#final diary entry

[streamacademe]

Final Diary Entry

Dear Diary,

It’s been a while. 

I was meaning to write this final post around January, just after my graduation but life got in the way, as it so often does. That’s right, I graduated! Wore the cap, donned the robes, and drank the champagne! 🎓🥂

Just before graduation, I was out in Russia; finally went back after 4.5 years. I am really glad I made the decision to go as I spent the entire time out there looking after my very poorly dad. Sadly, it was the last time I saw him as he subsequently died at the end of March, a few days after which I went back to Russia to deal with what was left behind. I was off work for 5 weeks and am now doing my best to get back on my feet, to navigate this new reality without him in my life. So, all in all, it’s been a bit rubbish, hence the delay in writing, but alas, we move.

I think a big part of the resilience and strength I found within myself over the last few months has come from my PhD, and which I will carry through to whatever other challenges life throws my way. 

I am a Dr, I am still here, I love my job, I am writing journal paper 4/6, I am getting married in 5 months. In the words of Rupi Kaur:

“And here you are, living, despite it all.”

This is officially my last post. 

To all you lovely people, thank you for reading. I leave you with this... You are the only one in charge of your own fate. Take the precious time you have on this planet and utilise it to the fullest. Do not let anyone or anything dictate how you choose to live your life. Work hard. Be kind. And on your worst days, remember, the sun will rise, and you can try again. 

xxx

Photo: I did a thing. Source: University of Sheffield photo people. 

[webstersdiary]

band of brothers + textposts i have saved 4/?

[sophiesonlinediary]

if u really think about it avery grambs is like sofia the first in a way

[kabukeo]

blue art today

[swedenis-h]

Day 5 Prompt: Favorite Quote

blue + red = purple!

(Redraw of this!)

( @claudiadelionlac )

[soahbee]

Finally girls FINALLY! Father's friends gathering on Friday night!😍 I can see him again outside of school and drink with him! YAAYY

What should I do? Should I kiss him? Should I bite him? Sit on his lap? I'm sure I'll dress up very nicely so that he can't take his eyes off me, but I want to do something that he won't be able to get out of his head…🙄 so if you have any insane ideas girls I'd accept them :$

[gratefulgirlies]

July 22nd- romanticising my life

productive day!!🌱

managed to wake up at 7

took my dog on a morning walk

went to the city and spent 3hrs at the library, did 25 pages of the textbook

1.5hrs at the gym (leg day🏋️‍♀️)

came back home and napped, as one does

made frozen greek yogurt with dark chocolate (it’s so good I’ll make it again)

2hrs study session (4.30-6.30)

went on an evening walk with my dog

did exam simulations before bed (I passed most of them💕)

I’m very satisfied with how today turned out, it’s -3 to my exam and I need to lock in :)

Have an amazing day grateful girlies ily

[vulcanette]

like it’s my fault that flowers bloom underfoot when I walk by and hearts start burning with love for me if someone should meet my eyes…. or whatever!!

[asterparfait]

wilting victorian hours

[melodramaticatheart]

Buy Me A Coffee? - Lyra x Grayson

word count: 798

book: the grandest game

ship: lyra kane x grayson hawthorne

“You’re not going to say anything?” “You’re the one who wanted to meet up” Me and Grayson Hawthorne had been sitting in a cafe outside of the city for half an hour and none of us had said a word the smell of coffee and pastries was getting to me. We sat in the corner of the shop staring down into our coffees.  He had called me last night and made an offer for stupid enough coffee. I slowly recall the late-night call.

“What do you want blondie?” I answer the phone tired after a long study session “Well, Lyra Kane the truth is what do you want? You’ve been calling my number for three months now and I’ve just now learned your name and location.” I’m quickly taken aback at the sound of him using my full name “You know what I want Hawthorne boy. I’m hanging up now bye bye.” I say anger creeping into my voice. I just wanted this asshole to tell me what his family did to my father. I never once wanted him to get involved in who I was. I was going to hang up when he asked “Buy me a coffee?” God, why was he so confusing? “What, you’re serious right now? I am not taking you out to a cup of fucking coffee.” I was pissed now “Fine then I’ll buy you a coffee. Tomorrow the little cafe near the outskirts, I know you know which one I’m talking about. I’ll send you the time.” I was about to counter him when he hung up the phone. That little son of a bi- “Lyra?” “Yes,” I say looking at the boy sitting across from me I can tell he was speaking while I was zoned out. 

“Sorry, Hawthorne I would rather your voice not be the first I hear in the morning, probably not the last time I zone out during our conversation.” “What you’d rather I sing to get your attention.” I cock my head to the side and give him half a smile. He was amusing. Very amusing.

“Look unlike you I have a job the get to, so if you’ll tell me why I’m here drinking a cold coffee at 8 in the morning I’d be very pleased” I had work in a bit and class in the late morning if he didn’t hurry I would have to leave. But maybe that was a good thing. “Right because my one mission this morning is to please you.” He smiles, then says “It’s been three months and I have not been able to figure out your riddle.” He looks at me as he says it waiting for any sign of a reaction. He continues when I don’t say anything “Not even my brother who speaks in tongues can figure it out. So I’ve come to bring you a proposition: I think we should team up.” But by the time he’s finished, I’m laughing into my hands “No.” I shake my head not even hiding my smile “Why not? tell me what could be so bad about working with me to figure out your father's suicide.” I flinch my face falling at his words. I always knew my dad was dead I just never knew how, it was only until two years ago that the memory of his death started visiting me in dreams. It made the grief feel brand new.

 “Why would you even need my help you don’t think that if I had any way of figuring it out by myself I would, instead of asking a bratty rich heir who doesn’t know anything about real life?” I thought that would get a reaction out of him but he just set his hands on the table and looked at me “First if you don’t know the story I am not an heir and second we wouldn’t even have to work close, you can send me some photos of him to pass through my grandfathers' files. Some information that you can acquire from your mom-” “No, we are not bringing my mother into this” 

I interrupt him my mom and dad had divorced a couple of months after I was born but she still cared about him. I couldn’t imagine bringing up the raw pain of my father's death. “Fine, I’ll work with you but you will never show up to my city unannounced ever again,” I lift a finger to prove a point. “Nor will you keep any information from.” I lift a second finger up and wait for his answer. “Deal, can’t wait to work with you Ms. Kane,” He says with a smile and I have to look away. I get up and start to walk away, wondering what I’ve just gotten myself into

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requested by @reminiscentreader hope you like!

@art-of-fools

sorry this is kind of long btw

[anqelically]

user anqelically comeback may be a mono no aware chapter 🤫

[hanzajesthanza]

my most non-controversial, milquetoast witcher opinions:

i love geralt so much

the witcher 3 is an awesome game

lady of the lake’s pacing is wack (but i love her anyways)

[webstersdiary]

THE LAST PATROL THE MUSICAL

[sophiesonlinediary]

this isnt funny anymore

maybe its just a coincidence or it has another meaning

[chaosdetector]

First Steps of Many

(Redacted Audio) Asher x Black Reader Imagine ~ 1.75k words

!!Disclaimers!!: This is not beta read, there is angst, some foul language, occasional violent imagery, brief & light hints of sexual attraction btwn 2 adults, and bc it hasn’t been peer-reviewed (also bc I couldn’t decide if I wanted to write it like a [Name] fic, or use the listener’s nickname throughout), this fic could expose you to unhealthy amounts of CRINGE!!!

If any of this isn’t your cup of tea, feel free to scroll away and find something that does (I won’t take it personally ;D)

If none of that turns you away, then here’s a seat and a snack! I hope you enjoy the potential pt. 1 of this series! <333

This is a narration of the beginning of the end. Baabe would hold down the fort as per usual, taking orders from five people before getting to her favorite customer. They would both like to talk more about daily troubles, Asher sucking his teeth to keep his angst about his bitter family in a vacuum, and Baabe pivoting themselves from anything too personal by stringing out their consonants on a stuttered inhale.

The welcoming bell of the family owned joint interrupts itself to ring thrice for a happy horde of hungry habeshas, and Asher quickly two-steps from the counter and to his table. Baabe welcomes them all warmly, but raises a couple eyebrows with their hastened pace in servicing them all. Asher sees Baabes’ struggle to serve and record all of their orders as something he indirectly caused, flinching when he sees you nearly drop someone’s chai and three plates of food.

He walks up to you when you make it behind the counter, with about eight tickets still on the line, and four more plates to bring to their tables, he told you how he thought it would be best for him to come back later, and apologized for rushing you with his promise of staying to sit down and talk in the way he knows you’ve wanted to.

You stare at him with your eyes squinted, as if stressing your eyes would help you hear him better. You get the bright idea to glance down at his lips just as he utters the fact of him leaving, then practically lunge over the counter to clap his hands between your own. Loud crashing and clattering of tea and coffee sets against plates and cutlery quieted the entire kitchen, and ignited another kind of clamoring and clattering.

“I can handle this. I know it looks like a lot, but I deal with worse at my day job.”

The shouting from the kitchen approaches and intensifies after coming into contact with someone else’s spilled masterpiece.  Baabe looks back for a moment, then flicks their face, beaten soft with yearning (and the incoming blow to her paycheck for one and a half tea sets), towards Asher. His blonde hair brushing against your face as you lean in close to his ear. Your minty breath closes the gap between you both as you say–

—“Wait for me. “Please.” He turns his head and nods, something that could’ve read as him nuzzling into your neck—something he’s stayed awake thinking about doing since he met you.

Something about your intoxicating scent, your hickory toned skin—something about all of you never fails to make him swoon. What happens next is almost automatic; you see in the midst of his adoration of you he reclaims his clarity, next he makes the decision he wanted to from the start (sit and wait for you to sit with him over a delicious meal that someone else will bring out for the both of you), then he wrestles with the characatures of his pack members his mind made to taunt him, wins against them all because, “Fuck ‘em. What are they going to do about it? Bitch and moan? I can take that. Fight me? They can fuck themselves over and try.”

The idea of David and Milo pop up in his mind. He looks up to see two teas he hadn’t ordered sat in front of him, and your apron slung across the chair parallel to him.

“I’d get my ass handed to me every day if it meant being here.”

“Well,” You chuckle.  “…let’s hope it doesn’t come to that, yes?”

His eyebrows shoot up, breaking his morbid composure.  He lets out a laugh, awkward in it’s intensity and tone.

“Well, anything for the world’s best siga fir fir.” He looks to your eyes, then glances down to the tea you generously paid for. He thanks you for his drink and for starting the meal in the same nod he dips down to drink his tea in.

“And of course, I couldn’t miss out on the best waiter in the world.” You snort mid sip, coughing down the remainder of your hot tea to make room for your laughter. You had to settle yourself down from your laughing fit.

Why were you laughing anyways? He didn’t even say anything funny? Maybe it was his face when he said it? The way he’d scrunch his nose before being cheeky was always so endearing, or maybe it was the way this mountain of a man was so gently clasping onto his cup?

“[Asher says something]” That’s it! It was his eyes! It had to be! The way his smile would crease his gaze into crescent moons, and the happy shape of his face was only exaggerated by his thick short boxed beard…and maybe it had a little to do with his choice of dress. Bomber jackets are understandable, but a leopard fur print interior and trim?

Baabe hadn’t noticed the abhorrent pattern until now, but maybe it was because Asher was wearing it? He somehow pulled off even the most criminal looks, so they wouldn’t be surprised.

Baabe stared for a second longer. Had his arms always been that big?

“Do you like my shirt?” “Nah, just your arms.”

Baabes’ eyes flew open, making them appear only a fraction as erratic as they felt. A wave of heat swallowed their neck and face.

‘OH MY GOD WHY DID I SAY THAT?’

“Oh my GOD, I can’t believe you just said that!” Asher guffawed, then laughed from deep down in his gut. Baabe was about to shrink into themselves for good until—.

“You know, it takes a lot of work to look this good!” Asher begins to put on a show. Flexing his arms in poses you could only remember that one hunky guy from the SpongeBob Movie doing. He cracks another laugh out of you. “I’m glad these big guns impress you!”

You take a moment to weigh the risk of what you’re about to say.

“You always impress me Asher.”

Asher froze, something he could’ve concealed better if it weren’t for your sweetened tone. Part of that moment he spent frozen was dedicated to scanning you up and down for any hints of sarcasm or humor, the next was spent reeling himself away from your genuine look of adoration. Because, dear GODS, if he looks at you any longer than how much he already has, he’s bound to do something stupid–and not “poor-man’s-imitation-of-Arnold-Hasslehoff” stupid, he’s talkin’ “Pick-you-up-in-his-arms-and-run-away-with-you-tonight” kind of stupid.

“Ehem, so uh, what did you want to tell me? Or, uh, what did you want to talk about?”

Baaabe rubs their ring finger, gently wringing just above where the knuckle connects to the start of their finger. “I actually wanted to talk about us. Asher, you and I have known each other for a while, and I really like you, but not enough to keep things between us how they are now.”

Asher’s hands went cold. He felt his grip on his teacup tighten.

“I like you too much, Asher. Every moment we spend together is more precious to me than the last, and–I–I’d just like, so, so much, to spend more time with you.” Baaabe looked up from their hands, their nervous glare softening the moment they met Asher’s own stunned expression.

“Do you feel the same?”

A beat passed between the two.

Then another.

A jittery laugh comes from Baabe.

“I may have sprung this on you, it’s alright if–.” “I’D LOVE TO!” “I mean, I agree! I’d love to go out with you [Name].”

Baabe blinks. “Really?” They release a sigh, the kind that is so heavy with emotion you’d have to manually push the last half of it out your chest and up your throat. Asher releases a heavy sigh of his own, then focuses all of his erratic heart to say–.

“Yeah! Yeah, really.”

They giggle in stupid glee for a long while, then Baabe (the glutton for punishment they are) springs another question that gets their heart racing.

“So, when are you free? I know you’re always busy with your security business so…”

“Yeah, no, don’t even worry about that! The guys can handle a couple jobs without me. And if they can’t–” Asher blew a raspberry. “–they’ll figure it out!“  The lovers let out a couple more laughs, riding on highs that, honest to God, they don’t know why are wracking through them this heavily.

The entire restaurant seemed to pause, and in that silence, the energy between them began to burn. A beautiful, private moment between both of them and the thirty other people in the restaurant.

You glazed over the audience with a scornful glare, briefly enough to catch nearly everyone’s eyes before they could be sneakily removed to an uninteresting wall, or an unnaturally compelling wood tile.

Asher coughed, which wound up drawing your mind to more important things.

“Are you free the Friday after next?” He asked, his hushed voice pointed enough for you to make the connections between the consonants and his intended message. “Yeah, yeah I can be free then.”

[stormboundscholar]

Day 6/10 of getting back on my feet

Showered

Brushed my teeth

Swam for an hour

Did german duolingo for 45 minutes

Couldn't read a lot sadly

Found about my uni exam result

Searched about grants and scholarships

Searched about the university I want to go to.

It was a nice day, I woke up right after uni exam results were sent out in my country so I found about them pretty early.

My results were decent. Sadly a bit worse than I usually scored on tests. I had a couple of unexpected mistakes in math, also missed some easy questions around the board, but I can still go to the university I want and even study medicine there so it's all good. (Maths and physics fcked me even though I expected to get stuck in biology or chemistry. Guess medicine really is a good choice for me)

I also took a look at some scholarships. My results aren't good enough to get some of the better scholarships but my university does qualify for a lot of grants and whatnot so I still hope that I can get something. Applications for those should start in a couple of weeks.

Over all it was a nice day. Got some good news. I hope everything turns out alright.

Good night everyone, and good luck with whatever you're working on!