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circa 1986 at the Munsonâs trailer đŹ
#steddie comic#hurt/comfort#steddie#very tender and emotional because Iâve been in my feelings lately#steddie angst#steddie fluff#at least I think itâs fluff idk ?#steve harrington#eddie munson#gentle and soft and heartbreaking#myart#steddie fanart#mini comic#should I do more of these ?
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lobotomy commission
|| jing yuan x gn!reader || T || love sick hopefully lovers || wc: 3.9k  || ao3 ||
The Xianzhou Alliance has... never allowed lobotomies? Why are you so insistent on receiving one?
(The General, the Divine Foresight.)
minors, antis, and ageless blogs dni
a/n: oh mister general jing yuan you have me so damn heart eyes. here's a lil sweet treat!!!!
CW: fluff, friends to lovers, jing yuan being a bit silly, alcohol consumption, FLUFF, a bit of crack being taken seriously
"Lady Fu, I need to be put down." Your cheek hits the low table. You feel pathetic. It's a Thursday and you're teary-eyed after far too little wine to be in such a state. You sniffle.
"No one is 'putting you down'!" Fu Xuan huffs from the other side, patting your arm. "It's rare that youâre this mopey. Whatâs troubling you?"
"I am not 'mopey'. I need a lobotomy. Which of the commissions would handle this procedure?"
Lady Fu frowns, clicks her tongue, and sighs your name, âA lobotomy, really?
"Yes, exactly. As soon as possible, preferably.â You down the rest of your cup and restlessly flip your phone screen up.Â
"This is particularly pathetic. Stop drinking and wallowing and just tell me what's wrong."
"Fu Xuan, you will scold me." You push yourself up on the table and shake your head. "No, actually, you will fire me. You will send me to my office this very instant, force me to pack up my things, and turn in my permissions. I'll be out of a job. Then, I'll be homeless. thenâ"
"No, nuh-uh, no more dramatics!" Fu Xuan slaps a hand over your mouth. You're glad youâre seated in a private corner of the bar, as this is a rather pathetic display on both of your parts. "Please just tell me, whatâs the matter?â
Your dilemma.Â
"I like the General."
Fu Xuan frowns, expression pinched, and her hand falls heavily onto the table. "That... isnât exactly new information? Even if itâs a... questionable call of taste, the general is handsome. Occasionally charming when he isnât being an oaf on purpose. I donât think having a bit of a crush on the Divine Foresight is anything unusual. Half of the population of the Luofu holds the same opinion.
âOkay, but,â you unlock your phone, a ceramic, cat-shaped charm swinging from the vase as you wobble. âWhat if the General were to return my feelings? And he invited me for a walk and a meal tomorrow evening?â
Fu Xuan's jaw drops. "You're joking."
"I'm not,â you whine and slide your phone across the table.
...
Divine Foresight đŠ:
Are you free tomorrow evening? I know a terrace that has a splendid view of the overlook near the Cinnabar Eyeline. I would be delighted to take you to it and share a meal after,Â
Divine Foresight đŠ:
If you'll have me :3c
...
âOh... wow.â Â Fu Xuan looks shocked. Itâs hard to shock her, but she does tend to avoid divining the destiny of those she is close to (unless entirely necessary.) Her intuition regardless of mathematics and astral geometry is, however, keen. Yet her eyes are wide and she struggles to gather her words. âWhat a menace.â
âI know.â
âThe General is rarely so forward. Iâve never heard of him being so forward.â
âI know.â
âExcept, perhapsââ
âWith me?â You rub your cheeks. Theyâre warm from the wine.Â
âOnly you. Though this is particularly... telling. Iâm sure itâs sincere.â
âI would agree.â Your stomach flutters, and you swallow the feeling down.Â
Fu Xuan narrows her eyes and says your name, mouth in a thin line, "You haven't replied."
âAnd thatâs why I need the lobotomy.â You swallow. âIâm going to turn him down.â
âWHAT?!â
You need another drink.
Fu Xuan clearly does not. Her cheeks flush rosy pink as she slaps her hands on the low table. âWhy would you reject him? Even if heâs a scoundrelâ he is genuine.â
âI know, thatâs why I canât accept his... proposition.â
Despite knowing that Jing Yuan serially denies any potential suitors or daring admirers. You know that it has always been like thisâ from the time long ago when he first gained rank, to his âwithered ageâ as he self-deprecating refers to himself now. He is always kind about his rejections, youâve witnessed one or two of them, but he never even entertains the idea of romantic partnership. Youâve never heard him mention it or any desires.Â
So, for him to so bluntly ask you on a dateâ
He couldnât be more clear with his feelings.Â
âYouâre a fool.â
âNow, youâre getting it.â You pour yourself another glass of plum wine. Your shared bottle is nearly empty. âThis is why I need the lobotomy.â
Fu Xuan watches you drink your glass in a single go. Her brows are pinched and her arms are crossed. Her shoulders sag a moment later.
âI do believe I understand your reasoning, and I donât think itâs lobotomy-worthy.â
â... High praise.âÂ
â[Name].â
âAlright, alright. Iâm sorry.â You laugh behind your palm. The world feels sticky and bouncy, all at once. You crave the respite of your own bed. âI canât accept his proposition in the form of a text. I mean, Lady Fu, he's the most powerful man on the Luofu. He is renowned in all fields of battle, strategic, and social graces. Heâs kind. He probably like, kisses babies on Sundays at the markets."
"He does not."
"You never know!" You groan. "That's all to say that I won't accept an invitation to a date with this little effort put into it."
"... Because it's a text?"
"Because it's a text." You nod.
Fu Xuan pauses, then sighs.Â
âI canât decide if that makes you a fool or not.â Her hair is frizzing up with the humidity. "Perhaps you have a point, the General is old enough to know and have some decorum when going about these things."
"Maybe he's a virgin? But like, for dating."Â
"I'd have to check... certain records. Archives. To confirm or deny that."
You wilt, âHe probably isnât. Iâm being foolish.âÂ
âNo, youâre not.â Fu Xuan smooths a hand over your cheek with a frown.Â
"Lady Fu," you cry and wish you were at home. In bed. Maybe you should block his number. "You're supposed to say, 'You absolutely are, my most beloved junior, I will schedule your lobotomy andââ"
"No more talk of lobotomies, please."
"Fine, fine." you sigh and finish off your final cup as Lady Fu does as well. "Do you think I'm nuts for turning him down?"
"... No, I don't." Fu Xuan looks shy for a moment. A lot more human than her lofty station implies. "I don't doubt that... Jing Yuan has feelings for you. I see how he looks at you. But he ought to romance you a bit. A text is low effort. You should reply regardless though."
"I'm going to, I just needed some courage. And moral support." You give her a soft smile and tap back into your messages. Fu Xuan practically crawls around the table to your side. She leans her head on your shoulders and her eyes droop. You take a heavy inhale, then exhale, attempt to focus your blurry vision and craft.
...
You:
General, though I'm flatered by your offer, I will need to decline. Though I will ackknowledge what I would imagine (and hope)) to be your genun
You:
geuine
You:
gennuie
You:
genuine
You:
feelings, I cannot accept an invitation in the form of a text message. I must be wooed.
You:
lady Fuu says "if you are capable of such things"
You:
pls don't fire her she's a good boss and so nice
You:
[picture from XX/XX/XXXX @ 2:14 AM]
...
The next morning is hell. Hell. You wished you had undergone your requested lobotomy. It certainly feels like someone has stuck metal rods into your brain, with the migraine pounding the back of your eyes. Maybe a hangover this bad is somewhat equivalent to a lobotomy. Your memory of your night prior is... cloudy, to say the least. Your tongue feels heavy in your mouth as you manage to down a glass of water and a handful of peachy-colored pills. You speed walk to the Divination Commission, shooting Fu Xuan an apologetic âsorry, running late, forgive me đ" text.Â
You mentally pat your drunk self on the back. After you sent your... rejection (ouch) to the General, you muted his messages and deleted the thread. No evidence, no way to feel awkward about it sober. And no way to dwell on it either. Besides, you hardly remember what you said to him after your last glass of wine. Itâs hazy in your memory.
It was... perhaps a foolish way to go about things. You certainly could have approached the General and talked about it, but he sometimes spoke in circles about matters of the heart. Maybe... maybe you felt too fragile to dance that dance, if it came to that. Maybe, you were a bit overwhelmed by his invitation. You know all too well that he does not let himself be pursued. He does not pursue others.Â
You feel blind-sided by the whole thing.
But that doesnât matterâ because you cleanly rejected him and your only repercussion is a hangover that youâre sure Fu Xuan is twinning.Â
And besides, itâs better that you rejected him. Heâs of such a highâ highest station. He wouldnât have time for you, surely. You... have gotten used to your entirely and completely platonic, twice-a-month lunch dates and the occasional star chess lesson (where he never lets you win but you swear you'll give him a run for his money.) But it's fine. You can let go of those things, along with your feelings for the General.
It's better this way.
You think these thoughts somewhat confidently until you arrive at the Divination Commission and find a crowd swarming the central platform under the Matrix of Prescience Ultima. Frowning, you try to weave through the edge of it to your office, where you conveniently have a few nutrition shakes stashed away that you most certainly need. Youâre already late and this hangover needs to go. You have a full docket for the day that you need to make fuller so you donât think aboutâ
You nearly stumble when you hear a rich, familiar, roll of laughter. You freeze, slowly turning to the sound. A crown of fluffy hair peaks above the small crowd, a red ribbon waving in the breeze.
Absolutely fucking not.
You duck, just in case, and try to creep below the crowd. You probably look ridiculous, but you absolutely cannot see Jing Yuan. You canât. Your poorly-thought out, hungover plan of not caring about the General does somewhat heavily rely on not seeing the man. You trip over over your own feet and barely catch yourself so as to not tumble to the ground.
Jing Yuan calls your name andÂ
You freeze before jolting to your full height a moment later. The gaggle of your coworkers part enough so that youâre able to see himâ lit so well and handsomely in the morning sun, smiling so easily with... perhaps a hint of mischief in the curve of his lips.Â
He waves with his free hand, while a massive bouquet is pillowed in the crook of his arm.
The flowers are beautifulâ off-ship exotics, clearly. The colors are all bright oranges and vibrant blues. Thinner stems are topped with bundles of white, delicate flowers that break the barrage of colors. They look fresh, like theyâd been cut this morning. Fu Xuan stands next to him, clearly hungover herself and close to popping a blood vessel. Itâs incredibly rare that the General do anything in the mornings, especially causing a commotion in the Divination Commission.Â
Jing Yuan, who is more than likely aware of this, looks entirely unbothered. Actually, he glows as he calls your name, gentle and rich, and the sound of it hits you in the chest, âThere you are.â
"Here I am." You're not. You need that lobotomy. You nod to him curtly, "General. Is there something I can help you with today?"
Fu Xuan looks like sheâs going to expire right there on the platform.Â
Jing Yuan cocks his head knowingly, âThere is, yes. I have a rather personal matter to discuss in private with you. Are you available?â
You have things on your schedule. You can make yourself appear busy, if it means not dealing with the General you canât really hide from and the beautiful bouquet in his arms. âWellââ
âTheyâre free.â Fu Xuan all but pushes you toward him. You regret covering her tab the night before. âEspecially free, since Iâll be rescheduling our weekly meeting to tomorrow.â
âIs that really necessaryâ?â You laugh and wring your hands. You feel caught in the worst way. âGeneral, will this personal discussion take much time? I am quite busy todayââ
Jing Yuan, who has been watching your exchange with Fu Xuan wordlessly, looks a bit... crestfallen. Itâs hard to tell on a man who holds himself like the General, but itâs there. A crease between his brows thatâs slight, but visible and abnormal. Maybe heâs holding the bouquet a little tighter than he probably thought. Thereâs a sheen of sweat on his temple that, if asked, he would probably blame on the heat index for the day.
Your words die in your throat as you take him in and force yourself to meet his gaze. Honeyed and sad, a bit like a kicked dog.
â... I suppose, I could arrange a proper appointment with you. Perhaps it was uncouth of me to expect such accommodations to be made for me last minute. I apologize.â You can hear his tone change. It may be imperceptible to someone else, but you notice the shift in him. Gone is the playful lilt and air of mischief, on his a veneer of niceties that you... had forgotten he loses around you.Â
Something in your chest aches.
You open your mouth to speak, but nothing comes out. Floundering. Jing Yuan adjusts his hold on the bouquetâ
âEnough of this.â Lady Fu shakes her head. She shoos a hand toward the lingering onlookers. âBack to work, now. Donât eavesdrop either. Iâll know if you do.â
(Debatable, but itâs Fu Xuanâs favorite threat.)
Once the crowd has dispersed, she turns toward you too. You needed that lobotomy, like, yesterday.Â
âI will make the necessary changes to your schedule so you can speak privately for as long as you need." She points at you, then Jing Yuan. âSort this.â
The General raises an eyebrow at her. Sheâs bold to speak in such a way to someone above her own station, but Lady Fu doesn't dare back down. She glares at him, then you, partially covering her mouth to block Jing Yuanâs view before mouthing, âFIX THIS!!!!âÂ
...
On the way to your office, you walk side by side, in silence. Youâre trying to think of the right words to say.
â... Are you sure you have time for this, General?â You ask him, softly. âI donât mean to ask as a slightâ justâ I donât want to inconvenience you is all.â
âOf course.â He replies easily. You turn down the long, quiet corridor that leads to your office. Itâs tucked away in a corner of the divination Commission, facing outward toward the Arborâs stump with tall windows providing a sunlit view. Youâre glad you donât have to look at him as you unlock the door with a thick-looking key. âThis is a rather pertinent, time-sensitive matter weâre discussing. My own schedule is not consequential in this case. Haste, moreso.â
You laugh under your breath.
âGreat Lan, Qingzu is going to kill me.â You sigh before pushing the door open with a shake of your head. Perhaps a smile curls on your lips. Whoâs to say. âDid you at least not leave a pile of paperwork for her to delegate in your stead?â
âAnd what, diminish the time I have for my afternoon nap with busy work?â Jing Yuan laughs. The sound fills you from the bottom up and you want to choke on it. You tear your gaze away from him. âSuch a thing would be unhealthy, you know. Iâm an old man.â
âAn old man who needs an ample amount of beauty sleep.â You tease him, itâs easy to. You speak before you even have a chance to think about the warm nature of your words. The meaning behind the bouquet in his arms that he still hasnât given to you.Â
Why Jing Yuan is in your office at all.Â
â... If this is about my texts my last nightââ
âIt is, partially.â Jing Yuan hums. âIâm afraid Iâve slighted you, and itâs of the utmost importance I correct my transgression.â
 âThatâsâ Thatâs not necessary, General.â Your cheeks burn.Â
âIt is. Entirely, in fact. Stating my intentions with you over text messages was... a poor choice on my part. I must apologize appropriately, donât you think?Â
âI meanâ thatâsââ Your words flounder in your mouth. âKind of you.âÂ
It is kind of him. He certainly doesnât need to be here, in your cramped office, with a bouquet that costs close to what you make in a day of work. He doesnât need to be showing a sincere, lovesick smile as he speaks. Heâs showing you a card heâs kept close to his chest. One you, perhaps, guessed he had, but hadnât intended to ever see.
He presents you with the bouquet, âYou said you must be wooed, and I am here to begin that process explicitly.â
"... I said what?" Youâre going to burst into flames.Â
âI thought you may not recall your exact words. Did you and Lady Fu have a fun night together?â Jing Yuan chuckles, and you flush so hot you feel almost faint. âYou said that I must, and I quote, âwoo youâ.âÂ
He smiles at you, the glint in his eye a bit more mischievous. More knowing. Heâs toying with you.Â
âIâ noâ Iâm so sorry, General.â You cover your face with your hands and back into your desk. âForget I said that. Please forget I said anything.â
âPlease, use my name.â He corrects, gently. âIâd prefer not to forget. You have a point, I should have stated my intentions clearly and to you in person.â
You peek at him between your fingers. He still holds the bouquet out to you, like heâs trying to lure a cagey cat in for a pet rather than make a confession. You feel out of sorts. Off kilter. That saidâ it is nice to hear him in person. Your heart has been oscillating between fluttering and pounding.Â
Jing Yuan tilts his head sweetly at you. You take the bouquet from him and examine it closer. Thereâs yellow and lilac pollen dusted on the filaments, fresh and fragrant.Â
âJing Yuan, then.â You reply to him, softly. Itâs hardly the first time youâve called him by his name, rather than a title, but he preens when you speak regardless. â... So, you intend to woo me then?â
âEntirely.â Jing Yuan hums to himself, looking quite proud. âI do fully recant my offer I sent previously. Though I would be happy to lounge with you in the terraces and see some lovely views, Iâve secured a reservation for this evening at a lovely restaurant in the Exalting Sanctum, if you would accompany me.âÂ
Your stomach flips pleasantly. You canât help the little smile thatâs twitching over your lips. You take care to not crush the bouquet in your arms, despite the urge to squeeze it to your chest, just to tamp down the thumping of your heart. Stroking your thumb over the silken petal of lush, round-petaled bloom, you let yourself smile.Â
You can practically hear Jing Yuan holding his breath. His eyes look hopeful and young.Â
âI accept,â you reply. âConsider me wooed.â
âIt was that easy?â Jing Yuanâs voice takes that air of smugness that you know is a farce but you still canât help but to approach him and bat your hands at his chest.
âI already like you, you know,â You laugh. âI was more offended that you wouldnât face me and tell me your intentions. I hardly know the General to be a coward. I was a bit slighted.â
Jing Yuan catches your wrists in one of his hands and gently holds them against your sternum. His fingers lay over the thump of your heart; you wonder if he can feel it. You feel pleasantly woozy when you meet his eyes and all their intensity. Intention.Â
âI apologize.â He speaks smoothly, easily. Perhaps ducking his head down to be closer to your own. âItâs quite difficult to proposition someone so beautiful and kind.â
âAh, so the General was hiding behind a screen, then?â You laugh over the heat rising in your cheeks. âIâve never known you to be a coward.â
Jing Yuan hums, and you pop up on the corner of your desk. Heâs close enough to feel the heat of him, and see the threading of his uniform and the glitter woven into the rich fabrics.
âHm, I wouldnât say it has anything to do with cowardice.â Jing Yuan shakes his head. His breath is warm over your cheeks. âI planned to tell you my intentions of courting you at the Terraces, once you accepted. I, perhaps, was too presumptuous in expecting you to assume beyond my initial ask. I should have been more clear.â
You stifle a laugh and flex your hands, still held in his firm, but kind grip.Â
âJing Yuan, if you continue to speak to me so directly, Iâll demand you take me out now and not this evening.â
âIs that so?â
âEntirely.â You struggle to maintain eye contact and not let your gaze drift down to his lips. âIâm not used to you speaking so clearly, only your riddles.â
âWhat riddles?â He tilts his head, curly, a sweet smile on his face that is far too mischievous for who he is expected to be.
âOh, you knowââ
âDo I?â Jing Yuan asks. He steps between your thighs, the width of him forcing your legs wider. As if your flush could be any more intense. âYou must tell me more over lunch. Iâll send a message to Lady Fu and clear your schedule?â
â... She did say to take as long as we need to sort this,â You soften, a bit intimated, if only for a moment. âIs this sorted?â
Jing Yuan hums, âYou did say you were wooed. Iâd consider that fairly sorted.â
âAnd youâll have me?â You ask him, daring to slide your arms over his shoulders. The contact bubbles up months of tension over Star Chess boards (during games that, perhaps, were not entirely platonic).Â
âIâd be honored.â Jing Yuanâs voice sounds sweet, more quiet than youâve heard before, like itâs just for you to hear.Â
Thereâs an edge to it all stillâ something raw and new that will need to be tempered. That is the nature of immortality and the relationships and partnerships that come with it. Complexes develop, heal, and grow differently within the self. Youâve already gamed out a few of Jing Yuanâs (a cursed Master who he will only reference in melancholy, unrequited love he was too young for, so many tragedies that he somehow manages to give himself for not preventing). He is perceptive. Youâre sure he has put together some of yours as well.Â
For now, thereâs a promise of good things. Thereâs the feel of him pressing his lips to yours, gentle but unyielding, strung with a mutual yearning that, in retrospect, wouldâve been a shame to crush and hide away. Thereâs the warmth of him so close, and closer still when you drag him closer by the nape of his neck.
You can feel his grin against your lips, and you mirror it easily.
No riddles, only a fragrant bouquet and intention.Â
#lore writes#jing yuan x reader#jing yuan x you#jing yuan reader insert#hsr x reader#im very in love with him#he is so husband#feeling very soft and yearning about him lately AAAAH#enjoy :''^)
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#not bellies#ate kinda fast and rolled my shirt up to look at my food baby and I think my tummy is a little fatter#just from like eating well and not getting a lot of exercise lately#and like.... I like it. I like my tummy. Might be one of my favorite parts of myself physically#would I think that if I didn't have a bunch of tummy kinks? probably not. But I do so I'll leverage them for body positivity#my belly looks and feels great and so does yours#a little extra chub means you're taking care of yourself and a LOT of extra chub means you're REALLY caring for yourself#so be proud of that because you deserve to be cared for and a little soft and very loved
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#byler#byler fanart#bylerweek2023#i've been listening to a lot of Beach Boys lately so yeah#also I recently learned how to surf and let me tell you it's not easy#also been feeling very soft the past few days with all the amazing art and writing being posted#so you can have a little smooch as a treat#if you realize now mike has freckles like he rightfully should is bc 2 days later i realized i uploaded the wrong image lmao#fanart
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#american masc rook's delivery of 'then why did you leave?' is so fucking good. felt that right down to my toes.#I personally find shathann much more sympathetic than leandra hawke because I do think she really is doing the very best she knew how#with the extremely limited resources and background she'd been given. learning a bit too late that raising a kid isn't an academic debate#where like. I think leandra frequently fails to do parenting stuff just as much because it's easier/more comfortable for her to not do it#and I find sheer emotional laziness being allowed to do that kind of harm just. infuriating!!!!!! maddening!!!#but I think this is uh. one of those that's probably going to depend on your own personal history and experiences big time haha.#no wrong way to feel about it just personal tender spots#caterina just fucking sucks tho she keeps burning these kids up basically for financial reasons lmao#(it's more complicated than that and I think she probably also *did* genuinely fear for their survival if she let them be 'soft'#I mean. how couldn't she be afraid after all that shit. but that does not make it better or less fucked up what she did. and keeps doing)#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#shathann#every time taash calls shathann 'tama' I curl up in physical pain for a while before I can be functional again
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IT'S KAWOSHIN DAY!!! As well as the last day of Kawoshin Week :') It's been such a blast, gonna miss it when it's over
Kawoshin Week Day 7: Cuddling/domestic fluff! + Sleepover and Spinoffs (again)! Based on the Campus Apocalypse sleepover chapter âșïž
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An eye for a life, unquestionably worth it (Patreon)
#Doodles#ISaT#Siffrin#Bonnie#Blood#It's been *checks watch* nine months??? since I last drew an empty eye socket???#Not even ZEX got that treatment how could this be :0 It's such a Look#I guess it's only been a couple months since I posted Diaryfic!Edgar but that was drawn a while ago - Sif is new and fresh blood <3#I'm sure they're stoked about it lol sorry Sif#That really was my entire motivation I just wanted to draw eye horror and blood on him lol poor Sif#But also I got to practice Bonnie :D Again I'm sure they're stoked about the situation#Gosh that'd be such a scary situation for a kid :'0 And feeling guilty about it weh </3#Their name being called and it's scary and sad even tho Sif's just trying to comfort! Weh#If I thought about it in a Bit less of an angst mood (lol) I imagine the other adults would flock to Sif both to protect/help him#But also to keep him out of Bonnie's line of sight - the less time spent looking the less traumatic hopefully :(#There's something Very about Sif getting blood - his own or anyone's really - on his cloak :0#Something he's had for a long long time and Something Happens - it's just Very I dunno of what but Very#Really fun to draw the black and white blood splatter âȘ Shaped character design paired with soft details ah <3#I've been really into that hazy fuzzy eye style lately too it's really fun to ''tone'' the eye rather than ''line'' it#It's not something I think about that much so I don't do it often! But it's quite effective :D
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OC interview tag
(answer the questions for your OC as if your character were answering them)
I got tagged by @mogruith. I love being included, thank you for including me and letting me write in a character voice.
Enclave time.
== For the sake of simplicity, the interview is taking place in her preferred Tongue: High Drow. ==
Are you named after anyone?
"No. Not to my knowledge," She's quiet, though after a few seconds, she snorts and says, "Honestly, if my mother had it her way, I probably would not have been named at all. But alas. To the misfortune of everyone involved, I sit before you today all the same."
When was the last time you cried?
She does not look like she has any interest in answering this question, and in fact looks a little baffled that you asked her?
"Mm. No."
Do you have kids?
"Well, I suppose that depends! Are we limiting this to children who are alive, or will dead ones suffice in consideration?" Despite her tone, she does seem a little unsure as to whether people consider their dead children as still being... their children, and so it is clarified to her that yes, she should consider her dead children as part of this. She gives a long exhale, as though that's something rather tedious to be doing, but considers it all the same, "Ah. Well. I have had four, however none of them made it out of the underdark. Put bluntly, only one really survived until adulthood..."
She trails off, looking a little troubled.
Worth mentioning, of course, this is not considering the adopted child she has that she does not consider her child despite the author absolutely considering him her child
Do you use sarcasm a lot?
With the flattest expression imaginable, "No."
This... seems to be a joke? It's a little hard to tell.
She pours more wine into her goblet.
What's the first thing you notice about people?
"How attached they are to their weapons," She doesn't look up as she says this. It's the first question she seems to answer without needing to put much thought into it, "And how visible those weapons are, I suppose. It does not matter how kind you are when your hand sits next to your blade for most of the conversation," Enclave looks off to the side. Her own blade remains unseen, however is undeniably within reach, "I suppose I cannot fault anyone for being suspicious, though. Lest I be a hypocrite within the framework of my own standards."
Scary stories or happy endings?
"I am not really a .... story... person..." She looks a little apprehensive. Unlike the other questions she'd skipped over, she does offer this some amount of consideration, rolling the goblet between her fingers as she does, "If I had to make a choice, I would still say neither. I prefer stories grounded in reality, and reality tends neither be so kind or straightforward in the tone of it's ending."
Then, she mutters to herself, "Besides. There is nothing more irritating than a bard who dramatizes for the sake of performance."
Any special talents?
"I have many. I have none I am willing to share."
Where were you born?
"The Underdark. It does not matter beyond that."
Again, this is something she otherwise has no interest in expounding upon. Even when further pressed on the matter, she just offers a blank stare in return.
Do you have any pets?
"What? No. With the kind of life I lead, why would I?" Her lips thin in disdain and she rubs her eyes.
She does not consider the stray cat she feeds when she's in town as being her pet, even if everyone else around her absolutely would.
What sort of sports do you play?
"... I have never been the sort particularly inclined towards sport, and was fortunate enough to have the luxury to avoid those," Her idea of sports being largely influenced by her time within the outskirts of drow nobility and the bloodsports they indulged in, she seems rather concerned with the question. Even after clarification that the question probably means less "blood" and more "ball", she only offers;
"Ah.." and, "I suppose I prefer to rest when I have the chance. I spend too much time on my feet as it stands."
The pun seems intentional, though her expression does not break when she says it.
How tall are you?
".... 5'0"
What was your favourite academic subject?
"...." She momentarily looks like she's going to need further clarification on this. But she does not ask for that clarification.
"History. Not what was taught, but what was true," She traces the rim of her glass, her gaze far-off, and rather distracted seeming, "... I suppose if you wanted a straightforward answer, I was always inclined towards the arcane. A shame, really. Being so invested in the arcane continues to reflect poorly on my character."
What she means by this, we are unsure.
What is your dream job?
"Anything besides what I'm fucking doing now," She says, switching to common to answer that. Not unlike earlier, though her expression doesn't change, this also seems to be a joke. She grabs her head, rolls her eyes, and with less venom to her tone eventually finishes by saying, "... I did quite like being a teacher. I would love to do so again one day, under kinder circumstances."
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Tagging @bluejeanne & @mmigrainee, if you want to talk about your oc's. And anyone else that wants to be included.
#original character#Tag Game#Enclave#I didn't feel like including this in the question itself but Enclave does actually have a soft spot for kids - So the answer to the#'do you play sports' question is 'Was a child bold enough to kick a ball at her' and if so the answer is yea#Enclave as an uncomfortable hardass despite that#also not something I got into but want to talk about one day; drow culture means she didn't actually have the chance to grow very attached#to her own children#HOW EV ER#She raised her siblings#She was the oldest too#It adds a very odd dynamic to her relationships with her family where in she did more to raise Nymryn then her own biological kids#sorry this is late I spent most of today asleep and in recovery mode#Deconstruction
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Maybe controversial, but on posts about being dumb where girls are like saying âbut Iâm actually smart.â Like tbh, I donât really believe them. Like if youâre smart why does feeling dumb feel so good or hot or whatever to you then? I kinda feel like itâs having an excuse to let go of trying as much as you would be when youâre saying your smart. If youâre like really actually smart, I donât feel like a break from âbeing smartâ would be such a relief or like as appealing.
#if youâre on my blog much may have noticed Iâm just having a lot of feelings about this more lately#like itâs okay to not be smart#you can be happier#and like I feel like I sometimes get people who try to call me smart#like thereâs diff skill sets#I think Iâm still pretty good at soft skills and like makeup stuff#but like I regularly canât get left and right right or name all the months and so on for lots of things#idk. I feel like dumb doesnât mean youâre horrible at everything#like you still have value and can make a positive impact but just in different ways#Iâm a soo much happier when at work Iâm more focused on being someone others really like to work w than like being efficient at my job#and honestly seems like people prefer that#I have too many thoughts about at this lately#really hoping throughing them into the intenrwbt even if itâs more in tags gets out of my head more#personal#also very much not at a 100 notes but for a text post from me itâs impressive soâŠ#100+#little thoughts
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god i just imagined,, getting all cozy with moon on a chilly day in autumn, and watching over the garden wall. i think heâd really like it
#idk why iâm so fucking obsessed with specifically moon lately#auuugghhhhh#i am feeling very soft rn#contrast to my stress of having to go to work in a few hours ahahah
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Do you think weâre best friends in every universe?
#Iâm just really soft about their friendship lately#and Iâm really close with my best friend irl so every close friendship makes me soooooo soft#especially the ones like this#where one is very guarded about their feelings#and one wears their heart on their sleeve#ds9#deep space 9#deep space nine#ari watches ds9#julian bashir#miles o'brien#best friends of all time
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daydreaming about sunday past when i was feeling really little and my mommy let me practically fall asleep in her lap while she held me à«ź ˶Ž á”Ë Ë¶á she was rubbing my back and petting my hair and calling me her cute little girl and there are pink hearts floating around my head just remembering it đđđ
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i think shtola is actually a bit annoyed with cori during her pining years. and i think she thinks itâs kind of undignified to be in love at all and yearning for someone. itâs why she denies it even though everyone can tell. i think this is balanced by her confidence though that if cori hadnât been in The Gauntlet for the past 3 years they would already be together
#and i do think shtola is v smug about it laterâŠi feel like i write it this way when im not terrorizing cori emotionally#but i do think she feels very. surely i am better than these boys cori is kissing.#(itâs only two boys)#but also you do have to bend to the relationship a bit you know?? cori is very soft and so shtola is soft with her#and if anyone has something to SAY they better be ready for her to do what she did to thancred in shb#anyway i have to get dressed im gonna be LATE#i need a text post tag#WAIT this is also why in affair au she wonât say anything to cori bc sheâs like ive already lowered myself to being a secret i wonât admit#to feelings first!!!#anyway ahdjdk bye
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Me and my freaking ship charts for my freaky mind
#I'm gonna rant about them in the tags a lil bit so bear with me#I really like the idea of them taking turns âspooningâ each other (or just one laying on top of the other idk)#bc they listen to each others' heartbeats since Lisa's dying lmao#and idk where losa being taller came from#but her canon height says she's 5'11 and i believe it honestly#and kind of the same thing with her being trans; i just think it's a neat character study#especially since we dont know anything about her past or who she was before the game's events#and i didnt rly know how to mark Jean's flirtiness levels because Jean flirtation is VERY different from Lisa flirtation#hers is much more unintentional or very charming like a kiss to the back of Lisa's hand or dancing her around her office when it's late#and she speaks formally too which adds to the unintentional rizz#Lisa cant help but fall for her fr#and i think they are the embodiment of the âfell first fell harderâ trope#Lisa falls first and she's content to watch Jean from afar bc she knows how important her job and Mond are to her#and then Jean finally catches up tripping falling bleeding all over ripping her heart out to show Lisa how it beats for her#altho i think it was hard for her to come to terms with it especially since she doesnt want her personal life to interfere with work#so she has to find the balance first#and Jean also knows that being flirty is just who Lisa is and that they are both extremely loyal to each other#but Lisa gets pushed a lot probably when other women start hitting on Jean a little too much#and they're both equally overprotective of each other especially out on dangerous missions#but Lisa feels like she HAS to protect Jean more bc of her importance to the safety of Mond#this is just me rambling tho im literally so in love with them bc theyre just so soft and the wives ever#i am the most sane jeanlisa shipper actually#ty for coming to my ted talk#jean gunnhildr#lisa mici#jeanlisa#genshin impact#ship chart#character art is mine
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Utterly Defeated (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#<Sticking to my tag so they're all together â„#Dexter Favin#Max Vyer#But really that's ZEX in there! What's left of him anyway ;;#ZEX#Hhhhhhh it was so goooood and saaaaad <3 <3#Helix is a tragedy - on repeat in my mind ad infinitum#I made most of these upon initially reading - and then I had to sit on them through all of October!! Can you imagine the impatience??#I've been absolutely chomping at the bit for these hhhhh feelings!!! So many!!! Max's eyes and ZEX being behind his single remaining ;;#Dex wanting him to be safe and knowing he used to and now he can't offer it anymore I jifdsahfdjsaf#Have I mentioned I love them lately I love them <3 <3 All of them! Dex and Max and ZEX! And DAX I'm sure ZEX misses him so badly#In a way it was good that I had a bit more time to set it down and come back - I reread it very recently hehe <3#I still get teary at some scenes ah </3 It's so beautifully sad#But it also gave me some time to finish ZEX starting to shape the word ''Max'' and then back off it ahhhh it hurts!!#The rest were at least all lined at the time - came back in to tone some recently but they were all ''finished'' October 1st ah#Especially of Dex waking ZEX to call him by his title hhh they both just want peace so badly but it looks so different to both of them#Lingering on his scar and then carding through his hair <3 Comfort and softness and it's all not enough#His scar is quite fun to draw as well ah - scars tend to be like that haha âȘ The stitches and discolouration give it a unique look!#And the way his hair pulls back from it ah#I had a lot of fun with his hair hiding his bandaged eye as well - just barely peeking out always just enough of a reminder#And all his lying-down poses - his hair is fun to pose like that as well#One of the original Landel doodles of ZEX talking about what Hell would look like for a VUX really struck me as well#Dex can't help him in so many ways ehn </3 He wants to! But he wants Max and he just can't have him anymore#Hhhh it was such a good read <3 <3 <3 Thank you again to Zarla it really made and still makes me happy to read it ahhh â„âȘ#Now that I've (finally!) gotten my thoughts out I can read the other!! Yay!!
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