#femme ftm

[intersexfairy]

i think being hyperandrogen intersex has made my experience of antitransmasculinity just... that much deeper, that much more lonely. before i even knew i was trans, i would stare into the mirror and pick my face and body apart. why don't i look like the other girls? what's wrong with me? why do i look so wrong in a dress? why do i feel like i take up too much space? will anyone ever love me?

i was punished for my masculinity and androgyny before i even had the chance to (voluntarily) express it. it stung even more, as i've always had an affinity to traditionally feminine things. where i once found joy and bliss in dressing up and posing for the camera, i found myself hiding my body in hoodies and leggings. if anyone pointed a camera at me, i would collapse to the floor and start having a panic attack.

now, as i've grown older, i've found safety in masculinity and androgyny. people don't find it quite as strange, as if my body/facial hair, broad shoulders, stocky build, and androgynous face make it make sense - femininity is obviously off limits for someone like me, yet it's still expected of me. getting "masculinizing" gender affirming care terrifies me. i'd be casting off the last of what makes me desirable, pretty, and unassuming. but the little girl inside me wants to wear dresses, makeup, jewelry - just this time, as a man.

but men aren't supposed to be pretty - least of all fat, hairy, disabled men. so i'm caught. i can neglect myself, out of fear of being seen as even more disgusting and off putting, just so i can cling to the few expressions of femininity i can display... or, i can be myself, and open myself up to the very hurt i've been trying to avoid all these years. but then, i can look my true self in the mirror, and finally say: you're not like other girls (and that's okay). nothing's wrong with you. you still look beautiful in a dress. you don't take up any space that isn't already yours. and you are already very, very loved.

and one day, i will. because that's what we deserve to hear - trans people, intersex people, people who are both. we deserve to do whatever we need to be our most authentic selves. all this judgement, fear mongering, it's all made up - to hurt us. and that's awful. that's scary, and i hope someday, we live in a world where we don't have to be afraid anymore. and part of me - part of you - knows, one day, we will.

[1ckydoggy]

tboy tits!!! :DDDD

(he/it pronouns only)

[femmetransman]

Went out to goth club last night. Got to use a lipstick that I don't get to wear often which is this beautiful deep metallic brown/green called Metallurgy from Portland Black Lipstick Company. Dress from Nerdy Keppie, @vaspider on tumblr.

Edit: forgot to mention my earrings are from the Women Helping Women Beadwork instagram page. They sell beadwork made by incarcerated indiginous women in Canada and 100% of the profit goes directly back to the incarcerated individuals. Highly recommend checking them out.

Had a great time dancing with my mom, and ended the night by throwing a cup of water in my asshole dad's face. Definitely a good night.

[yesicanbelieveitsnotbutter]

if theres any transfems, fem nonbinary people, cis women, or anyone else who likes their own facial hair, but is insecure because people say its ugly or wtvr-

i just want you to know that my (ftm-on-T) beard made me 10000000% cuter so jot that down <3 ily and your femininity can and should include facial hair if thats what you need <333

[femmetransman]

Hi! I am a man who transitioned at 18, and discovered that when I was comfortable with my gender it made playing with femme fashion more enjoyable. I can't be an egg waiting to crack because I had to realize I wasn't a girl to get where I am.

I'm also not non-binary or gender fluid. Those are important identities in their own right, but I want to specify that just because someone is GNC doesn't mean they're non-binary, and assuming so is still bad. I've had a lot of people shocked that I don't use they/them.

To all my trans siblings out there, you get to determine your own identity and express yourself the way you want! Finding communities online can help inspire you, but don't let those communities just put you in a new box.

Dresses from @nerdykeppie

Earrings from Women Helping Women Beadwork, an instagram page that sells beadwork made by incarcerated indiginous women. All proceeds go directly to the artists.

I think it's important to let guys be gender non conforming without telling them they're a girl, cause actually misgendering people is still shit even when you are pro trans. "You're a girl, an egg waiting to crack, and that's ok" how about you are a boy and a man and it's still ok if you want to do something that doesn't align with traditional ideals of your gender. You can still be he/him in a skirt and makeup.

[deathtokillian]

If you are trans I need you to stay alive.

Stay alive for every other trans person fighting, stay alive for every trans person who is no longer here, and most importantly stay alive for yourself.

They don’t get to erase us! They don’t get to take away our rights, and treat us as less than human. Don’t let them erase us, and don’t let them make you a statistic. Don’t let them win.

Stay alive

If you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for others. Do it out of spite.

[femmetransman]

Everytime I see a post about trans guys wearing skirts/make-up I feel the urge to post pics.

Some guys just like being pretty.

yall gotta stop being weird when a trans guy wheres a skirt. its the same as when a cis guy does it and its wonderful. anyway I love it when trans men wear skirts and i wish every one of them a wonderful day

[waambles]

☀️I love you! And you and you and you and-☀️

It’s t4t summer baby!

[1ckydoggy]

Normal puppy boy reaction to transfem boobs

[femmetransman]

My dress and nails from the Pride events that I worked last weekend.

The dress is made out of fabric from Twisted Needle Textiles (currently changing management and will have a new name soon, but can still be found on facebook), and the nails are done with holotaco and stamps from Maniology.

I worked booths for my job, the Colorado State Public Defender. We educated people about their basic civil rights, and some queer legal history. For example, did you know that on the night of Stonewall, the police had a warrant for the illegal sale of alcohol, which allowed them to enter the Stonewall Inn and arrest people for crossdressing.

Happy Pride!

[arsenenicholas]

https://goodlawproject.org/crowdfunder/nhs-cyp-guidance/?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaadkVMoRUHpcFptnjlifnc1xJ0i7YGVi78tfv2vEXVaVIQDPTEp1-ozNcY_aem_AfqNP9xEERFn6GRCZCIP7B2RriLi8ZN7pVAFzmNwdvqIXW0nmc1mTe5Hq0UV3xC6VPWdYe1x64wHk7O6-HPOhIdf

Please share, tag someone who could bring this to a lot of people, and post to other platforms. Not originally mine, idk who is the source of the screenshots.

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In thick white text on black background-> NHS ENGLAND ARE PLANNING A HONEYPOT WHERE THEY SEND ALL KIDS ON GIDS WAITLIST TO CAHMS TO HAVE THEM BE ASKED IF THEY ARE TAKING BLOCKERS/HRT VIA PRIVATE OR DIY ROUTES

Text is broken and in the middle is an excerpt from a leaked nhs document-> a) For medication sourced directly (e.g via the internet), explain the increased risks of harm due to the unregulated nature of these medicines/products. These may include the use of counterfeit chemicals, unsafe/unknown ancilliary ingredients or variability of potency etc. More information can be found here (link to nhs website). // b) Do not initiate or continue prescribing puberty surpressing hormones or gender affirming hormones. The General Medical Council's guidance to medical professionals on 'bridging prescriptions (a course of endocrine intervention managed by a healthcare professional outside of the specialised gender service while an individual is waiting to be seen) does not apply to care offered to young people under 18 years of age. // c) If the child/young person or their carer disregards your advice and you consider that this puts the child/young person at increased risk, then a safeguarding referral might also be appropriate in line with standard safeguarding approaches. Discuss with your line manager and your organization's safeguarding team.

Thick white text on black background continues-> ANY WHO SAYS YES AND DO NOT DESIST FROM DOING SO WILL BE THREATENED WITH SAFEGUARDING REFERRAL (TAKEN INTO STATE CARE)

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In black text on white background, from the news article linked above-> It seems to us - and to those inside the NHS who have leaked the document to us - that what purports to be an "assessment" in fact an exercise in bringing very significant pressure to bear on trans youth and their families to cease private treatment, backed up with a threat of a safeguarding referral to social services if they do not. // We are concerned about what appears to be a misleading exercise in gathering data on which trans youth are obtaining private treatment from abroad, for the purposes of seeking to cause or compel them to stop treatment.

In the same thick white text on black background as previous image-> So an internal NHS document has been leaked basically asking trans kids on excruciatingly ling waiting lists to come to a 'mental health assessment' where the NHS will harvest their personal information & threaten their families with a social services referral if they're found to be on private blockers/hormones & refuse to come off them. // This country is for dogs i swear.

[thewhitemaletm]

I love you trans people.

I love you intersex people.

I love you ace people.

I love you aromantic people.

I love you gender fluid people.

I love you non-binary people.

I love you lesbians.

I love you gays.

I love you bisexuals.

I love every single one of you queer people on here.

(Except TERFs since you don’t believe in my human rights.)

[justdavina]

SO HOT!

[janedoesdiaryy]

Mommy's gonna finger you under the blanket while you're friends are over to watch a movie. Be a good girl and stay quiet so they can hear how loud your pussy gets when you're trying to be sneaky. All their little pussies will start to drip but they'll all be too scared to touch themselves...so everyone will sit, as still as they can, holding their breath, listening to you try your best not to scream as you cum in mommy's lap. You'd like that, right pet?

[boy-gender]

We need to make a tag for trans people to speak amongst our own community, bc right now the trans tags fucking suck. Theyre too full of pornbots advertising (stolen) images of women with links that will infect your computer with viruses you cant even dream of. I'm not talking about the users who just happen to post hole btw, I mean the flood of unmanned bots.

And they all crosstag shit that has nothing to do with being trans. No matter what tag you go in- trans pride, trans positivity, ftm, mtf, transmasc, transfem, nonbinary- it's all flooded with spam.

I think I'm gonna start using a new tag, and I hope y'all will join me so it makes it easier for us to all find each other and read real input from living people, not just bots.

Maybe #transblr? The tag doesn't seem to be commonly in use, with the latest post being several months old at this point. It's also broad enough to encompass any trans, nonbinary, or gnc folk who might want to use it. And, best of all, I don't see any spam bots.

Come join me in making #transblr the new community hub! I'll be appending it to all my old posts, and also using it on all trans-related posts from now on.