#felt like i was fucking hallucinating

[lesbian-cowpoke]

Barbara who wants so badly for Cass to be happy, but not realizing her way of becoming happy is different for Cass

She thinks being a "normal" teenager and doing "normal" teen things will make Cass happy, because they made herself happy

But they dont

Barbara who just wants Cass to be happy and doesn't know how to do so

[itsalwaysdark]

watching a youtuber talking abt a horror movie and itis so obvious when somebody has only talked to mental health professionals for like. depression or anxiety* . bc shes sitting here like Woah i dont understand this guys like engaged to a therapist why doesnt he understand that someone being mentally ill doesnt mean theyre an evil scary person... I am sorry to say this but even being a mental health professional doesnt mean you dont think mentally ill ppl r evil and scary and gross

*this is an assumption on my part bc this yter has never talked about having anything other than those afaik Obv its her right not to just in my experience and the experience of other ppl ive spoken to . it seems like if you have pretty much anything other than those and talk to a therapist you would not have this idea that mental health professionals are like. inherently understanding and whathaveyou

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

[my-mind-is-afk-rn]

People sleep on olfactory hallucinations cause they're not as "big" or "scary" as visual or auditory hallucinations. Like, everyone knows those two, but imagine you're about to get to sleep finally after a long day and you're really tired and then you suddenly start smelling burning? Or maybe gas? So you jump out of bed and frantically search the house, making sure the oven is off, making sure your pets are okay, checking the walls and floors and every corner looking for any hint of anything, smelling for gas leaks, smelling for fire, looking for smoke or light where there shouldn't be, wondering if maybe that nail you put in the wall the other day actually punctured something important and you didn't notice, and the whole time, you know you suffer from olfactory hallucinations. You know you smell things that aren't there all the time. And you know that there's no way that you can tell if it's real or not. You never know if the smell is really there. And everyone else is asleep. And it's better just to check. Just in case it's really real this time.

[things-to-tell-my-therapist]

😐

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

I have to admit I'm still not very happy with the time jump/story shift as it pertains to Barry (the character). With one episode left I think I need to give up hope on ever getting a satisfying look into his childhood - learning about what happened to his family, the details of what Fuches meant when he referred to "raising [Barry] like a son," and specifically what must be incredibly complex and interesting stuff about his dad considering the somewhat contradictory facts that Barry a) has clear daddy issues and said he "never had a good male role model" and b) decided to name his son after his dad. You're telling me we set all that up and we're not actually going to expand on any of it? cool. cool

And I am just . . . not that interested in his motivations as a religious family man or whatever. There are so many aspects of this character I want to see explored, and I just don't care enough about this new stuff that was introduced for him. Like yeah, I understand the point of it - on the surface he's trying to protect his family but what he really wants is to protect the facade he's built for himself. I get it, I find it vaguely intriguing, and it makes sense for his character, but imo it's not AT ALL the most interesting thing they could be doing with him, and it's worse because it's most likely coming at the cost of not exploring the things I've wanted them to explore since season 1.

[happyvalkyrieofdoom]

i believe this fucker is visiting me at night since yesterday

[lesbicastagna]

FUCK MY LIFE ACTUALLY

[one-winged-dreams]

Of course I descend into psychosis when I can't sleep :)

[rae-nee-dai]

The greatest thing happened the other day. So, a few years ago, I binged all of Matpat's fnaf videos at home on my living room TV. My dad would get bored sometimes and watch them with me. ig someone was wearing a freddy onesie to work, and my dad ig point it out to his coworkers. Everyone is apparently looking at him super confused, and he tries to explain it, and no one is getting it until his boss walks up and agrees with him. Everyone thought my dad was losing it over some brightly colored animatronics, and I am just super surprised that he actually paid attention to it and remembered. I did find him watching Matpat on his phone the other day and was caught so off guard ngl. Anyway, I've created a monster because now he is outting my fnaf phase to everyone

[idiotsdayparade]

i miss my cat so fucking bad i feel like i'm going crazy

[multishipper001]

Yesterday I got home by car. Through the entire ride, I held onto my bag, chanting that I need to bring it inside.

I got home, went to toilet after putting my bag inside my room. When I walked in again, it wasn't fucking there. I ran around the house, checking every place I've gone since I stepped inside the house but couldn't find it anywhere. I was starting to question my own sanity... When my dad asked "did you even bring it inside? Go check the car".

I went to the hall, put my shoes on and checked outside - nothing. At this point I decided to just accept that my bag just vanished into air and I'll never fucking find it again. I walked inside, defeated, took off my shoes... Then, before the cabinet at the hall, literally two steps away from the door...

I saw my fucking bag. It was there the entire time.

I walked past it multiple times, and didn't notice. When did I get it inside? Why did I have the "memory" of bringing it inside my room? Guess I'll never know.

But believe me when I tell you how fucking embarrassing it was to tell my parents that the bag I was searching for for half an hour was in the most obvious and clearly visible space you could think of.

This post made me consider that maybe, just MaYBe I have adhd and I probably should get it checked.

(how is this happening anyway? Do you just walk up to the doctors & say "yo I think I have this mental illness pls check it out boys" and it's done or what)

ok so i do have adhd but i feel as though this somehow transcends it. I just made a cup of tea 10 minutes ago. Im in a very small room. It has disappeared. I didnt leave the room. It just escaped. It is gone. It never was. Wheres my tea. It couldnt have gone anywhere and yet it has. Did i drink it and eat the cup and forget? Where is my tea. I miss her. This is fucked

[compassmili]

Health issues are getting bad again -_-

[zero-way-out]

Sleep deprivation is a drug for 19 year old college students who live on campus and are too worried about getting thrown out of the dorms for smoking weed

(its me i was the student using sleep deprivation as a drug)

whoever said all-nighters are exhausting is a liar i'm doing great. i've never felt better in my entire life, the birds are chirping as they welcome me into the gates of morningdom

[dagasinfilo]

hi how do i convince my brain that my symptoms & odd experiences that seem concerning may actually be concerning and probably not something i’m making up for fame&glory

[mashmouths]

oh "the house that built me" by miranda lambert we're really in it now