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Killing Me Softly | (Joel x teacher!f!reader)
Chap. 10 Home
Summary: How bittersweet it is to come home. Rating: 18+ Explicit Word Count: 8.6k Warnings: NONE!!!! Find out for yourselves xoxo A/N: If you made it this far, thank you. This obviously isn't the absolute END, there will be an epilogue to come... but I still want to thank each and every one of you. This series has such a special place inside my heart, and I will be forever grateful for the love and support you all have given. All the kisses and hugs and love to you all. (I also realize there are going to be a few questions left unanswered, but I promise it'll be resolved in the epilogue) * And once again, I'm the most thankful to @loonmartell for helping me create the most beautiful story. Sending you all my love, sweet pea <3 *
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You most definitely had a concussionâwhich was not ideal when you were behind the wheel of a moving vehicle. Not only were you trying to subdue the memories still filtering through your mind, but you were also trying to navigate the roads with blurred vision. Streetlights that had once been unfamiliar slowly morphed into a memorized path, leading you right back to the place you once called home. Sarah had guided you home just months ago after a soccer game, but this was different. This was a reawakening, a thousand tiny moments rising from their endless slumber. Each turn of the wheel and stopsign guided you back to the one person your heart cried out for⊠Joel.Â
If only your brain and heart could get on the same page. While your heart ached for Joel in ways you hadnât felt in months, your mind still clung to the anger you associated with him over the last several months. You couldnât just stop loving him, but you didnât know how to stop hating him at the same time.Â
The final turn into his neighborhood was coming up fast, yet your speed came to a crawl. It hadnât even occurred to you that he could have moved on. Half a year was enough time for Joel to move on, to find another woman, to be happy without you. You experienced the exact opposite: you couldnât move on, didnât find another man, and were far from happy. Seeing him again was probably a mistake, but how would you move on now that you knew everything?
The nausea was back in full force as you pulled up to Joelâs home, his truck parked crooked in the driveway. This was your home once upon a time. Yeah, you were going to be sick again. Wrenching the door open, you leaned out of your car and dry-heaved. Nothing came up, which you were thankful for. You needed a strong stomach and a clear mind for whatever would come. The ground beneath your feet became distorted as you walked the path up his front yard. You took a moment to shake away the double-vision, your mind clouding around the edges. It was not the time to lose your grip on reality.Â
The worn wood of Joelâs front door taunted you, your hand hovering over the center as you debated knocking. All it would take is a quick rap of your knuckles, and youâd see him again. Before you could sabotage yourself, your knuckles tapped against the door.Â
âCominâ!âÂ
The sound of Joelâs voice in the distance electrified your nerves. He was right there. Any moment, heâd open the door andâ.
The door cracked open, and you stared up into the familiar brown eyes that plagued every memory overlapping inside your mind. Joel stood motionless, his eyebrows slightly raised and lips parted. He looked at you as if you were a ghost. You gave him the most pathetic smile, unsure of what to do with your hands or body.Â
âCan I come in?â You blurted out.Â
âOf course,â he said softly, opening the door wider.Â
A simple step over the threshold, and you were home.Â
You took a moment to let it all settle in: nothing had changed. The varnish was worn in certain places on the floor, the same as it had been when you lived here. Joel walked the same path daily: through the front door and to the right, directly into the kitchen. Sarahâs soccer bag hung on the staircase railing, a pair of her shoes strewn across the second step.Â
âIs Sarah home?â You asked, your eyes still wandering around the downstairs of the house.
âNo, sheâs stayinâ with a friend this weekend,â he replied.
Joel shifted his weight, tearing your focus away from the house and back onto him. There was a look of confusion furrowing his brows together, and you realized you hadnât entirely explained yourself to him yet.
âListen, I know Iâm here unannounced,â you started. âI, uh, I havenât touched the book since you gave it back. Well, I didnât until today. I found it again, and this slipped out.â
Digging through your purse, you pinched the Polaroid between your fingers and pulled it free. Joel hesitantly reached for it, his fingers avoiding touching yours as he held it between his hands. A small smile formed on his lips as he ran his thumb over the photo's edges.Â
âThis was from a campinâ trip we went on with Sarah,â he sighed. âSarah had just taken a tumble in some mud, and I remember I couldnât stop laughinâ, and you were quick with a camera and snapped this photo.â
âI know.â
âI got a photo of you, too. I still got it hanginâ up somewhereâ.â
Joelâs voice trailed off, his eyes drifting up to yours. He had been so wrapped up in reminiscing that he didnât listen to what you said.Â
âDo you still have the one of Sarah, too?âÂ
Joelâs eyes grew wide, swaying in place.Â
âYou remember?â He faltered.
âI remember everything, Joel.â
Not Mr. Miller. Joel.Â
Joel opened and closed his mouth at least three times before finally just shaking his head. He took a step back, letting the picture fall to the ground. You glanced down at the Polaroid lying between your feet, the photo of Joel doubling in your vision. Your body moved on its own accord, your balance teetering as you stumbled a bit to the side. Joel quickly caught your weight, his hands firm around your arm.Â
âWoah,â he exhaled. âYâokay?â
âI might have a concussion,â you laughed absently. âTook a bit of a fall earlier and hit my head.â
Joel cursed under his breath and slipped an arm around your waist, guiding you toward the dining room. Sunlight bled through the window shades on the wall, and you squinted your eyes to avoid intensifying your headache. The kitchen was just as you had remembered: cluttered and homey. Piles of dishes were laid in a drying rack by the sink, the dark countertops void of dirt aside from a few crumbs from toast or a residual ring of condensation from a beer bottle.
Joel helped you into one of the dining room chairs, moving swiftly to get you a glass of water. You werenât sure if he meant to do it, but he had sat you in your chair at the table, the one you had always chosen during any family meal with him and Sarah. You smoothed your hands over the table, digging your nails into the groves of the woodwork.
âHere,â Joel said, extending a glass to you.Â
You muttered a soft thank you, taking a drink as he took a seat beside youâhis seat. The silence between you both was louder than the ringing in your ears, and you couldnât stand it any longer.Â
âSay something,â you pleaded.
Joel leaned forward, resting his elbows on his thighs as he peered up at you through glassy eyes. You knew that look: the exhaustion, the sadness. You had worn it well the last several months, and clearly, so did Joel. The person you were six months ago would have loved seeing Joel look so disheveled, but not now. Not when the past was hanging in the balance, finally uncovered and real.Â
âDoes Bennett know youâre here?â Joel asked, his eyes rising to yours.Â
âWhat?â You gaped. Out of all the things Joel could have said, he chose that?
âTommy saw yâall together,â he huffed.Â
You wracked your brain, remembering when Tommy could have seen you and Bennett together. The only time you had seen Bennett was after theâŠ. Oh.Â
âHe asked to meet me after everything happened,â you explained. âHe wanted to share his side of things. You left out a lot, Joel. There was so much you didnât tell me, and I had to rely on Bennett to piece the rest back together.â
âAre you datinâ him again? âCause if you are, just tell me, and IâllâIâll find a way to move on and let you be happy. I ainât gonna get in the way of your happiness, even if that means itâs with him.â
There was no way to ignore the bitterness in his words, yet you stifled a laugh.Â
âAfter everything thatâs happened, you actually think I'd go back to him?â You questioned.Â
âChrist, I donât know,â Joel sighed, running a hand over the back of his neck.Â
âBennettâs married,â you stated. âYou must not have seen his wedding band when you were beating the shit out of him.â
Joel was harrowingly silent, his eyes trained on the work boots covering his feet. All you ached for was some sort of reactionâsome kind of responseâand he gave nothing. Your expectations had been set so high for this moment, yet nothing was going as you hoped.Â
âI need to ask you something, and I need you to be honest,â you said.
âOf course.âÂ
âWhy didnât you fight for me?â You whispered. âWhen everyone was making decisions for me, why didnât you step in and fight back?â
âI tried,â he lamented. âYour family decided on everythinâ, and I couldnât step in.â
âYes, you could have,â you pressed.Â
You brushed your hand over the stumble on his jaw, lifting his face to meet yours. You saw it deep within the dark brown of his eyes: regret.Â
âThatâs not a good enough answer, Joel. No one fought for me,â you pressed. âI was alone in everything, and you should have been the one person standing up to them against everything they were choosing to do. You let Bennett come back into my life when you knew he had been horrible to me in the past. Why were you so willing to just let me go?â
Joel grabbed your free hand and brought it to his lips, pressing soft kisses into the center of your palm. It wasnât till the first tear hit your fingers that you realized he was crying. Joel looked defeated, his face framed between one hand and your other pressed against his lips. Truly and utterly defeated.Â
âI never wanted to let you go. Sayinâ that last goodbye to you while you were in the hospital was the hardest damn thing Iâve ever had to do, and I ainât got no excuses for the choices I made. If I could go back and change everythinâ, I would. I swear I would in a heartbeat. Losinâ you was the worst thing thatâs ever happened to me, and I know I coulda done more. You deserved more. You deserved better, and I shoulda been the one there for you. Not Bennett. I know I ruined everything. Fuck, IâI really fucked it all up.â
âI hate you for what you did,â you said, lifting your hand to brush away his tears. âI hate you so much for hurting me.â
Joel only nodded, more tears streaming down his cheeks as he closed his eyes. You ran your thumb over his cheekbone, tracing the line of his beard as it dipped down to his jaw. Joel released a shaky breath, leaning into your touch.Â
âThere ainât enough words to describe how sorry I am,â he mumbled into your hand. âIâm so fuckinâ sorry for hurtinâyou, and Iâve been livinâ with that guilt for years. I just wanted you to be happy. Even if it wasnât with me.â
âI was happy, Joel. With you. I loved you so much. So many memories are still unraveling in my head, but in each of them, I know I loved you.â
âIâm so sorry,â he cried softly.Â
âI hate you, Joel. I hate you, but I canât ignore the fact that I still love you. I love the life we built together and the memories we made with Sarah. I miss this house, and I miss this kitchen where weâd make breakfast together. I miss waking up beside you every day. I miss staying up late with you and annoying you about the books I was reading.â You took a deep breath, trying to slow yourself down. âI miss you, Joel. I donât know how long it will take me to forgive you, but IâI really miss you.â
A choked sob escaped from Joelâs mouth, and he leaned his head back, your hands falling into your lap. You didnât know what to do with yourself other than try not to throw upâbecause your body was still trying to desperately fight off the nausea rolling inside your stomach. Confessing feelings while also battling a minor concussion had not been your brightest idea, but you had braved through worse before.Â
So many moments of silence passed before Joel finally glanced back at you, his lips twitching as he held back another round of tears.Â
âYâhave no fuckinâ idea how much I miss you,â he confessed. âIâve waited so long for the moment youâd remember everythinâ. I tried to imagine what Iâd do when yâgot those memories back, and⊠fuck. Iâm so sorry for everythinâ I did.â
You took his hands in yours, interlocking your fingers around his. It was your turn to start crying, and you felt the tears fall against your fingers.
âWhat did you do?â You asked. âWhen you imagined me getting my memories back, what did you do?â
âI imagined kissinâ you and tellinâ you how much I loved you,â he said.
âWhatâs taking you so long?â
In one fluid motion, Joel sent his chair flying backward as he dropped to his knees before you. Reaching up, he cupped your face between his large hands, his mouth hovering over yours. You werenât sure what he was waiting for, but you gave him a simple nod, and that was enough.Â
The first kiss was delicateâ cautionary. He wavered between losing control and reluctance, the path of his lips moving fluidly like they had always known their place against yours. It was so much different than the first kiss months ago, where then it had been about discovery and excitement, each draw of your bodies together new and profound. But now, it was a kiss to rekindle a flame that had dwindled out, a resurgence of emotions neither of you had experienced in years. Yes, those few months together had been exhilarating, but you had barely scratched the surface of where the bounds of your love lay.
You were the first to cave into the chaos, deepening the kiss until Joelâs movements determined your breathing. When his head moved, so did yours. When his tongue overlapped yours, you repeated the motion. Over and over until you lost the ability to identify where you started and he ended.Â
âJoel,â you panted, his lips still crushed against yours.
âHmm?â
He was too enamored with you to respond coherently. You raked your nails over his scalp, refamiliarizing yourself with the softness of his curls. Joel groaned into your open mouth, his tongue dancing with yours once more.
âJoel,â you muttered again.Â
âYeah, baby?â He exhaled, finally breaking away from your swollen lips.Â
You pressed your forehead against his, your eyelashes fluttering up at him. Joel looked down at you with blown pupils, the brown color in his eyes nearly black as he waited for your response.
âI think you forgot to say something,â you whispered, laughing softly.Â
âDonât think I forgot at all, baby. Just wanted to savor you a minute,â Joel grinned. âI love you. God, I love you so fuckinâ much. Ainât ever gonna stop tellinâ you how much I love you.â
âI still donât forgive you for everything,â you reminded him. âItâll take me some time to heal from all of this fully.â
Joel brushed his nose against yours, his lips tugging upward.
âI got all the time in the world, baby. Gonna spend every damn day provinâ myself to you. Iâm already on my knees for you. Anythinâ you ask of me, Iâll give it to you.â
Breathless. You were breathless. This was the man you should have spent your life with, the man you should have married. Joel saw his faults, admitted them, and submitted himself to you out of love and dedication. Anger was still to be had, but it could wait.Â
âAnything?â You echoed.
He trailed his fingers up your bare legs, his hands teasing their way higher. You mindlessly decided on a dress earlier and thanked yourself for it. A shiver ran over your skin as he pushed the hem of the dress further up, his head bending down to kiss a path over your knee and up your thigh.Â
âGod, I missed you so damn much, baby,â Joel groaned, his tongue gliding over your pebbled skin.
âShow me how much you missed me.â
Joel lay his head in your lap, his puppy dog eyes staring up at you with a glimmer of desire. You knew that look; you had seen it so many times before in his eyes. Too many memories had taken their place in your mind to ever let you forget the way Joel looked at you when he wanted you.Â
âCan I?â He asked, brushing his hand between your thighs.
Your body responded easily to his touch, a familiarity you once knew. The friction of your underwear against your clit was growing uncomfortable as it throbbed at the vibration of his voice. Like a moth to a flame, you were drawn to Joel in more ways than one. You craved to be touched, to be pulled apart and put back together in the ways only he knew.Â
Joel tugged your ass down to the edge of the chair, flicking the hem of your dress into your lap. You tried working your fingers over the band of your underwear, but Joel beat you to it with a swiftness that left you dizzy. Well, dizzier than you already were.Â
Joel hoisted your calves over his shoulders, settling himself between your thighs. Flashes of memories in this exact position came flooding in; this was familiar. Familiarity beyond compare and something you desperately yearned for.Â
âPlease,â you whined.
He wasted no time giving in to your plea. Joel licked a thick stripe up your slick entrance, rewarding himself with a soft moan leaving your lips. You unknowingly lied months ago when you said no one had tasted you like this⊠Joel had. He thrived on giving you pleasure like this, doing this countless times before. He knew your body better than anyone else, and your body cried out for him in ways you could not control.Â
He devoured you like he sought to destroy the years of distance that had passed between you. Every flick of his tongue against the apex of your sex, every gravelly moan from his throatâit all revolved around that undeniable truth that you both were meant to be together. Thatâs how it should have always been.Â
âMore,â you begged.
Words failed you, yet Joel knew what you needed. His tongue plunged inside of you, curling ever so slightly. The pleasure inside you burned slowly, igniting a warmth through your veins. You throbbed against his mouth, his breath hot on your skin as he latched onto your clit. You arched against him, your hand snaking down to latch onto the hair on his scalp. Joel let out a prideful moan, working his tongue faster against your aching bud.Â
âThere⊠right thereâŠâ You whimpered.
Joel gave the softest nod as if to say I know, driving you closer to the edge. A hitch of your breath, another flick of his tongue, repeated motions back and forth until your orgasm was crashing against the surface. You cried out, tears springing from your eyes as you succumbed to the climax wracking through your limbs. Joel pulled away, his mouth and mustache glistening from your release.Â
Lowering your legs off his shoulders, Joel wordlessly hooked an arm around your waist and hauled you onto the dining table, the wood creaking under the weight. You pawed at his shirt, and Joel obliged your silent request as he yanked it over his head. You lifted yourself on your forearms, drinking in the sight of his bare chest. You glanced up at Joel to catch him smirking, amused by your silence.
âYâcanât be lookinâ at me like that, baby,â Joel groaned, stepping between your open legs. âNot when I got you spread out and ready for me.â
âI can look at you however I want,â you smiled.Â
Joel leaned down to meet your lips, dragging you in for a long kiss.Â
âI missed you so fuckinâ much,â he chuckled.
His lips worked their way down your neck, sucking marks into your skin, while his hands worked quickly at the belt around his waist. Hooking one leg around his waist, you drew him closer, your breath hitching as he lined himself up with your entrance.Â
Joel drove himself deep inside you in one thrust, the tip of his cock spearing into you. You gasped as his cock filled you with its entirety, your body stretched passed comfortability. You forgot how much you loved feeling him everywhere. With his cock fully seated inside you, Joel leaned forward and pressed his forehead against yours.
âI need to hear yâsay it, baby,â he begged. âPlease tell me youâre mine.â
âIâm yours, Joel,â you exhaled. âI love you.â
Thatâs all he needed to hearâa simple admission, a coupling of words that rewrote the story lost between the both of you. You spent months trying to deny your love for him, but there was no way to deny this connection. There was always an invisible string connecting you both, and though the string had frayed and unraveled, this moment snapped it back into place.Â
âI love you,â Joel said. âAinât ever lettinâ you go.â
He pulled out slowly, only to snap his hips forward and render you speechless. You reached up to hold him against you, your nails digging crescent-shaped marks into his shoulder blades. Thrust after thrust, Joel drilled into you forcefullyâbrutally. You cried out every time his body slapped against yours, and your vision started to blur around the edges. Your core clenched around him, your thighs slick from your arousal that dripped between your bodies.Â
âTakinâ my cock so well, baby,â Joel praised. âDoinâ so good for me.â
âYes⊠yesâŠâ You chanted the word between every thrust that he assaulted you with, every caress of his fingers around your waist, another revelation of how perfect you were together.Â
âMy perfectâfuckâperfect girl,â he gritted out.
Joel locked an arm around your back and lifted you from the table, spinning you both until your back hit the wall across from the table. The impact was enough to knock the air from your lungs and dizzy your mind, but he gave you no opportunity to recover before he was driving upwards into you, the new angle sending sparks of pleasure through your muscles. With one arm braced around your body and a hand pressed against the wall beside your head, Joel ground into you deeperâŠslower⊠your body begging for release. He could sense it, too, the way your thighs tightened around his waist and your cheeks dampened with tears.
âYeah, I can feel it, baby,â Joel crooned. âI know youâre close. Gonna cum for me? Gonna give me what I want?â
âPlease,â you cried, nodding vigorously.
Joel crushed his lips against yours, and you sobbed into his open mouth. Your body sized around him as your orgasm tore through you, stronger than the first. His thrusts stalled as your core pulsed through the aftershocks, the room spinning quicker every time another wave of release rocked through your stomach.
âThatâs it, baby. Thatâs my good girl. Give me everythinâ. I got you. Keep goinâ.â
It was disastrous how obedient your body was to his commands. You entangled yourself in him, your tongue rolling over his tongue to silence his muffled words. Joel wasnât far behind you, and soon enough, he punched out your name through clenched teeth, spilling himself into you.Â
You rested your head back against the wall, his body sagging into yours as you both fought for air. The slow drip of his cum down your inner thigh and the sweat clinging to your brow was the only sensation you could feel as time passed in comfortable silence.Â
âI love you, baby,â Joel groaned, his head falling onto your shoulder.
You carded a hand through his hair, leaning your cheek against his sweat-dampened curls. Right there, in Joelâs arms, everything made sense. The anger inside you could dissolve awayâat least for a little whileâand you could remind yourself that this was what love felt like. To be held. To be seen. To be cherished.Â
Faint sounds of sniffling traveled past the rush of blood pumping in your ears, and you tugged at his curls to pull his head off your shoulder. Joel looked up at you through blurry eyes, his thick lashes coated in fresh tears.Â
âItâs okay,â you hushed.Â
âItâs not, though,â he argued. âI shoulda came back sooner. I shouldnât have waited. Thereâs so much time we canât get back, baby. Sâall my fault.â
âWeâve got time,â you said softly. âI donât want to be anywhere but here with you, Joel.â
âPromise?â He asked.Â
âI promise.â
The evening grew late, and both you and Joel had settled into bed. It surprised you when you cried at seeing his room again, realizing nothing about it had changed. The fan was still humming softly in the corner as it always had, the soft breeze floating over the bedsheets as you climbed under the covers. Miscellaneous items were scattered on his dresser, and worn clothes littered the floor beside his hamper. Joel mumbled a slew of apologies at the sight of the mess, but it only made you cry harder. You didnât care if it was messy. You only cared that you were finally home. Even without the memories resurfacing, your house never felt this way. It had never been a home because Joel wasnât there to make it a home.
âHowâre yâfeelinâ, baby?â Joel asked, his hand drawing circles into your back as you leaned against his naked body.Â
âLike I could spend the rest of the night throwing up,â you said, half-jokingly.Â
Your headache was splintering into a full-blown migraine, and your body had yet to recover from the fall earlier in the day. You had no regrets about being fucked against the wall, but it definitely proved to have done some damage to your fragile state.
âIf I had known yâneeded a good hit to the head to get all these memories back, I woulda tripped you myself,â Joel teased.
You attempted to laugh, only to have the nausea rising in your throat silence your efforts.Â
âDonât make me laugh right now,â you groaned, curling yourself tighter around his body.
âSâonly kiddinâ, baby. Iâm just way too damn happy to have you in my arms again. I spent the last few months tryna figure out how Iâd go on livinâ without you.â
âIt wasnât easy for me either,â you sighed. âI hardly recognize myself most days.â
âI wonât lie, seeinâ you at parent-teacher conferences nearly broke me,â Joel admitted.Â
âIt broke me, too.â
Silence slipped over you, and the fan turned into the only noise inside the bedroom. Joelâs chest rose and fell softly under your head, his heart pounding echoing through your ear as you pressed yourself further into his embrace.Â
âIâm sorry,â he finally spoke. âI wish I had a better word to describe how sorry I am. It wasnât right of me to lie to you, and I shouldnât have ever let your family make that decision.â
âI havenât talked to them in months,â you muttered. âI donât know how to forgive them for what they did.â
âYâdonât need to forgive them until youâre ready. I just hope yâknow they love you, baby.â
âI do know they love me, and thatâs why itâs so hard. How can they love me yet still hurt me so much?â
Joel pressed a soft kiss against the crown of your head, his fingers squeezing around your shoulder.
âI donât want to be angry anymore,â you said, your voice cracking. âBut I donât know how to feel anything but anger towards them. Especially toward Beth. The things sheâs said to me in the pastâŠHow do I forgive her?â
âI ainât gonna take sides,â he cautioned. âBut I think the accident affected her the hardest. She was so angry at your family's plan, and I think she took out a lot of that anger on you when yâdidnât deserve it.â
âItâs not fair,â you cried. âItâs not fair that she gets to be angry when she wasnât the one that lost everything.â
âYou were her everythinâ, baby,â Joel whispered. âShe lost you.â
âYouâre taking her side,â you grumbled.
âIâm just tryna show you the other side of things,â Joel offered.Â
âI know you are.â
Joel sunk further into the pillows, dragging you down beside him. You nestled into his arms, your limbs twisting around him like they had a hundred times before. Itâs odd what your body remembers, but your brain forgets; it is a simple gesture of an embrace that can never be entirely forgotten. You understood why things always felt so right when you met him again last year; your soul knew he was the missing piece that had been lost.Â
Joel spoke your name softly, the syllables more beautiful than ever when they rolled through his accent. You hummed in response, gazing up at him through tired eyes.
âI woulda waited an eternity for you, baby,â he confessed. âI woulda gone to my grave waitinâ to have you back in my arms like this again.â
You blinked away the tears welling in your eyes, failing miserably to hide the quiver of your lips. Joel didnât wait for your response, nor could you verbalize anything to match the poetry of his words. You only nodded and said, " I love you, " before your eyes drifted shut. Home. You were home.
Joel was softly snoring when you woke up. In the quiet light of the morning, you took the time to admire every softened feature of his face. The worried creases between his brows had smoothed overnight, yet you still found yourself brushing a finger over the spot they usually were. Brushing your hand down his face, you traced the outline of his lips, slightly parted and pouty, the soft kiss more kissable now than ever. Kissing him could wait; you wanted to savor this moment.Â
You drew a path down his neck and chest, the spattering of hair across his torso tickling your fingertips. Joel stirred above you, his head rolling to the other side of the pillow. His eyes never opened, though, and you took the opportunity to crawl under the sheets.Â
Joelâs cock lay heavy against his lower abdomen, precum leaking onto the soft skin of his stomach. You ran your hands over his hips, settling yourself lower until you were comfortable between his legs. His cock twitched as you wrapped a hand around his length, stroking him slowly and deliberately. Leaning your head down, you kissed up the shaft of his cock, dragging your tongue up the length and around the head. Joelâs body tensed up, yet he still didnât wake. You took him into your mouth, the salty taste and musky scent overwhelming your senses. You hadnât pleasured him like this in so long, and you had forgotten how much you loved it.Â
Taking him deeper, you flattened your tongue, teasing the base of his cock with the tip of your tongue. You faintly heard a moan slip from Joelâs mouth, his cock twitching against your tongue.Â
âBaby?â He groaned.
You hummed softly, pulling him from your mouth. With your saliva coating the entirety of his cock, you pumped him quicker, feeling his body seize up under your touch.Â
âFuck,â he grunted, bucking his hips upward.Â
You rewarded him with another swirl of your tongue over the head of his cock, your mouth and hand working in tandem. He was close; you could feel it.Â
âJust like that, baby. Forgotâfuckâforgot how good your mouth feels.â
You took him deeper, the tip of his cock tapping against the back of your throat. You sputtered around him, drool rolling down the corners of your mouth, yet you didnât stop. Hollowing your cheeks, you heard Joel choke out a gasp. The warmth of his release flooded your mouth, coating the back of your throat and tongue. You drank down every drop, pulling off of him with a soft pop.
âJesus Christ,â he sighed, slumping into the pillows. âGet your ass up here, baby.â
You crawled over his body, your legs straddling his waist. Joel grinned up at you, his tired eyes still barely open as he drank in your naked body.Â
âCâmere,â he yawned, reaching up to grab the back of your neck.
His soft lips met yours, and you molded your body to him, letting him guide your mouth however he pleased. There was still a pang of anger tucked into the darkest corner of your heart, but you knew with time, it might fade away, and all you wanted was to bask in Joelâs love as long as possible. Things would take time, but you were willing to work on it.Â
âI missed wakinâ up to you,â Joel muttered, his lips working down your jaw.
You could feel him growing hard against your core as you ground your hips down on him. It was impossible to hide the fact you were slick with arousal between your thighs, your body terribly responsive to every touch he placed on your body.
âYouâre drenchinâ me, baby,â he groaned. âNeed to feel your pussy now.â
âIâm all yours.â
âDamn fuckinâ right you are.â
You lifted your hips, notching his cock at your entrance. Inch by inch, you sunk onto him, both of you exhaling a shaky moan as he stretched you open. Leaning forward, you laced your fingers through Joelâs, holding him firm in your grasp. All you ached for was the tenderness he could provide, the slow synchronicity that flowed through his body and into yours.Â
A gentle rub of his thumb over the back of your hand, the slow rise and fall of your hips against his cock⊠it was the lazy movements that spoke louder than words. It was the recognition that you were his just as he was yours. Soft moans fell off your lips as Joel guided you against his cock, little reassuring grunts leaving his mouth with each roll of your body.
âSâfuckinâ beautiful, baby,â Joel exhaled.
The sun seeping through the blinds lit the amber flecks around his pupils, the morning light painting his naked body golden. The veins beneath his thick neck strained as he lifted his head to watch you, his lips parted in awe as you sucked him further inside your slicken sex.Â
âTouch yourself, baby,â he demanded. âLet me feel you fall apart around me.â
Your fingers slipped away from his hand, brushing down his flexed stomach as you made a path to your throbbing clit. The feather-like touch immediately sparked pleasure through your core. You clenched around his cock, whimpering with each circle of your fingertips.Â
âI feel it, baby. I know youâre close.â
âMhmm,â you whined.
Joel raised his body to press into your chest, one hand cradling your heavy breast, the other kneading the flesh of your ass. With his weight against your body, your hand pressed harder against your clit, the arousal pooling between where your bodies connect.Â
Your head fell onto his shoulder, teeth sinking into his sweat-covered skin. Joel groaned at the sensation, only grounding you down harder onto his cock. You needed every atom of your being injected with Joel; every one of your senses evaded with his taste, touch, and scent.Â
âJoel,â you mumbled, nestling your face into the crook of his neck. âIâm so close⊠so close.â
âI got you, baby. Gonna fall apart right here with you.â
He barely finished speaking by the time your orgasm ignited in your stomach, your body shuddering within his embrace. Joel spoke your name in broken syllables, his release pouring into you only moments later.Â
Neither of you broke apart once your spasms subsided. Joel tangled a hand into the hair resting at the nape of your neck, urging your lips to his. Slotting your mouth over his, you slipped your tongue over his bottom lip, a starved search for a deeper connection. Joel fulfilled your need, devouring the soft sounds you exhaled.
Slowlyâreluctantlyâyou tore from his lips, gasping for air to fill your lungs. Joelâs swollen lips formed into a crooked smile, his brown eyes softening the longer he gazed at you. Somewhere inside your chest, you felt that pain reawaken, a haunting reminder that you could have had this all along. Had the lies never been told⊠Joel would have always been yours.Â
How did he survive the years of pain? How did he allow himself to let you go, knowing youâd never be satisfied with another?
A tear slipped down your cheek, and you turned your head to hide the emotions cresting over your face. Nothing went unnoticed with Joel, and he gently pinched your chin to bring your eyes back to his. With furrowed brows, Joel studied your features, the realization striking home for him, too.
âI know youâre scared, baby,â he whispered. âAnd I know thereâs a lot I gotta fix between us, but I swear to you that I ainât ever gonna leave again. I made that mistake once, and Iâll never do it again.â
âI want to trust you, Joel. Iâm trying. But I donât know how to forget what youâve done⊠what everyone has done. Thereâs so much pain inside me. Itâs unbearable.âÂ
Joel cradled your face in his hands, leveling you with a gaze you couldnât discern. So many emotions swirled within his eyes, an endless expanse of grief that weighed him down.Â
âGive me your pain. Give me all your anger and everything inside you, and I swear Iâll keep you safe. Yâainât ever gonna be alone again. Not while Iâm still breathinâ, baby. Itâs you and me. Forever.â
âForever,â you echoed.Â
âYes, forever. I donât want another moment of my life without you in it. I canât lose you again.â
âI canât lose you, either,â you cried. âI never wanted to lose you in the first place, so please donât leave.â
Joelâs eyes clouded with tears, and he shook his head.Â
âI love you too much ever to leave you,â he said, his voice cracking. âIâm keepinâ you so long as yâlet me.â
Eventually, you both made it out of the bed. Joel grumbled at your wishes to leave, keeping you in his arms and peppering your skin with kisses. It wasnât long before your dizziness set back in, and you were demanding water and painkillers.Â
As Joel poured you a glass of water, you found yourself swaying against the cold tile floors of the kitchen, the corners of your vision blurring. Your nails scratched at the kitchen countertop as you tried to suppress the lightheaded feeling creeping in. You just needed to sitâŠthatâs all you needed.Â
You called out Joelâs name the moment your knees buckled beneath you. His body moved in a foggy haze as you tried to keep consciousness, yet you were being pulled beneath the surface of your headache. Strong hands tucked themselves under your armpits, and Joel lowered you to the ground.Â
âBaby?â His voice was franticâstrained.Â
You mumbled a few incoherent words as your body sagged into his arms. Christ, your head ached. You hadnât experienced a fainting spell since the accident, and you forgot how terrifying it was.Â
Joel choked out your name, his hand snaking around your jaw to wag your head back and forth. You could see his silhouette over you, the shadow molding into the spots within your field of vision, but nothing else registered. Slipping. Drowning. You werenât strong enough to fight it. Fear set your nerves alight; what if you lost it all again? What if everything melted away into the darkness consuming you? You clawed tooth and nail as your body plunged deeper into unconsciousness.Â
It was no use.Â
**
Joel paced the hallway outside your hospital room like a madman. The moment you went limp in his arms, he knew something was wrong. He should have taken your injury more seriously and urged you to the hospital yesterday. But he had you in his arms again, and the world would have had to fall apart before he even considered letting you go. Every admission from your lips weighed down on Joelâs shoulders, another swell of guilt growing inside him. He anticipated your anger, your grief, your heartbreak; he willingly listened without argument. His own struggles were nothing compared to what you endured, and heâd be damned if you ever felt those emotions again. Chewing at his nails, Joel glanced back at the open blinds of your hospital room. The doctors assured him youâd be okay; it was only a concussion, and thereâd be no complications. That wasnât enough for him. He needed to be absolutely sure youâd recover.Â
The door cracked open, and Joel rushed toward the neurologist leaving your room.Â
âHow is she, doc?â Joel asked. âSheâs gonna be okay, right?â
The neurologist, Dr. Oliver, nodded with a soft smile. The smile alone settled the rapid heartbeat banging against Joel's ribcage.Â
âMiss Smith is going to be just fine,â Dr. Oliver reassured. âThereâs going to be a long road to recovery, but I donât see any long-term effects. I suggest you bring her in for check-ins with me every few months just to monitor her progress.â
âYeah. Yeah, of course,â Joel nodded.Â
âWhat I need you to do, Mr. Miller, is to help her. She may be a bit forgetful occasionally, so leaving lists around the house or notes will help keep her on track. You do live together, I assume?â
Joel rubbed the back of his neck, a nervous tick he had yet to learn how to shake.Â
âWe donât, but if yârecommend itâŠâ
âI recommend it, but only because sheâll need someone looking over for her. At least, until she regains enough cognitive strength to keep her memory at full capacity,â Dr. Oliver explained.Â
âI can do that, Doc. All I want is for her to be okay.â
Dr. Oliver clapped a hand on Joelâs shoulder, his lips curving into a grin. Joel could finally breathe; youâd be okay.Â
âYouâre a good man, Mr. Miller. Sheâs lucky to have you here to care for her.â
âThank you, Doc.â
âGive her some time to rest, and sheâll be clear to go home tomorrow.â
Dr. Oliver said his goodbyes to Joel and bounded down the hallway to other patients. Joel glanced at the open door, your sleeping frame tucked into the bed among the cords and beeping monitors. He entered quietly, his footsteps soft against the floor so he wouldnât wake you. Sitting on the edge of the bed, Joel took your hand in his, cautious to avoid the IV tube taped onto your skin. Smoothing lines over the inside of your wrist, Joel watched you with weary eyes.Â
âI love you, baby. Iâm gonna be right here when yâwake up,â he vowed. âLike it always shoulda been.â
Leaning over your body, Joel pressed his lips against your forehead, inhaling your sweet scent as he pulled away.Â
Youâd be okay, and youâd forever be his.Â
**
The harsh light above you reflected behind your eyelids. You groaned as you stirred awake, your eyes squinting to adjust to the layers of white surrounding you. Curling your fingers into the scratchy blanket, you found a familiar body sagged into a chair beside the bed. Joel slept peacefully, yet the worry lines creased between his brows. Extending your hand over the edge of the bed, you brushed your palm over his knee.Â
âJoel,â you whispered.Â
His body jolted upright as he scrubbed a hand down his face. Big, brown puppy dog eyes met yours, the concern in his face dissolving away once his eyes settled on yours. He made no effort to contain the smile breaking across his face.Â
âHey, handsome,â you croaked.Â
âBaby,â Joel sighed, crouching beside the bed. âHowâre yâfeelinâ?â
âA little fatigued, but I think Iâll live.â
âYou better,â he chuckled.Â
With your arms outstretched, you ushered Joel into an embrace. Joelâs lips crashed against yours the second he wrapped his arms around you, his touch soft and cautious. Beautiful melancholy emotions wracked your body; this was the moment you ached for from the start. To be held in your vulnerability, to be cherished, to be loved. Joel didnât leave. Heâd always be here, now.Â
âThereâs someone here to see you, baby,â Joel muttered against your mouth.Â
You pulled away, confusion scrunching your eyebrows together. God, donât let it be your family.Â
âI know that look. Donât worry, baby, Iâll be right back. I promise youâll be happy,â Joel reassured.Â
Joel disappeared from the room, and you sat up, settling back into the pillows. You glanced at the monitor beeping beside your bed, the steady line of your heart rate cruising along the screen. Footsteps sounded outside your room, and your eyes flicked back toward the door, a small silhouette hiding behind Joelâs large frame.Â
Sarah.Â
Her bright eyes looked between you and Joel, her stare quizzicalâskeptic. You gave her a small wave, ushering her into the room.Â
âHi, Sarah,â you faltered. The tears were already forming on your waterline.Â
âHi, Miss Smith,â she said wearily.Â
You patted the bed, scooting over to make room for her. Her steps were slow as she neared the bedside, her eyes glancing back at Joel. He gave her an encouraging nod, a knowing grin on his lips.Â
âYou donât have to call me that,â you laughed softly.Â
Sarah settled onto the bed, her tennis shoes swinging over the floor as she fidgeted with her curls. Joel leaned against the doorframe, his arms crossed over his chest and a smile glued to his face.Â
âBut youâre my teacher,â she muttered.Â
You tucked a loose strand behind her ear, the same hair you had braided and brushed years ago. She wasnât yours, not by birth. But she was yours just as much as Joel was; she was your home. They werenât just photos captured in time; they were real. They were real, and they were yours.Â
âDo you remember when I used to read you bedtime stories?â You wondered aloud. âYou would always ask for the same one over and over.â
There it was. The light sparkled in the gold flecks of Sarahâs eyes, the same gold that sat deep within Joelâs.Â
âYou and Dad would read The Kissing Hand every night,â she nodded.Â
âI know youâre a lot older now, but do you remember what we would do before you fell asleep?â
You reached for Sarahâs hand, lifting it to your lips. With a soft kiss on her palm, you guided her hand to her cheek. Sarahâs eyes filled with tears as she leaned into your touch, the simple caress of your hand against her face enough to bring you both to the brink of crying.Â
âI missed you, kiddo,â you cried softly.Â
Sarah threw her arms around your neck, muffling her sobs into your hospital gown as you squeezed your arms tighter around her body. You missed so many milestones and moments of her life because of the accident, so many memories that were never made. Every family meal, every soccer gameâŠyou lost them all.Â
You lifted your eyes, catching the moment Joel swiped away a tear from his cheek. Beckoning him over with a quick motion of your hand, he crossed the room in two quick strides and wrapped his large arms around you and Sarah. You rested your chin on Sarahâs shoulder, hugging her closer. Joel kissed the crown of Sarahâs head, then placed one on your forehead.Â
âWait,â Sarah blurted out, forcing you all to break apart.Â
âWhat is it, sweetheart?â Joel asked, craning his head to look at her.Â
âDoes that mean youâre coming back home?â She asked.Â
You looked at Joel for guidance, trying to find the answers within his gentle gaze. He waited in silence, giving you room to decide. There wasnât a shadow of a doubt about your answer, not when you had everything you needed right here.Â
âOnly if you promise never to make pancakes again,â you smiled, pinching her cheek.Â
She buried herself into your arms again, her head resting against your heart. You looked up at Joel, your mouth forming three little words.Â
I love you.Â
~ Two weeks later ~
Joel refused any help as he unloaded the last of your boxes from the back of his truck. When you got home from the hospital, you patched up the holes in the wallâwith Joelâs help, of courseâand got the house ready to sell. It barely lasted a week on the market before the offers came in, making it easy to start packing. That house was filled with memories you didnât want to remember, memories that you no longer wanted to revisit. It wasnât home to you anymore.Â
You and Sarah sat on the front porch, popsicles in hand, watching as he huffed an exasperated breath once the box hit the steps. Joel straightened out, running sweaty hands down the sides of his jeans, glancing back at the empty truck bed.Â
âWell, I think thatâs the last of it,â Joel sighed. âYâsure we ainât miss anythinâ?â
âI think Iâve got all I need right here,â you grinned, nudging Sarah with your shoulder.Â
Joel plopped beside you on the porch, leaning over to lick up the sticky residue of the popsicle that had fallen down your arm. You gave him a warning look, shifting your eyes toward Sarah as if to say: Behave. He only shrugged, sticking out his tongue again to tickle your skin.Â
âYou hungry?â He asked, quirking a brow.Â
âStarving!â Sarah declared, rising to her feet.Â
You laughed, knowing Joel wasnât asking her. Nonetheless, you and Joel followed her into the house hand in hand. Over the last couple of weeks, he had decorated the house in countless sticky notes: ones in the bathroom, the bedroom, the kitchen. Each said something important. The one in the bathroom was stuck on the medicine cabinet, reminding you which toothbrush was yoursâthe purple one. Joel stuck one by the front door with Sarahâs soccer scheduleâsnack duty included. There were a few scattered around the kitchen: one telling you where to find the coffee mugs, another one with a list of groceries to buy over the weekend. Three photos hung beside the list, sitting in perfect harmony as they always should have been. But your favorite was stuck to the cover of Romeo and Juliet, Joelâs messy handwriting scribbled across the yellow paper. It was only a few words but the only reminder you needed.Â
Welcome home, baby.Â
I love you.
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SEE YOU AT THREE: CHAPTER NINE
SUCKER PUNCH
Rating:Â Explicit (18+ only)
Pairing:Â Young!Joel x f!Reader OC (Ellie's aunt)
Word Count: 6k
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SUMMARY: Anna tries to get you out of your head. You and Joel navigate the fallout of your dinner as winter closes in.
CHAPTER PREVIEW
âYouâre pouting,â Anna teases gently, and you sigh, letting your head thump down against the table, hunchbacked and theatrical in your misery. âI know,â you mumble. The tableâs sticky; you kind of regret setting down your head. Then Annaâs hand slips over your wrist, resting limp beside your head. She squeezes twice: her code for look at me, kid, and you drag your head up just enough to squint at her. Sheâs all love. Hair curled, mascara blackening her lashes, dress just sweet enough to be sexy. Sheâs practically a dollâdressed up on her one day off this week, all for you. Because you needed to get drunk on a Sunday night, fuck your shift in the morning. You needed to get Friday off your mind. Dinner, the call, all of it. You want it burned out of your brain, incinerated. Gone. âSure itâs not as bad as you think, Nellie,â she lies. An angel, your sister. Avoiding the ex-shaped elephant in the room, pretending this is only about Joel.
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Don't Hyde From Me (ch16 The Monster and his Princess)
TW/CW: smut, smut, smut, dom Tyler, possessive Tyler, mean Tyler, "daddy", degrading, biting, dubcon
Class had ended for the day, everyone headed out to their respective locations. Neil and Sam had invited Tyler and Hoa to sit with them at lunch, Hoa agreed but the boy had different plans. As the two of them made their way to the quad to relax and sit with the two men, Tyler pulled Hoa to the side- away from any curious eyes- and pinned her against a wall in the dimly lit room they were in. It was empty, other than the two lovers who tumbled inside- the room seemed to have been an abandoned classroom. Dead and withered plants lined the walls and tables, the perfect place to carry out Tylerâs plans.
âTyler,â the girl groaned, she was getting tired of this behavior, âPlease stop messing around, we have things to do-â before she could get a chance to finish scolding the boy his lips were already on hers. He was forceful, trying to pry her lips apart using his tongue- he wanted every bit of her. Tyler could feel the hyde clawing its way out, the monster wanted to take control and mark its territory- his territory. Hoa tried to push him away, she needed air, the boy was too eager and hungry for her touch.
âWho gives a fuck about those plans?â Tyler growled as his lips left hers, his eyes were clouded with aggression and lust, âThe only thing thatâs important right now is making sure everyone knows that youâre mine.â He hissed one last time before he swooped down to bite at her lips, harsh enough to draw blood, the monster was just as bloodthirsty as she was. Tyler had seen the way the other men had looked at Hoa, as if she were some prize to be won, he hated it.Â
âNot here, Ty,â Hoa managed to wriggle free, âJust be patient, okay?â
âOh, Princess,â the young man smirked, the hyde side of him was now in control, âIâve waited all damn day!â He shoved her against the wall again, this time making sure she wouldnât escape him. Tylerâs kisses were relentless, ruthless, he knew what he was doing to her and he loved when he had all of this control over her. His hands found their way to her hips, pulling her closer to him as his tongue shoved its way past her lips- tangling with hers he couldnât help but moan as he deepened the kiss. Tearing off her clothes, Tyler stepped back to marvel at her beauty. Hoa was shyly trying to avoid his gaze, afraid someone would walk in on them, the cold air peppering her exposed skin with chilly kisses.
âIâm gonna show everyone on this goddamn campus just who you belong to.â Tyler growled as he put a firm hand around her neck, âThen maybe those bastards wonât look at you ever again.â
âIs that what this is about?â Hoa rolled her eyes, âYou? Jealous?â She scoffed, her attitude only drove him up the wall, he roughly placed his knee between her legs and made sure to brush it up against her clothed folds. Pulling a high pitched moan from the girlâs lips, he was going to enjoy tearing her apart. He laughed as she tried to hide her face from him, she was pathetic, Tyler could feel her growing wetter by the second.
âYouâre enjoying this,â Tyler smirked, his lips leaving a trail of kisses up and down her neck, âarenât you, Princess?â He made sure to lap up any blood that trickled from her kiss swollen lips watching as she squirmed beneath him, patiently waiting for his every touch. Hoa reached to touch his tenting boner but he swatted her hand away, chuckling at how pathetic she looked. And all for him.
âTyler-â the girl tried to protest but was interrupted when the young man started to grind his knee against her core, she let out a mewl- catching herself and covering her mouth with her hands, embarrassed at the shameful sounds that left her lips.
âCome on, baby,â Tyler growled, tearing her hands away from her lips and pinning them on either side of her, âYou know you enjoy this. You want me to be rough with you and fuck you senseless.â
âTyler,â The girl snarled, she didnât want to admit it to him- she didnât want him to win, âYou are so out of line right now-â the boy interrupted her by planting a harsh kiss on her collarbone as he undid his belt. He couldnât wait any longer, he needed her. As his pants and boxers dropped to his ankles he started to rip off the girlâs bra and panties, gaining a yelp of displeasure as that was her favorite matching set.Â
âNever knew you were such a spoiled little brat.â He smirked before ramming his twitching cock deep inside her without warning, she screamed in a mix of pleasure and pain, Tylerâs knees almost gave in as the intense wave of ecstasy hit him like a hurricane. She was so tight and warm around him, he could feel her heartbeat as her walls fluttered around him. Thrusting in and out at a pace she wasnât ready for yet, Tyler groaned against her neck as he hit every spot just right, knowing how to best pleasure his princess. Only he could make her feel this way, he was the only one who had this effect on her. The abandoned classroom didnât seem so desolate now that the two were defiling it with their sins and their wants.
With every thrust in he kept getting closer and closer to her cervix, hitting her sweet spot again and again, now she was the one seeing constellations. His pace was brutal and impatient, he gripped her hips hard enough to leave bruises as he bit down on her neck once again. Hoa could only squirm against him as her juices seeped down his length, she was a moaning mess beneath him. Tyler watched as her breasts bounced with every thrust he gave her, shoving every inch inside her.
âTy-â she hiccupped, tears welling up in her eyes, âT- too much!â
âYou know you like it, little bitch.â The boy grunted as he pushed in deeper, resting his pulsating member inside and watching her eyes roll to the back of her head, âYou like it when the monster fucks you.â He slowed his pace, he wanted to savor every moment with her under him. Licking the now forming bruises that littered her neck he couldnât help but play with her swollen clit- adding to the overstimulation the poor girl was already feeling. She was so fucked out beneath him and he lived for every second of it. He started up the brutal pace again, his cock twitching with every scream she let out. His name left her lips repeatedly as he hit her cervix over and over.
âGod, Princess,â he smirked as she tightened around him, âYouâre so close I can feel it.â Before he could let her finish, before he allowed the knots curling up inside her to come undone, he pulled out. Hoa whined at the feeling of being empty, the cold air hit her soaking wet pussy with an intensity that almost caused her legs to give in beneath her.Â
âPlease,â Hoa whined, âBreed me.â Tyler laughed at her words, she was his pathetic little whore and she would let him do anything to her.Â
âYou think you deserve it?â He grinned sinisterly before sending his palm crashing down against the soft flesh of her ass, âYou fucking slut.â He grinned as he watched her ass jiggle upon impact, a bright red handprint making its home on the warming flesh. Without a warning the young man shoved his cock back inside her, pushing her off her edge and sending her flying into her climax. The girl cried out in pleasure as her walls fluttered, her juices squirting all around his length. Tyler moaned at the feeling, enjoying the tight clenching around him. The feeling was enough to send him to his climax, he growled as he pulled her closer- hitting her cervix again and again at a sloppy pace.
âD- daddy!â The words shamefully slipped from her mouth, Tyler stopped, laughing before giving her one last thrust. Painting her walls white with his warm seed, cursing as his cock twitched inside her, finishing and pulling out. He watched as his cum leaked from her slick hole, proud of his work. He kissed her shoulder blade before sitting her down on one of the cold and empty desks.
âSit tight, Princess,â he caressed her cheek, âDaddyâll take care of you.â He knelt down and started lapping up his mess he made, chuckling softly as she squirmed, holding her still by her thighs. Soft mewls left her lips as he dove his tongue deeper to clean out every nook and cranny, he enjoyed tasting her like this.
âMmh,â Hoa whined as she ran her fingers through Tylerâs hair, âToo much.â The poor girlâs eyes were clouded with exhaustion and over stimulation, Tyler couldnât help but smile and place little kisses on her thighs.
âI know baby,â the boy rested his head against her thigh, âI know.â Once he was done he promised her that they would watch disney films for the rest of the day when they returned home and that he would take care of her. The boy stood and pulled his pants back up while Hoa was struggling to reach for her phone to contact Jess to grab her a spare pair of undergarments.
âShit,â she facepalmed after sending the message out to the siren, âWe forgot about Neil and Sam.â Groaning, she hopped off the desk and stumbled a bit before falling into the boyâs welcoming arms. Hoa huffed in annoyance as her legs refused to cooperate with her, Tyler just rubbed her back and sat her back down on the desk and instructed her to wait and not worry about a thing. He had everything handled. She was in his hands now, he vowed to be by her side always, to serve his master. Tyler wrapped his jacket around the girl to keep her warm, she almost fell asleep as he did so- it was so warm and it smelled like cinnamon and caramel. A knock at the door was what pulled the two of them from their thoughts, Tyler went to go answer it
âHey, Hoa, I got your message-â Jess stood dumbfounded when she saw the boy standing before her, his hair a mess and his cheeks still a fresh shade of pink, âBarista Boy?!â The siren smirked awkwardly as she looked around for Hoa.
âDonât tell me,â Jess was on the verge of laughter, âYou two did it here!?â She tried her best to hide her laughter.
âDonât,â Tyler sighed as he took the spare clothes from the siren, âJust tell Neil and Sam weâre sorry for not showing up to lunch.â And with that the boy said his thanks and closed the door behind him, he made his way over to Hoa who was still ever so snuggled up in his jacket. The sight before him was enough to warm his heart.
âYou still awake there, Hoa?â Tyler was picking up the discarded articles of clothing, making sure to toss the torn undergarments.
âAlmost.â The girl hummed in response as she took the clothes from the boyâs hands, his jacket sliding off her shoulders with every movement. Tyler was entranced by how her body looked in this lighting, as if she were an angel from the heavens above. Once she was fully clothed the boy held his hand out to her and helped guide her back to her feet, he placed the dirty uniform in her bag and guided her out into the sun where everyone else was. He saw Neil, Sam and Jess sitting at a table in the quad, waiting for the two of them with smirks on their faces.
âOh dear,â Hoa groaned, âKnowing Jess, she probably spilled the gossip.â Tyler blushed at the comment, hoping that wasnât the case. The two braced themselves for some slight humiliation from their peers as they made their way to the table. Sam and Jess were already laughing quietly to themselves as the couple took a seat at the table.
âSo,â Sam quipped, âHow was your alone time?â The ginger man gently elbowed his partner in the side, Neil wasnât paying much attention.
âHow was your rearranging session?â Jess laughed. Neil was confused, asking what the two meant. Sam laughed and reassured that the two men would have a discussion about the birds and the bees when they got home. Hoa kicked Sam in the knee to get him to shut up, Tyler blushed and sank into his seat as he clung onto Hoaâs arm. As the 5 friends sat and enjoyed their lunch, they chatted about their academics and their families- all but Hoa and Tyler. They avoided anything on the topic of family.
âTyler,â Neil started as he sipped his water, âWhat are you planninâ to do once youâre a free man?â The question caught the boy off guard, he didnât know what he wanted for his future. He didnât think he wouldâve lived long enough to see his future, but when asked the question all he could see in his future was her. The boyâs gaze fell upon her, she was focused on her sketchbook- doodling flowers of all kinds.Â
âTo be honest,â Tyler began, watching as the girlâs pencil flew across the pages with ease, âI donât really know what I plan to do. Just so long as Hoa is around I think Iâll be fine.â The table grew silent, everyoneâs eyes were on the two of them. Hoa looked up and furrowed her brow, confused as to why her and Tyler were the center of attention all of a sudden.
âWhat?â
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And the Saga continues~
Introducing part 3 of Past, Present, and Future: An Arcana Saga:
The Interlude
The three years that take place between the Masquerade ritual and the in-game route, told in very short stories between Asra, Aisling (The Apprentice), and Julian's POVs. Ft. Altheia Featherstone, LunaStarhawk's OC. đ
It's much shorter than the other two parts, but if you haven't read those first I highly recommend because there will be a lot of references that will be missed!
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Pitter Patter chapter 32 of Not Giving Up
Finished story on Ao3 with detailed tags
Itâs funny how something can be expected, welcomed even, and yet still catch you off entirely off guard. Reyâs first labor pains set Varykino into a whirlwind of âhurry up and waitâ. Only a few days after the wedding, and the others were still lingering - catching up, renewing bonds and trying to plan for a peace they hadnât been expecting. Without anyone actually saying it out loud, nobody wanted to leave until after Rey had delivered.
Sheâd first noticed the contractions during a morning walk with Finn, the two quietly discussing plans for both themselves and the Resistance. There had been no convincing him that this phase of the labor would probably take hours and there was no need to rush - her overly protective and self appointed guardian hurried to alert the others. Who all came running just as quickly as though it were an actual emergency, Ben with his face half covered in a shaving cream.
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Now, with the sun starting to set and Reyâs pains increasing, Rose and Ben had Reyâs hands, walking with the woman carefully up and down the halls of the Retreat. Finn had gathered what seemed to be every towel in the entirety of Naboo and was arranging them in neat stacks at strategic locations, from her bedroom to the intersections of major pathways.
Poe had woken up the medical droid and was pestering it with questions every five minutes. He refused to leave the droid alone until it threatened to go into hibernation. Leia chuckled privately, doing her part by keeping Chewbacca occupied with assembling the last bits of baby toys and whatnot. While one of the three porgs ânestedâ in his large lap, the other two waddled about Reyâs feet.
Ben was seriously contemplating kicking the ball shaped birds hard enough to splatter against the wall but his wifeâs steps were slow and steady, avoiding the feathered nuisances. Besides, he had bigger problems. Like helping Rey time her contractions, nodding in agreement at anything she said, and massaging her legs whenever she wanted to rest. It was difficult to school his emotions, trying to make sure that the only emotions Rey would be able to pick up on were positive.
Especially as the hours wore on and he began to notice her energy flagging. The droid continued to chirp that everything was proceeding normally for human birth givers, and even Rose offered Ben a reassuring smile. Easing Rey onto a large, plush ottoman, Ben couldnât help but feel a surge of panic all the same. What if this killed her, just like Grandmother. Mother had had a difficult labor as well. What ifâŠ
âYou worry⊠too much.â Rey patted his hand lightly, smiling as Ben tucked a pillow under her head.
âSkywalker trait.â He snorted in reply, grinning a little in pride that sheâd caught him. His wife was strong enough to match him, Rey would be fine. She had to be. His bare fingers brushed over her hair gently.
It was supremely surreal for Rose to watch Ben sing quietly to Rey. She was the only other one close enough to hear, flopped onto a nearby couch while he crouched next to the ottoman Rey had decided was perfect to rest on. With the laboring woman laying on her side for a moment and Benâs face only a few inches from Reyâs, the Supreme Leader sang her the melodies of his childhood. Each one a promise and a wish for their family.
His low tenor lulled Rey, if not to sleep then into rest. Rose watched as Reyâs fingers threaded with Benâs, who remained crouched awkwardly long after his muscles must have begun to protest. What the man was, or had been, he was devoted to his wife. And that was enough for now.
It wasnât difficult to see the toll labor was taking on her. Rey had one cheek puffed out, storing ice chips. It made her look like she was doing a strange impersonation of some woodland creature, not that anyone dared to comment on it. Rey had outright screamed at Chewie when the Wookie shot Ben a dirty look over something or other, after which Chewbacca played safe by appointing himself the guardian of her ice water.
Leia gently wiped the sweat from Reyâs forehead with a cool cloth that she refreshed from time to time in said ice water. Ben alternated between checking on Rey and Mother, wanting to make sure the latter didnât wear herself out caring for the former. Leia shooed him away every time, Reyâs answers were growing more colorful by the hour.
Rose took turns holding Reyâs hand with Ben, both attempting to coach the woman in breathing - Rose more successfully than Ben, despite his efforts. Finn and Poe were banished to the hallway once the medical droid started checking Reyâs cervix more frequently. They demurred to Reyâs modesty gracefully, until the doors were closed. Then Finn wore fresh grooves in time-tested flooring while Poe slammed back a few of the foulest shots he could locate - just to keep his nerves steady.
âI got you, I got you.â Inside, Benâs arms curled around Rey, just below her breasts, as she tried to walk and stumbled through a contraction. Giving her his strength as her own began to fail, and swallowing how much it terrified him.
âBen, I canât do this.â How long had it been already - the droid kept beeping at her cheerfully but Rey was certain it was just the damn thingâs bedside manner programming. She was running low, struggling just to reach out and feel the twins or Ben despite how close he was. Closing her eyes, Rey had to fight against the growing fear that she would leave her children without even a memory of her. What if she justâŠ
He swallowed. Leia and Rose were already answering her, assuring Rey in all the proper ways. Saying all the right things while Ben buried his face in his wifeâs neck for a moment, breathing in deeply. She smelled of sweat and exhaustion, he could feel her never-ending determination ebbing low, the terror of leaving them all and the temptation that was starting to torment her.Â
âThe hell you canât.â Taking a deep breath, Ben growled against her skin with a flash of his brown eyes. Rose started towards them and Ben only held onto Rey more possessively. The others couldnât feel her the way he did, his dyad. They didnât understand the extent of Reyâs distress, couldnât feel the pull to merely borrow life from the others. It would be so easy, Rey only had to ask Ben and he would slaughter the galaxy for her comfort, let alone her life. Especially now. âYou are Rey, scavenger of Jakku. The desert couldnât destroy you, the First Order couldnât bow your head.â
She nearly laughed to hear him snarling out her strengths, leaning fully against him and trusting Ben to carry the weight of her and the twins. A trust not misplaced, for the man didnât even stumble. Only braced himself further and kissed her temple before continuing, in a lower, more human tone.
âYou could walk into the mouth of a Sarlacc and emerge unscathed, with it as your devoted pet.â Nuzzling slowly against her skin, Ben felt a surge of relief as her spirits rose, and she let him ease their tired frames onto the edge of a loveseat.
Strange, to feel warmth now. As though she was able to truly share in his strength. Perhaps it was a function of their Force bond, or perhaps it was simply trusting oneâs partner. Cracking her eyes open, Rey could see a slowly growing smile on his face in response to Reyâs rising resolve.
âYou are Rey Solo, Princess of Alderaan, Captain of the Millennium Falcon and Resistance hero. There is nothing in this galaxy you can not accomplish.â
The fierceness of his love and devotion overwhelmed her, feeling soft kisses brush along her cheek, at her temple, in her sweaty hair. Like a tidal wave that swept Rey off painful, rocky beaches and tossed her wave to wave but never let her shoulders dip below the water. Ben sent her soul whirling about, with the heights of love and the valleys of doubt but always kept her safe. So long as she had him, Rey would never drown in her own Darkness.Â
Grasping his hand tighter, Rey nodded at the medical droids chirping encouragement. Pushing with a scream. Over and over, till her throat was raw from the effort of bringing new life into the universe. Till Ben was certain Rey had broken at least two of his fingers and time seemed to move at a crawl.
It was the wailing scream of the first baby girl who seemed to break the spell for both new parents. Rose wiped the little one down with warm towels, Leia cooed sweetly over her first grandchild and Ben couldnât believe his eyes. A shock of dark hair, waving arms, beautiful brown eyes and there was still one more to come. His wife was breathing, screaming but alive.Â
It was almost an assembly line, Ben mused though he kept the comedy to himself. Watching in surreal joy as Rey labored to deliver the second Solo twin, how Rose tenderly cleaned the second infant once birthed. Mother handed the older twin to Ben so that she could take the younger. Joining Mother in presenting both to Rey together.
âTwo beautiful girls.â Leia leaned in to kiss Reyâs forehead, unable to resist the show of affection.
âMy girls. Our girls.â Rey breathed out, her voice exhausted and proud all at once. Mother would have loved to be here, she was certain. And perhaps they were here, both her parents, even if she couldnât see them. Leaning her head against Benâs shoulder, Rey didnât bother hiding the joyous tears.
âOur girls.â He agreed, unable to take his eyes off the twins. Beautiful, with scrunched faces and hair that stuck up in all directions. How he had been part of making such perfection was beyond him. They seemed like a mirage that would disappear from his grasp, or bits of glass that would shatter if the wind blew too hard.
âCongratulations.â Roseâs face was split by the first true smile since sheâd arrived at Varykino. Rey had fought to protect what she loved, and if anyone deserved a soft ending, she did.
Finished story on Ao3 with detailed tags
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âbaby stop im trying to readâ
âwhat do you mean ma im just getting warmâ
toji was in fact not just getting warm. his big calloused palms were currently underneath your (his) shirt fondling your tits. it wasnât uncommon for toji to have his hands on your breasts as you read before bed. He used them like stress relievers. warm and soft and comforting to the touch. you had your kindle in one hand and the other placed on his head gently rubbing at his scalp as he nosed his way into the crevice of your neck.
âfuck baby you smell so good. you always smell so clean and vanillery.â
that made you smile.
âyeah i know i smell great.â
he laughed at that because yes you did always smell great. god he was so comfortable right now. nothing on the planet could top this for him. with your boobs in his palms toji could overcome anything. his touch became a bit heated and you knew this would soon be escalating. but you werenât going to be the one giving in, if he wanted you he was going to have to ask. carefully his fingers began to pinch at your nipples and he knew he had you right where he wanted you when you began to mewl at his touch.
âwhat are you reading about thatâs got you like this baby? are you cheating on me?â
âhowâs it cheating if iâm reading you buffoon? and you know exactly why.â
he couldnât help but smile at the easy banter that was so common between the two of you.
âwant me to do to you whatever youâre reading about?â
and just as toji began to hike up your shirt with the intention of putting his mouth to work you both heard a slight little patter of feet on the hard wood floor. you couldnât see anything due to the darkness in the room but you were pretty sure someone was here. toji lifted his head up with his hands still holding your chest under your shirt and craned his neck over the edge of the bed when he felt a little finger pat his shoulder.
âdaddy i did sickâ
âoh megs for fucks sake.â
authors note: i didnât expect to receive so much love on this lil drabble! thank you so much lovely people
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pairing: gojo x fem!reader
summary: gojo satoru was the most notorious man across the land. he was the strongest soldier the north had ever produced, the most brilliant of minds, and somebody who slept his way through the noble ranks. his parents set him up in a marriage agreement with you, hoping that a tie with a ring would help save his image. you know gojo never wanted this, and you try to act as if that was normal. but soon, without you or even him realizing it, he comes to the conclusion that while he never wanted this marriage - he's beginning to want you.
warnings: 18+ mdni: arranged marriage, angst, slight no comfort, gojo is emotionally constipated for a bit, heavy making out, eating out (fem! receiving), fingering, (naoya)
word count: 19.7k (sorry)
note: inspired by this drabble. i'm so happy this behemoth of a fic is done!! art credit: _3aem
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Gojo Satoru was the most powerful man alive.Â
Not only physically, though some people chalked him up to being half god, but his name held even more control. The Gojo family of the North was as old as the gods themselves, and theyâve been making sure itâs been kept that way. They owned so much land that you would walk to the ends of the earth and circle back around and it would probably still be theirs. They had armies of unfathomable sizes under their command, so much riches that they could probably buy an entire nation and still have plenty to spend.Â
His presence was just as large as his name created him to be. Any ball he went to, all eyes would fall on him. On the battlefield, men feared to see the flash of white hair, knowing that his strength was unbridled.Â
And his physical beauty? Most people assumed he was blessed by the gods himself. Gojo had a certain look that just made your knees weak, your heart palpitate, and your cheeks heated up. The handful of times youâve seen him from afar youâve been able to understand why all the girls (and some of the guys) yearned for his attention. His eyes were a piercing blue as if somebody had held a mirror to the sky when creating them. His hair had grown whiter with the years, as white as the snow that sunk deep into the grounds of the north. Gojo had the build of a soldier, and he towered over most people. His bulky build was intimidating, but you heard some girls whisper behind their hands about how he must look underneath all those ceremonial garments.Â
The lord of the North was power itself.Â
Which would make you, by martial association, the North's most powerful lady.
And for somebody who grew up with the same respect as a stable boy, it was all too much too soon.Â
And yes, while on paper you still had your father's last name and legacy tied to it, you werenât really a daughter to your parents. Your mother, though you had to call her by her name whenever you werenât in public, seeing how she wasnât really your mother, made sure it was kept that way. Your other three half-sisters should have been in your spot, either one of them more true to the family name than you. But seeing how theyâre already married, you were the final resort.Â
Gojo Satoru, though youâve seen him countless times (something common because of how close in ranks your families were), had only acknowledged you a couple of times. You didnât care much, never did, because that's what you were used to. After all, it was a common fact that you were what they nicknamed âthe bastard daughterâ of the West.
But it didnât seem to matter much to his parents, as they offered their son up to you in a marriage arrangement.Â
And who were you to turn that down?Â
They, his parents, assured you that their son was looking forward to this union. He was the one to offer it, they said, which you were skeptical of but werenât stupid enough to question. You knew how much Gojo Satoru was tarnishing their reputation with his promiscuous ways, but as long as he was okay with this arrangement you couldnât find any part of you that would disagree with it.Â
After all, you knew that this marriage wasnât out of love, fascination, or even a mutual understanding, but because of the strength your own family (more so your father) held, and how you were the only feasible option for a bride.Â
So, after weeks of rocking back and forth on agreements, paperwork, dress rehearsals, and grueling dancing lessons (and still no sight of the man himself), you found yourself standing at the end of the aisle, your arm linked around your fathers as a large smile plasters itself on your face.Â
Ever since you were young you had convinced yourself that the only man who would want to taint his name enough to marry you would have to be either a troll or an ogre, so that fact that your future spouse was human was better than anything you could have asked for.Â
And youâre not daft. As your heart hammered loudly against the limited space of your chest, waiting for your cue to start walking, you reminded yourself that this was just a mutual agreement. Itâs hard for people at your level to marry for love, but even then, you canât help but hope that you can make a decent friendship out of this.Â
You glanced at your father next to you, catching his eyes as he nodded once, staring ahead of him into the small crowd of just your two families, and patted your arm.Â
You still remember the music playing, the instruments harmonizing together as you took a tentative step forward, feeling warm under the eyes of people you didnât know, but you kept reminding yourself that this was the best thing that couldâve happened to you. Either you died as an old maid in the little room you had near the kitchens at your old home or got married to some warlord who wanted an entire village as family.Â
The orchids that surrounded the venue still infiltrate your nose as you think about it, the way the silk of your dress felt against your skin that had been scrubbed raw earlier that morning.Â
And there you saw him, standing at the end of the aisle. At that moment you realized how much of a mistake this was,
Because the man that stood there, the man who you were about to marry, seemed like heâd rather be dead than be your husband.Â
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You blink out of your trance, sitting up straighter in your seat as you mindlessly stop tearing up pieces of your bread, rubbing your fingers together to get rid of the remnants of flour.Â
The dining hall was huge, far bigger than the one back home. Though you rarely ate there, you could still remember it, and it definitely wasnât as big as this. Yet, despite its size, you felt like you were a little grain of rice in its vastness.Â
The Gojo estate itself was humongous. His parents resided in a smaller house near the ocean now that youâve moved in, but you would bet that the word humble they used to describe it was anything but humbling. Youâve been here for weeks and yet you feel like youâve only discovered half of what this place has to offer.
There were guards at every corner, but at this point, youâre convinced they're just for decoration. If your husband is as decorated a warrior as they say he is, he could protect this entire estate with no help necessary.Â
You stare at your plate, at the array of food prepared just for you, different sorts of cured meats, loaves of bread, cheeses, fruits, and juices from all over, and still, you feel no hunger.Â
Months ago youâd be ecstatic to see how much your life has changed. You get new clothes that fit you, food whenever you desire, people at your beck and call. Your room is no longer that cramped space youâd been given to hide you away from the rest of your family, but twice the size of your father's old bedroom. You wake up earlier and sleep later, do whatever you want, but none of it feels deserved.
The only thing you can bring yourself to think about is how the last time you saw your husband was the night of the wedding. The look on his face when you made your empty vows to one another, his faint lingering kiss on your cheek. You can blink your eyes and still see the way he left, his jaw clenched as he ignored the calls from his parents. How, even here, rumors seemed to follow you.Â
Safe to say, you spent your meals alone.Â
Not only that, but your rooms were entirely separate as well. You were told that you had to consummate the night of your marriage, but from what youâve heard, your husband sleeps in an entirely different wing of the estate, with walls and corridors between the two of you.Â
You tried taking your mind off of things, pretending as if this was normal.Â
Most days youâd walk around, trying to familiarize yourself with the layout of the grounds. Youâd walk the gardens a couple times each week, try to memorize the way back to different places, and stay in the library the other half of the time.Â
A part of you was happy to at least be away from that miserable home, but it felt like swapping one prison for a slightly better one. Your maids were kind, of course, but you didnât know anybody here. They treat you like a lady of noble ranking, as expected from being the wife of the Lord in the North, but youâd rather be given an apron and start working around instead of this mind-numbing boredom of just sitting around.Â
You stare at your plate, chewing on a grape slowly.Â
Looking up you see the sun filtering in through the large windows, illuminating the long table that sits like an empty grave. Clicking your tongue you pick up another grape, slumping in your seat as you look up.Â
This is just the way things will be.
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âAlina?â
You call out from your vanity, staring at your maid as sheâs picking out different earrings for you to pick from for dinner.Â
Itâs a couple of days later, and still no word from Gojo. But that doesnât mean that you havenât stopped for a single second to not think about your supposed husband.Â
You try not to care, pretend that youâre lucky that heâs not bothering you or going out of his way to remind you of this unfortunate situation, but above anything you just feel alone.Â
The maid looks up, a curl falling from her tight bun as she smiles at you in the mirror.Â
âYes, my lady?â She stands up straighter, flattening out the wrinkles from her apron tied around her waist as she begins walking towards you with the jewelry.Â
âIs thisâŠis this normal?â You crane your neck around to look at the different pairs sheâs holding up, nudging your head to the red ones that shine bright, and watch as she sets them down on your desk, resting her hand on your hip as she stares at you quizzically.Â
âWhat do you mean?â She asks as you begin taking your earrings off, putting the new ones on yourself. In the beginning, she protested, saying that a woman of your caliber shouldnât have to do such measly tasks. But the more you protested, she eventually gave up.Â
âDo husbands and wives usually sleep separately?â you say, feeling your chest contract in embarrassment at the stupidness of your question.Â
You watch as she swallows thickly, avoiding eye contact as she sets on fixing some parts of your hair.Â
Staring patiently through the vanity mirror as you watch her work, Alina wets her lips, her eyes downcast as if not wanting to answer.Â
âWas there somebody else he preferred to marry?â You decide to ask, twisting that knife that you knew was lodged in her side, one that was stopping her from talking, and watch as her eyes widen slightly in shock.Â
âIf you donât answer Iâm just going to keep asking more uncomfortable questions,â you warn and Alina snorts softly, shoving your shoulder a little bit as you crack a smile.Â
She moves around, picking up a necklace, and begins clasping it behind your neck.Â
âIâŠI donât know. Heâs always been pretty secretive and,â she looks at you briefly, âSelective. I donât mean to speak ill of my lord but it would be stupid not to acknowledge his old ways. But we never heard of a specific girl.â
Alina places a gentle hand on your shoulder, a sad smile on her face.Â
âYouâre lucky my lady,â she says, her voice hushed, âMost wives donât have the freedom to say their husbands donât care what they do. Had you married that Zenin, youâd be pregnant by now.â
You shudder out a breath, nodding once more.Â
âIâll see you after dinner, my lady,â she says, moving out of the way as you stare quietly at the floor before leaving silently.Â
â-
Tonight for dinner the cooks made you a wide array of different dishes, all from the Northern shore. There are different types of fish, each cooked in various ways. It looks delectable, a feast fit for a king.Â
You feel awful, though, seeing that you canât eat any of it.Â
The last time you had fish your face swelled up and couldnât breathe properly, so that family physician told you to steer away from it. But youâre here now, and it somehow slipped your mind to ever mention this little fact to them, so youâre awkwardly poking around some of the vegetables under the fish, looking for something to eat.Â
You pile some potatoes and carrots on your plate, scraping off any bits of fish on them as you hold this wasnât your last meal.Â
The only sound that fills the room is your fork and knife sometimes hitting the porcelain plate, and you look up every now and then as you chew, looking at the paintings on the wall.Â
Youâre so focused on a portrait of an old man that you donât even notice the figure standing at the entrance of the dining hall, not until you hear a muted curse.Â
You look up instantly, your fork and knife dropping to the plate as you stare at the man in front of you, eyes wide at the sight of your husband.Â
He stands there, blinking slowly as you stare back.Â
You could swear time has never moved so slowly before.Â
You can hear him mutter a quiet shit under his breath, not knowing if he should make this worse by turning around and leaving or if he should join you.Â
Heâs wearing a simple tunic, his face a little flushed, hairline beaded with sweat. Did he just come out of training? He must often do that, you decide, seeing how he mustâve felt comfortable enough walking in here without any clothing of import.Â
His eyes seem to track your little movements; the way your chest rises and falls in a slow movement, the way your fingers have frozen in mid-air, lips slightly parting. Your eyes dart around the room, everybody seeming to have tensed up.
You open your mouth to say something, anything, but youâve never been so moved to silence. It seemed as if years of learned vocabulary slipped your mind within an instant, and no matter how hard you tried, nothing was coming back.
Gojo looks behind his shoulder, at the large double doors he entered through, deep in thought. This would be the first time the two of you had seen each other in weeks, and his tirade of avoiding you has come to an end. It looks like an entire battle is being fought in his mind, and you donât know what to do.
Suddenly, you watch as he shakes his head, deciding to give in and join you for dinner.Â
The seconds go by like hours as he walks up to the seat at the other end of the table, staring at his seat for a brief second before he pushes it out and sits there.Â
You donât know what to do.Â
Servants and maids quickly swarm the room, setting up his plate, cutlery, food, and drinks. It was all so hectic and rushed, but you were glad that it offered some sort of noise in the drowning silence.
A part of you wants to say something about the fish but you know this isnât the right time.Â
In the flurry of movements you allow yourself to discretely look at him a little better, seeing how the last time you saw him was so brief and hurried.Â
The man radiates a different sort of aura youâve never experienced before. While your father was one of the most powerful men in the West, Gojo was the strongest throughout the majority of the North and East. His frame took up the entire chair, his muscular shoulders and arms visible even through the loose fabric that was draped over him. You feel a little disappointed, knowing that if you were a different girl youâd probably be able to enjoy all of this.Â
You try to make yourself seem indifferent, moving some of the vegetables in your plate around, but secretly just trying to shovel them down as fast as humanly possible to get out of this thick atmosphere.Â
One of the men who was setting up some of the plates in front of Gojo takes notice of this, a smile overtaking his face as you briefly look up from your plate, startled to see the man walking closer to you.
âMy lady, Iâm so happy to see you enjoying our Northern delicacy!â He claps his hands together as you stare at him with wide eyes, your mouth still full of potatoes as you try chewing faster to get it all down before he gets closer to you.Â
His eyes wrinkle around the edges, his graying mustache trimmed ever so carefully, and you can tell heâs trying to loosen up the tension, but you stare in abject horror as he stands at your foot of the table.Â
âWould you like some more?â He motions to the fish that lay untouched in front of you, and you glance over to Gojo, hoping that maybe he is focused on his meal, only for your heart to sink at the fact that he is staring at you.Â
â...y-yes,â you croak out, wiping some of the carrot remnants from the corners of your lips as you give him a wobbly smile, âItâs alright, I can serve myself,â you exclaim, trying to thwart him off as he quickly waves this aside, shaking his head as he grabs the tray, beginning to portion some hefty pieces of fish onto your plate.
You donât have the heart to tell this jolly man that this amount of fish would kill you within an instant, or even that he was wasting this all on you, so you just sit there, giving him a tight-lipped smile as you try not to breathe it in too much.Â
âIs that enough, my lady?â He asks, setting the tray down as you look at your plate now full of different sorts of sea creatures you swallow slowly, looking back up at him as you give a wobbly smile.Â
âThis is great,â you muster up and watch as an even larger smile takes over his face, and you feel awful for it, âThank you so much,â you tell him, watching as he bows lowly, excusing himself as he, and the other servants, leave the room,
Leaving you and Gojo alone.Â
Youâre grateful that heâs already dug into his meal, not looking at a struggling you thatâs moving the fish around with your fork as you try to find the last bits of vegetables you had saved up for yourself.Â
The smell itself is enough to make your stomach turn, and you wince, reaching for your cup of wine to wash some of the nausea down.
âYou have very good wine,â you say suddenly, against your will, and have an out-of-body experience as you realize what you just did.Â
Gojo looks up from his plate, a little startled as he looks at you and the goblet in your hand, his white brows furrowed.Â
He nods once, not saying anything, and you feel the strange need to continue, somehow enjoying the feeling of stabbing yourself in the foot.
âOur wine back home tasted like cow piss,â your eyes widened at your slip of crass language, âEr - not piss, um, urineâŠ?â You wince even more, feeling as if a ghost with awful intentions had taken control over your body, âNot that Iâve had cow piss - urine!â You correct yourself, âBut I imagine that if I hadâŠthat, um, it would taste like o-our wine back home...â
Heâs staring at you, unblinking, and you smile awkwardly, raising the cup to him as a sort of cheers gesture.Â
You count twenty seconds of silence in your head as you set the cup down, playing with your fork as you glance back up at him. Gojo looks as if he is regretting his decision to stay, his fingers tapping on his knife in a hurried sort of way.Â
âI donât really like wine,â you continue, feeling like the only thing that could stop you now was if somebody were to bludgeon you to death, âI like juice more. Oh, well, but I guessâŠwine is juiceâŠ?â you mutter to yourself, contradicting your own words mid-sentence, âBack home we had this mulberry juice and it tasted nice. Kind of like your wine,â heâs not even looking at you and so your words die, quieting down as you sink back into your seat, hoping it could eat you entirely.Â
âDo you like wine?â You ask, tilting your head to the side, smiling faintly, awkwardly, âOr juice? Or⊠mulberriesâŠ?âÂ
He shakes his head, still not staring at you.Â
âDid you have a good-â
âI prefer eating in silence.â Gojo finally said, raising his head slightly as he stared directly at you, watching as your mouth clamped shut.Â
Your smile grows small, eyes falling to the table to hide the embarrassment in them. You give him a brief nod, mumbling a quiet apology under your breath as you begin moving some pieces of carrot around on your plate.Â
You can hear the clinking of his utensils against his plate, wishing you could somehow fit an entire fish down your esophagus to escape this moment.Â
You give it a couple of seconds, counting the groves in the wood of the table, and rise, stomach empty, heart churning as you finally excuse yourself.Â
It only takes you minutes to find your room, quicker than last night, and allow yourself to sink against your bed, rubbing your skin raw of the rouge Alina had applied an hour earlier.Â
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You donât tell anybody of the awful encounter with the man thatâs legally your husband, but youâre sure that those there to observe have already begun talking about it. You try to pretend nothing happened, but Alina could pick up on your closed-off demeanor that night, her hands gentler than usual when helping you take off your garments, her eyes filled with concern.Â
âHow was dinner, my lady?â She asked, staring at you as you waved off her worries, mustering up a lame excuse of a smile as you took off your silk shrug, avoiding any sort of eye contact as you slipped into your nightly garments.Â
âIt was good,â your words are void of emotion, âI had fish.âÂ
The following days are empty of any sight of your husband, but youâve grown to find that normal. It doesnât help that you canât stop thinking about how idiotic you acted, your big mouth never knowing when to stop, tossing and turning in your bed at your excuse of an interaction.Â
You continue with your old routine of walking around the estate, sometimes trying to track down Alina and your other maids, seeing if maybe they had some free time to spend with you. You know thereâs a town nearby, the girls often talk about how they go there sometimes at night, but youâre too afraid of going out alone, not used to that sort of thing.Â
Sometimes you sit out near the fields with a book, twisting the ring thatâs searing into your finger, mindlessly taking in the words on the page. Other days you walk around the gardens, picking out some flowers for the vase in your room. On the days when youâre feeling really adventurous, youâd go near the east wing, where youâve heard Gojoâs room is, and look at what sort of things lie there. But most times you chicken out, going back near your side just as quickly as you went.
You never see him at dinner again, knowing he wasnât about to put himself through that torture again, so you go back to eating in silence, sometimes pretending that the chairs were full of people and that you were in one of those balls you longed to go to as a kid.
They seem to keep bringing fish out for you, and itâs in so many days deep that youâre in this sort of limbo where you canât tell them youâre deathly allergic to it without feeling awful for all the work theyâve put in just to realize itâs gone to waste, so those nights, tonight, for example, you try finding as many vegetables as you can.Â
The roasted asparagus and beets are lovely, but there was only so much of it. And you find yourself getting a little bit sick of it too, your stomach-churning as you try to chug as much water as you can to get rid of the dirt after-taste that the beets have.
You thank the cooks and the servants as you leave for the night, your stomach still relatively empty as you get to your room, telling Alina to leave early for the night as you get ready for bed by yourself, wanting to be with yourself just for a little bit.Â
You lay on your bed, staring emptily at the ceiling, one hand on your stomach as if gurgling, still hungry for more. You try to sleep, trying to pretend like you were at your old home, those nights when this would be normal, but itâs no use. Youâve been too spoiled at the Gojo estate, and no matter how much you try to ignore the pang of hunger, it continues to bite you back.Â
So you find yourself twisting off of the warm comfort of your bed, sitting in silence as you contemplate what youâre about to do, but give in, lighting a candle as you slide into some slippers, leaving your room as you try to find your way down to the kitchens.Â
Thankfully, itâs well into the night when everybody is asleep, so this embarrassing walk of shame is only seen by the guards on duty. You walk down the testing staircase, careful to look around the corners for anybody there, but youâre alone.Â
You make your way to the kitchens, not hard to find seeing that theyâre near the dining hall, and you peep your head inside, a sigh of relief escaping your lips to find that itâs completely deserted.Â
At your old home, your room was behind the kitchens. You grew up in a small room, nearly the size of a broom cupboard, but you made do with what you had. One benefit of this situation was that you were raised by the smell of different sorts of food, by people who specialized in the art of cooking. You knew how to make meals that nobody else in your family could even imagine, which youâre grateful for right now as you fumble around the kitchen, trying to find where they put different ingredients.Â
You rummage through the cupboards, finding some eggs, bread, cheeses, and seasonings. Youâre able to find the pots and pans a few feet away and start assembling everything for a little omelet. Â
In your hurry of trying to be quiet and careful, you somehow manage to miss the large shadow figure thatâs standing near the doorway, observing you.Â
You crack the eggs into a bowl, beating them together with a fork you found, too tired to look for an actual whisk, turning around to throw the eggshells away when a cry of surprise escapes your lips.Â
âOh!â Your heart nearly falls right out of your ribcage, your hands flying to your chest as you find yourself staring at him, cheeks heating the way they seem to do whenever youâre looking at your husband.Â
His blue eyes are tracking you, watching what you do, brows furrowed slightly as the two of you canât do anything but stare at each other.Â
âIâŠâ You canât find anything to say, looking at him and then behind your shoulder, to the things you have found, and swallow thickly, wetting your lips as you straighten your back up, suddenly aware of just how flimsy and bedroom-worthy your outfit is.
You can only stare at the ways his arms are crossed over his chest, biceps bulging, and lips pressed into a thin line. It seems like he wasnât planning on seeing you here, yet another moment in which heâs probably going to regret somehow finding you in such a large estate.
âIâm making an omelet,â you finally say, your words falling like a whisper from your lips as you point to the eggshells now discarded in the trash, âI tried to be quietâŠâ you shake your head, eyes dropping from his heavy gaze for a second as you glance back up at him, lips upturned in an apologetic smile, â...sorry.âÂ
Gojo doesnât say much, youâve noticed that, but now youâre wondering if he has some sort of impediment that stops him from speaking to specific people.Â
His chest rises briefly as he inhales, his white hair a little tussled as if he were sleeping. It doesnât make sense why heâd be awoken, though. The kitchens are a far walk from the east wingâŠ?
âI wasnât asleep,â he finally says as if reading your mind, his voice deep as you feel it rattle your bones.
You nod once, not knowing what to do with the information.Â
âWellâŠum,â you fidget with your fingers, âgood, thatâs good.â You nod once, as if that was all you were going to say, and look at the slight wrinkles in his clothes, crossing your arms over your chest, feeling naked with the way youâre not wearing any undergarments under your little nightly dress.Â
âIâll call for a cook,â Gojo murmurs, looking you up and down one final time as he turns to leave, seemingly done with this conversation.Â
You sputter, shaking your head as you watch him turn to look at you through a confused stare.Â
âNo! SorryâŠno, no need,â you say quickly, taking one step forward as if to stop him, âPlease, itâs alright. I can cook myself,â you motion once more to your eggs and little station, noting the way heâs looking at you strangely, and so you feel the need to continue talking, perhaps one of your worst flaws.
Gojo looks at you finally, his fingers tapping on his arm.Â
You notice that heâs not wearing his wedding ring, your chest filling with a strange feeling as you try to hide your ring-clad finger. âDo you not like their cooking?â He asks, and it takes a second for you to blink out of your stupor, a weird sensation in your throat as you shake your head slowly, trying to pull your eyes away from his hand.Â
âI do,â you assure him, the words falling thickly from your lips, a lump in your chest, âI just feel bad waking them up right now,â you shrug as if you werenât feeling any of these strange emotions, âAnd as I said, I can cookâŠsoâŠâÂ
He nods, seemingly not believing you, not picking up on the storm that happening inside your head at the fact that heâs not wearing his wedding ring. You have to remind yourself that this isnât an actual marriage, the ring was only for show.Â
âDid you not eat dinner?â He continues, pressing, and your eyes widen slightly.Â
Youâve always been terrible at lying, never able to do so. Even when your father's wife continued to drill you on who ate the candies from a party when you were younger, showing her your chocolate-stained fingers that you had hidden behind your back, not even a minute into the interrogation.Â
âI did,â you say slowly, rubbing up and down your arms to warm them up from the chill breeze that seems to have picked up from the open windows, âThe beets and asparagus were very nice,â you agree, not knowing what else to say without blowing this weird secret youâve been holding onto.Â
His brow raised slightly, lips pursing slightly.Â
âAnd the fish?âÂ
You swallow once again, fidgeting with the fabric of your slip, your hands, your ring, and you donât notice the way his eyes fall to the gold on your finger, darting back to your face when he notices you staring at him.Â
âIâŠâ you feel your face heating up beyond human measures, laughing awkwardly as you tug at your necklace chain, wishing that you hadnât made that stupid decision to leave your comfortable bed, shouldâve listened to your gut instead of your stomach, cursing your past self for being so rash, âI, um, I canâtâŠeatâŠfish.âÂ
Gojoâs stoic face, so sure and confident, seems to falter for a brief second.
His arms tighten over his chest.Â
â...what?â He eventually asks after a couple of seconds of mind-bending silence, his head tipping in utter confusion as you sway from side to side on your feet, chewing your lips raw as you wish the ground could open up and never spit you back out.Â
âThe fish always looks great, donât get me wrong,â you say quickly as if thatâs going to do anything, âBut I canât eat fish. Otherwise Iâll swell right up and um, dieâŠprobably,â you wince at how bad you are at talking to people, your husband especially.
He lets out a little puff of air that sounds like a shocked scoff, eyes falling to the floor as he shakes his head, not understanding what you are saying.Â
âBut theyâve been cooking fish almostâŠfour times a week?âÂ
You nod, smiling awkwardly, looking at the painting of a fish on the wall as you look back at him.Â
âThey have,â you affirm, leaning against a counter as he stays frozen in his spot at the door.Â
âAnd youâŠyou canât have fish?â Gojo questions incredulously.Â
âIâll swell right up,â you repeat with a little smile that he doesnât mirror, clearly not a man of humor, and you drop your hands to your side, â...kind of like a pufferfish.â You add quietly, looking at the ground as you say it.Â
He coughs, his hand covering his mouth as you glance up at him, only to see him trying to hide the shocked laugh that had escaped him.
âWhy didnât you tell them?â He finally continues, and you hate the way all your hard work of just saying quiet isnât working and is in fact, coming back to bite you in the ass.Â
You shrug once more, shoving a grain of rice that was on the floor with the tip of your shoe.
âThe first time it happened I figured Iâd just tell them next time, but then that man kept on giving me more fish so I felt bad and I just never said anything.âÂ
Gojo stares at you, his eyes squinting together as if he were figuring out an enigma, a war strategy that even his best generals couldnât get a grasp of.Â
You look away, feeling like a fire was being lit under your skin.Â
âAlright,â you say, clapping your hands together as your stomach grumbles once again, reminding you that it is still in desperate need of food, âIâll be done soon. And Iâll clean up,â you promise, but you doubt he even cares as you begin to inch away from him.Â
You watch as a strand of hair falls into his face, watch as he goes to move, never breaking his eye contact with you, until he looks behind you at the eggs and bread, and then to the window behind you, the moon as bright as ever.
He nods a final time, looking over you a final time before he exits.Â
You make sure heâs far gone, letting out a heavy breath as you hold yourself up by the table, eyes wide at the fact that you had spoken more than two words to the man who seemed to despise your entire existence.Â
You go back to your eggs, whisking them in silence as your mind reels.Â
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Gojo is there, for dinner, the following night.Â
You enter the dining room to see him at the end of the table, already eating, and glances up briefly when he sees you walk in.Â
Trying to hide the shock on your face you quickly look away, finding the way to your side of the table as you look around to see what theyâve given you tonight. A sigh of fleeting relief escapes your lips at the lack of fish, glad youâll be going to sleep full of food tonight.Â
You serve yourself, piling roasted meats and potatoes onto your plate as you fill your cup with water, not trusting wine after the last time you had it in his presence, and pretend that everything is normal as you pick up your knife and fork.Â
His words rang in your mind from the last time, the fact that he ate in silence, so you forced yourself to clam up, knowing that it was probably from the best and save you from any more mortification.Â
Your eyes fleet up now and then, grateful that heâs never looking up when you do, and give yourself some time to really take him in. Maybe in another universe where everything was normal, this couldâve just been another regular thing, and you try pretending that it is.
Heâs probably only here because of a timing issue, you tell yourself, maybe this was the only time in the middle of training, state affairs, or other things that he was able to have dinner tonight. Yes, yes, that has to be it.Â
You look back down at your plate, chewing as quietly as possible, missing the way he lifted his head to look up at you.Â
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Dinner with Gojo becomes a strange weekly occurrence.
The two of you eat in silence a couple of times a week, and every time it happens youâre so sure itâs going to be the last.Â
On one of the nights you find yourself accompanied by the man you decide that the silence is more choking than whatever it is you find yourself saying.Â
âHave you been notified about thisâŠgathering in a couple of weeks?âÂ
This gathering was something you were told about that morning by Alina. One of the smaller families allied to the North, the Tokoshiâs, had invited you and your husband to join.Â
âYes,â Gojo says, and youâre a little surprised that he didnât just give you a faint nod, âIt shouldnât be too big.âÂ
He cuts off a piece of his lamb, dipping it in some of the gravy as he glances up at you.Â
You try to hide your excitement, not only from the fact that heâs spoken to you but also from the fact that this was an actual ball you would be able to go to. You knew that marrying him meant attending more of these sorts of events, but seeing how this was your first one, it was hard to not act a little giddy.Â
âYou have a lovely library,â you speak after carefully chewing through some of your food, your pointer finger resting on your fork as your legs crossed.Â
Gojo glances up at you, those mesmerizing blue eyes finding yours from across the long table.Â
âAt my old home,â you pause briefly, wondering how he feels when you refer to his estate as your other home, âI wasnât allowed to go into our library unless my tutors asked to have some of our sessions there. So I just wanted to say thank you for letting me - um, go there,â your words quiet down at the end, looking at the roasted pig in front of you momentarily as you wonder what you were even trying to get.Â
He takes a sip of his wine.Â
âThe grounds are as much mine as they are yours,â he says, but his words sound rehearsed as if he were told to say this.Â
âEven the east wing?âÂ
You regretted it the moment you asked it.Â
Shit.Â
Gojo opens his mouth and then shuts it. You chew on the inside of your cheek, waiting for him to speak, to say something, anything, but it reverts to that same silence that floods your senses and makes you aware of every other sound in the room.
Your burst of what you attempted at comedy seemed to keep coming back instantly in your face, a form of punishment for somebody who never knew how to make uncomfortable situations better.
Suddenly, all of your appetite is lost. Stupid, stupid, stupid, you can only chide yourself, the food in front of you, no matter how good it looked, felt like it would taste like ash on your tongue. You kept feeding this burning fire that was your marriage, expecting your hay-like words to act like water.
Thereâs a thick tension in the room, and you look around, blinking slowly as you fidget with your fingers.Â
You try to go back to eating.Â
You were wrong,
That initial silence was better.Â
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That night you found yourself back in the kitchens.Â
Youâre wiping at your cheeks, hoping that the therapeutic motions of baking can help alleviate some of your many turmoils.Â
When you were younger, you were used to silence. People normally avoided you, and those who didnât werenât ever your age. The cooks at your old estate were kind, but they were usually too busy to entertain a little girl. You would usually help the maids out with their washing and folding, rather doing something than nothing. You would listen in on their gossip and stories, always happy to be included.Â
You assumed that it would be the same here.Â
But the maids assured you that a lady of such high rank shouldnât be meddling in such lowly tasks, and the cooks here were cooking for such a larger number of people that you knew you couldnât bother them the way you used to.Â
So you find yourself with a lot to say but nobody to say it to. The jokes and ideas that pop into your head fall flat because the old ladies who helped clean the bedsheets and used to laugh hearing them are no longer here. In those moments youâre with Alina or your other maids are sparse, and so you sometimes imagine that if you speak more when Gojo is around, he might warm up to you.Â
You also had to remind yourself that your track record with men wasnât the best either. Those fleeting crushes on some of the other boys who youâd see at balls always ended with them scurrying away from you as if you were the plague. The only other marriage offer youâd gotten was from a man who had struggled with finding a woman who could keep up with his awful ways. So the fact that Gojo Satoru, the most well-known man in the realm, didnât want much to do with you wasnât shocking.Â
And Alina was right. A lot of wives arenât as lucky to say their husbands donât care, but you wondered how it wouldâve been if he did. You exclaimed to her a couple of nights ago that you shouldâve just married Naoya, but deep inside you knew thatâs not what you wanted. A part of you knew ever since you agreed to this arrangement that you wouldnât be getting an actual husband out of it.Â
You sniffle, your eyes blurry. You donât like crying in front of people, and so you allow yourself to do so in the pale moonlight of the kitchen, the only sound other than your ragged breathing being the repeated sound of flour falling softly in your mixing bowl.Â
Baking was something that nobody ever could judge you about. You were good at it, and you knew you could do it with no error. Your cakes and pastries always turned out well, save for the minor problems you ran into as a kid, but you sometimes act like youâre baking for a group of people, about to take it out to see a sea of smiling faces who are happy to see you and your deserts.
âI thought you only cooked when they served fish for dinner.âÂ
A voice, one thatâs seared into your memory, says from behind you.Â
It takes everything in you not to jump from surprise, and it takes even more willpower not to turn around.Â
You quickly wipe at your cheeks, breathing in to make sure your voice wonât come out in bits and pieces. You keep your back to your husband, continuing to sift your flour in the bowl, a continual motion like waves hitting against the dock.
âIâm baking,â you specify, cringing at the way you sound like youâre fighting a nasty cold.Â
Gojo doesnât say anything for a beat and does nothing to move. Youâre glad he doesnât, too scared that if he saw your puffy eyes or your tear-stained cheeks heâd begin to think that you have no backbone at all. It felt almost pathetic to have the world's strongest warrior see you recover from crying alone.Â
He hums in the back of his throat at your words, and you wonder what he looks like right now.Â
âI doubt these walls have seen a lady of such high rank before,â he comments, and you look up briefly from the mountain of white building up in the bowl, âThey must whisper to themselves once you leave.âÂ
You let out a little puff of air, something resembling a soulless laugh.Â
âEveryone whispers to themselves after I leave,â you say, reaching for a whisk, âIâve heard more whispers than my own name.âÂ
He doesnât say anything for a moment, and you hope he doesnât notice the way you quickly try to wipe at the corners of your eyes.
âYou come down here a lot,â itâs posed as a question, but Gojo says it like a statement. He must have eyes everywhere, reporting to him what youâre doing. You wouldnât be shocked, but you just nod, chewing on the inside of your cheek as you begin to whisk your dry ingredients together.Â
âI hope itâs okay,â you throw in a pinch of salt as you mix, âI like the kitchen.âÂ
He let out a little breath as if he was about to chuckle, but then he got confused. You decide to spare him the endless questions that must be going on in his head, wondering why somebody in your position would prefer the kitchens rather than anywhere else.Â
âMy bedroom used to be behind a kitchen. Iâd have to go through the pantry just to reach it,â you turn briefly to grab your bowl with the wet ingredients, pouring it slowly into your flour and sugar mixture, mixing it in slowly and carefully.Â
âMy fatherâs wife wanted me out of sight. That estate had never used one of its actual bedrooms to sleep the daughter of a whore,â you can hear him inhale sharply, âI woke up to the sounds of people shouting for different ingredients, to pots and pans clanging against each other. I learned how to cook and bake when I was young, and I usually helped them cook the food my family would eat for dinner.âÂ
When your batter is all mixed through you go to find the pan you have buttered and dusted with sugar, pouring it in as you wipe off the side of the bowl that had some remnants of batter dripping from it.
âThey never asked me to, but I liked it. I liked feeling useful,â you peek over to your side, seeing him leaning against the wall adjacent to you, silent as a mouse.Â
You walk over to the other side of the kitchen with your pan, careful with the lid to the brick oven, heated with the fire you had lit an hour ago, and slide your cake pan into it, closing it shut as you stand up straight.Â
Finally, you look over at him.Â
His eyes rake over your face, lingering on the circles underneath your eyes, the redness that stained the whites of them. Heâs clad in the simple tunic and breeches he had worn to dinner hours ago, his large shoulders leaning on the wall as his arms lay crossed over his chest.Â
âI wonât go to the east wing,â you say in a whisper, your voice quiet but heavy as it falls from your lips as a promise, trying to muster up a smile but it comes out wobbly, âI was just trying to make you laugh.âÂ
His lips looked pinker than usual as if he had been chewing on them, something you often did when you were deep in thought. His white hair had been messily pushed back as if his fingers had been combing through them continuously.Â
âThese grounds are yours,â Gojo says, his words thick from his throat. His exhale and inhale mirror the way you breathe, your two chests rising as though living with the same lungs.
You shrug, a melancholy look on your face as you shake your head.Â
âMaybe if I was your wife,â your words are said without any malice, âBut Iâm just another person who sleeps here.âÂ
Gojo tilts his head slightly as if your statement had somehow wrenched itself into his mind, weighing it down. Even in the limited light, you could see the way he looked at you, an unreadable expression on his face.
âIâm sorry about all of this. I know I took away your chance to marry somebody you actually wanted, but my father told me you were okay with the arrangement. I wouldnât have agreed to it otherwise,â you twist your wedding ring around your finger mindlessly, a little habit youâve grown over the weeks here, âI never wanted to be selfish, and I truthfully never wanted a husband. I just wanted a friend.â
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Ever since that night, you eat your meals in your room.Â
Alina protested, saying itâs not right to eat alone, but you told her not to think about it, saying how you liked the silence.Â
You mustered up the courage to ask some of the coachmen to take you to the nearby town, starting by looking around at the little shops, keeping a hood over your head in case somebody saw a new stranger.
Sometimes youâd go inside the shops, finding little trinkets that you thought your maids might like, or ornaments that might help fill up the empty spots around your room. Youâve never been able to decorate before with how small your old room was, so you decided to take advantage of its space.
When youâre walking around you sometimes see Gojo, either in the training yard or walking around with one of his advisors. There have been moments when the two of you catch each other's stares from across the room, but youâre always the first to look away, making sure youâre going in a different direction than him.Â
You knew that youâd have to talk to him eventually, especially with the gathering that was coming up at the Tokoshi manor, but each night you pretended it was another day away, instead of one day closer.Â
Your maids came bustling in and out of your room more often than usual with preparations for the night that was closing in, shoving you into different dresses, not satisfied until they found the right one.
Alina noticed your shift in demeanor, never picking and prodding at it, but silently observing. You could tell she knew something was wrong, but you didnât know how to put exactly what you were feeling in words.Â
It didnât help that the closer you got to the night of the event Gojo seemed to be everywhere you were. The gardens, the library, the field, the stables. He probably just had business to attend to, but it didnât help that whenever he saw you it looked like he wanted to say something. It also didnât help that youâd scurry away when you saw him open his mouth.Â
The weeks turned into days, the days into a day, and that day into hours and you found yourself perched uncomfortably on a chair as three different women attended to your face, hair, and accessories.Â
You watch them work silently, taking in all the jewelry and makeup that youâve been looking forward to wearing. Itâs nothing too drastic, but thatÂ
girl who longed to wear pretty things inside of you is gleaming right now.Â
ââŠLord Gojo requested for her to wear another pair of earrings,â one of your maids says, looking at the earrings Alina had picked out for you.Â
Your ears perk up at the mention of his name, watching Alina as she perks an eyebrow up.Â
âWhen did he request that?âÂ
The older lady looks at you in the mirror and then at Alina.Â
âA couple of nights ago,â she shows Alina another pair, a sapphire one that seems to gleam brightly, âhe dropped them off when she wasâŠawayâŠâ the maid trails off, noticing the fact that you were eavesdropping.
Your eyes dart away as if that would help, but she quickly changes the topic, and you huff in annoyance as Alina sends you a knowing look. Â
âYour husband is a strange man,â Alina mutters in your ear as you giggle quietly, rolling your eyes as she playfully shoves your shoulder.Â
You donât say anything in retaliation, and sit back as you put in your new earrings, grateful that they still complimented the color of your dress, and try to pretend you are going down for dinner rather than a gathering with people you didnât know.Â
Youâve been learning this entire week how to properly hold a spoon and fork, and how to cut your food appropriately. Youâve been taking dancing lessons, discovered how to properly greet people, and even learned how to gracefully enter and exit a horse-drawn carriage. All things you shouldâve probably learned earlier, but were never able to.Â
Alina helps you out of the chair when they are all done, giving you a second to look into the mirror. The dress they had wrangled you into was beautiful, your hair done in the way you liked. You thanked them all, expressing your endless gratitude for their hard work.Â
You take a deep breath as you exit the room and go out into the hall, leading yourself down the stairs and through multiple corridors, trying to calm down your palpitating heart.Â
It takes a few minutes but you find yourself at the front of the manor, standing alone and looking around, trying to see if you were at the wrong place. But in the distance, you can see the coachmen and the carriage, the door shut, still waiting for you.Â
You take a tentative step forward, nearing the entranceway that leads outside, but feel a soft touch hovering above your elbow.Â
Itâs strange how he usually finds you before you find him, but as somebody whoâs trained to know and find things before others do, you suppose it makes sense. You glance to your side, already expecting to see those cerulean eyes as you look up.Â
Gojo looks good, somehow better than usual.Â
Heâs clad in dark blue garments, intricate with Northern design, and your eyes look up and down his entire body. His usual muscular build seems to be outlined by the stretch of his overcoat, the way the fabric is sitting snugly over his chest.Â
He seems to be doing the same, though. You can feel his gaze drop to your dress, to the way your lips are a little redder than usual, your hair done in a way that suits your face. His eyes linger on your ears, and thereâs a small, barely noticeable tug to the corners of his lips.Â
âReady?â Gojo asks, the first time heâs spoken in a couple of weeks, and you hum.Â
He takes his hand away from your elbow as he rests it on the small of your back, and you feel heat travel from his fingertips through the fabric, through your corset, your undergarments, and straight to your skin.Â
They bring the carriage out a little closer, a coachman opening the door for you. You brace yourself, heaving your dress upwards as you go to grasp the rail on the side.
But Gojo moves swiftly, offering you his glove-clad hand as you look over at him in surprise, taking it after a moment of hesitation, and haul yourself inside.Â
Itâs far bigger than the one you usually take to town, and you settle for a corner on the left-hand side near the window. The walls of the carriage are lined with this sort of fabric that feels like itâs lighter than a cloud, colored the traditional blue of the Gojo family. Youâd guess it could fit at least an entire family comfortably, so youâre not too worried about the underskirt of your dress taking up too much space.
You watch Gojo follow you in. He looks around, having to duck his head (and a lot of his back) as he sits in front of you, pushing the strands of hair that had fallen into his face.
The two of you sit in awkward silence, your gaze settled on the door that they shut after Gojo entered, and your eyes quickly fall to your hands resting in your lap, neatly folded.
The carriage starts a little bit later, the wheels humming to life as the coachmen yip at the horses to start. The sudden rocking movement that youâve become familiar with sways you side to side, and suddenly you're totally aware of the fact that youâre alone in a limited space with the man youâve been avoiding for the better half of two weeks.Â
You can feel his stare boring into the side of your head, can hear the way his breathing is coming out strangely as if he wanted to talk, but kept stopping himself off before he could say a word.Â
âDid you like the earrings?â Gojo finally asks, and you glance up, eyes narrowing for a second in confusion as realization suddenly comes rushing in.Â
âHm? O-oh, yes!â You quickly stutter out, your hands flying to your ears as if you forgot they were there, âYes, thank you. They were beautiful. They kind of looked like the inside of a belly button,â you say.
Your husband blinks, brows furrowed slightly as you think about what you had just said, eyes wide in shock. Â
âErâŠwell, gods, no, not bellybuttons,â your head falls to your hands as you shake your head profusely, âSorry, they donât look like belly buttons-âÂ
But you stop when you hear a small laugh from him, quiet as he looks away for a second, a tiny slightly visible grin on his face as he looks back at you.Â
âDid you know that sometimes,â his eyes are a little upturned as if he fighting back an actual smile, âI make a bet with myself about what youâre going to say?âÂ
You smile slightly, your head cocking to the side.Â
âHave you ever won?âÂ
Gojo chuckles, and your eyes suddenly fall to his hand, at the way heâs fidgeting with his ring, his wedding ring, the same way you seem to do whenever youâre thinking about everything and anything all at once.Â
âNot once.âÂ
You grin, and though you still feel this heavy weight of unspoken things resting in the middle of you two, you decide not to acknowledge it at the moment. Things unsaid, unheard, weaved through the air, tying you and him together like a tapestry.Â
You fidget with your skirt, looking out the window at the moving scenery.Â
Gojo breathes deeply through his nose, his pointed finger tapping on his thigh.Â
âIâve been meaning to talk to you,â he finally says, and your eyes dart away from the trees and the sky to look over at him.Â
His bottom lip is caught underneath his teeth, his blue eyes shining with a different hue. He takes up a lot of room with just his size alone, but it looks like heâs trying to make himself seem less intimidating, less of a warrior, and more of aâŠperson.
You donât say anything, opting to stay quiet to see what it is that he is trying to formulate into words.Â
âThat night,â Gojo twists his ring back and forth with his thumb, âIâŠâ Itâs weird to see somebody so sure of themself struggle to speak, and your brows crease in the middle, not knowing what it was he was trying to get at.Â
âI wanted to tell you that you too had a right to a good husband. Somebody who didn't rush you into a marriage because of his own mistakesâŠsomebody you wanted.â
Where is he going with this?
You suddenly feel your throat dry up, swallowing thickly as Gojo looks out the window momentarily before looking back at you.Â
âMy parents never told me who Iâd be marrying,â Gojo explains, his voice hoarse, âI figured out the day of the wedding,â he twisted his wedding ring, looking at the way it shined, âAnd I wanted to hate you,âÂ
His words punch you square in the gut, but you can only bring yourself to keep on looking at him.
âI wanted to hate you so much because it would be easier to act like this wasnât my fault if I couldâŠbut,â he sighs, his chest rising and falling, âI donât think itâs possible to hate you.âÂ
Your lip trembles slgihtly, a sheen over your eyes. What is he doing?
âIâve been raised in a way most people our age arenât. My parents wanted me to be the strongest so was put into training since I was four, and I think this entire time Iâve been trying to approach you like aâŠmilitary strategy. You were this map in my head that no matter how I approached it nothing made sense. But that night, in the kitchen, everything finally did.âÂ
Your eyes flitter downwards so that he couldnât see the waver in them
âYou didnât deserve how you were treated in your old life, nor this new one,â his hand covers his chest, and you feel lightheaded, âAnd I promise to you Iâll do everything in my power to make this one better. If you donât want me as a husband, than as a friend.
âIâd like to be your friend, if youâd allow me,â he whispers thickly, his voice heavy. He fidgets with his fingers, moving them together and back out again, and you notice how he does this a lot whenever youâre near.
Your heart is beating so quickly that you feel like it's going to stop, and your mind is working so hectically that you donât know what to think. This is the same man who looked at you as if you had torn down the moon and stars when he saw you the first time, the man who never seemed to be that interested in what it is you had to say. The very same person who wouldâve rather married a broomstick than you.Â
âŠright?Â
And yet heâs here, asking to be your friend. Something that nobody has ever asked before, something that people wouldnât ever dare to murmur out loud to you. He had no beneficial gain from doing this, no ally that he would please if he offered to be your friend.
Your heart twists because why does he look like he cares about what you say? His eyes are creased slightly around the edges, his lips pressed together as if he were preparing for whatever outcome it was to what you said.
Nobody has ever told you those things, the things that made years of pain and hurt strummed into one beat that your heart never wanted to drum to. This man, your husband, Gojo, was supposed to be another cog in that old machine, one that hummed and spurred like it was about to eat you alive.Â
But the more you look at him, the more you let your unspoken words speak in silence for you, you realise that he isnât lying.
You open your mouth to speak but are cut off when the carriage comes to a sudden halt.Â
The two of you look at each other and then to the door, watching as it opens up, greeted to the sight of a large manor with multiple people walking in hand in hand. You swallow your bile, not knowing what to say, deciding to flee instead of face him like you shouldâve.Â
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The gathering itself was far more boring than you imagined it to be.Â
You and Gojo had the mutual understanding to act moreâŠwell, like a couple, than you actually were. You didnât comment on the way his arm circled around your waist a couple of minutes into making your rounds talking with people or the endearing way he referred to you as my wife.Â
Youâre glad that he doesnât do anything to talk about what he had told you in the carriage whenever the two of you were alone, acting like nothing was wrong and everything was normal as he inquired about your day.Â
You told him brief things, still trying to shove his words out of your mind, but it was no use. Iâd like to be your friend, your mind kept repeating, and you were too scared of brining it up in case he had changed his mind in between those minutes of quiet.
People you had never seen before congratulated you on your new marriage, their brows raised in that excited way as they motioned to your stomach, hinting at a special little someone who might be joining your lives soon.Â
âSoon!â You said with a curt laugh, glancing momentarily at Gojo only to see him already looking at you, a light blush dusting his cheeks.
He made sure not to stay with people who were strangers to you for too long, not wanting to bore you to death, and allowed you to take in more of the well-lit and vastly decorated manor.Â
Though its size was incomparable to the Gojo estate, it was still massive. The Tokoshi family had been a family with the Gojo one for centuries, so there was no question that the riches they had amassed over the years by being trading partners with them had culminated in this.Â
Gojo told you earlier in the carriage, before everything else, how the young Tokoshi couple were good people. They liked to throw parties a couple of times a year, inviting only a select few. He liked them far more than a lot of the other people he had been forced to grow up with over the years.Â
You look at the dining hall, at the corridors with openings that allow you to look outside without the glare of glass. His arm never left your body, holding you close to him as he let you walk around, your mouth hanging open slightly as you craned your neck to look at everything. Candles were lit everywhere, the bouquets of different assortments of flowers decorating the stone flower holders carved into the walls.Â
You mentioned to him in the privacy of the carriage, that you hadnât ever been able to experience a party of this sort of caliber before. You could see how he wanted to ask more questions, but you could see the answers already formulating his head as to why.
âWe probably look like one of those couples where the wifeâs dying and the husband takes her out to see the stars one last time,â you whisper to him, still looking around in a stunned sort of way at the beauty of it all.Â
Gojoâs head ducks down a bit, trying to hide the chuckle that had broken out and made its way onto his face. He coughs into his fist as if that was the issue, but you look over at him to see the humor in his eyes.Â
âDid you lose your bet again?â You ask, glancing at him from the corner of your eyes as he looks like heâs fighting the grin thatâs threatening to take over.Â
âIâm always losing that bet,â he tells you.
Though he doesnât do anything to bring up his conversation, you can see it in the way he looks at you, as if heâs still teetering on an edge, wanting to know what you were thinking in that frazzled mind of yours.Â
You decide to push past it.
âCan I get in on it?â You ask, turning slightly so that you face him, very aware of the fact that his hand hasnât moved from its spot on your waist.
You try not to think about it, reminding yourself that itâs just for show, but you canât stop the feeling of heat that travels wherever it is he seems to touch you. His hand is larger than an average one, his fingers moving mindlessly up and down on your corseted stomach.Â
âDo you need the extra coin?â His voice is carrying a strange toneâŠis he teasing you?Â
But again, you try not to think about it, itâs all for show, (you also try not to think too much of the fact that youâre pretty separated from everybody else).
âNo, I just need coin,â you explain, fixing one of the medallions on his chest that had been slightly slanted, âI have nearly nothing left.âÂ
Gojo moves barely away from you, his eyes searching yours as if to find the joke.Â
âHave you run through my family gold already?â His voice is still toying, but now itâs filled with a little confusion.Â
âNo, of course not,â you snort, rolling your eyes as you tilt your chin up to look at him better, âI havenât touched any of your gold. I just ran through mine.âÂ
His brows quirks upward, mouth parting slightly.Â
âYouâve emptied the gold your family sent up?âÂ
Itâs your turn to be confused.Â
âWhat gold?â You ask, moving away from him, his hand falling to his side, and you suddenly miss his warmth.Â
You remember your father talking about how the Gojo family had rejected your initial dowry, saying something along the lines of outlandish practices, but aside from that, you werenât told about any other sort of money that was supposed to be sent with you.Â
He pinches the bridges of his nose, sighing deeply.Â
âThe gold that they sent with you? It wasnât supposed to be a lot but it was supposed to suffice for the journey here.âÂ
You blink owlishly at him.Â
âWhat gold have you run through?â He specifies, plastering on a fake smile when he catches the eyes of somebody behind you, but then focuses his stare back to you.Â
âWellâŠâ you shrug, âMy gold.âÂ
Gojo looks like heâs about to make a new bet, one thatâs with every time youâve almost given him an aneurysm trying to figure out your strange riddles and rhymes that are supposed to be actual words.Â
âI used to make some gold at my old home,â you explain, keeping your voice low in case somebody was somewhere that you hadnât seen, but realizing that Gojo was lost, you continued, âThe stable boy gave me some of his salary if I took care of the horses and cleaned the stables. Sometimes heâd give me extra if I could haul in the large bags of hay.âÂ
He scoffs, shaking his head slightly.Â
âWhy?â That seems to be a question heâs been asking lately.Â
You shrug again, feeling his hand circle back around your waist as some people come near you,Â
âI needed new clothes and my shoes had holes in them. My fatherâs wife didnât let him give me much, so I tried to fill in the gaps.â
You smile at one of the couples that are coming near you, going back into your other persona as you begin chatting with them. Gojo pulls you in tighter to his side, staying silent. You donât notice the way he hasnât stopped staring at you, nor the way his heart seems to have churned so painfully in his chest.Â
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The night progresses and you find yourself inside the dining hall, being shown to your seats by one of the maids, finding your name next to Gojoâs on a name card.Â
The two of you sit down, watching the people the file in, the sound of laughter filling the room, the clinking of china against each other filling in the rest of the silence. You take it all in with a smile, looking every and at everyone.
âI hope Iâm not embarrassing you,â you whisper as you lean closer to Gojo, an apologetic smile on your face as you sit further into your seat, âThis is all just so new to me.âÂ
You donât see the ways his eyes soften, his hand inching closer to yours as he shakes his head.Â
âYouâre not embarrassing me,â he murmurs back, leaning his head closer to yours, wanting his words only to be heard by you, âIâm glad youâre enjoying this.â The smile that makes its way onto your face could power the universe, and Gojo feels like the wind had been knocked from his lungs, far worse than in training when somebody's foot slams into his chest.Â
âI am!â Your enthusiastic and hurried words are hushed, but he can still hear the way youâre trying to hide your joy. The small talk is horrific,â he laughs a little bit, âbut still I love it.âÂ
He opens his mouth to speak but is cut off by the sound of a knife hitting glass.Â
âEveryone! Give me your time, just for a moment!â Miyo Tokoshi, whom you spoke to briefly, stands up, his chair behind him.
All eyes in the room fall on him, people still smiling, their teeth glimmering in the light.Â
âI cannot express my joy to be in a room with you all tonight,â he says, looking around the room, making sure he saw everyone for a split second. âAnd my wife and I couldnât be more ecstatic to host the first gathering of the season!â
You look at the woman sitting next to him, Lana, who you had also met momentarily, is gleaming at him, her face full of genuine adoration. She, along with everybody else, claps, laughing joyfully.Â
You wonder if this is what a real husband and wife should look like, and you look briefly over to Gojo, your mind reeling with the charade the two of you have been playing this entire night.Â
âAnd we couldnât be happier to welcome the first couple of the year,â he exclaims, pointing his glass over to you and Gojo, saying your name and then your husbands as he claps his hand softly against his wrist, âMay every moment you spend together be better than the last. We wish the two of nothing but a lifetime of happiness and prosperity.Â
Gojo raised his glass to him, his hand grasping yours as he lifted it to his lips, planting a kiss on the back of it.Â
You feel like youâve stopped breathing with the linger of his lips on your skin, the last time that happened on the night of your wedding, and watching him grasp it even tighter when he sets it back down, weaving his fingers through yours.Â
Stop, you chide, raising your glass as well, a shaky smile on your face, itâs just an act.
He winks at the two of you, nodding once more as he focuses his stare somewhere down the table, obstructed by where you are sitting.
âAnd to the future couple! Naoya and Freya!âÂ
Gojo turned his head immediately to look at you, watching the color drain from your face, and before you knew it, the man, Naoya, was standing up, a hand over his chest in faux gratitude as he thanked the host.Â
You could never mistake that hair, the feline look in his eyes as he scanned across the room, a slimy smile on his face. You watch as it grows even wider when he finally catches his prey when he finally sees you, and you feel nauseous, like youâre about to throw up all those little crackers they had given you earlier that evening.Â
The hand holding yours squeezes, knowing he canât say anything right now, and you swallow thickly, eyes darting over to his as you feel your head about to sway.Â
Naoyaâs here. The man you turned down for Gojo.Â
The rest of Tokoshiâs speech is muted to you. It feels like your head is being held underwater, and you feel sweat dotting your forehead, your chest, and your palms. You can feel Gojoâs eyes on the side of your head and can tell heâs trying to tell you something silently.Â
The clinking of glass brings you out of your haze, looking up mindlessly as you haphazardly clink yours against Gojoâs, rubbing a hand down your face as if that would help.Â
You're grateful for the flurry of movements and noises, everybody talking to somebody, the people beginning to serve themselves the wide array of food places in front of them.Â
Gojo squeezes your hand one more time, and you finally look over at him, trying to muster up a smile but with how queasy you feel and the way your head spinning, it probably looks like youâre about to be sick all over him.Â
âIâll be okay,â you say through clenched teeth.Â
Gojo nods, his thumb rubbing up and down your hand in a soothing way. Itâs just for show.Â
âIâm sorry my palms are sweating,â you laugh mirthlessly, and he squeezes it again, youâre sure heâs only doing this because of the extra attention of the two of you ever since they realized you and Naoya were in the same room, âyou donât have to keep holding it.âÂ
âDo you want me to let go?â He asks, and you stop poking around at the turnips on your plate.Â
No.Â
âN-no,â you croak out, desperate for his touch thatâs grounding you, âNo, please.âÂ
Gojo nods, his thumb not stopping its comforting motion of moving up and down.Â
âDonât worry,â he mutters, leaning closer to you as you duck your head so that your ears are near his lips, âMy hands get sweaty too.âÂ
You laugh quietly and it sounds like wind chimes. You look at Gojo and watch as his lips tug upwards into a soft smile, one you had never seen before, and one you thought you never would.Â
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You tried to hide away the rest of the party, but Gojo didnât seem to mind.Â
When it was time to leave you accepted the gracious hug of the hosting couple, promising them that youâd come back for a more private dinner, and let Gojo lead you out into the courtyard where all the carriages were held.Â
You slept the entire ride home, not wanting to mess anything up by taking, and youâre happy that Gojo didnât bother you. You felt groggy when you returned to the estate, grateful for Gojoâs steady hand as he helped you out of the carriage. The two of you looked like you wanted to say something, but couldnât, so you bid each other good night and went your separate ways.
Separate except for one brief moment.Â
You were walking away and up the stairs when you suddenly stopped, remembering what it was that you wanted to tell him. You call out his name, watching as he turns, white brows slightly furrowed.Â
âIâŠâ you start but realize you didnât exactly have a plan for what you wanted to say. He gives you his patience, not looking annoyed or frustrated when you try to think of the right words to string together.Â
âIâŠI would like to be your friend too,â you finally say, and watch as a smile forms on his face, his pink lips tugging upwards in a way that made his eyes shine, the way your earrings did in the candlelight.Â
He rakes his hand through his snow-white locks, pushing them away from his face.Â
âIâll see you at breakfast then,â Gojo says, and you dip your head down in a small smile.Â
You give him a small wave, disappearing as you round the corner.
And since then, you found him joining you not only for breakfast or the sparse dinners but for any meal he possibly could.Â
Gojo talked more, about anything and everything, and you did the same.Â
You realized that he was actually an open person the closer you got to him, seeing that he too was capable of laughing and making jokes, his teasing eyes growing more frequent the closer your chairs got to the dinner table until you eventually just sat side-by-side, growing tired of shouting at each other across its length.Â
On the days he wasnât busy with strategizing or talking to other lords, heâd walk around the estate with you, telling you stories from his childhood, the times heâd run amock around the halls. Other times the two of you would go into town, looking at the different stores together.Â
You could tell he was trying, could see it in the way he glanced at you from time to time to make sure that you were doing well.Â
Heâd accompany you to the library if you asked him to, and youâd go down sometimes to the training yard just to see him. Gojo would never tell you how much he tried to show off when you were there and knew he never had to. You could see the way he tried to appear even stronger when fighting with one of the other men, the poor soldier coming out with bruises and cuts all over his body.
Over many weeks, you find yourself looking forward to spending time with him, and a part of your cracked self begins mending itself again.Â
It felt like after years of searching for somebody, somebody found you.Â
On one of the nights when his sparring had gone on for far longer than it usually does, you decided to head down to the training yard after your night bath, tugging on a large robe over yourself as you walked the familiar stone steps down to where you knew he was.Â
You could hear them before you saw them, a cacophony of fists hitting skin, groans, shouts from one another. There was a little perch from where you could watch what was happening below, and you usually hid yourself in a corner so that they wouldnât see you.Â
Youâd rest on a pillar, arms crossed over your shoulder as you looked at the men below. Gojo was always easy to find, the flurry of white hair a tall-tale sign of where he was. You had watched him before, but you never got tired of it. You found it almost inhuman the way his movements seemed to flow like water, the way his hits were precise and direct.Â
Gojo truly was the best warrior the North had ever seen, and sometimes you forget that youâre married to a man who brought down entire armies with just his bare fists.Â
You watch as he jests with one of his friends, his chest rising a little bit at an irregular pace, slightly out of breath, but happy to be there. He turns to one of the guys behind him to say something, but his eyes immediately track upwards to the figure trying to stay hidden, you and a wide smile break out on his face.Â
He waves at you, and it gets the attention of the other men there. They all turn to see where you are, their boyish grins and calls making you roll your eyes at their antics, your face heating up slightly as you wave back at them.Â
Gojo says something to the person next to him, and you hear the man shout at the other ones to wrap it up for the night. Some of them wave goodbye to you as they begin exiting, going back to their common rooms.Â
You make a move to lean slightly over the railing, your arms crossed over the wood as you peer down at the ground where Gojo remained alone, finding him to already be looking up at you.Â
âCare to come down?â He juts his chin at the staircase to your left, the one that leads down to the courtyard, and you nod, disappearing behind the stone pillars as you take the steps leading downwards.Â
Youâve been here a couple of times, as per your own request. You wanted to see what they did during training, what the training yard actually looked like from the ground. You lift the ends of your dress up slightly as you near the bottom, rounding the corner to see Gojo standing in the middle.Â
Heâs waiting for you, his eyes tracking your movements as you come near to him.Â
His nose twitches slightly, his eyes squinting as he lifts his head in the air, suddenly picking up the scent of something unusual.Â
âWhatâs that smell?â Gojo asks as you come to him, his eyes looking over your body as if it were emitting from you.Â
You scoff, appalled, and then suddenly remember that Alina had applied some lavender oil to you after your bath.Â
âIf itâs a good smell then me,â you cross your arms over your chest, nose wrinkling in disgust as you take in his smell of sweat and grime, âIf bad then you.â
Gojo snorts, coming closer to you as he continues sniffing, exaggerating the sound. You step away from him slightly, the smell of sweat overpowering, and he takes notice of this.Â
âWhat?â He inquires, annoyed that you are moving away from him, and he takes a step closer.Â
âWhat do you mean what?â You tease, moving again as he tries to smell the air, âYou smell like an army of unshowered men. I just took a bath.âÂ
Gojo seems offended at this, trying to move back closer to you but you side-step him, apparently serious about this.Â
âYou really wonât let me come near you?â He sounds like youâve kicked him down, his cheeks stained pink from earlier, and you laugh slightly, shaking your head.Â
âI really wonât,â you affirm, shoving the back of your wrist to him to show him that what he was smelling was in fact you, âSee? Lavender oil.âÂ
Gojo just seems to be getting more annoyed the more you try to evade him, his blue eyes swirling with an idea as you look at him in worry.Â
âNo, the smell is coming from somewhere else.â He argues, changing his footing so that he stands right in front of you and you let out a shocked laugh, not expecting this as you take a step back.Â
You donât know where else he can smell the lavender oil. Alina dotted it to your wrists and your neck, but surely canât differentiate the difference in locationâŠright?Â
âCome here,â he almost whines, âIâm not going to rub off my smell onto you.âÂ
You laugh again out loud, picking up the skirt of your dress as you try to outrun him slightly.Â
âYou will!â You insist, motioning to the sheen of sweat on his body, âYou reek of sweat. I swear itâs just lavender oil!âÂ
He groans, his eyes rolling to the back of his head at this inconvenience.Â
âYouâre killing me right now,â Gojo dramatically grabs his chest, âYou wonât let me smell this strange aroma and itâs killing me,â his face breaking into a little pout as you laugh even louder, shocked at how petulant he was being. Your laughing seemed to spur him on even more, running towards you as you ran backward, hoping you didnât trip on the fabric of your dress.Â
âYou have a plethora of bottles of lavender oil in your own room,â you argue, âthis isnât something innovative that youâve never smelled before.âÂ
Gojo shakes his head, and your heart flutters at the way his smile is so playful and teasing, the way some of his hair falls into his face in that messy way when heâs usually training and not caring about his appearance.Â
âItâll only take a second,â he reasons and you shake your head no, your eyes both shining with playful laughter.Â
The courtyards lead out into the large fields of the Gojo estate, and you look behind yourself at the opening. Itâs night, thereâs nobody around. Nobody would judge you for running away from your sweaty husband.Â
You look back at him, see the gleam in his eyes, and know that heâs not going to back down.Â
He can see the thoughts forming in your head, can assume them before theyâre even created, and so heâs straight on your heels as you sprint away from him, a large smile on your face as you squeal out loud.Â
âPlease!â You shout over your shoulder, running down the little hill as the moon lights the way for you, âI just took a bath! Leave me alone!âÂ
You can hear the grass rustling beneath your feet, your screams of laughter contagious as you try to outrun the fastest person ever, and try not to slow yourself down by looking over your shoulder to see where he is.Â
But after a couple of seconds of running you realize that the only footsteps you hear are your own, and you pause momentarily to look behind you and are surprised to see that heâs not there.Â
Did he not come after you?Â
You look around the field, the large blades of grass looking like waves that move with the wind, and whip your head around every time you hear a twig snap.Â
You're a little bit further away from the manor itself, and the only thing you can see besides its large stone walls are the torches lit outside. You can make out the guards who are standing outside, but no sign of Gojo.Â
You try to catch your breath, confused as to where he couldâve gone when a force stronger than a horse running at full speed slams into your side.Â
The scream you let out echoes around the field, and you brace yourself for the harsh impact of hitting the ground. With your eyes squeezed shut you wait for the flash of pain, but peek them open to see Gojo framing your head with one of his hands, his body shielding you from the impact as he lays on top of you.Â
âHowâŠ?â You scream, your chest moving up and down with your fit of giggles, trying to push him off of you, âYouâre a beast!â You cry out, moving your head to the side as he laughs along with you, his chest rumbling with the movement.Â
You shove his face away with the palm of your hands, shoving your wrist into his nose as if that would satiate him.Â
âI took a bath you behemoth!â You whine, thinking about the dirt and mud that must be staining your skin and dress right now, âAre you so void of any good fragrance in your life that you must hunt me down for it?âÂ
Gojo tsks, shaking his head as he swats your wrist aside.Â
Heâs also slightly out of breath, most likely because he ran across and entire field from another entranceway that you werenât aware of to catch you off guard, and youâre suddenly very aware of just how close to two of you are together.Â
His hand is still cradling your head, the other one holding your hips. Truthfully he doesnât even smell bad, which is frustrating that itâs just another one of his many talents.Â
He judges your jaw up with his nose, and you helplessly comply, your heart hammering wildly as he leans in closer to the skin of your neck, taking in a whiff as he looks back up to you, his eyes gleaming.Â
Gojoâs hand on your hip moves up slightly to hold your waist, not hard, but to stop you from squirming around.Â
âIt smells different here,â he nudges your neck with his nose again, and your breathing hitches, âSmells sweeter.âÂ
You swallow thickly, blinking slowly as you crane your neck slightly upwards to give him more room. Itâs like your body is moving on its own, and youâre not to sure how you know what to do, but you just do.Â
âThatâs not possible,â you try to argue, trying your best to keep your voice from wavering, âYou just lack the nose for good oils.âÂ
Gojo laughs lowly, shaking his head at your antics as he braces his knees on either side of your thighs, caging you in.Â
âI have a very keen sense of smell,â he boasts and you snort, looking away as he pinches your hip to which you yelp.
His hand moves away from your head and to your shoulder, to where your nightgown had slightly slipped off and runs a thumb down a patch of your skin where it was slightly raised, a faint scar on your collarbone.Â
âWhereâd you get this?â His voice is slightly hushed, and you look down from your chin to where he is talking about.Â
 âHm?â You look around, see that heâs pointing to the tiniest little scar, and chuckle slightly, âOh, that?â Your eyes squint as you try to remember, âI tried to climb up a tree once when I was little and fell.â Gojo huffs out a little laugh, his eyes still focused on your skin as you chew on the inside of your cheek.
âIt probably looks far worse compared to anything you have,â you say sarcastically, âThe family physician kept saying I wasnât going to make it through the night.âÂ
He scoffs, rolling his eyes at your antics as he raises himself, moving away from you as he sits back down on the grass. You miss his warmth, the way his heat radiated onto you like a furnace.Â
âI donât know how you keep surviving between your inability to consume fish and your near-death occurrences,â Gojoâs voice holds a teasing tone and you smile, moving up so that youâre facing him.Â
You rest your weight back on your hands, kicking your legs out in front of you as your skirt flows around the grass. A while ago you wouldâve felt improper sitting like this in front of anyone, but you donât seem to care all that much when itâs Gojo.Â
âI showed you my battle would,â you say, putting one leg on top of the other, âWhatâs your worst one?â You ask, tilting your head to the side in questioning.Â
Gojo purses his lip, thinking.Â
You imagine that heâd tell you or probably motion to where it was, but a second later you watch, shocked, as he tugs his tunic upwards, your face heating as he rises it slightly so that you can see a part of his stomach.Â
You hate how utterly built he is.Â
His skin is pulled taught over the smooth stomach of his abs, his chest huge with pure muscle, his arms, bulging through the sleeves. Itâs something you thought youâd get used to, something you told yourself to stop ogling at, but never could.
But you shift your focus to a large scar that runs across his chest, from the bottom of his hip under his arm. It still looks relatively new, and the scar itself still pink. You could see the way it was jagged, not one smooth line, and gods, fuck, why do you want to touch it?
âWell,â you try to think of something witty to say, seeing the way heâs looking at you as if waiting for it, âClearly not as bad as mine, but it comes in as a close second.âÂ
He throws his head back as he laughs, his muscles contracting as he does so. You feel flushed, not able to look away from the scar, knowing that you were merely compensating for not knowing what to say.Â
âI know,â he says eventually with a shrug, looking down as he surveys the scar, âItâs not as bad as it couldâve been.âÂ
You pout slightly, thinking.Â
âDoes it hurt?âÂ
He looks up at you, at the way you canât take your eyes away from it, and shakes his head.Â
âNot anymore,â he sits up a little straighter, closer to you as you watch him move, âSometimes I can feel it sting, but itâs barely noticeable.âÂ
You beg to differ.Â
The two of you donât say anything and a part of you has decided that silence is bad for you. Because before you can really think about what youâre doing, you push yourself upwards, leaning in closer to him as you try to get a better look at it.Â
He doesnât say anything, but if only you could see the way he could barely use his lungs to breath right now youâd make some sly remark about how the best warrior of the North was growing shy from just a look.Â
But suddenly youâre not looking anymore as you shuffle in a little closer, your fingers reaching upwards to touch the skin.Â
You can hear the wind move around you, the grass rustiling as your fingers run across the scar. His abs flex at the coldness of your hand, but he doesnât tell you to stop. Youâre studying it intently, wondering what sort of weapon couldâve caused this.Â
Gojoâs size dwarfs over yours, but you donât seem to mind. Your lips as slightly pursed as you take it in.Â
âDid you fight a bear?â You finally ask, peeking up to look at him.Â
Youâre startled by the way the flush on his cheeks has grown even more red, or the way you canât see the blues in his eyes anymore. Has he always looked like that?
Gojo shakes his head, taking in a shaky breath, looking at the top of your head as you go back to looking at the scar.Â
âNearly,â he tries to joke, but his voice is weak, laced with need, âBut I doubt a bear would even want to be compared to the man who gave me the scar.âÂ
You look up, your brow quirked in curiosity.Â
âWho?â You ask, shocked at how quiet your voice came out.Â
Gojo smiles, but it doesnât quite reach his eyes. His tongue clicks against his teeth, his hand rising up to grab yours, pulling it away from his chest. He canât bear to have you touching him like that anymore, not trusting himself to restrain the pure desire that bubbling inside his veins.Â
âNaoya,â he says hushed, watching as your lips part and eyes widen.Â
Thereâs a beat of silence, a moment when you think you can hear your heart beating in the same rhythm his is.Â
Your hand curls into itself, shock taking over your features as your eyes drop to his scar and then back up to him. You find yourself wanting to say everything and anything, but canât somehow find the words that youâre looking for. Gojo beats you to it, thankfully.Â
âIâve been having this recurring dream ever since I fought him of that same moment over and over again when he cut me open. But itâs changed, recently,â He sits up straighter, so close to you that your chests are almost touching, âAnd I keep seeing him marrying you, what wouldâve happened if you had said yes.â
âAnd gods, fuck,â he ducks his head down, raking an agitated hand through his hair, making it even more messy, âIâŠâ He chokes on his breath, looking back at you, and suddenly you see the glossiness in his eyes, the way that tears brim his waterline.Â
And suddenly you see the Gojo Satoru, the Lord in the North, the most powerful man alive, cry.Â
âI keep reprimanding Naoya in my head about how awful he is, about how Iâd kill nearly every person alive if he ever touched you, b-but I was just as awful. I think about the first time I saw you, about the first weeks you were here. I think about how you mustâve felt, how alone you were. Every dayâŠâ he wipes messily at his cheeks, his lips wobbling, âEvery day I wake up and think of you. I think about your face, your smile, your eyes, your lips, the way your nose scrunches, that line between your brows when you're confused, and every night I go to sleep hoping that this was all an awful dream and I havenât ruined your life, but then I wake up, and it starts all over again.âÂ
âI know Iâm a selfish man,â Gojo says with a wet chuckle, his cheeks wet with tears, âI know I shouldnât, but I want you to myself, I want you forever. I want to be your friend, I want to be the person you sleep next to, the person you go to when you want to talk about your little stories. I want to hear your jokes and I want to see you laugh. I want to hold your hand, I want to put that ring on your finger every morning, and I want to propose to you each night.â
He shakes his head, swallowing his cries down, the moon lighting the tear tracks that start from his eyes and end at his chin.Â
âBut I know you donât want that. You told me that you wanted a friend, butâŠâ he shrugged, his smile sad, aching, longing, âI think along the way of being your friend I realized I wanted to be your husband too.âÂ
âI understand if you want to leave. Iâll tell my parents the truth, theyâll understand. I have a house ready for you near the sea, one away from your family, where you can start over.âÂ
The wind rustles the hills, and you look at the field, watch the way it moves in tandem with the life around it.Â
You can feel the tears forming in your eyes, and know that even if you blink them away itâll do nothing to actually hide them. Thereâs a burning feeling in your chest, one that youâve never felt before, one that rings with Gojoâs words.Â
You run your fingers through the grass, looking up at him with a certain fire in your eyes.
âWhat if I donât want that?â
He blinks slowly.Â
âI,â Gojo sniffs, nodding profusely, hoping you donât see the way he crumbles, âI understand, I promise I do. The house is a couple days-âÂ
âNo,â you cut him off firmly, wiping your palms furisuly across your cheeks, to rid them of the pesky tears, shaking your head, âWhat if I donât want that?â You move up to him, reaching your hand down his tunic, your fingers moving against is chest as you dig out the gold chain thatâs wrapped around his neck.Â
The one that holds his ring, the one he told you about one night that keeps it safe whenever heâs training.Â
âWhat if I want this?â Your voice is cracking, and you tug the chain tighter.
âWhat if I want all those things? What if I want you to love me?â The ring shines in the moonlight, mirroring her pair thats wrapped around your finger, âI want to be your friend,â you stress, your brows strewn together as tears overflow from your waterline, âAnd I want to know what things you like. I want to walk with you all around the earth and walk back home again. I want to sleep next to you. I want to make you laugh, and I want you to make me smile. I want you to be my husband so that I can be your wife,â you cry out, your chest heaving up and down as he wraps his arms around your back, pulling you into his lap as he tries to quickly wipe your tears away.Â
âI want you too, Satoru,â you whisper, broken with your wet sniffles, a wet laugh escaping your lips when you see him crack at the way you said his name with so much care, your thumbs gliding across his cheeks.Â
You slide closer into him, your legs splitting across his huge thighs as he hugs you tenderly to him, his head resting on your chest so that he can hear your heartbeat, make sure that this wasnât just another dream.
âI donât deserve you,â he murmurs against your bosom, looking up at you with glistening eyes.Â
âThen fight for me,â you whisper, your hands on either side of his face, âGive me all those things. Give me more,â you smile when his arms wrap around your waist a little tighter, his hands holding you up, âAnd Iâll do the same.âÂ
He nods, holding your hand that was still holding onto his ring to his chest, one hand moving to your back, and in the mess of tears and broken laughs the two of you seem to move together, meeting each other in the middle as your lips find each other in the dark shadows of night.Â
You gasp when his lips capture yours, and he moves towards the sound, wanting to hold it, keep it forever.Â
Gojo moves slowly, knowing that this is your first time, and cups your jaw, helping you move along with him as you lips slot and lock against each other. Itâs messy and with no order, your chin staining with sweat as you moan against him, feeling delirious without the touch of him.Â
You know this isnât the easiest position for him, but he doesnât seem to mind. He groans against you, his eyes squeezing shut, trying to memorize your taste in case the world ended tomorrow and this was his last meal.Â
âIs this-â You cut him off when you swoop in again, his laughter cut short by your needienss, the way you paw at his chest, your hands winding up to his hair as you tug harshly on the soft strands.Â
He moans at this, at the way you grind mindlessly on his thigh, your need for each other bleeding out into the open.Â
âI love you,â he murmurs against you, kissing down your chin and then back up to you, his tongue swiping against your lips, savroing your whine, âI love you so much,â he says to everybody, hoping even those on mountains oceans away could hear, âI love you, my wife,â and you giggle, eyes bright when you hear those words.Â
âSay it again,â you ask, your nails drawing little shapes on his nape, and you see him break into a smile.Â
âMy wife,â he repeats with a peck to your cheek, âMy beautiful wife,â he kisses the tip of your nose, smiling at the way it scrunhed up slightly, just the way he adored, âMy wife,â he kisses your jaw, âMy wife,â your giggling nonstop and he hopes to bottle up the sound and hear it on his deathbed.
His hands travel back down to your hips, adusjsting you slightly so that you wouldnât feelt he embarrassing hardening of his dick just from kissing you, and moves his lips down to your neck, hearing the way thereâs a hitch in your laughter.Â
âWhyâd you stop?â he nudges his nose at that spot pf your neck that still smells like lavender, his favroite scent in the world, âHm?â Gojo hums against that spot, licking a wet stripe up it, sucking at the skin, feeling the way you arch into his chest.Â
âY-your reeking s-scent infiltrated my nose,â you murmur, biting on your lip as he pinches your waist.Â
âYeah?â Gojo continued to tease you, sliding the sleeve of your dress down, giving you more access to the skin of your collarbone, âWant me to stop?âÂ
âNo!â You cry, totally against your better judgement, moaning when he sucks another mark into the skin, biting it, and then presses a soft kiss to it as an apology, âPlease, please, donât stop.âÂ
He chuckles darkly, shifting you around so that you are lying back down on the ground, his body framing yours as he continues tugging down your dress, going slow in case you ever wanted him to stop.Â
His fingers are quick at untying the string that holds you bodice together, unravelingit all until it falls off and heâs greeted to the sight of your heaving chest, the way your naked breasts rise and fall.Â
Gojo blinks for a moment, forgetting how to move.Â
âW-what?â You ask, a little self-conscience as he continues to stare at your chest, âDo they look wonky?â You move your hands to cover up but a deep gutteral growl escapes his lips, pinning your hands back.Â
âBeautiful,â he bites out, moving his head down, pressing a wet kiss in between the valley of your breasts, âYou look like a fuckinâ statue,â he says, âYouâre s-so beautiful.â Gojo repeats, and you canât protest with the way he praises you, nor the way his lips hover over a nipple, finally leaning in fully as he sucks on it.Â
âF-fuck!â You cry out at the sensation, your fingers lost in his hair as you keep him there, back arching off the ground, âThat, that feelsâŠgood,â you canât speak, not with the way his tongue slides across your nipple, pressing little kisses around you areola.Â
His other hand goes to your other one, making sure sheâs not feeling lonely, his thumb flicking over your sensitive nipples as you whine even louder.Â
Gojo switches and you feel your breath shudder in an embarrassing whimper, your eeys squeezing shut when he bites at you, wanting to mark you up for those wretched gods to see and feel humanly jealous over.Â
âSo soft,â he murmurs against your skin, almost in awe, âfeels like silk.âÂ
You wouldâve had a witty joke about this, you know you did, but you canât fathom to think about anything other than the way his lips feel on your tits, the way he seems like heâd die had he not been here sooner.Â
But he then raises his head, and you whine in protest. Gojo almost break at the way youâre looking up at him, the way yor lips tremble from sheer desire.Â
âWant more?â He presses, his hands, warmer than the fire thatâs burning in your belly, trailing down, down to where your dress was slightly parting, âHere?âÂ
âY-yes, fuck,â you moan, parting your legs to make room for him, not knowing what this feeling was but knowing that he was the only one who could soothe it, âNeed it so bad Sa-satoru,âÂ
His eyes roll back, swallowing his primal groan at the way you plead for him, and nods, pressing a kiss against your stomach before his hitches the fabric upwards, sliding down your body so that his face is closer to that heat.Â
You know you should feel more shame, but you feel like youâre going to die if your husband doesnât do something soon.Â
Gojoâs hand travels up your calf, trailing up your thigh, and suddenly stops.Â
You go to beg, plead, for him, but cut yourself off when his lips find your inner thighs, pressign wet and messy kisses to them, getting dangerously close to where you felt like you were leaking.Â
âYouâre divine,â he whispers against your skin, hands wrapping around your thighs as he pulls them apart, âFuckinâ divine.âÂ
His lips suddenly find there, you glistening cunt, and you mewl out for him.Â
âSatoru,â your chest is heaving like you canât find any air, âT-there, please, there,â and fuck the way youâre begging him is so sweet that he canât find it in himself to tease you.Â
His fingers seperate your wet lips, groaning when he sees just how much youâre dripping, and licks a tentative stripe upwards, your surprised gasp at how good it felt going straight to his cock.
Gojo carefully slides a finger through your tight walls, feeling the way you tighten around that, and lets his lips travel to your clit, pressing small kisses to it before he begins to suck. You clench around him, and your toes curl at the way he begins to pump it in and out, your essence soaking his skin.Â
âSo wet sweetheart,â he groans swapping his finger for his thumb at your clit, his tongue diving into your walls as he nearly cums from your saccharine taste alone, âS-shit, fuck, you taste like fucking heaven.âÂ
Your thighs tighten arund his head, but he craves the feeling, his tongue eating you out at such a fast pace that you begin to wonder if you need this more or him.Â
âO-oh gods,â your grips his head tightly, canât find the sympathy in yourself to feel bad, ââToru, oh, oh my, donât stop!Â
That coil in your stomach grows more taunt with each second.Â
He alternates, adding in another thick finger, feeling the way you try to stretch for him. He glides in and out of you with ease, but he wonders what youâd look like on his thick cock, how youâd preen as he split you open with his girth.Â
âSweet,â he moans against you, his voice vibrating against your pulsing walls, âYouâre so fuckinâ sweet.âÂ
You nod at something, whatever he just said, not fulling understanding anything around you as he continue to stimulate your clit, sucking on it, his teeth gliding across it with a little bite, and you moan out even louder.Â
âIâŠâ you canât think, canât breathe, âF-fcuk, âToru, something, somethingâs happening,â you donât know what this feeling is, this electric, all-consuming feeling thatâs zapping through your body, making it numb yet aware of everything at the same time.Â
âI know, I know,â Gojo praised you, one of his hands holding your stomach down, the added pressure making you whine, âYouâre doing so good for me, youâre there, come on come for me,â his hand travels up your body, finding yours as he weaves your fingers together.Â
âShit, shit,â you mewl, âIâm coming, fuck, c-coming!â You cry out, your back arching off of the ground as your legs grow slack around his shoulders, your walls pulsing around him as that string tightens for the final time and then finally breaks.Â
You can see white as your eyes rolls back into your head, squeezing his hand as tightly as you can, your yes dotting with tears. Your climax was all consuming, making you gush around his fingers and tongue, seeming to be never-ending, your body shaking in his hold.Â
Gojo presses one final kiss to your cunt, licking off your release from his fingers, groaning at the taste, and lets you catch your breath.Â
When youâre finally able to crack your eyes open, you peek them over to Gojo, seeing the way he tilts his head back, your cum still glistening on his chin and cheek, and whine out in embarrassment.Â
âWhat?â He asks, eyes teasing when you go to hide your face in your hands.Â
âI canât,â your words are muffled, âI canât believe I justâŠâÂ
Gojo kisses your forehead, wiping some of the tears from your eyes away as he kisses your brow bone.Â
âHow do you feel?â He asks, his eyes scanning over your body, glistening with sweat, and you take in a gulp of air.Â
âGood,â you say finally with a soft smile, âReally good.âÂ
You look from his little grin, one that you peck at, your thumb rubbing up and down his jaw, and then look down, to the obvious bulge thatâs hiding behind his training trousers.Â
Youâve never seen a cock before but fuck heâs massive.
âWhatâŠâ you trail off, sitting up slightly, and he helps balance you, âWhat about you?â you paw at his stomach, right before it leads down, and he lets out a shuddered whine.Â
âAs much as I-â he bites his tongue, feeling like heâs going to cum if you continue to look at him like that, âAs much as I want toâŠnot here,â he looks around at the field, shaking his head as a definite no, âNot here.âÂ
You go to protest, but he stops you, biting your fingers gently as you yelp, shoving his head away with little force as he chuckles.Â
You let him wrap your dress around you again, tying some of the knots so that it doesnât open up when youâre standing, and let the silence wash over the two of you calm your beating down heart down.
He plays with the ring around your finger, and you watch as the ring around his neck moves with his little breaths.Â
âI want to sleep in your bed,â you say, and his blue eyes find yours.Â
âYouâre crazy if you donât think Iâm letting you sleep anywhere else,â he says in a shocked sort of way and you laugh, looking over to the side for a brief moment, and then look back at him.Â
âDo you really love me?âÂ
Your words as whispered, but it feels like the wind picked them up and scattered them all around the field, around the river, the ancient stones, and right into Gojoâs heart.Â
âI really love you,â he whispers back, kissing your eyelids, in between your brows, your forehead, the back of your hand, and murmurs the words, âmy wife,â to nobody and to everybody at the same time.Â
You smile, pulling him down by that necklace of his so that you can plant a soft kiss against his lips. Â
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IâM TIRED OF SMUT, I WANT TOOTH ACHING FLUFF AND HEART SHATTERING ANGST.
#BRING BACK FLUFF#fluff#smut#fanfic#angst#x reader#spencer reid x reader#daryl dixon x reader#mcu x reader#jjk x reader#nanami x reader#bakugo katuski x reader#mha x reader#haikyu x reader#attack on titan#attack on titan x reader
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when i want fluff/angst fics and all iâm getting is smut
the struggle is real
#donât get me wrong#smut is great#but a girl wants some angst and fluff#joel miller x reader#din djarin x reader#matt murdock x reader#steven grant x reader#steve harrington x reader#spencer reid x reader#aaron hotchner x reader#derek morgan x reader#jj maybank x reader#rafe cameron x reader#tasm!peter parker x reader#peter parker x reader#marc spector x reader#javier pena x reader#ellie williams x reader#poe dameron x reader#cassian andor x reader#bucky barnes x reader#steve rogers x reader#logan howlett x reader#daryl dixon x reader#simon riley x reader#bruce wayne x reader#l0caltiredgirl#mike schmidt x reader#sam carpenter x reader#emily prentiss x reader
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gojo's undercut this, gojo's undercut that
why is nobody talking about nanami's undercut
PLEASE SIR I JUST NEED FIVE MINUTES
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A Bounty for Reward (Mando x f!reader)
CHAPTER 9
Summary: Running isn't always as easy as it sounds. Warnings: unprotected piv sex, praise kink, creampie, cum eating/light cum play, soft!mando, some teasing per usual, a fuck ton of angst you might cry (maybe?) Word Count: 8.4k A/N: I just love angst too much, okay? Anyway... this chapter and the next are *Certified* my favorites
Early the next morning, Mando flew the Crest to the deeper parts of the forest outside the village. It was secluded and quiet and further off-grid than you were hoping for. If you wanted to make a plan to leave, this was taking you several steps back.Â
He was being extra sweet as the morning faded into early afternoon, speaking softly and leaving faint touches on you as you passed in the cargo hold. Each touch was another brutal reminder of that tether pulling between you, that inescapable feeling that something was keeping you both intertwined. You wanted to hit your head against the metal walls and get a grip, but he was making it so fucking hard.Â
And he was keeping good on his word and not treating you differently. He even agreed to train with you, promising weapons and a longer session once the afternoon sun peaked. Shedding those secrets yesterday felt like a burden lifted from your chest, yet that anger still festered deep inside you, waiting to escape at any moment. If you could fight Mando, you could lessen those bubbling emotions.
Outside in the clearing, Mando kept a tight grip on his blade, leveling it with his body as he beckoned you to make the first move. You crouched low, aiming for his thigh, only for him to deflect it before you could even get within a foot of his body. His free hand grabbed your wrist, locking it in a vice until your blade fell with a light thud in the grass.
âFuck,â you snapped.
That rage was crawling up your spine, torching your nerves. You picked up your blade and got into a defense position as you waited for Mando to strike. He advanced on you slowly, his steps calm and calculated up until the last moment when his weapon came shooting out to slice at your bicep. You stepped back in time to escape his strike, blocking your face with one arm and returning a strike at his shoulder. His other hand caught your forearm, twisting it until you yelped. Thinking fast, you drove a knee up into his abdomen, the bone hitting his armor belt on impact. Pain erupted through your body, and you staggered back, winded from the fight.
âYou alright?â Mando asked, his breath ragged. He clasped a hand on your shoulder as you bent over heaving.Â
Giving him no time, you sliced upwards, nicking the fabric between his cowl and chest. It wasnât forceful enough to hit skin, but enough to surprise him and send him reeling backward. You straightened with a wide grin on your face, flipping your knife in your hand casually.Â
âDonât let your guard down, Mando,â you shrugged.
He tossed the blade from his hand, charging at you full force. You managed to dodge him, sliding to the left and breaking into a full sprint. The thrill of a chase pounded in your chest as you took off into the empty clearing, the tall grass dying beneath your feet. Your blood was pounding in your ears loud enough to drown out his footsteps behind you, and you felt free. Maybe this was your shot; maybe you could outrun him.Â
But that thought died quickly as a sharp cable looped around your right leg, sending you down into the earth hard. Thankfully, you had enough time to brace yourself before the strength of the cable dragged you backward toward Mando. Your nails clawed at the soil beneath you as you tried fighting against it, but your strength was no match for the weapon on his belt.Â
Mandoâs hands were on your shoulders in an instant, flipping you over to reveal your muddied shirt and face. With him looming over you in all his armored glory, your body flushed a deep red, the heat crawling over your chest and neck. He crouched down, unwinding the cable from your calf, massaging the skin under your pant leg slowly.Â
âNever run from a bounty hunter,â he warned. âTheyâll always catch you.â
Theyâll always catch you.Â
You tried to cool your expression as the words washed over you, draining all the heat and color from your body. Did he know? Of course, he didnât; he was just taunting you in the heat of the moment.Â
âWell, you made a nice mess of me with that stunt,â you huffed, sitting up to rest on your forearms.Â
âCould make even more of a mess of you for running away from me.â
âIs that a threat?â You smirked.
Mando crawled over you, his helmet a breath away from your face. You pressed your body up into his, letting your breasts rub against his chest plate. It smeared mud against the shiny metal, and you laughed softly.
âLooks like youâre just as messy as me.â
âYou wanna fight dirty?â Mando challenged.
âYeah, I do.â
Hooking your leg around his waist, you used all your energy to spin him over and pin him beneath you. Mandoâs hands found their familiar place on your hips, his grip holding you firm as you straddled him. With one slow grind of your hips, he exhaled a groan, and you relished in the feeling of his cock growing hard against your ass.Â
âI like you underneath me,â you hummed, rolling your hips again.
Mandoâs fingers dug into the exposed skin of your waist, your shirt long having ridden up from the fight. You placed your hands on his shoulder pauldrons as you ground against the fabric of his suit, the friction shooting waves of pleasure through your core. You could push the doubts aside if you pacified it with a distraction. And he was the perfect distraction.
âMake yourself cum, angel. Let me watch you fall apart.â
âNo touching.â
He let his fingers slip away from your waist, setting them behind his helmet as he gazed up at you, silently waiting and watching. You indulged in his request, moving your hips in earnest against the hardened outline of his cock. The drag of your clit against it was intoxicating, and you drew circles until you found the right pattern to shatter you into oblivion. You were all too aware that you were in the wide open space of the forest, completely exposed to any possible threat, but that didnât stop you from pressing your body down harder onto him. If anything, it fueled the fire inside you even more, your movements growing more desperate and out of control. You scrapped your nails against the metal of his pauldrons as your core clenched one final time. Your release escaped from you with a loud moan, the sound filling the space around you.Â
âLook at the mess you made,â he taunted, tilting his visor toward the obvious wet spot on your pants.Â
You muttered some sort of jumbled nonsense as you slumped against his chest, too blissed out to care that your cunt had drenched your pants and his.Â
âToo bad you canât taste it,â you tossed back.Â
What the fuck?Â
Why would you say something like that? It completely went against his Creed to remove his helmet, let alone remove it to taste you. That thought pushed beyond all boundaries, and you werenât quick enough to swallow those words.
âYou have no fucking idea how bad I want to taste you,â he growled, letting a hand coast down your back to deliver a sharp slap against your ass.Â
âI can taste for the both of us,â you whispered.
Positioning yourself back up onto his lap, you trailed a hand down your stomach and let your fingers dance under the waistband of your underwear. Swiping a finger through your wet folds, you brought the glistening digit to your lips and eyed him as you sucked it clean. Mandoâs body went rigid under you, his hands flexing against your backside.Â
âAgain,â he ordered.
You repeated the motion, letting the taste of your release coat your tongue. Before you could even swallow, Mandoâs hand came up to your jaw, holding it firm.
âLet me see.â
Your lips twitched with a smile as you opened your mouth wide. His gloved thumb ran across your bottom lip and slowly pushed into your mouth. You wrapped your lips around his thumb, sucking on the fabric of his glove until you heard him inhale a sharp breath.Â
âTell me I can fuck you.â
You released his thumb with a gentle pop, nodding mindlessly at his request.
âPlease,â you begged.Â
With that one simple word, Mando had you thrown onto the grass, positioning you on all fours. He made quick work of yanking your pants down your thighs, the light afternoon breeze sending a shiver over your exposed skin.Â
âSo fucking wet for me, baby,â he groaned.
You preened at his words, humming as he slid a finger inside your aching cunt. Maker, if he didnât fuck you soon, youâd go mad. You heard the zipper of his suit roll down and the quick brush of the tip of his cock against your entrance. Yes. You needed this. You needed to clear your mind and forget all the ways youâd hurt him when you decided to run. This was the last time, you told yourself.Â
Mando pushed into you slowly, letting your body adjust to his cock as it stretched you out. You groaned into the soil beneath you, paying little mind to the mud smearing across your cheek as you braced against the ground. Mando rocked into you slowly at first, finding that perfect rhythm that made you clench around his cock, and then began pistoning into you. You cried out as he drove into you, each thrust hitting you at the core.Â
âThis pussy is mine,â he growled with each snap of his hips. âNo one will ever touch you again.â
You were too dazed to analyze his words or think of anything other than the swelling warmth inside you. He wanted you for himself? Fine, he could have you. He could take anything he wanted, and youâd give it to him willingly. It didnât change the fact that youâd leave him; your emotions were slowly crawling behind the walls you had built before.
But then, in that moment, you craved the way he fucked you. You focused on the thrum of your heartbeat, the pulse throbbing in your clit, the feel of his cock buried inside you. You cursed into the ground, your teeth gnashing together as that euphoric surge of release splintered across your nerves. You clenched around his cock, your cunt fluttering through the aftershocks of your orgasms, yet he didnât let up.
âMandoâŠâ You whined.
His hand smoothed over the soft skin of your ass as he crooned out various praises.Â
Taking me so good, angel.Â
Fucking love how you feel wrapped around my cock.Â
Give me more.
You were putty in his hands, and you melted at every syllable dripping through the modulator of his helmet. You wanted the praise. You wanted the release. You wanted this.
âSo fucking beautiful,â he exhaled, a hand wrapping around your hair.
He tugged at it gently, your neck craning upwards. The sky above you blurred as another bubbling release coursed through your stomach. You blinked back tears as the tremors tore through you and set your nerves alight. Mando grunted with a final snap of his hips, spilling into you until you felt his release seep out of your aching cunt.Â
Releasing his grip on your hair, you felt his fingers work through the tangles knotting at the base of your neck, soothing you as you let your body rest against the ground. He kept his cock sheathed inside of you for several moments, the warmth of his body pressed against yours the perfect salve for the ache inside you.Â
Even when it was rough, he made sure to care for youâsomething no one else had done before.
âWas it too much?â He asked, finally pulling out of you and shimming your pants back onto your hips. You could still feel his cum leaking out of you, and a guilty part of you loved it.
You shook your head as best as possible, your body still fighting off the shakes that traveled up your thighs. Rolling onto your back, you stared at him as he hovered over you.Â
âNever too much,â you exhaled.
Mando sat back on his heels and offered a hand to pull you up. He rubbed at your cheek, most likely cleaning the mud from your face and let his hand come down to caress the side of your neck. Maker, each soft touch was another knife to the chest as you tried to remind yourself of what you needed to do.
This was the last time.
âLetâs get you cleaned up, angel.âÂ
He hauled you to your feet, leading you back to the Crest as you walked on shaky legs. You knew youâd be sore for days, which didnât make the idea of running sound pleasant. But regardless, you were leaving. You had to.Â
After a long time spent alone under the spray of water, you emerged from the refresher with damp hair and a few scatters of bruises. Maybe a year ago, the faint black and blue color on your skin would have repulsed you, but you didnât mind this time. It was Mando that left them there, and the thought of carrying those marks with you when you left was strangely comforting.Â
Mando wasnât in the hull, and you heard his voice from the cockpit as you climbed the ladder, his voice clipped and short.
âI had to make an unexpected stop in Sorgan,â you heard him say.
âWell, if youâre interested in a few more credits, Iâve got word of a bounty on the planet.âÂ
It was Greef Karga, and you would know that lively voice anywhere. He was a talker and a good one at that. You only recalled hearing his voice once, and that had been the same day Mando killed a man for you.Â
âSend me the coordinates.âÂ
Silence followed Mandoâs words, and you took it as an invitation to enter the cockpit. He turned in his pilot's seat, staring at you slightly longer than usual.Â
âGuild business?â You asked.
âItâll be a quick hunt,â he assured you. âYouâre safe here.â
You masked the bubbling anxiety as it accelerated your heart rate. If Mando were leaving for a hunt, it would be the perfect opportunity to run.Â
âWhen do you leave?â You tried not to sound too eager.Â
âTonight.â
âYouâll be back in the morning?â
âYes.â
âPromise?â You wanted him to think you were worried. And truthfully, you were worried. You were worried youâd get caught and worried heâd get hurt.
âI promise, angel.â
You nodded, swaying in the spot you stood. He motioned for you to join him, and though you felt hesitant, you relented and sat beside him. You didnât know how to fill the silence this time; you were too focused on the thousands of strategies to leave. Youâd need to make sure you had your knife with you and some sense of awareness of where the fuck you were. You were off-grid on Sorgan, but you knew they had a docking port somewhere. If you could get in proximity to the village again, maybe youâd find your way to the port. Youâd find a way to tuck a few of Mandoâs credits in your pocket and buy yourself transport back to Coruscant. Leaving him would mean youâd have no protection, but that hadnât stopped you before. You managed to survive a few months on your own, and if anything, being around Mando had taught you how to fight and survive.Â
âYouâre quiet,â Mando commented.Â
His voice startled you out of your daze and drew you back to the present. You stared at the red lights flashing on the nav panel, trying so hard not to look at him for fear of risking everything.Â
âYouâre the one famously known to be quiet,â you tossed back.Â
âHmm,â was his only response.Â
Another beat of silence passed, and he spoke up again.Â
âYour parents. What were they like?â
Your eyes tore away from the nav panel and straight to his helmet.Â
âWhat?â You balked.Â
âIâm just trying to make small talk, angel.â
âBut why do you want to know about them?â You were on the defense now.Â
He shrugged, tilting his helmet.Â
âBecause I want to know about you.â
Maker, had this been any other time, the sentiment may have been welcomed. Youâd happily talk about themâeven if it hurtâand share those parts of your life with him. But now, the more you shared, the worse it would hurt. Heâd leave tonight thinking youâd be here in the morning and everything would be fine, but it wouldnât be. He would return to an empty ship and one less bounty to worry about. Because at the end of the day, thatâs what you were. What you had always been from the start.Â
âThey wereâŠâ A lump formed in your throat as you tried to string some sentences. âThey were normal. My father had owned the junkyard his entire life. I grew up learning how to rebuild speeders and droids before I could even walk. My mother tried to stay out of the way. She was always cautious about the trades he made or the business he took in.â
âHow did he end up getting mixed up with the Pykes?â
You sighed, rubbing a hand across your forehead, no doubt a headache on the horizon.Â
âI honestly donât know,â you said. âHe didnât tell me much about the deals or the people he made them with. I usually stayed inside when traders came to the yard, but when Kesi came that day, I was finishing working on a new prototype of a speeder. It was the end of the workday, and my mother was waiting for us to clean up to join her for dinner when they came by. My father was never one to back down from conflict⊠he was stubborn.â
âThatâs where you get it,â he huffed lightly.Â
You couldnât help but laugh, too.Â
âI am my fatherâs daughter.â
âWhat would have been your life if Kesi never came around?â
You hit your head against the headrest, closing your eyes to hide the tears that stung your waterline. Why the fuck was he asking so many questions? Why did he care?Â
âI donât know, Mando.â There was a bite to your words. âI never saw myself leaving Mos Eisley, so maybe the junkyard would have been mine one day.â
âWould you ever want that? Your own junkyard?â
âWhat I want is freedom,â you snapped, turning to look at him through blurry eyes. âI havenât thought that far, okay?â
Your anger must have been unexpected because he exhaled heavily, turning his helmet toward the windshield. You werenât even regretful for lashing out, but seeing him so quiet from it pained you a little. He genuinely asked questions to understand you better, but you couldnât afford to let him in any closer. What you wanted shouldnât matter to him; he had a job, and thatâs all he should care about. Your freedom and your life shouldnât have been his concern; he needed to be reminded of that.Â
âWhy do you care so much?â You asked, softening your voice.Â
âI donât know.â
âYou always say that.â
Mando didnât respond, which frustrated you.
âYou shouldnât care about me,â you hesitated.Â
âI know.â
The conversation was going nowhere, and you were spiraling inside, wondering if leaving him would feel as easy as it sounded. You just needed to make it through tonight, and youâd be gone once he left.Â
âIâm tired,â you lied.Â
âGo rest. Iâll wake you before I go.â
You couldnât manage a response, only giving him a gentle nod before disappearing into the hull. You gathered your blade and the leather thigh holster, sliding them under the blanket on the bed. Reaching for the leather vest on the ground, you hesitated. Emotions crashed inside you as you picked it up, remembering how he had bought this just for you. He wanted you protected, no matter what. It was a sign of trust you both had built together. Leaving meant breaking that trust, but he knew from the start you would leave, just not like this.Â
You stowed the vest away along with everything else and crawled into the bed on sore legs. You needed to reach the village first, then find the route to the docking port. Once you made it there, Mando wouldnât come searching. At least, thatâs what you kept telling yourself. Going to Coruscant was risky; Mando was bound to go looking for you there. You had no other option; until you had a better place in mind, that was where youâd start.Â
You fell asleep fast, the night terrors at bay for at least a little while. They crept in slowly at first, then hit you all at once. Memories of hands grabbing you, blades slicing your skin, spice on your lips⊠all came flooding in. You thrashed in your sleep, your voice crying out for everything to stop.
âHey,â a voice whispered. âHey, itâs alright.â
You startled awake, the pull of the voice enough to draw you out of the trance inside your mind. Mando caressed your hand, rubbing circles over your knuckles. You couldnât hide the flinch in your body as he touched you, and he drew his hand away.
âIâm leaving,â he said. âYouâll be okay?â
âYeah.â Your voice was hoarse from the screams.
âWear your comlink in case anything happens. Iâll check in on and off to make sure youâre okay. Just stay on the ship.â
âOkay.â
He slid the comlink onto your wrist, his touch lingering on your skin. You rubbed your eyes, looking at Mando for one last time. You memorized the pieces of armor covering his body and the helmet that stared down at you. For the last time, you wondered what his eyes looked like behind the visor.Â
This was it. This was goodbye.
He moved to the weaponry wall, pulling out a blaster and tucking it into his belt. You noted that he left it unlocked for your benefit. He trusted you with it. And that hurt. All the trust you had built would be gone in a mere few hours.Â
âMando,â you called out.
He turned to you.
âBe safe, okay?â
âAlways, angel.â
You watched as the night swallowed him, the darkness of the ramp closing the only thing left between you and him.Â
This was goodbye.Â
**Â
He had him cornered. Through the thick weeds that framed the lake, Mando could spot the thermal footprints that the quarry had left behind. After countless hours of hunting, Mando finally had eyes on the bounty. He had sent her a message through the comlink that heâd be gone longer than expectedâthe bounty was quick, and Mando had a lot of space to cover. He hadnât heard a response and figured she was asleep again. He hated the thought of her alone with her nightmares; the screams that erupted from her when he woke her were enough to make him reconsider staying. But he needed this hunt. He needed to clear his mind.
Mando pulled his blaster from his weaponry belt, keeping it low and close to his thigh as he trudged through the overgrown forestry around him. The quarryâs eyes peeked through the greenery, connecting with the tinted visor for only a moment.
But it was the only moment Mando needed.
He took his shot⊠and he missed. Mando never missed a shot. The quarry took off again, furthering the distance between them. His emotions were clouding his skills, and he knew the thought of her forced his hand unsteady. If he had felt strongly for her before, he couldnât comprehend what this feeling was now. It consumed every thought, every breath, every move of his muscles.Â
Sucking in a breath, Mando sent another message to her. This bounty would take up more of his time, which meant he wouldnât return till later in the day tomorrow. He was miles out from the Crest, and the trek back with a body in tow would only slow him down.Â
He realized there still hadnât been a response from her, only static through the comlink.
âHey, answer me,â he bit out, the message meeting more static air on the other end.Â
âAnswer me, dammit!â He wasnât angry. He was scared.Â
He called into his comlink more times than he should have allowed, the time wasted adding up quickly. He was scared, and he still had the quarry to track down. The bounty reward wasnât high enoughâ nothing would be high enoughâ to risk her safety.Â
Mando shot into a full sprint towards the Crest, calling into the comlink continuously. The sound of the static drowned out in his ears, the world collapsing around him. He didnât stop running, letting the miles separating him and the Crest fall away with each stride.Â
Finally, in view of the Crest, Mando broke into a sweat as he pushed himself past his fastest pace, knees giving out as his boots hit the ramp as it lowered. Everything looked as it was from the ship's outside: no sign of scavengers or guild members anywhere. Everything inside looked as he remembered: no sign of struggle or fight anywhere. He continued to call her name as he searched the entirety of the ship, coming up empty as he ran back down the ramp to check the perimeter.
âFuck!â He yelled, pounding his fist into the side of the spacecraft. The metal rattled under the force of the hit, the sound reverberating around him.Â
He had told her to stay on the ship. He told her. And she agreed. So, he didnât understand why she was gone? She would have at least alerted him through the comlink, or maybe she was too fearful to interfere with the hunt. Either way, she shouldnât be gone.Â
The only thing he thought to do was hunt her down. It was the only thing he could do, the fear creeping in as he switched his visor to thermo-tracking. Her footprints lit up in red, vibrantly contrasting the darkened grass. They tracked north, the staggered spacing hinting at the fact she had been running. Still fearful, Mando considered the awful idea that she had been chased down. But there were no other footprints, and he couldnât recall any ships that had flown overhead.
So, what the fuck did she run from?
Mando considered flying the Crest and tracking her overhead, but he wouldnât know where her footprints started and ended. He continued on foot, running through the overgrown bushes and grass, slashing away at the greenery with his vibroblade. He had been gone from the ship for nearly half a day and had no clue where she would be. Could she have been taken off the planet? If she had, Mando would have seen or heard some sort of transmission in his comlink. But everything had been quiet those few hours.
 It had been dreadfully silent as he hunted down the quarry.Â
Reaching out through the comlink again, Mando called for her, hopeful she still had her comlink on her wrist. With nothing but static feedback, Mando confirmed that it wasnât functional any longer, the silence growing louder around him. Focusing on the outline of her footprints, he noticed a slowing pace in her runningâ evidence that she couldnât have advanced much further. Switching to the body heat scanner, Mando swept the area around him, noticing the forestry open into a vast expanse of land without coverage. There were no traces of her body heat, but phantom footprints still staggered through the clearing.
Switching his scanners off, Mando gazed into the sky, watching dusk fall upon him. He felt beyond helpless knowing he could be losing herâ even worse; he couldnât understand why. If no one had been chasing her, if no one had kidnapped her, then why was she gone? He couldnât recall any notion as to why she would choose to run. Mando had let his vulnerability win, the strength of his attachment outweighing the risks that threatened his loyalty to the Creed.Â
He was ready to give all of himself to her, so why was she gone?
His body was fatigued past over-exertion, from the race to the ship and now tracking her footprints. But he wouldnât let exhaustion winâ he had gone far longer without sleep. Countless bounties had taken days to track down, even so far as a week; staying awake and finding her wasnât even a question. He would find her.
Heâd tear the galaxy apart until he found her.Â
Whether he was ready to admit it, she had become his Creed, his loyalty to her bleeding out into the universe surrounding him.Â
Nightfall came quickly, the beskar armor illuminated by the waning moons above him. Mando switched his helmet to night vision as he continuously scavenged the ground for lingering pieces of her. Every footprint proved she was still alive; that was all he needed to push forward. The sound of frogs in the distance was the only noise to fill the humid air around himâ their sounds were a lullaby to his nightmare. Mando could recall every feature in her face: the scrunch of her nose, the constellations of freckles over her cheeks, that wrinkle between her brows he always wanted to smooth over. Over and over again, he forced himself to reimagine the way she looked, the way she felt in his hands, the sound of her voice when she was soft and under his body. The memory of her was all he had left as he ran across the planet, desperate to turn the memories into rediscovered reality. He wouldnâtâ he couldnât â let her go.Â
Mandoâs steps faltered as hushed chatter in the east fell upon his ears. He focused in on the noise, making out words that alluded to the terrain and creatures around itâ farmers. Stepping out of the shadows, Mando approached them slowly, his posture more friendly than predatory.Â
âHello,â his voice was hoarse from yelling. He cleared it, saying âhelloâ again.Â
The farmers turned to him with startled gasps, their grip on their hunting spears tightening. Mando raised his hands, surrendering his power to gain any knowledge they possessed.
âYou are⊠bounty hunter?â One asked, their accent thick.
Mando nodded, his hands lowering to his sides. He made it a point to keep his hand from his blaster, proving to them that he was no threat.
âI need information,â he began, âIâm looking for someone. Have you seen anyone pass through this area?â
The men looked at each other, their expressions mixed with confusion and fear. The man who had first spoken turned back to Mando, and his chin lifted higher as he regained more confidence.
âWe see one girl,â he informed Mando. Mandoâs weight shifted, his heart drumming inside his ears.
âDid you speak to her?â He pressed.
The man shook his head, pointing his spear towards the trees.
âShe goes north.â
âHow long ago was this?âÂ
âMaybe half day, we not sure,â he shrugged.Â
Mando was visibly frustrated, his body language tensing with each exchange of words. He had been tailing her the entire time, yet felt even more behind than he was at the start. If she had more than half a dayâs running start, she could be near the north docking port faster than he could get to her.Â
The docking port.
The pieces aligned in his head in a dizzying blur; she was leaving him. She had waited for Mando to take the bounty, leave her on the ship, and weaponize his vulnerability against him. He had been so distracted by the bounty even to consider her running, yet it had never even been a passing thought in the first place. How could she leave after he laid out his rawest parts? After she showed him her deepest secrets. He had submitted to her, letting her swim in his soul's depths. And she left him.Â
In a daze of tangled thoughts, Mando disregarded all gratitude towards the farmers as he shot into a sprint towards the north, the instincts of a hunter fueling the anger that blinded him. It took her half a day to distance herself; it would take him an hour to catch her. He was no longer searching in fear. He was searching in unbridled rage.Â
His pace continued steady as he waded through the terrain heading north. He could hear faint rustling in the bushes, a few scattered animals running away at the sound of his boots. Her footprints in the grass lit a brighter red on his visor, their freshness proving that he was getting closer. He could see far off in the distance that night was quickly turning to morning, the hue of sunrise falling upon the horizon. The first ship off-planet would be coming soon enough, as would her chance to leave. Mando couldnât allow it.Â
He yelled her name into the comlink, voice rugged and labored as he continued running. He didnât know if her comlink was still on her, but he wouldnât give up. He would keep trying, and trying, and trying. He couldnât lose her.Â
Not this easily.Â
As he trailed her footprints closer, he noticed their imprints in the muddy ground below him, making it easier to track without night vision. The impressions went deeper in the ground, proof that she was using more weight to run and was still en route to the north port. Mando quickened his speed, knowing he was going to catch her.
The path through the trees he had followed began to open up into a large expanse of flower beds and bushes. Several flower beds had been destroyed, their petals and stems crushedâ her destructive mark left all over them. Scanning the perimeter of the expanse, his eyes fell upon a shadowed silhouette shaded by a large tree towards the northeast corner of the clearing.
It was her.
Her in all her terrifying beauty; her hair tousled into a bun, her clothes covered in mud and grass stains, her skin dirtied and marked with scratches from thorns and bushes. Though his heart pounded heavy in his chest, and there was a haze of anger over his eyes, relief washed over Mando as his eyes settled on the familiarity of her body.Â
It was her.
She didnât have to turn to know he was there, her body rigid as he continued staring. She had done the same when he had hunted her the first time, her skin paling as if she had seen a ghost. Now, he was a ghost haunting her, seeking remnants of an attachment that had faded away with the moon's glow. Mando stepped forward again, meeting her gaze as she turned to look upon him with an expression he could only understand as guilt. He stalked her slowly, watching her body shiver from the morning breeze that floated over the sunrise as it passed the horizon. Her eyes grew wide, watching as he walked forward slowly, his hand hovering over his blaster. He wouldnât shoot her; he never would even think of it, but it was an instinctual reaction to inflict fear into her. He wanted her scared. He wanted her to feel every emotion he felt throughout the last day. The fear, the loss, the anger.Â
Mando wanted her to understand everything he felt.Â
**
The sunâs reflection bouncing off metal was unmistakable even from yards away. You half expected him to let you leave, to wipe his hands clean of a nuisance bounty, and continue through the galaxy. The other half secretly hoped he would hunt you down, tearing apart half the outer rim to find you. It took him less than a day, and you were helplessly alone in the grassy field without a place to hide. Would he have found you faster if he had not been tied up with the bounty? Your plan didnât have much thought put into it, only the aspect of running. And you must not have done a good enough job if a man covered in beskar steel was walking towards you.Â
His stride was slowâ intentionalâ the sway of his weaponry belt shifting into view with every step. You werenât blind to the fact his hand coasted over the gun holster on his hip, his fingers inches from ending your life. If you were even to tense an arm muscle, your core would be split in two from the plasma beams. Dying at his hand would be more honorable than any other death, and you subconsciously welcomed such a departure from the space you occupied. He had already destroyed you in ways beyond repair, leaving your body and soul torn into pieces. You were a bounty, nothing more. But that couldnât overturn the emotions that had been festering inside you, nor could it make you forget the way you ached for him physically and emotionally. Giving your body to him wasnât what hurt; it was knowing your heart was slowly falling into his hands⊠and you knew he might not treat your heart as kind as he did your body. He was a Mandalorian, a child of the Watch; he knew only of loyalty. Loyalty and love were not the same.Â
His pace slowed, stopping only a few yards from you. The familiar black visor was trained on you, and you felt like an animal caught in a trap. You had been here before with him, on Coruscant, but this was different. You hadnât fucked him yet, slept beside him, or listened to him speak of things he kept hidden. You were a bounty.
 Just. A. Bounty.Â
âYou left.â There was an apparent inflection in his tone. It cut deep into your chest, tearing you open as you realized how wrong your decision had been.Â
âI wanted my freedom,â you spoke through the lump in your throat.Â
âAnd Iâm working on giving that to you,â he countered, shifting his weight from one leg to the other, hand still hovering over the blaster.Â
âI canât keep waiting, Mando. What if you donât find Kesi? I can survive on my own. Iâve done it before.â
His helmet tilted slightly, and you knew he must have been eyeing you intensely under the protection of the metal.Â
âDo you not trust me? I swore I would find him and kill him. Is that not enough?â
âIâ yes, fuck, it is enough. I just donât know.â
âYou donât know.â He repeated your words as if tasting your doubts on his tongue. âYou donât know.â
He stepped forward, looping his thumbs into the waistband of his belt. He sized you up and down, his helmet resting on your face again.Â
âHow long did you think you could outrun me?â The question was out of genuine curiosity.Â
âI thought that if I got far enough, you would forget me and carry on with your life.â Your voice was shakyâ uncertain. You lacked confidence even in your persuasion. Why were you trying to persuade yourself that your actions were for his betterment?Â
âYou thought I would forget you?â There was that inflection again, the spike in octave that shot daggers inside your chest, through your ribcage, and right into your heart. You wished you had armor like his so you wouldnât feel your heart breaking.Â
âIâm only a bounty, arenât I?âÂ
âNo,â his helmet moved slowly in disagreement. âYou arenât just a bounty, and youâre wrong to think I would forget you.â
Tears stung your waterline as you felt defeat in his words. Just as he had slipped under your skin, into the folds of your brain⊠you had slipped into his.Â
You arenât just a bounty.Â
Even if you were, he would have come here with an intent to kill, and you would have had no chance at negotiations.Â
But this was different. You were different.Â
âMandoâ.â
âI have considered destroying my Creed for you, and you left,â his voice rose in anger. âI have made sacrifices to ensure that my loyalty for Mandalore would never falter, and Iâm willing to destroy it all for you. And now you think Iâll just forget you?â
You let out a faint whine, a sob lodging in your chest. How could you say anything to that? The man who was rough around the edges, with a heart you thought to be too cold ever to feel⊠was wholly undone before you.Â
âYou left me and took every piece of me with you.â
His helmet bowed down, the visor looking towards the ground. There was pain inside him far beyond the reach of your betrayal.Â
âI would never ask you to go against your Creed for me, you know that. Iâm not worth it,â you whispered. âI understand the severity of your lifestyle, and I wouldnât let you do that. You didnât break your Creed for Omera, and you definitely shouldnât do it for me.â
âI know you would never ask,â he sighed. âThatâs what hurts more. I have given pieces of myself to you that I canât have back. Iâve let myself become too attachedâŠand now I donât know how to let you go.â
âIâm not worth it,â you repeated. The tears spilled down your cheeks as you watched Mandoâs head raise to meet yours.Â
âYou are the only person worthy of knowing me.â He pulled your hand to the dewy beskar on his chest, âI am yours.â
The tears coasted down your cheeks, traces of guilt covering your face as you watched him step forward again. Your back was flush against the trunk of a sapling tree, leaving no room to escape the trap he put you in. Your mouth opened, yet silence fell off your tongue.Â
âTell me you want to leave.âÂ
Tell me to stop.Â
He had begged you in a similar way before to resist him and his advances. His loyalty to the Creed prevented him from getting close; his armor was more than just a shield for his body. Every emotion, every fracture of his mind, was closed off to you and the rest of the galaxy. You had spent countless days and weeks trying to break through the armor, to even make a fraction of a dent into the metal that guarded him. But now⊠now you succeededâ the man behind the armor coming completely undone in your presence. It tore your heart apart knowing your ignorance had led to this.Â
âI canâtâ.â
âSay it!â His voice rose higher. âTell me you donât want to stay!â
âMando, you knew I wanted freedom.â You were losing the battle in front of you, giving into the temptation that blurred the lines between love and desperation.
He swarmed your body, invading the only space that had remained between both of your bodies. He pulled your arms into a vice between his hands, his grip bruising your skin. You winced, eyes pleading for some sort of humanity behind his mask. You dug your heels into the damp soil around you, grounding yourself against the pull of his hold.Â
âIâm going to give you that, so why canât you wait?â His voice was sharp, biting at the air between you. âWhy now?âÂ
âIâ I donât know!â You were exasperated, finding no words to describe the jumbled mess of thoughts fogging your mind.
 âIâm sorry,â was all you came up with.Â
âTell me you want to leave,â he repeated his plea, his breathing labored.Â
You hesitated a moment, sucking in a chestful of air. Freedom was at your fingertips, but was it worth all that could be lost?Â
âNo.â
When he didnât react to your words, you repeated it. âNo.â
His grip fell from your arms, his boots crunching on fallen leaves as he stepped back. His body language showed all signs of being stunned, his stagger backward more reminiscent of someone being shot rather than being told âno.âÂ
You managed to push yourself off the tree, feeling stray wooden shards stuck to the fabric of your shirtâ some even burrowing into your skin. You paid no mind to the stinging sensation prickling along your body.
âI donât want to leave,â your voice barely above a whisper. âI was selfish to think I could go without hurting you.â His helmet stayed trained on you, unmoving. âOr hurting myself,â you added.Â
âMando,â you continued, âI wantâ wanted freedom. I have been on the run for months. Ever since my parents died, I have been alone. This is different for me; youâre different. Iâm scared of feeling attached because itâs not lost on me that you have no obligation to attachment. Attachment isnât part of your Creed, and I canât do that to myself. I canât do that to you.â you repressed a cry, âI donât know what to do now because I am irrationally attached to you. Irrational enough to run and keep my distance just for the sake of not breaking my own heart.â
Mando was agonizingly quiet, the rise of his chest under the breastplate being the only indication he was still alive. You picked at the wooden shards stuck to your shirt, wincing at the ones stuck into the thick of your skin. Gloved hands covered yours, pulling a splinter from your forearm carefully. Your eyes lifted to see him towering over you; helmet tilted as he considered your wordsâ and tears.
âIâm sorry for running,â you let the sobs escape your chest, breaking the barrier that you tried to build up so high.
All that you could think to do was wrap your arms around his torso, nearly pushing him over with the force of your body colliding with his. Your nose pressed against the beskar, inhaling the familiar smell of smoke and fire flooding your senses. It took a moment to feel his arms wrap around you, but you were encapsulated in his hold the second they did.Â
âIâm sorry,â you muttered over and over again. It was all you could say, the only words that could subdue the swelling silence between you.Â
âShhh,â his voice was so soft, softer than you had ever heard. It struck a chord inside you, playing your heart to the tune of his baritone. You let the sound vibrate through your body, arms squeezing tighter around his back.Â
âYou shouldnât feelâ.â
âI know,â you quickly responded. âTrust me, I know.â
âI canâtâ.â
âI know.â
âI canât let you go,â he finished, despite your interjections. âThere isnât a corner of this galaxy you could run to where I wouldnât find you. I would hunt you down just to keep you as mine.â
Mine.
Mine.
The possessiveness on his tongue was like honey, seeping into your veins, rearranging the molecules that made up your entire being. You were his, even from the start. You had begged him to keep you, absentmindedly wishing he would protect you from all that lingered in your past. And he did. Without question. Without asking for anything in return. Perhaps you were the reward after all.
You tried forming words, tried making sense of any coherent thought that could describe the way his admission inflicted the emotions inside you. The only sound to escape was a whimper that drifted between the small space between you.Â
âDonât leave me again.â He pressed his helmet to your forehead, a reflection of your tearful face staring back at you in the visor. You wished so badly to see his eyes despite knowing how wrong it was. You wanted to know how he looked in this moment; the pain, the anger, the relief⊠all of it. He was the one constant in your life, the person who had stuck by your side and protected you. And you hurt him. You could never live with yourself knowing you would have left him hollow and broken. He was your home. He was your freedom. No matter where you ended up in the galaxy, he would always be where you felt safest.
âI wonât, I promise.â
You peeled away from his embrace, brushing off the dirt littering your vest. The port was still miles away, and you knew you would never reach it. Mando would have gotten to you before you set foot on a transport. It was laughable to think about now.Â
âItâs going to take at least two standard days to return to the Crest,â you sighed.Â
âI donât care.â
âArenât you tired?â
Mando shook his head, pulling your hand into his to lead you south.Â
âWeâll find shelter somewhere tonight and make the rest of the travel tomorrow. Iâve got you now. Thatâs all that matters.â
The remainder of the day was spent walking in silence, and Mando never let go of your hand. Ever so often, heâd squeeze his thumb against your knuckles, a reminder he was there. You stole glances at him occasionally only to realize he was doing the same.Â
âDo you hate me?â You asked after a few hours of no conversation.Â
âNo,â he answered.Â
âI hurt you.â
âIâm okay, angel. I was more scared something worse had happened to you.â
âIâm sorry.â
Mando stopped walking, turning you toward him to capture your full attention.Â
âDo you trust me?â
âAlways,â you whispered.Â
âThen trust me when I say Iâm not angry. Not anymore, at least. I understand why you decided to run, but I need you to promise me youâll stay. Let me give you the freedom I promised you. Donât go without saying goodbye.â
Your lips trembled, and you nodded solemnly.Â
âI donât know if Iâm strong enough to say goodbye.â
âThen donât.â
âWhatâre you saying, Mando?â
âStay. Iâll protect you. Iâll give you whatever you want, so long as you stay.â
You chewed on your lip as you contemplated his offer. You had freedom at the tip of your fingers, yet the temptation to stay swayed your mind.Â
âMaybe.â
He nodded, looking towards the trees before you.
âWhere does this leave us?â You asked.
âI donât know,â he said honestly.Â
You squeezed his hand this time and ushered him to keep walking. You were safe, and for now, you were his.
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SEE YOU AT THREE: CHAPTER 6
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Fandom:Â The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Game)
Rating:Â Explicit (18+ only)
Central Characters:Â Female OC, Young!Joel, Ellie, Sarah, Anna, Tommy
Central Relationship:Â Joel / Reader OC
Status: In progress (currently 35k+ words)
Word Count: 7.1k
SUMMARY
Joel invites you to spend Halloween with him and the girls. Pre-Outbreak & No-Outbreak AU. CW: Mild smut, brief reference to the death of a parent.
CHAPTER PREVIEW
You make a small ah sound in understanding, then crouch under the counter to dig under the till. "Guess you get Tommyâs usual then," you say, and pop up, rosemary loaf in hand, to present it to him with a smirk. "Finderâs keepers." Tension leaks from him slowly. His shoulders slouch back down where they belong. You canât see it on himâthe weakness, the wanting. This isnât ruined yet. When you turn your back to set the loaf in the bread slicer, Joel takes out his wallet and slips a twenty into your tip mug, knowing youâll refuse to let him pay. By the time you spin around again, his walletâs back in his pocket and heâs the picture of innocence, standing as if he never moved. "Lucky me," he says. Clicking your tongue, you check your watch. Youâve braided your hair back and are wearing those dangly earrings again, the silver ones he remembers from the benches back in September. They swing like dainty pendulums from your ears, now and then kissing your neck. The black apron you always wear is, as usual, printed with the white ghost of your hands, but this time the sight stirs something warm and low in Joelâs stomach. Remembering how heâd pictured you this morning, fanned out on his kitchen counter mumbling sweet, wicked nothings. He bites down on his tongue to chase away the thought.
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jeon jungkook fanfics that deserve to be turned into kdramas and selling books.
(a recommendation you badly need) â.á
Sauvage ౚৠby @tljunglebook
â grumpy x sunshine, cold and detached jungkook (who turns into a whipped puppy later on) office romance, slow burn.
(starting off strong! this bookâs got the most delicious slow burn to ever exist! screaming at how sexy, dirty minded, down bad & protective for oc jungkookâs in this fic ugh the wattpad girlies already know that theyâre my adopted parents)
10 Seconds ᄫᥠby @deepdarkdelights
â yandere jungkook, abduction, stalking, stockholm syndrome.
(this series is my first love, i would do anything to read this for the first time again!)
Penpal đŻđ by @laughing-with-god
â yandere prisoner jungkook, stalking, breaking in.
(gotta contact some directors and producers to turn this into a drama! it would slay so hard with its refreshing plot line! and tbh no words are enough to describe her writing abilities, sheâs a proâš)
RisquĂ© â§Ë° by @mercurygguk
â age gap, forbidden romance, smut, angst.
(the time stamps and drabbles are the essence of this fic, the smut is so well written! ALSO THE SEGSUAL TENSION AND OVERALL YEARNING MAâAM!? can someone already turn this into a mini netflix series please!?)
About Time ÖŽàŁȘđ€ by @yoonia
â time travel au, major angst, second chances, smut, fluff.
(if i had the chance to devour a book, iâd eat this one (obviously) itâs one of the best books of my life, i would die to see a live version of this)
I Want You To Stay ÊÉ âșË by @ahundredtimesover
â ceo jungkook, strangers to lovers, slow burn, angst, smut.
(no slow burn ever slow burned the way this story slow burned! lemme warn yaâll this fic will keep getting better as you read it!)
Bride Of Devil â° đČ àčàŁÂ àŁȘ Ë by @jasminefanfics
â dark romance, gangster au, enemies to lovers, forced proximity, age gap, kinda yandere husband jungkook.
(my youtube fanfic girlies assemble! this is the best mafia jungkook fic i can recommend for yaâll! the bgm is so addictive and perfect)
An Abundance Of Luck And A Sprinkle Of Fate đ by @borathae
â strangers to lovers, romance, found family, smut, angst, healing.
(I remember being unhealthily obsessed with this lord, aaol!kook & oc will forever be my babies TT this book tugs at your heart in a way thatâs inexplainable)
ps â have a good read girlies <3
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Don't Hyde From Me (ch. 7 Whispers in The Dark)
TW/CW: Fluff, childhood trauma, escaping a cult, child abuse, warm bath time.
A/N: Äáșčp trai = very handsome/beautiful in vietnamese
Don't Hyde From Me Chapters
Tyler set the girl down on the sinktop, starting a nice warm bath for the both of them, Hoa gently kicked her in the air as they dangled off the sinktop. She watched his every move patiently before remembering she had something special for bath time, she uttered a sound to notify the boy to wait before filling up the whole tub as she pulled out pink bath bomb from the drawer. Strawberry scented. Tyler couldnât help but chuckle softly, kissing her forehead as he took the bath fizzer from her hands, âYouâre so cute.â He sighed to himself as he dropped the bath bomb into the hot water. The two of them were watching as it fizzed and bubbled, the bathroom soon filling up with the scent of fresh strawberries as the steam from the hot water clouded every centimeter in sight. Tyler grabbed the strawberry scented soap and poured a generous amount into the now pink liquid, the tub filling with an insane amount of bubbles.
Once he had gotten the water to the perfect temperature he turned the water off and gently eased the girl in the bath after the bath bomb had fizzed its last breath, Hoa gasped at the sudden warmth that hit her skin- she could almost fall asleep like this, almost. She sank down in relaxation while the boy made his way into the water, the both of them taking a moment to soak and relax their muscles as the steam clouded the space around them. Hoa was so quiet that Tyler thought she had fallen asleep, heâd hope she hadnât fallen asleep.
âPrincess?â He whispered, afraid he might wake her. The girl let out a mumble to alert him that she was still conscious and in the present, he sighed in relief as he relaxed in the water, âThought you fell asleep on me.â
âAlmost.â She mumbled, âWarm baths make me sleepy.â He could hear an audible yawn leaving her lips, he smiled. She offered to wash his hair and scrub all the sweat and dirt off him, he obliged and positioned himself so that his back was facing her. The girl grabbed a sponge and some soap, dunked the sponge in water and started to scrub away the grime and filth from his back- it felt nice. The warm water cascading down his skin as she massaged his back was heavenly. Every now and then Hoa would plant tiny little kisses along his spine, praising him in a mixture of Vietnamese and English. Granted, Tyler had no idea what the Vietnamese meant, but it sounded nice.
âÄáșčp trai.â She muttered under her breath as her lips hovered over his shoulder, he hummed in response as she snaked her arm around his body to scrub his abdomen. He traced her arm with his fingers, enjoying the warmth of the water and her gentle touch. Once she was finished scrubbing his body she notified him that she was going to be doing his hair next, his eyes closed in bliss as he hummed in agreement. Hoa cupped some water in her hands and poured it all over Tylerâs caramel colored curls, watching as they flattened and straightened out once they came into contact with water. Tyler closed his eyes and hummed in content as she massaged his scalp, she was humming something- a lullaby of sorts- he wasnât paying attention, he was somewhere between consciousness and sleep.
âClose your eyes.â She mumbled and the boy obeyed, warm bubbly water cascaded down each and every one of his curls. His bangs drooped over his eyes like a curtain hiding the actors on stage, his mind filled with fond memories he had of his childhood; bubble baths and pretending Godzilla was out to attack the town of Jericho, curling up by the fireplace and listening to his mother read him stories of princes and princesses in lands far far away. He was at peace, something he hadnât felt in ages.
âHoa?â He spoke once she finished rinsing his hair, âDonât ever leave me?â His voice was filled with worry, fear, afraid that theyâd take her away from him. That theyâd take this away from him. He turned to face her, eyes misted with tears
âI promise you,â she massaged his shoulders, âThat wonât happen anytime soon.â A small smile crawled across her face as she patted his cheek. The boy smiled back as he directed her to turn around so he could scrub her down next, without hesitation she did so. Her long hair covering a majority of her backside, Tyler chuckled as he ran a hand through her hair; making sure to soak it in water beforehand. He took the sponge from the girl and pushed her hair to the side to start scrubbing, thatâs when he noticed it. A mark on her back close to her neck, no, a scar. It was faded but still visible to the naked eye if you looked close enough; the image of a dragon inside a circle. That wasnât the only scar on her back; it was as if she had been burned, slashed, and stitched back up again like some fucked up version of Frankensteinâs monster.
When she didnât feel his hands on her back she grew concerned, âDid you fall asleep?â She tilted her head, Tyler hummed in response while his fingers traced the scar on the back of her neck. Her posture changed as she suddenly remembered where it came from.
âAre you alright?â Tyler asked as he started to scrub the girlâs back, âWhere did this come from? What is it even?â
âThe mark of the deserter.â Hoa replied coldly, âBasically classic Bui Clan torture.â
âBui Clan?â Tyler tilted his head, âYour brother mentioned them before. Who are they?â
The Bui Clan was the family Hoaâs mother was born into, a well known clan in the heart of Saigon. The Buiâs were known for their torture methods, inhumane actions and blood lust. Those who managed to escape the Bui Clan either married into other families or changed their names, Hoaâs mother was one of those people. The Bui were split between corruption and honesty, there were some good in the clan but more bad. Soon enough the honest left the family altogether. When the twins were born Hoaâs mother, Ha Bui, returned to the Buiâs when her husband went off to fight in the war overseas. Both parents werenât too excited to be asking help from the Bui Clan but situations were not in their favor.
Hoa and Quan had very few memories of their father before he shipped off to war, the man was kind and gentle and had stories to tell the two for ages. But who knew when the man would ever come home. The twins spent their childhood in the Saigon District of Southern California, where they learned to strengthen and use their powers to the fullest. Quan was always the favorite of the Bui Clan, he did inherit all the traits of a perfect Bui. Hoa was the outcast. She wasnât a vampiric shifter like the rest of them, no, she inherited outsiderâs blood. She was the black sheep of the family.
âYou know,â the girl held her legs close to her chest as Tyler slowly ran the soapy sponge down her back, âI was always the one looking out for Quan when we were kids. âTake care of your little brother!â Or âTake your brother with you!â always came from mom whenever I wanted to go out and play.â
It was when Hoa was 5 years old, she got that burn mark on the back of her neck. She was branded like cattle. All because she wasnât like the rest. Her brother and mother were forced to watch as the elders of Bui took the hot branding iron from the embers and seared the Seal of the Deserter on her flesh. She could still feel the hot searing pain on her skin.
âDad didnât come home from overseas until a year later.â Her gaze never left the water, âBoy was he pissed when he heard the news.âÂ
Hoa and her family tried to leave Bui but it was difficult. The elders had already taken a liking to the children and the family wasnât allowed to leave until the rites of passage had been done and over with. The cruel tradition where children were put on display and forced to hunt the runt of the litter. This was something Hoa was not ready to talk about and it was obvious by the way she was shaking underneath Tylerâs touch, the boy wrapped his arms around her, letting her know that she didnât have to keep talking about this memory as he continued scrubbing.
âSorry,â was all she could mutter, âDidnât mean to get a panic attack there.â
âI should be the one whoâs sorry,â he rinsed off her back before he scrubbed the front of her body. âI was the one who asked about something youâre not ready to talk about yet.â She forgave him. She would always forgive him. Once the scrubbing of the hair was finished Hoa started draining the tub before she started the shower up, the two of them just sat there naken with their knees to their chests. It was awkward, but theyâd rather have these moments than bad ones. They both agreed to take a nap once they were clean and dry.
âI have to speak to the principal tomorrow.â Hoa said as they were drying off, Tyler froze in his spot but he wasnât scared. No, he had trust and faith in Hoa, he knew she would get all of them to see that he wasnât a threat. He was calm. âIâm going to ask him if we can finally get those restraints off of you for good.â
âHoa, thatâs,â he was at a loss for words, âThatâs great! I- um- thank you. I mean it.â
âDonât thank me yet, Barista Boy. If I fuck this up then weâll both be in hot water.â
âEasy,â he smiled as wide as the cheshire cat, âDonât fuck it up.â She rolled her eyes and gently punched his shoulder before sliding her shirt on. Tyler went to wait outside whilst the girl dried her hair, the boy could do with some fresh air. He stepped onto the balcony, the cold spring air crawling up his spine causing goosebumps to form on every inch of skin exposed. It was a nice afternoon, there was still snow- albeit it was now a muddy slush- but if you looked closely you could see tiny flower buds poking their heads out into the world. Tyler made a mental note to himself that once the flowers had fully bloomed he should pick some for Hoa. But in that instant, the boy saw something that had been haunting his dreams for months. Something heâd wish heâd never have to see again. Her. At least, he thought it was her. A familiar shadow lurked in the courtyard of campus, peering up at him, Laurel?
He squinted to get a better look but the shadowy figure walked off before he could make out an identity. No, she couldnât be alive. His heart raced in fear, if she were alive what did she want? Why was she here? Has she been watching him? If so, how long had she been here? Questions swirled inside the poor boyâs head, soon those questions turned to fear, what would she do to Hoa? He was scared of what Laurel was capable of, what Hoa was capable of. He snaked his leg over the balcony, his body was moving on its own without his command, his worst fear became a reality. She still had control over him, he hated it.
âBarista boy?â Hoaâs voice broke him out of his trance, âWhat are you doing?â A semi concerned look plastered on his face. To say that the boy was relieved to see her would be an understatement, he knew the current position he was in was quite concerning but nonetheless he quickly made his way over to her and wrapped his arms around the girl tightly.
âHoa,â his voice shaking as he spoke, âLetâs go back inside, yeah?â
âOkayâŠ?â The girl was too tired to question his behavior any further, âLetâs just take a nap.â
âThat would be great.â
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imagine ur bd being out of the picture and your little girl running up to si âčïžđ€
   âDaddy!â
   Simon looked down, eyes wide at the little girl wrapped around his right leg. Johnny eyed him carefully. He was thankful none of the other cafĂ© patrons paid any mind. âIâm not your daddy, love,â Simon said. He tugged his leg away gently but the strength of a child is hard to match.
    âAnnalise, get off that man,â a woman cried. In the blink of an eye, she knelt near Simonâs leg and tugged the child away.
    âDada!â She shrieked. Annaliseâs chubby hands reached out for Simonâs. âIs dada, mama!â
    You shook your head. âI- Iâm so sorry, sir. Her dad was in the military. Anna thinks everyone in fatigues is dada⊠Do you want me to get either of you a coffee to pay you back? Iâm truly sorry.â
    Soap discreetly elbowed Simon harshly in the side. ââM quite alrighâ lass. Simon, here, would take a coffee if your serious. If youâll excuse me, I got to go. Bye, little lassie,â the Scot rushed, face lightinf up at the way Annalise giggled as his parting.
    Annalise was still cooing and reaching for Simon. You just shifted her on your hip and rubbed her back. âSimon, yeah?â
    âThatâs me, maâam,â Simon nodded, feeling suddenly extremely exposed without the balaclava he had decided not to wear for one single occasion. âYou donât have to pay me back-â
    âNonsense. I would feel like a bad person if I just let my kid latch herself onto your left and call you dad and then just swoop her up and leave,â you said, reaching for your wallet before walking over to the ordering counter. âWhat can I get you?â
    Simon ordered a small of his usual, watching you pull the money from your wallet without glancing at how much it costed. He observed you in that split second- a beautiful baby girl on your hip who thought any man in camo was her dad. So he had been in the service⊠Simon watched you smile kindly at the teen behind the counter who fumbled for your change. You murmured a quiet, âItâs quite alright, take your time.â A well-mannered, well put-together individual who was also very attractive. Simon knew what Johnny was doing when he left and Simon would be lying if he said he hadnât thought you were a catch.
    âI seriously appreciate the coffee, maâam, but it was unnecessary,â Simon said as you tucked your change back and waited for the drink. âAs long as the kidâs alrighâ, I donât need anything in return.â
    You smiled. You smiled at Simon and he swore his cold heart jumped in his chest. Clearly your bright smile disarmed Annalise as much as Simon because she let out a bubbly laugh and put her hands on your cheek. âWhat if I said I wanted to?â You asked coyly.
    Simon watched Annalise play with a baby hair near your face. âThen Iâd say itâd be a cruel thing to tell a gorgeous woman no.â
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Are We There Yet?, Chapter 26 of Not Giving Up
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Ben did not understand Reyâs tolerance - fondness even - of the porgs who had infested the Falcon. But she cooed over them, standing over the nests theyâd made the walls and gave them treats till they followed her around like pets. Small, loud creatures who waddled and bit his fingers if he didnât offer them a snack quickly enough. Leia informed him it was good practice for being a Father, as if he wasnât certain enough he would fail.
Rey swore there were only three aboard, but Ben suspected there were closer to fifteen. And they stalked him, squawking loudly like watchdogs if he got too close to the cockpit. He contemplated turning them into snacks at least three times an hour but the damn things had the biggest, most pleading eyes heâd ever seen and even Chewbecca growled protectively of them.
Currently, one was hopping atop the dejarik, making it exceedingly difficult to focus on anything resembling a long term strategy. The game wasnât friendly to start with, with his former baby-sitter as the opponent. Rey had demanded they sit down and try so there they were. Watching a fat-bottomed bird try to stomp holographic creatures, with its wide foot. At least it was absurd enough to distract them both from the utter horribleness of the situation.
The Wookie trilled in low frustration, leaning back and damn near sulking. He also would have preferred to simply eat the damn birds. Heâd tried. Even without Reyâs fondness, the pathetic creatures managed to make him feel guilty! Chewbacca doubted they had two brain cells to rub together in a flock, yet they had mastered the art of looking pitiful as a survival tactic.Â
âAgreed.â Ben grumbled, leaning an elbow on the table and poking at the creatureâs white feathered stomach. It screeched in reply, which brought the predictable response of his love hollering from the cockpit.
âBen! Leave them alone!â
âYes, dear!â He answered too sweetly, head tilting. Had Father and Mother had moments like this? Did it fucking matter, he didnât want a marriage like theirs. Did he? With a groan, Ben let his head fall onto the table. Wherever Mother was taking them, he hoped they got there soon. Maybe it would have a nice, solitary cell where he wouldnât have to deal with all this emotional shit. Being a monster was so much easier. Callous laughter from beside him and Ben had to concede it was entirely justified.
âLaugh it up.â Ben chuckled self-deprecatingly. If only Hux could see him now, Kylo Ren - taking orders from his heavily pregnant fiancee regarding the kind treatment of pest species. Sitting up again, he looked over to Chewie, who seemed entirely pleased by Benâs current foul mood. It had surprised Ben how nice he found it that Chewbacca wasnât afraid of him. Angry, furious, rage - well deserved emotions but without the undercurrents of terror.Â
Chewbacca didnât understand the decisions his honor family were making, not fully. He understood why Rey wanted the sire of her children nearby. He understood why Leia struggled to abandon her son. But how could Rey sleep beside the murderer so peacefully, how did Leia justify it.
Chewie watched as Ben punched in his next few moves. In terms of his long life span, the boy had grown up in only a few heartbeats. Something had happened, something Han and Leia talked about in whispers. Usual brooding during oneâs coming-of-age grew steadily darker and something flickered in the boyâs eyes that the Wookie couldnât place. The circles under Benâs eyes had grown deeper.
When one of Benâs creatures destroyed Chewieâs favorite fighter, the Wookie howled in rage, head pulled back to the game. The porg screeched again, facing off with the massive fighter with the confidence of a well-indulged favorite.
âChewie!â
Reyâs voice cut through from the cockpit again, and this time Chewbacca cradled his head in his paw. Eying the stupid bird and wishing heâd gone through with his initial plan to eat them all.Â
âBet theyâd taste good fried,â Ben muttered, unable to keep a smirk off his lips to see Chewieâs reaction to Reyâs scolding. By now, Rey probably knew where they were going and when they were landing and everything about Motherâs plan. For once, he didnât care - just as long as he stayed at her side until their family was more settled. Then he could worry about all the what nexts.
Chewie snorted in agreement, as much as it pained him to agree with Ben about anything. Fried with triple thick batter, that sauce from his homeworld and maybe some of that spicy shit Han had liked. Glancing over, Chewie felt his heart lurch to see that smirk on Benâs face. It was unfair of the bastard to look so much like his father and Benâs childhood self all once. Maybe that was why the other two couldnât give up on him.
Issuing a halfhearted howl, Chewbacca stood abruptly. It was petty but he was pleased to see that Ben jumped back a little in concern. Good. As Rey whirled around, as best she could in her condition, Chewie hit the button to reset the game with far more force than needed. He might need to buy a new table when they landed but it would be worth it.
âChewie, whatâs wrong?â Rey had only gotten a few steps in when the Wookie trilled at her. A long, angry and pained vocalization that left her shoulders dropping. The two hadnât even finished the game. Her hopes hadnât been high but Rey had wanted a little better than that. As he left, Benâs head dropped to rest in the palm of his hands.
The gentle feel of her fingers stroking through his dark curls was far more comfort than he deserved, but he took it anyway. Leaning into his lover gently when she sat beside him. Rey would tell him that everything would be all right, that they would work things out. He just had to be patient.
He wasnât sure about that. The further he seemed to get from his life in the First Order, the worse his dreams became. Instead of wallowing in Darkness and being pulled to the Light, it was turning around. Just as it had before.Â
Reyâs hand caressed the swell of their children slowly, looking out the view ports with a wide grin. Sheâd been apprehensive but excited when Leia said where they were going. This was her first time on such a populated world, having barely traveled outside of the Outer Rim. Ben had been shocked, then annoyed at himself for not seeing it coming.
I would have expected Mustafar.
Iâm not looking to fail you twice.
Mother had the same confident determination about her that she always had. Failure did not seem to haunt her as it did him, or even normal beings. She saw it, analyzed it, and moved onto the next best choice that she could make. Or was that simply how parents were supposed to seem to their children.
He had to admit it though, Naboo was a beautiful planet. And through his grandmotherâs line, Leia had access to resources here. Things she had probably been setting up from the beginning, along with about ten different plans so that she would be prepared no matter what.
âOh Ben, look!â
âNot a bad place to raise children, mmm?â He teased her, arms wrapping around her from behind. As though theyâd picked this place together, and they werenât fleeing. Still. The joy in her eyes was something he hadnât seen in months, as she took in the green domed roofs of the buildings and the waterfalls, with the city seeming to go all the way to the edge of water and sky.Â
âI doubt weâll stay here forever.â Rey chuckled, but couldnât help agreeing with him. As they circled down to land, the city and its surrounding pastoral landscape seemed like something out of a story book. If they had to stay somewhere forever, a place like this might not be so bad. Though it was not lost on her that this was also where her grandfather, and his grandmother, had both come from. A matter to think on later.
âYouâll be here for the foreseeable future, at any rate.â Leia announced, pushing herself up on her cane as the Falcon landed. She was tired, though she refused to show it. The past few days - the past few months - had taken a great deal out of her. If she were particularly fortunate, Leia would be able to rest a bit here as well before she had to return to the Resistance for the clean-up work. Not that she was counting on that.
âThe Lake Retreat?â Ben hesitated, then offered his mother his arm. Covering his nerves with a smirk. Pretending that he didnât feel relief when Leia leaned her slight frame against his broader one.
âIt has a proper name, Ben. Varykino. Now, one of you hurry up and get the gangplank lowered. Rey needs something decent to wear and Ben, if those clothes smelled any worse, I would burn them immediately.âÂ
Laughing, Rey scurried - waddled - along to comply. She didnât know if Leia had clothes ready for them at this Lake place, or what the plan was. But she had been living on ships for the past few months. It would do her some good to get solid ground under her again.
The plan, as it turned out, was more in line with a holiday than concealment. Which irritated Chewbacca all the more, even if he did patiently hold a woven metal basket for Rey as she tentatively selected garments in a frighteningly posh shop. Ben had sighed in annoyance, waving off assistance and grabbing a handful of ready-made garments without bothering to check prices. Leia personally threw the offending garments, left from their time on the Supremacy, into a trash chute while the lovers changed into new selections.
By the time the bill was being settled, Benâs attire was notably cleaner and more in line with the well-to-do of Naboo, but the coloring hadnât changed. A black tunic, fastening at his right breast with jet-colored ornamentation curling along the line of his shoulders - gathered at the sleeves where the cuffs emphasized the strength in his hands. Comfortably loose, black trousers of fine material that tucked into black boots. A wide belt, already accented with several pouches that contained who-knows-what.
Rey would have scolded him for not choosing a single color, save that the effect took her breath away. He looked like a dark prince from a fairytale, the sort who might save the day or end the world save for a true loveâs kiss.
Ben caught her looking as he ran his fingers through his dark curls, not that it was particularly difficult to see where she was looking. He had stationed himself in front of a mirror, doing his best to look ârespectableâ, or something that passed for it. Rey had seemed so pleased to explore the city, he felt an annoying compulsion to pass for the nobility he used to be.Â
âContinue looking at me like that, and Iâll drag you into one of the dressing rooms.â Ben spoke low, his brown eyes as they met hers in the mirror. She had been trying to be subtle, brushing her fingers over a bright purple sash, studded with jewels in the shape of stars. The display just happened to be facing towards the mirror Ben was using. Chewie snorted in disgust.
âBen! Hush!â Hissing out her embarrassment, Rey felt her face burn. Quickly checking that Leia was out of earshot and fumbling with the sash, trying to replace it hurriedly. In her haste, the one in her hands and several others tumbled to the ground. Prompting one of the overly attentive clerks to hurry to the pregnant womanâs assistance. âIâm so sorry, I didnât mean to⊠I just⊠Iâll get some air!â
Layers of soft pastels swirled as Rey quickly moved to the door. There had not been much ready off the rack in her favored tones that would also accommodate her newly acquired figure. Encouraged by the attendants, sheâd tried to take it as a chance to try something new. And so, paid for by the Organa accounts, she wore a simple cream short tunic with whitework embroidery and a skirt comprised of several layers of a sheer material done in abstract florals. The wide soft blue waistband was edged with small bits of metal that created a subtle ringing as she moved. It tied with a large bow just above her stomach, pridefully displaying the new life she was bringing into the galaxy. Rey was entirely certain it was the most costly garment sheâd ever owned and her interest in exploration was suddenly dimmed by the threat of stains.
âCome with me?â Stepping out of the shop, Ben quickly threaded his arm around her own. Not waiting for Rey to agree before he started leading her away and towards an open air market where he suspected she would be more comfortable.
âWe canât leave Leia and Chewie,â protesting with slow steps though neither Master or Wookie were running out screaming. âWhat ifâŠâ
âYouâre my guard, remember?â He nudged her shoulder gently, knowing where her thoughts were going. They were outside of a cell by Leiaâs skill and grace. If they overstepped, he would be back and Rey would be either beside him or trying to get him out. Kissing her temple lightly, he finally conceded the truth. âMother knows - she needs a little time to arrange suitable transportation to Varykino and I want to show you something.â Full Story on Ao3, with detailed tags and NSFW chapters
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