he can't have a gun he will have gun-adjacent. he is the conservative dad-bod southern hick hero of teenage boys everywhere

what's really funny is isaac morgan's best friend (other than jack, obviously) is malachi bell who is a direct descendant of amos bell. because he has known isaac since elementary school: and young isaac did not understand his experiences of being murdered and reawakening in modern era were not universal: kai is fully aware of how the timewarp works ie sometimes he goes with isaac to visit grandpop hosea and there will be a very confused freshly warped outlaw sitting on the couch. the fucking phone call of 'hey remember how my family was super weird around you at the start because you look scarily like your grand uncle who kind of killed my dad and was murdered by my uncle GUESS WHO JUST TURNED UP'

micah is the best terrible uncle a kid could ask for and is honestly super attached to kai even though kai is his polar opposite in every way out of spite. kai goes to micah's trailer for dinner. says he's vegetarian. goes again and micah went through the effort of getting tofu. says he's allergic to soy. inherited all the bell snark and none of the tendency towards evil

micah and arthur in a fistfight at a barbeque while kai and isaac are both just standing there 'i'm sorry about my family'

an underappreciated micah fact is how much he cared about baylock. he would get the exact same level of giddy as the rest of the gang being around horses in modern era. while living in a trailer is not ideal for having a horse he does have a massive black 'looks like he could kill you but is actually a giant cuddle bear' bully-breed dog because as much as he was afraid of dogs (fight me) he is actually more afraid of being alone. his dog eats at the table with him. micah eats mcdonalds while his dog gets lovingly pan-seared steak.

his dog is a kill-shelter rescue named baymax and micah has no idea about disney movies and doesn't understand why people giggle at the name.

to the second point i am not american and have no idea wheeze but i think texas?? texas is where most people seem to think new austin is based on?? in rdr terms they're probably on the northern side of modern day blackwater like there's the bay to the east, mountains to the north and desert to the west. pls if there are any americans what fast food place would micah bell III dedicate his life to and what state should they be in

[jawllines]

Olivia, hi! I hope you're doing good. I finally got time to read the new fic and I have few things to say. But first...

“Um, so recently I think I’ve been turned into a vampire.”  This is hilarious. Imagine one of friends saying that to you being all serious. Just out of the blue. Without giving any context at all, without feeding from you. I wouldn't know whether to be terrified or concerned or just laugh. But I laughed way too hard reading this.

Also Harry needs to adopt that bunny, it felt like a metaphor of his childhood scars he was guessing what might have caused the scar on that bunny's ear. They belong together.

Anyway, I think this Harry is your best character. You have so much room and so many ways that you can build his character further. You have done a great job I think but this character needs more exploring. What we've seen so far is just surface level me thinks. I'd say the same about Y/N's character but I kinda like focusing more on Harry's in this one. I'm also intrigued by Felix. Most importantly though I just think this Harry is precious and adorable and lovely and deserves all the warmth in the world. And HE NEEDS TO RECIEVE A PROPER HUG OUT OF AFFECTION AND NOT JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE NEEDS TO FEED OFF OF HIM. I just wanna invite him to my house, wrap him in a blanket, make him tea, turn on the tv and cuddle him and run my fingers through his hair and tell him that he's not alone. Because fuck did I relate to him. I have never related to any character like this before and it has nothing to do with childhood trauma. I haven't been born into a cult or anything like that thankfully but I do come from a background where people are not very affectionate with each other. And I have realised that I'm quite touchy-feely kind of person. I'm like this with the few friends I have and some cousins that I'm kind of close with but they don't return it. So I feel touch starved too in a way. I crave human connection and affection and I'm awkward as fuck so I see myself in Harry here. I just felt this overwhelming desire all the while I was reading it, to protect him and tell him that it's gonna be okay. Poor guy feels touch and warmth for the first time and it's by a vampire and he's okay with it despite the danger because he has never felt anything like that before and he probably hadn't expected anything like that to happen to him ever so he's gonna take whatever he gets. And I'm left thinking what if Y/N wasn't as good as she is, what if she did actually hurt him. I'm so sad for my him. He deserves so much love.

You have done so amazing with this story and I know you might not feel very motivated to write the next part because I understand that you aren't getting the response you expected perhaps. But I meant when I said your writing is warm blanket in cold night. Because it is and some of us need that believe it or not. We need that blanket from you and you alone. Because it's not just about the story or plot, it's about you too. The way you write and build your characters and the worlds, the way you portray the connections and dynamics between your characters, the way you convey what they are feeling....all of it is just so comforting. There's a reason I come back to your stories after reading or watching something that's not particularly easy on the heart or when I'm having a tough time or a shittier day than usual. Your stories fill me with so much happiness joy comfort I can't even explain. And I can guarantee there are hundreds of other readers who feel the same. So even though this is very selfish and probably kind of rude to you (because you have every right to be disappointed as a writer when you don't get your desired results) but I'm gonna go ahead and say please write the next part for me and those hundred others. Because we think you're great and we love you and everything you write. Even though we might love some of your stories with more intensity than others but it's literally impossible to not love them all.

That's all I gotta say. I hope I didn't cross any lines though. I didn't mean to hurt you and if I did I'm sorry. And I love you 💕

THIS.. .. .MADE ME TEAR UP FORREAL IVE HAD SUCH A HARD DAY AND READING ALL OF THIS LIKE MAKES MY HEART SO HAPPY

IM REALLY REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU LIKE HARRY AS A CHARACTER AND RELATE TO HIM!! IT'S HARD BEING A TOUCHY-FEELY PERSON NOT SURROUNDED BY TOUCHY FEELY PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY BC THEY DONT UNDERSTAND THE LIKE -- ITCH YOU GET TO JUST BE CLOSE TO SOMEONE PHYSICALLY BUT I WANTED TO FOCUS NOT ON HARRY BEING SURROUNDED BY NON-TOUCHY-FEELY PEOPLE, BUT NOT EVEN HAVING THE OPTION OF A CUDDLE EVEN IF IT WAS SOMEONE WHO WASN'T PARTICULARLY INTO CUDDLING!! LIKE I FEEL LIKE HIS MOM AND SISTER WERE HUGGERS BUT HE'S AWAY FROM HOME AND PROBABLY MISSING IT!!

I WOULD LIKE TO DIG DEEPER INTO HIS CHARACTER, SO IF YOU'RE INTERESTED I WILL :D AND WE'LL MAKE SURE TO WRAP HIM UP IN A NICE TOASTY BLANKET AND PLAY WITH HIS HAIR, AND HUG HIM

ALSO THE WHOLE LAST PARAGRAPH -- I LOVE YOU A LOT!! IM SORRY I GET ALL MOPEY SOMETIMES LIKE EVERYONE HATES IT, IM SO SO SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYONE WHO DOES LIKE IT!!! SOMETIMES I JUST NEED TO BE REASSURED THAT YOU REALLY DO ENJOY IT, AND MESSAGES LIKE THIS HELP A FUCK TON!!! I LOVE THAT PEOPLE CAN FEEL WARM AND HAPPY FROM MY WRITING, IT MAKES ME FEEL EXTRA WARM AND HAPPY MYSELF

SO THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

[mugeesworld]

Marine Sister x MarineFord…

Small crappy short fic I wrote a while back. It’s sorta rushed so sorry. Thought I would post it though cause I love a good angst. Especially with MarineFord. When the lady that raised luffy and ace beat the shit out of Garp BEST BELIEVE I STARTED CLAPPING. You would have thought I was a white man watching Saturday night football but no. I have never wanted to beat up a character more then I want to beat akainu.

Fem reader.

Context- this story is about what if luffy and ace had a sister that was a marine. That was almost at marine ford….

It was a sunny day.... Luffy, Ace, Sabo, and I were sitting in a tree, watching the sunset. "Hey y/n! Hehe!" Luffy giggles. I turn to look at him, starring into his big eyes. "We are gonna be pirates when we grow up! You should join my crew!" he says with a big smile. I smile back before turning to face the sunset again. My smile fading just like the sun has. Knowing I would never be able to cause of my parents. How could I when my own father is a marine?.... "Luffyyy you know her dad wouldn't allow that! You idiot!" Ace says smacking Luffy on the back of his head. I laugh at their playfulness. Would this be what it would feel like to be part of their crew? I think as I watch them bicker....

But that was year's ago when we were kids. I haven’t seen either of them since then other then seeing their bounty posters... Even if I haven't seen them in forever I'm still their sister right? Could they of forgiven me for becoming a marine?

My mind races with thoughts of the past as I stand looking over this hell.... I couldn't move even if I wanted to. My only orders are to stay put and not interfere with what's happening. After all...the government knows of my past with Ace. So they have to make me watch so I'll know pirates and marines can't be friends.

I look over at garp. He's nervous... And garp doesn't get nervous. He makes people nervous. But when it comes to his grandson I can't say I blame him. Almost as if he felt me staring, he turns his head. "Y/n you know not to interfere with anything that happens correct?" he asks. I lower my head looking at the ground. "Sir yes sir..." I say trying not let him see how I'm feeling.

And just on time... Here comes Ace. Being brought by 2 guards. I can't look. I just can't.... I think, shaking my head. They climb up the steps until they reach the top. The sound of chains rattling as they force him on his knees. Just then I realize my position. I'm a marine. I can't keep my head down I'll get in trouble. I clench my jaw and ball my hands into fists before slowly raising my head. Starring hard at the soon to be battle ground in front of me.

Then I hear it... "Y/n?..." Ace ask. I feel my stomach drop. Suddenly feeling hallow. That's aces voice... But it didn't sound like the little boy I used to know. I have no choice. I must respond. Closing my eyes I take a shaky deep breath. "Ace..." I try to say boldly but my voice ends up cracking at the end. I bite my lip and shut my eyes trying not to break. My body almost shaking.

For the next minute it's quiet. Almost as if he's letting me calm down before continuing. "I haven't seen you in years...I want to see you y/n not just the back of your head." he says weakly. My heart breaks. I feel like a terrible person and an even worse sister. I would be a horrible person if I didn't give him this. It's the least I could do for him since the boys life is about to be stripped away from him.

I take a deep breath before turning towards him. Our eyes locking immediately. We stare at each other for what feels like hours but it’s merely a few seconds. Both of us understanding each other worries and pain at just a glance. Then he smiles. I feel my eyebrows furrow and my bottom lip start to quiver. "Ace..." I whine, trying not to let tears fall from my eyes. And just like that he understood. "Y/n...don't cry. You're a marine. You haven't gotten weak have you?" he says teasingly.

My chest starts to spasm as I try not to laugh but I fail. I laugh as the tear fall down my face before stopping suddenly. "There... That's my sisters smile... You really haven't changed." he says smiling. In that moment... If he asked me to save him I would have done everything in my power to do so. Even if it ment my life would be taken. But he knows that.

"I'm sorry I didn't come see you... I'm your big brother and I was so selfish as to not congratulate you for climbing the ranks as a marine. But I'm here now. Even if it's the last time we'll meet... I'm proud of you y/n. You've became an amazing woman just as I knew you would." he says looking up at me.

Tears pool from my eyes as I try to stay at attention. My teeth clenched and my body shaking. I'm still his sister after all this time. "No...you and sabo are the best big brothers I've ever had. You were always here for me in my heart. I just wish this wouldn't be how we end up remembering each other in the end...." I say wiping my face

He smiles as tears fall down his face. "I'm glad think me so highly of me and sabo. I know he would be proud of you too. But this isn't the end for you y/n. It's only my ending. You have more life to live. My only regret is that I won't get to be here with you for it. But I know you will be ok without my guidance. I mean look at you now... But you're right. I will always be here for you in your heart.” He says. The more he speaks the harder it gets to contain myself. My cries grow louder and my body continues to shake more.

“Also y/n…. Please look after luffy. You’ll be the oldest sibling after I’m gone. So you gotta take care of him….” He says with teary eyes his voice getting shaky. I nod my head. “I will. I promise.” I cry out while turning away to go back to standing at attention.

“Oh yeah and one last thing…” he says…. “I love you sis” he whispers… I squeeze my eyes shut, trying not to cry again. “I love you too ace…” I whisper…

And just like that it was time. The cameras are rolling and all the marines are lined up to fight. I stand tall at my post beside Garp. Ace said he was proud of me so I should at least try to act like a true marine. The only way I could stay calm was by tuning out everything around me.

Then suddenly a ginormous boat emerged from the water below followed by what looked to be hundreds of different pirate crews. Whitebeard… I knew he would show. I try not to smile but I can’t help but feel relieved with his presence. If anyone could save him it was whitebeard. Pirates started hopping off the ships and charging in. Followed by the marines charging back. My heart ached at the sight. The ground below turned into a battle field. People were dying left and right from both sides. It was painful to watch and I know ace must be heartbroken seeing his friends die for him.

Coming out of no where a ship started to fall from the sky. First from the underwater and now from the sky? What’s next? Then I see it…. A straw hat. It can’t be… I watch as the familiar face falls from the sky before going to talk to whitebeard. I squint my eyes trying to see.

“No no no no! He can’t be here!” I scream, my heart started to beat out of my chest. Why are you here luffy? I can’t loose both of you…“LUFFYY!! YOU NEED TO LEAVE NOW!! PLEASE!!” I yell before going to take a step but Garp grabs me. “You should have just listened kid… contain her till it’s been dealt with.” He says to the guards. “I’m sorry but it’s for the best y/n..” he whispers as 2 new guards come up the stairs and put me in cuffs.

“Wha-what! No! You can’t-! Please Garp…” I say desperately trying to grab him but the guards pull me away. As they bring me down the stairs ace yells. “Don’t touch her! Leave her alone damn it!” But is silenced by a kick to the stomach.

I thrash as the guards drag me by the cuffs attached to my wrists. Trying to get away. “Just stop… do you want to be executed like your brother? Huh?” One of the guards say while throwing me into a room. I look up at them from the ground. “What did you say?!” I yell, standing up. But they close the door in my face before I can say anything.

“We will let you out after the deeds done.” The other guard says before they walk away. I bang my hands on the door. Begging to be let out. But nothing. Only the sound of fighting and yelling. I lean my forehead against the door, trying to catch my breath. Ace… Luffy… what if they both die?? They can’t die. Neither of them…

“What do I do?” I cry out, sliding down the wall to the ground…

“ACEEEE! Y/NNNNN!”

Luffy! He sounds just like he did when we were kids. I think while smiling but it soon fades as I remember the situation I’m in. I curl into a ball on the ground. Tucking my face in my knees. I think back to what Ace told me… look after luffy…wait. “Look after luffy!” I yell. I made a promise. I can’t break a promise to my brother….

Yeah. And I can’t let my little brother get hurt. I stand up, a new found energy flowing through me. I don’t break promises…

I get as far away from the door as I can before charging at it. Busting through the door. I’m free! I’ll figure out how to get these cuffs off on my way outside. I run down the halls as quick as possible. Finding the closest guard office and their keys to unlock the cuffs “Powers are back…”

I run through the building till I reach the closest exit. Walking out to see the ground stained in blood and cover in bodies. I look around for luffy. My eyes landing on akainu. Looking beside him to see luffy. I nearly yell from joy when I see he’s ok then I see him… Ace….

“ACEEEEE!” I scream out. The sight of his lifeless body was enough to blur every bit of pride I ever had for being a marine. In that moment I didn’t care whether I lost my job or my life. The person who took away the light in luffys eyes and left a hole in aces heart was going to die or I was gonna die trying. I take off towards luffy. I was gonna get him away then kill that bastard like he killed my brother….

[koyangii]

2023 - The year of Japanese BLs (My 2023 BL wrapped)

After plenty of good BL releases in 2022, I was hoping 2023 would keep the pace and give us even better content. However, I turned out to be very disappointed. In my opinion, the majority of the shows were blank, superficial and had really bad script and bad acting, so there were very few of them I've managed to finish, mostly Japanese ones.

One thing that really draws me towards Japanese productions is that the stories are believable and portrayed in a natural way. Even when the acting has big "anime" reactions, they usually fit in the context. Kieta Hatsukoi, for instance, explores this type of reactions very well and they don't feel cringe at all, unlike most Thai BLs and some Korean ones as well.

Nationalities apart, there's an obvious gold rush that is happening in the BL industry. A lot of companies realized that BL does make profit and are producing a lot of shows, poorly written, poorly casted, but that's ok since people are still consuming for the skinship, right? There's a public for that, so why invest in good, but a little more expensive stories?

Anyway, this is my opinion of course, as a regular consumer of the genre, and I can't help to be disappointed. But enough of the complaining, right? Let's go to the list of my 2023 favorites!

Top 3:

The eight sense

This BL has entered my list of all-time favorites. Fresh and mature, the chemistry between the leads is amazing. Jihyun's innocent approach to life contrasts really well with Jaewon's harsh perspective and I love the way both of them bond while helping each other to evolve. The feeling of the show reminds me a bit of Skam, another all-time favorite, and I found out that it really was one of the materials they used for inspiration. If you haven't watched it yet, stop everything you're doing and go watch The eighth sense right now.

2. If it's with you

I loved this show so much! The manga adaptation was beautifully done, they really paid attention to the details. It's a very sweet, heart-warming and honest story. There's no "instant love”: the relationship between them is built little by little, through sincere conversations and empathy. The series invites you to be more honest with yourself and to not be afraid of showing your true self. 

3. My Beautiful Man 2 and My Beautiful Man: Eternal

Well, it's somehow funny that I put this BL on the list, because I hated the first season of My Beautiful Man. However, the second season and the movie explore the motives behind the characters' actions in a deeper way, so the viewer can better understand the relationship dynamic. One thing that I really like about this story is that, although there is a worship behavior from Hira towards Kiyoi, Hira's life is not all about Kiyoi. In the same way, despite the fact that Kiyoi enjoys to be worshiped, he's also unsure about Hira's feelings: does Hira love the perfect, godlike image of Kiyoi he created inside his head or does he love the true Kiyoi, the human being with flaws?

Honorable mentions:

Our Dining Table

A great slow-burn which approaches the fact that true family is the one you choose, so sweet that almost made me die of too much cuteness.

I Can't Reach You

A very sweet friends-to-lovers story, which is now on Netflix!

Love Tractor

A fresh and funny countryside love story. I just love how Yechan is so hyped when it comes to Seonyul. This man must be kept in a jar, protected from all the badness in the world.

Conclusion

Well, although I believe 2023 wasn't the best year for BLs, it did give us some true gems, more productions and more visibility. I've seen news about Kdrama actors working on BL projects that will be released in 2024, so I guess we're having some next-level good content this year.

So that was it for this BL wrapped. I hope you all had great holidays and that 2024 will be full of blessings to all of us! Bye, bye!

[rainbluealoekitten]

Helloooo my new mutual! I really like your blogs and we have very similar taste. Would you like to tell me about your ocs? (The arthur and angus guys)

HELLO!!!!! well well well, this looks like a time of major celebration >:) i also love your blog a lot and firstly was very excited to become your mutual, but you also ask about my ocs??? this is incredible news

OKAY SO.

still heavily figuring out the plot/conflict/so on even though i have started writing. but, for context, it's heavily based on traditional witchcraft and faery lore, with elements of high fantasy, exceeeeepttt.... it's some random ass uni kids.

well. not *so* random. arthur and angus and both devotees and servants of the king and queen of faery (the latter really being representations of gods much older and wayyy beyond our comprehension).

arthur is very special (to me?). he's got a heart very full of love, and a secret giddy/childish, but the narrative oh so hates him. he's also just very weird while also being your typical depressed and chronically ill guy, with some tragic backstory i haven't fully fledged out yet. (he dreams about dying every single night 😔 ) it's okay though! he's got his very best friend in the world to help him! right! right?? right....

his best friend is this (incredible, talented, intelligent, show-stopping) girl called gloria/george except that while arthur is fully entangled in otherworldly politics and spends his nights talking to ghosts, she is a complete stranger to that realm. basically he can't talk to her and this creates many many conflicts.... (laughs evilly) will their love be able to save them? will their love kill them? that is yet to be seen!

one guy who IS unkillable (pause. i just had the horrible idea of killing him off in the most tragic way possible but he's the 2nd main character so like. maybe not.) is ANGUS!!!!! :D (cheers and applause from the crowd). arthur and angus are your typical moon x sunshine pairing ngl, though i don't like to reduce anything about my story to simple tropes. i'm a big fan of complex things. still, this doesn't change the fact that angus complements arthur perfectly. it's also a case of "one fell first, the other fell harder," as angus also dreams of arthur every single night, and this started years before they had even met each other. angus is very cheery and instead of swearing, he says things like "biscuits." he reminds arthur to smile :)

he's also got a cool kick-ass witchy mother who is ???? my idol??? i love her so much

.....alright this is an extremely short version of all the things i really COULD say about them but i hope you enjoyed this :) ty again for asking

[eastsideofthemoon]

(I'm reposting this since I made several changes to the original post.)

If Star Trek Discovery were to be resurrected and given its much-deserved 6th and 7th seasons, here’s what I would like to see. Mind you, everything from season 5 and the Coda is staying.

Episode Ideas:

1. Horror. I want a horror episode. Context is for Kings incorporated some horror elements, which is one of the reasons it's one of my favorite episodes. But we haven't had horror since and I want it back. I'm thinking either a psychological horror or a cosmic horror.

2. An ER-style episode. I really want an episode centered around sickbay so that we can center Dr. Culber and Dr. Pollard.

3. An ode to Blaxploitation films. This will require a Black director (I'm thinking Cheo Hodari Coker. On the original post, someone mentioned having Olatunde direct it. He can. I just know Cheo was the showrunner for Luke Cage, which had Blaxploitation elements, so I figured he would do a really good job on incorporating it) and Brandon Schultz (one of Disco's writers) to take the lead. I've had this idea for a while. I want it to be a "What if DSC came out in the 70s". So 70s hairstyles, make-up, costumes, music, even redesigning the bridge to have a 70s look. Even adjust the theme music to a Funk or Cosmic Jazz version of itself. All the Black characters rocking afros. Imagine Capt Burnham in the captain's seat with an afro or Cleveland Booker on his John Shaft vibe. 

Stamets and Rayner rocking pork chops. Detmer in go-go boots. The story would still tie into the overall season plot, but more loosely. This is purely for fun. After all, the show is nicknamed DISCO.

5. Owo/Detmer episode where they are the A plot line. Maybe we can find out what happened on the Mirror-verse Enterprise they took back to HQ, and tie it into the S6 plot.

6. The Return of Mama Burnham. I love her relationship with Michael. I'd like to see their relationship deepen. I'm thinking maybe an episode where Michael calls on her mom for a science issue. Dr. Burnham is a scientist and inventor, so this would give her a chance to step away from the Qowat Milat and just be Dr. Gabrielle Burnham.  A mother/daughter science mission. Also, I'd like to establish where specifically they're from on earth. I've been assuming the United States, but it would be nice to establish which city/state.

7. A Book and Rayner episode. We're going to address the portion of the fandom that runs behind Rayner to undermine/villianize our Black leads, Michael and/or Book. So, in this episode, Book and Rayner end up on a mission/assignment where they have to work together, thus developing a mutual respect for each other. (They don't have to be friends, just a mutual respect, more so on Rayner's side). Book was raised by hunters, and Book stated Rayner fights like a hunter, so it's a Hunter’s Escapade! Saru will be overseeing the mission.

Character Arcs

Captain Burnham. Basically, just have her keep being the phenomenal Captain she is. I would like to see her promote someone, a solo promotion. We’ve seen the crew get promotions as a group, but I would like to see an individual get a promotion from her. Also, I want to see Captain Burnham encounter the Klingons. I understand why DSC has pretty much avoided the Klingons since going to the 32nd century, but it would make a great full-circle moment for Michael. And to raise the emotional stakes, have Mama Burnham aboard.

Tilly. Since she's at Starfleet Academy, the best we could hope for is cameos. Same with Jett Reno.

Adira. I'd like to see them stepping up more with taking the lead on assignments. I like their growth over S4/S5, and I'd like to see them become more confident and more assertive.

Culber. His spiritual awakening was my favorite character arc of season 5, and I'd love to see more of his and Dr. Pollard's hologram therapy idea.

Stamets. I felt like his arc got lost in S5. His trying to redefine his legacy really intrigued me, and I wish we got more of it. So, for S6, I'd really like to see this be fleshed out much more. We need to learn more about the pathway drive. The show started with the spore drive being groundbreaking and central to the USS Discovery. This needs to be a bigger plot point or something.

Saru. Doug Jones said in an interview that he would have returned for all 10 episodes of S6 had it happened. Therefore, I'd like to see more of Ambassador Saru and how his and T’rina’s marriage affects Ni'var politics.

Book. Since we know Michael and Book are together forever, I want to see Book return to couriering, and like Kasidy Yates, I want to see him become a freighter captain, which means the return of the Tallawah (Book’s ship)! Then, I want to see him helping with reinstating the Endangered Species Act as something like a contractor for Starfleet. This way, he still has his freedom and full autonomy and is still doing his conservationist work, but with the backing of the Federation now.

Rayner. If they're giving him Burnham's arc, on a fast track (of which I have opinions but that’s not for here), then by the end of S6 give him the choice of regaining his captaincy or joining Starfleet Academy. That opens the XO position again, and I really want to see Rhys become the official new XO for S7.

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Hiii malt :3 ask game time… thoughts on shirashiro (shirahama tashiro) GO! And any other shirahama ships you feel strongly about :3

SUNNYYYYYY HIIII okay okay i feel like we all know i have unending thoughts and ideas about shirahama kyouji and his relationships right this is common knowledge now. shirashiro is so... i have feelings about them

in canon context. mmm i love them but i cannot see it but also it does definitely compel me. ive entertained the thought of them before but for me it just comes down to them being more fun to think of as platonic. howeverrr, if they were to be together or at least if they were to like each other? well then there would be thoughts I could have.

like, say you have this friend. and for the purpose of this thought bubble we will say that this friend is named something that starts with a T. so say you have this friend and youve known each other since middle school. you are both close and arent, best friends yet acquaintances, you know what i mean.

say this friend who's name ends in ashiro goes to the same high school as you and you drift apart for a little bit. he has his friends and you're content just existing. but then one day you suddenly find yourself hanging out with them and things spiral. say you find yourself liking his friends, opening up to them in the strange trying-to-be uncommitted way that you do. say your friend invites you to join clubs with him and you are there to watch him amble around through life trying to find a Something for himself. say you watch him and you realize just how well you know him. accidentally of course. you'd never go out of your way to know someone like that who isn't a girl you're trying to date. obviously. but you find yourself recognizing what he's doing and why he does it and you try to help but there arent really words to say about this sort of thing.

say you think about the high school experience, growing and growing and somehow changing in ways you didn't expect. say your friend joins a certain club and you arent too into it but you come along just to see how things are. and while youre there you see your friend, who you have know for a good amount of time, act in a way you haven't really seen before. and you know that to anyone else it wouldn't be too out of the ordinary and to be honest its not that big of a deal but you still find yourself noticing it anyways. and you both want to quit that same club. for the same reasons (for sure, definitely) and you get to quit and leave and he's still there and he stays and it sticks to you.

i was going a lot of places with this but halfway though i went outside and became normal again and also kinda lost my train of thought so forgive me im just gonna explain where i was going with this in a not neurotic way (lies)

so shirahama. that guy. i like to think he would have a crush on tashiro in middle school that you can only have on your best friend. i think he would be seeing everyone around them dating and falling in love and go "i want that. how do i get that?" and then find himself falling for tashiro. i think tashiro has no thoughts about dating shirahama until second year (and give me a moment on that one.) and i think that shirahama forces himself to move on from his crush to "grow up" so to speak in between middle and high school. i think that even then he never lets himself forget about it and it haunts him and he can never get a date because he wants it to keep haunting him. shirashiro join the ping-pong club, two go in one comes out. absolute bloodbath. and in the end shirahama gets what he wanted. his friend is somehow a lot happier in his weird little Club with his weird little Thing that he has with the president ("previous president!" shirahama gives him a look that says the distinction doesn't really matter to him but the look thrown back makes him realize it should) and vice president. and you see now here is where i come back to that part about second year.

because. the thing is. well. tashiro does think about shirahama. maybe not in the same way all the time or as often or as deeply. but he does. he thinks about everything and everyone, really, so it shouldn't really stand out so much but it does. second year comes and relationships bloom (or he thinks they do) and festivals are had and its... fine. and then it just sort of happens. like it jumps into him mind "oh wouldn't that be something." and he acts like it wouldn't be and that he never thinks about it again but he does and its hilarious. a grand old comedy show. shirahama walks out stage left and tashiro has forgotten where he was supposed to stand. it can never happen at the right time and their feelings chase on the tails of one another and its just a fun time. tashiro kind-of-sort-of-not-really gets over it by third year but then oops, what's this, he's grown taller and shirahama cant help but notice the little ways tashiro has changed since way back when and now he's back in the pit. cue laugh track.

and yeah that's kinda how they are in my mind. but now if you want to get into other shirahama ships... well hold on i will continue in another reblog

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I was thinking about how you asked us to send you writing prompts to help fill the eagleone tag a while back (still very excited to read the ones you chose if and when you finish, but no pressure!! 😅) and I thought maybe it would be cool if you personally had any ideas or inspiration you'd like to put out there for artists?👀

so I did finish the one prompt here

the one that's mostly finished is actually a request for their first kiss, but I'm still struggling on finishing it because I'm not married to the scenario that I cooked up. and without like. a scene setter, my brain is like HOW DO THINGS NO WITH CONTEXT??? I do wanna get it done, but I'm just. idk bein stupid.

the idea that I have written up is -- post-RE4make ending, Leon actually takes the jet ski back to the village to see if the police cruiser is still abandoned outside the farm house, because that's his best bet at actually getting back to society -- and it is, and he nearly cries with relief. and Ashley's just sort of staring at it knowing that, if she gets in this car, once she gets out of it, her time with Leon is basically over. and she keeps trying to be like "what's going to happen when we get home??" and he's just like "I don't know, Ashley, I really don't know" and she's terrified about possibly never seeing him again. so she forces a hug on him that she won't let him just tap out of this time, which then causes him to completely melt bc touch-starved, and then the kiss just sort of... happens naturally. and then they both have to just deal with it the entire drive back to the city LOL

art's hard for me, though, because my brain gets so stuck on NEED CONTEXT FOR THING

what I really don't see enough of, I think, is Leon and Ashley back home, post-RE4 just like. hanging out. being friends. or maybe not being friends and just having awkward moments running into each other at the WH and stuff. or aggressively trying to ignore the sexual tension between them at, like, an official event.

I'd also think it'd be cute to have art of like... a quiet moment together in one of the safe rooms during the events of the game.

maybe some silly bullshit of them on the jetski somehow passing by the merchant who's also on a jetski or some fuckin crazy-ass boat and both Leon and Ashley are like HOW THE FUCK DOES HE KEEP DOING THAT SERIOUSLY and also the dog is there and he's got a little pirate bandana that matches the merchant's i am obsessed with the dog wearing a pirate bandana and no i will not stop

Leon wearing Ashley's necklace (you had to know this was coming). either she's just given it to him, or they haven't seen each other in a while and she notices he's still wearing it, or maybe she's not even there at all and someone else notices it and is like "is that your gf's?" and Leon's just like "idk what you mean i don't have a gf", or maybe not even that and he's just. wearing it.

this fandom would also probably be super hype to finally get a proper medieval fantasy knight/queen AU art.

and some petty part of me just wants art of them casually holding hands while out in public together because you know why

idk I'm not good at this stuff but I hope any of that helped ;_;

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I wanted to reply to some of the stuff from my ask, but didn't know whether to reblog it or send it as an ask, I thought it might be easier this way?

silly straws page - i read in 'dipper and mabel's guide to mystery and nonstop fun' that bill likes silly straws and thought it was a silly random tidbit, imagine how surprised i was when i realized there was LORE behind it.. im still figuring out some codes bc i dont wanna look them up and im having so much fun !!

YEAH the silly staws page! I'm so mad that Bill said "I cut the page where I was gonna talk about Shermie Pines" stop teasing mee

I know there are some really cool codes on that page, I haven't decoded most of the book for myself yet but I intend to. There's another code on that page which is a super cool and fun one to decipher (though i've already seen what it says online but I want to replicate it myself). The one that starts with "215 858 117 450 110 628.." etc.

stanford trying to keep me from reading the book page - "you cant hear the disappointed sigh im making rn, but i assure you it's devastating" i mean he failed to stop me from reading the entire thing in one sitting but i was just very happy to see ford's cursive again. It was really funny seeing him trying to guess what the reader would be convinced by (i saw the moth picture and thought 'whats that called, a goth moth?' I laughed out loud when it turned out that was actually its name)

Sameee I got to that page and i was thinking "hiiii!". I loved his attempt to stop us from reading by showing his cool moth, and it was even better when Bill says something later on along the lines of "if he tries to show you his moth collection, throw yourself off a cliff"

Also the photo of him looks cool, but the context of it is so funny. I've seen some posts on tumblr about Ford dragging Stan into the woods and getting him to take a picture of him looking angry and mysterious. Why else does he have a photo like that. It's so silly.

urban legends page - as a long time fan of creepypasta the references in this page absolutely delighted me. Also the art is so realistically horrifying, whoever drew these i love you

YEAH that page and the Mirror Realm one and others look so cool. The new artists brought on to work on this book did a wonderful job. It fits in perfectly with Bill's weirdness.

the one true intelligence test - idk this page just made me laugh a lot

So freaking stupid i loved it so much. I think my favourite was the "divide this number in half" bit.

Entire anti-cipher society part - i love how instead of telling the story in just plain text, they made us follow the story with newspapers and journal pages. What was that called. I swear there was a name for that kind of storytelling if anyone knows pls pls tell me

That whole bit was so interesting. It was a really fun way of telling the story!

every page with ford and fiddleford - BEAUTIFUL. SUBLIME. BEST THING TO EVER EXIST IN THE WORLD. I HECKING LOVE FRIENDS BEING WHOLESOME TOGETHER AND I LOVE IT MORE WHEN THEYRE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FROM MY FAVORITE SHOW. THEY MAD SNOWMEN OF EACH OTHER THATS SO CUTE

Imma be honest i never really... cared for Fiddleford before. Like, I think the show is better with him in it, and I like that Ford had someone good in his life aside from Stan back in the past, but I didn't know enough about Fiddleford to care. Granted, I haven't reread Journal 3 in a while so I likely would have liked him more if I could remember what was said there, but the stuff presented in the lost Journal 3 pages here were such a treat and I understand now. I really really like him now.

Fiddleford and Ford were so wonderful together! Fiddleford was so, so nice to Ford. I'm never going to get over how Fidds made Ford TWO christmas presents, one which had multiple prototypes to get right, then forgot to get a present for his own wife. Stanford means so much to him it's crazy.

Then Ford decorating the portal room with pretty lights and played Fidds' favourite song and they made snowmen???? That's adorable omg.

And ik this is about the book, not the website, but the stuff on there as well, like the college photo and it describing how they met. AND THE AXOLOTL. Fidds getting one for Ford because it reminded him of him. And i don't think it was even a holiday of any kind. BILL WHEN I GET YOU-

"but my aim is getting better" - do i need to explain this one

I CHEERED at that bit. I showed it to my friend and they didn't get it. I forgot that they're a casual fan who's watched the show like, once, and not like me where Gravity Falls has just permanently taken up some space in my brain.

whatever this page is called;

I hated reading this (i loved reading this). i kinda got spoiled before i bought the book with an analysis post, had to literally put my phone down and think about what id just read. i think this page really puts bill and ford's relationship into perspective. ford's a person and bill's a multidimensional semi-god creature, bill will do and say anything in his power to get ford to do what he wants. this relationship cannot even begin to resemble normal. and also the forgetting your own name part horrified me, thats some good horror right there.. love it when books make me have a visceral reaction to tiny words on paper

I don't think I have anything extra to add I agree completely. I just love how much of a threat it shows Bill as. I think it works especially well because most of the book has been Silly Bill Shenanigans, you kinda forget what he's capable of. Brilliant stuff. i hated it.

call transcript from the police - OH the LORE and CHARACTER ANALYSIS FOOD RIGHT HERE. i could talk for hours about how bill straight up sucks at relationships and he's SO unwilling to admit he was upset about falling out with ford that he's lying to himself MULTIPLE TIMES OVER AND OVER and how a lack of genuine connection with people is eating him up - but if i talked about all that this post would spiral into insanity real quick. Also drunk bill talking into the phone was very very sad and very very on character and i could hear hirsch's bill voice inside my head it was really good aghjgnkhhh

LITERALLY YEA. And that kinda links up with the end of the book, where Bill is convinced someone will free him at some point. But he has no positive connections. He has no one that cares about him. And he did that all himself. Please, anytime, i will listen to your rambles. (just might not respond to it straight away but I WILL)

stan's page - I ALMOST CRIED AND I KNOW THATS KIND OF A WEIRD REACTION BUT I SAW THE STAN PAGE IN THISISNOTAWEBSITEDOTCOM OKAY AND IT WAS MAKING ME VERY UNWELL I WAS EXTREMELY RELIEVED TO JUST HEAR THIS MAN SO HAPPY AGAIN STANLEY PINES I LOVE YOU YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING

The messages from Dipper, Mabel and Stan were so lovely to see at the end. Stan is so happy now, and I'm happy for him. And it's just all really funny. "I only met him once and he cried like a baby then I punched him to death." Yeah that is basically what happened.

AH GOD YOU REPLIED TO EVERYTHING ????? THAMK YOU

YEAH the silly staws page! I'm so mad that Bill said "I cut the page where I was gonna talk about Shermie Pines" stop teasing mee

>:( he knows us too well he knows we'd give anything for more info about shermie...

I know there are some really cool codes on that page, I haven't decoded most of the book for myself yet but I intend to. There's another code on that page which is a super cool and fun one to decipher (though i've already seen what it says online but I want to replicate it myself). The one that starts with "215 858 117 450 110 628.." etc.

Ive been stuck on the numbers one, im gonna give it one more try today but i think it's gonna take a brain bigger than mine jfbsjdkskfs im STEAMING aleeeeex why are you making this so hard for me/silly

Sameee I got to that page and i was thinking "hiiii!". I loved his attempt to stop us from reading by showing his cool moth, and it was even better when Bill says something later on along the lines of "if he tries to show you his moth collection, throw yourself off a cliff"

does that imply ford tried to show bill his moth collection at some point ????? imagine jdbshfjsnf

Also the photo of him looks cool, but the context of it is so funny. I've seen some posts on tumblr about Ford dragging Stan into the woods and getting him to take a picture of him looking angry and mysterious. Why else does he have a photo like that. It's so silly.

I WHEEZED WHILE READING THIS ID NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT??? but like. it's definitely on character i fully believe it happened. i mean this man backflips out of windows why not hnskdkdshd thanks for putting that image in my head

YEAH that page and the Mirror Realm one and others look so cool. The new artists brought on to work on this book did a wonderful job. It fits in perfectly with Bill's weirdness.

YEE!!!!! I think they were allowed to take more creative liberty than in the actual show, being a book and all, and i think thats really cool.

Imma be honest i never really... cared for Fiddleford before. Like, I think the show is better with him in it, and I like that Ford had someone good in his life aside from Stan back in the past, but I didn't know enough about Fiddleford to care. Granted, I haven't reread Journal 3 in a while so I likely would have liked him more if I could remember what was said there, but the stuff presented in the lost Journal 3 pages here were such a treat and I understand now. I really really like him now.

WELCOME TO THE FIDDLEFORD FANCLUB MY FRIEND. ive been a fan of him since the legend of the gobblewonker tbh.. i tend to latch onto very random silly side characters that fill the specifically shaped holes in my brain. Loved him more when i found out he had lore, love him even more after reading the book. Yay fiddleford 🎊

Fiddleford and Ford were so wonderful together! Fiddleford was so, so nice to Ford. I'm never going to get over how Fidds made Ford TWO christmas presents, one which had multiple prototypes to get right, then forgot to get a present for his own wife. Stanford means so much to him it's crazy. / Then Ford decorating the portal room with pretty lights and played Fidds' favourite song and they made snowmen???? That's adorable omg. / And ik this is about the book, not the website, but the stuff on there as well, like the college photo and it describing how they met. AND THE AXOLOTL. Fidds getting one for Ford because it reminded him of him. And i don't think it was even a holiday of any kind. BILL WHEN I GET YOU-

i swear these two are absolutely adorable and that is an objective fact i will not take criticism. the page where ford was rummaging thru fiddleford's desk and found the glove prototypes broke me.

and also yeah the college photo ! i mean like. augh. how do i put this. theyre so friends. ford believed fiddleford was right even tho they barely knew each other and worked together and came up with an entire theory. idk it's so wholesome. AND FRILLIAM !!!!! FIDDLEFORD GOT FORD A LITTLE GUY AND FORD NAMED HIM FRILLIAM AND I AM GOING TO PERSONALLY SPRAY HAND SANITIZER IN BILL'S EYE FOR RUINING THIS. these two are dear to my heart im so so frickin glad they made up and are somewhat keeping in touch now..

I CHEERED at that bit. I showed it to my friend and they didn't get it. I forgot that they're a casual fan who's watched the show like, once, and not like me where Gravity Falls has just permanently taken up some space in my brain.

I KNOW THE PAIN SO SO WELL NO ONE AROUND ME EVEN KNOWS THIS BOOK EXISTS. ILL CHEER WITH YOU WHO CARES IF WE'RE NOT ON THE SAME CONTINENT. FORD MY GUY SLAYYYYYY🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊👏👏🎊🎉🎉👏👏👏

I don't think I have anything extra to add I agree completely. I just love how much of a threat it shows Bill as. I think it works especially well because most of the book has been Silly Bill Shenanigans, you kinda forget what he's capable of. Brilliant stuff. i hated it.

exactly.. bill is a Scary Silly Guy™️ thank you tbob for reminding us. it was very on character and we appreciate it a lot. but like did you HAVE to make ford suffer for it :'(

LITERALLY YEA. And that kinda links up with the end of the book, where Bill is convinced someone will free him at some point. But he has no positive connections. He has no one that cares about him. And he did that all himself. Please, anytime, i will listen to your rambles. (just might not respond to it straight away but I WILL)

Guy had it comin for him tbh. rest in therapieces bill ciphor reincarnate as a vole (also YOU WANT TO HEAR MY RAMBLES🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺???? dont mind me if i raid your asks sometime. or discord dms. whichever you prefer !)

The messages from Dipper, Mabel and Stan were so lovely to see at the end. Stan is so happy now, and I'm happy for him. And it's just all really funny. "I only met him once and he cried like a baby then I punched him to death." Yeah that is basically what happened.

JASIDNFJSNFKSS PRETTY ACCURATE ID SAY. Stanford pines you are absolutely awesome take my money

[stepswowdsen]

Flower Symbolisms: Victorian, Japanese (Hanakotoba), Chinese, and Vietnamese Floriography

Flower Symbolisms: XanLena, KuroEne, and JuAli (WIP)

Flower Symbolisms (Part 1)

I'll include a masterpost of posts that connect to each other! You can see the first part above for the context if you haven't seen it

PW: meowmeowcollection

Cuz Idk what it looks like on the other side, so just in case it asks you for a PW to view old posts, here you go

I looked through a lot more flowers today, but didn't get the chance to put all the new ones into my Notion docs, so for now I'll just add the ones I added for Xanxus and JuAli <3

Selena

Xanxus

Kuroha

Ene

Judar and Alibaba

Intro Rambles

Flower Symbolisms: XanLena, KuroEne, and JuAli

Only thing I have to say is that I am a frigging genius. There are red hydrangeas, and Hydrangeas are considered "fickle/inconstant" due to the way they change colours after blooming (due to pH levels of the soil), and blue hydrangeas were used as a heartfelt apology (to soften the blow of rejection), and in Victorian floriography, to tell someone that they're "cold"

Also, hydrangeas fit so well with Judar's arrogant, playful, ruthless and cruel personality. He is also ice-themed (cold)

I saw a JP florist associate the meaning "Beautiful but cold" to hydrangeas, which fits him well!

I was thinking of red hydrangeas for Judar, which are much rarer in comparison to pink, blue, and purple hydrangeas

Alibaba is warm like the sun, so you could assign him a lot of yellow flowers easily, but I think sunflowers fit him best. I love the Hanakotoba meaning for sunflowers sm.

I said it’d take a bit more work to find a good flower (based on meaning) for Judar and it only took an hour. There we go! Quicker than I thought. I’m GREAT at this <3

Hydrangeas in Japan are used as an apology gift (apologizing for bad behaviour, etc.), but there are numerous meanings to hydrangeas, so there are also more positive meanings associated to hydrangeas by JP florists (the meanings associated to the flowers depend on the colours)

I just posted pictures, but in my Notion docs, the ones with citations link to official sources (official Hanakotoba)

While the ones that don't have citations next to them are ones where I did look at JP florist blogs' interpretations (popular Hanakotoba meanings of flowers) and based it on my own interpretations/readings of the JP text.

The rest of my rambles will be my discussions with my friend Cinna!

Discussion

(How me picking flowers for JuAli started)

Me: This just came to mind but if I were picking flowers based on meaning for Judar, I'd pick black and red flowers, since those are his main theme colours

And ones associated with meanings like "Passion, power/strength"

Frost flowers are a very cool rare phenomenon

C: Ohh makes sense

Oh?

Me: Oh here! I was considering if there are flowers named snowflake, but they don't feel very Judar in terms of vibes…

C: Ohh interesting

Arctic flowers in general could be something to pick from

Me: Oooh interesting!

C: 🤔

Me: Inchresting flowers mate!

C: There are many kinds of flowers....

Me: Hm maybe red hyacinth could be a possible pick due to the meaning of "Play"

And Judar’s childish nature and going like “Play. With. Me.”

C: Hm I see

Me: Went through flowers with the meaning of "Passion"

Hmmm these flowers aren't red though

C: Hmmmh I see

Me: Ok there are Red Snapdragon flowers

Ok looking for flowers for Judar is gonna take a bit more work than XanLena and KuroEne

C: Oh yeah valid

Me: Cuz even for Xanxus, red peonies are the ultimate flower for him.

Tree Peony = King of Flowers (花の王, Hana no Ou) in Hanakotoba

C: Oh yah!

I'm sure there's something for Judar...

Me: Right? I just need to find it

C: Dunno is there anything for mischief or similar things

Me: Crown imperial (orange and red flowers) with the meaning of "Majesty, power" Ig another one for Xanxus lmfao

Xanxus' main theme colour is red, and orange (secondary)

Me: Oh yeah I was thinking about that too!

Me: Yeahhh like "mischief/mischievous, playful"

Ngl I think Alibaba would be much easier in comparison cuz boom there's lots of yellow flowers

Also sunflowers having the meaning of "I only have eyes for you" and "adoration"

XanLena is so easy to come up with flowers for, cuz Selena is literally a florist and gardener and flower enthusiast

C: Oooh

Me: Selena /j

I'M KIDDING SHE WOULD HAVE A PROPER GARDEN WITH A LOTUS POND AND KOI FISH AND WATERFALLS AND EVERYTHING

Like I imagine the garden that Xanxus would arrange for the Varia mansion's servants to build for her would look something like this

But the idea of Xanxus allowing her to fund a deadly poisonous garden on the side (cuz he totally would let her) is hilarious to me

C: THE POISON GARDEN

OH YEAH THIS PLACE

She would fucking love this tho

Me: RIGHT LMAO

C: Lmaoo yes

C: Ah right

Sunflowers ;;;

C: Selena the flower gal

Me: And Alibaba is warm like the sun ☀️

Me: AliHaku the Sun/Moon ship, and JuAli the Sun/Moon and Sun/Black Sun ship

C: Cuute 🥺

Me:

Alibaba

Sunflower (Himawari): I only have eyes for you, adoration, worship (Hanakotoba) 🌻

C: I see... :")

Me: Ok I searched up some flowers (outside of the official JP Hanakotoba website)

Flowers that mean strength:

Red Camellia: Being in love (can be seen as a symbol of strength)

Peony (Botan): King of flowers, royalty, honour (can be seen as a symbol of strength)

Cherry Blossoms (Sakura): Spring, renewal, (can be seen as a symbol of strength)

Plum Blossoms (Ume)

Carnation: Passion

I already had Red Camellias, Peonies, and Red Carnations listed for Xanxus though

I don't mind there being overlap between my faves since Xanxus and Judar are both associated with Red and themes of Strength and Passion but I need to find a flower that's PERFECT for Judar I chose it for Kuroha, but, since there can be overlap between my faves, I think black roses could be also a good pick

Considering Judar's character arc theme of resentment and grief

Black Roses (Kuroi Bara): Hate, You are only mine

Judar's key character traits: Powerful, cruel, arrogant, childish, playful, mischievous, spoiled, bratty, likes strength, victory, fighting, and war, resentful, holds deep grudges (hateful/hatred)

Me: I guess we can try... strength and victory for Judar

Laurel in Victorian Floriography is associated with glory and success

Ok let me check Chinese Floriography since Judar is CN/EA inspired

Canna: Confidence

Ok interesting

Ok I'm checking a list of Chinese Floriography meanings. I can take a few of these for Selena

And some of the yellow flowers can be for Alibaba. Like Daffodils.

Ok so plum blossoms (Ume) can represent strength

Chinese floriography has subtle differences from Japanese floriography (though a lot of core meanings are the same)

White lily: Purity, chastity (Hanakotoba), Everlasting love (Chinese Floriography)

Orange Lilies: Hatred, revenge

Orange lilies are perfect for Xanxus ngl, who is associated with Wrath

Me: I found some white flower (Edelweiss) associated with power and it's so fucking ugly looking

NAH

I CAN'T GIVE THIS TO MY FAVES

There are red freesia flowers which mean "Childish, immature" in Hanakotoba so LMAO this could also work for Judar

Ok I'm checking Hanakotoba

Hydrangeas could be interesting

Hydrangea (Ajisai): Heartlessness, Boastfulness (Arrogance), You are cold (You're beautiful but cold)

Ok we're finally getting somewhere! And there are red hydrangeas too

And Judar is ice themed (Beautiful but cold)

Hydrangea (Hanakotoba) Meanings:

Fickle/whimsical

Cold-hearted; heartless

Patient, persevering, enduring

Cruelty; cold-heartedness; relentless; ruthless

Haughty; arrogant; proud

Ok I think Hydrangeas could actually be a really good pick for Judar. Also since there are red hydrangeas

The Hanakotoba describes Hydrangea as "fickle/whimsical" due to the hydrangea's gradual shift in colour after blooming and "cold" due to the colours of blue hydrangeas

And also "whimsical" has the nuance of "playful"

Ok this is a GREAT flower pick for him based on meaning and colour

I KNEW I HAD IT IN ME!!!