#for a guy whos had a tumblr blog since 2012 i truly know so little about posting on here nowadays laughs.. cries..

[wolfydraws]

wow hi its been 2984323 years again huh- well today i have for u some order info for a fanzine i helped to moderate!! (guy who is sooo good at selling things dont even worry about it-) i genuinely dont know if external links will make this hard to find or not.. but i couldnt find a good enough workaround, so, the link to the shop is HERE! please take a look if youre interested in helios rising heroes! this project is a collaberation between an extremely talented bunch of 16 artists and 4 writers to bring you a look into new million through the seasons! reblogs are super super appreciated! <3 especially since idk about the external link thing aha-

[stellahibernis]

Ok my emotions descended on me somewhat gradually and belatedly after last weekend, so let's talk a moment about one of the reasons I joined tumblr back in 2012. Don't bother looking in the archive, it was a different blog that doesn't exist anymore, while this at first fandom specific one became my main blog. So, I'm going to talk a bit about *gasp* sports (there is actually a funny tangential connection in here to the usual content of this blog), specifically F1 racing, specifically this guy:

That is the four time world champion Sebastian Vettel, who retired on Sunday at the end of the season, and like I said, I'm feeling a lot of feelings here, mostly good ones (although someone's definitely been cutting onions).

The above image is from 2012 Brazilian GP when he won his third world championship (after the most stressful race), but it was at the start of that season, in spring 2012, that I got to know him properly (and during the summer of that year I joined here because the cool gifs were here, basically :D Sports fandom really isn't that different from media fandom...).

I knew of him even before then, since I tend to follow sports news pretty widely even when what I actually watch changes periodically, my interest tends to go up and down (not to mention what happens to be accessible at any time), and he was the reigning double world champion that also happened to be fond of Finland, and we always adopt everyone who shows even little bit of interest, so there were news articles.

That year I happened to have the channel that showed F1, so I decided to get back to watching after not having done so for some years, and ironically I remember saying to my sister it was kind of relaxing to watch without supporting anyone, less stressful. She said that's not gonna last, and she was right, it took exactly until the morning of the first race day, when he was on tv making some kind of a joke to the Finnish broadcast team (I don't even remember what it was specifically anymore), and I decided then and there that I was in his team.

I know this is a highly random way to pick faves, but that's how it happens for me; something someone does makes me just happy, and that's enough. I've not regretted this fast choice since (and not that many others either, although some people I've had to unstan), not even during the harder times and through the emotional roller coasters. Because there were hard times, there were disappointments, but also happiness and joy, and those are the times I remember now.

I remember how he was and is undoubtedly one of the greats in the sport, from his blinding pole laps to unforgettable races, be they starting from the front and just disappearing in the horizon or going wheel to wheel against others, to his incredible dedication to the craft and improvement of the car and of his performance. Not to mention he's just a fun person with his literally hundreds of different helmet designs and giving gray hairs to everyone with his pursuit of fastest laps back in the day.

More importantly, he's truly a great person, one I'm happy to be supporting. He has said he'd hope to be remembered for himself, not just as a driver but as a person, and I'd say he's achieved that. He's pretty much universally liked and the tributes from his fellow drivers speak a world (on youtube here since it's apparently blocked from being embedded).

The very real respect all of them have for him is not normal, usually when someone quits everyone says good words, but it's nothing like this, nothing like being acknowledged as such a big presence, and this is only a fraction of it all. I always felt he was very much underappreciated during his championship years, so it is great to see him so well loved!

He used to be very private, used to focus on racing only when in public, but in the recent years it has been especially great to see him speak of the causes he cares about, from protection of environment to speaking against discrimination, against racism, supporting women in racing as well as LGBTQ+ folks. For example, he was decked in full rainbow gear in Hungarian GP last year just after they passed the very discriminatory law, and was speaking openly against it even with the resulting sporting penalty, saying it was important to speak up (contrast that to what's going on in the world cup just now).

With his retirement, it's of course in a way regrettable, but also I'm not too sad about it, because from the way he speaks it seems to me he's ready to end this part of his journey and focus on other things he finds important. Probably with some less internal conflict going forward since there clearly has been some value conflict regarding his racing career (which is a multi billion sport with all the ugly sides attached, not to mention not at all environmentally sustainable).

I'm just happy I got to know him, got to follow his journey, if not quite from the beginning but a long way at least, and hope all the happiness for him as he goes forward.

Danke Seb!

PS. The connection to the usual content of this blog? Like I mentioned he tended to have different helmet designs, and for the US GP 2014 he had Captain America's shield on it.

[fa-by]

warning this is big. just to clarify. i’m not a hater nor a shipper. i just happen to be a part of this fandom for a very long time, and i luckily witnessed many stuff back in the 5H days. i came across one of your posts about the laucy storyline and how it’s supposed to be a fake relationship and i can’t help but thinking, why do you skip so many parts of the story? like i get that y’all have certain opinions about this thing being a coverage for camila and lauren’s relationship but why do you skip so many important details which could validate lauren’s feelings towards lucy? just to be a little more specific back in 2015 when lucy reunited with lauren after the incident, before the rumors of their relationship even started, i remember lauren reblogging many shit on tumblr about long distance relationships and how distance means nothing if you truly love someone. of course at that time when laucy as a ship wasn’t even a thing, camren shippers obviously connected these posts to camila but now that we know the story as told by lauren it makes sense that most of these reblogs were about lucy since they were rarely together due to lauren moving around all the time. thus i don’t know if you remember but again in 2015 there was this girl who went to the same school as lucy and admitted that lauren and lucy used to date in middle school, also i think around that time someone posted that photo of lauren and lucy in sociology class if i’m not mistaken . and mind you that all these were before all these laucy rumors gained attention. it was mostly curiosity that led all these lauren girls and camren shippers to find out more about lucy and what part she played in lauren’s life. now with all this added information to your timeline, my question to you is what could possibly stop lauren and lucy from having a fling from 7th grade to lucy’s moving in 2012? i mean lauren might’ve said that she fell in love with her best friend at 15 but she also said that she had an on and off relationship with her for years and many hookups until she finally came to terms with her feelings. so what doesn’t fit here? lauren and lucy could’ve started messing around at 12 until 15 years old and only when lucy left for puerto rico lauren realised she had feelings for her. oh and also i don’t know why you guys keep pushing that narrative but lauren and camila were not best friends in 2012, maybe they did later on but certainly not in 2012. sure they became really close due to x factor but it is impossible for them to become best friends over a few months of knowing each other, like do you guys meet someone and immediately call them your best friend after only a few months of knowing each other? how can you put so much trust in someone over four or five months of knowing them in order to call them your best friend? even lauren herself referred to camila as a very good friend of hers, not best friend. my point is, lauren and lucy had an actual background whilst camila and lauren didn’t, which is why i do believe that lauren had an actual relationship with lucy. and one more thing, maybe i don’t believe that camila was romantically involved with lauren but that doesn’t mean i think she’s straight. hell no. lastly i didn’t come here with the intention to change your opinion about camila and lauren’s relationship, but i did want to remind shippers some things they tend to ignore just to validate a ship which in my opinion is non existent.

I had already answered this ask up here with this post https://fa-by.tumblr.com/post/655883320751702016/for-the-anon-lucy-shipper-who-sent-me-that-long, but whoever sent it to me wasn't satisfied with the answer and sent me another one (which you'll find later in this post). Now I'm speaking directly to you, Anon.

So, let's start with the first one. Let's go in order piece by piece since in the second ask you said that I didn't answer any of your arguments:

- “I'm not a hater nor a shipper” You're not a hater nor a shipper, yet you're here in my blog, a CS blog, to talk and to not so low-key support Laucy. That's why I mentioned you in that way in my last post.

- “why do you skip so many parts of the story?” As I mentioned in the last post, I didn't skip anything important.

- “y'all have certain opinions”. We CS? Why do you first speak in the plural and then only speak to me if you're only talking to me in the first place? I hope that now that I've pointed this out to you, you've realized how that y’all sounds, not a hater nor a shipper Anon.

- “i remember lauren reblogging many shit on tumblr about long distance relationships and how distance means nothing if you truly love someone. of course at that time when laucy as a ship wasn’t even a thing, camren shippers obviously connected these posts to camila but now that we know the story as told by lauren it makes sense that most of these reblogs were about lucy since they were rarely together due to lauren moving around all the time” /// “Now that we know the story as told by Lauren”. Exactly. As told by Lauren, aka the fake story they've been trying to get her to sell for years. Story for a cover. Story full of flaws that don't add up and will never add up in the stories they're gonna declare. Story that precisely for this reason, is and will be modified more and more in order to adapt perfectly to the Camren one to explain and give a sense also of the songs. Story proven over and over again to be PR with real proofs. If you want to believe those reblogs were for Lucy, it's your choice, Anon. I'm certainly not gonna tell you that you can't believe in what you want. Everyone is free to believe in what they want and have their own opinion.

- “thus i don’t know if you remember but again in 2015 there was this girl who went to the same school as lucy and admitted that lauren and lucy used to date in middle school”. So let me get this straight, you just happen to be a part of this fandom for a very long time, and you luckily witnessed many stuff back in the 5H days but you don't know how many people have invented things to get attention and how many others got involved for distribute bullshit for the narrative? You say you were there, and you don't know that this was part of the rumors (not only on L, but also on C and the other girls) that were proven wrong so much so that this information was also removed from the internet? And you say you were there? But more importantly, you prefer to believe something you read (which was even debunked) without a shred of proof just because it validates what you believe? You prefer believing a person who said she knew them just for the attention and who didn't even live in Miami? Ahh. Okay then. It's your choice. But what about what someone who really was in Lauren's circle said? Someone who really knew them and went to school with them (and who, to me, didn't act like a friend in that case)?

You didn't believe her, did you? Of course not. Because it didn't validate what you believe in.

- “also i think around that time someone posted that photo of lauren and lucy in sociology class if i’m not mistaken . and mind you that all these were before all these laucy rumors gained attention”. Regarding the picture, I already proven to you in the last post that it was exactly to get attention and that it was during the PR.

- “Now with all this added information”. I'm sorry, what information? You mean the things I've proven to you to be false or you mean your opinions which are just opinions that actually prove nothing?

- “my question to you is what could possibly stop lauren and lucy from having a fling from 7th grade to lucy’s moving in 2012?”. Oh, let's see. Maybe the fact that she was still young and only in middle school started to realize that she liked girls, but she understood it 100% only later during high school? [If you read my post like you say you did, then you know how I think it really went between them. And this connects to that] Maybe the fact that having gone to those kinds of Catholic schools and having a believing family, she had: “I had homophobia deeply ingrained into my system”? Maybe the fact that “The girls in my social realm, if they even thought you were gay, you were ridiculed beyond belief”? Maybe the fact of how she was mocked at school because she was too confident, too sincere, and too honest, and people didn't like that and therefore that was one of the reasons why she thought there was something wrong with her and that she had to suppress ​this part of herself because she really wanted to integrate so much? Maybe the fact that one of her irrational fears still today is what other people think of her? Maybe the fact that she's always been a people pleaser and wanted people to like her because she couldn't accept that people despised her? Maybe the fact that wanting to adapt and consequently having to suppress herself, obviously also included her being queer? Maybe the fact that she didn't want to be a disappointment to her family, friends, acquaintances at school, and even God since she'd been inculcated with these ideas of not being a sinner and an abomination since she was a child? Not to mention that “from 7th grade” is impossible because Lauren hadn't even given her first kiss yet.

I hope you know that these are not my opinions or theories but words that came out of her mouth on more than one occasion. Although I don’t know if that’s validated enough for you. I mean, I'm still a little bit confused, you know? I’m still trying to figure out because, apparently, your opinions count as proofs and are validated for you, but the actual proofs aren't, right?

- “i mean lauren might’ve said that she fell in love with her best friend at 15 but she also said that she had an on and off relationship with her for years and many hookups until she finally came to terms with her feelings. so what doesn’t fit here?”. Oh, let's see. Everything she said about her that doesn't match her at all but that does match Camila? Even just the fact that she said how much she loved the part of Lucy that was so confident about who she really was when Lucy herself even lately said the exact opposite by automatically debunking everything Lauren said. Or the simple fact that Laur said she'd been in love with her all those years but broke up with her only a little over a month after they were official to get together with Ty. I mean, what?? Who does something like that if they were truly in love?

I've already explained this, but I will repeat it. How can you have been in love with someone for so many years, broke up with them because they were a toxic person, and immediately get together with an even more toxic person without having the proper time to heal? Without taking the time for yourself to lick your wounds, grow up, be ready again to throw yourself out there, and eventually find a better person to be in a relationship with? How? Simple. Because they were both fake relationships. The timing they wanted to tell is not credible. None of what they've said is believable, and luckily, there's also enough evidence to prove it so these are not opinions and theories.

Not to mention that Lucy had two relationships during and after her PR with Laur (2016 Sarah Scott Narcise, before dating Nicole Marie Rendón in March 2017).

So, yes, Anon. You asked a super right question. “so what doesn't fit here?”. Lucy. Lucy is the one that doesn't fit here. Lucy is the answer. Laur is still obliged to make people believe that Lucy is the ONLY girl she's ever been in love with. Period. Without ifs and buts. It's up to you and anyone else to try to see the truth behind the lies they're forced to sell.

- “lauren and lucy could’ve started messing around at 12 until 15 years old”. Again. Impossible since she was 12, and for me, so just my opinion, not after meeting Camila. And certainly not from 2015 onwards because it was just for PR and there are actual proofs. Whether you want to believe it or not.

- “oh and also i don’t know why you guys keep pushing that narrative but lauren and camila were not best friends in 2012, maybe they did later on but certainly not in 2012. sure they became really close due to x factor but it is impossible for them to become best friends over a few months of knowing each other, like do you guys meet someone and immediately call them your best friend after only a few months of knowing each other? how can you put so much trust in someone over four or five months of knowing them in order to call them your best friend?” Again with the plural, Anon? They were always attached to each other hip, and not only during the X-Factor interviews and the episodes of the program itself, they were also outside of it. They were very but very often at each other's home. Their parents hanged out, with or without them. The two of them, DNA, and anyone who knew them, always said how quickly they became friends from the boot camp also thanks to the fact that they lived in the same city. There are billions of proofs around out there. And then, I'm sorry. I don't know your age and I don't know you, Anon, but I think you remember what it was like at that age. It's so much easier to become friends with someone and become attached to them precisely because you are that young.

And you forget one fundamental thing. You forget how different it was for them. You forget how they were five teenage girls basically alone against the world (despite their parents trying to be as present as possible) and how this made them even closer together. Not to mention that the two of them were the ones who had the most things in common and that this brought them even closer; not just Miami.

Your topic doesn't apply in this case, both because of their age and because of their particular circumstances. I would've been super in agreement with you if we were talking about two people who have just met in a more adult age and not in the middle of adolescence, and under more normal circumstances especially.

- “even lauren herself referred to camila as a very good friend of hers, not best friend”. Please tell me you didn’t actually mention something that came out of Laur’s lips about Mila and Lucy during that podcast? Please tell me you understood that she had to play a part? …at this point, I don't really know whether to laugh or be worried… You believe in Laucy and not in Camren because it makes more sense to you, okay. It's your choice. But please, tell me you can tell the difference between maneuvered Laur and genuine Laur? ……… You have to learn to recognize when she's following a script, Anon. I'm saying it for you. You're gonna need it, especially in the future.

- “maybe i don’t believe that camila was romantically involved with lauren but that doesn’t mean i think she’s straight. hell no”. We agree on something at least.

- “lastly i didn’t come here with the intention to change your opinion about camila and lauren’s relationship, but i did want to remind shippers some things they tend to ignore just to validate a ship which in my opinion is non existent” /// “i didn’t come here with the intention to change your opinion about camila and lauren’s relationship”. That's exactly what it looks like actually. Especially for someone who pointed out “I'm not a hater nor a shipper” as the first thing. How generous and thoughtful of you, not Laucy shipper, to come to a CS blog for wanting to try to remind us things already explained and proven just to validate a ship which in your opinion was more existent than Camren.

- “i did want to remind shippers some things they tend to ignore”. And you seem to want to ignore all the proofs there are there just because, and I quote what my girlfriend told me when I made her read your first ask: “as with the showmila shitshow, it's easier to believe it because everything is prepared to point people in that direction”. *Love u and your brain, mi amor 😍🥰😘*

Let's move on to the second ask now, shall we? Step by step again.

- “hey i was waiting for your reply. 1st of all as i said when i sent you that ask, i’m not a shipper lol. i couldn’t care less about ships”. You keep saying that you're not a shipper, but you do act like one and you're here again. You couldn’t care less about ships, but you're here! In a Camren Shipper blog! By reading posts about something you couldn't care less about. By sending asks about something you couldn't care less about, and even waiting for a reply. You don't see anything ironic or, I don't know, contradictory here?

- “i only want my fav to be happy with whoever the fuck she wants. idgaf if that person is camila or lucy or whoever”. You only want your fav to be happy with whoever the fuck she wants and you don’t give a fuck if that person is Camila or Lucy or.. Kris? No, wait. Ty? Is Ty okay? And what about Brad? Or maybe you’d prefer more fetuses? Luis? Keaton? Before all the PRs the fame? So, Paul (14/and just turned 15 years old)? Dominic (her first kiss at 13 in 8th grade)? Her first boyfriend for whom she was cyberbullied at the age of 11 in 6th grade by fake friends who created an entire Facebook page about her with pictures and calling her a slut just because she agreed to be his girlfriend? Or the kid she had a crush on in 4th grade in front of which she peed on herself and who, despite being obviously very embarrassing for her, became her little boyfriend the next day? I mean, I don't know the names of the last two, but they're okay, right? The important thing is that they're not Camila *Simon, is that you?* because you don't believe it, right? Oh no, wait. You said you couldn’t care less about ships. Shit, sorry. My bad.

- “but it really triggers me when you guys don’t value lauren’s words and boundaries”. Oh, wait, wait, wait, wait. So you're here because we- No, wait. Because I- No, wait. This plural when you're actually talking to me confuses me because it gives me the feeling that you're not only attacking me, but all the rest of the CS as well when in reality you should know that we're all different. Plus, you're on my blog. But anyway. Let me try again. So you're here because I don't value Laur's words and boundaries? You mean the narrative's words and boundaries? And besides that, loving and respecting her both as an artist and above all as a person, and following her on social media without ever bothering her, never, not even with a single comment, makes me someone who doesn't value Laur's words and boundaries? ME? Me, who has ‘scolded’ all those who do it? Me, who always says to be respectful and to be kind and spread kindness at the end of almost all my posts? Me, who chose Tumblr on purpose because it's not like the other social networks at all? Me, who doesn't even want my posts to come out of here? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Ahh, okay.

Did you know that before some mutuals helped me with the situation, I was about to leave Tumblr precisely because that first post of mine ended up on Twitter? Did you know that I was pissed off because not only did they post it without permission, but because there was the link that led here (even though it was a mutual's blog) and my initial as a signature? Yeah, you read it right. It was only the initial of my name, yet, I didn't want and still don't want to be involved in any way publicly. You don't even know me, yet you dare to judge without knowing? Oh and, please. Don't come after by saying that you weren't referring to me and that you were just generalizing because even if it were true, I repeat, this is my blog and you're talking to me.

- “secondly i really don’t know why you didn’t post my ask like you did with everyone else and just chose to refer to me as a lucy shipper and proceeded to talk about what i said without context. and lastly i really don’t get what point you’re trying to prove with your post about my ask because you legit didn’t reply to any of my arguments” /// “i really don’t know why you didn’t post my ask like you did with everyone else”. Wanna know why? I did it because my very first post already answers the whole Laucy situation by itself. And above all, believe it or not, I did it for you. I did it to avoid all this. But you insisted, and now here we are.

Oh and, I explained why I called you Laucy shipper at the beginning of this post.

- “you simply corrected me on a random date of a photo i mentioned”. A random date, yeah, right. So random, that you wanted to use it as proof. A proof that, now that you know it's useless, you're diminishing it because you no longer need it to prove your point which, forgive me, what exactly is it? You know, with all the contradictions you said from the beginning, I got a little lost.

Why are you even here, Anon? Why are you so pressed for something you said you don't give a fuck about? Why send me two asks and insist so much on a ship you ‘don't give a fuck about’, but at the same time say that you’re not a shipper when you clearly are? Don't you see all the contradictions?

- “about your tunnel post i read it like a hundred times, it still doesn’t invalidate any of the points i made on my previous ask, it just contains a variety of dates which basically prove nothing about your ship being real”. You read it like a hundred times and despite this, you're telling me that proves nothing about my ship being real when the post wasn't even about Camren? Are you for real? Well, after all, you've read it like a hundred times and despite the proofs, you still believe that Laucy was real, so, what could I expect? But anyway. I already told you in the last post, but you evidently didn't understand, so I'll tell you again in a different way so maybe it's clearer. There is a light at the end of the tunnel is a post about Laucy's PR. It's not about or proves Camren like you said. It's a reminder I wrote after that podcast that's about and proves the bullshit they've said and will continue to say to make people believe their narrative.

You don't think Laur and Mila have ever been together? Okay. Amazing. But that's your opinion. You want to continue believing in Laucy? Great. Perfect even. But it's your choice. It doesn't concern me. Especially when there's real proofs around and not opinions. I thought it already was, but I hope it’s clearer now that I don’t care who you ship and who you don’t. “The world is beautiful because it's varied”, says a proverb of my country. You can come back here a hundred more times, but you won't change my mind, especially if you keep coming back here with just opinions and empty proofs. Oh and, of course, it's mutual. Nobody's pointing a gun to your head. As I've always said, everyone’s free to think what they want.

So, my rhetorical question now is, what purpose are you really here for, Anon? You justified yourself in the first ask by saying that you're not here to change our minds when it was exactly for that, and even though I answered you with that first post, you've come back once again. Why? What's the point? You saw that you failed in your intent and continued because you want some drama? Because you're bored? Because you wanted to start a discussion? Sorry to disappoint you, but I'm not the kind of person who promotes this kind of things. I'm not a fan of attack and hate in all its forms. If I had been, I would've joined Twitter a lot of years ago. I, for real, don't give a fuck about all that shit.

Rhetorical question n°2: Have I or haven't I answered all your arguments now?

Have a good day wherever you are, not a hater nor a shipper Anon. For real, I'm not a petty person.

[miximax-hell]

...This should have been published the 10th of January. I queued it ages ago (back when my last post was published), but Tumblr farted and decided not to post it. Which is just fantastic. It’s not the first time it decides to screw up the queue, but it’s the first time it happens to me on this blog. So annoying. This means it’s coming a few days late, but I hope you all still had a fantastic EnYaga Day!

As I prepared for True EnYaga Day back in October, I found again this old doodle of mine--the base for what would later become the final design of EnYaga. I thought it might be fun to share it and use it as an excuse to talk about this subject AGAIN, and... that was good enough for me, really.

You guys know me and there’s probably very little reason to do so, but I have never really talked about the reasons behind this miximax, have I? Well, if there is a day to indulge in that, it’s EnYaga Day, so let’s get to it!

As usual, more under the cut.

Despite Tumblr’s betrayal, this does have a perk: I get to revise this post before it’s published, which is great, because I’m happy to report that things are better now than when I first wrote it. In the original version, I mentioned that my life at the time was a little... paused, so there wasn’t really a lot to say. Among the only news worth sharing, I sent an oil painting to a friend a couple of months ago and it arrived very fast and completely safe, so that was great! It was a Professor Layton-themed painting, but now that I don’t have it at home anymore, I’m tempted to make another one... (If I do, chances are more FudoLay content will arrive here swiftly after lol) Other than that, I’d just started my classes again, but I was still desperately looking for a job. At least, classes made me feel like I wasn’t completely wasting every single day, so I was more cheerful than I was during summer. (Funny, because my group of friends at uni used to say that they could only smile during summer, but I was pretty miserable during those months. ww;)

Thankfully, though, I can say I now have a job! And it’s great!! ...The conditions aren’t so great, but at least I’m back to work as a game designer. I’m learning so much and I feel very motivated to work, even if it’s technically a collaboration and I will only get money once the game is published--in other words, when the game starts bringing money our way. This is far from ideal, but I honestly had no other options and I’m having a blast working on this, so I hope something cool will come out of it! For now, I would ask you to keep your eyes on Eskema Games and maybe check out the company’s latest game, Delta Squad? I had absolutely NOTHING to do with that game because it was released way before I joined, but supporting it supports the company I work for, which always comes in handy! It also underperformed, so it could use all the love you guys can give it.

Also, let me quickly point something out: about a year ago, an anon asked me if i was going to include Danganronpa characters in this project. The question is here, in case anyone needs a reminder: https://miximax-hell.tumblr.com/post/181991994534/hey-there-since-youre-doing-miximaxs-with-game Well, I FINALLY got my hands on the DR Trilogy for PS4, so I’ll be looking into that and seeing what I can find! If that anon is still around, I hope I can make them happy.

But let’s cut to the chase already!

As I always make sure to clarify, yes, I do massively ship Endou and Yagami. But there’s thankfully much more to EnYaga (the miximax--if I need to talk about the ship again, I’ll just call it Endou x Yagami) than just “yeah, I ship them.” In order to understand the reasons behind this combination, though, we must venture into two very different subjects: what reasons there are to choose Yagami to begin with, and the life story of yours truly. I swear both are important to get the full picture, but I’ll keep the latter as brief and free of unnecessary information as possible, even if it’s definitely the longest and most complex part. So, without any further ado, let’s see what makes this miximax valid within the logic of this project.

A big chunk of what makes EnYaga work was explained exactly three years ago, here: https://miximax-hell.tumblr.com/post/131215636268/when-the-king-enters-the-room-the-world-stops-and

The tl;dr would be that Endou plays as a goalkeeper, but also as a libero! Being such radically different positions, it’s to be expected that he would need two different miximaxes, because it would be rather difficult to find an aura that improves his field skills (shooting power, speed, etc.) and his goalkeeping abilities at the same time. Thankfully, Yagami gives him the exact abilities a good libero needs to be able to excel--especially when that libero has the pressure of being part of most of the strong hissatsus the team can pull off. So, for more info on EnYaga’s powers, please check the link above. (And note that, of course, this miximax only marginally improves Endou’s goalkeeping capabilities.)

I have also talked in length about the relationship between Endou and Yagami, but here’s a very brief summary. During the in-game events of IE2, Endou gave Yagami hope when all she wanted was to die to atone for her sins, thus saving her life in the process. In return, she wanted to give him the strength to fight when he needed it most as a way to repay his kindness towards her.

Yagami’s innate abilities and the bond they share are the more logical reasons behind this miximax. There is, however, one extra reason to include this miximax in the project.

There have always been three main rules here when it comes to choosing auras:

1. Only characters that come from universes predominantly inhabited by humans (or very human-like creatures, like Zelda’s Hylians).

2. Only one character from every franchise, unless they are Level-5 franchises. In that case, I may use up to two per franchise. Examples of this are Danball Senki/Little Battlers eXperience (with Toramaru and Megane) and Professor Layton (with Fudou and Shishido).

3. One aura coming from every single (and proper) Inazuma Eleven game on the market. Those being Inazuma Eleven, IE2: Fire, IE2: Blizzard, IE3: Spark, IE3: Bomber, IE3: Ogre, IEGO: Light, IEGO: Dark, IEGO Chrono Stone: Raimei, IEGO Chrono Stone: Neppu, IEGO Galaxy: Supernova, IEGo Galaxy: Big Bang, Inazuma Eleven Strikers, IE Strikers 2012 XTreme, and IEGO Strikers 2013. I’m not counting Everyday, SD nor unreleased titles. So far, I have 7 out of 15.

From the beginning, I have wanted Endou to have nothing but Inazuma Eleven-only miximaxes. I mean, he’s the main character and all!

Needless to say, Yagami is part of the Inazuma Eleven miximaxes--in fact, she takes the IE2 Blizzard spot, if anyone is curious about that very specific detail. She is obviously a very predominant character in that game, having a relevant impact during the final match against The Genesis and even (spoiler alert for a 10 years old game) by injuring Kazemaru earlier, because he didn’t just leave like he did in the anime--Yagami sent him to the hospital when he started matching The Genesis’s power. Since she’s a main character in that game, and considering that many of the other important characters introduced in it become part of the teams that make up this project (such as Hiroto, Midorikawa and maaaybe Saginuma), Yagami was the perfect candidate. She was also arguably the strongest among the remaining main characters of IE2, and the only midfielder. Not to mention the bond she shares with Endou, which only rounds it all up even more.

So, as a brief summary, Yagami is an Inazuma Eleven character (which is exactly what I wanted for Endou) and a very strong player, she provides Endou with everything he would need to be a good libero (incredible speed, great shooting strength, being a midfielder and the stamina that inherently comes with it, powerful hissatsus, and so on), she shares a canonical bond with Endou, the contrast between their personalities is super interesting to explore, and there are reasons why even she would want him to take her power. He can hardly have it better! It makes a lot of sense, and it’s all heavily based on canon, so I don’t need to explain much in that regard. That’s always convenient.

But there is another side to all of this. My side.

I first started working on miximaxes with the idea of only making 4 or 5. I simply meant to give extra love to some of my favourite characters to make myself and a few friends happy. This never became a full-fledged project until my good friend Heather, who used to be on Tumblr under the username @ishidoshuuji, said she wanted to be able to reblog the Seitei x Yuuichi miximax I had drawn for her. In other words, this: https://miximax-hell.tumblr.com/post/129863262149/well-it-was-about-time-i-started-using-this-blog

Before that, miximax-hell used to be a private blog: one of those you can only check out if you have the password. I never thought ANY stranger would be interested in it, so why expose myself like that? It would only make me feel bad. I could have never imagined over a hundred people would follow me here, and even less so considering that only about 10 of my friends follow this blog. So I have to thank Heather because, even if 100 isn’t a big number at all here on Tumblr, I still appreciate each and every person who stops by and it’s helped me meet some incredibly lovely people.

Back to the subject, though. This story is directly linked to MamoDai’s. The important part of it was that EnYaga’s design isn’t mine, and so isn’t MamoDai: the former is completely not mine (even if, as the sketch above suggests, the concept was first doodled by me), while the latter was only partially mine. The thing, though, is that the same person made EnYaga and “collaborated” on the creation of MamoDai, which meant I let them into this very personal solo project twice. If you want to check out the full story, though, you can read it here: https://miximax-hell.tumblr.com/post/142160652319/you-should-have-seen-this-one-coming-come-on

As I was saying, miximax-hell is a solo project. It’s something for me to enjoy, for me to think about, for me to develop, for me to improve at designing character, and for me to decide on. I set the rules and I come up with suitable matches--or what I think are suitable matches, that is. ww I’m definitely open to suggestions if anyone is willing to share their thoughts with me, and fanart is always, always, ALWAYS welcome, of course, but I don’t borrow other people’s ideas nor designs. Not because those designs and ideas aren’t fantastic, nor because I’m not allowed to, but because the point of this blog is to have fun and improve my skills. If I don’t do it myself, it’s kind of pointless, so I prefer a bad design made by me over a great design by someone else. Also, if people were to check all of these things out, I wanted it to be because of my work, not because someone super well-known was part of it and people were desperate to get more content from them.

When I first came up with this project, though, someone very close to me wanted to be part of it. Not because they found it interesting per se, but simply because it was mine. I had previously declined an offer to join one of their projects because I lacked the necessary skill, so they wanted to join mine instead. And don’t get me wrong--I appreciate the interest even now! But, again, it beat the point and I had to refuse. Looking back, I’m very glad I didn’t give in, but I felt awful back then and this person must have felt really bad too.

That’s why I made that exception and suggested, “Hey, why don’t we create a miximax together?” That’s how MamoDai was born. But while the interest in working on MamoDai seemed... scarce, this person came up with and gave me something out of their own accord: the EnYaga miximax design I still use to this day.

Now, here’s the thing: EnYaga was a proper gift that person made for me, and I always honour gifts. If it had been a random doodle, like I have received others in the past, it would have ended there. But when someone puts true effort and time into making something especifically FOR ME, regardless of what happens between us later, I still treasure it forever. And this gift came from a person who, apparently, really wanted to be part of this project when I first came up with it, which, honestly, put me in a tight spot. The least I could do was accept this design, which I loved almost as much as I loved them, and incorporate it to my lineup.

EnYaga was going to happen regardless, because I was working on it myself, but this person beat me to it (with such incredible quality, too, which I would never be able to hold a candle to) and, after what I made them go through with my continuous rejections, I had to honour them somehow. It was my way of saying, “I can’t let you do this for me, but I deeply appreciate the thought.”

This person is now out of my life, though. This means that, honestly, I could just get rid of the design. They would never know, and I would be happier with something of my own even if it sucked in comparison. They would never feel offended either--not like they would even if they knew, because it’s obvious they don’t care about me anymore. It would be easy and 100% painless for all parties involved.

But EnYaga is a token of the bond we once shared and I treasure that, even though I don’t want anything to do with that person anymore. It portrays the fun and happy times, not the sad and bitter ending. Happiness is always something worth remembering, isn’t it? And maybe, just maybe, thanks to the wonderful people I’m close to and my eternal love towards Endou x Yagami, I might one day be able to completely forgive the bad and focus on the good, so I can smile when I look at EnYaga and think of this person. I look forward to a day when there isn’t an ounce of bitterness left in my heart (although I am one revengeful and spiteful piece of poo, so it might never happen). And for that possibility alone, it might be worth it to keep making this one exception and let this miximax be someone else’s. Especially now that I have DoYaga to call my own.

So that’s it, folks: not only do Endou and Yagami make for a sick combination in theory, but it’s also a miximax with deep sentimental value for me in so many different ways. So even if it had been someone else’s idea and the two characters were a terrible match in all senses, chances are I would have still kept it. Thank goodness it wasn’t the case. ww

And all because I didn’t finish the design fast enough on my own. May that be the lesson to learn from this: hurry the heck up, self.

[cobythinks]

Thank You

Today I’m feeling so very grateful that I’m able to live the way I live and feel the way I feel so here we go fahm get ready for some deep shit.

Thank you, firstly to my friend Emay. We don’t talk much anymore, but it’s because of you that I’m part of the many amazing communities that I’m about to mention below. By adding me to one simple Google Hangouts Group Chat, you opened up my world and let me be myself.

Thank you to all those in the TMNT 2012 fandom that has dissolved since the end of that show. This was the first online community I was in and exposed me to so many more and I met a lot of people I was, might I say, destined to meet. One of the most memorable being @buttergriffin332 who wasn’t even that deep into TMNT, but interacted with it enough that I followed.

So Thank You, Butters, you may have had a few hard times but you always managed to post things that made me smile when I was having hard times too. I neglected to follow you when I got a new Online identity, but that’s been rectified because your content makes me very very happy.

My next Thank You would be directed to Thomas Sanders ( @thatsthat24 ) for the amazing content that I’ve gotten to watch and learn from on his youtube channel. Being raised by homophobic parents, it meant everything to me to learn that the world wasn’t as bad as they made it out to be. You showed me that there was more than the black and white, gay and straight, cisgender world that I was raised in. Watching your videos has always given me the courage to be myself, even if I can’t come out as transgender until I’m an adult. Your channel is where I go when I’m feeling depressed, and yours and a few other YouTubers channels managed to help pull me out of some very dark places. So, thank you.

Thank You to the entire Thomas Sanders and Sanders Sides fandoms. In addition to Thomas’s videos, you helped show me that I was valid and that I could be who I wanted to be. That I could grow up to still be myself, and not what everyone expected. It’s blogs like @randomslasher , @puns-and-patton , @callboxkat , @lefaystrent,  and @dailypattondoodle that constantly make me smile and cheer me up on bad days. So thank you.

Thank you to all of the people I’ve seen in Thomas’s Videos as well. Joan, (@thejoanglebook ), Talyn, Terrence, Dominic, Valerie, Dalhia, JayisJo, and the many many others that have impacted me and made it possible to see myself in the future as I want to be. You truly are incredible people even if I don’t know much about you, you’ve helped me immensely.

Now a different couple fandoms I’ve joined only recently. These being youtubers as well.

Thank you, Phil Lester (@amazingphil) , for being a king of youtube. I’d heard your name, but only in the fall of 2018 did I go into your channel and find an incredible source of joy and happiness. You, too, have provided smiles when I was sad and made me feel uplifted. I just wish I’d found your videos earlier and been able to be part of the amazing community surrounding them for longer. You provide joy on a daily basis for me and many many others, so Thank You.

Thank you, Daniel Howell (@danielhowell ), for all of your videos. Thank you for not giving up, for showing people like me that future is possible. That it's possible to get better, and that amazing things are possible no matter where you come from. You inspire me in so many ways, and it's incredibly motivating as a young person with mental illness to see what you’ve accomplished, which I could only hope to shadow in my entire lifetime. Truly, if I could make one person feel as happy as your videos make me feel, my life would be complete. So Thank You.

Thank You Jackson Bird, who no longer uses his Tumblr Page, for your videos on youtube as well. Watching your videos and listening to your tips has helped me so much the past few months as I came to term with my gender identity. You really could have no idea how much this means to me. Not only that, but you’re another role model in my life. You’ve shown that a full transition is possible, and though it may be messy because of my situation, I won’t give up. So, Thank You.

Others I try to thank include Max, my best friend who has been supportive and helped me out when I told her I was transgender. Kim, my little sister who did the same for me. Cordie, who is just a fun person to chat with online. And Lee, my soulmate, whom I love very much. Thanks, guys, even though you don’t have Tumblr and won’t see this.

All the people I’ve mentioned right now impacted me so so much in just the past year or so when I finally found that my life shouldn’t be lived in the bubble my family claimed it should be. There are so many more people as well, that have helped me to find time to love myself, but these are the biggest pieces of the puzzle that showed me who I was. And I’m so very grateful.

This sounds very sappy and almost like a kind of farewell, Lol sorry about that. I’m just feeling very passionate! Don’t worry, I’ll still be posting on both Tumblr, Twitter, and Youtube (though that may get messy in the next few months) and the only goodbye I’m saying is a goodbye to the past. Lining it all up like this is making me realize how fortunate I am, and only makes me want to progress further and embrace the future,

So yeah… that’s my thank you.

With Love,

<3

- Coby

[woozi]

henlo yza <3 ,

hdjdkd i don't really have much knowledge abt different techniques & kind of dances so when the steps match the lyrics i'm like '!!! wow yes i love it' fhdjdjskks also bc i've grown up watching these kind of dances only so my that's what i tend to notice first hdjdjddk it is also one of the reason why i decided to stan svt dwc, oh my, thanks & our dawn is hotter than day's choreo details really impressed me.

maybe vincenzo is your svt club & ur so valid for that <3 hddjdjekek also pls don't say sorry!! you can talk abt it as much as you want i like knowing what you think. i'll let you know how was it for me when i complete it. & no homecha hasn't ended yet (idk if there are 16 or 14 eps i haven't checked) it does come on weekends, counting this sunday's ep, we're at 12th rn.

i get that fjdjdkkd i used to be the same 😭 always waiting for dramas to end so i can binge watch because not knowing what happens next would kill me. but idk when this happened, my will to watch anything died down bc the eps are just there, available for me to watch anytime. im like 'i'll watch it next time' but next time never comes 💀. this year i've watched no-air ones only hdjssj very surprising for me ( also my wack memory & svt content supports me by forgetting abt it after weekend ends dhdjdkkd) anyway i'm very excited to see how you like homecha!

CHURCH BOY JOSH HDHDJDDKKSLSDJ church boy josh, cringe domestic boy, joshua numbers. we've come up with so many nicknames for him in few asks only 😭😭 dbdjksksk deserve actually. BUT SO TRUE I STILL HAVE NO WORDS FOR HIM. THAT WAS- JUST- WOW OKAY WE SEE YOU 😭😭and dino lip piercing and hoshi eyebrow slit..... so sexy of them. cb concept pictures haven't come out yet & they're already shinning!! love to see that. also now we have gyu and hoshi's wedding reception pictures & cottagecore hannie (with that collarbone picture right in middle >:( wth mister but also hbd ig <3) being added in the equation.

IM CRYINGGGGGG THEY LOOK SO CUTE THEY ARE SO CUTE NOO 😭😭💔 HOW HAVE I NEVER SEEN THESE COVERS WTH (being the ex-directioner and all dhdjkdsksk). I SMILED SO WIDE WATCHING THEM <///3 it's been so long since i heard one thing wow lol. but! this means they know who zayn is. thank you for this jdjssk this is going to keep me happy for some time hdjdke. SUNDAY MORNING EHJEJEKE 😭 thank you <3 dndjdj

IKR???? IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS CB I'M ALSO EXCITED TO EXPERIENCE IT WITH YOU. agreee truly bless svt for helping keeping us from losing it over life (by making us lose it over them) tbh sometimes it worries me too with the way contents keep dropping but just now in these unit interviews being released, perf unit shared how they have ppl who encourage them to be okay with their tiredness. things like that put me at ease. hope they rest well from time to time too. honestly just looking at their tour schedules i used to get tired because these dudes used to have more shows and less day offs and some of them being used to just move from one city to another. i hope in coming years pledis changes that lol.

sameee for the poster release hdjdkeek. also even though there was scheduler, i forgot abt the concept trailer 😭 it was raining & bcoz of that power was out as well & i don't use data dhdjdkdk. i think 5 minutes after 12 kst power came back (you can say joshu's sparkler brought it back hdjdjdks) it literally left me speechless. yk that meme ' everyone remembers what they were doing & where they were when it happened ' that's me & you with this cb hfjdkd honestly that's everyone with this cb me thinks.

seventeenies bringing the grass to you w their posts djdjkd ( btw you can always tell me if silly little jokes get out of hand i wouldn't ever like to make you uncomfy) but seriously i hope uni doesn't give you hard time. don't worry much just keep moving forward, at some point whatever is making you feel stuck will move away eventually.

is it that obvious? 😭😭😭😭 no i don't like rain at all dhjddk (i actually didn't dislike it as much during teens) mostly because road drainage system sucks here & we live in lower area so even moderate rain causes water logging. i'd give you some rain but this one's bad so i won't </3 ( as if i could if it were the good one 💀) stay hydrated!!! drink two sips of water everytime you hear dino laugh, i hope it cools a little soon.

that's what being on tumblr since 2012 does to you 😭 ALSO UR SO FUNNY PLS, SO ARE THE MEMES YOU USE FOR ASKS DJDJDKD. *hands you bunny headband dino* it's dangerous outside take this, you too stay safe out there 😭😭😭😭 love you too <3 and thank YOU for hanging out w me hehe :3, also dw tbh these asks have become one of the highlights for me now & i'm only using my free time excluding resting time, i hope you are too, no pressure at all! dw about being late - 🪂

ps - did i tell you i actually followed your svt blog around the time everyone was guessing your biases hddjkddj i sent mingyu & jeonghan dhdjdj that was my first ask :3 - 🪂

henlo, 🪂!! <3 <3 <3

honestly it doesnt matter to me tbh <3 if people enjoy the dance its all that matters!! and omg i can see that!! i love the svteenies always bring something fresh to the table

omg that means you're near the end 😭😭😭 i keep seeing gifs of it on my dash and it makes me feel a lil lovesick ngl HJFHJFHD why is it so TENDER????????????????

ok but that's so valid too bc that's me rn with in the soop.... i literally have not watched the 6th ep yet 😭 and i'm getting the feeling youre mentioning w swf now because i literally always look forward to tuesdays just for the next ep HJDHJDS also i am dumb what are no-airs HJDHJDHHD and ur not alone tbh <3 i have also been super forgetful lately and that is not like me fdhjdfjhdfhjdfhj we're rotting in this hellsite ig

love bullying him i just wanna know how he'd react if he gets upset <3 i dont think we've ever seen angry josh and i wanna make him angry sm HSDHJSDJ im glossing over dino lip piercing to directly go over hOSHI EYEBROW SLIT BC HELLO??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ive never really liked eyebrow slits but he makes them look so- i want him to hurt me HJDSHJDHJDS ALSO THE LATEST SET OF PHOTOS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD they're giving me what i've been asking for i love being here sm <3 soonyoung's so chummy w everyone have u seen his photos w jihoon last night 😭 he's literally tamed the actual tiger icb this. and no oh my god i do not Know what Collarbone Jeonghan is i have erased him from my memories thank u

HDSHDSJDSHJDS the ex-directioner is so funny to me 😭 i think we have all been there one way or another <3 and ofc omg <3 i'm glad my core svt memories make u happy HSDJHJDFHJHJDSF

they literally said escapism hELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭 i think they're also just workaholics in general. i would be too if i actually enjoyed what i did for a living 😭 and are we even gonna get tours in the near future.... this is so sad i havent even seen them irl </3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG that's terrible, i hope u guys were okay though :/ AND NOT THE JOSH SPARKLER FDDHJFHDFHJFDHFDH now i have to think about him oh my god i think i passed out a little when eyebrow piercing josh came on screen and just full on blacked out when the match scene came on tbh 😭 JKSDJKDSKDS ITS LIKE THE PANDEMIC!!!!!!! WE WILL RMB!!!!!!!!!

ALSOO NOOO OMG i dont feel uncomf at all and u should also tell me if i do make u feel so <3 thank u for even mentioning that!! also love that they're Doing It All for us we dont even have to go out to touch grass anymore HJDSHJSDJ i've actually been v happy w uni omg!! just that i often feel stressed bc they give us sm things to do </3 thank u for ur kind words!!

that's the price of being an adult JDJSJKD now we gotta think of things like.. idk the effects of rain 😭😭😭 i used to even love it when it flooded as a kid HJDSHJSDHJ now i get anxious too!! i love all kinds of rain though so i wont mind JKKSDKJSDKJD just that other people might be affected </3 wish i had my own rain cloud on some kind of leash lmao. ALSO IF I DRINK WATER EVERY TIME I HEAR DINO LAUGH FDHFDHJDFHD gonna be bloated but hydrated af ngl

oh my gOD YOU WERE HERE SINCE 2012???? we're literally sick bestie <3 i genuinely think tumblr has changed something fundamental in me and my way of thinking has not been The Same as idk.. regular people ig JDSHJSDHJSD THE OFFLINE PEOPLE!! smth about tumblr is so <3 sick but also i love this hellsite so 😗 AND NOOO NOT THE MEMES FDHDFHJDF its my broken sense of humor and inability to convey emotions properly HHSDHJDSHJ

BUNNY HEADBAND DINO?????????????????????????????????????? honestly he'd bring me more harm than protection i'll say that much 😭

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that genuinely made me feel so warm & fuzzy, i always look forward to your messages too <3 <3 <3 i hope u always have good days u deserve it for being such a sweetheart

WAIT HELLO???????????????????????? YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG THEN 😭😭😭😭😭 and im so impressed you didnt get weeded out ngl HFDHJFDHJFD icb you've been witnessing me going more ill everyday <3 ur a soldier

and u are partially correct abt mingyu & jh <3 at least during the time JSDJDSJKSDJK i think i've been desensitized to mingyu now but i still love him sm <3 he's just so cute and cutesy boys kinda infuriate me in an affectionate way so HJSDHJDSHJDSH

[cxymercado]

Day 3: Your top 5 must read books and top 5 must watch movies/series

First off, I would like to apologize for putting two items in Day 3 and Day 23. I’m sorry I can’t count lmao.

Top 5 must read books:

1. The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

Top excerpt:  “We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand

The moment I finished chapter 1 of this book, I immediately knew that it’s going to touch my heart and affect the way I view life. It’s a non-fiction — the only non-fiction I loved — about the cancer-stricken author and his reflections of life when he was invited to give a talk entitled “Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams” at Carnegie Mellon. The book discusses his cancer story, lessons he wants to relay to his children when he’s gone (oh crap, i think i’m gonna cry again) and snippets about Star Wars! Haha. My friend Sephie lent me this book and it was heartbreaking to return, really. I wasn’t able to get a copy for myself back then because it’s not available in bookstores anymore until Jonathan found a way to get one and gave me a copy on our 365th day (since 1st traditional anniversary gift is paper) because he said I cannot have a favorite book and not have it in paper.

2. The Fault in our Stars by John Green

Top excerpts:  “My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.”  “The world is not a wish granting factory.”

This book has more of a sentimental significance to me rather than a preference. I can’t even remember who or what made me read this book but I’m willing to bet it was Jonathan too hehe.

Anywho, this book was the reason Jonathan and I started talking, other than the fact that he tried to hook me up in Tumblr Pilipinas when I was 15 (that pedo bastard). And yes, in case you guys still haven’t heard even though I practically boast it everytime: WE ONLY FOUND EACH OTHER TECHNICALLY BECAUSE OF TUMBLR. May forever po sa tumblr. Haha.

Getting back to the point, TFIOS was the first YA novel I really truly loved. I will always look up to John Green and how he views teens as the deep, intellectual, sarcastic human beings that they are.

3. Yesterday/Life Expectancy/Tides of Time by, of course, the love of my life Jonathan Sumiguin

Even though I’ve already seen Jonathan’s dorkiest, most unattractive traits, I will still and always be his number 1 fan when it comes to his wit and humor filled stories no matter how Koontz-wordy they are.

All books portray life, death, reflections, and little hints of romance. PM me if you want pdf copies. (Ehem, shameless plug, Junatan u owe me bitch).

4. The Alchemist by Paulo Coehlo

Top excerpt: “I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.”

I will always silently judge people who had read this book and did not appreciate it. It’s a pure and brilliant story about a boy trying to find his treasure. How can you guys not love this?

I’ve always imagined that this story is kinda like The Little Prince if ever he grew up.

5. The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown

I remember being drunk obsessed with this book when I was reading it. I flipped pages non-stop, and even suffered headaches in the morning due to sleeplessness because I just. couldn’t. take. a break. This book was my first attempt to leave the ya life and was ofc, as always, recommended by Jonathan (this is the nth time I mentioned him alr I know I’m sorry but he really did influence me a lot when it comes to literature). I remember thinking the book has drugs in it because once you start, you’ll be desperate to finish, only to realize that the plot twists will take you to at least 5 more plot twists. I don’t think I have to define the story anymore as I’m guessing you may have already heard about it somewhere and/or watched the movie which is aired at least 5x a month in tv channels. But for the sake of this blog, I’ll say that this is a fiction unravelling snippets of conspiracies about christ and the american history. I just love it when literary pieces make me feel I’m super smart once I finished indulging them.

Top 5 must watch movies/series:

1. Ruby Sparks (2012)

Top script: “I’m just having trouble wrapping my head around the reality of this situation. That you’re here. That you’re real. ” As mentioned by my Day 1 entry item #9, I don’t usually watch a movie twice. But I’ve watched Ruby Sparks for I think 5 times already and have recommended it to too many people because I love it so fucking much! It’s about Calvin, a writer, who managed to unearth the very character he was supposedly fictionally writing about. Filled with (as ironic as this sounds) realistic situations between relationships — of turning your dream partner into reality, controlling each other in a relationship, anxiety, commitment, and letting go of the fantasy you only made for yourself  — this movie will always be on my #1 spot.

2. The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

There’s only a few number of movies who can make you feel as if you made an accomplishment just by watching it  — this is one of them. The plot surrounds Andy Dufresne, a respected banker who was mistakenly blamed for his wife and her lover’s death. It’s about survival, working your way from rock bottom, justice, and outsmarting other people.

3. Predestination (2014)

I’ve always loved fantasies about parallel universes, time travelling, and paradoxes (there’s a lot of things I like about movies and books and series okay). Aside from Ruby Sparks, this is the movie I’ve watched tons of times already, just because I think I always miss a detail everytime I do. Another random fact about me is that I’m 90% of the time right about my plot twist conclusions, except the very spiraled plot twists of this movie (and the movie Interstellar).

If you haven’t watched this movie yet, send me a pm and I’ll give you a link. It’s about time you redeem the missing half of your life.

4. The Big Bang Theory

As I’ve said, I love books, movies, series, and basically anything that can make me feel smart — and this series was able to entertain the hell out of me at the same time make me feel as if I’m on a Hawking-level of intellect. I can never define how much I love the humor, sarcasm, and irony all squeezed into this series. If you know basic physics, I’m sure you’ll be obsessed too.

5. Stranger Things

Name one person you know who watched this and did not like it, I dare you. Nuff said.

Note: Lemme just define how difficult it was for me to recommend only 5 books and 5 movies/series: extremely.

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hi i am doing this solely for myself/my own records so please feel free to ignore!!!!!! i wanted to challenge myself by making a top 10 albums list from the last decade - it was rly difficult because my ass truly cannot cut things down and be decisive, but here it is! 

i know many ppl r not into this kinda thing, but i really really love symbolic gestures - i love the idea that a new year (or a new decade!) can wipe ur slate clean, can give u a chance to be hopeful and excited and look forward to things - i hate change and i hate endings but the one good thing to come of them are beginnings! i love new starts, i love freshness, i love blank slates. i know that the end of the year/decade is arbitrary and doesn’t rly mean anything in the long run but....... it is important and super special to me!!!

i’m really not good with words/proper descriptions of the music itself, so i mainly just describe memories/associations i make to the albums, so don’t expect a proper music critic’s review or anything LOL… i am also not ranking by objective quality, but influence - these r the albums that personally made the biggest impact on me since 2010. i started off the decade age 13 and finished it in 2019 at age 23..... so clearly that is a very big difference in stages of life!!! i completed my teenage years, graduated from elementary school, high school & university.... i went thru many different friend groups, many different personality changes...... several big life events occurred…. many many hours were spent listening to music. and now i’m here! 

my only rules were 1. had to be on repeat for a significant amount of time, 2. preferably only one album per artist (to force me to pick between them), and 3. i had to consistently listen to the album as a whole (as opposed to just a few songs out of it)...... some of my fav songs in the world aren’t on these albums bc they were either released before 2010 or i didn’t listen to the rest of the album except for a handful of songs (as is usually the case for me). so the albums on this list are markers in my life, and i could (and did!) listen to them front and back. and ALSO they are not ranked from 1-10...... it was literally difficult enough choosing just 10 and i truly would not survive having to rank them as well. in release date order, here they are!!!!!

 owen pallett - heartland (jan 12th, 2010)

okay i know i just said i wouldn’t rank these but........... well this one is #1 regardless lol!!! the rest are not in any sort of order but this one has to be first (and how lucky that it was released first too!!!) this is the most important/special album to me in the world - it’s the first album released by my favourite musician under his real name, it has some of my most favourite songs of all time on it - it’s probably the first album in my life that i loved and listened to as a whole! when I was younger i never used to have favourite singers or favourite writers or favourite artists - i would have one favourite song/book/painting but never look into the creator’s other work, never had any interest in organizing things that way. but this is the first time i thought - “i adore this song..... and i adore all the other songs this person makes.... so i guess i like this whole album?” not to mention it’s a whole story and world - heartland tells a whole fable and sounds so beautiful doing so. owen was also the first concert i’ve ever been to! he is so beautiful and wonderful and this album is perfect and has my heart and can do no wrong! and as a plus it was released right at the beginning of 2010 so it truly started off the decade and set the pace. i really don’t know what else to say! heartland was a constant throughout the last ten years - i can’t tie it to one specific moment or feeling the way i can with the other albums. this one was really just the background of my whole adolescence, i guess, and i’ll love owen and this album forever!!!! love love love

 gorillaz - plastic beach (march 3, 2010)

i honestly didn’t listen to this album as a whole until the summer after grade 11/before grade 12 when i had to take summer school for math bc i failed (first class i had ever failed :’)!!) and needed the credit for my grade 12 courses (many of which i ended up failing anyway lol) BUT i still had hope at this point so this summer wasn’t that bad..... i remember i had to buy my own bus pass for the summer w my own work money for the first time and walk to the mall bus stop every day all summer to take the city bus downtown to the highschool that used to b a prison (RIP, it got torn down this year) to take summer math from 8-3, 5 days a wk. i loved those classes surprisingly? i remember that summer i dressed so cute every day, i would wear my extra ass dresses and knee high socks and do my hair all cute...... i’d steal my mom’s old lady sweaters w mini skirts and make my own coffee to bring w me and felt so adult..... i didn’t make any friends bc i thought they were all too cool but later learned that the girls in class rly liked me and remembered me the next year when i’d see them at their highschool when visiting for a trivia tournament (don’t judge!!!!) also the first time i got hit on bc a 30 yr old man in my class somehow got my email from the teacher and sent me a creepy email asking me out and i was too scared to go to school the next day lol..... truly feels surreal. but yes i would listen to this album (and demon dayz!) on repeat cuz i found the full albums uploaded to youtube so i remember i would just listen to the entire album all the way thru for the duration of the bus ride while looking out the window and daydreaming bc i couldn’t skip any songs and I couldn’t go on my phone bc the music only plays if u keep the youtube app open…. so it’s hard to listen to the songs individually now because i just picture the transitions every time!

 caribou - swim (april 20, 2010)

this was my summer between grade 8 - grade 9! up until this point i only had a handful of western artists that i listened to (before highschool i listened almost exclusively to Japanese doujin groups that remixed video game music…. do NOT judge!!!) and i felt soooo cool when i started listening to this album/others like it… had odessa downloaded on my zen creative mp3.... so freaking good!! got so embarrassed of my music taste after this LOL cuz my brother saw the album cover on my phone in highschool and asked what hipster shit i was listening to. little did he know.... its GOOD!!!! such a great album to just listen to all the way through. perfect background music for studying/ /walking/smoking/literally doing anything to! i can still listen to it and pinpoint different/new melodies in the back in certain songs. so good!!!

 crystal castles - (II) (april 23, 2010)

so many 2010 albums wow but LISTEN....... i first heard crystal castles in either 2010 or 2011, immediately after i first made a tumblr in grade 9.... this was the era when offensive bloggers and hipster british bloggers were like the only 2 sections of tumblr...... one of the first ppl i followed was this one super popular british blogger, this kid from london who was probs 15 and he had like, a pale grunge aesthetic and rly long bangs that covered his eyes.... i forget his name omg i wish i could see what he was doing now! but ya i loved him i thought he was the coolest thing ever, i went on his blog and he had autoplay and pap smear was the first song that started playing...... i remember being like wtf is this??? first time i heard music like that, with the video game sounds mixed in and the vocals so distorted. i literally was enamoured like i remember thinking i should hate it and wtf r these british freaks listening to but like..... i could NOTTTT STOP and i remember i wouldn’t even bother looking up the song on youtube or anything, when i wanted to listen to the song i would just go to this guy’s tumblr LOOOOOL god!!!! on the outside i was a cutesy girly girl but on the inside i was a pale grunge hipster british tumblr user!

 beach house - bloom (may 15, 2012)

this album is just the sweetest, prettiest memory…. it’s so.. crisp? and clear and pure and loving! beach house was (unsurprisingly) my spotify artist of the decade and i don’t care what rep they get or how similar their music may sound i love them with my entire heart! discovered them from tumblr (as i did most of my fav highschool albums) - first beach house song i ever heard was wild - i remember the first time i started being (SLIGHTLY) less mortified of talking about my music taste to other people, it was maybe in first year? i had gotten into my friend’s car, before we got super close, and she was playing a song off of bloom i think! and i remember my heart just stopped!!!! and i was so absolutely terrified of saying anything, but even moreso excited to see someone whose opinion i cared about who was listening to music that i liked, and so i gathered all my strength and tried to be super casual and say something like “oh, you like beach house, too?” (meanwhile i was literally shaking with nerves…..) and she just so easily said “yeah, i love this song!” and it was the most validating, comforting thing! and a while after that, one of my favourite memories: my other friend got hired at a local café/tea shop, the teeniest little place – it was like 3x4 metres, max – and she would close the store alone, and it was always completely dead, so the group of us would go and sit with her for her entire shift in this sweet warm little store – we’d have tea and coffee and scones – and over the store speakers, she would play whatever we wanted – and for a while i didn’t make suggestions, let everyone else choose, but! i worked my way up to suggesting she play bloom – and she would play the album all the way through, and she surprisingly really liked it?? and then it became the default soundtrack to our tiny hangouts in the tiny café :’)

 toro y moi - anything in return (jan 16, 2013)

WOWWWW truly such a throwback....... this is the first time i felt cool, TRULY cool listening to music LMAOOOO SO EMBARRASSING!!! i remember the day it came out, grade 11 i guess??? but i swear it must have leaked way earlier cuz i remember listening to this way before.... my fav tumblr user at the time (kiki deerhoof LMFAO now THAT is a throwback!!!!) was always posting abt toro y moi and made a mixtape w his music on it and i fell in love..... and i wanted to be cool too! so i would obsessively listen to this album when it dropped. the album drop also overlapped w the moment my grades/effort in school went on a steep decline (not that it caused it ofc but this was like…. the background music to my demise, in a way!) i’ll never forget listening to so many details on my chilly walk past my old elementary school at 6am to get to my bus stop - way too cool for school

 mac demarco - salad days (apr 1, 2014)

how fitting that chamber of reflection is playing in the coffee shop as i type this :’) this album was the soundtrack to my late grade 12/entire grade 13 experience. i was SO thoroughly and unbearably depressed LOOOOL it was really awful… i’m laughing now thinking back at it but honestly the feeling of being left behind by all of your friends and having to come to terms with not meeting ur own expectations of urself… having to repeat a year and being the oldest one in ur classes…… SO AWFUL!!!! really truly idk how i did it! but the whole time, all year, i would listen to this album. i would always play it on my walk to the city bus (in grade 13 i never made the actual school bus and i don’t even know how much money i must have paid taking the city bus every day bc i truly could not get out of bed early enough to take the free school bus but ALAS……) and i swear to you that entire year was grey and foggy and cold and damp… and i would play salad days (the song itself) and my emo ass would associate 100% with mac singing “oh mama, acting like my life’s already over….. oh dear, act your age and try another year,” and i swear he was singing it just for me, trying to slap me out of my stupor by saying “calm down, ur fine, ur life isn’t over, it’s just one year and you’ll be back on track!” and sometimes, SOMETIMES!! it worked!

 azealia banks - broke with expensive taste (nov 7, 2014)

i know i know..... i’m aware how we feel about azealia now....... and i know how overstated it is when ppl say “she may be problematic but she was an artistic GENIUS!!!” so i will not add more to the conversation but....... is this album not pristine? like what a masterpiece????? this album straight up defined my highschool experience even tho it was released at the beginning of grade 12..... all of grade 12/13 i was blasting this album while walking down the hallway hating literally everything! i grew up idolizing my bro and all he listened to (techno/house/etc) and loving it but being too embarrassed of copying him to get too into it, but then hearing azealia sound cute and sexy and scary while interpolating all these house beats. LITERALLY chicken soup for the soul… it felt like she made it just for me!! and even before bwet actually dropped, listening to 212 and all of her other singles waiting for her to finally drop the album she was tweeting about for years, like i don’t remember the last time i anticipated an album for soooo long? and she dropped it days after my 17th bday which really was such a perfect gift. listening to this w my friend who also loved azealia, pretending we were cool as SHIT and so grown up...... beyond influential

 frank ocean - blonde (aug 20, 2016)

ur lying if this album wasn’t a pivotal moment for u......... blonde is the sole reason summer 16 is viewed as a cultural landmark. i SWEAR!!!! i may have spent 8 hours a day on tumblr in 2016 but my ass was NOT cool enough to have been listening to frank ocean prior to blonde..... no i never listened to channel orange before this, yes i know i was behind the times! 2016 was the summer after my 1st year of uni, august i had just finished my summer school course so my summer was just starting (i was re-taking 1st year math bc i failed..... some things never change huh!!!! lied to my dad and told him i was tryna get ahead by taking bio in summer school... he believed me till he caught me in a lie by chatting w my friend he bumped into at walmart LOL.... and yet he never said a word :’) an angel) this was also the summer my dad left for a few months to go travelling across canada, he was gone all summer and my bro was busy working and so was my mom and i had the car all to myself for the first time. went on SOOO many drives this summer blasting this album. not to mention that since my dad wasn’t home the responsibility to drive my mom to work fell on me and wow i LOVED it? i realized i love having little responsibilities and having ppl rely on me in little ways like this..... i loved going to bed at 3am and having my mom gently wake me up at 5:30am, having a coffee with her before leaving in my ratty pajamas to drive her to work, the sun was just rising but it was already sooo hot, that summer i remember i couldn’t even hold the steering wheel cuz it was burning and my car didn’t (still doesn’t!) have AC, i’d drop her off to work up on the mountain and as i drove down the escarpment i would roll down the windows and blast pink + white right as the sun began to peek over the clouds and i would take a pretty sunrise pic every time before driving around for a bit, listening to this album, going home, and going back to sleep till 2pm

 blood orange - negro swan (aug 24, 2018)

i fully expected this list to be mainly albums released earlier in the decade, which makes sense – they would’ve had more time to have an effect on me – but as the final/most recent entry on my list, this album was beautiful enough to be a consistent part of the most recent year-and-a-half of my life!!! it’s also unique in that it’s one of the only albums on this list, i think, where i had already been a big fan of the artist’s previous work and was waiting for the album to drop. not 2 sound like one of THOSE people but i often find myself liking the first albums i heard from an artist/their older music better than newer work they release (not always!!! but often!), not from any kind of elitism or anything but honestly probably just nostalgia fogging my taste? especially for my first listen of a new album – it usually takes some time and a few re-listens before i really enjoy a newer release – BUT! from the moment dev released the album cover (which is so beautiful? one of my fav album covers off the top of my head) and dropped the first 2 singles, ESPECIALLY charcoal baby, i was so so enamoured with the album, right from the start. that whole summer i had it on repeat – early the next year i saw dev play in Toronto, and it was one of the best concerts i’ve ever been to – the lighting and colours and his dancing and demeanour, the other vocalists, plus we were right up at the stage, it was so stunning!!!!! this album has consistently appeared on all of my various spotify playlists, it rly can suit all moods and occasions, i love it very much and it’s the perfect album to round out my past decade in music!

 honourable mentions: SPEED ROUND

yes i’m a CHILD that cannot commit to cutting things down...... but tbh i’m surprised enough that i was able to preen my list into a top 10 anyway. so these r the honourable mentions that i couldn’t live with myself if i didn’t mention in some way!!!! all also very good and important and special to me, in no particular order!

mount kimbie - love what survives: i won’t lie this one hurt to not include on my top 10 :( i’m surprised too.... my friend rly fought for this to be included but i had to listen to my heart!!! however ofc i HAD to include it here at the very least. i was so shocked when it dropped, it was nothing like the rest of mount kimbie’s stuff i had previously heard.... i discovered them randomly when i was studying and spotify did that annoying thing where it plays “artist radio” or whatever so one of their older songs came on shuffle and WOW it was so good! and then i properly listened to them after hearing their songs with king krule... anyway this album is stunning and i am SO sad i didn’t get to see them when they came to toronto but i promise myself (and u!) that i will go the next time they come by!!!! u have my word!

foals - holy fire: this one also hurts a lot to not include :((( a LOT a lot! this one i’m really fond of, my fav foals album and one of the main albums i associate with highschool! so pretty, i’ll never forget hearing holy fire (the song itself) for the first time, so angry and satisfying and GOOD!!!

king krule - 6ft beneath the moon/the ooz: love both these albums soooo so much, i think 6fbtm came closer to almost being in the top 10 but others had it beat juuust slightly - these albums defined the beginning/end of my uni career, respectively, and i’ll cherish them forever! love archie’s ugly ginger ass with my whole heart

james blake - the colour in anything: was such a fan of james and was so excited when this album dropped - it was the start of summer i think? and i would always play it when i went for bike rides to the beach with my dad! such pretty music to drive ur bike to beside the water, all the way down the waterfront until we got to the next city over, riding past all the rich ppl’s mansions and trying to sneak a glance into their windows as we rode by

beyonce - self-titled: obviously the day this dropped - w no promo whatsoever - was a critical moment in music history!! we played this obsessively in high school, blasted this album the entire Europe trip in grade 12 and it just reminds me of travelling and planes and France…. so sexy!

solange - a seat at the table: rly truly a gorgeous album!! we played this in the car when my friends and i trekked to Toronto early one fall morning right after it dropped, we skipped school to go to some event at a café, and we had to wake up DUMB early, like 4:30AM, and i went to go pick them up and we were all way too tired to talk to eachother and stressed cuz we absolutely COULDN’T miss the train so i played this album the whole drive there while the sun was rising and it was so calming and pretty and special

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Review: Fabricated City

I’ve been living in New York City for over two decades now, and each passing year (more like each passing month, or week, or hour, or minute) I ask myself why in hell do I bother sticking around? But then comes summer time, aka the best time, cuz it’s Asian movie time. Otherwise known as the New York Asian Film Festival!

Seriously, if there’s one thing that the Big Apple can continue to lay claim towards, and proudly, it’s how there’s absolutely no better place on earth to be if you’re a cinephile, with the NYAFF as the undisputed number 1 reason for 16 years now. Though why am I mentioning all this, on a video game blog? Well, that’s because…

This year features a film that’s video game related! Obviously. It’s been a while, ever since the 2012 edition brought us the live-action adaptation of Ace Attorney, and before that, there were the live-action adaptations of both The Onechanbara and Yakuza in 2008. Though this year’s Fabricated City has much more in common with something I saw all way back in 2003, Resurrection of the Little Match Girl.

Because Fabricated City is not based on a game but an original story (if you can call it that) and also hails from South Korea. It’s by director Park Kwang-hyun, his first film since 2005’s Welcome to Dongmakgol, which long-time goers of the NYAFF still fondly remember (like myself). Going in, expectations were high, especially after reading one reviewer describe it as: “an updated version of Park Chan-wook's Oldboy set in the world of online video games.”

Well, ummm…

Fabricated City stars Kwon Yu (portrayed by Ji Chang-wook), who is the captain of a squad of online gamers (hence his nickname, Captain). They all play a first person shooter that strongly resembles Call of Duty, so much so that the film opens up with the team in the middle of a fracas that basically mirrors that Super Bowl ad for Modern Warfare 3 from years back. The rest of the team is quite capable, with each member specializing in a skill of some kind, be it sharpshooting or demolitions. Except for Mr. Hairy, who is considerably less than equipped and in fact is perpetually frightened of all the gunfire.

So two minutes in and I’m already confused. I’m assuming anyone else would be too, unless he or she was completely unaware of the visual cues that what we’re watching is a realistic depiction of a scene in a video game (or is completely unaware of the film’s plot beforehand). Cuz why would someone be acting all scared like this? It’s not like whomever is playing a scary video game. True, often you have to forget about what you know about a movie beforehand while watching, to go with flow, but in this instance... it’s just confusing.

After a scoring a victory, despite the fact that the Captain was killed in the line of fire, due to saving Mr. Hairy’s hairy ass, we cut to reality… Inside an internet cafe is where the real Kwon Yu spends all his time, playing video games and not looking for a job. Which drives his single mother up the wall. We also find out that the Captain is a mystery to his teammates and he subsequently has never met them in IRL.

A phone rings next to his booth and Kwon Yu answers; it’s the owner, who left it behind, and she asks him to return it back to her. At first he doesn’t want to bother, but the hefty reward is too much to pass on. So he drops it off at the woman’s apartment, with zero fuss or muss. But when she ends up raped and murdered, guess who’s the suspect? The Captain becomes public enemy number oneand is sentenced to life in jail without parole (thanks in part to the seemingly gutless public defender’s halfhearted defense).

Not surprisingly, the Captain immediately becomes the target of the big dog of the yard and his posse, who savagely beats our hero into submission, or so that’s his plan. But Kwon Yu fights back, despite being outnumbered, largely due to the fact that he knows how to handle himself (as a former taekwondo star before being kicked off the team for aggressive tendencies). Though the primary source of his resolve is mom, who tells her son that she’s trying her best to get him outta there. But when she unexpected commits suicide, all hope seems lost. Until Kwon Yu is befriended by the single person that no one messes with in jail; a cannibal serial killer who takes a liking to the young man that has guts enough to stand up the big bully.

Alas, their friendship only lasts long enough for Kwon Yu to make his escape. As a fugitive, the Captain discovers that he truly is enemy number one, though there’s one lone voice out there, trying to prove to the world that the evidence simply doesn’t add up: it’s Mr. Hairy! Captain eventually meets up with his teammate, who turns out to be a super cute girl. Gee, what a surprise. As well as a super shy girl; Hairy can only communicate with Captain on the phone… even if they’re in the same room.

It’s worth mentioning how, at this point, I was more than a little disappointed in Fabricated City; there was hardly any video game to this video game movie, which itself was pretty bland and predictable. I honestly would have shut it off, if not for the acting chops the star, Ji Chang-wook, who does his best to add in as much heart and soul into such a one dimensional character that the film will allow. Though things started to pick up (or so I thought) when the rest of the team shows up. Again, as expected, their real world selves betray their video avatars: one’s a sorta young dude, another is kind of middle aged, and the third is practically a grandpa. No one seems like the typical gamer-type, which is neat I guess.

There’s actually seven squad members, but the other two are porn stars who are simply too busy to show up. Anyhow, the remaining five go on a mission to clear the Captain’s name, and along the way they discover the existence of an organization that covers up heinous behavior of the rich and powerful, by framing innocent individuals (like, you know, Kwon Yu). Naturally the inept public defender is the evil architect of it all, whose super fancy desk is basically the 21st century version of the one Dillinger uses to communicate with the MCP in Tron. And is there an attempt to haxxor said desk? You bet there is!

Easily my biggest issue with the film is its overuse of movie magic. Two minutes into the proceedings, one gets the feeling that the director is perhaps unfamiliar with video games, which is already an issue. Yet the logic flaw that I described above, at the very least, helped to establish character, and the dichotomy between the Mr Hairy we see at the very beginning and the real person that is revealed is at least somewhat entertaining. Whereas when the good guys create drones to spy on the bad guys, which are conveniently able to listen to conversations through walls, cuz they can all do that you see… it would appear that Park Kwang-hyun also has a less than firm grasp of technology. The example given is just one of several transparent attempts at covering up plot holes, which gets super dumb, super fast.

Towards the end, the Captain exhibits all sorts of extraordinary abilities. Being able handle himself in a fight makes sense, it’s established that he knows how to punch and kick. But his death defying driving skills? While it would have been super cliched to connect it to time spent with driving video games, at least that would have been some other connection to video games that I was craving for. So, as a video game movie, Fabricated City is a disappointment and certainly not the new Resurrection of the Little Match Girl I’ve been craving. While hardly perfect, it at least had plenty of attempts at connecting video games with the real world, as goofy as they were. Like how God was a French guy who runs an arcade in heaven. Fabricated City is just not nearly as interesting.

Though simply taken for what it aims to be, an action crime drama, it fails in that too. Largely due to the aforementioned overuse of technology to get the Captain and his team out of hot water, time and time and again. It’s perhaps unfair or flat out foolish to state the following, since there’s only one previous film to his credit, but Fabricated City feels like a movie by a director trying to do something totally different. And the result is either a refreshing take on a genre or a total mess, cuz the director doesn’t realize that he’s actually doing what has been done before, yet not as well. Still, Ji Chang-wook’s performance is fairly engaging, so if you want to tell people that you saw one of his earlier work when he inevitably becomes the talk of Hollywood, you’ll have that chance on July 15, at 3:00PM.

In the end, Fabricated City is legit the rare dud in an otherwise phenomenal line-up for this year’s NYAFF. May I suggest instead a Filipino take on American teen romance flicks, with a heavy dose of Who Framed Roger Rabbit? To learn more about that one, simply head on over to my personal blog, which used to be mostly about video games but is now mostly about Asian movies as a whole. Though I’m not done talking about video game movies. In fact, I’ve got another review in the wings, either next week or the next…

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It's been exactly 5 years since I started this amazing blog ❤️❤️

I literally can’t believe that I’ve had this blog for so long I remember when my girlfriend at the time introduced me to Tumblr back all the way in 2012 on this exact day and I wasn’t really the social media type at the time I used Facebook a lot but I was starting to use it less and less, I barely ever used my Twitter then and I was starting to use Instagram at that point when it first got popular but even then I posted very little at that time and when I started using it I was like “yeah I probably won’t use this very much” but once I knew how to use it it didn’t take long for me to really love this site and I never thought my blog would be the popular blog that it is today 😊😊

I’m so happy that this blog reached the 5 year mark 😊 Tumblr was and still is one of my favorite sites to go on and my blog is the one place that I can go to just to be myself and speak about what’s on my mind and barely ever get judged for it that’s one thing that Tumblr has that no other social media site can do and it’s definitely one thing I love about this site.

My blog started out as a blog with just some random things and famous people that I loved which includes Taylor Swift, Marianas Trench, friends and other stuff but it grew into being the Taylor Swift fan blog that it is today with my recent love for classic movies added in as well but it still has a bit of everything too ❤️ and I’ve gotten to know some incredible people on here as well and a few of them I can truly call my friends (you know who you are 😊) and in the middle of it all the country pop superstar that I blog about all the time constantly and that I’ve loved since 2006 follows me on here as well @taylorswift ❤️ and I’m so happy and thankful that she follows me and likes my posts from time to time and I do hope she comes back to Tumblr soon 😊 so thank you Taylor so much for noticing me back in 2014 ❤️ I love you so much ❤️

& thank you to EVERYONE that follows me or have followed me in the past, has liked, reblogged and/or replied to my posts, has asked me questions or just wanted to have chat with me and even to those that just looked at my blog once or twice you guys are amazing and my blog wouldn’t be where it is without you guys so thank you from the bottom of my heart and if you guys ever need anything just go to my ask or message me I’m always here 😊 I love you all 😊❤️

Happy 5 years to my blog ❤️❤️

[belletheoutsider]

How Once Upon a Time Changed My Life

With all of the latest news with Once Upon a Time when it comes to cast members not returning and such, I wanted to take the time to talk about this show in a more positive way than I have seen lately.

I know this seems like something extremely overdramatic, but I can honestly say that this show has changed my life. I am not even kidding. Please bear with me as I explain this. I hope you will click the “Read More” and follow my story.

First, let’s start with a little bit of backstory.

It was the summer of 2012 and after my freshman year of college. I was preparing for my recovery period after wisdom teeth surgery. I asked my friends on Facebook for TV show and movies recommendations to watch during my recovery. A family friend said I should watch Once Upon a Time since I love Disney and fairytales. It was the first show I watched during recovery. The show had me intrigued from the scene that introduced Rumplestitskin as he discusses the future with Prince Charming and pregnant Snow White. But the moment I knew I was emotionally invested was in the end of a particular mid-season episode.

You guessed it. “Skin Deep”. At first, I wasn’t sure about the whole “Rumplestiltskin is the beast” idea. I was skeptical, and Beauty and the Beast is my favorite fairytale and Disney movie. I was worried if this would be a good adaptation. By the end of that episode, I was sobbing. Needless to say I finished the series before my recovery was done. 

Oh, and let’s not forget the other episode that emotionally destroyed me.

Yep. This episode? I was a wreck. Not to mention this scene.

The acting in this scene was truly heart wrenching! Bravo to everyone in this episode!

So yeah, I was obsessed very quickly. As I watched other shows people recommended, I was simultaneously scrolling through Tumblr to find OUaT blogs to follow. I had already been on Tumblr, but I wasn’t extremely active in a fandom. Now I understood what it mean to have feels and ship and what OTPs were. I even got my mom and two close friends into the show.

Soon, I started contributing to the OUAT fandom. I started creating fan videos that combined Once Upon a Time characters with different songs from Disney movies and musicals. I had already been doing some voiceover work/dubbing on my channel, but not religiously uploading. During this fan video phase, I discovered a couple YouTubers that did voiceovers of Once Upon a Time scenes. I joined them on a few projects on both of our channels. There are two of them that I still continue to have friendships with that have gone beyond YouTube dubbing. 

I continued with my fan videos and showed them to my family and friends. One of them I even submitted to a Once Upon a Time fan-created video contest and won first place! People liked my videos and my family and friends said I had a talent and an eye for video editing. My parents started telling others about my videos, and I ended up getting 2 jobs because of them. One was a freelance job for editing a wedding video. The other was a summer job creating dozens of videos for a small company where I did everything from filming to archiving to editing. This job ended up being my first introduction to a possible line of work. This possible line became my first step into my career as a theater manager who is interested in marketing. I am currently in graduate school getting an MFA in Theatre Management and MBA in Business Administration. This is something I would have never discovered without Once Upon a Time.

Another thing that happened when I entered the fandom was I came across a great ask RP blog called ask-mr-gold. Unfortunately, that blog has changed names and I can’t find it anymore, but this was a great blog where someone answered questions as Rumple and Belle. Whoever the handler was, they did a great job and stayed completely in character. It was like I was talking to the characters themselves. In time, I found that they had a bunch of other ask blogs they interacted with who played characters like Regina, Emma and Henry. It was so much fun asking them questions and interacting with them. If the handlers who had those blogs find this, I want to say thank you for doing that. I think about you guys a lot and miss interacting with you all.

It was these blogs that got me into the world of roleplaying. I am assuming those who read this post know what roleplaying is, but in case you don’t, think of it as improvisational fanfiction. Basically, I play a character from a certain tv show, movie, book, etc. and I talk to someone else who plays a different character. We discuss a story to play out and we take turns telling the story from each of our character’s point of view. If you need more examples of this, please see more posts from this blog.

I started roleplaying by doing ask blogs, similar to the ones I mentioned earlier, but then I moved to para roleplaying, which is the ones where you are telling stories (again, see my blog). That is how I created this blog and have been here for 3 and a half years.

This blog introduced me to a huge friend group. While I did have friends who watched this show and were also in similar fandoms, I was finally with a group of people who loved the show as much as I did and were on this roleplaying this journey with me. Roleplaying was something others that people who don’t participate have a hard time understanding it. The roleplay partners were not just acquaintances of mine. Some of them were close friends. People I chatted with often or even Skyped with on a frequent basis. Some of them I was fortunate enough to meet in real life. One of those friends I met in real life took me to one of the best events of my life: Regal Con. This was a convention where I got to meet so many of the amazing cast members of the show including Lana Parilla, Sean Maguire, Rebecca Mader and so many more. I even ended up having a conversation with Eion Bailey where I had to explain him what roleplaying is (but he didn’t fully understand it at the end). I have also been able to meet Robert Carlyle and Emilie De Ravin twice, and I also served Jennifer Morrison as a cast member at Disneyland. The point is that this show has given me some of the strongest and most important friendships of my life and the best experiences that I will never forget.

Another huge way Once Upon a Time impacted my life was with relationships. I befriended another roleplayer who played Rumple. I guess to tell this story I need to start from the beginning.

We were friends for three years before we finally realized we had feelings for each other. Now we are in a relationship, and we are completely happy.

As corny as it sounds, this show helped us find true love and our own happy ending. Right now, it is long distance, which provides its own challenges, but we are fighting for it because we know we will eventually be together. And, as we have also learned from this show:

So, that’s exactly what we are doing. Once Upon a Time is always going to be a show that connects us, even after it is gone. It will always hold a special place in both of our hearts. 

To sum up, Once Upon a Time has been invaluable to me. It helped me unleash my inner nerd, find some long-lasting friendships, gave me some amazing experiences I wouldn’t change for anything, helped guide me on my career path, and helped me find the love of my life. 

I would not be the same without this show, and I owe so much that I will be loyal to the show until the end. Even if Belle will no longer be a regular on the show, I will continue to watch it. Even if the show does things I don’t like or don’t agree with, I still choose to watch the show because it will always hold that special place for me. In the end, the show has continued to have episodes that I connect to emotionally and throw a few surprises my way. When I think about it going off the air, it does make me sad. I have even shed some tears at the thought of it. I still love the show, and I will miss it when it is gone. I know I will go through a period where I feel that loss emotionally and maybe physically. Alas, I know the show will have to end at some point. It’s inevitable. Until then, this show has this loyal viewer who will continue to tune in every Sunday.

I want to end this post by thanking some important people. 

First, I want to thank all of the roleplayers that have interacted with me on my blogs over the years. Each one of you has been special to me, and I want to thank you for embracing me. 

I want to send a special thank you to those roleplayers who chose to befriend the person behind the blog. I cherish you all for trying to be my friend. It has meant so much to me.

I want to thank my Youtube friends Zora Catone and Charles (PengVoiceMan2) for your continued friendship. You are both amazing and talented men that I have been honored to dub with. I am happy that I can still consider you both my friends.

I want to thank my friends from Regal Con. I have bonded with you guys more than I have bonded with people I have known for years. Thank you for your continued friendship to me and loyalty to the show.

I want to of course thank my amazing boyfriend for being my oldest RP partner. I love you so much. Thank you for taking a chance on my Belle, on being my friend for 3 years, and for choosing to be with me. I may be the one who plays Belle, but so often I feel like the Rumple who found someone who sees them as lovable.

I want to thank the creators of Once Upon a Time, Adam Horowitz and Eddy Kitsis. I also want to thank the writers and other members of the creative team who helped tell this story for the past 6 years.  You guys are all incredible. Thank you for creating such a fantastic world where the fairytales we loved and grew up with have now grown up and allow us to see them in a new light as adults.

I also want to thank the other creative designers that were apart of this project. From costumes to scenic to sound and music, everything helped create this world that despite all of the danger and peril, so many of us wanted to travel there. That is because you all created a world that seemed so amazing to be in. Thank you all for sharing your talent on this amazing show.

I want to thank the main series regular cast. To Jennifer, Jared, Josh, Ginny, Lana, Rebecca, Colin, Robert, and Emilie, you all have created a main cast of characters that has kept us engaged. We laughed and cried along with your characters. You are our path into these characters and helped them come to life for all of us. Despite all of the love and respect I have for you all, every new episode or interview opens my eyes to admire you all even more. I will miss those of you who are not returning and will continue to support you all on your future endeavors. I am also looking forward to those of you who are staying to see what happens to your characters. Thank you all for putting your hearts and souls into these characters so we can come on the journey with you.

I want to thank all of the supporting actors who have come into the show. There are so many to count! From the larger roles like Sean and Michael to some of the roles that reappeared every so often like JoAnna, Beverley, Lee, Michael, Faustino and all the dwarves to the characters that were there for a few episodes or part of a season like Robbie, Victoria, and Barbara (to name a few). No matter how often your characters were on the show, it was your appearances and your unique stories that made us interested and kept us hooked. I always celebrate when your characters return for an episode, and I love you all.

Thank you. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the happiness. Thank you for the last 6 years. Thank you for the magic.

Here’s to Season 7!

[ame-saku]

Hakuouki Tag Game

[Poll made by shenanigumi]

Tagged by @hades-no-daifuku and @msbeastlyeevee thank you sooooo much sure is taking some time doing this but hey, it’s better to post then not to.

How and when you got into this glorious fandom:

I’ve known this fandom since the game released on PSP which is, around 2012, I believe. I don’t remember tbh. But if i remember correctly, as I check on my load, it looked like I save the game since around 2012 so yeah... Though I’m not a bookworm or into otome back then though I actually play it cuz a certain samurai reminds me of someone in Bleaaaargh. *cough* Niisama *cough* However, I return back to play Hakuouki as I grown a little older and decided to play several routes. Aaaaaaaaand I’m stuck in this fandom because of Kazama’s sudden kiss in CGI WAS SUPPOSE TO CHOOSE THE NORMAL ENDING FIRST. DAMN I MISUNDERSTOOD HOW GUIDE SHOW ME

Favourite character in terms of development:

I’m not really good at seeing the character’s development. But…definitely Souji. As I replay his route, I’ve noticed that Souji was very cold toward Chizuru in ‘common route’ especially when she was worried about him when he was coughing in blood. The colder he was, the more I find myself to dislike his cold attitude toward Chizuru. However, it didn’t last long as Souji eventually opened on her little by little, which I finds myself to love him back.

A character you’d get along with irl:

Hmm… I don’t know maybe Souji? Although Saitou is more suitable to me as I enjoy staying a peaceful atmosphere like him, but it may turned awkward eventually, so Souji is the best person to get along. I enjoyed getting teased lightly, not in sarcastically or heavily however as they can snap me quickly. The more they teased me or making me feels comfortable, the more I slowly opened up with them. I can be hardly open up to those who don’t give me a light joke or talk to me a lot.

 A character you are most like:

Mostly Saitou as I’m a very quiet and introvert person, doesn’t shows any expression a lot even if people try to surprise me. I also enjoy someplace quiet where there isn’t a lot of people. There are times I also had a social anxiety. But from my friends’ perspective, I’m more as Hijikata since I often being tsundere all the time like, ‘I hate everyone, I want them all to stay away from me’ although what I meant was, ‘I’m a terrible person, I wasn’t meant to be with them’.

Least favourite character:

I like all characters, including Kaoru, and Serizawa. …Maybe except Hijikata and Niimi however. But I have a complicated feelings about Hijikata. It’s not hate him but at the same time, it’s also not favourite as well. He’s just… between them, but far away from favourite list, I guess?

Of course everyone hate Niimi, who wouldn’t? He’s nuisance and can be annoying in Reimeiroku that brings my blood boil just looking at him appeared in Reimeiroku. Well... it’s good thing that he’s finally dead.

Personal favourite husband:

IT’S FUCKIN KAZAMA CHIKAGE OFC!!!!!! CANT YOU SEE WHO’S ICON IMMA USING?!!!! I DON’T FREAKIN CARE OF WHAT HE’S DONE IN EVERY ROUTE(except his own) IT’S JUST SHOWS HIM HE HAS MANY PERSONALITIES TOWARD THE MAIN SAMURAI ROUTE(except Harada as he doesn’t appear in Harada route, except in bad ending, only approaches Chizuru alone, not along with Harada pfffft)

 Favourite route:

Ofc, it would be none other than Kazama~ True there isn’t enough development between them before Shinkai coming. Everyone in the Shinsengumi died and bla bla bla. I can’t helped it but I suddenly love his sudden kiss on his CG truly. I wasn’t really expected to see this ending before. I was expected they’re just become friends and finally respected to each other or something. IM FREAKIN LAZY TO FIND KAZAMA WITH PURPLE WESTERN CG ALRIGHT

Souji route is also one of the second best route. . It’s nice to see Kodou as a good guy in Souji’s route(tho i can’t love him in Hijikata route despite he’d protected Chizuru from rasetsus. But somehow his words in Hiji’s doesn’t makes him a good guy or something) Other than that, another reason that I love Souji’s route is his quotes was so beautiful that I can’t stop playing his route;

“If you agreed to go live with him there, that'd make you a monster. Killing people to try and hide your own pain? That sounds like a fury to me.

And what you really want is to be yourself again. Not a fury.

Or do you want to give up because you're a monster, and just spend the rest of your life hiding from the world?

You're Chizuru. You're not a monster.

If you give up on life, then I'll take it from you before you forget who you were.

If you don't want to die, you've gotta give up in giving up.

You need somebody who's gonna be strong for you, and I'm way too stubborn to even throw in the towel, so..”

I can’t expressed myself in words how much I love his quotes is. But all I can say is, it’s a very heartwarming one. I’ve always thought myself that when the time has come I would eventually hiding myself away where no one can find me.  Neither they know of my death. But Souji’s words, however, kinda changed me little by little.

As for Saitou’s route, the more I play it for a few times, the more I enjoy seeing KazamahadacrazythingforSaitouI mean Kazama’s evil side. I’m okay with whatever role Kazama’s taking as. Evil, terrible, bad, anti-hero-ish. Once the character is in my trash list, I can’t bring myself to hate or dislike it.

If it’s included Urakata though, definitely Aritomo. I may not know what’s going on with his route, possible something to do with another war or something(so glad it doesn’t has to do with Ochimizu and all). There are times Aritomo was quite strict and stern(ah wait, I recognized this character before. Who could that be?), and there’s also times Aritomo shows his cute and stundere moment.

 Who you’d wish had a route:

Well since Yamazaki and Sannan got route, I FREAKIN WANT AMAGIRI TO HAVE A ROUTE AS WELL!!!!! Honestly tho, cant we all dating other Onis beside Kazama orz. (actually tbh, choosing of all Onis route, I would definitely choose Amagiri trololol) Ah yes, just seeing Sakamoto has a route, it’s a little unfair how Nakaoka didn’t got a route as well

I mean, I like how he can be a dork, but at the same time

A freakin badass.

Just imagined how Nakaoka acted clumsier than Chizuru’s, but when an enemy tried to attack her, he would become her shining knight armor. 

Daaaaaaaaaaaammmmmnnnn

Least favourite route:

One of the worstnot-so-the-best route would be none other than Heisuke route. Just as Eevee-senpai’s stated, there’s so many confusing in there and I definitely not into childish, precious and cinnamon roll samurai. 

Even I’m not a fan of Yoosung in MM

I have more reasons why I hate Heisuke route but it be best to keep it away.

Favourite Chizuru ship:

KAZACHI ofc. I also adore OkiChi and maybe IbaChi as I always had a soft spot for childhood friend(exceptional for Heisuke in SSL as he’s still looks like a kid).

Top 3 ships over all:

Hakuouki

KazaChi. I wasn’t expecting to ship them harder the moment I got his good ending trololol.

AmaSen. When I play Kazama route for several times, I used to thought that there’s a hint of AmaSen there. Such as he brings Sen to Kazama’s location without protest, and the other one is he couldn’t able to go to Ezo with Kazama/Chizuru cuz he’s worried of Sen WAY MORE than Chizuru’s safety lolol. And so, I was like, oh now that’s a good and interesting pairing there.

But when I ‘watch’ Story of the Shinsengumi of Amagiri’s route, I was completely flabbergasted to see how Sen and Amagiri have a very close relationship. It’s not the kind  of relationship between the Princess and the Guardian. It’s much more deeperfuck you Heisuke route how dare you make Amagiri forget Sen True that Amagiri respected her very highly but I believed there’s something even better than that. So in conclusion, They. Are. Fuckin. Canon. Deal with it.

Aaaaaannd KazaSai. At first, they’re actually my guilty pleasure pairing, but the moment I’ve read the fanfics between them(which are mostly smut-ish, yet had a very nice plotline oneshot. And another one’s angsty, which is MY FAV; not just Saitou lose his left arm, he also lose his voice to say ‘I love you’ to Kaza urgh I cried so much that fic.. HOW DARE YOU) Yes yes, I understand this pairing is more as abusive(?) But hey, there are more people(which is, mostly japanese writer/artist) draw/writing these two as a not so abusive-ish.

Urakata Hakuouki

Takasugi x Kozue. His route and CGs kinda intrigued me. Some reviewers say that Izou’s way better while the rest of routes treated Kozue like a big bro or something. While Izou is special..? Umm I don’t know???

Aritomo x Kozue. I wasn’t expecting to fall in love with him little by little. HIs caring/worried toward Kozue was very something. Compared Hijikata though, he’s not over-protective or tells her to stay away from him or something. I like this kind of tsundere.

Nakaoka x Kozue. I was quite curious of him the moment I found Nakaoka/Takasugi CG where Nakaoka is all like ‘TAKASUGI-SENPAI!!!!’. Really, if Otomate ever makes Urakata SSL, Nakaoka and Shiranui should’ve create ‘Takasugi fan club’ by now pffffft. Aaaanyway, back to Nakaoka x Kozue pairing, like TakaKozue, his route quite intrigued as well. There are times Nakaoka acted a bit dorky, and there’s also Sakamoto the COCKBLOCKER. And her Niisama is alive there too...!!!!!

Do you write/draw/contribute to the fandom in some way? (If not, did you want to pass along the names of blogs that do and what you like about them?)

I have a writing blog in tumblr which is, @byaichi126fic and Fanfiction.net. However, right now, I’m focusing on writing KazaSai fics and possibly Change fic only. I also intending to write OkiChi fic, which is, requested by guest reviewer from Hisuru Hana fic. It’s been along time however, BUT her words giving me inspired to write it.

I also have an art blog. However, I don’t draw much. It depends. But, my fav Kazama/Saitou palette color already lost in my old laptop. So, the only way to make me draw once again is I have to send my old laptop to the electronic shop to fix it. 

Thank you very, very, very muuuuuuch for taggin me. It’s makes me so happy for getting notice~

Pretty sure everyone got tag already but, again, curiously taggin so...

@amiliephan, @kawaiisakuraoni

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Max Domi learning painful lessons about NHL fighting

Max Domi of the Arizona Coyotes gets ready during a faceoff against the Montreal Canadiens at Gila River Arena on February 9, 2017 in Glendale, Arizona. (Getty Images)

LOS ANGELES – Arizona Coyotes forward Max Domi was frustrated as he waited for his surgically repaired hand to heal earlier this season.

It was the first time in Domi’s career that he was forced to sit for a prolonged period (23 games total in this case) because of injury, and he truly realized how much he missed the game and being able to help his teammates. Also the process of working his way back to 100 percent was both new and challenging for the 21-year-old Domi.

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“I definitely have a whole new appreciation for guys who sit out of the lineup for that long and the work ethic you have to put in to get back,” he said. “It wasn’t easy by any means, but I’m happy to be back now.”

Domi’s injury, which occurred in a fight with Calgary Flames forward Garnet Hathaway in a game on Dec. 8, may prove an important moment for him in his career and how uses his feistiness in a game.

Though Domi’s aggressiveness and passion are major components of his style he understands that it’s more important for him to stay healthy over the long haul than potentially getting hurt in a fight to give his team a short-term boost.

“It’s not really what I probably should be doing overall but at the end of the day I’m a guy that’s a pretty emotional guy who just enjoys the game and plays hard, so if that happens, it happens,” Domi said. “The only thing I really took out of that was you have to pick your spots a little bit better and be a little bit smarter and stay calm, so if you do that and just play hockey and everything else is fun. I definitely learned from it – the experience. It sucked being out and watching the guys for that long but it’s over now, it’s behind us so just trying to move forward now.”

Last season as a rookie, Domi finished second in Coyotes scoring with 52 points in 81 games played. This season he ranks second amongst team regulars in points per-game at 0.64. Overall he has 21 points in 33 contests. Not having his speed and playmaking ability hurt the team’s chances to ice its best possible lineup night-in, night-out.

“He’s a competitive guy, but that’s a situation you don’t want players of that stature getting hurt fighting, that’s for sure,” Coyotes coach Dave Tippett said.

When Domi fights, it makes news. That’s because his father Tie was a legendary enforcer who played 1,020 games. While Tie Domi passed down his in-game passion to Max, the younger Domi is a much better offensive player, which is why he doesn’t need to be a pugilist when he doesn’t have to.

Coyotes captain Shane Doan is cut from a similar cloth as Max and figured out that he couldn’t let his emotions get the best of him if he wanted his team to win games. Doan averaged four fighting majors per-season his first five years in the league. Since then he has reached that total just once in a season, when he had five in 2005-06. From 2006-07 through 2012-13 he had a total of eight fighting majors. Domi had four last season and two so far this year, along with one in the preseason.

“I think for him I don’t think you ever take that away because it’s a huge asset and part of our game is making the other team uncomfortable. There’s no question about that. It’s a big hit, it’s the ability to fight, it’s the ability to play hard and you never want to take that out of his game, but at the same time you never want to lose him,” Doan said. “So I’m sure it’s going to be a fine balance that he’ll walk and as he gets older he’ll see it more and more. He’s a smart kid, he’s a smart guy and he’s going to figure it out and it’s exciting to see what he becomes.”

It’s not like all fights have gone poorly for Domi. He dropped Anaheim Ducks forward Ryan Kesler with an upper-cut to the jaw, which quickly went viral.

“I laugh because we talk about it all the time. He’s had two fights this year and everybody really liked one of them and they didn’t like the other, so there’s an upside and a downside to it,” Tippett said.

When healthy, Domi has shown noticeable progress for the Coyotes. His knowledge of the league has increased, which has boosted his abilities.

“There’s a confidence in his game, a real – he knows he’s a real good player in the league,” Tippett said. “He has the confidence to, you know he tries different things. A confidence and the experience of when to do things and when not and when to play the game the right way with the score or whether situational he’s smarter, but just more confident with the puck. It took him a few games to get up and going with the injury but now he has played very well lately.”

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Domi has cemented himself as one of the new faces of the franchise, which is another reason why he needs to stay in the lineup. Not only does he help the team win, fans come to games to watch Domi entertain them. This is important for the Coyotes as they continue to try to push their product and sell their future to their supporters in the desert.

“I think he’s got another level that he’s going to go to even more,” Doan said. “I think that’s exciting for us as an organization.”

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