#felt so drained

[bigfatbreak]

Birds of a Feather previous / next

[ribbononline]

Follow up to Shauna, future design for Serena :] She runs a boutique along with Calem- though she's most well known for her battling skills

[lizards0up]

[tinrange]

Buas episode is genuinely suffocating, an ode to the smoke that surrounds him day to day. Everything he does is a competition for favor, every slow scene of just him is not only lonely but an anxious waiting for when he no longer has to sit with himself. Hes always online and always performing and always stressed, the episode never once lets up. Even the happy moments are a small, relieved exhale before the narrative literally chokes these relationships to death.

[funkbun]

please unleash the inspekta hecta thoughts please please

yesterday went into a bit of a frenzy over him. wait no ive been crazy over him since november somebody help.

also love your art!!

bear my hectspek blast

Anyways I'm constantly just sitting here thinking about Hector’s whole situation. Obviously he fucked up severely; that’s clear as day, we’ve all played the game we know this, but I just like thinking about his life before godhood/his early years as Inspekta and how it all lead up to Everything and just, wuugh goddddd…

Like think about The Drain for a moment. In the game, it’s “located” between The Grove (this super important, mystical place where you can Literally Go Talk To Gods) and the Earth (you know this place). Whenever it’s mentioned, it’s just used as a negative euphemism, a place of nothing good. But it is still a place, people /live/ there, all the bizzyboys you see are /from/ there. And apparently it’s just hell, based on what we can infer about it.

And there’s something about how the Bizzyboys (INCLUDING HECTOR, ESPECIALLY HECTOR, THE FOUNDER OF THE BIZZYBOYS) are a bunch of lonely people trying to make a name for themselves, trying to find purpose in their lives, find something out of nothing. Even if they’re all from Literal Hell, they still tried finding a life outside of that. And Hector made them feel special, important, and loved and cared for and just….. auuugggghhhhhh I like to think that he really did do that. That he really did try his hardest and attempt to make their lives better for all of em. He didn’t want anyone else to go through what he’s been going through in all his loneliness and fears……….

I (personally) don't subscribe to the whole “Hector/Inspekta was ALWAYS evil and ALWAYS wanted to take over The Grove” idea, since I (personally) think that’s a pretty uninteresting way to view his character (personally). I think he truly wanted to make the world a better place, that he wanted to use what he had to help people and also change the way The Drain/Drainfolk are viewed to the rest of the world. His main fault comes with how he just didn’t know how to be vulnerable about his feelings and fears, especially going into godhood.

He probably thought that becoming a god would solve all his issues, but instead he just let his own destructive tendencies to both himself and others fester inside him for 33 years. I feel like King being elected as the new god right after his own ascension was sort of the breaking point there. Bauhauzzo mentions that it’s unusual for a new god to be elected right after another. To me, Inspekta probably interrupted that as the people of The Grove already grew tired of him and are ready for a new, more interesting god. Bro’s jealous! Bro’s pissed off! Bro’s scared! Bro’s insecure! It’s all pretty obvious in this line right here:

You already know about that final fight with him, the ultimate crash out, he’s going through it all so fuckin badly, fucked up evil creature experiences remorse, he realizes everything he’s done and is about to do, he’s surprised that people Actually care about him, they dont want to see him like this, they want him to understand everything.

Hector’s back, wuagh. And now what is he gonna do after everything? What’s his plan, his goal, how is he gonna live out the rest of his life? It’s absolutely warrented, obviously, but fuckin imagine trying to enter back into society knowing you almost caused an end to all of it? How you almost killed the very figures you’ve looked up to for so long, how much they’ve inspired you to become the person you wish you were, and how you could’ve put an end to all of that? And everyone’s going to remember what you’ve done! Your public perception is going to be changed forever! There’s no hiding that fact!

And connect it back to his original plan, his original goal for himself and the bizzyboys. Trying to make the world a better place for lonely people like him, and it all really just crashed and burnt. He lost everything, he really did. His life is ruined, and I feel bad for him a bit, a Bit honestly, but this is also really the most fitting punishment he deserves. He’s going to live on with the weight of everything he’s done, he’s gotta bear it allllll. Anyways I think it works well for Hector to both be super miserable, sad, and remorseful for everything he’s done and even if he tries his hardest to make it up to everyone, he understands if nobody would ever forgive him for what he’s done. AAAAAND I think he should also be a little piece of shit, still trying to make up for everything but also being unbelievably frustrated and bitter when people still refuse him to give the time of day. Like what’s the point of getting better if nobody’s going to be willing to give him the chance to grow? Obviously his anger probably isn’t warranted after everything he’s done, but I highly doubt he’s going to stop being a petty piece of shit anytime soon. He constantly flips between these two mindsets all the time in my mind.

I hope you enjoy my (mostly) Hector bomb. Hope it was comprehensible lol. Kill grandpa.

[iwaasfairy]

yeee you see im a grown woman but im also just a girl whos not made for manual fucking labor

[necrotic-nephilim]

as an apology for being gone for a month, have a uquiz i spent a week making! pls feel free to reblog with which character you got, i worked way too hard on this silly little thing. there are eight different characters you can get that are varying levels of unknown, with comic recommendations for each character <3

[dandiacal]

PULLED FROM MY DRAFTS; dated JANUARY 16th; annotations from TODAY MARCH 5th are in GREEN: i had a long drive meaning i was in perfect conditions to be locked in focused on the road my EYES and my EARS were listening to the audiobook.

thoughts:

i love gideon. she's so endearing

when harrow smiled, bleeding out of her lips... crazy enduring image in my mind. i saw someones art of her and almost got emotional because ive never seen a fanart which looks similar to me (a reportedly melancholy-looking biracial with short hair). she sometimes makes me sad, poor traumatized thing lying in a ball atop her bed, and irritated that she cant figure out her shit.

harrow in general. yes she's soooo awful in a sexual way she is and i cosign it. the one bad thing about listening to audiobooks is its very hard to pull quotes, but every time she called gideon pathetic i almsot screamed

naberius is so fuxkign funny also nobody online mentions the deranged dynamic between he and the tridentarii. what was wrong with ALL of them.. and when they swam in the pool = country club family you dont want to ever deal with

palamedes!!!!what is up with him toujours vrai

im sort of sick of dulcineas whole deal. like okay girl.... you're not compelling enough for me to be sad for you

THE PART WHEN GIDEON EMPTIES HER BPDY IF ENEGY FOR HARROW TO DRINK.... at first it was soooooo hot. then it was so awful. poor baby gideon, as dulcinea said

one (1) perfectly placed that's what she said. i also though that when harrow said something about keys and holes

whne gideon calls harrow magnificent pet names and then she says shut up or i'll start liking it

someone said this and if i find their post i'll mention it but the 8th house is so ooo protestant. down to their names silas and colum. they live in a weathered grey hut and dont i didnt finish this thought. but they dont STOP scrubbing the floorboards. with alcohol, even. theyre north virginians

[leonardalphachurch]

it makes me insane when people think south is 100% in the wrong in the set your trackers scene because

SHES DOING STEALTH NORTH. WHAT DO YOU MEAN TALK TO YOU.

just. like. why do so many people take the directors word at face value on the fact that south was the one who fucked up there. we KNOW that pfl was actively manipulating her. why would their judgement in this situation be the objective truth.

and i’ll acknowledge that the narrative itself isn’t doing her any favors. but. read between the lines.

south is DEFINITELY over confident but she’s saying that setting her trackers “takes too long”. and it sucks bc we don’t actually know what “setting your trackers” entails. north tells south the next patrol is in 20 seconds and she seems confident she’ll be gone before then. and south is good at stealth. she fucking. fully trouble in terrorist towns a guy with his friend like 6 feet away. she was above north on the leaderboard before this mission! she knows what she’s doing. if “setting your trackers” takes a few seconds and she’s only got 20 then like. yeah, maybe she’s right! maybe setting them genuinely would have taken too long and gotten her caught! it’s definitely a risk but i don’t think it’s fair to assume it’s not one that she calculated and determined to be the best course of action.

and with her asking “what’s the time” i think it’s very fair to assume that pfl is asking them to work as quickly as possible with these things. if she had taken her time would she have gotten admonished for that? is that why north was below her in the first place? “taking risks” seems to be incredibly rewarded by pfl. or at least, they are as long as you’re the right person. they are as long as they pay off.

[da-janela-lateral]

NPD Japhet. Like if you agree.

[emaiiyaru]

dusts off ask box

it was just genshin chars in wonderland roles, there isn't really any lore to it outside of the disney movie that i was following

i don't really follow kpop groups but i do like Twice and BTS songs

i can't believe we're getting three generations of women into genshin impact

it's pretty cool that you can share your interests with your family honestly

thanks i really don't draw them as much as i'd like to

i was more worried about my proportions back then but i'm glad to hear that my old art is still holding up

thank you, i've really been beating myself up lately

what the heck!! that's insane.. genuinely thank you for supporting me for so long

[cvntroach5000]

respectfully this reply is ass

[l0ganberry]

@violeta-2098 Here you go.

The one on the left is him without legs.

And the one on the right is with him having legs.

I thought it would be fun to do both since I believe both would be different.

[ohimsummer]

you return home exhausted in every sense of the word. it feels like your brain is spoiled milk, sloshing around in your skull and melting straight out your ears; only twenty minutes into your shift and already the need to go home, cry, and rot through the bedsheets was overwhelming. the feeling came out of nowhere, or maybe you’ve just been ignoring it. either way, you’re far past drained—‘wrung bone-dry’ might be a better description for it.

boyfriend! suguru is no stranger to your feelings. there are days when he wants to swaddle up in sheets and detach from the rest of the world, too. just disappear and take a break, de-stress and replenish his body before he takes it out on someone else. so he uses a few sick days to be off work with you, because he doesn’t want his dear sweetheart to suffer alone.

getting to stay home the next two afternoons has already begun improving your mood. there’s no ‘get ready for work’ reminder lingering in the back of your mind, building anxiety as you count down the hours until you have to toss on your uniform and head off to work. the dread of having to interact with people for half a day doesn’t weigh down your shoulders. it’s a welcome breath of fresh air.

suguru keeps you company all day, reassuring you that he doesn’t feel forced into staying by your side. he’s glad to do what you want to do, even if it’s just sitting in bed all day and watching video essays or gameplay videos or whatever catches your attention in the suggested bar. he hums along to whatever songs you wanna fill the room with, fingers tapping your hips along to the beat. he watches you put on a horror movie, knows you’re going to be scared but he lets you hide your face in his hands and peek through his fingers anyway. kisses your cheek before he heads for the kitchen to fetch you the pineapples and strawberries you start craving. you hold a slice of fruit up to his lips, and suguru’s familiar grin soothes your nerves. it feels like floating in a pool, like the stiffness in your limbs is vacating; you feel lighter. suguru’s loving arms pull you closer into a comforting embrace, and sinking into the warmth of his body, engulfed by his scent, feels natural. just being around him has lessened that aching feeling of wanting to decay.

[bakathief]

Mood.

I feel like chatting about DC might lift my mood so if you have opinions on certain cases, movies or fanons feel free to hit me up or leave something in my inbox. Can‘t say when I‘ll get back to replying but I‘m always happy to gush about DC or KaiShin. ✌️

[coriander-candlesticks]

Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?

Apollo: no

Me: should I plan to work from home?

Apollo: no

Me: ...

Apollo:

Me: migraine?

Apollo: migraine.